#and ik a minute doesn’t seem like a lot but it is when it’s unrelenting critizicm about somethign you’re already a. little insecure about
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lmao think i need to go into anger management classes after every interaction with my brother
#no one makes me mad like he does#and i mean. i have valid reasons as to why but i really don’t like feeling that deep in the stomach red-hot anger that just leaves me#feeling terrible lmao#like i should start journaling or some shit bc honestly some of the stuff i get pissed at him for is ridiculous#i have a lot of built up anger/resentment from#some of his past actions#and i say past as if he didn’t spend a whole minute telling me i’m ugly yesterday bc of my haircut#and ik a minute doesn’t seem like a lot but it is when it’s unrelenting critizicm about somethign you’re already a. little insecure about#anyway we’ve reached the fun part of anger where it’s not anger anymore and i’m just sad#it’ll pass lmao
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Youjitsu for somehow
Vol 4,5 2nd
“Whoa, that’s a lot of people.” Sure enough, the rest area near the fitness gym where the exam results were being disclosed was packed with many students. Near the monitor, there was a large sign that read, “Photography is strictly prohibited,” and two adults who seemed to be in relation with Tsukishiro were keeping a close eye on the students. The rankings and scores were displayed on a list of monitors, which seemed to be scrolling automatically. Right now, it’s showing the 50th to 60th place group members and their scores. “Nn......?” There was an inexplicable feeling of discomfort that I suddenly felt all over my body. What is it? The cause of this feeling is not immediately apparent, and I feel a kind of unspeakable weirdness. “I was going to take my time to look at the results, but I don’t think I can concentrate at all with this.” Ishizaki doesn’t notice that uncomfortable feeling, but he looks at the monitor and mutters in disgust. “It can’t be helped. I’m sure a lot of people would have liked to know the detailed results of the uninhabited island test.” Clicking his tongue in frustration, Ishizaki had no choice but to stare at the results from his spot. Although he has a bold personality, it seems that he can’t push his seniors to the front. One of the third-year students reached out and began to operate the monitor, which was an auto-scrolling monitor, but could be fixed by touching it with his hand and viewing the rankings at will. So, it was unlikely that Ishizaki would be able to see the top results he wanted to see any time soon. “What do we do now?” Even if he waited like this for a while, it would be a while before his turn came around. “I’m curious, but let’s not overdo it. It’s something we can look at later.” That’s what I said a few minutes ago... Well, as long as he understood, I guess. “By the way, do you notice anything?” “Huh? What?” Ishizaki, who was about to turn back, didn’t seem to notice anything. This strange atmosphere. The large number of gazes directed at me. It’s not something that can be put away as mere imagination. It’s not that Ishizaki next to me is dull and unaware of it. They simply aren’t watching Ishizaki. They’re only watching me. They are watching my every move with an obvious intent that they aren’t even trying to hide. All of the students watching us had one thing in common: they were all third-year students. I don’t know the details yet, but I’m pretty sure that Nagumo is involved in this. Has the case that I put off on the uninhabited island exam returned today? “What’s wrong?” Apparently, I was so lost in thought that Ishizaki was worried about me. “No, it’s nothing. It seems that other students are coming to see the results one after another, so let’s turn back.” “Alright, no problem.” I had imagined that Nagumo would set something up sooner or later, but this is a bit tricky. It would have been much easier if Nagumo had come directly to us and set something in motion. He made the first move that I didn’t want to be made. “Hey, you haven’t had lunch yet, right? Let’s eat together.” “Huh? Yeah, I haven’t eaten yet...” I started to walk away, but the third-year students didn’t seem to be following me. It seems that they were only looking at me. Either way, it’s extremely disturbing to be persistently gazed at. “What’s wrong with you? You don’t want to have dinner with me? That’s kind of rude.” “No, that’s not it. I was just thinking about something unrelated.” I knew I couldn’t involve Ishizaki in a bad way, but if they didn’t follow me, I guess it was okay. “It’s also rude to be thinking about unrelated things.” That was certainly true. Let’s just forget about the third year for now. “Are you sure it’s okay with me?” “It’s fine, we’re just going to have dinner together.” I can’t deny that I feel the pressure, but it doesn’t mean that I feel bad. I just can’t get over the fact that Ishizaki is treating me as a friend. “I don’t know if I’ve said this before, but I’m not asking you out like this because I want to bring you into my class. It’s because I like you as a
friend.” Without hesitation, Ishizaki uttered a line that made my teeth stand on end. But then, as if he realized something, he hurriedly turned around. “...are you being bothering by me by any chance?” “No, not at all.” “Right!” For a moment, Ishizaki looked as if he suspected that his actions were selfish, but he soon laughed it off. Well, I knew that he had this kind of personality. It’s not that I feel bad about it, so I guess I’ll follow Ishizaki. As the two of us left the place and began to move, we heard footsteps coming from behind us, running towards us. “Ayanokōji-senpai!” The owner of the footsteps was Nanase, who had been working with me throughout the first half of the uninhabited island exam. “So senpai came to see the exam results too?” “Yeah. But I’m not likely to be able to look at them slowly, so I gave up.” “I see. The third-years are all working on the monitors now, and it’s going to be a little while before we juniors can freely view them.” It seems that Nanase also wanted to know the details of the results, but she gave up. Ishizaki was looking at our exchange curiously. Come to think of it, Ishizaki didn’t know Nanase directly, did he? “Oh, hey Ayanokoji. When did you get to know such a cute and adorable girl?” “A lot of things have happened.” It’s very troublesome to explain everything from scratch, so I told him so in summary. “Hey, you’re not going to tell me you’re going out with your junior, are you?” “That’s too much of a leap, it’s just a relationship between a senior and a junior.” It was unusual for me to be confronted with this kind of thing. I thought Ishizaki was not deeply interested in heterosexual issues, but apparently not so much. “Do you want something from me?” I said turning towards Nanase. “No, I just felt like talking to you when I saw you.” Her straightforward eyes shine, and she says without hesitation something that might make me feel somewhat embarrassed. “I’m sorry to bother you. Excuse me!” I thought she was approaching me at a short run, but he was going somewhere else at a short run again. The inside of the ship is the same as the corridor, and I don’t think it’s a good place to run, but I guess it’s alright if she was careful. “That was a cute girl. And that thing was pretty cool too.” I don’t know what he meant by “thing” but I’ll ignore it. “You’re not really going out with her, are you?” “No, we’re not dating.” I don’t want to cause a misunderstanding and expand the conversation. So once again, I firmly denied it to Ishizaki in the form of a reminder. 2 When I came back to my room after dinner with Ishizaki, I found Ike standing in front of my room. He was looking at his cell phone restlessly, but when he looked up and looked left and right, our eyes met. “Oh, Ayanokōji! Thank God, I’ve been waiting for you!” Ike was waiting for me? Yet another unexpected turn of events. “Actually, I was thinking of going to visit Komiya now, and I was wondering if you wanted to join me.” Ike said as he approached me and leaned in to lend me an ear. “Me...?” “Well you see... I’m just a little uncomfortable going alone.” “Why?” “Why? I mean, you know. I’m... going out with Shinohara. After the exam, on the way back to the ship, there was a time when we were alone, and...” It seems that he confessed his feelings to her, and Shinohara gave him the okay. I had thought that it might progress, but it exceeded my expectations. “Well, congratulations.” I congratulated him honestly, and he looked away from me like he was telegraphing. “Oh, thank you. But from ...... From Komiya's point of view, I think I might have cheated.” “I don’t think so, though.” “No, I don’t think it’s fair. It’s like... playing dirty.” It is true that Komiya had to retire from the desert island test early because of some suspicious behavior. It’s not that you can’t use the term “sneaky” to describe it, but anyone can say that. It seems that Komiya was planning to confess to Shinohara during this exam. “I was really thinking of waiting until after Komiya’s injury was healed, you know? But when I was relieved that
the exam was over, and Shinohara’s guy was beside me..., I felt like I didn’t want to give her to Komiya...” It seems that he confessed to her without thinking. Of course, there was also the risk of being rejected. If that had happened, it would have made things even more awkward after Komiya and Shinohara got together. “That’s why I felt I had to properly report it to Komiya. Man, to man. If he was also planning to confess to Shinohara, it would be complicated, right?” “If you didn’t make the first move, you would have been in trouble if Shinohara decided to go for Komiya after all.” “Ehhh?! Why are you saying that...?” Ike was upset as he exaggeratedly flinched. Half of him wanted to give a report, and the other half wanted to stop him from confessing. “You’re prepared to get hit at least once, aren’t you?” “What? I’m going to get hit?!” “Wouldn’t you do that if the person you love was snatched from your side?” Ike looked frightened, as if he got scared from imagining it. Komiya isn’t a big guy, but he’s a basketball player. Ike, on the other hand, is small for a boy, so I’d say there’s enough of a size difference. “Well, he has a dubious leg injury right now, and can’t really walk. He can’t hurt you that much.” “Yeah, that ain’t the problem, but..., I’ll be ready.” He seemed to have made up his mind to some extent, so I had no reason to oppose him. I had been wondering about Komiya’s condition, and this seemed like a good opportunity. “I heard that Komiya is still sleeping in the infirmary.” ���I’m sure he’s having a hard time in the cabins.” No wonder he spends most of his holidays in the doctor’s office. Ike and I arrive in front of the infirmary. Ike took a deep breath to calm himself down. There was no point in rushing inside, so he waited quietly, and then a loud laugh came from inside. “Hey, what’s that? Let’s go in.” Surprised by the unexpected laughter, Ike opened the door and entered the doctor’s office, unprepared. He was then surrounded by Komiya, who was sitting up, and several of his classmates, including Ryūen, Albert, Kaneda, Kondō, and Yamawaki. Even though someone outside of the class showed up, Ryūen didn’t give us a second glance and stood up. “Sorry for the interruption, Komiya.” As if the conversation was over, Ryūen left the infirmary with his friends. I looked at Ryūen lightly, but he didn’t even give me a glance. “You’re still as scary as ever, Ryūen... I mean, what did he want?” Ike, on the other hand, mumbled to himself as if he couldn’t look directly at Ryūen. It was the first time I’ve ever seen such a thing. “Well, he is powerful, isn’t he? He was just visiting me.” Replied Komiya from the bed. On a small table placed near the head of the bed, there were some sweets and juice that seemed to have been brought in. “Oh, so he was visiting you... He doesn’t seem like the kind of guy who would do something like that.” Ike said what he honestly felt, and Komiya agreed with him. “If it was this time last year, well, it would be unthinkable.” Komiya smiled in nostalgia as he recalled a year ago. “But something’s changed a bit within Ryūen-san. It’s not as if he’s become well rounded though...” Komiya said, somewhat confused but happy. I’m not sure what to make of it, but I think it’s a good thing. It was no wonder that most of his classmates had a strong rejection in their hearts. “I think I can get along with that guy now.” “Follow Ryūen...? I don’t get it.” Ike’s body trembled exaggeratedly as he didn’t seem to understand at all when he asked. “Ike and Ayanokōji, don’t just stand there, please sit down.” Komiya gently welcomed us, even though we were students from the other classes and encouraged us to sit down without hesitation. We took him up on his words and sat down together in the chairs. “You look fine.” Looking at the fixed leg, I check Komiya’s condition. “As you can see, I’m fine except for my legs. But it’s frustrating to think that everyone else is playing around while I’m stuck behind the door, so I hope I get better soon.” “When will you be able to go out?” “I’m going to ask for
permission to go out with my crutches and cane.” They are rivals in love, but surprisingly, the two of them are able to talk on their own. I guess my presence was a bit superfluous. “I’m just a little worried about...” “Worried? With what?” Ike, who was sitting facing away from the chair, put his arm on the backrest and asked Komiya. “Well... it seems like Ryūen is planning to find out who pushed me off. He asked me a lot of questions to see if I remembered anything. Like I told Ayanokōji, I don’t remember being attacked or anything at all.” There didn’t seem to be any difference to his memory since then. Right now, Ryūen’s class is gaining momentum day by day, and it’s time to focus on the sophomore battle to get to Class A. Of course, the same could be said for our class, but we shouldn’t go too deep into this one. If Amasawa, another White Room student, or someone related to Tsukishiro were involved, there was no guarantee that even Ryūen would be safe. “I hope I didn’t overdo it....” “It looks like Ryūen’s going to kill the culprit half to death, right?” For the two of them, there was no way they could envision a vision of Ryūen getting hit. Instead, it was natural for them to worry more about the culprit. “So? It’s not like you’re just here to visit me, is it?” As if he had sensed something, Komiya asked Ike that. At that moment, Ike stiffened as if surprised. “Oh no... Well I...” Perhaps he wasn’t ready yet, but he choked on his words. Seeing this, Komiya waited for his words with a serious face, without prompting. The atmosphere of a place can change visibly in an instant. “Ike. I don’t know what you’re going to say, but if it’s important, look me in the eye and say it.” He must have guessed what he was about to say. Still, Komiya pretended not to know and only urged Ike to speak clearly. It was hard to believe that Ike had noticed Komiya’s suggestion, but he must have felt it as men do. He slapped himself on both cheeks, forcing himself to wake up. “I confessed to Shinohara!” A determined Ike tells him in a simple but loud voice. Silence came immediately afterwards and I found Ike swallowing heavily next to me. “So? What was Satsuki’s response?” “She gave me the okay. We’re going out now.” “I see...” Ike continued to stare at Komiya’s face without averting his gaze as he answered shortly. As he had mentioned earlier, he was scared that Komiya would retaliate out of anger. He could even pop out a surprise shot, or so he thought. “Did you think I was going to hit you?” “Huh?” “It’s written all over your face that you might hit me.” “No, it doesn’t... well, yeah for a second.” “Well, then you’re ready. I can’t move right now, so why don’t you come over here?” The look on Komiya’s face as he demanded to come over did not reveal his true intentions. But from the power of his words, Ike seemed to have made up his mind. He stood right beside Komiya, frightened and frightened. Immediately after, Komiya’s right arm reached out and grabbed Ike’s shoulder. “Ah!” Komiya raised his aching body to the limit and looked into Ike’s eyes. “If you ever make Satsuki cry, I won’t forgive you.” He said, lightly pressing his left fist against Ike’s chest. “That’s all Komiya...?” Komiya Miya’s devilish expression changed to a smile. “Nah, don’t give me that pushy look. Satsuki chose you, that’s all, isn’t it?” “But ...... if you hadn’t been removed from the exam, it might have been the other way around. ......” “I’m sorry, but I don’t think so. I don’t think it was a quick win for me. Just...” “Just?” “If you hadn’t confronted Satsuki and stayed away, I might have had a chance.” Komiya was right. I don’t think it really mattered whether he confessed first or later. He had an accident where he was seriously injured, and Ike happened to be nearby, which created a connection and gave him a big boost, and because of that, he was able to face Shinohara. Without a doubt, this was the most important factor in their relationship. If Komiya hadn’t been injured, if Ike hadn’t been by his side at that time, if either of them had followed a
different fate, it might have been Komiya who would have been next to Shinohara. “In that sense, this injury was just unlucky.” It wasn’t a fulfillment of love, but Komiya seemed to be in the clear. “Thanks, Komiya.” “Study hard, okay? Satsuki... No, Shinohara was worried about that too, you know.” “Yeah, I know. I can’t afford to be expelled from school now.” This love affair could have been a pivotal turning point for Ike. It gave him the opportunity to struggle for himself and for the people he loves, just like Sudō. At last, the report from Ike and the exchange with Komiya settled down. “I’m sorry, Ike, but can I have a word with Ayanokōji alone for a moment? There’s something I need to go over with you about my injury.” “Alright, see you later Komiya. Ayanokōji too.” Ike said goodbye to us and left the room without hesitation. Once the two of us were alone, Komiya spoke up. “Sorry about that. Didn’t Ike ask you to come only to help him?” “No, I came because I was wondering about your condition too. It was more like I interfered.” “That’s not true. I don’t know what... is this right?” “Hmm?” “Me and you guys are in different classes and we’re fighting each other, but we’ve started talking normally. It’s like that kind of thing is fading away. Last year, things were pretty bleak.” If you’re in a different class, you’re supposed to be beating and trying to kick the other down. There are not many advantages to getting along with them, except for strategy. “The uninhabited island exam was a competition between different grades, and we’ve been in the same school for a long time, isn’t that how it is?” “Hmm, maybe.” It was obvious that this was a preliminary chat, and there should be a main topic beyond that. “I mentioned a little bit earlier about the situation with Ryūen-san.” “You said it sounded like he was trying to find the culprit.” “I’m against it. To be honest, I’d rather just say that this was an accident caused by my own mistake.” “But Shinohara has actually seen the existence of the person who attacked you guys.” “I know. But I have a bad feeling about this, and I have a feeling it won’t end well.” Maybe it was because he had been attacked that he felt the danger firsthand. “Can Ayanokōji keep an eye out for that too, even if it’s just for a little while?” “I don’t think there’s anything I can do about it.” “I’m not expecting you to do anything about it directly. If you feel uncomfortable, let me know.” He asked me with a strong gaze. We’ll exchange contact information formally so that we can always be in touch. “Okay, for now, you should focus on healing your injuries as soon as possible.” Resting is the only shortcut to a full recovery. “Thanks, man. Yeah, let me thank you sometime if you want. And give a shout out to the other guys who helped me.” “I think they’ll be glad to hear it. Ike might even let Shinohara be there.” “I don’t want to do that. I think I’d cry if I had to see the two of them making out with each other.” Komiya smiled bitterly, but he was more heartbroken than he looked. It was a mistake to include her name, even if it was simply a tease. Anyway, it’s not a good thing to be injured, but I feel like I’m a little closer to Komiya now. “See you later, Ayanokōji.” “Yeah.” After saying goodbye and leaving the doctor’s office, I suddenly had a strange feeling. My classmates Sudō and Ike, and the rest of the class. Ishizaki and Komiya. Little by little, the number of people around me that I can call my friends is starting to increase. It’s not that I’ve been trying to make friends, but it’s happening. “How to make friends is not something you can put in a textbook.” I thought to myself.
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Remarks by President Trump and Veterans Affairs Secretary Shulkin at Veterans Affairs Listening Session
Roosevelt Room
10:31 A.M. EDT
THE PRESIDENT: A special group of people. Very special to me, very important. And I want to thank you all for being here and for your work on behalf of our nation’s veterans, our great, great people, our veterans.
We’re all united by a very common mission: We will protect those who protect us. I’ve been saying that a lot over the last two years at rallies and speeches. We will protect those who protect us, and that’s just starting, because I think the veterans have not been treated fairly. And David and a group of brilliant, brilliant doctors and businessmen are forming a board, and you’ve got the most talented people that I’ve ever seen working with you. This is -- no more games going to be played at the VA.
And I want to thank David, your Secretary -- your new Secretary, who’s going to be so outstanding. I think he actually passed 100 to nothing. When I heard that vote I said, where did that come from? A hundred to nothing, right? Passed 100 to nothing -- for bringing your vision, experience and determination to the crucial task of reforming the VA and ensuring care for our returning heroes and warriors.
And tonight I’m having a major meeting with some of the people that we put on a board. Ike Perlmutter is an amazing man -- Marvel -- is one of the great, great businessmen of our time, and others -- we’re having a meeting tonight at what we call affectionately the Southern White House. Seems to be the most convenient location. Everybody always wants to go to the Southern White House. So are you going to be at that meeting? You heard about it, right? It’s going to be great -- all about the VA.
The VA’s mission statement is engraved in the plaques outside its headquarters. It reads: “To care for him who shall have borne the battle, and for his widow and his orphan.” And that was stated by Abraham Lincoln. That was Lincoln’s pledge -- called Lincoln’s pledge. But for too many veterans, this hasn’t been their experience at all. We’ve been reading horrible stories over the years, and already, David, I’m hearing it’s getting much better. A lot of improvements are being made and it’s going to change. And under my administration, it will change -- very important to me.
During my campaign, I outlined a detailed plan to reforming veterans’ care throughout the country, and we’re working to put that plan into effect. And it’s moving, I think I can, honestly, ahead of schedule.
As Commander-in-Chief, I will not accept substandard service for our great veterans. Every member of our government is expected to do their utmost to ensure our veterans have the care that they’re so entitled to -- maybe more entitled to than anybody. And that hasn’t been the way they were treated. But it is the way they’re going to be treated.
So again, I want to thank you all for being here. It’s a great honor. And maybe I’ll ask David just to say a few words.
SECRETARY SHULKIN: Sure. Thank you, Mr. President.
THE PRESIDENT: Thank you.
SECRETARY SHULKIN: Mr. Vice President. I wanted to let you know the people in this room are some of the most dedicated, passionate people advocating for our veterans. And they are our partners in this quest to transform VA. And we really are so grateful that they’re here with us standing as partners.
I also want to thank you, Mr. President, for the budget. I think that you’ve honored your commitment to showing that this country cares about the veterans, and you’ve given us the ability to make sure that we are able to care for them. I also wanted to tell you that yesterday the House passed an accountability bill, and we’re very, very grateful for Chairman Roe’s leadership and for the House’s leadership in doing that. We’re looking forward to the Senate bringing a bill forward.
And so, I think, as you said, we’re committed to the plan that you outlined during your campaign to making the VA the type of organization that Americans want it to be, and we’re well on our way to do that. So thank you very much.
THE PRESIDENT: Well, that’s great. And unrelated, we just had a meeting with probably 12 congressmen, and it was an amazing meeting because they were all “nos,” would you say, Mike? They were all “nos” or pretty much “no,” and after 15 minutes -- now, in all fairness, not 15 minutes, it was really actually about four or five days, but after 15 minutes, they went from “no” to all “yeses.” So the healthcare looks like it’s going to be in great shape. It’s a great plan. The press doesn’t give it a fair read but I’ve heard that before. What are you going to do -- the fake news.
But it’s a great plan or I wouldn’t be involved with it. I wouldn’t be involved. So you have 12 “nos,” and we have rejiggered it and we’ve done some great things, but the “nos” in every single case went to a “yes.” So that was a great honor, and healthcare looks like it’s really happening, and it’s going to great.
Obamacare is dead. Some of you folks have yourself -- you have family members that have suffered greatly under Obamacare. It’s dying. It’s just about on its last legs. If we did nothing, if we did absolutely nothing, Obamacare is dead. It will fail. In Tennessee, where I just left, half of the state has no insurance and --no carrier. It’s gone. And they’re going to leave the other half of the state very soon. You have that in many cases. Many states are down to one and they’ll end up with nothing.
So Obamacare is dead. We’re going to come up with a replacement that’s going to be fantastic. We have no support from the Democrats. That’s why it’s a little -- we have to go interesting little routes. Instead of just approving it, it has to be approved in pieces, and that’s working out really well. But we just got 12 very, very great people that went from “no” or “maybe” -- but “maybe” leaning to “no” -- right, Mike? And they all have given me a commitment that they’re voting for our healthcare plan. So that was great.
I want to thank you all for being here, and let’s talk. And the press will leave. Thank you very much.
END 10:38 P.M. EDT
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