#and pansexual because those presentations only attract me when the person behind them is fucking with gender roles

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the more I’m with other queer ppl irl the more I realize that I’m not attracted to “men” “women” or “non-binary” as categories but like… just genderfuckery. like I’m generally never attracted to super feminine women or super masculine men, but the second a woman is butch? the second a guy is femme? the second a non-binary person just says “fuck it” to gender norms? oh boy 😭

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Hi Ralph! I’ve been thinking a lot lately about Harry, and the way he interacts with the world. There was the guardian interview and his weird statement about dilution (which I agree with your thoughts on so I won’t harp on about here). In the vein of weird interview comments Harry has made in interviews, one I also think about a lot came out in 2017-ish after Miley Cyrus came out. I can’t remember the exact quote, but I do remember the interviewer asked him, basically, what he thought of Miley’s coming out, and if he felt like he as a person in the public eye had any duty to publicly declare his sexuality too, knowing what it would mean to a lot of his fans who are struggling with their own sexualities, and Harry said “I think that’s a weird thing to expect of someone else, and everyone should just be who they want to be.” I don’t necessarily disagree with the content of his comment - you don’t owe anything to anybody when it comes to your sexuality - but I feel a little weird about the message behind the comment which I took to be “just let me sing and make music and stop asking me for anything else.” I think a large part of the reason I extrapolated that from his comment (and I do realize I was reading into it) has been his general reluctance over the years to get involved with any sort of political movement. The only two real exception I can think of are (1) LGBTQ rights kind of, although to be honest some of this seems performative to me, and (2) his weird and sort of short lived foray into BLM with the march he joined and his Instagram post. That, combined with his decision to move forward with his tour and the general outrage and feeling that Harry is “disconnected” from his fans, that he is “money hungry” that he is “using his fans” etc. has had me thinking. I disagree with the discourse vilifying Harry for his tour decision, and I think a lot of it is that people are angry and scared and frustrated (for valid reasons) but they are equating their rightful feelings of frustration with the situation to mean Harry failed them on a personal level, which I don’t think is true or fair. But I do think Harry is a celebrity who seems generally out of touch with what the rest of the world goes through, and worse he doesn’t actually seem to care. I feel like he withdrew so much after 1D days, and in general I do applaud that decision - I imagine he was dealing with a lot of trauma, and a retreat to as much of a private life as he could manage was probably well called for to protect his mental health. But his withdrawal has continued, and we only really see him when he has something to promote. We don’t get anything at all from him expect his music and now his movies. I don’t want this to come across as me yelling “Harry tell me about your personal life!!!” Because it’s not. I believe he should have complete privacy in that realm, if that’s what he wants. But to me, Harry cutting so much of himself off from the world has made him feel incredibly shallow and disconnected from his fan base, except when he has something to sell. And I do wholeheartedly think when you’re in the position of massive privilege that Harry is, you have a duty to be a well educated, well informed, active participant in your communities, and to throw your weight around for good. On the one hand, I do want to give him the benefit of the doubt. He came into this life he has now at 16, after leading a childhood that seemed to be fairly untouched by any real hardships. He has lived a life that is largely insulated from the way the rest of the world lives. On the other hand, he has the ability to educate himself, and not having those lived experiences personally doesn’t, I think, excuse him from learning about them and working to help who and where he can. I don’t think I really have a question here, I guess I’m just interested in your thoughts. I value your input, and your answers always push me to think about things in ways I hadn’t before. This has been taking up a lot of my mental space, and I’m curious if you’ve thought about it any.

Oh anon - there's a lot here and I'll try to untangle some of my reactions.

First of all - leaving outside the politics of all of this - I think there is part of Harry, both artistically and how he presents himself as a celebrity, which is very good at suggesting things, and leaving space for possibilities. And I think, at least at this stage, there isn't necessarily a solid core in there if you push. And that's OK, it has a lot of value artistically - blank space is pretty core to any design. But by the same token, it's OK if you want more. If you're dissatisfied with Harry you don't need to be fair for him - you can just think 'I want something you're not offering at the moment'.

But obviously I'm me so I can't leave the politics aside for long. I want to start with the interview - because context is important - that interview was Dan Wotton and the fucking Sun. Here is what was printed, which I think is a little different from what you remembered:

I ask Harry about sexuality in pop, a topic in the headlines after MILEY CYRUS spoke openly about her pansexuality. What’s his take?

He says: “Being in a creative field, it’s important to be ­progressive. People doing stuff like that is great.

“It’s weird for me — everyone should just be who they want to be. It’s tough to justify somebody having to answer to someone else about stuff like that.”

So has Harry personally labelled his sexuality?

He replies: “No, I’ve never felt the need to really. No.”

Would he like to elaborate? “I don’t feel like it’s something I’ve ever felt like I have to explain about myself.”

I want to be clear that everything Dan Wotton was doing here was wrong, from existing to obviously trying to push Harry out. And while Harry was also wrong to be doing an interview with the Sun, he did a really good job of not saying anything he didn't want to say in difficult circumstances.

I want to make it absolutely clear that I'm with Harry. It is tough to justify somebody having to answer to other people about their sexuality. I mean particularly when that person is Dan Wotton working for the fucking Sun.

But in general I don't think there's anything wrong with Harry saying implicitly and explicitly 'Just let me sing and don't ask me for anything else'. More than that I reject the whole premise. In the questions you imagined Dan Wotton asking, you set up the idea that the only way a queer artists could speak to queer fans is by coming out. And I think it's important to push back at that at every opportunity. I've said it before, but that I identify more with Louis reciting the women he's pretending to be attracted to by rote, much more than I ever have with anyone waving a rainbow flag. I reject every part of the premise of 'you coming out would mean a lot to people and somehow that is your problem'.

Throughout what you've written me, you emphasise a belief that celebrities should be active politically - and I really want to push back and ask why? What good does that expectation do you or the world? I think the last thing this world needs is more commentary from people with large microphones and without knowledge or a perspective. The world isn't made better if celebrities feel oblige to talk about politics. And your experience

You seem to think of politics like charity - as something you do for other people out of a sense of obligation. I would argue that very little useful politics has ever been done under that model. Instead I would argue a model of politics based on solidarity: 'If you have come here to help me you are wasting your time, but if you have come because your liberation is bound up with mine, then let us work together.' (Aboriginal Activist, 1970s).

I think this is what makes the English football team so powerful. Marcus Rashford is fighting for school lunches, because he knows what it's like to be hungry. They're taking the knee, because they have experienced racism, or are expressing solidarity with teammates who have experienced racism. I think Jordan Henderson believes that his world and life would be better if queer fans could be themselves at a football match.

Harry has said in so many ways that he hasn't figured out to relate politically, and he doesn't have anything more to say. That might change, but in the meantime, believe him.

Last off I want to point that you seem to be drawing a parallel between him being disconnected with his fans and not interacting politically and I don't think there is any connection at all. You said:

But to me, Harry cutting so much of himself off from the world has made him feel incredibly shallow and disconnected from his fan base, except when he has something to sell. And I do wholeheartedly think when you’re in the position of massive privilege that Harry is, you have a duty to be a well educated, well informed, active participant in your communities, and to throw your weight around for good.

There is no connection between these two points - none. I also don't think there's anything wrong with being cut off from your fan base, or silent on politics. But they're also independent (I mean look at Shawn Mendes at the period of his career when he wouldn't turn anyone down a selfie. He wasn't at all active in politics then).

I don't think there's anything wrong with valuing an artist being out, politically active, or connected with their fan base. But there are plenty of artists who are out (Lil Nas X, Olly Alexander, and I'll give a shout out to Grace Petrie) and there are plenty of artists who are politically active (Jade Thirwell, Dua Lipa, Stormzy). I'm sure there are also lots of artists who connect with their fan base (although I don't track that personally). If that's what you want, find artists that meet those needs. Rather than choosing an artists who offers something else entirely and having expectations they will never meet.

[whimsical-writer]

Okay Rooster Teeth

“Spoilers for Red vs Blue season 15 up to episode 7 beneath the cut. It’s a long post.

From Lopez’s “Tumblr’s going to hate this” joke in Episode 15.6 I get that you’re all used to getting irrational flame and hate over the smallest things from Tumblr users. As someone who enjoys being on the website, even I can admit Tumblr has some seriously ugly parts to it, such as call out culture. Some people where will scream and rage and hate on anything they deem to be “problematic”.

This post will not be like that.

I have no idea if you guys will read this, or if you’ll take away what I hope you will from it. Even if you don’t, this doesn’t just apply to you. This applies to all content creators. This is something I both need from the content I consume and that I must be aware of when I create my own works.

In episode 15.2, Kaikaina Grif makes two “bi-phase” jokes. In episode 15.7, there’s a long gag about Tucker having fathered many child and is raising a fuss about paying child support, and is generally playing the part of the absent black father.

Both these jokes made me incredibly uncomfortable. 

I wasn’t upset, not in the sense of being hurt by these jokes, nor was I angry. I watch more Rooster Teeth content than just Red vs Blue. I know from watching these other shows that you guys are good people who try to do good. I know that many of your employees are some form of queer, or PoC, or both. I’m aware that you try to be accepting of different faiths, sexulaities, and cultures. The atmosphere that you produce on your podcasts, behind the scenes, live shows, and at cons is one that is fun, easy going, accepting, and funny. It’s because I am aware of these things that I know that these jokes you make are just that. Jokes. You don’t mean harm by them. But both these jokes play on stereotypes that are legitimately harmful to those they are about.

I’ll start with Kai’s bi-phase joke first, as I am someone who is attracted to multiple genders. People who are bisexual, pansexual, polysexual, however they identify, and are attracted to multiple genders and sexs are treated with suspicion, looked down upon, and harassed by both heterosexual and homosexual people. Both groups tell them that they are “faking for attention”, “just going through a phase”, and / or “you’ll have to pick a side”. Many people say that they don’t want to date people who are attracted to multiple genders because they are more likely to cheat or carry STIs. People who are attracted to multiple genders often have their gender erased, “You’re dating this person, so right now you’re straight / gay”, and in media, characters who are confirmed attracted to multiple genders will not use terms like bisexual or pansexual, instead using phrasing such as “I like people”, or “I don’t like labels”, and these media characters often fulfil the stereotype of the cheating bisexual, or show a distaste for “being tied down”. For those who are heterosexual, this may not seem like a big deal but for those of us who are queer, we have a very important part of our identity denied on a near daily basis, so when many characters instead refusing to name their identity it can be upsetting.  Having characters who represent us is hugely important because it shows we are not alone. It gives us someone to look up to. And, in a way that’s just really hard to explain properly, it just makes us feel good to see a character who’s like us. It makes us smile, it can make us cry. 

Kaikaina Grif is a character who is very beloved by the community. Since we didn’t have too much canon facts about Kai to build our stories and art off, we had to do a lot of inventing on our own, but the core of Kai came from her actions in the Blood Gulch Chronicles. It was well accepted that Kaikaina Grif was bisexual, from her comment that Tex is badass and hot, and that that thought did not change upon realizing Tex was a woman. 

When Kai showed up in the season 15 trailer, no one expected her to be exactly like we had written. We understood, in general, that there was going to be a difference between “fanon” and canon. But Kaikaina’s bi-phrase joke took a lot of us by surprised and took away one of the core things about Kai’s character. I understand that Kai is supposed to be a sexual, no filter character whose lines are often written to invoke the “wait, what?” gag, but the fact she was bisexual was important to many of us because of the above reasons. The bi-phase joke not only perpetuated the stereotype that bisexual people are “undecided”, it took away a character who represented us, and turned a character we love into just a joke. We knew Kai would not get the same level of characterization the main characters would. We understand what a side character is. But even minor characters, even in a mostly humorous show, shouldn’t have their sexuality reduced to a joke. Kai’s even more special than other side characters, because she’s related to one of the main characters!

This is why the bi-phase joke made me and many others uncomfortable. It showed yet again that people consider attraction to multiple genders to be something that no one takes seriously or understands.

The next joke is the long gag about Tucker having sired who knows how many children and is going to be the absent father for all of them while whining about paying child support. I want to preface this explanation by stating I am not a person of colour, I am white, so many of my feelings and thoughts on this come from my PoC friends and acquaintances. If anything I say is wrong or offensive, please let me know and I will do my best to correct it and myself.

Lavernius Tucker is another beloved character of the community. Many of us believe Tucker has had some of the most character growth of all the Blood Gulch Crew, even when you include Wash and Carolina. We watched him grow from a young, inexperienced soldier to perhaps the best soldier of the Blood Gulch Crew. In many ways, the Chorus trilogy is Tucker’s trilogy, because of how much he learns and grows over the course of it. 

Tucker is a black character. Taking the only canon black character and painting him the sex driven absent father is a huge problem. Again, this is from my understanding of it, but black men have the stereotype as being sexual deviants who don’t care for their children. This is wrong and untrue, but people who believe this look down upon or distrust or outright hate black men because of it. Black men are seen as terrible fathers, despite any and all evidence to the contrary.  This is hugely harmful to black men, especially black fathers, who are distrusted around children, even their own. Black men are also seen as sexual predators because of these stereotypes. Reproducing this stereotype in media only makes the matter worse.

We are aware that a huge part of Tucker’s personality is his sexual nature, but at many points in the show it’s implied or outright stated that Tucker doesn’t actually and has never done much sleeping around. In season 11, Tucker implies to Wash that he slept with an entire bachelorette party. Wash questions him about it and Tucker admits that it didn’t really happen. The joke with Tucker was never that he sleeps around, it was that he was trying to look cool by saying that he did. By season 11, he had largely moved past that. He still made jokes of a sexual nature, that will always be Tucker, but the writing showed that he was not the “sexual deviant” type.

The absent father type is also not the kind of person Tucker is. Shortly after Junior is born, Tucker describes the “ideal father-son relationship” as, “you know, where I only see him every other weekend and on holidays.”. The writing and his actions after that quickly show another story. Tucker is upset by the idea of Wyoming and Omega kidnapping his child so they can use him in their plot to dominate the galaxy. When the ship explodes at the end of season 5 and Junior presumably dies, he tells Church that he is leaving Blood Gulch, as in deserting his post, fleeing the army, and stripping himself of a paycheque, in order to find a way to get Junior back. Once he does, he spends months with Junior as ambassadors between the Humans and the races of the Covenant. In season 11, when Wash asks “didn’t you give birth to an alien baby?”, Tucker is immediately defensive and snaps “don’t bring family into this”. When the subject comes up with Doyle in season 13, Tucker goes from being sullen about describing his experience with Crunchbite, to being bright, happy, and enthused when talking about Junior. He proclaims, “FUCK YEAH, Junior is awesome! Here he is on his fifth grade basketball team,” and pulls out a picture of Junior he has been carrying on his person! Tucker is shown, time and time again, to feel protective of his son, to clearly care about his son, and to love his son with his whole heart. 

So to have Tucker brush off child support with “Uh, no dude, Junior’s got a basketball scholarship” is not incharacter given his actions with Junior before. Even if Junior is of an age where he’s in college and receiving scholarships, Tucker’s actions before show that, upon hearing and assuming it’s Junior who needs money or support of any kind, he probably would have been concerned about Junior. Continuing on from that, while no one expects Tucker to be able to a present father involved with every possible child he had (it’s implied there are many), he is shown to be responsible. All of the Chorus trilogy is about Tucker being responsible! 

Like with Kaikaina, this joke not only supports negative stereotypes but is removing a core part of the character. For Tucker especially, it feels like years of character development were sacrificed to make a gag. 

While I did talk about the consequences these jokes had to the characters and narrative, this is also about the negative impact this sort of humor can have over all.

Again, people who work at Rooster Teeth, I watch a lot of your content. I am well aware that, at the very least, the vast majority of you are good people. You’re not people who hate people for the colour of their skin, or their sexuality or what have you. You write this jokes out of a good nature. You’re ribbing, prodding. You’re not seriously believing that bisexuals are going through phases or that black men make terrible fathers. 

The problem is, not everyone watches all of your content. Maybe they don’t realize there’s more to Rooster Teeth than the one or two shows they’re watching, or maybe they’re not interested in the behind the scenes footage or podcasts. So when a joke, such as the bi-phase joke, comes along, it can tell people “oh, the creators of this thing don’t like people like me”. It hurts so much to find out that someone you admire and look up to despises who you are, or, in extreme cases, would be happy to see you and anyone like you dead. People who don’t watch all of your content, or who feel the gap between your words and actions too large, are going to feel pushed away. The parts of the show they do love are going to start leaving a bitter taste in their mouth. As a hopeful one day content creator myself, I know I’d never want to make anyone who enjoys my work to feel like that, and I know no one at Rooster Teeth would ever want to make anyone feel like they were hated for who they are.

Another problem is that, even if someone does watch a lot of your content, they themselves might be a terrible person.

I love the Rooster Teeth community. I’ve found myself a nice little corner where we encourage each other in writing fanfics and original stories, in drawing, in animation, anything. We’re an accepting group from all walks of life who have in common a love for Red vs Blue and other Rooster Teeth shows. It’s the first time I’ve ever felt so welcome among an internet community. We help each other out through difficult times and make people feel loved and welcome.

But not everyone is like this. Any time people gather together, there’s going to be people who are not good. I’m not just talking internet trolls, I mean legitimately racists, sexist, homophobic, what-have-you, or some combination of these things. These people, when they hear jokes that rely on negative stereotypes to be funny, on some level they are thinking “ah yes, it’s okay for me to think these things. I’m not wrong.”. It’s not on a conscious level, but when it comes to some offensive jokes, this is what making them does. It encourages people to continue to think that way.

Rooster Teeth, you write amazing, humorous shows. And I’m aware that dark humor can exist, I’m aware that it’s sometimes totally in character for a character to make a tasteless joke! It’s just really important to make these jokes the right way, and that’s by showing in the writing that the joke was wrong to say.

You guys have actually done this before in Red vs Blue! In season 11, Tucker makes a joke about the hundreds of others on the ship flying the Reds and Blues home about having died horribly in the crash, only weeks after it happened. This is met with silence from Caboose and a flat “proud of yourself” from Wash. It’s clear that Tucker was in the wrong for making that joke.

That is how you can write offensive jokes into a show. Whether it be an antagonist or flawed protagonist, if the writing shows “this behaviour that is occurring shouldn’t be accepted or encouraged. Not only do we as content creators do not believe it, we’re making it clear,” then that’s great! I’m not saying stop the pacing of the scene to have a five minute lecture about why bisexuality isn’t a phase. It just has to be a line or a visual cue to show it. Not every bad joke can be fixed this way. No one is perfect. I don’t expect you guys to churn out perfect, flawless stories where no one is offended. That’s not possible. I understand that there’s going to be times when something sneaks by the radar or, because of your personal experiences, you may not realize why something isn’t cool to say. That’s just part of being human.

Again, everyone at Rooster Teeth, this isn’t meant to be read as an angry, hurt letter. This isn’t a “you guys suck” post. I love Rooster Teeth, I love Red vs Blue, I love your writing! You guys all work together to produce some of my favourite shows, animated or live action. It’s my dream to work for Rooster Teeth animation one day, to see some of the stories I’ve been working as shows on the Rooster Teeth website. I don’t wish failure upon the company, any individual, or any of your shows. I’m writing this because I want to see you guys keep improving your storytelling. And you’ve all massively improved over the years! If I watch content from 3,4,5 years ago and compare it with today’s latest episodes, it’s amazing to see just how much you’ve all grown as a company. 

I want to make it clear that so far, that little community I mentioned?

So far we’ve love this season. Some parts have sat better with some of us than others, but overall we’re excited! We’re enjoying ourselves! We’re shrieking in a chatroom together, coming up with wild theory after wild theory, crying when the emotions get high, bouncing excitedly when plot gets revealed! Any complaints or criticism we have comes from the fact we love this show! We love it and we watch it to enjoy it, to analyze it, to get our creative juices going. 

I hope you’ve read this all the way to the end. I know this is just my thoughts and perspective, but I hope you give thought to what I, and many others, think about the show and the writing. 

[snaau]

A pan boys circle.

Abbreviated edit.

My first sexual experience was when I was 7, I sucked my friend D’s penis and drank his pee from the tip while I played with his now naked butt and then he sucked me off and fingered my butt hole until I pee’d, it was natural for us, both of us having grow up in houses where the parents were in open relationships, had swinger BBQ-nights every second weekend at one of the 7 families houses and kinky sex was all around us. Once we started we were always watching the adults and copied them

Even when I gave 2 girls a golden shower in the school playground later that year the only punishment I got was a single stroke with a bull whip across the hands from the Head Master, when I got home all that was said is that you don’t do those things at school. The next January several of the families moved to Perth and I was very actively experimenting sexually with the boys and girls I already knew and the kids of new swinger families my mum was meeting.

When I was 10 Mum remarried and it became normal to shower with the new dad and play with his penis, the biggest I had seen to this point and I loved making it grow because it meant he wasn’t yelling at or punishing me, and I could admire every ridge when I got him hard. One day mum walked in on us and I never showered with him again, he was always angry after that.

The next year after that I stayed at least 1 night a month at D’s house, those nights hold some of the only good memories I have of the time. D had a growth spurt, in June at age 12 he was 5’11 to my 4’ and his penis grew, I loved it, he was having mouth filling erections, we used rubber bands around it keep it hard while I sucked it and we played with it. In the spring I remember him asking if I thought his penis might be hard enough and long enough to finally enter me like the adults did each other, we ran a bath, he sat on the bottom and I lowered myself onto him, It was a bit fiddly while we worked out what we were doing and then he was in me for the first time, we sat together cuddling with his cock fully in me and my anus twitching clenching around it, the feeling gave me my first full erection.

We sat cuddling like that until he softened and fell out, then finished our bath and ran to tell his older sister what we had done to shock her (she didn’t play the sex games as a child), surprisingly she told us to keep it quiet, led us to D’s room and asked to watch us do it. This time D bent me forward leaning me over his desk, entered me from behind until I was full again then started stroking in and out, I had thought nothing could feel as good as having him deep inside me but being fucked slowly and tentativly had me gaga. It didn’t take much before I got hard again.

I remember feeling a strange straining along the length of the shaft when she came over and used the rubber band on me. I thought this was done so I could do D as well. With my penis gripped firmly in her hand she watched us for a bit more then told D to pull out. Pulsing my penis in her hand keeping it hard, she used it to lead me to the bed.

I felt I was floating and was still feeling full of D when she laid on his bed, guided me between her legs and into her then used her legs to pull me into her deep enough I could feel her clamping around the base, after a few light movements of our hips caused me to move in and out slightly she stated virginity would no longer be a distraction for her, pushed me off and out of her, then left the room.

At age 13 the abuse both physical and mental at home had gotten so bad I had a breakdown during my level 7 practical piano exam and my step father kicked me down a set of 15 stairs. He did it to me again a week later and instead of crying, I ran up the stairs and punched him in the throat. It was one of the last time he laid a hand on me. 2 months later, age 14 I was living in a unit on the other side of the city, rented by my father, living on my own, dad would drop in before I woke up on Tuesdays to leave me $125 for food and 2 packs of cigarettes so I stopped stealing them.

When I was 15yo, I ran to a country town 1000km North of everyone I knew and jumped on a boat to go fishing.

Wasn’t long before I’d tried to sleep with the female cook and a couple of the 20yo male deck hands, the captain of the boat pulled me aside and told me that it was not normal for a person to ask everyone they find attractive for sex, especially other guys, and that I would likely end up on the ocean floor wrapped in chain if I didn’t stop it.

So I did, I was trained in classical music and on a theatre fstage or most of my childhood so for the next 23 years I used that training and acted more extremely homophobic than anyone around me to cover up how I felt, even had an 18 yr nearly sexless relationship and 2 kids with a woman I hid it from for all our time together but the last 12months.

THEN IT BROKE ME!!!! 25 years playing a role as someone who’s beliefs and sexual needs are the total opposite of how I felt inside took its toll and my mind shut down as my world fell apart.

2 years and a few great friends have helped me to re-learn that................

I’m a non-monagomus very kinky experienced Pansexual guy who aside from play sessions and casual dating with singles, enjoys... sex with partnered multiples, attending swinger parties, all in group sex, watersports and anything else I can think of trying. I’ll consider any form of carnal activity and am partial to wonton slutery.

I love people peeing into a glass for my vodka or directly into my mouth.

I love quick hot sex in public spaces and long sessions of intimate fucking in secluded places.

I like people tied to beds with silk being bought to climax and kept in constant orgasm for 30min or more.

I long to be presented on a velvet topped Lazy Susan style Ottoman and have a large group comprised of ALL genders take turns using me for their personal pleasure and satisfaction.

I’m a proud Pan slut who desires nothing more than to cater to the pleasures of others, thoroughly fucking them and being well fucked by them in return.

I learned the hard way repressing ones self to FIT IN is a slow certain descent into insanity!!It’s good to be free, the world has colour again.

[yeetyeet2121yeet]

All of emmmmmmmmmmm!

Oh god Anon

1) Do You Sleep With Your Closet Doors Open Or Closed?My closet doesnt have doors. I am not afraid of things lurking there, as my room is made to be a positive place. The window however is kept locked and curtained at night though

(2) Do You Have Freckles?yep

(3) Can You Whistle?sort of

(4) Last Song You Listened To.Where’s My Love? - SYML

(5) What Is Your Favourite Colour?Purple/Gold/Black/Silver

(6) Relationship Status.Single as fuck, but with a few crushes

(7) What Is The Temperature Right Now?Outside its 14* C

(8) Did You Wake Up Cranky?Nope, I woke up to one of Dan Howell’s livestreams that he posted on youtube

(9) How Many Followers?81

(10) Zodiac Sign.I am a Libra

(11) What Is Your Eye Colour?kinda grey/blue

(12) Take A Vitamin Daily?nope

(13) Do You Sing In The Shower?No, but I have my phone on the toilet and listen to music

(14) What Books Are You Reading?Many. Many. Stephen King novels

(15) Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 64, Give Me Line 14.‘God bless Bobbi, who had somehow managed to keep her shit together while everyone else was losing theirs, Bobbi was up there in Haven, thinking the way people were supposed to think- no she’s not’The Tommyknockers • Stephen King

(16) Favourite Anime?Black Butler

(17) Last Person You Cried In Front Of?Roan

(18) Do You Collect Anything?Yep, I collect CDs

(19) What Did You Have For Lunch?Nothing. I woke up at 1:08

(20) Do You Dance In The Car?No.

(21) Favourite Animal?Cats or tropical fish

(22) Do You Watch The Olympics?Yes, some sports

(23) What Time Do You Usually Go To Bed?Anywhere from 7pm to 5am

(24) Are You Wearing Makeup Right Now?Nope

(25) Do You Prefer To Swim In A Pool Or The Ocean?Neither. Creeks/lakes/ponds/dugouts

(26) Favourite Tumblr Blog?My own, because it represents who I really am. No filters, nothing. You will find nothing on here that isnt 100% me.

(27) Bottled Water Or Tap Water?Bottled, as ours is rusty as fuck, and has actually fucked with the color of my hair

(28) What Makes You Happy?My friends

(29) Post A Gif Of What You’re Currently Feeling Right Now.Can’t because fuck you Tumblr mobile

(30) Do You Study Better With Or Without Music?Study?? who is she?

(31) Dogs Or Cats?Cattos

(32) If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be?Gay

(33) PlayStation Or Xbox.Xbox all the way

(34) Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean?LAKE

(35) Do You Believe In Magic?Yes

(36) What Colour Shirt Are You Wearing?Bright freaking red with black decorations

(37) Can You Curl Your Tongue?yeppo

(38) Do You Save Money Or Spend It?It depends on what I’m saving for

(39) Is There Anything Pink Within 10 Feet Of You?yeah, my water bottle

(40) Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now?Finding out who I am

(41) Have You Ever Caught A Butterfly?Yeah of course

(42) Are You Easily Influenced By Other People?No, I don’t think so. People have shaped me into who I am, but when I make up my mind on something, it is very difficult for me to change my opinion

(43) Do You Have Strange Dreams?YES.

(44) Do You Like Going On Airplanes?I have never flown

(45) Name One Movie That Made You Cry.Love, Simon

(46) Peanuts Or Sunflower Seeds?Cashews

(47) If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be?Any of my favourite bands

(48) Are You A Picky Eater?No

(49) Are You A Heavy Sleeper?Yes

(50) Do You Fear Thunder / Lightning?No, I like it

(51) Do You Like To Read / Write?Yes I do like both

(52) Do You Like Your Music Loud?Ya

(53) Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents?Carve pumpkins!!

(54) Put Your Music On Shuffle, What Is The First Song That Came Up?To The End - My Chemical Romance

(55) What Season Are You In Right Now? (Weather)Its summer right now, and its hot

(56) What Are You Craving Right Now?Acceptance and Happiness

(57) Post A Screenshot Of Your Tumblr Feed.Can’t bc tumblr mobile

(58) What Is Your Gender?UhM? Idk?? I think I’m either nonbinary or genderfluid

(59) Coffee Or Tea?Fuck both, I want my goddamn juice

(60) Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About?No, its July

(61) What Is Your Sexuality?Pansexual, but I get attracted to girls/etc over boys

(62) Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning?I flip the covers back into place, but other than that no

(63) Favourite Pokemon?Eevee and it’s evolutions

(64) Favourite Social Media?Tumblr/Instagram

(65) What’s Your Opinion On Instagram Stories?I like em, but I don’t use them much because I have followers from home, soooo

(66) Do You Get Homesick?I do not consider where I live 'home’. I feel that my summer theatre camp is my home, and fuck yes, I miss it

(67) Are You A Virgin?Yea

(68) What Shampoo And Conditioner Are You Using Right Now?Well, I have herbal essences ladies conditioner but I stole my guy friend’s dove shampoo at camp

(69) If You Were Far From Home And Needed To Sleep For The Night, Would You Choose To Rent A Crappy Motel Room For $60 Or Sleep In Your Car For Free?Depends where I am, what the room is like, how much money I have

(70) Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life?Sadly, yes

(71) Whats The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters?I don’t know

(72) Do You Miss Your Ex?No, fuck that

(73) What Is Your Favourite Quote Right Now?• If they stand behind you, give them protection If they stand beside you, give them respect If they stand in front of you, watch their back If they stand against you, show them no mercy

(74) What Eye Colour Do You Find Sexiest?I dont really notice those things, I find whoever I like sexy

(75) Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set?FUCK YEAH I’m 14 now and I still love it. And yeah ofc I do

(76) What Was The Last Thing You Ate?Corndogs

(77) What Games Do You Have On Your Phone?None lol

(78) Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not?No. I dont know how, and I don’t want to fuck something up and fuck them up worse

(79) Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight?Yeah

(80) Stalked Someone On A Social Network?No

(81) Do You Like Meeting New People?Yes

(82) Do You Wear Rings? If You Do, Take A Picture Of Them.Yeah I do, but TUMBLR MOBILE

(83) Do You Sleep With Your Bedroom Door Open Or Closed?CLOSED. I get anxious about it open, because I’m alone in the basement, and the black hell hole while I’m most vulnerable scares me. If I had someone with me I think I would be okay though

(84) What Are Three Things You Did Today?Woke up, cut my hair, took a shower

(85) What Do You Wear To Bed?Either nothing, or a tshirt and underwear

(86) List All Of Your Different Beauty Products You Have Right Now.2 things of eyeliner1 thing of mascara1 eyeshadow palette

(87) Are You A Day Or Night Person?Night

(88) List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc.Nothing on my phone, and I only play 2 games on the wii. Minecraft with my little sister and The Legend of Zelda : Breath of the Wild

(89) Tell Me About A Dream That You Had And When It Happened.I dont even remember anything of any dream

(90) Favourite Soda Drink?Canada Dry Ginger Ale, Sprite, A&W Root Beer, Cherry Coke

(91) What Sounds Are Your Favourite?My music, my friends’ voices, when youre sitting with someone youre close with, and you’re together, and you can hear their breaths, my cat’s meows, the sound of water

(92) Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More?Jeans

(93) How Do You Look Right Now?comfortable

(94) Name Something That Relaxes You.Roan’s voice, or Dan Howell’s voice

(95) What Tattoo Do You Want?I want a few little hearts all over me. One on the back of my left hip, one above my right elbow pit, one on my right shoulder blade, one below my lefr collar bone, and one on my right ankle

(96) Favourite YouTubers?Daniel Howell, Shane, CapnDesDes, AmazingPhil, Garrett Watts, Hailey Reese and Brandon Rogers