#and more just. shit that is real but people feel uncomfy :( talking and thinking about)

[definitely-not-an-alb]

I think the Hunger Games (& related Teen-Media-With-Adult-Actors-Discourse) is one step further from the other idiocy I'm annoyed by, which can be summarized as the experience of people prioritizing their own feelings of discomfort with a fictional situation they encounter over the safety of the people making that art (aka the 'in all my love for art and the freedom of art, knowing what I know about the treatment of child actors, I question if we should make movies with them' vs. 'seeing Jodie Foster play a child prostitute made me uncomfortable because it reminded me child sex exploitation and trafficking, like, exist in the world, and that's why Taxi Driver is bad/we should ban Taxi Driver/I'm bald and Martin Scorsese personally killed and ate my cat' debate (the latter is an unhinged, and also considering the previous point, fucking CALLOUS take imo) (like, mate, there's actual things to be worried about that are, quiet frankly, more important than your feelings about a fictional scenario) (like whether the pre-teen was PAID for her WORK)), because it (the Teens-Played-By-Teens-Argument) actively demands more vulnerable people (children and teenagers) be put in situations rife with harm (Are they paid? Fairly? Are they put in harms way on set? Are they kept emotionally safe at set? Did they consent to this line of work, or to work at all? Are they being exploited, emotionally pressured, abused, neglected or bullied by parents, agents, co-stars, set-workers, directors, promoters or producers?) to lessen their (the people making the argument) emotional discomfort at seeing the product of said work (/exploitation).

[justaboymadeofhoneyandglass]

Yeah absolutely agree baby

Lust is evil and a sin until someone is asexual and then not lusting after anyone is a sin because being queer is evil… You would think christians would look at asexuality as being holy or some shit. But noooo, bigotry disguised as religious belief is never that fucking simple is it…

[majimasleftasscheek]

I was wondering if you had any nsfw headcanons re: tigerfish? mostly asking cause i was thinking about the idea of nishiki doing his little hair-slick-back thing whenever he’s feeling Spicy (more dominant, regardless of position) so if/when he does that when they’re making out or whatever saejima knows what’s coming hehe

hope this isn’t too uncomfy to ask or anything! thanks for making me a fan of this tiny little ship lmao <3

not uncomfy at all! I'm always happy to talk about nsfw 😏

*as usual, even tho I talk about em as cis dudes, yall are welcome to imagine them however 😌

so prolly an uncommon take but Saejima's always sorta sat on the ace spectrum for me personally like he's into people but not in a way that's like something he'd go out and seek nor really need to be happy. not into being touchy feely with people he's just met and needs a bit of emotional bonding to let that happen *insert some joke about him making everyone he meets his kyoudai lol*. so when it comes to Nishiki, he feels a lot more comfy being openly intimate since they've gotten plenty of time to know each other in jail. Nishiki on the other hand, gives me casual guy™ vibes so he's into slapping the salmon whenever however but not in a wildin' type of way. he's into trying new things but also enjoys comfortable patterns that don't necessarily have to change anything up.

so when they're first shooting the shit about getting their freak on, I can see Nishiki being kinda surprised at first by Saejima's preferences but totally gets it too. he's used to Kiryu being a loner type who isn't exactly going out of his way for the ultimate boner experience. where they differ tho is Saejima is experienced while Kiryu just sorta bumbles through it. Saejima on the other hand, sees Nishiki who was a prominent crime boss and conventionally very pretty so he's thinking oh yeah Nishiki's prolly some kind of sex pest but is pleasantly surprised when Nishiki's more than considerate and patient.

now, Nishiki's been with people of all sorts so he knows his shit while Saejima is more like yeah I know my stuff but I ain't into it enough to really know if I'm performing up to the standards for my partner. he has a good bit of anxiety about that sorta thing and Nishiki didn't really believe him at first cuz like, just look at him. Saejima doesn't look like he'd have anxieties about anything so that's a hurdle they'd have to cross. Nishiki ends up being the lead in most cases, if anything to show the types of things he likes and to give Saejima confidence that he's doing a good job.

when Nishiki leads, he's either topping or power bottoming which defo pumps up the fish ego. but when tiger tops, it's more of a service top thing - he wants to see Nishiki pass the FUCK out lol. he wants to see toes CURL, he wants that ex patriarch to BEG for more. it makes him happy, knowing he can bring Nishiki down a peg for all the pride he's got in him. for Nishiki, it's a nice balance of leaving the work to Saejima while still being in control, even more so when he's going evil mode and gets a mad kick out of having such an imposing man at his beck and call hohohehe.

Saejima's very much not horny ever so Nishiki's gotta be the one to get him in the mood which is perfectly fine for the two of em. it's part of their foreplay, lots of talking and touching and even if it doesn't pan out to anything, they still enjoy just being around each other.

when Nishiki tops he's real sweet about it, very handsy and slick, doing everything you'd expect out of a well choreographed movie tbh. it's a very ideal time and Saejima just sorta gets lost in it, unused to being treated well and gentle. he's definitely prone to being a bit more emotional during these times and not afraid to show it which shocked Nishiki for a time until he got used to it and has come to really enjoy bringing such feelings out of him.

EVIL MODE so there's occasions where Nishiki's into the rougher stuff *insert whatever your heart desires here* and it's a lil bit embarrassing for him cuz there's been occasions with past partners where it's not exactly been the most enjoyable experience for either party, due to inexperience or going too far, etc. he's a lil too eager and too aggressive for his own good, especially back then cuz he had some aha issues to work out and ended up unintentionally taking it out on others.

so insert Saejima who proposes hey let's try out whatever the hell that maybe other people couldn't handle and Nishiki's hesitant, thinking, oh nah you already have anxieties and I can't do that to you but it's in the back of his mind like I want to tho. a big component of nsfw tigerfish to me is that they have a theme of taking time to get to things with a certain gentleness unlike my kazumaji hcs where they have a very intense, impulsiveness to them. so it takes a hot minute for Nishiki to open up this more aggressive side of him that for a long time he's suppressed cuz he felt that there's no place for it even tho it's very much a part of him.

so when Nishiki does eventually start to tip toe into his more perverse kinks, Saejima gives him comfort in that nothing really shocks him about what he wants and he's more than ready to handle it physically. with Nishiki leading, it's a good time for the two of em; Saejima can be of service while Nishiki can feel freer to explore this part of himself without judgment or so much worry.

after all that, aftercare! very important. it's usually Saejima who takes care of Nishiki, wrapping him up and massaging out the jitters. sometimes, one or both of them can experience some mixed emotions from a variety of things, performance worries, trauma, etc so they spend a lotta time just talking to each other. there's a lot of reassurances but also just a lot of wanting someone to listen.

random shit

Saejima loves some good head and body worship. he knows he's got a fine bod so complimenting him is the good shit 👌

Nishiki's all about smooches whether they be deep ones or just lil pecks here and there. ever since post y1, he's been one for enjoying simpler affections, especially when he knows his partner means it.

Saejima's a handsy drunk with people he's close to, but it's all cuddles and kissing and then passing the fuck out.

as a material girl in a material world, Nishiki gets off to gift giving lol. definitely has a praise kink but you gotta be a bit careful. be too dick sucky and he starts to feel like you're just patronizing him.

both of em are into overstimulation for different reasons: Saejima likes the intenseness and Nishiki likes inflicting it (receiving it ain't so bad either). Nishiki doesn't exactly have Saejima's stamina so they got a lotta toys just for the occasion 👀 there's been many a time where Saejima gets into it more than Nishiki can handle and he's then down for the count.

Nishiki tends to keep his prosthetic arm on and doesn't particularly like bringing attention to his disfigurement in general so when he's being intimate, he wants to be treated as if his body is like anyone else's. in that way, he's not into body worship at all, as he sort of warps it into pity he doesn't want.

Nishiki's possessive - not to the same extent Majima is @ Kiryu but it's there in the sense of like, look at this guy, he's mine.

bonus monster AU stuff 👀

as a literal tiger man, Saejima's got a lot of cat characteristics including loving pets and pats. Nishiki's learned very quickly which spots are best to get Saejima riled up and fiesty ;)

that being said, he's got a spikey dick lol. the spines aren't harmful, they more or less lock his partner to him which can end up being inconvenient if they're in a hurry.

big claws = lots of big scratches all up Nishiki's back. Saejima gets nervous he's hurting him but Nishiki think it's pretty hot to be marked up.

[angel---eater]

im so curious what u mean by the vriskafication of jegbert? /genq

ive been watching the hs fandom from afar since the epilogues were dropped.

this is a rlly good question- i have a lot of thoughts and feelings abt june and how the fandom has taken to her her and is now portraying her in popular fanon. im so sorry this has gotten so long. im also sorry if i say smth you or anyone reading this disagrees with, but in my experience this is kind of inevitable when it comes to the topic of june egbert, trans characters who havent come out in canon yet, and trans headcanons as a whole. this shits personal to all of us and we all have different perspectives on transness, and oftentimes how we view transness in fiction is very much coloured by our own gendered experience.

it boils down to: can we please fucking let trans girls live. we are so fuckin weird about transfem folks and trans girls/women, even in fiction. sometimes especially in fiction, actually. especially on this gd website. if i have to see one more person defending june (and tgirl roxy) as a concept, and through that, defending real life transfems existences by talking about girldick or being a sweet docile sugary femme babygirlie kittycat, i will turn everyone into a fucking goldfish and flush you all one by one down my toilet. this, again, also extends to how a lot of the fandom handles trans headcanons in general, regardless of gender. all of what im about to say is from watching the homestuck fandom and fanon grow and change over 10+ years, basically since the beginning on this site specifically

some disclaimers for my trans resume i guess: i am intersex. i am plural. we as a system identify systemwide as transfemasuline or transneutral in an attempt to both honor and not speak over each other in terms of gender expression and individuality, while also trying to condense our existence for singlets to understand better, faster. we dont have time to explain all our shit all the time lol. we have transfems and transmascs in our system and everyone getting a fair, even chance at their preferred presentation is how we roll. we have lived a transfemasculine life. you cant put us in a single blue or pink corner, it wont work we are immune to that bullshit.

the vriskafication of june egbert is basically me trying to short-hand describe the way that ive seen some fans portray june post-transition by turning her into a mean girl[tm] type of person. there's also the roxyfication of june egbert, where other people make her a ditzy bimbo who can do no wrong because 'shes a girl now' and thats apparently how ppl still think girls should behave?? jegbert's canon personality traits need not apply anymore, apparently, bc that was icky boy behaviour. ghostbusters who? she likes shopping now. fanon june is sometimes eerily similar or exactly like vriska (fanon, woobified vriska, mind you, bc we still cant get a grasp on vriska as a fandom either) while also dressing very high femme and only high femme. because she has to perform someone elses femininity (spoiler: our own concept of what girls 'should look like' to be considered girls) instead of her dads masculinity now. shes either mean like vriska, or dumbed down like fanon roxy, who again has been watered down into a ditzy dumb girly girl who has done nothing wrong ever, bc shes 'just a girl', and bc people get Uncomfy when fictional tgirls do bad things. and oh boy has canon roxy done some bad things

as a counterpoint to my aesthetic based grievances, which are entirely personal- you can portray june egbert however you want. i personally invision her as very butch, but i could be totally wrong! im not even trying to make guesses here! this is my personal make-believe! she is not a real person and has never actually appeared as herself in canon. we dont know what junathan would/will be like during and post-transition. we dont know what an egg crack event will do to them. but some of the ways ive seen june portrayed feels........ off, personality wise. very off. and thats what i care about. it feels like malgendering in way too many cases, with the ditzy girliepop/catty girlbully thing. its straying too close to the tgirl brand of madonna/whore that tfems have to face in real life constantly. this is especially bad for tgirl roxy but i'll get to how fanon vs canon roxy is handled later

i use the word 'vriskafication' bc like vriska, june egbert (meaning tgirl jegbert, previously known as john in fandom and currently as john in canon, just to hammer it home that june and john are the same person, because some fans do seem to forget that john is living life believing shes a boy and a man right now and i dont think that should be erased) is still a pretty polarizing concept. fans either love her and disregard jegbert as ever having been john, or they disregard her as a concept in favour of how john is right now in canon. or theyre just straight up transmisogynistic about it bc they want their yaoi or their het ships. and BOY are some of the fandom not shy about that. which actually leads me into my next disclaimer:

im not including tboy/tmasc john headcanons in the above statement. i do not care about fighting over trans headcanons. i think that shit is just disrespectful and pointless and juvenial. you are fighting for nothing. june/john will not thank you for fighting for their trans rights bc they are not real and have no rights. june is not canon (yet) because she has not had that realization yet, and we dont know if/when she will. and genderbend aus have been a thing since the dawn of fandom anyway. more than one type of headcanon can exist at the same time. we are playing pretend. headcanons will never be proper representation. we are fans, not corporate entities or big directors or production teams churning out content for mass audiences. john has been considered a cis boy for FAR longer than june has been a popular concept, and you dont know how long someone has had or how close to someones heart their trans headcanon is, regardless of what flavour of trans headcanon it is. its rude. some of yall are so fucking mean for no reason other than 'you cant sit with us. on wednesdays we wear pink' rules. very intentional reference there

and i mean okay, roxy. big pink elephant in the room. no one respects or even acknowledges the fact that roxy in the Meat timeline is transmasc and currently only uses he/him, and when they do they're bullied fuckin relentlessly and ostracised from fandom spaces. ive seen entire hate campagns specifically for badmouthing transmasc roxy fans to try to get them to stop posting tmasc roxy stuff, or to see it as transmisogynistic violence akin to shooting a real trans girl live on tv. i have seen these comparisons be made on this site. ive seen others get actually violently transphobic about it back in 2019-2022, and even now. ive talked to fans who were mass dogpiled and harrassed off tumblr for liking meat!roxy's direction, or even just not publicly condemning him while having a neutral stance. i myself have been instablocked from servers and off of ppls blogs for thinking tmasc roxy is cool and a good plot point for his overall personal arc, especially in juxtaposition with roxy's pregnancy in candy, and how that affected her rship with her body and her gender. ive been called horrible things for even considering roxy to be anything but DMAB. that chapter in candy where we get a glimpse inside roxy's head about gender was beautifuly written with a lot of tact for trans people who can be or have been pregnant and enjoyed it, something that is INSANELY RARE. UNHEARD OF, EVEN, IN MEDIA. so this really isnt about trans rights or representation from my perspective. its just gendered bullying and a whole lotta white knighting from people who are majoratively not even fucking transfem.

the same notes of trans coding for roxy that fans deem only as transfem could be seen as coding for transmasculinity too. yes, including the XY thing. does anyone remember what foreshadowing is. and all of this even depends, hinges, on whether hussie intentionally wrote ANY of the human kids as trans initially or had it planned from the very beginning, which i really really really dont think she did!!! in 2009??? yeah fucking right!!!! the entire thing about roxy and jane pressuring dirk and jake into relationships is about cis girls feeling posessive of and entitled to queer boy's bodies and attention, because its something they cant have, and cis girls are seen as a group of people physically incapable of harm, which is misogyny that directly effects cis girls/womens victims. its a direct mirroring to cis boys doing the same to queer girls. and as much as i love all flavour of trans reads for the alpha kids in fandom, i dont think i wouldve appreciated it in canon. i wouldve hated it, actually. it waters down the message and makes everything far too messy and open to bad faith interpretation. we need more trans characters doing bad things in media, but the era the alpha kids section of HS1 was being published was NOT the time. an inarguably canon tgirl character preying on an inarguably queer tboy in 2011-2012? there would have been blood in the streets. i VASTLY prefer fanon interpretations when it comes to the alpha kids being trans. i trust fans way more, but i obviously still have reservations about that which is why im here writing all this

to further back this up- hussie has also openly discussed having her eyes opened to queer issues BY queer fans WHILE HS1 was still being updated!!! THATS why you can see a gradual influx of genuine queerness in homestuck as you read it!!! the vagueness of the trans coding we percieve in the text is why tboy john is still so popular!!! WAY more trans experiences, especially in childhood, are more similar than The Current Discourse bad actors will try to have you believe. please dont believe them, they're not right in the head and the ppl trying to convince you that someone has it The Absolute Worst are lying to you. we all have it bad, thats how oppressive systems work. its just in different patterns for indiviuduals. a middle class trans persons oppression can and often will look VASTLY different to a poor trans persons oppression bc different axis of oppression are at work. it depends on the type of person our oppressors label us as, they dgaf if anyone identifies as TME or TMA. thats a little beside the point but its absolutely contributed to how fans treat fictional trans characters, especially in the last few years

i hate hate hate the ideology in this fandom that one trans interpretation or headcanon is more valuable, or hits harder, or is more idk narratively transcendient or powerful than The Other, so The Other is deemed boring/bland/sauceless/whatever and deserves all the hate and takedowns and dismantling and nitpicking it gets. the fans of this Other Trans Headcanon deserve their hate and calls to kill themselves because theyre just Wrong About It. but thats not true. none of that is true. you just dont vibe with other flavours of fanmade trans narrative. and thats completely fine actually. its literally like preferring carrot cake to raspberry pie. it is on that level outside of transphobic biases, and i sincerely believe that a lot of fans start out on that level, but dip into transphobic biases because of the constant fucking weird moral panic about trans girls, and by extension, young trans people as a whole. which is not fine. whats also not fine is attacking fans of trans characters over said trans characters gender, canon or interpreted!!!

to tie this tf up bc i dont want this to go on for any longer than it has, im so so SO SO SO tired of fanon june and roxy being trans girls first and foremost over their actual characterization. and im even MORE tired of the word 'girl' being taken in fiction to mean dumb, sweet, (white)feminine, wouldnt hurt a fly, so so cuddlysoft, girlboss it up girlfriend, you cant sit with us, im such a cool bitch, im cooler than you dumb gross boy because im a girl, what personality i dont have one i dont need one because im a girl.

so much of fandom has forgotten that roxy is fucking mean and WILL ignore whatever doesnt fit her whims/wants and will plow through her closest friends and loved ones regardless of the situation at hand because of what she wants. she canonically admitted to harrassing dirk on the daily because she wanted him, because she was lonely and couldnt see past her own hurt to see that she was also hurting her friend. and oh my god, mom lalonde, worlds first abscent mother who swears up and down that she loves you really, rosie posie, its just that mommy's real hungover again and also very busy. that is BRILLIANT characterization for a female character, and its been forgotten behind the big pink bedazzled neon ITS A GIRL sign. and the same has been happening with june!!! and it sucks!!!! us transfems are just people we are JUST people. i dont want trans girl characters only point of characterization to be trans and girls!!!! i dont want talking heads and perfect cardboard cutouts in lipstick!!!! when june happens i want her to be exactly the same as when she was john because thats who i became enamoured with in HS1 and thats who i watched grow up in the epilogues and THATS who i want to see finally find their place in paradox space as herself. i want her personality intact, and i dont want to see her forget or turn her back on her childhood and teen and young adult years. i dont want june to be fanon vriskafied

[angelshizuka]

honestly… i LOVED movie!adrien. he just feels so much more /real/ than show!adrien (which i guess is the point if you weigh in senti stuff) and like… idk. he’s just a silly 14 year old boy who’s still got some residual trauma from losing his mom! maybe i’m partly projecting show!adrien onto him, but even the way he turns marinette down seemed like he genuinely felt bad for doing so.

part of me feels like show!adrien’s entire characterization is created around the basis of being a love interest for marinette, and instead in the movie we got to see him be more… realistic than that. he fights with his dad! he opens up to marinette about his mom! he has PAIN and he’s affected by it (unlike the show where it seems his mother’s disappearance has barely affected his day-to-day life even though in that universe he lost her way more recently than in the movie) and he has a hard time letting people in because of that pain (illustrated beautifully by the headphones) but he still takes the chance on his new friend group! ladybug inspires him to give the world a chance again! and when she rejects him he shuts back down, and puts the headphones back on, which again, is a very realistic response.

i think this movie would have been a solid 10/10 for me if they had cut maybe 1-2 of the songs and instead explored their lives/relationship at school a little more, so we got to see these themes a little more clearly, but i really don’t get the movie!adrien bashing like at all lol. it kinda makes me uncomfy that people are calling movie!adrien like a fuckboy incel when he’s just… a more realistic version of himself instead of this fantasy perfect boy that can do no wrong idk…

(i still love show!adrien btw i just wanted to dump this somewhere LMFAO)

Yes, yes, yes! This is exactly what I've been talking about!

I genuinely love show!Adrien, but the writing keeps fucking him over. His mother died recently (either 100 days or weeks before the 100th episode, I can't remember which one it was, but even 100 weeks is barely 2 years), yet he acts like it barely affects him at all, not even in private (because I totally understand acting fine around other people, that's how a lot of people grief).

Meanwhile with movie!Adrien we actually SEE the affects of his grief and it's a major part of his arc and the way he behaves throughout the movie. But godforbid a teenage boy griefing his dead mother and dealing with a neglectful father isn't a "perfect sunshine boy" who isn't allowed to grief (by the narrative).

And yeah, I genuinely love the movie, but even I can acknowledge Adrien needed 1 or 2 more scenes for his arc to wrap up better (but even with that it's miles better than the show and THAT is the problem, that even a movie with problems still did it better by a landslide).

Though I love both Adriens, the core difference is how I genuinely love the actual on screen movie!Adrien, while with show!Adrien I love the potential and the few good moments that shine through the bullshit, but they become rarer with every season.

Like, the whole reason I love show!Adrien is BECAUSE he can be a little shit just as much as movie!Adrien, and one of the reasons I hate his writing in recent seasons is BECAUSE they've been forcing him into the "perfect sunshine boy" role that people have been blindly buying into.

Movie!Adrien is imperfect, makes mistakes, acts irrational, is allowed to have his own emotions,, isn't always the "oh, so perfect husband material", he's his own person first and love interest second, and THAT is why I love him.

[mamawasatesttube]

okay i’m working on med school apps and im gonna have to talk about my thesis but now i cannot think about it without the intense rage of a thousand burning suns bc cryotome so. feel free to ignore this ask but i figured you’d get it and anyone else who would has heard this story before. but basically last year this girl who was hired by the lab for her “expertise with the cryotome” was supposed to teach me to use it because i needed to slice the Very Important Mouse Brains for staining for my thesis research. and it’s really really important that we do it correctly so there’s no trial and error to finding the angle etc. because the end process of the imaging is basically reconstructing the whole brain to create an activation map and A Lot of resources were used to do this experiment and all that jazz. but basically i was on a really tight timeline and she just kept fucking up to the point where i, a person who had NEVER DONE THIS BEFORE, could tell she was missing steps. and basically she destroyed all of the brains i was supposed to use AND she was so callous about it while we were trying to talk to our PI about potential solutions and she literally said “i could come in to help you (FIX THIS PROBLEM I CREATED) … but i don’t want to” and anyway i don’t work there anymore but i heard this summer that she literally neglected to take care of the new mouse colony for a new wave of experiments and instead of firing her they just moved her to admin in human research??? im not one to pray on the downfall of others but i need her to get fired so bad. she didn’t care about her job even one bit and it makes me So Insane. she also got so mad when i wouldn’t try her cocktail at the christmas party (i don’t drink alcohol) and it was so uncomfy. in front of our BOSS. anyway there was more cryostat drama with a phd candidate later too but im calm now so here’s my roommate and her cat if you read this far — sorry about that

YOU ARE SO FUCKING REAL holy shit i would be so mad!!!!! what the hell!!!!! im kind of speechless i cant believe no one fired her after she destroyed the first one. oh my GOD. woe and frostbitten fingers upon her!!!!!!!! jesus. my cryotome woes are entirely related to the fact that i had so many mouse kidneys to slice that i spent like... weeks doing Nothing but using the cryotome every time i came in to work. which was agonizing but nowhere near this level of infuriating oh my god.... you are so strong for not committing a murder.

also that pic is sooo cute. he stand like a people!!!! kity!!!!

[shuublebunny]

I WOULD JUST LIKE TO PREFACE THIS BY SAYING THAT THIS IS PURELY FOR NOSTALGIA PURPOSES. I DO NOT SUPPORT A LOT OF THE SHIT THAT JESSON HAVE DECIDED TO DO WITH THEIR CHARACTERS AND STORIES BECAUSE I LOOK BACK ON THEM AND I GO “WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK THESE WERE ADULT HUMANS WITH FULLY DEVELOPED FRONTAL CORTEXES AND THEY THOUGHT THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA TO POST ON THE INTERNET?”

Childhood blinded me to how problematic some people can be.

It is the year 2023 and I am writing headcanons for a problematic ship in an old ass minecraft roleplay series

So

✨Aarmau HCs✨

Ok so to start out, I wanna address the UNCOMFY age gap. I think it should have been mitigated by making them about a year apart. “But Bunny, how do we handle the whole debacle of her not knowing Aaron is FC?” We drag it out in true slow-burn fashion. They meet when Aphmau is a freshman and Aaron is a sophomore (no more icky freshman-senior relationship because that is FRIGHTENING). So for 3 years they go about their lives kinda hating each other, but also kind of morphs into a “you’re not that bad, I just hate your stupid face (in an affectionate, platonic way (kind of)) and will tease you relentlessly because we’re both assholes” thing. Aph learns Aaron is FC yada yada yada BUT she’s in her JUNIOR YEAR by then.

Now the nature of their relationship. They’re not horrible with each other, but they’re definitely not super close or kind either. They have their gripes with each other and absolutely CANNOT stand each other at times. So when they find out that they have, in fact, been best friends online for the past several years, they both have a complete internal meltdown and panic. They’re idiots. They have no idea how to handle the situation. They’re awkward for like, a few months, but gradually build back their friendship, keeping a teensy bit of the snark they gave each other when they were “rivals” for the funny. But now that snarky, obnoxious behavior is ACTUALLY just a joke and they’re super close. Think of it like sibling banter.

Aph ends up developing a crush on him, but he can’t reciprocate her feelings(yes he can, he’s just scared bc he’s going off to college). Sylvanna still hATES him bc she thinks he’s trying to get with her daughter, but they just go to prom as friends. No kissing that night, nothing, just hanging out, being dumb, and ugly crying and hugging when Aphmau realizes he’s actually going away to college, and now that she only just realized her best friend was with her in person after 3 years, he’s being ripped away from her after only just getting to be his friend irl. They’re both distraught. They are ugly cryers.

They get reunited in college like they do in the og series, and that’s when Aaron realizes “oh fuck, I DO feel the same way, actually,” but doesn’t act on it because he thinks Aphmau has moved on by now. I’m not going to touch the bullshit that happened with Ein and Kai but for the sake of me being lazy and not having the energy to remove them from the story entirely, we’ll just say that all their bullshit happened Aphmau’s senior year and Aaron had to deal with them on breaks when he came back from college. None of this whole “you didn’t keep in touch with me for 3 years and now we’re reunited in college” bs. He cares about her enough as a friend to keep in touch, and finds sneaky ways to do so. He’ll send letters via snail mail after curfew and Agent R totally doesn’t notice (he’s cool like that; i will absolutely write more hcs on how Agent R is like Aaron’s adoptive dad). He’ll also use pay phones (loose change so it isn’t as traceable) around the campus/city to talk to her in real time So he absolutely knows that Aphmau is going to Falcon Claw University. Hell, he was the person she ranted to the most and panicked to over college applications. So when she got accepted to FCU she flips and calls Aaron to tell him before she even shows the letter to her mom (yet another reason why Sylvanna hates him lmao).

In college, they have a HEAVY slow-burn relationship development. They’re still not dating by the time they both graduate, but they’re also both kind of aware of the fact that they both like each other? They’re weird. Both of them are scared of fucking up their friendship. They eventually start dating around the time MyStreet takes place but uhh

This version is a lot less problematic

They catch feels for each other as ADULTS

AND THE AGE GAP IS NOT BORDERLINE PEDOPHELIA

BADA BING BADA BOOM

JESSICA I FIXED YOUR BIGGEST THING IN PHOENIX DROP HIGH

I need to write headcanons more, this was highly cathartic.

(Slight edit made because it was pointed out that I said something pretty tone-deaf that just didn’t make sense, so I fixed it).

[cwarscars]

Hey bro i heard you like 🔥 so c'maaan gimmie your salt maaaan

Send me a “ 🔥 “ for an unpopular opinion.

(( gonna preface this by saying - if any of my moot moots are one side or the other, or consider themselves such - i got no beef with you. you're my homies, my real ones, my ride or dies; im open-minded to hearing your opinions. jus' dont send me any anon nastiness, ill cry REAL tears ))

honestly? i can't stand the black and white thinking in the rpc & fanfic communities as a whole. the whole pro-shipper/anti-shipper debate is extremely tiresome to apparently anyone who believes in nuance & grey situations.

like, on one side - you have people who will and do persecute people for the fucked up ships that they write. on the other, you have people who preach fiction is fiction and will willingly ignore the genuinly problematic people who take advantage of the notion of 'pro-shipping' in order to write their extreme fetishes ( ala, pedophilia / beastiality ).

i have always been anti-censorship. i always will be. i watch extreme cinema and read extreme manga / comics. nothing phases me. there are films that disturb me ( salo will /always/ make my uncomfy ) and obviously things i wont touch with a ten foot barge pole ( anything with kids / animals ) but for the most part, i'm very chill when it comes to what people want to write. i believe people should be honest about their kinks, preferences and things they wish to write.

if your partner is willing, it's consensual and tagged or under a read more. i have zero issues with it. but -

i have gotten sent hate before from 'pro-shippers' for stating my stance on anybody who wants to write smut with kids. literal hate for stating i'm against pedophilia. ( and im not talking about a 17 yr old being sexually active, im talking, like - literal children being sexualised ) like, what? i've been called purity police and all kinds of shit. like, me? purity police???? the bitch whose favourite comic is crossed and favourite manga, ichi the killer. LOL

my whole issue with the debate and the censorship / arguments in the rpc is that, it feels as though you HAVE to be one side or the other. you can't have a nuanced opinion, you can't understand that sometimes - there is a place for certain content, despite how extreme it is.

everybody is allowed a preference. you're allowed to be upset, offended, afraid, disgusted by or whatever else from x subject. every single individual is different and it's what makes us all beautiful. and i feel people need to really understand this. you can write extreme content but don't expect people to like it. on the other hand, if you don't like x content - don't attack someone for writing that content.

i just feel that there's wrong on both sides and i wish people would actually talk about the subject instead of throwing around attacks at each other. ultimately, whether anybody likes it or not - what you're writing is a footnote in the grand scheme of literature. you're writing on tumblr with your buddies and you're here to have fun.

if you wanna write an extreme sex scene with your consenting friends, go for it. if you don't want to write smut or you can't stand a certain ship, that is totally fine, too.

it's okay! both sides can be right without being aggressive or nasty.

like said, i would never label myself 'pro-ship' or any of that shit because i don't agree with that stance. i believe that there is a place for all content in all media in some, way, shape or form. i believe that rp is a slippery slope because it's a hobby that involves partners and is sociable. you have to please those around you and must understand that you can't wave around fetishes without a potential backlash. i agree people should write what they want, but i don't agree that there is a place for ( for example ) smut involving kids or animals. especially in the rpc. i've seen people 'joke' before about writing a pedo purely for exploration & to get a reaction. i can't imagine a more unenjoyable, questionable, horrific kind of thing to write in rp ( hell, even in media...that sort of character burns out and leaves creators depressed a/f).

i just wish people would talk, understand, and be open-minded. and - think about the bigger picture, too.

is this thing going to ride with you when you're offline?

probably not. so be respectful, have fun and just chill~

[beansnpeets]

Sigh. This is incredibly tmi and personal, so leave now if you aren't prepared, but I haven't talked about this much and I fucking need to because I hate being afraid to talk about this.

I've mentioned it before here briefly, I think, but uh Jon's had a bit of an issue with porn.

About a year into our relationship I walked in on him in the bathroom one morning and that's when I'd figured it out. Every morning he would do that. Despite not soliciting anything from me. His excuse was that it helped him wake up and that it was less work than being intimate with me. I was hurt, but all I asked of him was to just not do that when I was home because it made me uncomfy and felt kinda bad that he was going there over me. He could not do this for me. He continued to do this and we had argument after argument about this. He got sneakier and sneakier about hiding it from me, but I always caught him.

Eventually I'd had enough and I figured if he can't at least cut this back I'd feel better if he just quit because it seemed like that was the only way and our sex life suffered pretty severely over this whole thing. He also could not do this. It took until last year when I threatened to leave him if he didn't quit. So he quit, as far as I was aware.

However he's started again because we haven't been intimate for some time, because I've had enough of this lack of respect and the unkindness that has been thrown my way by him. And he doesn't see how that, again, makes things worse. Because what was he supposed to do?? I told him he could do it without the porn at least, but apparently then it takes too long 🙄

But he's complaining that I won't even look at him anymore and I won't give him any attention, but he's not giving me reasons to WANT to give him those things. Asking him to fill the gap in our finances and our housework is too burdensome, he doesn't spend any time with me doing things, he refuses to fully commit to our relationship, and nothing I do is ever good enough. So yeah. I don't really want to sleep with a guy that's treating me like that. I don't want to give any romantic attention to that guy.

He never gives me attention when I want it, but expects me to give some to him when he wants. He expects me to drop what I'm doing to do things for him, but gets upset when I ask that of him. He constantly wants me to go out of my way to do shit for him, but if I ask the same, it's a problem. Gets upset when I spend money on "unnecessary" things because I don't have much money and he thinks I'm reckless with spending, yet he only ever spends money on things he can make more money off of. Never does anything fun, never gets anything that would make our lives easier. The robot vacuum was my birthday present one year and I had to beg for it. If there are other things we don't NEED, but I want to make things better I have to buy them. If I want to do anything recreational I have to be the one to spend the money.

Then at the start of covid there was the tinder incident. We were watching videos together on his phone and a tinder notif popped up. I lost it. I cried and cried and told him that was such a betrayal. He claims he "just wanted to talk to people and make friends". When I asked why he did not indicate that on his profile and why he didn't mention he was already in a relationship all he could say was "I don't know". Which was a cop out. I should have left. I should have broken up with him then and there. But instead he cried and I comforted him and he deleted the app and we moved on.

This still haunts me. This is still always in the back of my mind. He insists he wasn't aiming to cheat on me, but he can't give me any other real explanation, so I don't believe him.

It's just frustrating that he is so oblivious. He has no fucking care for my feelings. He seems to think I shouldn't be bothered by any of this and I should be able to just let it all go because I'm not perfect either and I'm not giving him what he wants so why should he give me what I want. But I didn't start to pull away until AFTER shit started going bad. And even after things started going bad I was still putting in so much work to try to hang on. And yet things have only continued to get worse. So yeah. I gave up. And now I'm waiting to be able to leave. I don't feel like that should be as surprising to him as it is.

We argued about everything for a while this morning, but after a couple hours he shut down and we had to quit because he just overloaded and couldn't take it anymore, but nothing is resolved. Not even close. So idk what to do.

My absolute last resort is I could steal cash out of his safe and fuck off, but that feels really shitty and I would have to leave a lot behind if I did that.

[literaticat]

Hi Jenn. A small press made me an offer and sent me a contract. I had someone very trustworthy and knowledgeable vet this (not a lawyer but someone highly versed and well-known in author/publisher contracts). They've raised quite a few things (more than I was expecting). There's going to be at least 2-3 big changes asked for and possibly another 3-5 smaller things (depending on how many I choose to let go). Would you recommend asking for everything or only choosing the most important ones? I'm also a bit t about approaching the publisher and not sure how to ask for the changes/who to say I had view the contract (I want to keep the name confidential), etc. Any input you would have for non-confrontational wording would be really helpful? I'm also afraid if I ask for too many changes, they might pull the contract - so any advice you could give to an author without an agent who is entering contract negotiations and is nervous about it would really be helpful. Thank you!

This is verging on feeling like legal advice or something and that makes me Very Uncomfy so just for the record: I'm not a lawyer, I'm not YOUR lawyer or your agent, I'm not giving legal advice, this Tumblr is for entertainment purposes only, !!! disclaimer disclaimer !!!

DO BE AWARE that a person who is not an agent might have different priorities than an agent would -- for example, your spouse may be a brilliant trial lawyer, but if they are not well-versed in publishing contracts specifically, they are not the best person to give notes on a publishing contract, because publishing contracts are notoriously weird; they will red-line the shit out of a publishing contract and have problems in every clause, and THAT would be insanely irritating for the contracts people.

But 2-3 big changes and 3-5 small changes? No sweat whatsoever, that's totally fine. I promise an agent would be asking for that many changes! That's very much in Normal territory. Real talk: If they were to get upset or pull the contract over your asking for a normal number of changes, that's a MASSIVE red flag, and you don't want to work with them.

First things first: I think the most important thing is that you read the contract yourself, and read your trustworthy and knowledgable friend's notes, and make sure you REALLY UNDERSTAND each point -- what the publisher was asking for, what you are asking to change, and why. This is important! Because if you are asking for changes, there's gotta be a reason, you aren't just asking them to move words around so they look better on the page, right? You need to totally understand what that reason is, so YOU can decide how important it is to you and how much you want to push -- or, indeed, if there are things you don't actually care enough to even ask about!

Then prioritize the asks you are making, at least in your own mind -- "this is a typo, this is a nitpick, this would be great to change but if not OK, this one is a dealbreaker." So when they come back to you with their response, you'll know how hard to push back.

(IF there is truly something where you can't figure out what it is even supposed to mean, and you don't think it's a PROBLEM per se you just don't know what the heck it is and googling or asking your friend didn't work, you can ask questions, too! Like "I'm not sure I understand ____ -- can you explain it?" -- just do TRY to understand everything first, so you can keep your notes down to a dull roar)

Second: I don't see any reason you'd need to tell them who looked at the contract, or that anyone did. You are their only point of contact here, it really doesn't make a difference to them if you had a team of lawyers read it, or a real estate agent looked at it, or a guinea pig scratched at it and you interpreted the scratches.

This is how I respond to contracts: I send an email, friendly and professional and to the point. There's zero reason to be contentious whatsoever here -- asking for changes or asking questions is 100% normal, this is not a problem AT ALL, so there's no need to feel defensive or apologetic or like you are somehow being demanding or anything of that nature. Channel your inner CONFIDENT person. :-)

"Hi, hope you had a great weekend, thanks for sending this over and for your patience as I reviewed it. I do have a few questions/changes:

And then I list them, in a bullet point kind of way, citing the clause that they are in, in the order of their appearance in the contract, like so:

-- Preamble, typo, my surname is misspelled, correct spelling is Laughran.

-- 1a Deliverables: The offer had a due date of 5/1/24, this has 6/1/24, is that a mistake?

-- 9 Option: Please strike entirely, or change to limit option to only same series / same characters, with option period to begin no earlier than 30 days after acceptance of this work rather than publication.

-- 14. Competitive works: Please add bold: "will directly compete"

Thanks so much! Jenn

I try to keep it as concise as possible, but also give them the reason I'm asking if there is one -- like, "this is a typo" or "The original offer actually said XYZ, but this says QRS". If there isn't really a reason aside from just you don't like that part, that's fine too -- but if possible, I'd say, can we strike this, OR, if we can't, can we change it in this significant way so that it does work for me. (In other words, you aren't just arbitrarily demanding they take things out -- if there's a way to make the language work for you, give them the option to strike it OR fix it.)

If you have a question, ask it. If you are asking for inserts of words/ language, provide the language you are asking to be inserted and where. If you are asking for changes in language, you can copy and paste the problem language from the contract and your proposed solution, or just explain what you are asking for and they can provide language if necessary. There's no One Way to do this -- Just make sure it's straightforward and easy to understand what you are asking to take out / change / add.

They will likely respond to you with a revised draft of the contract and notes in the body of the email, like so:

-- Preamble, typo, my surname is misspelled, correct spelling is Laughran. OK, sorry about that!

-- 1a Deliverables: The offer had a due date of 5/1/24, this has 6/1/24, is that a mistake? Editor confirmed that the June date is correct, the earlier May date was an error

-- 9 Option: Please strike entirely, or change to limit option to only same series / same characters, with option period to begin no earlier than 30 days after acceptance of this work rather than publication. We can't strike, but please see revised language in 9

-- 14. Competitive works: Please add bold: "will directly compete" OK

They will likely say yes to most of the stuff, especially the small stuff. You know what your priorities are, so if the points they said no to are not really a priority for you anyway, fine, accept and move on. If there's something you feel is truly a dealbreaker (like if they said they wouldn't change XYZ, and you WILL WALK AWAY if they don't change it) -- then DO push back.

Like, choose your battles, obviously, but if whatever-it-is is truly that important to you, now is the time to say so, because you don't want to sign a contract that has something you feel is truly abominable in it! If they refuse to change it, you can walk. If they change it enough so it's acceptable to you, great.

Do make sure you check the revised version of the contract and see that they actually changed all the things they said they would - sometimes typos and things may slip through the cracks, now is the time to catch them -- and then, when it is all kosher, they will send a final signing copy. Woohoo!

Good luck. You got this!

[kuromi-hoemie]

imma keep it real.... kinda uncomfies w the Demily discourse rn and don't feel like i have enough info to judge (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) or even err more on the there's some fuckery afoot side by a bad faith third party.

single sentence screenshots from a two year old conversation that took place in the span of like 10 minutes or so r kinda sus but like 80% of the discomfort too is How Many People r giving me the vibe that they've been looking for any reason to be like oh i hate her i always knew i didn't like her.

i get she can be very blunt and feel very differently about things lol but i don't rly read any of that as she hates trans ppl and Also there's this

also if we're using trans women having low self esteem at any point as a reason for why they don't appreciate Other trans ppl there are A Lot of us where i can literally see the uncertainty in ur eyes so uh, I don't think that's rly a fair one either and just kinda reaching for stuff to help connect the dots.

also people pushing @/predstrogen Hard to give more info when she doesn't even want to talk about it either is just like!! (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) y'all are being kinda weird To/about trans women. Not that I don't believe predstrogen, I just think she was given bad information and people are rolling with it without rly looking into it any further.

like lol do u not think this would've surfaced by now if it Was true over the past few years? idk idk. I'm just. very Aware of how many ppl seem like they're Waiting for trans women to fuck up and will jump onto shit like this uncritically. I say all this with love to both of them, and all of you.

[number-one-crush]

LF DoL M!LIxF!PC RP! (w/ me as the LIs and you as the PC!)

What an absolute fucking MESS of a title that is, lmaoooo TT

ASSORTED WARNINGS: 22+!! TW: dead dove and shit, it’s Degrees of Lewdity, please be careful people who don’t know what that is!

Hey (maybe future) friends! I’ve recently gotten into DOL and have been pretty obsessed with it lately. It’s got all the things I love, and by all the things I love, I mostly mean: EVERYONE LOVES ONE PERSON AND NO ONE IS HAPPY ABOUT IT and TOXIC FUCKING OBSESSIVE RELATIONSHIPS. So, without further ado…

THE PREMISE:

My favorite characters by far are Whitney and Kylar. I imagine I’d also probably really like Eden, too, but I actually haven’t really tried anything with him yet, and honestly, as much as he sounds like a real catch, I just really, really thrive off all the jealous drama between Whitney, Kylar, Sydney and Robin at school.

So like, I’d really like to RP that. And by that, I mean that I’d like to write Whitney and Kylar… and to a lesser extent, (mostly for drama) Robin and Sydney, as being wildly in love with and obsessed with your PC so we can explore the absolute mess of a fall out that inevitably causes. :v

My favorite thing to do with characters I love is to write for them: there’s something really fun about getting into that headspace and exploring the way they feel and how they’d behave, and I love it. I could write fanfiction, and I can’t lie: the temptations have been there! But honestly, it’s hard for me to motivate myself writing fanfiction when the chance to write against someone else and geek out over the absolute fucking disaster-nonsense our characters get up to together is so much more fun. ):

SO: DETAILS! 

I really only do MxF, with me playing the LIs as dudes and you playing the PC as a lady. Sorry for any other pairing combination, I just wouldn’t have the same inspiration to write for other configurations. ): I’m not going to tell you how your PC should look or really behave, and I look forward to hearing about her from you! I love getting excited about other peoples’ OCs!

I’ve got headcanons for the boys (which are pretty typical, honestly!), but I am of course open to input from you on what you’d like to see, too. :> 

Since this is DOL, obvious content warnings apply! Noncon/dubcon, abusive and messed-up situations… they pretty much come with the territory, though I’m not looking to make anyone uncomfy and I’ve got no problem toning some things down or ratcheting things up based on what you do or don’t feel comfy with! I’d like to feel comfortable talking OOC to make sure everyone feels okay about stuff. 

Which brings my rambling to my next point: DOL is obviously a sex game and I’m not opposed to raw smut or anything. But what I miss from the game is the emotional turmoil and fucked up sense of longing – and an obvious desire to possess PC – that I feel Kylar and even Whitney are drowning in. We get to see their actions, but not their thoughts, and I really want to do this to develop and dwell on those feelings! I want to see them and the PC involved in situations (fucked up as they are) that allow those things to really flourish and shine. I am an absolute slut for deep, anguished, sometimes violent obsession in characters… I just think getting to explore that is SUPER sexy in fiction, so maybe expect a like 80/20 plot to smut ration. Maybe 70/30? I feel like the smut hits a LOT harder if you’ve got a lot of pent up feelings behind it. 

Honestly, I don’t even NEED smut, but like, it’s DOL, so it kinda feels like it comes with the territory? Your girl here really lives the tumultuous, angsty emotional foreplay, whoops. ): I just really wanna write a bunch of really fucked up dudes falling in love with PC – bullying her, stalking her, meekly trying to protect her… you get the vibe!

ANYWAY, some things I’d hope for/need from you!:

+ Absolutely, positively, with no exceptions, you need to be like, middish twenties or older. I’m older myself and I absolutely have no desire to interact with teenagers. No offense to teenagers, you all can make great writers – just as someone who is absolutely not a teenager, it’s just what I’m comfortable with. Even if the subject matter wasn’t super-ultra-fucked, I wouldn’t feel comfy with it.

+ I’d like someone who understands that, as an adult, I have a job and a partner and a relatively active social life with my (one) good friend, so I will probably manage a post or two a day, sometimes a post every two! It might be more than that if I really get into the vibe, but ya know…

+ I like to be descriptive when I write, somewhere between pretentious-fuckoffery and wordy-but-functional. Sometimes I’ll do a few paragraphs… sometimes, I really get into it and it can be a couple pages. I tend to be reactive to what is needed for a scene: flashy back-and-forth dialogue is gonna make for shorter posts, but sometimes I really like getting into my character’s headspace and waxing poetic about how much they want their love interest for like, a few paragraphs or more. I’d like someone who can at least manage a few paragraphs! One liner stuff does nothing to me; I want to be able to feel like my characters have a reason to WANT your character, so I need something to work with! Please have a pretty good grasp of grammar and what not, too! Obviously stylistic choices can make for some fun grammar fuckery, and I’m not about to judge for some spelling errors, but like, please please have a pretty good grasp of writing! I live for good writing partners. ):

+ TENSE/POV: I am not super picky, but I admit I love the present tense second person of the game. As someone who was super into Homestuck, that shit just jives with me. That said, I’m open to a lot of different things, just absolutely NO FIRST PERSON. I cannot stand it in RP, it really takes me out. We can hash it out!

+ The ability to advocate for yourself OOC! The subject matter is icky, and I don’t want to traumatize anyone. We don’t need to be best OOC friends, but I hope we can feel comfortable with each other enough to hash things out outside of RP so we can both feel okay with whatever is going on! I’d also really like to just be able to gush about our characters OOC, please! TT Like, let’s be dumb and make playlists and pinterests, ahhhhhh! If you got a song you got that reminds you of things, PLEASE TELL ME, I wanna be a total fucking nerd about our fucked up children!

+ Discord! I tend to use discord to RP because servers make things easier to organize! Please use it! I don’t really like using anything else, womp womp. ):

So! If you’ve read all that, and you’re interested, please hmu here on Tumblr! I hate the ask/messaging system here, so like, you can just drop me some info on your PC and maybe your discord handle via one of those, and we can move to Discord to see if we’d make good RP partners! 

Thanks a bunch and looking forward to hearing from you! 

PS: Please excuse the Dabi theme-ing, I’m too lazy to change my very basic theme-ing. I love love fucked up dudes, and I cannot lie.

[queenofthursday6599-blog]

Dear baby tumblr users

I just want to let any of the little baby accounts that follow me now because of the stupid new rule tumblr put in place to know:

If you don't have at least have some number of liked posts (not from me specifically but anywhere on here) in your Liked folder, by like a week after you've followed me, I will assume you are a bot and report & block you as such.

Or better yet start making posts yourself, like at least 1, or reblogging things you like. Have that be the first thing you do when you can start doing stuff.

I don't know what you think tumblr is, but this is a blogging site, you kind of gotta give the rest of us at least a vague idea that you're a sentient being with human experiences and desires ok.

What you should do on Tumblr

Now I don't mean put personal details like your real name, or where you live/work/go to school, or what your triggers are. That's none of any of our business, and honestly you shouldn't be putting that anywhere else either.

Stuff like your hobbies, or favorite books/tvshows/movies, or some weird out there thing that happened to you one time.

You want to interact with fandom more, this is a pretty good website to do it on, especially if it's for collaborative works.

You want to role play, there's entire role play communities on here.

You wanna do nothing but follow feel good blogs that posts nothing but cute animal photos you can do that.

Tumblr is what I like to call day-walking social media. In the fact that it allows you to be an absolute little creature on here in your own time, and be able to pass as a normal member of society IRL if you're doing it right.

If you're trying to get internet famous, you've infamously come to the wrong place as the most famous users on tumblr tend to be people the average tumblr user base has done their best to run off the site.

How tumblr works best is if what you're most easily identified as among your fellow tumblrites is your personal interests and quirks rather than your personal information.

There's no such thing as spam liking or spam reblogging on tumblr. You can dig into someone's post archive and like and reblog every single one of their posts and nothings going to happen to you or the person you're reblogging stuff from.

Blocking

You don't need a reason to block anyone.

I've blocked people for just seeing them spew hateful shit directed at another user and that made me uncomfortable.

I've blocked people who're in the same fandoms as me just because some of the stuff the write/draw makes me uncomfy.

I've blocked blogs who just makes posts about stuff I'm uninterested in but constantly come up in my search results because we're in the same fandom. As there's only so many variations of character/reader story tag variations I can be bothered to put into the block tag function before I just get sick of doing it.

I've blocked people for dumb blorbo opinions that I just cannot agree with, because that's far better than starting beef with a rando because I saw that they view a character differently than I do.

I've blocked people who I can only assume were making a trolling attempt in the comments of my own posts. Or they really were that illiterate and gutsy enough to come yell at me for their dumb interpretation of what I posted on my own post.

Tagging

There's the tag block feature as I mentioned earlier, though be warned it's not quite perfect.

Dumb people will try and censor themselves in the tags, which means it doesn't get blocked when you try and block that tag. So don't use numbers or symbols in place of letters. Not to mention improperly tagging all together.

Such as tagging a flashing image of something as Epilepsy rather than tagging it as Flashing, which is actually dangerous. As people who actually have Epilepsy tend to use their tag as a way to talk about their experiences and talk to fellow epileptic people meaning that they could get bombarded with flashing images unexpectedly if you're tagging flashing imagery as Epilepsy.

[cerulean-chanterelle]

aro-ace blog post 3: dykefaggot

i'll be honest it has been more than half a year since the last actual blog post here, so if i cover something i've already covered then... nuh uh.

so what i want to talk about tonight is, again, my sexuality, but rlly i want to talk about sex and masturbation. or rather, i'd like to talk about what i mean by calling myself dykefaggot, or the sluttiest aro-ace around and things like that.

as it is known, i'm a big virgin. i am, at the end of the day, a sex averse aro-ace. i have never had sex, seen someone else in person naked in a sexual setting, kissed anyone on the lips, etc. and if i do ever have sex itll probs be some real fag shit that will either not actually be sex or just be way too much sex that it loops back round to virginity or some shit like that. i'm just that kinda girl, you see.

anyway, so no matter if i'm sex averse, i'm still a kinky ace, and find pleasure in all manner of things found on kinksheets and bdsm tests. however this often manifests in what i call 'faceless hands' wherein i perceive a sexual experience/kink/fantasy as not technically being perpetrated by anyone to me, with only the vague illusion of s body acting on my skin. no faces, not of people i know or don't, not conceived of a sleeping mind, just no. i can imagine the sensation of being fucked, of cnc or getting pegged, or fingered in an abandoned train tunnel (obvs these are sub examples but personally i feel more comfy describing myself as switch, or at least having that energy and ability to dom. hypothetically, of course.) without that pleasure being at the hands of an actual partner as such.

and so i describe myself as whore and as slut, cuz when i masturbate, an occurrence that might go from daily to me forgetting for a fortnight, its generally an intense affair. i might dress up, often i'll auto-aphyxiate and use makeshift clamps for my skin and nips, or fuck myself whilst reading tumblr nsft posts or watching porn (wayyyy more often nsfw art then actual ppl cuz like 80% of the time real ppl just make me uncomfy). and to be blank, i like to think of myself in a sexual manner on occassion, especially now that e is giving me a body im happy is mine. i like taking photos that noone else will ever see. i like the feeling of growls just for myself, of music in my ears and cool air on my skin. i like the feel of cool steel of the dull side of a blade on my neck, of a vibrator edging me. i like dressing with skin showing, of chains about me like a 70's butch, my body a blocky shape that reflects a dual gender perfectly.

i call myself dykefaggot, because i love men and women and both and neither in form and demeanour and beauty.

i call myself slut because i know the feel of leather and steel and a breathless moaning on a moonlit night.

im aromantic asexual, i'm bigender. but i'm a whore and a slut, a dyke and a fag.

i might be a virgin all my life, but im the only person i ever need to know how to fuck.

goodnight queers, much love.

[roguestarsailor]

beach day and once again realize how boring my life is and despite all the changes ive been through since moving from my home is uhh still the same?? gonna be 29 and im still somehow the same place

i went to a beach hang out today and four of us were talking on the blanket and suddenly next to us two people started wrestling one large guy and a smaller woman was just trying to take each other down but it seems just for shits and giggles (not aggressive or anything) and we're like wow that's crazy to see (i've never seen this in real life lol). anyways one of the girl in our blanket talk went "when you wrestle a guy it's so humbling as a girl" and to which one of us said "do you do martial arts or something?" and she's like "no" and i was like "how do you find yourself in wrestling spaces?" and she says "i wrestle with all the guys i'm hooking up with" and the silence that followed from all of us WAS LOUD.

i was very uncomfy but only because i am insecure about not having sexual experiences and just times like this is when i realize i feel like i'm not living my life right without sex in it or romantic male presence i guess. then i went down a bad hole again.

i think i had this very conscious thought about this. when i was with the russian man i had high hopes of having him around until my bday so that for once i'd have a man i'd actually like around (i've never had a bday party that wasn't just all girls). or that it'd be nice to have a date night type thing with him and i had really really wanted to know what that felt like. so fast forward to today and its not. its still just me.

this year i'm trying to have more of a party but i'm so nervous. its going to be hosted at a friends' communal area that they have in this luxury building which im grateful for the space but it doesn't feel like me. i would have prefer it be in an apartment that feels more homey and personal but we're working with what we have. i think i'll open it up to a lot of other people but it freaks me out to have so many people to care for.

i'm still very single and still kiss-less and romance still feels soo far away and i dont think it'll get any easier from here on out (especially since my physical body is taking a hit) as i turn 29. i'm in my last year in my twenties and there's still apart of me that feels so behind and yearning for this comfort and stability and still very confused why i still don't have that. i still battle all my bodily insecurities and it feels like life is affirming that fear. i'm tossing so many plans of a family, having babies, picket fence in the city dreams away and just...being.

i wonder if i'll have a birthday where i don't feel sad about it.

although the biggest growth i think is that i feel sad but i don't stay there for as long anymore and i know that every single day is something new and there's still so much to experience. i just hate being so conscious about my numerical number and how it's associated with certain things.

i hope 29 is a better year. i hope im braver and that i start finding love and won't fall back into the insecurities that plague my brain.

[prismaticflare]

Hi friends! It has been a little while since I made a full info post and so I’m doing a new one!

Firstly, about me. Hi! My name on here is PrismaticFlare (obviously not my really name haha!) I have no intention on giving out my real name, though, so feel free to call me whatever! I use they/he pronouns, and am queer and neurodivergent (I know, shocker!) I mainly write fanfic, although I may occasionally do some art and edits! I think that’s pretty much everything to know about me!

Next, lets chat fandoms! The main ones I am active in are Ninjago and Descendants, but that’s definitely not all of the fandoms I’m in. Pokemon, Stardew Valley, Omori, Smosh (mainly Sword AF) and MCYT are all high up there too!

Next up, I want to quickly touch on boundaries. I don’t usually mention this due to my thought that, usually, these parts just make people want to do shit more, but I think it is worth it. Please nothing NSFW on here, whether it be asks, comments, reblogs, etc. Just makes me uncomfy. Also, obviously, no bigotry. I know, shocker that that is a rule. I will block if I must.

A few final things! Firstly, you can find me with @/prismaticflare on a LOT of other sites, including  AO3, Wattpad, Fanfiction.net, Twitter, and (soon), TikTok and YouTube. As of writing this, the accounts exist, but no videos have been posted. I will be posting stuff there soon, though! Also, asks are totally fine and in fact encouraged. Love talking to the community.

Okay, tag time! Will be updated fairly often!

Common

#prismaticrants - Just me chatting about random things. Mainly to allow you to block me non-fandom stuff

#prismaticflarefics - If I post a fic, I’m going to start tagging it with this. Alternatively, I have master post of some of my favorite fics here.

#prismaticflareart - Art! I don’t do much, but sometimes I try lol

#ninjagoequilibrium - My major Ninjago AU! If I post something about it or reblog something I plan on including, it will be tagged with this!

Old Events / Stuff

#descendants ship-off - A mini competition I did to find the best Descendants ship!