#and obviously there isn’t a clear binary of like normal vs. internet dwelling weirdo | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

bitchslapblastoids · 4 months ago

Text

Was thinking about how much of a normo I come across as irl, how I’ve felt a lil odd person out at their shows bc of being a bit older (29) and looking so aggressively normal, how generally confused people in my life would be if they knew about my d&p obsession, how thoroughly i mask weirder traits and essentially codeswitch to suit the mainstream, etc.

i feel kind of fish out of water when I imagine how all the people that populate my tumblr phandom ecosystem are likely presenting to the world irl (I.e. more visibly queer, counterculture, and so on). But then I think maybe the most visible phannies are the ones with the most curated, alt, deliberate daytoday lewks/style? So maybe what I’m picturing is off base? But then I’m also basing this off of what audiences look like in audience footage, m&gs, etc.

Sooooooo i would like to know… do you guys feel like you present as someone who may be Deeply Online and obsessed with two gay nerds from the internet? Or do you hide it and fly under the radar, masking as a total normy and living a double life?

(To clarify I don’t mean you’re like out and about wearing the fringes boob sweatshirt lol I more mean vibes and overall lewk yk?)

#does this make any sense?#not to say we’re all abnormal freaks over here but also…. we lowkey are freaks lol #like this is not typical behavior #obvs when I say dressing alt and counterculture I’m aware phannies aren’t like a predominantly goth community or some extreme aesthetic #or what have you #I just mean that this is obviously not a super mainstream interest nor are they mainstream creators anymore #(arguably they never were. they were big but not mainstream. I think people entrenched in internet #and YouTube and phandom can become a bit tunnelvisioned and #and forget that even at their peak Dan and Phil were still #a niche interest and an unconventional one #but i digress)#basically I’m trying to figure out how many of us are also living double lives on here #I hope no one comes for my over this or it doesn’t get misconstrued #I just have like SUCH a normal job and so many people I know would be DEEPLY confused if they learned about this whole thing #and obviously there isn’t a clear binary of like normal vs. internet dwelling weirdo #and that we contain multitudes #and all things can be true simultaneously #I know I know I know you know that I know right?? but you also know what I mean right??#me yapping #dan and phil #phan

206 notes · View notes