#and like honestly. look. i dont care that theyre writing it. fuckin WHATEVER sure

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

'mori ougai is his own warning' 'mori typical creepiness' 'tw m*ri' what if i started killing people should i start killing people

[spearxwind]

OOF... i dont even have a theme for the major extinction characters sjlklfdhk. i dont.. i dont have most minor characters planned out even 

I WILL GIVE YOU HOWEVER, a song that’s been inspiring me for certain worldbuilding things (though i cant say much bc idk if itll end up showing in the story at all but you can have it!) 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XciV8HuNQLw  [it’s realm breaker, by mechina]

Oh man, im influenced by a bunch of art and comics but i couldnt pin down specific inspirations for those haha

as for the more broad sense, i also have a bunch of things! significantly, physics and space. it might not look like it but i think a lot about the logistics of things and whatever rules would exist in my universes etc. it does suck sometimes bc it prevents me from doing things just for the hell of it, but i love applying knowledge to things. and space has always been something really close to me, my dad’s an astrophysicist so ive been exposed to all sorts of cool knowledge about it since i was a wee bab 

i also really really love metaphors and symbolism, but rather than take inspiration from things i just use my own personal symbolism x) i put a lot of myself in what i do. which.. i guess could be said for many artists too so its not too special haha

and also as with many other artists, i AM fueled by spite significantly. specifically 1. for the people who once thought or who still think id never be good to do art, or that id never get better at what i do. 2. for people who draw wings wrong (especially professional people? what’s wrong with you. im begging you to look at a bird) 3. for people and companies that make terrible designs with terrible decisions (they fuel me to do better than them) 4. for people who believe that the only way to be good at art and design is to make overly complex and visually charged, detailed designs with many colors/hues (all my ocs are fairly simple and have the most limited colors kffhk) 

im sure there’s a lot more but ive spent a lot of time writing this out already and i cant really think of anything else so i hope this is a good enough answer!! 

god i do NOT have enough knowledge for this but what the fuck was up with the volturi lol. like fuckin, vampire goth club over there did nothing to change over hundreds of years, all of them still stuck in their medieval ways. i remember a plot point that was touched upon was that they had a specific person lure in a bunch of lost tourists through the sewer entrance so that the volturi could drink them and like ?? bro. how is this not investigated at any point, ever. like a shit ton of tourists just disappear ??? all the time?? and no one gives a fuck?? no investigation?? what do they do with the bodies?????

also, they were willing to blast the carlisle family into fucking orbit over Turning A Child (tm) into a vampire, but they had absolutely no qualms about vampire wars/soldiers where a lot of people were irresponsibly turned into neophytes for their strength (like jasper) or people who turned others just for the fuck of it or bc theyd have sickass powers (like benjamin. that was the sole reason for benjamin being turned. bc the dude could feel that benj would have cool powers and he absolutely did... he was a fucking avatar. controller of the elements. and he did absolutely jack shit in the books. im still so mad) 

but yeah anyway the volturi are big hypocrites. got nothing to say about their lifestyle and aesthetic tho bc italians just be like that

his horns and the spikes on his forearms and tail are rly solid and rly pointy so theyre about as dangerous as a solid, pointy big thing can be

the spikes on his neck and back are a lot softer though. theyre flat scales and are probably bendy, but still sturdy. they don’t have edges or anything so you wont be sliced up if you touch them but touching them is probably not too comfortable

alex would probably be a crocodile tbh! it’s one of the things i based his dragon form off of for the latest iteration, and i just think it fits him a lot (also its funny that crocodiles are water creatures but alex has a Big Dislike of water)

also i literally cannot see adri as anything other than a snake sklhfsdk. its what he is!! this is like asking someone’s favorite color but not letting them choose their actual favorite. do you want me to lie? do you want me to say something not true??

Honestly i always loved deer but refused to acknowledge it, especially to myself, and much less thought about having one as a sona bc “prey animals are lame” was rly prevalent in my circles for the longest time. everyone was a dragon or a wolf etc bc they wanted to be cool and so did i but i never vibed with it it took me a rly long time to just accept that i rly liked deer haha and i think what made me decide on it in the end was ‘well i can make a deer more monstery if i wanted to, i have that power’ and so i did  then later i tied the whole ‘wrong deer’ aesthetic to my own personal symbolism of always being picked on by many until i got sick of it and learned to stand up for myself. my sona is something that’s not for people to prey on anymore, and so am i c:

honestly? ive never thought about it. im not too knowledgeable about dnd still so i dont think id be able to do them justice

ive thought about making dnd encounters based off of my ocs thought (like, how their powers would work turn/mechanic wise) but if i ever did i dont think id use them or talk about them :’) 

jkdg gosh thats so sweet thank you sm!! im so happy you enjoy my stuff :’DDDD 

WELL, in no particular order: 

1. several glass bottles 2. bei’s pet golem sierra (they got her back though) 3. a knife or two probably 4. an air conditioning remote 5. do sewer rats count? sewer rats. besides all the other rats i mean 6. homeless man who tried to rob his store at gunpoint 7. the gun  8. drank a bottle of cyanide once 9. a motorcycle (as collateral damage) 10. tbh he will eat any creature he finds while walking around that’s small enough to fit in his mouth and no one can rly stop him

DISGOSTING!!! not even bc of the flavor i rly dont care abt that but bc like... warm pineapple... that’s the real crime 

oh my gosh that’d be an honor tbh!! I’m not sure if i’d be a big help since i might be tied with school stuff at the time, but id definitely love to try!! ty!! 

[conchstellations]

watching the 1990 LOTF movie!! my reactions:

hello all!!!! i was bored at midnight again so here it is: me watchin the 1990 movie, for the first time, hell yeah!!!!! here we go!!! its got the other movie to live up to, so im excited for a comedy lmao!! tl;dr at end if u want!!! its kinda long btw lmao

- castle rock entertainment??? piggy u better watch out bro

- fuck is that the pilot???

- k this isnt a big thing but why are they in water? the plane left a scar in the earth, they were on land.

- okay, again, me nitpicking. but idk, to me, they dont look 12?? maybe its just cause theyre all dressed up n that but they dont look like 12 yr olds to me like the last movie

- why tf does ralph (?) have a glowstick lmaooooo

- why are they all together. where is my conch. wher are my stupid ass choir outfits. maybe im not there yet and they have them, but i want my stupid cloaks!!! jack would not stand for this!!!

- why TF is the pilot alive???

- am i supposed to know whos who by now?? did i just miss that?? which ones ralph? which ones jack?? wheres simon???

- conch??? the conchs main job is to bring them together, and here theyre already together so???

- piggy already makin me love him gosh piggy is child

- okay so im guessing brown hair kid is ralph

- piggy protecting conch rights

- i do like piggys sass... very iconic

- okay whAT??? is that blonde kid supposed to be jack?? first off, jack has red hair. second off, there is no way in hELL THAT MY basTARD child jack merridew would let ralph win the election just like that??? wheres my choir??? wheres my c sharp???

- okay jack would for sure call piggy shitbrain nvm

- mY CHOIR WOULD NOT ACCEPT THAT SINGING. 

- wheres simon????

- r they fuckin cookin lizards??? nvm look away simon pls dont be in this

- is thAT BITCH supposed to be Simon?? hes got a lot to look up to. also why the FUCK is the adult alive. taht ruins the whole purpose of the entire book

- was that a dream??? sorry im dumb af lmao

- alrght simon is kind of an adorable hild and he likes lizard maybe hes valid?

- idk.. for some reason this ralph isnt like, giving me ralph vibes?? hes just not bring like ralphish u know??

- now im getting a little bit more of our beloved lil bitch ralph..

- okay wtf is going on lmao

- “SHOVE THEIR DICK IN THE CONCH” had me laughing for a solid fucking 30 minutes. william golding who??? whoever wrote that line is the new icon

- ‘EAT SHIT AND DIE”  okay wtffff im so confused but also vv entertained

- for some reason jack’s character is like 100% off, but also somehow 100% on point “thats exactly what i meant” like holy shit. like idk hes not jack but just sometimes he radiates “jack if he was allowed to swear and was less of a lil bitch” energy

- ok simon and lizard?? valid

- i swear to FUCKING GOD i will kill that child!!!

- im gonna cry. wtf. why would you kill his lizard. even this movie’s jack seems like he thinks thats fucked up and hes a psychopath. also, lemme say, at this point, i think most of the book characters would beat the shit out of someone if they were mean to simon like that, bc the choir were his friends, and ralphs tribe respected him, sooooo

- why tf is it simons job to take care of the adult that shouldnt even be there? liek wtf hes grieving asshole

- no fucking duh hes scared of everyone but simon i would be too 

- honestly kinda glad they let ralph say fuck he deserved it

- “back off man im sick of ur shit and sos my gang” fuckin got em

- let me guess pilot dude is the new beast???

- honestly wtf is goin on lmao

- okay piggys actor actually made me sd when he was crying about his glasses so good job

- simon comin through with the glowstick. also, good job simon

- well at least the lord of the flies looks terrifying as always

- are samneric putting on warpaint this early?? bc i WILL NOT stand for that shit. i am a samneric STAN Ok??? they were two of the tHREE left when simon died who didnt become cowards and go savage. they wree LOYAL to ralph until they were LITERALLY tied up and FORCED to join jack, and even then they helped ralph!!!! so fuck u. samneric are better than that.

- oh simon :(

- im glad they actually kind of (?) shwed simon like with the pig head bc last movei it was just ike them flipping the camera from pig to si so idkk

- ok that was a pretty ralph move to bring up the fire 24/7 lmao

- piggytits?? tf

- simon with hus fuckin glowstick lmao

- awe, simon

- okay HOLY SHIT. the sounds of what i assume to be them fucking stabbing simon are horrific. and then that cut to simon’s fucking mutiliated corpse?? holy SHIT. like as much as im complaining, thats the gruesome shit i expect from this book. i was expecting them to shy away from it bc its so awful, but im SO glad they didnt, bc that gave me fuckin chills. finally, something i can praise them on. thats the lord of the flies i expect. 

- i feel bad for ralph.. good job

- ok good. samneric came back. good job again.

- ok. nvm. the disrespect to my loyal children. alright.

- okay that child screaming as hes being whipped?? wtf.

- ok that line of piggy being scared that the russians will take them nad make them go into the olympics? gold. 

- piggys laugh is so pure

- why the fuCK are they finding instruments lmao

- poor piggy

- did roger just wolf whistle at ralph what the fuck is going on

- holy SHIt this movie does not hold back on the blood. but, wheres my conch explosion?? if ur gonna show him getting hit u gotta show the conch exploding. although, the conch means like nothing in this movie lmao

- okay wow piggys dead body cool cool cool

- ralph fucking YEETED that kid to the ground lmao

- okay, ralph crying?? good acting

tl;dr/conclusion/my thoughts: hooooo boy so i see why everyone likes 1960 one better. 

first, lets start with the obvious: why this isnt lord of the flies. because its not. if this wasnt telling me that its lord of the flies, i would think of it as that, really. first off, the conch. the conch represents civility, it brings them together. its important. when piggy dies, it dies, representing how all civility is now gone. i maybe saw the conch three times this movie. didnt do anything.

second, the pilot, captain whatever. the point of the beast to me is that they made it up. sure, the corpse was real, but it didnt pose a threat, it was simply a corpse. they made it into what it was, therefore proving that they are the beast. sure, the pilot here was harmless, but he grbbed a boy’s foot and was therefore making himself a possible threat. maybe its not a big deal i guess.

third, the characters. the point of lord of the flies is that they are rich kids who havent gone through anything. theyre the perfect, spoiled kids who havent done anything wrong. half of them are in choir. chOIR. in this movie, lets take jack for example. they said he stole  a car and got sent to military school. no. the point of jack is that he was a perfect kid. leader of choir. he was manipulitive and got even ADULTS to trust him. its part of hs character, showing that this perfect choir leader kid went fucking insane to prove how literally everyone can be evil. also samneric???? the direspect!! they were loyal to ralph until they were tied up and FORCED to join jack, and even then, after roger like beat the shit out of them, they were STILL loyal. fuck you.

so those are the MAIN reasons why it wasnt lotf. 

now, what i liked i guess.

the swearing was NOT lotf, and it didnt fit with the story, but ill admit that i laughed, so i guess thats a plus.

second, i liked how they showed the gore, i guess? sounds weird, hear me out. lord of the flies is a gruesome, violent, awful book. theres descriptions of death in detail, and im so glad they showed it. when simon’s body was there, literally torn to shreds? the shock of it, the true savagery you see that these boys murdered him SO violently, is amazing, because thats the essence of lotf. simons death shows how theyve lost all their civility, and showing such a gruesome corpse really brings that through. so good job.

and now, of course, the obvious: thats not the characters i pictured when i read the story. simon doesnt look like that, ralph doesnt look like that, jack doesnt look like that.

 where did the choir go, too? forgot to mention that, and i think that also adds into the whole, theyre supposed to be perfect kids and then become savage thing. also, the choir was a group. they voted for jack and went with him for a reason. 

so yea, thats that. dont know why people would read this lmao but thats my thoughts!!!! i just need to keep myself busy when i watch movies and to make sure i focused, i figured id just write down my thoughts as i went. if u wanna watch for free, look up lord of the flies 1990 google drive. 

;)))) and yea im posting this at 230 am lmao why not

[solidburnreturned]

by popular demand, here is my oc chatter regarding stuff like relationships n random character traits. its rly long oops but i divided it by character at least lmao,, these are all things that i think id also wanna use if i ever use these characters as humans (which i def will at some point honestly)

- i thinkkkk i want toad and pike to date. toad would come across pike in their lagoon one day while hes wandering around on another wonked exploration and pike is like hey lol :B with their pointy teeth and long ass hair and toad is like :0 he just sits and talks with pike for hours and comes by a few times a week to hang out with them. they fall in LOVE

- fred and lani are def gonna date too. two butches who use he/him pronouns fuck yeah? they have a powerful relationship. mega BDE. power couple. not a lot of pda but alone together theyre both very loving and tender, its a vulnerability thing for both of them. like lani is very cool and can be either stoic or borderline obnoxious while fred is punkish. fred is very head over heels for lani tho 

- mardi n berg.....complicated....i gotta figure out how they actually end up together. berg is a jogger and mardi is a piercer/tattoo artist so that doesnt....make them line up very much in that department. ill think about it more and figure something out. itll probably have something to do with berg’s nose stripes and eye rings

- also side note on mardi......i want his backstory to include a grey period set off by his brother being eaten when they were both young at the troll tree. like he becomes angry and depressed, sorta like branch, his tattoos that he gives himself the only color on his body, until he learns to let go and his colors come back (high key this was inspired by 21 savage, mardi’s voice claim, and the line in his new song A Lot “my brother lost his life and it turned me to a beast”). ill develop this idea further but i just wanted to get it written down

- bismuth.......unsure. they had a crush on pepper and kept trying to ask her out until she came out to them as a lesbian, then they were like :’) but theyre ride or die theyre not gonna be an ass to her because they cant date her. they just care a lot about her. its like icarly

- gazpacho and jupiter CUTE two small trans trolls in That Love. i need to develop them more but. theyre just cute 

- talia is still a little too new for me to develop her......but im thinkin about it...

- kinda same with ernie and olive. they kinda mostly just exist as cute babby characters right now? if anything olive is a trouble maker and ernie is a chatterbox

- clem and thursday also fuckin cute as hell......clem was a nervous wreck asking thursday out but theyve been together like ever since, which is more than a few years. they have a rly cute gentle lovey dovey relationship. thursday is usually hanging around up on her gf’s shoulder giving her kisses on the cheek

- bea and crystal.......adorabl relationship......crystal is another character thats kinda nervous but bea is so chill n confident is helps calm her down. theyre both trans and love the hell out of each other. rly slow n steady relationship, bea is very patient

- pj and marcus!!!! dumb mlm rep relationship. pj is so so gay for marcus he can barely comprehend it. its a dumb ego boost for marcus but hes also very in love with pj, he just expresses it in a weird cocky way idk marcus is a nerd. i need to make more content for them i think about these two way more than it seems

- dwight!! he has a boat. he lives on the boat.....ive thought about maybe pairing him with toad and pike. deciding on his voice claim has been the most difficult thing ever

- kass and current HELL yeah buff gf and tol gf......they spar with swords and wrestle for fun and hang out at the beach a lot. kass fuckin loves the gem on current’s back. i gotta make more content for them 

- celia......i wanna do more with celia. friends with berg probs theyre both sporty. shes just a sweet giant troll who loves mushrooms. i gotta pair her with someone whose palette goes nicely with her pastels 

- carrot and harriet are literally cricket and tilly from big city greens just older. yeehaw siblings. havent thought about relationship stuff with harriet yet.....i think she also needs ANOTHER redesign her colors are just too heavy still. maybe if i can make her colors compliment celia’s that could work as a pairing? hm hm.....carrot tho is dating ford’s oc rye theyre gentle country gays

- rainer. hm. i dont think theyre rly the dating type......theyre just chill with being them. they just wanna swim and be funny

- hammond and andromeda are probs two of my least developed characters.....hammond still needs a redesign. he might be cute to pair with walter, theyre around the same age. andromeda tho i have no idea. she might be a nice pairing with eve? if i ever feel like pairing her with someone...who knows. eve is very carefree and might find andromeda’s energy too intense

- radish i wanna make more content for!! i rly like her a lot....i think shes another troll who isnt interested in dating. shes very focused on being a chef instead. loves her friends a lot!

- mack and pepper 2gether 4ever obvs......they have a relationship that gets richer with age for sure

- im just gonna ramble about mack. i thinkkkkkkk i wanna make her half latina? columbian specifically. she doesnt quite read as white and i didnt make her with the intention of making her white. anyway i love mack a whole lot and should really develop her backstory more. its not rly as like...””tragic”” or whatever as pepper’s i know that but she def has layers. i wanna give her whole family more depth. she has a very complicated relationship with her own feelings and motivations that i need to think about more fully. my powerful femme tho i lov her

- mack’s parents, robin and champagne, i need to like....think about them more. they have kinda a comedic relationship thats sorta inspired by roger rabbit and jessica rabbit. robin is a very caring, gentle troll who’s very smart and cares a lot about his nursing responsibilities in the village. champagne is very relaxed and the “voice of reason” character of the family. she loves a good party and has her party planning down to a science. both are very successful power parents. kickass family

- i already talked about topaz and marney in a separate post but i still love them both so much. big wesbiabs

- pepper....pebber. im gonna talk about her the most obviously gfhjdkrs i wanna talk about her mental health i feel like i think about it a lot but i never write about it explicitly? this is gonna be long oops hgjfksd she has depression and ptsd stemming from the trauma of her crash...im thinking she also has adhd and thats just something shes always had. her depression rly got heavy during her recovery and right after like...she hated being bed/housebound and felt rly powerless to her situation and just let it eat at her until her personality had actually changed considerably. like extroverted wild child rebel to introverted, soft-spoken sulker. this got better with time but she still is pretty introverted, just turned her moodiness into chill energy. 

- she has bad depression habits like letting dishes, old food, laundry, or just stuff pile up in her room until it gets overwhelming and she spends like two days just manically cleaning; or staying in bed for way longer than she should and messing with her hygiene; or eating way more or way less than she should eat in a day. just stuff thats hard to completely break out of when youre recovering. her color is pretty consistently the dark red but if shes having a particularly rough day she might look a little paler, or like a muddy brick color at her worst. thats kinda rare tho

- her ptsd is the thing she hates the most. for a while it made her feel very weak and she’d beat herself up over being traumatized by the crash which was obviously not helpful to her mental state but she was really all over the place during her bodily recovery. its part of the reason why she started working out, she wanted to reclaim some sort of feeling of strength and power that she felt she’d lost completely. she still gets really frustrated with this feeling of loss but she gets a lot of support from loved ones which has helped her not self-blame so much. her ptsd manifests mostly as nightmares/insomnia, chronic headaches/stomachaches, intrusive thoughts and sometimes flashbacks. the nightmares are what rly get to her, she really doesnt get a lot of good sleep and it can get to the point where she just doesnt want to sleep sometimes and she’ll stay awake until she crashes hard

- her scars used to be a big trigger for her ptsd, which is why she has her bangs covering the one on her face and wears long pants (her knee braces are too bulky for pants and would force her to wear shorts which would force her to expose her scars). she just. really really hates them. this is something she struggles with for a majority of her life

- once she and mack start going steady with their dating and start consistently sleeping in the same bed, pepper starts to sleep better. she still has nightmares that wake her up at least weekly, but having mack there to comfort her (whether she wakes mack up accidentally or if mack is already awake) helps a TON with getting her back to sleep soundly. it also just helps her sleep in general to have that comforting, loving presence in her bed snuggled up to her ;w; mack is a big help in general with pepper’s mental health, pushing pepper to make better, healthier choices and get out in the village more and have fun. mack for sure does not “”cure”” pepper of anything but shes a very positive light in pepper’s life that helps her pull thru tough times!

- i love all my goofy trolls so much. its so fun to just chill and blab about them to relax between working on big projects ;o; ty if u cared enough to read this whole thing ur so rad

[stevethehairington]

for yo character headcanons: our bois sam, steve and bucky ILY

thank youuuuu for the ask my dear! this is gonna be a fun one haha. ily tooo

character headcanons

Sam:

1. sexuality headcanon

i feel like sam could probably fall under the pansexual label; most of my ships for him are with females so it wasn’t until i got into the sam/riley ship that i really gave his sexuality a lot of thought. but yeah i adore sam being with riley and honestly the idea of him being with like steve or bucky too is good too, i could defs see him getting his flirt on with those two dorks. 

2. otp

this is. so hard. bc like. i can see sam with literally so many different people. like i love sam/riley, but i also really love sam/maria, and then sam/natasha is nice too, and really really oddly i thought of sam/becca today and like. at least in the fic i’m considering writing atm, it works really well so yeah. idk if i have a solid otp for sam. i guess i usually stick with either riley or maria though depending on the situation. 

3. brotp

oh man. literally the steve/sam brotp and the sam/bucky brotp and the sam/steve/bucky brotps give me so much life. all three of these losers are so good together they play off of each other so well theyre really the Dream Team.

i also really like sam and natasha’s friendship too, i’ve seen some fics get it really good.

4. notp

uhhh, there aren’t really any sam ships that just out to me as a Major No. i guess i’m not super into the idea of sam and clint being a thing? but like it doesn’t really bother me as a ship in general or anything.

5. first headcanon that pops into my head

okay in any fic i write in which it’s a no powers au (so like most of what i write lmao) i have this hc that sam is dubbed the bird whisperer in anyone’s phone. so he was at the park with steve or bucky or whoever he’s mainly friends with in the fic and while he was there he ended up doing something (not quite sure what, maybe i’ll figure that out and write about it one day who knows) and whatever he did brought all the birds to his yard and they l o v e d him, and some even followed him around a little, thus he was dubbed the bird whisperer. 

6. one way in which i relate to this character

i too would do anything for steve rogers. lmao no for real though, sam has a really good loyalty about him and he’s willing to do anything for his friends (i.e. take them in, fight with/for them, etc. etc.) and i like to think that those are qualities i have as well.

7. things that give me second hand embarrassment about this character

i honestly can’t think of anything rn?? like sam’s a p cool, suave dude, he hasn’t really done anything, at least in canon, that makes me super cringe in embarrassment.

8. cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

cinnamon roll for sure!

Steve:

1. sexuality headcanon

BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISEXUAL MY DUDE. listen there is no way n o w a y steve rogers is not a bisexual man. i mean, come on. have yall seen the movies? steve rogers is in love with bucky barnes, peggy carter, sam wilson, natasha romanoff, and the list probably goes on. no but for real, bucky is literally his life partner, the love of his entire fucking life. tws?? a romcom for fuckin sure. but he also really was in love with peggy carter in tfa, i mean who wouldn’t be she’s fuckin badass and hot af and just a kickass woman. i’m in love with her too steve. and then you cannot tell me he isn’t flirting with sam at the beginning of tws because he so is. and i bet while bucky was Gone he probably somehow got his hands on some of thor’s asguardian mead or whatever at some avengers party and he and nat drunkenly kissed a little just to see what it was like (yknow before she got with clint ofc). but seriously this boy is a Bisexual Disaster and we all know it. 

2. otp

is this even a question? obviously its stucky. they’re my reason for breathing tbh. no jk but i love them to death and listen you cannot tell me that they are not fucking soulmates okay? bc they are. they ARE. there is literally not a single heterosexual explanation for a n y t h i n g they do. the “keeping the uniform” bit in tfa? gay! the “shared experience” line? gay! breaking through 70+ years of brainwashing by reciting your wedding vows? gay! they are so in love it hurts!!

3. brotp

i have a lot of steve brotps tbh. i love the steve/natasha friendship so so sooo much. i really love how they did it in tws and i really just love the idea of them being close with each other like that. i also really love the steve/sam friendship ofc too. they play off of each other so well, and their flirty banter gives me lifeeee. i do like a good steve/tony friendship as well, and i like steve/wanda friendship too, i feel like they have a good relationship. 

4. notp

steve/sharon lmao. okay so like. i don’t exactly hate it, as in i don’t have a problem with the ship if it were done right. but bc it was so poorly done in the mcu i Do Not like it and i Do Not support. like the timing was horrible, it was all very no homo, the fact that she’s peggy’s niece and they flirt literally right after her funeral was in such poor taste and it makes me seriously uncomfortable, and also the way the mcu totally made sharon’s character nothing more than a love interest, and a really poorly done one too, just pisses me off bc she couldve been a really badass character if they wanted to make her one. so yeah. there’s just a lot of reasons why i Do Not like this ship. but it doesn’t like squick me or anything and i can tolerate it as like an old ship in fics, like she was steve’s ex before he met bucky or smth like that. 

5. first headcanon that pops into my head

6. one way in which i relate to this character

i too would wbecome a wanted government fugitive and fight anyone who got in the way for bucky barnes

7. things that give me second hand embarrassment about this character

again, i can’t really think of anything that gives me too much second hand embarrassment about steve… i guess maybe just the fact that he’s a disaster when it comes to his feelings for people can make me have to look away and shake my head at his dumbass antics lmao. 

8. cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

cinnamon role fo sho

Bucky:

1. sexuality headcanon

BIIIIIIIIIISEXUAL AS WELL MY DUDEEE. i could see bucky as straight up gay as well, but i like to stick with the bisexual label bc 1. im bisexual and i like to see my faves as bi too lmao and 2. i do think that he genuinely did like going out with girls back in the 40s and taking them dancing and shit. like he was definitely flirty and suave and good with the ladies but i dont think it was all for show. like i think he really did like those girls. ofc he loves steve though, like i said, soulmates! but yeah, my boy is defs bisexual too!

2. otp

again, obviously stucky, see above for my rantings and ramblings about why lmao.

3. brotp

i have a lot of brotps for bucky too lol. i fuckin love the banter between bucky/sam, like the mcu did that right! and i hope that their show can deliver more of this Good Content. they work so well, it’s that love/hate realtionship and i am Here For It. they secretly love each other as best friends despite what it may seem. i also really really really love the bucky/natasha friendship, like sign me the fuck up!! they would be the best of friends and i just. love this friendship so much. i also like the bucky/clint friendship too, i feel like these two dumbasses would get up to some good shit together lol. 

4. notp

hmmm, i guess i could say bucky/tony for this. like. i don’t know much about this ship and i dont read for it or anything so i really just dont like it bc i cant see them together romantically or anything. so like idk if i can call that a notp bc i dont hate it or anything, it’s just not my cup of tea.

5. first headcanon that pops into my head

this one is tried and true but it’s always the first bucky hc that pops into mind. bucky was drafted, he didn’t enlist on his own. he refuses to tell steve that though bc of how fucking scared he is about it and bc he knows how much steve wants it, he doesnt want steve to think hes ungrateful or doesnt care about his country or anything like that. so he hides his letter away somewhere he knows steve will never find it. 

steve only finds out when he finds bucky on the table in azzano reciting his number which evidently, gives up the fact that he was drafted. 

6. one way in which i relate to this character

i too would follow that little guy from brooklyn that was too dumb not to run away from a fight to the jaws of death klgsj. no but really, bucky doesnt like to fight, he doesnt. he never wanted to go to war in the first place, he’s not the one that starts the fights, only finishes steve’s when he can’t, and he’s tired of war and fighting and all that. and i think that that’s something i have in common with bucky, that i dont want to fight unless it’s the last resort. like i’d rather try to civally solve a problem than jump straight to the arguing and fighting bits yknow?

7. things that give me second hand embarrassment about this character

again, i can’t think of much that embarrasses me about bucky. he’s a p chill dude. 

8. cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

cinnamon roll and you can’t tell me otherwise. 

[bronzeflower]

Who The Fuck Writes A Ten-Page Rant?????

Also on ao3

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Chapter 2: In Which Dave Gets A Message

“Holy shit.” You said as you looked through your messages.

  There, right in front of your eyes, past your sunglasses, was a ten page rant about you and your channel.

  It was fantastic and honestly one of the most enjoyable things you’ve read in a while. Someone ought to pay whoever wrote this to write insults because they clearly have no trouble vomiting out whatever rage they have onto a document and sending it to your plush ass.

You’re laughing your fucking ass off. This entire thing is pure gold, and you don’t even think it was an ironic message. No, this was a completely 100% honest-to-god genuine ten page hate message you got here.

  You read the entire thing, and then you read it again just to make sure the message wasn’t part of some fucked up fever dream that you just happened to have at this very moment. Nope. It was a genuine article. You’ve got to show this to Terezi.

 -- turntechGodhead [TG] began pestering gallowsCalibrator [GC] --

 TG: holy shit tz guess what just happened

GC: YOU GOT 1N TROUBL3 4ND 4R3 1N N33D OF 1 L4WY3R?

TG: what no its something way better than that

GC: WHAT 1S 1T TH3N D4V3?

GC: 1F YOU DON’T R3QU1R3 MY L4W 3XP3T1S3?

TG: i got hate mail but not just any hat mail

TG: the best goddamned hate mail to ever be made

TG: check it

TG: crabby.pdf

TG: go on and read i promise it will be the best thing youll read all day

TG: or smell as the case may be

GC: HOLY SH1T

TG: i know right its fuckn glorious

GC: 1’V3 ONLY R34D TH3 F1RST F3W L1N3S BUT

GC: TH1S 1S F4NT4ST1C

TG: i would definitely recommend reading the rest of it when youve got the time

GC: 1 MOST C3RT41NLY W1LL

GC: BUT R1GHT NOW, DUTY C4LLS

GC: 4ND 1 MUST 4DH3R3 TO TH3 L4W >:]

GC: SM3LL YOU 4ROUND D4V3

TG: see ya

 -- gallowsCalibrator [GC] ceased pestering turntechGodhead [TG] --

  You briefly stop to think about what your next order of business will be. Of course, this thought is only a formality because you are pestering Rose as you speak.

 -- turntechGodhead [TG] began pestering tentacleTherapist [TT] --

 TG: rose holy shit youve got to look at this

TG: crabby.pdf

TT: It is presumed that clicking on this will not give my computer a virus, correct?

TG: who the fuck would send a virus to their friend

TG: like just be innocently hanging out and talking and you send a link to your friend

TG: innocent looking link right there, all ready to be caressed and clicked on

TG: nothing suspicious looking about that, no sirree

TG: just a fun little thing that you wanted to send to your friend and your friend clicks on it and

TG: BOOM

TG: virus

TG: nasty little fucker too like holy shit

TG: youll never be rid of this one lalonde

TT: It’s better to be safe than sorry. I’ve been hearing about people hacking into pesterchum accounts and sending sleazy links that give people’s computers viruses.

TT: You really can never be too careful.

TG: well rest assured rose

TG: that link is one hundred percent dave strider approved

TG: its only the best goddamned hate mail ive ever gotten in my life

TG: go ahead and read it since i have verified that the link is completely and utterly virus free

TT: It’s tone certainly is…

TT: Angry

TT: And loud.

TT: However, I must admit it is very amusing.

TT: The metaphors appear to run even longer than your own.

TG: what kind of blasphemy are you speaking

TG: i am the absolute king of metaphors

TG: i rule the absolute shit out of them

TG: all these peasant metaphors running around like its a goddamned bake sale and each item is only fifty cents

TG: wow now i want a cookie but the bake sale is sold out because holy shit people sure do love some fucking baked goods especially when theyre cheap baked goods

TG: clearly the best baked goods to ever grace this motherfucking planet

TG: put some in your mouth it melts like fucking cotten candy or some shit

TG: fuckin delicious

TT: I stand corrected. You are clearly only the best at metaphors.

TT: Excuse me as I bow down to you, your Majesty.

TT: Perhaps you could hear out your lowly advisor.

TG: ill allow it

TT: What are you planning on doing about the one who threatens to take your throne? It is possible that they are more powerful than you ever could imagine.

TT: It is even feasible that their metaphors are even more lengthy and incoherent than your’s.

TT: War may be certain.

TG: war doesn’t sound very pleasant

TT: I suppose not.

TG: i would rather avoid a war

TG: my subjects are poor and in need of help

TG: maybe the one who wants to take my throne and i can come to an agreement

TT: An agreement?

TG: yes and by that, i mean im going to make a video about it

TT: Of course you are. What else would you do?

TG: who knows

TG: maybe i would accept their offer of war and we would fight to the death over who would become the true king/queen/royalty of metaphors

TG: but then all my little peasant metaphors would be dead and dying and their blood would be all over the place

TG: and we dont want any of that

TG: we want our people to be happy and buying shit in order to keep this capitalist piece of shit to keep running

TG: anyway i should probably get going sometime soon

TG: work waits for no one and ive got things to review and videos to post

TT: Don’t work yourself to death.

TG: thanks for the (maybe) sincere concern

TG: talk to you later about something or other

TG: who knows really

 -- turntechGodhead [TG] ceased pestering tentacleTherapist [TT] --

  You start getting things together immediately in order to get crack-a-lacking on the work you have been suddenly inspired to do.

  It was time to review some angry rants.

Well, actually, just one, but your statement still stands, and it’s also a really really long rant, so it could conceivably possibly count as multiple rants.

[tumblunni]

Yeah i'm not accusing the creator of bigoted motives or anything, that's just how it ended up regardless of his motives. It seems more like obliviousness to the problems of the minority he tried to represent, i guess? Well meaning but did not do the research.

Like.. It reminds me of Tara's death in Buffy The Vampire Slayer. It was a HUGE beserk button for so.much of the fandom and made so many people drop the series entirely from that one episode alone. And the creators were just like "well we planned that Oz would also die and Willow would turn evil from his death, if she was still dating him". But sometimes you've got to realize that your actions don't exist in a vaccuum. Gay characters on tv already have a huge established cliche of being killed off because theyre gay, being evil because theyre gay. The audienve doesnt know that your intentions were magically different when what's in the actual show itself says nothing different from all those bigoted depictions. Like theyve already established a damn TREND of this stuff, now even if you try and write a really neutral story about no gay people ever getting a happy ending and all turning evil or dying, WITHOUT the message that gay people are actually evil in real life, its still gonna come off that way to the audience. Also seriously, the ONLY two queer characters in the cast?! During a time when this was literally the first lesbian relationship on western serialized television! Like could you not have just rewritten it to someone else dying or someone else going evil? Or Willow still going evil but for some reason other than Tara dying? Or someone else going evil because Tara died? I dont even know. Like seriously it wasnt even a good plot, it was cringey as hell how they treated witchcraft like marijuana all of a sudden. I dont think it was such fuckin television gold that it was worth removing every single LGBT character in the space of five seconds.

So yeah maybe yoko taro just made Kaine sexualized because he makes every main female character sexualized. But if you played this game and had never seen any of his other ones, you'd just see 'fetishization of an intersex character'. And like honestly he doesnt make a good case for alternative reasoning when its literally canon that she 'likes to show off her body to feel confident'. Like thats really a crass way of reinterpreting dysphoria in a contrived way to justify your sexual urges. Doesnt matter if your reaosning wasnt 'lol intersex women are sexy t/raps' but just 'lol i literally cannot imagine a female character that isnt sexualized'. Like seriously i appreciate that this guy is at least honest about the fact he makes pervy shit because he's a pervert, as compared to all these skeezy devs who pretend there's some in-universe justification for why all women Have To wear lingerie armour or how its somehow feminist to strip naked. But still the end result is still that all his female characters are oversexualized and its really fuckin gross and distracting. Him personally being an honest man about it doesnt make it good!

So yeah basically just to clarify that i am not casting aspersions on this man's personal goodness or badness just because a bad thing is in his videogame. Just that whether its a mistake or on purpose it still has the same result, yo. And sometimes you cant just do whatever you want and use the exvuse 'but i did what i wanted' when people call you out. He seems like a nice guy in many other ways but i still think it was a dick move to shut down all the concerns about his hypersexualization with just 'but i like sexy girls and want to look at sexy girls in my game'. Like seriously thats just so.. "I dont care about my female fans, my personal gratification is more important than them feeling included and respected as equal human beings." And, again, i am absoluteky sure he wasnt intentionally saying that and doesnt actually believe that. But its still whatvhis work says to the audience, and you'd think that if its not what he actually feels he'd be more concerned about correcting this misconception, yknow? Like if i ever offend someone i want to actually apologise, not just say because i didnt mean it they cant really be hurt by it.

And it sucks cos for me perosnally the sexualization in combination with Kaine being intersex is just SO much of a trigger that it ruined the whole game for me. (Well, the shoddy gameplay also, but usually im very story over gameplay anyway) i hate that i'm so damn buried in traumatic memories of "t/raps" and "fu/ta" and all the forms of sexual abuse that trans and intersex people experience in real life that i cant enjoy the rest of a fairly decent game with excellent character writing. And if anything it pisses me off even more that it was all just an accident from a guy who flippantly wanted to jack off and didnt think about what he was writing :/

Tho still its nice to know he's actually a good person and he's spoken positively of his actual intent to indeed represent queer people with Kaine and Emil, and how "that's just how people are, these are people who exist so i want them to feel theyre able to exist in videogames too". And deflecting people's ignorant comments about how Emil must be 'only feminine because he fused with his sister' or how its 'too innapropriate to say a child is gay' or whatever. It just sucks that this really doesnt show in his work, since Kaine is so over sexualized and you dont know the developer's reasoning unless you read interviews, and then you also dont even know emil is gay unless you read interviews. It just seems like he is a pretty careless person who relies too much on the fact he can just retcon/clarify stuff in those interviews if he messes up the execution in the actual game.

Also it bugs me a little to see him talking about how much of a big straight pervert he is while being dressed in Emil cosplay, lol. Like could you not have dressed as nier or something? XD

Randomly, i do like the misdirect involved in Kaine’s backstory. Like you think that the people of the Aerie hate her and treat her as a monster because of her Shade-arm, but no that all happened AFTER they treated her like shit. They were just bigoted against a small child for being born intersex. She only got her Shade powers as a consequence of this shit village pushing her and her grandma to the edge of the forest and doing nothing to help when they were attacked by shades. Kaine was treated like a monster, so she became one in order to live. And she used that power to help people, even as she was treated as EVEN MORE of a monster because of it! kaine is so damn strong. She has every right to be a goddamn tsundere when her life was so shitty, god…

Tho i still kinda dont understand what exactly happened with Tyrann, tho? Like at first i thought the shade that possessed her was the same one that killed her grandma, but no that was apparantly the lizard boss you defeat shortly after meeting her. So where did Tyrann come from and why did he decide to save this kid and possess her body? I hope its not something like ‘oh she was indeed born cursed and he was always trapped in her soul until that moment awakened him’. Like i mean that could have a bit of problematic connotations since i mean this is a male character possessing a female one and itd be messed up if they said she was only intersex because of the possession or something. Instead of just the fact that many women across the world are born this way and it doesnt make them any less of a woman.

Anyway its still not exactly a good representation of intersex people because of the whole fetishization of her and the DAMN STUPID excuse that she likes wearing lingerie 24/7 because it makes her feel ‘more like a real woman’. :P But still man its literally the only case i’ve ever seen of an intersex character who’s just intersex, yknow? Like not a 'magic alien whose species is always like this’ or 'a magic fusion of a cis man and cis woman’ or some other fantasy excuse to portray a real person in a way that validates that they dont exist in real life. Nonbinary people often get the same treatment, since conflating gender and biological sex is a big bigoted cliche, sigh. Like man intersex people have the exact same rates of being queer as anyone else, there is literally no correlation between genetalia and being more likely to be trans. Execpt that intersex people end up with very similar types of predjudice and hell, because of the way society treats them. The absolutely disgusting medically accepted practise of amputating functional genetalia and tertiary sexual characteristics from LITERAL ONE DAY OLD BABIES because they’re intersex is just so fuckin messed up! And most of the time these kids are never even told by their parents that this was done to them, so they just grow up with all these health problems and dysphoria while being gaslit about the cause of them. Like seriously when you’re rolling a damn dice on which gender to turn your kid into with goddamn invasive plastic surgery, of course its gonna be wrong half the time! You’re just picking what they fuckin 'look like’, before theyre even old enough to know! Its so relateable to the trans expperience yet EVEN WORSE because you know your parents knew ALL ALONG and they consented to mutilating you to try and “fix” it! There’s so much real life predjudice against intersex people and honestky i would say there’s even less awareness or acceptance than for trans and gay people.

So yeah its REALLY IMPORTANT to have positive and realistic representation of intersex people. And not just lame corner-cutting where the character is technically intersex yet the story treats it like an impossible fantasy thing and refuses to address any of the real life issues these people face. So yeah man at least Nier does indeed have an intersex character who is indeed intersex and is canonically stated to have been born this way and also canonically stated to be a real woman and only villains treat her as anything less. But it still sucks that the positivity about her also escalates into gross 'lol f/uta sex object’ stuff. *sigh* Again, another way the predjudiced depiction of nonbinary trans people gets mashed into the same thing by bigots. And hell there’s also the conflation of cis gay men with trans women, because seriously bigots have no damn concept of any sort of reality, apparantly…

Gah the whole thing pisses me off! It also sucks how its hard to represent intersex people in anything except an M-rated game like Nier. (Tho kinda ironic that they can show all this gore and sex but still dance around in metaphors when explaining this..) Like I mean its absolutely possible to talk about being intersex without talking about how people have sex, like seriously saying otherwise would be just as bigoted as saying trans people or gay people are inherantly sexual. But to an audience of cis people who dont know much about LGBTQ community terms it would be kinda hard to make it clear when a character is intersex rather than trans or nonbinary. Like before i read the artbook details i thought Kaine was just a DMAB trans woman based on how its described ingame. And saying 'someone who is both a man and a woman’ would be implying intersex and nonbinary people are the same thing, when most intersex people still identify as male or female rather than nonbinary.

Like the only time i’ve seen intersex representation handled more clearly and more canonically confirmed than Kaine was Angel in DDS2. It was a really good way of explaining it respectfully to a cis audience, just “Angel is a woman but she’s both Sera’s mother and father”. (Due to some complicated in-universe sci fi science where she could extract both her sperm and egg cells and use them to make a clone of herself that could telepathically communicate with the sun. This story is kinda weird lol.) But on the other hand i dont really count that as much of good representation as Kaine, since this one singular sentence about her being intersex is very hidden in an optional area. Aside from that all you get is characters mentioning how she has an 'androgenous beauty’ and her boss battle transformation is designed to look 'half male half female’. (Tho at least its 100% tasteful and just a nonsexualized monster vaguely shaped like a dress and a trenchcoat split down the middle, with half lipstick.) Oh and yeah also she’s a friggin villain and a manipulative abusive parent, so yeah. She is a synpathetic villain and she’s apparantly reincarnated into a happy life with her dead boyfriend at the end, but still she’s the primary evil force for 75% of the whole series and never atones for what she did to her daughter.

So yeah sorry this just turned into a rant about how the Two Only Intersex Characters In All Of Fiction So Far are kinda not perfect, and also both from pretty old games too. I really hope i can find some more representation someday, sigh…

[nakadoo]

lmao i wanna write a fic but im too lazy and idk what fandom i wanna write it for but heres like a ramble about what i want to happen

like ok warning i guess: possessive behavior? but its mild. also jealousy lol. i only like that kinda shit in fics but IRL its like >:////

in anycase

chara 1 - introvert with a tight knit group for friends. very caring and loving honestly but it takes time for new people to see them genuinely smile and laugh-- essentially it just takes time for chara 1 to warm up to new people

chara 2 - the person whos in fuckin doki with chara 1 lmao and theyre the complete opposite. theyre an extrovert with a lot of friends (but also only a few really close ones) and they try their hardest to get chara 1 to warm up but again this takes time and carefully reminding themselves that some people like personal space and chara 1 seems like the kind of person who doesnt like physical affection unless its like,, idk earned

chara 3 - chara 1′s best friend since forever. theyre so close and attached to the hip that people are always questioning their relationship status. but its platonic soulmates forever all the way

anyway so chara 1 and chara 2 end up working together in the same office. chara 1 seems aloof and cold but they do their work properly and theyre polite when spoken to so most people dont really think much of them except for “scary looking person whos actually really nice so you dont have to be scared unless you fuck up or something.”

chara 2 seems boisterous and loud and kind of a Mess(TM) but they also actually get shit done well and pretty quickly. chara 1 and 2 end up working on the same project together and a lot of people thought that theyd clash because theyre on different ends of the personality spectrum and also tackle projects in severely different ways. and sure there are a few arguments here and there that are pretty big but they manage to find the middle ground and make it work. after their first successful project together they get closer and actually become friends

chara 2 is whipped so bad but they also respect chara 1′s boundaries. chara 2 wants to make the move but yeah. slow and steady! theyre confident that a relationship between them will be super

AND HERE COMES CHARA 3 TO COMPLICATE THINGS >:^)

anyway chara 3 comes back from abroad. chara 1 takes a day off to even go pick them up at the airport and its lots of hugs and platonic kisses like “THIS IS MY BEST FRIEND AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH” and its nice and soft and fluffy

chara 1 is like ‘hey bitch i love u, ur staying with me the entire time ur here dont u even dare book a hotel’

and chara 3 is like ‘bitch duh i even have a whole list of movies we can watch together just like when we were in high school/college/whatever year their friendship began lol

so anyway in the work place everyone is like “whoa chara 1 is smiling a whole lot more wow dont they look so happy? something good must’ve happened wow. theyre practically glowing, is this what they call love?” LOL

and chara 2 is like “yay!” but also “....why are they so happy?”

blah blah blah story progresses until chara 2 sees chara 1 out at idk a bar or something which they consider weird because they know that chara 1 isnt really one to go out. and just as chara 2 is about to approach chara 1, chara 3 comes in and like “hey babe i got ur drink” and smooches chara 1 on the cheek, as u do with ur friends, and they get all happy again because wow i havent seen my best friend in so long and they are here im so happy kind of feeling 

but to chara 2 its like WHOMST THE FUCK???????????????

yeah ok idk where this goes now lmao i guess its the usual

chara 3: hey lets get outta here im getting tired chara 1: yeah ok ur right same hate chara 2, out of the blue, grabbing chara 1′s wrist: SORRY, THEYRE COMING WITH ME TODAY chara 1: nani chara 3: wAIT WHAT

:^)