#and klavier's the wrong one for his crimes of Making mid music

[ritzcuit]

thinking abt klav dar morality and stuff is so fun to me but it's soooo unsatisfying bc ill NEVER HAVE ANY ANSWER EVER. sigh! and also it's deeply tainted by my own beliefs. SIGH!

i like them being pre-gavinners young and childish and "oh well, clearly, Bad People do Bad Things" a thing they both agree on. very confidently. i like a daryan who like, you'd think he was a delinquent kid, a shitty brat.... but tbh i just don't think it would be the case. i think MAYBE he got in some fights.... but i don't think he was the full blown like, "always in trouble good for nothing no future" esque punk.

i think if he was cool enough to be a delinquent he wouldnt be in the FUCKING GAVINNERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!COUGHS UP BLOOD

i think klavier went into law bc kristoph (obviously) and daryan went into law bc of klavier more or less..

i think of them having really confident discussions on like. well why don't evil people just not be evil. right? "oh clearly something would have to be wrong with you to murder someone." esque beliefs. "normal people can't do something so fucked up." stuff like that...dumb self assured kids. esp klavier, who i don't have interesting thoughts on bc i dont care about him LOL

like they get a little older. and get into law. and it's cool. and fucking awesome. and aging makes them a little less tightass about everything. they get independent they make music they get exposed to the wider world etc.... i think daryan stays looser about it overall, about crime and shit. and then daryan moves to a different division and quits working w klav on cases and blah blah

taking the music as a metaphor for their view on crime probably, how klavier freaking over [the missed cue] whereas daryan insists that it's Not A Big Deal... which, like, for the case specifically, it did turn out to be a big deal, but i'll pretend like it's indicative of their views overall, where daryan's willing to let tiny things slide and where klavier pointedly won't. Bc it's about the principle of the thing.

i think klavier goes back to being a tightass. i think when he was 17 and looking like a little lesbian was probably the Coolest he ever was. idk what happened between then and canon that made him regress into being a kristoph 2 but it's fun to me if something did happen... i just don't care. probably not the disbarring? or i guess it could be. i dont CAREEE about him

all this to say, i really like thinking about a klavier looking back on daryan and wondering [what went wrong], because either something went wrong, or he had always been friends with an Evil Person. and for years he's just never noticed that daryan was Evil and capable of Murder and Covering up and Lying. and stuff.

which of course was a question he was already going through with kristoph, or maybe pointedly *not* going through? daryan is close to him but not as close as kristoph and the crimes weren't so fucking premeditated so it's maybe an easier entry point for this whole thought process for him. "your best friend botched a drug smuggling and snuffed a cop who was gonna rat him out" is a hard pill but not as hard a pill as "whatever the fuck kristoph was up to" NELKNDLKNGFD

And it's fun to think about... him trying to get answers from daryan directly. like tell me are you a bad person? are you? or like, what happened? and when did it change? and how long and why? and it's like. there isn't an answer! daryan doesn't have one! and it's just a shitty thing to ask. as if klavier's shattered sense of comfort is the real issue here and not "daryan is in prison for murder"NELKNDFKLN it's just fun... it's just fun... was it always you? or was it like, the system? who changed you? and daryan's so uncomfortable. and it pisses him off so bad.

i just like it. it's so cutie. two boys who thought they had such a sure view of the world realizing in the most simple of ways that Oh, No, it turns out we're all directly capable of crime in various shades of culpability and evilness can't be cleanly prescribed like that. and it was a deeply flawed and stupid way of viewing the world, especially if the person who told you that in the first place was one of the cruelest people either of you knew up to that point LIKEEE. messyyy lol. it's so cute.

Like like like daryan who already always had an aggressive demeanor and kind of rubbed people the wrong way but klavier always insisted he's an upstanding person and one of the people klavier trusted most ... someone who klavier probably had to defend a lot just in conversation. and it wasn't misplaced? like klavier wasn't lying! being an asshole isn't a crime and doesn't make someone evil. but in hindsight oh it's tainted foreverrrr.

also again the daryan who's watching klavier have this like internal crisis of faith and he's like can you do this elsewhere. Like i'm in prison right now i don't need thinLKNFKLDFNGKNDFG HELP