#and it doesnt actually eliminate itself because the shit feeling knows it has an unrelated origin | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

isaacathom · 1 year

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my favourite (/s) thing about my mental health is that when something sucky happens, i generally feel fine, and then my brain goes 'but WHY don't you feel bad? are you an awful person? are you heartless?' and then i feel like shit

#im doing fine but for instance it was dogshit back during the height of covid lockdowns #because my friends were really struggling with being kept inside and having to deal with curfews #and i was fine! and i felt so shit about feeling fine that it looped all the way back around #and it doesnt actually eliminate itself because the shit feeling knows it has an unrelated origin #its very annoying. especially not helped bc i dont know WHAT upsets me. its completely inconsistent #ah well. im doing fine. just kinda grumpy in a way that helps noone #im gonna sort my dice later and feel better about it :)#and then this will get significantly worse the day of the funeral haha

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