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I FRİCKİNG HATE THE PEOPLE IN THE REPLIES! BRICK! DEAR YOU ARE DOING A FANTASTIC JOB! DON"T YOU FRİCKİNG DARE RESIGN! I WILL CRY!
RULE NUMBER WHO KNOWS OF TUMBLR ! LOOK AT THE TAGS, MORE INFO IN TAGS!

[ID: Three tags from the original post: Relatable ad, totally not cringe, actual photo of tumblr staff]
Relatable ad, totally not cringe. What does that mean, oh I don't know, maybe it is irony, but nooo.
Actual photo of tumblr staff. Oh my, is this making fun of yourself? It can't be.
(My dear friends, do you think they don't know we are called tumblrinas? That, using the wrong word makes the meme more funny?)(btw, I know and hope most of you were joking in the replies,i my word is to the other ones)
I know I am unproportionally protective of a person just doing their job; but they are doing a good job at their job and their job is one of the reasons we can have this website as it is(as we like it).
Like yes, it shows up 20 times(at first when ads were new, probably because of my location, I had no ads but tumblr ads. I didn't even get the landscaped ones. I know how it feels to see the same ad again and again), but ads on tumblr are better then most(*cough*all*cough) other websites, they don't cover content and you can just scrool thru. And tumblr tumblr ads are plain old lovely, they don't flash, they try to be either funny or cute(they usually succeed), and they carry the inherited funny factor of promoting the product on the product.
Also, Brick and the emporium/tumblr shop/marketing/merchendise team is doing a steller job right now. Like I have zero moneys and I especially have zero moneys I can justifiably spend on shipping but I get so close to buying stuff from tumblr shop whenever I look at it(that's another thing, I like looking thru the shop! what?). Like, there are funny meme stuff, there are tumblr memoribilia(how the frick do you write that word?), then there is actually cool looking can use it in real life stuff.
Like all teams, sometimes they hit the mark, sometimes they miss it. Some memes of theirs will not be for you, some will make you keel over with laughter. You will look at some of their products and go "ugh, who wants that", and your fingers will itch to buy some. (Or maybe, you will hate all of their products, all of their memes, that's okay too) but you should realise, it is pretty much impossible to create something that will be loved by all. There will be things created in this world that you will hate and let me tell you, there will be things you will love that will be hated by a lot of people.
And I understand disliking ads, like I get bloodthirsty on youtube, unskipible ads, not even one but two, oh I am evil. But like, the way to handle said ads is not to write hate messages to the people whose job is to create said ads?
I understand getting frusturated that tumblr which was once clean off of ads is now filled with them. But if muskrat tought us anything, it's that social media sites are hard to make money off of. And they require a lot of money to maintain, money they don't generate.
I don't know how it is right now but I remember hearing that tumblr doesn't make a profit, like it requires the parent company to lose money to keep up. And untill a solution to that is found, Tumblr can be seen as being on borrowed time. And I don't know about you guys but I love tumblr, it's the one social media site I like and use, I love the culture we have here, I love the anonimity, I love the lack of algorithm, I love that I can reach to the end of my recomended, I love the fandoms, I love the weirdness, I love the fricking blue. I don't want it gone.
And so I respect Brick, a person who is getting paid to create stupis memes and memeble products for this website I adore. Amd who is doing a really good job at that.

#btw there is a way to make the ads get lost#called ad free I think#I understamd not wanting to pay for things#I just explained how I don't have any moneys#but you also gotta understand that services cost money to provide#and arguably#tumblr making money off of weird products#is not only on brand#not only ectreamly funyy#but also is probably one od ths beat aolutions out therr#also tumblr's own ads showing up regularly is scaring me a little#like does tumblr get ads from other companies?#cause if they don't that's kinda bad#like really bad#frick I hope that's not the case#and if it's this beheviour is the reason#like I can remember seing this one ad for this one weird product1#it was cute#a small bussiness#product was handmade#and the ad literally showed how to make the product#it was a tutorial I am not kidding#and here were people#freaking out on the replies#it was kinder then whatever this is#but it wasn't kind#sorry for rambling#and thanks for coming to my ted talk
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Dark A.M x fem!reader
-- ★ The Word of Claim ┃ ─𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝟒─



Warnings/MDNI: Slight fluff, angst, abuse , reader being called names e.g. harlot // I don't condone such beheviour irl! Syno: New beginnings or the....end? ✰ 9K
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Two weeks had passed...The mornings at camp always began too early for your liking, the faint rays of sunlight slipping through the cracks of the canvas tent like unwelcome intruders.
You had grown up in silk and lace, with meals served on porcelain , peaceful, and quiet environments. Now, you woke to the distant clatter of pots and pans, the sharp bark of someone’s laughter cutting through the cold morning air, and the unfamiliar scratch of coarse blankets that smelled faintly of damp wood and tobacco smoke.
Suki, your beloved, was your only source of comfort. Her soft purrs against your chest at night were a balm to your wounded spirit. She stayed close to you, a reminder of the life you’d left behind. But there was also the reality laying behind you...his snores making you remain awake. Awake to the new truth, the bitter truth.
Arthur brought you food without asking if you were hungry. He made sure your tent was stocked with rations, even as the others made do with far less. His instructions were on the second morning when you still couldn't process anything. Just more control disguised as care.
Don't walk to the river alone
Don't even think about walking too far from camp. (as if you can even walk to the stables...considering the tight watch on you from him and the men)
Don't get out of the tent at night for unnecessary reasons.
Stay in the tent when strangers come to camp.
If anyone gives you trouble, you come to me, not Hosea, not Dutch, just me.
Keep your voice down, no one needs to hear you arguing with me. (which must be a joke--because....what? Not happening.)
Don't do any hard labor around. For anyone. No matter what anyone says.
"Don’t need you breaking a nail." The words stung, a bitter reminder of the prison disguised as protection. The audacity to say that after shattering your whole life.
What a gentleman.
But you didn’t let it touch you.
When he handed you a plate of food, you ate in silence, your expression unreadable. When he tried to drape his coat over your shoulders on a cold night, you shrugged it off the moment his back was turned. Always facing the canvas wall and not him at night and shivering with fear. Sleep never came easy for you. And when Arthur left the camp, you felt Bill’s eyes on you, not subtle in the least, his broad figure often leaning against a post or pretending to tend to some task, but always nearby. It wasn’t protection, it was surveillance.
You didn’t lash out, didn’t scream or cry or beg. You knew it wouldn’t work. You’d seen the set of his jaw, the steel in his eyes that said he wasn’t letting go. So, you resisted in the only way you could, being quiet and in your shell. Inside the prison.
A cold silence when he spoke. A pointed look when he tried to touch you. A refusal to acknowledge the small gestures he thought would win you over.
Arthur didn’t say much about your resistance, but you could see it in the way his hands tightened into fists when you ignored him, in the way his jaw clenched when you sat stiffly beside him at the fire (which he dragged you to) , not saying a word. Not exactly a picture perfect newly wed couple others hoped. Or perhaps he lived in the delusion of.
When Grimshaw came by, she didn’t carry the same judgment as the others. Her tone, usually sharp and commanding, softened around you. Once, she even sat beside you, her hands busy mending a shirt as she said, almost too casually, "It gets easier. This life, I mean. Not right away, but… it does."
You didn’t reply, but she didn’t seem to mind. Grimshaw didn’t push; instead, she surprised you with an unexpected patience. She offered small gestures of comfort, a steaming cup of herbal tea to "settle your nerves," as she put it. Or heating up some water for you to freshen up.
Her vigilance extended even to the simplest of tasks, like when you went to use the girls’ makeshift toilet/bathroom. It was yet another struggle, a constant reminder of how far you’d fallen. Gone were the days of soaking luxuriously in your own bathtub. Now, even basic necessities felt like a downgrade.
Every now and then, she’d drop off chores she thought were manageable, like sorting linens or cleaning a few utensils, tasks that didn’t require you to step far from your tent. “Something to keep your mind busy,” she’d say, leaving before you could refuse.
You hated how grateful you felt for her small kindnesses, didn't actually mind it, but it didn’t go unnoticed. When you’d reluctantly finished the tasks she left, there was a quiet understanding in the way she’d nod at you from across the camp or leave another small task the next day. It was the closest thing to routine you’d found here.
Still, even her attempts to draw you out fell flat most days. You could see the pity in her eyes, the way she lingered as though waiting for you to say something , anything , but you couldn’t bring yourself to respond. Even when she tried to talk about mundane things, like camp chores or the horses, complaining about men here, all you could do was nod or mutter a half-hearted reply.
The girls would occasionally stop by, trying to talk to you or cheer you up, asking questions to piece together fragments of your life. But their curiosity, their attempts to connect, never went far. You rarely engaged, and when you did, it was clipped, distant. You didn’t miss the taunts about your so-called "lavish" past either, were they innocent jabs or something more bitter? You couldn’t tell, and truthfully, you didn’t care.
You would never trust these people. Not after everything. And then there was this incident with Mary Beth, on what? The third day? You don't even fucking remember. You came to know about her calling this all..... "romantic" as if sprinkling more salt on your wounds and you lost it.
The night had been calm, the campfire casting a warm glow while everyone gathered for supper. Mary-Beth sat on her usual spot, her knees tucked under her as she read, her face serene.
Before she even realized it, her book was in your hands, and then, rip. Pages tore from their spine, fluttering like wounded birds to the ground.
"Romantic, huh? This is what you read?! The fuckin' nerve of you. You think this is all fun?! LOOK AT ME!" you screamed, your voice shaking as you threw the remains of her book aside and grasped her face making her freeze in fear and shock. "AM I FUCKING PRANCING AROUND HERE, GIGGLING?!"
"Hey! I-what-"
Before she could get a word out, Tilly stepped between you, untangling you, her hands raised, her tone firm but careful. "We didn’t mean it like that-she didn’t mean it like that. Trust me. We were just talking-"
"Then don’t fucking talk about me!" you snapped, now turning to her. "Don’t even DARE! How dare you all even think that?! Only people like you can celebrate such a shit and cruel tradition! Bunch of morons!"
You didn’t care how you looked, wild-eyed, trembling, growling like a maniac. You didn’t care about the stares or the silence that followed, broken only by your ragged breathing. You now grabbed Tilly's arms shaking her. "Nobody here should even say my name out of your nasty TONGUES! I'll kill someone if I hear such shit again. YOU HEAR ME?!" Your voice echoed across the camp, sharp and seething with fury. Then a strong hand clamped around your arm. You didn’t need to look to know who it was.
Arthur.
"That’s enough."
"Let go of me! ASSHOLE!" you hissed, trying to wrench free.
But he didn’t let go. If anything, his grip tightened, and with one sharp tug, he spun you around and started dragging you back toward the tent.
"DON'T TOUCH ME!"
"Enough!" He shoved the flap open and all but pushed you inside, stepping in after you and yanking the flap closed again.
"You done now?" he asked, his voice quieter but no less sharp.
"FUCK OFF! I HATE YOU! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!"
The tears were already spilling over, and before he could say another word, you threw yourself under the covers of your bedding, burying your face in the fabric as the sobs came harder, relentless.
Arthur stood there momentarily, his hand falling to his side, unsure whether to press or leave you alone. He sighed his jaw tightening as he turned away. He wasn’t going far though. Not tonight.
And then days passed in cold, depressive silence from you until last night...
The cot creaked under the weight of his broad frame as Arthur lay down beside you, the narrow space forcing his presence against yours. His arm brushed against your shoulder, and though he made no move to pull you closer, the heat of him was impossible to ignore. You lay stiff as a board, your back turned to him, your entire body practically vibrating with anger and fear.
The tent was dark except for the faint glow of the moonlight filtering through the canvas. Outside, the muffled voices of the gang were distant and always the same to you.
“Y’ain’t gonna say a damn thing, huh?” His voice broke the silence, low and raspy, laced with irritation.
Your jaw clenched, but you didn’t answer. The effort to stay silent was exhausting.
Arthur shifted beside you, making the whole cot shake in protest. “You’ve been mad at me for days now. Hell, darlin’, I’m startin’ to think you enjoy it,” he said, his tone teasing, yet tired.
Your fists balled up under the blanket, your nails digging into your palms. You stared at the canvas wall ahead of you, refusing to dignify him with a response. The fucking audacity of this monster.
He let out a frustrated sigh. “This ain’t gonna fix anything, y’know. You bein’ all cold and quiet. It ain’t gonna change what’s done. If I could’ve done it different, I would’ve. But I can’t. And I ain’t lettin’ you go."
His words made your blood boil. What’s done?? As if he hadn’t ripped your life from you like a thief in the night.
"Go to sleep." you muttered finally, your voice cutting through the dark like a knife.
Arthur let out a low chuckle, humorless and rough. "Now, that’s the first word you’ve said to me in forever," he drawled, the smirk clear in his voice. "Progress, I guess."
You bit your lip almost to the point of eating it off.
He shifted again, his arm brushing against your waist under the blanket to which you immediately moved even further away if that was even possible. The casual contact felt intentional, as if he was testing you.
"You’ll get tired of this eventually," he said, his voice softer now, almost coaxing. "Can’t keep runnin’ on anger forever."
Shut the fuck up already.
You wanted to tell him he didn’t know the half of it. That he didn’t understand just how deep your resentment ran. But instead, you stayed silent.
"Fine," he murmured, his voice trailing off. "Be mad all you want. I ain’t goin’ anywhere...I ain’t good at this, I’ll admit it. But if you think I don’t care, you’re wrong."
And with that, he settled in, his arm resting just barely against your back. Even as your eyes burned with unshed tears, you stared into the dark, resolute.
And as if matters weren’t bad enough, someone else decided to get under your skin.
Marston.
Of all people decided to bother you today for the first time since you arrived as he wasn't at the camp before. The man you assumed wouldn’t even remember your name with the peanut-sized brain he seemed to possess.
"Came back as a Morgan now, huh? Well, I’ll be damned," he said with a whistle, his voice dripping with mock surprise. He stood outside your tent, leaning against one of the poles, his arms crossed as if he had the right to judge. "Honestly, I’m shocked. Didn’t think anyone could tie down Arthur. But not completely shocked it turned out to be...you. So childhood love, eh? And he did the word....damn. First in our gang. Shit, I missed it all.."
Your teeth clenched at his smug tone. The insinuation was too much. You shot up from the cot, the anger bubbling over as you shoved him back.
"Get out of my sight, you pathetic piece of shit."
"Whoa there!" he said, stepping back with a laugh, raising his hands in mock surrender. “Still no manners, huh? Well, if you’re gonna live here, might as well start being nice to your brother-in-law. Oh, it's going to be much more fun annoying you now.'
That smug wheeze of his was the final straw. Your hand shot to the nearest object on the small table a tin cup and you hurled it at him. He ducked, barely missing it, his laughter only growing louder.
"Rich words coming from a man who still has to pay women just to glance at him. Exactly what I envisioned you’d grow up to be, John. You didn’t disappoint."
His grin faltered, just for a moment, before he forced it back, shaking his head with a low, humorless chuckle. "Same ol’ spoiled you, huh? Guess some things never change."
"And some people never grow up."
"You think you’re better than us? Look around at where you are. To end up here, with him... surely you must’ve been no less than a harlot yoursel--HEY! GET OFF ME!"
"Complete it! Go on, I dare you, asshole!" He tried to shove you off, but the moment your grip loosened on his collar, you struck, delivering a sharp smack across his face.
"YOU LITTLE-"
"John!" Dutch’s voice boomed from his tent across the way. "Go do something productive! Leave the girl alone. NOW!"
John froze, his lips tightening as he registered the command. "…What? I was just greeting her. Y’know...family and all.'' He let out a defeated snort, shoulders slumping, and muttered something under his breath as he sauntered off.
You didn’t bother watching him leave. With a huff, you grabbed the tent flaps and yanked them shut, the fabric swishing angrily in your hands. You flopped back down onto the cot, the reality of everything crashing into you again.
Tears blurred your vision as they spilled freely, your shoulders trembling as you hugged yourself, swaying back and forth.
(Y/N) Morgan.
Harlot.
(Y/N) Morgan....
Harlot.
The words kept burning like acid.
No matter what they do, I get blamed?! Of course. Another Saturday being a woman.
Pieces of shit, dirt.
Absolutely the fuck not.
You clenched your jaw, wiping at your cheeks harshly. Don’t let a loser’s words get to you, you told yourself, trying to drown out the echo of John’s taunting voice and your own festering anger.
You are , yes , still are more accomplished and better than anyone here. Not a thief, not a murderer and definitely not a harlot.
But deep down, it wasn’t just John’s words that haunted you. It was everything, the name, the camp, the suffocating feeling of being trapped in someone else’s world.
You will always be (Y/N) (L/N), fuck this tradition. It means nothing.
❀˖°
"Finish this. C’mon."
He held the spoon in his calloused hand, leaning closer. You turned away, clutching Suki tightly to your chest, her soft fur grounding you.
'Why can't he just get lost in a ditch somewhere? Why does he keep coming back? Why doesn't death encounter him with all the dangerous shit he does?'
Should you tell him about John calling you names- NO. You don't need him to deal with your problems, as he would have done if you both were young. You don't need anyone's help.
"I ain’t bringing these for free, y’know. So they ain't gonna rot, you are gonna finish them."
"I didn’t ask you to," you snapped.
"Good thing I ain’t waitin’ for permission, huh? So yeah, I’ll keep doing it anyway because it's my duty."
Your grip on Suki tightened as you turned to glare at him. "I know exactly what you’re trying to do, Arthur. Trying to create this illusion, ‘Oh, look at me, I’m bringing her fruit and meat so she’ll forget what I did.’ No, Arthur. It doesn’t work that way. None of this is worth anything. It’s not going to reverse anything, not even come close to the comfort I had."
Arthur’s jaw tightened, his piercing gaze darkening further. "I don’t care what you think or had. This is your fucking life now. Why do I have to keep reminding you , huh?!." he growled low, his voice like a warning rumble of thunder. "Don’t piss me off more right now. Eat. It. Right. Now."
You held his glare for a moment, your hands trembling with restrained anger as you snatched the fruit plate from him and placed it on your lap. You didn’t touch it, though not with him standing there like some damn lieutenant, watching your every move. But thankfully he went away, probably to freshen up.
You take a few hesitant bites. Your thoughts drift to your family, mother, father, and brother. What might they be doing right now? Are they sitting down to supper together, or is your absence too heavy to ignore? Your work, you miss going to the office with your father. And Omar, is he well? You prayed for him daily. His family? Well, they must be cursing you. Your heart broke that they might be regretting the whole engagement and calling you names too. Is your father doing anything!? Is he trying to find a way to bring you back? He must be. He should be.
But every time you let yourself believe in that fragile hope, Dutch’s cold, calculated words clawed their way back into your mind.
"And you damn well know that even if the law gets here, they won’t care about this. It’s only a crime on paper… in reality, the sheriffs and marshals? They won’t lift a finger. They don’t give a damn about this."
If that’s really true, then… is this it? Is this your life now?
No.
Money can turn heads, grease palms, and open doors. If your family offered enough, those same indifferent lawmen would find a needle in a haystack if it suited them. And your family? They don’t lack for that.
But your reputation.
Your hands trembled, clutching Suki closer as the tears threatened to spill again. The voice in your head....why doesn't it go away...?
No. No, I didn’t lose anything. I don’t give a fuck. Let people think and talk all they want. It’s not the first time it’s happened, and it won’t be the last. They always need something to talk about.
You exhale sharply, forcing the tears away as though the pain will evaporate with them.
And once you get back, no, once you’re free, you won’t stay in this Godforsaken country anyway. Neither will your family. Let this place rot. It doesn’t deserve you. It's hurt you enough.
Another thought had been gnawing at the edges of your mind, something your ears had picked up unintentionally the other morning.
Pinkertons.
You knew about the agency hell, Arthur had mentioned them in passing during one of your 'old' meetings, which were just distant unreal memories to you now. A band of relentless hunters after outlaws, but they weren’t saints themselves. You remembered your father’s words about them, greedy, opportunistic, willing to do anything if the price was right.
Mhm...
Your attention snapped back to the present as a heavy presence settled beside you on the cot.
Suki leapt off your lap, stretching lazily before sauntering off. Almost as if she held the same disdain for his presence. Ain't she your good girl.
You felt his eyes on you, his silent scrutiny made your skin crawl, but you refused to let it show. Instead, you lifted another bite to your mouth, not because you were hungry or needed the sustenance, but because you didn’t want to engage with him again.
Arthur’s lips pressed into a thin line as he took another bite of his meal, his gaze flicking to you out of the corner of his eye. It wasn’t like he minded bringing the food from the fire or making sure you didn’t waste away, but the whispers and sidelong glances from the other men by the fire in camp grated on him.
"Our boy got himself a pretty little wife now."
"Maybe she’s got you on a leash, huh? How’s it feel, boy?"
"Careful, Arthur, don’t forget to tuck her in tonight."
"What kind of outlaw plays house, huh? Real sweet, Morgan."
The words clung to the air like the smoke from their cigarettes, thick with mockery and amusement. Arthur didn’t flinch at their jabs, but he didn’t rise to them either. As for the additional rations and snacks, he brought them in secret, stashing them away like contraband treasures. Caring for his wife, it seemed, was a sin in their eyes, an act that invited ridicule from men who barely knew the meaning of responsibility, let alone love. He couldn’t give you the life you once had, not completely, but he could offer enough to make you forget it or at least dull the ache of its absence. Spoil you rotten in his own way. And if it meant robbing, killing, or bleeding himself dry until his last breath, then so be it.
Because you were his, and no one, not Dutch, not the gang, not even the damned world, and even you, could take that from him.
He told himself it didn’t bother him, but he couldn’t ignore the edge in their voices. Greed? Jealousy, maybe. Or perhaps they just didn’t understand, couldn’t fathom why he’d go to these lengths. Arthur didn’t need their approval. Let them talk. They always yap. They’d never have what he has, even if you still looked at him with cold disdain and fear.
But his pride did bristle every time someone insinuated he was soft as if keeping you... alive and halfway sane somehow made him weak.
And then there was you. Lost...and yet fighting. He wanted to snap at you, to force you to listen to him for once, but he knew how that would end. Another night of tears, of you retreating further into yourself, and him sitting outside the tent wondering what he was doing wrong.
What he in fact, did wrong.
Damn it.
Hell, he still felt shit for leaving you tied up on the cot on the first night for hours to teach you some lesson, which resulted in bruises on your wrist which he could still spot under your sleeves. He was indeed totally lost that day.
He looked down at his plate, then at you, the frustration in his chest threatening to boil over. But beneath it, buried deep where even he didn’t like to look, was something else.
Guilt.
He didn’t miss the way your hands trembled slightly when you reached for another bite, or the shadows under your eyes that hadn’t been there before all this. If you’d let him, he’d feed you himself daily. If he had all the time in the world, he’d spend it making amends, caring for you, pampering you from head to toe, and trying to piece together what he’d broken. You were different now. Smaller, quieter....almost soulless. He missed your laugh, jokes, and teasing that could pull a grin from even the most miserable bastard. The light in your eyes...
He craved what any man would, a wife waiting for him, dolled up or simply present, a comforting sight to return to after long days. He remembered his mother doing just that, though his father had been far from the best. Well… that was another story.
Sometimes, the thought crossed his mind to demand it, to make you adorn yourself as he wished. But again, he didn’t want your compliance born of fear, he wanted it to come from you, willingly...which only felt like a dream.
Snap out of it. Don't let this get to you. It's done. And sooner or later she'll come around. She has no other choice.
Even going on jobs in these two weeks felt different now. Before, his concerns were solely for the gang, their survival, their next meal. But now, you were part of the equation. You weren’t just another responsibility, you were something altogether separate, fragile in a way that set him on edge. He had to think of you, your safety, your future.
And yet, every morning, he pressed a kiss to your head, as quietly and discreetly as he could, fearing you’d stir. It was a small, selfish ritual, one that whispered his own fears. What if he didn’t come back one day? What if everything he’d done, the risks taken, the damn word, ended up being for nothing?
But you, in your own quiet way, were a motivation too....as in your mere existence back at the camp in his tent made him stronger.
"Finish the damn fruit," he muttered finally, his tone softer now, though still edged with irritation. "I’ll be back in a few with the stew. But don’t get comfortable thinkin’ this is how it’s gonna be. If I ain’t lettin’ you work for others, that sure as hell doesn’t mean you ain’t gonna do my work and your own. Ya' ain't gonna be cooped up here as some princess forever."
You glanced at him, finally breaking your silence, though your voice dripped with venom. "Your work? O-h, you mean cooking your food, cleaning up after you, and playing the perfect little captive wife?. Should I start callin’ you ‘sir’ while I’m at it?"
"You’re real good at smartin’ off, but I don’t care if you’re mad, this ain’t a damn vacation."
"Mad? Oh no, Arthur, I’m thrilled. Thrilled that you think you can steal my life and then bark orders like I’m some ranch hand. I am not doing shit for you or anyone."
Arthur’s gaze darkened, his hand tightening around his fork. "You think I like this? I don’t. But it’s better than sittin’ here wasting away. You think I stole your life? Maybe I did. But I’m tryin’ to keep you in it."
You leaned back against the cot sighing in disbelief at his words. "If you wanted a servant, you should’ve hired one. But I guess stealing a wife was cheaper, huh? And I don't care about wasting away. Sounds a thousand times better than whatever this is. I'd rather die-"
"Watch your mouth, woman." His hand as on it's own shot out to your chin giving a reprimanding shake.
"Why? Bec-ause I didn’t like losing my freedom either, but here we are. And I am not scared of you Arthur...you already showed the worst of yourself. I won't be surprised if it gets worse than this."
For once, he didn’t respond. He stood, his boots scuffing the ground as he left the tent in utter silence which you smelled as guilt but does it change anything for you? No. Does it make him take you back? No. Then fuck him.
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The faint orange hues of dawn barely began creeping over the horizon when a rough hand on your shoulder jolted you awake. Disoriented, you blinked up at the shadowed figure looming over you, the faint smell of tobacco and leather unmistakable.
"Get up," Arthur’s voice was low but urgent, a gruff whisper that didn’t match the stillness of the early morning.
You groaned, clutching the blanket tighter around you. "Wha-?"
"We’re movin’," he said, already turning away to toss a saddlebag onto the cot near your feet. "Pack your things. Got no time to waste. And don't forget anything here." He was well aware how precious your stuff was.
"What?" You pushed yourself up, the chill of the morning air biting against your skin. "Why? What’s going on?"
"Don’t ask questions, just do it," he snapped, though not with anger, more like the sharpness of someone who had too much on their mind and not enough patience to explain it all. His movements were hurried, shoving items into a chest without care, the clinking of metal and the rustle of cloth breaking the fragile silence of the camp.
"We ain’t got time for your temper right now. Pack what you need and be quick about it. I need to tear down the tent too. Hurry!."
Your mouth opened to retort, but the tension in his jaw and the way his hand hovered near the gun at his hip made you think better of it. He wasn’t in the mood for arguments. With a huff, you threw the blanket off and started gathering your belongings, half of which you hadn't unpacked anyway.
"Where...are we even going?..."
"Somewhere safer. Don’t matter where right now, just that we ain’t here when the sun’s up. Wear something warm too."
"Wh-where's Suki-?"
"She'll be-" He left mid-sentence as Dutch called him over.
Typical.
God, how far could this new place be? What if you were this close to being found by your parents, and now you were moving further away again?
First things first, you need to find your pet. And with that, you dashed out of the tent, eyes scanning the camp until you spotted her, comfortably perched on Hosea’s lap as he cooed at her.
"Oh… here, (Y/N). Hope you didn’t mind-"
“It’s fine.” You were already turning to leave when Hosea stood up from the crate. “Where are we going?” you asked, catching him just before he walked away.
“Just another, safer place. Up the hill.”
“Why, though?”
He shrugged, his gaze distant. "Dutch wanted a change of scenery."
Oh really?
You couldn’t shake the feeling that this wasn’t just another move. It felt like an escape, an escape from something you weren’t allowed to know.
"Are you serious?"
“You know him,” Hosea added, his voice tinged with an understanding sympathy before he walked off, leaving you standing there, feeling more annoyed than ever.
Geez… Dutch’s mood, huh? Pfft. And they say men aren’t emotional.
"(Y/N)!".
What the fuck now?
You rolled your eyes, muttering under your breath, "God, help us, Suki. You alright girl, hm?" The last thing you wanted was to deal with him again. You didn’t rush your steps as you turned back toward the tent, taking your sweet time, not bothering to acknowledge his call just yet.
The thought of sharing a horse with Arthur made your stomach twist. The last thing you needed was him too close, breathing down your neck, holding you like his personal doll, a constant reminder of the mess you were stuck in. But you had no choice.
Grumbling to yourself, you finally made your way back to the tent, knowing full well what he’d want next. Anything to keep you under his watchful eye.
Great. Just great.
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Taking you back home or at least letting you meet your parents was something you’d stopped asking about after the second day. But today, after settling into the new camp, Silverpine Crossing, situated on rather a height, not too far from the previous camp though. As if the weather wasn't cold enough and waking to the stillness of yet another isolated morning, you felt the misery again. He was being sent on a supply run, and you wanted out. Not just to interact, fuck that--but rather just to see a fresh face, smell something different, anything that wasn’t this suffocating place or these people.
The idea was barely out of your mouth when he shoved you back into the tent.
"Wha-"
“You can’t understand a word, huh?"
"B-but it's not like I am going alone-"
" I said fuckin’ no. So sit your ass down!”
“F-or like what? Forever?!”
His hand shot out, grabbing your bicep with bruising force, his grip making your breath hitch. "Until you learn to be fuckin' grateful and nice. Now quit whinin'. And when I come back… see that pile over there?"
Your gaze darted to the heap of clothes by the cot, his clothes.
“They better be fuckin’ washed. Or you’ll make me do something you’ll regret yourself. Ya hear me?”
"Excuse--me?--- laundry?! I don't know shi-"
"THEN FUCKING LEARN!" Each word was punctuated by the bruising squeeze of your arm and making your fear heightened. With a warning shove and a glare that seared through you, he turned and stalked off without another word.
You could hear him calling for Susan...no, please, no.
Learn , my foot. Asshole.
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You huffed as you scrubbed one of the shirts against the bucket. The water was icy against your hands, but the repetitive motion of washing was at least keeping you occupied, even if it felt degrading.
"Never thought I’d see the day," came a sly voice behind you.
You glanced up to find Karen standing nearby, hands on her hips, her signature smirk plastered across her face. She looked amused, tilting her head as she studied you.
"Look at you, being all in...the picket fence character," she teased, crouching down beside you. "Arthur got you washing his drawers now, huh?"
You narrowed your eyes, irritated by her tone, but you didn’t stop scrubbing. "How about you shut it and walk away."
Karen chuckled, leaning back on her hands. "Don’t take it so personally. Men like him? They expect it. Don’t mean you gotta roll over, though."
You frowned, her words stinging even though they weren’t entirely wrong. "First of all , nobody here is rolling over and secondly what do you want?"
"Easy, now. Take no wound to the pride. Just thought I’d keep you company. Ain’t like anyone else’ll do it," she replied with a shrug. "Besides, I figured you could use a little girl talk."
You scoffed softly, tossing the shirt into the rinsing bucket. "Girl talk? Right. And what would that be about?"
"Oh, I don’t know," she said, pretending to ponder, "maybe 'bout you ending up here in the first place.."
"Isn't it clear how I ended up in rags from riches huh?"
"No... I mean... why? Because none of us-well, I speak for the girls here--never thought he’d actually go this far. Never thought Mr. Morgan'd do it," she said cautiously, her hands busily sorting through the clothes.
You let out a hollow laugh. "Well, he isn’t a saint, and he’s made that crystal clear. No less than the devil. No, he is the devil."
A painful silence hung between you, the kind that seemed to stretch endlessly, until finally, she broke it again, her voice softer this time.
"But... he wasn’t like this before And by that, I mean... he could have done this before too. If he’d wanted to."
Her jumbled, hesitant words made your neck snap toward her, your curiosity getting the better of your anger. "Hm?"
"There was this lady. Rich, too. City girl. Like you, almost. They had a thing, a good one. They were even engaged. Mutual love, that’s what I mean. But then..." She hesitated, glancing up briefly before looking back down at the fabric in her hands. "Things didn’t work out. Her father, her name’s Mary Linton, by the way--yeah, so, her father married her off to some bloke. Happened...like three years ago."
Your mind reeled, and every word hit you like a blow.
What
The....
"Y-you-you're telling me that-" You sucked in a sharp breath, trying to steady the whirlwind of emotions threatening to choke you. "There was a woman he could’ve done this with, but he didn’t, and instead-"
"I-I mean-yes-but she got married and he probably found later...this is just a hunch though. But-"
"He took what? His anger, or I don’t fucking know--revenge out on me?!" You were on your feet now, your whole body ablaze with rage and confusion. "H-how-why?! God, why?!"
Before she could say another word, a voice cut through the rising tension, smooth and calm yet dripping with authority.
"Mrs. Morgan, a word."
You froze, your head snapping toward Dutch’s tent, where he sat, as composed as ever, watching the scene unfold like he was enjoying just another sunny afternoon.
Oh, this fucker.
Your body stormed towards Dutch's tent while he sat there as calm as ever, thumbing through a book like he hadn’t just summoned you out of thin air.
"Come in, come in, missy," he said smoothly, gesturing to the space before him. "I wanted to-" But you couldn't take it anymore.
"Are you happy? Hm? All of you? How could… you do this to me?" Your voice cracked as sobs wracked your chest, but you didn’t care. The words poured out like complaints of a child. And at this moment you were a child again. Lost and vulnerable once again. "I can’t believe there was a time…" You gasped for breath. "A tim-e when I held your hand and… came here, blindly following you. And for years… I-I was grateful to you… and this is what I get f-for that?"
He didn’t respond immediately, his gaze fixed somewhere beyond you. For a fleeting moment, there was something in his expression a hint of reflection, perhaps regret?
Oh you were mistaken if you took that for guilt.
"Sometimes," he finally said, "good things happen… for the worse too, girl. A curse in disguise." He tilted his head slightly, his tone hardening. "Believe it or not… accept it or not, I wasn’t the one who webbed this. It was in your fate. Because if you’re going to play the blame game," he continued, his voice cutting deeper, "then there are plenty of others. Your own parents, for leaving you alone in the care of greedy relatives. Your relatives, for treating you like garbage. And then yourself, for giving a thirsty dog water and not expecting it to follow you home."
"So being nice is a crime? Being a friend is-"
"Man and woman, friends?" He barked a chuckle sharply. "You young generation sure have your own beliefs. But that is a hoax, girl. A trap. And you fell for it." He leaned forward, jabbing a finger in your direction, his eyes hard.
"What about her then?! That Mary girl! They weren't friends, they were engaged! He should’ve done this with HER! Why me?! Why did you all ruin my life?! Why didn't you stop him!?" The words tore from your throat like a wounded animal. Your fists lashed out, colliding with his chest and face over and over, your anger and desperation boiling over. He stood firm, his jaw tightening as he absorbed every blow.
"Dutch! Hey- what is she doing?!-" Molly sauntered hurriedly to the entrance.
"Miss O' Shea, give us a moment."
Without a word, he reached over and shut the tent flaps, sealing you both inside and ignoring your latest panic-fueled outburst.
"Listen here," he growled, pushing you away. "I don’t need more drama in this camp from you. I understand this may not be ideal for you, but life ain’t always ideal, missy, is it? So stop this at once! I won’t have this nonsense. Him, being the hard worker he is, loyal to the bone, and you," his eyes narrowed, "his spouse, acting like a damn lunatic. He made his own decision and you need to accept it!."
You froze for a second, seething, your body trembling with fury. Then you straightened, glaring at him with all the venom you could muster. "You people...made me a lunatic!! And I'll act however the hell I want, Watch me. And I’ll tell you this-I won’t ever forgive any of you for this. EVER! Ya'll think you are on top of the world? You are...going to one day fall deep in the same pit you all are digging. And it's Ms. (L/N) for next time."
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Arthur held up the tattered remains of his shirts under the firelight, his fingers brushing over the jagged holes that mocked him. His scowl deepened as he turned them in his hands. Karen stood a few paces away, putting on her best performance.
"I swear I saw her hang them up, and these shirts were pristine, Mr. Morgan. I am tellin' you, it’s gotta be one of the boys pulling a prank. Y'know how John gets when he's-"
Well, none of it was true of course. She was the one who washed them and hung them which you later slashed. Karen regretted telling you everything altogether.
Arthur’s glare cut her off. "Do I look stupid to you, Ms. Jones?" and without another word, he stormed toward his tent, the worn fabric of the shirts clenched in his fist.
Can’t have one damn evening in peace.
His jaw tightened as he moved, his frustration bubbling beneath the surface. He wanted things to be normal, to make them better for you, but you made it so damn hard. So difficult to keep himself in check.
He yanked the flap of the tent aside and stepped in. "What is this, huh?" His voice was sharp, cutting through the stillness as he displayed the ruined shirts in front of you one by one. You flinched as they hit the floor in a crumpled heap. His anger was evident in every movement, in the way his chest heaved and his eyes burned into you.
"I asked you somethin'-" His hand shot out, grabbing your chin to force your gaze upward. "Fuck--look at me!"
Your eyes locked on his. For a fleeting moment, you saw it, his anger faltered, his grip loosening as his eyes softened, regret flickering in their depths like an ember struggling against the cold.
"Why, Arthur?" Your voice wavered, but you steadied it with a bitter edge. "That’s what you wanna know? Hm? Well, I do too." You patted the cot beside you, your tone turning mockingly bright. "Have a seat, here. Let’s figure it out together."
He didn’t move, his jaw tightening again as he studied your faux-bubbly smile and his frown deepened as he watched you rise from the cot, the firelight catching the tension in your movements.
"What? Don’t wanna sit with your wife? Oh... hm. I understand. Must be hard, huh? Coming back here, to this-" You gestured vaguely around the tent and his shirts, your tone teetering between anger and despair. "And maybe--just maybe--you dream of seeing someone else. But what did you get? Or rather, what did you take? A replacement for your broken heart?"
His jaw tightened, his hands flexing at his sides, but he didn’t speak. He didn’t need to.
"And this?" Your voice was sharper now as you raised your hand, the ring catching the dim light. His earlier warnings still echoed in your mind, but you ignored it. Recklessness burned through you as you slid the ring off your finger, holding it up like it was a mockery of everything between you.
"Is it hers too? Damn...you never told me about your tragedy filled love-story before. Why not?" The anger you felt was just. You wished she was in front of you so could beat her to a pulp and ask her 'Why didn't her ass marry him!?' because now you are the one paying the price for these discounts Romeo and Juliet.
Arthur’s nostrils flared as he stepped closer, his presence looming, his voice low and cold. "Don’t."
But you didn’t stop. You held the ring out, your own anger a match to his. "What, Arthur? Don’t what? Don’t ask if this belonged to the woman you couldn’t have? The one you let go? Who I guess didn't even agree to running away with you?" Your chuckle was biting, venomous and you wanted to hurt him as much as you could. "Or more like you were too late to snatch? Guess, someone else beat you to it."
"You don’t know what you’re sayin! It's yours! Put it back right now, I swear to God-"
"Why did you destroy my life!? ANSWER ME! WHY DIDN'T YOU DO THIS WITH HER!" Your hands collided with his chest with full force but he didn't budge.
"BECAUSE I JUST DID! I COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! Fucking accept it! How fucking--dense can you be! You are not the first woman it's ever happened to so stop acting like this!"
"But...does it make it right? I won't be the last too...I jus' know there must be some girl right now...out there...relaxing, hell, just existing, and next thing you know....a man, like you comes and...plucks her away-"
"Did you forget what I confessed to you?! That meant nothing to you?!"
"And I rejected YOU! You still have time. Go on, GO! Kill her husband and bring her here and let ME GO!"
"You--you think this is a joke?"
You wiped your tears putting on a firm mask again. "You made my life a joke, Arthur..... made me...a joke."
He, however, wasn't in the mood to hear all this again.
"Put. It. On. Now." He stepped closer as his fists clenched. He didn't even know that he possessed this much restraint until now. He grabbed your hands but you struggled.
"Put Omar's on too, make it even then at least-"
Before you could fully register the shift in his expression, he twisted your arm, forcing you off balance and sending you crashing to the ground with a thud. You barely had time to breathe before he was towering over you, his rage evident in the wild flickers of his eyes.
"Repeat that."
"I loved my life too! You h-ad no right! No right!--I love him too! He didn't deserve all that too! NOBODY DID!"
Love him too?
A pained scream left your lips as he slammed his boot on your bare hand pressing on it with brutal force.
And again.
"Done acting like a wench?!" With that, he grabbed the numb hand and forced on the ring again. " This ring ain’t comin’ off your finger, not while I’m alive."
You struggled to catch your breath, the pain too much to even register and tears clouding your vision. But before you could even react, Arthur’s hand was on your hair, dragging you up with such force that your head spun. His movements were quick, and cold, and there was no mercy in them. You gasped, trying to free yourself.
"Arthur-" you cried, but your voice was swallowed by his fury.
"Shut the hell up!" he roared, his voice vibrating with anger as he dragged you across the dirt. You tried to dig your heels in, desperate to break free, but it was no use. His strength was overwhelming.
With one final yank, he threw you into the back of the wagon, your body hitting the wooden floor with a painful thud. Before you could sit up or gather yourself, he slammed the door shut, trapping you inside in the pitch-dark, cold space.
"Fuckin' stay there," he growled from the outside, his voice harsh and final. "I won’t have you disrespecting me, not like this. You’ll stay in there until you get your damn head on straight. This is the only language you seem to understand."
"Mr. Morgan--stop-please-let (Y/N) out!" Grimshaw's voice cut through from beside him.
Arthur's head snapped toward Grimshaw, his expression hard, his eyes like ice. "She will stay here until I say so. And if anyone dares to come near her or try to help, they’ll answer to me. And tell the girls to fuckin' stay away from her. They don’t talk any nonsense to her. Got it?"
With a final, warning smack against the wooden door, Arthur turned on his heel and walked off, his boots thudding against the ground as he headed back toward his tent.
Susan turned toward Hosea who met her gaze, his worry evident as he nodded, then slowly made his way to Arthur's tent. Inside, Arthur was calmly sitting on the cot, casually removing his boots as though nothing had happened.
"Arthur, enough," Hosea's voice broke the stillness. "I won’t sit here and watch you treat a woman like this, the woman you brought here yourself. Isn't this inevitable? Were you expecting her to bend to your will?"
"SHE DAMN SHOULD! I really am trying. But it ain’t workin', and I’ve got no choice now. So don’t meddle."
"You’re only pushing her further away, Arthur."
"Gentleness won’t always solve the problem."
"But it sure as hell won’t make it worse. You’re handling this all wrong."
Arthur stood up, a hint of defensiveness in his posture. "She’s the problem, Hosea. She doesn’t fuckin' understand-"
"No," Hosea interrupted, his tone heavy with conviction. "She ain’t a problem. She’s someone’s daughter, and now, unfortunately, your wife. Even if you've done what you’ve done, roughness will only shatter what little is left of her. A hammer may break... the glass, but it does nothing for the vase."
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The enforcer's thoughts still sharp with anger, but the sharpness had dulled just enough for him to notice the start of morning chill in the air. His hands gripped the edge of the cot as his mind lingered on the coldness between him and you, the things he’d said and done in a moment of blind rage.
He didn’t want to be this man. Not again. Not with you.
But he couldn't control it.
His boots scraped against the dirt as he made his way toward the wagon. The camp was still quiet, the morning still young, and as he approached the wagon, he saw her, Suki, curled up down by the wheel, her small body trying to make the best of the cold rough ground. The sight of her, peaceful and innocent, did something to his chest. If she could curse...she would be doing it too for what he has done to you until now.
His hand moved to scratch behind her ears, the motion automatic, a familiar comfort. But as soon as his fingers made contact, Suki stirred, her small body tensing as her golden eyes flicked open. With a flick of her tail, she stood and slinked away, padding off a few feet before halting, glancing back at him with a clear sense of judgment.
Arthur's heart sank as he watched her move, the way she embodied a certain grace, withdrawn, distant, unwilling to let him in after what had passed between you two. His chest tightened, and for a moment, he felt his own anger twist back to the forefront. The cat had always been your companion, your comfort. And now she was moving away from him, just like you had.
It hit him harder than he cared to admit. She wasn’t just a cat to him right now, she was you.
If he's soft...you hate him, when he's mad...you hate him.
You.... hate him.
"The woman you brought here yourself. Isn't this inevitable? Were you expecting her to bend to your will?" Damn man is always right.
He slowly and with a deep sigh undid the chain on the lock and then...he saw you curled up inside, your back to him. The vulnerable position made his heart ache once again.
“(Y/N),” he murmured, almost a plea in the softness of his voice. He couldn’t force you to face him, couldn’t drag you into another fight. He knew you needed space.
You didn’t respond, didn’t even stir at the sound of his soft murmur.
With a sigh, Arthur stepped back out of the wagon, leaving the door open. He made his way over back to the tent with his thoughts swirling in a confusing mess. He didn’t know what else to do.
He grabbed the thick, warm blanket and returned to the wagon, crouching to get halfway inside. He carefully draped it over your shoulders, his fingers brushing against your skin as he settled it around you. He couldn't see your eyes as it was shadowed with your arms and hair. He wanted to say something, anything that might make you feel seen, understood. But the words got stuck in his throat, due to guilt.
"I won’t drag you back in," he whispered softly, not wanting to force anything on you. "But... it’s cold out here...."
He took a step back and let the blanket rest gently on you, pulling the door flaps of the wagon back slightly to let in the morning light and some fresh air. All he could do was wait, try to be patient...
Arthur didn’t leave, though. He wasn’t going to walk away. He pulled a nearby chair over, sitting down just outside the door of the wagon lighting up a smoke.
Patient.
Patient...
It was hours later when he watched from a distance as Susan approached the wagon. Moments later, Arthur saw you emerge, wrapped tightly in the same blanket he’d left draped over you. You looked... weak, exhausted, and withdrawn, leaning heavily on Susan as she guided you down. His jaw tightened when he saw how carefully Susan covered you, pulling the edges of the blanket tighter as if shielding you from everything, including him.
His heart twisted as he watched her take you to his tent, her voice low and comforting, her hand steady on your shoulder. He stayed where he was, his gaze fixed on the two of you until you disappeared inside. His chest ached with a mix of guilt, knowing that it wasn’t his arms guiding you, wasn’t his words offering comfort. Instead, he was the one that hurt you. He wanted to run inside and apologize...but where would he even start. His apology would be nothing but a joke...a painful reminder...to you.
"Arthur."
"Dutch…"
The older man leaned in, his voice calm but firm. "What you need is a bit of distance. Cool your head, boy. I’ve got a few jobs to need doin’, away from camp. Might take you a few days."
Arthur hesitated, a protest forming on his lips. "Yeah, but-"
"Her hand might be broken..." Susan’s voice cut through the moment, matter-of-fact, her sharp eyes fixed on Dutch as if Arthur wasn’t even there.
Shit.
Guilt once again rose like a wave, crashing hard against his already frayed nerves. He took a step forward, instinct driving him, but Dutch’s hand shot out, firm on his shoulder.
"No. You go. Charles will take her and Grimshaw. If it’s not too serious, Hosea can just treat it here."
Arthur tensed, his jaw tightening at the mention of Charles. The thought of you going anywhere with him, trusting anyone else. “I....don’t like that idea,” he muttered, his voice rough.
Dutch arched a brow, a faint, knowing smirk tugging at the corner of his lips. "Oh, I know you don’t. But it ain’t your call now, is it? Don't worry though, we are here, aren't we? Ms. Grimshaw, tell Hosea to check her."
Arthur stood there, torn between guilt, frustration, and something he couldn’t quite name. Dutch gave his shoulder a reassuring squeeze before letting go.
"Come, I will give you the list of tasks."
After receiving that, he strode to the camp's edge finding Bill lounging idly near the horses. "Bill," he barked, his tone short. "Keep watch over the camp while I’m gone. I’ll be back in four to five days, maybe less. And uh...her too. No one bothers her, got it?"
"...Got it."
Arthur nodded once, curtly, before turning to his horse. With a final glance at the place he should’ve been, where he should’ve stayed, Arthur swung onto his horse.
He didn’t look back as he rode out of camp. He couldn’t.
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A genq, with no harm meant (we have differing opinions, that's okay) but like. Genuinely, what is the difference between a fan privately messaging drm, and Tommy "Schlatt Stan" innit messaging Schlatt at 16/17 and getting talking in the dms, ending up becoming friends. What's the difference between him doing it with Wilbur? With techno? All of them were people he looked up to, was a fan of and admired enormously, and yet they were allowed to grow a friendship. Hell, I met my best friend because I was a huge fan of hers, made her art, edits, probably would have been a stan if that had been a thing back then but we got to talking in private messages and after a while she gave me other apps to contact her on. I met my gf because she was a fan of my writing - we now live together. I genuinely don't understand how this is automatically creepy or predatory beheviour, having been on both sides of the scenario. I think the situation has a lot more nuance than just "DM's bad, no cc should DM anyone ever" and "getting a private Snapchat is creepy"
(I should say for the purposes of this I'm only taking what we know 100% to be true, which is the insta DM's which have 0 evidence of any kind of inappropriate sexual content, I'm waiting for further solid evidence to make a full judgement on the situation)
the difference is that tommy was a fan asking specifically for advice about content growth, OR to join their content. tommy was always trying to be a youtuber + bully bigger ccs into letting him into their content. tommy reached out first, and he was on BUSINESS. although of course they became friends later, the nature of his reaching out was 'professional'
this situation, on the other hand, involves a content creator having a pattern of talking to underage female fans. specifically to compliment them or their appearance, or ask to make their conversations MORE private by sharing snaps. ( <- that is the info from the dms DREAM CONFIRMED. not any others). that action is almost immediately by anyone with street smarts read as predatory.
is it possible it WASN'T? absolutely. it's fully possible that in the best case scenario all of that was in good faith. but it still LOOKS really fucking bad. and dream is not an idiot. he should have known how bad that looks, how obviously predatory it seems. in the BEST CASE SCENARIO, he's still a complete idiot who was engaging in idiotic and unprofessional behavior that looks unsafe and predatory. and then he brushed aside everyone's reasonable concerns about it. that is the BEST POSSIBLE CASE SCENARIO, and it's still pretty fucking scummy. plus with how ridiculous his response is, i'm very inclined to believe it's at least somewhat worse than the best case.
*EDIT: realizing after the fact that this looks very aggressive-- i’m not aggressive towards you, anon, your question was asked fairly politely. this situation as a whole just makes me grossed out and angry
*EDIT TWO: wilbur, after finding out tommy was a minor, became uncomfortable with the power dynamic and blocked him until a later date at which it was clear tommy was a cc too. it is REMARKABLY easy to notice when a power dynamic is a little off and form respectful distance, and ccs are absolutely capable of it.
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They recorded KB before his last instalive which mean he feels free to mention ks since that day, like you said it seems like he's always thinking about ksoo and it makes me even more sad because even if we don't know him we saw how he wasn't acting as usual after the news comes out. Antis used his strange beheviour, making it look like ji didn't care about ks when it was the opposite and a lot of things + now KB and the last live just confirmed it
It feels like he's using this exo comeback as a reason to mention ksoo tbh. It's like saying it's okay to mention him now bcuz every member does it. We're missing them because we're having a cb without them. I'm missing ksoo bcuz he's not in the cb with me.I mean it's the perfect timing. He filmed those shows and there he saw how it was okay for them to mention ms and ks so now he's more comfortable. But not too comfortable...he was still nervous and blinked rapidly and looked down when mentioning he watched swing kids.
Let's see how much he mentions him after the comeback is over which is like today...if he even mentions him at all. Suddenly going on a live and saying he did smth bcuz he misses ksoo outside the context of a comeback might trigger some reactions from people in sm or fans in general. Like why is he saying that all of a sudden?
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So my bf and I have been dating 5 months, but I think I might be into him as a friend? The thing is he's really inexperienced too, which isn't what I reallyy need. I know he likes me alot. I stole his first kiss last we met and...I don't think I felt anything. No sparks. I like him as a person and we share similar (ish) interests and I don't want to stop talking to him. But I'm feeling more negative about this than enthusiastic. He doesn't seem to put effort in and I'm always making plans. Help.
Okay, so I was pondering what might be wrong throughout this whole message you wrote me. Because this whole "spark" concept, the "chemistry" of a relationship, I largely reject the concept. Of course people will like who they like. But romanticism would have you believe that these are inalienable things about the world; that two people will meet, and it'll be like this wild, magnetic attraction. It "just happens." Nah, fuck that. There are reasons people don't have chemistry, and while they might be mired in concepts that may not always have concrete ground to stand on, there ARE reasons for it. Even the most illogical thing ever can be boiled down via logic.
So what's your reason for not having a good time here? You said it in the last sentence. "He doesn't put effort in" and "I'm always making plans." THESE are the spark you're not feeling. It's not that you like him more as a friend although that is possible, and it's not that you "didn't feel sparks." It's that you have fundamental issues with the way you've been treated in your relationship. The honeymoon has ended and no longer will him just vibing out with you carry the relationship.
So what do? It means you gotta lay down the law with this boy, and let him understand exactly what's going on here. And to do that, it means you really need to drill down on your own feelings. Are you sure that there is no spark? Are you sure that you just don't romantically like this boy anymore? What about this boy did you like romantically before that has changed in the past 5 months? Or was it never there to begin with. Answering that is a little critical before we move forward. Do you have answers for those questions? You might, and if so those are also part of the larger reasons you're having concerns with this relationship. I can't answer these questions for you though; only you know exactly how you feel.
But if you want to actually put effort to try to make the relationship work before you end things, then you need to go straight to him and sit him down, and have a talk with him. Let him know that you're not feeling to good about this relationship at present, and that you have some serious concerns with his beheviour that need resolution. Let him know that you feel like he's not putting in effort. Tell him what he's doing wrong, and better yet, tell him things he could do that would improve his performance or make him happy. Furthermore, tell him you're tired of always making the plans for the two of them, and then ask him to take the initiative more in this relationship.
After you have that serious talk, where you listen to both of your concerns as a couple, then you can wait and see if he improves. If he can't fix his shit in a month, then be done with him and end the relationship. Otherwise, if you're already past the point of no return, just break up with him and be done with it. But just remember, whether you try to fix it and he doesn't change, or whether you're already done now, if you try to break up with him, feelings will be hurt. This won't be easy for anyone, and there are no guarantees you two will be able to remain friends. That's why I insist on patience and caution; don't end this before you actually try to fix the problems. Make sure you actually try, because you can't unring that bell, and if you end the relationship, there might not be taking back the hurt that is caused by the initial break up. Tread lightly with that before you make a drastic decision.
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(not to go into to much detail but i myself am a victim of sexual harrassement which is why i have even less patience than before for this kind of content. But i'll keep your advice in mind, sorry for this here long post)i agree wholeheartedly that there are bad het/gay ships that makes me want to puke, like virion/cherche noire/laurent gerome/inigo ESPECIALLY rinkah/jakob my god. those 2 ships were the first to come in my mind, and of course nothing is 100 perfect but my main issue is that it
doesnt take that much morality to make your gay characters not predetory nor should such beheviour be handwaved with an apology. It comes across as fetishizing to me when all it takes is for 2 people of the same gender to be a perfect couple when back then the fandom went from dispising male flirts simply sweet talking to sugarcoating soleils sexual harrasment of other women. Which is bizarre to me when there are tons of great interactions between 2 people of the same gender in fe main one beingbeing kagero/orochi seeing no reason to praise soleil and even then i doubt that most people ship kagero and orochi because of their interactions, Lot of the time there are more people that wanna jack off to gays/lesbians which disgusts me beyond words.
No worries about the long message. I don’t mind!
Like I said, I totally get where you’re coming from, and I suspected you weren’t harping on f/f ships in particular on purpose; it’s just something to keep in mind when you present a criticism: sometimes being vague is better to avoid writing yourself into a corner. I dislike all of the ships you’ve mentioned proobably for the same reason(s) you do, minus one: I haven’t read Noire and Laurent’s supports--and now I’m afraid to.
And I agree completely that it doesn’t take that much effort to create representation for people that isn’t an offensive stereotype. “Predatory gay” is honestly one of the worst things. It’s real, it exists (just like predatory straight people do), but the issue I take with it is that gay/bi/pan people have a hard enough time in this world as it is; I hate that Soleil exists to, I don’t know, almost perpetuate the idea that that’s how gay people act. And that can be harmful.
Fandom’s opinion of the “flirty male character” trope has changed a lot over the years. Sain was a well-liked character. Forde was well-liked, too. And then it fell out of favor and started to have an effect on the way these characters were written/portrayed. I remember fandom’s opinion re: Sain was mostly neutral/good and then suddenly everyone wrote him like he was a male cat surrounded by females in heat. It was jolting! (Not to mention OOC, but my point is that fandom’s view of the trope changed from being kinda meh toward it to outright despising it--which I understand. It’s never been my favorite trope and by the time FE13 hit I was hoping they’d drop it because I felt they couldn’t manage to write it as an ASPECT of a character instead of the whole character....if that makes sense.)
I’m honestly not sure why people like what they do. I agree, Kagero and Orochi have nice supports and I think they’re kind of casually shipped by most of the fandom...but there’s not a lot of meat in their supports to inspire people to do creating I think. They’re fun for amazing art, but as far as fanfiction goes...I honestly couldn’t write anything for them--not something engaging anyway. I think they seem like they’re good enough together that it’s just not necessary to add more...? Huh.
As far as your last part goes, I understand the frustration of fetishization and I’ve seen it, too, but sometimes it’s better to just let it go. Fandom is gonna ship whatever they want, and you have to remember that fandom isn’t just a haven for the socially awkward and anxious folks with mental and physical issues to work through/out/around, but also a lot of people who are looking for representation...and frankly a place to get their jollies, whatever those may be. The question I think people need to ask themselves is why they seek m/m things over f/f at a ratio of like, 50:1, especially considering women outnumber men in fandom by a large margin most of the time. And hey, why is fandom is so incredibly biphobic, not to mention acephobic?
Anyway, your frustration with the source material makes a lot of sense to me, and your irritation with fandom for not also being overtly critical about what they’re consuming also resonates with me--just at the surface level, though. I think the first thing you have to teach yourself to not go crazy in fandom is that everyone consumes media differently and what you hate may still ring true/important for someone else, regardless of its status of “healthy” or “unhealthy.” You do you, let other people do them, and unfollow/block those whose words/justifications you don’t want to see. It’s worked out well for me so far. :)
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First research...
“(…)As for that of Mamoiada also the “Carrasegare de Ottana”, the carnival of Ottana, would seem to be a ritual dating back to the cult of Dionysus (…)”
“(…) transposition man-animal, such symbolism staged clearly refers to the close relationship that existed between the owner and the oxen yoke, precious elements for the life of the farmer.”
(Sandalyon- 01 January 2016)
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“Derived from a mediterranean neolithic cult of farming and fertility, the core character and originality of this event has been maintained due to the region’s long history of isolation.”
“(…) representing the struggle between animal instinct and human reason.”
(www.trendland.com)
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“The Carnival atmosphere in Sardinia, especially in Barbagia’s villages, is totally different from the merry one you may experience all over Italy: this is because our Carnival evokes ancient farming rites, where men and animals are the main characters of the show.”
“(…) they celebrate the rite of yoking and the men’s eternal struggle against mother nature.”
“The ox represents strenght and fertility: the ritual of the ox carried by men, who worship it to invoke the herd’s fertility, has the power to transform them into oxes, changing their human features into animal traits.”
“(…) perform a chase which becomes a dance. Its aim is to exorcise the danger of the trasformation into beasts.”
(www.sardiniamagicexperience.com)
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“The rituals are centuries old and celebrate the seasonal cycle, fertility, life, and death. People literally put themselves into the skin of the “savage,” in masquerades that stretch back centuries. By becoming a bear, a goat, a stag, a wild boar, a man of straw, a devil, or a monster with jaws of steel, these people celebrate the cycle of life and seasons.”
(www.books.google.be – about Charles Fréger; Wilder mann)
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“The Wild Man(…) is, according to legend, a son born of the union of a bear and a woman, whether by consent or not. Belonging to two worlds and knowing the intricacies of both, this mythical being is considered a ‘superman’, destined for the highest rank of power;(…)”
“In most cases, the Wild Manwears a costume made of natural materials or animal skins; his face is rendered unrecognisable, (…). An accessory, (…) and one or more bells complete his outfit. (…) These bells, as well as the plant and animal matter of the costume, connectthe Wild Man to his natural origins; however, through the way he stands and through his dance, he is also a part of the cultural sphere – the coat of skin could ewually belong to a shepherd. (…) He embodies the complex reletionship of love and hate which man maintains with his environment.”
“Zoomorphic masks(the shaping of something in animal form) are universal.They demonstrate the links that unite man and hies environment, in other words culture and nature.(…) They have therefore been invested with a series of symbols and powers, intended to control man’s environment. (…) Amongst the European zoomorphic masks, we can cite the Bear and the Goat. Note that both always appear in the company of a human who tries to somehow keep control, (…).”
“The character of the Bear(…). His costume is made of fur, usually taken from a domestic animal, or of vegetable matter. (…) The bear mimics the beheviour of a tamed animal before it goes wild and rushes towards the crowd. His master must therefore control it and make it submit to his will. Sometimes the savage beast is put to death so as to be able to bring back to life under the leadership of man – culture prevailing over savage nature. (…) Finaly, it should be remembered that the Bear is closely related to the Wild Man, of whom it could be one of the parents.”
“The figure of the Goat(…). The ‘game of the Goat’ inevitably includes jaws that chatter, a guarantee of prosperity for those who hear their noise. The ‘plot’ promise fertility to the audience, (…), and the staging of the death and resurrection of the animal is a symbol of the vitality of nature. Its symbolism also associates life and death. On one hand, the goat is an animal with horns, hooves and wool. These are materials which relate at the same time to the living world – on the animal, they grow, change appearance, deteriorate and die – and the world of death – insensitive to pain, the act of cutting them in no way violates the health of the animal. On the other hand, horns and hooves constitute a physical link between two worlds: through their orientation towards the sky or their capacity to dig into the earth.
(Charles Fréger – Wilder Mann)
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De Reizende Illustrator…
“Reizen betekent anders kijken. Dat schoonheid ver weg eerder opvalt dan thuis, merkte Jan Sluijters. Zijn Bal Tabarin uit 1907 is een zinderend balfeest, de omgeving oplossend in lichten, alles warmte, kleur, sfeer, een zwoele dansavond die zich in tijd en ruimte eindeloos uitstrekt. Zulke sprookjes vind je nooit thuis.”
(www.nrc.nl/nieuws)
MENS EVOLUEERT >< NATUUR VERGAAT
Er zijn nu ongeveer 6 miljard mensen op aarde, dit worden er in de nabije toekomst zo'n 10 miljard. Met zo'n snel groeiende bevolkingoefent de mens een steeds grotere druk uit op de natuur en heeft dus een grote invloed op de biodiversiteit op de aarde. Iedereen moet etenen heeft ruimte nodig om te wonen en te ontspannen. Elk mens benut natuurlijke bronnenzoals aardolie. We produceren ook afval, vooral in de rijke landen, maar nu ook steeds meer in de arme landen.De mens veroorzaakt schade aan het leven naast natuurlijke factoren zoals een natuurramp of een klimaatverandering. Wat zijn precies de schadelijke ingrepen van de mens?
Overbevissing: ‘verbeterde technologie’ ��moderne vistuigen en opsporingsapparaten àVernietiging schuil- en voorplantingsplaatsen àoverbevissing en afname vispopulaties!
Ontbossing: hout als bouwmateriaal of brandstof àvernietiging leefgebieden en schuilplaatsen van dieren àverdwijnen dieren en planten!
Overbegrazing: behoefte aan voedsel, vooral vlees.
Vernietiging en versnippering van leefgebieden.
Vervuiling en wereldwijde klimaatverandering; het broeikaseffect.
Invoering van vreemde soorten.
(www.natuurinformatie.nl)
Dropping environmental slogans like ‘save the planet’ to focus on ‘intelligent living’ instead would make a big difference, says George Marshall
Please, I beg you, if you care about climate change forget about “saving the planet”.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not arguing that you chuck your bike in a hedge and hurtle off to Heathrow in your 4x4. In fact the exact opposite.
The problem is that this wretched phrase and all the concepts it embodies are guaranteed to have the exact opposite effect. Let me unravel it and I hope you will agree.
First there is that word “planet”. This word contains no sense of emotional connection. What is a planet? A lump of cold rock floating in space. Personally it does nothing for me. My attachment is to my family, friends, and community. The further I get away from that core the less I feel connected or prepared to act. The word planet, like climate, distances it even further from my immediate concerns.
And then there is this saving thing. Some people, and I am one, are motivated by the call to save something specific from imminent destruction - rainforests or whales or the panda - but this is a rallying cry for a campaign, not a total change in behaviour.
The phrase “save the planet” is closely associated with these worthy campaigns and the activist culture that produced them, which, let’s face it, is overwhelmingly white and middle class. It is not an association that reaches deep into mainstream society.
And the wider associations of the word “save” speak of struggle, abstinence and sacrifice. It is no surprise that we are invariably told that the way we will save the planet is by giving something up: heat or travel or lighting.
Once again, telling people they have to give something up is an unproductive way to change their behaviour. Advertisers, those experts in motivation, never use the word save. Even if a product saves time or money they still avoid the word and highlight the wonderful things you could do with that extra money or time.
But people are not told about the wonderful things they could do with this planet if they save it. They are told, endlessly, of the appalling things that will happen if they don’t. This is blackmail and it simply doesn’t work.
But the biggest problem with “save the planet” lies with the underlying concept that people can be motivated to make personal changes by a gentle appeal to a vast collective goal. Why should anyone be told that it is their personal responsibility to save the planet any more than it is their responsibility to end global poverty or stop war?
A few people may be satisfied by the argument that if everyone made those small efforts it would create the desired change. However I fear that most people know only too well that the tiny contribution of their own efforts will immediately be overwhelmed by the indifferent high-carbon behaviour of their neighbour. And who can blame them?
So I say let’s chuck out the tired old phrases from a strategy that is clearly not working. Let’s start from first principles.
People want to make things better. No one feels motivated to do something that simply makes things less bad. They need a positive vision.
People want personal gain. That gain need not be financial: it could be an improvement in their health, happiness or status. People never want to live with less. But people are prepared to live differently, and they are happy to make the change if they are persuaded that this will bring other benefits. Put them all together and you get a very different message. And, to further reject the authoritarian tones of instructions to do this or that, I will write it as a personal testimony:
“I have embraced a lighter lifestyle because it is the smart, cool, intelligent and healthy way to live. I want to live in the present and the real world, not be tied to an outdated and dangerous 20th-century way of living. I live this way because I love it, because it makes me feel good and because it is healthy and gives me freedom.
“I feel that I am setting the pace for the 21st century and I am excited to see people all around me trying to catch up. If we all work together we can build a world that is cleaner, fairer and happier and that is what I want to leave my children.”
Isn’t that a better way to look at it?
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Eddie Vedder – Society
It’s a mystery to me We have a greed With which we have agreed
You think you have to want More than you need Until you have it all you won’t be free
Society, you’re a crazy breed I hope you’re not lonely without me
When you want more than you have You think you need And when you think more than you want Your thoughts begin to bleed
I think I need to find a bigger place ‘Cause when you have more than you think You need more space
Society, you’re a crazy breed I hope you’re not lonely without me Society, crazy and deep I hope you’re not lonely without me
There’s those thinking more or less less is more But if less is more how you’re keeping score? Means for every point you make Your level drops Kinda like it’s starting from the top You can’t do that
Society, you’re a crazy breed I hope you’re not lonely without me Society, crazy and deep I hope you’re not lonely without me
Society, have mercy on me I hope you’re not angry if I disagree Society, crazy and deep I hope you’re not lonely without me
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