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brilliant-soul · 2 years ago

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Like I know my counselor meant well when she was telling me i seem too preoccupied with being in a relationship right now and I should take a step back and work on myself

But like all I've ever done is be single and work on myself. I have more hobbies than anyone I know, I go out and do things all the time, I go places, I don't sit at home waiting for somebody.

I guess it's just that *I* feel like I'm ready for someone to be close to and rely on and talk to when shit goes sideways. I've never dated anybody, and I want to feel something with someone

And yeah, of course I'm not happy when men are wasting my fucking time and not even trying.

My wants are very clearly speller out and yet it's like I'm speaking Greek. I just go in the same circles again and again, like my message is literally the exact same to everyone when they ask what I want bc it isn't even hard to achieve. Take me out, let's have fun, let's see if we have any chemistry, if there is we can sleep together but I want to go out instead of being smth you're ashamed to be seen with

#personal #depressed again #she was telling me to set boundaries and then telling me i compromise too much on them #like okay maybe but the dating pool is garbage #and nothing im compromising on is lkke a firm boundary #i tell every person i match w i wanna go on cute dates. its in my bio #and yet every single person just invites me over #seeing your penis is not a date!!!!!!!!#also its v reminiscent of ppl trying to reassure me boys didnt like me bc i wasnt interesting enough as a kid #like no theyre fatphobic assholes #i suppose the same still applies #people are willing to fuck a fatty but not actually be kind and considerate of one #literally nobody is willing to be seen w me in public #very upsetting #esp bc im l i t e r a l l y telling them i want to go out #sigh #my counselor doeent get it #shes trying tho #we talked abt boys a lot this time #she was like if tinder isnt making you happy maybe you should stop #vent post

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