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shittybabypostsfordays · 4 years ago

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I hope when I die, I'll be able to look at an encyclopedia of my life and figure out what the fuck happened and why I am the way I am. Maybe I have some disorder that hasn't been discovered yet or named. Maybe stuff is just undiagnosed. Maybe it is actually just the effects of the things I've been through. Maybe I'm just weak. Either way, it would be nice to have a definitive answer. I want to ask God what is wrong with me.

#i dont think id mind if it just caused me anguish and distress #but it affects other people at this point #its like im driving a car and it just randomly shoots out flames every now and then #and people are like do you know whats causing that #and im like lol i have no idea #and theyre like well can you make it stop #and im like no not really bc idk whata causing it #its very frustrating. and im very sorry.

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