#and it’s hhhh bc ofc I want to see my friend

[resident-rats]

Actually might just go insane?? Going insane full time jobs? Losing my mind hiring? Google search.

[achillean-knight]

Woe, doodles be upon ye

HC's below the cut if you're absolutely interested in my Spiderverse Noir HC's + his world 👉👈

First the ones I agree with that I've seen a shit ton of people mention >:33

- He is a fatherly figure to Peni. I can imagine when they see each other again, she'd run to him and give him the biggest fucking hug ever. She experienced her Canon Event between ITSV and ATSV too, right? So I can see her needing comfort so badly, and the only ones she ever truly grew close to were Noir and Ham.

- He'd 10000/10 get along so well with Hobie. Along with Hobie legit mentioning his hatred for the AM, PM and fuckin NAZIS IN THE COMIC ,

he'd be rambling so much with Noir about common interests and get along so well with him. Imagine he badazzles him in punk attire and based on this image:

(I'll link where I found the image tomorrow when I'm on my laptop lol if I remember) but based on this image, he teaches Noir how to play the guitar and shit and OUYGG I WANNA SEE THEM INTERACT (they're my fave Spiderverse characters so 👉👈)

- OHOHOHO He loves the colour purple. So much. He can't see it, ofc but he has such a love for the colour that he sees any beautiful colour- or well, of what he can see of colours, and thinks every pretty colour is Purple.

- MJ see's Noir/Peter as a brother and he see's MJ as a sister in turn. There is no romantic attraction at all. Yeah, this means MJ see's Aunt May as a nice Aunt Figure she can go to and talk to about things.

Now onto some of my own headcanons- or some that I don't see mentioned a ton. These have probably been said before but oh well, these are just what I like and my brain go BRRR

- Felicia is taller then Noir. (For those unfamiliar, Felicia is a character from the comic.) Yes that'd probably make her freakishly tall based on how tall Noir is in the movie, but that comic panel of when he first meets her rots in my brain.

- Felicia still has her mask from her ordeals. However, unlike how she pushes away Peter, they actually become friends again. Comfort each other. They swore they'd never be in a relationship again.

- Noir is a combo of both his OG comics personality and 2020's comics personality. I see movie noir as anywhere between 19 - 21. He's learning and developing as a human still. He's calmer and kinder and resembles how his personality is in the newer comics, however, based on this deleted scene LOL, makes me think he looses his shit easily and goes actually feral.

(here's the link to where I found the video BC I actually saved the link lol yeah it's reblogged by yours truly, but the full post is there.)

- Oh yeah, Noir most definitely adopted Ding Ding btw. He probably is nearly at the newer comics stage of his life, being a private eye and such, drinking his fucking egg creams like newer comics noir SBSBBS So he found and adopted Ding Ding.

- Despite being young (19 - 21) he has serious eyebags man, dudes sleep deprived 😔 I'm also heavy on the Spiderverse portrait of him unmasked that I don't really draw/see him with facial scars but he could totally have them after the shit he went through 💀

- Noir is a part-time singer. I will not elaborate.

There's so many other things I wrote down that I want to share, but they're on my computer 😭 so you get these for now hhhh

Sorry if they're half-assed, it's 10:30 pm, I am tired

[adonis-koo]

Missy you’ve done it again. THE NEW CHAPTER AHHHHHHHH !!!!

First off, namjoon and MC are so cute he’s so sweet please😭 her little study papers and such it’s sweet of him to take time to do that and when he praised her!!!!!😭 ahhh I love him lmao also LMAO not MC being in her own world debating whether jungkook actually cares about her and namjoon being like ,,, hello ???? And then when she explains he’s like,,,, lmao r u dumb he cares about you PLEASEEEEEE I mean he wasn’t mean like that but the vibe was definitely “wow y’all are both oblivious huh?” But him reassuring her,,, also I can’t really remember how close jungkook and namjoon are? Are they friends like how he is with hobi and jimin? Bc I wonder if namjoon would like,,, try to help things move along with MC and jungkook and like hint to stuff with jk too? HHH also MC asking joon about Jin 👀 ofc there’s even more reasons to why jungkook doesn’t like him and OFC it also has to do with the wars hhhh LMAO BUT NAMJOON BAGGING ON JIN FOR LOSING I LOVE IT Omg when MC talked about shadows not looking like shadows anymore that happens to me all the time!! It was oddly comforting to read?? But also the way you wrote it was literally perfect and really like took me even further into the world and what MC was experiencing!!! Oh no not a lack of guards ,,,,, missy my heart is POUNDING reading this good lord ,,,, YESSSSSS GOING TO JKS ROOM AHHHHH IM EXCITED NO IM LITERALLY WHISPER SCREAMING WHILE READING THIS MISSY AHHHHHH okay sorry that was some live reacting while I read LMAO I want to give you a like long review but writing my thoughts while i read is the best way to do that hhhh anyways i love that MC went to jks room for comfort essentially and ended up trying to take care of him once she was in there it was kinda sweet imo🥺 also her asking if he wanted her to leave as a response was 🫶🏻 she seemed so like sweet but also vulnerable in that moment? Like she already took a lot of courage to come and ask if she could stay but she is still worried about making things uncomfy and upsetting him she’s so precious my sweet bby🥹 WAIT LMAO NOT “as always your judgement is horrible” PLEASSEEEEEEE I mean,,,, she’s right ! Oop jungkooks emotions showing through with how upset he was at the thought of that being their last convo 👀👀👀 HE GRABBED HER HAND OMG AHHHHHHHHH what a sweet little ending scene Missy 🥹

OMG OH MY GOD AHAHSGSHSHSHSHDHDDHD listen I knew they’d wake up in each other’s arms bc duh but a part of me still thought they’d be all “omg I’m in his arms let me pretend I didn’t notice how close we got and I’ll just shinmy out of here” so them staying there and /enjoying/ it was literally the best thing AHHH also ,,,,, “partly” PARTLY ??????? AHHHHHHHHHGGGG🫠 this banter was so cute tho omg ,,,,, okay I REALLY hate his uncle like I already didn’t like him but god,,,,, however it’s really nice to see jungkook being so vulnerable and open🥺 I’m sure the physical vulnerability led to the emotional vulnerability but it’s just nice and then MC being vulnerable too ahhhh I love to see it !!!! What a profound idea though wow like about death I mean and how to grapple with that fear ,,,, ahhhh this is my favorite scene between the two of them so far also MC comforting jungkook again after he again mentions his fear of losing her and blaming himself🥹

LMAOOOOOO NOT THE INTERRUPTION PLS I knew this would happen but it’s still chefs kiss LMAO WITH THE ENTOURAGE LMAOOOO WHEEIN TOOO OH NOOOOOOOOOO 😭😭😭

OH SHIT A PLOT TWIST HELLO ??????? I truly feel sucker punched wow,,,, honestly though I did think it was odd like ??? There’s literally someone trying to kill the princess and no one’s there hello???? Jk immediately reassuring MC that they believe her I 🫠

This is so scary omg ,,,,, jungkook really said squad only LMAO also ,,,, not to worry about the guard situation ,,,,, mayhaps bc ,,,,, MC will be staying with him 👀👀👀 jungkook what do you mean you don’t know what to do?? HOLD HER HELLO ?????

,,,,, and there it is! Staying with him,,, oh no I guess she just /has/ to stay with him oh darn 🫤🫠 LMAO

,,,, if his damn uncle doesn’t shut the FUCK up oh my god I bet his uncle is a part of this whole scheme too I HATE THIS MAN OH MY LORD trying to make jungkook feel shitty about himself and his worth ,,,,

JUNGKOOK WHAT THE FUCK OH MY GOD HOW COILD YOU SAY THAT THIS BETTER BE SOME FUCKING PLOY TO TRICK YOUR UNCLE OH MY GOD ??????

okay bless good lord I was about to lose WAIT NO JUNGKOOK YOU KNWO SHES NOTNLIKE THAT AHHHH THISBIS GONNA NAKE THINGS WORSE NOOOO ,,,, I know taehyun is rolling his eyes inside his head LMAO if wheein doesn’t track him down at some point and find out about this I’ll be surprised

SEOHYUN ???? ARE WE FUCKING SERIOUS RN

OH MY GOD WHEEIN I LOVE HER PLEASE 🥹 honestly though we know she’s a decent fighter so like,,, it’s good she’s there YOU SRE FRIENDS WHEEIN OKAY YOURE BEST FRIENDS OKAY ????

MC IS SO NICE OMG pls their friendship is the sweetest thing to ever exist I love them so much😭 but also I hope this doesn’t haunt them and something happens to MC I’m worried now ,,,

If MC doesn’t get her ass back in that castle ,,,,, going out to the forest when it’s starting to get dark is the worst idea pls

MC is so sweet but I feel like something bad is about to happen between her and jk bc of the wolf ,,,,,,,

🤢🤢🤢🤢 seohyun talking to jungkook I could throw up 🤮🤮🤮

WHATVTHE FUCK no like,,,, if we don’t get an explanation to what happened in the time between when jungkook ordered them to back down and then then going after the wolf????? WHAT HAPPENED???? God this is going to be such a hard thing for them to get through,,,,,,, OOF and we still don’t have updates on the assassins and jimin had news too,,, What a cliff hanger oh my gosh!!! The wait for the next chapter will be agonizing but I know it’ll be worth it!!!! Sorry this wasn’t a well thought out long review like my last one and is mostly just my reaction and it’s also prob too long,,, but what an amazing chapter Missy !!! Thank you again for such great writing I can’t wait to see what’s next!!!!💜💜💜

!!!! OKAY WOWOWODBHSJWJS I HAVENT GOTTEN AN ASK THIS LONG IN SO LONG OFMEHJSS 😭😭😭 gotta contain my beating heart, I won’t be able to reply to everything in this but let me first start off by saying I LOVE how I can tell what part of the story you were on just by your reaction 🤣

Some things that we’ll definitely get a little more info on is Jungkook and Namjoon’s relationship a little further on! Along with his relations to the rest of the boys! But as far as we know now Namjoon helped lead the younger boys when they were all in the war together, so you can imagine they all have a lot of trust in one another, even if they don’t interact on a day to day basis!

I’m also SO glad you enjoyed my description of the darkness and MC possibly imagining things, it’s a pretty common thing but it’s never written about enough!! Which I think it should be written more because I’ll be seeing fucking demons or some shit in the dark when it’s just a pile of clothes 💀 I also wanted the atmosphere set between her eyes already making things up vs reality of someone possibly following her, which means we don’t know what’s actually real or what’s not!!

HAHAHAH yesss ofc it crossed my mind to make them act all coy when they first woke up and have them separate but I feel like at this point they’re just too far gone to start doing that right now 😭 especially after she was almost killed, if the assassination hadn’t happened, they would’ve most likely separated from one another in embarrassment. But the impending possibility of her dying really has them- *ahem* HIM stuck to her like glue. Like c’mon mans couldn’t let himself relax until he finally had her in his arms in his bed 😭 PLUS I don’t know if their talk classified as pillow talk but god do I LOVE some sleepy talks and comfort while opening up more to one another

‘okay bless good lord I was about to lose WAIT NO JUNGKOOK YOU KNWO SHES NOTNLIKE THAT AHHHH THISBIS GONNA NAKE THINGS WORSE NOOOO’ THIS SHIT TOOK ME OUT LMFAOOO I hope y’all could hear my fucking gremlin laugh as I typed that shit out knowing DAMN well this could possibly come back to bite him in the ass

Hahaha omggg I love this message SO much thank you for taking the time to write it all out!!! Even if it was live reacting I am LIVING for it! We will get some more detail next chapter on the whole situation that transpired at the last scene so worry not!! We’ll also be getting a …🫣 very comforting scene

[myherokatsuki]

my ask deleted help 💔💔 but for the event!! my self ship is w kirishima! (ofc) we met first year of college! we have the friends to lovers trope bc we did pine after each other for a bit. we are also the extrovert bf x introvert gf type. we often watch movies and cuddle together bc he’s busy and i’m more of a stay at home type person so when we’re together it’s mostly relaxing or if neither of us are too busy we’ll go out on adventures (usually not planned) and do whatever. or late night drives while we listen to music and go get ice cream or something. i hope this was enough! i cant wait and congrats again bb!! 🥺🖤

Thank you Jupiter!!  Hhhh you and Kirishima are so dang cute together.  >w<  I hope you enjoy <3

Event Status: Closed

“You really wanna watch this movie again?” Eijirou asked, collapsing back against the couch, a hint of a whine to his deep voice as you changed the channel to the same movie you’d been playing the other day.

“What, it’s a comfort movie!” you insisted, poking him in the side to make him jump, laughing as he threw you the most petulant look.

“Alright fine, what would you rather do?” you asked instead, leaning your head against his shoulder and looking up at him.

A grin stretched across his face at your question and he twisted to press his lips against your forehead.  “Let’s go on an adventure!” he exclaimed, and you found yourself hauled to your feet as soon as you laughed your agreement.

Despite the chill in the air, Eijirou’s hand engulfing yours was nice and warm, and you walked as close to him as you possibly could without climbing into his coat.  “C’mon, let’s get some snacks,” he suggested, pulling you into the convenience store near your apartment.  The door chimed as it opened and you grabbed a basket, following your giant giddy boyfriend around the small store.

“Ooo, I’ve wanted to try this, and we gotta get some of these, they’re your favourite!” he exclaimed, tossing the treats into your basket.

If Kirishima was a dog, he’d be a golden retriever, easily distracted, and you would have sighed every time he stopped to point something new out if it weren’t so damned endearing. 

“What do you think, huh?  Aren’t these sunglasses cool?  Do they make me look badass?” he asked, poking his head out from behind the display, a pair of thick red rimmed glasses perched on his nose.

“Yeah, you look great,” you replied, giggling at the tag that hung over his nose.  “But isn’t it a little dark for sunglasses?”

“Only cool kids wear sunglasses at night!” he teased, his grin stretching playfully.  “C’mere, we need to pick some out for you too, babe!” he insisted, holding out an oversized pair for you, gently placing them on your face as you shuffled closer.

“What d’ya think?” he asked as you studied your reflection in the tiny mirror in front of you.

“Hmm, I like them.  Do you think they fit my face though?” you murmured, turning back to Eijirou.

“You look great!  But of course, you always do,” he exclaimed, his bright toothy grin filling you with affection.

“Alright, alright, we’ll get them.”

Once you were back outside, you looked up and down the street.  “Where to next?”

Kirishima pondered for a moment, his short brows drawing together in thought before he grinned.  “Let’s go to the arcade!” 

Slipping his hand back in yours, ridiculous sunglasses still perched on his nose, he took off down the street, pulling you along with him.

At this time of night the arcade was relatively empty and Eijirou pushed the dark tinted glasses up into his hair so he could see in the dim room, only lit by the neon lights of the games.  

Hanging back, he let you pick the game, unsurprised that you’d gravitated to the Dance Dance Revolution machine.  No matter how bad both of you were at it, you never failed to want to play at least one round.

“Hey,” Kiri said as you waited for the countdown, turning to grin at you, a softness in his ruby eyes.

“Hmm?” you asked, glancing over at him.

“I love you,” he said, leaning in to steal a kiss, his warm lips moving tantalizingly against yours.

Three, two, one, dance!

Taken off guard by his sudden kiss, it took you a moment to realize he’d already started, leaving you behind, missing several of the arrows already.

“You did that on purpose, Eiji!” you cried, though there was no heat to your exclamation, laughter taking over as you hurried to hit your marks.

“It’s not manly to cheat!  I just wanted a good luck kiss!” he gasped, and you couldn’t tell if he was being sarcastic or not, though honestly he was probably being completely earnest and you loved that about him.

[midoriyaizukustan-inactive]

I saw your post about transguy Todoroki but have you considered,,, TransGIRL Todoroki

OH MY GOD NONY YOUR MIND,,,,OH MY GOOOOODODD

IDK WHERE TO BEGIN BUT I NEED U TO UNDERSTAND THAT THIS IS SUCH A GOOD FUCKING CONCEPT. IT IS ABSOLUTELY GOD TIER. I AM SHAKEN TO MY CORE I AM SO FUCKIGN PUMPED THIS IS SUCH A GOOD IDEA I

GOD,,,,

so shes always had a disconnect w her gender but she didnt have the words/knowledge to know that was what her issue was. so shes just been kinda Confusion subconsciously for years but THEN

im thinkin someone in the class comes out as trans is how she’s introduced to the topic bc lbr w her upbringing she wouldnt have had a lot of time to research lgbt things ://

anyway some research is done/explanations r shared nd she starts to think abt it like “hm,,,” in true todoroki fashion

im thinkin one day durin lunch w the izucrew shes just like “hey i think im a girl” no preceding comment nothin just our usual blunt todo. but dont be mistaken, inside she is p a n i c

the izucrew obv overwhelm her w support nd love sniffs they all love her so much oh my god my heart,,,,she doesnt cry but she def wants to nd honestly who can blame her

for a while its just the izucrew who know nd they just love her sm,,,uraraka nd tsu give her some clothes that like arent overwhelmingly feminine but yknow, when ur trans nd u get smth thats officially labeled as ~girls clothes~ or ~boys clothes~ u get pumped as shit.

in between all of this iida nd midoriya love her sm theyre so supportive,,,nd shes just so happy bc theyre her two closest friends,,when its just them chillin iida nd midoriya use she/her a lot just to see todo smile AH im crying theyre so good fuck

eventually she comes out to the rest of the class nd theyre supportive as well!! nd todoroki is just so glad shes here w these ppl in her life like wow,,,she lucked out,,sniffs just give me class 1-a as family please,,,

bro just trans shinanigans,,,todoroki would make the BEST of jokes bro could u even imagine. she is the deadpan queen

BROOO she starts grownin out her hair like she was doing that anyway bc she just didnt care to get it cut but now she can like,,play w it and stuff,,nd its just such an innocent source of comfort/happiness for her, to just mess arnd w her hair,,,bro im gonna cry

HHHH HER CHANGING HER NAME,,,,SHE GETS HELP FROM THE IZUCREW BUT ULTIMATELY THEY LEAVE THE CHOICE UP TO HER,,,IT’D BE SUCH A DEFINING MOMENT FOR HER,,,BROS,,,,BROS,,

gettin on hormone treatment w recovery girl,,,aizawa helpin her to move to a dorm room on the girls’ side,,,all might bein supportive in his awkward dad way (he probs gives her a hug like from the sports festival AH),,,BROS,,

teachers ofc wont tell endeavor,,the conversation abt that is probs what prompts the dad might hug. im cryin

uraraka and tsu take her out on girls’ nights,,,the rest of the class 1-a gals invite her to their hangouts nd help teach her the basics of feminine stuff like hair/make-up/etc so that if she ever wanted to mess w that stuff, she had the knowledge,,,they just accept hr so readily they love her sm,,,

BROS a couple months after bein on hormone therapy nd coming out, she wears the girls’ uniform for the first time nd her hair is long enough to tie up that day,,,BROS,,,shes just so happy,,,she feels free nd like its so wild bc she didnt even know she was bein held back but now that its in the open shes just,,so glad,,,

this is such a good concept,,i have been blessed,,,thank you nony. i owe you my life

[haechan-gfs]

best friend!jeno

p.s. i never proof read or do word count bc im so lazy hhhh

genre: angst

pairing: best friend!jeno x reader

summary: he’s always there for you but only as a friend

- lee jeno; your go to, shoulder to cry on, advisor, and best friend

- he was the first one ready to comfort you when things went wrong w your significant other

- “you deserve so much better y/n”

- he was always there

- holding your hand, rubbing your back, trying to make you laugh after crying

- you were oblivious to his feelings for you

- the way his heart beat accelerated whenever you called

- or how hard he tried not to kiss your cheek when you said you were thankful for him

- but he knew you didn’t feel the same

- so he saved himself the humiliation that came with rejection and valued your friendship instead

- that is

- until the summer after graduation

- “this time it’s just gonna be me and you! no boyfriends or girlfriends, just the two of us”

- you confidently said

- he excitingly agreed and began planning out the most perfect summer

- “we can go to the beach and stargaze ! there’s also a new cafe i wanna you to take me to”

- he saw you consistently, falling more and more in love

- it felt good to have you all to himself, not having to worry about fixing other people’s mistakes

- and then one night while walking home from the movies

- you held his hand

- it was a very subtle move

- you continued walking, ignoring his burning stare towards your hands

- he smiled and interwinded his fingers, walking closer to you

- about a block away from your home you shook his hand off of yours

- “sorry haha” “for what?” “that was weird of me”

- jeno went home with butterflies in his stomach that night

- perhaps you’d end up falling for him too ??? he hoped anyway

- as summer rolled out, you became ‘busier’ with university plans and the duo saw each other less and less

- “hi i miss you... _______ is having a party tonight, wanna go bestie?”

- “miss you too and ofc dummy”

- since it had been so long, jeno was anxious to see you

- he wanted to make a move since things had been going so smoothly and there wasn’t anyone else you were talking to

- he was pleasantly surprised when you held his hand again walking out of your home

- “everyone from school is gonna be there so it’s gonna be fun” you said happily

- you constantly locked and unlocked your phone

- jeno noticed and gently squeezed your hand

- “is everything ok?” “perfect”

- once there, he noticed you getting closer

- he liked you being clingy

- “let’s dance” you said suddenly, pulling him up from the stool he sat on and into the living room

- jeno was so utterly intrigued with the way you moved he failed to noticed your attention wasn’t on him at all

- “you’ve suprisingly gotten better at dancing?maybe you can come by the studio and we can d-“

- you grabbed his face and quickly kissed him, your eyes watching someone else

- he slowly reopened his eyes, legs turning into jell-o

- “w-what was that?” he smiled shyly

- “i like you, jeno. i’ve always liked you” you said loudly

- he was speechless, shaking his head in disbelief

- “i-i’ve always liked you too- wow i”

- you giggled and kissed his cheek, taking his hand again

- he couldn’t stop smiling, his eyes sparkling under the colorful lights flashing

- “hey it’s getting kind of hot in here,do you mind grabbing me something to drink? I’m gonna step out a bit”

- he nodded and quickly kissed your cheek before walking away

- jeno: guyS SHE KISSED ME

haechan: sHE WHAT ??? I LOVE THIS SONG

mark: MY GUY

jeno: ON THE LIPS AKFJEJ SJE SAID SHE LIKES ME

renjun: ASKFJR ARE YOU DATING THEN

jaemin: why are you tellinG uS ?¿ where did you leave her you dUMB

- jeno inhaled deeply before putting his phone away

- he grabbed two water bottles and walked outside where there was a smaller crowd spread across the yard

- “jeno!” you waved him over, reaching your hand out

- you were talking with your ex, who jeno hadn’t heard about since graduation

- “oh ... are you guys a thing now?” s/he asked

- “yes, we’re together and we’re happy” you answered quickly

- his ears turned pink again and his heart beat faster

- “yea... we’re dating” he slowly repeated, looking towards you

- you took your water bottle and wrapped his arm around you, keeping your eyes locked on your past lover

- jeno‘s eyes stayed glued to you... this was the summer he imagined: his arm wrapped around you securely, his feelings for you being acknowledged and returned, it was perfect.

- “anyway, it’s getting kind of late so jeno and i should probably be heading home” you smiled

- “ok cool, well it was nice seeing you again y/n..”

- you clung onto jeno’s arm as you both walked out into the dim street

- “wOW that was so good jeno!” you squealed jumping up and down

- he cheeks turned a hot pink quickly, thinking you were talking about the kiss

- “i honestly didn’t think you LIKE liked me haha” he held wrapped both arms around you tightly and kept walking

- “wait what? i meant they looked so jealous watching us! you acted really well” you gently pushed his arm off your shoulder

- “a-acted?”

- “listen i started talking to y/ex/n again over the past few weeks and they’ve changed so much over the summer. i didn’t tell you bc i didn’t know if they were being sincere but tonight proved they still have feelings for me”

- “you kissed me - you told me you liked me as more than a friend” he said, his self confidence slowly deteriorating

- “i ... never said i liked you as more than a friend. i had to kiss you, they were look- why are you getting upset?”

- jeno ignored his heartache and frowned

- “is that why you wanted me to come out with you tonight? is that why you were being so touchy? so they’d get jealous?”

- “jeno are you really getting upset over this? you’re my best friend, i couldn’t have done it without yo-“

- “you’re not supposed to kiss your friends if you don’t mean it! i thought-i thought you really liked me”

- your eyes slightly widened

- “oh jeno i -“

- “just save it. i should’ve known you only saw me as a shoulder to cry on - you didn’t even consider my feelings when you were acting up for that guy.”

- he left you at your doorstep and walked home without saying goodnight, ignoring your calls and texts for the remainder of the summer

- im sorry j , i miss you x

[minchase-ingclouds]

𝕒𝕗𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕪𝕠𝕦 ｌｅｆｔ, 𝕚 𝕔𝕒𝕞𝕖 𝕒𝕔𝕣𝕠𝕤𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝒻𝒶𝓃𝓉𝒶𝓈𝓎

╰ ♡ ✧ ˖ chae hyungwon. 25 he/him. have you seen charles “chase” min? they used to be so +confident before their heart got broken. now they just seem to be very -timid. i think it had something to do with (tw: abuse) his sugar mama emotionally/physically abusing him, but who knows how accurate that is. i know, we should get them hair dye to help cheer them up! maybe then they’ll start acting like fairy floss and cherry blossoms blooming.

basics

name: charles min

nicknames: chase, whatever nicknames his sister gives him, rosir (his sTriPPEr NamE)

age: 25

pronouns: he/him

sexuality: heterosexual (he thinks) ((but is actually bisexual)) (((he’s confused ok)))

tldr

traumatic childhood backstory etc in the bio below so if ur here from dee’s intro on ciel then jump down there hey

anyway bc of the traumatic childhood backstory, chase and his little sister ciel moved out when he turned 18 and she was 14/15ish

long story short he became a stripper to support them

when he was about 20, he met tiffany, a rich business woman who frequented his strip club because she thought he was stunning and had seen him on a night out with the girls

she wasn’t that old, maybe 7 or 8 years older than him, and approached him one night asking for a private session where she then asked if she could take him out on a proper date

they dated for a while and she became his sugar mama, asking him for sexual favours but paying for pretty much everything, EVERYTHING he wanted and even offering to pay for things for his little sister too (she was stubborn and refused tho)

only a few months ago, tiffany had an STI scare and insisted it must be chase’s fault bc - you’re a stripper, you’re a whore, i bet you cheated on me - and when he told her that no, he’d been loyal, and if she had cheated on him and had this scare then he thought they could work through it and stay together, she continued to grow more agitated and (tw:abuse) started to throw things and hit him

when his little sister found him in their lavish penthouse (courtesy of tiffany, ofc) he was covered in bruises and cuts

together, they decided to move to palm springs to a shitty little apartment since chase was done with tiffany, wasn’t going to use her credit card ever again or even speak to her again and now we’re here, his arm’s just healed after being broken but his heart still hurts and he kinda misses tiffany - after all, they were together for four years

bio

born in new york, new york, chase was a curse to his father from pretty much the moment he was born; with his mother dying in childbirth, his father had a love/hate relationship with him, since he reminded him so much of the wife he so loved but was also the very reason she was gone

when he was 4 his father remarried a woman named stacy who was pregnant with a little girl ( @cielmins )

speaking of ciel! if you are here because you were redirected by dee (thanks for palming this bit off to me btw sweetheart) then buckle up kiddos, cus we’re about to go for a RIDE

stacy was never all that nice to him, mostly put up with him because she loved his father, gerald or some other basic dude name

of course, stacy absolutely ADORED ciel, since she was her actual daughter, but chase never resented ciel - in fact, quite the opposite, since he adored her even more than their parents did

yes, chase is literally the most doting big brother that could ever exist, would move mountains for his baby sister if she asked (she would never ask because she’d figure out how to move the mountain herself), but that doesn’t stop the pair from being literally The Worst™ to each other and general public nuisances of the meme variety

side note - although nobody ever told ciel that she and chase aren’t related and are just step-siblings, she has a big brain and figured it out eventually (chase couldn’t be prouder of his genius little sister, although the difference in their ethnicities was probably the biggest tip off)

home life was not so great - stacy was constantly feeling undermined by gerald’s first wife, knowing he would always love her just that little bit more, and the more insecure she felt, the more she’d take it out on chase, and the meaner she was to chase, the more distant gerald was towards her and to ciel. it was kind of a cycle.

just before chase’s 18th birthday, ciel pointed out that they could run away, just the two of them, and take care of each other like they always do. her big brain pointed out that as an 18 year old, he could be her legal guardian

so, at 14ish (maybe 15? idk how old ciel is tbh) and 18, the pair moved out

when it became apparent that they weren’t coming back, stacy and gerald said fuck it, got a divorce since they were really only together for the kids at that point anyway, and ciel and chase were pretty much independent from then on

he and ciel even adopted a kitty named mayonnaise britney spears min - but you can call her may for short

as two teenagers they uhhh weren’t so great in the funds department and chase took it upon himself to provide for them so that ciel could focus on her studies - sacrificing his own education, he put himself through odd jobs here and there until one day shortly after his 19th he was approached by someone who told him he’d be great at ‘twilight modelling’

turns out by ‘twilight modelling’ they meant hhhh stripping

well, one look at ciel’s immaculate report card and the pleased twinkle in her eyes when she started talking about scholarships and college and stuff, chase was absolutely fuckin gone and knew he’d do anything to keep that look on his baby sister’s face so - hoo boy, here we go, ya boi turned to stripping

it actually took him a while to let ciel know, he told her he was, well, twilight modelling because he didn’t want her to know, but when she did eventually find out about one and a half years later, she help him come up with his rad stripper name - Rosir, because it’s french for ‘pink sky’ which matches ciel’s name, but also ‘the colour you turn when you’re embarrassed’, which suits him

a year into stripping, he meets tiffanny, and yk, all that stuff in the tldr, she pays for all his loans, buys him all his fancy designer brands, gives him plenty of allowance (which ya boi saves cus he’s not an idiot), even buys him a car and opens up her penthouse for the two of them

of course, when shit hits the fan, he has to give up his fancy car and leave the penthouse with ciel, now the two of them live in a shitty little apartment in palm springs because he doesn’t want to blow al their savings and since his arm was kinda uhhhh broken after the ordeal, he’s only just been able to get back into stripping (since he stil isn’t qualified for anything)

(tw:emotional abuse) before he started dating tiffany, he was pretty sure he was bisexual. tiffany had him confused for years because she told him that liking it up the ass didn’t mean he was gay and he could enjoy bottoming for a woman without being bisexual; he was totally straight, she would insist, and he started to believe that and to this day he struggles with whether or not he’s straight or bisexual because he knows he finds men attractive, but he isn’t sure if he would date one --> this was a form of emotional abuse that went on for literal YEARS

(tw:emotional abuse) should i mention that tiffany was kinda lowkey the worst and also tried to convince him to stop being a stripper several times? things like “you don’t have to strip, you’re basically my personal prostitute baby” and “you don’t need an education, i’ll always be here to provide for you, you’re all mine baby boy” and when she’s mad uhhh “you’re my little whore, got it? no one else’s” so............. yh let’s just say ciel wasn’t a fan but chase, well, he was blinded by those hearts in his eyes

but don’t feel too bad for him! chase actually kinda likes stripping now, thinks it’s made him feel much more confident with himself and his body, having always felt maybe he was too gangly and thin and awkward, and he likes the feeling he gets when people can’t take their eyes off of him

despite the fact that he’s a stripper, he’s actually real sweet and innocent. has only had sex with tiffany, has never even kissed a guy and hasn’t even really kissed many other girls except for a few awkward dates he’s had here and there - most he’s done is private dances for paying customers

anddddddddd now that he’s been saving, and is finally free of tiffany and of his shit ass parents, with encouragement from ciel, ya boi has finally, finally started college

it’s a little scary since he’s older than most of the people in his classes, but he’s studying to become a kindegarten teacher and cannot wait for the day that he can hang up his lacy black garters and pick up a whiteboard marker

so, still stripping and working part-time as a waiter to pay the bills, chase is starting a new chapter of his life (signified by his brand new pink hair, courtesy of ciel), and whilst he doesn’t know what the future has in store for him, he’s ready to face it with a big smile and with his baby sister (aka his favourite person in the whole wide world) by his side

wanted connections

well hello beautiful people! if you’re still here, i must say, i’m rather impressed, so without further ado let’s get into this

ride or die best friend - chase only met this binch after moving to palm springs, but they happened to see him entering the strip club and figured out he worked there and, uhh, with persistence and a promise not to tell anyone, they became great friends and probably visit his shitty apartment to play with may and piss off ciel all the time

classmates - everyone needs a study buddy! if u got an ugli in college, throw em his way

gay awakening - now, chase isn’t necessarily going to date this person or even develop feelings, but as a beautiful man he’s going to turn chase’s sexuality upside down and cement his suspicions that yes, he is bisexual no matter what tiffany said (taken: moon jisoo)

honestly open to anything! hmu if you have any plots you’d like to chuck at him or any you’d like to fulfil <3

signing off for now,

yours faithfully

mich 

[skizmin]

minghao!soulmate au

prompt: if someone touches you, your soulmate feels warm where you’ve been touched and can sense how you feel about the contact (uncomfortable, calm etc;)

genre: fluff soooo much fluff, soulmates!au, very very brief and vague ment of sexual harassment its tiny pls dont be put off, college!au

a/n: hey minghao, i miss you, please rest lots and become healthy for seventeens next comeback!!

okay so

throughout your younger years youve never really paid much attention to your soulmate, ofc your parents told you when you were about four that the weird warm things you were feeling was your “one true love that you’ll meet later” and whatnot

i mean of course youd chuckle sometimes when your cheeks got all warm and an annoyed feeling fleetingly passed through you knowing your soulmate must be being coddled by one of his aunts or smth 

but other than that

you just went on with your life

it wasnt until you were sixteen did you start paying more attention to it

sometimes youd get a bit worried when youd feel a warm spot on your arm and a surge of slight anger in your heart but it was always quickly replaced by happiness

you knew it was his friends hitting him by then so you just chilled tf

even when you felt your ass became VERY warm, you felt the same anger/happiness flow through your body so you just shook the fact that your soulmates ass just got BEAt off and continued what you were doing. 

youll have junhui to thank for that later

so by the time you were going into university you had become very aware of the fact that your soulmate was barely ever getting hugs anymore

and you just :^((( poor bby

and an idea popped into your head like !!!

my soulmate feels warm when i get hugged akdfksjla

instantly you were like IM GONNA HUG EVERYONE!!!!! EVEN IF ITS AWKWARD

so like, first day on campus housing grounds you found your dorm house and with that your RA housemate

she was cool and you where like hhhhhhh

i barely know you but

i have this duty of care for my soulmate so im just gonna

and you hugged her rly big and you felt uncomfortable at first but also so proud of yourself like wow

get you a girl like me ;^))

anyway your housemate is like “oooooookay, this is your room here and its just us and three others who’re already here”

youre awkwardly like cool okay see u later

amd ur blushing rly hard but hey at least you did it

anyway fast forward a couple weeks and youre like hugging all your new friends everytime you see them and theyre like wow shes clingy but they still luv you

and youre!!

so!!

comfortable!!

abt doing it now like “hey hugs????? hugs are my shit.” ya feel?

cut over to minghao whos going to the same university as you with junhui

they both moved from china and minghao misses his fam so much :^(((

particuarly his mums hugs which he got all the time and sometimes he thought it was annoying but now hes like hhhh

MUM BRING ME BACK

minghaos mum was also rly open about haos soulmate and loved hearing about her

like one day hao came home (age 18???) fuming bc he felt his chest get warm in class and then his butt and a really strong feeling of fear and uncomfort and disgust filled him and he immediately knew what happened but he didnt feel anything else after that and he was so glad but still and his mum was like hao that happens to girls :^((( im sorry your soulmate must feel awful rn 

and hao felt sick in his stomach and he was like “im gonna kill anyone that does that to my soulmate again mum !!!!!!!!

and his mum was so proud

anyway hes almost fluent in korean by now and luckily junhui is good at making friends and found some that speak madarin and korean too so!!

their new friend jackson and some others are constantly with hao and hui being like “no that means square, this is how you say suspense” n shit

and hao learnt rly easily!! so did hui!! anyway

lately hao has been feeling his soulmate hug a lot of people lately and hed be rly happy except hes sorta 

“is my soulmate dating someone rn?? :^((” 

and hed remind himself you can date whoever you want before you meet him 

but hed still be all emo bc he wants love too and he misses his family and hes in a foreign country and hes failing one of his subjects bc how is he supposed to know all the non latin korean terms for all the flowers and plants they get pop quizzes on

and he just wants to hurry up and meet you bc hes all 

“everythings gonna be fine when i meet my soulmate!!!!!! theyre gonna make everything perfect for me!!!!!”

like, hao sweetie

calm down

but he’d be so determined like legit whenever junhui was with him and they were around people he’d be like JUNHUI TOUCH MY ARM

and he’d look around frantically for someone being like “tf my arm is warm gosh dang wonder what my soulmates up to lol” but he’d be a bit disappointed every time.

anyway tho so jackson invites him and junhui to his friend jaes party after teaching them all the korean slang shit

legit hes like

“guys. i think youre ready for your first party”

junhui nearly cries

little does he know youre??? invited to the same one by your housemate jimin (jyp gang here we go)

anyway you go to the party and are determined like legit hugging everyone you meet and jimins next to you like

im rly sorry about her dont ask

and minghaos in the kitchen like!!!! wth my soulmate keeps hugging people junhui smh smh 

he’s slightly buzzed and hella jealous

anyway he goes to the loungeroom for a sec to find his friend sicheng who just messaged that he was here 

and wow best luck ever you walk up to junhui and jae and meet them both!! youre all 

JAEE THANKS FOR HAVING THIS PARTY IM Y/N and you give him the biggest hug and then you turn to junhui whos all

hi im junhui

and smiling awkwardly and youre like

NICE TO MEET YOU!!!!!

and give him an even bigger hug than you gave jae and jae and jimin are watching you like wtf and junhuis like awkwardly patting your back and IN COMES MINGHAO WHOS GETTING SICHENG A DRINK

hes like jeSuS chRiSt how many time does she have to hug her s/o in the span of an hour!!!!!!!!

and he feels random extra warmth spurt on his back and hes like what sort bf/gf pats their s/os back lmao and then he seens you hugging junhui and he like

pauses for a second 

then hes like haha gtta be a coincidence that i can see a georgeous random stranger hugging my best friend in the same way i can feel my soulmate hugging someone rn

amd junui sees hao and a wave of relief passes over him and he grabs your shoulders and pushes you away like

MINGHAO HEY!!

and you turn around as junhuis like “this is y/n, friend of a friend of jacksons ad jaes”

and minghaos like HOLY SHIT I FELT THAT MY SHOULDERS JUST GREW WARM

and then you meet eyes with the most goRGEOUS boy youve ever seen like HOW can someone look like that

and as soon as you meet eyes your body just gets soWARM and your heart like

fuckin swells and shit

and youre like ohmygodohmygod whats happening

and hes looking at you with the widest eyes ever and everyones like “wow they must find each other pretty hot theyre just staring at each other”

and suddenly minghao grabs sichengs hand and just places it on his chest and sichengs like wtf no homo

and you feel warmth on your chest and a surge of shock, excitement and hopefulness rush through your blood but the first thing you say is

WTF YOU PERV as youre grabbing your chest and junhui finally catches on and walks up and pokes you in the stomach and you yelp and minghao just touches the warm spot on his stomach and smiles SO wide

he legit runs up to you like OHMYGOD YOURE MY SOULMATE TELL ME EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU IVE DREAMT OF MEETING YOU MY WHOLE LIFE 

and he goes to hug you but stops himself

by now everyones gone to give you some privacy 

and youre like wot!!!!! hug me!!!!!!

but he just says “dont you have a partner?? im not doing anything with you until you and them break up” he ain no homewrecker sweeties no cheating in this household

and youre just like

????????? what ?????????

“youre always hugging your partner!! its hard not t notice, youre so proud after too :^(((”

and you start laughing

hes just pouting at you like whattttttttttttt

you say in between laughs

im hugging people for you!!! you havent been getting hugs lately, and i like it when you get hugs i love the feeling so i thought id hug a bunch of people so you could feel warm anf fuzzy inside!!!

he looks at you like,,,,,, oh,,,,,,

and then he swoops you into the biggest bear hug ever and you feel warm and fuzzy except its not the same. it feels so

so real??????

you almost start crying and then he pulls away looking teary eyed too

“y/n was it??? im minghao. and im looking forward to hugging you and being with you for the rest of my life.”

youve never smiled wider as you jumped into him and gave him your first kiss while thinking of how great your future was gonna be.

fin.

hope yall liked that shit!!!!!!

[bowieisworried]

gooood evening/morning/afternoon (i hope this sends the whole ask on my laptop it cut me off so i might have to send... 3 or 4 asks? idk let's see)

it's past midnight now and i just know i'm not gonna sleep anytime soon so i might as well spend an hour replying haha

i always feel kind of bad for falling out of love with groups when they stop doing the stuff i fell in love with in the first place but i guess it's natural to a certain extent. And it's not like i suddenly hate them or anything but it's always sad especially with bts for example just bc they were my first reason for getting into kpop and the ones with the biggest overarching plot line and stuff. and now i don't really keep up with them anymore for a lot of reasons.

but i also stopped keeping up with stray kids for like a year bc their music evolved into more edm style which i just didn't like but now i've come around to liking them again so who knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ maybe these breaks aren't forever.

ohhhh yes the find you mv is also so GOOD. dramarama too. sometimes i think about how much of an influence music videos make on me liking a group/their music or Not and i have a crisis lmao

i mean tbz on rtk were like an unstoppable force it was Scary man dfhfh i'm kind of glad they didn't win kingdom too it just kind of felt like they had to try to outdo Themselves instead of the others the whole time and like... how many times on rtk and kingdom did they perform Reveal and The Stealer? like... 2 to 3 times each? ofc ur gonna run out of ideas at some point hhhh

I'm a sucker for vocal who can also rap rlly well ((and rappers who can also sing rlly well ofc)) and i wasn't expecting MY vocal to suddenly get a rap part i screamed dhfgjhf. The collab stage was pulling al the heart strings yea i thought about picking that one but i always crack up at the clothing hanger part idk why lmao

i mean it took me around 8 months to learn all of tbz names via osmosis so i totally get that u say ur never gonna remember them all

It's funny because 3 people have tried to get me into seventeen over the years and tried to get me to remember all the members so i had all this half-knowledge up in my brain before i started stanning this year. Scoups, Vernon, Woozi were the ones i was always able to recognise i think. and suddenly after a week or two i knew them all... that was unexpected and sudden

Your biggest group is 8 members? i'm trying to think of groups with more rn and i can't except for tbz, svt, sf9, nct... okay nevermind thought back to rtk and golden child, to1 and verirvery are also v big hm

oh yeah i start with "useless guides" too most of the time. Especially if i know no members yet. plus they're always helpful for a little group history that you don't get from watching just variety shows and stuff. my attention span is never long enough for behind videos of groups i'm not yet emotionally invested in lmao i think i need Constant Excitement and context to enjoy it and keep watching at first

I rlly hope my friend gets more into Oneus now i'll nudge her a bit in the right direction but right now she's only really been into bts for a few years and while she listens to other stuff she's not Invested Invested you know. But i also got her into bts in the first place so i have high hopes :D

OH i won't go into detail on my album collection in general bc i have a whole spreadsheet for that so you know it's an organised mess But yea! i have a few oneus albums! i have binary codem light us, lived and devil. but i bought three of them second hand so i dont have any pcs for lived and binary code sadly. but i'm very lucky with the pulls i did get!! i got a seoho/leedo combo TWICE and i pulled keonhee once but i traded for seoho with a friend uwu i can show you pictures later if you want

what about your collection? are you the type to collect pcs religiously? do u want to own all the versions of all the albums? do you have a cd player unlike a lot of kpop fans hahsah

i hope your week has been nice so far :>

~ santa

Oh wow the whole past midnight and not going to sleep thing sounds very familiar lol

Yeah, it’s just something that happens with everything really. Any kind of music, or tv series, games, books. Like you say, it’s natural.

Mx really do have some awesome videos and the mv’s do draw you in, it’s the first impression you get of a group usually so it makes sense that it’ll have an effect. The amount of times kpop has had me in crisis mode already is ridiculous haha

Honestly tbz would have done better in Kingdom if they hadn’t went so all out on RTK, they just couldn’t top themselves, they had nowhere left to go xD

Oh, Woozi! I forgot about him, I can definitely point him out in a crowd lol, he’s so fuckin tiny the poor bugger. It’s odd with remembering names and faces, sometimes it can take forever and then for other groups it’s nearly instant, god knows why.

I follow a few groups with more: SF9, Pentagon, Golcha (kind of), Exo (kind of), and Super Junior. I cannot name all of Golcha though. Exo I’d struggle with because of the constant lineup changes, SF9 and Pentagon are fine though and so is Suju (minus the 4 or 5? members that aren’t there anymore).

Give it a week or two and I’m sure she’ll be hooked!

Ooh that’s a nice wee collection you have, shame about the pc’s but it can be a pain getting albums second hand that include them. That is some nice luck you got with your pulls! That combo? Twice? Damn that is good, also pretty awesome that you could trade with your friend, always handy when you don’t share biases. That would be cool!

I... have an addiction when it comes to my collection. I don’t really collect the pc’s much, although I refuse to buy second hand without them, just because I hate the fact that people remove them to make more money rather than because they want to keep it. For Oneus I’ve got Blood Moon, Devil, Lived, Raise Us, and Binary Code. Both versions of BC and BM (not the theatre version) and then just the one of the others. I think 2 versions is my upper limit lol. Because I’m moving I had to pack up my collection so I’ll shove a picture of it in here or link it. And yes, yes I do, got a cd player and a turntable so I’m covered. I used to collect vinyl so I do have a collector streak in me which is a bit of a problem when your ult group is Shinee hahaha

By the way, what would you like to see for a wee gift gifset? Gives me an excuse to stop giffing Taemin for a day xD

There it is, poor things all boxed up. I have added to it since though, I currently have the DVD version of Sayonara Hitori sitting on my shelf, fittingly, all alone. If you're interested to know what any of the other ones there are, or what pulls I got then let me know lol

[kyunsies]

hi madch!! i'm doing ok - i Finally made a gifset today bc i felt like playing w colours - unfortunately not from my gif ideas list but it was a set for the secrets band ver video!!! (you might see it on your dash but idk 👀 + out of curiosity what are you working on)

i get what you mean abt IB/AP war flashbacks LMAOO it was really stressful for me, and in my final year of hs i realized how toxic some of the people were - some of them had huge egos/superiority complexes esp those at the top of the class (+ they weren't funny. at all hahaha) or were really entitled it was... yikes. first 2 years of hs is something called "pre-ib" and then last 2 years (grades 11-12) is the actual "ib diploma" program (we also had 2 semesters in an academic year so 4 semesters of hell and constant burnout). i didn't actually do the full diploma program,, i did certificate for my own sanity - for me i did 3 IB courses instead of the normal 6. and ofc i'll tell you when i'm in the mood to watch food vlogs <33

i think he'll post when he's enlisted too :)) esp after his training period. and you're right abt the civilian stuff, i heard he was gonna work a 9-5 office job for his enlistment lol. i think mbbs will be ok though :)) - 🌱

AHH angel u are back <3 hi !!!!! it's good to hear from you before tomorrow ;_____; i'm glad u were able to make a gifset baby !!! i haven't been giffing much lately bc my brain is was just laskfslfsdj this week but i have something lined up in the queue for tomorrow :') i miss giffing i cannot bear to NOT gif for too long i love it too much ...... also DSLKFJLSKJF i don’t really know if i want to give away what i’m working on but i’ll say this !!! i hope it helps mbb tumblr in some way 🥺

but omg yes WAR flashbacks !!!!! i can't believe i actually tortured myself with 6 ap classes throughout my whole time at high school .......... and i was always just a B student hhhhh i work hard for mediocre grads that's just my life ;____; i really feel you about the cut throat atmosphere tho !!! :( i went to an all girls catholic school so lskdjfskldfjk jesus christ u could probably imagine ;____; even with my 3.7 gpa (which i know it's nothing to boast about) i was still middle of my class :/ not even the top 3rd....... so AH i never want to think about high school ever again honestly :') !!!!!! my friends were so shitty to me ,,,,,, why was i friends with these ppl HHHH but anyways enough about high school I ACTUALLY JUST WATCHED a food vlog just now i think you would like these bc they're short and cute <3

and yes i have no doubt in my mind he will post !!!! i just hope mbb will be okay ahhh we just need to support him and them all well can <3

[hehebread]

i got tagged by the lovely @missbelgium to do this ask meme. Thank you so much!! this was a nice distraction for the evening! i promise to do the rest very soon.

LAST

1. Drink: just a glass of water

2. Phone call: my dad

3. Text message: “third wheeling intensifies” that or “YOU HAVE ALL MY LOVE”. 

4. Song you listened to: Addicted To You by Avicii

5. Time you cried: Monday. you would think it was bc i had to go to work but no. it was “A Dog’s Purpose”. watched it late afternoon. made me cry like a baby.

HAVE YOU

6. Dated someone twice: nah cuz i never dated before. 

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: i … dont think so…

8. Been cheated on: nah fam.

9. Lost someone special: yes, i have. more than i’d like to admit. sometimes it was my fault, sometimes it wasnt, but it all hurt the same.

10. Been depressed: i fall in and out of bad episodes. some days are more bearable than others. 

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: i dont drink lol.

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS

12-14: uhhh thats a tough one. red and blue are my colors, but purple strikes a chord with me too.

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. Made new friends: yesss, many!! here and irl. 

16. Fallen out of love: hhhh in a way i did. not with people but with ideas, concepts, and dreams.

17. Laughed until you cried: ye s tahnk god

18. Found out someone was talking about you: um yeah for sure, but its nothing im not used. it happens y’know. 

19. Met someone who changed you: i did actually. in the most subtle and discreet way. the thing is, i got close to so many people in the past year and just started picking up on their little quirks and mannerisms. and suddenly im swearing in spanish. puta madre  i outta be ashamed 

20. Found out who your friends are: sadly yah. wasnt too thrilled. 

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: my parents?????

GENERAL

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them. thats why i semi-ditched fb. 

23. Do you have any pets: YESS!! three chickens and a rooster. two lovebirds. we used to have an african gray but we gave it away to grandma to keep her company. we also have this rat who’d been living in our garage for a while now. dunno if that counts.

24. Do you want to change your name: i kinda do. but i feel like i got too attached to it at this point.

25. What did you do for your last birthday: a few of my lovely flatmates and I went out for crepes. got many happy birthday wishes that day. I was on my own most of it but thats okay.

26. What time did you wake up: fucking 5:52am.

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: probably not sleeping. why u ask?

28. Name something you can’t wait for: …………………………………. havent looked forward to anything in a very long time. maybe deadpool. no clue.

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: a few hours ago.

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: if i could, i’d give myself a better childhood. 

31. What are you listening to right now: Home We’ll Go by Walk off the Earth

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: probably. my memory is shit at remembering stuff like that tho.

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: some of my colleagues utter inability to communicate their feelings or concerns. my utter inability to communicate my feelings or concerns.

RANDOM INFO ABOUT YOURSELF

35. Mole/s: two on my right palm. one on my left palm. another on the back of my neck. one higher in my forehead, and two others in places that shall not be named.

36. Mark/s: stretch marks around my thighs.

37. Childhood dream: a younger (and much happier) version of me wanted to become a neurosurgeon or a heart surgeon. idk about that anymore tho.

38. Hair color: ver y dark black.

39. Long or short hair: pretty long. down to my lower back. two years ago it used to not reach down to my chin. i keep changing my hair style quite a lot.

40. Do you have a crush on someone: uuhhh yeah kinda but im hopeless everything is hopeless.

41. What do you like about yourself: umm tough one. my perseverance, probably. 

42. Piercings: two in one ear and one in the other. might get more.

43. Blood type: O+

44. Nickname: Raz is actually my nickname, or rather, the english equivalent of it.

45. Relationship status: orders meal for two to have leftovers for later.

46. Zodiac: Aries

47. Pronouns: she/her or they/them but really it doesnt matter to me that much. anything goes.

48. Favorite TV Show: is this a good place to say i love drake&josh

49. Tattoos: nada

50. Right or left hand: right-handed 

51. Surgery: on my gums. 5 yrs ago.

52. Hair dyed in different color: i used to dye it with henna.

53. Sport: track & field all the way. i dont do it anymore but id love to. 

55. Vacation: yesss i love vacations. would love to travel around some more.

56. Pair of trainers: sketchers.

MORE GENERAL

57. Eating: nothin. i should go get some melon.

58. Drinking: water

59. I’m about to: go get melons. or go out for dinner in like two hours.

61. Waiting for: a sense of purpose or fulfillment in life… that or my fave author to update.

62. Want: my sister’s blueberry muffins.

63. Get married: maybe platonically but otherwise nah.

64. Career: im hoping to become a doctor. hoping.

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: HUGS. ALL KINDS OF THEM. but cheek/head/forehead kisses are also very very pleasant.

66. Lips or eyes: …eyes.

67. Shorter or taller: shorter. i dont like looking up.

68. Older or younger: than who?? than what?? 

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: nice muscular arms. on ladies. yes.

71. Sensitive or loud: loud for sure. i love people with energy.

72. Hook up or relationship: umm neither? but if i hadta choose then a relationship.

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker. life’s too short.

HAVE YOU EVER

74. Kissed a stranger: as a greeting. yes.

75. Drank hard liquor: oh, no.

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: to this day, no I have not, thank goodness.

77. Turned someone down: admittedly, yes.

78. Broken someone’s heart: i sure hope not.

79. Had your heart broken: yea </3

80. Been arrested: heavens no. not yet.

81. Cried when someone died: yes

82. Fallen for a friend: ……………………………………………..yea

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

83. Yourself: i try. i really do.

84. Miracles: ofc

85. Love at first sight: not really. that just doesnt happen. love needs time, patience, and hard work. 

86. Santa Claus: hahaha nooooo. i dont celebrate the holidays.

87. Kiss on the first date: shrugs

OTHER:

89. Eye colour: dark brown

90. Favorite movie: for a very very long time, it was shrek, but then the memes happened so 

I tag @wandschrankheld @awkwardslytherin and @snark-sniper and @of-pasta-and-potatoes. you guys dont have to do it ofc. but if you do, pls tage me!! i’d love to see it.

[johnnyseod-remade]

tagged by: @the-actual-grim-reaper​;; thank you grim!

rules: once you’ve been tagged you’re supposed to write a post with eighty-two truths and then tag twenty-five people

ABOUT

name: ganguli blood type: O (not sure if it’s + or -) nickname(s): guli, uli, peach, grasshead (??), ghouls, mom, angel, river zodiac sign: leo pronouns: she/her favorite tv shows: Castle, Criminal Minds, Pysch long or short hair: medium (it’s getting too long i need a trim) height: 5′4/5′5  do you have a crush on someone: lol um yeah??  what do you like about yourself: i like my unflinching ablitiy to fall over every single sort of surface there ever was ?? also i like my nose and my lips  right or left handed: right list of three favourite colors: black, white, blue

RIGHT NOW

eating: nada drinking: water i’m about to: keep watching tomb raider videos lmao? listening to: She’s A Baby - ZICO kids: lmao n o  get married: LMAO N O !!!!! (( um if i fell in love maybe but i hate marriage so )) career: teaching and/or writer 

MOST RECENT

drink: water phone call: my homie the yam  song you listened to: She’s A Baby - ZICO (go bless urselves n listen to it) 

HAVE YOU EVER

dated someone twice: ahahhahahhhhhahahhah ye a hhhh h been cheated on: n o p e kissed someone and regretted it: Y E P  lost someone special: yes been depressed: y e a h been drunk and thrown up: LMFAO YEA H BITCH kissed a stranger: UM NO  had glasses or contacts: yep had sex on the first date: nah broken someone’s heart: i don’t think so and i hope not :(  turned someone down: yes  cried when someone died: yeah fallen for a friend: HAHAHAHHA DID YOU MEAN: EVERY CRUSH EVER?

IN THE LAST YEAR, YOU HAVE

made a new friend: mhm fallen out of love: yeah laughed until you cried: everyday o f my life met someone who changed you: many found out who your true friends were: oh bi tc h you know it  found out someone was talking about you: ANYWAY NO ONE’S BEING PETTY kissed someone on your fb list: nopE

WHICH IS BETTER

lips or eyes: um, i think eyes? hugs or kisses: both are nice shorter or taller: B O T H romantic or spontaneous: either sensitive or loud: both pls !! hookup or relationship: tbh idc-- relationship more though  troublemaker or hesitant: both;; 

FIRST

best friend: @l-a-v-e-l-y​, my friendo since i was 3 surgery: none sport i joined: i guess dance ??  vacation: sri lanka probably 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN 

yourself: um, not particularily  miracles: no? love at first sight: NO heaven: no

EXTRAS

how many people from your fb list do you know irl: all of them i would never aDD ppl i didn’t know ???  do you have any pets: we had fish for the longest time, but not anymore;;; i want a cat do you want to change your name: all the time; either to Lee or River what did you do for your last birthday: bitch i think i cried? what time did you wake up today: 12 or something what were you doing last night at midnight: watching a dude do a playthrough of tomb raider tbh something you can’t wait for: um, to get my license and G1 at least;; last time you saw your mom: she’s sitting in front of me  what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: well, you see, the thing is, MY LIFE IS ONE BIG REGRET SO ??  have you ever talked to a person named tom: my dad’s boss’ name is tom and i think i talked to him when i was really small but idk?? i also know several thomas’ but idk if that counts  what’s getting on your nerves: OKAY SO THE DUDE WHO’S PLAYING THROUGH TOMB RAIDER-- BC-- OKAY IN TOMB RAIDER IT’S KINDA LIKE-- THERE’S LOTS OF HIDDEN STUFF AND YOU ACTUALLY REALLY NEED TO PAY ATTENTION AND LOOK AROUND AND EXPLORE AND THIS DUDE LITERALLY JUST ??? RUNS WITHOUT LOOKING ??? AND I’M TEARING MY HAIR OUT CAUSE IT’S FRUSTRATING ME SO MUCH THAT HE DOESN’T CARE ENOUGH TO DO ANYTHING RIGHT OMG-- but yeah that’s all-- 

i’ll tag @crystals-n-diamonds, @cherryuta, @odetonct, @taeyong-dot-com, @blushguk and @bunny-hyuk !!! you don’t have to do it ofc;;; (ik it’s not 25 but;;; idk who else to tag;;; if you want to do this you should !!)

[gnostalgist]

🌻rules: once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag.

I was tagged by @fixationpsychosis ! (thank u!)

🌻LAST…


[1] drink: zero ultra monster energy fsdjlfkjds (its the only Good(TM) monster so i had to specify)


[2] phone call: my grandma probably. if skype calls count, then dirk.


[3] text message: my grandma...


[4] song you listened to: ok it was the schuyler sisters from hamilton but it was bc i was doign a colorguard routine to it which probably doesnt help but

[5] time you cried: idk... a couple days ago

🌻 HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: yeah


[7] been cheated on: uh you know what? probably, yeah.


[8] kissed someone and regretted it: not immediately??? but yeah


[9] lost someone special: yeah i mean.. i hope its not permanent but yeah


[10] been depressed: all day erryday


[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: nah

🌻 LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS…


[12] pastel pink


[13] the one shade of red u know. like my blog aesthetic


[14] orange but its gotta be soft

🌻 IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…


[15] made new friends: yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i made so many new good friends somewhat recently!! i love them!!!


[16] fallen out of love: im trying

[17] laughed until you cried: yeah


[18] found out someone was talking about you: hhhh yeah

[19] met someone who changed you: mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm


[20] found out who your true friends are: hh yeah


[21] kissed someone on your Facebook list: ive only kissed two people ever and theyre both BLOCKED AS FUCK

🌻 GENERAL…


[22] how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: (sidenote: i dont like the term “real life” when talking abt friends bc just bc u have ldrs doesnt mean u dont know the person in ‘real life’ bc u do. but i know what its asking so im just gonna answer that) 3... because i panicked and deleted almost everyone off my friends list


[23] do you have any pets: i have a cat named Pico de Gato

[24] do you want to change your name: legally? yeah. but idk im ok w my name(s) rn


[25] what did you do for your last birthday: hhhhh I CRIED BC NOBODY WAS ABLE TO HANG OUT AND I SAT IN MY ROOM ALONE but then the other day my friend brought me weed as a belated bday present so whatever

[26] what time did you wake up: 6 am


[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: sleepin

[28] name something you cannot wait for: GREEN DAY AND AGAINST ME CONCERT NEXT MONTH!


[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: oh god last summer i think im not sure


[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: not having bpd and ruining all of my relationships

[31] what are you listening to right now: against me bc i remembered the concert for #28...

[32] have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i went to middle school w someone named tom and i had him in social studies and he wrote a song for a class project on guitar except it was really bad 


[33] something that is getting on your nerves: this one kid i kind of know thats.. actualyl terrible i want them to die....


[34] most visited website: tumblr/youtube 


[35] elementary: idk what these are actually asking but i... think its asking where... i started to kindergarten at a school in south dakota, and then a different school here from then until 2nd grade; 3rd grade in texas; 4th in rochester, minnesota and 5th in winona, minnesota


[36] high school: currently in rn and it sux


[37] college: either going to a technical school here to get a degree as a diagnostic medical sonographer or going somewhere??? to get a phd in psych to be a clinical psychologist. prolly the former tho,,

[38] hair colour: black but rly badly dyed


[39] long or short hair: idk its like to my shoulders when its down but also i have a mohawk


[40] do you have a crush on someone: YEA IM RLY GAY FOR MY BF

[41] what do you like about yourself: my eyes and Musical Abilities(TM)


[42] piercings: idk i dont really want any,,


[43] blood type: idk ??
??????????????

[44] nickname: roxy (if that counts..), kasp, rox, friendly ghost


[45] relationship status: IM LVOE DIRK


[46] zodiac sign: picses/aries


[47] pronouns: god i dont fucking know.. any?? except if we’re not close u cant use she/her but. yeah idk. any.


[48] fav TV show: hm twd probably


[49] tattoos: i dont have any, BUT
 im going to get a bike helmet? idk where yet though. and then just those plastic vampire teeth, and finally, the Most Important one, the word ‘drown’ in morse code on the inside of my left arm. im gonna?? try to meet tyler joseph and have him write it for me.

[50] right or left handed: right

🌻 FIRST…


[51] surgery: i had surgery on my tongue in like 1st/2nd grade bc i couldnt like. lift it up


[52] piercing: none


[53] best friend: a girl named zaneb

 
[54] sport: uhhh i tried to do bmx for a while but ive never been in a sport rly until now if u count colorguard


[55] vacation: hm my familys always been poor so like. we’ve only gone to texas and south dakota to see family


[56] pair of trainers: wh.. what

🌻 RIGHT NOW…


[57] eating: nothing but i just ate a cookie i baked. also i know this isnt what it asked but i just want to say ive ate 7 tacos in the past 3 day.


[58] drinking: ALRIGHT i started writing this post like 4 hours ago but im still drinking that monster


[59] I’m about to: nut

[60] listening to: against me


[61] waiting for: dirk to come online?????


[62] want: dirk to come online?????


[63] get married: probably not..


[64] career?: diagnostic medical sonography or clinical psychologist

🌻 WHICH IS BETTER…


[65] hugs or kisses: hugs... kissing is honestly disgusting and ngl like 95% of the time ive kissed anyone i just found it Gross dskfjds;ld


[66] lips or eyes: eyes.....


[67] shorter or taller: ok i dont actually care either way but listen. dallon weekes is 6′4′’ and he can W R E C K  M E


[68] older or younger: i dont care but i usually just happen to like ppl older than me? but not by much like a year at most


[69] romantic or spontaneous: both


[70] nice arms or nice stomach: idc s’all cute


[71] sensitive or loud: idk both but at different times??

[72] hook up or relationship: relationship...


[73] troublemaker or hesitant: idk..

🌻 HAVE YOU EVER…


[74] kissed a stranger: god no. i tried once when i was 12


[75] drank hard liquor: yeah but i was depressed and we dont talk about that period of my life

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses: i dont.. wear them.

[77] turned someone down: i dont think so... nobody is interested in me ever lmao

[78] sex on first date: GROSS


[79] broken someone’s heart: i dont think so


[80] had your own heart broken: yeah

[81] been arrested: ....listen


[82] cried when someone died: no


[83] fallen for a friend: hm i dont think so. unless u count dirk but i had a crush on him like immediately

🌻 DO YOU BELIEVE IN…


[84] yourself: every other wednesday


[85] miracles: eh

[86] love at first sight: no but i think u can kinda have a connection at first sight. like a “i know im going to love you” at first sight.

[87] santa claus: yeah ofc


[88] kiss on the first date: hh it depends idk


[89] angels: i am an angel so like

🌻 OTHER…


[90] current best friend’s name: i never have like actual best friends bc nobody likes me but idk ill go out on a limb and say martin


[91] eye colour: blue


[92] favourite movie: the labyrinth or heathers or little shop of horrors. or book of mormon if we pretend thats a movie

im too lazy to tag people i am SORRY if u wanna do this then say i tagged u tho!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

[teyuuka]

(Utaite anon) didn't see your reply until today and wow this got serious fast, I agree with you though (since I have a crippling depression myself lol), sometimes yeah, the things Mafu posted by himself are usually for jokes but sometimes when ppl go too far I just "He already has a pretty low self-esteem and depression please don't go too far" although I don't think Mafu hates attention, in fact I think he's a pretty lonely person so I'm just glad he has his friends now and I TRUST HIS FRIENDS

yeah he’s……..he’s such a lonely guy i just. idk what to do sometimes with his tweets like sometimes he tweets his ‘talking to myself with my female voice’ moments and im… mafu i love u but w h y  r  u li ke  d i z

im sorry for my reply tbh lmfao i just love mafu very much because his whole being just hits too close to home. like not even only the dark parts, i think there’s once soraru made fun of him ‘giggling weirdly while listening to a seiyuu cd’ and bruh? relatable.

i feel like im basically copy of him without all the talent and the kind personality (and the looks! ofc) and well, except his weird obsessions i guess. i gotta admit i was a little disillusioned when i knew he’s a yandere (?) with imouto obsession i thought he’s just an edgy dude with strong distaste against life lmao. still love him though because after all’s said and done his personality is still an A-grade

but most of all his scaredy-cat side really….make my heart swell for some reason hhhh i dont even know if this is just protective instincts or just my S side coming out

OOT but pretty sure when mafu did some voice-acting-like lines i died a little inside

actually i think lon and soraru didn’t really ‘drift’ because of haters, they just didn’t have time, i guess with him being in a label and AtR there’s not much time for other stuff? didn’t he ask his fans to stop harassing lon before? but yes i REALLY HATE IT when fans shit on any female who are close/dating their idols like WHAT IS EVEN THE POINT?!?!!!!!! WHY DON’T YOU WANT YOUR IDOL TO BE HAPPY. like did they think they own their idols??? they’re not your husbands jfc. yain’t got no damn chance. the only thing you can do to make him happy is to buy his albums and throw money at him bitch. stop shitting on other people just because they could do what you couldn’t. srsly. these yandere wannabes make me sick

about the ‘hating on popular people bc their biases are not as popular’ thing tho, i would just tell the person, has it ever crossed your mind……..that the reason your biases are not popular…..is because your biases SUCK??? and not because another utaite ‘snatched’ their popularity?….. lmaooooo. unless this popular person talks shit about ur bias it’s really ridiculous to blame them for ur bias’ unpopularity. i might be guilty in this aspect tho HAHA like i HATE SAO and i WILL shit on it. but because it fucking sucks. let’s be real.

and speaking about new album, after the rain will be releasing a new album on september and i just preordered version A that comes with a clip of their live concert I caNT FUCKIN G WAIT!!!!!!!