#and now I shall DENY EVERYTHING if you bring it up ahahahahaha :)

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

I wanted to draw fanart but then realized I have 0 art talents so here's a ninja turtle

You're welcome

thank you so very much, this is better than fanart and I thank you lol

[redux-pain]

chapter 19: AMS Bank (2)

迷路のように入り組んでいる 通路が終わると、 次に下へと続く階段を進む。

身近な銀行の内部に、 こんな改造がなされているとは 誰もが想像もつかないはずだ。

Ａｓ　ｔｈｅ　ｗｉｎｄｉｎｇ　ｍａｚｅ　ｏｆ　ａ ｒｏａｄ　ｃｏｍｅｓ　ｔｏ　ａｎ　ｅｎｄ，　ｉｔ ｇｏｅｓ　ｄｏｗｎ　ｉｎｔｏ　ａ　ｓｔａｉｒｃａｓｅ．

Ｎｏ　ｗｏｕｌｄ　ｗｏｕｌｄ　ｔｈｉｎｋ ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｆａｍｉｌｉａｒ　ｂａｎｋ　ｈａｄ ｂｅｅｎ　ｒｅｍｏｄｅｌｅｄ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｔｈｉｓ．

/As the labyrinthine passageway ended, [Atsuki] came to a flight of stairs, and proceeded down them.

No one would ever guess that the familiar bank had been remodeled like this./

しかもその驚きは 奥深くに進むにつれて 大きくなってくる。

そして最後には、 目を疑うような 光景に出会った。

Ｂｕｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｕｒｐｒｉｓｅ　ｊｕｓｔ ｇｅｔｓ　ｂｉｇｇｅｒ　ａｓ　Ａｔｓｕｋｉ ｃｏｎｔｉｎｕｅｓ　ｆｕｒｔｈｅｒ　ｉｎ．

Ａｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｅｎｄ，　Ａｔｓｕｋｉ　ｉｓ ｇｒｅｅｔｅｄ　ｂｙ　ａ　ｓｐｅｃｔａｃｌｅ　ｔｈａｔ ｈｅ　ｃａｎ’ｔ　ｂｅｌｉｅｖｅ．

/However, the surprise only grew as [Atsuki] went further inside.

And at the end, Atsuki encountered a sight that made him doubt his own eyes./

感想はいかがかな？

と言っても何をする装置なのか 説明しなくては、答えようもないか。

Ｓｏ，　ｗｈａｔ　ｄｏ　ｙｏｕ　ｔｈｉｎｋ？

Ｏｎｃｅ　Ｉ　ｅｘｐｌａｉｎ，ｐｅｒｈａｐｓ ｙｏｕ　ｃａｎ　ｆｏｒｍｕｌａｔｅ　ａｎ　ａｎｓｗｅｒ

[Edward:] What do you think?

Well, I suppose I can’t expect an answer until I explain what this device does.

これは離れた場所にいる人物の 思念に指向性を与えるための装置だ。

特定の脳の特定電位部に刺激を与え、 その脳波をコントロールできる。

Ｔｈｉｓ　ｄｅｖｉｃｅ　ｌｅｔｓ　ｍｅ　ｈａｒｎｅｓｓ ｏｔｈｅｒ　ｐｅｏｐｌｅｓ　Ｓｈｉｎｅｎ．

Ｉｔ　ｃｏｎｔｒｏｌｓ　ｂｒａｉｎｗａｖｅｓ　ｂｙ ｓｔｉｍｕｌａｔｉｎｇ　ｒｅｃｅｐｔｏｒｓ．

[Edward:] This is a device that can influence the Thoughts of someone in a remote location.

By providing stimulus to certain areas of electric potential in a certain mind, it's possible to control that [person’s] brainwaves.

これによって精神汚染の速度を著しく 遅らせることが可能となったのだ。

どういうことか、わかるだろう。

Ｉｔ　ａｌｓｏ　ｄｅｌａｙｓ　ｃｏｒｒｏｓｉｏｎ　ｏｆ ｔｈｅ　ｕｓｅｒ’ｓ　ｍｉｎｄ．

Ｄｏ　ｙｏｕ　ｕｎｄｅｒｓｔａｎｄ　ｎｏｗ？

[Edward:] By using it, it's possible to significantly delay the speed of spiritual contamination.

You must understand what that means.

[note: Here’s our friend 精神/seishin again. Also, note that he *isn’t* talking about the user’s mind--he means the Silent-related contamination happening to the target.]

この装置を使うことにより、 サイレントを克服できるのだよ。

有史以来、永劫に近い時を戦い続け てきた敵と和解できるのだ。

Ｗｉｔｈ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｍａｃｈｉｎｅ，　ｗｅ　ｃａｎ ｃｏｎｔｒｏｌ　Ｓｉｌｅｎｔ．

Ｗｅ　ｎｏ　ｌｏｎｇｅｒ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｏ　ｆｉｇｈｔ Ｓｉｌｅｎｔ，　ｏｕｒ　ｅｔｅｒｎａｌ　ｅｎｅｍｙ．

[Edward:] Thanks to this device, we can bring Silent under our control.

We can reach a compromise with the enemy we’ve battled almost eternally, since the dawn of history.

君は気づいているか？

我々人類は、サイレントによらずとも 近い将来破滅に導かれることを。

Ｃａｎ’ｔ　ｙｏｕ　ｓｅｅ？

Ｅｖｅｎ　ｗｉｔｈｏｕｔ　Ｓｉｌｅｎｔ，　 ｍａｎｋｉｎｄ’ｓ　ｃｏｍｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ａｎ　ｅｎｄ．

[Edward:] Don’t you realize?

We humans are headed for ruin soon, even without Silent.

なぜなら、君たち思念を操れる者なら よくわかっていると思うが、

極めて強い共感性の欠如という現象が、 いま急速に広がっている。

Ｏｎｅ　ｗｈｏ　ｃａｎ　ｃｏｎｔｒｏｌ　Ｓｈｉｎｅｎ ｓｈｏｕｌｄ　ｕｎｄｅｒｓｔａｎｄ　ｗｈｙ．

Ｏｕｒ　ｌａｃｋ　ｏｆ　ｅｍｐａｔｈｙ　ｉｓ ｂｅｃｏｍｉｎｇ　ａｎ　ｅｐｉｄｅｍｉｃ，

[Edward:] And why? I’m sure you, who can control Thoughts, know best of all...

The phenomenon of severe lack of empathy is spreading rapidly.

[note: The “you” in the first sentence is plural.]

その結果、人類は不気味な生物と なってしまった。

社会性の中でしか生きられない、 破壊主義者という野獣だよ。

ｒｅｓｕｌｔｉｎｇ　ｉｎ　ａ　ｒａｃｅ　ｏｆ ｄｉｓｇｕｓｔｉｎｇ　ｃｒｅａｔｕｒｅｓ．

Ｂｅａｓｔｓ！　Ｉｔ’ｓ　ａｎ　ｕｎｄｅｎｉａｂｌｅ， ｄｉｓａｓｔｒｏｕｓ　ｔｒ��ｔｈ！

[Edward:] As a result, humanity has become a race of ghastly, disturbing creatures.

Beasts called destructionists who can only live as social [beings].

[note: The voiceover says “who can barely live” here, the しか + られない construction is definitely “can only do X”. Unless I’m missing something super advanced that I haven’t learned about...?]

エドワード、お前の言うことは 正しいかもしれない。

だが俺はその装置が、すべてを解決 するわけではないのは知っている。

Ｗｈａｔ　ｙｏｕ’ｒｅ　ｓ��ｙｉｎｇ　ｍａｙ　ｂｅ ｔｒｕｅ，　Ｅｄｗａｒｄ．

Ｈｏｗｅｖｅｒ，　ｔｈａｔ　ｄｅｖｉｃｅ ｕｌｔｉｍａｔｅｌｙ　ｓｏｌｖｅｓ　ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ．

[Atsuki:] Edward, what you say may be true.

But I know that device can’t possibly solve everything.

その装置による脳への影響は、 夢の世界への影響となって出てくる。

その結果、現実感を喪失し、 自ら命を絶つ者が出始めている。

Ｔｈｅ　ｒｅａｌｉｔｙ　ｉｔ　ｃｒｅａｔｅｓ　ｗｉｌｌ ｂｅ　ａ　ｓｈａｍ，　ｐｅｏｐｌｅ　ｗｏｎ’ｔ

ａｃｃｅｐｔ　ｉｔ．　Ｔｈｅｙ’ｌｌ　ｓｏｏｎｅｒ ｔａｋｅ　ｔｈｅｉｒ　ｏｗｎ　ｌｉｖｅｓ．

[Atsuki:] The influence that device has on [people’s] minds will be something that sends them into a world of dreams.

It’ll create people who take their own lives after losing their sense of reality.

[note: The music sure is loud enough to drown these lines out in the EN release...]

アハハハ、なんとこれは驚いた！

フォートのメンバーは、 冷徹な殺し屋ばかりだと思っておったが、

君のような心優しい人間もいるとはな。 よく今まで生き残ってきたものだ。

Ｔｈｉｓ　ｉｓ　ｑｕｉｔｅ　ａ　ｓｕｒｐｒｉｓｅ！

Ｉ　ｔｈｏｕｇｈｔ　ｔｈｅ　Ｆｏｒｔ　ｗａｓ　ｆｕｌｌ ｏｆ　ｃｏｌｄ－ｂｌｏｏｄｅｄ　ｋｉｌｌｅｒｓ．

Ｈｏｗ　ｄｉｄ　ｓｏｍｅｏｎｅ　ａｓ　ｋｉｎｄ　ａｓ　 ｙｏｕ　ｓｔａｙ　ａｌｉｖｅ　ｔｉｌ　ｎｏｗ？

[Edward:] Ahahaha! Well, this is a surprise!

I thought FORT was full of level-headed killers.

To think they had someone as soft-hearted as you. Congratulations on surviving until now.

確かに相性というものがある。 中には狂うものもいるのは否定しない。

それが体力なのか それとも魂の本質なのかわからん。

Ｓｏｍｅ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｎｏｔ　ｒｅａｃｔ　ｎｏｗ Ｓｏｍｅ　ｍａｙ　ｅｖｅｎ　ｇｏ　ｉｎｓａｎｅ．

Ｔｈａｔ　ｍａｙ　ｄｅｐｅｎｄ　ｏｎ　ｓｔｒｅｎｇｔｈ ｏｆ　ｂｏｄｙ　ｏｒ　ｓｐｉｒｉｔ，　ｍａｙｂｅ．

[Edward:] Yes, there is such a thing as compatibility. I won’t deny that some will go mad.

That’ll be a question of physical stamina, or perhaps the substance of their soul.

だが桐生のように耐性を持った者には 力が宿り、新しい地平が広がるのだ。

人類の全員が助かるなどという、

フォートのような偽善は持ち合わせ ておらん。

Ｂｕｔ　ｆｏｒ　ｐｅｏｐｌｅ　ｌｉｋｅ　Ｋｉｒｙｕ， ｉｔ’ｌｌ　ｏｐｅｎ　ｎｅｗ　ｈｏｒｉｚｏｎｓ．

Ａｌｌ　ｍａｎｋｉｎｄ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｂｅ　ｓａｖｅｄ．

Ｈｙｐｏｃｒｉｓｙ　ｏｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｌｅｖｅｌ　ｏｆ ｔｈｅ　Ｆｏｒｔ’ｓ　ｓｈａｌｌ　ｅｎｄ．

[Edward:] But for people with resistance like Kiryuu, the strong ones, it will open new horizons.

I'm no hypocrite like FORT...

claiming that all humanity will be saved.

[note: Notice that lines 2 and 3 here are connected by that comma! “Something like, ‘all humanity will be saved’...” > “{Hypocrisy like FORT} + {[I] don’t have}”. The voiceover gets it right, if you can hear over the incredibly loud music.]

フフフフフ、アハハハハハ！！

なにがおかしい！？

Ｈｙｐｏｃ－．．．　ＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡ！

Ｗｈａｔ’ｓ　ｓｏ　ｆｕｎｎｙ！？

[Atsuki:] Heheheheheh. Ahahahahaha!

[Edward:] What’s so funny?!

俺には、サイレントに感染された男の たわ言としか聞こえない。

その機械のせいで、サイレントに感染 された人間が、山ほど世界にあふれ、

自ら命を落とす人間が、何人も生まれ たとしても、それでいい。

Ｉｔ　ｓｏｕｎｄｓ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｔｈｅ　ｒａｎｔｉｎｇｓ ｏｆ　ａ　Ｓｉｌｅｎｔ　ｉｎｆｅｃｔｅｅ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ．

Ｗｉｔｈ　ｔｈａｔ　ｍａｃｈｉｎｅ，　ｉｎｆｅｃ－ ｔｉｏｎ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｓｐｒｅａｄ　ｇｌｏｂａｌｌｙ，

ａｎｄ　ｓｏｍｅ　ｐｅｏｐｌｅ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｋｉｌｌ ｔｈｅｍｓｅｌｖｅｓ，　ｗｈｈｉｃｈ　ｉｓ　ｆｉｎｅ．

[Atsuki:] All I can hear is the rantings of a man infected by Silent.

Thanks to that machine, huge amounts of Silent infectees will spring up all over the world.

And that’s fine, even if it creates people who will take their own lives.

それこそが、サイレントに感染されて いる人間の思考なんだよ。

よかろう長く話しすぎたようだ。 決着をつけようではないか。

Ｔｈａｔ’ｓ　ｈｏｗ　Ｓｉｌｅｎｔ’ｓ　 ｓｕｐｐｏｒｔｅｒｓ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｔｈｉｎｋ．

Ｔｈａｔ’ｓ　ｅｎｏｕｇｈ　ｔａｌｋ．　Ｗｈａｔ ｓａｙ　ｗｅ　ｓｅｔｔｌｅ　ｔｈｉｓ？

[Atsuki:] That’s exactly how people think when they’re infected by Silent.

[Edward:] I suppose we’ve done enough talking. What do you say we settle this?

魂を喰らう力が、お前たちだけのもの でないことを証明してみせよう！

Ｉ’ｌｌ　ｐｒｏｖｅ　ｔｈａｔ　ｙｏｕ’ｒｅ　ｎｏｔ ｔｈｅ　ｏｎｌｙ　ｓｏｕｌ　ｅａｔｅｒｓ　ｈｅｒｅ！

[Edward:] I’ll prove that you’re not the only ones with the power to devour souls!

[note: Earlier Edward used the slightly more polite kimi-tachi to refer to Atsuki and the others, but now that he’s done being friendly, he uses omae-tachi.]

[SILENT BATTLE:]

我は裁定者であり導く者

深淵を歩む者に鎮魂の歌を捧げよう

闇が忍び寄る…絶望の海に沈む……

Ｉ　ａｍ　Ｊｕｄｇｅ　＆　Ｌｅａｄｅｒ

Ｒｅｑｕｉｅｍ　ｆｏｒ　ｔｈｅ　Ａｂｙｓｓ

Ｓｉｎｋ　ｉｎｔｏ　ｔｈｅ　Ｄｅｓｐａｉｒ

I am Judge, I am Guide

I will offer up a song for those who walk the abyss, that their souls may know peace

Darkness approaches... I sink into the sea of despair...

至高の存在

時の地平の彼方

正邪を我は裁く

選ばれし者達

犠牲を捧げよ

再生と破壊

Ｓｕｐｒｅｍｅ　ｅｘｉｓｔｅｎｃｅ

Ｂｅｙｏｎｄ　ｔｉｍｅ’ｓ　ｈｏｒｉｚｏｎ

Ｉ　ｊｕｄｇｅ　Ｒｉｇｈｔ　＆　Ｗｒｏｎｇ

Ｔｈｅ　ｃｈｏｓｅｎ　ｏｎｅｓ

Ｇｉｖｅ　ｓａｃｒｉｆｉｃｅ

Ｒｅｂｉｒｔｈ　＆　ｄｅｓｔｒｕｃｔｉｏｎ

[this whole part is fine]

我を称えよ

我は解放する

意味無き世界

堕落せり人間

Ｈｏｎｏｒ　ｍｅ

Ｉ　ａｂｓｏｌｖｅ　ｙｏｕ

Ｗｏｒｌｄ　ｗｉｔｈｏｕｔ　ｍｅａｎｉｎｇ

Ｄｅｃａｄｅｎｔ　ｈｕｍａｎｓ

Honor me

I shall absolve you

Meaningless world

Degraded humans

忍び寄る終末

世界再生の時

浄化される人間

我は裁定者

Ｔｈｅ　ｅｎｄ　ｉｓ　ｎｅａｒ

Ｔｈｅ　ｗｏｒｌｄ　ｉｓ　ｒｅｂｏｒｎ

Ｐｅｏｐｌｅ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｂｅ　ｐｕｒｇｅｄ

Ｉ　ａｍ　ｔｈｅ　Ｊｕｄｇｅ

The end approaches

The moment of the world’s rebirth

Humans will be purified

I shall judge

愚かな生き物

犠牲は必要

深淵を歩む者達

闇との共存

永久の平安

崇高なる目的

Ｆｏｏｌｉｓｈ　ｂｅｉｎｇｓ

Ｓａｃｒｉｆｉｃｅ　ｉｓ　ｎｅｅｄｅｄ

Ｗａｌｋｅｒｓ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｅ　Ａｂｙｓｓ

Ｃｏｅｘｉｓｔ　ｗｉｔｈ　Ｄａｒｋｎｅｓｓ

Ｅｔｅｒｎａｌ　ｔｒａｎｑｕｉｌｉｔｙ

Ｔｈｅ　ｓｕｂｌｉｍｅ　Ｐｕｒｐｏｓｅ

Foolish creatures

Sacrifice is needed

Those who walk the abyss

Coexistence with the dark

An eternal peace

A noble goal

[ask-svt-hearteu]

Written Scenario Requests and Moodboard Requests are now OPEN!

Admin: Hello everyone!!! THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR 2K FOLLOWERS!!!! We’re all screaming and after finally clearing all our old written requests and the dates from our 1k follower special, we will now open written requests again as well as open moodboard requests! Please keep in mind we will be adhering to our rules and guidelines for requests and will be listing moodboard request rules below. Also note that since all of us are in school, we may not get requests up right away, so if we get a lot we may choose to close them again until further notice, it all depends. Thank you all for your love and support again! <3

Moodboard requests:

either one member, ship or unit at a time

preferably tell us a color theme (like red, blue, black, etc.)

up to two colors per moodboard

or

tell us a theme

it can be something like “boyfriend aesthetic” or “inspired by the Jun soulmate au” or “based off svt’s song don’t listen in secret” or something like “autumn Soonyoung” as examples

Here’s an example moodboard: “Minghao couple nature aesthetic” 

“‘You said you like the sun, but when you go outside you find shade. You said you like the rain, but when it rains you use an umbrella. That’s why when you said you like me, I was afraid.’ The8 told me that.” -Junhui 

ALSO… If you guys wanna read it, here are some things the admin have to say^~^

Admin Soph: I'm honestly so proud of how far this blog has come. Went from a follower to an admin real fast  😂. No but really. I was freaking nervous when I sent in an application. I wanted to be a part of this blog to strengthen my writing skills (and love for Seventeen) and get to know the amazing people behind it. But I also didn't know whether I would be able to give you guys content that you all will like and deserve. AND I HONESTLY DONT KNOW WHY IM EVEN HERE HAHA.

And I just want to appreciate every single one of you. You guys are literally the sweetest bbys ♥��� ♥️ . My heart always warms up when we receive an ask and it’s for the admins asking whether we're okay and taking care of ourselves. I just want to cuddle you all in warm blankets and take care of you. And I'm saying this now if you guys ever have any problem and feel like talking to someone.Or if you just want to be friends. We're always here~ 

And on that note. To all the mutuals that I have had the chance to talk to. Y'all are amazing. I don't understand why you guys are still talking to me tbh. That's why you're all precious to me ohmygod 💞 💞 . Also, I'm sorry if I don’t reply much. IM A VERY INTROVERTED PERSON AND I ALWAYS MAKE SITUATIONS AWKWARD AHAHA. But if you guys want to talk to me about something, I’ll drop everything and talk to you. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU DESERVE LOVE AND I SHALL GIVE YOU LOVE IF YOU NEED IT  💞 💞 .

Imma write something for Jun too. Because I’ve been with this baby boy for a very long time. I love him so so much 💖 . There are times where I want to fight him. And there are times where I just want to bubble wrap him and protect him. Literally makes me go through different emotions in one day. But mostly it’s the feeling of happiness. Jun is a big reason as to why I'm slowly loving myself. With him being a funny confident dude, I found out that I can be like that too. And ever since I did, I have been feeling nothing but happiness and I want to thank him for that. I hope I will be able to meet him someday and tell him what a wonderful human being he is.

Now to the amazing and beautiful admins. Imma write something for each one of you but first and foremost I just want to say that ya’ll are precious to me. I might not talk a lot and barely reply in the gc (iM SOWI I WILL CHANGE THAT I PROMISE HAHA). But know that you guys have a very special place in my heart. And that's beside Seventeen. Been only a few months and I'm very thankful that I met yall. You guys are like my family at this point and I wanna keep it at that even after this blog.

Now onto Jess. My fave Joshua stan no joke. LOOKS LIKE AN ANGEL AND HAS A VOICE OF AN ANGEL I SWEAR SHE’S PERFECT FOR JOSHUA FIGHT ME. Literally the sweetest human being. Even though she’s older than me, I want to protect her ohmygod. I love Jess very much. You guys don’t even know. She is very nice. I don’t know how she is able to keep that image tbh. She is also very VERY HARDWORKING. I want to freaking start a petition for Jess to rest. It amazes me how she copes with all this school work and with this blog. And man if you ever need someone to coo about Joshua, Jess is that person. She is so whipped in love with Shua. And with Jun second on her bias list and with Joshua on mine, we both basically die because of Junshua. 

Meagan is next!! Meagan is literally the definition of aesthetic . Literally from her fashion style and her freaking bullet journal. And her bias is aesthetic himself asdfghjk. And also her writing style. I adore her writing very much. And I literally asked her for writing advice HAHA. She is a very soft-hearted person. And a very good person to ask advice from. Like I would definitely go to her if I ever have a problem. sHE IS ALSO VERY PRETTY????? LIKE HER INSTAGRAM MAKES ME QUESTION MYSELF. LIKE SHE IS SO DAMN PRETTY I DONT UNDERSTAND HAHA. Also how she is able to converse with everyone amazes me. Overall an amazing older sister for me  💖 I love ya Meagan~

And lastly my fellow youngling Seri. I just want to point this out now. If anyone dares to fight Seri, I’ll be there. This person right here is very precious. And I will fight to keep it at that. You can tell that I love her very much. She is near my age so it’s very comforting for me to have someone close to my age. Also her love for Soonyoung is the cutest thing. Whenever she and Meagan talk bout Soonyoung and being whipped for Soonyoung I just can't. So adorable. She is also very beautiful. He makeup skills are on point. Like please teach me, I'm a potato HAHAH. And can we just talk about how cute her name is? Seri is so goddamn adorable. Just like her.

Amazing that even though we live in different timezones, we will always find time for each other. I love these peeps very much. And I'm thankful for Seventeen for helping me find them.

Pretty long but oh well. This happens when you make the quietest person talk HAHA. But seriously, you guys mean everything to me at this point. Like I feel safe knowing that I have 3 angels watching over me. And I just want you guys to know that I also have your back. Hope our friendship will strengthen as years go by  💖 💖. And to our dear followers, please stay sweet. We’ll always love you. And Seventeen loves you guys too. Let’s make more memories together~

Admin Meagan: Tbh, when I applied to become an admin for this blog I really didn't think I would actually be picked. But look at me now AHAHAHA. I'm so so glad that I became an admin for this blog because it combines two things I love. Writing and seventeen.

I don't think you guys know how much I enjoy writing something and seeing how much people liked it as well. Especially when you guys send us direct compliments in our ask box. I don't think you guys know how much we coo in our admin group chat about the sweet stuff y'all send to us sometimes 💓

To the mutuals I've made from this blog, thank you so much for talking to me. I'm a pretty social person and I enjoy talking to anyone so thank you for that. And I enjoy the stuff y'all reblog as well AHAHAHAHA you guys are amazing and tenks for being a friend.

Honestly, Seventeen has undeniably made me happy. From listening to their songs when I'm mad to calm down to being an emotional wreck during Diamond Edge. I truly care about the boys and this blog made me love them even more. Also, I want to give a little shout out to my ethereal star, Kwon Soonyoung for literally brightening up my day all the time ✨

Thank you for being my ult bias and being extremely cute. You mean a lot to me for sure. Onto our beloved admins, firstly Jess. Y'all don't know how amazing she is. She's immensely smart and so caring. In these past few months of being friends, she's definitely a kind-hearted person and it really shows through. From listening to my past boy drama (like literally, I sent her voice messages and it was like 1-2am for her I'm,,,) to her giving advice to me. She's truly a gem and like an older sister <3 Also guys, she's really pretty!!! Even though she denies it :p and also a good singer!

Next is, Seri!!! Firstly, Seri is exceptionally funny, I swear the things she says sometimes in the group chat is hilarious. Also, she's sooooo good at makeup y'all and hella stunning as well. I always go to her for tips and we always share our makeup of the day with each other AHAHAHAHA. Seri is so kind and such an amazing support system and you can literally talk to her about anything AHAHAHAHAHA. I truly appreciate her being a friend <3 and the fact she stans hosh as well hehe

And to our maknae! Sophia but we always call her Soph. The best Jun stan I've met in my life. A creative little fellow and she also dances!! And also gives me tips for dance because I'm literally a stick AHAHAHAH She's so cute as well!! And such a caring bean <333 Also she likes attacking the rest of us with pictures of our biases 😂 Need a span of Joshua?? Soph is always ready lmao

Y'all mean a lot to me and I can't believe the amount of support I've gotten from all of you for a lot of things. From picking outfits to fangirling with me during my concert. I honestly don't mind opening up to y'all which I don't often do at all. I really like how you guys are always there and whenever one of us is down or have some tea to spill, everyone is on board AHAHAHAHA.

I seriously love all the admins so much because they are friends that I cherish quite a lot. I cannot wait for the day we all can meet somewhere and just hang out together and just have fun, heh 💓 We really need to start skyping with each other and pls one day come to Malaysia!!! I'm gonna bring you guys around for good food and photoshoots!! (I take really good pictures if I say so myself, if you wanna see them. Message me for my Instagram AHAHAHAHA)

Most importantly, thank you to literally everyone who've read our work and enjoyed it, to those who reblog and heart our stuff; thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️ And to our readers I've personally talked to personally, y'all are really cool and tenks for talking to this nerd lmao. I can't wait to see this blog grow even more and to experience new things with seventeen and you guys. Love y'all 

Admin Seri: first THANK YOU, for making it this far >< 

Wow, well I’m speechless, honestly I’m not even sure what to say, so i apologize in advance how unorganized this ESSAY is about to be. 

First, i’ve always been curious on writing scenarios like this, and i definitely think I was good enough. So any thoughts of running a blog was like, jumping off a cliff, it was best to keep it out of mind. Me and Jess, met through an online groupchat that I seriously never thought would lead to this. Funny thing, I was on vacation,  when I joined, one-two weeks after Jess made the blog. With all of my curiosity of what it was like, I was kind of bored and wanted to give it a shot. Legit I expected like 500 followers after like, a year? NEVER did i think we’d have 2000 after 5 months. like WHAT. 

To Seventeen, the talented, amazing dorks, where my vocabulary is not big enough to describe them. aside from the fact I love, adore, and admire them very much, (if i stayed here and talked about  they are a team with a lovely team backing them up. CARATSSSSSS ;))) without Seventeen, there would be no blog, and with no blog, i wouldn’t have met the three other amazing admins, other tumblr mutuals, and our amazing readers ^~^ .  

First to Soph, I- just know she is adorable, that’s all, the cutest freaking Jun stan ever. she’s only a feel months younger than me but i feel like im a grandma with all the energy she has because she’s on a dance team and how tired I am all the time. i’m thankful i get to wake up to her spam of pictures also :’)  honestly rip to her storage, :’) let’s keep together lovely! US MAKNAES SHOULD STICK TOGETHER!!! ;) our own lil maknae line leggoooo ;) <3

Meagan my fellow hosh stan, oh my god she is actually my aesthetic, from bullet journaling SHE IS AMAZING, to makeup I LOVE TALKING ABOUT MAKEUP (someone who can actually deal with that because my obsession is bad hehe) she’s gorgeous and i feel blessed to find a friend like her, (not because of her connections in Malaysia or something COUGH) im jp ;) she’s just someone i can always ask an honest opinion from, and im thankful for that <3

Then Jess, I’m trying not to tear up right now and I honestly don’t ever cry unless I’m watching a TV show, honestly. she’s been here from me through and through and our friendship feels a lot longer than five months. I already know our friendship will last even when we one day will sadly have to end the blog :’), and i’m ready to meet because im planing this trip already like LETS GO LET KOREAN BBQ bc proud foodie right here, hell any of the admins. this is gonna sound so mushy oh god but i feel i’ve grown and learned so much from her and she never makes me feel stupid for asking a question. moving on, GUYS OUR CONVERSATIONS ARE ACTUALLY GREAT LIKE AFJFOLAENGV on of the more memorable ones is when she introduced me to that song, YES JESS YOU KNOW. and most importantly, thank you for being my mom and just being there for me , because im truely thankful for that <3

TO OUR FOLLOWERS, there’s 2000 of you guys WHAT, welcome to our craziness and thanks for sticking around! I’d love to get to know you guys so don’t be scared to message me @bloatedboo !! i’m not great with words but know every single one of you guys are in my heart whether i know your name or not. <3

Admin Jess: Brace yourselves, I have lots to say😂.

First off, if you had asked me if I had expected to hit 100 followers let alone the 2,000 followers we have now when I first started this, I would have laughed. It is a bit of a crazy number to wrap our heads around, but I’m insanely grateful and I might actually start crying. This whole thing started off as simply a hobby, something I could use to vent my love for the 13 boys that have my heart, but it became so much more after a while. It almost didn’t happen too, just like our beloved soulmate series, everything came down to being in the right place at the right time and having everything line up perfectly before the hard work and passion kicked in haha. I’ll state my thanks here so that I can get it out in words rather than tears. I won’t get too much into how when I started this blog with Seri, I was not in a very happy place. But that’s not the important part. The thing is I met incredible people through this blog and learned many things. I learned how to not let every criticism and mean comment get to me, and rather to learn to grow and try to do the best I can. Nothing brightens my day more than hearing I made people smile, there’s nothing else I’d rather do with my time:) ahem now for my thanks (and yes I’m going to thank Seventeen bc I’m hella extra)

Seventeen have made me v v happy and continue to do so to this day. While I may declare my love and hatred (jokingly) and say I’m unstanning, I really love all 13 boys with all my heart. All the admin have talked about it, but when we’re writing for them or answering asks, they don’t seem like just idols to us. They’re friends who love each other, real genuine people who are beautiful inside and out. I’d like to thank them for just being them, for bringing a smile to my face whenever I feel down. Honestly so sappy and cringe but true nevertheless. I love Svt a whole lot <3

Joshua, EXCUSE ME AS I GET HELLA EMOTIONAL I CAN’T JUST WRITE TWO SENTENCES ABOUT THIS GUY;&:9;$2. So I’ll try to keep it short. Joshua, I am the most grateful to him for his undying love for his friends, for his hard work at always being the best person possible, and for genuinely making me smile. He’s the kind of person I want to be, someone who is kind-hearted and tries his very best at everything he does and ilhssm.

I can feel myself tearing up woohee this is going great. I’d like to thank the many internet friends and mutuals I met, through this blog. Initially I had simply wanted people to fangirl with svt about and I got so so much more. There is a moment I remember distinctly 2 weeks ago, I had been really stressed about my slew of tests and I had maybe gotten 20 hours of sleep in the entire week and had told my friends in real life but also my internet friends (you know who you are and ily) and I was bombarded with messages of support from everyone in the morning and I dead af kid you not sat and cried because how did I deserve such amazing support and friends. People who had never seen me before were genuinely concerned about my health and mentality and nothing nothing made me cry more than just the sheer amount of support I got. I had mentioned in our admin chat how I regretted not doing enough due to exams and my bb’s legit were screaming at me to sleep and that it’s ok and everything will be ok if I didn’t answer everything right away and just focused on me and it’s prob one of the moments in my life that I felt the most support and love ever. and so that takes me to my few final thanks….

Soph, okie hands down my favorite Jun stan I’m sorry everyone, I love Soph lots omfg. She’s so talented!!! I’m living for the day where she kills me with her dancing just as Junhui does to all of us, I can’t imagine how hard it must be to learn svt and bts choreo and run this blog lmao. Soph, I love how you hype Josh with me and how we all suffer together when we send svt pictures and honestly thank you thank you thank you so so much for being not only an admin but a valuable friend.

Meagan, I can always count on her to send me pictures of Joshua on Instagram and I love her lots too. I love how despite living 16 hours apart, we can still have conversations about boy drama (no not svt lmao svt wouldn’t do us dirty like boys irl) and fangirl about Josh and svt and just everything. She’s incredibly talented too, her writing and she’s so pretty I die. Meagan, I love how I can say something and count on you to talk about it, it’s beautiful and fun, thank you so so much admin and friend.

And finally, I’d like to thank Seri. Seri has been with me on this rollercoaster of a ride since the very beginning. I found it incredible how the two of us just *clicked* ya know? She’s the type of friend who says one thing and two hours later, she and I are both dying from laughter on the ground in stitches. I’ve never genuinely laughed more than some convos I’ve had with her. I’m also surprised she has yet to hear me screaming at her from across the country, I’m pretty sure I’m loud enough that she could hear me. She’ll prob forever be my aegi whether she likes it or not and while I honestly don’t know how much longer I’ll stan svt, I do hope that our friendship can far outlast our time together here on the blog (plus I swear imma buy her plane tickets somehow so we can go to an svt concert together or disneyland before I die). I’ve ranted to her lots and I complain to her lots but she never tells me I’m annoying and for that, I’m also thankful XD. I think I have learned quite a lot from her, including how to have thicker skin and I love her so so so much. Seri, thank you for everything lovely, let’s continue growing as friends and people together ^~^

Final remarks, I think what has always drawn me to svt is just the sheer comradery and love they have for each other. It’s undeniable they’re family to one another. I had always been somewhat jealous of their adorable friendships and funny chemistry. But as I look back on it now, I found my own sort of svt, in the people, friends, and stories I interact with everyday here, and for that I can only say thank you.