#and onto part 232134 of why Yoon sucks at answering her asks

[orchidyoonkook]

Why did I just now notice that you replied back to my message weeks ago? But, then again, I've been preoccupied with everything in life. So I can't blame you. And you were on vacation for some time too, so I'm sure not many people want to social online while they're on vacations.

And it helped with "recharging my batteries" as an introvert.. Because I'm in a healthier mindset now. Being a turbulent INTJ explains a lot if that is true. I'm between INTJ-A and INTJ-T equally, but I slightly lean more towards turbulent though. But that could be the perfectionism.

But it depends on my mindset? Since I'm similar to an INTJ-A in more healthier mindsets, but INTJ-T in unhealthier mindsets. At least that's what it seems like to me. That might be unnecessary information.

Ignore that.

I did have a lot of ups and downs with bands, musicians and music in these months. Bands with disbanding or reuniting (technically it's the band coming out of hiatus); musicians dying, or starting new musical careers. And also a lot of songs and videos being released this year.

I couldn't go to the concert. The concert was in their native county so that would have been more money than even I could afford. If they do come back to my country, then I'll try going to their concerts here if it ever happens. Hopefully, I'll be able to meet the other band members, even if I never got to meet the musician who dyed. That was draining.

I didn't think you were making it about yourself. But that's definitely a main autistic trait when it comes to their grieving.. Or in situations for the autistic person trying to help with someone grieving. If we are not able to process our emotions, we try explaining situations to people if we're trying to connect with that person. Sometimes it can be helpful in some situations but there may be situations where it upsets lots of people too. So it depends on the person. But I didn't take it that way.

But that was my step grandmother so she was younger than a typical grandmother. Well.. It's complicated to say. Since grandmothers have different ages now. Anyway. She died of cancer, and she actually died not even a week after her diagnosis. Like four days later? So we never had the chance to spend time with her before she died.. Just because she was in a different state when she died, but she still had her family caring for her though. So family was with her when she died, so then I can say she wasn't alone. She wasn't alone, and she didn't suffer at all either. Her birthday's coming up (actually her birthday is just a couple days after mine). So now I only have one grandparent who's still alive.

Well.. The symbols. The symbols I was mentioning before, that font is specially made for fonts. You'd have to download that fond to use it at all. But it's only usable on word documents, I don't think it works on a site though. At least not on this site anyone. Which is disappointing.

I don't know? I haven't been speaking to that many people lately. Like maybe one person. Most people I know have either been busy with all their personal lives; family and friends, work, events or vacations. So I haven't talked to many people lately. So I can't remember if I ever did.

To my knowledge, I never had a horrible life. Maybe some oppression at times.. Because my parents can be restrictive about lot of things in my life. Especially my mother who is the overbearing helicopter type.

I'm still judgmental towards them about the oppressive tendencies I'd have because of them. And definitely reasons why I do hate them too.

But I wasn't abused by my family. Or anything like that. So my version of a complicated life is probably different than yours is though.. But it could be how you worded that too? I'm not sure. So I could be wrong.

But! Being the weird child who always enjoyed things that people lots of people hated since a young age, this isn't any different than that to me. Maybe that's how I think of it? Or.. Something along those lines.

But... I just realized that I keep saying that... I don't think that I've ever heard of Bad Omens? I might've heard the band name before, but I'm sure I've never listened to their music. So I can't comment on them in general. But I know what you mean though. You have an eclectic view on your own personal interests that's drastically different from mostly everything else you'd enjoy. I know some people who are like that too.

Yeah. Most of my family, friends, people I know are "authentic" in how we express ourselves. Most of us hate changing ourselves to make so many people like us, we'd rather people like us for who we are. Y'know the whole cliché commentaries of people accepting you as yourself is the simplest way to explain that. But I've always hated fake people. I'd never understand changing yourself for people, just to love other fake versions of yourself. I could have worded that a lot different than that.

As for tattoos and piercings.. I think I know what you mean? Maybe? I knew a couple girls in school who had dermal piercings, and at least a girl, one of them, had to surgically get her dermal piercings removed.. And that was because the metal got trapped somewhere in her body, something like that. So I'll never get dermal piercings for that reason.

My hair has been different shades of blue since November? I have the blue hair at the moment. Since my birthday is next week.. I might dye my hair blue again for now, and then maybe change it sometime after my birthday. Because blues and greens are usually the difficult colors to remove from your hair. I like the blue shades, and I also want to dye my hair green (but only certain shades though) but everyone ends up arguing with me about that. But I would dye my hair blue again, since I did like how the coloring was with those dyes. Not sure about green. And I'm not sure what color I would do after the blue is removed from my hair either. I'm probably thinking colors I haven't done yet though. But I always bleach my hair before dying it vibrant colors because I've always wanted the colors to be extra dark or vibrant depending on it's shading. And it helps that I usually get discounts for my hair when I'm going to my hairdresser, if I go to her, because it depends on styles.

Yeah.. I should've learned how to sew. Or something. A hobby that did involve fashion. Because of being a little person, I'm a midget, then I'd have been able to learn how to create my clothes; based on sizes and styles. When it comes to some celebrities I follow - like any musicians and models with that style - are known to create their own clothing in whatever they want to fit their style but I'm not capable of doing that.

I would love to get back into creative hobbies but sometimes I do feel like I'm holding myself back too? Sometimes like I'm blocking myself.

"Like I wanna spend my days doing my creative hobbies so bad, and then I just.. don't. and then I scream at myself internally." Yes. That.

Apparently autistic people have creative abstract imagination from it being creative abstract imagination and thought processes. So where is that creative abstract way of doing these creative hobbies in ways I think might've helped me. But no. It's completely blocked for reasons that I don't know why that is. And it doesn't make sense why that is.

I do that too. Like.. I do hate telling people I'm autistic because I have always assumed people would notice based on my mannerisms since I always thought it was obvious. The people closest to me know. But I think it's different for strangers, like some know and some don't know too. But the moment I mention my diagnosis to some people, there is a portion of those people who do treat me differently. But, regardless if they treat me differently, I feel like they should accept to me as I am in every way. If they're just expecting me to accept them as they have been, they should accept me as I am. It's that simple. So I may be the biggest cunt ever in these situations, which is fine, that's how I am if I know someone won't accept me as I am. Doesn't matter if the people are family, potential friends, coworkers, and people in general. Like if people expect me to accept how they are, they should accept me as I am too. You can't have it one way. I've never been the masking type.

Exactly! Just because I'm a "slow" learner doesn't mean I don't learn... Everyone has a different way of learning. Some people are visual type learners, some are verbal learners, and some are kinesthetic learners.

Which reminds me. There's four different types of autistic types.. Just like four different personalities. Their Personality Types in Asperger's: Fixated, Disruptive, Approach and Avoidant. I'm not a disruptive type. But I can say that I'm primarily avoidant (with approach and fixated in the mix). Avoidant is definitely my personality but I also have some of the mannerisms of approach and fixated too. Is what I meant to say.

You're what.. Six years younger than me? At least five years younger. I can't remember what your birthday is. If you ever did mentioned that.

My birthday is next week. Like Yoongi, I would actually be the grumpy old person (who isn't that old), who just complains about every young generation. "Back in my day, this happened.." Even if you are younger, at least you know what a vhs is. I think. I'm just assuming that you do.

Don't disappoint me with this.

Oh! Adding onto the story of the daughter friend. This was years ago.. About fifteen years? We bumped into each other again, and we talked during that time. And tried reconciling the friendship. Which was very stupid of me to think that. Because she was older than the last time, I was expecting her to be different. Like she matured. But no. So when we were trying to reconcile, she invited me over to her house to hang out with her and even invited me to sleep over too. Her and her father (this was before my parents stopped being friends with him) came to pick me up at my house, since their new house (after they've moved), was so far away. She brought her boyfriend with her. So instead of us hanging out as old friends trying to spend time together like I actually thought, was just me being a third wheel to her and her boyfriend the whole weekend. Like why invite me over if we're not spending time?!

That's another thing I hated about her. Safe to say that family is not in our lives anymore. So they're definitely horrible people in my opinion.

"(Made me giggle when I read it in the first place cuz owning up to things like that is something I am notorious for doing.)" Because I see no point in lying to people. I own who I am, the good and bad traits of me. The balance of who I am. So why waste time trying to be another person. Why waste time lying to people. So my honest seems like I'm an insensitive person, even a cunt a times, but I see no point in lying.

"But the sun is such a beautiful thing to have in life, to not go out and greet her every now and then." Not when you have heat intolerance in life. Another reason why I've rarely left my house during the summer.

The heat tolerance is part of the sensory overload in autism for me.. It has been something that I've always had since I was a baby. Were you ever underwhelmed or overwhelmed in different temperatures?

https://augmentive.io/blog/autism-heat

If you ever wanted to read about it.

- 💋

I literally just counted the months I have been a horrible friend for not answering this sooner and literally said out loud "Oh my god I'm so bad at this."

I really shouldn't make promises I can't keep, but in all honesty I didn't know I wouldn't be able to keep it when I made it. Being an adult is stupid because it keeps you so busy and I hate it and love it at the same time.

Please accept my most humble apologies for being absolutely shit at answering asks, outernet life is insane and unfortunately my internet life suffers the price.

Why did I just now notice that you replied back to my message weeks ago? But, then again, I've been preoccupied with everything in life. So I can't blame you. And you were on vacation for some time too, so I'm sure not many people want to social online while they're on vacations.

You did better than me dude. I literally cannot apologise enough. I wish I could say I'll do better in the future but I've learned my lesson and all I will say now is I will try my best to be better.

And it helped with "recharging my batteries" as an introvert.. Because I'm in a healthier mindset now. Being a turbulent INTJ explains a lot if that is true. I'm between INTJ-A and INTJ-T equally, but I slightly lean more towards turbulent though. But that could be the perfectionism.

I hope this has remained true!! I love that you've managed to create a better mindset for yourself. That takes such hard work and I am so proud of you <<<3333

I myself am a ENFJ-A, but I'l be honest and say that I am not up to speed on what that means exactly.

But it depends on my mindset? Since I'm similar to an INTJ-A in more healthier mindsets, but INTJ-T in unhealthier mindsets. At least that's what it seems like to me. That might be unnecessary information.

Any info you are willing to share is good and necessary. I will not have you second guessing wanting to share bits and pieces of yourself, that's completely normal and I appreciate you for trusting me with it.

Ignore that.

Ooop to late XD sorry..

I did have a lot of ups and downs with bands, musicians and music in these months. Bands with disbanding or reuniting (technically it's the band coming out of hiatus); musicians dying, or starting new musical careers. And also a lot of songs and videos being released this year.

That's.. incredibly turbulent. I'm both happy and excited for you whilst also being truly sorry for any loses you've experienced regarding thid topic. These kinds of loses always hit in such a specific way that it's hard to describe, you just know it hurts, and for that you have my comfort and wellest wishes <3

I couldn't go to the concert. The concert was in their native county so that would have been more money than even I could afford. If they do come back to my country, then I'll try going to their concerts here if it ever happens. Hopefully, I'll be able to meet the other band members, even if I never got to meet the musician who dyed. That was draining.

Well shit! I'm so sorry. I totally get the different country send off. My moms favourite band did that and it killed her not to be able to go.

I'll have my fingers crossed that they do come back to your country for you, as well as being able to meet the members. I know it isn't much to offer, but it's there and it's yours <3

I didn't think you were making it about yourself. But that's definitely a main autistic trait when it comes to their grieving.. Or in situations for the autistic person trying to help with someone grieving. If we are not able to process our emotions, we try explaining situations to people if we're trying to connect with that person. Sometimes it can be helpful in some situations but there may be situations where it upsets lots of people too. So it depends on the person. But I didn't take it that way.

thank you for understanding the way I communicate and empathize, I truly cannot put into words how relieving that is for me. You completely nailed the explination, I forget sometimes how similar we are in this regard.

But that was my step grandmother so she was younger than a typical grandmother. Well.. It's complicated to say. Since grandmothers have different ages now. Anyway. She died of cancer, and she actually died not even a week after her diagnosis. Like four days later? So we never had the chance to spend time with her before she died.. Just because she was in a different state when she died, but she still had her family caring for her though. So family was with her when she died, so then I can say she wasn't alone. She wasn't alone, and she didn't suffer at all either. Her birthday's coming up (actually her birthday is just a couple days after mine). So now I only have one grandparent who's still alive.

Oh 💋, I'm truly from the bottom of my heart so sorry for your loss. I hope it's a comfort to you that she had family with her, and that she didn't suffer. That feels like a foolish thing to write now that I've written it, but I don't quite know how best to phrase my sympathies other than I genuinely am so sorry, and that even though you weren't able to be there, that I hope she knew you wished you could have been (if that was indeed the case).

Loss is such a profoundly undescribeable feeling because everyone experiences and deals with it so differently. I hope in the time that has passed since you sent this in that you have been able to spend some time with your grandparent who's still with us (if that has been something you've wanted to do, of course). Or been able to deal with these emotions in a way that has been cathartic and healthy for you.

Insane change of topic to: Happy belated birthday! I'm quite late as it seems, but the well wishes are meant the same as if I wasn't.

Well.. The symbols. The symbols I was mentioning before, that font is specially made for fonts. You'd have to download that fond to use it at all. But it's only usable on word documents, I don't think it works on a site though. At least not on this site anyone. Which is disappointing.

Ohhhhhh gotcha, I see what you mean. I thought it was like, a complicated emoticon or something, but I getchu now.

I don't know? I haven't been speaking to that many people lately. Like maybe one person. Most people I know have either been busy with all their personal lives; family and friends, work, events or vacations. So I haven't talked to many people lately. So I can't remember if I ever did.

Her blog is Violetsiren90 if that helps at all. And I will say that has been true for me, I don't think my life has ever been this busy or mentally and physically draining before, so I would like to once again apologise for my shit response times, and to know that I am unintentionally doing it to almost everyone I speak to both irl and on the internet. I have at least 20+ message notifications at all times because I'm so backed up and then I just get overwhelmed. All this to say, I really need to get better at responding to people so they know I value them, their time, and their thoughts and opinions, and that the time inbetween them sharing those and my responses is not at all correlated with how much I value them. It's just my brain being unable to tackle the mountain.

To my knowledge, I never had a horrible life. Maybe some oppression at times.. Because my parents can be restrictive about lot of things in my life. Especially my mother who is the overbearing helicopter type.

We are one in the same here, but it was my dad who was the helicopter.

I'm still judgmental towards them about the oppressive tendencies I'd have because of them. And definitely reasons why I do hate them too.

Once again we're on the same boat.

But I wasn't abused by my family. Or anything like that. So my version of a complicated life is probably different than yours is though.. But it could be how you worded that too? I'm not sure. So I could be wrong.

I was mostly mentally abused but not in a direct way, my dad is a narcissist so it was that kind of like, gaslighting and can't cry otherise it'll be used against me, versus anything else. And like, I was spanked as a young kid but I don't resent them for that at all. I hate to admit it did teach me discipline because my actions had true consequences. But saying this, it wasn't a regular punishment, it was like.. when I had REALLLLLY screwed up as a kid. idk. I don't hate them for it. But I'm also not thankful for it.

But! Being the weird child who always enjoyed things that people lots of people hated since a young age, this isn't any different than that to me. Maybe that's how I think of it? Or.. Something along those lines.

Makes total sense to me. I liked odd things as well!

But... I just realized that I keep saying that... I don't think that I've ever heard of Bad Omens? I might've heard the band name before, but I'm sure I've never listened to their music. So I can't comment on them in general. But I know what you mean though. You have an eclectic view on your own personal interests that's drastically different from mostly everything else you'd enjoy. I know some people who are like that too.

I just need to say once again I adore the fact that you just... like.. understand what I mean. It's so incredibly refreshing and lovely and I can't thank you enough for that.

As for Bad Omens, they are rising higher in the metal scene. They'll be going on 'tour' with Linkin Park!! So that's cool! I love pretty much all of their songs, so if you ever wanna check them out, I totally reccomend them!

Yeah. Most of my family, friends, people I know are "authentic" in how we express ourselves. Most of us hate changing ourselves to make so many people like us, we'd rather people like us for who we are. Y'know the whole cliché commentaries of people accepting you as yourself is the simplest way to explain that. But I've always hated fake people. I'd never understand changing yourself for people, just to love other fake versions of yourself. I could have worded that a lot different than that.

No no!!! i totally get it!! That's how me and my mum are. Like why the hell would I change myslef to fit into a group a people who wouldn't like me otherwise??? Like?? I dont get that mentality at all. So the fact that that is just how you and yours are is awesome to me. I love it.

As for tattoos and piercings.. I think I know what you mean? Maybe? I knew a couple girls in school who had dermal piercings, and at least a girl, one of them, had to surgically get her dermal piercings removed.. And that was because the metal got trapped somewhere in her body, something like that. So I'll never get dermal piercings for that reason.

exactly! maybe i've just seen one too many "look what went wrong" videos or too many infection videos or idk dude. I just say that my brain is weird and leave it at that XD

My hair has been different shades of blue since November? I have the blue hair at the moment. Since my birthday is next week.. I might dye my hair blue again for now, and then maybe change it sometime after my birthday. Because blues and greens are usually the difficult colors to remove from your hair. I like the blue shades, and I also want to dye my hair green (but only certain shades though) but everyone ends up arguing with me about that. But I would dye my hair blue again, since I did like how the coloring was with those dyes. Not sure about green. And I'm not sure what color I would do after the blue is removed from my hair either. I'm probably thinking colors I haven't done yet though. But I always bleach my hair before dying it vibrant colors because I've always wanted the colors to be extra dark or vibrant depending on it's shading. And it helps that I usually get discounts for my hair when I'm going to my hairdresser, if I go to her, because it depends on styles.

Blue sounds rad dude. I find you cant really go wrong with it, so I hope you rocked that shit !!! Did you stick with it after? or have you since switched as it's been a minute since this was written. I'm gunna guess either Red or Orange just for funsies, but if you just kept the blue, rock on. I did that for about six years XD

My hairdresser gives me a discount too!!! XD

Yeah.. I should've learned how to sew. Or something. A hobby that did involve fashion. Because of being a little person, I'm a midget, then I'd have been able to learn how to create my clothes; based on sizes and styles. When it comes to some celebrities I follow - like any musicians and models with that style - are known to create their own clothing in whatever they want to fit their style but I'm not capable of doing that.

I hate to be the annoying cliche here but- it's never too late to learn something new. And I say that because it's a lesson I've seen repeated by my mom and grandfather. They are constantly learning new things. Like my mum for example, she was 48 when she picked up silversmithing for fun, and now she kicks all the ass at 51.

Sewing is allegedly 'easy' to learn too!! (or so I am told)

I would love to get back into creative hobbies but sometimes I do feel like I'm holding myself back too? Sometimes like I'm blocking myself.

I felt this in my soul.

"Like I wanna spend my days doing my creative hobbies so bad, and then I just.. don't. and then I scream at myself internally." Yes. That.

yes. that. indeed.

Apparently autistic people have creative abstract imagination from it being creative abstract imagination and thought processes. So where is that creative abstract way of doing these creative hobbies in ways I think might've helped me. But no. It's completely blocked for reasons that I don't know why that is. And it doesn't make sense why that is.

I think this may be me as well too. I want to do all of the things but then I just don't, and its another wasted day of either doom scrolling or reading. (I read a LOT)

I do that too. Like.. I do hate telling people I'm autistic because I have always assumed people would notice based on my mannerisms since I always thought it was obvious. The people closest to me know. But I think it's different for strangers, like some know and some don't know too. But the moment I mention my diagnosis to some people, there is a portion of those people who do treat me differently. But, regardless if they treat me differently, I feel like they should accept to me as I am in every way. If they're just expecting me to accept them as they have been, they should accept me as I am. It's that simple. So I may be the biggest cunt ever in these situations, which is fine, that's how I am if I know someone won't accept me as I am. Doesn't matter if the people are family, potential friends, coworkers, and people in general. Like if people expect me to accept how they are, they should accept me as I am too. You can't have it one way. I've never been the masking type.

YOU GET IT. EXACTLY. they just expect to be accepted, it's not evena question in their minds. So I damn well will expect the same thing, and if they don't I call that ableism tbh. And I will not waste my time on them at all. Like god forbid someone be a little different.

I hate that it's even a thing. Like. The second you bring it up and you can see in that exact moment who will treat you differently. and I hate that.

Exactly! Just because I'm a "slow" learner doesn't mean I don't learn... Everyone has a different way of learning. Some people are visual type learners, some are verbal learners, and some are kinesthetic learners.

I've had friends who were labelled 'slow learners' but they weren't properly accomodated in school for the way that they learn, so of course when everyone elses needs are met and theirs aren't they're going to struggle.

I used to know which learning I was, but I honestly can't remember now. I just know I'm not a verbal one cuz I have a shit verbal memory.

Which reminds me. There's four different types of autistic types.. Just like four different personalities. Their Personality Types in Asperger's: Fixated, Disruptive, Approach and Avoidant. I'm not a disruptive type. But I can say that I'm primarily avoidant (with approach and fixated in the mix). Avoidant is definitely my personality but I also have some of the mannerisms of approach and fixated too. Is what I meant to say.

I had to google this, and I can semi-confidently say that off the bat I identify with the Fixated and Approach -> moreso the cant shut up than the personal space violations, the most. I'm not disruptive at all, and I have bouts of the avoidant, but moreso when I was younger. I'm going to have to do some more research tho to get a better grip on the terms. Thank you for this! This is new info for me.

You're what.. Six years younger than me? At least five years younger. I can't remember what your birthday is. If you ever did mentioned that.

April of '99! That makes you the age of a lot of my friends XD. Most of them are 4-12 years older than me.

My birthday is next week. Like Yoongi, I would actually be the grumpy old person (who isn't that old), who just complains about every young generation. "Back in my day, this happened.." Even if you are younger, at least you know what a vhs is. I think. I'm just assuming that you do.

I've started to reach the "back when i was young" age and it freaks me out just a little.

Don't disappoint me with this.

Yes I know what and how to use a VHS tape XD I had Rugrats and 101 Dalmations (and more) on VHS for the first like....7? years of my life. On a semi related note, my first car was a '98, so I also know and used to frequently use music tapes/cassettes as well.

Oh! Adding onto the story of the daughter friend. This was years ago.. About fifteen years? We bumped into each other again, and we talked during that time. And tried reconciling the friendship. Which was very stupid of me to think that. Because she was older than the last time, I was expecting her to be different. Like she matured. But no. So when we were trying to reconcile, she invited me over to her house to hang out with her and even invited me to sleep over too. Her and her father (this was before my parents stopped being friends with him) came to pick me up at my house, since their new house (after they've moved), was so far away. She brought her boyfriend with her. So instead of us hanging out as old friends trying to spend time together like I actually thought, was just me being a third wheel to her and her boyfriend the whole weekend. Like why invite me over if we're not spending time?!

I'm sorry (no I'm not) but like... what a bitch??? I would never do that to a friend (I have a longterm bf). Like. I cannot IMAGINE doing that to a friend ever. How stupid must she... actually, nevermind, it's clear from what you've told me that she's barely hanging on to the handful of brain cells she had years ago. I'm sorry she's a shit person, you deserve and deserved better.

That's another thing I hated about her. Safe to say that family is not in our lives anymore. So they're definitely horrible people in my opinion.

GOOD.

"(Made me giggle when I read it in the first place cuz owning up to things like that is something I am notorious for doing.)" Because I see no point in lying to people. I own who I am, the good and bad traits of me. The balance of who I am. So why waste time trying to be another person. Why waste time lying to people. So my honest seems like I'm an insensitive person, even a cunt a times, but I see no point in lying.

E X A C T L Y. I've been called blunt, intimidating, too honest, etc. And I'm just like??? I'm just not lying?? Why do you want me to perform a personality like a court jester in order to gain social approval???

"But the sun is such a beautiful thing to have in life, to not go out and greet her every now and then." Not when you have heat intolerance in life. Another reason why I've rarely left my house during the summer.

oh that's so valid. When I get super hot I get SO overwhelmed. Like I bike to work (fastest way to get there), and where I am hit temps around 30 C when I would bike home, so by the time I actually got home I was hot, sweaty, overstimulated and just, a mess.

I solved this by showering in freezing water every single day. But for the 15 minute ride home I am miserable.

The heat tolerance is part of the sensory overload in autism for me.. It has been something that I've always had since I was a baby. Were you ever underwhelmed or overwhelmed in different temperatures?

YES. I h a t e being to cold or too hot. A little more than normal on either end of the spectrum is okay, like if I'm going swimming I let myself get warmer than I'm comfortable with cuz I know I will be in the water soon, or I'll ket myself get a lil extra cold so I can cozy up in 15 layers of blankets. But I hate the extremes.

If you ever wanted to read about it. - 💋

This is marvelous. Thank you.

Thank you so much for this, it was so so lovely to hear from you again. I truly love it. Even if I suck ass at response times. Like I've said in the past, I absolutely will get to it, just in my own time. I never fully ignore anyone, I just demand to be in the right mental space to respond with the same energy given, and sometimes that takes time. I never want anyone to send something in and have it feel like a waste of their time because I don't respond in equal if not more excitement or whichever emotion is necessary.

That being said, I hope you're well. I hope your hair is an amazing colour. Thank you for the new info and resource link! You are darling and I adore you.

I hope to hear from you again!!