#and it's so frustrating bc imo i shouldnt have to do anything bc they shouldnt be on campus at all but WHAT EVERRR

[aropride]

hi

hello internet strangers want to hear about my personal life as per usual

well as those familiar w my lore know my title ix case (us-specific college thing where, tldr, if u get sexually assaulted u can do a little mini court case thru ur school) is finally fucking over + i won . which is awesome. unfortunately the respondent (title ix word for "person who did the assaulting") got preeeetty much no sanctions at all . like literally nothing changed . the lawyer recommended they be moved to the other dorm hall but they couldnt, so basically they got put on probation and that's it. Lmao. which means my situation is WORSE than before i filed the complaint, bc b4 i filed the complaint they were in the other dorm hall, and then they moved to mine. but i can't do shit about it unless i want to take my school to, like, court.

well anyway the respondent's life changed in no meaningful way Except they moved out of the dorms last month by their own choice. i assumed that meant they were embarassed abt what they did But i guess not. Bc they've been getting really into on campus events and hanging out in the central building that i like to hang out at. and its like. okay. whatever.

but the thing is . theyve been going to a lot of queer-centric events recently . and while im the only person whos filed a complaint or won a case against them. i am not the only victim i know that for a fact and the other victim is also a queer person. So can you see why im worried about someone who managed to sexually assault two queer people within the first week of living on campus like, integrating themself into the community like nothing fucking happened

and theres this school dance coming up in a couple weeks and im worried that will give them an opportunity to like. hurt someone else.

and i want people to KNow what they did because i dont feel safe with them on campus anyway but i especially dont feel safe now theyre talking to people and making friends (especially bc most of their friends r like. friends of friends. like i dont know them but i know of them yk) . i dont know what theyre saying about me (if anything) and i especially dont know if theyve hurt anyone else. and they might have! because they demonstrated a frankly dangerous lack of regard for consent repeatedly Like i think this is a genuinely dangerous person, whether by malice or stupidity or both, and i dont want anyone else to get hurt

BUT THE KICKER IS...! well first of all we're bound by a no-contact order (baby version of a restraining order). you cant be in the same classes and you cant talk to each other (irl, online, or thru a 3rd person) the title ix coordinator has provided jack shit about what a no contact order actually entails btw lol 😒. But if i were to tell someone and they went and told that person, idk if that would be considered 3rd party contact, which would get Me in trouble

i also dont know if it would be considered "breaking confidentiality" if i said their name- again, don't know jack shit, don't have documentation of the actual rules i'm supposed to be following. but i really dont feel like this is a safe situation for this person to be on campus with no one knowing what they did

im also just generally worried about them finding out ive told people and getting mad and going to the coordinator and me getting in trouble when the only reason im even considering this is bc, again, the school didnt do jack shit

and i dont even know How i would tell aynone . like im not rly friends with most of these people . i see them around and some of them i think are cool but theyre not friends or really even aquaintences . so it would be fucking weird .

but i dont know what to do and i dont want anyone else to get hurt . and i know thats not on Me, but. i also dont want to sit back and Know. and not say anytthing

[snekdood]

The biggest scam in leftist spaces is "leftists" selling other leftists fear, fear of everything around them and anyone who disagrees with them- you're not supposed to be so scared of other ppls opinions that you avoid them. You should be confident because you know you're right, you know reality has a leftwing bias, theres no reason you should be scared of rwingers when their whole ideology falls apart the more you ask them questions. Unless theyre physically threatening you, you should stand your ground. Do more research on your beliefs to be more firm in your position. You dont have to have a special intellectual debate or anything but you do need to be able to counter misinformation when it pops up in social situations and not get frustrated and leave. Because whoever sticks behind to hear the dipshit speeing misinfo will sit there and digest what he says w/o much pushback, and since we know how manipulative republicans are, when/if they do pushback the rwinger is just going to try to convince them to his side by appealing to their stances and trying to twist them into how whatever hes saying totally doesnt conflict with what they want. Since you cant trust average ppl to know shit, and even if you feel you can safely where you live, still, nonetheless, you need to counter them and assume everyone surrounding them doesnt know better. You can be scared in these situations, but you need to have courage and you shouldnt back down or retreat. Ik this post is supposed to be how ppl avoid anyone with different opinions but lets be honest. The reason left leaning ppl avoid anyone w even slightly different opinions is bc theyre worried theyre gonna be right wing opinions and have so little faith in themselves, their knowledge of their own beliefs and their ability to defend them that its easier to just run away from anyone who might potentially be sharing rightwing opinions/is rightwing. I also think the reason a lot of leftists online avoid having these conversations is because since they have so little faith in their ability to defend their beliefs, theyre worried theyll be subtley convinced to the rightwingers position. And like we know, theyre incredibly manipulative, so its a fair concern, but thats why you have to educate yourself, you especially in this day and age need to know their dogwhistles so you can point them out, everyone should be keeping up w them imo. Theres websites that has them all listed. Because otherwise if you just hide away and trust random "leftists" online to know everything for you... You're actually still likely to fall into rightwing beliefs. Because you dont know how many of those "leftists" are secretly comservatives try to slowly bring people over to their side, like by overtime eroding their ethics or the value of basic human decency... You need to be educated enough about these topics and honestly be socially and emotionally educated enough to be able to detect when someones manipulating you, rather than assume everyone w a slightly different opinion than yours might or wants to.

[literaphobe]

a lot of mcc'c audience (but not the majority) doesnt agree that the enjoyment of the event comes from watching passionate competitive players do well and win. If I decide to watch someones vod and the first thing they say is "we didnt practice at all LOL" then I dont want to watch because it seems like they dont care about the event. Illumina is an incredible player but I once watched sot from his perspective and holy shit it was so boring mainly because everyone in the team was so quiet, almost no comunication, no strategy nothing no chemistry, like, I'm sure they were having fun and wanted to team but there was zero excitment.

The problem is that the few people who are competitive/practice and strategize, win a lot (dream and sapnap are the best two examples, purpled might be up there soon) but everyone else (and their audiences) cries about it saying "oh the same people win everytime, its boring!!" but like, if your streamer cared and practiced and got better, they would win, simple as that.

So, imo, mcc tries to please the annoying crybabies by adding non-competitive people on the event-> less likely to have cool interesting moments-> less likely to care about mcc gameplay/skill-> even when they win, its boring

Just to clarify, you're allowed to not like competitiveness, Im not very competitive myself, but if, as a player you say "I'm here to have fun and if I win then cool", you have no right to cry about other teams doing well. If I have the skills that sapnap has, I'll be happier winning against fruitberries than winning against grian (GRIAN IS FINE, I'M just saying skillwise he is not an s-tier, and he doesnt have to be). I'd much rather lose to tryhards than win an event where I was the only one who tried.

To me it comes down to passion and genuine interest in minecraft skill, if mcc adds less cracked players, it shouldnt be a championship- it should just be an event.

Also, there are issues with team creation, there sooo many cool ideas and then scott comes up with a random reason as to why some people cannot team and honestly its frustrating, I'd rather you please your audience by giving them a team/duo that they ask for than banning memorising the builds at buildmart, you know? Some rules are kinda dumb.

Tldr, people who claim they play just for fun(and their viewers) show negativity to people who play competitively when those people win, and that is just annoying

honestly. like… the truth is. mcc has become much more competitive. the unfortunate thing is that some people don’t wanna admit it? to the point where there are people who don’t try and then get upset when they don’t win. like. its a different case for players who are put there specifically to nerf and get fucked bc of underpowered teams, tina’s a good example. as much as i wish she wouldn’t sit out mccs on purpose, i completely get where she’s coming from. it feels hella embarrassing to fall so far behind, to feel like a heavy weight dragging your team down. and tina deserves better than that!!

also yeah… i mean to be honest. sapnap doesn’t even practice for mcc, he’s just good. dream is a mix between doesn’t practice vs practices heavily and strategizes actively with teammates. but yeah. team balancing just needs to be fair? op teams are a fun interesting idea and honestly i hope theres an op mcc one day just to see crazy team ups but honestly i think i just miss seeing him play maybe i dont care about anything else idk

[buckybarnesj]

I love your blog! I was wondering if you have any opinions about Bucky’s frustration and anger at Sam for not taking the shield? Basically coming to a head when he leaves Sam and the shield on the ground right after the Walker fight? Is there really a “right” or “wrong” person here? It all seems so complicated to me and idk how to feel about Bucky’s anger. There always seems pressure to pick a side on social media though. Don’t feel like you have to discuss if you don’t want to.

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thank you dear, i’m glad you enjoy it💗🥰

oooh boy yes i do have some thoughts on that. first of all i recommend this amazing post by the incredible @infinitecrime​, she is my first source for anything ‘bucky meta’ or really any marvel meta. she wrote this after ep 3 but it still stands after the series finale.

Sam and Bucky really just did not fully understand where the other was coming from (Sam probably understood Bucky more though imo). in ep 3 when they are on the plane to Riga, Sam admits that maybe he shouldnt have given the shield to a museum but destroyed it. Bucky replies that he’ll take back the shield from Walker and keep it himself rather than having Sam destroy it. 

when they finally get the shield from Walker (which they do together bc they both agree that he cannot keep it) and Bucky drops the shield next to Sam - to me this was a reference to the conversation i mentioned above. Bucky did take the shield from Walker (with the help of Sam of course) BUT he didnt keep it for himself, he chooses to put his trust in Sam to do what he wants with it. destroy it or finally accept it. and the latter is exactly what happens. (but i dont think Bucky thought Sam would destroy it at this point anymore)

so i believe there was no right or wrong person in this situation, both were right in their own way. (but this is really explained better in the post i linked).

also just to mention, if you get frustrated or feel pressured by others on any platforms, dont be afraid to block people, tags, unfollow etc. i know it’s kind of a cliche now but you really have to curate your own social media experience. i’m not saying any criticism on any character or show etc is bad, but if you constantly get negativity that is not ok, as fandom should be a happy place for you🥰

[hazeweald]

harsh new horizons rant

- the soundtrack is the worst in the series (i get this is highly subjective bc well its music, but i have seen a lot of ppl unsatisfied w this ost) & i wish there was some way we could change soundtracks to ones from older games. hell, id even be willing to fork out a few dollars for that. ive been playing since launch day & off the top of my head the only song i remember is the title song, i havent played ww/cf in years & i still remember basically all of the ost

- as an og fan it is frustrating to have to wait for all the same old stuff to get added back, it feels much more beneficial to new players than people who have been longtime fans. for a new player, who has never seen katrina or jack before, they will feel new & unique, for me its just something that should've been there all along, "finally at last they added this" rather than "oh cool this is new" for me. i dont care if this is "just how games are now", "but you would've had to wait longer for a full game", & "at least it isnt like sword & shield", it still sucks, plain and simple

- the villagers in terms of dialogue somehow have less personality than new leaf. we desperately need a QOL & villager update before anything else imo, the relationships & bonds u make are supposed to be a core part of this game but it feels so empty rn

- bc of how watered down the dialogue is, & how little there is to do, it honestly feels like the game was designed to be a decorating game above all else now, like you're *supposed* to share on social media. its kind of sad how the instagram trend of having the prettiest x has infected even animal crossing now, it was definitely there from the new leaf days but the community has definitely gotten worse due to how much of a global phenomenon new horizons has become. not saying this is a fixable issue, its just something suck-y that happened, not like the devs can do anything abt it, this is just how i feel

- it sucks we have had no new animal species & only like 5 something new villagers, i was hoping for something big, more personality types, hell maybe even an overhaul of the personality types so they're more individualistic, but nope. the villagers, the bonds u make, r supposed to be a key part of this game. making friends is like, the opening sequence of the original game ffs but they dont feel at all like friends... if u have a pink island u have cookie, if u have a goth island u have muffy.. villagers r just decoration, there to fit the themes now :( they always were, to some extent, but it feels amplified now that u can design ur whole island

- the lack of furniture & weird clothes from prior games have made the game lose more charm. people laugh at u for using the same furniture but its like, we dont have much to work with if we arent going for a cOtTaGeCoRe island 🤷‍♀️

- i dont like how much it feels like you have to buy the online to get stuff you want, just make it so they're customisable but only with lots of kits or smth. you can call me a cheapskate all u like but i aint paying for a garbage online when it was free in the other games 👀 at the very least qr code reading shouldnt require online, bc it was free in the last game. everyone complains abt pkmn being guilty of this but apparently acnh gets a free pass??? making me pay 20 dollars just to get a lamppost in a different colour is dumb as hell nintendo, smart for u bc u know ppl will give u money, but its still dumb

- replacing npcs with menus may be convenient but it also loses more charm the series has, i was honestly hoping for more backstory dialogue like in wild world for the npcs but nope i guess i just have to wait for them to get added back for their usual functions. "whats that? u wanna hear abt katrina? where shes from? well u cant do that but you can wait for anywhere inbetween the *3 years* we said we'd update the game for just for her to be the exact same as she was in new leaf, enjoy :)"

- the fact that it took fan outrage to get save backups is pathetic, i cant believe nintendo didnt think that a game that ur designed to spend YEARS playing would need backup lol

- turn the waterfall noises down nintendo i beg of you

the game definitely feels the most charmless out of all the animal crossing games bc of all of these combined reasons, not to say the devs didnt work hard on it bc they clearly did... but everything just feels so.. idk, clean? like the dialogue is safe & clean & lacks a lot of weirdness & whimsy the dialogue in the older games could have. the graphics are pretty & clean... most of the furniture & clothes are pretty & clean, generic wooden furniture & plants & plain couches... the music is v clean & pretty... in the older games the ost was not afraid to sound sad, even spooky sometimes at night, but theres none of that in new horizons. it just feels... stripped of personality & uniqueness that made the games so charming to me? end rant anyway lol

[ceebit]

This isnt about you bc i dont know u really well (but i did see this post as an apportunity to get smth off my chest lol) but i find most of caratblr tp be rly annoying and cliquey, all of kpopblr rly, and its super tiring when all i want to do is create and have a good time but anytime i either express my opinion or dislike someone it has to come with some sort of drama

People on here act as if not vibing with a mutual or not being overly nice is a bad thing when it isnt, i shouldnt have to be nice or enjoy everyone or cater to their needs all the time

Also a lot of people on here are honestly so immature for their age its ridiculous, they will do anything to stir something with another creator like why are you bending over backwards for some drama. Whats worse is that people pick clear sides and its awful. You dont know what someone is going through irl so why are you so shit towards someone on tumblr or even in a discord chat its so frustrating

Anyway i hope you are having a good day sorry about the rant 😭

don’t worry abt the rant it’s all good lmao—i’m sorta glad you felt comfortable to share this regardless. but i really am sorry that that’s what you’ve experienced so far…. i mean, i myself just recently joined kpop in general myself, but i haven’t experienced anything like that ?

i think it’s generally the way people present themselves (or in this case, their accounts/what they post) that creates a sort of community. as for ‘cliques’, i do know that most people that i’ve interacted with have been more than welcoming—but people don’t tend to stray from what they find familiar. it’s human nature. but it’s not my place to speak on who wants to interact with who imo.

as far as i’ve seen, the only drama or restlessness in the kpopblr community came from reposters (to which, understandably, people don’t want to have their hard work stolen) or when people tried to explain why they weren’t behind streaming/voting culture. (<- that in and of itself is a whole other situation.) other than that it’s been pretty peaceful…

i do hope your kpopblr experience takes a positive turn though :)

[ssauronn]

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if ur reading this get ready bc its disjointed as fuck

fuckin im so close to just losing my shit entirely today im so fucking frustrated that i can never get it the fuck together for anything at all ever god 

class saved my fuckin life by distracting me with stupid shit and thinking about my beliefs mostly in the sense of a foil

also honestly what the fuck possesses a person to sit the fuck down in a space filled with quiet people and start talking loud as fuck like i get it you can do that but honestly Fucking Should You when there are So Many PEople around you who are probably quiet for a reason and also how do you remain comfortable when doing that????????????????????

also lmao i keep thinking about the performative nature of writing this shit on a fucking blog and how itd be so much easier to just pick up a fucking book and write for myself which i do sometimes anyway but also it doesnt fucking matter where you write it it’ll get found or read sometimes and if not thats fuckin lucky for you but there’s a semi permanence to it anyway. theres just more of a chance for validation i guess if you have many followers

lmao i also hate that i feel im expected to never be fucking angry or inconvenienced about anything and i always self deprecate like oh i know its just something small but holy shit rn im living the phrase the straw that broke the camels back. like im not fucking stupid i know i shouldnt be mad about some shit but some days its fucking difficult. im also not vagueposting about anyone its just an amorphous accumulation of bottled up shit i didnt realize i was bottling up. this isnt supposed to be passive aggressive either i just dont know if theres a person i could just spew to directly because thats weird imo because like of course theres gonna be judgement opinions and reactions and its like nothing i really want opinions about so much as just maybe a vague sense of awareness at maximum 

i just keep fucking up like even the smallest things its been rough for a little while. obviously with some reprieve but mmmmmmmmmmmmm it needs to Stop

tumblrs so much better than twitter bc you dont necessarily need to stop yourself from going off the rails bc of a character limit lmao

thats all i got lmao if this becomes a trend ill probably just make a venty sideblog