#and obviously i don't blame her bc nothing is her fault and i know she's old but mentally it's so exhausting

[lakesbian]

you know what. im going to follow my heart so we can move on with the wormread and just copy-paste what i said about danny in chapter 6.9 on discord with some minimal editing because it's not pretty but the general thesis is there and i don't feel like making it into proper paragraph form

okay so the thing thats fucking killing me abotu 6.9 is that danny is literally like. he tries to call taylor a nickname only her mom called her once he realizes he's fucked up bad and is trying to recover whichi s insane [because it's obviously going to be upsetting to her by reminding her of her mom being gone, and it also indicates that his fall-back for something going wrong w/ taylor is to try to appeal to her by poorly copying someone else's parenting style] and he also randomly tells her about how her mom wanted to move her a grade ahead but he wanted her to stay in school with emma to make her happy. and he's been Stewing On That despite knowing it's objectively not his fault (and i am reminded of how in his interlude he spends time Stewing about how he wishes annette were there to give advice) and he also cops up to the fact that that the whole thing about "being her parent and not her ally" (<- demented thing to say for obvious reasons) wherein he locks her in a room and demands emotional vulnerability from her even as she's becoming visibly upset & compares his actions to emma's was her grandmother's idea and then. here's the real kicker. once lisa shows up and prepares to take taylor away there are any number of actions a parent confident that they're doing the right thing for their child would normally do in response--not, like, Good actions, but things that a parent would be likely to pull. threatening to call the cops bc blah blah you're my daughter, wanting to speak to lisa's parents, any form of power move pulled over these two teenage girls but instead he speaks to lisa like she's an equal authority over taylor and seriously asks if she's "okay with this" (i should remind you of the concussion chapter where lisa is doing some insane power move shit over taylors dad covertly establishing herself as more competent at caring 4 her than him lmao) which is just like. it's so glaringly wildly obvious how this guy has Zero confidence in himself as a parent so he generally does nothing and then while he's doing nothing he oscillates btwn rationalizing it to himself as allowing her privacy/dignity, getting angry at himself/calling himself a coward, or getting mad at TAYLOR and blaming HER for not being the one to take initiation to be vulnerable with him and, like. he literally does make functional decisions prior to this for a bit! he's good and supportive at the meeting with the school board about the bullying!!! but it doesn't immediately solve literal years of distance between them that have led to taylor having to take decisionmaking for her wellbeing entirely into her own hands w/o being able to tell him about it [& having literally no route for human connection or support other than the undersiders] so he just completely crumbles on his own calls and seeks out/takes completely shit advice from taylor's grandma instead so i very much think what's insinuated here is like. especially given that he knows he has anger issues and never wants to Be Scary with them. he might have frequently leaned on annette for parenting decisions before she died and/or is really fucking haunted by the time(s) he didn't listen to her and it went wrong and now that she's gone he's just kinda floundering and trying to toss the baton for parental decisionmaking onto anyone else, including, at one point, the literal teenage girl who shows up to help taylor run away from his house. insane ! also. thinking about how taylor says her grandma (maternal) never liked her dad. that man would literally rather talk to the mother of his dead wife, who hates him, and take her advice than go 'yeah ithink im gonna keep using my own judgement for compassion towards my daughter' fucking worst anyones ever done it this guy has the spine of a twizzler it's great

...and then doing All That & severely triggering taylor's trauma from the bullying in the process completely shatters any trust he had built with her, catalyzing her realization that she wants to be able to have meaningful relationships with the undersiders & leading to her running away to leave with them! i don't think anyone can say for sure whether or not danny Not doing this would have led to taylor turning the undersiders in before realizing that she would regret it, but oh fucking boy does he make SURE she doesn't go thru with it. and it would be bad to call the cops on a bunch of systematically neglected traumatized teenagers regardless of how much crime they're doing so you know what maybe we should actually thank danny for his Shit Parenting stopping taylor from being a narc

[eddiegettingshot]

can you talk more about your thoughts on shannon? i don't how to feel about the way they're kind of rewriting history a bit and mythologizing her and eddie's relationship in s6 and s7. i also really don't like acting like eddie "abandoning" them (i.e. offering financial support, health insurance, and remaining in contact while at war) and shannon abandoning them (basically no contact for years from what we know, no financial or any other kind of support, only re-entered the picture after eddie reached out) are equivalent; ik a lot of that comes from eddie who i can understand feeling that way (esp bc of how he felt about his father) but the show doesn't really challenge that view in any way. also the divorce conversation seemed a bit ambiguous on whether she actually planned on staying in chris' life but maybe i'm misremembering.

i have pretty much zero sympathy for shannon because i don't think there's any excuse for abandoning your child without a word, especially not because his disability made you feel Guilty and everything was just too hard to deal with and it was just too hard to come back. her actions made sense given the situation, but i don't think any of it was justifiable. the divorce discussion was weird - i took it to mean that she was planning on taking things slow with her reentry into chris's life, instead of the three of them jumping into being a family? working out some kind of custody agreement after divorcing, etc? i know there are less generous readings that suggest she was just going to run again, but i'm not sure the conversation itself necessarily supports that.

and yeah, it actually is really strange to me to act like eddie's service and shannon's leaving were remotely the same thing, and it's also really strange to act like eddie was obligated to leave texas three months after returning from war, where he had been GRIEVOUSLY injured. there was obviously a solution here but she ran before they could even attempt to figure it out. and then when she came back, she was judgmental and honestly pretty manipulative. whatever their marriage was before, i don't think she was treating eddie right when she came back.

i'm not sitting here trying to be like, eddie did nothing wrong - he was a bad husband. he made assumptions about what shannon wanted from him, didn't make any effort to communicate, made broad decisions about what was best for them, etc. they were absolutely not on the same page and i don't think he was making any effort to get on the same page. even when they were "together" again you see that he's not really talking to her about important stuff, like their finances (in oceans 9-1-1 when she asks about the surfing lessons he just tells her not to worry about it).

their marriage was bad because of the circumstances surrounding it: they were too young to have a kid or be married, eddie went to war presumably because (he felt) that was his only option to provide for his family, going to war just fucking sucks for everyone because war sucks and the military fucking sucks, it fucking sucks to navigate medical care in the u.s., etc. etc. i don't think shannon was at fault for finding any of this difficult. but the solution was... not whatever she actually did, and i do think that she turned a lot of the blame and frustration she was feeling onto eddie in a way that was unfair, if a somewhat understandable impulse.

but. literally nothing makes up for the fact that she left her, what, five year old son? because shit was just too hard. that's not how that works! and eddie has internalized everything that happened here to the extent that i don't think he even recognizes it as a trauma. it's just a part of him. he sees himself as shannon saw him. he's spent the last five years trying to make amends to a ghost. and i think that acting like they were both equally culpable is just taking eddie at his word, when his word is famously Not Reality.

[itsjaywalkers]

suffering horrendous nothing happens withdrawals, heart getting weaker, legs getting numb, sweat running down my back etc etc do you have any headcanons or something to help me during this difficult time 😔

(only if you feel like it ofc lovey)

OF COURSE I HAVE HCS NONNIE.. I'M ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT THEM.. and i'm more than happy to share them with u mwah!!

james' first time happened when he was 16 with this girl a couple of years older than him, they never dated it was simply a hookup. but reg's first time is with james when he's 17 (and james 19) <3 while he's dating barty too <3

funnily enough.. this happening is actually barty's fault..

james ruins more than a few friendships over regulus and all the shit he does for/bc of him (he doesn't care)

there's a scene with james and lily after he catches he and reg making out . very heavily . and i'm so fucking excited to write it bc their lil convo is everythingggg to me

barty and pandora dated briefly when he first joined their friend group. and then barty dated reg. and he ends up with evan at some point. which is somehow hilarious to me bc he saw this lil group of freaks and he was like . yeah i'm fucking all of them . AND HE DID

james gets in a physical fight with one of reg's bfs (rabastan) and actually sends him to the hospital

mary never forgives james about the emma thing, so their friendship remains tense and . kinda bitter . after he and emma break up

effie and monty absolutely adore reg as a person but . they don't like him for james bc they don't like the kind of person james turns into when he's with reg (this changes with time obviously and this is not all on reg, james is half to blame at the very least but that's their son etc)

everyone at reg's school think he's dating james (mostly during his last 2 years) and he never corrects them

despite barty being the person james hates the most . his least fav of reg's bfs is benjy simply bc he's actually a nice guy and really good for reg (it also doesn't help that sirius loooooves him)

reg makes a habit of picking up james' phone when they're hanging out and james' current gf calls and being . as ambiguous about what they're doing as possible on purpose

james catches him at some point but finds it soooo funny and sooooo endearing that he allows it. kinda encourages it even

james mentions in part 2 of nothing happens that he doesn't think sirius knows about he and reg sharing a bed so often bc he'd confront him about it but sirius Does Know bc he has seen them a couple of times when he has a nightmare and goes to look for his brother

he's not a fan. hates it even. but he'd never tell reg how or where to seek comfort so he's never mentioned it and simply pretends it's not a Thing at all

evan's always been Team James simply bc he was jealous when reg and barty dated and secretly wanted them to break up so bad

pandora however................. she stops being james' fan at some point in the story and even after they figure their shit out . her friendship with him is never the same

when it comes to james' friends, i'm pretty sure the only ones rooting for reg are lily and peter. like.. not even sirius and that's literally his brother lmao

james and reg's relationship stays mostly platonic at all times (except they never actually act like friends but u get what i mean) but when either or both of them are dating someone . the jealousy and possessiveness jump out and suddenly they're making out + fucking any chance they get

reg shows off all the hickeys james leaves when james is dating someone, but does his best to cover them when james is single (or he is dating someone)

james never hides the marks reg leaves tho.. mostly bc he isn't self-aware about the cheating and he's never ashamed of what he and reg do

and i think i'm gonna stop there bc this has already gotten long enough.. i have another post with some hcs somewhere in the tag tho i case u wanna check those up too!!

[lizzie-queenofmeigas]

Santis try not to be utterly fucking delusional challenge 💀 stop making shit up you're actually pathetic

Sansa never said shit about wanting Alys Karstark and the little Umber boy dead. She wanted them given as wards to other families and their lands/titles/castles given to people whose families didn't turn her little brother in to be hunted for sport. Y'know, like every other fucking lord on earth might use as the merciful approach for betraying their family resulting in their youngest brother being hunted for sport in front of an audience (and offering military backing to her multiple-time rapist).

It might not be as merciful as the approach Jon took but it's a hell of a lot better than what Ramsay did to Rickon, who the Umbers happily turned in, or what the Boltons did to the Starks with the Karstarks' help or hell, even the fate of Martyn Lannister, who the Karstarks brutalized and murdered. Tbh no one could blame her for Reynes-of-Castamere'ing them.

But she didn't even want to do that, she just wanted to reward the people who stayed loyal. And she dropped the issue once Jon made his decision.

Dany on the other hand killed people for refusing to appease her entitlement. "Rightful queen" of seven kingdoms her ancestors took by force with the medieval fantasy equivalent of nukes, that her family was later deposed from for being a bunch of incest-loving freaks who think being "the blood of Old Valyria (empire built off of slavery and burning people alive)" means you can ruthlessly abuse anyone you want with impunity? "Right yeah cool ig we'll all go back to the Incest Empire headed by the woman with three huge monsters flying around eating our children and we'll be cool with it bc she freed some slaves on another continent (and then used them to kill our friends and relatives)," says no one in their right mind.

The Targs deserved to die, yes including your favoritest platinum blonde baddie. Don't make shit up about other characters to justify how yours is totally morally/mentally sound.

And how is that the fault of a kid who couldn't be older than ten and a girl who didn't reach twenty? They were kids who had nothing to do with what their parents did, yet Sansa wanted to take their ancestrals home. One would think she would have a little sympathy, but that's not like Sansa.

Dany has the same rights to the Seven Kingdoms that Sansa has to Winterfell. Whatever you like it or not. You obviously support the Starks taking back their home no matter what, so why not Dany? What Dany did is no different any other male leader would have done, in fact she was far more merciful than a male leader (except show Jon but he is something else)

I know you prefer the actual colonizers Starks over the Targaryens, but be reasonable.

[theinfinitedivides]

listening to the PS:2 soundtrack again in an attempt to bite the bullet and psyche myself up to watch both films back to back in August(? that's the goal at least, if i get to watch it earlier even better) and i have been stuck on Veera Raja Veera for an hour and a half. i have also figured out my personal ranking for all versions of the song at last and it went about as well as i would have expected. it started to get too long for the f*cking tags tho so i decided to put in this post, we'll see how it goes from here—list is in order from least liked to most liked btw

5. going to start this off by saying i'm so so sorry to Gulzar but it's something about the rhythm for me. the lyrics are lovely but the way they are lining up with the music in the Hindi version,,,,,,, or failing to in certain parts,,,,,, it's not it. it's not it. it does well in the first minute or so and then heads downhill from there, and tbh it's not his fault i think it's just the sheer amount of syllables that they have to fit in compared to the original? and with that in mind it's not going to sound the same, obviously, but what salvages it from being a complete disappointment is the way we got both Shreya Ghoshal and Kavita Krishnamurthy as a duet in this year of our Lord 2023. Kavita, who still sounds the same as she did on the Dil Se soundtrack singing Satrangi Re and the Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam soundtrack and the Devdas soundtrack and the Yaara Dildaara soundtrack and the K3G soundtrack with Bole Chudiyan and Shreya Ghoshal who is a pleasure to listen to on practically everything she touches (Bajirao Mastani and Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi and that aalap just before her verse with Kavita here i'm looking at you) and— *inhales* *exhales* ok. do appreciate them letting Kavita take the 'चुन चुन चुन चुन / जाली रे जाली चिंगारी' portion in the Hindi translation bc she sounded beautiful there. (she always reminded me of Lata in that regard i think, and for some inexplicable reason i've by extension connected the two of them to Zohra Sehgal in some of her roles)

favorite line — 'दुश्मन पे टूटे जब | बिजलियों का वीर' / 'dushman pe toote jab | bijilyon ka vaar'. this is one of those times where the rhythm works in their favor and works well, and it leads perfectly into the rest of the verse imo. also @ that one guy going 'योद्धा~~' / 'yodhaa~~' at the very end of the song ty for your service

3. in contrast to the rhythm problems of the Hindi the Kannada recording is very smooth? i don't know if that makes sense as someone who doesn't speak the language but it's like water. like water in a stream just one after another going over the stones in the riverbed as it passes or the waves lapping against the side of the ship or the gentle sound wind chimes make when they hit against each other in the lightest breeze—the phrasing doesn't feel forced (ty Jayant Kaikini sir) and the syllables match the music as well as the original. ofc Rakshita Suresh and Sivasri Skandaprasad have a part to play with their solos in this sounding as good as it does, despite its ranking on my list (which will be explained in the next entry), and while i expected nothing less from Rakshita after Kirunage, this is the first i'm hearing from Sivasri and she blew me away. i had to listen to it several times to be able to tell them apart, and i might still be wrong bc their voice color is very, very similar, but they took what Rahman gave them and made it their own. (is it Rakshita that starts and Sivasri that continues? i'm thinking that it alternates between them with Sivasri ending that portion)

favorite line — 'ಮಳೆಗರೆವಾಗ ಬಾಣ | ಅಡಗಳು ಎಲ್ಲಿ ತಾಣಾ' / 'malegarevaaga baana | adagalu elli thaana'. this is where the river analysis stands out to me bc this feels like putting pebbles said river into a tumbler and rolling them over and over until they come out smooth and polished and just. right. (i am using the word smooth a lot to talk about the Kannada version sksksksk but can you blame me)

3. technically Malayalam and Kannada tie for third place on here (there is no fourth place. there is 4.75th place rounded up to fifth place and that belongs to the Hindi entry as previously stated) but Malayalam has the slightest edge for me. in terms of sound/pronunciation it's the closest to the original—i know most scholars believe that Malayalam descended from Tamil and split early on, so that might have something to do with it, but it sounds like a perfect cross between the flow of Kannada and the strength of the Tamil and ugh. pair that with Srinivas featuring and Shweta Mohan taking on that solo (by herself!!! and eating that sh*t like it was a duet!!!) and Rafeeq Ahamed as the lyricist and i play it almost as often as i play the original. (i was almost half expecting to hear the extension at the end in this version, that's how good it was)

favorite line — 'കടലിൽ ചുഴലി പോലെ | തവ നൗക കളിരമ്പി' / 'kadalil chuzhali pole | thava noukakalirambi'. i am in love with what Shweta does here, especially with the latter half of the line ('... നൗക കളിരമ്പി' / 'noukakalirambi') since she just heads straight into the 'വൻകടൽ...' and for some reason that is so auditorily pleasing to me. i don't have any rational thoughts behind that that's just how it is. her aalap before her verse is also breathier/softer than Shreya's if that makes sense but it fits her perfectly

2. Telugu. holy f*ck, Telugu. you put Shankar Mahadevan (i don't think i've ever heard him sing a bad song. ever. at least not what i've heard) and Chinmayi (Tere Bina???? Mayya Mayya???? Titli???? i'm still not over any of them from her????) in the same song you make every f*cking verse rhyme almost exactly courtesy of Chandrabose if Kannada is the sound of water then Telugu is pure silk and honey and the feel of something melting in your mouth and you expect me to stay alive? the actual f*ck? admittedly i may be biased bc one of my OCs is Telugu and i have been putting Telugu covers from my Bollywood playlist on loop for inspo but uh Rahman what the f*ck. what the f*ck am i supposed to do with that kind of genius

favorite line(s) — 'సమరం శ్రుతించైరా శిఖరం స్పృశించైర' / 'samaram shruthinchaira shikharam spushinchaira' & 'విధిగా తెగించైర | విధినే వదించైర | విలయం దరించైర | విజయం వరించైర' / 'vidhigaa thegincheyraa | vidhine vadhincheyraa | vilayam dharincheyraa | vijayam varincheyraa'. the f*cking alliteration? hello? also the 'veera raja veera' at the end of this version in particular gives me full body chills bc there is someone going up with the harmonization every time there's a new line. i don't know who it is but he's (they're? could be multiple vocals) going up and i am crying shaking throwing up on the floor having a spiritual experience etc etc

and finally 1. the top spot. the place where everything has been leading through this long ass piece that i have put you to suffer through

and ykw Tamil is pretty much self-explanatory i think: we bring Shankar back as we should but this time K.S Chithra (Asoka!!! Main Prem Ki Diwani Hoon!!! Bombay and Thoda Thoda from Indira/Priyanka and the live version of Jiya Jale that Rahman did in Dubai!!!) and Harini (also sang for Indira/Priyanka and featured on Varayo Thozhi from Jeans) are with him and Ilango Krishnan's lyrics take over and flatline me on the f*cking operating table. before it flatlines me however i break into goosebumps every time i hear it start, bc lbh it is impossible not to when you have the f*cking vocals coming in like 'காணீரோ? நீர் காண் | சோழ வெற்றி வாள் ஒன்றை காணீரோ? | ஓ அழகிய பூவே! செல்லுதியோ | மலரிடு போ சகி!' if you stay sane during that opening you are a liar get off my feed unfollow and block i don't want you anywhere near me for the next six years or however long it takes Mani Ratnam to make his next masterpiece. no coherent thoughts head empty MV playing on loop he and Rahman own me now they have the copyrights

favorite line (had to split everything into two blocks bc Tumblr was tryin to f*ck up my sh*t) — 'எம் தமிழ் வாழ்க வாழ்க! | வீர சோழம் வாழ்க! | நற்றமிழ் வாழ்க வாழ்க! | நல்லோர் தேசம் வாழ்க!' / 'em thamizh vaazhga vaazhga! | veera sozham vaazhga! | natramizh vaazhga vaazhga! | nallor thesam vaazhga!'. technically this isn't my favorite favorite line bc i have to do a seperate ranking for that below + it's exclusive to the Tamil version and i am trying to make this a wholistic review but. it's f*cking up there let's just say that. i think i mentioned in the tags of a different post of how i've been doing genealogy research and (in the process) tentatively confirmed the possibility of there being some South Asian descent from my dad's side, specifically Tamil or Telugu based on the stories/timeline of French occupation in the Caribbean and portions of the Indian subcontinent, and there's something in me that shifts every time we get down to the last twenty or so seconds and this hits. i don't know what it is, truly—maybe the remnants of the genes of my ancestors and their pride for their land, their language—but it's there and it's loud and if it's the right day at the right time i will start crying btw. full on sobbing like a little bitch. you didn't ask but i told you anyway

after all of *motions* that, i am also offering a bonus ranking of the section of VRV that makes me rewind every f*cking time it comes on in every language, bc it featured heavily in creating my eventual rankings and i would be remiss to not mention it. so here have this additional dive into my thought process during these trying times of hyperfixation rip

'आंधी से तेज़ | तूफ़ान से तेज़ | चुन चुन चुन चुन | जाली रे जाली चिंगारी | अंग अंग अंग अंग | लागे रे लागे अंगारे' / 'aandhi se tez | toofaan se tez | chun chun chun chun | jaali re jaali chingaari | ang ang ang ang | laagey re laagey angaare', Hindi — still at the bottom of the list here, but the inflection during the repetition ('chun chun chun chun' and 'ang ang ang ang') salvages it somewhat. nothing else to say it about it otherwise, since i already addressed Kavita's voice here earlier

'വാക്കാകെ നീ കാറ്റാക നീ | ശര ശര ശര ശരമേയ്ക | വേൽമഴ നെയ്തിട് | റ പറ പറ പറ വിറകൊൾക | പായട്ടെ പായ്വഞ്ചികൾ' / 'vaakkaaka nee kaattaaka nee | shara shara shara sharameyka | velmazha neythidu | para para para para virakolka | paayatte paayvanchikal', Malayalam — taking that third place as always, but its tied partner in the general rankings is higher up in this list for a change. i think the very last part ('പായട്ടെ പായ്വഞ്ചികൾ' / 'paayatte paayvanchikal') is what throws me off tho bc of the way they distributed the line, since on the first listen i was expecting them to go 'paayatte paayvan-chi-kal' and they chose 'paayatte pa-ay-van-chikal' instead. it's not like it decreases the overall quality of the song or anything it's just a very specific hang up i have. who knows maybe my preferred pronunciation would have f*cked with the meaning and we do not want that

'సుడిగాడ్పులా అడుగేయరా | సర సర సర సర | శరమే తనువే తాకగా | చర చర చర చర | చెలరేగాలి వేగంగా' / 'sudi gaadpulaa adugeyyaraa | sara sara sara sara | sharame thanuve thaakagaa | chara chara chara chara | chelaraegaali vegangaa', Telugu — this ties with Malayalam for third place and, much like it, my quirk is specfically with the last part ('చెలరేగాలి వేగంగా' / 'chelaregaali vegangaa'). my preferred is 'chelare-gaali ve-gan-gaa', they gave me 'chelare-gaa-li ve-gan-gaa'. again, not an issue, this is just me, i'm sure they knew what they were doing otherwise they wouldn't have recorded it like that in the first place

'ನೀ ಜ್ವಾಲೆಯು ನೀ ಗಾಳಿಯೂ | ಸರ ಸರ ಸುರಿವ | ಮಳೆಯಂತೆ ಶೂಲಗಳು | ಭರ ಭರ ಭರ ಭರನೆ | ಭೋರ್ಗರೆವ ಪಂಜುಗಳು' / 'nee jwaaleyu nee gaaliyuu | sara sara suriva | maleyanthe shoolagalu | bhara bhara bhara bharane | bhorgareva panjugalu', Kannada — there are at least two portions here that sound eerily similar to the original and that is why this version has moved up to spot two. it takes that water comparison i made and uses it to its advantage so much and it rotates in my mind like a rotisserie chicken at just at the right angle and it's just!!!! it's just!!!! God pls keep me from putting this in my mouth and biting it's too good

'கூற்றாகிச் செல்... | காற்றாகிச் செல்... | சர சர சர சரவெனவே | மழை தான் பெய்திட | பர பர பர பரவென | பாயட்டும் பாய்மரம்' / 'kootraagi sel... | kaatraagi sel... | sara sara sara saravena | velmazhai thaan peidhida | para para para paravena | paayattum paaimaram', Tamil — when this hits i blank out and come to at random intervals. cannot pinpoint the time the place etc but it happens and when it does i go f*cking feral. this one i am indeed putting in my mouth and biting bc the entire thing from 'para para...' onwards??? more alliteration more alliteration more f*cking alliteration. i remember someone making a post on here that said that certain parts of VRV sound like pearls bouncing off of the floor (was it @mizutaama? i apologize for the tag but i think that was you) and i think this is what they were referring to but my ears are that f*cking floor. i thank God every day for that

anyway mutuals (and non-mutuals who are just as obsessed about PS as i am) i'm sorry for clogging your feed with my opinions on a film i haven't even watched properly, pls feel free to roast me about my ranking choices. or agree but it doesn't really matter at this point bc even tho i could be talking out of my ass in terms of actually speaking said languages (i,,,,, do not unfortunately) i've said what i needed to say sksksksk

[blairbuttercup5]

Kuromi and her relationship with My Melo analysis. (◍•ᴗ•◍)

In the show, it's clearly obvious Kuromi despises Melo which is shown with her Kuromi notes. Which is notes of a series of events that Melo has best her.

One of the first ones that we are shown is My melody taking the pickled onion from Kuromi plate because she thought she didn't like them. However, she didn't know Kuromi was actually saving it for last.

So as an audience we can obviously see that they are both at fault.

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My Mel for taking the pickled onion without asking for permission and Kuromi for not stating that she was actually saving it. If Kuromi stated that she was saving it for later, a similar situation like this would be avoided.

Whilst you watch the majority of Kuromi flashbacks through the notes, you can see a clear pattern which is My Melody's oblivious.

However there is one Kuromi note flashback that stands out from me (and another one).

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This happens in Kuru Shuffle (season 2, I think ep 10).

They are playing a mini version of football (soccer). And Kuromi needs to score a goal to make her team and Melody's team a draw so it would go over time.

However when she was about to score, my melody screamed (she's the goalkeeper) thus left Kuromi in shock and stopped trying to score but to just stare at Melo helping an ant who was about to get hit.

This scene to me illustrates that Kuromi actually cared for Melo and stopped trying to score but she believes that My melody planned this. Because at the end her team kind of blamed her for losing.

Another one is Kuromi is on a class trip to the woods, they were about to leave but she notices that Melo is missing and starts to look for her in the woods. She didn't know my Mel was actually sleeping on the bus and the bus left her whilst she searched for my Melo throughout the night in the woods.

That Kuromi note made me angry that they just left her but it proved that Kuromi does care for My Melody.

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This made me ponder about Kuromi's character more and her rivalry with My melody. This is because to me, I don't think she actually hates My melody.

If Kuromi really hated my melody she would try to ruin her life, make her feel the same suffering that she feels but most of the time she just shouts at her whilst ranting.

This is most likely to release her frustration on everyone through my melody.

Because most of the time it's the people in Mari land who compares them and state kuromi's flaws (like when she was a main lead in a play and everyone kept gushing on my Melody's character and wondering why my Mel wasn't the lead) and show My melody as pure hearted.

The season finale scene when Kuromi frees herself from dar-chan when Mel was going to lock herself in the wardrobe (which Kuromi wants to do to her) portrays her feelings to My melody.

Kuromi's relationship with my Mel is a never ending cycle, she will keep hating on my melody but won't lock her up. If my Mel is locked away, or dead who's Kuromi going to hate on.

That's why she didn't want my melody to lock herself in the wardrobe bc Kuromi has no one to hate on.

Kuromi is nothing without my melody, her main fact about her is that she hates my melo.

And to shorten it down, Kuromi cares about her but she knows she should hate my Melo bc of her ruining her life (due to the Mari land people keeping on adoring my Mel).

[carmenized-onions]

Yap sheet live and in color pt 2!! Um ily this is so fun im actually having such a good week and the fact that U updated also just makes it even better 🫶🫶🫶 also i think to maybe see if it doesn't make the ask so super long on like feeds imma try this with no spaces between maybe idk

1.) This is literally from the tags i haven't even started reading, but hurt,,, some comfort??? UGH okay off i go

2.) WAIT THE OTHER SHOE THING IS SO FUCKING BRILLIANT ONION WTF

3.) Lowk forgot i was doing this for a sec bc im waiting for water to boil cause im making dinner rn BUT OH BOY DID THIS BRING IT BACK FOR ME

CARMY CALLING RICHIE A DEAD BEAT MAN ILL BEAT UP THAT LITTLE RAT BOY i love him so much it hurts but ill kick his ass fr like just bc ur hurting doesnt mean u make everyone else hurt (even tho thats how he was raised :< anyways thats 1 L for carm major L

4.) YEAHH RICH FUCKING SPEAK ON IT SPEAK ON ITTTT oh uh oh not tony catching strays rip us. Double uh oh coming from carmy. Also carmy thats another L don't do richie like that :<

5.) I fucking love you :< AND THEN FOR HIM TO SAY RICHIE IS NOTHING LIKE FUCK RIGHT AWF L MAJOR L

6.) Yk what this chapter is going to be endless Ls for carm i can already tell but :< the whole oh are you gonna fix him too?? Like I can just feel and see like the hurt radiating off of him thru the screen like he's clearly so affected by all the stuff he saw but :< thats still not an excuse CARMEN

7.)The fact that Tony feels like she needs to prove herself, that she can take it, makes me very :<

8.) Also like I'm intrigued bc it almost feels like more than Tony just not charging them for the services out of like the goodness of her own heart or guilt over not being there for mikey like i originally thought like theres something else going on there i am ✨️confused✨️

9.) Noooo not Tony thinking she did something wrong :<<<

10.) i fear im going to jump off a bridge at this rate bc WAAAAAAA carmy is obviously so upset and he CLEARLY doesnt know how to handle that he IS SO ME

11.) MAJOR L MAJOR L

carmy im coming for you count your days that was so uncalled for Carmen what the FUCK onion im coming for u bc I just know I would be sobbing on the floor if carmen said that to me like especially bc Tony very obviously blames herself already :<

12.) Okay my noodles are done so BUT im mildly confused is all this carmy pov happening right after he yelled actually i just glanced back and yes it is and i will say i am glad carmy is at least A LITTLE self aware and that he's completely off the rails anyway

13.) :< i want my comfort neow right neow onion this is making me so sad (im on like point 7) also verbal confirmation that tony is crying like this isnt even a carmy specific L this is just an L

14.) Carmy just major self loathing makes me sad like yes he did this to himself but also like this is just the only way hes ever been shown how to express himself and ugh this better end with him going to therapy (i know it wont)

15.) Um so i read all of tonys thing just now i think uh anyway im gonna kms now tony thinks he hates her :< i really want my comfort now

16.) I know carmy doesnt deserve comfort but also i think he does a little is that too much to ask for

17.) Also the whole heart to heart with Richie makes me so :< i dont have a lot of coherent notes to write except for :< like im very :< right now

18.) Also i LOVE that tony is going to go to the fucking eras tour with richie and eva i LOVE that anyway um ACK ACK ACK

19.) ALSO ALSO ALSO like UGHHHH richie telling tony its not her fault mikey died and them commiserating is so fucking AGH

20.) STOP THE BANTER wait pause

21.) firstly um tony STILL looking out for carmy warms my heart thats fucking cold bc u KILLED ME anyway

22.) Right. UGHHHHH the banter has me just a touch :> bc like syd and tony dogging on richie is so :>. But overall im still :<.

23.) Stop not mikey thinking that tony and carmy would be a good match :< also like i feel like that *kinda* confirms that tony and mikey didnt have a thing bc why tf would he say that if they ever did but anyway

ONION TONY AND CARMY BETTER FUCKING TALK IN THE NEXT ONE IM SO FUCKING SERIOUS

As always i adore you and your writing even if i almost sobbed reading this one there were actual tears in my eyes and i never ever ever cry reading stuff or consuming media so fuck you so hard for that one

🫶🫶🫶 till next time pookie

LETS. GET. INTO ITTT.. Yap Sheet from Just Dropped, I'm excited to hear your thoughts on Something to Do!! Unless you already did-- And I'm just real fuckin slow to churn through my inbox.

THE NO SPACES SEEMED TO HAVE WORKED??? I hope that was easy for you, on your end-- If it's not, simply destroy people's pages it's fine we ball.

I did the.... some comfort because I was like... It does definitely hurt-- Comfort wise, it's definitely there, but you just don't really get it from the person you want it from, yknow?

AND THANK YOU-- I was very happy, when I realized the silly other shoe bit I could do. fun hat trick on my part.

DEAD BEAT BROOOO-- I can't remember if I added that or if it was in the original dialogue. I think I added it? I remember needing a transition line, to get into it-- It was like the Carmen equivalent of Richie's okay donna-- WOOF

I'll just do one point, for the Richie side of the fight, as I the writer don't have much to say about it but yeah it was-- Shit was brutal. It was very interesting to look at the freezer fight again with the perspective of Tony in mind and going,,,, huh,,,, they could both be talking to her, in this. The You're Nothing really also-- I wonder if Carmen will ever actually say that to someone, in canon. I don't think he could. But also they might just be saving it for the biggest explosion.

Writing Carmen's dialogue for this was very tough and interesting, for me-- Because like-- With the information he had, I kinda got it. Like yes 100% self-destructive tendencies but also I think I could sympathize with like, essentially him thinking he was basically some sort of manic pixie to be fixed by Tony. He was wrong, but like-- I get the concern. He shoulda voiced it better but I get him.

YEAAHHHH, YEAAHHHH Tony before this chapter for the most part I think only displayed the good/quirky parts about being the anxious helpful hero type, and this chapter and onward I think really got into the genuinely self-destructive behaviours of her thinking she needs to be able to take shit.

There was in fact, something going on there. With the invoice. LMAO. Tony's nice but she understands the power of a dollar

The repeated 'did i do something wrong' across multiple chapters-- Fuckin, in anything 'did i do something wrong' will always fucking get my ass. Like it's just so. It's. I'm, I'm fuckin sweatin just thinking about it. It always hurts.

CARMEN MAJOR L MOMENT ABSOLUTE L.

It's funny that while writing that line, I had always planned for that line to be like, the spinebreaker but I was worried, when I had actually put it to paper, that readers were somehow not gonna think it was that bad. I'm glad everyone thought it was horrifically bad. He fucked up there.

I won't comment much on Carmen's POV because there's some surprises I have in stock, for you, with that-- But I do agree. I think Carmen is typically slow to realize he fucked it-- But when it's something like that and everyone has a volatile reaction-- He's gonna know immediately that it's over.

Here's the thing, I can't show you any lines from the next chapter, because literally every single line is a spoiler for what the chapter is. but I've realized actually I can show you an old draft-- This was from the original list of the seven things.

I took this out, inevitably, but I did really like the idea of like... Realizing that this moment isn't just a now fuck up, it's a forever fuck up.

14. both of those fuckers went right on the self-loathing train. What could we expect from them? Choo choo, mf.

16. I hate to tell you this. He's gonna have a terrible time. I'm not letting that motherfucker catch a break. You'll see what I mean, in time.

17. WHY'S THE HEART TO HEART MAKE YOU FROWN--- I mean I get it but like BITTERSWEET RIGHT? RIGHT? ANYONE?? IS THIS THING ON?? Do you think the writers knew when they wrote season 2 and Richie getting Swift tickets they knew those things were gonna be like 3000 dollars a pop. I feel like they didn't. I like to go back and read this bit, from time to time. I just really like Richie and Chip. Am I a Rich/Chip believer? Honestly. A little bit I think. I have a wandering eye. I think.

21. Tony will always look out for Carm. It's so lame. get UP girl be PETTY-- HAUNT HIS ASS!!! DO A HAUNT!!!!

23. I love that you say kinda. I love that know one trusts me with a slight confirmation. I have poisoned the water mistrust and I love that.

I'M HONOURED TO GET YA MISTY-- MEANS A LOT, I hope you enjoy/enjoyed the next one. Love you fuck you sorry not sorry at all my bad your fault hugs and kisses THANK YOU BYYYYEE

[doueverwonder]

Can I hear more about your OC's? Doesn't matter who, it can be any

YES YES YOU CAN I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

okokokokok so this is going to be SO disorginized but i'm gonna talk about my hre oc bc the only canon character i truly hate is hre i want to punt the child

her human name is Adelheid Dietrich but she regularly just goes by Heidi. Her first name means Nobility, and her last name means Ruler of the people; very fitting name for how much power she held in Europe for so long.

Her parents are Gaul and Germania, she very notably was never very close with her mother, and very close with her father until the the last few years of his life. (The Saxon wars, and Heimeric's own refusal to convert contributed to the deterioration in their relationship but that deserves it's own post) I don't have her exact year of birth pinned down yet, but sibling wise she is between Austria and Switzerland. Roderich being a few years older, and Aldrich being a few years younger. Heidi is only 1 of 2 girls in the family and was fiercely protective of Belgium, even as adults, if anything happened to Bel she would regularly blame herself for 'letting' it happen. She had decently rocky relationships with most of her siblings, but would get in screaming matches with Denmark over the most insignificant things. Reasonably bitter because she did end up substitute mom for about half her younger siblings, specifically Netherlands, Belgium & England. And she should not have had to do that. Eldest Daughter Syndrome(TM) personified. Would get into an argument with Dan, Nor, and Swe not long after their father died that would consist of "Everything i've done to keep our family together and this is how you thank me? 'No'? Just because you don't want to? Do you know all i've given up? I didn't get a childhood. But it's fine. Do what you want." v much a The things she said weren't right, but the emotions she was having were definitely there.

She was terrified of death. Just from the moment she gained consciousness she couldn't think of anything worse then running out of time. And tbh that's probably what drew her to Christianity, and kept her there, the idea that death wouldn't be the end, and it would be a happy after. John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, so that everyone who believes in him might not perish but have eternal life" She's sold before the missionary can say anything else. That didn't stop her from being independent to a fault, which is where Lutheranism came into play; she was tired of being under Vatican's thumb (for lack of better term) so the moment the Reformation came around she was on board with that too. But all of that isn't to say she didn't have a complicated relationship with religion especially after a relationship--that i'll get to in a minute--constantly held it over her head as the whole reasoning for why she shouldn't do certain things; and it always worked because nothing scared her more than the idea that doing something would send her to Hell.

Anyway on romantic relationships; she was super queer. Would probably identify as bisexual in the year of our Lord 2023. She only ever had 2 notably relationships with other personifications; the first was with Czechia. It was very secretive, they were young, and dumb, and swore they would love no one but each other. (I actually wrote a little thing about them here). It somewhat obviously did not work out, because Heidi was scared of someone finding out about them, and after almost a century of being together she thought someone was getting to close to figuring it out; Adéla tried to insist it would be fine. Heidi panicked came up with a plan, and got Adéla to agree to it without telling her what it was. Within a couple months not a single person thought Adéla and Heidi were together... no they were too busy talking about how Clemens (Vatican) had supposedly broken his chastity vow and 'you'll never believe who for.' That was the end of her relationship with Czechia; it wasn't supposed to be. But it was.

Her second one was also a 'secret' but everyone knew about it. (so side note on my Vatican oc; remember he was born to represent West Rome and his land claim diminished as his children came along. Until eventually he picked up the title of the papal states then Vatican/Holy See). They met long before their 'romantic' relationship started, when Germania brought his at the time only daughter along to Rome and Vatican decided he just had to have her, and the sons of Rome usually get what they want. When they were very young they had a psuedo-relationship that really just happened because it was the first time they thought someone was cute and the other person thought the same. When she slept with him to cover her and Adéla's tracks, it was calculated. She had to have proof, and she had to have one or two people who she knew would talk have an inkling that it happened so rumors would start. What she didn't count on was him still having some of those feelings from hundreds of years earlier, she assumed he'd moved on completely. His children had to have come from somewhere. But now that Czechia didn't want anything to do with her she thought 'fuck it' and went along with a relationship that she didn't really want, but by now wasn't going to refuse either. And they would just stay that way, off and on, usually just sleeping with each other not much actual substance, but not so little that either would leave. They were just Stuck.

Jumping forward a bit to her death, she and Germany had a little less than a month overlap. He was born July 12th, 1806; and she died August 6th, 1806. She was already very sick when he was born, but asked to see him every day without fail. Austria told her eventually that he was sending Germany to live with Prussia, deemed he would be safer anywhere but Vienna. She argued with him over that, for a long time; insisted she wouldn't trust Brandenburg or Prussia to rear a child if they were some of the last people on earth. Austria got fed up, told her Germany was his son and he would do whatever he wanted with him. She argued back Germany was her heir, and she believed her heir should be raised in Vienna, not Königsburg, not Berlin, not Potsdam, Vienna. The argument stood until her death two weeks later, Austria to this day wishes he hadn't told her.

Everyone in the house knew about Heidi's fear, there wasn't a single person in Europe that didn't know about it. They all waited for something to register, for it to kick in that she more than likely wouldn't be making it another month, much less another year. But it never did, August 1st she got better, and for a solid two days she was even out of bed; it was during this Austria and Prussia caught her giving Germany a little speech.

"Now, you'll be taking over my job. I'm not promising it's an easy one because it isn't. The ones under you are insane, every last one, constantly fighting and they're changing all the time; every time you turn around someone new will have shown up, or someone else will have disappeared. I hope not too many disappear on you, but eventually you get used to it, and not in a sad way, in a "maybe they're off living their own life without the responsibility of thousands of peoples lives now". Unfortunately the annoying ones stick around the longest, your father is one, your uncle Gilbert is another. Saxony, Bavaria, Hesse, Brandenburg etc.. you'll have to get used to them, I don't think they're going anywhere. I know your parents are worried for you right now, but I'm sure it's completely unfounded and they're just dramatic. You'll be just fine... I wish I could stay to watch you grow up, i'm sure you'll be in charge of this whole continent eventually. You have to promise you'll make your family talk about me, don't let them be too sad about it, I want to be known as the interesting aunt not the one who died when you were a baby. Can you promise me that Ludwig?"

after those two days she got bad again though, worse than she was initially, and three days later she passed away. The moment they were waiting for never came, she didn't seem scared about the end; she put in her will someone has to make sure whoever killed her knew that she wasn't scared.

[golbrocklovely]

i honestly get both sides of the fandom. i get why you're upset and i also get why her fans are also upset.

i think it's a bit of a sticky situation. and i also think that a lot of fans put a little bit too much stock into this relationship, and that's why they are so upset that it ended. it could have ended in the nicest of terms, sam and kat could be best friends, and ppl would still say he fumbled the bag or will never be able to do better.

but i do think that's a bit of weird take to have. bc you're basically cursing the both of them to never have a "real life" outside of one another. that they will always be known as sam's ex or kat's ex, and i think that's a bit silly imo.

and obviously we will never know what went on truly, even with kat writing her songs or if sam were to ever come out and say his two cents on it, we'll never know the full story. but reality is, if sam wasn't happy, kat wouldn't have been either in the long run. forcing two ppl to get married just bc of promises, or bc they were together for a long time, even tho 1/2 of them doesn't want it…. it would have ended a lot worse than this.

and also, i do think it's a bit odd to get angry at sam for moving on. he could have waited years and someone would have found a way to be pissed off about it and said he moved on too quickly. however, i'm not saying kat's not allowed to get upset about it. she is. she's the one that dated him for almost a decade. but fans, on kat's behalf, shouldn't be that all upset. you didn't have any emotional stock in the relationship. your life didn't change when he moved on.

and when kat eventually moves on, i'm sure sam will also be upset too. even if he says nothing about it publicly, he probably will be surprised by it, maybe even hurt (even if it's unwarranted). it's weird to see your ex be happy with someone else. a lot of emotions arise out of it.

idk… i kinda feel like we can all joke and have our laughs, but sometimes not everything needs to be said online, you know what i mean? i don't think anyone is at fault in this relationship ending. both parties probably had something to do with it (in the grand scheme of things) and trying to play tit for tat or see who did worse or who's doing better now is a bit mean spirited. i wish them both the best, and let's just find something else to giggled and kiki about it instead lol

and blaming k for any of this is a bit odd. as if that girl had anything to do with their relationship…

[softichill]

heya, i just listened to that song you said reminded you of seam, and if its ok to you id like to hear you ramble about the connections you see between them :Dc

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYAYYAA OKAY :DDDDD

So like. The first thing obviously; the sewing themes. The character the song is originally about is a seamstress who makes her own clothes, so obviously these get included. Seam is an old stuffed animal covered in stitches bc they've been worn down over the years. And something very interesting: a lot of the sewing themes are used as a metaphor for keeping a group together before it all tears apart, because in the plotline this particular song is about a character snaps and starts killing people. Not only has Seam's view of the world grown darker, yet darker ever since Jevil started talking to that Stranger, but that person caused them to lose one of their closest friends. A single person changed Seam's life forever, and not in a good way.

The song is also echoey and sad. It's hollow sounding, like someone is singing into a huge, empty room full of nothing. As far as we know, Seam's completely isolated themself. They never leave their seap, even as it gets relocated, and don't leave for any events. They insist on sitting in their lonesome, even as the world begins to evolve and grow around them, wallowing in their own nihilism.

"And failure on my part to intercede has now ironically, or cosmically, like poetry, come in between our destiny and us" <- that line in particular strikes me as Seam talking to/about Jevil. Instead of stepping up and truly helping, Seam simply watched and listened as Jevil became completely lost in his worldview. When they were told by the kings to lock him away, they did. In their eyes, they didn't do anything to stop Jevil's descent, and now they're both isolated and alone.

Really, the whole song is about a character reflecting on how bleak everything is, how it's all fallen apart and no matter how she tries it won't be fixed and it's her fault. That is how I interpret Seam feeling about their whole situation. Perhaps, just a little, they blame themself. Not enough to spiral into self-hate, but just enough to aid their nihilism.

[m00ngbin]

mouthwashing for the ask gaaaame??

if youve even FINISHED IT YET

I DID. IT TOOK ME THREE WHOLE DAYS BUT I DID >:]

My favorite female character: it's Anya by default but it would've been anyways I think. Her whole situation drives me insane and I feel so awful for her. Driving me insane with her FINALLY taking agency and control back at the end and the way she does it is literally just her killing herself. Oughhhhhhhshhhhjskfkfjskkfnf. Also that scene when she first locks herself in the med bay and Daisuke is like "DONT WORRY JIMMYS HERE EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE FINE." I imagine she and curly were looking at each other like 😥. ALSO JUST THE FUCKING MISERY OF HAVING TO WALK AROUND AND LIVE WITH THE MAN THAT ASSAULTED YOU, THAT YOU KNOW IS SO DANGEROUS THAT YOU HAVE TO HIDE THE GUN, (an acted on hunch that was proven right after her death), THAT HAS BOTH DIRECTLY AND INDIRECTLY KILLED ALL OF YOU??? ughhgsjkdfjndkdjg :(

My fav male character: Daisuke or curly. INSANE ABOUT BOTH OF THEM. Daisuke. Useless goddamn ray of sunshine. WAILS. He was so sweet and he just wanted to get the approval and acceptance of the older adults around him and by god he did everything he could. AND IT GOT USED AGAINST HIM. HE DIED BECAUSE OF IT. HE DIED BECAUSE HE JUST WANTED TO MAKE SWANSEA PROUD :( AND CURLY. CURLYYYY IM INSANE ABOUT HIM. He just has to lay there and watch the consequences of his inaction play out in real time, and he is at the mercy of the Danger he let keep walking around. And he just wants to go home, man :((( God. Also like the horrors of your autonomy and choice being forcefully ripped away from you in every way possible. Jesus fucking christ

My fav (?): I'm going with like. Chapters? Idk I'm calling every time the pov changes a chapter. I went SO insane over the one where curly was trying to find the gun and Anya tells him she's pregnant and he's like what??? Who- and she just says I told you. I HAD TO TAKE THE BIGGEST FUCKING BREAK, TWO PEOPLE CAN ATTEST TO HOW FUCKING INSANE I WENT ABOUT THAT PART. MADE ME SICK AND CRAZY

My favorite cast member: I don't think this one really works for this

My favorite ship: I don't understand people that ship mouthwashing characters, it just feels weird and I do not think that this is the game to be doing that. But peace and love to anyone that does I just don't get it

A character I'll die defending: Anya. Forever. She never actually did anything wrong and even if she HAD I wouldn't care. On the front lines defending her. I'm her most dedicated soldier

Character I can't sympathize with: let's be real. It's Jimmy. I don't even have to tell you why, literally every single thing he does is the worst and for his own gain and he does NOTHING but shift the blame onto other people and he even convinces himself that it's NOT his fault and it never has been. Poor, poor Jimmy. Bitchass. What's the thing polle said. Uhhh OH Poor you. Caged and misunderstood. I genuinely cannot pick a thing I hate him the most for, and frankly I don't think it matters WHAT I hate more

A character I grew to love: SWANSEA. I was originally just ok with him, but if he was a mold growing on me then buddy I got the worst hay fever you've ever seen. Because you can get hay fever from being around mold too much. I don't think that makes any sense but I adore him. Grumpy old(er) man my dearest

My anti otp (notp): I still don't get any ships in mouthwashing bc I don't think this is the game for that and it's all super beside the point, but anything with Jimmy. Obviously. And I get SUPER iffy with anyone and Daisuke but ESPECIALLY Swansea. I know Daisuke is an adult but he's like 18-19. Maybe 20

[spookyrobbins]

agree with you on her regretting it. she has a history of sleeping with mark when her life isn’t going well. it’s like she doesn’t know of any other ways to cope. had she voiced her regrets to arizona, there’s a chance things could’ve been different. but they are both idiots who don’t know how to communicate.

so, now you have me curious about your thoughts on the africa breakup. i’ve always been a little upset with how callie reacted to the whole situation. instead of being upfront with her girlfriend about her feelings, she went to mark. and obviously mark is the expert in relationship advice. y’know, since he’s been so successful at it and everything. and he was never a strong supporter of their relationship, no matter what some people say. i don’t ever remember callie even showing any happiness for arizona, or even saying she’s proud of her. imagine how devastated arizona was. she had just won the most prestigious grant and she didn’t have a chance to be happy about it.

honestly, callie’s reaction to penny’s grant made her response to africa even worse.

you totally hit the nail on the head for africa!

i understand callie was upset about africa. it's understandable to an extent. i don't think arizona was hiding that she had applied to this grant, it probably just never came up since she applied when she first got to seattle, so years before she met callie. it very much seems like the kind of thing that might not come up. and yeah, i don't recall callie ever congratulating arizona, instead she sulks about it and bitches about it to the camera people and acts like arizona's being an ass for accepting it (which tbh it sort of seemed like webber pressured her into it).

but then miraculously callie changes her mind and decides she wants to go, and she's all in on africa. and that's not exactly a casual decision. but soon after, she starts getting pouty and frustrated about things and rather than talk to arizona, she makes passive aggressive comments and yes, like you said, goes to mark. i don't entirely fault her for going to mark bc i'm sure any of us would talk to our closest friend, but the problem is that she never talks about anything with arizona. and i also don't think mark was really giving her great advice in part because he didn't want her to go.

my general standing on the africa break up is that arizona was right to break up but her timing was awful. arizona knew well before the airport that callie was unhappy, but she tried to ignore it for as long as possible. now, callie also has ownership in that, especially since she's the one who changed her mind about going. if callie had gone, she would've been miserable and would've made arizona miserable and the break up there would be even worse. callie places so much blame on arizona for that breakup, but really, what were arizona's choices? she shouldn't have done it at the airport, but it needed to happen.

as for penny's grant, truly one of callie's worst moments. i'm sure africa weighed heavily on callie's mind during that period, but i'm sure it weighed even heavier on arizona's. for arizona, that was really just confirmation that penny was the one for callie in so many ways. callie was actually excited about it. callie was willing to uproot sofia for penny. callie was willing to basically burn everything in seattle down for penny. and for arizona, when there was nothing really stopping them from going to africa for 3 years and then coming back to seattle, she whined and got angry at arizona. absolutely crushing and just confirmation of so many of arizona's fears and insecurities.

[liinos]

having a senior dog is so mentally taxing

[some-mari-thoughts]

Hi... have you ever thought about a aftermath of bad ending?

Hello! never TOO much regarding the whole gang, but as my URL implies.. Guardian spirit Mari/ghost aspect is absolutely covered, haha.

So, suicide TW from there on. I'll cover what meagre thoughts i have on the gang first and then my brain rot <3

Okay, Obviously bad ending is Bad Ending and likely messes up everyone severely. I am not sure how strained everyone already felt with the aftermath of the fight, but surely Aubrey, Kel, Hero and ESPECIALLY Basil will all be severely impacted by Sunny's silent suicide. There wasn't even a goodbye.

Basil.. I'm sure he's gonna take the first opportunity he gets to end his own life as well. He almost made peace with not being alive that day, but that just surely finished off all of his doubts. I don't think he'd even try to make an effort to tell everyone the truth or talk otherwise. Why would he? or maybe he'd tell them about Mari bc he has nothing to protect anymore, except maybe easing their minds a little. He doesn't care about himself after all, he's gonna be dead anyway. He won't speak about their fight.

Aubrey might count herself at fault partially, due to how she met Sunny with threats and fighting, and so did her friends. She might see herself responsible for how the 3 days he spent outside were a shitshow (its not like he himself was barely stumbling abt and taking on most ridiculous tasks, and yk. Basil's everything). Basil dying doesnt help. Truth will not help either. She just doesn't understand why'd Basil speak up Now.

Hero will feel responsible. He hasn't got over the previous suicide, and he hasn't been there for her brother at all, and now he is gone too. And he is too broken for the one who's surely going next. He will try to alert Polly but that will be all. I don't know how he will react. I simply don't get him enough.

Kel.... Kel brought Sunny out. He doesn't know if it was for better or worse, but if he thinks of the suicide as a consequence of Basil fight that night, well, he is at fault. He's the one who made them interact so much and brought them to stay that night, even though Hero initiated the idea. He isn't exactly blamed by anybody, but this is a lot to overthink about, and that's what he does. I don't think he keeps his drive or decisiveness. World is kinda crumbling around him and he can fight that only so much.

Now ^^ ghost matters

Trivia recap: Mari as a Guardian is tied to Sunny(alive) and the Truth, and is automatically freed if either is failed/completed. Ghosts appearing as a result of suicide are tied to the place of their death, fixed in the moment of death, their life, or a dream hardly interrupted by the world around them. They might feel more hazy than the ghosts who are free since this sort of fixed unkind to them scenery is really likely to cause them more problems than they already have. (that makes wilderness deaths most lucky.. as lucky as you can call them)

Sunny is tied to the hospital. which has many ghosts, so he's not as alone as he otherwise would be. He is also somewhat Omori. He is also somewhat indifferent to Mari, who is heartbroken. He roams the hospital, or stands outside sometimes. Mari visits him at night. by day she's at Basil's. Omori tends to sit and imagine spending time with his friends for hours and sometimes days. His world is complete. His world is lonely. His world is both crowded and quiet and utterly indifferent to him. He doesn't care much. He likes when Sunny's sister comes around. They can watch stars together. It sucks he can't introduce her to his friends and big sis. She usually isn't around for that, or doesn't follow him there. Shame.

Mari... she's free, but she doesn't want it to be. not like that. She might eventually suggest all three of the ghosts go into slumber til called (Sunny's rest is most peaceful - no one is there to find him. even less so Omori)

[anarmorofwords]

I kinda wanna write a better version of tlh where Tatiana is still insane but there's no Belial bc that makes zero sense to me

In this version there would be:

Kamanna done correctly with actual genderqueer rep and not toxic relationships

Barbra and Oliver bc fight me she didn't die

Genie and Filomena bc I love them and all the lightwoods are queer

The gracelet doesn't even happen bc I refuse to write that

Grace is pretty much still the same but she breaks off their(hers and james') relationship bc she notices that he loves Cordelia

No bad James. He's not a shitty person to Alastair, and he doesn't treat Cordelia like a sex object

Anna puts a stop to Kellington and Matthew's relationship before it gets serious. She also tries to get him to stop drinking all the time

Alastair apologizes around seeing them again for the first time. The merry thieves are a little reluctant because of some of the things he did but they don't actively try to keep him away from events that they're at

Matthew notices how Alastair looks at Thomas and locks them in the sanctuary with Genie and Cordelia's help

Grace gets badly injured due to a mistake in necromancy and Christopher helps her treat it without letting people know

Lucie meets Jesse, and falls in love ofc, so in order to bring him back successfully she asks Malcolm to train her in using her magic

Matthew opens up to his mom about the incident. She doesn't blame him at all and instead apologizes for often putting her work before him

Matthew finds out about Charles and Alastair because he found Alastairxs break up letter to Charles

Matthew, the mother hen he is, decided to attempt to murder his older brother, only being stopped by James who had been there at the right time

Kamala ends things with Charles and tells Anna that she still loves them and hopes that she will give her another chance

Anna told her that they needed time to think, and that she is worried how Kamala's reputation will be affected if anyone besides their friends and Anna's family finds out

Kamala respects her decision and doesn't contact her until Anna's ready to talk about things

The merry thieves don't ignore Christopher and they actively listen and help him

The merry thieves also aren't terrible to Grace bc they realize she's been isolated alone with Tatiana and 1) she might not understand what's saying/doing is wrong or 2) that sometimes she's trying to push them away so her abilities don't accidentally make them do something

Good tid parents

James and Alastair being respectful to each other despite personal differences

Matthew, Alastair, Kamala, Christopher, and Grace being besties, or as I call them, the neglected squad

No fetishizing mlm/wlw

Domestic cuddles and taking care of the other one when they're sick

Jesse/Lucie/Matthew pairing bc I love them and I refuse to pick between lucie/matthew and lucie/jesse

Christopher teaching Grace the elements(at the time) on the periodic table

Tatiana dies at the end yay

It's very unpolished and I'm open to b hearing any feedback and/or suggestions that anyone may have

The idea came to me and I decided it would be best if I told someone before I forgot

hi, I'm sorry it took so long,but I wanted to properly answer this and I keep having either internet connection issues or little time

DON'T BE SHY, WRITE THIS 👀

In all seriousness tho... THIS IS ABSOLUTE PERFECTION?!? I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START I AM UTTERLY IN LOVE WITH THIS IDEA, I NEED IT

Look, I've been on the verge of rewriting ChoI, and I keep saying I want someone to write a TLH that will live up to its potential, but I've never actually came up with a proper idea for it, and you?!! YOUR BRAIN DARLING THIS IS GENIUS

ok hold up I'll just react to each and every single one so

yes please?!? I mean it started off so sweet in EEV?! Also actually genderqueer Anna and not dancing around the subject like CC is doing now?! That's what they deserve, and that's what we all deserve too

yesss please. also just,,,, Barbara, the feminine, not-wanting-to-fight-which-doesnt-make-her-less-badass queen that she is, getting the page space and appreciation she deserves

that's actually brilliant?!? it would be so great, just imagine the new girl arrives for her travel year and Genie is completely awestruck. I'm so invested in Joshwood it's difficult to imagine not having them, but this is actually the only valid alternative?!

ok that's fine. I think it could still happen and be done well, but tbh for now... the gracelet doesn't seem to have done anything relevant to the plot itself? I mean yeah it messed up James's life and Jordelia, but what did it give Belial? Tatiana? nothing. It makes no sense atm.

could be! maybe she's still encouraged by Tatiana to befriend/seduce him, but without the gracelet it doesn't work out? or maybe James somehow manages to realize that she's in danger and he actually like,,,, kidnaps her? idk idk

yes. YES. just,,,,z James is a sweet compassionate literature nerd who accidentally makes a good leader and he actually cares about people, and not just judges them from his high horse; he does still have hero syndrome, but he's kind and respectful and overall a good character

ANNA INTERVENES ABOUT KELLINGTON PLZ. PEOPLE ACTUALLY NOTICE MATTHEW'S STRUGGLES. JAMES DOES, TOO, BECAUSE THERE'S NO GRACELET.

ok yes, so what about: basically TMT don't harass Alastair and accept his apology, and realize they were also being stupid and mean at times at the Academy (especially Math). Matthew doesn't want to accept Alastair's apology, because of The Sin, but his behaviour alerts the rest of TMT and they inquire what's wrong and he tells them about the sin and that's how he later tells his parents (because his friends encourage him) and as you say, she just hugs him and reassures him it's not his fault; so after that Matthew slowly begins to heal and accepts it wasn't Alastair's fault, and also since they've kind of adopted/started including Alastair in things, he can't help but notice he's actually changed and he even starts to grow fond of him

then like you said, Matthew notices Thomas likes Alastair PLEASE HE SO WOULD. I'm not sure about the Sanctuary, if it actually happens (I'll get to why later on), but him and Lucie get really invested in the matchmaking schemes, they include Genie/Kamala because these two are friends with Alastair (both? Or at this point only Kamala?) but they also share some Moments during their scheming/talking about love 👀 (yes I'm a Fairdale shipper, I think it's time to expose myself lol)

Which leads me to (sorry I'm going off order rn) YES YES YES LUCIE AND MATH PLEASE. A FELLOW SHIPPER, HELLO, NICE TO MEET YOU. But since we're actually fixing him then we can give Jesse a personality and I'm totally down for poly Math/Lucie/Jesse

Lucie seeking Malcolm's help in secret, morally gray heroine style?!? no, it's probably not legal. but also has there ever been a Shadowhunter like her? If the Law doesn't expect such situations, it can't really forbid them...

Plz Matthew ready to strangle the carrot when he learns about their relationship, YES. sure, maybe he's still not the biggest fan of Alastair, but he's seen how much the boy's been through and starts to develop an attachment to him, and besides, NO ONE DESERVES TO BE GROOMED AND TREATED LIKE THAT. He's SO MAD at Charles, and he confronts him about it - remembering Kellington as he does, and it makes him sick to think his brother would do the same thing to someone. Maybe he gets very emotional over this and later finally tells his friends about Kellington? Maybe they didn't know before, only Anna did? So when they all realize what was happening then they comfort him etc? Or maybe it's just Alastair that learns now, and the others knew before, and they share a bonding moment over that?

Injured Grace seeking Kit's help is a genius idea I didn't know I needed

Kamanna giving each other time and space and deciding they need to question their relationship and figure out if it actually makes sense would be great. Anna realising she's very privileged and Kamala doesn't have those same opportunities, and also in general realising coming out should never be pressured or forced. Just,,,, Anna being self-aware and respectful towards Kamala. Well-written Anna. Plz. Also Kamanna is actually developed and not just "in love" because,,,,, they're attracted to each other? Maybe even remaining friends while Anna makes up their mind?

yeah just TMT being more compassionate and less judgy because they're not written by Judith so her bias isn't projected onto them

It's not a want, it's a need. They adopt Alastair and Grace eventually. Like, maybe not literally - although, Grace? - but you know what I mean.

I think they all should just have various friendship dynamics and switch between them, because people need more than one friend group

no fetishizing, no watching your brother make out with his lover, yessss

yes domestic cuddles, affection, taking care of wounds, all those things. plz.

Gracetopher bonding over science yes

obviously. or maybe she's imprisoned?!

ok, now for some more notes/my ideas etc., if you don't mind:

I actually think Belial could still be featured? After all, I don't think Tatiana could do much on her own, and since she seeks help from demons, it makes sense to include a Greater Demon as well. But Belial would have to be a stronger villain, written better; I'll think more about this

if that was the case, the serial killer plot could still happen, but be done better. and it would allow for a scenario I talked about with @littlx-songbxrd to happen, where it's Alastair who's falsely accused of murder. It creates a great opportunity to explore some things, because we know Alastair is much more likely to be seriously suspected, considering all the prejudices and bad rep his family has and all that

...what do you say to well-written Jordelia? 👀 Cordelia hasn't been obsessively in love with James since childhood, she only had a crush then. And now that they meet again, she's fond of him but not in love, not straight away. They're both grown up, and different people, but as they spend more and more time together, they fall in love. What if Cordelia gets to flirt with some other boys first? What then. What if she ends up choosing James, instead of going for the only boy she's ever had feelings for and idealized since childhood. What if we even make it friends-to-lovers and have James be a little jealous at some point?! but not in a possessive awful way, just "oh damn oh no"

Now I won't know peace until this exists BUT THANK YOU

[kaylor]

maddy if you’re bored i want to hear what you’d change about every song on rep bc your ideas are fascinating!!!! rep is my fave album bc it makes me happy but like i understand it is not her best album and i love thinking about what she could’ve done with it instead. the anons need to chill lmao

hmmmmm thank you for asking me this im going to try to be as thorough as i can be!!

edited to add: originally only talked about production but i have more to say actually

ready for it: honestly i would leave the heavy synths in but add some loud guitar in there and some state-of-grace-esque drums, make it more like the tour version. still very industrial but rock. have the same "baby let the games begin, the games begiiiaiaiaiaaaaaaaaaan" from tour also. because i love it when she uses her pipes.

end game: this song is ultimately unsalvageable because it's a 2017 wannabe rap song like that's how it's structured and that's what it was supposed to be so it's like. of course this has a trap beat (or whatever you call it). i would do a complete overhaul and probably get rid of future and ed (i hate features don't @ me), have taylor sing those verses if she has to. change up the ENTIRE arrangement somehow idk im not a musician.

i did something bad: whatever she did on the tour version absolutely banged. again keep the wubby synths, add in the screaming guitar. write a better fuckin bridge. same intro from tour as well, like just make the album as theatrical as you wanted to perform it. makes no sense to have a boring version and a good version.

don't blame me: i loooove the choir humming i think it's proper sexy but the wubby synths don't work for me on this song it's like, we've been there now. chuck in the extended bridge & paul sidoti guitar from the tour version. maybe strings (cello? perhaps?) to accompany the churchy vibe

delicate: just acoustic as you can get like think the treacherous production

lwymmd: don't have too much beef with this except the intro should have been the way it was on tour. make it as bombastic and theatrical as possible. same for dbm really.

so it goes: im trying not to be like "just make it rock" on too many of the songs but it literally would just be better. the production on this song is so neither here nor there ANYTHING would b more interesting

gorgeous: idk i never listen to gorgeous so it doesn't make a blind bit of difference. there's nothing i can say that can save this song. it's whatever.

getaway car: best song on the album. can't fault the production.

king of my heart: love the drums! extremely miffed she didn't keep the electric guitar she used when she wrote it. perfect opportunity for some guitar slides towards the end of the song, you know the bits where it like breaks down. idk how to describe. anyway make it rock.

dancing with our hands tied: i would not have the banging edm production obviously. change this to a sexy combination of guitars and strings, like haunted but somehow even more sad and melodramatic.

dress: strip away the dogshit production entirely. want this song to sound as intimate as it should. feel like there would be a piano situation. maybe some strings. very low key.

this is why we can't have nice things: the production on this is SO fun but it also gives me a headache. like it needs to be this camp this is what reputation is about. i wouldn't actually change any lyrics because i love (and HATE deeply hate profoundly HAAATE) when taylor is bitchy and petty. but it was necessary.

call it what you want: literally just treacherous vibes please. it didn't need all the other stuff. write a better fuckin bridge. i hate the melody so much i hate the necklace line and the whichismorethantheycansay like come on you're a songwriter for god sake. do better than this.

new year's day: this is fine actually. i love how soft the piano is.