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happylittleneighborhood · 2 years ago

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🌈hiya !! i’m billy/manny !🌈

🌈this is my puppet nonhuman/agere blog !!

🌈here i’m gonna talk about being a puppet, my memories, alterhuman stuffs, being a syskid and look for other puppets too !! i also reblog a lot of agere stuffs !!

🌈i’m a puppet in a few different ways (as and alter and also in an alterhuman way), but this blog is specifically for where i’m a hand and rod puppet from an educational children’s show !! it doesn’t exist here at all, but that’s okay ! :] (i use otherkin terms and tags for it but i think of it more as just nonhuman since being an alter it’s kinda confusing !! but i dunno !!)

🌈my main blog is @rainbowbilly !! i don’t really post on there much, but you can follow it if you want !

🌈please interact if you’re any kind of puppet !! alterhuman (otherkin, fictionkin, nonhuman, etc), introject/fictive, or just a general puppet etc !! whatever type, whatever way !! (but i’m especially looking for other children’s show puppets !!)

🌈i’m usually more active in general on my personal website, but i don’t post about alterhuman stuffs there ! (at least not much !)

🌈this blog is sfw (obviously !) and safe for age regressors or other syskids too !! i’ll probably post some edutainment stuff !! :D i reblog/post agere stuff too, what can you expect !! i’m a syskid and a puppet from a children’s show ! it’s what i do !! but please don’t get scared away if you’re not an agere blog !! don’t be afraid to say hi !!

🌈there’s more info about me under the “keep reading” part !! i wanted to keep this part short so it doesn’t take up much !! :] my dni is there too, please give that a read !!

🌈 info about my memories ! 🌈

🌈a guide to my tags !🌈

🌈need me to tag some stuffs i post/reblog (a topic, media, etc) for you ? feel free to ask !! :]

🌈basic stuffs about me !!🌈

🌈you wanna learn about little old me ?? golly !! well, let's get things started !!

🌈names i go by !!: billy, manny, toony/toonie, most source names are also fine but maybe ask first if i didn't list in here !! :]

🌈they/them only please !! :]

🌈as an alter i'm 8-12 years old !! :] our body is 16, though !!

🌈in general, i consider myself a human/puppet !! mostly a puppet, though ! like a 2:8 ratio !! :]

🌈i'm a system host, syskid and a splitroject !! (that means i'm an introject with more than one source !!) ( my source list is here !) if you’re a sourcemate, feel free to say hi !! our system is autistic and physically disabled :] we also have some other stuffs but we like to keep most stuffs private !! 🌈(we think we’re mid support needs but we dunno because the people that help us are really in denial about us needing much help because of our parents denying it and also our school is just bad towards disabled people and we don’t wanna use a wrong label if we’re not so if anyone who’s mid support needs can talk to us about it that’d be really really helpful thanks !!! :])

🌈i might talk about our psychosis a little, probably not, but if i do it’ll always be tagged so you don’t have to see it if you have it blocked !

🌈i'm nonbinary, aroace and greyaethsetic !!

🌈i think 'cringe culture' is dumb !! you should get to have fun and like things that people think are 'cringe-worthy' and talk and act how you want !! as long as you don't support anything bad you should just be allowed to have fun !!

🌈i talk silly and funny !! i like being expressive and energetic !!! and the way i talk changes sometimes !! just ignore it i'm just having fun !! :]

🌈i have some f/os, but i mostly have fictional bffs !! :D

🌈special interests !!: my main source (rainbow billy: the curse of the leviathan), puppets, stitch head, rubberhose cartoons, rainbows, mlp, vintage dolls, raggedy ann and andy, clowns, monsters, lucid dreams and dreaming and cosmonious high !!

🌈please don't interact:

-if you see me in any of my sources in a sexual or romantic way

-basic stuffs like if you're homophobic or transphobic or racist etc but i mean, come on, why would you guys WANNA interact with me ? haha !!

-if you post gore or really scary thingys on your blog without any warnings at all...(don't do that !!)

-if you judge people's triggers for being "weird"

-you post nsfw, untagged gore or untagged discourse/politics (i know discourse/politics sounds silly next to the other two, but it’s the main thing that makes me hate social media so much !! so much fighting...i like to not see it, thanks !! :])

-you’re pr0ship/pr0fic/c0mship/ant!-anti (or any other terms). i don’t harass anyone but i don’t feel comfy interacting with you guys, sorry !!

-if you’re r4dqueer/tr4ns-id/tr4ns-x (you guys really really scare me please go away :[)

-if you’re anti non-sexual/sfw age regression (kinda obvious, but just in case !) or anti objectum/posic

#🌈intro💛#🌈non puppet stuffs💛#🌈me !!💛#🌈puppet nonhuman time !!💛#🌈puppet rambles💛#puppetkin #puppet kin #puppet nonhuman #otherkin #otherkind #nonhuman #alterhuman #objectkin #syskid #system little #agere safe #sfw agere #sfw age regression

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ijustwantedtobeoneofthestrokesuk · 4 months ago

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B.I.T.I. (Before Is This It)

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While Pete and Carl were throwing poetry nights there was a bunch of bands bubbling in the London underground with a punk attitude and banging tunes. A scene was forming, it just needed a break, which came once The Libertines had theirs.

There was loads of bands, some lasted a few gigs, a handful lasted a few albums. This is how it went for a few of them.

Special Needs

Special Needs was a band ahead of their time (forming in 1998) and they never got the opportunity to fully live out their potential, their name often drew controversy (they briefly changed it to The Needs) and they fell victim of being on a major label.

Zac Stephenson “I worked at a London Irish newspaper in 1997 and Daniel (Shack) came along to do work experience. We had enough overlap of musical interest to become friends and he was learning guitar, I wanted to sing so first we started just kind of jamming in his bedroom. Then Phil started coming along and bringing his bass.

At this point our main influence was probably the Manic Street Preachers, mainly the Richey period when they were a lot cooler. We all dyed our hair, wore eyeliner, shirts with spray-painted slogans, feather boas, the whole kit and caboodle. Slightly cringe now to look back on that.

We did some sessions in a rehearsal room with a drummer I roped in, auditioned a few more but it looked like it was doomed to fail when Daniel and Phil decided to go to University in Sheffield.

A few months in though, they rang me and told me they had met Andrew, who had an interesting vision about what a band could be like, and asked me if I’d still be interested in trying to get something going. I was, so I’d get the train up to Sheffield every few weekends and we’d do some stuff in a practice room.

We went through drummers faster than you go through underwear but we persevered for the whole time they were at university. Summers in London gave us a bit of progress and then when they returned back to London we focussed on finding the perfect drummer and we did in Neil. He was better than any drummer we’d ever worked with before but he’d still go into a rehearsal room on his own and practice for hours. And he had a brilliant droll Scottish sense of humour. Just fitted in so perfectly. He was the missing piece of the jigsaw so to speak. He was like a sweeper in football. Sort of tidied up everything that was wrong with us musically.

Still, we were finding it hard to get gigs, mainly due to our name, so we started our own weekly club night in a pub in Acton. It was quite a dive but we loved it. And we’d fly around London going to other gigs and nights. The next turning point for us then was when we met Sara and Nadia from the Pyrrha fanzine. They knew everyone. They introduced us to John Kennedy at Xfm, to Razorlight, and possibly most crucially Alan McGee. John Kennedy started championing us and we saw more people coming to our gigs. Then Alan offered us a single deal (on his label, {Poptones), which graduated to an album deal with Mercury and the rest is history I suppose.

We recorded the album in March 2005 with Ian Grimble at 2khz in Willesden Junction. Alan McGee had spoken to a bunch of other producers, including Mick Jones, Bernard Butler and Andrew Loog Oldham. In fact Loog Oldham had apparently wanted to do it but he couldn’t make it work. It’s my favourite anecdote of the time that Alan McGee said that “the singer…” (me) was “…flying on the wings of greatness”. I mean that’s the guy that managed Oasis at the height of their powers, so it’s hard to imagine better.

Anyway, Ian had worked with the Manics, Travis, Texas, so he had a good CV. He was a bit of a taskmaster. We did a week in preproduction where he helped us sculpt or prune some of the songs. I remember near the end of that process Alan came into the studio to hear how the songs were sounding. After we finished each song he said the same thing: “It’s a hit”.

Ian made us do countless takes. Real perfectionist. Massively underrated producer. For one of the songs he set up the drum kit in the bathroom because he thought the tiles in there would give the acoustics he thought would work better for that song. He was right.

I think the funniest incident in those recording sessions from my perspective was walking in to the kitchen and seeing the American artist Grace Jones looking in a state of distress. I asked her if she was OK and she walked up to me about six inches from my face and said, “I’m looking for honey.” So I helped Grace Jones scour the studios kitchen for a jar of honey. Unsuccessfully, I might add.”

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In the autumn of 2005 Mercury cancelled the bands' record contract as new management at the label cleared a lot of Poptones roster. The band negotiated a deal to keep the rights for the album but they didn’t have a label to put it out, the situation was frustrating for the band, audiences at gigs were getting smaller, they were skint, Zac moved back to Ireland and they broke up.

The band were approached by ReAction Records who wanted to put out the album which was finally released in August 2006, receiving positive reviews but the band had moved on, there wasn’t the temptation to reform.

After a 5-year break, the band had stayed in touch via Facebook and they decided to get back together, initially just for one gig at Proud in Camden, however, it sold out and they loved it so much that they said yes to every other gig they got offered, including gigs in New York and Norway.

Zac Stephenson “Well, Glastonbury was one highlight. From that day onwards you’re always able to say you played Glastonbury which I think is a major ambition for pretty much every band starting out. Playing Hyde Park was great. New Year’s Eve we packed out the Kentish Town Forum. Touring was often fun. Could be tiring and tedious at times but when we got on stage it was (usually) brilliant.

I used to love the radio sessions, Xfm, BBC, Virgin. And seeing your CD on the shelves in HMV was a kind of bucket list thing too.

But I guess overall it was just seeing people packed together in venues singing the songs back to you. Our reunion gig at Proud Camden was beyond belief. 600+ people crammed in on a Tuesday night in February. We hadn’t played live for 5 years so the anticipation was palpable. Electric atmosphere.”

The Crimea

The Crimea became one of John Peel’s favourite bands but their story begins a few years earlier, with the heavier and intense band, The Crocketts, a story that shows the destruction the music industry can have on people.

Despite the negatives, The Crimea became trailblazers as they released their second album, Secrets of the Witching Hour for free online in 2007 which saw them featured in the news around the world while supporting huge bands such as Kings of Leon and Coldplay. Sadly, the years of mental health and addiction took its toll on frontman Davey, just as the band were reaching the goal they had been striving for.

Davey Macmanus “The Crocketts started in 1995, we were so young, 18, when we got signed to V2. When we did our first photoshoot, it was with Mario Testino and it cost a lot of money, our manager said I looked a bit tubby so I developed an eating disorder which I had for the next 20 years, I thought food was poison. Our first tour was with The Pogues, I worshipped Shane Magowan, we were introduced to hard drugs, we were doomed from the start, somehow we were grouped into the whole indie scene, maybe because we formed in Aberystwyth and were part of the Welsh scene, touring with Stereophonics a lot, Space, Catatonia, Super Furries, 60ft Dolls. I became an alcoholic and drug addict. Every concert I was on ecstasy. I started hurting myself onstage, This became a thing, as our songs were about being bullied, self-harm and eating disorders, we attracted a crazy fanbase who came to all our concerts and showed me their scars.

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Although the band was doing very well in terms of selling out bigger and bigger shows and getting 5 out of 5 in the music papers, commercially we didn't sell enough records and V2 brought us into their office one day, there was a new head of A&R, Malcolm Dunbar, he played us three songs, Stereophonics’ Have a Nice day, Feeder’s Buck Rogers and Blink 182’s famous song, Then he told us he wanted our third album to sound like that. It didn’t, our music was getting heavier and heavier and our actions more destructive, we were dropped.

Suddenly we had to get jobs, me and Dan, the guitarist were working the nightshift in Sainsburys in Romford. Instead of taking cocaine we were taking speed, instead of drinking Jack we were drinking yellow pack, we were all living in the same house, and eventually, I woke up one morning and Rich the bass player was gone, then Dan the guitar player locked himself in his bedroom and didn't come out for several weeks, then suddenly he was gone. There was only me and Owen the drummer left, we decided to completely reinvent ourselves, change our style and sound and play beautiful music. Instead of our audience smashing the venues they would sit down like at the cinema.

We were so lucky, we rapidly built up a following, suddenly instead of being in Kerrang we were in The Guardian, we were being lauded as cool which was amazing that we had turned that tide around and people were respecting our change of direction. We weren’t part of any scene until later on by accident because we played with lots of big bands that liked our music.

I met John Peel outside the American Embassy in Grosvenor Square. I was working for the council, sweeping the streets, it was autumn and the leaves kept falling from the trees, it was a fucking nightmare, I was dressed in the street cleaner uniform and I had one of those dustcarts you push, I recognised John Peel going into the Embassy and I went up to him and gave him a demo CD, that night he played all 7 songs from the CD on his show. He said on air that he went back and listened to The Crocketts but he didn't like them, but he loved The Crimea. Before he died he said about Lottery Winners on Acid ‘I could listen to that forever and ever”. He helped us so much and played us so much but after that first meeting I never met him again.

We were just incredibly lucky again, while at South by South West we were seen by Perry Watts Russell a famous A&R guy for Warner Bros. We were actually offered a few different deals and we went with him because he had signed Radiohead, Damian Rice and Arcade Fire and all these other people. Plus we wanted to go and live in America.

For our debut album we went to Mississippi to record with this famous producer, He had just produced Modest Mouse (who we toured with later) Cop Car single so he was the hot guy at the time. We were there for months and months but we were just getting high and not getting much done, while the producer was changing all our songs in ways we didn't like. He wore a white coat because he was meant to be a scientific genius. I didn't get on with him, I liked him a lot and we were friends but we had different musical ideas, we wasted hundreds and thousands of dollars with this dude, so we went to New York for another long period of time and re-recorded the album with another producer in James Iha’s studio.

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I kinda knew we were going to be dropped as our singles from the album had been on the decline, no.20 something, then no.47, then no.60 in the charts, Radio 1 had yet again (for the second band in a row) refused to playlist us, we had the A list on Xfm but that didn’t matter, we had amazing press but that didn’t matter.

So when we were dropped by Warner Bros. we still had a really good publishing deal with WEA so that kept us going and we recorded an album ourselves, we had an old house near Norwich in the country and we rehearsed there for weeks on end and recorded, the band were amazing, Joe, Andy and Owen and the guitar player we had at the time Andy, and we all stuck together and worked hard. We went to Latvia to mix the record with Greg Haver, we loved the album, because we made it ourselves and it was dear to us.

It wasn’t our idea to release it for free, it was our manager Tav. It was an incredible idea. We played on top of Primrose Hill at midnight on the day of release and the album was released at the same time, there were hundreds of people there, the next day we went to China on tour and we were on the front cover of newspapers all over the world, it was truly mindblowing, all the news channels were interviewing us and all these papers and we’re in China so it looked really cool.

Q Magazine said it was one of the top 5 moments that changed music, we did get some credit for it, maybe not enough, but we got some adverts out of it and could still sell out our shows everywhere so we got to continue

At first we had to pay to tour with other bands like The Pogues, The Levellers and Stereophonics, then we became friends with the Stereophonics and we never had to pay them to tour again, I enjoyed touring with Billy Corgan, Kings of Leon, Travis, Modest Mouse, Snow Patrol, Gary Lightbody from Snow Patrol actually financed our third album, Square Moon, he also financed my volunteering in Africa as a nurse.

I had a lot of problems with my mental health, with the eating disorder, with self-harm, with drug addiction, then with a heroin addiction, When it came time to release Square Moon I was so frazzled I couldn’t tour or do interviews so I just had to stop the band and leave when we had just made our greatest record and finally achieved what we had been trying to achieve for 20 years.

I didn’t get any support from any labels, in fact they encouraged me to be wild, I had a lot of support from my bandmates and my family but they couldn’t help me. I just felt this pressure all the time as the songwriter to come up with hit songs, so I was obsessed with writing and trying to write hits the whole time, that's why we only really developed our sound when we were dropped and it gave me the freedom to not have to worry about writing hits and inadvertently wrote our best music

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Releasing Square Moon on double vinyl and the reviews it got are things I look back on fondly, then becoming a nurse and going to Africa, the highlight of my career was playing round a campfire in the middle of a desert to a bunch of orphans with HIV, you have to really sing from your heart when you don’t have a microphone.”

Neils Children

Neils Children are one of the bands who were overlooked during the 2000’s but their DIY ideals and approach to consistently evolve is the reason that they have continued to make music, well, the 2 founding members, frontman John and drummer Brandon, they’ve got through a handful of bassists over their years.

Scenes aren’t built to last but Neils Children have never been part of the scene which has allowed them to be different to the trends or a short-lived fad.

Firstly, they formed in 1999, before The Strokes arrived, by the time the 2000’s bands were starting out Neils Children had already been together a couple of years. They came from Harlow, on the outskirts of London, they were inspired by the ‘60’s and they sounded different varying between post-punk, freakbeat pop and psychedelia. They looked different too, decked out in black with makeup, big hair, fur coats, skinny jeans and pointy shoes, they had to time their journeys into London to avoid trouble with football fans. They were doing this years before their mates, The Horrors, who they influenced.

Everything about the band was intense and their live shows were always exciting. The band was fearless and did everything themselves.

The pair were studying music together and immediately bonded over bands, within a couple of months, they were in the rehearsal rooms in college. John already knew how to play guitar, Brandon had to learn the drums and their classmate Tom was on bass.

Aged 16 and looking for music that excited them was hard in 1999, until they discovered ‘60’s pop which then led them to the underground psychedelic scene.

It wasn’t just the music but the clothes, the style and the community which was lively in Mousetrap, a ‘60’s psychedelic club night in Finsbury Park. They were the young outsiders but they quickly fitted in.

They rehearsed a lot and started playing regularly, word got around that they were an exciting young band, described as freak-beat ‘60’s and even though that was what they were listening to, ‘80’s influences organically crept in too giving them a punk edge with The Jam and Buzzcocks. In the summer of 2000 they met Rhys, who would go on to form The Horrors years later and they struck up a great friendship and became the house band at his club, Junk, in Southend.

Their influences would grow even further when they discovered the likes of Yeah Yeah Yeahs and The Rapture who were starting to make their way over to the UK. This then took them on to listening to Public Image Ltd and Gang Of Four, their sound evolved into something more raw with a nod to post-punk and a contemporary twist.

John’s grandad managed the band, he helped them out financially and drove them around. He had no interest in music but loved being part of the gang. He joined them on a tour of Spain before the band had released anything, organised by friends from the psychedelic scene. They drove for three days to Barcelona and made their way around the country for 10 gigs with a settee in the back of a van and a map to get around. It was DIY at its best and they loved it.

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Soft City Recordings signed them up in 2003 to release their ‘first album’, the band don’t really like it to be looked on as their first album as it was a few singles and a bunch of songs they quickly recorded. These days it would probably be called a ‘mixtape’ today, the label was keen to get it out as a stepping stone for the band to get signed to a major label. They practiced a lot, they were super tight and ended up recording 4 or 5 songs a day, all live.

Once the band started seeing others investing in them they upped their game, stripped everything back to give fans the best possible show, developing their songs and ‘think’ about what they were doing instead of just doing it. Although they toured a lot in the UK, it was Europe where they found more success.

John’s grandad took a backseat from management as the band signed to a new label and got a management team in place. In 6 weeks they recorded what was meant to be their debut album in a studio on Old Street, London, they supported The Horrors on a UK 2-week tour then went on a headline tour for 2 weeks.

The relationship with both the label and management team quickly went sour. They had been used to their DIY approach and got things done themselves, they found that things got slowed down when working with others. A single should have been ready to sell on The Horrors support tour but it was delayed and they weren’t happy with how the mix of the recordings for the album sounded so they got out of the contract, lost the songs and started again.

After going on hiatus the band returned with a new psychedelic sound and went to France to record an album.

John and Brandon were super close, John’s grandad was part of it too and each bassist they had played a key role in the journey, making the band feel more like a family.

NEXT CHAPTER

#indie #indie sleaze #special needs #the needs #the crocketts #the crimea #neils children #london #Youtube

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will-thecryptid · 9 months ago

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You know what I love about Tumblr so much? The fact that I can come on here and state my opinions like I am now and be silly and be myself, and basically nobody judges you, and the people that do are relatively easy to ward away. Sure I don't have that many followers, most of which are my irl friends or mutuals, because as of now my account is mostly just doing stuff that makes me happy. Originally it was just shit posts, and in the future when I'm a little less insecure of my art and I finish my sketch book and a few of the other projects I'm working on both digitally and in person I want to share it with the people here. Tumblr has taught me to embrace the cringe, to do things that make me happy for the simplicity of the fact it makes me feel good, and to not punish myself for feeling good about it. I've met some amazing people here, especially involved in the Good Omens community, i mean, Neil Gaiman himself is on here. While my posts will most likely remain Good Omens related because it's a special interest and means an amount to me I don't think i'm able to put into words my posts are still my own and I'll post what I want, whenever. This app has affected me in such a positive light and has some of the most positive communities I've ever seen, I'm a person who's seen the horrors of what Twitter(X), Tik Tok, hell even Amino harbor in them. While there are corners of Tumblr that are dark and unpleasant (trust me I've also been down that rabbit hole with an old Tumblr account that's lost in the wind that I had at much too young of an age) but most of it is very positive and accepting and I think a lot of people discredit it or call it an app only weirdos use, which in all honesty I'm perfectly okay with that label. Because most people here are amazing. You are amazing 🖤

#be yourself #live laugh love tumblr #safe space #you are loved #you are amazing #i love you

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exalt1ora · 1 year ago

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: ABOUT ME

🗯️ 🐌 ��️ !!

hi !! not gonna waste any time okay let’s go🗣️🗣️

• my name is maxie (max is good too!! <3)

• 8teen

• go by they/she pronouns

• my flags:

• I am autistic, my special interest is horror, everything horror. horror movies, shows, podcasts, plays, musicals, music, books, stories, games, art, makeup, everything.

• I use tone tags!! not always but when needed. if you need one clarified don’t hesitate to ask <3

• this blog will most likely consist of whatever I feel like. spamming abt fandoms i’m in, participating in trends, fanfic, edits, stimboards, lotsa stuff.

- I take stimboard requests !! send me an ask with the character(s)/ships you want, general theme, things you want specifically included OR excluded, and whether you want to be anonymous or named !!

I reserve the right to not take requests if they are uncomfortable for me (inappropriate proship shit, dismissing a character’s CANON identity, etc) stuff like gore, bugs, disturbing content is fine w/ me, I will CW it for others though!! alright cool send those RQs in cuties /p

• my oc rp account: @buzzingblues

• ao3: hydrangeasangels

• tiktok + instagram: exalt1ora

• heavy re-blogger . like HEAVY

• i also live blog shit on here a ton like this is my dumpster. this is where it all goes.

• will probably post things with gore or generally disturbing content often, i’ll try to CW it appropriately!

• I casually kin characters, say stuff like “me” referring to characters, if that is triggering or makes you uncomfortable for whatever reason, totally get that we just won’t interact🫶

• DNI: general dni (bigots), proana, thinspo, terfs, proshippers, if you punch down on neopronouns or microlabels. who cares get a life, makes fun of stereotypical “cringe” interests, hobbies, etc.

• from the U.S, don’t have a specific political label but i’m somewhere left. pro-choice, black lives matter, free palestine, protect trans kids, fuck terfs, guns should be regulated, late stage capitalism sucks dick. k thanks back to the fun stuff !!

• COMFORTS

• love love love online friends and interacting w people pls message me or reply to my stuff or whatever u want i love it !! 💐

#intro post #introduction #want friends #new to tumblr #starkid #the magnus archives #horror #slashers #scream #evil dead #saw franchise #girlfailure #autism

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zeephyre · 3 years ago

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WOMEN OF COLOUR VS EMOTIONS

A review of Turning Red as a black afab enby who has many thoughts and nobody to talk to lmao

I literally just finished watching Turning Red, and I had only ever seen high praises for this movie so I went into it with high expectations. I'm really, REALLY happy to say that the movie was even better than I could have ever imagined. It was fun and heartwarming, funny and thought provoking - it made you cringe but in the way you can clearly see your own experiences reflected in the main character.

Of course, as a young teen, I had never turned into a giant fluffy red panda, but I think anyone who grew up being viewed as a girl (regardless of gender identity) can definitely relate to a lot of the things Mei Mei goes through. Before I get into the deeper meanings in the story of Turning Red, I wanna praise the characters a little bit.

Specifically these four. It was refreshing to see a group of young girls who respected and loved each other so much, who uplifted each other and inspired each other to be confident in their own weirdness. Young girls in media are often created solely to be ridiculed and specifically young girls of colour have it even harder. I loved the bond between all of them - each person felt fun to watch and they all had such a strong presence together and seperately. There was never a moment where I felt like any of these girls was the butt of a joke or a throw away character.

Mei Mei, the main character, is bubbly and funny. She has high energy and she's stubborn. She's bright and expressive, and such a joy to watch.

Her family is so interesting and her relationship with her mother especially showed a specific experience in households of races other than white. It may not seem obvious to some, but people of colour have VERY different mothers.

And that leads into what Turning Red is really about. It's not just one thing, and this is simply me just rambling about the cool stuff I picked up on as I watched it.

The gift given to the women of Mei Mei's family was originally for protection, born out of a desire to help the people you love, and it was passed down from generation to generation, until it reaches Mei Mei, who had no idea about it until suddenly she's a giant red panda and she has (seemingly) no control over her life anymore. What I want to talk about is her mother's (and her grandmother and aunts') reaction to the red panda form.

Her mother thinks the red panda is a monster - uncontrollable and undeserving of even being entertained for just a second. From the beginning you can see just how much she has repressed this part of her and how much she wants Mei Mei to do the same. She and her sisters, and her mother have quite literally locked this monster away so they don't "lose control."

The red panda is not "evil" and it never was. It was simply a gift, and the way it manifested was by emotion. Not just anger or hate (or anything particularly negative) but by STRONG emotion and the expression of such. The obsession with controlling the "beast" is a reflection of the way society treats women and their emotions.

Teen girls are often ridiculed for expressing any kind of positive emotion loudly and proudly. Girls who are fans of something or someone are labeled as "rabid", "crazy" or "hysterical," and the same isn't usually said about boys who express special interest in anything. Its no coincidence that Mei and her friends are fans of a popular boy band in the movie.

Girls who are "weird" or have niche interests are made fun of and it doesn't matter WHAT girls do, they'll always be the butt of the joke.

Women of colour go through this in unique and disturbing ways. Black women (/afabs, like myself) can usually be seen described as "aggresive," if they express their anger or displeasure in an open way. If they're excited, they get called "ghetto" or "loud" or even "uncivilized."

For Mei Mei and her family, it's also a reflection of how asian women (from what I have seen) have expressed many times that they are expected to always be quiet and composed - "submissive," if you will. A lot of media portrays asian women in that way as well.

Even further, women and their emotions have always been shunned. They're seen as "too emotional" to be taken seriously, and if they express any sort of emotion then they are dismissed or demeaned. Men have always used the "women are too emotional" argument time and again to justify their misogyny. They think that women are not intellectual creatures for feeling and expressing their feelings to the public. It's disgusting and I'm glad that we're slowly (very slowly) moving past this idea.

Turning Red showcases all of these things in such a unique way, and I'm so impressed by the work that was put into this story and these characters.

I 100% recommend this movie, if you haven't watched it already. It's so good and I think everyone can learn something from it.

#turning red #mei mei #turning red mei #pixar turning red #pixar movies #disney plus

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fagcrush · 2 years ago

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gay ass cringe nene baby

✨Miles/Theil/Gerard/Stone ✨29 ✨any pronouns✨

other names/pronouns

strawpage

You've found my cringe blog!! This is where I'll post my special interests, hyperfixations, self ship, kin and general "cringe" stuff

My f/o list is here and my kin list is here!! most my posts will be those characters and the media around them!!! f/os will be tagged with their respective tags while all kins will be tagged with the 💟 emoji+their name

i don't mind sharing f/os or kins!! also, my self shipping and kinning frequently overlap!! all that said, you're free to talk to me about shared f/os or kins (i actually love doing so!!) or tag posts with your own ship or kin tags!!

My current hyperfixations are:

Baldur's Gate 3

Dragon Age (specifically DATV but I want to play the others!!

Sonic the Hedgehog (especially the movies!)

Idol anime/games

Crash Bandicoot

my identity is an absolute mess, i just kinda label myself as a vague queer femme (tme) boygirl i guess, i don't really label my identity outside of "femme" but i do love collecting xenogenders and stuff it's fun :) im also sex repulsed irl but a whore in concept (basically i only wanna actually fuck someone in my imagination and i'm incredibly horny for like. fictional characters and nothing else lol). I'm objectum and a furry too!!! i'm married irl, my husband uses they/bee pronouns and i talk about them a lot

I'm mixed black/white and (mostly) white passing.

My main is @deregirls, I'll be following and liking from there!! i also may like and follow from @milespostinglimit from time to time bc sometimes i go on reblog sprees that lead to post limit

this blog also functions as a personal!! my personal posts will be tagged #gerards diary. i vent fairly often but try to tag them. I also post about drugs a LOT bc I'm a stoner, and those posts will be tagged as well.

i also write stuff and take requests for headcanons and such!

proship/neutral DNI whatsoever, i'd also rather not interact w people who call themselves "antis." my opinoins on ship discourse is pretty complicated but i really don't like either extreme

minors can interact with my SFW posts but do not follow me please.

#dividers by lisa-frankenstein!!

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dumyhead · 2 years ago

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anyways erm heres a humongous intro post to my account for 2023!!

my (host) name is sunny, im a white teen from funny upside-down country and im sooo silly and. Cool and amazing😼

more details :

+.* im autistic w anxiety and ocd (and possible adhd)

+.* self-diagnosed-ish osdd-1 system (alter carrd coming soon 😋)

+.* i post art and funny text posts

+.* soo many labels but as of right now i mainly identify as a queer trans/nonbinary/genderqueer gnc person

boundaries/stuff u should know !!

≈ pls dont talk to me abt nsfw stuff unless we're close friends/mutuals and have talked about our boundaries with said content (will get blocked otherwise)

≈ i get anxious in conversations very easily so sorry if i dont respond for a while to certain messages !!

≈ im fine with being tagged in some silly little things and receiving asks, just dont get too personal :3

≈ dont ask for my location or anything alike, that stuff is for extra-close friends

≈ i procrastinate and forget a lot so sometimes ill cancel plans or give up on projects out of nowhere, so dont expect too many big things from this blog

interests !!

bold = hyperfix

italics = special interest

mortal kombat

dhmis

madness combat

jerma985

fnaf

undertale

deltarune

the owl house

the walten files

the mandela catalogue

ULTRAKILL

batim:tdr

tf2

hlvrai

scp

ena

plague doctors

torture devices/methods

psychology

anatomy

sea creatures

bugs

horror in general

baking/cooking

dni !!

× proshippers, comshippers, profic, whatever term you guys use nowadays

× exclus

× stans of real-life serial killers and criminals

× zoophiles/feral nsfw enjoyers

× l0li/sh0ta/cub nsfw likers

× bigots in general

× terfs / radfems

× people against sex workers. i mean come on they're just doing their jobs

× people that want to get mental disorders?? like no subliminals arent gonna give you depression man why do you want that 😭😭

× people that believe in cringe culture and cancel culture

ermm i think thats it :3c

have a nice day n take care of urself ‼️💯💪👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨

#intro post #autistic #queer #actually autistic #mortal kombat #dhmis #hlvrai #tf2 #ultrakill #scp

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benry-coinings · 2 years ago

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THE BENRY WELCOMES U >;3c

Requests are: OPEN!~

Yo. They call me Benr(e)y because that's my name,,

It/Xe/[REDACTED]/chats/BBBBs/benry/🫧s/🔵s/wins/techs

The Benr(e)y, The creature, The catboy, The catreature, your cringeness, The Online one, The Virtual thing, The Malware, The rat

Im the host of of an ever growing DID system because my autistic ass can't stop splitting fictives. I've got a couple special interests and gender is 1 of them, genders make me happy and i love gender. I also have BPD and i cry a lot oops. I have a girlfriend who's my FP and a bird and i love so much<3. I feel a good and im am like everything ,,.

Request Rules

What the benrey can do

Genders, Gender systems, Objectum Sexualities, Name suggestions, Pronoun suggestions, Name/Pronoun/Identity affirmation

Favorite topics 2 coin on: Software, Tech, Webcore, Oldweb, Gaming, obscure communities no1 rlly cares abt except me, alterhumanity, Weirdcore, Gore, Deretypes, cozycore, joke/meme/funnygenders

Terms related to neurodivergencies we have, those being: Autism, BPD, DID, General Anxiety, Social Anxiety, Depression, Agoraphobia

What the benrey cant do

identities involving groups the creature isn't part of (ex. the host is white and there4 wont be coining any POC specific identities)

Non Objectum Sexualities

Terms rel8d 2 fandoms im not in/dont know anything about

BYF

Even if you are on my DNI or uncomfortable/don't agree with my BYF, my terms are not restricted 2 any1. I can't stop you from rel8ing 2 or using my terms. I also can't stop you from interacting with my posts but i can block you if i catch you so be warned.

I have pretty bad social anxiety which bleeds in2 online posting, so i might not respond right away and i might just. randomly leave 4 a bit sometimes lol

I have a bit of a typing quirk (replacing words that sound like numbers with the actual number. (ex. Before=b4, great=gr8, too/to=2)) though i won't be providing translation bc i feel it's fairly easy 2 read

Please use tone indic8rs w/ me!!

I support all good faith identities and "contradictory labels"

I reclaim the term "yandere" and i use it 2 describe myself a lot! I also use gender systems like -stalker, -freak, and -cannibal, so if that makes you uncomfortable id suggest you stay away(but i can't stop you)!

Tags

#🫀I like everything ||Benrys term hoard hehehe

#🫧 that's the black mesa. Sweet voice ||my coinings!! request answers

#❔whuh ||anon asks

#🦷BBBBBB ||benry rambles, probably non gender stuff

If any of my alters chose to post, their name and sign off will be a tag as well (ex. #🔪Postal Dude, #🥀Vincentius, #🌈Travis, etc.)

#🫀I like everything #🫧 that's the black mesa. Sweet voice #❔whuh #🦷BBBBBB #mogai blog #xenogender #gender coining #aemogai #anti endo mogai #mogai

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cammoblamo · 4 years ago

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hiiii !1!!1

my name is pixel or acid ive existed 4 14 years !

i luv being unapologetically myself and spitting on cringe culture（｀▽´ )

im nonbinary, omnisexual, poly, queer, and panromantic ! 🌈✨

i luv labels 4 me becuz they help me figure myself out! But if u dont like labels i respect dat! i wont try 2 label u at all i jus hope u can respect me and my use of microlabels

(ﾉ>ω<)ﾉ :｡･:*:･ﾟ’★,｡･:*:･ﾟ’☆

im also neurodiverse !!1 got diagnosed adhd and might be autistic 2 OwO so use tone indis plz 人´∀｀)

btw i use neopronouns and xeno genderz if u don’t support

get out 凸(｀△´＃)

besides that id hate 2 b the tumblr with a stoopid dni list so jus be nice dumdumz >:P

anyway b4 i end dis intro post ill share my interests cuz friends with similar interests r pog champ :3

im a furry ! (＾• ω •＾)

i like goblincore / scene / emo / punk / kawaii / nerd / aliencore / spacecore / internetcore / traumacore / weirdcore / glitchcore / cottagecore / cringecore / kidcore / rainbowcore / and trendercore aestheticz and subculturez

i luv old school animation like don bluth and 90’z disney ! itz cuz im an artist lol XD

I luv superheros and spiderman especially !

my special interests atm r sanders sides / mcyt / neurodiversity / jacksepticeye / markiplier / mother mother / and fnaf !!1

i play gamez like subnautica / slime rancher / fnaf / apex legands / fortnite / minecraft / nintendo stuff / and indie gamez !（>∀<）

i luv up cycling and makin stuff ! like kandi and earrings

so yee dats me i hope to make dis account a fun safe 1 ! tank u 4 readin have a swag day luvs !! <3

#lgbtq #nonbinary #transgender #xenogender #neogender #transtrender #scene kid #neurodiverse #emo kid #autistic spectrum #actually adhd #neoprns #typing quirk #kidcore #rainbowcore #kandi

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squinkpup · 3 years ago

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｡*ﾟ+ about me + *ﾟ｡

hi, welcome to my gender hoard blog >:3

my name is casper finn! i'm 19 years old, transmasc, biromantic questioning acespec, polyamorous, + a lot of xenogenders and other labels lol. nicknames i go by are cas(s), finn, ghost (our system name), and bug :) my birthday is august 11th! i have three lovely, amazing partners, who i live with <3

important information under this!

here is a link to my carrd! i'm still working on it n stuff but yea!

my main pronouns are he/him and i always prefer those ones, but i do have lots of neopronouns. find the list of neopronouns i use on my carrd linked above! i'm pretty much fine with any neos but if i ask you not to use specific a specific set pls respect that !! i might try out pup themed first person neos soon ;; 👀

i am a white american. i don't really associate with any religion because of trauma.

i am autistic and the host of an OSDD-1b system; i also have adhd, bpd, cptsd, tics, depression, and anxiety. i am physically disabled.

i love making friends, so feel free to shoot me a message if you'd like! but please read my boundaries (down towards the bottom) before you do! <3

dni information

discourse makes me incredibly uncomfortable and i don't want any part in it at all, so this userbox generally stands:

that being said, i don't want anyone to think that i condone things that i don't, so here is a rather wordy dni i had up at one point:

(i'm not going to go through my notifications constantly and check to see if people are violating this dni, because i get quite a lot of notifications and i genuinely do not have the time for that in my adult life, but please just be a decent person.)

• basic dni criteria

• anti-mogai, TERFs/SWERFs, aspec exclus, anti-pan, pronoun policer, gendercritical, nonbinary skeptic, anti-queer, anti gnc, radfem, anti-neopronouns, zoophile/supporter, super straight/bi/pan/gay/etc., anti pronoun-nonconforming people/think pronouns = gender, think expression = identity, anti aroallo

• MAP/p3d0/whatever they're calling themselves now, pro-ship/anti-anti, anti sfw agere/petre, if you sexualize sfw age regressors, minors in kink/supporters, fetishizer (mlm, wlw, trans people, poc, etc.), support incest, anti sex work

• anti BLM/ACAB, pro-blue lives matter, believe that reverse racism/cishetphobia/etc. is a real issue, antisemite, nazi supporter/sympathizer, alt-right / conservative / right wing / etc.

• cringe/flop blogs, anti cringe culture, you make fun of anyone for their interests/identity/etc. (educating people about harmful things doesn't count but don't harass), fakedisordercringe supporter, any cringe account supporter in general

• anti-self dx, autism speaks supporter, anti-kin, anti DID/OSDD/systems, system skeptic, thinspo/pro ana, if you infantilize mental illness or neurodivergence, sh blogs, gatekeep kin, s*1c1d3 bait people, harass or threaten people, use high/low functioning terms, fakeclaimer or support fakeclaiming, stigmatize mental illness, syscourse

which can all be summed up as: don't be an asshole

boundaries:

• do not interact romantically, s3xually, or flirtatiously if you are younger than 18 or, like, way older than me (hopefully this should be obvious)

- (if you're joking, please use tone tags. i won't know otherwise and will probably block you)

• as stated above, PLEASE use tone tags when communicating with me.

• please do not talk to me about discourse, like at all. i don't want any part of it. especially not syscourse of any kind - do not ask me where i stand, please. it's triggering, uncomfortable, and makes me very anxious and stressed. if i have done something wrong, please let me know so i can fix it, but otherwise please leave me out of any drama, discourse, etc. this blog is a special interest blog and a safe, comforting space for me and i'd like to keep it free of stress and negativity.

request rules:

i'm opening requests! here are some things to keep in mind:

• please be nice!

• my requests are always open, but i will get to them on my own time.

• types of requests i will do are pronoun flags, gender flags, and terms; i have never done orientation flags/terms, but i can probably try if you give me enough information!

• i will try my best to help find names, labels, pronouns, etc. if requested!

• i will not make anything relating to communities i do not belong to, such as poc specific terms, religion specific terms, cultural specific terms, terms relating to disabilities/disorders/etc. i do not have, etc. (i will, however, make things relating to angels, demons, and stuff like that if requested)

• i reserve the right to deny requests that make me uncomfortable or that i feel i cannot do

• i cannot promise anything. i have severe executive dysfunction and my motivation/ability to complete tasks/focus on things is absolutely not consistent. if i haven't completed your request, know that i'm trying my best and i apologize.

• i am okay with creepy, gory, horror, and/or (some) s3xual related themes, but as i stated before, i reserve the right to deny a request if it makes me uncomfortable

- do not request anything s3xual if you are a minor. i would prefer s3xual requests to be off-anon so i can make sure, but obviously i can't enforce that, so please just. respect this. i'm an adult and i do not want any type of inappropriate interaction from minors. please.

taglist:

i don't really have a fancy tagging system yet, so i'll update this section when i do!

for now, my only tag is:

#casper coins - which is. you know. things i coined/created

sorry this was so long !! i hope you like my blog (*＾3＾)/～♡

#intro post #pinned post #dni #boundaries

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generalfoolish · 4 years ago

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Feel The Heat

Part One: Cruel World

Pairing: Frankie Morales x OC Juniper Collins

Rating: 18+ Warnings: fem masturbation, male masturbation, cursing, mentions of casual sex

Word Count: 4k

Summary: June visits the farmer's market and meets Frankie, a grumpy farmer. She's interested, but they're both MASSIVE idiots.

A/N: Hey babes! I've been working on this massive Farmer!Frankie AU with an OC. I'm excited to debut this first part, the story is going to be a little slower so I can put in SO much pining. Anyway, enjoy 💕

Masterlist | Part two

June breathed in the fresh air as she pulled her tote strap onto her shoulder. The canvas bag held her wallet and keys, but was otherwise empty. She smiled, knowing that soon enough it would be almost too heavy.

The farmer's market was always busy on Saturday morning, and this one was no exception, she realized as she neared the stalls. She had a certain path she liked to follow, but she was feeling overwhelmed about the crowd. It was much busier than she had anticipated, and she always got a little panicky in throngs of too many people. So, she veered off her normal route, and found herself on the far end of the market.

It was much quieter, and much less crowded, she noticed right away. June also noticed that the produce was amazing. Late summer the fruit started to get a little smaller, but the berries at these stalls were still plump. The vegetables weren't as uniform as some of the bigger stalls, these were misshapen and discolored. Two indicators that the flavor would be divine, she thought as she roamed the stalls.

Her bag was getting heavy quickly, she noted, and she was determined to explore the whole area, so she walked straight to the end. The last stall on the property. Her hopes were not high as she marched up to the display stand.

"Would you like to try the tomatoes?" A rich baritone asked, and she quickly met his eyes. They were silky and brown, and breathtakingly deep. He had his cap pulled low, but his face was scruffy.

"Sure, that would be great. Are you the farmer?" June asked, taking the sample, and eyeing the selection.

"Yes, ma'am. I'm Frankie, and that is a Brandywine. All of my produce is hand picked, and that process starts at seed selection." He told her, his voice softening. She smiled and popped the tomato into her mouth. It was delicious. Acidic and sweet, not overpowering to the palate. Frankie must have seen the delight on her face because he grinned, knowing what she was experiencing.

"Wow, Farmer Frankie, this is so good." She laughed a little as she chewed, wanting to savor it. "I'll take a basket please." She decided, and nodded down at his table. He nodded and started to bag it. "I have a bag, thanks! What do I owe you?" She asked, pulling out some cash. He merely waved his hand.

"Don't worry about it." He told her. June only frowned.

"I can't do that. You worked so hard, I want to buy something." He chuckled and took his cap off before running his hand over his head.

"Look, it's early, and I couldn't possibly charge someone as beautiful as you." She blushed deeply, but thrust a twenty at him anyway.

"My beauty isn't for sale, but your tomatoes are. Have a good day, Frankie." She told him and turned around quickly. She wasn't normally bold, and she had no qualms with getting stuff for free. She had no idea why she had fought him, but as she walked away all she could think about were his beautiful, brown eyes.

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Frankie kicked himself hard as he watched the woman walk away from him. What was he thinking? He didn't even catch her name; he had no business calling her beautiful. He was off his game, and badly.

His phone buzzed, so he fished it out of his shirt pocket. An old t-shirt with a pocket on the chest, tattered and dirty, and that's what she saw when she walked up to him. What was she doing in the back of the market anyway, no one ever came this far back. He opened the message and sighed at how long the group chat was. Santiago and Benny could talk for hours, even texting. He wasn't up for it this morning, which wasn't unusual. He skimmed the messages, and decided it wasn't worth responding to. He had to sell some produce.

He looked down at the crisp twenty dollar bill on the table and cringed again. Twenty was way too much for the tomato basket. They were marked purposefully cheap, since they cost nothing to grow and always brought people back, and she had overpaid. Grossly. Even a ten would have been too much. And what had he done? Nothing. He hadn't even gotten her name. All he knew was that she looked great in shorts, her hair was a deep red, and she loved his tomatoes.

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"What do you mean?" Stella asked, sipping her glass of wine.

"I mean how do I fix it? Like I want to try his other stuff, but I was so rude." June told her, sighing into her own glass. Zinfandels usually brought her mood up, but she was still feeling from earlier.

"You just go back, darling. I doubt he'll remember you. I mean you only talked for five seconds. Also, I think paying for your stuff is the opposite of rude." Stella took a bite of her pasta before pointing her fork back at June. "Unless, it's more than that. It's definitely more than that. Are you trying to date the farmer?" June felt her face flush, and quickly took a bite of her own pasta to buy some time to think. She had gotten worked up, but she hadn’t thought about why that was. She grumbled as she bit into the ravioli. It was dumb, but Stella was right. She wanted to get to know Frankie more. It didn’t make a lot of sense, but she wanted to see him again.

Stella took Juniper’s silence as a win, and a grin spread across her face. June had always thought that Stella’s signatured wicked grin could rival the Cheshire Cat, and this one was no different. Too bad, June thought, that she hadn’t tumbled down a trippy tunnel where answers were held in clearly labeled vials. She took a wistful sip of her wine and looked back up to Stella.

“You’re right. But have I messed it up too bad? Like, I was pretty rude.” Stella laughed.

“You could have stepped on him and he’d thank you for it. June, you’re hot. He’d be lucky if you even thought about him. You couldn’t have messed it up.” June laughed, not really any more confident, but loving Stella’s hype game anyway.

“How’s...Bernard?” June asked, struggling to remember the man’s name. Stella had a habit of switching out lovers pretty often. June thought of it as her “man of the week,” and while it was good fun for her to envision a horrible reality show it wasn’t conducive to remembering their names, or anything about them.

“Ben,” Stella sighed, correcting June and pausing dramatically, “Is gone. I’m seeing Javi now. He’s much younger, and a lot richer.” Stella teased, taking another mouthful of food. June rolled her eyes. Stella had launched a business when she was in college, and had made a small fortune by the time they graduated. She was independently wealthy. In a way that June was not. June had opted for an education degree, and now was in charge of a bunch of literal children.

She took a sip of her wine and considered that path for a moment. She actually loved her job. She didn’t make shit, but it was worth the long hours to see those kids be nurtured and educated. She cared for them, and that made it worth the lack of zeros in her bank account.

“Javi, huh? He sounds posh.” June said, not really thinking about Javi or Stella’s various other affairs.

“He is not. He’s new money, so we can be tacky together. Anyway, lunch is on him!” Stella told her, laughing. June cringed at that, thinking back to Frankie. She groaned. She should have just taken the damn tomatoes. She didn’t even want them now, the thought of eating them just made her shrivel in on herself.

While Stella took care of the bill, June wondered if she shouldn’t just go back to the stall. Introduce herself and apologize, she thought. It’s the only thing to do in this situation. She set to getting her nerve up to do it, but at the end of lunch she just hugged Stella and went home.

Frankie slid into the booth next to Benny and across from Santiago and Will. When he had gotten around to answering the text chain the guys had decided to go out for a drink, and Frankie had wanted a drink after his day.

“Fish, Liv wants to stay the night.” Will announced, watching Frankie take a thoughtful sip.

“If Becka doesn’t mind, neither do I.” He shrugged, and Will nodded. Becka had been Frankie’s saviour. She was Will’s wife, but her and her little girl had taken up with Liv so easily. Being a single dad was not easy, but Becka had never let him feel alone. Hell, she handled everything for him. She was too good to him.

“Course not. She loves Liv. Not as much as Ashley, but I think she loves having another kid to spoil. Bad news for me, probably.” Will laughed out, and the rest joined in. No one had expected Will to get married so quickly, and none of the guys had been prepared for his girl to already have a kid in tow. Will had taken to Ashley quickly though, and had settled into the family role easily. Frankie noted Will’s painted nails and smiled. He was lucky to have such a great group of brothers.

“Enough kid talk, I have a fight coming up. You coming?” Benny asked, nudging Frankie’s arm. Frankie took his cap off and ran his hand through his hair.

“Who’re you up against?” Will asked before Frankie could answer. Honestly, he was searching for an excuse. Not that he didn’t want to support Benny, but the fights were always too loud, too tempting.

“Jones. It’s a special rematch. That’s why I need my boys there! Pam!” Benny hollered after the waitress and held up four fingers. Shots, Frankie thought sarcastically, just what they needed.

“Ben, of course, we’ll all be there. I’m bringing a plus one, though.” Santi announced, demanding the attention of the table.

“Who’s the victim this time?” Frankie asked, sipping his beer. Santi shot him a dirty look and clapped his hands together.

“Her name is…” He paused, making sure he had everyone’s attention. “Sam.” Frankie rolled his eyes at the theatrics.

“What does Sam do?” Will asked, not minding the dramatics.

“Sam is a school teacher.” Frankie’s eyebrows shot into his hairline.

“Surely, not.” Benny snorted. Pam sat the shots down, and everyone grabbed one.

“To Santi, maybe learning something!” Will toasted, and they threw back. Frankie relaxed as the tequila warmed his throat. This was normal, and meeting with the guys did his body some good. He wouldn’t even think about the woman from earlier. He grimaced as he thought about it. His problem, he was realizing, was that he was too sober. He caught Pam’s eye and nodded at her. They came to this bar enough that they knew the waitstaff by name, and the waitstaff knew their orders. Frankie preferred it that way, less chance of an awkward encounter.

“Sam is a local gal, but she has not yet heard of me.” Santi told the group, clutching his drink. He had a bit of a reputation of being a lady killer. It was rare he found someone who didn’t recognize his name.

“I guess teachers aren’t normally in the same crowd as strippers.” Benny joked, and grabbed his shot when Pam sat them down. “Damn Fish, long day?” They knocked them back, and Frankie just nodded.

“There was this lady at the stall today. Total knockout, and I just flubbed it hard. It was early, y’know?” They all laughed at him and he couldn’t help the grin that spread on his face.

“She’ll be back. I mean, look at yourself, Fish. You’ve got it back together.” Will offered. Frankie smiled at him and sipped his beer again. They shifted to riling Benny up about his on and off again girl, so Frankie just relaxed. It wasn’t uncommon for him to space out, and the guys could fill any silence. He surveyed the bar, taking in the patrons and just assessing the crowd. Saturday nights could go two ways: chill or not chill. It was an old habit to scan for danger, but it suited Frankie. He could sip his beer and watch for thugs or idiots or drunks. The waitstaff never complained when they stepped in. He supposed they didn’t mind four ex-service guarding them a few times a month. Sometimes they drank for free, but Frankie had no issues with bloodying his knuckles up every now and again.

He was smirking, thinking about their last fight, when he saw her. He had to do a double-take to make sure his eyes weren’t fooling him. He couldn’t believe it. There she was. She’d changed. Opting for small jeans shorts and a tight t-shirt over the yoga shorts she’d had on before. He gulped loudly, and shifted in the booth. Her hair was down, curled, and she looked amazing. He didn’t think she could look any better. He wanted to go to her. Instead he leaned on the table and cleared his throat.

“She’s here.” He told the guys dumbly, cutting off something that Benny was saying.

“Who is?” Santi asked, looking around, probably for Frankie’s ex. They all hated her, but she wouldn’t come here.

“The girl from earlier. The knockout.” Frankie told them, trying to keep his voice low. He nodded in her direction, surprised that she hadn’t noticed him. It wasn’t a large bar. Maybe she didn’t recognize him, he thought. He flushed even as he thought it. He hoped she would remember him. Santi whistled low as he faced Frankie.

“She’s good.” He murmured, and took a sip. Will and Benny agreed.

“Buy her a drink, Fish.” Benny suggested, clapping Frankie on the back. He grimaced as the loud noise rose above the din of the bar. As if on cue, she looked up and saw him. He was staring at her, and there she was, looking at him. He looked away, chickening out. He wouldn’t say anything. She had stormed off earlier, hadn’t she? She should apologize to him, he thought, getting his hackles up.

June couldn’t believe it. She had agreed to go out with the new girl from work, came to a bar she had never been to, and here he was. He looked great, she admitted to herself. He had thrown a plaid button up over his shirt, and it suited him. Farmer Frankie, she mused, and then turned to Samantha.

“Do you come here a lot?” Samantha looked up from her hard seltzer and shook her head.

“I came with this guy I’m kind of seeing. Everyone knew him here, and I liked the scene. It’s kind of dive-y.” June nodded, and took a drink of her rum and coke.

“Are you settling in, you know at school?” June asked, deciding to ignore the farmer. If he wanted to say something, she wouldn’t stop him, but she had no intentions of approaching him.

“Oh yeah, you know Keira? She’s been super helpful.” June nodded in agreement, Keira was the secretary but she ran the place.

“Like your kids? You’re what 5th?” Samantha nodded.

“I have no idea how you handle those 6 year olds, they’re too wild for me.” June laughed.

“I couldn’t handle the ball jokes, honestly. Tweens are the worst.” They both laughed, and sipped their drinks. June felt eyes on her, but tried to ignore them. She repeated to herself: if he wanted to talk, he’d come over. She made it her mantra. She focused on Samantha, willing the handsome man to go away.

“Tell me about this guy you’re seeing! I haven’t been on a date in so long.” June laughed, not wanting to admit how long it had really been.

“He’s so sexy, June. Like, literally so hot. It’s mostly sex though. We’ve been out dancing once, drinking a couple times, but it’s mostly just hook ups. I’m thinking about breaking it off, honestly. Like, the sex is good, great even, but how long is that sustainable, y’know? Like, I want to nurture a relationship at some point.” June nodded, trying to push her jealousy aside enough to be empathetic. She would take some great sex, even if it meant not having a relationship.

She peeked back at the Farmer, who flitted his eyes away as soon as she did, and knew that wasn’t true. She was long overdue for a meaningless hookup, but she wanted something real, whatever the hell that meant.

“Have you tried just telling him? I mean, maybe he doesn’t know you want something more. Men are kind of oblivious to that sort of stuff.” June added. Samantha took a sip, thoughtfully.

“That’s a good idea, Junie. Are you seeing anyone?” June laughed, a little too loudly.

“Just my therapist.” Samantha swatted her shoulder playfully. “No, I, uhm, I got out of a bad relationship last year and I’ve been so nervous to get back in the game.”

“Oh my gosh, my guy has tons of friends! Maybe I can set you up?” June thought for a minute.

“Maybe, I guess I could be open to it.”

“They’re all like ex-Army or something. I’ll text him.” June watched Samantha tug her phone out, and tried to ignore the feeling of being watched. He will come to you, she reminded herself. “Ooh, two single friends! Fish or Benny? Oh nevermind, just Fish. Apparently, Benny has drama. Bullet dodged there, huh?” June snorted, bullet dodged indeed. Fish? What a weird nickname.

“What the hell, set it up.” June told her, throwing back the rest of her drink and indicating another to the bartender.

“Yay! I’m so happy you came! Tuesday night?” June nodded.

“Have him come to the Italian place on 5th street at 7pm. I have parent-teacher conferences, but that should be late enough.” June explained, sipping deeply. Her hands were shaking, she hadn’t been on a proper date in years. Her ex hadn’t been one for dates, so she was out of practice. She raised her eyes to meet Frankie’s, knowing he’d look away immediately. He didn’t, but the look on his face was confusing. Almost angry, so she looked behind her and saw a guy approaching.

“Hey, I’m Kyle.” He introduced himself and sat down on the stool next to her. She looked at him bewildered.

“June.” She said shortly, taking another sip.

“Can I buy you a drink?” Kyle asked.

“Have one.”

“The next one?”

“I think I’m good. There are a lot of empty stools, why don’t you find a new one.” She murmured lowly, and turned her back to him. Samantha giggled.

“I think I know why you don’t get dates!” June rolled her eyes.

“It’s pretty lame, okay. To come up and just sit down. I’m already a little drunk too, it’s just not very cool, Kyle.” June chided, raising her voice so he’d hear. She sighed when he left, and looked back at the booth where Frankie was. The booth was empty, now, she realized sadly. She wished he had approached her. She wouldn’t have turned him away. Why was he so cold?

By the time she made it back to her door, June was pissed. She stumbled in her hallway and pulled her shoes off. They hadn’t been at the bar that long, but the last round of shots had been the death blow for her. Samantha had bid her farewell, saying her ride was there. So, June had ordered an Uber, clutching her keys like a weapon, hoping Kyle didn’t want revenge or something. She pretended to be sober in the Uber, and had chatted easily with the driver on the drive to her house.

Once inside though, June groaned in frustration. She couldn’t believe the stupid luck. It was too much, seeing him there. It was too bizarre, too much of a coincidence. She had stormed upstairs and turned the shower on.

A habit she had started in college, when she was overwhelmed, a hot shower was just the thing she needed. She stripped down and stepped in before the water had warmed up completely, but she didn’t really notice. The shower was just a vessel; June just needed space to decompress. So, she thought about the tanned skinned farmer, and how cold he had seemed. He hadn’t seemed interested, but she had felt his eyes on her all night. She had seen his anger at another guy approaching her. She had felt how angry he was from across the room.

She lathered her body up, and almost absent-mindedly rubbed small circles around her budding nipples. She worked down, and let the soap wash off. She didn’t normally masturbate, but his brooding face and broad shoulders wouldn’t leave her mind. So, she slipped a finger inside herself with one hand, and worked her clit with the other. It was lazy at first, but then she remembered their encounter from the morning and she started going harder, getting worked up. She came hard, whimpering to herself in the steamy shelter of her bathroom. The hot water pelted her skin, and she rested her forehead against the cool, tiled wall.

Whoever this Fish was, she was going to fuck him. She had to get this farmer out of her mind.

Frankie was seeing red as he stormed up to his door. Of course, he had no reason to be pissed. He knew he had no reason to be pissed, but here he was, stomping to his kitchen and grabbing a beer from the fridge. He had wanted to break that guy’s legs for even coming near her. He scoffed at himself, her. He didn’t even know her name and he was ready to pummel someone for looking. Someone was looking, someone would always be looking. She was so gorgeous. He folded over his counter and rested his forehead against his hands. Nothing could help it now. Santi’s girl had messaged him, and the night was over. What was he supposed to do? Watch his dream girl get hit on by some idiot? March up and apologize for being such a giant dickhead? He suspected he was onto something, but he was just buzzed enough to ignore it.

He went to the couch, and threw a few stuffed animals on the floor. He had already kicked off his shoes, but he let his jeans fall to the floor now. The perks of Liv having a sleepover, he chuckled to himself before laying out on the couch. He adjusted himself, his hard dick straining against his underwear.

He planned to ignore that too. But, then he was thinking about her. Her hair down her back, deep and dark. Her smooth skin, inviting and leading his eyes to her ass. He pulled himself free and started slowly rubbing. He thumbed over the tip, and groaned at the precum pooling there. He wanted her so bad. He started thinking about how soft she would be, what she would look like on her knees doing this to him, and he fucked up harder into his fist. He closed his eyes when he felt the snap, and grunted through the orgasm. He wiped his hand down his shirt, and groaned.

He had to get her out of his head.

Part Two: Something More

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