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MFM kiddos using Ruv as a mattress cuz heās warm and soft :3
I feel demons are more susceptible to the cold.. he is the family furnace
#then again from a headcanon ive accepted that hes nephalim/part nephalim that means with some demon blood hes also susceptible to the cold#BUT no need to unpack that. besides i think canonically it doesnt even affect him anyway#my art#rasazy#selever#ruvyzvat#ask#anon#getting excited to finally have phone upgrade after seven years of having my old one only to find out this one lacks pressure sensitivity#IT SUCKS it feels really weird even after brush adjustments.. barely any lineweights and its a lot harder to color and shade this way </3#it looks fine finished but it took quite a bit longer than i would have before. so some adaptation is necessary!#bit of a bummer still and i am nothing if not a drama queen#mid fight masses
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Do you ever think about how Fakir, after him and Ahiru finally broke everything that kept the town of Goldkrƶne in the ghostly hands of its writer, after they finally have some air of peace over the town finally being able to live in its intended early 2000s environment, that Fakir still feels at times like it's not real and that for a while he fears that if he closes his eyes it'll be back in Drosselmeyer's control. Like it just doesn't feel real to him during that first year of calm, until he feels the dull pain on his recovering hand injury and Ahiru who follows him without a pendant anywhere to be found.
He doesn't feel it's real, the calm finality of this town, but he makes sure to feel the scar on his hand. And he makes sure to hold the little duck and realize that she is who she has always been. Him and the town are finally living peacefully.
#dia talks#princess tutu#He probably starts planning on writing Ahiru into the world mayyybe like 3-4 months into his recovery#he doesn't know what a cell phone is yet but he sure as hell can look at a bookstore and ask for a notebook and pens#i bet that first year in Goldenkrƶne must be hell because trading deals bring all sorts of new things into the town#Just Fakir going āwhat the fuck is a scooter?? Wait what's a CAR---ā#he ends up having to read a bunch of newspaper articles about āGoldenkrƶne booming in German tourism!ā#Actually does he even know his country's name... Did they all even know they lived in Germany and not JUST a city????#Drosselmeyer would've really pulled one on them for only talking about the city and its outskirts and NOT the country it resided in#But let's assume they did know. Fakir would have to figure out so much has changed in 2002 Germany compared to whatever time they were in#My god just thinking about the thought of Fakir learning what a television is... or a radio for that matter has me howling internally#local amateur writer is put into a coma after hearing for the very first time german rapper Sido#alternatively: local amateur writer's brain explodes after hearing german Happycore artist BlĆ¼mchen and dance pop group No Angels#ptutu spoiler#i know its a +20 old show but just in case people wanna watch it i love it enough to tag the post show headcanon#ptutu analysis#ptutu headcanon#ptutu post canon#Also sorry i keep jumbling between Goldkrƶne and Goldenkrƶne in the writing its 4 AM and the german part of my brain is a mess lmao#(its supposed to be Goldkrƶne but for some reason I keep making it into the attribute word Golden so dont mind the mistake)#(if you do i will sob please be gentle towards my polyglot self)
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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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What app and what pencil do you use :3?
(I send u big hugs and hav a nice day :Dā”)
Hehe. (Hugs back. I like hugs. XD) I believe someone else had a similar question before! I made this art then too to demonstrate how I use, Ibis Paint. The free beginner friendly drawing app! (No I'm not sponsored-) And as for the "pens", I usually go for the default brushes. As in the first basic ones you find on the app! ^v^ I've been promoting this idea for years and I'll never get tired of saying it! While fancier equipment IS nice, skills can ultimately outclass tools any day! =D In fact, sometimes limiting yourself can hone your creativity as it forces you to work with what you have and invent new ways of experimenting with materials that are often overlooked! That's how I learned. ĀÆā \ā _ā (ā ćā )ā _ā /ā ĀÆ -Bubblyš
#spacebubblearts#asks#thanks for the asks!#and sorry it's so late#I was busy with mother's day and my parent's anniversary#but no cap I use to draw strictly with pens and markers#no erasing and soon enough mistakes became part of the art itself easy as anything#improved my drawing speed too#as for digital art#for years I only had my phone and fingers#I remember making animatics on them like a mad man#and I'm not talking animation memes either#I mean full on song animatics XD that could be minutes long#that took a lot of work#man I miss the motivation#thinking of training myself that way again.#ehem anyway I hope this was a satisfying answer#if youre curious my animatics are still up on YT XD#I made a Glitch Techs one on two player game but a lot of them are really old back when I was just starting online#enjoy!#and have a nice day as well! =3#art#doodle#chibi#mascot#art practice#art discussion#art advice#why do I keep writing them on the tags???#ibis paint
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it's GENUINELY INSANE how phones literally halve in price A YEAR after their release. why do people buy new phones even are you not sick of it all
#on one hand yeah ill get a 3 year old flagship phone i like saving money on what once cost Ā£1k#but on the other hand#its literally still fine. why are you charging Ā£1k in the first place for what i can only assume is the luxury of having the New One#like a ~50% Newness Tax is INSANE to me. how do people live like this!!!#you can pick up a samsung s22 (from TWO YEARS AGO) for like <Ā£300. that shit cost again ~Ā£1k new. unbelievable#anyway shopping around for new phones bc my current one keeps randomly disconnecting my sim#foregoing the headphone slot bc the only brand which fucking kept them in is motorola. and yknow. Yknow.#so im looking at phones from a couple years ago and holy shit this is driving me mad. value really is just made up numbers huh
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my brother can make me laugh without moving at all. he can make me laugh on command, just by existing, and there is no physical tell or indication that it is about to happen. itās like he can will me to laugh and i will. of course weāre not telepathic, but we do speak in unison sometimes. we improvise like no oneās business. we could fool anyone into believing we are psychically linked. when i try to explain it, i sound silly saying it out loud, but i really CAN tell what heās thinking. we exchange so much information just with a look. he can make me cry laughing and he doesnāt even have to move
#i miss him so much i need him back i need him to live next to me again. i need to mooch off his wifi from my porch and invite him over#i miss him so much.#heās only 2 minutes younger but he feels years younger. and yet i think weāre two halves of one soul#iāve always babied him not even in a mean or diminishing way but i felt this need to protect him#because he tends to be so naive and so shy#but. i am so proud of him. i need to show him off to everyone and i need everyone to understand how funny and charming he is#it feels like i grew up and left him where he will remain 11 forever. i miss him more than moving back home can fix#i miss him in ways that have nothing to do with the distance between our locations#but. it would certainly help to be able to see him every day#i keep smelling the carpet in his room and itās so vivid. i remember the countless hours we spent developing huge wood block cities#and we would drive hot wheels over the wooden raceways we had made. we were actually quite coordinated and autistic about it#we were always building things together#just recently me and him talked on the phone about an old mlp au we came up with. all original characters and shit#it was super extensive and very clever#i STILL think it would make a really cool book series or something#i remember watching him play army men RTS gamecube on the wii. i STILL listen to the soundtrack to that game likeā¦. daily#i remember walking into my room once where he was watching a show. and he was crying#and he NEVER cries over tv#but he was crying because his favorite character had resigned from the organization that the series was based around#and he was so distraught that she was leaving.#i remember when all 3 of us slept in one room. i remember when me and him were in bunk beds across the room#and we would sneak out of bed right as the parents left and stayed up playing by the light of the nightlight#the way we raced back into bed when the parents were approaching š#my mom always says sheās sad that i seem to remember so little of my life. like every story of my youth is news to me lmao#but i feel like i remember the most important parts? i think so#i remember how mom woke me up in the night to ask me to roll over because my bro could see my face from where he was sleeping#and he was scared because there was a weird shadow cast on my face that made it look like a skull which was making it hard for him to sleep#it was. so funny. i begrudgingly rolled over#i donāt know. itās just that there isnāt a single instance i bring up that my brother does not also remember.#no matter how tiny or specific. we shared everything growing up
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pont pont vesszÅcske
#this year just feels weird. im selfishly not saying ~rawr so awful or tragic#because there are things ive achieved this year that im proud of and that were long due#im so happy i did that masters course and im so glad i landed a job that pays well even though its torture on my nerveous system#my mind is forever free from academic guilt and pressure#and i can afford things that nourish my soul and body when they werent accessible before#so this is the firm acknowledgment of the fact that im lucky and have an objectively good life#part of which i was given and nice parts i actually worked my ass off for#and for the first time in my life im at a stage where its all ā¦ freestyle?? lmao like ok girl you did the things now find new things to do#and theres none hehehe just human connections that are harder to build than a cv or a thesis defense and doesnt only depend#on the effort i put in#but also on how the stars and planets are moving or idk#plus i just remembered how my sister told me that the reason why i kept procrastinating on my diploma was bc it was an excuse to not grow u#and now the universe is kicking my ass all year to make me realize that i need to change and grow and build a life i could settle in#because this bitch!!!! took 3 of my 4 closest friends and made them move countries and get married or in one case just simply get over me#and not to make everything about me but its how humans work okay so ofc im internalizing a lot of other tragedies as new signs#from the universe screaming at me#to get away from the parasocial bonds that give me so much joy but also affect me too much#like LAUGH AT ME all you want but ive been wanting to see ts live since 2009#and the only thing that kept me up in exam season at 4am was me and my friend sending outfit inspos to each other#like its silly i know but when that show got cancelled and i was hysterical i kneew the lesson was to grow up and stop investing so much#into lovely but also relatively short moments of my life#because i should be able to#look forward to other things after graduating than the eras tour but i WASNT okay#and i dont have to elaborate on how liamās passing has been affecting me/us so i wont#but fuck that was a cruel reminder - to make things about me again- that though i can talk about this with friends on my phone#until my retina burns out or melts or idk what retinas do#i still dont have ANYONE in my phsyical proximity who would understand this pain and thats partially on me#and then my 85+yr old grandma got covid AGAIN for the 3rd time and my god she got better but in case i forgot she wont be with me forever#and i reached the tag limit so thats it anyway weird year very weird dont know what it wants from me#to the void
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do you have any pets in your life (don't have to be yours i just wanna see aminals..) :0
hi jack :) can you watch this while i go smoke
#ask#raidendotcom#jack im so sorry i wanted to send like 9 images of possums i have saved to my phone and i was SO tempted to do so#but this specific one in particular..........#i dont have any pets though.... :(#my last pet was a cat we had named Fatso (we didnt name him that. it was the name he had when we got him)#but we had to give him to another family. im sure hes doing just fine today :)#before him we had a guinea pig named Munchy that i took home from the woman who'd cut my hair#the first animal i thought was our pet was a golden retriever named Rusty#he was actually my uncles dog (he lives close by) and hed always hang around our house and we also kept dog treats that my brothers ate#he was a golden retriever - poodle mix. but the only poodle part of him was his ears. he had curly fur on just his ears :)#we have a photo somewhere of Rusty and me with my aunt playing in some leaves#shoutout to Rusty... fucking loved that dog even if my perception of who owned him wasnt correct as a 3-5 year old...#also yes i remember a memory of being on my front porch and my brothers were eating dog treats out of the box#i feel like they were scooby doo branded or something.#it was between the years of 2001-2003#i also have a memory of them just throwing some CDs around outside like frisbees#like i remember broken disc bits in our front yard#i also remember drawing treasure maps a lot and me and my middle brother would light the edges on fire to make it look authentic#i also remember putting rocks in the airhole to the tornado shelter we had in our front yard#listen the doors to it were big logs so we werent in need of using it any time soon. plus tornadoes dont occur around here#its still there. but ive never been inside it so i have no clue what the inside looks like#its just a hill with two doors aimed 70 degrees towards the sky. and theres an airhole hidden at the top of the hill#or it was an airhole until i shoved some rocks in it#š¤āØ oh well#anyway thank you raaiden for the ask :)#sorry i was too committed to the bit to send more opossums :( i hope you can forgive me :) >:)
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me: :)
windows: remember the update that your laptop literally CAN'T install because of a partition issue. i want to attempt install it again.
me: why can't you just. pull the update until you fix it
windows, attempting to install the update anyway: what?
me: >:(
#ć ā ā§¼ catwalk talk ā§½ ā¹ ( ooc. )#.mid writing a reply? the editor i use in tandem with my phone freezes and disconnects. laptop also slows down#.multiple times#.because the DISK SPACE is being fucking EATEN#.by the update installer#.fuck off i wanna write#.i also wanna note that the amount of times i have had to deal with OS corruption because of stupid fucking microsoft updates#.that won't install correctly#.my laptop is only 3 years old. it's not that fancy#.but it can run lethal company on 60fps so like it's not a me issue#tbd
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#i talked with a good friend of mine from my old job over the phone because we said we'll talk and we never find the right time for it#and she had told me that she & her boyfriend for the last 7 years had broke up 3 months ago#and the only reason she hasn't told me about it is because she didn't want to make me more upset because i was dealing with my own breakup#and she also said a lot how there's stuff she can't tell her closet friends because they'd make fun of her or mock her but to me she can#and i just sat there and listened to her and gave her my advice as i usually do#it wasn't a long phone call but it made me feel better. to think she sees highly of me and that i can comfort her in a time of need#especially when other people can't.#i just. i feel bad i wasn't there for her when she needed me but again i told her it's her choice to tell me whatever she wants to share#i don't know. i just really love her#funny she's like. 7 years older than me but we get alone so fine š
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the marclef has drawn another clef. i kinda like both clefairy and clefable equally so they were both on this list, they're both good pink friends.
i love the idea that these little pink blobs are based on the whole moon rabbit thing. so i kinda went full Rabbit Chonk with this boy.
#i already draw my clefs kinda chonky so that's pretty normal i guess.#my art#october 2023#artists on tumblr#pokemon#clefable#i have a clefable from my very first game transferred over onto my scarlet copy. he turns 10 years old next year......#want a fun story though? no lie i was playing legends arceus and. there was a clefairy outbreak so i was like ok ill go check it out.#i beat up all the clefs. the outbreak transitions into an Alpha Clefable outbreak.#THE FIRST 3 THAT SPAWN ARE ALL SHINY#I FUCKING SCREAMED#the only proof i have is. the clefs in question i guess and a really shoddy hastily taken phone picture. i was losing it.#lotta rambling here but. man i just really like these little pink things.
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curled up by the fire, tail waggin
#long day puppies in my phone long day#so so tired i dont have class tmr cos lecture not there so i get to sleep in yay but i wake up early anyways woah just dont Have to be up#going to try meet a friend because i feel like i havent seen anyon outside of college in months even tho its been 2 weeks#this old friend if mine kinda lowkey ditched me when he got a bucnh of new friends like 2 yesrs ago and hes been reaching out a lot to try#hangout and like hm im hurt abiut how he dropped me and he like genrally wasnt a great friend anyways:/ but i feel bad being kike i cant#hang but i also amnt even lyin genuinely cant hang i havent seen my best friend in so long i only see college and my home and therapist once#but also like ugh i dont like this guy i need him to not be beggin me to hang he could be reslly mean like too often but he was nice ..ugh#i wish there was a chill bot harsh way to cut domeone out like i dont hate u i just dont love u soz#and i love my friends so so deeply like i only have time for my besties who i would est whole if i could pike the way people talk about#their blorbo from my shows is how i feel talking about my friends like i want to squish them and poke em n kiss em their my little loves#so if i dont even like someone idk like i dont have time for people j dont love or who dont give a shit about me#hashtag being autistic and my 3 close friends are all also auttistic genuinly the 3 of them got diagnosed in the past 4 yesrs..dominos#i miss my friends wailing college too busy i miss my babies#n i feel really bad for not wanting to hang with this guy who litersllybdidnt care if i lived or died like a year ago#but now is all about me strangely#anyways hm will possible rant more ive had such a long day and nowmim currles on pillows in a bjg hoodie and its so good
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some people really still treat drugs like it's a fun little thing and im trying SO hard not to get mad about it
#like okay so the set-up is this my flatmate (F) is chronically ill and is on immunosuppressants as well as a fuckton of other stuff#and she started smoking weed bc it's the only thing she's ever found that even touches her pain#ive NEVER had a problem with that ive never had a problem with WEED even IVE done it a couple times#but me and her have VERY different attitudes towards drugs#i came from a hometown where we were between two notoriously drug-high towns/cities and we get caught in a lot of the trading#between those towns so naturally my town just generated a fuck ton of dealers starting when they were like. thirteen years old#i saw it through my entire year i was exposed to class A drugs when i was like. fifteen at parties and shit#it's HUGE in my town i seriously can't express how much it's crippled the youth of my town#like my childhood best mate's brother literally got glassed bc he got into debt with dealers it's just everywhere#so that alone makes me very wary of drugs and like. the novelty of them is just NOT THERE for me at all i actively dislike them#AND THEN there's all the kids in my year that have died bc of substances. there's the phone call when i was AT A PARTY#that my seventeen year old cousin had OD'd. like that just summed it up for me it's so prevelant that i was at a party with drugs#while he was dying. so yeah wholeheartedly i couldn't give a shit about drugs i wont touch anything stronger than weed and even that#im not keen on. my flatmate however? she DOES drugs like she smokes regularly and she likes edibles#but she doesn't come from a druggy place so it's a weird combo of me (doesn't do drugs) knowing more than her (does do drugs)#and bc she's the one who actually does them she pure WONT LISTEN TO ME#and do u know what happened last night? this girl on IMMUNOSUPPRESSANTS got completely fucked#like drank 2/3 of a big bottle of vodka within an hour. and then she fucking went and did ket#and i literally was like 'that would be an awful idea anyway but ket you're REALLY supposed to not mix with alcohol'#like obvs mixing any high class drugs is bad news but ket is renowned for going bad with alcohol#i think it's bc it shuts off the opposite side of the brain that alcohol does? so taking both increases risk of shutting the whole thing of#or smthn. like people forget than an overdose isn't always fatal and i think bc they associate overdosing = dying#they assume the risk is EXTREMELY low especially when ur young and feel untouchable#AND THEN she smoked some weed as well. like i literally sat sober with her and her mate the entire time and again in the kitchen#bc i thought id distracted her from the weed and sitting with her she thought i was just hanging out#like NO BITCH IM MAKING SURE YOU DONT KHOLE BC YOU WERE TOO STUPID TO LISTEN TO ME#and i hardly slept last night bc i convinced myself when i woke up she'd be dead in her room#and we had such a nice day planned today like it's super sunny and me F and another mate are spending the whole day at the park#but she's just cancelled bc she feels too shit and im just. TRYING not to be angry about it#WHY ARE SOME PEOPLE SO DUMB
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father ruining shit for me once again. i been on medicaid for the last almost 5 years but just recently got cut off. i have top surgery in THREE DAYS and my plan was to not get insurance until after bc im having it at a not for profit hospital i was gonna get on an out of pocket payment plan w them then file to have the medical debt erased but my mother in law ran into my father yesterday and said he has had me on his private insurance (for 5 years ?? and ive never used it ????) and one of the few times i ever said anything to him was in 2021 (twenty twenty ONE) i told him dude take me off ur health insurance its fucking w my medicaid (i couldnt get T for like 6 months) and he was like okay when open enrollment starts or whatever ill take u off. what the fuck im so unbelievably pissed. MIL also said he seemed like he was on meth or very drunk so. they met at aa so as u can imagine this was very jarring for her jtfo.
#she said he was like 'i just wanna know if he's having surger cos i dont sant him to idk u know what i mean if hes having surgery im#gonna fight it cos i want him to have the best care ' blah blah like incomprehensible shit#but yk. could tell from all that that he found out im havibg surgery cos his insurance told him#which. if he does actually pay for it (and he has no way of contacting me abt it bc i changed my number and he has a hardship license so he#cant just pull up to my house or job) then thats fire. reparations motherfucker#cos i told his ass take me off your insurance 3 fucking years ago and i still have my old phone i never deleted a message from him just in#case and hellooooo i will take your ass to court behind that djdbdjdjdjd#im NOT paying no 15000 to NOBODY i dont give a FUCK what for#worst case scenario i was gonna just leave that shit unpaid since medical debt doesnt hit ur credit score anymore#and its. a childrens hospital theyre only operating on me since technically they treat anybody under 25 so its unlikely that i will br#coming there again jdjdjdndkd#damn i had a whole ass plan to photoshop my paystubs to look like i make less šš#cos not like im makin bank bank but i just got a raise that puts me over 250% of the poverty line which is the cutoff so i was finna.#art department my checkstubs djdbdjbd#he speaks
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idk vent post
cw homeschooling trauma and general emotional abuse
#i am so angry#i was raised as a homeschooled child and just#the loneliness#the silence#my dad would joke all the time about how to act if cps showed up#meanwhile whatever happened could happen and i had no safe adult to do#go to#my moms friends from highschool would come to visit and warn her that she should leave#she would tell me ā#honey love is complicated and hard and hurtfulā#and then homeschool us at the age of fucking 22#she didnt go to college#my dad barely got a GED#i practically was a second mother to my sister because just#homeschooling was not enough#when i finally went to school my dad would threaten to take me out if i acted up or didnt answer my phone 24/7#one time when i was 14ish he told me he was going to ground me to where i couldnt leave the house at all except to walk the dog and take out#the trash and i wasnt allowed to see my friends anymore#because i didnt answer my phone in class#i cried and begged and pleaded to please let me stay in school please i love school#my mom talked him into grounding me for only 9months#i was allowed to go to school but i had to come straight home and i was only allowed to see my friend in the apartment complex when i walked#the dog#existing with my brain feels heavy rn#im just tired. im an adult. im almost 24#my mother was homeschooling a 3 and 2 year old at my age#i mourn for her
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Itās so funny how rereading one single ya dystopian series has made all my daydreams go from something mundane and beautiful to likeā¦ āme and Bakugo are surviving a war against reproductive rightsšā and Iām genuinely having a good time
#I am twelves years old#and lowkey itās berry nice#altho itās nice I keep craving to read fanfics abt the ships in these totally irrelevant books#like written on par with what yāall write#Iām going insane I had a daydream ant not only going to hs with Bakugo but having a teenage pregnancyšššš#lowkey one of my fave days dreams Iām still obsessed with is from ā¦ ok you know what I will stop there LMFAO#but zamn.#I dont wanna say the reason I havenāt been active on here much is bc Iām reading books#bc Iām totally having a weird decline rn#but also like. I do think my need for creative outlets is being fed by FUCKKNG YA NOVELS#but hey they taught me how to do tf what I DO!#so thereās that#and Iāve basically spent the last week on the bathtub reading books instead of being on the phone#probs like ā¦ 3 hrs of my day is bath LMFAO#coping like this is amazing#oh well going back to my apartment tomorrow where the bath aināt sh*t so that will fix that#love u all dearly miss u all dearly#hope youāre all wellš©·#caitie blabs
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