#and now im ripping my hair out slightly i ddont care i really dont care what happens i kinda wanna cut it all off jst for the fuck of it | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

autisticstarseed · 7 years

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lmaog m ymom is forcing my unstable chronic fatigue Gets Suicidal When My Sleep Schedule Gets Fucked Up Ass to stay up till literally 4 am bc her snoring causes me sensory overload and she ddoesnt fucking care and just refused to let me to go sleep first tonight and said im just gonna have to ‘’’’’’’deal with it’’’’’’ and i literally am so close to cutting bc sensory shit gets me so hard im like hitting and biting myself and i pulled out my pocket knife but its nnot even fucking sharp anymore so hwo cares i dont care i want to die but i dont care (i care immensely)

#d//on'/t r/e/b//lo/g/#like i cannot #even describe it but sensory overload causes me literal physical pain and it makes me like #go insane slightly like even my panic attacks arent as bad as this #they dont make me punch myself frantically and bite my hands till they bleed and shes jjust fuckign sititng over ther elsleeping i want to f #ucking die #like im sreally sorry about this but i literlaly dont feel sane right now i feel #indescribable #and i want it to be over #my jaw is so tense i punchced myself in the head and i hope i get a concussion and die #like its #like the closet thing i can imagine to having a literal demon inside you and being sprayed with holy water #im sshaking #and now im ripping my hair out slightly i ddont care i really dont care what happens i kinda wanna cut it all off jst for the fuck of it #surrpise mom #anyways hopefuly ill delete this shit tomorrow but god im #ofhsjhfssdkfSkgld i hjust hit myself so har dint he face i feel like i might get a black eye #god i ccdont careeeeeeeeeeeee #fully i am not coherent right now and i am so sorry to everyone but lmao if i dont document it im scared ill tdo something worse

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