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8cfc00 ยท 11 months ago
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cant believe my posts have not been explodinf w notes this is so fucked im drawing grant wilson mitski a pearl
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tittysuckersworld ยท 3 months ago
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i love my brother making me feel increadibly unsafe
#for context! we got reported to cps again last year- dont want to get into it because it was a wile ago and nothing came of it but yknow#and my little brother has diagnosed autism(i might have it but its aperantly too expensive after my little bros diagnosis)#so uh yeah- today i did laundry and he had barely any clothes in the difty clothes and 3 peices total in the clean bin#also just a few days ago he left the bathroom and i could litterally smell him- not as in could smell soap just body odor#and i dont have a problem with that personally! but we got reported first time because of me and him and older bro being dirty#and outside people can have a problem with it and he litterally dosent consistantly take showers at all-#and it bothers the hell out of me- sorry our dad is innatentive so for fucking years ive had to talk to him about this#we were only able to get him to wear deodorant recently for fucks sake! like if you dont mind that cool#but you have to think of others around you- and your actions have fucking affects on others#and im so frustrated. and tired. sorry i dont know how to exagerate this exept this has been a cycle for years.#every few months i notice again him not changing clothes or cleaning at all and ask him to be better and he trys for a bit until#he lets himself go again and i have to tell him off again because hes ugh#im so tired. ive told him for years that me and dad wont be around forever but it never seems to set in. we cant be there to tell him to be#clean once hes on his own. and he cant just get a partner to do it for him because thats ridiculous.#yeah that it- i know it shouldnt matter if hes dirty but it dose to me because everytime he is im scared the cps people will come again#and make it so im forced to be back in the horible horible place i was taken to when i was a kid. and its scarry
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kroosluvr ยท 4 months ago
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temptation
i lowkey have too many notes to write down properly KDFHKDS but ill write them down for Future Cele so i can read it later and be like omggg past cele ur so fun and interesting
in general, the more "color" the scenes have, the closer it is to "real life" as opposed to the muted/hushed winter blues of maruki's reality
i.e. the dark frames w akira smiling and the very last panel are when reality sinks in: first for akira, then for goro
by the way this is long winter au but sumire is still brainwashed. this also works for canonverse but i just had long winter au in mind:o
youve heard of laundry and taxes now get ready for coffee and pastries
in every panel, akira is smiling! :) and goro is very much not smiling.
intentionally his face is hidden in the last 2 pages so its unclear whether it's the "ideal reality" already (akira/goro's daydreams/wants/desires), or if goro is still fighting akira on making sure he picks the right choice
the smoke from the first page kinda leads into the 3rd page omfg COMPLETELY UNINTENTIONAL BUT REALLY COOL LMAOOO
that's nameless and belladonna in jazz jin!!! i love them. I LOVETHEM. i miss them so bad is it obvious
the cafe is loosely based off of caffe strada @ uc berkeley LMAO. my parents used to take me there a lot as a little kid so that's the first cafe i think of when i imagine one. its like right on the streetside, basically on the sidewalk, so its very bustling and people are always walking by... probably a little disconcerting to see everyones summery bright smiles despite the bitter cold and snow
in long winter AU, the Ideal Reality starts before 1/1 so yeah they get to see the new years fireworks together (or something)
also intentional that they wear the same winter outfits in the whole comic although it Probably does not take place at the same time. in maruki's snowglobe, time seems frozen in place... but akira and goro are both acutely aware that the sands are running thru QUICK
goro's frustrated expression on page 3 is one also of disdain: "don't speak FOR me you fucking imbecile" type of expression.
goro, who's never lived a normal life and therefore doesn't know much abt "normalcy" nor really actively seeks it. this 3rd semester is basically purgatory for him and he doesn't care to try and go through the motions the way akira does. akira what do YOU know about the type of "normalcy" i deserve? how do YOU know if i "deserve" that?
im thinking that this is a naive akira who is mostly set on taking the deal because he feels hopeless... seeing all his friends with good happy lives while goro and himself are alive and miserable and shouldering the weight of the world during the horror of long winter......
oh but if he takes the deal they could all be good and alive and happy!!!.... and goro knows this. i feel like in any other universe (i.e. akira is 100% certain on not taking the deal and goro knows this) then goro would be happy and carefree to do these little indulgences for himself and akira's sake, to just enjoy the snowglobe world while it exists.
but this goro is discontent. he sees how akira is enjoying the snowglobe and knows maruki is depending on this. goro has to be the one to remind akira that none of this is his to keep........ in this fucked up world, routine is dangerous. becoming comfortable is dangerous. they cannot keep any of this.
on that note, goro says "i hate you" in a halfhearted sort of way (it's not true and akira knows that.) but he's trying to think of a way that he can dissuade akira from picking the wrong choice.....
and i think the thing is, goro thinks all of this, but he still falls into the rhythm of routine with akira anyway. in a way, goro feels hopeless too.
all of this is maruki's doing........ paralyzed by the inability to choose... whatever you do, you lose. goro needs to hold akira at arm's length so the stupid sentimental fool doesn't get too attached and falls into the wrong universe. akira needs to make a concentrated effort to detach himself from goro even though he wants the simplest thing in the world: just one more unremarkable day with him. it's lose-lose..........,
also i liked drawing the tentacles in the last pic the freaking blue lines on them were SO satisfying to draw
edit: also the last page: the blood flooding the panelโ€ฆ.. the idea of the ideal world being built off of the blood and sweat and tears and bodies of the people who could have been. of those lost in the actualization, of those destroyed, of those stitched together and brought back to life. all just for a little false happiness. goro sees it but akira doesnโ€™t, and itโ€™s a grim sight.
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activesplooger ยท 4 months ago
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๐’๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐š๐ซ๐ฒ: Your boyfriend enters his season! He's constantly in heat and stubbornly won't give in to his desires. As his season ends, you enter estrus, causing a hot sticky mess for the both of you!
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It was no secret that your boyfriend is in his heat season. This became apparent when you were woken by the screeching sound of antlers rutting against the bark of a tree. You look around, the bluriness of the room fading as you wake up a bit more. Lifting your hands to your face, you rub your eyes and groggily turn towards the noise. Your eyes flicker to the bayou section of Alastor's room. Immediately, your previously groggy state disappears, eyes widening at the sight before you. "KRRRRRRRRK KRRRRRRRK KRRRRK KRRR-" "Alastor!" The scraping comes to a sudden halt as you speak. Alastor still had his back facing you hunched over beside the tree, antlers just barely inches away from the torn bark. Nearly every tree in the bayou was scraped bare of its bark, how long had he been doing this for..? Realization hits you like a truck, "Ooohhhh you're in-" "Not a word. I can control it", The Deer demon curtly states, "Go back to bed." You knew he didn't mean to be dismissive, but that didn't prevent the pang of sadness that tugged your lips downward. "Aren't you gonna come back to bed?" Alastor sighs and turns to face you, his hungry eyes boaring into yours. "Go back to bed, I'll join you later.".
Without a word, you lay back down and sigh, trying to go back to sleep without the embrace of your partner. Alastorโ€™s expression softens, he needed some time to work through his season, he never meant to distance himself in the process.
โ€œGoodnight, darling. I love you.โ€.
A smile spreads across your face, those three little words were all you needed, โ€œI love you too, sweet dreams.โ€
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Despite what the demon said, he was anything but in control of it. Alastor desperately tried to remain celibate the next few weeks of his heat season. Which, confused you because itโ€™s not like you hadnโ€™t had sex before or anything. And while it happens sporadically, this seemed like a good occasion to do it. All heโ€™d have to do to get rid of his pestering urges is to fuck you, yet he remained stubborn. Whatโ€™s holding him back?
When you asked him, he rambled about something along the lines of wanting his desires to be on โ€œhis termsโ€. In other words, he just wanted control. You rolled your eyes at this. All this trouble because of reluctance to give in to an easy-to-fix solution? โ€˜Whatever, itโ€™s just a few more weeks of thisโ€ฆโ€™ you thought to yourself. He hated how much he needed release, how much he craved and yearned for it. Alastor needed to be the one to decide when and where heโ€™d want to have sex. However, with his current irresistible urges, he needed sex everywhere, all the time. As a result of this, Alastor decided it would be best if he slept in a different room for the time being. Which, again, didn't make any sense. Why couldn't he just fuck you and get it done with? But, nooo he had to be in control 24/7, leaving you lonely in the large desolate bed. You never complained, of course, despite how much you wanted to. It was frustrating sure, but, you know what it's like to be in your season so you kept your mouth shut. It had put some strain on your relationship, however, you knew it would only make things worse if you argued with him. He's tense enough already. Besides, it's only a few months out of the year! You can argue for the rest of eternity after said period. --
As time passed, the deerโ€™s strained behavior only worsened. His animalistic instincts were kicking in and intensified. Letโ€™s be honest, Alastorโ€™s hygiene wasnโ€™t the greatest (especially when it comes to dental hygiene). But, it got exponentially worse when he started smearing mud on himself to 'enhance his scent'. You knew it was all typical heat season behavior, but still, gross.
Possessiveness was another unfortunate symptom of the season. If Alastor saw another male just simply looking at you, heโ€™d take it as a challenge. Large black tentacles would stretch out and slam whoever you were with into the nearest wall. And while, yes, it was nice to have a protective boyfriend, it certainly wasn't nice to have a daily hospital visit and apology card to whoever Alastor felt threatened by. Luckily, the season was almost over! No more hiding from Alastor when talking to another guy and having a smelly boyfriend! Yay! Everything seemed to be clearing up on its own... that was until you entered estrus.
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โ€œNo noโ€ฆ Nononoโ€ฆโ€. You mutter as you pace around the room. Just as the season was about over, you just had to enter estrus. Great. Now, not only did Alastor have to suppress his urges, you did too. Not because you wanted to, but because you didnโ€™t want to tempt Alastor anymore than he already was.
Facing a large full body mirror, you try to to cover up any possible signs that your in your season. Your tail lays flat against your backside, and while that wasnโ€™t the most obvious trait, you knew Alastor would figure you out easily. Pheromones were being released in heavy doses, a scent that could attract a buck from miles away. Luckily for you, Alastorโ€™s taking a visit to the doomsday district to โ€œBlow off some steam.โ€ Phew.
Frantically rummaging through the closet, you look for something, anything that could hide this for him. You didnโ€™t really have anything large enough to hide your tail, and if you did, the imprint of your tail would stick out of the fabric from the back and make it obvious. Crap.
A spare of Alastorโ€™s coat hangs teasingly against on the other side of your shared closet. Temptation sweeps over you, making you realize just how horny you were. Hesitant hands reach out to grab the soft fabric and lift it up to your nose. โ€˜Fuckโ€ฆ Am I a pervert? Oh well.โ€™ you think to yourself as you inhale Alastorโ€™s scent through the fabric. Bourbon and vanilla scent hits your nose, sending shivers down your spine.
Suddenly, an idea pops into your head. You slip your arms into the coat and walk towards the mirror. The coat perfectly hid your tail and Alastorโ€™s lingering musk on the fabric masked the scent of your pheromones. For once in your life, being kind of a pervert paid off! __
Currently, youโ€™re sitting at the bar nursing a drink, trying to ignore how badly you want to be fucked so hard your organs rearrange. As far as hiding your physical symptoms went, it was pretty easy. But the internal turmoil was eating you alive, and not in a sexy way. Every position, sound, scenario, and feeling was being conjured in your mind as you sit there โ€œcalmlyโ€ on the barstool. Your mind was so preoccupied that you didnโ€™t notice Alastor approaching you.
โ€œYou know darling, if you liked my clothes so much you couldโ€™ve just said so.โ€ The deer jests.
The sudden noise startles you, snapping you out of your thoughts. โ€œAH!โ€ you practically jump out of your seat before realizing itโ€™s just Alastor, โ€œOh! Hello love. How was the doomsday district?โ€ His shoulders bob up and down, a soft grin on his lips, "It was fine. Very effective. Perhaps I'll be able to join you in bed tonight.". Fuck. If he slept in your room tonight, the coat will have to come off and all will be revealed. "O-Oh! Are you sure? I don't wanna pressure y-" "Nonsense, dear!" The deer interrupted with a smile, "I've had quite enough time away. I'm sure I'll be fine for a night!" "Yes, but, honey... What if your instincts take over?". You hesitantly try to put the thought of not sleeping together in his head. Alastor waves a dismissive hand, "Nonsense, dear! I'll be alright." "Honey, I don't think this is a good idea-" You stated firmly. His smile strains as his eyebrows furrow, "Why? Is there something you're hiding from me?". "No I-" "Have you grown accustomed to sleeping without me?" he accused. "No, no... Al," you reluctantly begin, "I'd love to sleep beside you again... I just wanted to be sure you were okay with it.". Lies. Well, partly. You did want to cuddle with your partner just... not with the current 'circumstances'. But now you had no choice but to find some way to hide your growing urges and instincts. -- The door shuts behind you as you walk into your room. You feel your heartbeat pick up as your palms start to moisten. 'Deep breaths, Y/N," you think to yourself, 'he won't find out... Just stay calm and act normal.'
The two of you get ready for bed: brushing your teeth (well, you are at least), washing your face, and are currently putting on PJs. You changed in the closet, away from Alastor, which he thankfully paid no mind to. After putting on a lacy nightgown, you hastily throw the coat back over your shoulders. In hindsight, this was definitely a dead giveaway that you were hiding something. But, what choice did you have? Putting on a tranquil facade, you enter the bedroom. Alastor's sitting at the edge of the bed when you walk in, finishing buttoning up his nightshirt. 'Damn, even in pajamas he's still hot as fuck' you think. You ogle at your boyfriend for a moment, heat rising in your chest. "Ah ah, dear, don't look at me like that" He playfully reminds you. His words snap you back into reality, you smile softly at him. "Sorry, sorry!" you stammer. Walking to your side of the bed, you stare directly at the floor as to not get distracted by your growing arousal. 'Keep it together Y/N!'. Alastor's eyebrows furrow, "Darling?". "Yes?" you respond. A sharp red claw gestures to the coat, "Why are you still wearing that?". "Oh!" beads of sweat form on your forehead as you clammer to find some sort of excuse "I justtttt.... get a little chilly at night! Yep, just a case of uh cold-ness... yeah...". 'God damn it... Am I fucking stupid? "Cold-ness" isn't even a word!' you mentally berate yourself. Your boyfriend turns to fully face you on the bed, "And why does it have to be my coat, hm? Can't you use one of yours?". Fidgeting with your hands nervously, you reply, "Well I just like yours! It's nice, it reminds me of you.". "Pray tell, my dear," he begins, "Why must you be reminded of me when I'm right beside you in bed?". You take a deep breath, "Well, in your... 'condition'-". "Watch it, Darling," he warns. "Right right," you sit up straighter as you become more confident in your convoluted excuse, "I just figured you wouldn't be able to handle cuddling me. In fact, youโ€™ll probably just stay on your side of the bed all night. Hence why I wanted the coat". You feel a little prideful at your on-the-spot reasoningโ€ฆ until you see your boyfriendโ€™s expression. Yeahhh, he looked pissed. Alastor's wide grin twitches, "Excuse you, Darling! I am perfectly capable of controlling myself for one night!โ€. โ€œWell, then why didnโ€™t you sleep in here for a month?!โ€ you retort, immediately regretting it. You werenโ€™t actually mad, just defensive. Oh well, no going back now. "That's it!" He reaches for the sleeve of your coat, pulling on it roughly. "Hey!" you exclaim. Trying (and failing) to yank the sleeve back, the coat flings off your shoulders and into Alastor's tight grip. He discards it on the floor beside the bed. Luckily, he wasn't in a position to notice your tail, however, that didn't affect your boyfriend's sense of smell... Holding his nose high in the air, he takes small quick sniffs near you, his ears twitching at the smell of your pheromones. His pupils dilate to the size of quarters, any restraint he had before was now completely gone, "My dear," He crawls toward you on all fours, making his way across the bed, "I've spent the past few months aching for release, but I've restrained myself...". You inch backward away from him, "Alastor... Be rational... You've tried so hard, I don't want you to regret this.". As soon as you finish speaking, you inch too far off the bed and suddenly fall back, eliciting a yelp. A slender arm reaches out to grab yours, lifting you up and saving you from the fall. Alastor pulls on your arm, lifting you up so that your faces were inches apart. He takes a deep breath in, the scent of pheromones filling his nose. His eyes bore into you with a hungry, desperate, gaze, lips slightly parted as his breath grows heavier. โ€œMy dearโ€ฆ I would never regret making love to youโ€ฆ If I did have any regrets, it would be that I didnโ€™t do this soonerโ€ฆโ€.
Half lidded eyes meet his lustful gaze, โ€œYour sure about this?โ€. Alastorโ€™s eyes linger on your lips as he speaks, his voice low and raspy, โ€œIโ€™ve restrained myself for far too longโ€ฆ I would hate to you holding back as well. This has been a long time coming, darling, and nowโ€ฆโ€. Reaching over, his lips teasingly brush against your ear as he whispers,โ€Iโ€™m taking whats mine.โ€.
You cradle his face in your hands, thumb brushing over his flushed cheeks. Suddenly, he captures your lips in a firm kiss. The tender kisses turn sloppier, his tongue swiping past your lips asking for entry. As soon as your lips part, his long slender tongue slides against yours. You moan against his lips at the feeling which only fuels his desire more. Intertwining your tongue with his, his hand cards through your hair at the back of your head, pulling you closer. The kiss deepens, drawing out a stifled moan from Alastor. You position yourself so youโ€™re straddling his lap, his boner poking against your thigh.
As the two of you make out, you slowly roll your clothed core against the tent in his pants. Alastor pulls back from the kiss, his head jerking down into the crook of your neck. โ€œDarling,โ€ his large hands grip your hips, keeping them from moving, "I have a better idea...". He lifts his head back up and instantly closes the distance between the two of you. Your tongues intertwine and sloppily kiss one another, your lips lubricated with his saliva.
He moves his hands to the straps of your nightgown. The thin silky straps gently pull off your shoulders. Alastor places his palm under your elbow and pushes up gently, a silent way of asking you to put your arms up. You oblige and lift your arms followed by Alastor briefly breaking the kiss and slipping the nightgown over your head. His eyes rake over your almost naked body. One of his large hands reaches out to cup your breast. The sudden contact sends a shiver down your spine. His thumb brushes over your nipple, the bud hardening at his cold touch. Meanwhile, his other hand travels down your body and hooks his finger under the lacy thong. Stretching the lace strap, a soft hum escapes his lips. Your breath quickens as you eagerly await his next move, needing his touch and release.
Unhooking his finger, he moves his hand to the damp spot on the underside of your thong. A breathy moan escapes your lips, "Fuck, Alastor... Don't tease.". Removing his hands, he holds them up in a gesture of surrender, "Can't handle a bit of foreplay, darling?". "Hush" you reply, your hands working to unbutton his nightshirt. Once unbuttoned, you toss the shirt off to the side and gaze at his toned torso. "See something you like?" he jests. You playfully roll your eyes and get to work on sliding off his pajama pants. Once his pants are off, his aching member frees the confines of the fabric, his tail twitching in anticipation. Alastor shudders at the cold air hitting his throbbing, erect cock. Your gaze tears away from his dick and meets his face. His eyes are half-lidded with a deep shade of pink dusting his cheeks, mouth slightly agape as he pants heavily. "What? Can't handle a bit of foreplay?" you tease.
Alastor's eyebrows furrow, a tight-lipped grin forming on his face, "You know what? No, I can't.". In a swift motion, he grabs you by the waist and tosses you on the bed. As your stomach hits the cold dark red comforter, you make a small "oof!" sound. Alastor's hands slither to both sides of your waist and lift you gently, propping you up on your hands and knees. A slender finger slides against the drenched folds of your pussy, a single digit dipping into your tight center. You let out a soft pleasured gasp at the feeling. As much as you enjoyed this, it only made you crave more. He tantalizingly pulls out his finger and brings it to his lips, sucking your juices off it. Pulling the finger out with a satisfying 'pop', he leans over your body. His chest presses against your back as he whispers in a husky low tone, "My my, little doe... You taste divine.". A needy whimper escapes your throat as your dripping cunt aches to be filled.
He kisses his way down your back, leaving a final kiss at the base of your perked-up tail before lifting his head back up. Alastor gently spreads the beads of pre-cum around his dick for extra lubrication, not that you needed, it of course. Large hands clutch the sides of your hips, claws dimpling your supple skin. Pre-cum and saliva from his hands spreads onto your skin, the moist texture making your stomach flutter. -- Alastor aligns his shaft with your opening, gradually penetrating you. A choked gasp leaves your mouth as he stretches you out, filling your needy cunt. After a bit of getting used to his length, he slowly thrusts into you. "That's it, little doe," he coos, "taking me so well... You'll look great as a mother".
Alastor pants heavily as he continues to rut into you, his pace picking up as he reaches closer and closer to a climax. Sparks of pleasure hit your core and he enters you at a rough tempo. "Mmph~ Al... That's it- D-Don't stop." you whimper. "Stop?" he begins, sliding into you at a more rigorous pace, "Wouldn't dream of it... After all, I couldn't leave my precious doe without filling her properly couldn't I?". Pleasure clouds your mind, all you can respond with is a cry of satisfaction. "Ah ah ah, use your words dear. Tell me how much you crave my seed.". "Need you to fill me... Need it so bad... Please..." you mumble, focused more on your approaching climax. Your words encourage Alastor further, thrusting into you deeper and hitting spots you didn't even know could be reached. His pelvis slams against your clit, sending sparks through your already trembling pussy. He speaks through strangled grunts and pants, "That's right, my doe, I'm gonna fill you over and over until you're filled with my fawns...". His large hands travel from your hips up to your chest, cupping your breasts in his hands. Mewling at the added pleasure, his thumb and index finger rolled the sensitive buds in his hands. "These would look so nice and pretty when they're swelled with milk, don't you think?". His dick slams into you at a ruthless pace. The sounds of skin slapping against skin along with moans and grunts of pleasure filled the air. Alastor takes a deep breath in, inhaling the scent of pheromones. His pupils widened further, his primal instincts kicking in. Releasing your tender breasts, he lifts your thigh up over his shoulder to get a new angle. His cock drills into you at a ruthless tempo, "Gotta - Nnnph~ make sure my seed's deep inside you... Gonna- load my fawns into you...". You feel your stomach tighten as you reach your release, "Al- M'gonna-". As your orgasm washes over you, hot loads of cum fill your greedy pussy. Your cunt clenches around his drenched cock as he rides out your orgasm. His pace gradually declines as the pleasure begins to fade. Alastors upper body goes limp from his climax, torso resting against your back. The two of you take a moment to catch your breath, panting heavily as he remains buried inside of you. After taking a beat, he pulls out of you. Cum spills of your cunt, loads of semen dripping down your folds and onto the bedding below. "You've made quite the mess my dear." he jests breathlessly, plunging a finger into your pussy to keep the seed from spilling, "Though, we can't let this go to waste, hm? I wasn't joking when I said you'd make a lovely mother.". You chuckle wearily and plop onto the mattress.
Rolling over onto your back, Alastor grabs the discarded clothes and helps you put your pajamas back on. He slips the silk gown back on you and presses a kiss to your forehead, "You did so well, my beautiful doe...". A smile stretches across your face at the praise. Returning the favor, you help him dress as well - buttoning up his night shirt and sliding his pants back on.
His arms wrap around your stomach as he pulls you into a loving embrace. Alastor bundles the two of you in the dark red comforter, spooning you and nuzzling his face into the crook of your neck. "I love you, Alastor" you whisper. "I love you too, darling. Sweet dreams.". With a final kiss pressed onto your cheek, you both drift off to a pleasant slumber.
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YAYAYAYYA i tried rlly hard so if u dont like it then FUCK U (jk). but yeah i hope u like ittt. pls leave feedback guys :,) good or bad idfc but i rlly wanna improve and feedback is important for that!!! i hope u liked it :) i meant for the smut to be longer tbh, sorry if it wasnt as long as u were hoping. im still new at this so I tried to keep it short and sweet. I felt as if i kept it too long the quality would decline and that sucks so :/ hope u liked ittt!!!!! also i didnt edit this bc im tired lol but if u see a mistake point it out
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BABY IT AIN'T REALLY CHEATING IF HE DON'T SEE โ”€โ”€ BUECKERSโต
how you can help palestine prequel part three
โ˜… based on dope love by gucci mane. you have an annoying boyfriend who always seems to be jealous of paige. and you've never even given him a reason to not trust you . . . of course not!
ย โ € โ”€โ”€ โ €warnings ;; nsfw under the cut, mdni. smut with a little plot, cheating (on irrelevant bf), asshole!paige, fingering, exhibitionism (sorta if that's what you can even call it).
ย โ € โ”€โ”€ โ €word count ;; 3.6k
ย โ € โ”€โ”€ โ €rylin's notes ;; requests are open for those who want to send them in :p
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"you're embarrassing me," the words came out of your mouth, your tone annoyed as you glared up at your boyfriend. you couldn't believe that he asked paige for a 1v1 โ€“ and on top of that, he lost.
now he was acting all pissy, pacing back and forth on the court with his hands on his hips. paige, your best friend since forever, stood a few feet away, trying to hide her smirk. obviously, she shouldn't be intimidated by your boyfriend, who was supposed to be confident and supportive, not a sore loser.
"maybe if you hadn't underestimated her," you continued, your voice cutting through his grumbling. "you know how good she is, she's literally d1."
paige smirked slightly as she shrugged, taking a sip out of the red solo cup. "it's just a game, guys. it's not a big deal,"
your boyfriend shot her a glare, then turned to you. "why are you taking her side?"
"cus you're acting like a damn child," you snapped back. "it's not her fault you lost."
your boyfriendโ€™s face flushed an even deeper shade of red. he stopped pacing and turned to face you, his hands still on his hips. the music and laughter from the party around you seemed to fade into the background as his eyes searched yours for any sort of validation.
"i just... didn't think she'd take it so seriously," he mumbled, his voice lacking its usual confidence.
paige chuckled softly, shaking her head. "i didn't take it seriously, man. it's just a game," she repeated, her tone light but her eyes sparkling with a hint of amusement as she glanced at you, licking her lips slightly.
"just a game?" he repeated as he glared at the blonde. "i just got beat by a girl! i'm gonna get absolutely flamed in the groupchat,"
"hey, she's also d1! you don't even play basketball," you retorted, feeling your frustration rise. "it's not like you lost to someone off the street. paige is amazing at this."
"whatever," he muttered, looking away and crossing his arms. "still feels like shit, specially cause you're my girl and shit,"
paige raised an eyebrow, clearly enjoying the interaction more than she should. "dude, it's just a game. and besides, who cares what your friends think? they'll get over it."
"easy for you to say," he snapped back, his voice growing louder as he began walking toward her. "you didn't just embarrass yourself."
you stepped between them, your patience wearing thin. "enough. you're acting like a sore loser and it's not a good look."
he glared at you, the hurt evident in his eyes. "why are you always defending her? it's like you take her side over mine every fuckin' time."
"because you're acting ridiculous!" you shot back. "paige is my best friend, and you're being unfair to her and to me. this has nothing to do with sides and more to do with you and your weird competition with her."
he clenched his jaw, his eyes flicking back and forth between you and paige. "weird competition? baby, it's obvious she has a thing for you, i mean jesus-"
you immediately let out a groan. "are we really gonna talk about this now, again? i told you-"
"i don't care, she obviously does!" he finally snapped. you grabbed his arm as he continued shouting about whatever he thinks is going on between you the blonde.
paige watched as you dragged your boyfriend to the side, letting out an amused laugh as she shook her head. she went back inside to get a refill, finding aubrey and nika.
"you gotta stop playing with him," nika stifled a laugh as she glanced outside, watching you and your boyfriend laughing. "i feel bad. we all watched him get absolutely obliterated by you."
aubrey laughed, nodding. "that was so fucking embarrassing, my god. i got an ick and i don't even like him."
paige shrugged, a smirk playing on her lips. "can't help that i'm good at basketball. and it's not like i'm doing it on purpose. he's the one who keeps trying to prove himself."
nika shook her head, still grinning. "well, he's definitely not doing himself any favors."
aubrey took a sip from her cup, raising an eyebrow. "you think she's actually gonna stay with him much longer? i mean, look at them."
they all glanced outside where you were still talking animatedly with your boyfriend. his face was red with frustration, while yours was a mix of exasperation and annoyance.
paige sighed, her expression softening a bit. "nah, probably. she deserves someone who doesn't get all insecure and jealous over nothing."
aubrey and nika exchanged looks, their faces entertained. nika spoke up, "paige we're not dumb, we know you've fucked before."
paige shrugged, a smirk tugging at the corners of her lips. "yeah well... they were on break," she look a sip of her drink as she glanced up at her friends, their expressions unconvinced.
nika raised an eyebrow, her curiosity piqued. "on a break, huh? and does he know about this?"
paige hesitated for a moment, then shook her head. "nah, he doesn't."
nika let out a low whistle. "that's risky, paige. he looks like the type to not mind... you know, beating your ass."
paige laughed as she shrugged. "yeah and he's also like, 5'8."
"if he tried, he'd get humbled," aubrey glanced toward her blonde friend, a smirk playing on her lips. "again," she added.
paige chuckled, her confidence unwavering. "exactly. i'm not too worried about him. besides, it's not like it was a regular thing. it was a one-time thing."
nika leaned back, her expression thoughtful. "still, you should be careful. if he finds out, things could get messy."
paige nodded, acknowledging the risk. "yeah, but it's done, and i can't undo it, i just have to handle things as they come."
aubrey took a sip from her drink, her eyes glinting with mischief. "you know, if you play your cards right, you might not have to worry about him for much longer."
"yeah, i know," she smirked as she glanced at you, you were still arguing with your boyfriend. "i know,"
as they continued talking, you and your boyfriend reentered the house, your faces still showing signs of the recent argument. paige watched as you tried to shake off the tension, joining your friends and attempting to immerse yourself in the party's atmosphere.
nika leaned in, whispering to paige, "think she'll be okay?"
Paige nodded, her eyes following you as you made your way to the group. "she's a big girl, i don't think she cares as much she pretends to."
you approached, giving paige a grateful smile. "hey, guys. sorry about that."
aubrey waved it off, her demeanor light and carefree. "no worries. we're just glad you're back."
nika chimed in, "yeah, we missed you. come on, let's have some fun."
you felt a wave of relief wash over you as your friends welcomed you back with open arms. paige stayed close, her presence a steady comfort. the rest of the night passed in a blur of laughter and camaraderie, the earlier tension fading into the background.
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"and he's so damn clingy, it gets on my nerves," you resisted an eyeroll as you spoke, doing your night time routine in the foggy mirror. paige stood behind you, her hands on your hips and her chin on your shoulder, watching you through the reflection.
"yeah?" she mumbled as you nodded. her hair was wet from the shower, her eyes were red from the exhaustion of the whole day but right now โ€“ she didn't feel a tinge of weariness.
you sighed, putting down your toothbrush and meeting paige's eyes in the mirror. "yeah, itโ€™s like he always needs to know where i am, what iโ€™m doing, who iโ€™m with. Itโ€™s suffocating."
paige grip on your hips tightened slightly, her presence grounding you. "sounds exhausting," she murmured, her voice gentle. "you deserve to feel free, not like youโ€™re constantly under surveillance."
you nodded, leaning back into her embrace. "exactly. and tonight... all that jealousy over a basketball game? it's just too much."
paige pressed a soft kiss to your shoulder, her breath warm against your skin. "you deserve better than that. someone who trusts you and supports you, not someone whoโ€™s always questioning you."
you turned to face her, her hands sliding around to rest on the small of your back. "i know. itโ€™s just hard. we've been together for a while, and i donโ€™t wanna hurt him. but i canโ€™t keep going like this."
paige's eyes softened, her thumb brushing gently against your side as her hands slid down them. "you have to take care of yourself first. itโ€™s not selfish to want to be happy."
you smiled as her eyes dilated, her tongue sticking out to wet her lips. "he needs to trust you, cause... you know, you are," paige's voice came out teasing.
you let out a playful scoff as you pushed her away, a smirk playing on your lips. "gonna bring that up again, p?"
"what?" she laughed as her hands made their way back to your hips. "really gonna tell that i didn't rock your world? you were crying and everything, my ego's never gonna that go."
"i know," you felt your cheeks heat up, a blush creeping up your neck. "don't need to remind me every chance you get."
paige's laughter was warm and genuine as she pulled you closer again, her forehead resting against yours. "just making sure you remember,"
you rolled your eyes, but your smile widened. "how could i forget? you never let me."
"and i never will," you turned back around, continuing your routine. "i still think about it, you know?"
paige's smirk widened as she saw the seriousness in your expression through the foggy reflection. "yeah?"
"yeah," you repeated as you met her eyes through the reflection. "all the time."
there was a moment of silence as you continued your routine, paige was lost in thought as she zoned out. "does he fuck you like i do?"
the question came out of nowhere and you almost choked on the mouthwash. you spit out and paige watched your expression carefully. the air in the bathroom seemed to thicken as you processed her words, unsure of how to respond.
paige's gaze held yours steadily, her expression unreadable yet intense. she seemed to be searching for something in your reaction, her smirk fading into a more serious demeanor.
"no, he doesn't."
paige's smirk immediately came back with the answer, her hands pulling you into her chest. "yeah, i knew that."
she didn't any more of an answer, her lips found your shoulder as she began kissing up to your neck. as her lips found the sensitive spot just below your ear, your head spun with a whirlwind of emotions. the familiarity of her touch, coupled with the depth of your connection, ignited a fire within you that burned brighter than ever before.
paige's hands roamed gently over your back, her touch leaving a trail of tingling sensations in its wake.
her breath tickled your skin as she whispered against your ear, her voice husky with desire. "gonna do you so good, baby,"
as paigeโ€™s breath sent shivers down your spine, her words were a promise, igniting a flame of anticipation within you. you turned in her embrace, your eyes meeting hers with a mix of longing and uncertainty. paige's gaze softened, her fingers trailing lightly up your arms to cup your face.
โ€œiโ€™ve missed you,โ€ she murmured, her thumb brushing tenderly across your cheek.
โ€œiโ€™ve missed you too,โ€ you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper.
the tension between you was palpable, the weight of unspoken feelings hanging in the air. paige leaned in, her lips capturing yours in a slow, deliberate kiss that sent a rush of warmth through your body. you melted into her, your hands finding their way to her damp hair, pulling her closer.
paige's kiss deepened, her hands sliding down your back to grip your hips, anchoring you to her. the taste of mint lingered on your lips from the mouthwash, mingling with the familiar flavor of her.
with a gentle push, paige guided you back against the sink, her lips never leaving yours. her hands explored your body with a familiarity that made your heart race, every touch a reminder of the history you shared. as her kisses trailed down your neck, you let out a soft moan, your fingers tangling in her hair.
โ€œoh p,โ€ you breathed, your voice a mix of need and desperation.
she paused, lifting her head to meet your gaze, her eyes dark with desire. โ€œtell me what you want, baby.โ€
โ€œwant you,โ€ you confessed, your cheeks flushing with the raw honesty of your words.
paige's lips curved into a satisfied smile, her hands slipping under your shirt to caress the bare skin of your waist. โ€œyouโ€™re going to have me, princess.โ€
with a swift motion, she lifted you into her arms as she carried you to your bed. her mouth claimed yours again, the kiss hungry and demanding. your fingers fumbled with the hem of her shirt, desperate to feel more of her as she dropped you on the bed.
paige broke the kiss long enough to pull her shirt over her head, her eyes never leaving yours. her bare chest pressed against yours as she kissed you again, her hands working to slide off your shorts. you arched into her touch, the sensation of her hands on you sending waves of pleasure through your body.
as your shorts hit the floor, paige's fingers found their way to your core, teasing you through the fabric of your underwear. you gasped, your hips bucking against her hand, craving more. paige's smirk returned, her thumb circling your clit with agonizing slowness.
she pushed you further up the bed, her body following closely as she settled between your legs. paige's eyes never left yours, her gaze intense and filled with desire. her fingers continued their slow, torturous teasing, making you writhe beneath her.
โ€œpaige, please,โ€ you begged, your voice a desperate whisper.
her smirk softened into a sweet smile, and she leaned down to press a kiss to your lips. โ€œlove hearing you beg,โ€ she murmured against your mouth before trailing kisses down your neck, her hands slipping beneath your underwear to finally touch your bare skin.
with a gentle but firm touch, she slid your underwear down, her fingers finding their way to your wetness. you moaned, your head falling back as she began to pleasure you, her movements deliberate and skilled. paige knew exactly how to drive you insane, her fingers curling inside you in a rhythm that had you teetering on the edge.
you let out a shuddering breath, your body arching into her touch. she set a steady rhythm, her thumb circling your clit in time with the thrusts of her fingers. every stroke sent waves of pleasure crashing through you, each one more intense than the last.
your hands tangled in her hair, pulling her closer as she kissed her way down your body. her lips left a trail of fire on your skin, each touch igniting a deeper desire within you. when she reached your breasts, her mouth closed over one nipple, sucking and nibbling gently.
the dual sensations of her mouth and her fingers had you spiraling quickly towards the edge. your breaths came in short gasps, your body trembling with the effort to hold back.
then, your phone began buzzing next to you. you let out an annoyed huff โ€“ you already knew who it was. you chose to ignore it, but paige had other plans.
"answer it, princess," she mumbled as she sat up, meeting your gaze.
you stared at her, bewildered, your body still trembling from her touch. "paige," you whispered, a mix of frustration and disbelief in your voice.
paige's eyes sparkled with mischief as she leaned in, her lips brushing your ear. "answer it," she repeated, her voice low and commanding. "want him to hear how good i make you feel."
your heart raced, both from the lingering pleasure and the audacity of her request. with trembling hands, you reached for the phone, your eyes never leaving paige's. she watched you intently, her fingers still moving slowly inside you, maintaining the agonizing pleasure.
you hit the answer button, bringing the phone to your ear. "hello?" you managed to say, your voice shaky.
your boyfriend's voice came through the line, filled with concern and irritation. "where are you? why haven't you answered my texts?"
paige's smirk widened, and she pressed a kiss to your shoulder, her fingers quickening their pace slightly. you bit your lip to stifle a moan, your head falling back against the pillow.
"'m... busy," you replied, your voice strained.
"busy? doin' what?" he demanded, suspicion lacing his words.
paigeโ€™s other hand moved to tease your nipple, her thumb flicking over it with expert precision. you let out a soft gasp, unable to hold it back. "just... with friends, we're at my..." you managed to say, your breath hitching. "apartment,"
there was a pause on the other end of the line, your boyfriend clearly picking up on the unusual tone in your voice. "you okay? you sound... different."
paige's lips curled into a wicked smile, her fingers curling inside you, hitting just the right spot. you couldn't help the moan that escaped your lips, your body arching into her touch. "oh fuck," you let out before you sighed, putting a hand over your mouth.
"i'm fine," you lied, your voice trembling. "just... having a good time."
Your boyfriendโ€™s voice grew more insistent. "where are you? i want to see you."
paige leaned closer, her breath hot against your ear as she whispered, "tell him you're with me."
you swallowed hard, trying to focus on the conversation despite the overwhelming sensations. "'m with paige," you said, your voice barely above a whisper.
"paige?" he repeated, his tone a mix of confusion and frustration. "what the hell is going on?"
"nothing!" you shouted, the frustration overtaking your senses. "my god, let me fucking breathe. we're just watching a movie and we're tired, can't get a second alone,"
paige's smirk grew as she listened to your conversation, her fingers still teasing you, maintaining a torturous pace that kept you on the edge. she nibbled gently on your neck, her breath warm against your skin, and you fought to keep your voice steady.
on the other end of the line, your boyfriendโ€™s frustration was palpable. โ€œwhy didnโ€™t you just say that? youโ€™ve been acting so weird lately.โ€
You took a shaky breath, trying to focus on the words and not the intense pleasure paige was giving you. โ€œiโ€™m not acting weird. just need some space sometimes.โ€
โ€œspace? is that what you call ignoring my calls and hanging out with paige all the time?โ€ he snapped.
paige fingers quickened slightly, pushing you closer to the edge, beginning to completely finger-fuck you. you bit your lip to stifle a moan, your hips bucking involuntarily. โ€œโ€™m not ignoring you,โ€ you said through gritted teeth, trying to sound convincing. โ€œi think i justโ€ฆ need a break.โ€
โ€œa break?โ€ he echoed, his voice growing louder. โ€œwhat kind of break?โ€
paige leaned in, her voice a whisper in your ear. โ€œtell him youโ€™re taking a break from him.โ€
you swallowed hard, the words sticking in your throat. โ€œthink we need a break,โ€ you finally said, your voice barely above a whisper.
โ€œwhat?โ€ he shouted, disbelief and anger mingling in his tone. โ€œare you fucking serious?โ€
โ€œyeah,โ€ you said more firmly, finding your resolve.
he began shouting but you were too engulfed in her fingers, your breaths coming out in shudders. the phone fell out of your hand as you moaned, your back arching into her touch.
paige chose that moment to push you over the edge, her fingers and lips working in perfect harmony to send you spiraling into a powerful orgasm. you cried out, your body shaking with the force of it, the annoyed shouts still coming from the phone.
paige caught the phone, her eyes locking with yours as she brought it to her ear. "she busy right now," she said, her tone unapologetic and firm. "she'll call you in the morning,"
with that, she ended the call, tossing the phone aside as she gathered you in her arms. you were still trembling, your body buzzing with the aftershocks of your orgasm. paige's touch was gentle now, soothing as she held you close.
"you gonna call him in the morning?" she teased as you laid on her chest. you stifled a laugh as you shook your head.
"probably, he's probably crying right now."
she shrugged, "i would too if i lost a bad bitch like you,"
you couldn't help but smile at her words, a warmth spreading through your chest. "you're ridiculous," you murmured, nuzzling closer into her embrace.
paige's fingers traced soothing patterns on your back, her touch comforting and tender. "yeah, but you love it," she replied, her voice soft.
you sighed contentedly, letting the calm after the storm wash over you. "yeah, i do."
you stayed like that for a long time, wrapped up in each other, the rest of the world fading away. eventually, the exhaustion of the day caught up with you, and your eyes grew heavy.
"get some sleep," paige murmured, her voice a gentle lullaby. "we'll figure everything out in the morning."
you nodded sleepily, feeling safe and secure in her arms. "goodnight, p."
"goodnight, beautiful," she whispered, holding you close as you drifted off to sleep.
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with love, rylin ๐œ—๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ
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PART 1 | PART 2 | PART 3| PART 4
Behind Closed Doors 4
Your frustration over his broken promise melts away as soon as he calls, and you find yourself unexpectedly drawn to his voice, more than you anticipated.
Warnings: (18+, MDNI) Phone sex, mutual (and guided) masturbation, dirty talk ~4.7k words
A/n: this is just me wishing he was on quinn๐Ÿ˜” anyway enjoy part 4, this mini series is not dead (i donโ€™t even know how long it will be but letโ€™s just celebrate that Iโ€™m finally updating)
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All men do is lie, you thought as you flopped onto your bed.
Okay, maybe it wasnโ€™t entirely his faultโ€”but you werenโ€™t in the mood to be reasonable. You remembered that car ride vividly. He had promised you more time together, a moment to finally be alone. Instead, what did you get? A new case, then another, and amidst all the chaos and dodging bullets (literally and metaphorically), you two somehow managed to drift apart.
The past few weeks had been the busiest since you started working at the BAU, and that was saying a lot, considering there was never really a moment of peace when you worked for the government. But this time was different, it seemed even more chaotic than usual. Every time you thought of bringing up the conversation with himโ€”or maybe sneak in a little make-out sessionโ€”something urgent would come up.ย 
There was never the right time, or the right moment. It felt as if the universe had other plans for you, and none of them involved the two of you getting a moment alone. And before you knew it, you were caught in this maddening cycle of missed opportunities, and the worst thing was, you were sexually frustrated.
This time, you had no one else to blame but him. Ever since he came into the picture, your carefully maintained self-control had started to slip, and now, despite your best efforts, you couldnโ€™t ignore the growing need between your legs. It was aching, throbbing, and even the thought of him was making you hot and restless.
How did he manage to do that? He wasnโ€™t even trying. There was nothing overtly seductive in the way he moved or spoke, and yet every glance, every accidental touch, seemed to affect you. Spencer. Just his name made your breath hitch, your body betraying you. You werenโ€™t proud to admit this, but the mere thought of his fingers brushing your skin had you feeling that first rush of arousal slipping into your panties.
You huffed, considering digging out your pink silicone toy hidden somewhere in your drawer. And while you were contemplating this, knowing it had been a while since you last used it because nothing could compare to the feeling of his touch now, your phone on the bedside table rang.
Maybe the universe was really testing you, because his name flashed across the screen and it took a lot of self-control for you not to pick up on the first ring and demand him to fuck you right there and then, which sounded too crass when you werenโ€™t in the middle of straddling his lap like the last time. So instead, you decided to wait until the sixth ring before you answered with a curt, โ€œHey.โ€
There was a pause, then a sigh. โ€œYouโ€™re mad at me.โ€
Could he tell? Of course, he could. He always had an uncanny ability to read you, even over the phone. โ€œMad? Why would I be mad?โ€
โ€œI can almost see you rolling your eyes.โ€
โ€œI never roll my eyes,โ€ you shot back.
โ€œYou rolled your eyes last week when Luke tried to tell us that his dog could sniff out bodies better than our trained ones.โ€
You suppressed a smile, surprised that he even noticed you giving Luke a once-over at that particular moment. โ€œThat was because his dog chases its tail more than it chases leads.โ€
"And I'm not worthy of an eye roll?"
โ€œHonestly, you deserve more than an eye roll,โ€ you blurted out before you could stop yourself.
"So you are mad,โ€ he stated, growing quiet for a while. โ€œIโ€™m sorry.โ€
And now you felt bad. You ran a hand through your hair, trying to clear your thoughts. โ€œItโ€™s not your fault.โ€
โ€œI know, but it doesnโ€™t make me feel any less better.โ€
You felt a pang of guilt as you stared at the ceiling. It wasnโ€™t exactly fair to blame him. Serial killers, unfortunately, didnโ€™t come with a schedule, and now Spencer was already on his leave. You recalled the excitement in his voice when he told you about the seminars Emily had arranged for him to teach. He had spoken with an enthusiasm you hadnโ€™t heard in a long time, his eyes practically lighting up every time he mentioned it.
How could you be upset about that?
"I'm not... mad.โ€
There was a slight teasing note in his voice as he replied, "Just annoyed then?"
You held back a smile. "Maybe a little."
โ€œAnything I can do to help with that?โ€ His voice softened through the phone. โ€œIs there any way I can make it up to you?โ€
Your thoughts immediately went to the sticky situation between your legs, and you felt a flush of embarrassment. Technically, he could help with that. But could you say that? Should you?ย 
"I donโ€™t know, depends on what you have in mind,โ€ you replied, trying to steer your mind away from the direction it was heading. There was a pause, a silence that hung in the air as he carefully considered his next words.
"I couldโ€ฆ start by telling you how much I miss you?โ€
Now that, you didnโ€™t expect. Your heart fluttered wildly in your chest. Spencer had never really acknowledged his feelings with words when his actions spoke volumes, but hearing him say it out loud made the emotions between you feel undeniably real. It was as if his words shattered whatever platonic friendship the two of you had built over the past years.
Although you knew your friendship had fundamentally changed the moment he had you pinned on the desk that fine afternoon, it didnโ€™t stop you from questioning about where you truly stood.
"You miss the idea of me," you corrected him, unable to resist yourself.
โ€œYou know thatโ€™s not true,โ€ he replied gently.
โ€œDo I?โ€
โ€œYes, you know me better than that,โ€ he insisted. โ€œYouโ€™re a great profiler, you can tell if Iโ€™m not being honest.โ€
A small smile tugged at the corners of your mouth, despite trying to stay mad at him. "You hate being profiled.โ€
"That was before I realized how useful your skills are in deciphering my feelings.โ€
โ€œYou know Iโ€™d rather you tell me how you feel.โ€
โ€œI did, I miss you, and you chose not to believe me.โ€
Your cheeks actually ached from smiling too much. You couldnโ€™t help but feel a warm, tingling sensation spread through you. โ€œFine,โ€ you sighed, finally giving in. โ€œI believe you.โ€
โ€œAnd?โ€
You rolled onto your side. โ€œAnd what?โ€
โ€œDo you not miss my absence at work?โ€
โ€œWellโ€ฆโ€
โ€œWell?โ€ He prompted.
Now how could you tell him you missed more than just his presence? How could you admit that you missed the way he made you feel, the way his breath felt hot against your skin, without sounding obvious or too needy? Because you missed everything about him. His hands, his lips, his tongueโ€”oh dear god, his tongue.
Spencer suddenly called out your name, and you forced yourself to focus, feeling your heartbeat quicken as you cleared your throat.
โ€œYes, Iโ€”I miss you,โ€ you finally admitted.
There was a pause, then his voice came through, lighter, teasing. โ€œWhy do you sound like that?โ€
โ€œโ€ฆlike what?โ€
โ€œLike youโ€™re out of breath.โ€
You gripped the sheets tightly, the fabric bunching under your fingers. How could you even begin to explain this to him now that he was onto you? You felt like you were on the verge of a full-blown emotional meltdown. God, if he knew how many times youโ€™d replayed every kiss, every touch, in your mind, heโ€™d never let you live it down.
It was almost laughable, really. Here you were, trying to keep it together, and failing miserably. โ€œItโ€™s justโ€ฆ I really, really miss you.โ€
โ€œYou really miss me? Are you trying to say something?โ€
You hesitated, your mind scrambling for the right words without revealing too much. โ€œNoโ€ฆ?โ€
โ€œMhm,โ€ he replied, clearly unconvinced. โ€œYouโ€™re not telling me everything.โ€
You gripped the phone tighter. โ€œIโ€™m just saying... It's hard without you here. You know, in every way.โ€
โ€œIn every way?โ€
You squeezed your eyes shut, feeling both embarrassed and mortified. โ€œI just... I miss how you make me feel. Physically.โ€
โ€œPhysically?โ€ he pressed. โ€œCan you elaborate?โ€
โ€œIโ€™m... you know, Iโ€™ve been... missing certain things. Certain... activities.โ€
โ€œCertain activities,โ€ he repeated your words once again. It was then that you realized he was teasing you, clearly enjoying your discomfort a little too much. โ€œYou mean like... talking?โ€
โ€œNo. More like... the other stuff we do when weโ€™re alone.โ€
"I don't understand."
At that point, your embarrassment was gnawing at you. You wanted to crawl into a hole and never come out. โ€œGod, Spencer, donโ€™t make me say it,โ€ you groaned, burying your face in your pillow.
โ€œCome on, I need a little more than that.โ€ He sounded both amused and curious. โ€œIโ€™m just making sure I understand you right.โ€
โ€œYou know exactly what Iโ€™m talking about,โ€ you muttered into the pillow, your voice muffled but still clear enough for him to hear.
โ€œActually, I donโ€™t think I do. You could be missing so many things, you have to help me out here.โ€
You turned your head to the side, exasperation coloring your tone. โ€œSpencerโ€ฆโ€
"Yes?" he responded innocently.
"Youโ€™re really going to make me say it, arenโ€™t you?โ€
"I find precise communication to be very important.โ€
You let out a groan, feeling the last of your restraint crumble. โ€œAlright! Fine!โ€ you snapped. โ€œIโ€™m horny, okay? And itโ€™s all your fault!โ€
His laughter rang through the phone, and you could almost see the grin spreading across his face. โ€œMy fault?"
"Yes! I feel like a deprived, horny teenager here, and I justโ€ฆโ€
You trailed off, hardly believing you had actually said that out loud. The realization hit you like a wave, and for a moment, you wished you could take it back. There was a pause that seemed to stretch on forever and you wondered if you had gone too far.
He finally broke the silence, breathing out your name in a way that made your skin tingle. "You could've told me from the start."
You could, but youโ€™d rather not.
"I didn't want to sound desperate."
"You can be desperate with me,โ€ he said softly. โ€œJust say the word and Iโ€™ll give you anything you want.โ€
If there was one thing Spencer was good at, it was getting under your skin. He really shouldnโ€™t be saying those words, not now, not when it was making you crave him even more. You swallowed, feeling a tightness in your chest, a knot in your stomach. The part of you that always played it safe wanted to retract, to laugh it off as a joke. But then there was that other part, the part that craved his attention, the part that was tired of holding back.
โ€œTell me, what do you want now?โ€
You took a deep breath and laid on your back, the words catching in your throat. You felt your pulse quicken.
โ€œI wantโ€ฆ you.โ€
โ€œTell me how you want me.โ€
Your fingers trailed over the sheets, your touch light as you imagined it was him beneath your fingertips. โ€œSpencerโ€ฆโ€
โ€œCome on,โ€ he pressed. โ€œTell me.โ€
You paused, your heart pounding in your chest. You could almost imagine him right in front of you, staring at you with those beautiful brown eyes that always managed to make you melt, coaxing words from you that you barely dared to think, let alone speak.
Just say it. He's waiting. He wants to hear it.
Your hand began to move.
โ€œIโ€ฆ I want your hands on me.โ€
โ€œWhere do you want my hands?โ€
โ€œEverywhere,โ€ you whispered, your fingers grazing your body as if they were his. You closed your eyes.
โ€œEverywhere?โ€
You found yourself nodding even though he couldnโ€™t see you.
โ€œOn my hipsโ€ฆโ€
Your hand danced across your hips.
โ€œMy stomachโ€ฆโ€
Your palm slipped under your shirt, moving slowly up your abdomen, feeling the warmth of your own touch and wishing it was his.
โ€œBetween my thighsโ€ฆโ€
You paused at the hem of your panties, the only barrier beneath your shirt, hesitating as a flush of warmth spread through you. The line was silent for a moment, save for the sound of his breathingโ€”a soft, heavy rhythm that matched the pounding of your own heart.
โ€œWhere else do you want me?โ€
Your fingers dipped inside the fabric. โ€œI want you lowerโ€ฆโ€
โ€œTell me exactly where.โ€
โ€œWhere Iโ€™m most sensitive,โ€ you confessed, the words slipping out before you could stop them.ย  Your thighs instinctively squeezed together, hips rolling gently as your free hand began to drift south. โ€œSpencerโ€ฆ pleaseโ€ฆโ€
โ€œAre you touching yourself?โ€
โ€œIโ€ฆโ€
โ€œAre you?โ€
โ€œNoโ€ฆโ€
โ€œDo you want to touch yourself?โ€
You licked your lips, your breath coming faster. โ€œMaybe.โ€
โ€œThen do it, no oneโ€™s stopping you.โ€
You hesitated, the reality of the situation sinking in. You couldnโ€™t believe this was happening, that you were having this conversation with him. "This feels so naughty.โ€
"Naughty can be nice, though, right?" he assured you. "Don't think about it too much. Itโ€™s just you and me.โ€
There really was something about his voice, the way it effortlessly wrapped around youโ€”smooth, coaxing, almost hypnotic. Despite the hesitation that tugged at your mind, your hand began to move lower, and your legs parting involuntarily. A soft gasp escaped your lips when your hand flew right to your pussy, fingers quickly tracing the length of your folds. You were already wet, and you began to spread your arousal towards your clit.
โ€œSpencerโ€ฆโ€ you whined, feeling the sudden rush of sensations.
โ€œKeep going,โ€ he urged. โ€œTell me what you feel.โ€
You closed your eyes. โ€œIt feelsโ€ฆ goodโ€ฆโ€
โ€œDescribe it to me.โ€
You took a shaky breath, trying to find the words through the haze of pleasure. โ€œItโ€™s warm and wetโ€ฆ andโ€ฆโ€
And you wished he was the one touching you.
You let your mind drift to your fantasy. You imagined it was his fingers circling your clit. You imagined his lips against yours, the way they would move together. You imagined him whispering these words right in front of you, his eyes locked on yours as you writhed beneath him. The fantasy felt so vivid that for a moment, you could almost feel his weight pressing down on you, his presence enveloping you completely.
Your imagination urged you to move faster, but you felt limited by the fabric in the way. You called out his name. โ€œCan Iโ€ฆ can I take my, um, underwear off?โ€
You could almost hear the smile in his voice as he replied, โ€œOf course you can.โ€
You put your phone down, and with trembling fingers, you slid the fabric down your legs. You discarded them quickly and turned the call to speaker before you settled back on the bed. Your hand returned to your body, fingers brushing over your sensitive skin. You parted your legs even wider, and as your fingers found their rhythm, a moan escaped you.
โ€œBetter?โ€
You sighed in relief as you continued to rub your clit. โ€œSo much better.โ€
โ€œKeep it slow, okay? We donโ€™t want to rush.โ€
His voice was low and soothing, and you couldnโ€™t believe how just by his voice he had gotten you so worked up.
โ€œNow press a little harder.โ€ You complied, applying a bit more pressure on your clit. "Right there. Do you feel that?"
"Yes," you gasped, your back slightly arching off the bed.
โ€œI wish I could see you right now," he murmured. โ€œI'd kiss you where you're touching.โ€
You let your imagination take over. You pictured him with his head right between your thighs, his eyes locked on yours with those intense, pretty eyes. You imagined his mouth moving over your clit, sucking gently while his fingers explored between your folds. The thought was so vivid, so real, that you could almost feel his warm breath against your skin.
The mental image of him looking up at you was almost too much to bear. โ€œSpencerโ€ฆโ€
"Keep going. Are your fingers wet?" You could simply moan back a reply, not trusting your own voice. โ€œNow slowly slide in one. Can you do that for me?โ€
You did as he said, sliding a finger into your wetness. You could feel how tight you were, the slick warmth of your arousal enveloping your skin. You looked down between your legs and watched as you pleased yourself. It wasnโ€™t exactly an unfamiliar sight. You had done this countless times before, but never with the voice of a man guiding you, especially Spencerโ€”the last person youโ€™d imagine doing this with.
Yet look at how much effect he had on you.
"You're quiet," his voice suddenly came through. "Are you still with me?"
"Yes," you managed to whisper. "It's just... a lot."
"In a good way, I hope?"
โ€œVery good,โ€ you assured him.
You could practically picture the corner of his lips twitching into a proud smile. โ€œGood,โ€ he recited. โ€œNow try adding another finger.โ€
You couldn't help a moan escaping your lips as you pushed in your middle finger, the sound louder than you intended.
"How does that feel?"
"Full," you breathed out, adjusting to the sensation.
โ€œYeah? I bet youโ€™re so tight.โ€
You were, awfully so. Your walls clenched around your fingers, almost swallowing them as you started to move them in a steady rhythm. The pleasure built in your lower stomach, a warm, coiling tension that made you desperate for more. You needed his voice, you craved his guidance, even from afar.
โ€œSpenceโ€ฆโ€ you whined. โ€œKeep talking, please.โ€
โ€œYou want me to describe how Iโ€™d touch you if I were there?โ€
You moaned in response, the sound escaping your lips involuntarily, urging him to continue.
โ€œIf I were there,โ€ he began, his voice low, โ€œIโ€™d start by kissing you slowly.โ€
You could almost feel it, his lips on yours, his tongue probing inside your mouth.
โ€œIโ€™d move lower,โ€ he continued. โ€œKiss your neck, your collarboneโ€ฆ while my fingers would move along your hips, your thighs, getting closer and closer to where you need me most.โ€
You whimpered, your fingers moving faster as you followed his vivid description, imagining his touch guiding you.
โ€œIโ€™d tease you, brush my fingers right at your entrance,โ€ he whispered. โ€œThen, Iโ€™d slip them inside you, just like youโ€™re doing now.โ€
Your breaths came in short gasps.
โ€œIโ€™d spread your legs wide,โ€ he continued again, and you heard a faint rustling noise in the background. โ€œIโ€™d move my fingers inโ€ฆ andโ€ฆ out...โ€
Your legs fell further apart.
โ€œIโ€™d curl my fingers the same way I did that day,โ€ he went on. โ€œDo you remember?โ€
How could you not? It never truly left your mind. You could picture that day clearly, the feeling of his fingers and mouth working on your sensitive spot seemed to linger in your memory.
โ€œIโ€™d do the same thing that you like,โ€ he proceeded, and you focused on his voice. โ€œIโ€™d lean in closeโ€ฆ licking youโ€ฆ sucking you.โ€
You moaned loudly as the image of his mouth on your clit flashed through your mind. You could almost feel the way he would sloppily lap at you, drinking in every drop of your arousal with each eager flick of his tongue.
โ€œGo faster for me,โ€ he urged. โ€œI-I want to hear how wet you are.โ€
You followed his words, and the slick sounds of your arousal filled the quiet around you as you imagined him there, his fingers replacing yours. You could hear more noise through the line, the subtle rustle of clothes moving, the faint sound of his breathing growing heavier before he let out a low grunt.
โ€œYou make the prettiest sounds,โ€ he breathed out. โ€œNow add another finger.โ€
Your eyes narrowed into a frown, trying to slip a third finger in but the stretch was too intense for you to continue. โ€œI-I canโ€™t.โ€
โ€œShh, itโ€™s okay,โ€ he soothed. โ€œJust take it slow. Try to relax.โ€
You took a deep breath, trying to follow his instructions. You slowly eased in another finger, feeling the awkward stretch but the initial discomfort quickly faded into a deeper pleasure, and you moaned softly.
โ€œOh, fuck.โ€
โ€œThere you go,โ€ he encouraged. โ€œFeel that? Feel how full you are?โ€
You hummed a reply.
โ€œThatโ€™s how I want you to feel when Iโ€™m finally inside you.โ€
A whine left your lips. In your head, you saw him, his body poised above yours, his cock sliding smoothly into you. You imagined the slick, rhythmic motion, the way each thrust would fill you, stretching you, overwhelming you. You cried out a filthy moan at the thought, unabashed and desperate, as you began to pump your fingers inside your cunt.
โ€œPush deeper for meโ€ฆ I know you can take it.โ€
You gasped, pushing your fingers as deep as they could go. โ€œI canโ€™tโ€ฆ I needโ€ฆ ohโ€ฆโ€
โ€œI know, I know,โ€ he whispered. โ€œYou need more. You need me inside you, donโ€™t you?โ€
โ€œSpencer, pleaseโ€ฆโ€ you begged, your voice breaking into desperate, choked sobs.
โ€œYou want that? You want to feel me stretch you?โ€
โ€œYes, yesโ€ฆโ€ you managed to moan out, your movements became more desperate.
โ€œGod, youโ€™d be so tight around meโ€ฆ Iโ€™d have your legs spread wide so Iโ€ฆ I-I could see how perfect youโ€™d take me.โ€
You could almost feel his hands on your hips, his body pressing against yours, filling you completely. Your fingers moved frantically, your breaths coming in short, ragged gasps as you felt the tension building to an unbearable peak.
โ€œYouโ€™d pull me closer, wouldnโ€™t you? Youโ€™d ask for more, like you always do, and Iโ€™d give it to you,โ€ he promised. โ€œIโ€™d give it to you so hardโ€ฆ s-so deepโ€ฆโ€
And that was when you heard itโ€”the unmistakable sound of wetness, like skin sliding over slick, damp skin. The sound was filthy, making your pulse race as you wondered what he might be doing on the other end of the line. Your voice trembled as you slowly asked him, โ€œSpence, are youโ€ฆ?โ€
There was a sharp intake of breath on the other end before he let out a soft, almost sheepish laugh, as if you had caught him red-handed. โ€œIโ€ฆ yeah,โ€ he admitted, his voice breathless and strained. "Do you know how hard it is not to when listening to your voice?"
Your fingers subconsciously quickened at his confession, their movements becoming more urgent as you imagined him laying on his own bed, hand wrapped around his cock. You bit your lip to stifle your moans as you whispered, โ€œTell me what youโ€™re doing.โ€
His breathing grew ragged, his words coming in clipped bursts. โ€œIโ€™mโ€ฆ Iโ€™m touching myselfโ€ฆโ€
You tried to focus on his voice, but the sound of his sloppy strokes began to echo louder. โ€œTell me more.โ€
โ€œIโ€™mโ€ฆ Iโ€™m rubbingโ€ฆ my fingers over the head,โ€ he gasped, and you curled your fingers deeper, using your palm to grind against your clit. The way he sounded so lost in his pleasure, unable to hold back, had you imagining him stroking himself. You pictured yourself doing it for him, remembering how it felt that day when you had his cock in your handโ€”the weight, the warmth, the way he looked at you through intense eyes.
Your breathing grew heavier, louder, and his voice cracked with a strained moan as he whispered, โ€œCan you lower your phone?โ€
You fumbled with the device, bringing it closer to where your fingers worked tirelessly between your legs. โ€œLike this?โ€
โ€œGod, yes,โ€ he groaned, the sound of his strokes growing faster and more urgent. โ€œYou sound so perfect.โ€
You let out a soft cry, your fingers thrusting in and out of your cunt frantically as you imagined him watching you, listening to every sound you made. The wet, slick noises filled the room, so intense and filthy. You looked down to see your juices spilling over your fingers, soaking the sheets beneath you. The sheer sound of it was enough to drive him crazy.
โ€œIโ€”f-faster, please,โ€ he panted into the phone. โ€œI need you to go faster.โ€
Your eyes widened for a moment as the desperate plea slipped from his lips. But you didnโ€™t have the mental space to think about it. Your focus was solely on reaching your release as you ultimately sped up your pace. Your body began to tighten up, feeling so much pressure and pleasure building up every time your fingertips hit that deep spot inside you.
"Ohโ€”fuck!โ€ You exhaled sharply as the familiar sensation took over you. โ€œIโ€™m cumming Iโ€™m cumming Iโ€™m cummingโ€”โ€
With a cry that was both a sob and a shout, your pussy fluttered around your fingers. Your orgasm ripped through you without warning, sending shockwaves of intense pleasure through your body as you gasped and shuddered. Your voice escaped in broken moans and whines, his name falling from your lips like a prayer.
โ€œSpencerโ€ฆ oh, God, Spencerโ€ฆโ€
The sound of your climax drove him to his own release. His breath hitched, his movements faltering as he let out a harsh sound from his throat. It was raw and unrestrained, downright filthy, and you listened intently, your fingers slipping out only to circle and rub your clit, drawing out the final waves of your orgasm.
Finally, when you couldnโ€™t take it anymore, your hand fell away, and you lay there, breathing heavily, your body relaxing into the bed. Your room was quiet afterward, the only sound coming from was the sound of your own breathing. Then you heard him calling out your name, checking in. But through the post-orgasmic bliss, all you could manage in response was a giggle.
โ€œYouโ€™reโ€ฆ laughing?โ€ He mused. โ€œShould I be concerned?โ€
โ€œNo, no,โ€ you replied, still catching your breath, a satisfied smile spreading across your face. โ€œItโ€™s justโ€ฆ I canโ€™t believe we did that.โ€
A gentle laugh escaped his lips, a warm, soothing sound that calmed your racing heart. "Did you like it?"
You liked it a lot. "Canโ€™t say that I didnโ€™t.โ€
"So I take it you're not mad at me anymore?"
You let out a soft, contented sigh. โ€œI wasnโ€™t even that mad to begin with. Justโ€ฆ frustrated,โ€ you confessed. โ€œBut I think we handled that pretty well.โ€
โ€œMaybe a little too well,โ€ he agreed softly. โ€œI can't believe I need to take a shower this late.โ€
You looked down between your legs at his words, and a wave of embarrassment washed over you as you noticed the patch of wetness on your bed. It wasn't smallโ€”it spread across the fabric in a noticeable, damp stain. โ€œUh, yeah,โ€ you admitted with a nervous laugh. โ€œI also need to change my sheets.โ€
Then you heard a low, almost pained groan from his end of the line.
โ€œWhat?โ€
โ€œItโ€™s justโ€ฆโ€ He paused, and you could almost hear him struggling to find the right words. "I'm now picturing you on your bed."
"Isn't that what you've been doing?"
"Well, yes, but now it'sโ€ฆ different."
You couldn't help the amused grin that spread across your face. "Different how?"
"Let's just say the image in my mind is a lot more detailed now and it's not helping me calm down."
A burst of laughter erupted from your chest as you gripped your phone closer to you. โ€œIs this your way of blaming me because you still have a hard-on?โ€ you taunted. โ€œI mean, Iโ€™m simply stating the facts.โ€
โ€œBut youโ€™re painting a picture in my head.โ€
โ€œOf me drenching the sheets just by hearing your voice?โ€
He made a low, strained sound. โ€œStop.โ€
โ€œI can send you a picture if you like,โ€ you offered slyly. โ€œHelp you visualize it better.โ€
There was a moment of stunned silence on his end before he finally muttered, โ€œYou shouldnโ€™t.โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re right, I shouldnโ€™t.โ€
โ€œBut if you insistโ€ฆโ€
You laughed softly. โ€œGood night, Spencer.โ€
โ€œWaitโ€”Youโ€™re hanging up?โ€
โ€œYep,โ€ you said cheerfully. โ€œI thought you needed a shower.โ€
He made another frustrated sound, somewhere between a groan and a sigh, before reluctantly agreeing. โ€œFine, fine. Good night.โ€
And that was it. You ended the call with a satisfied smile. But as you stared at your phone, a rush of thoughts began to swirl through your mind. You were well aware of the potential risks of what you were about to doโ€”how it could be traced back to you. You could almost hear Penelope lecturing you about online security and the dangers of leaving a digital footprint.
But when your mind kept circling back to Spencerโ€”Spencerโ€™s breathless voice, Spencerโ€™s prominent veins on his hands, Spencer with a freaking hard-on in his bedโ€”it was hard to think rationally. Before you could stop yourself, you propped your phone on your pillow and posed for the camera. Legs spread wide, your nipples pressing against your shirt, a flirtatious smile playing on your lips. The shot looked like it came out of a porno movie. You quickly sent it to him.
It took exactly 7 seconds before your phone rang again.
โ€œYes, Spencer?โ€ you answered, trying to sound innocent.
You heard shuffling and a muffled grunt, and then, faintly, the rustling of fabric. It sounded like he was fumbling with his phone, and you couldnโ€™t help but bite your lip at the frustration in his voice.
โ€œHow do I turn this into video call again?โ€
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reidmania ยท 6 months ago
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Hey๐Ÿ˜ you said request were open and i was wondering you could write a spencer reid fic where him and the reader get into a petty argument or something and he says something a little mean and has to grovel to the reader because sheโ€™s upset? I love your work by the way and you can add or take away whatever you want๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜Š
not so funny | spencer reid
summary; after a rough day, Spencer accidentally takes his frustration out on you leading to a lot of guilt and grovelling.
warnings; spencer is mean, fem reader, he calls reader a bitch but he makes up for it, arguments, hurt x comfort, crying, it ends up being pretty cute.
an; ITS MY BIRTHDAY GUYS!!!!
โ€œCome on spencerโ€ You almost groaned as your voice itched with irritation, your hands flew up before dropping by your side. You were stood in the kitchen, trying to make dinner but the pasta on the stove and vegetables half cut on the counter were long forgotten.
Spencer spluttered, โ€œYou arenโ€™t listening to me!โ€ He groaned, bringing his hands up to his face dragging them down over his eyes as he turned his body away from you to the side. You couldnโ€™t help but roll your eyes โ€” this entire argument was pointless.
It started all because Spencer had come home after a bad day and was slightly snappy with you, just briefly and when you made a joke about it โ€” he didnโ€™t seem to take it as a joke.
โ€œIt was a joke โ€” Godโ€ You sigh, turning back to the vegetables you were dicing before he walked in the door after work, but honestly with the annoyance bubbling in your chest you doubted you should be responsible for a knife right now.
His eyes widened, โ€œBut itโ€™s not funny! You were just being a bitchโ€ He mutters out, shaking his head before the realisation of his words fell on him the same time they fell on you.
Your entire face fell. Never had Spencer called you anything like that โ€” he had commented repeatedly how much it pissed him off when peoples partners called them names like that. He had never been anything other than gentle with you.
He said your name as his eyes fell on your face. Before he could even open his mouth to apologise you were pushing past him to walk away. His hands reached out to grab ahold of your wrist as he repeated your name but you only flung his arm away from yours and you continued walking to the bedroom.
Spencer stood with his head in his hands as he knew better than to follow you right now. All the anger he had felt from the day that had built up slipped away when he saw the look on your face. โ€” Hurt. He hurt you all because he had a crappy day.
He heard the bedroom door slam shut causing his shoulders to flinch slightly. He wanted nothing more than to follow you and spend the rest of the night apologising to you, he didnโ€™t think there was anything he could do to express how sorry he was.
But he knew better than that. He knew it would just annoy you more if he walked in there right now and that was the last thing he wanted.
Instead he spent the next hour in the kitchen finishing the dinner you had started making โ€” He knew wouldnโ€™t taste nearly half as good as it would if you made it, his cooking skills no where near as good but he found himself doing it anyways.
He relished in the slight distraction but it only did so much as his mind continued travelling to you and the words that had left his mouth. He didnโ€™t mean them. You werenโ€™t a bitch. You were nothing of the sorts and the fact that he had even let that slip sent guilt coursing through his veins.
The day had been nothing but shit. To say the least. Everything was going wrong and Spencer couldnโ€™t shake the annoyance. It didnโ€™t help that right before leaving he had gotten into an argument with Morgan about something on a past case.
He didnโ€™t mean to take his bad day out on you, he never did.
He finished the dinner, but the appetite he once had disappeared as it replaced the spot in his stomach with nothing but guilt. His feet trailed towards the door of your shared bedroom.
Every step was filled with dread as his mind traveled to every possibility. His heart shattered into a thousand little pieces as he heard your soft hiccup through the door.
โ€œHoney?โ€ He brought his hand up to knock on the door gently with his knuckles. His tone was the softest he had used his day โ€” completely the opposite to what it had been the last time he spoke to you.
You didnโ€™t reply but you went quiet. Probably trying to hide the fact you were crying. That made him feel worse โ€” he deserved to feel worse. He knew that.
โ€œDinner is ready.. Are you hungryโ€ He asked, not pushing his way through the door he was talking to you through. There was a pause on the other side of the door.
You, were curled up on the middle of your bed. Spencerโ€™s hoodie was tugged up over your knees as they pulled to your chest. Your face was blotchy and scarred by the soft tears that stained your cheeks.
You hadnโ€™t been able to shake Spencerโ€™s words no matter how much you tried. You knew he was angry and had a bad day but you couldnโ€™t help but be beyond mad โ€” unfortunately when you are mad it ended in tears.
You wiped the tears from your face as if that would have any effect on the sound of your voice. โ€œNo.โ€ You replied, trying to put on the most secure voice you could muster up but it wavered none the less and stayed quiet.
Your heart pounded as you closed in on yourself. โ€œCan I come in?โ€ He asked.
You wanted to say no, push him away and tell him to go fuck yourself, but you couldnโ€™t bring yourself to, a small part of you aching for his comfort no matter how mad you were, you wanted to hear him apologise, even if you failed to believe it.
โ€œOkay.โ€ Your voice was small.
The door was being pushed open gently a moment after and you avoided meeting Spencerโ€™s gaze, keeping your gaze fixated on the plush of the crisp white sheets that covered the bed.
If you did look at him, you wouldโ€™ve seen his heart break all in his features at the sight of your tear stained face. His feet pattered towards you as he sat down on the edge of the bed, a respectable distance away from you, not wanting to push any boundaries.
โ€œIm sorryโ€ He said quietly, it sounded genuine and it burnt a way into your chest. You never brought your eyes to meet his as your mind failed to comprehend a response. You didnโ€™t have a whole lot to say.
So instead, you just nod.
He frowns. โ€œI am really - Im so sorry.โ€ He said, shifting uncomfortably on the bed, eyes trailing over your face, uncomfortable silence washing over the room as he tried to figure out what to say next. โ€œI had a shit day โ€” which isnโ€™t an excuse. I shouldโ€™ve never called you that. I shouldnโ€™t have taken my bad day out on youโ€ He muttered.
You nodded curtly. โ€œOkay.โ€ Was all you said in response. There wasnโ€™t a lot you could muster up as despite his apology his words burnt into the back of your mind, leaving a engravememt on your brain.
He frowned deepened. He knew he didnโ€™t deserve your forgiveness and he didnโ€™t expect it. He hurt you and he apologised hated that.
โ€œI love you.โ€ He said softly. Even if you didnโ€™t believe his apology he wanted you to at least believe that he loved you.
You just nodded feeling a lump in your throat as your chest grew impossibly tight. You kept your arms wrapped tightly around your knees, holding them close to your chest almost as if to try and numb the burning sensation that made its way through to your ribcage.
You didnโ€™t answer.
โ€œIโ€™ll leave you a plate in the microwave okay?โ€ He muttered after a moment of silence. The silence dawned heavy and cold. You didnโ€™t bother replying as he stood up.
His gaze lingered on you for a moment before a soft sigh left his lips. โ€œIm really sorryโ€ He apologised again.
You didnโ€™t see him again that night, you assumed he slept on the couch which made you feel slightly bad but you were so.. hurt.
The argument was stupid. He knew that, he knew it was a joke and any other time it wouldnโ€™t have bothered him in the slightest, he hated how the one time it did he took it out on you.
The next day you didnโ€™t see Spencer when you woke up, you assumed he went to work which made a puddle of relief fill your stomach as you realised you were able to self indulge in your feelings while he was away.
You missed him.
The door opened at 7:34, a lot later than when Spencer usually arrived home and for a while you were genuinely considering maybe he wasnโ€™t going to come home.
You turned to face him as he stepped into the kitchen where you were, the same positioning the two of you had been in when the argument first arose.
โ€œHi.โ€ He said softly, placing his car keys on the counter. You looked over him and guilt fell as you he looked a mess.
He pulled his arm from behind his back, handing you a gorgeous bouquet of flowers. He chewed at his lip nervously as you didnโ€™t say anything but took the flowers from his hand, looking over them.
Your favourites.
โ€œI know flowers arenโ€™t an apology, thats not why I got themโ€ He said quietly, you remembered a conversation you had with him about hating how guys got their girlfriends flowers as an apology โ€” and he agreed, going on to say that guys should be getting flowers constantly.
You perked up slightly as you furrowed your brows in confusion โ€” if not an apology why now.
โ€œThe last ones I got you are browning.โ€ He said, reading your look of confusion. Your lips pursed as you looked over at the vase you always kept the flowers Spencer got you in. They were in fact browning.
He dragged his hand through his hair as he placed a grocery bag on the table, before looking back at you. โ€œYou arenโ€™t a bitch, you werenโ€™t acting like a bitch, if anything I was.โ€ He said, taking a few things out of the bag.
Your favourite snacks, your favourite drinks and a small velvet box.
Your heart tightened slightly.
He took a step towards you and you stayed in place, pulling your eyes away from the items on the table. โ€œIm really sorry I ever said that. It was stupid and disgusting of meโ€ He hesitantly brought his hand up to your face.
You tensed slightly but didnโ€™t flinch away, allowing him to push strands of hair behind your ear. โ€œYou are gorgeous, inside and out. There isnโ€™t a bitchy bone in your body and Im sorry.โ€ He said gently.
โ€œI am so mad at youโ€ You said, the first proper thing you have said to him in days. He knows it shouldnโ€™t but just hearing you talk made his pulse relax slightly โ€” and then speed up all over again.
โ€œGood.โ€ He said gently, โ€œThats- Its a good thing. You should be mad.โ€ He said softly, โ€œId never want it to be a situation where you allowed that.. where it happened often enough for you not to be mad. Be mad, mad is good. Donโ€™t be silentโ€ He said as his thumb brushed gently over your cheek.
You hummed. You knew deep down silent treatment was the worst for Spencer, but honestly last night you had nothing to say. โ€œYou can yell at me, scream โ€” hit me if you wantโ€ His tone was so gentle. You just scoffed, โ€œIm not going to hit youโ€ You said.
He smiled, โ€œI know.โ€
โ€œYou have a lot of making up to do you know.โ€ You pushed out, trying to ignore the way your face instinctively leant into the warmth of his hand, relishing in the soft roughness of his hands.
He nodded, โ€œIโ€™ll do anything, sweet heart.โ€ He said and his tone held nothing but genuine emotion.
โ€œOkay.โ€ You nodded.
โ€œOkay?โ€ He asked.
โ€œOkay.. Spence I just said thatโ€ You huffed out. A smile lit his lips, he leant down to place a gentle kiss to the top of your head, you tried to hide the smile on your face.
โ€œOkay.โ€ He repeated making you groan but you were smiling nonetheless.
Spencer spent every second apologising for the next two weeks, buying you everything he saw that he thought you would like and going above and beyond until you physically and verbally said that you forgave him.
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bpdumb ยท 2 years ago
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i think the worst part about this bpd shit is that no matter what happens i am genuinely never going to heal properly like im always going to freak out over the tiniest shit & just crumble like it's so fucking exhausting
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animeshotsh ยท 2 months ago
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When I lost you | Young!Silco x Reader
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Warnings: Mentions of death - Reader is sick - Silco is still not a gang lord - Silco does not want Reader to try any drug - Italics = memories - ANGST - grammar mistakes -
When Silco was alone in his office, when he knew not even Jinx was around his mind liked to go back in time to see memories of a different time, so different that it almost seemed like these were dreams.
He remembers you well. Your face, your body, your eyes, they never once lied to him. You always showed him your true colors and motivations. You wanted a better place, a future, a good place for the next generation. Stop the undercity of being know as a place of crime.
You wanted so much.
"What's on your mind Sil?" You asked one hand under your chin as you studied him.
Once again Silco was thinking on how...how to improve lives, how could he and Vander make the undercity different?
"Nothing important" He had said "Just thinking on how you look today" He added smirking when you blushed at his words.
"Charming, I hope this does not mean you or Vande did something...because your sweet talking wont work on me"
"Doesnt always?" He asked pulling you on his lap making you laught. He smelled your hair and let out a content sound. He liked this, this moment. He wanted to stop time and be here forever.
The silence was broken by a heavy cought from you, one that made you have to stand up to breath the little air you could.
"Are you alright Love?" Silco asked getting closer making circles on your back as he saw how you nodded still breathing hard.
"Yeah, i may get a flu soon" You had dissmissed with a smile
Silco blamed himself. For how he have acted, faster or different, for not getting you out of the mines.
"(Y/N)..." Silco started seeing how you were having a hard time just walking the stairs, he had noticed how you also seemed to be slower, a side comment Vander had said on how you almost got caught on a recent work.
"Im fine" You responded back, trying to ignore the pain on your chest.
Once you two made it to the top you took a big long breath.
"You are not fine. I can see it, Vander can see it, everybody can see it" Silco said getting more frustrated by you
"Then all of them are wrong" You declared, letting yourself fall on your couch. Your eyes starting to close.
"You cant even stay awake"
"I have done much work in the mines. Im just tired"
"Then stop, I can help you, i can provide for you!!" Silco almost screamed
"You know I cant leave, what if i need the dam job later? No one will take me in. Every job out there is managed by them, i cant just leave"
"You are killing yourself"
Silco groaned at that, he wanted to go back and beat up his younger self. It was like his words had set off a curse.
Because less than a week from that talk you ended leaving the mines after collapsing and almost causing a fatal mistake.
Silco entered your home. He went to your room were he saw you reading a old book, pages yellow.
"I got you some medicine" Silco started getting it out from a bag well hided.
"Silco stop, these are too expensive!!" You said again even since he had started to get you different ones but no one seemed to work.
"Shut up, just try it" Silco said passing it to you who took it making a face.
"Its terrible"
"Well its not supposed to teast good, its supposed to cure you" Silco responded going to your kitchen to heat up some soup.
When he returned you were deep sleep. He hoped that medicine was doing the trick.
Saddly it did not.
Weeks passed and Silco saw how you became more and more weak. Pale like a ghost, eyes no longer shining but almost out of life.
"Im dying" you said to him one afternoon "Im dying and you cant do anything about it so stop beating yourself"
Even now Silco felt like your words reached him.
"No, i cant let you die" Silco said hands rubbing his hair
"Uh, i can try that thing they are selling now..."
"No" Silco had say "Next thing we need is you getting addicted"
You rolled your eyes but did agree.
The soft rain from outside was like odd music, for a couple that was seeing its end.
"I love you" You said taking his hand "Im happy i got to live my life with you"
If Silco had know these were going to be your last words he would have given you a better response. More than "I love you" and more than false promises.
He had become what you asked him not to, and while he was making on his own way a better life for the city a part of him hated himself. Hated that he had somehow betrayed you.
"Im sorry" He whispered to no one. "Im so sorry (Y/N).
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gangplanksorenji ยท 1 year ago
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Kinknuary Day 15: Blindfold/Sensory Deprivation
Pairing: aespa Karina x Male Reader
Word Count: 5,840
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โ€œAlone today, huh?โ€
A visible shock was seen on Karinaโ€™s face as you startled her immediately and caught her off-guard, almost spat out her sweet concoction that she mostly treasuredโ€”well, for the time being.
โ€œWhat the hell are you doing here?โ€ Karinaโ€™s bewildered face tells exactly how sheโ€™s in utter shock seeing your face at such random times, but nonetheless, you see those orbs of hers lit up once she sees you.
โ€œWell, can I just say I just want to come here and then by a great chance, I saw you here.โ€ You cock an eyebrow at her and in response, she scoffs as sheโ€™s not falling for your lies here, again and maybe never again.
โ€œCome onโ€”โ€ Karina pulls you by your wrists, closer to her before whispering to you, โ€œโ€”you came to see me here, donโ€™t you? Plusโ€”โ€ Karina lets go of her tight onto your wrists as she relaxes herself and puts on a hubristic demeanor. โ€œโ€”you donโ€™t really go to bars like this. Donโ€™t make me a liarโ€”I know you.โ€
Well, thatโ€™s like one of the two reasons why you chose to be even at this bar even though youโ€™re always hectic to come and most preferably, wanting to stay home just to binge-watch some movies or play all the same four games you love playingโ€”you came to see her, intentionally with a single goal in mind wanting to be fulfilled or you wonโ€™t be able to get a good nightโ€™s sleep.
Clicking your tongue as she cracks the code, you finally admitted your true purpose on being here and that didnโ€™t lead Karina surprised in any way. โ€œOkay, okayโ€”I just came here to check on you because of what happened yesterday.โ€ Your tone is sincere as Karina can hear it laced between every word you say as she stops drinking and averted her attention towards you.
โ€œAbout what? What happened yesterday?โ€ Karinaโ€™s tone is fused with puzzlement as she seems to not know what youโ€™re talking about but you know how sheโ€™s brushing it off by trying to pretend to be oblivious and that wonโ€™t work on your watch, nonetheless what may happen. Sitting right beside her and placing your arms onto the table, you face her as your disposition weighs gravitas.
โ€œI heard the newsโ€”you broke up with him and youโ€™re here to drink it off, donโ€™t you.โ€
You can see the visible frustration on Karinaโ€™s face the second you bring up the topic as she manages to maintain her obliviousness but that wonโ€™t last for long as itโ€™s bound to break at any time now.
Karina scoffs as she raises her voice a little, provoking her inner rage from bringing up the forgetful event now, โ€œ What do you even mean by that? Nothing even happened!โ€
โ€œOh, Karina, Karina, Karinaโ€”stop telling me that and Iโ€™m here to talk that with you.โ€ Concern paints all over your face and as much as sheโ€™s incredibly stubborn in denying the truth, you chose to really be patient with her and address the situation where both parties wonโ€™t be provoked with anger and deep grudges at the end. โ€œBy the way, where are your friends? Arenโ€™t they supposed to comfort youโ€”โ€
โ€œWhat are you even talking about??โ€ Karina angrily boils her frustration out from even diving further onto the topic as sheโ€™s still in denial, the dormant rage inside her waiting to be boiled up and erupt soon like a volcano. โ€œAlso, theyโ€™re all busy and I want to be alone by myself!โ€
โ€œHey, heyโ€”โ€ You grabbed her wrists and made her face you as enchantingly, your gaze makes her calm down as you reassure her with your mellow tone and with touch on her hands โ€œโ€”Iโ€™m sorry for bringing that up but please, talk to me.โ€
Karinaโ€™s unstoppable fury finds its absolute demise as it slowly dissipates, your touch and your tone calming her down as she feels defeated and you can see it in her expressions and most of all, her eyesโ€”her eyes that never lie. You know that youโ€™re one of her weaknesses and canโ€™t help but unveil the truth whenever sheโ€™s with youโ€”for multiple caseโ€”and that's the beauty of it: you have each othersโ€™ trust and no one can break that apart, not even yourselves as the platonic love of being friends is within the both of you.
โ€œTalk to me about what happened, Karina.โ€
Youโ€™re maybe crossing the line in terms of her privacy and the will to reflect but nonetheless, your advances are meant for the best for her as she probably needs someone to talk to, personally even though sheโ€™s not clearly vocal about it.
Now, gaining the courage and letting herself be in a state of tranquil, she lets herself be vocal about everything as she feels the utter comfort with you and with alone, puts a smile on your face. Karina then scoffs and lets out a deep sigh before looking at the distance, feeling vexed about the situation she just saw. โ€œI saw him with someone else, kissing t-that another girlโ€ฆโ€ย 
You can sense Karinaโ€™s walls breaking down, piece by piece as she was deeply hurt at what she saw, leaving a wound down her heart that she absolutely canโ€™t bear to deal with. Her voice gets hoarse as the emotions inside her are winning yet she still manages to tell you what happened despite the struggle sheโ€™s dealing with. โ€œAnd like, I was like, a-at the distance and then, my w-world just fell down after thatโ€ฆโ€
Concern paints your face as you were disheartened at what happened as you think that hurt much worse knowing that it all happened ephemerally as she probably canโ€™t comprehend how sheโ€™s badly hurt. โ€œOh fuckโ€”Iโ€™m sorry t-to hear that, Karinaโ€ฆโ€
โ€œOh, you donโ€™t n-need to be sorry.โ€ Karina wipes her tears gracefully with her index finger as she faintly smiles at you, feeling a little grateful on listening to her. Of course, your curiosity took over you as you wanted to know more of what she saw, knowing for a fact that you may gather information or to do something with it.
โ€œHave you seen the one he cheated with? Any features you saw on the girl?โ€
Karina scoffs again, yet this time, anger is starting to boil down as her face permeates vengeance and utter discomfort trying to think of that girl he cheated with but nonetheless, she gave you some vague answers. โ€œI donโ€™t really know โ€˜cause I didnโ€™t really look at her but sheโ€™s probably my height and she has wavy, red hairโ€”I think. Tch, donโ€™t want to talk about that bastard anymore.โ€
You can definitely see how annoyed she is whenever she talks about the event she would want to completely forget. Knowing such vague information canโ€™t really put you up onto a desirable conclusion to help her with a revenge, youโ€™d probably want to keep yourself off at their problem as you want no more harm or much better, to completely brush this off as you want Karinaโ€™s heart to probably mend slowly with you by her side.
Yes, even if the lineโ€™s crossed only with being just friends with her, you show passion and support towards her and it;s further ignites with your true feelings of love for her. Yes, thatโ€™s rightโ€”you genuinely love her to the point that youโ€™re being on her tail and obsessed with her but those are the days where youโ€™re completely depressed and she herself helped out of it and ever since that happened, youโ€™ve never looked at her the same way again (in a good way, though).
Your love for her is unconditional, that you only love to see her genuinely happy as always, and youโ€™re willing to make her happy whenever sheโ€™s feeling down if possibleโ€ฆ and thatโ€™s true love.
When Karinaโ€™s about to take another sip, you stop her as sheโ€™s shocked with your actions yet youโ€™re just implying a better change for her as itโ€™s for her own good, not yours. โ€œAlcoholโ€™s not always the way, Karina.โ€
Of course, Karina lightly glares at you, pouting slightly before giving her reasoning, โ€œCome on, I paid for thisโ€”just let me finish it.โ€
โ€œOkay, but thatโ€™s your last, alright? Donโ€™t want you to go out of here drunk that you couldnโ€™t see straight.โ€
Of course, she has a point and you let her be. Itโ€™s at least better than most of the ways youโ€™re thinking when sheโ€™s depressed or not in the mood and youโ€™ll do everything to enlighten that glowing delight she always had. Yes, youโ€™re determined to make her happy and thatโ€™s what makes her grateful to have a friend like youโ€ฆ
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โ€œI think we should go home.โ€
โ€œTo where, Karina?โ€
โ€œMy placeโ€”you can also stay for the night since I ditched his cheating ass.โ€ Karina retorts, displaying her rage towards him and her authority over her place.
โ€œDamnโ€”never knew youโ€™re brutal.โ€ย 
โ€œWhat do you mean Iโ€™m brutal? He definitely deserves it!โ€ Karina exclaimed as she stated her point and you absolutely got itโ€”her goddamn deserves it as you just played her with your own sarcasm, making her smile a little.
Even though with the free road and minimal traffic ahead, the ride was still killing enough time as you didnโ€™t mind it, not when the both of you jammed onto the songs throughout the travel and even talked about some interesting topics that sure piqued both your interests as the both of you get to know each other even more. You can sense her happiness slowly recharging back to its original state as her constant bright smiles and laughs with you are enough of an evidence and that alone makes yourself feel gleeful for her own good.
โ€œWell, I think, in your place it isโ€ฆโ€
Well, if thatโ€™s the final conclusion, then youโ€™ll be happy to be with for the rest of the night and maybe, something may go onto the road of no-return or something we called as a spicy oneโ€ฆ
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โ€œWow, it's still as good as when I last came here.โ€
Karina canโ€™t hide the chuckle sheโ€™s doing as she feels flustered with the said compliment, knowing that she organized it all well and itโ€™s probably a manโ€™s dream to have a home this simple yet luxurious in anyoneโ€™s eyes.
โ€œWell, evil spirits may come and go but itโ€™s all looking fineโ€”you wanna eat something, though?โ€ย 
With Karinaโ€™s polite approach towards you, you might not want to decline her offer as youโ€™re on the verge of some unbearable hunger yourself. So, without a doubt, you agreed and stood up, approaching her as sheโ€™s still busy looking for food in the fridge.
โ€œDo you want some fried chicken? I can microwave it if you wantโ€”โ€
โ€œYeah, sure, Rina. Iโ€™ll do it myself so you donโ€™t have to and weโ€™ll share thisโ€ฆโ€
You then grabbed the glass tupperware from the refrigerator full of fried chicken as you prepared the ceramic plate and grabbed four for the both of you. Karina smiles from your gentlemanly advances as you initiated to do the job yourself and even though she would want herself to do the job, you just insisted on doing it yourself and that makes her heart flutter a little. You then put those delicious chicken into the microwave and set up the timer, time being the tool to test your patience as you turned to talk to her in order to kill some time of waiting.
โ€œBy the way, why are you dressed like that even though you just went to the bar?โ€ Again, curiosity peaks your interest as youโ€™re a bit puzzled on why sheโ€™s looking like a majestic princess with that glittery one-piece dress with only a couple of her time to spare to just drink and reflect?
โ€œWell, what if I told you that I just wanted to dress like this?โ€ Karina feigns her denial again, as sheโ€™s not even trying to convince you with her demeanor as the lack of gravitas made you conclude that she did something before she even went to the bar.
โ€œAnd thatโ€™s a major โ€˜what ifโ€™, Karina. You went somewhere thatโ€™s why you dressed like that, didn't you?โ€ Youโ€™re tone laces hubris, as you know that she went somewhere elegant to dress with the same energy of elegance. She wonโ€™t deny herselfโ€”even though she technically didnโ€™t, and just enlightened you with a proposition.
โ€œOkayโ€”me and my friends went to a party and I was hesitant at first but I gave in. Also, Iโ€™m sorry I lied to you, againโ€ฆโ€
Well, that makes much more of a sense and not going to lie, the first time you laid your eyes on her, it was an enchanting experienceโ€”it felt like your world went into an abrupt stop as youโ€™re mesmerized on how drop-dead gorgeous she is in all aspects you can think of: her pretty, perfectly-shaped face that's visuals are blowing your mind, her porcelain skin that youโ€™d just want to run over your fingers to feel its smoothness, her hourglass figure and that dress complimenting her curves so well and more than what you could possibly tell.
Yes, youโ€™re goddamn in love once you saw her and you wonโ€™t be a hypocrite and deny anything unlike herโ€”it always has been this way yet youโ€™re just scared to confess your true feelings towards her because of her relationship and now knowing sheโ€™s pretty much in a โ€˜singleโ€™ status, youโ€™ll take this opportunity slowly as your chances would be higher.
Maybe, even though itโ€™s selfish and partly wrong on your side, thereโ€™s no harm that can be done as you wonโ€™t lose everything and will have everything to win.
โ€œNah, itโ€™s fine, Rina. Also, you look great in that outfit by the way. I love it on you.โ€
Karina inches closer on you while youโ€™re still leaning onto the center table at the kitchen, waiting for the food to be heated. As she approaches you closely, you could sense some rising tension from her but brush it off, thinking itโ€™s just one of your fallacies and delusions yet it becomes more evident when sheโ€™s just inches away from you, and smiling genuinely before eyeing on your chest and maintaining eye contact towards you.
โ€œThanks, glad you love this outfit on me butโ€”โ€ Karina intoxicates you with her sweet, alcoholic breath and then catching you off-guard with a torrid kiss that made your eyes lit up in shock and excitement, her immediate actions causing you to panic, your heart tripling its beat but nonetheless, you treasure every second invested onto the kiss as you eagerly reciprocated. You find the taste of her lips addicting as you fall under her spell and you find yourself diving deeper into the intimacy of such a hot kissing session.
The earlier turmoil was now calmed as the storm is now raging between the both parties, letting both your aggressions act up as your hands roams around her waist and her body and hers roaming around the back of your head which further ignites the fiery fervor between the both of you.ย 
Such good things can be met with their own denouement as she pulls out of your lipsโ€™ embrace slowly, and then looking at your eyes endearingly and said, โ€œI know what you're feelingโ€”โ€ Karina then points at your chest, onto your heart and continued, โ€œโ€”I can feel right here, beating for me.โ€
Well, her clever mind found out your genuine adoration towards her as thereโ€™s no point of turning back or denyingโ€”you just need confirmation from yourself even though itโ€™s not needed, the beat of heart says so and she can feel it.
โ€œYou may not know this, Karina butโ€”โ€ Your hands then caressed her slender waist throughout the expensive clothing as your eyes captivate her, โ€œโ€”I've fallen in love with you ever since weโ€™ve met yet Iโ€™m just scared to tell it all to youโ€ฆโ€
You let yourself be free from the shackles that confined your true feelings for her as this opportunity should be seized up to its finest. Youโ€™ve never felt such a great sigh of relief until she directed what youโ€™re really feeling and now with yourself being free and eased up, you couldnโ€™t contain your need for her as youโ€™re the one who initiated another kiss this time as the sloppy sounds of it became evident on how much you needed each other. Such clashing of soft fleshes never felt so good, and itโ€™s better when Karinaโ€™s tongue starts dancing all over yours, intertwined as both muscles fight for dominance and utter adoration. With the messy, sloppy kisses thatโ€™s been going on for minutes, the both you further indulged into it as you didnโ€™t mind the messy saliva that was all over your mouth since youโ€™ve started.
โ€œGodโ€”y-youโ€™re such a great kisserโ€ฆโ€
โ€œYou too, Karinaโ€”I never knew I needed this.โ€
Karina sighs as she felt flustered from your actions, and enlightened you with her own feelings too. โ€œI never knew Iโ€™ll feel the same as you did to me, honestlyโ€ฆโ€ย 
You felt a surge of serotonin when Karina grabbed your hand and directed it onto her chestโ€”even though it's a little uncomfortable due to the feeling of accidentally touching her busts, youโ€™d trust her because you trust herโ€”and then, you can feel the subsequent fast beating of her heart.
That alone makes you feel flustered knowing that the feelings are mutual between each other and youโ€™d like to take a step further yet you need great pace with that, of course.
โ€œCan you feel it? Itโ€™s just the same as what youโ€™re feeling tooโ€ฆโ€
Exchanging smiles because of the comfortable feeling she has shown you, you initiated another torrid kiss yet this time, you didnโ€™t fully invest your attention towards kissing her intimately but rather, fondled her massive mounds that youโ€™ve always wanted to touch yet something provoked her which scared you.
โ€œHey! Oohh~โ€
โ€œOh shitโ€”Iโ€™m sorry, Karinaโ€”โ€
โ€œNo!โ€ Karina then grabbed your hand as she directed it onto her mounds for another time, making you involuntarily squeeze them gently and fondle them with care and in response, she moaned beautifully as its almost inaudible yet it blessed your ears and itโ€™s such a brilliant cacophony to hear. โ€œI want more of this~โ€
Given the green light, you gently kiss her neck and collarbones while fondling her tits with care and inevitably, she lets out such angelic moans that you can listen to all damn day if it means to make you feel good on your end too. Your hands canโ€™t latch onto anything but her pillowy mounds that are magnetized within your touch as you canโ€™t be bothered to stop due to how stress-relieving and soft those areโ€”youโ€™ll definitely treasure this one as Karina herself is more than a golden treasure youโ€™re glad you can possess.
It didnโ€™t take long before she let you take off her dress within a single motion, removing the strap off just to unveil her taut nipples all on display and you could feel your hunger coursing down your veins once you saw those buds being stiff. Of course, wanting Karina to be comfortable, you need her permission first before doing anything that can let anybody know how insatiable she is for you.
โ€œMay I?โ€ You asked while kneeling down in level with her chest and with that actions if yours, sheโ€™s getting the grip of what you want to accomplish for both of your gratifications.
โ€œGo ahead, babyโ€”oh fuck! There~ ohhโ€”shit,so good!โ€
Subsequent moans escape her lips as you gently nibble the bud with your teeth and then latch your tongue on it to stimulate the taut nipple, offering the best quality of pleasure possible for her. While youโ€™re fully invested on feasting onto the succulent taste of her mounds, Karina takes some energy to let you know about her wants as you stopped and take some time to eavesdrop on her proposition.
โ€œC-can we take this on my b-bedroomโ€”thereโ€™s more room there for us to do this, or maybe even m-moreโ€”ahh~โ€
Within a speed of light, you instantly agreed onto it as she faintly smiled yet full of glee with the wants being mutual. โ€œOf course, Karinaโ€”we shouldโ€™ve thought about this sooner, honestly.โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re rightโ€”but letโ€™s g-go now. I canโ€™t wait to see what you can do for, and to meโ€ฆโ€
Itโ€™s only a matter of time before you settle yourselves onto the climax of the show where everything will be unveiled, within your very eyesโ€ฆ
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โ€œOh goshโ€”k-keep doing that, babyโ€ฆโ€
Constant fondling ensues as the sultry sounds escaping her lips fuels you to further keep up the pace and the momentum going. It was pleasurable for the both of you, as her constant, subtle writhing was enough of an evidence everytime you lay your fingers or your lips onto her sensitive body as you worship it, from head to toe, probably.ย 
Even with all of these things on the way, you canโ€™t help but think of one thing thatโ€™s been clouding your mind ever since and with that thought, it would be perfect but you need to enlighten Karina first with your proposition as itโ€™s willing to find the best gratification between both parties.
Now laying onto the bed, you look deeply at Karinaโ€™s glowing orbs as you mutter, โ€œI think thereโ€™s one way to make these things better, for you and meโ€ฆโ€
Karinaโ€™s eyes lit in excitement on what you may have in store, and also, anticipation fully rules over her and so is curiosity, making up for all the elements of being a cute, curious cat that she most likely possesses.
โ€œHm, youโ€™ll see, Karinaโ€”but for nowโ€”โ€ You let herself rest on the bed as you rose up and got something onto her drawer. Karina trusts you truly as she let herself fully anticipate your possible reward and as you face her again, she notices a black strip of cloth being brought over by you as sheโ€™s perplexed with that, thinking what you may do to her.
โ€œWhy do you have that? What are you going to do with it?โ€
You smirk with your devilish thoughts in mind, opting to let her anticipate for the fullest yet youโ€™ll let her know what you had in mind that probably corrupted you for so long. โ€œYou know, Rina, Iโ€™ve thought of really doing this with you but only if you want toโ€ฆโ€
โ€œWhat is it?โ€
You leaned over and whispered in her ear, โ€œMaybe a blindfold will make things better, isnโ€™t it?โ€
Of course, Karinaโ€™s eyes glisten with everything thatโ€™s lustful and utter anticipation as you almost feel like youโ€™re going to submerge into kissing her but you refrain from that, sticking onto the plan that you have in store for her. Karina then rose up from her previously laid position as every movement she does with her naked body in display is just hypnotizing yet you didnโ€™t bother yourself drooling and wrapped her head with the dark cloth thatโ€™s on your hands, forming up a blindfold that will make anything more pleasurable as her senses will took over her, letting her savor every moment possible.
โ€œToo tight?โ€
โ€œNo, itโ€™s perfectly fineโ€ฆโ€ You can see Karinaโ€™s head wandering around as her lack of vision lets her fight-and-flight response to activate but with her utmost trust bestowed towards you, she feels comfortable as she succumbs to your care and youโ€™ll absolutely treat her with what your heart can do, at its best.
โ€œYou sure you canโ€™t see anything, Karina?โ€ Of course, you need to double-check and further confirm if she canโ€™t see anything before you start the multiple things youโ€™ll do with her as Karina nods eagerly, persuading you that all she can see are dark hues and nothing else.
โ€œWhat number is this?โ€ Still hesitant, you draw your fingers into the air and form a number โ€˜threeโ€™ with it to make sure Karina canโ€™t see anything. Growing impatient, Karina whines adorably as sheโ€™s still convincing you that she canโ€™t see anything but in reality, youโ€™re just annoying her just to see how adorable she is and how that cuteness of hers will soon fade when you sullied herโ€”
โ€œCome on, can you justโ€”oohโ€”oh! Thatโ€™s g-good~โ€ Karina, still on the trance of being feisty, moaned immediately once youโ€™ve pinch her taut buds with your fingers as you slowly relaxed her slender figure onto the bed, letting her imagination be her limit as she uses her senses to attend her needs and feel such gratification. You continue fondling her mounds until your other hands roam onto her toned midriff, her smooth, creamy thighs that you definitely nuzzle on for hours and the main event, her succulent, wet pussy thatโ€™s ready to take you, more than anything.
โ€œYou like that, Karinaโ€”the way my fingers just tease you? Oh, you could just feel it and if you can see right now, youโ€™d probably know how wet you are, dripping onto the sheetsโ€ฆโ€ With her heightened senses, she muffled her moans in order to feel and hear every action you do onto her body yet she canโ€™t, and rather find each moan increasing in volume as she voices out her delight. You could hear her pleas as she seems needy and helpless with her state, and you, yourself, canโ€™t even bear to see her whining uncontrollably without her needs being attended to yet you need more foreplay to fire the lust thatโ€™s been igniting inside her.
โ€œJust a bit more, Karinaโ€”just wanna let you feel how good this isโ€ฆโ€
โ€œI k-know but p-please, babyโ€”I canโ€™t t-take it anymore!โ€
You canโ€™t just let her plead for eternity, and even with your own needy self being encouraged to dive into it deeper, you listen to the voices inside your head and let your hips do the workโ€”the mere containment of each othersโ€™ needs shouldnโ€™t be retained further, and let everything be unveiled.
With only her sense aiding up to make herself be in the momentum of peak pleasure, she could only know youโ€™re planning something ahead of this as she yelped once she felt your tip brushing against her wet folds and immediately, her thighs quiver and she squirmed in need in response of your teasing actions. With the deprivation of her senses, especially on her vision, she could only moan (almost screams) in need once youโ€™ve plunged your length inside her and even with only your tip being hugged by her velvety walls, you could definitely feel her tightness as itโ€™s gripping like its last and thatโ€™s one hell to define utter gratification.
โ€œFuckโ€”youโ€™re s-so tight, Karinaโ€”shit, so fucking tight!โ€
โ€œOh godโ€”y-youโ€™re so bigโ€”so good, oh god! I n-never felt this good!!โ€
You then start to pump onto her gripping walls with a moderate pace, aiming for her to really feel the pleasure and they way how your cock moves inside her wet cunt. Not being able to see opens a lot of opportunities especially when imagining something, and thatโ€™s probably what Karinaโ€™s doing as she treasures every thrust you do, your movements only aiming to further increase her needs for you and her libido. You start off slow, and gradually, build up the pace for some time yet you want to extend that so that Karina will most likely savor every hammer you do onto her wet, squelching cunt as her moans are strong evidence that sheโ€™s loving every second of this.
With only your tip inside when you withdraw, and then slamming back in, balls-deep is such an incredible factor that Karina finds, especially when she canโ€™t see anything and would just feel everything you do. Youโ€™re hammering onto her wet cunt hard as you savor the grip her pussy does around to your raging length and to further stimulate her, you wonโ€™t just grip her hips and fuck her with a constant, relentless pace but rather, let her feel more than just one epicenter of attraction. With deep hunger and insatiability over her, your lips latch onto her sharp collarbones and her neck, making her feel your affection alongside your constant pumps into her pussy. The stimulation sheโ€™s experiencing right now is more than phenomenal as everything you do highlights every single detail on the utter gratification sheโ€™s feeling and that alone is such a great feeling for her to feel. It didnโ€™t take long before you fondle her mounds again for the umpteenth time to further pleasure her as both your moans resonates around the puny room thatโ€™s soon will unable to cover them all, releasing symphonies of lust in which, will be the last thing you want to encounter.
โ€œDoes it feel better, Karina?โ€
It took her seconds before she could come up to articulate what youโ€™ve just said, the peak pleasure sheโ€™s feeling frying her brain and making her incapable of thinking straight. โ€œY-Yes, it doesโ€”oh god, w-we shouldโ€™ve done t-this soonerโ€”ahh~โ€
You suckle onto the porcelain skin of her neck, tasting the musky flavor of her skin as sweat dribbled over it, the heat of the moment finally being permeated onto minuscule droplets. Your harsh suckling tends to almost mark her, which she can feel as her hands roam all over your torso, specifically on your chest as she mutters, โ€œD-Donโ€™t mark me p-pleaseโ€ฆโ€
โ€œYeah, yeah, I wonโ€™t mark you, Karina, donโ€™t worryโ€ฆโ€
Now, with a profound fervor and intense rush of need towards her, your hips are now starting to quickly build up a breakneck pace, maybe, capable of breaking her in half as you go ruthless, letting your animalistic urges take over you. Your constant rhythm sends both of your brains into an overdrive that no one can fix but yourselves and you may not even bother too, wanting yourselves to dive in between your devilish needs and the utter wanton needs that youโ€™ve been longing for and been deprived of for a long time.
Having enough of showering her with kisses and the fondling of her tits that further submits her into utter submission, you then held her frame with both of your hands on her hips as you ensued a more ruthless pace, further hammering her wet cunt with no point of mercy and even returning back as her moans are now being converted to needy whimpers and cries which further fuels you to increase your quality of thrusts. Her senses being deprived is maybe a blessing in disguise, because on what you can conclude, sheโ€™s becoming more wetter and letting her imagine what could be happeningโ€”even down to the last, minute detailsโ€”is just throwing gasoline onto the flames of lust and your needs.
Now, with a newly-crafted pace, another rhapsody has been orchestrated as it hits a series of wonders throughout your brain and Karinaโ€™s, as the pleasure was being the tool of forming melodies to voice out your satisfactions. She then wrapped her legs around your waist as you continue hammering her wet folds like thereโ€™s no tomorrow, her moans encouraging you for more and for the best of everything even though it isnโ€™t neededโ€”if you could only see the glint of lust within her eyes, and how it glows is her own, wanton needs, then youโ€™ve probably broke loose and speaking of that, itโ€™s coming not for long and itโ€™s just going to be better.ย 
With the constant barrage of uncontrollable thrusts resonating such cacophonous sounds of bodies clashing together and such angelic moans, it wasnโ€™t long before Karina deemed herself to reach closer to her eternal bliss, chasing her orgasm with her hips gyrating onto your constantly ramming length and thenโ€”
โ€œIโ€™m super c-closeโ€”gahh, ooh~โ€
The world lit up white as she succumbs onto that bliss, despite the darkness that envelops her vision as she unshackles the beast inside her, creaming all over your length as it stains everywhere on its vicinity of your nether regions: your length, your balls, the bed sheets, and some even shooting onto the floor but those were only minimal amounts.
With the arousing sight of Karina cumming hard as she canโ€™t manage to really control how hard her orgasm hit her, it wasnโ€™t long before you could also feel yourself drawing close to the ring of fire. With more ruthless thrusts in order to chase yours, itโ€™s all bound to break as you immediately find your lips latching onto hers, sharing a torrid kiss in which she eagerly reciprocated and then, everything came loose.
You bury your entire length, filling her up to the hilt as you deepen the kiss, letting her know how youโ€™re in your approaching orgasm as you fill her up with multiple streaks of thick, warm semen thatโ€™s bound to set both yourselves onto the state of paramount bliss, in which, it does. You pull out of the torrid kiss as the muffled moans from earlier are being vocally being heard, finally voicing out how great the both of you are feeling throughout your orgasm and her walls being painted white.
Now, with your impending orgasm, you slowly limp beside her as you recover from your high as does Karina, breathing heavily, chest heaving for air. You then turn onto her and remove her blindfold in one, swift motions and god, she looks ethereal, like a beautiful butterfly emerging from its cocoon as her beauty never fails to amaze you, let alone adore her in levels you canโ€™t comprehend. She smiled widely as her endearing eyes greets you, feeling satisfied that youโ€™ve dumped a nice volume of load inside her cunt that sheโ€™s been longing for so long now.
โ€œOh, that was w-way better than I expectedโ€ฆโ€
The both of you exchange smiles as delight can be felt coursing down your veins, and you immediately voiced out how great the experience was. โ€œSee? I know youโ€™ll love these kinds of thingsโ€”I told youโ€ฆโ€
The two of you shared another intimate kiss, but this time, itโ€™s fully passionate as the ardor between both parties ignite and not so long after, she pulled out of your lipsโ€™ embrace as you hugged her tightly, feeling the warmth of her body complimenting yours as the intense surge of adrenaline of pure passion is just clouding both your minds, unable to find out of such a wholesome cuddling session.
โ€œThanks for c-cumming inside meโ€”I really wanted that for so long.โ€
You scoff, feeling a little shy yet in all arms in terms of giving her what she wanted. โ€œNo problem, Karinaโ€”you felt great tooโ€ฆ Hahโ€ฆโ€
With silence permeating the air on the once lust-filled room, the both of you stared at each other endearingly before Karina thought that somethingโ€™s not right and suddenly, a spark ignites inside herโ€”
โ€œOh goshโ€”the chicken! We totally forgot about it!!โ€
And well, gladly your hunger met a hindrance, and guess what? It was all for the better as you get to bless yourself with the treatment of Karinaโ€™s insatiability and that alone, is a five-star meal youโ€™re willing to savor and cherish for the time being.
Perhaps, maybe treat you to another, if given the right timeโ€ฆ
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The Freak and The Princess -Eddie Munson
Authors Note: I think I wrote this one back when the new season first came out? Cleaning out drafts and for a couple months I was on an Eddie track fr fr
Word Count: 13,441
Warnings: SMUT SMUT SMUT - Eddie and reader are mean to each other for a bit.
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(Thank you for the gif @johnclaytonmayer)
Enjoy!
It was amazing to think how much things change.ย 
There had once been a time where you considered Eddie Munson to be your best friend, that and your brother Gareth. There had been a time where you thought Eddie Munson was one of the most perfect people in the world, where you had craved to spend any possible second you could with him.ย 
Now, sitting in the back of his van soaked to the bone as you sob, you find that youโ€™re somehow sitting across a stranger. He watches you closely, eyes stern as he wraps a blanket around you to try and help the shivering.ย 
It was weird to recognize every single detail of him and still feel like you didnโ€™t all at once.ย 
โ€œDo you want to smoke? Will that help?โ€ He asks, already reaching for the lunch box hidden in the back so he could grab one of the joints you had seen him roll earlier in the day.ย 
โ€œI want to go home.โ€ You cry, a shiver going down your spine. โ€œBut I donโ€™t want them to see me like this.โ€ย 
โ€œOkay.โ€ He nods, and you can see him try to come up with a plan. โ€œI can take you to my trailer for a bit, you can shower and sleep some of this off. Okay?โ€ย 
โ€œOkay.โ€ You nod, hands still shaking. โ€œThank youโ€ฆ.. thank you Eds.โ€ย 
He stills at the nickname, eyes catching yours for a moment before he is shuffling to get into the driver seat without another word.ย 
You felt silly, calling him his nickname after everything thatโ€™s happened, shuffling to lay on your side to help ease some of the pain built up. You hear him shuffle around with the music, debating if he should have it up or down.ย 
โ€œDo you want music, bugs?โ€ He asks, your chest warming at the nickname as you close your eyes, inhaling the scent from his sweater and blanket as you fall asleep.ย 
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You had met Eddie your freshman year of highschool, before that he had always been Gareths mysterious friend that you had never seen before.ย 
But now that you went to school with them it seemed that Eddie was everywhere, not that you minded.ย 
You had quickly become a main member of their group, sitting with them at lunch and going to their band practices. You and your brother had always been close, so it wasnโ€™t anything different than how it used to be. You were just hanging out with your brotherโ€ฆโ€ฆ and his extremely hot friend that you sometimes imagined kissing. No biggie.
But being completely honest everything about Eddie to you was a huge biggie.ย 
Like right now, as he glared at you while angrily breaking pretzels with his teeth, and all you could do was smile at him.ย 
โ€œWhat is wrong with you?โ€ He snaps and you preen under the attention.ย 
โ€œI said what I said.โ€ You simply reply, flipping your hair over your shoulder with confidence.ย 
โ€œHow can you hate Texas Chainsaw?! Itโ€™s such a classic movie! First of its kind!โ€ He whines, snatching a fry from your plate.ย 
โ€œYou say that about every slasher movie, Eds.โ€ You grumble, snatching a pretzel from his bag. โ€œTheyโ€™re all new and amazing to you.ย 
โ€œBecause they are!โ€ He sighs, obviously frustrated that you wouldnโ€™t agree. โ€œYouโ€™re just upset that we didnโ€™t watch that new goonies bullshit.โ€
โ€œWhatโ€™s going on?โ€ Gareth asks, sitting beside you with his own lunch tray and snatching one of your fries even though he had some of his own.ย 
โ€œWe were just talking about movies.โ€ You mumble, a blush rising across your skin. Wednesday nights Gareth had to work at the gas stations over night shift, so you had begun hanging out with Eddie when your brother was busy. That had turned into spending the night at Eddieโ€™s and telling your older brother that you were spending the night at your friend Abigailโ€™s since you knew he would get butt hurt that you hung out with Eddie without him.ย 
โ€œBugs here thinks Texas chainsaw sucked.โ€ Eddie grunts, throwing a pretzel at you.ย 
โ€œOh no way! Itโ€™s so good!โ€ Your brother gasps as Jeff joins the table and soon Paul joined. Suddenly the table was packed and chaos filled the once normal conversation.ย 
You allowed them all to talk over you, choosing to look around the cafeteria as they do so. Everyone today seemed to be in a flurry of excitement, laughing and dashing across the cafeteria.ย 
You make eye contact with Adam Hanson, one of the schools popular basketball players and he gives you a wide smile, winking as all his friends talk around him.ย 
At first you pass by it, not really thinking he was looking at you until he waves his hand to get your attention again, smiling like a goof as he wiggles his fingers right before he winks again.ย 
A small touch at your wrist pulls you back to the table, where Eddie is peering at you with wide brown eyes as the boys yell at each other about something. His thumb is rubbing your wrist softly as you try and smile.ย 
โ€œYou okay?โ€ He asks, looking past you to where Hanson sits before looking back to your eyes.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m fine. Hanson has always been a clown.โ€ You mumble back shrugging.ย 
โ€œOkay well I was asking you if you want to retry.โ€ Eddie mumbles, thumb still rubbing your wrist.ย 
โ€œRetry?โ€ย 
โ€œMovie night.โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™m not watching texas chainsaw again.โ€ You laugh which makes him smile.ย 
โ€œI meant we need to make up for it. Get a movie you might actually like.โ€ He scoffs, rolling his eyes. โ€œGareth works tonight and Wayne is going to be doing an all nighter at work so we can get another movie.โ€ย 
โ€œThat sounds like fun.โ€ You smile at him, watching his shoulders relax a bit.ย 
โ€œWhat sounds like fun?โ€ Gareth asks turning to you.ย 
โ€œBurning the government down.โ€ You reply, smiling innocently.ย 
โ€œThat sounds like fun, count me in.โ€ A new voice emerges from behind you, making the rest of the table blink slowly as you turn to see Adam Hanson standing there smiling wide. โ€œWhat time should we meet up? Iโ€™ll bring the gasoline.โ€ย 
โ€œI think our rebel van is already full this time. Maybe you can catch the next round.โ€ You smile.ย 
โ€œBurning down more than one government are we?โ€ He laughs with raised eyebrows.ย 
โ€œMmm. Maybe a monarchy next.โ€ You offer, shrugging a bit as he laughs like itโ€™s the funniest thing in the world. โ€œI like to keep my options open.โ€
โ€œCan we help you?โ€ Gareth scoffs, glaring at Adam like he was being a huge issue.ย 
โ€œHey, take it easy. Just trying to join a revolution.โ€ Adam teases, hands held up in a surrender way and winking at you once more before walking off to join his friends at the door while your brother glares at you like you had done something wrong.ย 
โ€œWhat?โ€ย 
โ€œThat was gross!โ€ He scoffs. โ€œDude was ogling at my baby sister.โ€ย 
โ€œNo he wasnโ€™t.โ€ You scoff back, blushing a bit as your brother rolls his eyes. Risking a quick look to Eddie, nervous about his reaction, you find him wide eyed looking between your brother and yourself.ย 
โ€œWasnโ€™t that disgusting, Eddie?โ€ Gareth snaps, pulling the poor dungeon master into it. โ€œThe kid barely notices you then you hit puberty and suddenly heโ€™s all over you? Fucking perve.โ€ย 
โ€œWhy are you making such a big deal about this? He was just being nice.โ€ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re a child. And he was not just being nice.โ€ Gareth scoffs again, smacking the back of your head. โ€œItโ€™s called being a pedophile.โ€ย 
โ€œDoesnโ€™t count. They are both minors.โ€ Jeff reminds through a mouthful of pizza.ย 
โ€œYeah well itโ€™s still gross.โ€ Gareth snaps.ย 
Now, completely embarrassed by this whole ordeal, you risk one more look at Eddie only to realize that he was avoiding eye contact and pretending to read the textbook in front of him.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m gonna go to my locker.โ€ You mumble, the embarrassment eating you. You grab your stuff quickly, dropping off the tray into the trash before exiting all together.ย 
ย ย 
Eddieโ€™s trailer had once made you nervous, the idea of being where Eddie lived and slept.ย 
But now? You were very used to it, excitement fills you whenever you come over.ย 
Knocking, just as you always do, after parking your bike by the side so it doesnโ€™t get stolen. Soon enough the door was cracking open and Eddieโ€™s face came into view, a smile breaking out on his face when he sees you, opening the door wider to reveal he is only in sweats with his torso of tattoos that has your eyes widening.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re early.โ€ He mumbles out, rubbing his eyes to try and wake up, pulling you in so he can shut the door from the cold. โ€œJesus. Why is it so chilly?โ€ย 
Within moments he is pulling you in for a hug, rubbing your back in an attempt to warm you up. Youโ€™re body is immediately ablaze, cheeks warm from blushing and skin hot.ย 
โ€œItโ€™s this funny thing called fall.โ€ You joke, hugging him back tightly before he tries to shuffle you both back to his room without breaking it. A giggle escapes you when he trips slightly before you let go so he can walk normally and moves to his room with you close on his heels.ย 
Itโ€™s a routine that you both follow easily when you arrive, going to his room to change out of everyday clothes and into something more comfortable.ย 
He lets you wear one of his band tees and sweats, snatching the pillows from his bed as you change, and then he leads you back out to the living room.ย 
โ€œI went ahead and got the goonies for you, because youโ€™re a nerd.โ€ He grunts out, moving to put the tape in. โ€œWhy are you so early today?โ€ย 
โ€œI didnโ€™t go home, I had a meeting after school and came straight here.โ€ You answer, watching his interest peak as he raises an eyebrow.ย 
โ€œWhat meeting?โ€ You wait for him to sit on the couch, laying down before extending his arms to grab you so that you both could lay down, pressed to each other as you fixed the blanket.ย 
โ€œCheer. They have an opening so I signed up for the auditions.โ€ You mumble, using his chest as a pillow while he looks down at you.ย 
โ€œYou want to cheer?โ€ย 
โ€œYeah. I always have. I used to do it all the time, cheer camp and everything but when I first came to Hawkins someone told me I shouldnโ€™t.โ€ You answer, adjusting the blanket so it covered you both as his hands move to play with your hair.ย 
Something about Eddie? He was ALWAYS touching you. Found every excuse in the book to do so. And it annoyed you to no end because he was so casual about it and it always left you flustered and a mess.ย 
โ€œIs that why that kid came up to talk to you today?โ€ He asks, something off about his tone. โ€œSeemed like you knew him.โ€ย 
โ€œI have math class with him.โ€ You yawn, closing your eyes and keeping your nose pressed into his chest as you fall asleep.ย 
Sometime later he wakes you up, half asleep himself to get you both to his room, falling into the mattress and pulling you in to fall back asleep.ย 
-
โ€œYouโ€™re being so weird today.โ€ Gareth snaps through a mouthful of cereal, leaning against the locker next to yours.ย 
โ€œShut up.โ€ You mumble out, not daring to look him in the eyes as he draws attention to you both.ย 
โ€œWhy me shut up? Dude this isnโ€™t a good idea.โ€ย 
โ€œGareth. Take it down a notch.โ€ You warn.ย 
โ€œYou want to be on the cheer team? Really?โ€ He scoffs. โ€œThat lame group that shares maybe one brain cell between them?โ€ย 
โ€œWith me there might be moreโ€ you try to tease, watching him roll his eyes before another figure emerges.ย 
โ€œDude. Where were you last night? I called like 6 times.โ€ Gareth sighs, and youโ€™re just thankful that the conversation moved on from you for a moment.ย 
โ€œI went to bed. Take it down a notch.โ€ Eddie shrugs, looking at you the same time you looked at him.ย 
Technically he wasnโ€™t lying. He had gone to bed. โ€œWhatโ€™s the problem?โ€ย 
โ€œMy sister wants to join the world of bimbos and stds.โ€ Gareth snaps, and you feel Eddie move forward to avoid being pushed in the crowded hallway, his chest hitting your shoulder with warmth.ย 
โ€œYou want to date Steve Harrington?โ€ He laughs, making you smile back.ย 
โ€œShe wants to be a cheer slut.โ€ย 
โ€œWho does?โ€ This time itโ€™s Paul that asks, with Jeff right on his tail. And once again youโ€™re thrown in the center of their arguing.ย 
โ€œSeriously?โ€ Paul laughs when he is told, blatantly laughing in your face. โ€œThatโ€™d be so hilarious!โ€ย 
โ€œHey, come on.โ€ Eddie warns.ย 
โ€œI mean sheโ€™sโ€ฆ.โ€ Paul trails off a bit and you find yourself filling in on the words he didnโ€™t say. Youโ€™re what? Lame? Ugly? Unlikable?ย 
โ€œItโ€™s not gonna work.โ€ Gareth shrugs.โ€I just donโ€™t want you to get hurt buggie.โ€ย 
โ€œSheโ€™s not gonna make it. And even if she does itโ€™s not like sheโ€™ll be on long.โ€ Paul giggles to himself. โ€œYouโ€™d have to put out to the-โ€œย 
Eddie and Gareth both punch his shoulders on either side, as hard as they can.ย 
โ€œSee you at cheer practice, โ€ฆโ€ฆโ€ a soft voice rings out, drawing your attention to Chrissy Cunningham, a girl in your class.ย 
She held a small smile, one that said โ€œI got your back.โ€ And you realized what she must have seen, you surrounded by a bunch of guys making fun of you.ย 
So you give a tiny wave, which makes her smile widen and suddenly you were smiling too, a little happier when she walks off.ย 
Something light fills your chest until you look back to Gareth who glares at you. โ€œYouโ€™re not even in yet and youโ€™re already acting like one of them.โ€ย 
โ€œI donโ€™t get why youโ€™re so mad. Paul, you said last band practice that I annoy you guys.โ€ You remind, snatching one of your books as Eddie stands straight suddenly. โ€œBeing a cheerleader means I donโ€™t sit in on practices anymore.โ€ย 
โ€œWait; you said that?โ€ Eddie asks, chest still pressed into your shoulder as he holds out his hand to Paul in a shocked way. โ€œWhy?โ€ย 
โ€œCause she always-โ€œย 
โ€œCan we get back to the problem at hand? Youโ€™re gonna be all cool and popular and lose all your personality.โ€ Gareth snaps. โ€œJust another girl with a pretty smile that the jocks use and abuse.โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™d still hang out with you guys?โ€ You laugh, closing your locker. โ€œWhat are the chances that we all stop being friends? I live with you, remember Gary?โ€ย 
โ€œWhatever bugs.โ€ He huffs, a small smile playing at his lips.ย 
He waltzes off after that, bowl of cereal in hand as Paul and Jeff follow him to class. Eddie remains, watching you.ย 
โ€œI donโ€™t know why Paul said that but-โ€œย 
โ€œEds, itโ€™s fine. Heโ€™s a little right at the end of the day. I mean thereโ€™s only so much I can talk to you guys about so maybe itโ€™s time I make a couple more friends.โ€ You shrug.ย 
โ€œYou can talk to me about anything though.โ€ Not about the huge crush you have, or the way every time he touches you your heart beats fast.ย 
โ€œNot about periods or bra sizes.โ€ You joke, moving to walk away, surprised when he follows you. โ€œArenโ€™t you supposed to be on the other side of school?โ€ย 
โ€œYou can talk to me about anything.โ€ He states again, this time more serious. โ€œPeriods. Bra sizes. Anything and everything.ย  I just want you to know that.โ€ย 
You smile at him, shrugging and walking away to class.ย 
-ย 
Two days later youโ€™re rushing home with excited news, a smile splitting across your face as you run to tell everyone.ย ย 
Tonight was band practice, which meant all the boys would be in the garage so youโ€™d probably tell them first, your new cheer uniform clutched tightly in your hands as you make your way up.ย 
You see Eddieโ€™s van parked in the driveway and excitement fills you at the thought of telling him, so you cut across the lawn, just at the point where they can almost hear you when you hear them talking.ย 
โ€œ-I think itโ€™s great that sheโ€™s going for the cheer team.โ€ Jeffโ€™s voice rings out, catching your attention โ€œshe used to cheer when she was younger right?โ€ย 
โ€œYeah. She stopped when she got to high school. I donโ€™t know man, I just think itโ€™s going to ruin her you know?โ€ย 
โ€œAt least she wonโ€™t be following us around all the time.โ€ Paul grunts out, and your heart clenches. โ€œSheโ€™s always there!โ€ย 
โ€œThat is a good point.โ€ Gareth sighs. โ€œMaybe go and make her own friends.โ€ย 
โ€œSheโ€™s so annoying. Always talking our ear off about everything and always asking us if she can play DND.โ€ย 
โ€œShe doesnโ€™t ask us if she can play. She asks how we play and if she can watch.โ€ Jeff corrects.ย 
โ€œFor what though? So she can start coming to those hangouts?! She ruins everything!โ€ Paul snaps and you suddenly feel really stupid.ย 
โ€œI think youโ€™re right.โ€ Eddie laughs, which makes Jeff and Gareth laugh too and you completely shatter there.ย 
What happened to you talking to him about anything?ย 
โ€œIโ€™m just saying man-โ€œย 
โ€œYeah yeah, we know what youโ€™re saying Paul.โ€ Eddie interrupts him, still laughing. You canโ€™t hear anymore, you turn to head through the front door rather than the garage, storming up to your room and slamming your door.ย 
-
Eddie was anxious, had been all day since he found out the cheer tryouts were today.ย 
He didnโ€™t know what he was so worried about in general, and no matter what he tried to talk himself out of he always found something else to worry about.ย 
What if you got in and stopped hanging out with all of them? No more secret movie nights at his trailer or sneaking you into the hideout so you can watch their shows.ย 
No more of you coming to band practices and cheering them on. He wouldnโ€™t get to be near you as much. You wouldnโ€™t sit at the table with them and he wouldnโ€™t get to talk to you everyday.ย 
Or worse, you become one of them and you end up hating him just like they do.ย ย 
But then he tells himself that neither of those would happen, you would still be their friends and you loved movie night as much as he did. Or.,โ€ฆ.. well he hoped you did.ย 
Besides, he would be upset if they turned you down. He knew you would be upset and he just wouldnโ€™t be able to handle how sad you would look.ย 
They would be idiots to turn you away, heโ€™s seen you dance at the hideoutโ€ฆ.. well more so like he watched you intently like a perv, scared your brother might finally notice just how much Eddie liked you.ย 
That had been his biggest concern as of late, Gareth. Watching your brother freak out everytime someone tried talking to you or everytime Paul hinted about you, well it made him feel like a shit friend.ย 
Not to mention it made him feel bad for you. You just wanted to hang out with your brother and his friends, you didnโ€™t need him being all weird about it.ย 
You especially didnโ€™t need him trailing after you like a lost puppy all the time.ย 
Which was why he was getting so anxious at band practice, listening to Gareth get into it with Paul over you.ย 
โ€œThis is such bullshit man, I already got you drooling over my sister at every turn-โ€œย 
โ€œI do not!โ€ Paul snaps.
โ€œ-and not the rest of the school will be too!โ€ Gareth yells, frustrated.ย 
โ€œJust wait until she starts dyeing her hair and sucking faces with all the boys on the team!โ€ Paul gags, which makes Jeff roll his eyes.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re just saying that because youโ€™ve been head over heels in love with her since middle school dumbass. We all see it. And personally I think itโ€™s great that sheโ€™s going for the cheer team.โ€ Jeff adds, always the calm one.ย  โ€œshe used to cheer when she was younger right?โ€ย 
โ€œYeah. She stopped when she got to high school. I donโ€™t know man, I just think itโ€™s going to ruin her you know?โ€ Gareth sighs, and Eddie finally recognizes what the biggest problem here was. He was afraid he wouldnโ€™t have your back anymore.ย 
โ€œAt least she wonโ€™t be following us around all the time.โ€ Paul grunts out, and Eddie finds himself clenching his fists and trying not to lose his cool. โ€œSheโ€™s always there!โ€ย 
โ€œThat is a good point.โ€ Gareth sighs. โ€œMaybe go and make her own friends.โ€ย 
โ€œSheโ€™s so annoying. Always talking our ear off about everything and always asking us if she can play DND.โ€ย 
โ€œShe doesnโ€™t ask us if she can play. She asks how we play and if she can watch.โ€ Jeff corrects which makes Eddie nod. He had countless nights planning the campaigns with you and always offered to teach you, but you never wanted to actually play, instead you gave him ideas on his campaigns.ย 
โ€œFor what though? So she can start coming to those hangouts?! She ruins everything!โ€ Paul snaps.ย 
โ€œI think youโ€™re right.โ€ Eddie laughs loudly, turning to Jeff in reference to Paulโ€™s crush on you as they all laugh at Paul, who gets completely red in the face at the way they are all calling him out.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m just saying man-โ€œย 
โ€œYeah yeah, we know what youโ€™re saying Paul.โ€ Eddie interrupts him, still laughing even though he feels like pummeling his face in. โ€œYouโ€™re madly in love with Gareths little sister and she doesnโ€™t like you back so you have to be angry at her for it.โ€ย 
โ€œBack off my little sister you freak.โ€ Gareth laughs at paul. โ€œSheโ€™s too good for you.โ€ย 
Sheโ€™s too good for everyone, Eddie thinks, turning towards the open garage door waiting to see you. โ€œWhat time was that shit supposed to end anyways?โ€ย 
โ€œAll I know is she said sheโ€™d be home for dinner.โ€ Gareth shrugs and Eddie still canโ€™t decide if he wants you to make it on the team or not.ย 
All he hopes for is that they are nice too you.ย 
So he waits, and waits. Even when they are playing their songs he keeps his eyes on the door for you to emerge.ย 
Finally Gareths mom comes out smiling to call them in for dinner.ย 
โ€œWhat about sis?โ€ Gareth asks as everyone helps his mom set the table.ย 
โ€œSheโ€™s upstairs.โ€ This catches Eddieโ€™s attention, heart thundering as he tries to play it cool.ย 
โ€œI didnโ€™t see her come in?โ€ Gareth asks, moving to the stairs in an attempt to call you down but your mom is quick to stop him.ย 
โ€œDonโ€™t. Sheโ€™s upset and trying to lay down.โ€ย 
โ€œSheโ€™s upset?โ€ Eddie asks, chest aching. โ€œWhat happened?โ€ย 
โ€œI donโ€™t know. I went to check on her and she was crying. Said she didnโ€™t feel well.โ€ Your mom answers and Eddieโ€™s fist clenched.ย 
They probably made fun of you, they probably made you cry at the try outs. Jeff taps his shoulder, mouthing a โ€˜chill out.โ€™ That makes Eddie worried.ย 
Did Jeff know he had a crush on you too?ย 
Did Gareth know?ย 
โ€œEat up boys.โ€ Your mom orders.ย 
-ย 
The next morning was rocky at best.ย 
You got up and got dressed into your cheer uniform, and then at the last second decided that since you were wearing the uniform why not do your makeup? You wanted to look cute for your first day on the team.ย 
You hadnโ€™t thought about what you overheard until your brother barged in your room, giving you a confused look as you finish up the final touches on your face, suddenly embarrassed as it all comes rushing back.ย 
โ€œYou made it?!โ€ He asks, which makes you roll your eyes.ย 
โ€œYes. Shut up.โ€ You grunt, pushing him out of the way to grab your shoes.ย 
โ€œMom said you were upset yesterday, so I figured you didnโ€™t make it.โ€ He shrugs, admiring himself in your mirror before throwing your own brush at you.ย ย 
โ€œI just had a migraine.โ€ You lie, trying to play it off. Donโ€™t cry. Donโ€™t cry donโ€™t cry donโ€™t cry.ย 
โ€œDamn. Sorry bugs. Iโ€™ll grab time Tylenol before we leave in case it comes back.โ€ And with that he is gone, you hot on his heels to catch up as you dash to pack your lunch.ย 
โ€œEddie is swinging by to pick us up.โ€ Gareth informs, snatching an apple and the bottle of Tylenol before moving to count the money in his wallet for lunch.ย 
โ€œWhy?โ€ The only times eddie took you to school were after your movie nights when you were at his house anyways.ย 
โ€œHe offered last night. Letโ€™s go.โ€ Your brother sighs, ushering you to the door.ย 
โ€œWeโ€™ll I donโ€™t wanna intrude and I have something after school so I can just ride my bike.โ€ Youโ€™re quick, moving away from your brother in attempt to make it look like you forgot something. โ€œGo on without me.โ€ย 
โ€œBugs, Iโ€™m sure Eddie or Paul will give you a ride after your meeting thing. Letโ€™s gooooo.โ€ He groans, pulling you by your hair and out the door.ย 
When he manages to drag you to the van Eddie leans over to open the door and Gareth waits for you to hop in.ย 
โ€œI should just ride my bike. Iโ€™ve got something after school later and you guys wonโ€™t want to wait around-โ€œย 
โ€œWe have DnD tonight.โ€ Eddie shrugs. โ€œWeโ€™ll be at the school late anyways.โ€ย 
There was no winning with these two, so you nod and hop in, trying not to take up too much space as Eddie stares at the uniform.ย 
โ€œYou got in?โ€ย 
โ€œWhy is everyone so shocked?โ€ You snap, embarrassed and upset. They thought you were annoying and always there and apparently no one believed you would get in the squad.ย 
โ€œItโ€™s just-โ€œย 
โ€œIs that a donut?โ€ Gareth asks, snatching it from the console.ย 
โ€œI got it for bugs to cheer her up-โ€œ Eddie starts right as Gareth shoves half of it in his mouth. โ€œNevermind.โ€ย 
โ€œCan we just go?โ€ You snap, attempting to avoid eye contact with both.ย 
-ย 
โ€œAre you okay?โ€ Eddie asks, walking with you on your way to your locker after 3rd period, his eyebrows pinched in worry and his eyes wide.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m fine.โ€ You lie, trying to smile. โ€œWhy wouldnโ€™t I be?โ€ย 
Maybe because I overheard people I thought were my friends making fun of me, or maybe because the guy Iโ€™ve been madly in love with since I met him thinks Iโ€™m clingy and annoying.ย 
โ€œI just wanted to make sure because-โ€œ he grunts out as Steve Harrington elbows him to get past, accidentally shoving him into you and sending you both into the lockers. โ€œGod damnit.โ€ย 
Eddie is quick to give you space, reaching for the arm that hit the lockers to make sure youโ€™re not hurt as he blinks.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m fine.โ€ You smile, enjoying the feeling of his hand on your skin. โ€œDid you pack lunch today?โ€ย 
โ€œNo. But since I stopped to get you breakfast, sorry about that by the way, I picked something up.โ€ He explains, walking with you and dropping his hand. The way heโ€™s staring at you makes you nervous, In the best way. And you try to ignore the butterflies in your stomach as he attempts a smile, until you remember what was said yesterday and those butterflies find themselves in a blender. โ€œMight you be interested in sharing a store made sandwich and sun chips milady?โ€ย 
โ€œOh how thoughtful-โ€œ you begin, joining him in the lunchroom before you see Paul and Jeff already sitting there, panic rising. โ€œBut I realized I forgot my lunch. Iโ€™ll go get something.โ€ย 
โ€œOkay, I can walk up with you-โ€œ Eddie starts, but you stop him.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m fine! Iโ€™ll be good.โ€ You mumble out. โ€œBesides, Paulโ€™s already calling you over.โ€ย 
Eddie gives you a worried look, but nods and heads over to the table anyways, all the boys matching in their hellfire shirts as Paul starts loudly complaining about something.ย 
You realize halfway to the line that your excuse didnโ€™t make sense since you did pack lunch, and you hadnโ€™t grabbed your wallet since this outfit didnโ€™t have pockets so you had no money to buy anything.ย 
And while you stood there, debating what you should do, you see Chrissy walking towards you in her uniform as well.ย 
โ€œHey!โ€ She smiles, moving in to hug you. โ€œIโ€™m so happy you made it! I was worried when there was only two spots and you were soooo good!โ€ย 
A small burst of pride settles through you as she compliments you, linking your arms together as she heads to the cheer table. โ€œI was also worried I'd be left alone. But youโ€™re here and weโ€™re gonna be so awesome!โ€ย 
She leads you to the table, and takes a seat like it was the most natural thing in the world, meanwhile you were panicking. What would the boys think? Would these girls want you to sit with them?ย 
You risk a look over to the hellfire table, seeing all of them staring at you with wide eyes, especially Eddie, who had saved the seat next to himself.ย 
โ€œGirl; come on! We want to do your hair!โ€ Sarah, the captain, giggles and pulls you to sit.ย 
It was for the better, all the boys thought you were annoying anyways. Maybe they would get a break from you.ย 
One lunch wouldnโ€™t hurt and you wouldnโ€™t be so annoying. Right?
-ย 
โ€œToo cool to eat with us now?โ€ Gareth teases, waiting for you after practice. The sun had gone down in Hawkins, and the sweat from practice clung to you making the night air twice as chilly.ย 
He had a red mark on his cheek, which told you that he probably was being overdramatic during the campaign and smacked himself again.ย 
โ€œNo. Iโ€ฆโ€ you start to explain, right as Eddie comes out of the doors and spots you. โ€œI was going to get lunch, but Chrissy pulled me to the table.โ€ย 
โ€œHow was it?โ€ Eddie smiles. โ€œYou got to see how the other side lived? Any exciting news to report back?โ€ย 
โ€œNothing much,โ€ you smile, walking with them both as they head to Eddieโ€™s car. โ€œI got to know them a little better and they all talked to me about my routine because they like-โ€œย 
Your brother does an overdramatic yawn, tossing the back door to Eddieโ€™s van open and throwing himself in. โ€œBoring already.โ€ย 
You roll your eyes, shutting the door on him before moving to hop into the passenger seat. Eddie gets into the driver side, looking to where your brother is already lighting a cigarette.ย 
โ€œSo they liked your routine?โ€ He asks, looking at you as he starts the van.ย 
โ€œThey did!โ€ You smile, excitement bubbling in you as you move to start talking again.ย 
โ€œOh my god. No one cares. Are any of them single?โ€ Gareth smiles, and you lean to smack his head before sitting in silence the rest of the ride.ย 
When you get home youโ€™re the first to hop out, turning to grab your bag as Gareth crawls out.ย 
โ€œI can get you guys tomorrow? If youโ€™d like.โ€ Eddie offers, face red for some reason. Gareth narrows his eyes at his friend, while you shrug.ย 
โ€œActually the girls are gonna come get me early. Thanks though Eds.โ€ You smile, walking away as Gareth says heโ€™ll be ready by 8.ย 
-ย 
One lunch turned to another, then another. Then that turned to going and getting a milkshake with the girls after practice and rides from them in the mornings.ย 
You went from always being around to never in sight, which absolutely shredded Eddie to pieces.ย 
Itโ€™s not like he wasnโ€™t happy for you, you seemed to be always smiling and giggling with them. You went to the mall with them on weekends and always came back ecstatic about everything you got because the girls all said it looked great on you.ย 
You definitely grew into the feminine side, and his heart exploded everytime he did manage to see youโ€ฆ.. and he was ashamed to admit his pants always got tighter whenever he saw you in uniform.ย 
You messed around with makeup and you always had a style for you hair.ย 
Eddie loved it for you, he loved that you seemed to go from stunningly beautiful to so stunningly gorgeous any guy at school wanted you. You seemed to enjoy your new look and he was happy for you. He wasnโ€™t happy about the fact that he never saw you anymore.ย 
So, on a Wednesday afternoon, when he was dropping off a new cover for Gareths guitar while his friend was at work he was excited to see your shoes in the doorway.ย 
He waltzed up the stairs and knocked on your door, heart hammering through his ribcage as he heard you jump to answer it.ย 
Then there you were, as beautiful as can be, with nothing on but a tank and shorts. Excitement courses through him, a smile spreading across his face, it has been weeks since he last saw you and now he could ask about movie night.ย 
โ€œHey I-โ€œ he stopped short when he saw Adam Hanson sitting on your bedroom floor, staring at him like he was crazy. Of course he was staring at him like he was crazy, Adam was probably wondering why the school freak was at your door. โ€œI was just dropping off this new cover for your brother. Make sure he gets it, yeah?โ€ย 
He practically shoves it into your hands, heart thundering and desperate to get out of here.ย 
โ€œOkay!โ€ You smile at him and he feels his heart clench through his chest. โ€œActually Adam and I were finishing up homework if you wanted to watch a movie-โ€œย 
Hanging out with you? Dream come true. Hanging out with you and your boyfriend? Fuck. No. So he finds himself lashing out, a mix of embarrassment and jealousy made for a bad situation. โ€œNo thanks. I have better things to do than hang out with Gareths baby sister. Or should I say better girls to do.โ€ย 
He pairs it with a bullshit wink in adams direction, not daring to look at you as he moves to walk away while you slam the door.ย 
โ€œDoes the freak always talk to you like that?โ€ Adam asks, and Eddie can only hear ringing at the blood rushes to his ears. Freak.ย 
He doesnโ€™t bother waiting around, instesd he marches straight out of your house and leaves.ย 
-
Youโ€™re in shock when you close the door, eyes welling with tears.ย 
โ€œDoes the freak always talk to you like that?โ€ Adam asks, pulling your attention to him. โ€œWoah, hey donโ€™t cry.โ€ย 
โ€œHeโ€™s not a freak.โ€ You defend, as you had been doing the past two months. โ€œAnd heโ€™s neverโ€ฆ.โ€ย 
What? Talked like that before? You didnโ€™t know that, and you knew he had talked about how annoying you were behind your back? So maybe heโ€™s said more things too.ย 
โ€œNever to my face.โ€ You shrug, wiping away the tears that kept coming.ย 
Adam sighs, moving to hug you and let you cry.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m so telling my boyfriend about this.โ€ He sneers and you laugh lightly.ย 
โ€œI donโ€™t really know what youโ€™re long distance boyfriend will do to help.โ€ย 
โ€œSend me treats that I can share with you obviously.โ€ Adam laughs. โ€œHey, I can stay and watch that movie with you-โ€œย 
โ€œNo itโ€™s fine.โ€ You sniffle. โ€œYou have a curfew.โ€ย 
And he soon enough leaves, worried about you but you keep telling him itโ€™s fine, anger coiling in your gut at every pity look your friend gives you.ย 
How dare Eddie. How dare he embarrass you and say that. What had you ever done to him?ย 
Sure you were the annoying little sister but itโ€™s not like he had ever told you to back off or anything. He had always made it seem like he wanted to hang out.ย 
You couldnโ€™t shake the anger as you went to bed, and suddenly you found yourself in a weird spot.ย 
-ย 
The line that had originally been drawn in the sand, on whether you remained their friend or not, had quickly dispersed after that.ย 
In fact the sand had been kicked throughย  and suddenly, without warning, you and eddie had been thrown to war.ย 
Gone were the cute nicknames of Eds and bugs, now when you addressed each other you referred to him as freak and he referred to you as wannabe.ย 
You let the basketball players push him in the halls and he threw food at you and your friends in the cafeteria.ย 
When the winter formal rolled around Adam took you, and you had been so excited for it until Eddie made some snide comment when you came down the stairs which sent you into a sour mood the rest of the night.ย 
When winter break rolled around Gareth had let them come over nearly everyday for stupid band practice and whenever you came home you made sure to enter through the garage just to piss them off, making sure to unplug the amps each time.ย 
Like today, hands filled with shopping bags as you came home, saying bye to Chrissy as she drove off with a wide smile, and then turning to the garage.ย 
โ€œHey bugs.โ€ Gareth greets, which you simply glare to, making sure to hit Eddieโ€™s shoulder with your own as you pass which makes his curse out and spill his drink.ย 
โ€œFreaks.โ€ You snap, unplugging their amp and hitting the light switch as you head inside. You hear them all groan, and then you take it one step further and turn off the lights in the garage completely by the power box in the kitchen.ย 
โ€œDamn it!โ€ Gareth snaps when he realizes and you pick up the phone, dialing adams number since you promised to call him earlier.ย 
He picks up right as the boys all dash inside, Gareth glaring as you pretend like you donโ€™t even see them.ย 
โ€œHey handsome, thought Iโ€™d call to check in.โ€ You smile through the phone, hearing him laugh.ย 
โ€œHello back beautiful.โ€ Adam says, matching your tone. โ€œYou bothering the boys again?โ€ย 
โ€œOh. My favorite thing to do-โ€œ you giggle, slapping Gareth's shoulder when he reaches to hang up the phone. โ€œBack off.โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™m getting mom.โ€ He snaps out while Paul and Jeff disappear to the garage again. He dashes to go find your mom which leaves just Eddie in the kitchen, glaring at you.ย 
โ€œI miss you too.โ€ You coo into the phone, enjoying the way Eddieโ€™s jaw ticks as Adam laughs and plays long, enjoying the game himself.ย 
โ€œWhatโ€™s your problem lately, brat?โ€ Eddie snaps, his eyes angry and set.ย 
โ€œHold on baby-โ€œ you say into the phone, covering the mouth piece and giving Eddie your best uncaring face. โ€œCan I help you, freak?โ€ย 
He reaches forward, cursing under his breath as he reaches around you to hang up the phone.ย 
โ€œWhat the fuck-โ€œ you start before he is snatching the handle from your hands and slamming it into the receiver, turning to you fully.ย 
โ€œWhy are you being this way? What the fuck did we do to you?โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™d love to stay and chat, but I have better things to do. Or should I say better men to do.โ€ You smile, moving to stand quickly as his eyes widen. When you move to walk away he goes to grab one of the bags in attempt to keep you in the room, the paper of the bag rips and suddenly everything you bought at that store falls to the kitchen floor.ย 
Your mouth falls open as Eddieโ€™s eyes widen at the sheer amount of lingerie sets that fall out.ย 
Not really lingerie, but close to. All lace panties and bras that Chrissy said would look great on you.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m-โ€œ Eddie begins, moving to help you grab them at the same time you bend to grab them so your heads hit each other.ย 
โ€œDamn it-โ€œ you gasp out, rushing to grab all the underwear as he helps you to try and shove them all in the bag.
โ€œI didnโ€™t realize you were so into Adam.โ€ He sneers.ย 
โ€œOh shut up.โ€ You sneer back, snatching everything into your hands. โ€œNot everything is about sex-โ€œย 
โ€œOf course it isโ€. He laughs bitterly. โ€œYouโ€™re their new play toy.โ€ย 
โ€œI swear to god freak-โ€œย 
โ€œWhat you gonna do brat?โ€ He seethes, getting into your personal space.ย 
โ€œEverything okay here?โ€ Gareth asks, making you and Eddie jump back.ย 
โ€œWhatever Gareth.โ€ You push past him, ignoring the excited buzz you feel from Eddie.ย 
-ย 
โ€œAreโ€ฆ.are you guys good?โ€ Gareth asks eddie the next morning, making Eddie turn to glare at him. โ€œDonโ€™t bite my head off, okay? I justโ€ฆ.โ€ย 
Eddie stays silent, starting the car as he watches you waltz across the lawn in the cheer uniform.ย 
โ€œItโ€™s just that sheโ€™s been so different lately and for the past couple weeks you have been too. Did you guys break up?โ€ย 
Eddie, who had started driving, immediately hits the brakes and whips to look at Gareth. โ€œWhat?โ€ย 
โ€œDid you and my sister break up?โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™m not- what- we never- Gareth-โ€œ Eddie panics, trying to find the right words. โ€œListen-โ€œย 
โ€œDude itโ€™s fine. I always knew okay?โ€ย 
โ€œWait wait wait. We never- she and I never-โ€œ what the hell was happening. โ€œOkay letโ€™s back up. You thought we were dating?โ€ย 
โ€œOh come on. All your secret sleepovers? You really thought I didnโ€™t know about those? You know how many times I pretended to call her friends house for you guys so mom didnโ€™t catch her? And all the small little touches you always had or the way you looked at her. Not to mention all the paragraphs about you in her diary-โ€œ
โ€œWe never dated.โ€ Eddie cuts him off. โ€œShe didnโ€™t like me like that.โ€ย 
โ€œNo man. She did.โ€ Gareth laughs. โ€œShe has always liked you like that.โ€ย 
He ignores the feeljng bubbling in his chest at the thought, shaking his head. โ€œWhy havenโ€™t you tried to kill me if you thought we were dating?โ€ย 
โ€œWhat?โ€ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re always freaking out about her and guys, and you always threaten Paul whenever he-โ€œย 
โ€œGuys are gross and I donโ€™t want them hurting my baby sister. Paul is a lame excuse for a human beings.โ€ Gareth shrugs. โ€œAnd I always figured if my sister was going to date someone it should be you. You areโ€ฆ..semi decent.โ€ย 
โ€œWe never dated. And she hates me now so I hate her.โ€ Eddie starts driving again, shrugging like it didnโ€™t matter.ย 
โ€œWhy does she hate you now?โ€ย 
โ€œNot a clue.โ€ He had a slight clue after the other night.ย 
โ€œOkay well, do you think you can likeโ€ฆ fix whatever it is?โ€ Gareth sighs. โ€œI miss my sister.โ€ย 
Eddie missed you too.ย 
-
He didnโ€™t try to talk to you, he had debated it for all of 4 hours before you had to go and ruin it.ย 
Just when he was starting to talk himself into apologizing he turned the corner to find you, giggling and blushing with none other than Steve Harrington.ย 
Upon hearing his footsteps you turn, face falling when you see his glare before that bitch look youโ€™ve perfected the past couple weeks falls in its place, making his heart thump wildly as he walks closer.ย 
โ€œYour brother asked me to apologize.โ€ He bites out, hands catching themselves behind his back as he glares. โ€œSorry.โ€ย 
โ€œWow. What a great apology.โ€ Harrington smiles making you slap his shoulder with wide eyes until he laughs and nods. โ€œIโ€™ll see you later okay?โ€ He smiles, tapping your nose before walking off with a simple โ€œBye Munson.โ€ย 
Eddie watches him leave before turning back to you with a raised eyebrow, and suddenly he was desperate to piss you off. Desperate to get under your skin the way you got under his.ย 
โ€œOh I see. You didnโ€™t get all the panties for one guy, you got them for the whole school.โ€ He smiles, watching your face fall into one of shock. โ€œWhatโ€™s the deal? Tap you and then get to keep the panties? Having a buy one get one free sale?โ€ย 
โ€œCalling me a slut?โ€ You seethed .ย 
โ€œIf the shoe fits baby.โ€ He coos, smiling from ear to ear as you slam your locker and move forward.ย 
โ€œI hate you!โ€ย 
โ€œI hate you back!โ€ He snaps back, matching your tone as you get closer and closer until your chest are pressed against each other.ย 
โ€œWhat did I ever do wrong?โ€ You snap, eyebrows pinching in anger and confusion. โ€œI thought you all liked me and-โ€œ
Heโ€™s confused now, racking his brain for what you mean before he settles on an answer. โ€œYou thought the guys youโ€™ve slept with liked you?โ€ย 
The second the words come out he hears how bad it sounds, watching as your face falls and he rushes to explain that he was just trying to understand what you meant. But itโ€™s too late and you reach a hand up to twist his nipple.ย 
โ€œOW! Holy Jesus-โ€œ he gasps in pain, moving his body to try and pull away but you follow easily, pushing him into the nearest supply closet you can.ย 
By the time you actually let go he is red in the face, using his hand to rub the sore spot and trying to glare. โ€œDo I wanna know where you -NO OW!โ€ย 
โ€œTake it back!โ€ You order, already twisting his second nipple which makes him gasp and move to twist your ear.ย 
A gasp of pain slips from you and you let go of him to pull back, both of you glaring at eachother.ย 
Heโ€™s panting, and so are you, adrenaline coating your nerves.ย 
โ€œWhatโ€™s going on lately?โ€ He snaps, still rubbing the sore spot as you glare back.ย 
โ€œYou tell me.โ€ย 
โ€œNo you tell me! What did I do? Do I embarrass you? Or maybe I just annoy you-โ€œย 
โ€œBold of you to say! All you and your friends can talk about is how much I annoyed you!โ€ You snap back.ย 
โ€œWho said that? Tell me and I-โ€œ
โ€œYou said it!โ€ย 
โ€œWhen would I ever say that?! Is it that night at your house, because sorry if I didnโ€™t want to hang out with you and your boyfriend!โ€ You shove his shoulder lightly and he gasps before doing it back. Acting like literal children.ย 
You keep shoving each other, back and forth over and over until a laugh slowly starts leaching from both of you. And suddenly it was normal again, not that angry yelling thatโ€™s been between you guys for months.ย 
โ€œFreak.โ€ You giggle.
โ€œPrincess.โ€ He laughs back, but then he is peering at you, hands on his hips as he tries to figure out how to fix this.ย 
But then, without really thinking, you are on him. Your arms wrapping around his neck as you shove your lips to his, his hands immediately flying to your hips as he lets out a surprised grunt while he catches you.ย 
Heโ€™s still as a board for the first second, his brain taking a moment to catch up before he is diving into the kiss himself, grip on your hips tightening as he devours you in the kiss.ย 
A small moan slips past his lips into yours, pulling you in as tight as he can, making sure to wrap his arms around your waist to make sure you stay close.ย 
When you manage to pull back you smile, seeing his eyes closed and eyebrows pinched as he takes a breath in. โ€œGareth was-โ€œย 
โ€œOH YOU UTTER-โ€œ in an instant his blissful daze is broken as you tear yourself from him, snatching the handle of the closet and storming out leaving him confused and breathless.ย 
His brain registers finally, managing to pull himself together the slightest bit so he can chase after you, reaching for the handle and giving it a pull as he thinks about what he will say.ย 
You just kissed him, you just did what he has been dying to do for years and then you ran.ย 
โ€œWhat the fuck?โ€ He snaps when the door wonโ€™t open by the third pull, the handle stuck. โ€œYOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME!โ€ย 
Itโ€™s another 30 minutes before someone is there to help him out, the janitor giving him a confused look as Eddie hauls out of there.ย 
-
Un-freaking-believable.ย 
You kiss that man child, give it your all and the first thing he says once youโ€™re done is your brothers name. What a freaking imbecile. What a dumb ass. What a-
โ€œHey girl, you okay?โ€ Someone asks, pulling your attention to where Maria is standing, wearing her cutest party outfit with a small smile playing off her lips. โ€œYou were mumbling angrily about a man child.โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€ฆ.. ugh.โ€ You groan, dropping the brush as all the girls turn to you with excitement.ย 
โ€œTell us everything.โ€ Chrissy smiles.ย 
โ€œHow did he feel? Were there fireworks?โ€ Maria asks.ย 
โ€œOh my god, he definitely seems like he knows what he is doing.โ€ Abigail giggles and you watch them all in shock as they stare back.ย 
โ€œWhat?โ€ย 
โ€œYour first kiss! How was it?โ€ Chrissy explains, eager to know.ย 
โ€œIโ€ฆ.. I didnโ€™t kiss Steve Har-โ€œย 
โ€œEw, of course not you have standards.โ€ Maria laughs. โ€œBut youโ€™re obviously frustrated about a boy and Iโ€™m betting you finally kissed Munson.โ€ย 
โ€œYouโ€ฆ.. you guys know I-?โ€ You canโ€™t find the words, embarrassment clawing at you as they all giggle and cheer at having caught you.ย 
โ€œOh my god, were his lips soft?โ€ Abigail squeals.ย 
โ€œWas he gentle? Or like possessive? I love possessive guys.โ€ Maria groans.ย 
โ€œDid he treat you like heaven? Oh heโ€™s always got this love sick look when you walk by!โ€ Chrissy kicks her feet, all three really excited.ย 
โ€œYes. Yes and yes. And no, he actually- ugh- he only sees me as Gareths little sister.โ€ You whine, falling into the bed. โ€œI kiss him and for a second itโ€™s just like, amazing, and when we stopped kissing I was expecting this romantic thing. Maybe he would be all like โ€˜wowโ€™ or tell me Iโ€™m beautiful. You know what the first word he said was?โ€ย 
โ€œWhat?โ€ย 
โ€œGareth.โ€ You explain, and they all gasp like itโ€™s the worst thing in the world. So, ever the amazing friend, you sit up and start telling them everything.ย 
โ€œI kind of like the way your brother protects you,โ€ Maria blushes. โ€œI mean the boys at Hawkins are all soโ€ฆ. โ€œ
โ€œSex crazed?โ€ Abigail finishes the thought.ย 
โ€œYes. And Gareth has always been respectful to me.โ€ Maria smiles.ย 
โ€œDo you have a crush on my brother?โ€ You giggle, staring at her.ย 
โ€œNo!โ€ She blurts, then smiles a bit. โ€œOkay maybe.โ€ย 
And just like that all 4 of your are laughing and planning for the party.ย 
-ย 
The party at Jason Carvers house was the last place Eddie Munson wanted to be, truthfully he wasnโ€™t even sure he was allowed. The good news is he hadnโ€™t been kicked out because he was the dealer.ย 
So he pretended like he was there to sell, really he was looking around for you. This was a last minute plan to talk to you, figure out where he had went wrong and try to fix it.ย 
Figure out how to kiss you again but heโ€™d take anything at this point, even a friendship. Heโ€™d keep his feelings in check.ย 
30 minutes in to the party and he was beginning to think it was a bust, but then there you were, surrounded by 3 other girls he was sure were on the team, as they all passed by glaring at everyone like they were the queens of the universe.ย 
And they were, all of them beautiful and untouchable. Especially you.ย 
Itโ€™s like the earth stopped spinning whenever you walked in the room, Eddieโ€™s lungs expanding as he stared at the way you greeted everyone, or rather everyone lunged to greet you.ย 
Eddie went to greet you, then thought vetter of it and moved to the back of the room and started to talk to the kid that had money waiting for him.ย 
He keeps along the sidelines of the party, letting you do your thing as he tries to come up with what to say.ย 
Remember when you rocked my world less than 7 hours ago? Yeah that was amazing and I miss you.ย 
โ€œYou okay there bud?โ€ Someone asks, pulling his attention to where Maria, co captain of the cheer team, is smiling at him over her cup.ย 
โ€œYeah, just came in for a refill.โ€ He nods to the keg, an obvious lie since he would never drink that piss water.ย 
โ€œRight. Okay.โ€ She smiles, and he moves to grab a cup and fill it up so it looks like the truth. โ€œItโ€™s cute, the way they all crowd around her.โ€ย 
He, without needing to ask, looks for you immediately . Spotting you by the pool surrounded by a bunch of guys, all desperate to talk to you.ย 
โ€œYeah I guess.โ€ He shrugs, spine tense and doing his best not to clench the cup in his fist.ย 
โ€œWell the guys surrounding her aren't whatโ€™s cute. Itโ€™s the way she keeps looking for you.โ€ Maria giggles, obviously too drunk to keep her eyes open. โ€œLook, right there.โ€ย 
Sure enough he sees you look around, bored of the conversation at hand as one of the guys snakes his arm around your waist.ย 
He doesnโ€™t know what heโ€™s doing, feet already moving as Maria giggles out while he dashed outside right at the moment the tool throws you both in the booth as you scream.ย 
His breath stops and he waits a moment for you to emerge, your eyes immediately meeting as you struggle to get to the edge of the pool, the strap of the dress you wore broken.ย 
The girls are all there to help you as the tool, Tommy something, reaches to pull you back in. Eddie makes quick work of pushing him in with his foot, and snatching you from the water while doing his best to make sure youโ€™re not too exposed.ย 
โ€œYou okay?โ€ He whispers, hand sliding up your body to cover your breast as you try to fix the strap quickly.ย 
โ€œY-yeah.โ€ You sniffle, obviously holding back tears. โ€œIโ€™m fine.โ€ย 
The girls, your friends, are all yelling at Tommy and the other cheerleaders soon join and start throwing stuff at him in the water, Harrington pushing him back in whenever he tries to crawl out.ย 
โ€œHe was just being silly.โ€ You try to ease yourself, struggling with the strap of the dress. โ€œI donโ€™t know why Iโ€™m upset.โ€ย 
โ€œYou were just thrown into water. Itโ€™s okay to be upset.โ€ He smiles, shrugging off his jacket and moving to place it around you so youโ€™re covered. โ€œYou wanna leave?โ€
โ€œYes please.โ€ You nod, and he gets to moving, pulling you with him as your 3 friends all wave and smile like they know something, cooing out a โ€œbye eddie.โ€ At the same time.ย 
He gives them a tight wave, helping you out since you seemed to have lost a heel in the pool.ย 
โ€œIs this even considered a dress?โ€ He scoffs, leading you to his van.ย 
โ€œItโ€™s very popular in france.โ€ You answer, letting him pull you down the street where his van is hidden, helping you into the back of it.ย 
-
By the time he pulls into the trailer park he canโ€™t hear you, which means you're definitely passed out back there, and he feels guilty over every pothole and bump he hits before he is pulling into his regular parking spot.ย 
Wayneโ€™s car is gone so he assumes his uncle is already at work, hopping out of the van and going along the back to open the door youโ€™re closest to. The blanket had moved around a bit, exposing your legs to him and the smallest sight of your panties that has him feeling guilty and quickly readjusting the blanket as he rubs circles on your back to wake you up.ย 
โ€œLetโ€™s go princess.โ€ He hums, helping you crawl out and get into the house.ย 
โ€œIt smells likeโ€ฆ.โ€ย 
โ€œSorry.โ€ He blushes, embarrassed. โ€œI didnโ€™t really clean like I normally did whenever you came over.โ€ย 
โ€œItโ€™s fine. I was gonna say it smells like you.โ€ You mumble, waiting for his cue to go further into the trailer. It was odd for him, watching you wait, and heโ€™s suddenly reminded about all the time youโ€™ve been separated. This wasnโ€™t a regular movie night, you hadnโ€™t had one of those in months. You probably didnโ€™t feel comfortable being here.ย 
โ€œI c-can go turn on the shower so itโ€™s hot for you. Give you a moment to relax.โ€ He offers, smiling when you nod before moving to the bathroom to start the shower. He knocks on Wayneโ€™s bedroom door just in case before waltzing into the bathroom and starting the water, making sure the shampoo and body wash are both ready for you and setting up a towel for you to use.ย 
When the bathroom starts steaming he moves to go get you, jumping a little when he runs into you at the door.ย 
โ€œSorry!โ€ He blurts, trying to step out of your way. You shrug, moving past him and into the bathroom, not waiting for him to leave before you shuck his sweater off and move to take the dress off.ย 
โ€œHelpโ€ฆโ€ you mumble, struggling to roll the fabric off since it was soaking wet and unable to reach the zipper.ย 
So he moves forward, ready to help you, until you stop him. โ€œShut the door Eds, youโ€™re letting all the warm air out.โ€ย 
He rushes to shut the door for you, tripping over his feet and accidently falling into the door which makes it slam shut and you gasp out. โ€œAre you okay?โ€ย 
โ€œYep. Yeah. Fine.โ€ He mumbles, standing straight and trying to play it off like it was smooth. โ€œY-you still want help?โ€ย 
โ€œYes.โ€ You nod, watching him closely to make sure he is okay before turning back around and fixing your hair so he can see the zipper.ย 
With shaky hands he slides it down, enjoying the way your skin shivers at the feel of his fingers down your back, before he helps you slide the fabric off your hips for it to land on the floor.ย 
Your skin is cold from the fabric, and it reminds him of coming in after a snowball fight and having to fight to get the jeans off leaving him in the damp but not yet wet skin.ย ย 
Without meaning to his eyes trail across your exposed back, heart stopping when he realizes you had forgone a bra and only had a pair of panties on.ย 
โ€œIโ€ฆ.โ€ He tries to find words, watching you turn your head to peer at him over your shoulder. โ€œIโ€™ll go.โ€ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re gonna leave me to shower in silence?โ€ You scoff, slipping the panties off, obviously unaware of the torture you are inflicting when you toss them with the dress and move to step into the shower.ย 
Your legs are shaky, and heโ€™s panicked. You might slip so he moves to help you step into the tub, his hand wrapped around your elbow gently as he makes sure to keep his eyes on your face.ย 
โ€œStay and talk to me?โ€ You ask, and heโ€™s sure youโ€™re just messing with him. Torturing him as payback as you close the curtain and step into the water.ย 
He sits on the toilet, using the towel he had gotten you as a cover on his lap just in case you peaked your head out, he didnโ€™t need you seeing his massive boner like the freak he was.ย 
โ€œWhy were you at the party?โ€ You ask after a moment. โ€œYou hate Jason Carver.โ€ย 
โ€œI needed to sell.โ€ He answers a little too quickly.ย ย 
โ€œDid I ruin your sellโ€™s since you had to help me leave?โ€ You ask, guilt in your voice. โ€œIโ€™m sorry I-โ€œย 
โ€œI made enough.โ€ He interrupts you, struggling to breathe in the shirt with the steam. โ€œWhy were you at the party? You used to hate Jason Carver too.โ€ย 
โ€œI still do. Ugh heโ€™s the worst and heโ€™s always following Chrissy around like a little puppy. And heโ€™s so mean to everyone.โ€ย 
โ€œHeโ€™s friends with Adam isn't he?โ€ He finds himself asking, and never in his wildest dreams did he ever think he would be gossiping about the jocks. Especially with you.ย 
โ€œNot really, Jason said some really messed up things when Adam told everyone heโ€™s gay.โ€ You explain and Eddie snaps his head towards the direction of the curtain.ย 
โ€œHeโ€™s gay?!โ€
โ€œYou canโ€™t tell anyone okay? Itโ€™s a secret and he wants to come out himself.โ€ You answer back, and Eddie finds himself standing up.ย 
You must see his figure get up through the curtain, because you open the curtain and peak your upper body out. โ€œYouโ€™re not leaving are you?โ€ย 
โ€œN-no. Iโ€™m just shocked. I thought you and Adam wereโ€ฆโ€ย 
โ€œAbsolutely not. Mom would never allow Adam in my room if he we were.โ€ You laugh.ย 
โ€œSo that night you invited me for the movie, you werenโ€™t dating him?โ€ He was stupid, so entirely stupid.
โ€œNo? Why would I invite your for a movie in front of my boyfriend?โ€ You laugh, and he canโ€™t seem to process anything. Stepping forward so he was within arms length of you.ย 
โ€œSo you werenโ€™t inviting me to hang out with you and your boyfriend. You were actually wanting to hang out with me?โ€ย 
โ€œYes?โ€ You roll your eyes. โ€œAnd I know itโ€™s lame. Iโ€™m just Gareths little sister and all that-โ€œย 
You disappear from his view once more, pulling both the curtains into the middle to close off the shower again as you keep going. โ€œBut I actually thought you liked hanging out with me. You know? And maybe if I gave you guys space I wouldnโ€™t be the annoying little sister all the time but then that day rolled around and youโ€ฆ. It was silly. I shouldnโ€™t have asked you-โ€œย 
A small shriek falls from your lips as he whips the right curtain open, glaring at you.ย 
โ€œWhat the fuck do you mean give us space? Who said what?โ€ Heโ€™s angry now, jaw set as he glared. โ€œWhatโ€™s all this about being annoying and suddenly giving us space. Is that why you donโ€™t sit with us?โ€ย 
โ€œYes! You guys just think Iโ€™m Gareths annoying little sister!โ€ You snap, and Eddie realizes that youโ€™re completely naked right now, so he quickly shuts his eyes with a groan and pulls the curtain back sharply, keeping it clenched in his fist as he tries to relax.ย 
โ€œWe donโ€™t think that.โ€ He snaps, eyes still squeezed shut. Truth was he always tried not to think of you as Gareths little sister, with the amount of times heโ€™s imagined you-
You snap the other curtain to the side, letting some of the water hit his jeans and making his snap his eyes open right as you push your face close to his. โ€œI heard you guys!โ€ย 
โ€œYou heard us? When was this, Princess? Cause Iโ€™ve never-โ€œย 
โ€œThe day of my tryouts! I came home and you guys were talking about how annoying I was and-โ€œ he realizes then what you had heard, his eyes widening as he stares at you before he leans forward to catch his lips onto yours, a small gasp falling from you as he lets go of the shower curtain to wrap around you. Only problem was he was leaning into you and you didnโ€™t have a proper stance so you slipped, and he fell forward into the tub, cursing out to try and catch you both as you accidently bit down on his lip.ย 
He keeps one arm around your shoulders, his other catching the tub floor just in time as his body lands on yours.ย 
The water is hitting his back, soaking his clothes as his boner pressed into your naked form, blood leaking from his lip where you bit.ย 
โ€œAre you okay-โ€œ he begins to panic, but youโ€™re already pushing up to pull him into another kiss, moaning at the taste of iron as your hands slide up his hips until they manage to crawl beneath his shirt and feel at his back, trying to inch the shirt off.ย 
He pulls back to lean up, whipping the shirt off and flinging it out of the tub, panting as you try to move so the water doesnโ€™t hit you in the face while he moves to help you.ย 
โ€œIt was Paul that day.โ€ He explains. โ€œI donโ€™t know what you think you heard but it was only Paul saying that. Jeff was making fun of him because the tool has a massive crush on you and- shit Iโ€™m no better am I? Iโ€™ve been dreaming about you every fucking night since I met you.โ€ย 
And once again, like two magnets, you find yourself kissing him again and he is obsessed with his. Obsessed with your taste and the way your body melds into his own as you press your chest into his. When you reach for his belt buckle he moves a hand down to stop you, shaking his head through the kiss and moving to stand with you.ย 
You follow, clumsy and confused, especially when his hands slide to your hips to turn you around so your back is to his chest.ย 
โ€œWhat are you-โ€œ your question is met with his hand sliding across your stomach and further down until his fingers find purchase in your folds, a soft moan slipping past your lips that has his blood thrumming.ย 
โ€œIs this okay?โ€ He whispers, feeling the water hit both you as you nod quickly, his name slipping past your lips. โ€œI need to hear it, please.โ€ย 
โ€œYes!โ€ You snap, your hand moving to push his wrist to apply pressure. โ€œEds please!โ€ย 
So he lets himself, pressing his thumb into your clit as he leans to kiss at your neck, his lip stinging against your skin as you mean out when he moves to slowly press a finger into you.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re not just the annoying little sister.โ€ He whispers into your skin, fully pushing his finger in and wiggling it until he was ready for another, pulling it out to press both in. โ€œIโ€™ve never seen you like that.โ€ย 
โ€œEds.โ€ You gasp out, keeping one hand on his arm as the other flies to his hair, clenching and pulling it into your fists.ย 
โ€œIf anything princess, Iโ€™ve tried talking myself into believing it.โ€ He grunts out, pushing his fingers in quicker than last time. โ€œBut youโ€™re not. Youโ€™re my girl. Right?โ€ย 
โ€œYes.โ€ You blurt quickly, tugging at his hair and tilting your head to try and kiss him. He doesnโ€™t let you, keeping his own lips pressed into your neck.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re my girl?โ€ He asks again, voice deeper as his fingers speed up, his thumb circling your clit. The feeling of your body pressed to his, the way your hips rotate ever so slightly to try and match his movements and accidently rub your ass against his crotch.ย 
His jeans are now soaked, even if they werenโ€™t from the water he is sure heโ€™d have a wet patch from all the pre cum leaking out as he grunts out at the friction.ย 
โ€œYes. Always.โ€ You answer, gasping at the pleasure.ย 
โ€œPromise?โ€ He grunts, nipping a bit as you try once more to kiss him.ย 
โ€œEds please!โ€ You cry, hips moving faster as you chase your high on his fingers.ย 
โ€œPromise me princess.โ€ He growls and your eyes squeeze shut, eyebrows pinching together as your face contorts into one of pure pleasure. You barely manage to yell out a quick โ€œswear it.โ€ as you shake against him, making a smile spread across his lips.ย 
โ€œAtta girl.โ€ He coos, finally allowing you to tug him into a kiss, biting down on your lip as you kiss him like your life depended on it. โ€œYou wanna go to bed?โ€ย 
โ€œYes please.โ€ You sniffle, swiping the bangs from his forehead as he leans to turn off the water; keeping a hand on you at all times while he manages to get you both out of the shower.ย 
Wrapping a towel around you and snatching both your clothes quickly before leading you to his room.ย ย 
The second he shuts the door behind him he sees you drop the towel and crawl across the bed to fall into the pillows, not even giving him a moment to grab you a shirt.ย 
โ€œWait. Lemme grab you-โ€œ he starts, struggling to shuck off the soaked jeans and boxers before you are moving to help, helping him step out of them and dragging your hands up his thighs until they reach his hips and youโ€™re pulling him into the bed with you.ย 
โ€œI thought you wanted to sleep?โ€ He chuckles, pressing a kiss to your collarbone as you both crawl up the bed.ย 
You fall into the pillows, hair splayed out as you smile at him, wrapping your legs around his hips while he covers you both with his comforter, trying to warm up.ย 
โ€œI said go to bed. Not to sleep.โ€ You mumble with a small attitude, canting your hips up into his own which makes him moan loudly. โ€œThis is bed, isnโ€™t it?โ€
โ€œOh, smarty pants are we?โ€ He laughs, pressing a kiss to your temple as he melts into you. His forearms slid under the pillow as he let his body weight lay against yours, kissing you ever so slowly as you tried to wiggle around and make it work. He lifts his hips for a moment to help you out, and once youโ€™re settled he presses into you, beginning to grind himself against your folds as you hug each other close.ย 
โ€œJesus Christ.โ€ He gasps, eyes squeezed shut as he presses his forehead to your own.ย 
โ€œWho knew the satanist was so religious ?โ€ You tease, pushing your hips forward trying to gain more friction.ย 
โ€œGotta be right now. Itโ€™s not everyday a freak like me has a cheerleader in his bed.โ€ He smiles, kissing the corner of your lips softly.ย 
โ€œI mean it could be.โ€ You offer, making him freeze for a moment. โ€œOr maybe in the drama room. Iโ€™ve had tons of ideas about the locker room too.โ€ย 
โ€œPrincess-โ€œ he grunts, reaching a hand to cover your lips. โ€œPlease. Youโ€™re ruining me.โ€
You lick his lips and laugh when he pulls away to reach for his nightstands, moving your hips against his and kissing at his chest as he searches, getting more and more frustrated.ย 
โ€œCome on- shit baby- I- please- I gotta find a condom just give me a moment please.โ€ He gasps out, and you smile at him.ย 
โ€œForget it. I want you. Come on.โ€ You coo and watch him physically shutter, hips pressing into yours tightly as his hands roll into fists and his eyes shut tightly.ย 
โ€œEds?โ€ย 
โ€œStop. Give me - fuck- a moment princess.โ€ He grunts, shaking a bit. โ€œIโ€™m gonna bust before I even start.โ€ย 
So, being the brat you are, you push your hips up until he is entering you, moaning a bit as he gasps loudly.ย 
โ€œNo no no no.โ€ He gasps out, which makes you freeze.
โ€œIs it wrong? Iโ€™m sorry?โ€ You panic, moving to pull your hips back quickly which makes his hand snap out to stop you.ย 
โ€œItโ€™s not wrong. I just- I refuse to cum.โ€ He blurts, keeping you in the spot with a tight hold. โ€œI canโ€™t cum so soon.โ€ย 
โ€œYou can.โ€ You whisper, kissing at his neck and nipping at the skin here and there. โ€œI wanna feel it.โ€ย 
โ€œI hate you.โ€ย 
โ€œI hate you too.โ€ You giggle. โ€œAnd I need you to move.โ€ย 
He takes a deep breath in, giving himself one more moment to try not to cum and then begins moving his hips. Slowly at first, moaning softly as you wrap around him perfectly, moving himself so he was laying on top of you and hugging your body to his before he begins a brutal pace of snapping his hips into yours.ย 
You stay close, both hugging each other as he moves, the bed thumping against the wall with each thrust.ย 
Your moans quiet the closer you get to finishing, turning into strangled grunts and mewls as both of you focus in. The sounds of skin slapping just adding to the pleasure of it all as you come undone around him, making him gasp out as he lets go, filling you easily.ย 
โ€œOh my god.โ€ He breathes out, shoving his nose into your neck as you try to breathe.ย 
โ€œThereโ€™s that religion again.โ€ You tease, eyes closing as your body finally relaxes. You donโ€™t hear his response, numbing out a bit, snuggling close until his warmth is ripped from you and you have no choice but to open your eyes.ย 
โ€œNo no. Youโ€™re not sleeping yet.โ€ He grunts, slapping your thigh lightly before helping you shuffle. โ€œIโ€™ll help you to the bathroom.โ€ย 
So he puts on a pair of boxers, putting you in one of his band tees and helping you shuffle to the bathroom to pee, and grab a warm washcloth so he can clean you up while kissing all over your face and whispering sweet nothings in your ear.ย 
โ€œMy good girl.โ€ He murmurs, leaving a kiss on your ear before leading you back to the room and shoving the towels and dirty clothes in his hamper with the washcloth.ย 
You tuck yourself into his bed, waiting for him before you close your eyes and get comfortable.ย 
โ€œFreak.โ€ You whisper out, face pressed into his chest.
โ€œWannabe.โ€ He murmurs back, playing with your hair as you finally fall asleep.
-ย 
Youโ€™re woken up by the shrill ringing in Eddieโ€™s trailer, snapping awake as he lunges up and blinks.ย 
The ringing stops after a minute, and then Wayneโ€™s voice breaks out calling for Eddie.ย 
โ€œThe phone!โ€ He calls, making Eddie roll over you to pick up the phone.ย 
You giggle when his body collapses on top of you as he answers, catching the smile he sends your way.ย 
โ€œItโ€™s Eddie.โ€ He grunts, eyebrows shooting up when the person on the other side yells.ย 
โ€œYou know where my sister is?! She was supposed to be home last night and-โ€œย 
โ€œSheโ€™s here, calm down. She slept in the couch.โ€ย 
โ€˜Liarโ€™ you mouth as he rolls his eyes, pinching your side.ย 
โ€œOkay. Iโ€™m coming to get her.โ€ You hear Gareth snap before Eddie shakes his head.ย 
โ€œNo. Iโ€™ll drop her off when she wakes up. Iโ€™ll be by for band practice anyways.โ€ย 
You hear Gareth mumble something out before the receiver clicks and Eddie hangs up on his end.ย 
โ€œHowโ€™d he know to call here?โ€ You ask, reaching a hand up to play with his hair.ย 
โ€œHe thought we were dating already.โ€ย 
โ€œOh?โ€ You laugh before he bites on your collarbone. โ€œFreak.โ€ย 
โ€œWannabe.โ€ He grunts out, and before you know it you both are stripping once more, being quiet since Wayne is in the other room.ย 
-ย 
The cafeteria is a mess Monday morning, everyone yelling as some music plays over the speakers to get everyone excited for the game later.ย 
You took a moment to look across the room, not really being able to see much due to how crowded it was, but you made it to the cheer table, saying hi to the girls as they all giggled over the mark on your neck.ย 
โ€œYou wanna go sit over there?โ€ You ask your three closest friends, wiggling your eyebrows.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re out of uniform arenโ€™t you?โ€ Jason asks, eyes narrowing at your shirt. Today you had chosen to wear a hellfire shirt over your cheer uniform.ย 
โ€œTechnically not.โ€ Steve adds from the next table over, glaring at Jason.ย 
โ€œWhat happened to your face?โ€ You ask, eyes wide at how bad he looked.ย 
โ€œByers.โ€ Steve grunts, and you laugh before the girls get up to follow you to the table.ย 
All four of you, (Chrissy, Maria and Abigail) walk up slowly, making all the guys stop and look up.
โ€œCan we sit?โ€ You ask, watching Eddieโ€™s face burst into an excited grin as Gareth quickly snatches a chair for Maria. Abigail and Chrissy take the last two open spots and there was no more room.ย 
โ€œI can grab a chair-โ€œ Eddie starts, already standing to grab one before you shake your head, moving to sit on his lap.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m good here.โ€ You smile, making him smile back and kiss your shoulder through the shirt.ย 
โ€œAre you coming to DnD?โ€ Paul asks as Gareth pretends to gag at you and Eddie.ย 
โ€œNo, we have a game tonight that I have to cheer at. But I figured I can wear this until then.โ€ You shrug.ย 
โ€œWhereโ€™s yours Eddie?โ€ Paul asks, glaring at the dungeon master.ย 
Eddie raises a brow, and the entire table seems to freeze as they slowly realize that Paul hasnโ€™t figured it out yet, even with you in Eddieโ€™s lap.ย 
โ€œWhat?โ€ He asks, looking around.ย 
โ€œThis is mine.โ€ Eddie mumbles, pinching some of the fabric of your shirt between his fingers.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re wearing his shirt? Gareth, youโ€™re gonna allow that?!โ€ย 
Another moment of silence passes before the entire table is laughing in his face, Eddie pressing his nose into your back with his hands on your hips as he cackles.ย 
โ€œWhatโ€™s so funny?! Gareth said none of us could date his sister!โ€ย 
โ€œNo, I said you couldnโ€™t date my sister, nerd bomber.โ€ Gareth laughs.ย 
โ€œWhat does it matter?โ€ Eddie laughs. โ€œI thought she was Sooooo annoying!โ€ย 
He imitates Pauls voice for the last part which sends the table into another fit of laughter.ย 
โ€œDonโ€™t you have a girlfriend in canada?โ€ Chrissy asks, turning to you. โ€œThat was him right, the one dating the model in canada?โ€ย 
โ€œW-we broke up. I dumped her.โ€ Paul corrects which makes the girls laugh harder. โ€œYou guys suck.โ€ย 
โ€œAnd you swallow!โ€ You snatch one of Eddieโ€™s pretzels to throw it at his forehead, hitting him perfectly as he glares.ย 
โ€œNot funny.โ€ He mumbles, and the table absolutely loses it.ย 
-
Youโ€™re surprised when you see Eddie leaning against the bleachers that night, now in his hellfire shirt and leather jacket as you get ready to perform with the girls.ย 
When he spots you looking he sends a wink, crossing his arms as he watches the routine. When youโ€™re done you dash over as the game starts, giving him a quick kiss.ย 
โ€œArenโ€™t you supposed to be-?โ€ย 
โ€œI had a couple minutes. Thought Iโ€™d come see what all the excitement was about.โ€ He smiles, surveying the game going on from your spot in the corner.ย 
โ€œWhat do you think?โ€ย 
โ€œWell seems pretty boring to watch Harrington and Carver fumble around, but there was this really smoking cheerleader.โ€ He chuckles making you roll your eyes.ย 
โ€œFreak.โ€ย 
โ€œWannabe.โ€ย 
โ€œBrute.โ€ย 
โ€œBrat.โ€ย 
โ€œAirhead.โ€ย 
โ€œPrincess.โ€ He smiles, kissing you one more time. โ€œYou wanna come watch the campaign?โ€ย 
โ€œI have to dance at halftime and cheer them on. Youโ€™ll tell me about it later though?โ€ You ask, giving him your best doe eyes.ย 
โ€œYou got it.โ€ He smiles, bringing your hand up to kiss your knuckles before shaking it so the Pom Pom shakes. โ€œDecide on what movie for tonight?โ€ย 
โ€œI might be willing to give Texas Chainsaw one more shot.โ€ You smile. โ€œI think you deserve it.โ€ย 
You already know he wonโ€™t make it 10 minutes into the movie without jumping your bones anyways.ย 
โ€œI was thinking breakfast club.โ€ย 
โ€œAbsolutely not.โ€ย 
โ€œWhy not?โ€ย 
โ€œCause I might actually want to watch the movie.โ€ You tease before Chrissy calls you.ย 
Giving him one more kiss before dashing to cheer with the girls, Eddie watches you for a moment before leaving to go play DND.ย 
The second you both are done you meet by the drama room doors so that you can go to his place for movie night, a new routine you had built up.ย 
Weekends were for your friends; these nights were for just you two.
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soo0hee ยท 3 months ago
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Too Much
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Pairing โ€” Xu Minghao x Reader
Summary โ€” Sometimes meditating is not enough to keep Minghaos temper at bay and sometimes he says things he doesn't mean...
Genre โ€” angst, established relationship, idol!au
Warnings โ€” argument, Hao is an idiot
Word Count โ€” 0.8k
Rating โ€” pg-13
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Shocked and with your jaw on the floor you stared into Minghaos dark eyes.
You understood that with all of his busy schedules, he was tired when he came home and that all he wanted would be to relief some of his stress with a hot shower, a nice nap and maybe some cuddles. You understood all of it.
However what you didnโ€™t understand was why he regularly would let out his frustrations on someone who had nothing to do with any of the causes he felt so tired, namely you.
It was a conversation that you had tried to have with him on multiple occasions, yet your boyfriend seemed to try and ignore the obvious elephant in the room and every single time you had let yourself be swayed into giving in.
โ€œCan we not do this now? I promise we will talk about it in the morning.โ€ Was what he would say, only to be gone by the time you woke up.
This time though, you were ready to insist on this conversation being held. You just couldnโ€™t ignore it anymore!
You had a job too! A job that stressed you out too and being the on to receive his mood was beginning to weight heavily on your shoulders.
But now, after the screaming match you had just had, you werenโ€™t quite sure if this was your best idea.
The words he had spat at you just seconds ago were ringing in your ears and you could feel the burn behind your eyes. Tears just waiting to be spilled.
โ€œStop annoying me with this every few day. Seriously, youโ€™re being to much right now!โ€
You knew that he had surprised himself with his words, the look of shock and guilt clouding his face immediately after the they had left him, but you didnโ€™t want to hear it.
You didnโ€™t want to hear his excuse of why he had said it because it was obvious that while surprised, some part of him did think you were being to much.
For a second you were unsure if you even had the right to tell him this. Maybe you were being in the wrong here?
Your inner voice shook its head. No! You had just as much right to be treated like a human then he had!
โ€œI-โ€œ he tried to say but you held up your hand, the tears that had burned in your eyes now falling freely in silence.
โ€œDonโ€™t.โ€
You rushed away, letting those tears fall down your face as you locked the bedroom door behind you, preventing Minghao from getting inside.
You didnโ€™t care if he had to sleep on the couch or what it would do to his back and neck. You didnโ€™t give a fuck if he would be waking up in pain in the morning. And you didnโ€™t want to know what kind of apologize he was trying to come up with.
He couldnโ€™t make it better, at least not right now.
Curling together underneath your blanket, hiding away from the world while sobs spilled from your mouth you clutched your favorite pillow to your chest. It was drenched in Minghaos scent because he had the habit of sleeping on every inch of the bed he could reach. More tears fell.
Was this how he felt about you all this time? It would make sense with all the aggression thrown your way recently but why hadnโ€™t he just broke it off if that was the case?
You were sure that it would have hurt less if he hadโ€ฆ
Minghaos words kept repeating themselves in your head anytime you managed to calm down a little, only to send you back into a fit of tears.
Outside Minghao sat on the floor, quietly listening to your devastation with his head resting against the hard surface of the door.
He hadnโ€™t meant to say such horrible things to you, especially since they werenโ€™t even true. He had a temper, that much he knew but he had never lost it as much as he had earlier. Not with someone he loved so much that his heart was shattering just listening to you.
While the rest of his members knew how he could be and knew to leave him to cool down, you and him had never fought this much before.
โ€œIโ€™m so sorry loveโ€ฆโ€ he whispered into the by now dark hallway.
The hours ticked by and the apartment fell silent. You had cried yourself to sleep and Minghao didnโ€™t dare leave the door, wanting to stay as close as you let him be.
His ass was hurting by now and he wondered if you had locked the door or only pulled it shutโ€ฆ
He reached for the handle and carefully tried to pull it down, internally cheering when it opened with a silent -click-.
The sight greeting him was just as heartbreaking as your sobs had been. Your face was swollen and dried tear tracks still visible. Wanting to kick himself for being the cause of this, he knelt on the mattress next to your sleeping form.
He wasnโ€™t sure how, but he would make sure that you knew how sorry he was and how much he loved youโ€ฆ
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something to prove
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Daryl Dixon x Reader
Summary: Every time your mom goes down to the city with Merle she lets Daryl stay behind and watch TV. The night your boyfriend breaks up with you, you decide you have something to prove.ย 
Warnings: Very vaguely implied drug use, age-gap (reader is 20, Daryl is mid30โ€™s), smut, voyeurism/exhibitionism, masturbationย (both m & f), idk thereโ€™s something else that happens but idk how to tag it (premature ejaculation???), preTWD!Daryl.
Word Count: 3k
A/n: this is a two part story, possibly three? This started out as a step-dad!daryl idea but I reworked it because not everyoneโ€™s as big of a pervert as I am. If anyone wants step-dad imagines (au or otherwise for Daryl, or Negan) lmk. ๐Ÿฅต๐Ÿ˜ˆ
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โ€œWho are you?โ€ You ask, to the man standing in your house. Well, your moms house, certainly wasnโ€™t his house. He looked like one of your moms friends from the bar.ย 
โ€œShit, who are you?โ€ He looks at you, more confused than you are. Scared almost.ย 
โ€œMonaโ€™s kid?โ€ You explain, who else would you be?ย 
โ€œOh, shit. Didnโ€™t know Mona had a kid. She just left you here?โ€ You look at him like heโ€™s still a stranger standing in your living room.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m 20.โ€ You watch as he sighs a little in relief.ย 
โ€œRightโ€ฆ. Iโ€™m Daryl. Uh. Her and my brother took a ride down to the city. Didnโ€™t wanna go, she said I could hang here.โ€ย 
โ€œOf course she did,โ€ you say to yourself with a sigh.ย 
Daryl watches you as you run to the kitchen and grab a snack and run back toward the stairs, โ€œWell. Iโ€™ll be in my room.โ€ย 
โ€œWait! Uh.. whereโ€™s the remote?โ€ย 
You sigh, with a smile this time, and step backward down the first step. You walk past him and dig your hand into the recliner thatโ€™s facing directly in front of the TV, pulling the remote from its hiding spot. As you walk back toward the stairs you put it to his stomach, and he takes it with both hands. โ€œThanksโ€ you hear him say, and then youโ€™re gone. Running up the stairs to lock yourself in your room.ย 
โœจ๐Ÿšฌ
Daryl and Merle came over a lot after that. You didnโ€™t see too much of them, when youโ€™re mom had company you knew it was best to stay locked in your room. Not like youโ€™d want to be around her company anyway.ย 
Daryl seemed different than Merle. Everytime you did venture out of your room for a snack, or to leave the house to go see your boyfriend, and you had to interact with things outside of your room, Daryl never spoke. Honestly, it seemed to you like he didnโ€™t even want to be there.ย 
And every time your mom and Merle go down to the city, Daryl stays back and watches TV and smokes cigarettes in the living room. Never does anything else.ย 
You start developing a crush. And you know itโ€™s insane because heโ€™s so much older than you, but you canโ€™t help it. You never thought youโ€™d see someone older like that, but to be fair he didnโ€™t look it. He definitely wasnโ€™t as old as your mom. Probably mid 30โ€™s? Probably. You couldnโ€™t ask. And there was something about him. Brooding, quiet, butโ€ฆ safe. He never bothered you, never looked at you too long like most of your moms friends did. He seemed.. sweet.ย 
You start praying theyโ€™ll come over, and then you pray that your mom and Merle will leave. Sometimes theyโ€™re only gone for half an hour, sometimes theyโ€™re gone all night. No matter how long theyโ€™re gone, though, you always go down and see Daryl.ย 
You never really talk to him more than a few passing words, even when it becomes a more common occurrence.ย 
Obviously you try to look as good as you can when you do go down there to walk in front of him. You stand awkwardly by the kitchen island, pretending to watch tv, trying to say something. Usually you canโ€™t come up with anything.ย 
You find yourself wearing more and more revealing clothing, trying to get him to look, but you never catch him looking. And, honestly? It frustrates you to no end.ย 
Why wonโ€™t he look?ย 
Itโ€™s starting to make you a little crazy, multiple times youโ€™d had to stop yourself from coming down in just a towel.
And then your boyfriend breaks up with you. Probably better off, but the night that it happens you lose it. Youโ€™re not heartbroken necessarily, but you are pissed. And you feel like you have something to prove. And all of it bubbles up into something you normally would never see yourself doing.ย 
You come downstairs this time in only an oversized teeshirt. No underwear. Its dark, all the lights off, it is 2am, but for some reason you werenโ€™t expecting it. It should make what you have planned even easier. Less awkward.ย 
Instead of going to the kitchen you walk right up to Daryl and put your hand out for the remote. โ€œI wanna watch TV.โ€ย 
He looks up at you. Finally. And he hands you the remote. โ€œAlrighโ€™.โ€ย 
You change the channel to something else, doesnโ€™t matter what as long as itโ€™s not what he was watching. You settle on an old movie, looked just boring enough. You lay down on your stomach in front of where Daryl sat in the armchair, your teeshirt riding just barely up your ass, just enough for Daryl to be distracted by it. To notice it. To ask himself if you werenโ€™t wearing any underwear.ย 
You hear him take a deep breath from behind you and it makes you smile. Finally.ย 
And you stay like that for a while, absentmindedly looking at the TV, not really watching it. Darylโ€™s watching you through half lidded eyes. Before youโ€™d come downstairs Daryl was a good five minutes from falling asleep in that arm-chair. But now? His heart hammering in his chest, he has to control his breathing in the quiet living room, to not tip you off that you were affecting him so much. He wasnโ€™t sure what you were doing, or if you were even doing it on purpose. But youโ€™re 20, right? Surelyโ€ฆ he figures you have to know.ย 
But if you know what youโ€™re doing, than youโ€™re expecting some kind of reaction, and Darylโ€ฆ canโ€™t. He canโ€™t move. He can hardly think straight. Looking at your bare legs, the little peak of your ass just barely revealing itself from under the fabric. And then you shift your hips and the tee-shirt falls away even more.ย 
It takes everything in him to keep his breathing steady.ย 
โ€œAre you looking?โ€ Your voice cuts through the silent room, making no attempt to turn back and look at him.ย 
โ€œNo.โ€ Daryl says, quickly. His brain scrambling over the new information that you definitely, absolutely, undeniably knew what you were doing.ย 
You smile to yourself, the choked sound of his voice told you everything you needed to know. You can practically feel the heat in his cheeks. The tightness in his chest.ย ย 
You never thought youโ€™d be as into it as you were getting. Him seeing you like this was burning up your core. Slowly at first and then seemingly all at once. You put your head to the floor in a small moment of defeat over your own body, feeling yourself start to drip down your leg. You wonder if he can see it too. If the light of the TV is reflecting off the little strings of your arousal, coating the inside of your thighs, starting to drip down onto the carpet. A small groan escapes your lips as you raise your hips up off the carpet, keeping your shoulders and the rest of your body down to the ground.ย 
You want to show him what heโ€™s doing to you. You want him to see the mess heโ€™d made. So there you are, your ass now completely in the air, only a few feet from where heโ€™s sitting behind you, โ€œAre you looking now?โ€ย 
This time Daryl doesnโ€™t respond. Because he canโ€™t. His fingers are whiteknuckled on the arm-rests. And he was losing the ability to control his breathing. He was losing control of the ability to even think about breathing. To think at all.ย 
You donโ€™t mind that he didnโ€™t answer, you knew. His ragged breathing spurred you further. You reach down underneath your body, through your legs, and try to spread yourself open for him with two delicate fingers. Your middle finger slipping through your folds, too slick to hold up to friction. Your hand wipes some of it down your thigh, so you can continue what youโ€™re trying to do.ย 
And you can hear his breath hitch in his throat, making a smile bloom on your face. A sick, cocky smile.ย 
You spread yourself for him, before taking two fingers to your clit and drawing small circles around it. You hiss, your hips spasming at the too sensitive feeling of pressure directly on your nerve bundle, but you keep going.ย 
Plunging two fingers deep inside of you, selfishly. This one wasnโ€™t for Daryl, although he liked it. You needed the delicious feeling of something inside of you. Your fingers hook in you, desperately curling over and over again as you mercilessly assault your own g-spot.ย 
The noises coming out of you could send Daryl into a coma. Not just the half-coherent babbles and deep definitely-came-from-your-chest groans. No, the sound of your slick hand squelching against your cunt so perfectly.ย 
You go back and forth like this, between your clit and your walls, until you feel your orgasm start to bubble over. The dull throb of ecstasy climbing into every limb. You almost forget Darylโ€™s watching as you put your fingers back inside you, three this time, and ride your own hand until your body is shaking, expletives falling out of your mouth before you can catch them.ย 
You lay there, on the floor in a heap, teaching yourself to breathe again. Until you glance back at Daryl. With one hand covering his mouth his expression is unreadable, but his other hand gripping the arm rest tells you everything. And the hard cock pressing up against the zipper of his pants tells even more.ย 
Youโ€™re almost embarrassed, but not quite. Standing up from the spot youโ€™d laid down to โ€˜watch TVโ€™ you silently walk over to him and wipe your hand off on his shirt. Pressing your fingers hard against his chest through the fabric, eliciting a barely audible moan from him.
He watches you walk away, listening as your bare feet pad up the steps and into your room. It takes him all of three seconds to free his cock from his jeans. Pumping himself furiously, unceremoniously, with his face buried in the spot of his shirt where youโ€™d wiped your juices on him.ย 
The smell of you, the taste of you, so fresh and right there. He laps at the spot until itโ€™s soaked with his saliva. He comes in a strangled mess, trying to be quiet, hot white ropes painting his jeans.ย 
After itโ€™s over he curses himself. He leaves before Merle and your mom get back, to go home and change. Wondering to himself what the hell just happened.ย 
โœจ๐Ÿšฌ
For a week you avoid him. He and Merle come over twice, but you stay in your room the whole time. A little too embarrassed to face him so soon after what youโ€™d done. You didnโ€™t regret it, or feel bad, but your normal personality had returned. With nothing more to prove to yourself, or your stupid ex boyfriend. Not bold enough to masturbate in front of older men. Apparently not even bold enough to show your face in front of him.ย 
You wake up one night in a sweat, having another dream about Daryl. In this one heโ€™d had you bent over the kitchen table. Fuck itโ€™s hot in here, you go to open the window but what you really need is water.ย 
You start to make your way downstairs, only to see Daryl. In the faint glow of the television, eyes wide as he meets yours. โ€œOh. Hi.โ€ You manage to say, awkwardly standing on the last step before nodding at his lack of response, looking down trying to hide your blush.
ย You walk to the kitchen silently, getting some water for yourself. Feeling unbelievably uncomfortable, you wanted to be clever. To be coy and cute and everything you were the other night, but the whole thing is making you so nervous you canโ€™t think straight. You just want to get back upstairs before you say something stupid. Before you embarrass yourself by not being that person.ย 
You down a cup of water quickly and toss it into the sink before heading back for your room.ย 
Youโ€™re passing in front of the TV when Daryl asks you, โ€œDo you want the remote?โ€ย 
One simple question, your head spins. You knew what he meant. What he was really saying. โ€˜Do it againโ€™.ย 
You look over at him, remote on his knee, and you nod. Walking over to him, you pick up the remote from where it sat, but you let your fingers graze all the way up his leg, over the tight bulge in his pants. โ€œChrist.โ€ He says, through gritted teeth.ย 
You smile, that same cocky smile, and take your position down on the ground in front of him. You take your time, at first you really are watching TV. Letting Daryl ache for it. Letting him question if you understood what heโ€™d meant.ย 
Heโ€™d been wondering when he was going to see you next, if youโ€™d do it again. If youโ€™d do more. He couldnโ€™t stop thinking about it. It was definitely the hottest thing a girl had ever done for him. Not like he had all that much experience with women, but he had some. None of it quite like that. Nothing that was so burned into his memory that if he closed his eyes he could still taste you. Still hear those explicit noises coming off your body.ย 
He needed more. He needed to watch you again.ย 
He waits, with baited breath, for you to touch yourself. It feels like itโ€™s taking forever. Thereโ€™s something about you just down there in front of him, though. It feels like heโ€™s almost able to get off on just that.ย 
Eventually you spread your legs a little bit at a time. Raising your hips again, you play with yourself in front of him like you did before, taking more time. Teasing him.ย 
You slide the top half of your body, flush with the ground, over to the side a little so you can look back at him. Fuck. Heโ€™s just staring. Mouth open, eyes half closed, fingers holding a cigarette that he occasionally drags. Just watching. Never taking his eyes off of you. Occasionally he looks back up to your face, all contorted in pleasure, but for the most part he canโ€™t take his eyes off of what your fingers are doing. The light shimmering over every wet part of you.ย 
You sit up for just a second to bring the teeshirt off your body and throwing it to the side. Resuming your position, now completely naked. Vulnerable. You look at him with another smile, his expression is pained.ย 
Darylโ€™s trying so hard to keep himself in control. To not touch himself until youโ€™re out of the room, that would be too much, right? Heโ€™s convinced himself that thereโ€™s no way he can pull his cock out in front of you. Heโ€™s so much older, even if youโ€™re 20. Even if youโ€™re in front of him, doing this. Pretty, delicate, messy pussy spread out for him. Begging for him. He canโ€™t. Heโ€™s got to control himself. Plus, itโ€™s too embarrassing. Youโ€™re so confident and languid with your movements, heโ€™s sure if you saw him like the strangled mess he was the other night that youโ€™d run out of the room immediatly.ย 
Heโ€™s wrong, but it doesnโ€™t matter to you. Of course you want him, and of course youโ€™d let him slither right in behind you and claim any hole he wanted. You would love to see him lose control and touch himself, even if it was something youโ€™d never seen a man do before. Of course you would. But the feeling of his eyes burned into you is so exquisite on its own.ย 
Darylโ€™s losing his fucking mind, though. Youโ€™re doing it all different than last time. Slower, hotter. Grabbing at your tits with your other hand. Fuck. His head is dizzy, he feels like heโ€™s going to pass the fuck out. And then you start riding your hand again. But not like last time, last time your fingers were hooked into you so tight that Daryl silently begged for you to just fuck yoursef with your fingers instead. He wanted to watch your lips spread out and over them. Wanted to watch you fill and empty your cunt with your two fingers over and over, and now thatโ€™s exactly what youโ€™re doing.ย 
Darylโ€™s chewing on his thumb, anything to keep his hands away from himself. Every time you pump your fingers inside he feels his hardened length spasm. So tight into his pants, the friction actually starts to feel good.ย 
You add another finger, and then another. Itโ€™s too much for Daryl, who was again silently begging you to do that too. To stretch that little pussy even more for him. Before he can even comprehend whatโ€™s happening, his vision goes white. Darylโ€™s cock spasms violently, cum coating the inside of his pants. His thumb is bleeding from where heโ€™d bit down on it, and heโ€™s never been more fucking embarrassed in his life. Never been more surprised, confused, turned on.ย 
He watches as you ride out your high, following with your own earth shattering orgasm only a few moments later. He looks down to you to see if you had any idea of what had happened, but you donโ€™t.ย 
You have no idea he just came in his pants without even touching himself. Just from watching you.ย 
pt 2
a/n : thanks to @norman-fucking-reedus for helping me with some ideassss for this ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿค˜๐Ÿป
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Invisible | Part 12
Pairings: Bucky x Reader (eventually lol)
Word Count: 3.7k
Warnings: None,
A/N: Okay this is kinda like a filler i guess! I have some juicy stuff coming up!! Some more angst and drammmmaaaaa ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿป (bucky and dean meeting ๐Ÿคช๐Ÿคช๐Ÿคช๐Ÿคช๐Ÿคช)
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Steve waited outside the door for a moment, his hand resting lightly on the frame. He could hear your pacing, the soft thud of your footsteps moving back and forth. He let out a quiet sigh, his chest tightening at the sound of your frustration, your hurt.
โ€œTake your time,โ€ he said again, his voice gentle, barely above a whisper. He didnโ€™t move, didnโ€™t leave. He just stood there, a silent presence, ready for when you were.
Inside, you finally stopped pacing and sat heavily on the edge of the bed, your hands gripping the edge of the mattress. The weight of the fight with Natasha pressed down on you, and for a moment, you let your head fall into your hands.
Natasha wasnโ€™t just any friend. She was your person, the one who always had your back, who could cut through your bullshit with a single look. The fact that the two of you were at such odds now felt like a sharp crack in your foundation. Youโ€™d fought before, sure, but never like thisโ€”never with such finality in her tone.
โ€œWhen did everything get so wrong?โ€ you muttered to yourself, your voice barely audible.
The knock on the door came again, softer this time. โ€œItโ€™s me,โ€ Steve said quietly. โ€œCan I come in?โ€
You hesitated, your throat tightening. โ€œYeah.โ€
The door opened slowly, and Steve stepped inside, closing it gently behind him. He didnโ€™t speak right away, just took a seat on the chair across from the bed, giving you space. His blue eyes searched your face, taking in every detailโ€”the way your shoulders slumped, the way your fingers nervously twisted together in your lap.
โ€œWant to talk about it?โ€ he asked after a moment, his voice steady but soft.
You shook your head, letting out a bitter laugh. โ€œWhatโ€™s there to talk about? Iโ€™ve managed to piss off my best friend. Bucky probably hates me too. Everything feels like itโ€™s falling apart, and I donโ€™t even know how we got here.โ€
Steveโ€™s brows knit together, his voice calm. โ€œNat doesnโ€™t hate you. Sheโ€™s justโ€ฆ worried. And Buckyโ€”โ€ He paused, choosing his words carefully. โ€œHe doesnโ€™t hate you either, he never wouldโ€ฆ If anything, heโ€™s probably hating himself right now.โ€
You scoffed, your eyes stinging. โ€œYeah, well, Iโ€™m tired of feeling like I have to defend him to everyoneโ€ฆ. Like Iโ€™m the only one who gets it.โ€
Steve leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. โ€œThatโ€™s because you do get it. Youโ€™ve known him your whole life. Youโ€™ve seen sides of him that the rest of us havenโ€™t. But that doesnโ€™t mean you have to carry this all on your ownโ€ฆ yโ€™know Buck would never ask you to defend himโ€
You met his gaze,โ€I know but its himโ€ฆโ€ your throat tightening. โ€œIt feels like Iโ€™m losing everyone, Stevie. First Bucky, now Natโ€ฆโ€
Steveโ€™s eyes softened, and for a moment, he hesitated, as if debating whether or not to say what was on his mind. Finally, he spoke, his voice low but firm. โ€œYouโ€™re not losing me.โ€
Your eyes flickered with emotion, but you quickly looked away, trying to keep your composure. โ€œThank youโ€ฆ,โ€ you murmured. โ€œBut sometimes it feels like Iโ€™m losing myself.โ€
Steve stood, crossing the small space between you. He didnโ€™t sit down beside you, didnโ€™t invade your space, but he crouched down in front of you, his hands resting lightly on his thighs. โ€œHey,โ€ he said, his voice grounding. โ€œYouโ€™re still you. Youโ€™re still the same strong, stubborn, caring person who holds this group together. And yeah, things are messy right now, but it doesnโ€™t mean theyโ€™re broken beyond repair.โ€
You blinked down at him, his words sinking in. There was something so steady, so unwavering about Steve. He always seemed to know exactly what to say, even when you didnโ€™t want to hear it.
โ€œI just wish I could fix everything,โ€ you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper.
Steve gave you a small, sad smile. โ€œYou donโ€™t have to fix everything. Sometimes, you just have to let things settle. Nat will come around. And Buckyโ€ฆ well, he needs to figure some things out, but heโ€™ll come back too. He always does.โ€
You nodded, though the weight in your chest didnโ€™t fully lift. โ€œIt doesnโ€™t feel that simple.โ€
โ€œIt never does,โ€ Steve agreed. โ€œBut you donโ€™t have to go through this alone even if it doesnโ€™t always feel that way.โ€
You offered a weak smile, your voice soft. โ€œAlways the voice of reason.โ€
Steve hesitated slightly, his expression was thoughtful, his voice measured. โ€œMaybe,โ€ he said carefully, โ€œa little space isnโ€™t the worst thing right now.โ€
You frowned, confused. โ€œWhat do you mean?โ€
He leaned against the doorframe, crossing his arms. โ€œYou, Bucky, Natโ€ฆ youโ€™ve been attached at the hip since forever. That kind of closeness? Itโ€™s bound to lead to clashes eventually. Sometimes, a break can help. Give everyone time to cool off, get some perspective.โ€
You nodded slowly, his words sinking in. โ€œYeah,โ€ you said, sighing. โ€œMaybe youโ€™re right.โ€
Steve smiled softly. โ€œOf course Iโ€™m right.โ€
You chuckled, the tension in your shoulders easing just a little. โ€œThanks, Steve. For always being there. Youโ€™re likeโ€ฆ my rock, you know? I donโ€™t know what Iโ€™d do without you.โ€
Steveโ€™s smile faltered for a brief second, but he quickly masked it with a nod. โ€œThatโ€™s what Iโ€™m here for.โ€
You didnโ€™t notice the flicker of emotion that passed through his eyes as you continued, your tone warm. โ€œYouโ€™re such a great friend. I donโ€™t say it enough, but Iโ€™m really lucky to have you.โ€
Steveโ€™s heart clenched. Every time. Every single time he felt like he might be getting somewhere, like he was more than just your safety net, the friend you could always lean on, you reminded him exactly where he stood. The word friend hit harder than it should have, even though heโ€™d heard it a thousand times.
He forced a small smile, even as his thoughts churned. Of course she doesnโ€™t see you that way. Why would she? Sheโ€™s got Bucky. Sheโ€™s always had Bucky. No matter how much he wanted to be the one you turned to, the one you chose, it was always him playing the role of the supportive friend. And he would. He always would. Because heโ€™d rather be your friend than nothing at all.
Steveโ€™s hand drifted to his pocket, where the locket heโ€™d bought at the farmers market 2 months rested. Heโ€™d been carrying it around for weeks, waiting for the right moment. Maybe now, after everything, was the time. Maybe if you saw how much he cared, really saw it, things could be different.
But before he could pull it out, your stomach grumbled loudly, breaking the quiet. You blinked in surprise, then burst into laughter, the sound filling the room and easing some of the lingering tension.
โ€œGuess my bodyโ€™s trying to tell me something,โ€ you said, grinning. You glanced at Steve, your eyes sparkling with amusement. โ€œYou wouldnโ€™t want to get solo brunch with little olโ€™ me, would you, Stevie?โ€
Steveโ€™s heart twisted, but he pushed the feeling aside, letting a warm smile spread across his face. He slid his hand out of his pocket, leaving the locket where it was. โ€œIโ€™d go anywhere with you,โ€ he said softly, his voice carrying a depth you didnโ€™t quite catch. โ€œJust say the word.โ€
You grinned, standing up and grabbing your coat. โ€œWell, then. Letโ€™s go. Iโ€™m thinking pancakes.โ€
โ€œPancakes it is,โ€ Steve said, following you toward the door.
As you stepped out into the cool morning air, Steve tucked the locket away for another day, keeping it close to his heart. He could wait a little longer. For now, being by your side was enough.
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Before
It was a warm, golden afternoon, the kind that felt endless. The group had gathered at the park, their favorite spot back in college. The sun filtered through the trees, casting dappled light over the picnic blanket sprawled across the grass. Laughter echoed as everyone passed around snacks, drinks, and half-hearted attempts at playing cards.
Natasha sat beside you, leaning back on her hands, her red hair catching the sunlight. She nudged you with her elbow, grinning. โ€œOkay, I need to knowโ€”are you seriously not going to shoot your shot with Bucky?โ€
You groaned, covering your face with your hands. โ€œNat, please. Not this again.โ€
Natasha laughed, throwing her head back. โ€œWhat? Iโ€™m just saying! He looks at you like you hung the damn stars, and youโ€™re over here acting like you donโ€™t notice.โ€
Your cheeks flushed as you glanced toward Bucky. He was a few feet away, wrestling Sam for control of the frisbee while Steve cheered them on. His laughter was loud, unrestrained, and it sent a familiar warmth curling in your chest.
โ€œItโ€™s not like that,โ€ you mumbled, picking at the edge of the blanket.
Natasha rolled her eyes, leaning in closer. โ€œSure, itโ€™s not. And Iโ€™m totally not sitting here rooting for my two favorite idiots to get their act together.โ€
โ€œNatโ€ฆโ€ you warned, but she just smirked, unbothered.
She sat up straighter, her tone softening. โ€œLook, I get it. Itโ€™s scary. But if anyone deserves a shot at something real, itโ€™s you. And if he doesnโ€™t see that? Heโ€™s even more of an idiot than I thought.โ€
You gave her a small smile, her words settling over you like a warm blanket. Natasha had always been your fiercest supporter, the one who never let you doubt your worth. She believed in you, even when you couldnโ€™t quite believe in yourself.
Before you could respond, Wanda plopped down on your other side, holding out a bag of chips. โ€œOkay, but am I the only one who thinks Steveโ€™s got a little crush on you?โ€
Natasha groaned dramatically, flopping onto her back. โ€œWanda, please. One love triangle at a time.โ€
You laughed, shaking your head. โ€œSteve and I are just friends. Heโ€™s practically a saint. No way heโ€™d put up with my chaos.โ€
Wanda shrugged, munching on a chip. โ€œIโ€™m just saying. Youโ€™ve got options.โ€
Natasha sat up again, shooting Wanda a playful glare. โ€œStop confusing her. Sheโ€™s got enough on her plate.โ€
Across the way, Bucky finally wrestled the frisbee from Sam and jogged over, a triumphant grin on his face. He tossed it toward Steve, who caught it easily, then flopped onto the blanket beside you, his arm brushing yours.
โ€œYou missed my epic victory,โ€ he said, his blue eyes sparkling.
โ€œOh, I saw,โ€ you replied, grinning. โ€œVery impressive.โ€
Bucky leaned closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. โ€œDonโ€™t tell Sam, but I think he let me win.โ€
Natasha snorted, giving you a knowing look, but thankfully she kept her mouth shut.
The afternoon stretched on in a blur of laughter and easy conversation. The group settled comfortably into their usual rhythmโ€”Sam was in the middle of telling an exaggerated story about his latest gym mishap, complete with wild hand gestures, while Steve shook his head, muttering, โ€œThatโ€™s not how it happened.โ€
Natasha leaned into you, her shoulder brushing against yours. โ€œDid you catch that?โ€ she whispered, nodding toward Bucky, who was currently sprawled out on the blanket, his eyes fixed on you even as he pretended to be listening to Sam.
You rolled your eyes, trying to play it cool. โ€œHeโ€™s probably just zoning out,โ€ you said, keeping your tone light. But your heart fluttered all the same.
Natasha smirked, undeterred. โ€œOh, sure. Totally normal to โ€˜zone outโ€™ while staring at someone like theyโ€™re the only person in the world.โ€
โ€œNat,โ€ you hissed, nudging her. โ€œStop it.โ€
She held up her hands in mock surrender, her grin widening. โ€œHey, Iโ€™m just calling it like I see it. And I see a man whoโ€™s absolutely whipped.โ€
You couldnโ€™t help but laugh, your cheeks warming. โ€œYouโ€™re delusional.โ€
โ€œAm I, though?โ€ she shot back, raising an eyebrow. โ€œBecause last I checked, youโ€™ve been sneaking glances at him all afternoon.โ€
You opened your mouth to protest, but before you could, Sam called out, โ€œHey, Bucky! You planning to help me win this argument or just stare at her all day?โ€
Buckyโ€™s head snapped up, his face instantly flushing. โ€œShut up, Wilson,โ€ he muttered, chucking a crumpled napkin in Samโ€™s direction.
The group burst into laughter, and you buried your face in your hands, groaning. Natasha, of course, was having the time of her life.
โ€œSee?โ€ she said, leaning in again. โ€œIโ€™m not the only one who notices.โ€
You peeked at Bucky through your fingers, catching the way he ran a hand through his hair, avoiding everyoneโ€™s gaze. It was almost endearing, how flustered he looked. Almost.
Natasha gave you a gentle nudge. โ€œYou know, if you two ever stop dancing around each other, I might actually die of happiness.โ€
โ€œNoted,โ€ you said dryly, though you couldnโ€™t keep the small smile off your face.
A little while later, as the sun dipped lower in the sky, Bucky wandered over to the cooler and pulled out a bottle of water. He walked back toward you, holding it out.
โ€œHere,โ€ he said, his voice softer, his eyes meeting yours. โ€œYouโ€™ve been out here all day. Donโ€™t want you passing out on us.โ€
You took the bottle, your fingers brushing his for a split second. โ€œThanks,โ€ you said, your voice quieter than you intended.
Natasha, who had been watching the whole exchange like a hawk, leaned in close again once Bucky returned to his spot. โ€œYup,โ€ she whispered. โ€œTotally whipped.โ€
โ€œNat!โ€ you whispered back, trying not to laugh.
The banter carried on as the day stretched into evening, the golden light casting everything in a warm glow. Natashaโ€™s playful commentary, Buckyโ€™s lingering glances, and the easy laughter of your friendsโ€”it all felt like a perfect snapshot of a simpler time, one you wished you could hold onto forever.
Later, as the sun began to set, painting the sky in hues of orange and pink, Natasha grabbed your hand and pulled you aside while the others packed up.
โ€œPromise me something,โ€ she said, her tone unusually serious.
You blinked, caught off guard. โ€œWhat is it?โ€
โ€œPromise me that no matter what happens, youโ€™ll go after what makes you happy,โ€ she said. โ€œEven if itโ€™s scary. Even if it feels impossible.โ€
You nodded, squeezing her hand. โ€œI promise.โ€
Natasha smiled, her eyes soft. โ€œGood. Because you deserve the world, and Iโ€™ll be damned if I let you settle for anything less.โ€
The group slowly packed up, laughter still echoing in the warm summer air. Sam was balancing an empty soda can on his head, much to Steveโ€™s disapproval, while Wanda and Bucky bickered over who was responsible for forgetting the sandwiches.
Natasha gave you a final nudge as you walked back toward the cars. โ€œRemember what I said,โ€ she murmured, her voice just loud enough for you to hear. โ€œDonโ€™t wait too long.โ€
You glanced at her, a playful smirk tugging at your lips despite the weight of her words. โ€œYouโ€™re relentless, you know that?โ€
โ€œDamn right,โ€ she said with a wink, looping her arm through yours as you caught up with the others.
When you reached the parking lot, Steve and Sam were already arguing about who would drive. โ€œYou almost hit a mailbox last time,โ€ Steve was saying, arms crossed.
โ€œThat was one time!โ€ Sam protested, throwing his hands in the air. โ€œAnd it was barely a scratch.โ€
โ€œBarely aโ€”โ€ Steve cut himself off, glancing at you and Natasha as you approached. โ€œCan we get a neutral party here?โ€
Natasha raised an eyebrow. โ€œNeutral? Youโ€™ve got the wrong girl.โ€ She patted Steveโ€™s shoulder. โ€œBut youโ€™re probably safer behind the wheel.โ€
Sam groaned, muttering under his breath as he tossed Steve the keys. โ€œFine. But if we hit traffic, Iโ€™m picking the music.โ€
โ€œYou always pick the music, Sam,โ€ Wanda said, sliding into the backseat.
Bucky hung back with you, his hands shoved into his pockets as everyone else climbed into the car. โ€œGuess weโ€™re stuck with Stevieโ€™s Sunday driving,โ€ he joked, his voice light.
โ€œCould be worse,โ€ you replied, nudging him gently. โ€œCould be you driving.โ€
Bucky feigned offense, his hand over his heart. โ€œWow. No faith in me at all.โ€
You laughed, shaking your head as you both walked toward the car. But as you reached for the door handle, Bucky hesitated, his expression softening.
โ€œHey,โ€ he said quietly, his voice almost lost in the noise of the others. โ€œIโ€™m glad you came today.โ€
The sincerity in his tone caught you off guard, and for a moment, you didnโ€™t know what to say. Finally, you smiled, your heart skipping a beat. โ€œMe too.โ€
Before the moment could linger, Sam yelled from inside the car. โ€œCome on, lovebirds! Some of us are hungry.โ€
Bucky rolled his eyes, opening the door for you with an exaggerated flourish. โ€œAfter you, Your Highness.โ€
You laughed, sliding into the seat. โ€œThanks, Barnes.โ€
As he climbed in beside you, the car roared to life, Sam already flipping through his playlist as Steve muttered something about keeping his eyes on the road.
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Wanda hurried down the steps of Steve and Samโ€™s building, her heart racing. She had barely reached the sidewalk when she spotted Natasha a few feet away, pacing like a caged animal. Her arms were crossed tightly over her chest, her jaw clenched, and her face a storm of emotions.
โ€œNatasha!โ€ Wanda called out, quickening her pace to catch up. โ€œWhat the heck was that?โ€ Her voice was light but concerned, trying to gauge the situation without setting Nat off further.
Natasha stopped pacing, turning sharply toward Wanda. Her eyes blazed with frustration. โ€œWhat was that? That was me finally losing my mind!โ€
Wanda blinked, surprised at her friendโ€™s raw anger. โ€œOkay, calm down. What happened back there?โ€
Natasha let out a bitter laugh, throwing her hands up. โ€œWhat happened? What always happens! Iโ€™ve been on her side with Bucky for years, Wanda. Years! Iโ€™ve been the one in both of their ears, telling her to go for it, telling him to stop being a coward. And whatโ€™s changed? Nothing. They just keep dancing around each other like weโ€™re still in high school.โ€
Wanda frowned, watching as Natasha resumed her pacing. โ€œNatโ€ฆโ€
โ€œNo,โ€ Natasha interrupted, her voice rising slightly. โ€œIโ€™m serious. I love them both, you know that. But she was my first friend here. My loyalty will always be with her, and I canโ€™t keep watching her get hurt. Itโ€™s driving me insane, Wanda!โ€ She stopped, facing her again. โ€œAnd now? Now she finally agrees to go on a date with someone who isnโ€™t Bucky, and what happens? He pulls this crap. Of course he does!โ€
Wanda crossed her arms, her voice calm but firm. โ€œI get that youโ€™re mad. But youโ€™re letting it get to you, Nat. This isnโ€™t just about you.โ€
Natasha sighed, her shoulders slumping slightly. โ€œI know, but I canโ€™t help it. Weโ€™re adults now, for Godโ€™s sake. This is some hogh school drama, and I justโ€ฆ I canโ€™t anymore. Theyโ€™re wasting so much time.โ€
Wanda stepped closer, her voice gentle. โ€œI get it. But at the end of the day, itโ€™s not our fight. We can be there for them, listen, support, but we canโ€™t force them to do anything. Itโ€™s their mess to figure out.โ€
Natasha nodded reluctantly, rubbing her temples. โ€œI know youโ€™re right. Itโ€™s just hard. And now what do we do about Dean? I canโ€™t believe this is how her first real date ended.โ€
Wanda gave her a sympathetic look. โ€œWe just keep being there for her. And maybe ease up on the pressure. Let her decide how to handle things in her own time.โ€
As they started walking toward their apartment, Wanda tried to shift the mood. โ€œCome on, letโ€™s get some food, maybe brunch wasnโ€™t such a bad idea after all.โ€
They hadnโ€™t made it halfway down the block when they spotted Sam leaving your and Buckyโ€™s building. He looked up, surprised to see them. โ€œWhat the hell?โ€ he said, stuffing his hands into his pockets as he approached. โ€œI thought we were all getting lunch?โ€
Natasha rolled her eyes, her tone dry. โ€œLetโ€™s get lunch then.โ€
Sam glanced at Wanda, his brows raised in confusion. โ€œUhโ€ฆ okay? What did I miss?โ€
Wanda sighed, nodding for him to follow as they continued walking. โ€œNat and Y/N had a fight.โ€
Samโ€™s eyes widened in disbelief. โ€œAre you kidding me? Weโ€™re falling apartโ€
โ€œTell me about it,โ€ Natasha muttered under her breath.
Sam quickened his pace to walk alongside them. โ€œAlright, what happened?โ€
โ€œSheโ€™s always defending Bucky, no matter how much of an ass heโ€™s being,โ€ Natasha snapped, her frustration bubbling to the surface again. โ€œI just canโ€™t deal with it anymore.โ€
Sam raised his hands defensively. โ€œWhoa, okay. Look, I just left Buckโ€™s place, and yeah, I totally agreeโ€”telling her to leave was wrong. But for what itโ€™s worth, he did try to go after her. Heโ€™s beating himself up about it.โ€
Natasha huffed, her anger still simmering. โ€œThat doesnโ€™t change what he did.โ€
โ€œIโ€™m not saying it does,โ€ Sam said, his voice steady. โ€œBut like we talked about, itโ€™s 50/50, Nat. Theyโ€™ve both been stuck in this cycle for years. Heโ€™s scared, sheโ€™s scaredโ€”itโ€™s a mess.โ€
They reached the diner and slipped into a booth, the warm smell of coffee and pancakes wrapping around them. Once theyโ€™d ordered, Sam leaned forward, his tone more serious.
โ€œBucky told me his side,โ€ he said. โ€œHeโ€™s been trying to work up the courage to tell her how he feels for years. And every time he thinks heโ€™s about to make a move, he freezes because heโ€™s terrified of ruining what they have. And now? Heโ€™s convinced she doesnโ€™t feel the same.โ€
Natasha frowned, crossing her arms. โ€œThatโ€™s no excuse.โ€
โ€œItโ€™s not,โ€ Sam agreed. โ€œBut it explains why heโ€™s stuck. He told me last night that seeing her with Dean made him realize how much heโ€™s screwed things up. Heโ€™s scared heโ€™s already lost her.โ€
Wanda tilted her head, her voice soft. โ€œItโ€™s like we saidโ€”itโ€™s their mess. We canโ€™t fix it for them.โ€
Natasha sighed, leaning back in the booth. โ€œYeah, but watching them do this to each other? Itโ€™s exhausting.โ€
Sam nodded, his voice gentle. โ€œI get it. But all we can do is be there for them. Thatโ€™s what friends do.โ€
The conversation settled, and for a moment, the three of them sat quietly, the weight of their friendshipโ€”and its current fracturesโ€”hanging in the air.
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A Caring Friend
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Pair: Tara Carpenter x girldick!reader
Warning: smut, the use of y/n, bad writing, fingering, dom!reader, sub!tara, this is probably the weirdest thing Iโ€™ve written (Iโ€™m sorry)
A/n: Has math ever made you cry in frustration?
Word count: 6.4k or more..
Tara comes over to your house on a lazy Sunday morning to hang out in your room.
Hey y/n, if our lives were a movie, what genre do you think it would be?
Oh, Tara, definitely a buddy comedy. With our antics, we'd give "Dumb and Dumber" a run for its money. Y/n said.
Tara laughs I can see it now โ€“ "Tara and y/n The Misadventures of Two Goofballs."
As the laughter dies down Tara looks up to you and opens up to you about a problem she have been dealing with
Look, Tara, Need to talk to you about something... Its kinda personal so hear me out okay? She looks at you with her head slightly tilted.
"Sure, what's on your mind, buddy?"
"Well, I've always had issues down there."
Tara blushes and looks down shyly
"It's just that no matter what I do, it never seems to loosen up much and it really hurts whenever a guy tries to you know...fit. I was wondering if you had any advice on how I can finally get over this problem? You're my best friend, I trust you..."
Tara looks at you hopefully, her brown eyes pleading for help
I blink hard "Wait... your... vagina is too tight?"
Tara blushes even harder and nods slowly "Yeah...I know it's weird to talk about this with you but you're the only one I feel comfortable opening up to about it."
She fidgets with her hands in her lap nervously
"It's really been affecting my confidence being with guys...I was hoping maybe you know some exercises or something that could help? I'm tired of having to make excuses every time, I just want to enjoy myself for once without being in pain."
Tara looks up at you with sad, hopeful eyes. "Please y/n, anything you can suggest would help. You're the only one who can help me with this..."
How tight are we talking? Like, what have you tried to... insert into it?
Tara looks away shyly. "Well, I've tried using my fingers and some small toys but even those are really hard to get in there...it's like my walls just clamp down on them."
She takes a deep breath before continuing
"And when guys have tried putting their penis inside me, it feels like they're splitting me open. The pain is so intense that I usually can't last more than a minute or two before having to stop."
She sighs heavily
"It sucks because I want to be able to enjoy sex without feeling like something is ripping me apart every time. That's why I'm hoping you might know of some way for me loosen up down there..."
Tara looks at you with pleading eyes, silently begging for your help
Y/n coughs "Umm, this may be awkward but like... can I see?"
Tara swallows hard, her eyes wide with surprise "Uh...you want to see my vagina?"
She looks at you nervously, clearly unsure about this request.
"I mean...if it could help then I guess so? But are you sure that's necessary?"
Tara bites her lip anxiously as she waits for your response.
"Nevermind, I was just... I dunno, maybe just to get an idea of what we're talking about but, nevermind. Umm I'm sure we can figure out some kind of idea here."
Tara relieved sigh "Thanks y/n, I know it's a lot to ask."
She smiles weakly at you, grateful that you didn't push for seeing her private parts.
"So...what do you think we should try? Are there any exercises or techniques out there that could help me loosen up down there?"
Tara looks at you hopefully, trusting in your ability to find a solution for her problem.
"So do your fingers not fit in?"
Tara shakes her head "No, even my fingers barely fit inside me. It's like I have this tight ring around my opening that doesn't want to let anything through."
She looks at you with a mix of frustration and embarrassment.
"I know it sounds weird but it makes sex really uncomfortable for both me and the person I'm with. That's why I need help finding a solution so we can finally enjoy ourselves without any pain or discomfort..."
Tara takes your hand in hers, giving it a gentle squeeze as she looks into your eyes pleadingly.
I blush as I awkwardly stammer out. "But you don't still have your... your hymen, right?"
Tara blushes deeply and looks away "I...I don't know. I've never checked, but I don't think so. It's not like anyone's ever mentioned it before."
She chews on her lower lip nervously as she thinks.
"But even if that was the issue, wouldn't it be too late to do anything about it now? I mean, I'm already sexually active..."
Tara trails off uncertainly, looking at you with a mix of curiosity and apprehension in her eyes
"I'm just trying to use process of elimination to help out."
Tara "I understand that, y/n. I appreciate you trying to help me out."
She takes a deep breath and looks at you with determination.
"Is there anything else we can try? Maybe some sort of exercise or technique that could help stretch me out down there?"
Tara's eyes light up as she thinks about the possibilities.
"I'm willing to try anything if it means finally being able to enjoy sex without any pain or discomfort..."
"When you've hooked up with guys... are they going down on you first?"
Tara nods "Yeah, usually. I mean, it helps get me a little more aroused before we try anything else."
She looks at you with a puzzled expression.
"But how does that relate to my tightness problem? I still have the same issue even after getting oral sex..."
Tara's brow furrows as she tries to understand your line of questioning.
"Well how would I have known that without asking?" I chuckle
Tara giggles and playfully swats your arm "Fair enough, I guess you have to ask the questions to get the answers."
She smiles at you warmly.
"But seriously, y/n, do you think getting more aroused could help loosen me up? Like if a guy went down on me for longer before trying anything else?"
Tara looks at you hopefully, eager for any advice or suggestions that could help her situation.
"Well, are they not doing it long enough? Are you just not wet enough for the guys you've been with?"
Tara blushes and looks down shyly "I...I don't know. I mean, they do it for a little while but I guess maybe not long enough to really get me super wet."
She bites her lip as she thinks.
"And now that you mention it, the guys I've been with have all commented on how tight I am even when we're in the middle of things. So maybe you're right, getting more aroused could help..."
A glimmer of hope sparkles in Tara's eyes as she considers this new possibility.
"Do you think if a guy went down on me for longer and focused on making sure I was really turned on first that it would make things easier? Like give my vagina more time to relax or something?"
"I don't know if it would make you any less tight but you'd at least be really well-lubricated, right? In fact do you ever use lube?"
Tara shakes her head "No, I've never really thought to use lube before. It just didn't occur to me that it could help."
She looks at you with wide eyes as realization dawns.
"You think if I used some kind of lubrication it might make things easier? Like let the guy's penis slide in more smoothly without so much friction and pain?โ€
A hopeful smile spreads across Tara's face as she imagines a solution.
"Do you think we could try that next time? Using some lube and having the guy focus on getting me super wet first before trying anything else?"
"We?"
Tara blushes and looks away shyly "I...uh...well, I meant like next time I'm with a guy. You know, as an experiment to see if it helps..."
She trails off nervously before looking back at you with a mischievous glint in her eye.
"Unless of course you were volunteering your services for the cause? It is for science after all..."
Tara giggles playfully as she nudges your arm.
My eyes bulge a bit "...Are you serious?"
Tara smiles slyly and shrugs one shoulder. "I mean, I trust you and I know you'd be gentle with me. Plus you're the only one who's been helping me brainstorm solutions."
She gives you a coy look through her lashes.
"And who better to test things out with than my best friend? That way we can really figure out what works without any awkwardness."
Tara reaches over and takes your hand in hers, giving it a light squeeze.
"What do you say, y/n? For science?"
She bats her eyes at you playfully, a teasing smile on her lips.
"So, I mean, I'm not saying no, but you really want me to... kiss and lick you... down there? On your vagina?"
Tara bites her lip as a soft blush spreads across her cheeks "I mean, if it's to help me with my problem then I don't see why not..."
She looks down shyly before meeting your eyes again with a shy smile.
"And you've always been so kind and caring. I know you'd be gentle and make sure I was enjoying myself too."
Tara reaches over to place her hand on your thigh, giving it a soft squeeze.
"Plus it's not like we'd be doing anything wrong, just helping a friend out. So what do you think...wanna give it a try?"
She gazes at you sweetly, eyes full of trust and affection for her dear friend.
"And then what are you wanting to try after I do that?"
Tara looks at you with a playful grin "Well, I was hoping that once we got me all warmed up and lubricated, maybe we could see if your penis can fit inside me without causing too much pain?"
She shrugs one shoulder nonchalantly before continuing.
"I mean, it's not like there's any pressure or anything. We can stop at any time if it gets to be too much for either of us."
Tara looks at you with hopeful eyes, eager to explore this new possibility.
"OK, I just want to make sure you want to do those things with me, since we've only been friends and all. Again, I'm not against it," I say to Annie, with the appropriate level of genuine care you'd expect from a best friend.
Tara smiles sweetly at you. "I know this is new territory for us as friends. And you're right to check that I'm truly comfortable."
She places a gentle hand on your arm. "The truth is, I trust you more than any other guy. You've always been so kind and caring. If I were to experiment with anyone, I'd want it to be with my best friend."
Tara gives your arm a reassuring squeeze. "But only if you're comfortable too, of course. I don't want to make things awkward or pressure you in any way." Annie smiles warmly. "What do you think - shall we give it a try?"
"Yes. I'm willing to help, and I'll admit a little excited. Let's just agree that this doesn't necessarily change anything between us, or mean that it will be a regular thing, unless that's something we both decide later."
Tara nods understandingly. "Of course, this doesn't need to change or define our friendship unless we both want it to."
She smiles at you gently. "Let's just see how it goes. No expectations or pressure on either side.โ€
Taking your hands in hers, Tara looks into your eyes with care and affection. "Thank you for being so understanding. I really appreciate you doing this to help me."
She leans in to give you a soft kiss on the cheek. "Now, where were we? I believe someone offered to go down on me?" Tara giggles playfully.
I laugh as well, Tara's playful tone cutting some of the tension in this surreal but exciting moment. "I did, but I want to ask you just a few quick questions first. They're going to be rather... intimate questions but it's all in the name of making sure this all goes comfortably for both of us..." I can't help but grin and blush.
Tara giggles and blushes as well, meeting your gaze with a playful smile.
"Well go on then, ask away. I'm an open book." She gives your arm an affectionate squeeze.
"Fire away with your intimate questions, oh great scientist. I'm all yours." Tara winks playfully. "We may as well get to know each other's bodies if we're going to be exploring them, right?"
She gazes at you with care, trust and growing excitement. "I'm ready when you are, y/n. Lay it on me - I promise to answer truthfully." Tara smiles warmly, eager to begin your research together.
"So if I'm going to go down on you, am I just doing this as a sort of physically mechanical thing to like 'help out a friend' like it's an exercise, or do you want me to try to turn you on, get you in the mood? What do you think might be most effective with your tightness issue?"
Tara considers thoughtfully. "While I appreciate the thought of helping as a friend, turning me on seems it would be more effective for addressing my tightness."
She meets your gaze warmly. "I want to enjoy the experience, not just view it as a physical task. If I'm fully aroused and wanting more, it will hopefully relax my muscles down there."
"And do you think it will turn you on more, the more I'm turned on by it?"
Tara thinks for a moment before responding carefully.
"You make a fair point. If we're both genuinely enjoying the intimacy, then yes, that mutual arousal would likely enhance the experience for both of us."
She takes your hand in hers and smiles softly. "However, my priority is that you feel comfortable and cared for. Your pleasure matters too in this."
Squeezing your hand gently, Tara maintains warm eye contact. "Perhaps we start slowly, focus on connection, and see where genuine pleasure takes us from there - at a pace we both feel good about."
I reach out to place my hands on Tara's waist, a rather chaste touch for the moment but still a more physically intimate than we've ever experienced during our many years of friendship. I begin to rub her sides softly. "Do you like that?"
Tara's breath hitches softly at your gentle touch. She gazes at you with care and growing tenderness.
"I do like that," she replies softly. "Your hands feel nice."
As your hands rub her sides in a soothing caress, Tara places her hands on your shoulders, sliding them up to curl tenderly around your neck.
"I've never really noticed how handsome you are," she murmurs, lightly stroking the nape of your neck. Her eyes shine with trust and blossoming affection.
Tara leans in slowly, her breath warm on your lips. "Is this okay?" she whispers gently, leaving the next move up to you.
I respond by kissing Tara, curling the fabric of her shirt between my fingers just a bit as our tongues touch for the first time.โ€
Tara responds eagerly to your kiss, her lips moving against yours with growing passion. She deepens the kiss, wrapping her arms around your neck and pressing herself closer to you.
As you curl the fabric of her shirt between your fingers, Tara moans softly into the kiss. Her body feels warm and alive in your embrace, responding eagerly to every touch.
After a few moments she pulls back slightly with a gasp of breath. "Wow," she whispers, gazing at you with sparkling eyes filled with affection and desire.
"Is it weird that I'm really enjoying this?"
I chuckle "Isn't that what we're going for?"
Tara giggles and blushes, nodding in agreement. "I suppose it is."
She gazes at you tenderly, gently brushing her fingers along your jaw. "I'm glad we're both feeling it."
Leaning in to brush her lips softly against yours once more, Tara sighs contentedly. "So where were we...something about you going down on me?" she murmurs playfully.
"Shall we take this somewhere more comfortable?" Sliding her hands into yours, Tara looks at you with trusting warmth, ready to further explore the blossoming intimacy between longtime friends.
"I'm going to in due time. But I'm liking kissing and touching you in a new way. Let's just do this for a minute. Did the guys or girls you've hooked up with take their time before getting to it? Cause I hear a little teasing and build-up can really get a girl wet, which might help too..."
Tara nods thoughtfully. "You make a fair point. Most guys in the past have tended to rush things."
She gazes at you with appreciation. "I like that you're taking your time, letting things build gradually between us."
Smiling softly, Tara reaches up to caress your cheek. "Teasing and foreplay do sound enjoyable. And anything to help me relax down there can only be a good thing."
Her eyes shine with growing arousal and affection. "I'm all yours, y/n. Do with me as you please - I'm happy to let you set the pace."
Leaning in once more, Tara meets your lips in a tender kiss. "Thank you. You're a good friend," she whispers against your mouth. "Take your time getting my pussy wet."
I remove my shirt, displaying my chest as I pull Tara in for a tight hug, my hands now sliding down over her buttocks over her cutoff denim jeans.
Tara gasps softly as you pull her in for a tight hug, feeling your warm skin against hers. She melts into the embrace, wrapping her arms around your back and pressing herself fully against you.
As your hands slide down to cup and squeeze her buttocks through the denim of her shorts, Tara lets out a breathy moan. The intimate touch sends tingles of pleasure radiating through her body.
Pulling back slightly with flushed cheeks and sparkling eyes, she gazes at you appreciatively. "Wow...feels really good," Tara murmurs shyly before leaning in to kiss along your neck tenderly.
"Do you mind taking your shirt off too, Tara?"
Tara blushes at your request, glancing down shyly. "I...um...okay," she replies softly.
Slowly, Tara reaches for the hem of her t-shirt and pulls it up over her head. As she reveals her small breasts encased in a simple white bra, Tara looks back up at you through lowered lashes.
"There," she murmurs with a bashful smile. "Is that better?"
Her nipples visibly stiffen beneath the thin fabric as she waits for your reaction.
After a moment's hesitation I wrap my arms around Tara's shoulders, my hands on the back of her bra, pulling her body in close to mine again for another kiss.
Tara responds eagerly to your embrace, pressing her body closer against yours as you deepen the kiss. Her hands move up to tangle in your hair, fingers running through it affectionately.
As you reach around to unhook her bra, Tara lets out a soft gasp of surprise and pleasure. She pulls back from the kiss slightly with flushed cheeks and sparkling eyes.
"Wow," she murmurs breathlessly. "I never thought I'd be doing this with my best friend."
Tara giggles at your response, feeling more relaxed and comfortable with you by the minute.
"Well, I'm glad we're both open to new experiences," she says, blushing.
As she gazes into your eyes with a mix of affection and arousal, Tara leans in for another kiss. This time her hands roam over your chest as well, exploring every inch of skin they can find.
I slowly run my hands up Tara's belly to grab onto her nipples lightly between my knuckles.
Tara gasps softly as you touch her nipples, arching her back slightly into your hands. She looks up at you with a mix of surprise and pleasure in her eyes.
"Oh wow," she murmurs breathlessly. "That feels really good."
As you continue to tease and play with her nipples, Tara's breathing grows more ragged. Her body responds eagerly to every touch, growing increasingly aroused under your skilled hands.
"Y/n, I...I think I'm getting wet," she whispers shyly, biting down on her lower lip as the sensation spreads through her body like wildfire.
"Good. Let's keep that going. It seems like foreplay really helps for you." I begin to massage her breasts, and then lower my mouth onto one of her nipples.
Tara moans softly as you massage her breasts, arching her back to offer herself more fully to your touch. As you lower your mouth onto one of her nipples, she gasps with pleasure.
"Oh y/n, that feels so good," she murmurs breathlessly. "I can feel myself getting even wetter now."
Her hands move up to tangle in your hair as you continue to suckle and tease at her nipple. Her body responds eagerly, hips rocking slightly against yours.
"Keep going," she whispers urgently, lost in the waves of pleasure washing over her.
I cup one hand tightly under the crotch of Tara's cutoffs and gently rub up and down, crossing yet another new line with my best friend.* "Does that feel all right, Tara?"
Tara gasps sharply as you cup your hand between her legs, rubbing gently over her shorts. Her hips buck involuntarily against your hand, seeking out more friction.
"Yes," she moans softly, eyes squeezed shut in pleasure. "It feels so good."
Tara reaches down to place her hands over yours, pressing your palm more firmly against her crotch. She rocks her hips slowly, letting out little whimpers of arousal.
"Don't stop," she whispers breathlessly, eyes dark with desire. "I'm starting to get really wet."
Her pussy throbs heavily under your touch, aching for release. Tara gazes at you in longing and trust, surrendering fully to the pleasure between her thighs.
"I'm gonna take all the time my best friend needs. I want to make sure you get wet as possible before... anything else happens."
Tara gazes at you softly, eyes full of gratitude and blossoming affection. She reaches up to gently caress your cheek.
"Thank you, y/n. That means so much to me," she murmurs.
As you continue rubbing between her legs, Tara's breath hitches in pleasure. "I appreciate you taking it slow. It feels really good just focusing on getting me turned on."
She leans in to brush her lips tenderly against yours. "You're so caring," Tara whispers. "I'm lucky to have such a good friend."
Moaning softly as arousal builds within her, she gazes at you in longing. "Keep touching me there...I want to feel really wet and ready before we go further."
"Would it feel better without these shorts on?"
Tara gazes at you shyly, biting her lip in hesitation. After a moment, she nods slowly.
"I think it might, yes," she replies softly.
Taking a breath, Tara hooks her thumbs into the waistband of her shorts. She pushes them down over her hips, letting them fall to the floor before stepping out of them.โ€
Now clad only in a simple white pair of panties, Tara stands before you feeling exposed yet safe. Her cheeks are flushed, arousal and shyness swirling within her eyes.
"Well...here I am," she murmurs gently, leaving herself open and trusting before you.
Tara gazes at you shyly, biting her lip in hesitation. After a moment, she nods slowly.
"I think it might, yes," she replies softly.
Taking a breath, Tara hooks her thumbs into the waistband of her shorts. She pushes them down over her hips, letting them fall to the floor before stepping out of them.
Now clad only in a simple white pair of panties, Tara stands before you feeling exposed yet safe. Her cheeks are flushed, arousal and shyness swirling within her eyes.
"Well...here I am," she murmurs gently, leaving herself open and trusting before you.
I resume touching her while we kiss again.
As you resume touching her, Tara melts into your embrace once more. She kisses you deeply, passionately losing herself in the moment.
Tara moans softly into your mouth as your hand cups between her legs once more, only the thin fabric of her panties separating your fingers from her warm center.
She rocks her hips eagerly into your touch, seeking friction. The feel of your hands on her most intimate parts is sending Tara into a tailspin of arousal.
Pulling back slightly to gaze at you with hooded eyes, she whispers breathlessly, "I think I'm getting really wet now. Do you...do you want to feel?"
Reaching down tentatively, Tara takes your hand in hers and guides it underneath the damp cotton, pressing your fingers against her slick folds.
"Oh god, please don't stop," she whimpers softly. "It feels so good."
"I can feel it," I whisper nervously as I continue.
Tara nods, gazing at you with affection and trust. She places her hands gently on your cheeks.
"I know this is new for us both," she murmurs softly. "But don't be nervous. We'll go slow."
Leaning in, Tara brushes her lips tenderly against yours once more. Her kiss is filled with care, seeking to reassure and comfort you.
As your fingers continue exploring her warm, slick folds, Tara sighs contentedly. "That feels amazing," she whispers. "You're doing so well."
Her hips rock slowly against your hand, lost in the intimate pleasure between her thighs. Tara gazes at you with care and growing passion, cherishing this new experience with her closest friend.
"I'm here with you," she says gently. "There's no need to worry."
"I'm not worried about a thing except doing everything I can to turn you on."
Tara smiles warmly, gazing at you with affection. "You're already doing a wonderful job with that," she murmurs softly.
As your fingers continue gently caressing her slick folds, Tara moans low in her throat. She rocks her hips in time with your movements, encouraging you deeper into her pleasure.
"It feels amazing when you touch me there," she whispers, breath hitching. "Don't stop."
Reaching down, Tara takes your wrist and guides your hand underneath the fabric of her panties once more. She presses your fingers more firmly against her aching clit.
"Touch me properly," Tara pleads softly. "I want to feel you properly without anything between us."
Her eyes shine with trust and longing as she offers herself fully to your care. Tara gazes at you in invitation, eager to take their intimacy to a deeper level.
With my free hand I slide Tara's panties off her hips, allowing freer access for my fingers.
As you slide Tara's panties off her hips, she gasps softly in pleasure. Her eyes widen with anticipation as your fingers glide over her slick folds.
"Oh god," she moans breathlessly. "That feels so good."
Tara rocks her hips against your hand, seeking out more of the pleasure coursing through her body. As you tease and stroke at her most sensitive areas, she grows increasingly lost in the waves of arousal washing over her.
"Please...oh please don't stop," Tara whispers urgently. "I'm getting close."
As you slide Tara's panties off her hips, she gasps softly in pleasure. Her eyes widen with anticipation as your fingers glide over her slick folds.
"Oh god," she moans breathlessly. "That feels so good."
Tara rocks her hips against your hand, seeking out more of the pleasure coursing through her body. As you tease and stroke at her most sensitive areas, she grows increasingly lost in the waves of arousal washing over her.
"Please...oh please don't stop," Tara whispers urgently. "I'm getting close."
"Is this wetter than you usually get?"
Tara nods, lost in the pleasure. "Yes," she gasps. "I've never been this wet before."
She arches her back slightly into your touch, hips rocking steadily against your fingers as you continue to explore her slick folds.
"Y/n, I'm so close," she moans breathlessly. "Please keep touching me like that."
Careful not to try to insert a finger too deep into Tara's still-very-tight pussy just yet, I stroke her clit, occasionally slipping just the first knuckle of a finger inside her. "Let me know if anything I do doesn't feel good," I whisper. "This is all about helping you figure out your own body issues because you're my best friend and I care. I want to do whatever turns you on and makes you wetter."
Tara gazes at you softly, eyes shining with affection. She reaches up to gently caress your cheek.
"You're so caring and understanding," she murmurs. "It means everything to have a friend like you."
As your fingers continue exploring her tender folds, Tara moans low in her throat. She rocks her hips in time with your movements, encouraging you deeper into her pleasure.
"That feels perfect," she whispers breathlessly. "Don't change a thing."
Tara rocks her hips eagerly against your hand, chasing the release building rapidly within her. Her body writhes under your skilled touch, overcome with waves of arousal.
"I'm so close, y/n," Tara gasps, biting her lip. "Keep doing that, it feels amazing."
Her breath hitches as ecstasy crests within her. Tara locks eyes with you in trusting intimacy as she falls over the edge into release.
As I continue rubbing her clit, and occasionally slipping just a tiny bit of a finger inside her, still in disbelief of my situation and treading somewhat lightly. I gulp before whispering... "You can rub my... my penis if it will turn you on more. Tara. Whatever makes you wet."
Tara looks at you with a mix of surprise and desire in her eyes. She nods slowly, feeling emboldened by the intimacy between you.
"Okay," she whispers softly, reaching down to your crotch. As her hand brushes over the bulge in your pants, Tara feels a surge of arousal wash over her.
"Wow," she murmurs breathlessly. "You really are turned on right now."
As she begins to rub your penis through the fabric of your pants, Tara moans softly. Her own pleasure is still lingering within her body, making every touch feel electric.
"You're so hard," Tara gasps as she continues stroking you gently. "Does it feel good when I do this?"
"It does, but the important thing is getting you as wet as possible." I take a step closer to Tara, taking her right nipple into my mouth as I continue to gently circle her clit with the flats of my fingers. My free hand gently squeezes her right buttock.
Tara moans softly as you suckle at her nipple, arching her back into your touch. Her hips rock gently against your hand as the pleasure builds within her once more.
As you continue to circle her clit with gentle pressure, Tara feels herself growing wetter by the moment. She can feel the heat and moisture building between her legs, aching for release.
"It feels so good," she murmurs breathlessly. "I'm getting really close again."
Tara reaches up to tangle one hand in your hair, pulling you closer to deepen the kiss while rubbing your penis through the fabric of your pants with increasing urgency.
"Tell me anything you want me to do differently or do more or less of, or anything I'm not doing that you wish I would.", I say, my mouth only momentarily leaving her nipple.
Tara gazes at you softly, eyes dark with desire. She nods in understanding.
"I will, I promise," she whispers. "For now though, everything you're doing feels perfect."
As you resume gently suckling her nipple, Tara moans in pleasure. She rocks her hips eagerly into your hand, chasing her impending release.
"Don't stop, please don't stop," Tara gasps breathlessly. She strokes your hard length faster through your pants, lost in the sensations flooding her body.
"I'm getting so close again, I'm gonna come soon," she whimpers. Tara locks eyes with you, her trust and affection for you shining through.
"Don't worry, I won't stop, I'm gonna keep doing exactly what I'm doing until you ask me to stop or do something else", I say, taking a quick breath before returning my mouth to her breast.
Tara smiles softly at your reassurance. She reaches up to gently caress your cheek before nodding.
"Thank you," she whispers. "I feel so safe with you."
As you resume your intimate ministrations, Tara sighs contentedly. She gazes at you with eyes full of care and growing passion.
Tara rocks her hips steadily against your skilled fingers, chasing her peak. The pleasure swirls within her body once more as she nears release.
"I'm getting close again," she moans breathlessly. Tara increases the pace of her strokes along your length, caught up in the intimacy.
Locking eyes with you in trusting abandon, Tara falls over the edge into waves of ecstasy. She holds your gaze as pleasure consumes her, cherishing this moment of vulnerability and care between friends.
Tara smiles softly at your reassurance. She reaches up to gently caress your cheek before nodding.
"Thank you," she whispers. "I feel so safe with you.โ€
As you resume your intimate ministrations, Tara sighs contentedly. She gazes at you with eyes full of care and growing passion.
Tara rocks her hips steadily against your skilled fingers, chasing her peak. The pleasure swirls within her body once more as she nears release.
"I'm getting close again," she moans breathlessly. Tara increases the pace of her strokes along your length, caught up in the intimacy.
Locking eyes with you in trusting abandon, Tara falls over the edge into waves of ecstasy. She holds your gaze as pleasure consumes her, cherishing this moment of vulnerability and care between friends.
As I promised, I continue the motions of my hands and mouth on my friend Tara's increasingly sensitive body, giving myself completely to the task of arousing her to new levels of vaginal comfort.
As you continue to pleasure Tara's sensitive body, she moans softly in ecstasy. She is lost in the waves of arousal building within her, trusting completely in your skilled touch.
Tara's hips buck eagerly against your hand as you circle her clit with increasing pressure. Her breath hitches as pleasure builds once more between her legs.
"That feels amazing," she whispers breathlessly. "I can't believe how good this all feels."
As Tara arches into your touch, you feel a surge of heat and wetness emanating from between her thighs. She is growing increasingly aroused under your care, eager for release.
"Y/n, I'm getting close again," she gasps urgently. "Please don't stop."
"I won't stop, I promise. We're going to get you soaking wet, together." I kiss Tara's neck as I move my mouth's attention to her left breast, treating it with the same care I gave the right one.
Tara moans softly as you kiss and suckle on her sensitive breasts, pleasure coursing through her body. She rocks her hips eagerly against your hand, seeking out the friction she needs to push herself over the edge.
"Y/n, that feels so good," she gasps breathlessly. "I'm getting so close again."
As you continue to circle her clit with skilled pressure, Tara's breathing quickens. Her body is coiled tightly in anticipation of release.
"Don't stop please don't stop," she pleads urgently, fingers digging into your shoulders as pleasure overtakes her once more.
She locks eyes with you in trusting abandon as orgasm wracks through every inch of her trembling frame.
I kiss Tara as I see the climax in her eyes, my tongue exploring her inner cheek as well as her tongue. I feel an overflow of fluid from Tara's vagina pooling in my hand as her hand grasps tightly to my cock through my pants. I don't slow down for a second as her orgasm rolls over her.*
As you kiss Tara deeply, her body shudders in pleasure. She moans softly into your mouth as the orgasm pulses through every inch of her being.
Tara's hips rock against your hand as she continues to ride out the waves of ecstasy coursing through her body. The feel of your fingers on her sensitive folds combined with the pressure from where she is gripping tightly at your cock causes fluid to overflow and pool in your hand.
She clings to you desperately, lost in a sea of sensation. As the climax slowly begins to ebb away, Tara pulls back slightly from the kiss and gazes at you with affection and gratitude shining in her eyes.
"Did any of your hookups take their time to get you this wet before they tried fingering or having sex with you?", I ask, gently caressing the outer folds of Tara's spasming pussy.
Tara shakes her head, still lost in the pleasure. "No," she whispers breathlessly. "None of them took their time like this."
She gazes at you with a mix of affection and desire as your fingers continue to caress her sensitive folds. The intimacy between you is intense and electric.
"You're amazing, y/n," Tara murmurs softly. "I've never felt so good before.
"I don't think you're too tight, I think nobody was getting you wet enough. And we're gonna take our time taking care of that today, buddy." I grin.
Tara grins back at you, feeling comfortable and trusting around you.
"Thank you so much," she murmurs softly. "I can't believe how much better this all feels with someone who cares like you do."
As your fingers continue to explore her sensitive folds, Tara moans low in her throat. Her body is still buzzing with pleasure from the previous orgasms but she's already growing wet again under your care.
"I feel so lucky to have a friend like you," she whispers breathlessly as her hips begin to move against your hand once more.
As Tara continues to rock her hips against your hand, you feel the wetness between her legs growing. She is becoming increasingly aroused under your skilled touch.
"I'm so glad I can help you," you murmur softly, gazing at Tara with affection and care. "I want to make sure you're always taken care of."
As the pleasure builds within her once more, Tara gasps in ecstasy. Her body writhes against yours as she chases release once again.
"Don't stop please don't stop," she pleads breathlessly, fingers digging into your shoulders as orgasm overtakes her for another time.
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OKAYY IMA TRY MY BEST HERE TO EXPLAIN, so like reader and ghost were married but got divorced because of how toxic ghost was being but they never can really stay away from each other because they are both still in love with each other and ghost keeps coming to her house and they always argue and then fuck after, and like the argue part is really just the reader yelling at him and telling him how much she hates him and how much she wants him to get out , AND SOTHING I REALLY LIKE IS WHEN THE READERIS PUSHING HIM AND PUNCHING BUT HE NOT MOVING AT ALL, and after she is panting out of breath and then they fuckkk, I KNOW ITS KINDA CHOPPY AND NOT IN GREAT DETAIL BUT WOULD LOVE TO SEE IT <33333
Hmdjsjs iโ€™m so sorry anon i love this, i really do, but I donโ€™t write full smut ๐Ÿ˜” hereโ€™s a lil drabble for the rest of it though that i hope will be good enough !
The pounding at your door came again, sharp and deliberate, echoing in the silence of your house. You didnโ€™t need to look through the peephole to know who it was. Youโ€™d been expecting him, even though youโ€™d hoped- prayed- that this time he wouldnโ€™t show up. That this time, youโ€™d be free from this constant, horrible cycle.
With a resigned sigh, you yanked the door open; heโ€™d just use the spare he keeps on him and refuses to let go of even now to enter your home. And there he was, Simon Riley. Ghost. Your ex-husband. Standing there like he owned the damn place, his mask half-pulled up so you could see his mouth, that damn infuriating faint smirk tugging at the corners.
โ€œWhat the hell do you want, Simon?โ€ you snapped, your voice sharp enough to cut glass.
He stepped inside without waiting for an invitation, his massive frame brushing against you as he crossed the threshold. It hurt your heart, seeing him look so perfectly fitting within your home. The one you used to share with him before the divorce. โ€œNice tโ€™ see you too, love,โ€ he muttered, shutting the door behind him.
โ€œDonโ€™t call me that,โ€ you hissed, shoving at his chest with both hands. A familiar dance. โ€œI told you to stop coming here!โ€
He didnโ€™t budge. Of course he didnโ€™t. He just stood there, towering over you, calm and unshaken as you pushed and slapped at him, an unshaked pillar. It only made your anger boil hotter, your annoyance burning brighter.
โ€œI hate you!โ€ you spat, hitting him again, your fists pounding against the solid wall of his chest. Damn him, damn his face, and damn his hardened body. โ€œI hate how you just show up like this! Like you have any right to be here! I hate-โ€
โ€œGet it out, sweetheart,โ€ he murmured, his voice maddeningly soft, his hands resting loosely at his sides. โ€œGo on.โ€ Completely at ease, not at all afraid. You hate him so much, and you hate how desperately you miss that level of stability only heโ€™d ever seemed to have even despite all your fights.
That only made you hit harder, your breaths coming in short, furious bursts as you yelled everything youโ€™d been holding in. Every frustration, every bit of heartbreak and resentment that had festered since the divorce. Every drop of fury that rekindles with each visit he does, unable to stay away from you.
But then your blows slowed, your strength faltering as exhaustion crept in. You stood there panting, chest heaving as you glared up at him, tears pricking the corners of your eyes.
โ€œFeel better?โ€ he asked, his voice low, infuriating bastard.
โ€œGet out,โ€ you whispered, though it lacked the venom you wanted it to have. Your shoulders slumped, and you just stared at him in defeat.
But he didnโ€™t move. He just reached up, his hand cupping your jaw, his thumb brushing away a tear that had escaped down your cheek.
โ€œCanโ€™t stay away,โ€ he said simply, rough but achingly sincere. โ€œYou know that.โ€
And damn it, he was right. As much as you wanted to hate him, as much as you wanted him gone, you couldnโ€™t deny the way your body reacted when he was this close.
His lips crashed into yours, fierce and demanding, and before you knew it, you were clawing at him, your anger transforming into something just as fiery but far more primal- led by the wet, dripping ache between your legs.
It was always like this with him. A storm of emotions that left you both battered but somehow unwilling to let go. Toxic, yes. Unhealthy, definitely. But no matter how much you told yourself it had to stop, you both knew it never really would. He would never stay away, and you would never push him away.
โ€œMine,โ€ he mumbles, pulling away just so. A string of spit connected your lips, and you panted for breath in his arms. โ€œFuckinโ€™ mine, youโ€™ll always be.โ€
And the worst part? You just wanted more, more, more.
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