#and its just the looming feeling of “well celeste if u were better at art surely u wouldnt be feeling thjis way” (no correlation) but also.

[kroosluvr]

ive seemed to lock myself into a state of like impossible-to-be-vulnerable-around-my-friends-anymore lol lmao AHHH

i talk too much write too much draw too much feel too much i just want it all to go awway!!!!! i just want to make art. i dont want any of the other things that comewith being human i just wantto make art. gggh

That being said i like . postng here ppl are really nice and everyones really nice abt my art and ideas and its so warm and nice and fulfilling so i guess it feels even emptier that i cant talk to my friends abt my ideas and stuff. like i mean i Can but i just :x i dont know. i clam up really hard because i just feel so stupid abt it. eeeee

ill get back to art and the usual longwinter posting soon . head in hands. clutches head