#and it was 3rd shift too

[tinyredpoppies]

Worked 18 out of 24 hours and I feel like death.

[casualavocados]

I'm not finished yet. ...[🎶!]

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 13

[sk-yay-sk]

I don't like any of the maps I've seen for HTTYD so i'm playing a puzzle game w all the locations. This is the 3rd version so far

[hiroshotreplica]

actually my favorite number being 27 is some cruel irony that an author would force onto their character. i considered my unlucky number to be 3 for the longest time because of some Shit that happened in 3rd grade and other unfortunate developments that happened because of something happening 3 times

anyway, 27 is:

the product of 3^3 (3 to the power of 3)

the product of 9 x 3, which, again, is 3 x 3 x 3

3 away from 30

and, slightly unrelated: it was how old my mom was (in years, of course) when she had me (i did not know this until last year. im a little stupid)

i literally despised the number 3 as a child. like, beyond petty hatred- i genuinely thought if something came in 3s it had the ability to kill me. yet, my favorite number shares so many roots to it. was i stupid? yeah i think so

[caimitos]

saw a post about projecting your ethnicity onto a character and started missing vespa ilkay. so so bad

[benveydraws]

herrscher of truth ☄️

[loveletterworm]

Umm time for an oc post jumpscare Frank's bestest friend who he doesn't know very well and literally just met and doesn't like and is scared of (his name is attery and he is literally just a human person...i would explain his situation further but i dont feel like it sorry this will all just be contextless for today)

[finalset]

I don’t think there is such thing as me “fixing” my sleep schedule, I genuinely think my internal clock wants me up at night,, which is …. frustrating to say the least

[altruistic-meme]

looking at my paystubs HURTS

[regicidal-defenestration]

A Natural History of Fear is an absolutely batshit audio, not least because it leaves you sitting to the sound of a humming top for the final few minutes just so you can process how utterly batshit it just was

[friezaglasiencold]

It has been a while, how are you doing? Heard you've been ailing with the flu? I wish you good luck and recovery this must not be fun at all

((Covid ain't fun, take it easy, wish you recovery soon 🫰🩷))

Despite this, how's it going? How's Algid also?

Thank you for responding ✨️

I'm much better now, thank you. Busy, more than anything... there's always a sharp spike in business in Q4, so we're wrangling that for the time being.

Algid has been eating like a little beast the past few weeks. He's becoming more and more active the more time he spends in daycare; I wouldn't be surprised if he's made a couple of friends by now, though it's hard to tell with him since he's friendly as a general rule.

I'll likely be less active in the coming month, but I'll be around to read your messages--and trust me, I am reading them all. To that anon who sent the thing about the dog....

Seek help.

[guthrie-odonto]

Ain’t it just c r a z y what three years can do do a mf

[1nfine77]

Shifting Diary - 1 (11/12/23)

Thought I'd start one of these. Not starting off at the absolute best point in time, I must admit, but... Here we go.

(Below the cut so it's not hell to scroll through.)

Put on a shifting subliminal last night (2am this morning) and just... Fell asleep to it. Didn't try any methods or anything. Just focused on passing out.

Then, since I was slightly stressed this morning, I ended up actively attempting to shift again for... Maybe a few hours? I was in and out of sleep and those hours included maybe three attempts? Two and a half?

I can't say I was particularly focused. I was partly trying to shift to my usual DR and partly just trying to shift to a version of my CR that's not as... Hectic, I suppose?

I was laying there counting and affirming and staring at the backs of my eyelids. Nothing special. Theoretically you could say 'oh Julia method' or 'oh Raven method' or whatever in terms of general structure, but it has been a long while since I've simply done a method I found online. It's been 'random bullshit go' for months at this point.

I switched between three subliminals as I went from one attempt to the next, sort of going off vibes, mostly to block out the noise in my CR. However, I did notice that when listening to them, I would fall into this... Slightly dizzy state for a little while. I had my eyes shut and it felt like the world around me was gently spinning.

Could've been my awful sleep schedule catching up with me, to be fair. Did not sleep for long enough.

There were also points where my awareness of various parts of my body would change. Obviously, limbs going numb, which is what typically happens when you haven't moved in a while. There was a point where I was awfully aware of specifically my fingertips, specifically of my left hand, against the mattress, so much so to where it was difficult to think of anything else, while the rest of my hand was almost completely numb. Not had that one happen before, I do admit.

There were a few points where I lost focus on my body entirely but I have no idea how aware I was at those points. I think I might be remembering instances right before falling briefly asleep - which is a testament to my tiredness because I only fall asleep on my back when completely sleep deprived.

I've also been trying to focus more on the backs of my eyelids when I do actively attempt to shift. I don't get much in the way of impressions or images - especially today, since I could see the light from outside dimming and brightening because it was fucking morning lmao - but I do get ever so slightly brighter patches against whatever the brightness of the general backdrop is, quite blurry and indistinct but still clear enough to be able to intuitively link what I'm seeing to a specific concept without thinking about it. They fade in and out quite a bit.

There was a point where it felt like I was seeing the light from behind a door - as in, the door was open a crack and I could see the light through that crack. I unfortunately got a bit too eager and tried to mentally reach out, completely reflexively, to open the door wider, which made the entire thing fade. Need to focus on just observing rather than trying to interact whenever anything even mildly interesting happens.

My main takeaway is mostly to let myself watch rather than act. As much as the impressions are... Impressions - not necessarily linked to shifting - I do feel like entertaining whatever my mind happens to bring up once I'm in a relaxed state can't do me any harm.

And breathing exercises are fucking great. 4-3-5 and 7-6-8 both completely calm me down after a little while. From there, it is finding something to keep my focus on that doesn't drag me back into my CR, which is affirmations or visualising (sight and sound only, thanks) or daydreaming, or some combination thereof. Obviously since I was semi-panicking today wasn't a particularly engaged experience lmao, but hopefully that all gets sorted by tonight and I can either take a rest day or have an attempt unencumbered by whatever the fuck is happening in my CR.

[threadmonster]

GUYS, I DON'T HAVE THE WEIRD BLOOD DISEASE.

[alittleemo]

doing my annual check in on my ancient wattpad account and its lowkey crazy to see TOO has 15k views like hello . so sorry abt all of that btw.

[bunnyb34r]

Nooo Sony is rereleasing the spiderman movies on mondays and the first one is this Monday, which I'm working AT NIGHT and they're only doing 7pm/8pm showings 😢

Even if I was able to go thats still so late for me to go bc I go to bed then 😭 yeah I have the DVDs but I wanted to be able to see TASM in theaters bc I saw TASM 2 in theaters TWICE