#and maybe kiss me on the lips hahahahaha jk

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30 BTS writer asks: 1, 12 + 18? ❤️🌻

Almost forgot to add - thanks for asking<33333

1. What was the first fandom and/or pairing that you wrote fic for?

Unsurprisingly, it was for Naruto and Sasuke/Naruto. You can still read it in all its glory, even on ao3 lmao. Might be hard to believe but that fic (Unsuspicious title, don't ask why it's called that I have no explanations) is really the absolute first thing I wrote that counts as a fanfic. I didn't write about other people's fictional characters before that. I didn't really write much outside of school at all, not sure how I lived my life tbh...

12. Is there a trope you haven’t written yet but really want to?

I answered earlier that I want to write a horse rider au at some point, but what I'd also like is to write a real enemies to lovers fic. Like, actual enemies. But it might be too angsty, so who knows if I'll ever make it lol.

18. What is a line/scene you’re really proud of? Give us the DVD commentary for that scene.

Aah you guys really want that commentary don't you... maybe one day I'll release a version of tswm with director's commentary for the whole thing hahahahaha (jk I'd never have time to do that)

But alright, I'm gonna take the opportunity to comment on another scene in tswm that I definitely this deserves it, it's the reunion scene between Naruto and Sasuke in chapter 49! I hesitated to pick this one bc it's so long and emotional, and also I don't want to add any accidental spoilers... but oh well. Here we go!

[My comments will be in bold text, this starts almost at the beginning of the chapter, right when Sasuke meets Naruto in Kaguya's place.]

He reached out with a hand, the bright light reflecting in the half-moon in his palm. It glowed, and just like that, his hand wrapped around another’s.

Naruto.

He sucked in a breath, lungs desperate for air. Naruto stood before him, chest heaving, hand clutching Sasuke’s so hard he feared it might break.

Their shared beat rang loud in his ears, eyes wide as they drank each other in. The darkness had given way to white, fuzzy light, their bodies floating, suspended in air.

“Sasuke,” Naruto whispered, as if afraid to drown out the sound of their connection.

Honestly, I tried my best to make it as painful as possible. That's all I wanted lol. At first I had no idea how to write this scene, but then I just got a feeling and tried to write it in words.

There was no hiding in this place. It was similar to that strange place that seemed to exist between them when they fought, blows connecting, hearts open. Between one breath and the next, it would be gone, their shared hearts lingering long after.

Nothing more poetic than that special place Kishimoto created for them when they exchange blows... extremely gay.

Here, there was only the two of them, the heat of their bodies as Naruto reached for his face.

“Am I dreaming?” Naruto wondered, fingers stroking along Sasuke’s cheekbone. “You look so real…”

They sank down, slowly, until their feet touched solid white. He shivered, the tips of Naruto’s fingers touching his chin, his mouth.

“It could be a dream,” Sasuke said quietly, exhaling as Naruto came closer.

“I can feel your heart,” Naruto murmured, his forehead coming to rest against Sasuke’s temple. “I missed you so much.”

Images flashed before Sasuke’s eyes, impressions of the world from Naruto’s perspective. Menma as the kyuubi. Kakashi, entering through a window. Iruka, hand gentle as he reached over the table.

Sakura, pain drawing her face tight. A mountain of paperwork. Snippets of conversation. The overwhelming pain of loneliness, like walls closing in on him.

He puzzled together enough pieces to make sense of the days since they separated.

Must be convenient to just read each other's minds... I should stop making fun of my own writing. But anyway, I felt very clever when I realized I could skip explanations between them and just let them see each other's memories of the past few days. I think it fits that they could see it through the other person's eyes, all the emotions too. Especially how painful it was for Naruto and how much he was trying to keep it together in front of his friends, and still failing. It gives Sasuke a better understanding of what would have happened if he'd decided to leave after one year passed (and I'm still bitter at Kishimoto for doing that in canon.)

“Naruto,” he sighed, lifting a hand to sift through soft strands of hair, closing his eyes as Naruto pressed into him.

Hearts bared, he felt Naruto’s desperate longing as his own. It mirrored his own pain, the aching emptiness filling his chest. Little by little, the cold was pushed away by warmth, Naruto’s mouth touching his cheek, his jaw, his throat. It burned against his skin, each point of contact erupting into tendrils of heat that seeped into his body.

“I didn’t know what to do,” Naruto confessed, lips shaping the words onto Sasuke’s throat. “I couldn’t go back to you, I-“

Sasuke turned his head, capturing his mouth. The words were lost between their lips, swallowed by the sudden surge of need. Naruto’s arm wrapped around his neck, keeping him in place. A fever caught him, leaving him dizzy and faint. He felt emotions between them like a physical caress, like they swirled in and out of their bodies, like a strong wind playing with fallen leaves.

Pain. Longing. Fear.

Happiness. Comfort. Love.

Naruto kissed him like he’d die if they stopped. He might, for all Sasuke knew.

Don't mind me, I was just crying buckets as I wrote this.

Their hands were still clasped tight, their palms pressed together, keeping their marks in contact. Teeth dug into his lower lip, but he could barely feel the pain over the onslaught of emotion. It was overwhelming, to share Naruto’s heart so fully. Was this how Naruto had felt, when Sasuke had touched him by accident? When Sasuke had shared too much of himself, and Naruto had been unable to give him the same in return.

I think it actually wasn't as overwhelming for Naruto when Sasuke accidentally touched him. This place that Kaguya controls just amplifies things a lot.

No such restraints now.

Their souls were on fire, like chakra flames billowing around their bodies. It was too much to make sense of, and yet it felt as if they’d always been this close, always been one and the same. Naruto fit inside him like a key, like Sasuke was now unlocked, his body no longer keeping him prisoner.

“Naruto,” he breathed out, over and over again, every nerve ending alight as they held each other.

I was listening to this song called Heat Up by Giant Rooks as I wrote this (that's where the chapter title comes from and honestly the lyrics are just *chef's kiss*) and I really tried to use as much metaphor as I could, idk if that makes it sound boring haha but for once I was definitely thinking very hard about every single sentence. And I tried to make it as "alive" as I could, so you'd feel it rather than have it described to you.

An eternity later they calmed down, mouths sliding lazily over each other, heartbeats finally finding their shared rhythm. Their foreheads pressed together, Sasuke’s eyes fluttering open to meet deep blue, their usual strength faded into self-doubt.

“What’s wrong?” he asked, running his fingers through Naruto’s hair, thumb tracing the shell of his ear. “Don’t hide from me, not here.”

Aww look at Sasuke, so in tune with his emotions. He really is an all or nothing kind of guy. If they already share everything in this place, there's no point in having secrets. Besides, his worst fear is Naruto losing confidence because of something he said or did.

Naruto let out a sharp breath, lifting their clasped hands between their chests.

“I missed you,” he said again, eyes closing in pain. “I’m so happy you’ve been okay.”

So much pain. Sasuke struggled to make sense of it, so much of it reflected inwards, towards Naruto himself. He could understand the longing, the absence of him like a gaping hole. It mirrored his own pain, pain he’d locked inside his heart within a steel cage. It flowed freely now, wrapping around Naruto’s in recognition.

But the rest… Naruto let out a sob, and yet he was smiling. Sasuke pressed another kiss to his lips, unsure of what to say.

I know Naruto did that whole waterfall thing where he embraced his evil side and totally let go of all his negative energy... But you can't tell me he's 100% okay and only happy and never feels pain. When will Konoha start offering therapy... Jokes aside, at this moment in time Naruto is so conflicted. The whole time he's been worried about Sasuke leaving him, and telling himself that Sasuke would be happier in the other dimension, and that logically he should let Sasuke stay, but he absolutely doesn't want Sasuke to leave him. It's the most selfish thing he's ever felt, I think, this need to have Sasuke by his side. And he's got so much on his shoulders, just piling up, everyone relying on him to somehow magically fix the world. And he's afraid of failing, of acknowledging to himself that there are parts of him that aren't ready to shoulder this burden, that he's still hurting, that there's still a part of him that could have become like Menma. He's supposed to be completely selfless but he isn't, and he thinks of that as a character flaw, a personal failure. And that's kind of where his resolution to not become hokage comes from. Because he doesn't think he can remove this selfish parts of him, and so maybe he should embrace them instead.

“Sasuke, it’s so strange…” Naruto started, his words slow, carefully chosen. “You understand Charasuke so well, but Menma… I can’t accept him. And now I realize, he shows the ugliest parts of me. The parts that I’m afraid of.”

They both leaned back a little, to see each other’s faces. Light played over Naruto’s features, blurring him at the edges. Sasuke cupped his cheek, tilting his chin up so that their eyes met. Now that he knew what to look for, he could feel Naruto’s fear.

“It’s always there,” Naruto confessed, raw honesty in his voice. “The fear of losing you. The fear of not being strong enough. The fear of becoming hokage, and failing.”

Sasuke opened his mouth to say something, to reassure him, but Naruto shook his head quickly.

Sasuke, on the other hand, he never held himself up to be a good person. He's well aware that he has weaknesses, that he's putting up walls so he won't have to deal with emotions and stuff. But he does believe (a bit blindly) in Naruto, I think. Even though he thinks Naruto won't succeed, it's not because of anything that Naruto does or fails to do. He thinks it's because the world won't follow him, that Konoha isn't capable of change. But he never thought that Naruto would actually give up or have these kinds of doubts.

“Let me say this. I didn’t understand it at first. Menma always rubbed me the wrong way. I know you don’t like him either, but for me… It’s like looking at myself and knowing I gave up.”

He drew in a deep breath, his fingers trembling around Sasuke’s.

“And now, here, I can’t avoid that fear. Because all of it… all of it is for you, Sasuke.” He swallowed, and through the fear, Sasuke saw his determination. “You asked me, if there’s any room in my head for anyone but you. And there isn’t.”

Naruto's brain is 99% Sasuke and 1% ramen, that's just fact. That aside, this might be one of my favorite quotes in the fic.

Frowning, Sasuke bit the inside of his cheek to stay silent. Naruto was working up to something, he could tell, and part of him couldn’t help but think it would end the two of them.

“Don’t look at me like that,” Naruto said, drawing the pad of his thumb over Sasuke’s eyebrow, the touch equal parts reassuring and painful. “I can hear your thoughts, you know. Do you really believe that I would choose anything else over you?”

A lie caught on Sasuke’s tongue. He didn’t want to believe it, but what place did he have by Naruto’s side? How could he be all that Naruto wanted him, needed him, to be? How could he be someone that others would accept walking by his side?

Oh, Sasuke. Always so ready for Naruto to cast him aside. He doesn't want to stand in the way of Naruto's dreams *wipes tear*

“I don’t believe that you would want to,” he replied, eventually. “But maybe you should.”

They stood for a long time, looking at each other. Sasuke felt torn in two directions. He wanted to tell Naruto to never leave him. He wanted to say that he’d accept anything. That he’d remove himself from Naruto’s presence to make the choice for him. That he couldn’t, wouldn’t, stand between Naruto and his dreams.

That he’d known, all along, that the other dimension was only a dream. An impossibility. That he accepted this, and wouldn’t resent Naruto for choosing the village over him.

I think the difference between Naruto and Sasuke here, is that even though they both think the other should maybe leave them for better things, Naruto is much less ready to actually give Sasuke up. Sasuke is more of the martyr type lol.

“You deserve me,” Naruto said, voice dark with conviction. “Don’t you dare think otherwise. Don’t you understand? If you saw what I’ve been doing the past days…”

Naruto lifted their joined hands higher, shifted his grip until he held Sasuke’s palm open in front of himself.

“I thought only of you. I cared only about you. What good is the village to me, if you’re not there?”

His heart felt too heavy in his chest. Naruto’s words rang through his ears, the implication behind them ensnaring his heart until Naruto held it in his hand, too.

“I don’t want any of it, if you’re not with me.”

Sasuke lowered his eyes. He couldn’t allow himself to give in. He’d already given so much, and although he knew that Naruto would have this, too, it was too much in this moment.

“Sasuke… When are you going to recognize that you’re a good person? That even if our relationship hadn’t changed like this, I’d still need you beside me?”

I wanted to write this part so badly... To make Naruto tell Sasuke that he's a good person. That Naruto thinks so, at least. It's one of the first things I thought of for this scene. Not that Sasuke agrees haha.

“Me, a good person?” Sasuke raised his eyebrows, meeting Naruto’s gaze again. He recognized the stubborn glint in Naruto’s eyes, and sighed. “Even if that was true, you’re smart enough to know it’s not enough.”

Slowly, Naruto pulled his hand closer, his grip turning gentle. Sasuke caught himself holding his breath, as Naruto’s lips connected with the mark on his palm.

“You still don’t understand,” Naruto murmured, the movement of his lips tickling Sasuke’s skin. “The past few days, what have you been doing? Caring for the children, when I wasn’t there to do it. Putting Charasuke before yourself, comforting him in the ways he needed you to. Holding yourself together. Trusting me to come back.”

This is where we acknowledge exactly how much Sasuke has changed. Naruto spent the days apart thinking only of Sasuke, even to the point where he was neglecting his friends and duties. Sasuke, on the other hand, stepped up to fill the role he thought Naruto left behind, hiding his pain behind helping others. Ultimately trusting Naruto to hold his promise to come back. Also, I just want them to be soft with each other T_T

Staring at him, Sasuke’s breath caught in his chest at the swell of pride Naruto felt for him. Was it true, that he had changed so much? In Naruto’s eyes, he had. It was startling, to realize how Naruto thought of him. But Naruto had changed too, he thought. They had grown closer, in a way he didn’t think they could have in their own Konoha.

“I think Charasuke is a bit like you,” Sasuke said, lips twitching upwards at Naruto’s affronted look. “He needs physical comfort. I don’t mind giving it to you, and I guess I don’t mind giving it to him either. You both tend to do whatever you feel like, anyway.”

“You used to mind.” Naruto looked serious, reaching out to touch Sasuke’s mouth as if to prove his point. “Suddenly, you didn’t.”

The smile slipped from Sasuke’s lips. Naruto was right. A few weeks ago, he did push Charasuke out of the window. To be fair, Charasuke hadn’t liked him much back then, either, and the circumstances had been very different. He did understand him better now. If Menma represented Naruto’s fears, Charasuke represented everything Sasuke wanted in life. But Charasuke didn’t have Naruto, didn’t have Menma with him either, and maybe that was why Sasuke wanted to be there for him. His connection with Naruto was precious to him, had kept him going, had kept him questioning himself even in his worst moments of darkness. Had given him a reason not to give up on a life that wasn’t filled with pain and hatred.

Naruto made it worth it to change. Was he hoping to help Charasuke change, too?

Spoiler alert... yes you were, Sas.

Perhaps Kaguya had something to do with it, but maybe, even without her influence, he would have reached this point anyway if given enough time. Time they didn’t have back home. It surprised him to realize that Naruto had thought of this already. That he felt selfish for wanting Sasuke to go back with him, when he knew it would be painful.

“You minded when I touched you, too,” Naruto added, as a reminder that they were talking about the two of them.

“I didn’t.” It was easy to confess. “I couldn’t allow myself to accept it, but I never minded. And now…”

Even if Naruto could read most of his thoughts in this space, it was difficult to say the words.

“I was afraid to have more of you. I still am.  Because I know they’ll never accept it.”

Sasuke vs homophobia :( Can't really kill that with a sword. Sasuke was definitely in love with him before they went to the RTN dimension, he'd just buried it so deep that he had no idea it was there or what it was. If you separate love from attraction it's not really gay, is it? (It is)

Naruto kissed him again, desperately. There were so many thoughts swirling between them, a mess of images and emotions overshadowed by the overwhelming fear of losing each other.

Naruto’s guilt, for not being able to reach Menma like Sasuke reached Charasuke. Their worry for each other. The frustration of being forced to wait. Sasuke’s slow realization of how much Naruto meant to him. How much his family meant to him, even a different version of them.

“I can’t be without you again,” Naruto said, swallowing thickly. “There’s so much I want to say and I don’t know how.”

“I’m here,” Sasuke promised. “Any way you want me to be.”

Even though it hurt, knowing the struggle that lay ahead of them, how Naruto had struggled only the past few days.

He wasn’t sure when he’d closed his eyes, but Naruto’s hands holding his face between them made him open them again. His expression was serious, almost solemn.

“I think you’d be happier if you stayed there,” Naruto whispered, searching his eyes. “You can’t deny it. I know they’d take care of you, and I can tell that your bond with your family is important to you. In a different way than ours, but still. I’d forgive you, if you chose them.”

Stop sacrificing yourself, Naruto. I don't like it.

“How could you say that?” Sasuke grabbed Naruto’s wrists, glaring at him. “Even after everything you said about how you can’t be without me, how you’d never choose anything over me, and you still think I would leave you? Even when you can feel my heart, you think I won’t choose you no matter what?”

Sasuke calling him out, as he should.

He knocked their foreheads together, tightening his grip.

“You think I’d choose happiness over you?”

How could he be happy, if Naruto wasn’t there with him? It wasn’t even an option. He cared about Charasuke, that was true. And the other version of Itachi, of Shisui, his family�� Even the Sakura of that world. But how could they compare? Losing Charasuke would hurt, but it wouldn’t rip his soul apart. Staying with them would be a life, but it wouldn’t be living. How could Naruto think of himself as selfish, and still be so incredibly selfless when it came to Sasuke? What was he supposed to do, to make Naruto trust him once and for all?

“If I deserve you, why wouldn’t you deserve me in turn?”

Naruto didn’t have an answer to that. Sasuke hadn’t expected him to, and he felt him struggle with the concept. Naruto’s hero complex wasn’t doing either of them any good.

Like, I personally don't like the concept of anyone deserving love or not deserving it. Love is something you give, freely, regardless of how society values the other person. The love you give isn't less worth depending on the person receiving it. But I think the both of them are so traumatized that they need to make peace with this concept. They kind of need to be told - yes, you do deserve love, and I will give it to you. Naruto's hero complex is like... we don't have time to unpack all of that.

“You want to do this the hard way?” Sasuke continued, tone sharp. “I’ll do it with you. I don’t think you’ll succeed but I’ll do it.”

He gathered up all his resolve, all his conviction, pushed aside his own reservations.

“Saying you’ll forgive me… that’s a lie. You wouldn’t. You never would. And I wouldn’t want you to, anyway. If you wanted me by your side and I couldn’t do it, you’d be right to hate me.”

“I could never hate you.”

“Then I’d hate myself.”

Bearing each other's burdens and all that...

Naruto made a face, as if to disagree, but Sasuke felt him smile despite the topic of their conversation.

“What kind of role reversal is this,” he muttered, pressing his thumbs into Sasuke’s cheeks childishly. “I don’t even know why I’m arguing about it.”

“Because you love me.”

They stared at each other. Naruto’s eyes widened in shock, but Sasuke held his ground. What was the point in pretending anything else? It all made sense like this, and perhaps deep down Sasuke had always suspected it, even before he returned to Konoha.

“Y-you can’t just say it out loud!” Naruto spluttered, slapping his hands onto his own face instead, hiding behind them with a groan. “Stop being so smug about it!”

Me, while I wrote this: Yeah, you can't just say that out loud! The pain of being perceived. I am suffering with Naruto.

“I won the argument, didn’t I?”

“Ugh, shut up!”

Feeling lighter, Sasuke wrapped his arms around Naruto, leaning his cheek against the top of his head, Naruto burying his nose in his neck. He’d deny it when they were back in reality, but he could feel that Naruto wanted the body contact, and he was unable to resist it. It didn’t take long for Naruto to calm down, releasing a huff into Sasuke’s neck.

“Maybe we can just stay in this place forever,” he said, sneaking his arms around Sasuke’s back.

“You’d miss ramen too much.”

If an emotional scene doesn't end with a joke, what are you even doing with your life. But writing them hug was like, releasing so many endorphins. I'm weak to it.

It was strange, to talk and immediately feel every thought behind the words, every emotion on full display. Naruto’s amusement radiated off him, and it was his turn to feel a little smug as he concentrated on everything that Sasuke felt for him.

When Naruto started imagining long days spent in bed, Sasuke rolled his eyes and decided they’d been emotional enough for the time being.

Sasuke like, I can accept the lovey-dovey stuff, but I draw a thick line in front of the bedroom door. He's got some work left to do lol.

Idk if any of this made any sense but... there you have it!

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rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 

tagged by: @pasteljoon (my fellow troye sivan stan)

im tagging:  
 last 1. drink: water  
2. phone call: i honestly almost never get any phone calls nor do i call but the last one i had was with my father 
3. text message: um internet friends i think
 4. song you listened to: whistle by blackpink (iconic bop) 💯🎶
 5. last time you cried: i dont cry even if i do i rarely tell :’)🤕😔
 6. dated someone twice: it would be quicker if you ask me if i had killed anyone twice😤😏💁🏻 (btw the answer’s nope :( #foreveralone🤕😭 ) 
7. kissed someone and regretted it: what’s a kiss?!🙄🤓
 8. been cheated on: nope
 9. lost someone special: yes ig🤕
 10. been depressed: not properly diagnosed but in one of the psychology tests we had to take in school, i scored pretty high and i was really depressed at some time in my life 😳😖🤕
 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope 😱

3 favorite colors  12. black⚫️ 13. gold🔶
14. red🔴

(black and red look really nice together so do black and gold, i also like the colour gray :D)

in the last year have you  15. made new friends: yep but I’ve lost most of them ( i have only like 3 friends left irl 👻and I only saw them once this year, im really lonely 😿and am in desperate need of friends so hmu :D 🤗）
 16. fallen out of love: never been in love before so 🤔🤕 
17. laughed until you cried: hahahahaha yesshh 😂🙄
 18. found out someone was talking about you:
 yes boy I didn’t read all those FBI psychology and body language books for no reason 📕🔫‼️

19. met someone who changed you: yes and it was both good and bad, i was more confident in expressing my affection and love to people but i got really depressed 💔 bc of that person so :/🤕🙄

20. found out who your friends are: i guess cause I’ve lost a lot of friends and been through a lot of friendships breakups so yes 💔💔💔
 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: i donut have facebook and what’s a kiss?!?!pt2 🙄🤓again?!?! somebody explain it to me

general  22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: i donut have facebook pt2
 apparently #23 is lost ahhahahaha

24. do you want to change your name: my name’s Agnes and it’s all good bc it’s kind of rare?? but if i could I’d name myself as Jace or jay or jayden or something like that idk but i like mine #im-a-leo-i-love-everything-about-myself😏 #maybe-not-everything-but-mostly :D💞💞
 25. what did you do for your last birthday: went to Starbucks and got coffee ☕️and a slice of cake🍰 and went back home and studied📝for my exams #im-a-nerd-and-i-have-to-keep-my-reputation-as-the-smart-kid #bc-im-a-leo😏 :D

26. what time did you wake up: 07:30 a.m.
 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: listening to music 🎶💗
 28. name something you can’t wait for: be happy ig?? and finally get my life together💖 
29. when was the last time you saw your mom: before i went to bed💕 
30. what are you listening to right now: hi hello by day6 (a vv beautiful song)❣❣💓💘
 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: tom holland where you at mate🙃🙂

32. something that is getting on your nerves: how my relatives keep comparing me to my cousins bc they think I’m not worthy enough #watch-me-get-successful #dont-challenge-me #im-a-leo-pt3😏 #ill-prove-you-wrong-watch-me😤

33. most visited website: tumblr, youtube, google, sololearn 
34. hair color: dark brown close to black 
 35. long or short hair: long ( i have bad memories with short hair so nope *but sings AOA’s short hair anyway* )
 36. do you have a crush on someone: brian where you at boy🗣👅😍😘💖💗💕💘💓💞 
37. what do you like about yourself? I’m good at languages and good at memorizing things? 
apparently #38 is lost too ahahaha pt2 
 39. blood type: your ideal type (imma love you if you know where this reference is from omg akksjfjfjfjd MESSAGE ME IF YOU KNOW)😱😍🤓

40. nickname: dinosaur, miss crazy, crazy b*tch😅☺️🤗
 41. relationship status: sexy, free and single (alskkdjd jk, free and single and sad)🤕💔💖
 42. zodiac: leo 😏
 43. pronouns: she/her��🙋🏻 
44. favorite tv show: Sherlock Holmes 🔍🕵🏼
 45. tattoos: nope, but i hope i can get some small aesthetic ones someday if my parents won’t kill me

46. right or left handed: right  
47. surgery: noooo

48. sport: swimming and im bad at basketball but i like it 🏀 
49. vacation: I’ve only traveled within my country only before and if i got the chance to i’d like to go overseas, europe, south korea, china, taiwan, and more 
 50. pair of shoes: hot pink high top converse (hot pink is…hot and #yolo), Adidas, new balance, (i never know my shoes’ full names)

more general 
 51. eating: nope
 52. drinking: water
 53. i’m about to: sleep 
 54. waiting for: some amazing dreams so i can bask in my imaginations and scream when i wake up bc it’s all a dream 🤕🙄☺️
 55. want: friends and money and attractive physical appearance, better personality, happiness, love (in the end, we always want what we can’t have) (#emo-agnes-strikes-again) 💗🤗🤕 
56. get married: someday, if I’m lucky enough 🤕💕 
57. career: something in the IT line, i guess and (my fantasy is work for some big korean entertainment agency lmao stupid ik)

which is better
 58. hugs or kisses: Both but-what’s-a-kiss-again?-pt3 ( i LOVE SKINSHIPS SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME HUGS)🤓🙄🤗💗

59. lips or eyes: eyes but both too i think 👀👄
 60. shorter or taller: taller
 61. older or younger: older, preferably 
62. nice arms or nice stomach: both ig but idk akskdjjf

63. hook up or relationship: too scared for a hook up and also too scared for a relationship bc i prob won’t ever get in s relationship so :/ 🤕but relationship, ig😴💞 
64. troublemaker or hesitant: it depends on the situation but if im confident i can get out of a situation, im definitely a troublemaker (im a good liar so ;))😤😏🤓 
65. kissed a stranger: what’s-a-kiss-again-pt4 (sigh)🤓🙄
 66. drank hard liquor: nope 
67. lost glasses/contact lenses: nope 🤓

68. turned someone down: yes I’m really straightforward if i had to turn someone down, most of the time 😱😴
 69. sex on the first date: nooo are you kidding me boy 😱😴👀

70. broken someone’s heart: yes i live off on the knowledge knowing that someone’s suffering bc of me #miss-crazy-is-a-psychopath hahaha but ig i break a lot of people’s heart especially my parents’ cause i constantly disappoint them 🤕💔💕

71. had your heart broken: yep :( 🤕💔🤕💔🤕💔
 72. been arrested: nope (im a good citizen) 🙋🏻😘🤓
 73. cried when someone died: nope 
 74. fallen for a friend: no i barely have friends lol 🤕😱

do you believe in  75. yourself: I don’t think so?? idk 😴😱
 76. miracles: not on myself but on other people, yes 😱💖 
77. love at first sight: i guess so ☺️💗
 78. santa claus: yesssssssss (Santa is real fight me) 😤💘💚
 79. kiss on the first date: sure? ;) what’s-a-kiss-again-pt5 🤓🙄
 80. angels: yes i love reading about fallen angels and nephilims and anything supernatural 👼🏻💫💖

other  81. eye color: darkest brown close to black 👁
 82. favorite movie: um there’s a lot but I can’t think of any rn omg my brain’s not working 📽🎥 
83. lust or love: it’d be good to have both at the same time, for the same person, of course 💖
 84. favorite item of clothing: a gray plain t-shirt with black skinny jeans, oversized shirts, my hoodie jacket, my jeans, basically I love all my clothes
 85. favorite song: there’s an awful lot but rn it’s Cave Me In by Tablo, Gallant, and Eric Nam (look up the lyrics guys it’s beautiful and deep especially Tablo’s rap sigh) 🤕🎶💯💔💖💓💔

tagging: @jahehyung @wonpillows @day69 @foreveryoungk93 @proteinmisfolding YOU DONT HAVE TO DO THIS IF YOU DONT WANT TO :D

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 I was tagged by @paytatoe13 because she loves to see me suffer (jk ily bb)

THE LAST:


1. Drink: Milk

2. Phone call: SOMEONE FROM CANADA? I GET THE WEIRDEST CALLS I JUST. DON’T PICK UP MY PHONE

3. Text message: "15 miles”

4. Song you listened to: Echo by Gumi

5. Time you cried: Uhhhh fuck I think Thursday?? Friday?? Idk

HAVE YOU:


6. Dated someone twice: Hahaha no

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: No

8. Been cheated on: Also no

9. Lost someone special: GOD TOO MANY

10. Been depressed: HAHAHAHAHA OF COURSE

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: I can’t drink

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:


12-14: Yellow, aqua, and pink


IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:


15. Made new friends: YES

16. Fallen out of love: That’d have to involve being in love

17. Laughed until you cried: I’ve never done that in my life oops

18. Found out someone was talking about you: Noooope

19. Met someone who changed you: Yes

20. Found out who your friends are: What does this mean?? Am confuse??

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Everyone I know on Facebook is related to me so that’d be a lil disturbing

GENERAL:


22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life:All of them

23. Do you have any pets: FOUR DOGS AND A TON OF RATS. ANIMALS RULE OUR LIVES

24. Do you want to change your name: Awhile ago I did but I’ve really grown to like it now

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: I had a sleepover with my friends and then contemplated how the fuck I made it to 15

26. What time did you wake up: 12:00PM oops

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: wANTING TO SLEEP

28. Name something you can’t wait for: SPLATOON 2 FULL GAME BABY

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: Me haha, just...all of me. I suck lmao

31. What are you listening right now: My dogs yelling at me, it’s around the time they get treats

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: ...Yeah. Haha that one hit me right in the gut

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: That I might still have to go in for work even tho it’s storming(I work a very weather dependent job) and my mom

34. Most visited Website: Tumblr and YouTube


35. Mole/s: Nahhh


36. Mark/s: I’ve got sunspots and a lil scar on my chin from a surgery


37. Childhood dream: I really wanted to be a singer haha, or a tree translator. I was a weird kid

38. Haircolor: Dirty gold?? I think??

39. Long or short hair: SHORT

40. Do you have a crush on someone: I’m not sure tbh romance is hard to figure out for me, I don’t think so tho

41. What do you like about yourself?: HAHAHAHAHAHA

42. Piercings: Just my ears

43. Bloodtype: Dunno??


44. Nickname: Trin, tho I answer to insults as well lmao

45. Relationship status: single, never dated


46. Zodiac: Gemini bitches

47. Pronouns: She/her, though I don’t mind they/them


48. Favorite TV Show: Rick and Morty or Hunter X Hunter or Soul Eater or Madoka Magica?? Hard to pick haha

49. Tattoos: I don’t have any but I do want to get a semicolon on my wrist when I can


50. Right or left hand: Right


51. Surgery: When I was ten or something, there was this weird bump nobody could figure out what it was?? So they just chopped it off


52. Hair dyed in different color: I’ve never dyed my hair, too nervous, but maybe a nice purple or light pink someday


53. Sport: Karate I guess, otherwise fuck sports

55. Vacation: Home 

56. Pair of trainers: What??

MORE GENERAL: 


57. Eating: Waffles

58. Drinking: Water


59. I’m about to: Sleep


61. Waiting for: DEATH


62. Want: Attention, especially from a few specific people


63. Get married: One day, maybe


64. Career: I wanna be an author, I doubt I’ll make it tho


65. Hugs or kisses: Both

66. Lips or eyes: BOTH 


67. Shorter or taller: I want to stand over my enemies at 6′4


68. Older or younger: Younger. Take me back to when I was 4 and singing on the bus to Disneyland

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Idc

71. Sensitive or loud: BOTH RIP

72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship


73. Troublemaker or hesitant: HESITANT TROUBLEMAKER

HAVE YOU EVER:


74. Kissed a stranger: No


75. Drank hard liquor: Ha I’m underage


76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: Nope

77. Turned someone down: Yeah unfortunately

78. Sex in the first date: I’ve never been on a date

79. Broken someone’s heart: ...Yeah


80. Had your heart broken: HAHAHAHAHAHA ALL THE FUCKING TIME 


81. Been arrested: No

82. Cried when someone died: ...Yeah

83. Fallen for a friend: Nopeee

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:


84. Yourself: HA WHAT KIND OF JOKE IS THAT

85. Miracles: Yeah

86. Love at first sight: Not really

87. Santa Claus: I wish

88. Kiss in the first date: Maybe?? Idk

89. Angels: Yeah

OTHER:


90. Current best friends name: Winnie, Morgan, and maybe Max?? If he’s okay with me calling him a best friend?? 

91. Eye color: Hazel, sometimes more green sometimes more brown

92. Favorite movie: Wonder Woman

I tag @mae-snaw @uzforest and @asspurrly if you guys wanna do it, don’t sweat it tho

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I was tagged by the sweet @rosewaterqueer​ and I feel like doing it SO

THE LAST:

Drink: soda even tho I shouldn’t

Phone call: my child’s mom aka Layra

Text message: a friend who’s also helping with the baby

Song you listened to: Ponto Cego by Cícero

Time you cried: yesterday watching Moana lol I’m vary emotional lately... No! it was today about my Wolf hahaha

HAVE YOU:

Dated someone twice: hmmm I think not?

Kissed someone and regretted it: most times lol

Been cheated on: not possible I guess

Lost someone special: lol

Been depressed: since I learned to talk basically?

Gotten drunk and thrown up: sadly yes, twice

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS

every shade of green, warm yellow, and hmmm brown I think

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

Made new friends: yes! always

Fallen out of love: several times

Laughed until you cried: every week likely

Found out someone was talking about you: hmmm yes but I don’t much of mind?

Met someone who changed you: yep

Found out who your friends are: it’s a changing list, buddy 

Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yep!

GENERAL:

How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: nearly all of them

Do you have any pets: my sweet Derek <3 a stray dog I rescued as a little puppy along his 8 siblings

Do you want to change your name: I’d remove my last name if it was easy

What did you do for your last Birthday: did a little party at Layra’s place where we celebrated the birthday of several people at once

What time did you wake up: like half past noon

What were you doing at midnight last night: sitting on the floor of my apartment doing nothing

Name something you can’t wait for: my baby to be born

When was the last time you saw your mom: nearly a month ago

What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: hahaha don’t make me think about this please

What are you listening right now: Rubel’s album Pearl

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: dated a guy named Tom so yes

Something that is getting on your nerves: other people about the baby

Most visited Website: either tumblr of facebook

Mole/s: all over my body, every day I get a new one it seems

Mark/s: hmmm not really

Childhood dream: wanted to be the next JK Rowling (same response as Dominic because true)

Haircolor: it’d be black but I keep it green

Long or short hair: I loved having it long but now I’m liking having it short quite a lot

Do you have a crush on someone: 20 people always

What do you like about yourself: hmmm I think I am generally kind

Piercings: nope and don’t intend

Bloodtype: A+

Nickname: never really had one

Relationship status: free always

Zodiac: Capricorn

Pronouns: he/him but call me whatever you want, it really makes no difference to me

Favorite TV show: at the moment I think it’s Steven Universe

Tattoos: wanna have many maybe but none as of right now

Right or left hand: right

Surgery: unless you count wisdom teeth, none

Hair dyed in different color: quite often; I’ve had green, blue, white, red, purple~ish...

Sport: I do archery, and, well, Sword Combat and Acrobacy, does that count?

Vacation: never had a memorable one, never went far from home

Pair of trainers: not sure how to answer this

MORE GENERAL:

Eating: ...no?

Drinking: ...also no? trying no to drink an entire bottle of wine by myself right now

I’m about to: shower and sleep hopefully

Waiting for: this one sweet publishing house to tell me whether or not they’re gonna publish my book

Want: to be recognized and respected as a legitimate parent of my child lol

Get married: fuck marriage unless we’re getting a really good deal out of it in terms of legal advantages it’s literally the only reason I’d marry someone

Career: writer (and also it seems I’m soon going to be a Blade Weapons instructor!!! as in this year! I mean I already am technically but I’ll actually teach classes!)

Hugs or kisses: both are good I guess but hugs have a higher success rate

Lips or eyes: uh, idk? both are nice?

Shorter or taller: same response as Dominic; both are cute as hell

Older or younger: older ‘cause I always think it’s creepy if I’m interested in someone even one year younger than me

Nice arms or nice stomach: I always find both nice

Sensitive or loud: sensitive? idk if you’re talking sex I like noise lol

Hook up or relationship: both are nice yes

Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant yes

HAVE YOU EVER:

Kissed a Stranger: uh yes

Drank hard liquor: yes love it

Lost glasses/contact lenses: no thanks universe 

Turned someone down: yes

Sex on the first date: lol yes

Broken someone’s heart: yep

Had your heart broken: lol yes

Been arrested: nope

Cried when someone died: hahahahaha yes

Fallen for a friend: hahaha yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

Yourself: hmmmm many people would tell you I don’t but in a sense yes

Miracles: hmmm idk really, I think not? I don’t really know what a miracle is supposed to be

Love at first sight: sort of yes

Santa Claus: ...no?

Kiss on the first date: lol I’ve had sex with strangers

OTHER:

Current best friend name: I guess Layra? I mean we’re the same person and we’re having a child

Eyecolor: dark brown

Favorite movie: I guess Corpse Bride which I’ve seen like a hundred times

tagging nobody because I’m sleepy BUT if you read this and wanna do it consider this as your sign, you’re tagged

[crazylittlethingcalledcha]

got this questions somewhere

♥ ♥

Last

Drink - iced tea

Phone call – home

Text message – eomma

Song you listened to – why am i like this by suzy (ttwwni ost)

Time you cried - last Tuesday (2/20/18)

Dated someone twice – nbsb

Kissed someone and regretted it -  ----------

Been cheated on - ----------

Lost someone special -  NEVEEEER

Been depressed – ?????

Gotten drunk and thrown up – no experience yet

Fave colors

1.       Yellow

2.       Pink

3.       White

4.       Black

The last year, have you…

Made new friends - yes

Fallen out of love - yes

Laughed until you cried - yes

Found out someone was talking about you - no

Met someone who changed you - yes

Found out who your friends are - no

Kissed someone on your Facebook friend’s list - no!!!!!

General

How many of your Facebook friends do you know irl – 5% haha 

Do you have any pets – love birds

Do you want to change your name - no

What did you do for your last birthday – Went to eat outside

What time did you wake up today – 10:00 am

What were you doing at midnight last night – watching kpop videos

What is something you can’t wait for – me going to korea huhu

What are you listening to right now – nothing gonna change my love for you

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom – talking tom ehehe meow

Something that’s getting on your nerves – school

Most visited website – youtube

Hair color – black with kinda brown

Long or short hair – long

THIS IS SO LONG

Do you have a crush on someone - yes

What do you like about yourself – my collar bones jk

Want any piercings – no

Blood type – i know im ab

Nickname – cha

Relationship status - single but i love taehyung

Zodiac - scorpio

Pronouns - you???

Fave tv shows – g2b and a loooooooooot of kdramas

Tattoos – none

Right or left handed - right

Ever had surgery – nope

Piercings – none

Sport – my body is allergic to sports sorry!

Vacation – none but soon

Trainers – my handsome crushes hahaha

More General

Eating – chicken wings and cordon bleu

Drinking – coke

I’m about to watch – radio romance

Waiting for – ojt

Want – dogs!!!!!!!!! money, concert tickets, passport and my family to be happy :)

Get married – @ kim taehyung ♥ ♥ ♥

Career – hr dept. head

Which is better?

Hugs or kisses - hugs

Lips or eyes - eyes

Shorter or taller – tall

Older or younger - older

Nice arms or stomach – idc

Hookup or relationship – ???????

Troublemaker or hesitant – hesitant?

Have you ever

Kissed a stranger - no

Drank hard liquor - no

Lost glasses – yes

Turned someone down - maybe?

Sex on the first date – no

Broken someone’s heart - yep

Had your heart broken - yes

Been arrested - no

Cried when someone died - yes

fallen for a friend - no

do you believe in

yourself – no :(

miracles – yes

love at first sight – yes?

Santa Claus - no huhuhu

Kiss on a first date - no

Angles – i dont understand hehe

Other

eye color - black

fave movie – titanic, avengers, must be love

fave actor – daniel, taehyung AAND SO MAAAAAAAAAANY 

i saw this somewehere and i just ctrl c i want to give credits to the owner so pls if its u thank u for this and im sorry for copying :))) im not really into getting-to-know or facts about myself things because honestly theres nothing interesting about me hahahahaha its like slam book so...

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tag thing

i was tagged by @christine-is-a-cinnamon-roll

Quite a while ago. But now I’ve finally remembered to actually do it.

Rules: answer these 82 questions and tag 20 people.

Last 1. drink? Water. 2. phone call? Home, my parents and sister. 3. text message? to my roommate 4. song you listened to? “Hold Up” by Beyonce 5. time you cried? Like two days ago, but I don’t actually cry that often. Charlottesville is wearing on me.

Have you ever 6. dated someone twice? Hahahahaha I have never dated a person. 7. kissed someone and regretted it? Never kissed a person. 8. been cheated on? Never dated a person. 9. lost someone special? Depends on what you mean by “lost”. 10. gotten drunk and thrown up? YEP.

Favourite colors: 11. Emerald green 12. Royal blue 13. Gold

In the last year have you 14. made new friends? Hell yeah 15. fallen out of love? I fall in and out of love on a daily basis but not in a serious way. 16. laughed until you cried? Nope. 17. found out someone was talking about you? Yep. 18. met someone who changed you? Change is relative--I think I change from month to month even. Hard to tell what causes it though. 19. found out who your friends are? Friends can change. 20. kissed someone on your facebook list? Never kissed a person.

General: 21. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? Um...almost all of them. It’s kind of weird if you don’t. (But I do have facebook, emma. I think it’s useful at college tbh, but I guess difft places, ya know.) 22. do you have any pets? One Cat. 23. do you want to change your name? No but if I did it would be “Arseny” because that’s a sick name. 24. what did you do for your last birthday? I forgot it was my birthday and I had work in the morning, so I only remembered when I’d been up for like five hours and an acquaintance mentioned it. 25. what time did you wake up? Waking up is a process, so either 9:20 or 11:40. 26. what were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping 27. name something you can’t wait for? First review of my novel. 28. when was the last time you saw your mom? A week ago. 29. what are you listening to right now? My air conditioner. 30. have you ever talked to a person named tom? Sure thing I have a cousin. 31. something that is getting on your nerves? Slight headache. 32. most visited website? Tumblr. 33. hair colour? Brown. 34. long or short hair? So damn short. 35. do you have a crush on someone? Well my man depending on how you mean it I could be crushing on any number of people but I am not in a committed unrequited love scenario, which overall is for the best. 36. what do you like about yourself? Everything. Jk, um, I’m friendly. On occasion. 37. piercings? None. 38. bloodtype? Good question. 39. nickname? Nope. 40. relationship status? Forever Alone. 41. zodiac? Taurus. 42. pronouns? She/her. 43. favourite tv show? Dollhouse, Sense8, Marco Polo, Brooklyn 99--these are the live action American ones in the past year, anyhow. 44. tattoos? Nope. 45. right or left handed? Right.  46. surgery? Nope. 47. sport? Nope. 48. vacation? Homebody. 49. pair of trainers? Eh???

More general 50. eating: I had some nice peaches a while ago. 51. drinking: Milk whenever possible. 52. i’m about to: Take a shower yep. Also take out the trash. 53. waiting for: My roommate, the love of my life, to arrive on campus, tomorrow, after a week of loneliness. aaaaaaaaah. 54. want: love 55. get married? If I find someone I like enough. 56. career? Writing. (Jk that’s not a full time job.) Um, maybe teaching English as a second language.

Which is better 57. hugs or kisses? Hugs. 58. lips or eyes? Eyebrows. 59. shorter or taller? Mmmmmmmm?? Context? 60. older or younger? CONTEXT???? 61. nice arms or nice stomach? Arms. 62. hook up or relationship? Relationship, but hahahaha I have done neither. 63. troublemaker or hesitant? I do what I want, but I don’t usually want to cause trouble.

have you ever 64. kissed a stranger? Never kissed a person. 65. drank hard liquor? Yes, do not recommend straight vodka the first time you drink. See above with the vomiting. And a 24 hour migraine. 66. lost glasses/contacts? No those are important. 67. turned someone down? YEP. 68. had sex on the first date? Nope. (I have been on dates, but sex is a serious thing for me.) 69. broken someones heart? Yep. 70. had your heart broken? YEP. 71. been arrested? Nope. 72. cried when someone died? Yeah. 73. fallen for a friend? All the time my man.

Do you believe in 74. yourself? Depends. 75. miracles? Yeah but I’d need to check for natural causes first. 76. love at first sight? Eh no. Infatuation, sure. But then love is a very tricky subject, isn’t it? 77. santa? My parents never even told me he was real in the first place. 78. kiss on the first date? Well I mean do you like them? What kind of kissing? What is the date? Is it in public? (What I’m saying here is probably not! But if you want to, you know. Who knows, maybe I’ll do it someday.) 79. angels? Yep.

other 80. current best friend’s name: Elizabeth 81. eye color: Brown 82. favorite movie: Gattaca

Dude do I really have to tag 20 people though? I’m tired and I might just skip that for now bc I really don’t know which ones of my followers etc like being tagged. Um...do it if you want to. Also if you like being tagged by stuff let me know so I can have a recourse.