#and it's like you're carrying but you're also completely incapable of reading the room

[medicinemane]

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[sleepdeprivedsimp234]

So I made a little fic based off of my new headcanon about NY having heat-intolerance. As in, he doesn't do heat well. Also the reason that he doesn't go outside. So um I'll just leave this here: @literallyjustexistinghere cuz they helped come up with ideas for the fic <3

Also I'm a firm believer in Alaska/New York both as a ship and platonic relationship, but here this is going to be just platonic.

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NY was sitting in the corner of the living room listening to music and reading when he saw a shadow looming over him. He looked up and rolled his eyes. It was Illinois. Of course it was. What did he want now...

"The f*ck do you want, Chicago?" York asked, already done with this conversation.

"Damn, someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning, huh Yorkie?" Illinois said with a teasy smirk. "Also it's Illinois, not Chicago."

"No difference. And don't call me that. Now leave me alone." York snapped before turning back to his music and book. He glared up at Illinois when his book was suddenly snatched from his hands. "What the hell??"

"Do ya ever do anything besides read and listen to your sh*tty music all day?" Illinois teased.

"Well- yea I draw and a few other things like terrorize my siblings. Also don't disrespect Green Day like that." York responded, still glaring at the slightly taller state.

"Yea well I guess I can't really disrespect Green Day... But still. Why don't you go outside or something? Like goddamn you're like a friggin' vampire." said the Prairie State.

"I do go in the sun, thank you very much." sassed the Empire State.

"How?? You never go outside!"

"I sit in the sunlight coming from the window in the library." NY answered, rolling his eyes again.

"So you bathe in the sunlight like a cat? And here you keep saying that ya ain't a cat." Illinois laughed.

NY rolled his eyes once more and tried to reach for his book, but Illinois just held it out of his reach. "Will ya just shut the f*ck up, give me the book, and leave me alone?"

"Why don't you just come outside?" asked the slightly taller state.

"Cuz I can't. I have really bad heat intolerance that makes me incapable of going outside with air-dropping my conscience elsewhere." Answered the Empire State before trying to reach for his book again.

"Pfft- yea- okay. I dont think ya have heat intolerance, you have 'actually-doing-anything' intolerance. Cmon. You're comin' outside, you can have this later." Illinois said before putting York's book down and gently-but-roughly grabbing his York's hand. He managed to drag NY towards the door, but halfway through he had to pick him up and throw him over his shoulders like a sack of potatoes due to how much he was struggling. He carried the struggling Empire State out to the backyard and back towards where there was a forest. After about 8 minutes of walking he lowered the smaller state down and pulled him to his feet. Except he didn't let go of York's hand after and he completely ignored the slightly dazed and dizzy look in his eyes and how much he was sweating and shaking already.

"See? It's not that bad." He said, before letting go of York's hand and walking a little further into the forest. He thought York was following him til he heard York say in a small voice:

"I-Il (pronounced "El")... I don't f-feel good."

"Quick bein' dramatic. I'm sure yer- oh sh*t!" Illinois turned around just in time to see the slightly smaller state collapse with a small thud. He rushed over to York's side and shook his shoulder a bit, and he started to panic when he got no response. He went to go check for NY's pulse around his neck, but instantly pulled away when he felt the heat radiating off of his skin, which was not normal, seeing as York naturally ran cold almost like a snake. "Holy sh*t you're burning up... What did I do..." Mumbled the Prairie State as he took off the smaller's jacket.

'Has he always been this thin...?' Illinois started to think to himself. 'Nevermind that's not the point.... Uh where's my phone.... F*ck I left it in the house.' Illinois's mind raced on and on as he tried to find out what he could do. He looked around and nearly sighed in relief when he saw someone walking into the forest. He looked a little closer and noticed that it was Florida. Why him...? Whatever, it'll have to do.

"Florida!! C'mere a sec!!" Illinois shouted, gaining the attention of the Sunshine State, who sauntered over with a teasing smirk.

"Hey Chicago~ How can I be of ser- Holy hell what happened to New York??" Florida asked, teasing attitude set aside for a rather concerned one.

"I-I dont know!!! He just passed out randomly! Just- go get one of the OG13, preferably Mass!!!" Illinois answered quickly.

Florida nodded and started running back to the statehouse. Illinois looked back to the unconscious state in front of him. Maybe York wasn't lying??

About five minutes later, he heard footsteps running towards them and looked up to see Maryland, Massachusetts, Pennsylvania, and surprisingly Alaska running towards them.

"The f*ck happened ere'??" Penn shouted, kneeling down next to York. He pulled the Empire State into his lap and checked for a pulse, completely ignoring the heat. "Well he's alive at least. What the hell happened?"

"I-" Illinois started to try to answer but suddenly out of nowhere somebody came and gripped him by the throat and threw him against a nearby tree and punched him in the gut. Once he recovered from that blow, he looked down to see Mass glaring at him with a dangerous look in his eyes.

"What the actual f*ck did you do to my little brother?!" shouted the Bay State, his voice sounding a lot like there was two people speaking.

"I-i-i don't know- I just wanted to get him outside for once instead of him being lazy and sitting inside with a book all day!! Like goddangit your a doctor, even you would agree that he needs to be outside more!" That earned him another punch, this time to his nose, which was most certainly broken now. "Jesus can ya stop punchin' me already?!" Another punch to the gut. Ouch.

"He can't go outside, Illinois!!! He has really bad heat intolerance, didn't he tell ya?!" Maryland said, his voice full of worry for the younger.

"I mean yeah,- but I thought he was just makin' sh*t up! I didn't think it would actually hurt im'!!" Answered the Prairie State. He felt someone slap him across the face. Again, ouch.

"Aight Mass you can take it easy on him Jesus Christ!" Alaska said as he picked up NY and held him close to him so he could cool off, seeing as Alaska was naturally freezing cold.

Mass turned back to Illinois and made a noise that sounded a lot like a lion's growl. "Fine... Ya got lucky." Mass said before releasing the taller state and throwing him to the ground. He turned around and walked away with Alaska, who was holding NY in his arms, and Maryland who worriedly walked beside them.

Penn walked over to Illinois, pulled him up onto his feet and dusted him off. "Cmon kid. Suppose someone's gotta patch you up."

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(in the statehouse)

Massachusetts, Maryland, and Alaska were all relaxing in the garage and waiting for the Empire State to wake up. Alaska had the smaller state in his lap and held him close to help speed up the cooling-off process. After a few more minutes, Alaska felt York stir a bit in his arms.

"W-what the hell happened..." York mumbled, his voice a bit more quiet and raspy than usual due to lack of use.

"Illinois dragged ya out into the heat and ya passed out accordin' to him. He got lucky, cuz Laska' stopped me before I could beat the crap outta im'." Mass said, reaching over to the side of his brother's face and using the back of his hand to check his temperature.

"Yea well you still broke the guy's nose." Alaska snorted.

"And I would do it again in a heartbeat." Mass said proudly with a wild smile on his face. He sent a playful glare York's way when the younger laughed a bit. "What're you laughin' at huh?"

"You claiming that youre not overprotective of me but then giving us reasons to believe that you are." York said, laughing again.

"Oh haha. Shut yer lil' mouth before I give you a reason to laugh." Mass teased, reaching over and playfully squeezing NY's side, making the smaller shriek slightly and push his hand away.

"Okahahahay okay-" said the younger.

"Good." said the older before ruffling York's hair.

Alaska and Maryland exchanged looks that said "Hehe. Free blackmail.", before turning back to the two siblings.

[dkcrimeape]

15 questions for 15 mutuals from the lovely @bich-the-moss thank you for the tag, i love these things <3

1. Are you named after anyone?

if you're talking about my legal name, then i'm somehow named after my dad whose name is jason. my legal name is not jason nor any possible variant of jason. idk man

i have to two first chosen names because i wanted my initials to be DK because i love apes :) daniel is just because i liked the name and korvid came to me in a dream in which i was working with gerard way on a comic book adaptation of Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge. we decided demolition man's name should be korvid so i woke up and stole it like a complete dweeb

2. When was the last time you cried?

last groundhog day i saw a really sad edit of punxsutawney phil and lucy dacus' Night Shift. it was about how he's famous but can never go back to the wild and see his friends and it fucking broke me

3. Do you have kids?

no im 19 and not up to the task of child rearing

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

no not really

5. What sports do you play/have played?

i was in an after school bowling program because it was easier for my dad to pick us up from the alley on mondays. i was also very good at dodging in dodgeball but incapable of catching

6. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

in person, usually how the carry themselves. like open and outgoing or more reserved. online through text, it's usually which words they use and if they capitalize or use punctuation. i like how everyone has their own sort of texting dialect

7. What’s your eye color?

dark brown, almost black

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

scary movies! i love a bleak ending but won't turn my nose up to a happy one. i like legally blonde just as much as halloween

9. Any special talents?

i hate cooking but im pretty good at it. i'm very self conscious about my writing but everyone ive shown it too, including professors, give me really positive feedback so i suppose i can count that.

i also excel academically despite refusing to study or complete readings. basically, i'm lucky.

10. Where were you born?

tampa, florida 👎🏻

11. What are your hobbies?

writing, guitar, cooking, researching nuclear physics and disasters, complaining

12. Do you have any pets?

yes i have a sweet little yorkie named ozzy, his 5lbs and 5 years old. i have a whole blog about his @ozwithablog

13. How tall are you?

5'1" or 155 cm 😐

14. Favorite subject in school?

depending on the teacher, science or history

15. Dream job?

film writer and director. i mainly want to do horror and tragedies genres but i really want to experiment with different styles and media. i loved mixed media like Who Framed Roger Rabbit and stop motion but the practical effects of live action offer just as much room for creativity

Tag: @palestrawberryarcade @fishpawws @biohazrd @b-is-for-bones shall be my targets for today >:)

[lem-20]

Crashing down

Summary: A rewrite of Bk 1 Ch 13 on-call room chat with Bryce. Casey discusses what's got her stressing out and also her relationship with Ethan.

Pairing: Ethan x MC (Casey Valentine). Ethan doesn't appear in this fic, but the relationship is discussed with Bryce.

Warning: Mild sexual reference

Word Count: 950

A/N: I am currently rewriting and adding scenes from book one. I thought I would add this one in as I thought it was a nice opportunity to discuss the relationship with Ethan with another character. I have also been exploring what may happen if 2 of the LI's were aware of MC's relationship with the other. In my version of events Casey slept with Bryce after she kissed Ethan in Miami. Things happened to make each aware that something was going on with the other. (Read my previous 2 fics here and here)

Disclaimer: Characters and some dialogue owned by pixelberry.

Casey sat on a cot in one of the on-call rooms. Bryce sat alongside her, his arm draped around her shoulders. She had bumped into him a few moments before, as she walked frantically through the corridor, her thoughts threatening to overwhelm her.

"I can't stop thinking about...about everything. Poor Mrs Martinez and the investigation into her death...wondering if I'll still have a career at the end of the week...wondering if I even deserve one. Dr Banerji's diagnosis. Dr Ramsey quitting the hospital, being sabotaged at every turn...and now this sweet, sick kid I can't diagnose. I feel like everything is crashing down around me." She placed her head in her hands and let out a long sigh.

She had hoped that saying everything out loud would make her feel a little better. But hearing herself list everything just made her wonder how she had held it together for as long as she had.

"Why didn't you say anything?" He asked, concern etched across his features.

"Because good doctors can handle whatever's thrown at them. And I really want to be a good doctor."

"You're already a good doctor. Hell, you're the best medical intern in the hospital."

"Don't think I didn't notice you qualified that to just the medical interns."

"To be honest, you are better than most of the surgical interns too."

She leaned her head on Bryce's shoulder.

"I don't know if I can keep doing this. It's all too much. If Ethan Ramsey quit, what chance do I have?"

"Hey, you can do this." He squeezed her shoulder, encouraging her to look at him. His eyes were intense and earnest.

"It's wild to me that you don't realise how great you are." He gazed into her eyes and rubbed her cheek. "Casey, how can I make you feel better?"

The way he looked at her told her that she could ask pretty much anything of him in that moment. Yes, he was promiscuous, but he was also a kind and caring guy. He had a way of making her feel completely at ease around him. She knew from their previous encounters that he could leave her feeling physically satisfied at the very least. But, then she though of Ethan. Her feelings for him seemed to be getting stronger by the day. As much as their predicament left her frustrated, she felt that she was now beyond the point where she could engage in anything casual with someone else. Ethan was who she wanted and until she knew for certain there was no future for them, she was prepared to wait. She was sure of that now.

She pulled Bryce in for a tight hug. "I'm sorry, it was a moment of weakness."

He rubbed her back gently. "Hey, your moments of weakness are a hell of a lot tougher than most folks at their best. So keep your chin up okay."

She smiled as she enjoyed their embrace for a few more moments.

"Can I be honest with you? I've known you a while now. And I know you can handle pressure. I don't think that's what's got you so mixed up." He said as he leaned back to look at her.

"Then what has?"

"This isn't something new, its the same thing you've carried with you all along. Your doubt. I know people think I'm an arrogant jerk. But, I just know how to own my talent. You've never done that, you always justify why you're here. I think you don't feel like you're cut out for this. And you're so wrong." He smiled at her warmly.

"Thank you Bryce." She said, smiling back at him.

"Can I ask you something before we get back to work?"

"Sure." She replied

"Is something going on between you and Dr. Ramsey?" He eyed her cautiously, unsure if he was crossing a line.

Although she definitely didn't want whatever was going on between them to be public knowledge, she had always found it hard to lie if someone asked her a question directly.

She decided to tell him the truth.

"Umm...well, not really. I mean, we've kissed a couple of times. But we're not together or anything."

Even though it was he who brought up the subject, he still looked a little shocked by the revelation.

"Wow. I kinda pictured Ramsey as some sort of syborg who was incapable of human emotions and relationships." He chuckled.

She couldn't help but giggle. "Bryce! Honestly, you'd be surprised. He can be really...different sometimes." Her mood soon returned to being more serious.

"You've really got feelings for him haven't you?"

She nodded.

"And does he feel the same way?" He asked with intrigue.

"I think so, I don't really know. It's complicated." She laughed as she realised she had uttered the words she disliked hearing Ethan say.

"I don't know what's so funny, but it's nice to see you laughing." He looked sincerely happy to see her smiling.

"Do you think I'm stupid even thinking of getting involved with an attending?"

"Casey, the heart wants, what the heart wants. I don't think much can stand in the way if two people really want to be together. I just don't want to see you getting hurt though. Honestly, he'd be lucky to have you."

"You always manage to cheer me up Bryce. I hope you know how much a appreciate having a friend like you."

"Yeah, I am pretty great." He smirked.

She laughed at him. Although some people thought he was arrogant, she had nothing but affection for Bryce Lahela.

"You ready to face the world again?" He asked.

"Yeah, thanks to you." She replied, smiling at him. "Let's go."

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