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sorry for this boring post but I just wanted to post it quickly because it’s been fifty years since the original post. it was so so hard to decide who to pick so it ended up being twelve people instead of like eight but I hope that’s fine.

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(tee this might be really long)

i, with permission from the friend, was telling them about how upset i was abt my prof and shit bc he didn't accept my medical certificate and gave me a zero on oral recitation and final exam. my friend did a "if it makes you feel better, i had worse thing" where hey disregarded everything i said and started talking about something they experienced.

of course, i did my best to be there and listen. i replied with the "that's really bad" things (i couldn't bring myself to full on be reassuring and stuff bc i was upset. im literally failing a subject because i got admitted to the hospital like ???) and then friend says "you know what forget it".

next day, i saw their tweet and it said "i should stop sharing my problems with people. it's not like they give a shit about them anyway." and checked our conversation, they unsent everything they said yesterday. so, i asked them why theu unsent it and asked if i upset them in any way, and that i apologize for yesterday because i just didn't know what to say or if they just needed to let it out, but they didn't reply. i tried reaching out a few days later, but still nothing.

days later, a mutual friend of ours reached out and said something that our friend was upset at me and asked if i wanted him to break the ice. i said "no, they have to do it themselves because we're both adults". mutual friend told out firend that and then they apparently repied with a "fuck you and goodnight" lmao

i never reached out or opened it since, until earlier today when the mutual friend told me that our friend wants to say "That will be the last time we'll chat because I feel like, you and I don't need to anymore" (ugh, the dramatics). i said "if they didn't have anything good to say, they shouldn't have said anything". and apparently they said that they need to make an effort to talk to me (like really pay attention to what im are saying) and our talks have been exhausting for them. and i said "okay", because im not one to push people if they don't wanna. but then they said "see, that's exactly what i mean"

it makes me guilty for reasons i don't understand. like it was my fault and my responsibility. I've been friends with this person since 5th grade and we did have a 2 year drop because they cut me off saying it's best if we didn't talk? and i reached out again last year and we fixed matters. i think it's getting repetitive, but like i have a few friends already akdkadkwk and im scared of cutting more off but aaagghhh. i dunno what to do.

its okay bb dont appologize, my blog is a safe place for u and me bb <3

im sorry this happening to you and im sorry taht you were hospitalized :/ i hope for the best recover for you and whatever you're going through <3

im gonna be truthfully honest and say that you should drop them. when you said her first response to your misfortune is to insert herself in it completely threw me off, i know she just didn't care. and for the way shes reacting after all of this is happening by disregarding communication and all just show how little you are in her life and you dont deserve it AT ALL. who in the fucking right mind says "oh i had it worse" when someones at their worst instead of offering an ear to listen. subtweeting instead of communication directly???? red flag istg.

she sounds like an emotion vampire, draining other people instead, reading all this made me exhausted already and im not even her friends.

you dont have to take my advice, but as someone who had this kind of friend, i usually distance myself from them. if you can cut them off, thats even better but i just tend to just distance myself. i mean we'll talk if we met or something but shes not gonna be in my close friend circles u know bcs if shes gonna disrespect me and my feelings she has no space in my life. but thats just me, i hope you can sort it out and whatever your decision is im sure you pick the best and i support you all the way <3

get well soon and i hope you'll sort your uni issue and your friend issue too, take a lot of break and take care of yourself and feel free to hmu off anon or anon if u need a break or anything we'll simp together ill be ur friend bb <33