#and if there is already content there for other ppl to engage with and reblog and enjoy etc

[the-kipsabian]

like

i think about some stuff a lot. recently its been more about writing again and how im just. legit here doing my own thing and how im completely okay with that

like i know i could probably do "better" numbers wise if i took time to invest into more popular ships or characters, genres or content (smut. i mean writing smut, which my repulsed ass wont do). but every time i think about it, i come to the conclusion that no. i dont wanna do that. im extremely content where i am right now with my stuff, doing the things i actually enjoy and love doing, creating for ships and characters that need more love anyways, and i have the best co-creator in the world (@ bugs i love you so much you inspire me every day i wouldnt be here without you 💜💜)

like who cares my fics barely reach double digits on tumblr notes without me constantly pushing them or barely get more than two kudos or double digit views on ao3. literally who cares cause i dont

im just happy im writing again and out of everything ive put out recently there has been maybe one or two things ive been kinda meh about. excuse me for being a fan of my work but almost everything i do is a certified banger. they just happen to be in ships nobody cares about. and its still entirely fine with me

[imsobadatnicknames2]

I already said this in the tags of a reblog I did yesterday but. Whatever.

Do I think the existence of spaces like Ao3 is an important achievement in the context of a media landscape that is otherwise increasingly dominated by draconian copyright laws? Yes

Do I think that, while the vast majority of the site's content is not exactly high art, it's worthy of archival and preservation in the same way that underground comix, abrasive music recorded in someone's garage/bedroom, weird low budget film projects, and other "lowbrow" forms of artistic expression are? Yes, of course

Do I think that a lot of the ppl on this website who base a significant chunk of their identity on being Ao3 users tend to have the worst, goofiest, most baffling opinions on media (particularly about the medium of literature) and also often exemplify the logical extreme of a lot of the attitudes and mindsets that make me dislike fandom as the primary way ppl on the internet engage with media? Also yes

[cios-correct-opinions]

@starrynightarchive

big ol tl;dr for anyone looking:

if ppl "not appreciating" female characters by creating content for them bc they don't want to bothers you that much? there's only one thing you can and should do:

MAKE YOUR OWN CONTENT OR APPRECIATION POSTS OR WHATEVER IT IS YOU THINK PEOPLE SHOULD DO INSTEAD AND STOP DEMANDING PEOPLE CHANGE THEIRS. IF YOUR FANDOM SPACE IS LACKING IN CONTENT YOU WANNA SEE? MAKE IT. DO IT. NOTHING'S STOPPING YOU EXCEPT YOURSELF.

but if you don't wanna do that and you don't wanna pay someone to, then stop complaining.

(note re: the discourse thing/me wanting to "start discourse": i only reblogged onto my "discourse" sideblog bc i didn't want this on my main blog. not bc i think it's automatically discourse. political stuff just goes over here now so i can keep the things more separated for my own sake)

op of the post blocked me but im genuinely baffled at this response

because how in the fuck did you gather ANY of that from me saying this

brother all i did was define what the word means. like i am so baffled as to how you decided that i was implying op was transphobic or some shit bc i absolutely was not!

nor was i trying to start discourse. i was literally just saying that, in my experience in the circles i'm in and the people i've seen, doing both is possible and they often do both. i'm not a huge fan of cis genderbends myself in any direction because if i'm gonna genderbend they're gonna be trans given that i am also trans

and then theres this that i said

which everyone seems to have completely ignored. bc that's the crux of this. it's not that they dislike the canon women it's that they want to take their blorbos they love the most and girl them because that's how fandom works. it's about self indulgence. fandom is supposed to be you doing what you love the most, and engaging with the characters you love the most, bc it's about fun

why are yall trying to force people to post abt characters they may not care for for a number of reasons? bc thats what this feels like. it feels like you want ppl to talk abt, post abt, write abt, draw abt, etc, characters they are not super passionate for, simply bc you believe they should, bc you think what they do in fandom is some kind of formula for their like, actual real world beliefs

i genuinely cannot stress enough to you guys that most peoples actions in fandom are almost entirely divorced from any political meaning. or at least, they were, until people started acting like that was a sin actually and that if you liked this character or if you liked too many male characters and not enough female ones that means youre secretly a misogynist who just hates women so much because you don't post about them all the time

most of my fandom blorboposting ends up being about a handful of any random assortment of characters because that's who my brain latches on to, but that doesn't say shit about my feelings about any other character. specifically in bsd, i mostly post and talk about literally two of the characters WAY more than the others bc they are my favorites. this includes ALL the other characters, just about. most of my fanworks are for them and will continue to be for them because they are my OTP and my top two in this series.

why is this important?

because someone genderbending a male character or multiple of them in order to see a CHARACTER THEY ALREADY THINK ABOUT 24/7 AND LIKE A LOT AND HAVE A DEEP ATTACHMENT TO, as a woman, does not mean they don't love and appreciate the canon women. holy shit. that's what i was criticizing in the original post.

also like. most of the ppl doing the genderbending i see are either women or like, somehow woman-aligned, or wlw/attracted to women in some way, etc. and most of them are making these genderbends bc theyre attracted to the canon character. it's self-indulgence it's ALMOST ALWAYS self-indulgence guys it's FANDOM that's what it's FOR you CANNOT FORCE SOMEONE TO CARE ABOUT A CHARACTER FOR ANY REASON AND STILL MAKE AN ETHICAL ARGUMENT OUT OF IT JFC

it wasn't meant to be discourse on my end either. i was trying to offer an alternate reason or perspective of approaching what op seemed to think was an issue given the wording of the post, by offering my personal experience. i also never said op was wrong, by the way, my expression of disbelief was also put alongside me going "maybe it's just the people i follow" because i tend to follow people who, when they do genderbends, are also avid fans of the canon women too, they just like the men they're genderbending more. hence why they're doing that.

this expectation within fandom that people must create content of female characters - or ANY characters - lest they be accused of despising them or not appreciating them is going to be the death of fandom and i'm so fucking serious. you CANNOT insist people spend their time making shit for FREE that they aren't 100% jazzed and excited about in FANDOM SPACES and then get mad when they don't do that and expect fandom to be something that continues for generations as it has in the past

and for the record seeing as how op reblogged with this which. where do i even start lmao. ik they've written me off as a woman-hating misogynist so i'm not expecting good faith arguments in response from them but, c'est la vie

[petrichoraline]

For the honest answer ask game: what's the history of your blog? (this really just includes how/when you began blogging on tumblr, content, your interactions and your special moments on here etc; whatever you wish to prioritize for the ask in context).

honest hour question answered 3 days later <3 truly hope the wait was worth it love hahah

as someone who's gone through my archive already, you know i started out as a bts fan account in 2015. (my previous blog is not gonna be discussed for the simple reason that it's barely relevant to this one)

i believe i used to tag and organise my reblogs? there was a time where i cared enough and i loved srolling through my own blog, i stopped enjoying that when i became more involved w/ fandom on here and things weren't aesthetics based anymore. i don't like going through it that much now. i used to play around with themes, search for them, tweak colours and fonts for hours. after i returned years later there was an issue with the editor so now i can't change my theme at all and it sucks cause i just want to edit a few things.

so it started of as a bts fanblog, then i started rb-ing other kpop stuff, maybe afterwards i started sharing gifsets from movies and series i liked? as for fandom, i had a good amount of mutuals - accidentally became one with a girl from my country, we went out once and it was very nice <3 procrastinated and lost track fo tag games back then too lmaoo i felt a lot of dissatisfaction over it so i try to do everything now with my current fandom :)

back then is when i started reading fanfiction - i believe my first imagine was a taegi one where v was an artist and yoongi a photographer lol i stumbled upon it on the dash randomly and i got introduced to ao3 a bit after

iirc for the following years after i'd stopped stanning bts, i used to come back either relatively often or once in a blue moon - in the beginning i was just enjoying wtv my dash was offering me or seeking out specific stuff, then i started using it as a tracklist of what shows i've watched haha, no tags, just rb after finishing a show.

i started engaging with fandom around the release of episode 5 of kinnporsche, i read a bunch of posts on here, then tms2 came around and i got even more into reading people's takes..at some point i started talking to people i guess hahah i don't even know when i started trying to put out content, so to say, i just know i was doing screenshot posts short before i found myself pushed to attempt gifs and that was after big dragon had just finished airing.

then i started my giffing journey. had support from @gillianthecat whom i loved giffing paulnice for. honestly that and the discussions we had were such an important part of me having fun with this site and keeping it up. and @joyladagang, my self-proclaimed #1 hype woman, made me feel super welcome. then i got even more moots, at some point i started reaching out or actively reciprocating others attempts at getting closer (though i had been active in discussions before that, i just mean i got a bit braver and started acting more familiar with everyone (esp w/ ppl i got closer to through @joyladagang like @cankersoregirl, @feralmuskyscentedhoepran, @loserlesbianongsa etc.)

i'm grateful to a lot of people on here, truly. it's not supposed to be a shoutout post so i won't be tagging any more people (esp since i would have to tag everyone who follows me plus a bunch of people i follow which..it's a bit much) but i'm genuinely thankful for each person that enjoys my rants, gifs, theories or wtv the things i post classify as, whether they found a post by accident or follow the blog. and i'm grateful to the creators i follow, and i'm happy to talk to so many sweet, smart and funny individuals on various topics daily.

so this is where my blog is at right now - trying to do a bit of everything and talking a bit with everyone. my issue, tbh, is i'm trying a bit too hard to satisfy everyone which sounds ridiculous but i am a bit of a people pleaser at times so it checks out lol

[myopicry]

I've already sent you an ask (more like a ramble on aesthetics and its relation to women) around a week ago, you're probably inactive atm (which isnt a bad thing btw!) but i'm gonna send another thing in (something unrelated to my last ramble lol).

now that i've spent time both in radfem/"terf" spaces and trans positive/inclusive(?) ones, i've noticed how scared the latter are of being even *slightly* associated to the former. it's oddly funny and kind of silly when you think about it. ppl have talked about this before but i'm referring to stuff like "op is a terf" and "terfs dni". the latter has been especially poignant to me recently for some reason: a trend ive seen is that ppl often write that in their bio after having created a post which some radfems or GCs reblogged/engaged with and they've used the classic "so terfs have come across this and i just wanted to let it be know that i dont like you guys" (altho worded much less kindly). it's like they're *terrified* of being perceived by ppl who share their views as even just somewhat affiliated to the "other" in any way, shape or form. or they're terrified of the other following them and interacting with their content. it feels very defensive and overly "loud" to me, idk?... the "op is a terf" has been talked about a lot in the radfem/GC spaces, so this might be a shorter section (update: it's not, lmao), but as that one post said: "it's a thought terminating cycle". I think that's one of the reasons i haven't checked out what the hell these "terfs" were actually saying and arguing (apart from screenshots of JKR tweets) for so long. it rlly proved to me how engaging with media from other "sides" is crucuial, even if you probably wont agree most of the time. if anything, i think i just wanted to be a good ally: i love debating and i wanted to know how to respond to "terf rhetoric" better. i remember feeling surprised by what i saw, not feeling the immediate "this is illogical and bad" feeling, and having trouble arguing against certain points. i couldn't even find good counter arguments from other ppl. and then there was a domino effect (altho i havent adopted all radfem and GC POVs and dont consider myself as a radfem or rad leaning/GC). even some trans friends of mine were surprised when i reported my findings to them. i'll stop here even though i can talk about this for much longer, but those "terfs/radfems dni" bios rlly stick out to me now and made me think lol. hope to see you back soon! ~🪼

hi hi! apologies for the delay! I did in fact spend some personal time offline, it was quite nice and it is probably a much healthier thing than spending most of my day on tumblr lmao but I can't deny I did miss speaking openly about my opinions on things, especially certain observations that I absolutely would not be able to discuss with my irls unless I wanted to sit them down for a multi-hour lecture just to make sure I wasn't misunderstood ^_^|||

anyway I just saw both your asks (eloquently written as ever!) and will respond to this first just because I saw it first lmao. not much to add other than maybe rambling myself about some of my own similar experiences and what not. you've put it into words great though! there is almost this "mystical" denouncement of terfs/radfems/gender criticals who are mislabled as just radfems etc. within trans spaces, and as I've looked more and more into "terf" ideology this kind of hatred really does go back far, to a point where it's basically impossible to even mention radical feminism or gender critical feminism without immediate hostility. like a sort of legend or custom, being wary/outwardly hateful of the demonic terf. maybe this is why when I heard gender ideology being likened to a religion, the analogy really clicked with me, because on some level trans-inclusive spaces really do make terfs feel like "the devil", some root of all evil, the parallel to the "divine" that they liken themselves to. I'm fairly atheistic myself in regards to just religion in general, so understanding being gender critical as essentially "gender atheism" helped me realize how logically flawed and slightly harmful a vehement belief in trans ideology could be, just as a non-critical perspective on any religious ideology can be.

I definitely relate to the point of basically falling into the radfem rabbit hole accidentally. I don't really feel like I'm properly a radfem or especially an activist (I do just write what's on my mind and that I can't really get engagement from my pre-existing social circles lol) and I honestly got into the ideas not through radblr but imageboards and forums through my bad habit of looking for material to "invalidate" me as some kind of "doom-scrolling" practice, but instead of finding blind hatred (even in the most niche of internet corners, where the ideology does get radical indeed) I found logical, cogent arguments and reasoning for why these people were so against gender ideology. I mean, yes, there was still hatred, but there's hatred on every corner of every internet space, and it also made me realize how my belief in not committing "thought crimes" by even entertaining "terf" rhetoric was simultaneously making me blind to the genuine flaws and ickier aspects of the trans + queer community that I was just sort of ignoring with cognitive dissonance. as a woman and someone with really god awful people-pleasing habits, I was unfortunately quite good at ignoring things that made me uncomfortable in order to maintain social acceptance and a good reputation in the eyes of others, and even if I don't share every radfem or gc belief, I can't deny being exposed to them all was absolutely integral to unraveling some of that unhealthy behavior.

based on my personal experiences, it is really actually quite disheartening to see that "radfem/terf dni" thing happen so much online. you really can't expect to never challenge your own thinking. in fact, challenging your preconceived notions is the only way you can grow as a person in your personal philosophy and conception of the world. I get it though, it is probably scary to engage with the "forbidden fruit" if your whole self-proclaimed all-accepting community says that this is one thing that is absolutely intolerable and will get you kicked from this welcoming "club". I will say, having opened this proverbial pandora's box of theory, I get a bit more angry and cynical at the state of the world (how did I never notice the staggering affects of misogyny before?), and I get a bit more sad that I'll never be able to have that unquestioning community with people who are supposed to understand me. I wonder if there are more people who would honestly be able to understand the nuances in critiquing gender ideology out there, but they fear that ostracization too. if by some random chance anyone like that ever reads this exact post (lol what are the odds) I always like to remind people that a burner email and account on something like tumblr is incredibly easy to set up!

alright, lemme get to your other ask because it is really interesting and thanks again for visiting!! I genuinely missed engaging with this kinda stuff offline, and I also get tired being the one to drip feed new ideas to people in person. it's really nice to just get a nice well written insight to engage with unfiltered (well, as unfiltered as a tumblr post under a pseudonym can be lmao)

[stinkrascal]

I think no one likes my tav :( I love that simblrs began to share other games like bg3! And the small amount that does it sticks together! They reblog each other's bg3 posts, do art for them, put cute tags to support each other, so nice to see!! I really want to be part of that, but no one seems to actually like the bg3 stuff I post🥹 do you have any advice for me?

hi anon, i'm sorry you're feeling this way :( to be honest i don't really know what could be causing ppl to overlook your posts. idk what advice i could give you bc some of my bg3 posts do really really well, and some of them get like maybe 5 notes depending on what time and what day i post 🙈 but please dm me if you like i'd love to follow u if i don't already!! i love rbing bg3 posts on my blog i'd love to rb your posts too! i want everyone to feel included in this community you know ;-; even if you don't feel like your posts get enough attention i promise that isn't an indication of you not being wanted in this community!! it just means you haven't found your audience yet, and that's totally ok. it took me many years of posting consistently on simblr before i found ppl who were interested in my silly video game screenshots and tbh i feel major imposter syndrome for even saying that like jade stfu what do u mean ppl care about your screenshots no they dont😭 so like idk. for me when i get really worked up about feeling like nobody cares about what i post i just try to like......... make a circle of a few mutuals whose opinions i really cherish and every time they interact with my posts in any capacity, liking, commenting, reblogging, etc, i consider that post a win lol. be like "oh well my circle of elite mutuals all liked this post that means this post is pretty cool isnt it!!" lol that sounds silly but it helped a lot for me, bc i was really prone to getting myself in these cycles where i felt like if my posts didnt hit a certain note count that means i suck and nobody likes my stuff and thats a sucky way to feel you know!! and like i don't really know how i can optimze your note count for you, idek how i optimize my own, at this point ive given up on that endeavor bc it just puts too much weird pressure on myself to live up to an arbitrary and unreachable standard. but i think trying 2 reframe the way you think about this situation is just as helpful, it was really helpful for me at least. obv i think tumblr is a place where our posts SHOULD be shared ie reblogging stuff!! and i always always always encourage people to reblog posts bc thats how our community grows and flourishes, thats literally how tumblr has to function to survive so DO IT!! but also with all that being said, it will be better for u in the long run if you don't put a lot of pressure on yourself to hit a certain note count to be a valid participant in this community, instead make it about the love of sharing your creations online, and being content w the fact that your creations are still cool even if it didn't hit a certain level of engagement u desired!! and you know what, when you start loving and passionately posting about your creations, ppl pick up on that excitement. they get excited too!! and then before you know it you do have a community of support! so please dont unduly stress yourself my friend. does this make any sense. idk. YOU GOT THIS ANON I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!!

[kenobster]

I would like to point out something that some people possibly don't know. And that is the fact that...

...if you've been active on this website for longer than a month, then I can almost guarantee you're more popular than me.

I'm quite content with this. I'm weird, unpalatable, and often freaky, and I have no interest in changing. However, due to recent Events™, I feel like it's worth pointing out. So, below are some screenshots displaying some very intimate & vulnerable blog information lmao.

Note: Names and partially icons have been redacted out to protect people's privacy. :) For the sake of transparency, however, I did leave one name unredacted*, but I want to be clear that, while I may disagree with their takes, I hold no ill will toward them and they did nothing wrong.

To recap, I only have 138 followers. Additionally, these screenshots show my activity for most of the day today. Which is actually the most activity my posts have gotten in probably months.

Maybe a couple of you will be surprised by this information, and I guess that's fair. I'm coming from an old abandoned fandom blog that DID have a lot of followers after all, so it's possible that I carry myself a certain way in online spaces. (Not to mention, I'm a mega-introvert, so I have the message response time of a hermit, which often aligns with BNF response time hahahha.)

However, the truth of the matter is that, while I ocassionally write the decent fic on Ao3, I am little more than a grain of sand on the dunes of Tumblr. When I reblog a post to snarkily disagree with the original poster, I know at the time of hitting the submit button that the maximum number of ppl who are gonna see my snark is 138. That's the maximum. The number of people who will see it and maybe even skim it? That's probably more like 10. The number of people who will actually agree with it, think it's in good taste, and/or want to interact with it? Well, judging by my activity log and the recent highlighted example, clearly zero (0).* Lmao. In other words, I know very well that making reblogs will not hurt the original poster or their reputation. The only harm that can possibly come from my snarky reblogs is the snark itself. (... which, speaking of, if you can't handle ppl disagreeing with your literary analysis & meta posts on the public interwebs, then maybe don't make literary analysis & meta posts on the public interwebs.)

Of course, beloved victims of my snarky reblogs have every right to respond however they see fit. In fact, everyone on this website has the right to respond however they see fit (in accordance with the law and the website's terms and conditions, of course). Reblogging my posts to tell me how wrong I am is totally valid. There's nothing wrong with that. Nothing different from what I did in the above example. Nothing I didn't invite.

But I would appreciate it if people remembered the fact that, no matter what led anyone to believe otherwise, I am actually not a heavy influence around here. Maybe other people who do get a lot of engagement are anxious of the influence my snark might generate, but I guarantee you that any disagreement is probably starting and ending with me (or maybe like one other person). Furthermore, I am allowed to participate in discourse, whether or not my opinions align with widely-accepted fanon.

Anyway this post is not to shame anyone nor call anyone out. Even if I wanted to do that, I clearly lack the influence. This post is merely meant to share my stance on recent events in order to protect my image and my mental wellbeing. That's it. <3

*Edit: For transparency, I drafted this post and then sat on it to decide how I felt before posting. In that time, I gained a few more notes on my activity log, but the screenshots were already saved and ready to go. So here's the additional activity log information... Two notes were responses (that I greatly appreciated but am too tired to respond to atm) to a comment I made on someone else's post, and a couple of them were a like/reblog of the Vader in a dress post that I made earlier. There was one reblog of the subject snarky reblog I made, but the number of ppl who interacted with it remains at 0-3. FYI, I will not be keeping track of this number going forward because I unfortunately have a life.

*Edit 2: I have decided to redact this name too. I'm still chill with them, and everything's good. <3

[tomdutch]

Hey um I know there's a large chance that you most likely won't see this, but I just have to say this. When you had first spoken up about leaving the fandom I was confused as to why because I didn't really realize how dry it was becoming. I just wanna say how utterly correct you were. It has declined even moreee since your leave (not saying you caused it or anything). I sometimes find myself comparing the notes/reblogs from Tom!peter fanfics to the tasm!peter ones and the difference is astounding ( it has me wondering if anyone even knows that Tom!peter exists). It's really sad, the fandom honestly can't be revived, like where is everyone??? I have so many questions about the decline of content in the fandom ( I know the interactions from the readers played a huge part, but I also feel like there may have been other factor that lead to this.) Did everyone in the fandom just grow up or something?? Anyways, I miss you lots and hope you are doing well and your new fandoms are treating you right.

wow this was a doozy to read but in a good way 😭 the delusional main character side of me wants to think my absence had an impact of any kind lmaooo but to be honest, the fandom was already in really bad shape.

lack of reader interaction personally wasn’t that big of a factor for me, i was incredibly lucky and am still grateful for the consistent feedback and love y’all gave me and i still sometimes look through reblogs on my fave fics for writing inspo :”) it meant so much to me and i look back with so much fondness on all the fun times we had with more interactive series, especially break my heart.

not to sound like i’m giving a ted talk, but what drove me away more than anything was the toxicity of the fandom. granted all fandoms have a certain level of it, but this one was really, truly bad in 2021-2022. there’s only so much consistent harassment and suicide bait a girl can overlook while still feeling welcome and excited abt this space 😭 when i look back at that stuff now i’m honestly shocked so many people stayed as long as we did.

rabid shipping culture aside, i personally feel like the mcu spiderman franchise took a big hit in no way home that drove a lot of ppl away. obviously they couldn’t keep going forever with a 30 year old guy playing a 19 year old, but their creative decisions in nwh are questionable at best to me. the end of mcu peter’s story was so final and abrupt that, combined with how flip-floppy the writers were abt a follow-up trilogy with new characters and a time jump, didn’t leave much room for fanfic to carry on. they quite literally erased mcu peter as a character and individual from the mcu itself lmao it would be pretty hard for people to write copious fanfics about a guy who has no one bc no one knows who he is and his family is dead as hell.

that being said, i really am sorry you feel like it’s difficult to enjoy and share your passion in this space. that feeling sucks and i hope that, if you write fanfic, the lack of engagement and content doesn’t stop you from being creative and sharing what you wanna share. trends and fandoms come and go in waves, you never know when a piece of media or an actor has a revival in the general public. i don’t know what roles tom has going on but if you feel inspired to engage in them when the time comes, i’m sure there will be ppl there to interact. you’re never too ‘grown up’ to enjoy fandom, especially not one as iconic and timeless as spider-man in all variations. if there’s a character, there’s ppl out there creating art for them.

in the meantime, i hope life treats you kindly as well and thank you for your ask :”) if you ever wanna chat with me, i’m still active on my main, or if you’re more comfortable here i still check in on this blog every other month 💛

[50cal-fullauto-astarion]

that art is beautiful, i'm also just obsessed with how you write könig. the nervous energy needing to be burned, the hyena-like laugh, the way he curls into himself when he's ashamed UGH it's so good and fucked up and human i love it!!!!!!!!!! i look forward to anything you write for him in the future (also i think you're gonna drag me into the bg3 fandom, i have no idea what's goin on there but damn if you do not reblog the most interesting shit about those characters!)

ISN’T IT JUST 😭😭❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 I got so blessed with @utttoka ‘s talent and loveliness in wanting to share their vision of my take of him, I just jump up and down when I go back and look at it dghj 🥹🥹

And THANK YOU 💖💖 like logically he’s such a minor character in a campaign with much more fleshed out and interesting characters played by amazing actors, but I really just went full crab with knife and just picked him up and ran LMAO. I put a lot of thought and attention into my portrayal of him (and at this point he’s basically just an OC), and I still do, and he’s ended up being very special to me. Not to get too corny about it, but I’ve put enough of myself into my rendition of him that he’s become a significant comfort character, and I’m so glad that ppl respond to how I write him and relate to him and find him believable and engaging fghgd.

I AM gonna take a min here and get faintly cornball about it, but I’ve been - hi this is after-work rags and i'm here to finish up my thoughts on this topic now that i'm home and looking up lockets to put video game character pictures in. life's a fuckin joke and i'm going to laugh the hardest. ANYWAY.

i've been spending a lot of time considering my place in the CoD fandom through a myriad of lenses (some far FAR weightier than others, but with thoughts that ppl far more intelligent and articulate than me have already put to words), but it basically has boiled down to the condensed soup of "is this making me happy, is this giving me an outlet, is it time for me to shift my focus and step away, or should i change my approach to the things i'm creating?"

sorry for turning your sweet and kind ask into a like sljlskjd semi-existential crisis sweetie. i'll cut it short and basically sum up with: i still love these characters even if i'm neck deep in bg3, i still want to tell my stories with my versions of them, and i'm pretty sure i'm gonna just switch to solely "oc x" content after finishing up the last reader-based projects i have going, so at the least i'm having fun. christ, off the soap box now, sorry again dldjs.

BUT AGAIN, THANK YOU FOR ENJOYING MY PORTRAYAL OF THE BIG AUSTRIAN ASSHOLE, I HOPE YOU ENJOY THE STUFF I DO WITH HIM IN THE FUTURE <3 <3

(ALSO PLEASE GET DRAGGED IN BG3, THE COMPANIONS ARE A FUCKIN MESS, THE GAME IS SO FUN AND HEARTWRENCHING AND KICKS SO MUCH ASS. I WOULD TO HEAR ANY SCREAMING ABOUT IT FROM YOU THAT YOU MIGHT WANNA DO IF YOU JUMP IN THE HELL HOLE WITH ME SLKJSD)

[moonchildstyles]

i had a question!! i know a lot of other writers on this platform wish they got more engagement and have thought about or have already left. i was just wonder if you ever felt that way? bc if you do i will definitely step up my game so that you stay (ur my fav 💋)

Idk I mean I know I’m on the more fortunate side of how much interaction I get and I’m so grateful for it and I love every little bit I get esp across all the platforms I am on so I don’t want anyone to think I don’t notice and love it!! So Ive never thought ab leaving tumblr before or anything like that so don’t worry but it’s def a thing to go through and give all your fave content creators support in terms of sharing their work and sending support in the form of a nice message or reblog or whatever so I def think it’s super important even if someone isn’t considering leaving just bc this can be something that can keep ppl from getting to that point at all! But thank you for checking in and seeing how I’m feeling ab all of this it really means a lot so thank you thank you!!!! 

[jefferythejelly]

Ooooh you made interesting point. I started watching dnp in December 2020 so the phandom I know is completely different from what it used to be before. Because nowadays it's just bunch of older than teenagers queers vibing and reblogging posts from each other. But from what I gathered and what you said it really was similar. And it most definitely changed massively after they came out. What makes another difference to dnf because dream is already out

@minecraftdog

yeah it was pretty crazy back in the day, shipping was basically The Thing that the phandom was known for and it was basically assumed that if you were in the phandom you shipped phan. looking back there’s a lotta stuff i’m kinda wary of now, especially the like… weird micro-analyzing of every action to prove “phan is real”/that they were gay, which i’m p sure dan mentioned as being super bad for his mental health in his coming out video. i’m glad it’s chilled out way more now. i feel like shipping culture has changed quite a bit since then, there’s def more ppl actively against it now when there wasn’t before and i think a lot of that does have to do with the fact that back then shipping was basically synonymous with what we would now call “truthing” where there was always this sort of undercurrent of trying to prove/wanting your ship to be real, which obviously got super weird and invasive. tbf there is still some of that now but i feel like overall it’s shifted more towards a sort of “we’re just doing this for fun” kinda vibe. there’s also the whole boundaries thing, and while that’s it’s own whole can of discourse worms i feel like it’s mostly a good thing, especially for places like twitter or twitch chats where creators seeing shipping content is more likely (and there’s likely more younger fans who haven’t quite gotten the hang of how to healthily engage w parasocial relationships and are more likely to be weird about shipping). anyways thanks for enabling me to ramble abt shipping, it’s one of those weird little fandom things i think is super interesting especially as someone who’s been on just about every side of the whole “is rpf shipping morally okay” debate lol

[cybertistiic]

i want to make a call out post about someone but like at the same time i don't bc i don't wanna get caught up in any drama and that's not rlly what i do here but i just want my followers/mutuals to be safe from ppl like them and not give them any attention.

also im probably gonna have to put up a dni list so ppl like them will stop engaging with my content when i don't want them to. though it probably won't do anything bc these types of ppl have no fucking respect for boundaries whatsoever.

[superduperkas]

Pls make sure to take the time to engage with sapphic media on entertainment and social media platforms

Engagement helps show execs there is interest in the show and also helps spread the word about the TV show or movie which will draw in more ppl to the audience

Engagement looks like:

Reblogging or sharing posts/content about sapphic media

Tying in to the above point, don't only like posts. Only liking posts doesn't spread the word about the media. It's only showing the creator of said post that you like said media. You want to display your interest to others outside of who created the original post

Rate and review. If review bombers can "rate and review" so can you

Create original content/posts about sapphic media. This doesn't have to be too complicated. Sharing your thoughts, reviews, and reactions in a tweet or text post for others to see and engage with

Support content creators who take the time to create podcasts, vlogs, fanart, and share honest reactions and opinions on sapphic media. Especially if the content creator is queer

Be LOUD about the impact sapphic media has on you

Too many ppl are made aware of fantastic sapphic shows AFTER they've already been canceled because marketing for these shows is basically non-existent and the sapphic community tends to be more reactive than proactive

Be proactive engaging with sapphic media so we don't have to be reactive

[minccinoocappuccino]

What's the worst take you saw in this hell hole about a twst character?

Mmmm It’s hard to say that I've seen bad takes about characters and more like I’ve seen bad takes about one character only since I don’t go into tags or engage with the fandom outside of what's on my blogs or who talks to me first.

I won't message someone first to talk ….mutism

But If I had to say the worst take I’ve seen its’s def the Leona would treat a female mc better than a Male mc. I think it has a lot to do with ppl not understanding what respect means tbh.

Respecting women doesnt mean treating women better than men Respecting women doesnt mean worshiping a woman

And it feels like all the time someone says this for Leona this is what they mean. I’ve seen lots of Leona would change the way he behaves if he found out the Mc was a girl or Leona would start trying to make it up to them for the way he treated him when I don’t think he would at all.

I see a lot of ppl using the painting as a example of why Leona would do a complete turn for his character and act diff towards a Female Mc and It sit kinda odd with me since they never use his interactions with Eliza as also something to go off of. Leona had no preconceived notion about the painting before he was told about her so he was ready to treat her with respect while he did have one about Eliza and didn’t like her.

Leona already knows the MC we have interacted and talked to so he isnt going to change how he acts towards us now. Even when we first met him we stepped on his tail so right off the start he had an annoyance towards us Male or Female doesnt matter.

The respecting women thing doesnt mean women are always right or held above men as Ive seen ppl say he would. And this is one reason why I dont go into the Leona tag anymore that and other things

A lot of the stuff made in this fandom is made by women. The fandom is female dominated. I get that and respect that. That being said because it’s stuff by women for women it doesnt scratch my itch as a gay man. And thats ok! I dont expect everything to be made with me in mind or that ppl should cater to me and my interests. Most of my mutuals fall into this and I dont mind it. I like and reblog there stuff when I see it on my dash. I have no problem with this content at all.

But when I used to go into the tag it's all the content I would see so I dont go into the tag anymore and if i do its just to reblog the character fan art I see

This is nothing against the writers in the fandom who write femaleMC x canon there aloud to write what interest them and this isnt a call to action for the fandom to include more MaleMC in there stuff this is me just saying that content doesnt appeal to me I’ve tried to look at the BL tag but again most of it is by Women for Women and as a gay man its easy for me to tell when something is rep gay men or when it’s just for women to enjoy and again its just not my cup of tea so i dont look at it. I make my own MLM content and stay in my corner of the fandom.

I also don't want anyone to take this as an attack or a diss cus it's not. Its me just saying im not a fan of this kinda content i don't care if it's out there i just aint going to b looking at it

And if u r someone who writes Leona as acting diff towards a female Mc and thinks he would treat them way better than a Male Mc ur allowed to write or depict this but im also allowed to say i think its a shit take nothing against you just ur take

Sorry that this rambled on long sjsjjssjjsjjsjsj I dont usually state my opinion on things but this is sumthing i see a lot and i think its so stupid but to each there own ya know

[byunbaekhyunie]

you made baekhyun look grainy and washed out and like he had been left sitting in a puddle of muddy water for a very long time, you made him grey and ugly and i really wondered how you managed to make this pretty a video look so grimey

again, criticism is welcomed but maybe ease up on the vitriol a little, idkw you're talking like we're having a fight

anyways, i don't consider myself that good at making gifs, i personally think i am very lacking compared to other ccs on here so please, i invite you to follow anyone else should you feel so offended by the quality of my content. there's plenty of very talented ppl who gif for bbh/exo, i'll be more than happy to provide you with a list if you want

now to address your grievances. if you don't like grain, well i do. simple as that. when it comes to me ruining the video? i guess?... sure, serving its intended purpose: to be youtube content, the video gets the job done well enough but you obviously have no concept of what constitutes nice source material for gifs — which is fine — but don't get on your high horses with me as if you know better. by all means, if you could do a better job than me: be my guest, i'd be the first to reblog it

the video was shot dimly lit, it's underexposed, they filter the hell out of his skin which kills the resolution, not to mention youtube's horrendous compression. the original video itself is washed out. this is a raw screengrab as it appears in ps after encoding:

to compare with my grimey coloring:

it's not the coloring job i'm most proud of, far from that. actually in the tags of my post i clearly stated that i was unsatisfied with the quality of these myself so. not teaching me anything new here. but ok, too grainy, too dull, too grey, perhaps something like this would be more to your taste:

i am well aware that this kind of coloring is way more attractive than the one i settled on and that, chances are, my post would've gotten more engagement had i chosen this coloring for my post but i've let go of that mentality long ago

everyone approaches giffing differently and with different intentions. i'm personally not someone with a road map, i just go with the flow of whatever i feel like doing that day, my general ethos is to flatter the source material and/or its subject as much as possible, but i also like to experiment and try different things. to me, this coloring hereinabove strays too far from the original palette which makes the colors too unnatural and adds to the already considerable amount of artifact even with minimal sharpening. it's also very generic looking

it's funny to me that you picked that muddy puddle analogy, in an effort to upset me i presume, but I like that image actually. wasn't that the concept of the video to begin with? kyoong radio to cheer you up on a bleak, rainy day? i think that's why they made the artistic choice of filming in soft lighting, and going with the under-saturated, low contrast, "washed out" look. or at least, that's my interpretation of it. so even if it's not to your preference, i think i somewhat hit the mark with what i was originally trying to do

i personally don't think my gifs look too grey. i'm most disappointed that i couldn't recover more of baekhyun's skintone in the gifs that i posted, trust me i am, but i tried smth a little experimental and i'm still happy with how they came out, they remind me of old camcorder footage. i know that it is among my worst performing sets but like i said idc, i like them

also they're literally just gifs &baekhyun loves me

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Recently completed story:

DNF below cut

DNF:

Baseline stuff

TERFs, radfems, truscums, transmeds, gender critical people, exclusionists, etc. (includes not thinking aspec ppl are valid and queer, buying into or perpetrating pan v bi discourse (they’re both epic), not respecting or believing in neopronouns/xenogenders, etc.)

Pedos/MAPs and any variant of that

Pro-ship/anti-anti people

AND

Hard self identified “antis” (purity culture/anti kink/doxxers/similar)

(Internet convos around kink in both spaces are just dumb and bad lol. I don’t want any part in it)

Anti-AO3 ppl

Kink blogs (BDSM, DDLG, A/B/O, etc.) (just not comfy with pure fetish/kink focused blogs following this account as it’s not a kink blog)

People who treat queer as an unreclaimable and evil word (q slur, q word, etc.)

Pewdiepie, Harry Potter, Hetalia, or Attack on Titan fans

People against self diagnosis

Pro-lifers

Procop/anti acab

Anti-mask (if you just don’t mask much or at all because of the shift in culture and laws around it, I get that, but please try to do that more regularly because it is safer for you and those around you. Covid is deadly and even when it isn’t can leave you with long term health effects and we need to take care of ourselves and each other, not just when we’re already sick)

Pro-Israel/Palestinian occupation

My own personal stuff

RPF fans and content creators

Ppl who engage in ship wars/character bashing

DSMP fans

Into or reblog Winnie the Pooh gore or find it funny

People who hate Bruce Wayne

Serious/romantic Khonshu x the MK system shippers

Ppl who think intersystem MKnight ships are gross AND ALSO ppl who ship them in an uncomfortable way (like making it incest or yandere, or create w infantilization n fetish vibes)

Believe in intensely violent or evil depictions of Jake Lockley

Users close to/friends w users blushnik or melodygatesauthor

People who think cartoons and animation are childish or more basic than live action

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