#and of course they all tease aaron for his MASSIVE heart but they also see the easy wide grin on his face
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lefthandedhotch · 1 year ago
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hehehehe linnnnn i found this on pinterest and it's sooooo sillyyyy <3333
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plssss thinking about aaron being suuuuch a dog dad🤭 after he retired, he was the one to adopt two (2!!!!!) dogs!!!! even though he said it was so your tiny little hotchner girl would have two buddies to run around with since jack is a teenager now and probably doesnt have the energy to chase around his little sister :')) (they still play together of course, he loves his lil sis and she loves him <333) but the dogs (as you told jack would happen) are his besties!!!!🤭🤭🤭🤭 whenever you're away on a case, you always get selfies of aaron and one or both the big doggy or the tiny doggy in the selfie with him and sometimes jack or your daughter would make an appearance <3 you looooove looking at your dog dad husband enjoying his post-bau life with his kiddos and his best dog friends :'))) you show the team the pictures and they always are sooo happy and proud of their former boss because they know it's what he deserves :')))))🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💞💞💞💞💞
pleaseeeeeeeeee he’s so cute :((((( 🥹🥹🥹🥹💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
it was absolutely the first case you were gone on without aaron after his retirement when you got a call from aaron asking “how mad would you be if you came home and we had a dog?” ALSHDKSJSKSKS 😭 but of course you have no problem with it!!!!! the kids have been begging for a dog for a while now (jack mostly, and his little sister just wants whatever her big brother wants 🤭) but!!!!!!! when you get home your hotchners, you find not one (1) dog but TWO (2!!!)!!!!!! one big sweet doggy and one little sweet doggy barking happily and jumping around your tiny girl while your teen boy uses treats to try and get them to sit but they are Much More interested in coming over to greet you 🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭 aaron gives you a sheepish grin when you kneel down to meet your new family members <3 and he tells you that when they went to the shelter to pet dogs they found this bonded pair of doggies :( who had been there for a while waiting for their forever family :( and as much as he’d like to say that the kids (and the dogs akshsjaj) turned their puppy dog eyes on him to bring the dogs home but honestly he was asking the shelter volunteers for their adoption papers before they could even tell you their names 🥺🥺🥺 and hearing that (both from your darling handsome aar-bear who you can’t wait to cover in the kisses, and from the kids) makes you fall in love with aaron all over again :’))))) knowing that he looked at these sweet doggies who needed a family to love them and Knew your family was theirs makes your heart squish HARD in your chest :’)))) he’s just so sweet :( and even in his retirement he can’t stop saving people 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
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goldentournesol · 4 years ago
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The Receptionist and the Profiler (One)
Chapter One: Wins and Losses
(Spencer Reid x f!Reader)
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If you’d have told high school senior Y/N that she’d be working at the FBI after graduating college, she would have never believed you. Not only did she have zero interest in law enforcement, she also seemed to lack any athletic skills to back her up. She was nothing like her fiancé, who’d had his heart set on joining the bureau since middle school. She and Grant Anderson were friends in high school and ended up getting together during their junior year. Anderson proposed to Y/N during her second year of college. She’d graduated almost two years ago now, but the wedding date was unknown. They’d been dating for four years and engaged for another four years with the wedding nowhere to be seen. He’d been the first and only boy–and man, to ever pay her half a mind. To her, that was good enough. Hell, she’d been with him for eight years, if she’d wanted to leave him, she’d have left long ago. Right?
Imagine her surprise when he’d told her that his new boss, Aaron Hotchner, was looking for a receptionist for the BAU. Fresh out of college, landing a secure job? That was a miracle, and she really did have to thank her fiancé for it. But everyone around her was so cool and she was just…there. Her job was basically to sort through files, organize Hotch’s meetings, among other things like making reservations at the hotels the agents stayed at on their cases. 
The Agents of the BAU.
They were essentially the coolest people she knew.
First comes Agent Gideon, one of the founders of the BAU. His ability to read people scares her sometimes. How can one man’s beady little eyes have the ability to read people like they were some kind of book stowed away on a dusty shelf? A shelf only he can reach.
Then, comes Agent Hotchner, the unit chief. A stoic man with an even more stoic face. He’s a man who, to put it lightly, takes his job very seriously. On more than one occasion has she met his wife, Haley. They made a beautiful couple in her eyes and they’d just had their child, Jack Hotchner. She never knew how a baby’s face could be so wrinkly–yet so cute. Haley and Aaron were high school sweethearts, much like she and Grant. But that seemed to be the only aspect they shared. Despite his suffocatingly hard shell, Aaron was a loving man. That much was obvious. She wondered if Grant had ever looked at her the way Aaron looked at Haley.
Agent Derek Morgan, where to begin? He was tall, dark, and every bit handsome. His charming nature made all the ladies of the sixth (and fifth, and seventh, and eighth and–) floor swoon over him anytime he walked by. He is one of the bravest men she’d ever known. His ability to put himself in the place of the unsub was something she’d only heard stories about–but it gave her chills every time.
Next comes Agent Elle Greenaway, one of the most headstrong women Y/N has ever met. Her bluntness can come across as harsh, but she knew a woman in law enforcement had to stand her ground to be treated with as equal respect as her male counterparts. She admired her strength.
Agent Jennifer Jareau, or as Y/N knew her, JJ, was a kind hearted, compassionate woman who’s way with words absolutely blew Y/N away. The way JJ handled the media with such finesse was simply astonishing. She knew she could never string together the right words like JJ seemed to, up on those podiums, in front of all those nosy reporters. It was mind blowing to watch her in her element.
Penelope Garcia, or otherwise known as literal sunshine embodied in a technical analyst. She was the best at what she did, hacking, searching, filtering. It was a science, and Penelope Garcia made it look easy. She and Y/N had grown close since both of them stayed at the office while the other agents flew around the country, solving cases. They’d often spend endless lunches together in Garcia’s ‘batcave’ as she called it and was practically hellbent on teaching Y/N how to use Photoshop every chance she got.
And last but certainly not least, Dr. Spencer Reid. She’d never met a man with a more brilliant brain. He was known as the resident genius, the expert on well–everything. The man had an eidetic memory and the ability to read 20,000 words per minute. Is that not the most impressive thing on the planet? Nope, he just has to have three PhDs in three of the most complicated fields of study: mathematics, physics, and engineering, achieving all three before reaching 22 years of age. 
He had joined the bureau about a year after Y/N had started there. She could remember their first interaction like it was yesterday. 
He had been in and out of meetings before spotting Y/N at her desk, where she usually stayed during her lunch break, at least for the first year she was there. She was halfway through a cup of mixed berry yogurt when Spencer came up to her desk to ask where the breakroom was. Y/N directed him to the room and followed his gaze to the yogurt container in her hands before he left.
“Did you know that the origins of yogurt are pretty much unknown, although historians agree that there was no mention of it before 5000 BC? It’s thought to have been invented by the Mesopotamians.” He said as he pursed his lips and raised his brows, as if realizing he made a mistake too late.
“No, I didn’t know that! That’s super cool. You must be Dr. Spencer Reid, right?” She said, giving him her full attention, which made him slightly more nervous than he had been previously. He nodded, a shy smile on his face.
“And you’re…” he looked for her name holder, “Y/N Y/L/N.” 
She giggled and the sound activated some kind of blood rushing mechanism right up into his cheeks, “Yup! I’m the BAU’s receptionist slash Agent Hotchner’s assistant, you know, nothing fancy but I like to think I’m pretty good at sorting through files.” She raised a brow and gave him an adorable smile and suddenly Spencer wasn’t so nervous to talk to her. 
She seemed way more interactive and easygoing than just about 98% of the people in the building. He wondered if it was because she wasn’t an agent. Spencer also wondered if gaining a title like ‘Supervisory Special Agent’ would make him cold like the others, but then he remembered he has three doctorates and already introduced himself with the honorific. 
She picked up on his silence, “You know, you have nothing to worry about, I overheard Agent Gideon talking about you landing the job with Agent Morgan.” She nodded her head towards a tall, muscular man, who Spencer gathered must be Morgan. Spencer smiled back at her, her words easing even more of the tension he collected in his shoulders.
“I wouldn’t be so sure, you should see the massive list of exceptions they have to make to let me into the field.” He said with a ghost of a smile on his face. She had to physically repress a laugh. And right then and there, the seed of a beautiful friendship was planted.
Fast forward to two years after that interaction, Spencer and Y/N became pretty much attached at the hip whenever he was actually in the office and not flying around the country catching serial killers. Their desks were quite far from each other, hers right near the glass doors of the BAU and his across the room right near the railing that had Hotch and Gideon’s offices as well as the conference room. It gave them both perfect views of each other, which they used to send each other encouraging smiles throughout the day, maybe a funny face or two. He always had a way of making her smile, she hadn’t felt the fuzzy feeling of friendship in years. Besides Garcia, Spencer was the only person who had made an effort to get to know Y/N. In the past two years, she’d say Spencer knew her better than anyone else, possibly even Anderson, but that was surely because he was a talented genius profiler…
Budget meetings at the FBI were definitely the most boring types of meetings in the world. She had to be there because she was the one making all the reservations at the hotels, but once they began talking about the jet and fuel consumption–Y/N totally spaced out. Spencer enjoyed the meetings, though. It definitely had nothing to do with the fact that Y/N would sometimes space out and let her head fall against his shoulder. The weight of her head brought him inexplicable comfort and joy. He hates it when people come near him, when did it become so endearing to him for her to trust him enough with such a simple gesture? He found himself attending the meetings and sitting next to her whenever he got the chance, hoping that one day, maybe, just maybe she’ll allow her head to rest upon his shoulder again. Perhaps it was pathetic, but he found himself feeling overjoyed at the thought of budget meetings, they became the only thing he’d look forward to. 
He wondered if this was how Anderson felt when she rested her head on his shoulder, but then his knee would start bouncing and he’d practically feel the envious monster growing in the pit of his stomach, so he’d stop. It certainly didn’t make it any easier to stop when it was so easy to look over and find Anderson leaning against her desk and flirting with her. Technically, he has every right to flirt with his fiancée, but that didn’t stop jealousy from coursing through Spencer’s veins violently.
The team had just landed last night, they were coming back from a case revolving around the famous actress, Lila Archer. Apparently, she’d had a stalker. Y/N couldn’t wait to hear the details of the case, she had watched almost all of Lila’s movies. She eagerly awaited Spencer’s arrival. Just then, she heard the ding of the elevator and saw a very sheepish -and flushed- Spencer with a very playful Morgan hot on his tail.
“Morning, pretty girl!” Derek halted his seemingly incessant teasing to greet her as they walked towards her. Spencer was oddly quiet as he tried to pass by, offering her a small, awkward wave instead of his usual smiley ‘good morning!’, but Derek grabbed him by the strap of his messenger bag. He made it his mission to embarrass Spencer as much as humanly possible when he woke up this morning. What Derek didn’t know was that Spencer wanted Y/N to be the absolute last person to know of what happened. Spencer shifted uncomfortably and was positive he was sweating more than he ever had in his 24 years of life.
“Morning, Derek! So, tell me all about it! Did you meet her? Of course, you met her, duh! What was she like? Was she a stuck up diva like her character in Wins and Losses or was she more down to earth?” Y/N questioned curiously with a hint of excitement.
“Oh, I think pretty boy here has all the answers you could ever wish for. After all, it wasn’t me who made out with a hot movie star in her own pool.” Derek laughed, eyes squinting as he clapped Spencer on the shoulder proudly. Neither of the two men caught the way Y/N’s face dropped. Spencer was too focused on looking anywhere but at her and Derek was too triumphant to look anywhere but at Spencer’s -alarmingly- red face. He attempted to clear his throat when the few seconds of stunned silence became much too suffocating. Derek turned back to Y/N just in time to see her collect her jaw from off the desk and morph it into a smile.
“Spencer Reid, you did what?!” She attempted to laugh in order to lighten the mood, hoping the two profilers wouldn’t pick up on her dis-ingenuousness. 
They hadn’t, thankfully.
Spencer’s shy eyes met her curious ones as he tried to imitate Derek’s proud smile,and he could have sworn he saw a sort of unfamiliar heaviness in her gaze, but it disappeared as soon as it came. 
Could it be? Was she feeling jealous? There’s no way, she thought. But what else could be behind the not so subtle burning feeling in her chest? 
“Um, yeah. She kind of pulled me into the pool with her…” he recounted with a small voice, scratching the back of his head nervously.
“And?” Derek said in anticipation, despite already knowing.
“Alright! We kissed a few times, what’s the big deal?” He huffed, turning to look at Derek and resisting the urge to punch him in the face for embarrassing him in front of Y/N.
Garcia suddenly appeared next to them, catching the looks between the two agents and Y/N’s shocked expression, “Oh! Are we talking about boy wonder locking lips with miss Lila Archer in her pool?”
Spencer’s face dropped, “How do you know about that?!” he all but screeched.
“I’ve got eyes and ears everywhere.” Garcia wiggled her eyebrows at Spencer before sharing a knowing look with Derek which led to a prompt punch to Derek’s arm from him which then led to an over exaggerated yelp of pain.
“I’ve also got photos!” Garcia said, quickly pulling out her PDA and showing Y/N.
“Garcia! How?!” Spencer exclaimed, but it was too late. Y/N was already scrolling through the photos, laughing.
“Spencer, you sly dog!” She laughed, though the situation awoke an unprecedented, seemingly underlying feeling of envy. Spencer rolled his eyes in embarrassment and stormed off in the direction of his desk, leaving the three of them behind. 
The rest of the day went by smoothly, although Y/N had to keep fighting against the way her chest felt tight every time she remembered those photos. She had a feeling she was never going to watch Wins and Losses ever again.
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aion-rsa · 3 years ago
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The Walking Dead Season 11: Who Lives and Who Dies
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This Walking Dead article contains major spoilers.
Many of us thought this day would never come, but as all of The Walking Dead‘s characters know very well, everything that has a beginning has an end. Season 11 of AMC’s flagship zombie drama will be the show’s final run of episodes, but fortunately it’s an expanded season. Fans will get 24 more episodes, broken up into three parts, before the show — and a few of its characters — meets its end.
And it wouldn’t be a season of The Walking Dead without a few big deaths along the way. As we have in past seasons, we’ve made some predictions regarding who will bite the bullet in season 11. For the final time, here are the characters we think are on the chopping block and the ones we believe will live on to remember them after the credits roll on the series finale.
Keep track of all The Walking Dead season 11 deaths below:
DEAD
Roy (C. Thomas Howell)
Prediction: Dies
Result: Dead
Roy took an arrow to the face during a Reaper ambush.
Gage (Jackson Pace)
Prediction: Dies
Result: Dead
Gage stabbed himself in the chest twice, attempting to kill himself before being devoured by walkers in a train car. Zombie Gage was then put down with a shot to the head by Gabriel.
ALIVE
Pope (Ritchie Coster)
Prediction: Dies
I’ve never seen a guy more likely to die in the first half of a Walking Dead season than Pope, the leader of the show’s newest villains, the Reapers, who themselves strike me as filler villains for Maggie and Daryl while the real story at the Commonwealth develops. I assume the Reapers will be out of the picture by the time Alexandria needs to turn its attention to the much larger settlement in the second part of season 11.
Pamela Milton (Laila Robins)
Prediction: Dies
The Governor of the Commonwealth is poised to be the final season’s big bad. A bureaucrat hellbent on preserving the way things were before the zombie outbreak, Milton even established a caste system within her settlement to propagate class inequality. She represents everything that was wrong with the world before the fall of society and the complete anti-thesis of how the Alexandrians do things.
If you’ve read the comics, you know how Pamela’s story ends in Robert Kirkman and Charlie Adlard’s story, but the TV series is known for taking sharp left turns when you least expect it. One thing we know for sure is that the Alexandrians will have to reckon with Pamela’s rule before the series finale.
Lance Hornsby (Josh Hamilton)
Prediction: Dies
A Commonwealth acolyte and bookkeeper of the community, Lance is one of Milton’s chief personnel, helping her run the settlement’s government. He’s also seems like cannon fodder to me as things heat up between the Commonwealth and Alexandria, an early death that could spark a conflict between the two factions.
Mercer (Michael James Shaw)
Prediction: Lives
Mercer is loyal to the Commonwealth but there are more sides to him than his distinct orange military armor lets on. He’s one of the most interesting characters of the comic’s final storyline, and it would be a shame to lose him before we can see his story through.
Elijah (Okea Eme-Akwari)
Prediction: Lives
Elijah made his debut in one of the most WTF moments of season 10 when he rescued Aaron and Alden from the Whisperers. For weeks after his reveal, people wondered who the man in the steal mask could be. When he returned in the final six episodes of season 10, the show just kind of moved on without fleshing him out, which is unfortunate since he looks so cool! I’m going to assume that the series is saving a big Elijah-focused episode for later in the season and that he’s too awesome to kill off. You don’t just introduce a blade expert in a steel mask for no reason!
Virgil (Kevin Carroll)
Prediction: Dies
Virgil has a lot to atone for after kidnapping and drugging Michonne in season 10. At the end of the season, we learn that he’s found a disoriented Connie in the woods. His redemption arc will likely include helping Connie survive on the walker-infested road back to Alexandria. Will that eventually involve a final sacrifice to save her?
Connie (Lauren Ridloff)
Prediction: Lives
Connie’s been through a hell of a lot in the past season. After surviving an explosion, a cave-in, and an entire walker horde, Connie’s made it out of Whisperer territory but is still a ways from home. Expect part of season 11’s story to be about Connie’s odyssey and ultimate reunion with her sister and Daryl.
Lydia (Cassady McClincy)
Prediction: Lives
Lydia was at the center of Alexandria’s conflict with the Whisperers for a season and a half. With Alpha and Beta defeated, and their faction all but obliterated, I have to wonder what Lydia has left to do on the show. That said, the writers have continued to find interesting ways to explore this character, and someone has to live on to lead the next generation of Alexandrians. I think Lydia is in it for the long haul.
Magna (Nadia Hilker)
Prediction: Dies
Magna was sidelined pretty quickly after her introduction. While a reunion with Yumiko seems like the logical direction for her story, The Walking Dead universe is a cruel one. She could be headed toward tragedy.
Yumiko (Eleanor Matsuura)
Prediction: Lives
In season 11, Yumiko is inheriting a major storyline from the comics that likely means she’ll survive the final 24 episodes of the series. Of course, the TV show could always alter that storyline to bring a tragic end to Yumiko’s story.
Luke (Dan Fogler)
Prediction: Dies
It’s pretty wild that Luke has survived as long as he has. A man of the arts hardly has a place in the cruel world of this show, but he has clumsily persevered thus far. But if the writers are planning an especially bloody final season, I’d put Luke on the short list.
Kelly (Angel Theory)
Prediction: Lives
Kelly has been one of the best late additions to the show. It would suck for her to finally reunite with her sister only to meet an unexpected end.
Alden (Callan McAuliffe)
Prediction: Dies
Another candidate for the chopping block. I’m surprised he’s even made it this long.
King Ezekiel (Khary Payton)
Prediction: Lives
Yes, Ezekiel has thyroid cancer, and were he in Alexandria, that would mean his inevitable death. But the Commonwealth is a different ballgame, an advanced settlement in the comics that will likely have the doctors and surgical resources needed to save him. That is, if Ezekiel isn’t caught up in Milton’s caste system.
Jerry (Cooper Andrews)
Prediction: Dies
I love Jerry and don’t want to see the tank with a heart of gold go. But if the season needs an early death that pulls at the heart strings, Jerry is a prime candidate for a midseason casualty.
Father Gabriel Stokes (Seth Gilliam)
Prediction: Lives
Gabriel has evolved so much since his debut in season 5, becoming one of Alexandria’s key leaders. He’s come so far and even survived longer than his comic book counterpart. I’d hate to see him go so close to the end. So I’m just going to say he lives.
Aaron (Ross Marquand)
Prediction: Lives
Aaron seemed destined to die seasons ago, too kind and trusting to survive this long. But here he is, still fighting and surviving. He’s lost the man he loves, his arm, and many friends — and it’s all hardened him into a war machine. It’d be a shame for him to die now.
Rosita Espinosa (Christian Serratos)
Prediction: Lives
In the comics, Rosita’s head ended up on a pike during the Whisperer war, but her TV counterpart has persevered. It’s difficult to predict where her story goes at this point, but since she survived her comic book death, I assume the show’s writers have something in mind for her in season 11.
Eugene Porter (Josh McDermitt)
Prediction: Lives
Eugene has become an unlikely protagonist going into season 11. From a mulleted coward hiding behind his intelligence so that others protect him to the Alexandrian leading his people to the Commonwealth, Eugene is central to the plot of the final season, and I think that means he’s safe. Plus, Eugene is hilarious, and The Walking Dead can always use a little comedic relief.
Judith Grimes (Cailey Fleming)
Prediction: Lives
Result: Lived
NO.
Rick Grimes Jr. (Antony Azor)
Prediction: Lives
Nah.
Negan (Jeffrey Dean Morgan)
Prediction: Lives
I think The Walking Dead is going to end with one last big death, one last sacrifice before the credits roll on the massive zombie drama. Like Rick in the comics, one of the major characters of the TV series will likely become the martyr who inspires change inside the Commonwealth’s walls. Negan would probably be on the short list for this big moment from the comics, a villain finally choosing to do the right thing for a cause bigger than himself, a fitting conclusion to his seasons-long redemption arc. But Jeffrey Dean Morgan recently teased that he was already having discussions with AMC about a potential Negan spinoff after The Walking Dead has concluded, which means the former Savior leader is safe…unless the Negan show is a prequel.
Carol Peletier (Melissa McBride)
Prediction: Lives
This one’s an easy one: Melissa McBride is getting her own spinoff that will follow her character after The Walking Dead series finale. That means she’s safe.
Daryl Dixon (Norman Reedus)
Prediction: Lives
Norman Reedus is joining McBride for that spinoff, so he’s safe, too. The actor even told us what the Daryl and Carol show will be about.
Maggie Rhee (Lauren Cohan)
Prediction: Dies
That leaves The Walking Dead with one logical choice to pick up Rick’s final storyline from the comic. It’s Maggie. It also makes a bit of sense from a logistical standpoint. Lauren Cohan has already left The Walking Dead universe once before to pursue other small and big screen projects. She’s back for the final 24 episodes of the series as a welcome legacy character but that doesn’t mean Cohan wants to stick around for longer than that. I assume Cohan’s returned to bring closure to her character, not to prepare for a spinoff.
Let us know your predictions for The Walking Dead season 11 in the comments!
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enchantedsugden · 5 years ago
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"I guess I am just worried I am holding you back or something” robert whispers, barely audible and aaron has to stop himself from gasping in shock.
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He’s had quite a bit to drink and feels himself getting giddy just at the thought of curling up to Robert.
The older man stirs slightly as Aaron slides into the bed behind Robert.
“Aaron?” Robert mumbles.
“Yeah it’s me.” Aaron presses a quick kiss to Robert’s shoulder. “Go back to sleep.”
Robert seems to wake up a bit and turns around to face Aaron, a frown on his face.
“Hey you.” Aaron says happily as he touches his husband’s cheek. “How are ya feeling?” He’s soft, he knows he is and maybe it’s the beer but it’s no secret to Robert that he feels so free to love and love some more when it’s just him and Robert. And he’s just happy. Happy because he's had a good night, happy because he gets to come back home to Robert, who never stops being adorable when he’s sleepy, happy because it’s the weekend and they have two days of just spending time together to look forward to.
“You’re back.” Robert says, still looking all confused.
“Yep, didn’t want to be without you for too long did I?” Aaron strokes Robert’s cheek softly before dropping his hand on the bed.
“But it’s not that late, is it?”
“No, the lads were going into town and I wasn’t really fancying it to be honest with ya.” Aaron shrugges, watches Robert closely, he almost looks upset and Aaron can’t fathom why.
“But hey I’m glad you’re happy to see me” he jokes.
“No no that’s not it. Of course I am you idiot.” Robert’s smiling, eyes sparkling slightly and Aaron is relieved. “I hate going to bed without ya you know that. If you had told me you’d be back early I’d waited for you.”
“Oi I don’t mind. You’re awake now aren’t ya. So give me a kiss.” Robert lets out a laugh as he leans forward. They kiss gently, Aaron hardly letting his husband come back up for air. When Robert moves back slightly, Aaron starts combing his hand through the older man’s hair.
“Why didn’t you fancy going into town?”
“Eh?” Aaron says looking confused before realising what his husband’s getting at. “Just didn’t. I was feeling quite tired and going into town seemed like a massive task. I had a fun night and then I fancied getting back to you.”
“Oh” is all Robert says and he’s back to looking sad again.
“What’s with all the questions anyway.”
“Nothing- I guess I am just worried I am holding you back or something” Robert whispers, barely audible and Aaron has to stop himself from gasping in shock.
“What are you on about Robert?”
“Well you were looking forward to it and then I wasn’t feeling too well and now you’re back already.”
“Well if it had been up to me I would've stayed here with you in the first place.”
“That’s what I mean.”
“Robert!” Aaron exclaims, he’s confused at his husband’s behaviour and can’t stop this panic from blossoming.
“I am holding you back.” Robert says again and Aaron sits up in bed as the older man mirrors him.
“Rob- where’s all this coming from, hey?” Aaron says, tone gentle. His husband is looking miserable, avoiding meeting his gaze. “It wasn’t the same without you, I like having you with me at all times. It’s mad that isn’t it, considering we’re married.” He says smiling, happy when Robert finally meets his gaze, a tiny smile on his face. I just wasn’t feeling up to staying out till later. Yeah, knowing you were here on your own and not feeling too well played a part as well. But to be honest with ya, I should have never let you push me into going to the pub anyway. I wanted to look after ya.”
“It was just a headache Aaron.”
“Yeah because you work too hard.”
“Don’t change the subject.”
“There’s nothing more to say! You’re being daft. Where did that all come from anyway?”
“Sorry. I was just worried.”
“Robert, talk to me.” Aaron says, he thinks he’s reassured his husband enough but he still wants to know what had Robert even thinking like that. Robert wasn’t holding him back ever.
“I am just being silly ignore me.”
“I won’t. And I’m sure you’re not being silly.”
“I was just overthinking, stupid idea really.”
“It often is with you yeah.” Aaron says revelling in seeing Robert smile again. He’s not going to let it go though, he keeps staring at his husband and Robert gets the hint.
“Fine.” He sighs, looking down for a second before meeting Aaron’s eyes again. “It was the other day as well.”
“Eh?” Aaron says, not at all understanding what Robert’s getting at.
“The other day at the scrapyard.”
“Oh.”
   Aaron’s suited and booted impressing some client outside. Robert’s staring at him through the cabin window and feeling all this pride. He himself is wearing a new shirt, floral patterned which Aaron had obviously lovingly teased him about this morning, completely accepting of the fact that Robert loved to wear floral.
   “Who’s this then.” Robert looks up from his desk at the booming voice.
“Oh- this is Robert, my husband.” Aaron smiles at him and Robert beams back, standing up to shake the man’s hand.
His grip is tight and something tells Robert that he shouldn’t like this man whose name is Barry, apparently. 
“Interesting choice there Aaron.” Barry says, smirking at the younger man.
“What do you mean?” Aaron asks, starting to look uneasy.
“Didn’t have him down as your type that’s all.” Barry laughs as if Robert isn’t standing right there. Aaron’s mouth opens slightly but he doesn’t seem to know what to say. 
“A floral shirt kinda guy.” Barry gestures at Robert rudely. “You’re always wearing black. Interesting pair is all I am saying, I don’t mean no harm.”
“I’ll leave you to it.” Robert says, trying his hardest to smile politely. Aaron is looking at him with wide eyes and Robert gives him a kind smile- as to say, don’t worry I am fine.
   He’s fine, he is, although he can’t seem to stop thinking about the remark all day. It’s still on his mind when Aaron comes home, finding him on the couch.
“He didn’t mean any harm by it Robert, you know that don’t you. He’s a bit of an old git but harmless enough. Plus he wants his company to work with us, we got the deal!”
And Robert kisses his husband. He’s genuinely pleased and so proud of Aaron.  The weird feeling left by Barry’s comment all but forgotten.
   Or at least that’s what he’d thought.
        Aaron’s heart squeezes painfully, had he dismissed and ignored his husband’s feelings that badly? He had genuinely thought that Robert had been okay after the good news. He grabs Robert’s hand, strokes his thumb over the back of it to show his husband support even though he’s still confused.
“Rob- I still don’t get what that has to do with you holding me back.”
Robert bites his lip, seems to be gathering his words. “Like I said I was thinking and it all just mixed together. The fact that I was here in bed, while you were having fun with your mates- and how you’re not at all into floral pattern or my clothes in general. And the fact you’re always making jokes about my age. And fucking Barry- practically pointing out we’re not a match. I can’t help but think I am not your type at all, like you should be with someone I don’t know- who goes out in tracksuit bottoms and doesn’t read the paper. You’re interested in going on tacky holidays and then you’re married to someone who likes champagne, someone like me. It feels like I am holding you back from doing things you enjoy.”
Really, Aaron would laugh, he would, if it wasn’t for his husband being and looking so upset. It was clear that Robert really had been overthinking, and that all these random thoughts had come together, making the biggest mess. Robert’s pouting slightly but also genuinely looks devastated by it all and Aaron can’t have that.
“Robert look at me please.” He says, reaching out to cup Robert’s cheek.
“I said it was silly- you’re laughing.”
“No, no I am not. Well, not because you’re upset, I hate that and never want that. It’s just- all of that is just pure bullshit Rob. So listen to me yeah? I am so so happy with you, and you know when I am at my happiest? When you are happy. I love you Robert that’s it. Yeah we don’t have the same tastes, in clothes or music and you are a good cook, you like to dance, you read. But I love all that because it’s you? And I love you. So many couples don’t have everything in common, that doesn’t mean they are not a match. And there’s so much more to it all then just hobbies and interests. When is say I love everything about you, I mean it Rob. I love how you care and love so much, and I admire the way you tried and still try to be the best man you can be. Which you already are Rob, you’re a good man, the best I know. I wouldn’t want anyone else by my side. I want you next to me walking down the road in a suit for absolutely no reason whatsoever. If I go out for a run and have to pick someone to come with me – it would always be you even if you slow me right down with your dodgy lung. You never hold me back by doing the things you love. Because most of it I love too. You’ve taught me to like champagne haven't ya? And when we go on holiday together we do things we both enjoy. And like I said, to me it doesn’t matter, I love seeing you happy and I know you feel the same. Whatever we do, as long as I am with you I’m happy. It’s just you Rob. I love you. And I don’t want you to ever change anything for me ever. You’re perfect as you are.”
 Aaron gulps, the lump in his throat painful. He didn’t mean to get so emotional but there wasn’t really any way he could stop it. He just hopes it’s enough, absolutely hates the thought of Robert believing his own negative thoughts.
Aaron lookes at his husband, he has a few stray tears rolling down his cheek but other than that he’s glowing and it’s the best thing in the world to Aaron.
“God I-I love you so much. Thank you. I’m sorry for being so silly. I do think we’re a match- I promise. I was just worried that you-“
“That I wouldn’t think that.” Aaron finishes for him, giving him a pointed look. “You’re an idiot you know that.” Aaron says, going back to stroking his husband’s cheek and deciding to turn really soppy. “I don’t even think I’d match with anyone else. You’re just my person and that has nothing to do with whether we both like to read or embarrass ourselves on the dancefloor.”
“Oi you. But I know it was stupid- everything just got muddled in my head.”
“I know. You have nothing to apologize for.” Aaron grabs both of Robert’s hands. “To be honest I am the one who’s sorry. I didn’t realise how much Barry had gotten to you.”
“Hey no. I was fine really but it just got added to the mess in my head.” Aaron nods, worrying his lip slightly.
“What is it?”
“I’ve never made you feel bad about being older have I? I swear Robert- it’s always just me joking. Like there’s any difference anyway, it’s irrelevant but I never mean to upset you.”
“Aaron no- no. It was just another thing, I think this headache really was on another level.” Robert says, jokingly. “And please don’t ever stop making those jokes, seriously, I don’t want you to change anything either. It’s just our thing isn’t it? I know you’re only joking.”
“Good. And I won’t old man.” Robert laughs, punching Aaron lightly on the arm.
“Oh and that headache of yours- it’s probably all that worrying. Just talk to me yeah? About anything, always.”
“I know I promise. We’re already so much better at that than we used to be though.”
“Oh god yes. Oh and also, they aren’t just my mates Robert, they are ours and it wasn’t like you didn’t want to come. We all know you would have loved to show off on the dancefloor again. You’re allowed to get ill, Rob. Ellis and Matty were worried about you, you know? People love and care about you. They don’t just put up with you because of me. And we all know Jimmy is practically obsessed with you. You’re really popular, you.”
Robert laughs looking all carefree and happy “are we popular?”
“I’d say we are.” Robert smiles and Aaron matches it before leaning forward to press a gentle kiss to his husband’s mouth. He sighes, “promise me you’ll call or text me next time, when you’re feeling like this again, like your head’s getting all messed up.”
Robert opens his mouth ready to protest but Aaron stops him. “And that wouldn’t be you holding me back.”
“Okay okay. I promise.” Robert says, a cheeky grin on his face. “I love you, thank you. I don’t know what I’d do without you.”
“I love you too, so much. And good thing that you never have to find out then.”
Robert leans forward to kiss his forehead before lying down, pulling Aaron with him. Aaron lays his head on his husband’s chest, tiredness suddenly overwhelming him.
“So you will wear another one of your floral shirts tomorrow then?”
“Shut up. You hate them.”
“I don’t actually, I think you look cute in them.”
“Really the look I am going for.”
“Idiot.” Aaron mumbles, sitting up slightly so he can kiss Robert’s forehead, nose and finally, his lips.
“Goodnight Rob.”
“Goodnight Aaron.”
 And they fall asleep like that, Aaron’s head on his husband’s chest, Robert’s arms around him. A perfect match, Aaron thinks before he drifts off to sleep.
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kellykadesperate · 7 years ago
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make a wish and celebrate
As if I could not write a drabble for my idiot’s birthday. Go crazy:
There's a gentleness about the way the world works at three in the morning, things are quieter and soft in a way that makes Robert grateful. He blinks his eyes open softly against the darkness of the room, rubs his hands over his eyes a little and looks at the clock.
The time shocks him a little, he wasn't sure how late it was and so he decides to just creep back under the sheets and pretend like he hasn't woken himself up a little in hope of getting some work done. It's too late for that now.
He moves Aaron's arm up a little, attempts to be careful and then he feels the younger man groan a little before his eyes widen and he drags Robert closer towards him. "What's the time?" He asks through a mumbled face down on the pillow.
Robert can't bring himself to look at the clock to check again so shrugs out, "About three." He whispers, and Aaron turns to face him suddenly with this sleepy smile on his face.
"Happy birthday." Aaron says, eyes still closed as he speaks and Robert laughs a little breathlessly because he doesn't really care all that much about it anyway. He's just another year older and although Vic wants to do something for him in the pub, Liv's not here and it doesn't get to feel the same. He kisses Aaron all the same though, at first it's chaste and then Aaron tugs at Robert's shirt and drags him down like he wants more.
"Shouldn't I be the one demanding kisses?" Robert mumbles against Aaron's flushed face, kisses at his neck a little before feeling Aaron pull a hand through his hair. "I am the birthday boy."
Aaron gives him this soft smile and wraps an arm around Robert's waist, draws small circles into the left side and then nods. "Yes you are, you can demand anything you like when the sun's up." He says, because he'd love to shag the life of his brilliant, good looking bastard of a husband but Seb got down way too late to allow any fumbling at 3 am.
"Anything?" Robert teases, eyes filled with an intensity that Aaron almost cannot ignore. It's why he slides a hand up through Robert's shirt and it makes the older man catch his breath suddenly.
"Within reason." Aaron says because he's Aaron and Robert rolls his eyes. "Happy birthday." He whispers again, gentle and in love and Robert already knows the day is going to go better than he ever planned.
~*~
The sun spills into the room and Robert feels it warm against his skin and thinks about the fact that they've been blessed with good weather.
He's also reminded of the fact that Aaron has banned him from talking about global warming because apparently when Robert is stripping as soon as he gets home because of the heat and the effects of global warming, it's a massive turn off.
Robert squints against it and then suddenly feels Aaron's mouth on his neck, kissing and kissing and counting and Robert's noes scrunches up a little before he's smiling. He remembers this last year, thirty one kisses. He also remembers thinking that he'd never have it this year or the next or the next, just never again.
Aaron finally finishes his sappy ritual that he tells himself is not at all soppy but actually just sexy. "And, thirty two." He says, with a smile on his face. He's basically straddling Robert and he stares down at the beauty of the man who doesn't look a day over twenty with his hair flat against his forehead and his freckles shimmering in the sunshine. He looks so beautiful that it makes Aaron almost have to catch his breath. But he's not that much of a sop.
"That was enjoyable." Robert mumbles, eyes soft around the way Aaron looks at him. He suddenly strokes over Aaron's arms and it makes the younger man smile even wider and dive down towards him.
"Happy birthday you." Aaron whispers and Robert kisses him passionately, almost pounces on the feel of Aaron being his again and it's fucking ridiculous considering they've been so perfect lately and he really should get over the fact that they ever weren't but -
He'll never ever take something as amazing as Aaron waking up with kisses on his birthday, for granted. He just won't.
"Rob," Aaron laughs out as Robert keeps kissing him and won't let him go. "I'm trying to be romantic and make you breakfast downstairs you dick." He pokes out and Robert gasps a little before smiling.
"Stay here." Robert whines, "Breakfast can wait -"
Aaron raises an eyebrow. "Oh and you're dick can't?" He says, and Robert smirks before pressing his body towards Aaron and smiling.
"Stop trying to be romantic and just come here." Robert demands softly and Aaron obliges and -
He's starting to really feel like the birthday boy.
::
He's got a flipping card from Chas and Paddy when he finally manages to get down the stairs and something almost flips in his stomach as he sees what they've written.
It's not that much and Paddy's only written his name at the end but Robert will take the sentiment of them wishing him a good day. He remembers times when they didn't wish for him to have a good flipping life so every little thing means it lot. Well it should anyway.
Aaron's busying himself in the kitchen when Robert looks through his cards and then spots when it awfully childish handwriting. He frowns against it and then almost on cue Seb starts losing his mind so Aaron runs up to get him.
Robert opens the card and stares at the front of it until Aaron's on the stairs with Seb on his hip looking all cautious.
"Bit daft but I thought you'd like it." Aaron whispers as he approaches Seb who of course stopped whinging as soon as Aaron held him and stroked his hair.
The card says, 'Happy Birthday Daddy' and his soft absolute sap of a husband has actually gone to the effort of writing even worse to try to be like Seb. It's beautiful and endearing and Robert literally nearly cries.
There's tears in his eyes a little and Aaron strokes his hair a little. "Take it you did then?" He whispers and Robert nods his head slowly. "Good." He says and then Robert is kissing the life out of him in their kitchen in only his boxers and he's deliriously happy about everything until Seb slaps his face and demands attention.
"Oi, it's your daddy's birthday. No hitting until 'at least midday." Aaron coos over Seb in a way that makes Robert's legs turn to jelly before he's poking at Aaron's stomach and smiling at the way he looks at him. "So..." Aaron says once Seb is rolling about on his play mat in the living room and shouting about something to himself. "Vic's coming soon to grab Seb and then - we're going out."
Robert scoffs a little, a frown on his face. "You booked somewhere?" He says and somehow Aaron and fancy restaurants doesn't seem to link, Aaron cooking him a meal though seems even weirder though so Robert has no idea what he's up to.
Aaron suddenly turns bright red and goes all insecure suddenly. "Well no, I mean we can hardly afford it but -" his almost flipping cringes. "Shit, I bet it's going to look ridiculous now but -" Robert stands and kisses him gently.
"I can't wait Mr Sugden." Robert shrugs his shoulders and it's been a while since they've been this relaxed and soft around each other. The past few days have been tense and upsetting and challenged them in a way that Robert wasn't ready for but being like this still happens, and Robert is still so grateful that it almost aches.
::
The massive surprise is a day out in the fields and Aaron literally bangs on about how fucking stupid it is all the way to the spot where they last had their picnic.
He remembers then, being happy and light and the only focus being on just how blue Aaron's eyes are and how brilliantly brave he was. The sun is still out and Robert has also been teased the whole way about how much of a dad he looks in his sunglasses.
He doesn't quite get the link but Jimmy agreed with Aaron when he saw them so apparently it's divine law or something. Robert can hear Aaron still yapping about how shit everything is when he finally opens his eyes and is allowed to actually look at Aaron's fine work.
There's a blanket laid out on the field and a proper posh hamper with absolutely everything Aaron promised he'd never ever buy because it's fucking extortionate apparently. But he's gone to the effort hasn't he? All wild salmon and sour cream and cress.
It isn't much but somehow it manages to tug straight at Robert's heart in this beautiful way and Aaron has nothing to worry about at all.
"I bought your laptop as well, some films for us to watch whilst it's nice out." Aaron shakes a hand through his hair and bites his lip as Robert stares around at the place. "It's not -"
"It's amazing, you idiot." Robert blurts out and suddenly it's like he's back to when they were this secret. It's like, them having the responsibility of a baby and Liv somehow makes times like this so much more enjoyable and soft and theirs to relish in. He feels like he did when he got to spend hours at Home Farm in his pants eating cold pizza and playing video games with Aaron and no amount of years will make that memory fade.
"Yeah?" Aaron says, all unsure and soft and Robert nods. "That's a relief." He mumbles gently and Robert comes towards him, all delicate and appreciative and Aaron smiles. "Just wanted you to have something good." He says, rubs at Robert's arm and then pulls them down on the blanket.
"Well this is good. Why am I sending that you're trying to make up for something here?" Robert scoots closer to Aaron and stretches his long dangly legs out so that Aaron sit in between them and look straight at him.
The question makes Aaron blush, head drop and shoulders rise and fall suddenly. "You've been amazing these past few days and - I don't know how I would have coped without you here." Because he had to cope without Robert when Liv was being called a skank and kissing Gabby and that hurt. He knows what it's like and he never wants to go through that again. "It's been a bit rubbish lately, I know that." He squints against he sun and then shakes off his ridiculous insecurity before opening up the hamper wider and watching Robert lose his whole mind over jam.
"Where'd you get -"
Aaron sighs. "I placed an order with that posh farmer's shop that you always look at when we're in town." He was so mortified that he had to do it over the phone and pick it up with sunglasses on like a dick. He smiles as he watches Robert pick up some marmalade or whatever and then his husband's face is falling a little.
It's like Robert is eight again and his mum's in the kitchen making him breakfast. He can almost still remember the absolute sweetness of the air and it clutches at his heart and won't let go. "Mum used to buy this exact one." He waves it up in the air a little and then strokes over the writing. "Thought it was so expensive when I was younger." He chuckles a little and then feels Aaron place a hand on his thigh. "I'm not upset. I'm - it's nice." He says and then he leans over and kisses Aaron quickly.
"I'm glad." Aaron says thickly, because in that moment, Robert looked so vulnerable as he thought back and Aaron just wanted to hold him forever. "Let's eat then birthday boy." He says and it doesn't take long for Aaron to get through most of everything.
Only he's refusing to eat olives and the beers he has are slowly dwindling down so he has to make do with drinking wine from the bottle.
"Dead classy that." Robert says, relaxed against the sun and the way Aaron is a fucking idiot sometimes. Aaron turns to look at him and smiles smugly.
"It's why you married me mate." Aaron says and Robert rolls his eyes before attempting to reach out for the bottle. "Wait your turn," Aaron chastises him and that only starts some ridiculous year four style brawl across the grass and Aaron is breathless against it as Robert pins him down against the blanket.
"It's my birthday." Robert says and Aaron rolls his eyes and pulls at Robert's shirt before his smacking their faces together and kissing him hard and fast over and over again. Because it's his birthday so he deserves all of this, well he does anyway, but it's not been great recently and Aaron wants him to know how much being like this is still one of his favourite things in the world.
"Love you." Robert catches his breath as he rolls off Aaron and holds his hand, they're tangled against the blanket and half the food has gone now and he just loves Aaron.
For this, for taking some sort of time out to come down and set everything up and order food and go the trouble of actually getting a blanket for them.
For being a thoughtful husband and knowing that despite what Diane and Chas said, he didn't want some big lunch or anything like that. He wanted Aaron and Aaron and Aaron and a soft sort of day where everything doesn't feel heavy or dramatic. And Aaron's given him just that.
Aaron turns towards him and nods. "I know you do." He says, body tingling against the way he catches Robert looking at him at the oddest times. He looks like if he took a photo of some moments and carried it around with him, he'd be able to show anyone that love exists and is so clear to see. He remembers thinking fucking sappy stuff like that on the night of their wedding, photos scattered around him and desperate to remember the exact look on Robert's face in all of them before he was behind bars and they couldn't show anyone. "And I love you, so much." He says, runs a hand through Robert's hair and kisses him. "And this." He says.
Robert blinks a little quickly. "Thought I was getting boring?" Because Liv had said it and Aaron had fucking laughed like the twat he is and Robert is not boring. Aaron slaps his chest and laughs a little before shaking his head.
"You are not boring." Aaron says, "You're just domesticated." He shrugs, "Never thought I'd be saying that about you. Robert Sugden, domesticated with me." He bites his lip against it and then his eyes grow heavy with how much all of this means to him.
"Me either." Robert mumbles, "A few months ago, I was destined to spend the day with Seb and Vic." He says. "When all I would have wanted was you." Because it's his birthday and he knows that things have gone so quickly and they're so settled now but he cannot help but think about how different it would have been if Aaron hadn't given him a chance.
"Well you've got me." Aaron says. "Oi, birthday boy, you have me now and next year and the next year and -" Robert covers Aaron's mouth with his hand and then his mouth.
"Forever then?" Robert mumbles, against Aaron's stubble. Aaron nods a little and then blushes as he holds Robert's hand.
"I can take you on a cruise for your next birthday." And there's a giant fucking dig there that makes Robert poke at Aaron suddenly and he starts laughing.
"I'm not *that old you idiot." Robert says, "Soon, you'll be catching up to me and there won't even be a difference." Aaron scoffs a little.
"Whatever you say birthday boy." Aaron mumbles, soft hands stroking Robert's chest.
"I say," he looks around the field and then at the portacabin and grins. "You up for it?"
And as Aaron drags him into the cramped shed of a place and starts stripping Robert, he's definitely still the birthday boy.
::
Aaron looks ridiculously and rather embarrassingly proud when Diane grabs ahold of Robert and kisses his cheek and Victoria makes the most out of being able to poke fun out of her brother for getting so old.
"Poor Aaron having to walk around with an OAP." Vic laughs and Robert just raises an eyebrow and sighs.
Aaron comes over to join them, draining his pint and rubbing a hand over Robert's shoulder lovingly. "Nah, he's still pretty fit." He says, and there's a warmness about him, fuzziness in his heart and it's because he drank wine from a flipping bottle.
"Thanks." Robert says delicately, finds Aaron's hand in his under the table and Vic smiles at them.
"God you're so flipping soppy." Vic says, still smiling and Robert looks at the way Seb is waving his arms around and trying to get to Robert. Aaron takes him though, all comical and happy and with this massive grin on his face.
"I'll take him, you've got a call coming in any second now." Aaron says, Seb hitting his face and playing with his beard all excitedly.
Robert frowns against his words and then suddenly there's an unknown number ringing him in. It takes him a second to properly understand but when he does he suddenly answers.
"Hello?" He says softly and it's Liv's voice at the end of the line. She says hello back and there's something kind about the way she speaks to him.
"They let me ring early, I said I had to wish my sort of brother happy birthday." Liv says, and Robert gulps hard and watches as Aaron smiles at him. "Happy birthday then." She says and Robert walks towards the back room for a little more quiet.
"Thanks. How are you doing?" Because that's all he wants to know, he couldn't really give a ross about his birthday when it's compared to how Liv is doing behind bars.
"It's not about me today, for once. But I'm okay, got my head in a few books because there's nothing else to do here."
And Robert smiles against that, he smiles against the fact that his little sister is going to do brilliant and she can shove her GCSE results right in that judge's 'no future' shit she politely sprouted. "I'm so glad." He says, and then suddenly there's just this quietens between them.
"Good. I - I just wanted to make sure you were having an alright day. I suppose Aaron hadn't put his finger out on a fancy restaurant."
And she laughs as soon as Robert mentions the picnic. It's a sound he's missed so much and it's not even been a week yet but he wants a card from her that only says her name and a single 'x'
"I miss you." Robert says suddenly. "We all do." He whispers, and he's not going to get choked up but he's older now and this is just another year where he gets to say that he has a family.
"I miss you too." Liv admits, "Just look out for Aaron for me." And he still just wants to hug her. "And Seb."
And that make his chin wobble a little and he blows out a breath. "Love you Liv." He says, hears the sound of girls giggling as they pass by and he freezes a little as she clearly waits for them to pass.
"Love you too, happy birthday old man."
With that, she hangs open and Robert suddenly has something in his eyes. Aaron comes in with Seb gurgling about a little and he's clearly obsessed with Aaron's beard nowadays.
"She wanted to surprise ya." Aaron says, balances Seb and then holds a hand up towards Robert's shoulder and squeezes hard. "How did she sound?"
"Brave. Just like you did." Robert says softly, looks up at Aaron. "I love you." He says, and Aaron frowns a little before nodding and kissing him gently. "Can't wait till we're all together again." He says softly against Aaron's neck and the way Seb bobs his head around with joy.
"Me either." Aaron sniffs past his emotions and smiles. "But let's not that think about that now. It's your birthday you twat." He keeps reminding Robert and feels like shit for taking anything away from his special day. But then Robert reminds him that he's not ten and Aaron stops. "Come back inside." He says.
Robert nods and Aaron grabs his hand and leads him back out into the pub. When he's standing on the other side of the bar, the lights suddenly dim and -
Vic carries out a cake for him, everyone's singing and laughing and Robert can actually hear the Dingle's wishing him a happy birthday and it feels surreal. When it comes round to the whole making a wish thing, he looks straight at Aaron and the way he bounces Seb and points towards the cake and all he wishes is that he gets to keep them forever.
He wishes that Liv is in between them and the room is brighter and it never ever fades away.
Everyone claps and cheers and Robert sees his name written on the cake, Marlon too smug that he had to help Vic with the icing of it. Somehow Robert's birthday cake became a project and he blushes under the argument taking place between the pair before he looks at Aaron and catches his breath.
He's just being himself, pacing the room a little and trying to keep Seb happy because he's getting a little overwhelmed with all the faces telling him he's adorable. And Aaron's not wearing anything special but is special isn't he? Just standing there with his hair all soft and curled and looking like a fucking dream.
And then he goes and waves at Robert just as Cain offers him to buy him a pint, mouths out 'I love you' like he doesn't care who sees and then 'happy birthday' and Robert isn't sure how he hasn't turned into a pile of goo on the floor.
::
Robert's eaten too much cake to move off from the sofa and put a sleeping Seb in his crib so he just watches him with a smile on his face until he hears Aaron coming down the stairs.
He's in a suit for absolutely no reason because it's nearly half seven and they're clearly not going anyway.
"What's all this for then?" Robert mumbles, his stomach in knots as he sees how beautiful Aaron looks. He imagines Aaron like this in his dreams and it's too embarrassing to admit to how much it makes his whole body flip.
Aaron has a blue balloon behind his back and smiles before pulling it in front of him and shrugging. "You do prefer me in a suit." And he'll only go to the effort of digging out his blue suit for Robert only once a flipping year. Or maybe more than that. Aaron Dingle is fully aware that he can be a thoughtful soft sap when it comes to his family and especially when it comes to the bloke who he's in love with.
Robert's mouth is a little dry and he has to gulp hard. "I prefer you naked." He says, only Aaron scoffs and points to Seb.
"Not in front of the little one." And Robert adores when he calls Seb that. It literally makes his heart melt and everything feel fuzzy. "It's sort of a present for you." He waves a hand out over himself smugly and then places the ballon closer to Robert before bending down and getting out a packaged parcel and handing it over.
They're almost synchronised in the way that he passes the present and Robert passed him a sleeping Seb and it all goes fine before the little boy is crying and demanding to be held over Aaron's shoulder.
Robert struggles with Aaron's awful attempt at wrapping and then opens up the present to reveal what's inside. At first he isn't too sure and Aaron holds his breath as he watches him. There's a small car inside, some old vintage one that Robert is obsessed with. He smiles down at it and then hears the sound of an envelope being put on the table. As he opens it Aaron suddenly can't contain himself.
"I haven't bought you a car." He blurts out. "But it's - like some day where you can go and race all the old ones. Try it out. I don't know - maybe when we're millionaires I could track one down for you." He's clearly all nervous but he doesn't have to be because Robert is so touched.
"It's amazing." Robert says, like he's flipping five. "I've always wanted to - wait how did you -"
"I'd like to think I know you." Aaron shrugs, bends down a little and Robert takes the opportunity to kiss the life out of him. Aaron's lips are almost bruised by the time Seb decides that he really needs to be put to bed and Aaron's going up with him.
Robert's caught up in the softness of the present and the fact that Aaron managed to deliver it with a suit on just because. The car looks pretty expensive, one of those collectible items that Aaron turns his nose up at but apparently that doesn't matter when it comes to Robert.
The thought makes him feel so suddenly overwhelmed and then he spots Aaron's card. The only one he hasn't opened yet.
It's a typical one really and him and Liv are almost the same person sometimes.
He's written 'Dear Robert' like normal and then he's gone and tugged straight at Robert's heart with his words.
He's all 'You deserve have the best day, and I hope you do' and 'I love you so much' and then he signs it with 'All the love in the world, Mr Sugden' and Robert can't help but think about the fact that he'll keep it forever.
::
Robert won't stop googling this flipping vintage car track thingy and Aaron's almost regretting his kind gesture. Almost.
They're in bed now and they've already stuffed themselves with Chinese and somehow managed to enjoy two rounds of birthday sex before Robert almost passed out and Aaron had to slap his cheeks a little with a concerned look on his face before he smiled.
Now, Robert's glued to his phone and Aaron's a needy bastard who lines up Robert's freckles with his finger and kisses at his shoulder. "I get it. You like the present." He says, and he can hear the way Robert is still flipping panting.
It's almost hilarious and when he drops his phone down on the side and looks at Aaron, he's almost still blissfully dazed like he was a few minutes ago.
"I like you more." Robert says, and apparently having wine with a Chinese just like Aaron said, wasn't a good idea. He's sloppy with how much love he shows Aaron and kisses him on the neck as the younger man wriggles away a little and laughs.
"You had a good day then?" Aaron whispers, combs through Robert's hair the way his knows his husband like it and then kisses his head when he feels him nod.
"Almost doesn't feel real." Robert admits, because Aaron's probably said happy birthday to him about thirty times today and he had a small little celebration in the pub and a handmade cake and -
"What? Being another year older than me?" Aaron tries to poke but then Robert's looking up at him all sincerely.
"Having you back." Robert whispers and Aaron goes to say something but he places a hand down on his chest. "I never thought I'd have you here, have your mum and Paddy singing me happy birthday. Because of all those things I did and -"
"If you tell me you don't deserve a day like today then -"
"Sometimes I feel like I don't." Robert has his head dropped a little and Aaron raises him gently.
"That's why I'm here to tell ya." Aaron says to him. "You deserve this, me putting on a suit for you and you getting to take it off." He smirks it a little and Robert warms. "I know what you mean though, there was a time I didn't think I'd get to treat you on your birthday ever again and it hurt." His chin threatens to wobble, only Robert rubs at his cheek and he smiles instead. "But look at us eh?"
Robert looks down at the way their hands are locked together and Aaron shudders a little like he's preparing to say something soft.
And oh, he delivers.
"I promise to keep being this - this soppy and stupid on your birthday every single year okay? Forever." Aaron whispers, eyes almost watering because he wants Robert to know how much he absolutely adores him and how much today has meant to him too. "Because I love you so so much."
Robert suddenly kisses him, pulls a hand around the back of Aaron's neck and smiles at the way Aaron kisses him back with just as much heat. It's beautiful, and soft and it's nearly not his birthday but who the fuck cares about time when Aaron's promising to be like this for the rest of his life.
It's almost overwhelming and he cannot think of anything other than the fact that he's so lucky to have this little life of his, in spite of all the bad. He almost gets emotional against it and then Aaron is moving away and diving down towards the bedside table.
"One last thing." Aaron passes over a small box and if Robert wasn't already wearing a ring he'd lose his shit. Aaron brings the sheets up over his naked body and shivers a little as he waits for Robert to open it.
And when he does, Aaron suddenly smirks and can't stop smirking. Robert, on the other hand, is completely flawed by the fact that his long lost watch is in a new velvet lined box.
"I lost this." Robert frowns as he brings it out of the cushion and holds up against the fading light of the moon. "Ages ago. Remember I asked you if -"
Aaron pulls a face, soft and warm and childish.
"You found it and didn't tell me?"
Only,
"It was never lost. I just wanted to keep something of yours." Aaron shrugs, like it's no big deal or anything like that but Robert's heart swoons.
He suddenly pulls Aaron closer to him and kisses him gently on the mouth before gazing at his blue eyes. "You, Aaron Dingle, are an absolute softy."
And Aaron will take that, here, in their bed, naked and spent and just happy. If Robert goes around saying anything to anyone then that will be a different story.
"Only for you so don't go around telling people I hoarded my then exes watch for months and months before giving it back to him as a birthday present." Because it sounds flipping weird but Robert is given him heart eyes like he thinks it's the best thing in the world and that's all that seems to matter really.
Robert kisses him again and then slides down beside him, hugs at Aaron's frame and sighs contently.
"Had a good day." Robert says through a yawn. "'Cause of you." He whispers. "Always - always 'cause of you." And Aaron's heart swoons in this embarrassing way before he squeezes Robert's hand.
"Good. Happy birthday." Aaron mumbles back, strokes Robert's hand now and then sighs. "Love you."
And Robert kisses Aaron's hand, yawns again. "Love you too." He mumbles, with an absolute softness about him that makes him feel like he's ten years old who's had all his jelly and ice cream and the best present in the world.
It makes something flip in his head just as he closes his eyes and dreams about having days like this year after year after year.
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allfourthefoxes · 3 years ago
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Katelyen x Kevin x Aaron
Katevaaron if you will
They all have a blast together
Katelyen and Kevin have the same obscure sense of humor and even though Aaron doesn’t get it he loves seeing them happy and joking around
They’re nerds who everyone thinks are jocks but when they pull up to trivia night they don’t play around
They all get insanely competitive together
They also help each other study
Katelyen being is proud of her boys and loves cheering them on with the vixens
Katelyen likes to take them out on spa days
She’ll give them massages and run baths for them after a particularly long day
The boys love to take her out to dinner or get her favorite foods
Kevin loves to spend insane amounts of money on them (half of their closets are designer even though they’d be perfectly happy in goodwill clothes)
Aaron loves to do things for them he does most of the laundry, the cooking, the dishes, anything he can do to make the day less stressful
Theme park dates
Aaron can’t go on some of the rides but fear not cause Katelyen always has a way to lie and get him in there
Kevin can be really scared by some roller coasters (he doesn’t like indoor ones in the dark) so if possible he sits in the middle and both hold his hand or if it’s only two seats he’ll just sit with one of them for support
Katelyen always wants to get all dressed up and dresses the boys up too
Katelyen and Aaron (especially Aaron) have to cling to Kevin otherwise they’ll loose each other
Also Kate and Aaron showing up to Kevin’s games wearing his jersey number with their face painted, hair temporarily dyed, with a sign saying ‘that’s our boyfriend’
They got together because Aaron started helping Kevin out with coping with Riko’s death and getting sober
But because at this point Kate and Aaron could finally be together without worrying about Andrew she’s there a lot of the time and helps too
Kevin just becomes a part of their relationship without them even noticing it
When they first officially get together Kevin is a little insecure about joining the relationship late but both Aaron and Kate go out if their way to show him he’s just as much a part of the relationship as either of them
Kevin also realizes that he’s been there for a lot of the important milestones because Katelyen and Aaron couldn’t do much with Andrew breathing down their necks
Speaking of Andrew
He’s so annoyed when they tell him
Not mad but annoyed that his brother is not just with Katelyen (who he unfortunately ends up liking) but is also with Kevin
Aaron is the shortest
Kate is taller than him by only 4 nches (10.16 cms) but that won’t stop her from bringing it up
So of course Aaron is constantly teased about being the ‘small one’
But in reality he loves it because Katelyen and Kevin love to take care of him, play with his hair, kiss his forehead or the top of his head, and just generally think he’s adorable
When they all graduate and move in together they almost never get to see each other all together at first
With Kate and Aaron in med school and Kevin playing, their schedules very rarely overlap
But that doesn’t stop them
They get each other flowers, chocolate, food, and other gifts at least once a week and leave them at home to be found
They also get each other little things
If Kevin hears Aaron say he needs another notebook guess what will show up the next day
If Kate keeps breaking her hair ties (she pulls on them when she’s anxious) Aaron has to go shopping
Kevin ran out of deodorant or body spray Katelyen will smell each one till she finds the one she knows Kevin wears
If Aaron complains about back pain from sitting Kate will spend hours looking at reviews to find the best chair for him
If Katelyen says that her water bottle doesn’t hold enough water Kevin gets the best one he can find
Or they get stupid things they saw in a store in the clearance section thar just makes them think of the others
They have dogs and there’s three of them so the bed is crowded
Because of this Kevin orders a custom bed that’s massive and they love it
They’re so annoying in movie theaters
Katelyen will tell Kevin and Aaron not to talk but they can’t help but critique everything wrong with it and of course she ends up laughing (because they can always make her laugh)
They no longer see movies that involve medical error or history mistakes
Aaron never has chapstick and Katelyen only has tinted chapstick/ lip gloss but he uses it anyway
So frequently Kevin walks around with tinted red kiss marks from Kate and Aaron
Katelyen is so goofy
She absolutely loves to see her boys smile and she will make a fool of herself to see it happen
Kevin and Katelyen enable each other’s terrible ideas like mixing a bunch of sodas or weird ice cream flavors together
Usually Aaron just laughs at how cute they are but sometimes they give him heart attacks from doing dangerous things like pushing each other down a hill in a shopping cart
If Kevin looses one of them in public and the other is with him he’ll put that person on his shoulders to find them
If Kevin looses both of them and the two of them are together Kate will climb on Aaron’s shoulders to find Kevin
Katelyen takes pictures of everything and their gone is filled with them
Ultimately they just love each other
These are nsfw so yeah
They love to spoil each other in bed
Aaron gets pegged a lot and he loves it because it feels good and makes him happy to make his partners happy
Also because when they’re done they clean him up and wrap him in blankets
Kevin loves watching Aaron and Kate together he loves seeing the people he loves be in love
Aaron is the bottomest of all bottoms in bed with them
Katelyen loves spoiling her boys in bed
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ssaic-jareau · 4 years ago
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It's the faceless, nameless nameless, faceless installment. I should not be excited for this arc, knowing it's going to rip my heart out.
You really ripped my heart out from the start with these voicemails. They add the perfect amount of anxiety and fear to the scene.
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Needless to say, it’s been a weird day. Why you expected anything else after that wretched Canada case and four hours of sleep, you have no idea. 
Not a fan of that Canada case, just saying - anybody else?
You had a horrible dream last night, on top of everything else. The image of Aaron broken and bleeding beside you hadn’t left your mind since it first appeared in Foyet’s kitchen. You tried to shake it off every time, but it was persistent. 
We’ll worry about that later. 
You know what? Rude. Your foreshadowing is impeccable - damn you. The fact that they're SO in tune with each other, they even get that worried feeling about the other (i experience this with my best friend - it's WILD - in like the best way).
I love that Emily had Pen phone Derek round about the same time Em was on the phone - and the unspoken conversation between them & Derek to let them go to Emily... so beautiful.
say it with me: unspoken conversations makes the AJF world go round.
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This is, after all, your worst nightmare come to life. A little chill crawls up your spine. This whole thing has you feeling six different kinds of scared. 
Oh hey, previously foreshadowed moment. Again. Rude.
“If you die, Aaron Hotchner, I’ll kill you.”
THIS IS A WHOLE MOOD™
She rolls her eyes. “You’re so clueless it’s almost cute, but he’s worse.” She throws her head toward Hotch with a fond smile, handing you your cup of coffee.
Emily teasing them, and also Hotch (which doesn't count cause he's resting) - *aimz does goofy smile at her phone* super cute.
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Of course, he keeps her under Brooks. All he wants to do is keep her safe. 
UNCALLED FOR, EXCUSE YOU.
A few tense minutes later, your phone buzzes in your pocket. When you see the caller ID, a shot of adrenaline zings around your body. “Haley?”
HOW DO I FEEL THE SAME AS WHEN I FIRST READ THIS (yes, the sneak peek?)?? MUST BE MAGIC
“I’ll see you soon. I love you.”
Your heart pulls. “I love you, too.” 
TALI. You're really building up to like a MASSIVE heartbreak when we reach 100 aren't you?
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Haley wets her lips and swallows. 
That’s her tell. 
We JUST had a conversation regarding this (pin for later).
Haley looks over and offers you a shaky smile, trying to break the tension. “He also asked me if you’d be here. He’ll be thrilled.” 
That almost does you in. “So will I,” you tell her, meaning every syllable. 
oh mY GOOODNESS - I'm not ready. I sobbed like a damn baby at my desk when I read this.
You hide your face, looking out the window as tears finally fall from your eyes. Haley’s eyes are on you and you know it. You wipe at your face and take a quiet breath before turning back, pretending to pay attention to the case in your lap. 
Nope, I'm still not ready.
“Are you going to keep my dad safe? I’m going to keep Mom safe.”
...
“Of course, my love.” You offer him something you hope looks like a smile. “We always keep each other safe. We’re a team, like you and your momma. I’m so proud of you.” You check in with Haley, who’s looking away, the back of her hand swiping at her cheek.
The tears are just pouring out now.
When she turns back to you, you tilt your head a little. 
Want a minute? 
She nods. 
Unspoken conversation with Haley? UNCALLED FOR.
He nods, leaning back into you and playing with your collar. You pat Aaron’s knee and squeeze Haley’s shoulder with your free hand as you pass. 
petition to give Jack Brooks Hotchner all the cuddles in the world.
“You should do something about that, one of these days,” she says, looking over her shoulder. You’re still visible in the window, talking to JJ while Jack is still glued to you. His little arms are tight around your neck, his head tucked under your chin.
I'm SORRY - JACK IS MOM'S CUDDLE BUNNY up until Isaac arrives (and sometimes even after he does).
Aaron’s brow furrows, but the EKG picks up the increase in his heart rate, much to his embarrassment. “What are you talking about?”
LISTEN - I LET OUT A CHUCKLE (I must've looked quite the picture when I read this, because tears streaming down my face and I get to this point and I just start laughing - thank god, my floor was still empty).
Haley laughs, a light, watery, delicate thing, and turns back to him. It almost brings a smile to his face. “Do you think I don’t know what you look like when you’re head over heels, Aaron Hotchner? After eighteen years of marriage and twenty-five years knowing you? Give me a break.”
...
“I’m not saying you have to do anything, but it might do you some good to just…” She sighs, throwing a hand up in a kind of searching gesture. “I don’t know, be honest with yourself. Think for a minute.” 
For anyone who didn't pick up on Tali's genius brain at work... This is FOUR YEARS PRIOR to caught out (yes, you may scream appreciation at her now). I'll comment on this later 😊
He knows the realization is clear on his face when Haley laughs again, surprising them both. She swipes at her eyes again, clearing any remaining tears. “You know, I can’t say I’m surprised you didn’t know, but it’s still funny, even with all this.” She shakes her head. “You haven’t changed much, have you?”
His face breaks out into a little smile as he looks back at her. “Oh, quit.” 
THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS SO PURE (like the rebuilt one) - I LOVE IT.
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Her blue eyes find yours. “Take care of him, please?”
You nod. “I will.” 
“He needs you.” 
Oh, the subtle hint. Nice touch. I. LOVE. THIS. SO. MUCH. Also, let's talk about Haley's approach to telling both of them to sort of go for it - Haley is so BLUNT when it comes to Aaron, but with them - it's like "I technically pushed Aaron off a bridge, i think I'll give you a tiny nudge as well."
You hold her tight, Jack trapped (and whining a little) between you. “See you soon, Hales.” You pull back, looking deeply into her eyes. “We’ll get him.” 
The U.S. Marshals arrive, and you have to let go of each other. You press a kiss to Jack’s forehead and tell him you love him one more time, and wait until they’re in the car and out of sight before you break down. 
OH YEAH, IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING... I'M STILL CRYING (and it's about to get worse).
You don’t know where he came from, but Derek wraps around you, catching you before your knees hit the ground. You don't know what you’re crying about, really. 
OOP, THERE IT IS (read: it got worse)
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Belatedly, you realize you’ve neglected your case duties all day in favor of holding vigil over Aaron’s bedside. The weirdest part about it? The rest of the team let you. 
They really DID.
We have to. 
And YOU WILL.
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(you know, the usual routine when you get here)
Tali, I think I'm renaming this to UNCALLED FOR (I'm trying to be funny, so I'm not as sad anymore). Can I just emphasise that you're a freaking genius and that I love your brain? Because YOU ARE and I DO.
Okay, let me lay out why I'm saying this - because I haven't seen people comment on it, which is tragic just btw... In caught out - Hotch states that he'd only be FOUR years late... ALSO, when we had the conversation re: Haley telling Hotch to go for it - Tali didn't fully plan on it COMING FULL CIRCLE - but it DID. Basically, you're DAMN talented, you're a freaking genius and I love your brain. And I love you. ❤x
fear itself.
Aaron Hotchner x Gender Neutral Reader
a/n: part two of the 100 arc! this installment covers the events of faceless, nameless. i am living for the feedback! please keep it coming. i can’t wait to hear what you think as we go through this (very emotionally wrought) section.
an ajf fic arc that happily stands on its own! one | two | three | four | five | six | seven | eight | nine
words: 4.5k warnings: canon-typical violence, language, hospital setting
summary: four hours of sleep and aaron’s missing. what else could go wrong?
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robronsecretsanta · 7 years ago
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Hi @scrapyardboyfriends ! I was so thrilled to be assigned you as my secret santa giftie! I love your work so much and wanted to make you something that was both inspired by it, and that maybe you might find inspiring as well. So, I have made you three playlists each with a small fic attached. 
Listen to all three playlists on Spotify here or on Youtube here
Liv’s Break-Up Playlist
Listen on Spotify here
i. Somebody That I Used To Know- Gotye (feat. Kimbra) // ii. Shut Up and Let Me Go- The Ting Tings // iii. Heart of Glass- Blondie // iv. New Rules- Dua Lipa // v. Shout Out To My Ex- Little Mix // vi. I’m Not in Love- Anastacia // vii. Ever Fallen in Love- Buzzcocks // viii. Go Your Own Way- Fleetwood Mac // ix. Rolling in the Deep- Adele // x. Tears Dry On Their Own- Amy Winehouse.
Aaron protests, but he’s still not sleeping very well and he hasn’t had enough caffeine yet to argue with Liv’s teenager-logic (if Robert were still here he would probably say that Liv needs to start a debating club, or maybe try taking Law at A-Level). Aaron agrees to a compromise as long as they can listen to something he picks the following morning and Liv reluctantly agrees.
Robert’s Guilty Pleasures Playlist
Listen on Spotify here
i. Look What You Made Me Do- Taylor Swift // ii. Painful to Watch- FOURS // iii. Rather Be- Clean Bandit (feat. Jess Glynne) // iv. Don’t Kill My Vibe- Sigrid // v. Green Light- Lorde // vi. Cry When You Get Older- Robyn // vii. Cheap Thrills- Sia // viii. You Can’t Get Us Off Your Mind- Music Super Circus (feat. Lisa Collins)* // ix. Waiting (Acoustic)- BETSY // x. Million Dollar Man- Lana Del Rey. *You Can’t Get Us Off Your Mind is not available via the Youtube playlist.
Rob’s phone is the one hooked up to their sound system, so Aaron grabs it from where it’s sitting on the coffee table and scrolls through the playlists on his Spotify. He is suddenly struck by the fact that he hasn’t got a clue what to look for- neither of them could be described as music fanatics- and he realises that he has no idea what music Robert might be wanting to hear. They’ve teased each other about their music choices many times before, but Aaron supposes that he should be open to all aspects of his husband’s personality; terrible music taste included. So, he scrolls down to a playlist called “Guilty Pleasures” and hits play.
Aaron’s Running Playlist
Listen on Spotify here
i. Smother- Daughter // ii. If I Had a Heart- Fever Ray // iii. Arsonist’s Lullaby- Hozier // iv. Bedroom Hymns- Florence + The Machine // v. Real- Years and Years // vi. Dangerous- The xx // vii. I Follow Rivers- Lykke Li // viii. Too Close- Alex Clare // ix. Human- Rag’n’Bone Man // x. Paradise Circus- Massive Attack.  
All of the songs speak to the darker parts of his and Aaron’s history together. Loss, lust, and longing. He often wonders if he would change any of it given the chance. Of course, he would take away all the pain and suffering he had caused, the memory of it all leaving a bitter taste in his mouth. But once late at night, Aaron had told him that despite it all every step they had taken was a journey that had led them to each other and that he wouldn’t ever want to turn back.  
Fics under the cut!
The Break-Up
This playlist was inspired, with kind permission, by a fic by @iwillsendapostcard. Read on AO3 here.
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Music notes: half of this playlist was already written for me! I filled in the gaps with my favourite break-up songs or songs that are about ‘tainted’ love. I wanted to make sure I used music that fitted in with Liv’s canon music tastes but that she would have also found quite easily via a quick google search when trying to make the playlist for her brother.
Guilty Pleasures  
The smell of burning still lingers, though Aaron has done his best to get rid of it. He’s thrown open all the windows and used nearly a whole can of air freshener in the lounge. It really isn’t his fault that the first batch of gingerbread men had burnt- it’s not like he’s incompetent- but Vic had come round full of the joys of planning a New Year’s party at the Mill and they’d talked for so long that Aaron had forgotten to check on them, resulting in the smell of burnt sugar, cinnamon, and ginger currently sticking to every surface of the house.
Luckily, he’s planned ahead and bought extra ingredients, just in case.
What he hadn’t planned for was his husband coming home from Christmas shopping early.
“Something smells good,” Robert says as he walks through the door and dumps a load of shopping bags on the sofa.
Aaron isn’t sure if he’s telling the truth, the smell of burning still completely obvious to him, but he gives his husband the benefit of the doubt and kisses him hello.
“What are you up to?” Rob asks as they break apart.
“It’s a surprise for Liv,” Aaron says, gesturing to the oven where the (second) batch of biscuits are baking away nicely.
“She’ll love it,” comes the reply. His husband snakes his hands around his waist as they watch the gingerbread turn golden together.
When Aaron takes them out of the oven he is relieved to see that this batch is perfect, aside from the occasionally oddly shaped ginger-person.
“Do you want to help decorate them?” Aaron asks once he and Rob have put away the shopping and had a cup of tea together.
“Do you not want to wait until Liv gets home?”
“I think she’ll appreciate laughing at our efforts more than putting in the work herself, don’t you?”
Robert chuckles at that. “I’ll make the icing. Can you stick some music on?”
Rob’s phone is the one hooked up to their sound system so Aaron grabs it from where it’s sitting on the coffee table and scrolls through the playlists on his Spotify. He is suddenly struck by the fact that he hasn’t got a clue what to look for- neither of them could be described as music fanatics- and he realises that he has no idea what music Robert might be wanting to hear. They’ve teased each other about their music choices many times before, but Aaron supposes that he should be open to all aspects of his husband’s personality; terrible music taste included. So, he scrolls down to a playlist called “Guilty Pleasures” and hits play. He sees straight away why this playlist is named this way, as the first thing that comes out of the speakers is Taylor Swift. And it’s one of her most irritating songs at that.
“Really Rob?” Aaron asks as Robert ties an apron around his waist and grins at him.
“I’m too sexy for my shirt” Robert sings over the chorus and Aaron rolls his eyes at him and takes the red icing so that he can start decorating.
The playlist, Aaron soon discovers, is full of upbeat female-led pop songs, some that Aaron recognizes and some that he doesn’t. As he puts the finishing touches to his first attempt the playlist has already run through a band with a lead singer that sounds like someone else, the music from the M&S adverts, and has moved onto a slightly more chilled out track that he’s never heard before.
He looks over at what Robert is doing and is shocked to see that Robert has created a near perfect rendition of Liv and Aaron in biscuit form.
Aaron looks up at him in surprise and sees Robert biting his lip as if he is unsure whether Aaron likes them or not.
“These are brilliant,” Aaron tells him.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah! I had no idea you were so good at cake decorating!”
Robert blushes a little. “I’m not. I don’t think so, anyway. But I used to like drawing… I practised loads, back when I was trying to get Katie’s attention. She was into photography and I wanted to show her that I was a better fit for her than my Neanderthal brother. But then, after everything that happened, I stopped…”
The moment hangs in the air, the mention of Katie cold against the bubbly upbeat pop currently blasting through the speakers. Aaron almost wants to get up, turn them off, and tease out this moment a little bit more. But then Robert is plastering a smile on his face and pointing to Aaron’s attempt at making a Father Christmas.
“You’re doing good too!”
He’s not. And he would still rather talk about the memory that is currently sitting heavily on Robert’s shoulder. But Aaron lets it go. There will be other times.
He gets started on making his own edible version of Rob (not that the real version isn’t just as tasty) as Robert works on the rest of the Dingles. By the time that the music has mellowed out again they’ve run out of icing and have got up to make some more.
Aaron’s concentrating so he doesn’t realise why Robert has suddenly pulled him into his arms and started swaying him around the kitchen. But then his ears tune back into the music. Lana Del Rey is crooning about lost love, and Robert is whispering lyrics into his ears.
“It isn’t that hard, boy, to like you or love you,” Robert half-sings to him. “Just grab me and take me…”
“Not while there’s food on the table.”
“I’m trying to be romantic,” Robert laughs at him.
“I know.” He puts his head down on Rob’s shoulder, using the fact that his husband is slightly taller than him to his advantage. “I like this song.”
“Me too. It always makes me think of you.”
“Really? It always makes me think of you,” Aaron confesses. “Mr Million Dollar Man. I used to play this sometimes, in the early days, and when I missed you.”
“You don’t have to miss me anymore,” Robert tells him, pulling him in even closer.
They keep swaying together even after the playlist ends, content to breathe in the each other’s scent mixed with freshly baked biscuits and sugary icing. Aaron notices a smudge of sugar on Rob’s nose and he kisses it off. And as he does he realises that while Rob may think his pop songs a guilty pleasure, Aaron knows that they make up part of the whole package that is his husband- screwed up, brilliant, and sweet.
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Music notes: For this playlist, I wanted to pick a mix of female lead songs that were also pop songs, as these are both parts of Robert’s music tastes that have been mentioned in canon. I was less concerned about linking these songs together thematically than with the two other playlists- instead I wanted a mix of popular songs and ones that are less well-known, to show that this is a genre that Rob enjoys beyond what is just played on the radio. This playlist contains some of my favourite songs by the artists I picked, plus a handful of wildcards that I thought might be new to some listeners.
Fic notes: I knew I wanted a scene where Aaron would be curious to find out what Rob considers to be a “guilty pleasure”. I was initially going to have them in the car, but then I saw your brilliant art of Robron making gingerbread and this fic was born! I have always thought that Million Dollar Man makes a great affair era song, and this fic provided the perfect opportunity to explore that a little.
Running
There is a phone charger thief in the house and that thief’s name is Aaron Dingle. 
It’s not a big deal really; there’s enough charge on his phone for someone to reach him in an emergency, and a landline at the Mill if anyone is feeling particularly old-fashioned. But Robert can’t help but feel a little bit disappointed. His New Year’s resolutions this year include a promise to look after his health a bit better after a playful bantering session with Aaron about their age gap turned into a worried revelation that one of Aaron’s biggest fears is Robert becoming ill.
He’s been trying to get out for a run every now and then, building up his strength and stamina, so that eventually he can suggest that he and Aaron work out together without fearing that Aaron will start panicking as soon as Rob becomes out of breath.
The problem with the phone charger is that he wants to take his phone with him in case of an emergency, and he wants to listen to his 80’s running playlist whilst he’s out. The phone has enough battery for one task, but not the other. And so, he’s been hunting all over the house for any of the spares he knows the three of them must have between them.
What he finds instead is an old MP3 player that Rob recognises as the one Aaron used to use all the time before his last phone upgrade. Amazingly, it’s still got quite a bit of charge on it. 
Obviously, their music tastes are different, and Robert is unsurprised to find that most of the artists and songs on there are ones he doesn’t recognise. But, helpfully, there is a playlist called ‘running’ (a very Aaron title) which he switches on as he starts to stretch in the driveway of the Mill.
The music swells, dark and almost sexy, and Robert lets it carry him away from the house and down by the river that Liv’s bedroom overlooks.
He’s not really paying attention to the lyrics, as he is too focused on setting a good running pace and sticking to it. The music doesn’t really help with that much. Rather, it provides a moody and ominous kind of atmosphere that keeps his mind off the first pangs of pain in his already-tired legs. Robert almost feels like he’s running through a film set, the music blending beautifully with the river and forest that surround him.  
Soon, the gloomy music gives way to songs that have a stronger beat, pushing him forwards and deeper into the woods. As he starts focusing on the lyrics more he becomes aware of a sense of familiarity that lurks beneath his skin.
He recalls a winter like this, a long time ago, in these same woods. A night that he spent trying not to worry. A night Aaron spent trying not to die.
“Don’t you ever tame your demons, but always keep them on a leash…”
“Such selfish prayers, I can’t get enough…”
“Oh, I think that if I had been enough for you would I be better, would I be good?”
Robert stops, recognising this song from a time when he’d thought he had a crush on waif-like Ben Whishaw before realising that what he really desired was broad shoulders and muscled thighs. His heart aches as he remembers the festival that he and Aaron nearly attended together- this band were due to headline.
All of the songs speak to the darker parts of his and Aaron’s early history. Loss, lust, and longing. He often wonders if he would change any of it given the chance. Of course, he would take away all the pain and suffering he has caused, the memory of it all leaving a bitter taste in his mouth. But once, late at night, Aaron had told him that despite it all every step they had taken was a journey that led them to each other and that he wouldn’t ever want to turn back.  
Robert does, though, taking the path that will lead him to the scrapyard and Aaron’s office instead of back to the Mill.
“I don’t want to hurt you, but I need to breathe…”
“Don’t ask my opinion, don’t ask me to lie…”
“Love is like a sin, my love, for the ones that feel it the most…”
By the time he bursts through the port-a-cabin’s door he is a sweaty and shivering mess.
“Are you ok?” Aaron asks straight away.
Robert doesn’t even try to respond. Instead, he goes straight over to Aaron’s desk, pulls him out of his chair, and into his arms. He wraps himself around his husband as tight as he possibly can, breathing in the scent of him and cherishing the thud of Aaron’s heartbeat against his own skin.
Aaron doesn’t ask again. He just return’s Robert’s embrace with an equal strength.
“I’m sorry,” Robert eventually chokes out.
“What for?”
“Everything.”
Aaron strokes his hand down his back and waits for Robert to explain further.
“I listened to your playlist, and I just… I just felt so sad… after everything I put you through…”
Aaron simply nods then turn them both about so that Robert is manoeuvred into Aaron’s chair and Aaron is kneeling in front of him.
“Did you listen to the songs properly?” he asks.
“Yes.”
“Then you’ll know that they were all about love,” Aaron explains. “I loved you then, even when I couldn’t have you. I love you now because I know that you are mine.”
He places a small kiss on the inside or Robert’s wrist in a gesture so sweet Rob almost wants to cry.
“Better?” he asks when Robert stops gasping for breath.
“I’m ok,” Robert replies.
Aaron smiles at that. “Next time, let’s go for a run together though, yeah?”
“Yeah,” Robert agrees, finally pulling his husband in for a well-deserved kiss.  
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Music notes: I had the idea that during the affair Aaron might use music as a way of experiencing some catharsis. It seemed only natural to me to combine my coping mechanism (music) with Aaron’s (running). It was only after putting together the first parts of this playlist that I wondered how Robert might react to having Aaron’s feelings from the early affair days laid out before him in these more explicit terms. As a matter of personal taste, this playlist contains both my favourite song and my least favourite song in all three playlists.
Fic notes: this is mostly wish fulfilment on my part as I would like robron’s past addressed in a more direct way, mostly so that we can move on from it. This is the playlist where I focused more on the lyrics for so I wanted to incorporate them into the body of the text. Also, I wanted Robert and the reader to go on something of a journey through Aaron’s feelings through the playlist and fic. I have a real soft spot for Aaron taking care of Roberts feelings and so this seemed like a natural conclusion for the fic. 
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reasons why that whole darn episode was amazing:
marlon’s fACE when faith makes a break for it is p r i c e l e s s
“she’s like the usain bolt of grandmas.” “who needs a wheelchair?”
rob being so upset that the wedding wasn’t perfect and aaron not caring because all that was important to him was that, at the end of it all, robert was his husband
i know i’ve said this at least six times now but i cannot even believe they got married in the damn garage they fucked for the first time in
also the garage is so much more significant than that? like, that’s where aaron attempted suicide, it’s where he first started to really grow up and be responsible, not to mention that’s where robert made the first attempt at even a friendship, never mind the affair
“remind me why i’m marrying you and your massive ego again?”
aaron’s little choked up, emotional giggle at the end of the “i wasn’t expecting you to do the whole ‘til death do us part’ thing” i mean the lad honestly sounds like he could cry of happiness at that moment
“that’s how it works, idiot” i love how this has just become their pet name
i really, really love how they keep coming back to the “but you know” “i know” thing
“i never thought i’d have this with anyone. and i never though i’d have it with you.”
foreheadkissforeheadkissforeheadkiss
all of aaron’s little smiles because aaron dingle’s happiness is my happiness
charity ringing the bell i love her like as much as she teases them she loves them
ADAM
the damn pink confetti
diane “break his heart and you’re dead” sugden is my queen
the “drink from the welly!” chant
cain, who once beat the absolute daylights out of robert, getting annoyed with him when he’s taking too long to do it
paddy’s “he does love you. i think anyone can see that.” he’s going to start accepting rob’s presence in aaron’s life
also the whole padron scene, i’m so glad they’re slowly fixing them paddy just needs to stop being so wrapped up in his damn self
“better go and rescue my husband”
just anytime they refer to each other as “husband” i mean really
“one’s enough, i like him conscious”
the way rob steadies himself on aaron after the welly idk why i like that so much i just do
ADELE
the way rob grips aaron’s face as he kisses him in front of everyone and doesn’t even care #charactergrowth
if you blink, you’ll miss it, but right as the camera pans over before they disappear behind chas as she walks past them you can see rob gently kiss aaron’s neck
the way robert presses his face into aaron’s shoulder, his lil smooshed nose, and the way they both light up when they see chas
faith calling rob “blondie” does she even know his damn name? anyway if they wanna make rob and faith best friends i’m here for it
speaking of robert’s friends, robert has friends!! even if they were just background randoms that he never actually interacted with! but where the f was bob?!
how peaceful aaron looks in robert’s arms
robert and belle interaction, that made my life
robert’s drunk stumble (which is mostly ryan’s post-surgery knee)
“oi, have you seen me husband? dead grumpy, but he doesn’t look bad in a suit.”
the way reality hits aaron like a freight train at the end of the ep broke my damn heart but was beautifully acted god bless u ryan and danny
mr. dingle and mr. sugden
robert knowing aaron’s not fine
“i don’t wanna leave ya” “i don’t want you to go”
aaron apologizing to robert destroyed my heart like yeah thanks i didn’t need that or anything
“you’ll come home to me, and we’ll never look back”
also, the weird cover of ‘please don’t stop the music’ playing behind them in that scene
and of course, that beautiful wide shot of just them in the night with some candles, clinging to each other because they’re the most important things in the world
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EXCLUSIVE: 'Better Call Saul's Bob Odenkirk on Losing Jimmy's 'Humanity' & Why He's Nothing Like Walter White!
Better Call Saul is back and better than ever!
AMC's hit Breaking Bad prequel has officially returned for its third season, and series star Bob Odenkirk promises some "very funny escapades" in the upcoming season, despite the fact that good-hearted Jimmy McGill is slowly but surely transitioning into his inevitable alias of crooked Saul Goodman.
"As far as the journey to Saul goes, sadly it seems that the journey is one where all that great humanity in Jimmy McGill is getting shoveled down and hidden away," the 54-year-old actor recently dished to ET ahead of Monday night's premiere. "He starts to just kind of shut down emotionally and that's a sad thing. His conscience is getting more blurred."
Odenkirk confessed that watching the earnest light drain out of Jimmy has been a bittersweet experience for him as both an actor and a fan of the show. "It's really sad and I feel bad, but it's the journey that we have to go on."
WATCH: These 'Better Call Saul' Season 2 Bloopers Will Brighten Your Day
"It's a sad thing to feel a person closing off parts of their heart and closing themselves off to the world and just sort of hiding way because they just feel like they're not going to connect with anyone or it's not going to work," he furthered. "Even though in season three, Kim and Jimmy have a better relationship than almost anything I've seen on TV -- they're pretty great and supportive of each other in a really cool and unique way -- but even with that in his life, he is shutting down."
Odenkirk added that a major contributing factor to the downfall of Jimmy is the "devolving" brotherly dynamic between him and Chuck in season three. "Jimmy is going to get pounded. He punches back once or twice, but in the end, he's just going to get crushed. It's one of the things that makes him into the diamond that is Saul Goodman," he said.
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And of course, fans know that Saul Goodman will eventually enter yet another metamorphosis and emerge as Gene, the lowly Cinnabon manager with "that mustache of sorrow and existential dread," as Odenkirk likes to call it.
"I take the mustache and I wrap it around my body and my mind and I close off all human feeling and hide and crouch very tightly behind that mustache of pain. That’s what it's like," the actor said when asked about getting into character as Gene in those black-and-white flash-forwards.
"He's a sad fellow, man. He's the worst and he's in the worst position. He's a sad guy and closed off and he's hiding from the world," Odenkirk said. "It would be painful to be that character in real life, and I also think that I don’t think a person could do that for very long without developing some massive ulcers or some kind of alcoholism."
MORE: Aaron Paul Suggests 'Maybe I Already Shot' 'Breaking Bad' Reunion on 'Better Call Saul'
But for now, as Jimmy McGill enters his third season on our screens, Odenkirk continues to credit and praise Breaking Bad for its revolutionary storytelling and the subsequent spawning of Better Call Saul. "Listen, we're the show we are and we have the audience we have because of Breaking Bad," he said.
"Breaking Bad, obviously, set the stage for us to be viewed and tried out and checked out by millions of people, but also Breaking Bad dialed everyone in to a kind of storytelling that we then get to mine and use," Odenkirk continued. "Our show is so unique and idiosyncratic and quiet and interior. I don’t know that it could've survived without Breaking Bad cuing everyone in to the kind of storytelling that Vince Gillian does."
While it's true that both Breaking Bad and Better Call Saul depict the character evolutions of two men -- Walter White into Heisnberg and Jimmy McGill into Saul Goodman, respectively, -- Odenkirk stressed that each have very different motives for their transitional identities.
"I think Walter White was a more cunning guy right from the start and I think Walter is just plain lying to himself and he had such anger and selfishness inside of him that was dying to come out. Whereas Jimmy, I feel like, it's against his will that he's losing his humanity," he revealed. "I think that's the big difference between the two characters there. You know in the end, Walter says, 'I did it for me and I liked it.' And I think Jimmy would say, 'I did it against all my best instincts and I regret it.'"
RELATED: 'Breaking Bad' Star Giancarlo Esposito is Coming to 'Better Call Saul' -- See What He Said!
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Looking ahead, Odenkirk teased that Breaking Bad fans are in for a delicious treat in next week's hour when Giancarlo Esposito re-debuts his iconic character Gus Fring in episode two.
"It was like watching your memories come to life!" Odenkirk said of stepping onto Los Pollos Hermanos set that was recreated for the prequel series. "I mean, I was never on that set originally because my character never interacted with Gus before, but it was really amazing and fun. And of course, Giancarlo is one of the greatest actors of all time."
ET had the pleasure of being on the Better Call Saul set in for the season two return to another iconic Breaking Bad restaurant, The Dog House, so we were dying to know which food tastes better: Los Pollos Hermanos' chicken or The Dog House's chili dogs?
"Oh, the chili dogs were way better, actually," Odenkirk quickly answered. "Well, The Dog House is a real place [in Albuquerque], and Los Pollos Hermanos is not actually a real restaurant, so the food in Los Pollos Hermanos is just stuff that's been brought in by the props department."
Better Call Saul airs Mondays at 10 p.m. ET/PT on AMC.
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Scams, subscriptions and chat bots: How one German fauxporn Youtube star tricks her fans
Videos boasting risqué titles, thumbnails teasing gobs of bare skin and steamy sexual indiscretions—all of which end up being more hot air than hot stuff.
Katja Krasavice has teased, baited and badgered her way to a huge fan base: 800,000 Youtube subscribers and 200 million views. The aspiring sex star has milked the shady practice for everything it’s got—and moved to other platforms in increasingly dubious ways.
Three years ago today, Katja Krasavice launched her Youtube account and first made her way in the German digital consciousness. She has since filled it with 133 videos, all of which follow a very similar MO: go heavy on the sexual innuendo, use thumbnails that double down on the double Ds and insert titles that get a rise in expectations. For example, there is “NACHTS Allein Zuhause (Home ALONE at night!) | Katja Krasavice”—a 4-minute clip about how she likes to unwind after a hard night of partying. Five million people have tuned in to keep her company. Another 4.5 million people watched Katja in “PETTING with Lucycat! 😛 | Katja Krasavice.” Even if the content turns out to be disappointing for viewers, the click rates show just how effective the teasers can be.
Leveraging lusting fantasies
She polarizes and provokes, teasing her viewers and stroking their sexual fantasies—a proven recipe for success. In addition to successfully producing her brand of content, Katja Krasavice also engages in cross promotion and does a host of guest appearances. Two years ago, she made an appearance with Aaron Troschke, the CEO of influencer marketing platform Reachhero and former candidate on Who Wants to be a Millionaire with his own organic reach. The video shows the pair dildo shopping; a couple of months later they shot part two. Then in early 2016, she made an appearance on a German Youtuber’s channel. Seen simulating oral sex, and then engaging in cheap pillow talk about said opening scene, the clip has generated 4 million impressions, and also plugs the link to the opening scene in its unedited full length.
In spite of her massive reach, it’s impossible not to notice that her videos do not use any of Youtube’s available marketing options. There are no video or display ads embedded in her clips—which is probably not by design. Since Youtube adopted stricter advertising guidelines in September 2016, Krasavice’s content was no longer deemed ad-friendly. That meant she had to scope out other ways and channels to monetize her reach, like live-stream portal YouNow. Katja Krasavice has been active on the portal since March of 2015, totaling 18 million views in the process.  Here, users can purchase ‘Bars’ that they can then donate to their favorite streamers. Especially successful YouNow stars are rumored to net revenue in the six-figure range.
15 euro a month for what? A pair of “hot” snaps.
Her success is hardly limited to Youtube and YouNow. With 928,000 subscribers on Instagram and 185,000 fans on Facebook, Krasavice’s popularity has spread to every major platform. She even has 56,000 followers on twitter —pretty good for a twitter desert like Germany. Snapchat (katjakrasavice) is no different. Although follower figures are not publicized, she seems to be killing it by offering paid content.
On her second account (krasaviceprivat) she recently began publishing “exclusive snaps,” as she teases on Snapchat and on other channels. Her less-than-subtle teases can be worded as “I get so w*t when I look at all these naughty girls.”
What does any of that have to do with paid content? That’s easy: the supposed hotter, more x-rated Snaps can only be seen by fans who take out a 30-day subscription for €14.99.
Standing to profit from the subscription is not Snapchat itself, but an entity named Centro Publishers Limited from the British Virgin Islands. There are dozens of mostly female “Premium SnapCentro Influencers” listed on the domain snapcentro.de. They are sorted by name or category, including general descriptions like athlete or blogger, or the more specialized descriptors like erotic model, exotic dancer, nude model or porn star.
If you search for the names of the “premium influencers” directly, the first search results lead you to the corresponding porn site. Krasavice also pops up on the list. She describes her account as a place where “you can see all the hottest snaps no longer allowed on my public account. Here, I’ll answer everyone and even send a couple of naughty snaps in a private chat. Come to my hot Snap zone not everyone can see.” She also ads that “if you are a member, I’ll do just about anything you want.”
Ok, so what content can a successful female youtube star charge money for exactly on Snapchat? To answer that we decided to misappropriate company funds and subscribe to the pay service. What won’t we do for science…
Soft-core porno for dummies
Signing up is pretty standard: enter our Snapchat user name and email address, and then confirm that we are, in fact, of age, and that we are aware that snapcentro.de is unaffiliated with Snapchat. Information on our person entered and confirmed, it’s time to pay up either via credit card or direct bank transfer—both of which go to a Cyprian company called  CentroBill (Cyprus) Limited.
The founder of both companies, snapcentro.de and CentroBill, plus the affiliated porn hub adultcentro and an affiliate influencer platform modelcentro, is a fella by the name of Stan Fishkin. On Twitter, he’s just a man named “standaman69,” posing in front of a Ferrari. A real salt of the earth type guy.
If you’re still in need of convincing, a cursory Google search for “centrobill warning” reveals that neither he nor his company are the most scrupulous of enterprises. After completing the payment process, a landing page tells us just how we can follow Katja Krasavice’s private account.
Basically, she’ll start following us after our payment, including our user name, has been confirmed. We are then granted access to her premium snaps for the duration of our subscription.
If you were thinking that the €15 monthly subscription would get you access to some serious nude content (as the teasers on Snapchat, Instragram, etc. would lead one to believe), we’ve got some bad news: The Snaps from the private account merely featured the scantily clad Krasavice and never in the buff. In fact, there is hardly any difference between the private and public Snapchat account that would justify any of her fans to pony up for the pay version.
Despite promises to the contrary, content is not available round the clock on the premium account. Shortly after we completed our subscription, Krasavice posted a content schedule. She said that while she “takes hot snaps every day,” sometimes she won’t post because “she wants to enjoy her life” or because “she’s only human” or because “she’s got the sniffles.” Or because it’s Monday—her day off. We’ve also not yet received an answer to our private message despite the promise of a “super hot chat.” Disappointment for €15 a month.
Just how many of her followers on Snapchat, Youtube subscribers or fans on other platforms have paid for Krasavice’s private Snapchat account, is unclear. However, because she followed us as a premium subscriber, we can see how many private snaps she has posted: 426.
Genuine testimonials or an army of bots?
The premium Snapchat subscription isn’t Katja’s only dubious source of income. In a video marked as product placement dated February 14, 2017, Krasavice can be seen plugging a flirt app and stating that she’s got a “really hot profile with private pics,” which you of course can only see once you’ve installed the app and signed up. She’s also giving away her private cell number, a video of her pleasuring herself with a heart-shaped sucker (the “goods” are blurred in the short teaser) and a private date, “maybe even with a happy ending.”
All you have to do to enter the sweepstakes is install the app and sign up (“guaranteed for free”) and then send Krasavice a message. In the Youtube video she promises that the first couple of messages are free and that “if you are really interested in me, then you’ll do it. I also really want to get to know people.” At the same time on Snapchat she says, “Writing me there costs hearts, which cost money.” On which platform and when she intends to announce the winner, she doesn’t say. Maybe on Instagram or Snapchat, but she’s not exactly sure when. “But I will definitely do it, so be sure to follow me.”
Although the giveaway is over and done with, we still wanted to have a go on the flirt app Katja was plugging.
Through the katja-hautnah.de domain, we are redirected to landing page for  an app called Yoomee. The page, mostly in German, proclaims that “Yoomee presents Katja Krasavice,” that “YouTube star Katja Krasavice is waiting for you” and promises we can “experience Katja up close.” Right after creating an account in a fake name and without a profile pic or any interests, Krasavice, err “Krasavice,” checks out our profile. We only have to wait a couple of minutes, before she sends us her first message: “Happy you’re here. How do you like my pics?” We’d love to answer, but we have to first buy some hearts for €6.99.
Our spidey sense is now tingling. Could there be an automated system in play here, exploiting Krasavice’s Youtube reach to pull users into the app and convert them into paying customers via fake messages?
To check—because, hey, science—we create another account. Shortly after our account is live, here comes “Krasavice” again, checking out our completely bare profile and then soon after writes the exact same message, down to a T.  In the meantime, our first account has received some more action—three direct messages within 90 minutes: “Hey, feel like writing?,” “Which do you prefer? Day or Night” and “Have you been around here for a while?”
Katja’s flirt with Yoomee sees a sharp increase in app downloads
The app landing page lists Mobil Trend GmbH as the proprietor of Yoomee, which lists Christoph Matthiesen and Jannis Kiesow as CEOs. Mobil Trend’s director of sales, Benjamin Marquardt, responded to our request for comment. He told us about the campaign with Krasavice, saying that they “happened upon Katja by chance and booked her through her management. The collaboration runs through April 14.”
In reference to the misleading claims in the Youtube video, especially the free messages, he says that “was indeed somewhat unfortunate and it was briefed otherwise. We only saw the video shortly prior to publication, otherwise we probably would not have accepted it in that form.” In spite of that, he said that there are also ways to acquire hearts without paying and thus send her messages for free.
However, he did say it was part of the business model that users are not made aware of that immediately. “Obviously, we want to make money with the app. Competition is intense and monetizing users is becoming increasingly difficult. Still, we allocated free hearts to disappointed users so that they could have a chance to chat,” says Marquardt. In the app’s general terms and conditions it says that: “Yoomee engages professional animators and operators to animate and entertain, who are not labelled as such by the system. A real-life meeting with such individuals is prohibited. Users may only send messages within the portal.”
App-stat tool Priori Data recorded a major surge in Yoomee downloads after Krasavice’s video appeared—to the tune of 20,000 downloads from Google’s Play Store and 10,000 in the Apple App Store within a week. The surge didn’t last. “Two weeks after the campaign start, we had downloads in the mid-five-figure range. A return to the mean is completely normal. All things considered, the campaign was a success. Even if Krasavice is not the cheapest testimonial, we recouped our costs,” says Benjamin Marquardt.
According to him, however, the –acquisition of user data is more important as it will be used to further develop the product. “The app had only launched a couple of weeks before the video went live, and would never have been able to collect that much data in that time frame otherwise.” He added that the team is “now looking for more reasonably priced influencers.”
Is Katja swapping Youtube for Youporn?
The line Krasavice toes between provocative entertainment and full-blown pornography requiring age restrictions continues to tighten. She regularly mentions how she loves being on camera, but isn’t sure if she’s ready to do everything publicly. One sign that she may be entering pornoville is a recent cooperation with erotic portal fundorado.com. In a Youtube video from February 1, 2017, Krasavice mentions an “extremely hot private video” making the rounds that you can only see on katjakommt.de (katjacomes). The domain redirects to fundorado.com.
Katja Krasavice has engaged in additional paid co-ops  in the past, for example with Quizpanda and SMS service Bongo, each of which turn out to be scams (link in German). Additional income sources include a club tour that she has been plugging for months— for example with a video purportedly showing her kiss a fan—and through sales of her own perfume on katjakrasaviceshop.com.
This article originally appeared on Online Marketing Rockstars.
Photo credit: Screenshot/YouTube/Katja Krasavic
from Startup Tips By Darrel http://theheureka.com/scams-subscriptions-and-chat-bots-how-one-german-fauxporn-youtube-star-tricks-her-fans-20170410
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The Walking Dead Season 11: Who Lives and Who Dies
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This Walking Dead article contains major spoilers.
Many of us thought this day would never come, but as all of The Walking Dead‘s characters know very well, everything that has a beginning has an end. Season 11 of AMC’s flagship zombie drama will be the show’s final run of episodes, but fortunately it’s an expanded season. Fans will get 24 more episodes, broken up into three parts, before the show — and a few of its characters — meets its end.
And it wouldn’t be a season of The Walking Dead without a few big deaths along the way. As we have in past seasons, we’ve made some predictions regarding who will bite the bullet in season 11. For the final time, here are the characters we think are on the chopping block and the ones we believe will live on to remember them after the credits roll on the series finale.
Keep track of all The Walking Dead season 11 deaths below:
Pope (Ritchie Coster)
Prediction: Dies
I’ve never seen a guy more likely to die in the first half of a Walking Dead season than Pope, the leader of the show’s newest villains, the Reapers, who themselves strike me as filler villains for Maggie and Daryl while the real story at the Commonwealth develops. I assume the Reapers will be out of the picture by the time Alexandria needs to turn its attention to the much larger settlement in the second part of season 11.
Pamela Milton (Laila Robins)
Prediction: Dies
The Governor of the Commonwealth is poised to be the final season’s big bad. A bureaucrat hellbent on preserving the way things were before the zombie outbreak, Milton even established a caste system within her settlement to propagate class inequality. She represents everything that was wrong with the world before the fall of society and the complete anti-thesis of how the Alexandrians do things.
If you’ve read the comics, you know how Pamela’s story ends in Robert Kirkman and Charlie Adlard’s story, but the TV series is known for taking sharp left turns when you least expect it. One thing we know for sure is that the Alexandrians will have to reckon with Pamela’s rule before the series finale.
Lance Hornsby (Josh Hamilton)
Prediction: Dies
A Commonwealth acolyte and bookkeeper of the community, Lance is one of Milton’s chief personnel, helping her run the settlement’s government. He’s also seems like cannon fodder to me as things heat up between the Commonwealth and Alexandria, an early death that could spark a conflict between the two factions.
Mercer (Michael James Shaw)
Prediction: Lives
Mercer is loyal to the Commonwealth but there are more sides to him than his distinct orange military armor lets on. He’s one of the most interesting characters of the comic’s final storyline, and it would be a shame to lose him before we can see his story through.
Virgil (Kevin Carroll)
Prediction: Dies
Virgil has a lot to atone for after kidnapping and drugging Michonne in season 10. At the end of the season, we learn that he’s found a disoriented Connie in the woods. His redemption arc will likely include helping Connie survive on the walker-infested road back to Alexandria. Will that eventually involve a final sacrifice to save her?
Connie (Lauren Ridloff)
Prediction: Lives
Connie’s been through a hell of a lot in the past season. After surviving an explosion, a cave-in, and an entire walker horde, Connie’s made it out of Whisperer territory but is still a ways from home. Expect part of season 11’s story to be about Connie’s odyssey and ultimate reunion with her sister and Daryl.
Lydia (Cassady McClincy)
Prediction: Lives
Lydia was at the center of Alexandria’s conflict with the Whisperers for a season and a half. With Alpha and Beta defeated, and their faction all but obliterated, I have to wonder what Lydia has left to do on the show. That said, the writers have continued to find interesting ways to explore this character, and someone has to live on to lead the next generation of Alexandrians. I think Lydia is in it for the long haul.
Magna (Nadia Hilker)
Prediction: Dies
Magna was sidelined pretty quickly after her introduction. While a reunion with Yumiko seems like the logical direction for her story, The Walking Dead universe is a cruel one. She could be headed toward tragedy.
Yumiko (Eleanor Matsuura)
Prediction: Lives
In season 11, Yumiko is inheriting a major storyline from the comics that likely means she’ll survive the final 24 episodes of the series. Of course, the TV show could always alter that storyline to bring a tragic end to Yumiko’s story.
Luke (Dan Fogler)
Prediction: Dies
It’s pretty wild that Luke has survived as long as he has. A man of the arts hardly has a place in the cruel world of this show, but he has clumsily persevered thus far. But if the writers are planning an especially bloody final season, I’d put Luke on the short list.
Kelly (Angel Theory)
Prediction: Lives
Kelly has been one of the best late additions to the show. It would suck for her to finally reunite with her sister only to meet an unexpected end.
Alden (Callan McAuliffe)
Prediction: Dies
Another candidate for the chopping block. I’m surprised he’s even made it this long.
King Ezekiel (Khary Payton)
Prediction: Lives
Yes, Ezekiel has thyroid cancer, and were he in Alexandria, that would mean his inevitable death. But the Commonwealth is a different ballgame, an advanced settlement in the comics that will likely have the doctors and surgical resources needed to save him. That is, if Ezekiel isn’t caught up in Milton’s caste system.
Jerry (Cooper Andrews)
Prediction: Dies
I love Jerry and don’t want to see the tank with a heart of gold go. But if the season needs an early death that pulls at the heart strings, Jerry is a prime candidate for a midseason casualty.
Father Gabriel Stokes (Seth Gilliam)
Prediction: Lives
Gabriel has evolved so much since his debut in season 5, becoming one of Alexandria’s key leaders. He’s come so far and even survived longer than his comic book counterpart. I’d hate to see him go so close to the end. So I’m just going to say he lives.
Aaron (Ross Marquand)
Prediction: Lives
Aaron seemed destined to die seasons ago, too kind and trusting to survive this long. But here he is, still fighting and surviving. He’s lost the man he loves, his arm, and many friends — and it’s all hardened him into a war machine. It’d be a shame for him to die now.
Rosita Espinosa (Christian Serratos)
Prediction: Lives
In the comics, Rosita’s head ended up on a pike during the Whisperer war, but her TV counterpart has persevered. It’s difficult to predict where her story goes at this point, but since she survived her comic book death, I assume the show’s writers have something in mind for her in season 11.
Eugene Porter (Josh McDermitt)
Prediction: Lives
Eugene has become an unlikely protagonist going into season 11. From a mulleted coward hiding behind his intelligence so that others protect him to the Alexandrian leading his people to the Commonwealth, Eugene is central to the plot of the final season, and I think that means he’s safe. Plus, Eugene is hilarious, and The Walking Dead can always use a little comedic relief.
Judith Grimes (Cailey Fleming)
Prediction: Lives
Result: Lived
NO.
Rick Grimes Jr. (Antony Azor)
Prediction: Lives
Nah.
Negan (Jeffrey Dean Morgan)
Prediction: Lives
I think The Walking Dead is going to end with one last big death, one last sacrifice before the credits roll on the massive zombie drama. Like Rick in the comics, one of the major characters of the TV series will likely become the martyr who inspires change inside the Commonwealth’s walls. Negan would probably be on the short list for this big moment from the comics, a villain finally choosing to do the right thing for a cause bigger than himself, a fitting conclusion to his seasons-long redemption arc. But Jeffrey Dean Morgan recently teased that he was already having discussions with AMC about a potential Negan spinoff after The Walking Dead has concluded, which means the former Savior leader is safe…unless the Negan show is a prequel.
Carol Peletier (Melissa McBride)
Prediction: Lives
This one’s an easy one: Melissa McBride is getting her own spinoff that will follow her character after The Walking Dead series finale. That means she’s safe.
Daryl Dixon (Norman Reedus)
Prediction: Lives
Norman Reedus is joining McBride for that spinoff, so he’s safe, too. The actor even told us what the Daryl and Carol show will be about.
Maggie Rhee (Lauren Cohan)
Prediction: Dies
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That leaves The Walking Dead with one logical choice to pick up Rick’s final storyline from the comic. It’s Maggie. It also makes a bit of sense from a logistical standpoint. Lauren Cohan has already left The Walking Dead universe once before to pursue other small and big screen projects. She’s back for the final 24 episodes of the series as a welcome legacy character but that doesn’t mean Cohan wants to stick around for longer than that. I assume Cohan’s returned to bring closure to her character, not to prepare for a spinoff.
Let us know your predictions for The Walking Dead season 11 in the comments!
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EXCLUSIVE: 'Better Call Saul's Bob Odenkirk on Losing Jimmy's 'Humanity' & Why He's Nothing Like Walter White!
Better Call Saul is back and better than ever!
AMC's hit Breaking Bad prequel has officially returned for its third season, and series star Bob Odenkirk promises some "very funny escapades" in the upcoming season, despite the fact that good-hearted Jimmy McGill is slowly but surely transitioning into his inevitable alias of crooked Saul Goodman.
"As far as the journey to Saul goes, sadly it seems that the journey is one where all that great humanity in Jimmy McGill is getting shoveled down and hidden away," the 54-year-old actor recently dished to ET ahead of Monday night's premiere. "He starts to just kind of shut down emotionally and that's a sad thing. His conscience is getting more blurred."
Odenkirk confessed that watching the earnest light drain out of Jimmy has been a bittersweet experience for him as both an actor and a fan of the show. "It's really sad and I feel bad, but it's the journey that we have to go on."
WATCH: These 'Better Call Saul' Season 2 Bloopers Will Brighten Your Day
"It's a sad thing to feel a person closing off parts of their heart and closing themselves off to the world and just sort of hiding way because they just feel like they're not going to connect with anyone or it's not going to work," he furthered. "Even though in season three, Kim and Jimmy have a better relationship than almost anything I've seen on TV -- they're pretty great and supportive of each other in a really cool and unique way -- but even with that in his life, he is shutting down."
Odenkirk added that a major contributing factor to the downfall of Jimmy is the "devolving" brotherly dynamic between him and Chuck in season three. "Jimmy is going to get pounded. He punches back once or twice, but in the end, he's just going to get crushed. It's one of the things that makes him into the diamond that is Saul Goodman," he said.
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And of course, fans know that Saul Goodman will eventually enter yet another metamorphosis and emerge as Gene, the lowly Cinnabon manager with "that mustache of sorrow and existential dread," as Odenkirk likes to call it.
"I take the mustache and I wrap it around my body and my mind and I close off all human feeling and hide and crouch very tightly behind that mustache of pain. That’s what it's like," the actor said when asked about getting into character as Gene in those black-and-white flash-forwards.
"He's a sad fellow, man. He's the worst and he's in the worst position. He's a sad guy and closed off and he's hiding from the world," Odenkirk said. "It would be painful to be that character in real life, and I also think that I don’t think a person could do that for very long without developing some massive ulcers or some kind of alcoholism."
MORE: Aaron Paul Suggests 'Maybe I Already Shot' 'Breaking Bad' Reunion on 'Better Call Saul'
But for now, as Jimmy McGill enters his third season on our screens, Odenkirk continues to credit and praise Breaking Bad for its revolutionary storytelling and the subsequent spawning of Better Call Saul. "Listen, we're the show we are and we have the audience we have because of Breaking Bad," he said.
"Breaking Bad, obviously, set the stage for us to be viewed and tried out and checked out by millions of people, but also Breaking Bad dialed everyone in to a kind of storytelling that we then get to mine and use," Odenkirk continued. "Our show is so unique and idiosyncratic and quiet and interior. I don’t know that it could've survived without Breaking Bad cuing everyone in to the kind of storytelling that Vince Gillian does."
While it's true that both Breaking Bad and Better Call Saul depict the character evolutions of two men -- Walter White into Heisnberg and Jimmy McGill into Saul Goodman, respectively, -- Odenkirk stressed that each have very different motives for their transitional identities.
"I think Walter White was a more cunning guy right from the start and I think Walter is just plain lying to himself and he had such anger and selfishness inside of him that was dying to come out. Whereas Jimmy, I feel like, it's against his will that he's losing his humanity," he revealed. "I think that's the big difference between the two characters there. You know in the end, Walter says, 'I did it for me and I liked it.' And I think Jimmy would say, 'I did it against all my best instincts and I regret it.'"
RELATED: 'Breaking Bad' Star Giancarlo Esposito is Coming to 'Better Call Saul' -- See What He Said!
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Looking ahead, Odenkirk teased that Breaking Bad fans are in for a delicious treat in next week's hour when Giancarlo Esposito re-debuts his iconic character Gus Fring in episode two.
"It was like watching your memories come to life!" Odenkirk said of stepping onto Los Pollos Hermanos set that was recreated for the prequel series. "I mean, I was never on that set originally because my character never interacted with Gus before, but it was really amazing and fun. And of course, Giancarlo is one of the greatest actors of all time."
ET had the pleasure of being on the Better Call Saul set in for the season two return to another iconic Breaking Bad restaurant, The Dog House, so we were dying to know which food tastes better: Los Pollos Hermanos' chicken or The Dog House's chili dogs?
"Oh, the chili dogs were way better, actually," Odenkirk quickly answered. "Well, The Dog House is a real place [in Albuquerque], and Los Pollos Hermanos is not actually a real restaurant, so the food in Los Pollos Hermanos is just stuff that's been brought in by the props department."
Better Call Saul airs Mondays at 10 p.m. ET/PT on AMC.
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EXCLUSIVE: 'Better Call Saul's Bob Odenkirk on Losing Jimmy's 'Humanity' & Why He's Nothing Like Walter White!
Better Call Saul is back and better than ever!
AMC's hit Breaking Bad prequel has officially returned for its third season, and series star Bob Odenkirk promises some "very funny escapades" in the upcoming season, despite the fact that good-hearted Jimmy McGill is slowly but surely transitioning into his inevitable alias of crooked Saul Goodman.
"As far as the journey to Saul goes, sadly it seems that the journey is one where all that great humanity in Jimmy McGill is getting shoveled down and hidden away," the 54-year-old actor recently dished to ET ahead of Monday night's premiere. "He starts to just kind of shut down emotionally and that's a sad thing. His conscience is getting more blurred."
Odenkirk confessed that watching the earnest light drain out of Jimmy has been a bittersweet experience for him as both an actor and a fan of the show. "It's really sad and I feel bad, but it's the journey that we have to go on."
WATCH: These 'Better Call Saul' Season 2 Bloopers Will Brighten Your Day
"It's a sad thing to feel a person closing off parts of their heart and closing themselves off to the world and just sort of hiding way because they just feel like they're not going to connect with anyone or it's not going to work," he furthered. "Even though in season three, Kim and Jimmy have a better relationship than almost anything I've seen on TV -- they're pretty great and supportive of each other in a really cool and unique way -- but even with that in his life, he is shutting down."
Odenkirk added that a major contributing factor to the downfall of Jimmy is the "devolving" brotherly dynamic between him and Chuck in season three. "Jimmy is going to get pounded. He punches back once or twice, but in the end, he's just going to get crushed. It's one of the things that makes him into the diamond that is Saul Goodman," he said.
Tumblr media
AMC
And of course, fans know that Saul Goodman will eventually enter yet another metamorphosis and emerge as Gene, the lowly Cinnabon manager with "that mustache of sorrow and existential dread," as Odenkirk likes to call it.
"I take the mustache and I wrap it around my body and my mind and I close off all human feeling and hide and crouch very tightly behind that mustache of pain. That’s what it's like," the actor said when asked about getting into character as Gene in those black-and-white flash-forwards.
"He's a sad fellow, man. He's the worst and he's in the worst position. He's a sad guy and closed off and he's hiding from the world," Odenkirk said. "It would be painful to be that character in real life, and I also think that I don’t think a person could do that for very long without developing some massive ulcers or some kind of alcoholism."
MORE: Aaron Paul Suggests 'Maybe I Already Shot' 'Breaking Bad' Reunion on 'Better Call Saul'
But for now, as Jimmy McGill enters his third season on our screens, Odenkirk continues to credit and praise Breaking Bad for its revolutionary storytelling and the subsequent spawning of Better Call Saul. "Listen, we're the show we are and we have the audience we have because of Breaking Bad," he said.
"Breaking Bad, obviously, set the stage for us to be viewed and tried out and checked out by millions of people, but also Breaking Bad dialed everyone in to a kind of storytelling that we then get to mine and use," Odenkirk continued. "Our show is so unique and idiosyncratic and quiet and interior. I don’t know that it could've survived without Breaking Bad cuing everyone in to the kind of storytelling that Vince Gillian does."
While it's true that both Breaking Bad and Better Call Saul depict the character evolutions of two men -- Walter White into Heisnberg and Jimmy McGill into Saul Goodman, respectively, -- Odenkirk stressed that each have very different motives for their transitional identities.
"I think Walter White was a more cunning guy right from the start and I think Walter is just plain lying to himself and he had such anger and selfishness inside of him that was dying to come out. Whereas Jimmy, I feel like, it's against his will that he's losing his humanity," he revealed. "I think that's the big difference between the two characters there. You know in the end, Walter says, 'I did it for me and I liked it.' And I think Jimmy would say, 'I did it against all my best instincts and I regret it.'"
RELATED: 'Breaking Bad' Star Giancarlo Esposito is Coming to 'Better Call Saul' -- See What He Said!
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Looking ahead, Odenkirk teased that Breaking Bad fans are in for a delicious treat in next week's hour when Giancarlo Esposito re-debuts his iconic character Gus Fring in episode two.
"It was like watching your memories come to life!" Odenkirk said of stepping onto Los Pollos Hermanos set that was recreated for the prequel series. "I mean, I was never on that set originally because my character never interacted with Gus before, but it was really amazing and fun. And of course, Giancarlo is one of the greatest actors of all time."
ET had the pleasure of being on the Better Call Saul set in for the season two return to another iconic Breaking Bad restaurant, The Dog House, so we were dying to know which food tastes better: Los Pollos Hermanos' chicken or The Dog House's chili dogs?
"Oh, the chili dogs were way better, actually," Odenkirk quickly answered. "Well, The Dog House is a real place [in Albuquerque], and Los Pollos Hermanos is not actually a real restaurant, so the food in Los Pollos Hermanos is just stuff that's been brought in by the props department."
Better Call Saul airs Mondays at 10 p.m. ET/PT on AMC.
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EXCLUSIVE: 'Better Call Saul's Bob Odenkirk on Losing Jimmy's 'Humanity' & Why He's Nothing Like Walter White!
Better Call Saul is back and better than ever!
AMC's hit Breaking Bad prequel has officially returned for its third season, and series star Bob Odenkirk promises some "very funny escapades" in the upcoming season, despite the fact that good-hearted Jimmy McGill is slowly but surely transitioning into his inevitable alias of crooked Saul Goodman.
"As far as the journey to Saul goes, sadly it seems that the journey is one where all that great humanity in Jimmy McGill is getting shoveled down and hidden away," the 54-year-old actor recently dished to ET ahead of Monday night's premiere. "He starts to just kind of shut down emotionally and that's a sad thing. His conscience is getting more blurred."
Odenkirk confessed that watching the earnest light drain out of Jimmy has been a bittersweet experience for him as both an actor and a fan of the show. "It's really sad and I feel bad, but it's the journey that we have to go on."
WATCH: These 'Better Call Saul' Season 2 Bloopers Will Brighten Your Day
"It's a sad thing to feel a person closing off parts of their heart and closing themselves off to the world and just sort of hiding way because they just feel like they're not going to connect with anyone or it's not going to work," he furthered. "Even though in season three, Kim and Jimmy have a better relationship than almost anything I've seen on TV -- they're pretty great and supportive of each other in a really cool and unique way -- but even with that in his life, he is shutting down."
Odenkirk added that a major contributing factor to the downfall of Jimmy is the "devolving" brotherly dynamic between him and Chuck in season three. "Jimmy is going to get pounded. He punches back once or twice, but in the end, he's just going to get crushed. It's one of the things that makes him into the diamond that is Saul Goodman," he said.
Tumblr media
AMC
And of course, fans know that Saul Goodman will eventually enter yet another metamorphosis and emerge as Gene, the lowly Cinnabon manager with "that mustache of sorrow and existential dread," as Odenkirk likes to call it.
"I take the mustache and I wrap it around my body and my mind and I close off all human feeling and hide and crouch very tightly behind that mustache of pain. That’s what it's like," the actor said when asked about getting into character as Gene in those black-and-white flash-forwards.
"He's a sad fellow, man. He's the worst and he's in the worst position. He's a sad guy and closed off and he's hiding from the world," Odenkirk said. "It would be painful to be that character in real life, and I also think that I don’t think a person could do that for very long without developing some massive ulcers or some kind of alcoholism."
MORE: Aaron Paul Suggests 'Maybe I Already Shot' 'Breaking Bad' Reunion on 'Better Call Saul'
But for now, as Jimmy McGill enters his third season on our screens, Odenkirk continues to credit and praise Breaking Bad for its revolutionary storytelling and the subsequent spawning of Better Call Saul. "Listen, we're the show we are and we have the audience we have because of Breaking Bad," he said.
"Breaking Bad, obviously, set the stage for us to be viewed and tried out and checked out by millions of people, but also Breaking Bad dialed everyone in to a kind of storytelling that we then get to mine and use," Odenkirk continued. "Our show is so unique and idiosyncratic and quiet and interior. I don’t know that it could've survived without Breaking Bad cuing everyone in to the kind of storytelling that Vince Gillian does."
While it's true that both Breaking Bad and Better Call Saul depict the character evolutions of two men -- Walter White into Heisnberg and Jimmy McGill into Saul Goodman, respectively, -- Odenkirk stressed that each have very different motives for their transitional identities.
"I think Walter White was a more cunning guy right from the start and I think Walter is just plain lying to himself and he had such anger and selfishness inside of him that was dying to come out. Whereas Jimmy, I feel like, it's against his will that he's losing his humanity," he revealed. "I think that's the big difference between the two characters there. You know in the end, Walter says, 'I did it for me and I liked it.' And I think Jimmy would say, 'I did it against all my best instincts and I regret it.'"
RELATED: 'Breaking Bad' Star Giancarlo Esposito is Coming to 'Better Call Saul' -- See What He Said!
Tumblr media
AMC
Looking ahead, Odenkirk teased that Breaking Bad fans are in for a delicious treat in next week's hour when Giancarlo Esposito re-debuts his iconic character Gus Fring in episode two.
"It was like watching your memories come to life!" Odenkirk said of stepping onto Los Pollos Hermanos set that was recreated for the prequel series. "I mean, I was never on that set originally because my character never interacted with Gus before, but it was really amazing and fun. And of course, Giancarlo is one of the greatest actors of all time."
ET had the pleasure of being on the Better Call Saul set in for the season two return to another iconic Breaking Bad restaurant, The Dog House, so we were dying to know which food tastes better: Los Pollos Hermanos' chicken or The Dog House's chili dogs?
"Oh, the chili dogs were way better, actually," Odenkirk quickly answered. "Well, The Dog House is a real place [in Albuquerque], and Los Pollos Hermanos is not actually a real restaurant, so the food in Los Pollos Hermanos is just stuff that's been brought in by the props department."
Better Call Saul airs Mondays at 10 p.m. ET/PT on AMC.
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