#and now it looks weird but i'm in a hurry 🤡

[pharawee]

Did I wake you up?

[sanctum-of-ramshackle]

🤡WE ALL FLOAT DOWN HERE!!!🎈

[TWST AU]: An MC/Yuu who knows how to serve a smile, and sensing everyone’s deepest fears…

[Synopsis]: In this timeline, the MC/Yuu here is more on the deranged life form that can shape-shift into anyone, cause horrific illusions and devours its feared victims.

[Gender Neutral!Pennywise the Dancing Clown!MC/Yuu]

[(A/N)]: Oh my god. This banger of a song was a great inspiration for this AU. If you’re a fan of horror and a metal head, check out Ice Nine Kills. The band creates great music retelling horror classics and novels through the lyrics.

[(A/N #2)]: I know it's not October or near Halloween, but whatever. I don't think the story was taken place during October.

[Ice Nine Kills - IT Is The End ft. Peter Wasilewski & Buddy Schaub]

"On a pouring day, Night Raven College had their classes canceled for the day due to a heavy rain storm. Kalim Al Asim, the Dorm Leader of Scarabia was rushing back to his dorm with only a yellow raincoat on him to protect himself from the fallen drops. He was rushing back because he doesn't want to worry Jamil for staying out late. As he hurries on his trail, a voice catches his attention, leading back to a sewer drain."

"Hello? Anyone? I'm stuck down here."

"Kalim had been warned by Jamil and his family to not trust the noises he encounters when being alone himself and never follow through."

"Though, he followed the eerily calm voice and he peeked down at the drain, something came to view..."

IT!MC/Yuu: *Appears in the storm drain*

Kalim: *Gasps and backs up*

IT!MC/Yuu: Please call the DWP. I’m stuck in here.

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[Headmaster Crowley's office]

IT!MC/Yuu: After 27 years of being dormant back in Derry, Maine and being defeated by adults who roasted me, I’m now stuck in a world where kids have magic. Worst of all, I'm a teen myself!

Crowley: Now now, child. There is no need to have such anger.

IT!MC/Yuu: *Shape-shifts into a grotesque spider-like creature* I’m gonna rip your limbs apart and devour your flesh!

Crowley: *Hides behind Crewel* They’re not an ordinary student.

Crewel: *Sighs* No, really? I never recall a monstrous spider clown registering for Night Raven College.

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[Cafeteria]

Ace: You can't eat regular food?

IT!MC/Yuu: I can. Just prefer a certain type of food.

Deuce: I don't think they serve that kind.

IT!MC/Yuu: It's fine. I still can drink.

Jack: Aren't you underaged?

IT!MC/Yuu: My boy, I'm way passed the drinking age limit before you were born.

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IT!MC/Yuu: Oh my god. This child…I cannot sense any fear. I can’t even taste any to begin with.

Cheka: *Giggles* You’re a funny clown. What’s your name?

IT!MC/Yuu: …MC/Yuu. You can call me Penny. Where are your parents, little child?

Cheka: I’m here to visit Ojima!

IT!MC/Yuu: Where are they?

[After hours of searching]

[Savanaclaw Dorm]

[Leona's room]

Leona: *Sleeping in his room*

IT!MC/Yuu: Leona~

Leona: Huh?

IT!MC/Yuu: *Shows him a face*

Leona: *Jumps out of bed* What was that?!

IT!MC/Yuu: Leona, your nephew was looking for you and... *Covers Cheka's ears* I'm not good with children, if you know what I mean.

Cheka: Ojima! Penny gave me an animal balloon.

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[During the Stage in Playful Land ~Dancing Puppets and the Fantastical Theme Park~]

Grim: Why do I need to wear this stupid rain jacket? It smells weird.

IT!MC/Yuu: You’re part of my show. We have to give these folks some entertainment. Just act like an innocent little kid named Georgie.

Grim: Whose Georgie-

[Then the show starts.]

IT!MC/Yuu:

Allow me to introduce myself

They call me the dancing clown

And you must be Georgie

Did you hear my circus was in town?

It seems I have your boat here

The storm blew her off track

Just reach your hands down here and take it

If you really want it back

Oh, Georgie

You can trust me, sweet child

Step right this way

I'm at your service with a smile

Believe me

IT's nothing to fear

When I feast on your flesh

You'll see that we all float down...

Here!

Pick through the past you'll see

I'm living history

Come one come all

'Cause I'm starved for the kill

Prey on the pure at heart

Feed on their body parts

I've got some big fucking shoes to fill

Follow me and I'll show you the truth

Devastation as the dead lights defuse

Follow me and I'll show you the truth

Face down in the fountain of youth

Just like Georgie

IT's all out of hand

So join me

Da-da-da-da-da-da-da

Catch me at the big top

Buried underground

You know I'm not clowning around

Even with a smile

From ear to fucking ear

IT's everything you know

IT's everything you fear

A carnival of carnage

That much you assume

But it's more than just a costume and red balloons

IT's coming back around every 27 years

IT's everything you know

IT's everything you fear

So let go

You know what makes me smile?

Devoured juveniles

Their innards tangled in my twisted grin

Chuckled so hard I choked

Call it an inside joke

They say that laughter's the best medicine

Follow me and I'll show you the truth

Face down in the fountain of youth

Just like Georgie

IT's all out of hand

So join me

Da-da-da-da-da-da-da

Catch me at the big top

Buried underground

You know I'm not clowning around

Even with a smile

From ear to fucking ear

IT's everything you know

IT's everything you fear

A carnival of carnage

That much you assume

But it's more than just a costume and red balloons

IT's coming back around every 27 years

IT's everything you know

IT's everything you fear

So let go

IT is the end

IT's come again

Believe IT or not

You'll all disappear

IT cannot be fought

We all float down here

IT is the end

IT's come again

Believe IT or not

You'll all disappear

IT cannot be fought

We all float down here

IT is the end

IT's come again

Believe IT or not

You'll all disappear

IT cannot be fought

We all float down here

We all float down here

IT's come again

Believe IT or not

You'll all disappear

IT cannot be fought

We all float down here

Fellow Honest & Gidel: *Holding each other, shaking in fear*

IT!MC/Yuu: You scared of a little clown~? *Grins sinisterly*

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Malleus: I must say, you're truly are fearful for many.

IT!MC/Yuu: And you don't find me terrifying?

Malleus: I have not.

IT!MC/Yuu: ...You know, I can sense your fear is not having to make any friends outside of your domain because they seem to be frightened by your presence. And it has something to deal with your late mother.

Malleus: *Glares at them* In what sense are you speaking of? What knowledge you have of my family?

IT!MC/Yuu: *Shrugs* All I'm saying you should speak with your guardian. I'm just a clown from another world.

[Shit. IT!MC/Yuu entered the trope of "Enemies-to-Friends".]

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[meowzfordayz]

Hey hey T! Congratulations on your ✨milestone 10.0✨ !! I remember *slow eater* hcs was ur first work i read and then bam bammm (im gyo anon also btw have i told u that surprise surprise 😂 gyo anon and 🧦 anon r oneee)

maam may i request romantic hcs with gyo 🤍 sfw, nsfw ANY im a sucker for tooth-rotting mushy mushy squishy fluff please maam thank u iluvü 💗

About me: ppl say i look mean but rlly it's just my face i'm sorryyyt ;-; but when they got to know me i am described as very funny (when i was in 11th grade the teacher asked who the class clown was and they said it be me ?? I'm pretty sure its that other guy but okayy 🤧) and fun to be around with/ knows how to lift ppl's mood up (this touched me i swearrr bc i didn't know i have that effect on ppl until it's palanca time and ye,, one of my insecurities is i'm not rlly good with words and so when i have to comfort someone i just sit with them while also looking for someone who can help better like gurl help me idk what to sayyydbrjdhh and so learning that i can brighten their day with just my presence or just casually saying smthng is just 🤯) ++ calm and collected bc usually i'd just laugh it off but rn idk anymore gurl i think these were just a fascade im a wreck inside haha sarcasm is how i cope 😭

i'm very straightforward esp to my friends bc i don't wanna give them false hope or anything tho i do the sandwich method to not make it seem too harsh 😭 i'm also the friend who (whichever group i'm in) people hold onto like link arms,, when walking, standing or just sitting they just grab both my arms (1 friend on the right another on the left) like they do to their moms or smthng (now i feel old jkjk is it bc im a little taller? 😭) and it gives the feeling that oh no smol children must protectt like i literally look like am chaperoning kids HAHA tho its cool bc i feel like my arms are the chosen ones ✨ i want to do that too yknow hold someone's arms for a change or like be held 🥺 ,, most of my friends are shorter than me (nothing against height !!) i just feel like its weird if *i* do it :"))) I also have this habit of whenever i'm seating next to someone i'd borrow there arm and just go squish squish

I'm an introvert. just the thought of preparing to go somewhere and actually taking the trip there is already draining the sh*t out of me. There are times when mid convo i'd just shutdown tho i still will try to keep a polite face even tho inside i just hURRY UP Iwanna go hOmE sorry dude but idk there are ppl whose energy are draining but there are those who compliments well wid u idk idk

i like letterssss vvvvmuch <3 i'm also sentimental like i keep eveeerything bus tickets, movie tickets, my first shot glass ugHH u could give me a leaf and just write to and from and id keep that foreeever. even that one time in 10th grade where we were practicing for an event in the grassy area and bc we were bored we made smol bouquets madE ouT Of GrAsS i still freaking have it and thaT One letter from a friend which came with a rock she painted with a face on so cuuuute ✨

i want to say my hobby is drawing but my degree requires me to draw too so like drawing *again* as a hobby now just pisses me off bc my brain says: instead of drawing that why don't u just do ur plates 🤡

I looove animalsss (cats cats we have 4 cats and 3 kittens) my fave wild ones are 🐳 & 🐘 idk it's just they're so big and mighty but they're very gentle and caring and helpful to other animals too •u• i wanna pet them and hug them they make me soft.

What i like about myself are my sense of humour (no i'd burst out laughing at 2am i was about to fall asleep and my brain be randomly making jokes 😤), my guts bc it's sharp afff, ability to recover fast (i'm not sure with this one bc i know im not addressing my issues properly but like hey i got alot of shit to do so chop chop 👏) , and my imagination bc my head is wilddd).

wow this got super long i'm sorry ;-; thank you maamm! And have an awesome and safe day at work today!! 🧦

MILESTONE 10.0

💞: Himejima Gyomei

holds your hand before crossing the street, because if anything tragic were to occur, then at least he will have been holding your hand. Similarly, he's mindful of his parting words to you: variations of I love you being his go to. About to hang up on him because you're angry? He always manages to squeeze in We'll figure this out. About to fall asleep because he's exhausted? He never forgets to mumble Sweet dreams. About to be on your way somewhere for some time? He sends you off with Have fun, stay safe.

sponsors a wild tiger with you (has the certificate framed and everything), and participates in annual fundraisers hosted by wild cat sanctuaries. Last Valentine's Day, he purchased and dedicated a heart (really just a chunk of meat) to you, which was then fed to your favorite leopard. "You're disturbingly sweet," you'd giggled, pecking his cheek as you rewatched the Instagram reel of your "heart" being devoured for the nth time, "Thank you so much!"

gifts you a journal for your third anniversary, but it's already mostly full — mostly full of things you've said that made him smile/giggle/laugh. Of course, it isn't a comprehensive, entirely accurate record, but it includes: inside jokes that you'd inevitably forgotten (until getting to read them again), witty retorts and quips that you'd figured he hadn't heard (turns out he had), and an obnoxiously long section reserved for your puns-that-are-arguably-too-much-of-a-stretch-to-truly-be-punny.

[surrealsunday]

Here I am again, still rereading and here's a few more moments. Sorry if that's annoying, like I know you've obviously already seen it, but I feel like I need to share it this way.

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“Weird like that. Like we’re mad but not.” He’s not making any sense either but Eliott’s looking at him like he’s saying something important. “No friend weirdness, ok? Not ever.”

“Not ever?” Eliott asks. He smiles a little but it looks different now – almost sad. He’s probably imagining what it would be like if things were different – if they were weird like Robbe and Sander. Lucas imagines that would make him sad too.

“Nuh uh.” Lucas smiles, trying to get Eliott to do the same. He moves a hand to Eliott’s hair and smooshes it down like really bad bangs. Eliott scrunches his nose as the hairs tickle his face and it makes Lucas laugh. “Only normal things. No weird.” He’s talking nonsense and he almost wonders if this is a little like what feeling drunk must be like.

“No weird,” Eliott finally agrees. He smiles only a little, but he twists until he can slump his head back onto Lucas’s shoulder. “Normal only.”

holy shit ... he's trying to make him smile by breaking his heart how cool is that huh)))))

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“I’m gonna be that unapologetic one day.”

Lucas looks back to Eliott in question. “Unapologetic?”

Eliott nods with an easy smile, reaching for his gear bags and going about balancing them on either shoulder. “The way they are – you know…” He gestures in the direction the couple disappeared, an affectionate look on his face. “Yeah, you’re my boyfriend, and yeah, I’m going to spend the night fucking you. That thing.” Lucas’s heart lodges somewhere in his throat as Eliott continues. “Not caring how obvious they are about it. That unapologetic.”

“Yeah.” Lucas’s voice is course, like he hasn’t spoken in hours.

Eliott raises an eyebrow as he pauses to look at him. “Admit it. You want the same.”

It hits differently than Eliott intends it to. A little more like a slap than a teasing nudge. Lucas looks away.

“Yeah. I want it.”

OnE dAy I'm GoNnA bE - Eli darling can you like hurry the fuck up

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“So, yeah, of course they’ll see you and think – oh, yeah, here’s a boy way too beautiful and way too much of a cocky little shit to give me the time of day – I must have him.”

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“I’m not a kid anymore,” Lucas continues as though Eliott hasn’t spoken. “You can’t lock me away in some magical tower. You never could.” Eliott’s hand drops from Lucas’s arm back down to the surface of the bench and his gaze follows. Lucas plows forward. “Not everybody looks at me and sees some… sexless kid.” It pains him to say it – to put into words what Eliott must think when he looks at him. What’s he’s always seen. “They want me. Guys want to fuck me.” He enunciates the words and watches the storm cloud brew in Eliott’s eyes when he looks back up. “I’m fucking –” He brings a hand up to tug at the strands of his hair in frustration, any eloquence he might have had deserting him, “fuckable!”

“Jesus, Lu.” Eliott face matches the emotions rolling through Lucas, fury mixed with frustration. And something else. Something intangible. “I know that, ok?!” He exhales heavily and bites his lip, his voice growing quieter, but more resonant with meaning. “Believe me, I know.”

Uuuuuugggghhhhh

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Please touch me, kiss me, want me. Fuck me.

Lucas’s eyes drop to Eliott’s lips when suddenly Eliott is taking a step back with a forced laugh.

“Not you that needs to be protected from the world, Punzel. It’s the world that needs to be protected from you. You’re a pest. That tower’s still looking pretty good from here.”

That tower’s still looking pretty good from here.

......

It does hurt so much more, now when we have the bigger picture and are more attached to both of them.

I always try to pick up on these small details but it's hard 'cause there's a need to get to the end of the chapter. And as you can see not all of them are small, some are huge, but still ... now it hits me ten times worse.

Thank fuck I found "Tempo" scrolling through ao3 recommendations out of boredom at 4 AM. At the time still being sceptical about funfiction and never having read any of it (I know🤦). I never would have thought it would become such a big part of my life like ... the fact that it can make me feel happy ... and THAT happy, it's ... yeah, wow

I mean sure I also get frustrated, angry, sad, disappointed and blah, blah. But the emotions are so raw and like open and honest and just there, you know? Simple and true. I hope it makes any sense god I'm a mess😂

And it's weird but whenever I read your fics I feel understood and accepted and I don't know, seen? heard? Anyways

You're the best. Hope you're having a good week and getting enough sleep.

Lot's of love 🖤

Not annoying at all! I LOVE living your re-reading experience with you. I love seeing the moments you pick out and how they hit you. That's always fascinating to me.

I love the early moments where they talk about being weird/ being normal and how that informs their conversations in present. You'll actually see that come up again in the next chapter because Eliott never really lets go of that idea of what being 'normal' means between them.

"Eli darling can you like hurry the fuck up" lmaoooo. He'll get there. 😌

Also that 'believe me I know' moment from Eliott... the way Lucas blows right past it and doesn't notice. Smdh 😂.

I love the little moments too. I do pepper them throughout the fic so they'll be more resonant later. Not even with particular intention. It just sort of happens when I write and makes sense to recall them later.

You comments about reading this (and Tempo! My first baby fic!) mean so very much ❤️. I'm so glad you do feel that way when you read. That is incredibly special to me and honestly I couldn't imagine a higher compliment. I love that a lot. And thank you so much for sending these moments and your thoughts. It's so enjoyable to read!