#and like. yeah i totally want the cardiotoxic antidepressants when i’m avoiding all of the other ones

[snarltoothed]

me, severely anti-psychiatry, knowing that if my cardiologist also knows the entire possible line of treatment for my cardiovascular condition, i can loophole treat my ADHD without having to scam a psychiatrist into thinking i’m taking anti-depressants and i love them and they solve all my problems except for inability to focus (because none of them will refer me for ADHD testing without first “tackling that depression and anxiety” with drugs that have historically given me worse depression and anxiety on account of them not really being recommended for people with my cardiovascular condition, but psychiatrists don’t FUCKING know that) if i just complain about the very legitimate side effects of my beta blockers… and my cardiologist knows the appropriate treatment response. but like. does my cardiologist know the appropriate treatment response? i have no fucking idea. and while i don’t THINK my cardiologist would be stupid enough to recommend ANY antidepressant to me… you can never be sure

TOTALLY unrelated to any tangents i MAY have been going on… i am really sick of being sick. i don’t want to have to think about trying to get back together with my RHUEMATOLOGIST i don’t want to think about the disappointing relationship i have with again, my fucking RHUEMATOLOGIST.