#and it’s kinda funny because i’m a very tall and curvy black girl

[aladyofthecanyon]

i don’t have my name here and i have absolutely no reason for it but hey guys i’m amanda ❤️

[thegracelessfaceless]

Rival matchup time:

"So, I’m Elsie, she/her/hers, and bi (but I lean heavily towards men rn). I’m a Virgo sun, Scorpio rising and Aquarius moon. I’m also an introvert, but I love being around other people! I just get,,,,, tired easily.

I’m East Asian + Southeast Asian (Chinese and Vietnamese). I’m barely 5’0 tall! Long, black hair that reached my upper thighs and dark brown eyes that you can’t even see the pupil lmfao. I always have painted nails, usually red. I’m pretty athletic and I also like to think I have nice thighs—most of my workouts include building up my legs lol. I wear big gold hoop earrings. I also wear round Harry Potter glasses. My body isn’t very curvy, in fact I’m pretty flat but I am COVERED in stretch marks. I also have acne flare ups from time to time but it’s usually nothing noticeable anymore.

I’d like to think I’m a pretty chill person, likes to go with the flow and stuff like that. My friends say I’m often their therapist or their mom, which is kinda funny because that’s what I’m in uni for, to be a therapist. I’m a pretty determined and motivated person? I like to push myself pretty hard ngl but I also like to just hang out and take it slow. I also like to do stupid things like exploring abandoned buildings at 2am. I’m also big into intersectional feminism. I’ve also been told I’m really approachable and friendly, but bro I am so shy and quiet in public unless I get to know you.

I can get pretty stubborn tbh, it depends once again on what the topic is but once I’ve set my mind to it, that’s how it’s going to be. I also have low self esteem and my depression sometimes makes it hard for me to even get out of bed at times. I usually don’t know when to stop giving myself to other people, which means I get pretty exhausted and fast. I’m also prone to overthinking which stresses me out. And when I’m stressed, I can honestly get a little bitey.

I apologize to inanimate objects if I’ve bumped into them, and I also have a tendency to talk to myself? I also am a witch! I’m currently elbows deep in some deity work and ngl my energy is all over the place. I also have a weird habit of waving to security cameras I see in public because I like to think the people watching those cameras get a kick out of it lol.

I really like coffee, tea, singing with my ukulele, playing piano, drawing and art in general. I haven’t been able to draw as much as I’d like recently but I do have some animatics in my head. I also really like Victoria’s Secret perfumes, specifically strawberry pound cake—it’s what I always smell like lol. Crystals are super fun imo. I live next to a huge lake and it’s honestly one of my favorite places to be. Ocean animals are my favorite! I also really like car rides with like, one other person and just exploring the world and talking. The music I listen to is a lot of classic rap, lofi-hip hop, modern rap, some pop artists and Ella Fitzgerald, Gloria Gaynor, HaroinFather, KYLE, and ofc Hollywood Undead.

I cannot stand centipedes those things horrify me. I also don’t like rude people, bigots, people who purposely start drama or hypocrites. People who put other people down aren’t cool either. I don’t really like parties or being around lots of people, they make me anxious and kinda suffocated. People who try to force me to do stuff aren’t cool in my books either. I also think red meat is kinda gross, but that’s just because it makes me exhausted."

Your rival is:

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So I've done a ton of reflecting and have finally arrived at this rivalry.

I feel like you would end up defending yourself after Nina attacks you while you're trying to talk some sense into her about her obsession with Jeff.

I mean, really. This girl carved herself up to look more like him.

She even uses a version of his catchphrase, ffs!

While its fun to write about, Nina's level of obsession with Jeff is pretty harmful to not only others, but herself.

So you try to do what you would do with any rational adult. You take her out to lunch and try to talk with her about it.

You take her to a local pizza buffet and the two of you talk over every kind of pizza toy could imagine.

It was all great... Right up until it wasn't anymore.

You'd overlooked a major flaw in your master plan. You treated Nina like a normal, rational, adult. Nina was none of the above.

Sure, she may be an adult physically.

But it's like her obsession had stunted her emotional growth.

So, naturally, Nina thinks you're trying to talk her into forgetting about Jeff so you could have him all to yourself 🙄

She grabs you by the back of the shirt and pulls you through the restaurant and out into the parking lot.

"Nina, are we really doing this?" you ask her. She sneers at you and lets go of your shirt with a shove.

"You thought I was that dumb, didn't you?" Nina began slowly pacing back and forth, within the confines of the lines of the parking space.

You'd seen a panther at the zoo pace like that at the front of his habitat. He walked back and forth in front of his home, but his eyes, fierce and cunning, stayed on the people gathered to look at him. He didn't look at them as if they were a threat. He looked at them like prospective meals. Dinner. Midnight snack. Breakfast. Supper. Dinner again. Nina looked at you like that now.

"You thought you could just take me out, tell me I'm crazy and obsessed with the love of my life, and what? That I'd just back off? Say, 'You're right, Elsie, what was I thinking?!' and we'd laugh and go to your house and watch chick flicks and laugh into the wee hours of the morning?"

Nina huffed and rolled her eyes, "Spare me, bitch." Nina started closing in, flicking her knife open. It had little charms hanging from it like a heart, a grumpy storm cloud, an excited yam, and a beaming milkshake cup. They were the cutest, most impractical thing you'd ever seen.

You weren't surprised when Nina rushed you and you stepped to the side at the last moment, catching the wrist of her knife hand in your hand and shoving the heel of you hand into the back of her hand painfully, forcing her to drop the knife.

It fell to the pavement with a clatter and you used your foot to kick it away from the two of you.

Nina looks shocked and sad as she watches it spin away from her, and then it disappeared under a parked car.

Enraged by the loss of her knife, Nina rushed you again and screams in your face.

She grabbed your arm tightly and watched as you looked at your arm where her hand gripped. Something about your expression made her let go. But...

"I won't let you have him" she snarled and she lunged again, this time knocking you off your feet. Nina rode your body to the ground, sitting on your chest and upper stomach to pin you.

"I don't want him, Nina" you spat at her, the first stirrings of anger coiling up inside of you, "What will make you see?"

"Leave us alone" she said and as she reached down and fisted a handful of your hair and used it to knock your head into the ground a couple of times, "Leave us alone so I can show my sweet prince how happy we could be."

"What do you mean 'we'?" you ask Nina, "the only reason Jeff knows you exist is because everyone started warning him about this crazy fan girl. If we're truthful, he's stated that you kind of scare him."

"You expect me to believe that he's afraid? Afraid of anything? Especially afraid of a girl much smaller than him who would give him anything he asked for. Anything.'

She punctuated that last word with another attempt to thump your skull into the ground, but you tightened your muscles and wouldn't allow the movement.

Nina let go to slap you and you threw your body upwards, throwing Nina off of you, and you sat up and crawled over to pin Nina down.

"Just give up," you hiss at her, "I don't want him, I swear it. But don't lie to yourself anymore. Jeff will never love you, not the way you want him to. He may fear you, Nina, but he'll never love you."

You watched as a myriad of emotions cross over her face. Rage. Uncertainty. Denial. Stubbornness. Pleading. Her face collapsed into despair, which slowly faded to reluctant acceptance.

You move back slightly to let Nina up, rubbing the back of your head where it was starting to ache. When she doesn't make any aggressive movements, you let her up completely, offering her a hand to help her to her feet.

"So... You're gonna be alright?"

Nina shrugged slightly, looking drained and disenchanted, her arms crossing under her breasts to hold her.

"I'm sorry it had to be like this, Nina.."

"Go."

"I understand you probably hate me right now. You're hurt, but maybe in time we could make a friends-"

"Get out of my sight. Now" Nina growled, "I'll hurt you the next time I see you. Now go."

You turn away from Nina and start walking away. You get at least 500 feet away from her and stop, looking at her over your shoulder.

She looked so small, now, uncertain, folded in on herself as she hugged herself tightly, staring at nothing in particular in the middle distance between us.

"Nina" you call, "It's fine to hate me right now. But when you're not so raw about it, maybe we could hang out. Watch chick flicks, do each others nails and eat ice cream?"

The corner of Nina's mouth pulled up in a wry smile, "I'll think about it when I don't want to kill you."

You smile, "It's a start. Take care of yourself, Nina.

Ahh I hope you like it! I really tried to branch out from typical answers, too. I like to think that a rivalry with you wouldn't be like a lasting thing. You'd just do what you could to a) get them to listen, and b) keep yourself as safe as possible, and set them straight with no hard feelings afterwards.

[spxllcxstxr]

🚢 — hi love, i was wondering if i could get ship for hp in the marauders era? i’m terribly sorry if these are closed, feel free to ignore this!!

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my pronouns are she/her or she/they... i’m still debating which set i like better haha and i would like a male ship pretty please <3

i am a ravenclaw, with some slytherin & hufflepuff traits here and there :) and i am an ambivert!

i am, much to my dismay, only 5’ 1.5” (to all my tall peeps out there... saying that i’m jealous of you would be an understatement.) i am quite curvy (and omg kinda insecure abt that ✌️) i have long, silky, and straight black hair that reaches the base of my back, and i love eyeliner so so much like i’m not even joking (on good days at least)

people often tell me that at first glance i seem bubbly, happy, and kinda quiet or shy hehe, and my friends have said that once you get to know me i am genuine, creative, funny, empathetic, a good listener, charming, painfully stubborn, righteous, and little loud, and very very dramatic jhjfk

i am pretty shy in new environments but with my friends i am loud asf, like seriously i need to shut up 😐 i am very very loyal and i value any bit of trust someone has in me.

my love language is definitely physical touch. i am one of those affectionate yet somehow touch-starved people haha! i find that sometimes words (or saying them atleast) can be a little bit hard and awkward for me, so i like to project my feelings and love for people through physical contact and all the affection they could ever dream of <3 and omg that thing where someone leans into your touch? marvelous. absolutley marvelous.

i like it when people play with my hair or touch me in some way, although if they’re a stranger then i will pull out my ninja moves and roundhouse kick them if they touch me 🤺 i also really like to play with other peoples hair!! (my love for long-ish hair is showing hnng-)

i could ramble about the sky, the stars, and just astronomy in general for days and never get tired of it, bc wow have you ever seen the night sky? i get so excited when i recognize a star or a constellation or a planet and agh i just love astronomy!! star gazing is one of my most favorite things to do <3 (and i have a these necklaces that i love so so much okay, one has the constellation of my zodiac, and the other has my fave constellation!!!)

i am a very very sassy, sarcastic, and witty person! i live for playful banter and teasing, i guess you could say that’s my way of flirting after me and the person i’m interested in have a friendship aha! i have comebacks for days and will not hesitate to roast someone into oblivion (although if it’s that harsh then i’ll immediately apologize bc i pinky promise i'm not mean okay)

i love to draw! i have a sketchbook and it’s strictly for my eyes only, UNLESS i deem someone special enough to view my sacred scribbles <33 i love to sketch people and things, and this might sound creepy but i have this urge to draw the people i’m close to sometimes (i did this a few times and omg i felt so embarrassed so i hid the drawings rip)

singing and music is also a big interest of mine! i’m not the best with instruments (i took viola for a while and i can still play but im no prodigy) but i am pretty good with my voice. people have told me that i have an ~aesthetic~ singing voice and that i have good vocal range hehe! sometimes i randomly break out into song around people i’m close to and they always either laugh or scoff and call me a ‘drama queen’ (i live for theatrics if you can’t tell, anyone who can match my dramatic flare is just yes <33)

oh and i am always down to do dangerous, stupid, and fun shit with my friends AHA 😙‼️i like to focus on the positive side of things, but i do have my icky days where i feel super insecure, sad, and useless ahaha 🥲✌️ my friends always make me feel better tho <3

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whoops omg this was so long, i am SO SORRY

(pls accept my apology bc i feel kinda bad now 🥲)

congratulations on 500!! you deserve each and every follower you have and i am just so so happy for you!

mwah mwah tysm and make sure you’re drinking water and taking care of yourself, love!! 💞💞

Ahhh thank you so so much!! ❤️❤️ don’t worry, these aren’t closed until the 26th I just haven’t been linking to it because I’m lazy 😳 anywayyyyy ship under the cut! ❤️

I ship you with: James Potter!

The ravenclaw tower is cool and all, but you totally going to be hanging out in the Gryffindor common room a lot

James will sneak into your common room though

I promise

You’re short. Just thought I should say that lmao

James thinks it’s so cute though

I’m going to say that James is going to give you piggyback rides throughout the castle

Like even to class

Loves that he has to reach things for you

“C’mon short stuff!”

“Don’t call me short stuff, James!”

“Then stop being short!”

James absolutely loves your body

Like is in love with it

And he will shower you in love all the time

And of you ever get insecure he is right by your side

No matter what

He loves you so much

HE LOVES YOUR HAIR

James will want to brush it and braid it and do weird shit with it

Please put eyeliner on James

He’d look so hot

Janes is a bubbly guy

So I just feel like your personalities match so well

Like you guys are the couple that is always laughing at something

Or making faces at each other from across the room

James doesn’t want you to shut up ever

Because he never shuts up

He loves your voice

Even if you’re just reading some boring book out loud

Falls in love with you every day

JAMES LOVES TOUCH

I swear he will always be touching you

Hand holding

Leaning on you

Anything

Always always touching

Does that thing where he kisses the back of your hand

Like I mentioned before

James loves hearing you talk

So please ramble about space

All the time

Takes you to stargaze

All the time

(You’re going to do his astronomy homework too)

Playful banter is a must

James is cocky and playful and just

Overall sarcastic and sassy

So you guys are going to have loads of fun

Loses his shit when you roast someone

Claps for no reason

“That’s my girl!”

YOU DRAW??? That’s so cool

James always wan s to see what you’re drawing

But respects your boundaries and your privacy

Will hang your drawings up in his room if you give anything to him

Loves them so much

Singing!!!!!

You guys will sing a lot

He will request the Beatles a lot

But like you can just burst out into song randomly and he goes wild

He’s your number one fan don’t worry

You are definitely part of the Marauders

So

Dangerous and crazy shit is a must

James will always be a shoulder for you to cry on

and like

He just loves you so much

Nd always wants to be around you

He hates seeing you insecure or doubt yourself

“You’re my girl. And I love my girl.”

I hope you like your ship! And drink some water!! ❤️

[daily-dose-of-imagines]

(っ◔◡◔)っ 𝕄𝕒𝕥𝕔𝕙 𝕌𝕡♡

hii,, hope you two are doing well uwu. ok so far, ive only been requesting stuff n i figured might as well just ask for a matchup too lol,,,for knb, haikyuu, free, and fire force (i know ur rules said only 3 so it can be any three from those 4 lol) 

my name’s lily and uh basic stuff..i’m a female high school student around 156cm maybe 157 on a good day;3 im bi but with more of a preference for guys (who are tall, like as long as ur a tall guy/girl whatever, i will prolly automatically start simping akdhfj) 

i have long black hair that’s usually straight but on a slightly wavy side. my skin’s like a light-ish brown and my eyes are chocolate brown,, or so i’m told. i’m on the more busty side and would say i’m fairly curvy(?) but my grandma keeps saying i’m skinny and need to eat more:))speaking of eating, its like absolutely one of my favorite things ever lolol (so yeah kinda contradictory lol)

according to a test i did i’m ESTP-A altho i don’t rlly know much about personality types so i can’t say for sure if that’s accurate. even tho i’m usually extroverted i can be pretty introverted a times to so(?) ambivert(?) i guess. pisces (but i wouldn’t say i’m a perfect example of a pisces) im somewhat emotional and yeah kinda artistic i guess, just not in drawing lol. i can do other stuff well just not drawing akjdj,,,school-wise i do pretty well despite being lazy and procrastinating a lot (i guess you could say i’m the aomine of academics🤪) oh yeah im also on the school volleyball team and a few other “academic” clubs (MUN, etc.) i can also play the piano altho i don’t rlly play classics,,mainly anime songs akjdjd. yes, i’m a major weeb. my room’s full of posters and manga and my wallet’s full of emptiness;-;

ok some more random things about me…i’m apparently rlly impulsive, i am a pretty confident person but like i still panic a lot before competitions or anything like that ajhdjd also when i panic, i ramble…a lot. actually i think i ramble a lot on a daily basis regardless of whether or not i’m panicking oop— uh back to the confidence thing, if it’s in terms of a crush or someone i like, i don’t hesitate to confess or anything like that unless the situation is kinda complicated and it’d be hard to be together or like i’m not 100% sure of my feelings stuff like that,, basically i don’t rlly have much of a fear of rejection(?) but maybe that more cuz i haven’t rlly liked liked anyone THAT much yet. oh ohh i lovee baking esp. cookies altho i get lazy a lot so i haven’t been baking as much. ah yes another thing about me my brother will never stop teasing me about…my fear of fish:) they creep me out ok. i love snakes and crocs tho so uh ?? idk i’m weird like that lolol. oh yeah i have a little brother and sister so a lot of people see me as the “responsible older sister”. is that true? i’d say yes, my bro n sis would say no🤡. one last thing, i love elephants more than anything in this world🥺🥺💗

oof ok that was pretty long— sorryyy and thank you for taking time to read through all this akhdjf 

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Hello @pinkcowgirleggpanda~! Thank you for your request~! I’ll be handling the KnB portion of your match-up~! ^^

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And I’ll be doing the other two! Thank you for choosing us and I am so sorry this took so long to get out ;;!

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𝕀 𝕊𝕙𝕚𝕡 𝕐𝕆𝕌 ��𝕚𝕥𝕙…

ᴛᴇᴘᴘᴇɪ ᴋɪʏᴏꜱʜɪ

Precious iron heart~! Despite his persona on the court, he’s actually a very sweet, protective, and kind spirit~! He is definitely your stable and solid rock in any situation / scenario you might find yourself in~! In terms of being emotional, he’s rather in touch with his emotions and will definitely be able to help ground you or at least bring you back to sensible ground if your emotions get the better of you and make you more stressed out than need be.

Other then that, he’s super curious and interested about your hobbies~! He likes to support you and honestly will keep you in line if you happen to stray too far from what needs to be done. He won’t really lecture you, but he’ll remind you that to get out of the hell that’s called school you gotta at least finish with passing. He wants to see you succeed and will feel bad if you happen to fall into a slump or a mood where you end up upset at yourself. 

He will definitely be out to support you at any an all of your games~! He’ll always be in the stands with the other Seirin members to support~! (Really he drags them against their will, but they end up coming on their own to support you after seeing how cool it was)

Teppei will definitely be a big help on your impulsive moments. He loves and worries over you and will definitely evaluate a situation quick enough so he can decide whether or not what you’re doing is good or not. He thinks it’s absolutely adorable when you ramble and before games he’ll be the one to gently cup your face before pressing a sweet kiss to your forehead for luck in hopes of calming you down. He knows you’re gonna kick ass anyway. 

In terms of PDA, he’s not super handsy, but he does love to let others know that you’re definitely taken. He’ll hand you one of his shirts on a whim if you are in need of one. He let’s you borrow his jackets and hoodies. He’ll always have an arm around you too~! 

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𝘚𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘶𝘬𝘦 𝘠𝘢𝘮𝘢𝘻𝘢𝘬𝘪

This cool and somewhat overprotective man is definitely someone who would be perfect for you! This man will be able to keep you grounded, and be able to makes sure that you get things done, and not procrastinate your work! One thing that he will really like about you is that fact that you can be super open and inviting with everyone you meet, but then be amazed at how when you are by yourself you are quiet and just overall a soft. The contrast will be intriguing to him!

You say that you are impulsive, and he can help you  with that no problem! Help you stay out of your head and keep you in a calm state of mind, so you don’t do anything impulsive and start panicking about something! He understand the feel of anxiety so he will do anything he can to make sure you don’t always feel that when you are around him!

He’ll take into account that you eat a lot, and will use it to his advantage so that whenever you guys are on a date, he will literally buy you food the whole and loves watching you eat until your heart’s content. He loves seeing your face when you enioy the food that you eat. It’s one of the reasons why he started liking you, because of how open you are with things that you like and enjoy.

He will think it is absolutely hilarious that you have a fear of fish, like I mean he won’t outright say it, but in his mind he will think it is funny, but adorable. Another thing that made him like you, only because it was so charming to him.

Physical features and PDA: He won’t necessarily care for PDA, as in if you were to want to engage in pda he will, but he won’t ever actively want to do excessive pda if that makes sense lolol. He won’t care if you are skinny, but it will be easier for when he wasn’t to pick you up and throw you in a fun way! And with your hair I feel like he will love just to put his hands through absently whenever you guys cuddle!

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ᴛᴏʙɪᴏ ᴋᴀɢᴇʏᴀᴍᴀ

One word, chaotic. But in a good way! See you and Kageyama would like two puzzle pieces, and the reason being is because he is emotionally stupid, that you can definitely help him with that! I mean, seriously, he needs some help. Help him. Anyways, you and Kageyama will have a blast with each other; he will be the type of person where your mental battery doesn’t get drained because he is just a quiet as you can be and just as soft. The cuddles would be endless and amazing because of this.

He will like how confident you are, from confessing to someone to being confident in competitions and such. And if he were to see you that you are panicking, he will do his best to calm you down. Key phrase here is do his best. He might not be that good at it, but you love the spirit. He is more of an introvert so him trying to make you feel better is gonna take a toll on him, but he will do it to make you feel better! Because he loves you!

This boi will love that you eat so much. He will have literal eating contest with you and then pass out when you win and he ate too much food. He’ll like how you aren’t afraid to show your “boyish” for lack of a better word. He’ll also love that you play volleyball and will want to play with you all the time. I mean it. All the time. Literally will push a volleyball in your face until you say yes to him, and then he’ll stop when he is satisfied.

Kageyama, when he finds out that you bake will definitely want to eat some of your baking! You’ll mention it in a passing way, and he’ll stop you in your conversation and immediately want you to bake for him, which you obviously can’t, but you think it’s either way and tell him you will the next day! Next day comes around and he scarfs down the cookies like he depends on it, and when done will give you kiss as thanks. It’s kind of gross though because his mouth is still full lololol.

Physical features and pda; Like Sousuke, he isn’t one to actively look for pda, but if you were to hold his hand or cuddle with him in public, he will unconciously respond to you, he will really not think about and it’s the most adorable thing ever! He will just lean into and play with your curly hair and not really think anything of it. He will get laughed at by his friends, and he will be embarrassed but he won’t stop once he gets started! You are also just very huggable to him!

[grilledkatniss]

IDK if you care but..

So the new Taylor Swift documentary is out on Netflix. I just watched it and I have some very personal thoughts on some subjects. Okay, one in particular. If you’d care to read on just know this is not a subjective review or anything, it’s just some thoughts I’ve not yet finished processing on a subject that hits too close to home.

I’ve always been skinny. Very. 

The kids in my class would call me anorexic and malnourished. I was the sick looking kid with an apparent eating disorder all through middle school. Why did middle school kids think that was funny? I don’t know man, 10 year-olds are stupid as fuck. But it’d get to me. I would lose sleep over how apart my knees were from each other, over how no hat would ever really fit me and how my thigh could fit in between my tiny hands, how much my ribcage was showing.

But it wasn’t only kids. My mom would teach in high schools and sometimes when I was not feeling good enough to go to class she would have to take me with her. And I would wear baggy pants cause I thought they would hide my chopstick legs more than regular pants, right? Wrong. The teachers would look at my mom like she was some kind of monster that wasn’t feeding us right, asking if I was awfully sick of if I had some sort of condition.

This problem came along when we moved to a different province and I started high school. But it was mostly in my head, like some kids would comment on it, not in a bitchy kind of way, but I was always extremely self-conscious about my arms and legs. I would wear sweaters even during summer which would earn me some spiteful words from my classmates when the teacher would refuse to turn the ceiling fans on unless we were all in our uniform shirts. I would get suspended for wearing the gym class pants literally every other day instead of the regular uniform skirt. I remember I didn’t want to go to prom cause I’d have to wear a dress. 

In fact, I think growing up everyone thought I was a bit of a punk tomboy or whatever because I’d wear black longleaves and long baggy jeans even during summer break, and maybe I was a bit of a tomboy at SOME point but, deep down I would always want to wear dresses and skirts and pink tank tops, and get my hair pretty and maybe wear some makeup.., it’s just that I knew it’d all look really bad on a stick figure-like-body such as mine, and that wasn’t something I was particularly interested in.. also I thought looking interested in “girly” things would cost me some imaginary “cred” so, yeah, that’s on me.

One day I was at a friend's house (my soon-to-be certified psychologist friend, remember her?) and she starts playing Blank Space for the third time in a row, watching pictures of Taylor Swift instead of working on our ethics paper due the next day, and she goes “She’s so pretty... and tiny.” And while I was thinking of maybe making some stupid remark like “she’s super tall actually” she goes “like you! See? She’s skinny like you and wears the hell out of those dresses”. I wore the uniform’s skirt to class the next day.

But I remember this other time when I was coming back from physical therapy, where they’d have me work out like a mad person, walking home through the longest imaginable road, full of energy and endorphins flowing n shit, feeling the healthiest I’ve ever been and thinking to myself:

You know, it’s kinda true. Taylor Swift is super thin as well. She’s like me. And she’s confident and strong and girly and pretty. I can be strong and pretty too.

and then a guy stopped me, asked me if I could share some of my water, and then asked me out I KID YOU NOT, this random dude just shows up out of nowhere when I’m feeling great comparing myself to none other than Taylor Swift, stumbling over his own words trying to flirt with me. Man, I was ecstatic! I’ve never seen that guy before, and never saw him again after that. Now I can see how it was actually creepy as hell because on top of it all he was older and I was 17 at most, and he, like literally came out of a bush and chased me for half a block to talk to a skinny little girl in her high school gym class uniform.

This comparison changed my mindset completely. I even went to prom in a red dress like the one Taylor wears on the cover of her Speak Now deluxe version album. I mean, I still wear pants all through summer but it’s mostly because a) my legs are 8 times whiter than the rest of my body and in desperate need of some tanning and b) I.HATE.SHAVING.

I thought she was genetically prone to being underweight just like me. “That’s why she owns it, it’s so normal for her she never mentions it. No one calls her anorexic or malnourished. She was able to naturalize it and look great doing it! She looks so pretty in shorts!” 

See, it truly is 100% a genetic thing. My grandad was scary thin, then all of his children were super thin, my uncle would wear shirts to the pool because he was so self-conscious about it, my mom got married weighing 41 KG (that’s like, what, 90ish pounds?), one of my sisters and I are terribly skinny too.

And then I saw she'd gained some weight. She was looking curvier and had bigger boobs and a bigger ass and damn those legs. She'd grown out of it. She did it. And I started to think back and man! My older cousins were walking sticks growing up and today are these big buffed bros, and my other cousin has a curvy model body, my other sister grew out of it too. I'd grow out of it eventually!

It never occurred to me that she might actually have an eating disorder.

It's come full circle I think. I don't know, I guess I'm just bummed out that the only person that I could look up to and would make me feel normal and healthy and even pretty, was, in fact, going through the opposite type of insecurity and had become what these mean 10 year-olds would call me. She was sick after all.

And I know I have no right to feel scammed. I shouldn't feel this way. But while I was looking up to her for hope and feeling like I could relate, she was starving herself. She was being self-conscious about that extra fat that I yearned for. 

I’m glad to know she’s now healthy and happy and can last a whole concert without feeling like throwing up, and that she probably gets her period more regularly now. And I’m sorry she felt like she had to compromise her own health because of some bullshit beauty standards and camera angles, and I know A LOT of people go through the same thing and man it just sucks. 

But I thought she was like me. 

But you know what, that made up notion got me through high school and I’m happy I had her to relate to then, even if it was just... some misguided assumption I came up with to make myself feel better. I’m still a bit insecure about how skinny I am and even though I work out and eat way too much and yet I have a really fast metabolism and the fat goes to all the wrong places and whatever, I’ll grow out of it someday. It’s okay. I guess it all just put things into perspective but I don't know what that means going forward because it doesn’t alter the facts that I already know to be true. It doesn’t cancel out her talent nor my love and appreciation for her, for what she was to me then and what she means to me now. It’s just an added layer of strength in her favor. 

I’m glad Taylor was able to manage her eating disorder and got healthy and is now happy. And she’ll always be my high school companion and her music will always be great. Nothing’s really changed. I simply know something now (know something now) I didn’t before.

[codename-bewareofthefangirl]

Konnichiwa, new follower here! I followed after reading your Akashi's ideal girlfriend reply, so, can I ask the same for Midorima? Interview said that Midorima likes older elegant girls and I have my hc that a girl kinda just kinda resembles Bakao would be great for him. Like you know, Midorima does put up with bakao after all

Hi dear new follower! Obviously I can, ask everything you want! Even because, honestly, MidoTaka is my favorite ship concerning Midorima and so, I agree with your reasoning. I’ve read in the interview that he likes older girls and…well, this eccentric OC popped up! I hope you enjoy her, this is what I picture when I think of his ideal girlfriend.

-she has a curvy, but toned body; straight black hair, she usually wears a ponytail. Narrow, catlike eyes and a smirk always present on his full lips. She moves like a dancer, has a suave and loud voice and enjoys feeling pretty. She wears what gives her a mature, but bold appeal and has a soft spot for lip-glosses.

-She’s an enthusiastic girl, with a bubbling personality; she loves teasing others, especially the emotionless or stiff ones. Energetic, hardworking and stubborn. Always in search of fun, new experiences and things to discover. However, she’s human like everyone else and so she’s her own weaknesses and insecurities: she looks for stability and certainty in other people, since she’s frequent mood swings; she is always afraid of being…excessive or annoying, but never says it directly. The fact that she jokes continuously, makes it difficult to understand when she’s serious, nervous and worried or when she’s simply being melodramatic and ironic. It’s as if she speaks by allusions, waiting for the other person to interpret and then reassure her. Due to her role, she’s also very diligent about her responsibilities and has all the qualities that make her a good leader.

-She’s the third-year leader of the Shuutako Cheerleading Team. Her passion is inspiring and supporting the athletes so they can do their best and achieve winning, feeling someone pushing their backs. She’s very popular at school, especially between the first-years, but has few close friends since she can be hard to deal with.

-She encountered Midorima during his first year. At first, she was feeling…dejected about the new, formidable player who seemed to attract all the spotlight on himself. She didn’t feel like cheering on him: he was a genius, he didn’t need it and just ruined the best part of basketball. However, seeing him playing, she started to change her mind, being attracted by his coolness, his calmness during the perfect shots…there was something magnetizing in his perseverance, in his self-confidence. Everything changed the day she had to stay at school longer than usual, to work on a particular difficult cheer, and ended up passing by the basketball’s gym; there, she found Midorima practicing without break, alone; he had fire burning in his eyes, focusing only on the ball and trying to perfect a movement that for her was already flawless. She remained awe-struck, she thought guy like him didn’t need to work hard, to sweat and fail, but she was wrong. Something inside her awoke and from that day she started to pay even more attention to him, noticing how serious and collected he seemed to be, but also all the different expressions sometimes his teammate could make him show…She wanted to see more, to discover more of what that guy hid inside of himself. So, she started ambushing him after practice. At first, Midorima was damn startled by that boisterous third-year, jumped out of nowhere, chirping about cheerleading and basketball and teasing him continuously, and he hoped for her to disappear and leave him alone. Unfortunately, she made acquaintance with Takao and the two, bonding immediately, formed the “How To Exasperate Shin-chan Club”. Her presence became a constant in his life: during lunch, she would kidnap the two of them, after practice she would stay back with them cheering loudly to put his patience to the test, during matches her voice would became the only one he could recognize. She was like a tornado, swirling into his life without escape. And, at some point, Midorima started to find stupidly cute the way her eyes enlightened when he showed an exaggerated reaction to her teasing, worth of praise the way she guided her cheering team like soldiers on the battlefield, sweet her smile when excitedly commenting his match afterwards. Midorima learnt to distinguish her genuine smile and the insecure, nervous ones; he searched relief from stress and pressure in her carefree enthusiasm. Before he could realize, he longed to hear her calling “Shin-chan!” while throwing her arms around his waist to see him blush.

-It takes them a bit to get together: she can never muster the courage to be direct, he just thinks that’s impossible. Thanks God, Takao is there to be the Cupid they need.

-Even after she graduates, she still comes to all the matches and cheers louder than everyone, much to his embarrassment.

-She loves to be cheesy and flirty just to see him stiffening and blushing. With time, though, Midorima builds up a good resistance to her and learns to tease her in his own way.

-Midorima rarely takes the initiative, since she does it for three people’s worth, but he’s very sensitive to her mood’s changes. When he realizes that she’s unsure or is trying to understand if she had exaggerated, he takes the first step and make sure she doesn’t doubt it anymore. He has enough patience for both.

-She likes to play the role of the older, mature woman that has to be respected and treats Midorima like he was a child. He always scolds, reminding her that first, he’s taller; second, with her personality she’s even more childish than him: she had lost the right to be respected when she burst crying because he didn't want to buy a cat.

-After they start dating, Midorima begins bringing her everyday her lucky item. Even if she had mercilessly mocked him for that from the start, she collects and keeps all of them. If someone touches her precious gifts, she become a beast.

-She’s the big, funny sister of Shuutako who spoils the first-years and mocks the older ones. Everyone love when she comes because Midorima softens and lets them breathe. (I have this head canon that Midorima is going to grow enough to be Captain in his third-year. A terrifyingly strict captain, balanced by his vice Takao)

-She gets along very well with Akashi and Midorima still doesn’t understand how the heck it’s possible

-Midorima had dunked only once in his life and only because she threw a tantrum about it. After he did it, she whistled saying “That was really sexy Shin-chan!” but then jumped in his arms laughing and added “But I prefer your cool three-point shots more!”

-One day, they were at the park for a walk but Midorima found a ball and an empty basketball court. He couldn’t resist and started trying few shots. She, pouting, decided to test his reactions and let some guys, wandering near, approach her. In less than a minute, the ball hit perfectly the head of one of the boys, followed by the too tall green-haired boyfriend. “I’m sorry.” Midorima threatened fixing his glasses and trying to murder them with a glare. She immediately burst into laughter, exclaiming, “You’re so jealous Shin-chan!” and kissing him on the spot. He growled, understanding she had played him again, but grabbed her either way by the wrist and dragged her far away from the bunch of astonished, terrified guys.

-Sometimes, they go to a basketball court and Midorima teaches her how to shot. It’s one of the few moments she blushes deeply and can’t calm down, being caught in his arms from behind and his low, cold voice whispering what to do in her ear.

-She has a soft spot for Midorima without his glasses and with hair combed back, she finds it really hot, so she frequently steals them. Little she knows that Midorima finds her wearing his glasses even sexier.

-Midorima secretly loves the quiet, serious and focused look that she unconsciously shows from time to time; for example, when she’s studying or when she’s reading a book in silence. It’s a rare sight, but he always catches and enjoys it.

-The number of sighs and defeated groans Midorima emits in her smirking presence can only balance with the number of faint, quick smiles he shows.

-She never stops moving, is hyperactive, so Midorima has to literally cage her against his chest to read his book peacefully. And being hold by him, it’s the only thing that calms her down probably.

-For pure luck, they’re going to study at the same university, even if with different majors. Thanks to that, she manages convincing him to live together in a shared apartment, much to his precocious ageing. Or, at least this is what he says, the truth is that the two years’ difference has always been something difficult to deal with for them.

-When they argue, she likes to take Midorima’s lucky item of the day and break it in front of his eyes, with a big, menacing smile plastered on her lips. Or, she stuffs his pillow with Natto. Midorima instead, just chooses the most impenetrable silence and avoids any kind of physical contact. That’s why she’s usually the first to apologize.

-She gets drunk easily and, in those cases, she can become really annoying or very whining; either way, Midorima just picks her up, throwing her on his shoulder, and bring her home scolding her during all the way back.

-Midorima starts to play the piano again only to listen to her singing.

-She cooks, he does the chores. It’s an established rule for survival.

-Midorima’s younger sister loves her. They build a strong bond and, when together, mess so much with Midorima that he usually tries to escape to Takao’s house. Everything fails when his best friends just joins the two devils and collaborate to his destruction.

-They call each other by their given names only in the most intimate moments, otherwise she calls him “Shin-chan” and he still uses her surname.

[artificialqueens]

Teacher, Teacher (Biadore) - Ch. 1 - Red2

A/N- Hey guys, Red again, just a quick note, PLEASE send prompts of Drag queens you would like an appearance. ANY feedback is good! I would appreciate feedback! Thank you so much again

T/W- Swearing

Tap, tap, tap.

Adore bounced her pen against the jotters she held close to her chest. She leaned against the lockers. Music first, then Fashion. Courtney was too busy texting to tell how the butterflies danced in Adores tummy.

Adore felt like blowing her fucking brains out. She had only Courtney and a few other people. She started to worry how she would make friends and she prayed to whoever looking down who is putting her in these shitty situations to fuck off.

“Girl, do you think there will be a party tonight?” Courtney shoved Adore from her thoughts. Courtney was a slut, Adore just thought she was in her quest of love, I mean of course Courtney could get anyone she wanted. She just wanted that special someone to come over. Or she was just a slut.

“Hopefully Court, I want nothing more than 7 shots of Vodka and a lie down.” Adore breathed out, shutting her eyes closed. 4 minutes until class begins.

“Adore calm your damn ass! You’ll be fiiine,” Courtney smiled, giving a reassuring smile, turning back to her phone “Now find a good fuck.” She added with a wink. Adore looked at everyone interacting. It was kind of scary. Boys with their girlfriends wrapped around their finger, the popular girls, the gothic kids. It was kinda like High School. Well, thats fucking shit if its going to be like High School, Adore thought.

The bell rang, startled Adore from her thoughts, indicating it was time for class with.. Ms Needles?

Hm.

-

It had been 1 hour and 16 minutes since class started. Ms Needles was fucking bad-ass. She was super cool and Adore had a great feeling about her. The first hour we all introduced ourselves, explaining what we do and gave a little taster. Everyone seemed to like my singing which was sick.

I met a girl called Fame. Weird name. She was fucking stunning. Nothing else to it. I’m pretty sure she had an eye for someone else which sucked ass. Talking about having an eye on someone else, this unique girl called Alaska, thats a fucking cool name, she was pretty much chatting up Ms Needles. Kinda weird, kinda fucking punk-rock. Courtney wouldn’t admit it to anyone let alone herself, but Adore seen from the corner of her eye Courtney making shy peaks at a loud-mouth smart-ass girl called Willam. Adore could already tell Willam was a smart-ass but she was actually quite funny. Other than that, everything was going smoothly. Thank fuck.

After 10 minutes passed, Ms Needles asked them to pack up their stuff, whilst probably unprofessionally chatting up the student, Alaska. Oh well. Adore grabbed all her stuff up in her backpack standing up waiting for the bell to dismiss them.

“Adore, what have you got next?” Fame asked, smiling as she held folders close to her like a baby. Fames expression seemed thrilled, genuinely thrilled at the fact she had made a friend. It was strange but Adore felt like Fame had a traumatic experience in the past of some sort, so she made sure she gave her extra love.

“I have Fashion! I’m so excited! You?” Adore smiled, collecting herself as she sorted her dark brown into blonde ombre hair. Fames face lightened up and smiled brightly her laugh crinkles showing, jumping up and down like a fucking clown.

“Oh my god! Me too, Thank God!” Fame sighed happily looking up at Adores eyes. Her eyes widened as her head collected memory. “Violets gonna be in it! Yay!” Fame excitedly jumped up and down, Adore smirking in response.

“Who’s Violet?” Adore asked grabbing Fames shoulders to calm the fuck down. Maybe this was who Fame had her eye on. With that, Adore raised her eyebrow at Fame.

She blushed. HA! Gotcha prick! Adore started to poke Fames side as she squealed. After 20 minutes of pure torture for Fame, she breathed in from her red lips about to speak when-

Ring, Ring.

Both me and Fame sighed and nodded, heading to Fashion with our timetables shoved in each others faces. Adore and Fame fast-paced walked to Fashion. “Room 609, 609, 6 0, THERE!” Fame jumped looking at the light oak door. “Lets go!”

Adore and Fame walked into a small but warm classroom, Fame guided Adore to a table where 2 people sat. Fuck my ass, here we go. Well at least the room was pretty and kind of messy, put out well messy. Very much that.

Fame waved at the black headed pretty girl. Violet. “Hi guys! This is Adore!” Fame presented Adore like a trophy. “Hey Adore! I’m Violet.” Violet stuck her hand out to shake, Adore obliged. “I like latex, corsets and cherries.” She winked and looked at the smiling girl beside her. “I’m Naomi, Nice to meet ya!” Naomi stuck her hand out, and again Adore obliged. “Not telling me what you like?” Adore joked, sitting on a seat. Naomi shook her head. “I like my legs, food and parties.” Naomi shrugged her shoulders, laughing. “My kinda girl.” Adore commented, Fame looking pleased with herself. “Watch out Adore, Naomi has eyes on someone else.” Violet added, tapping her nose. “OOooooh who?!” Fame almost screamed, her eyes boggling out her head, leaning forward on the tall desk. Naomi put her pointer finger to her mouth, clearly signalling Fame to shut the fuck up incase anyone else heard. Adore laughed hysterically at Fame retracting quickly, her facial expression making the rest of them laugh. These fuckers were good! She was happy as fuck that she met nice people!

She was cut out immediately as the door opened, heels clicking and head turning.

Her heels were navy, screaming elegance.

Her legs, long and skinny, beautifully tanned.

Her dress, Royal navy off-shoulders dress that hugged her curves.

Her arms, a little shimmer as it hit the light.

Her hair, luscious and curled beautifully, a beautiful brown colour.  

Her face. Her goddamn face made Adore’s heartbeat make her think she was having a fucking stroke. She was fucking perfect.

It kinda felt like a movie. She debated what song would be in the background as she gawked at the stunning lady in front of her. Maybe ‘Off to the Races’ by Lana Del Ray. Or some cute sexy shit like that.

Adore wondered if she was a student. She looked radiant, very tanned and bronzed. Adore eyes darkened as she looked at the lady again, butterflies emerging after the 30 second breath-holding record Adore had just done. Fuckity fuck fuck shit fuck. Adore was nervous. Like fuck nervous. Like fuck I’m speechless nervous.

The woman stood in the middle of class. It seemed the noise of distant chatter had bleeped out for Adore. Is this like the shit when you meet your soulmate?

The woman was about to open her mouth. Lets go.

“Morning Class! I’m Miss Del Rio, you can call me bitch, fucker or bitch-tits out of class but not here I’m afraid,” Adore laughed louder than the class. This bitch was funny! Maybe the majority of the elephant laugh was because Miss Del Rio was purely beauty. Miss Del Rio. It suited perfectly. Miss Del Rio looked so exotic and classy. The only exotic shit about Adore was she could speak a little Spanish and she’d been to Arizona before. Thats about it.

“I’ll be teaching Fashion and listen, before we get into it, everyone has their own style. Wether its goth, pink, latex.” Adore could practically hear Violet smile ear to ear. “Or crystals and shit, You all have no right to judge. If you have a problem, fuck off.” Miss Del Rio shrugged as she walked over to the neat, oak desk, lifting a piece of paper and a pen. Miss Del rio was so smart and so open-minded! Adore smiled cheekily, and completely related to what Miss Del Rio says and feel 100% safer in this class.

“Now, this year you will be making a couple of dresses, some accessories, 4 tops and 2 pairs of jeans. On top of that mood boards and some writing but not all writing, so calm your titties, kids,” Miss Del Rio smirked, looking over the class.

“Right, just a quick check of people here. Just shout here or die bitch when I call your name. Also please put your hand up so I can judge you.” Miss Del Rio nodded as the students of the class giggled. It seemed everyone liked her.

“Phi Phi?”

“Here!” A blue haired, geeky looking girl put her hands up, smiling.

“Chi Chi, Wait what the fuck? Chi Phi wha-"

"Here miss!”

A fair haired girl with lovely skin put her hand up.

“Roxxxy?”

A curvy looking girl with a flawless face shot her hand up.

“Here”

She shouted out a couple of other names.

“Adore” Miss Del Rio said my motherfucking name. She was looking around, shit I guess its my cue.

“Here Miss Del Rio” Adore smiled happily. She knows she sounds like a brown-noser but fuck it.

Miss Del Rio looked over and her eyes widened and her jaw tightened. Huh? Did I do something wrong.

“Shit fuck” Miss Del Rio whispered as she ticked her name.

-

Why didn’t the Bianca Del Rio notice Adore earlier. She was fucking gorgeous. A fucking student, Bianca reminded herself as she stumbled to the desk, filling the register onto the laptop.

Adore was a student but Bianca had never seen someone perfect. Full lips, gorgeous complexation, bright eyes, she was absolutely perfect.

No, Miss Del Rio, You’re a damn lecturer and she’s your student.

Shut the fuck up, bitch.

You shut the fuck up, stupid ass bitch.

Bianca was practically arguing with her damn self. Fuck.

Miss Del Rio sighed as she stood up again, trying to keep her eyes peeled off Adore and paying attention to other students.

She still didn’t forget about the cute girl at the side of the room as she spoke.

What the fuck was happening to Bianca?

This year is going to be a fuck in the brain.

Fuck.