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sgstories123 · 6 years ago

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Kelly and her teacher

Edison sighed. His students were definitely unmotivated and did not learn anything from his class. The nonsense that they submitted for their test was unbelievable. And Kelly was the worst of the lot. For a multiple choice test of forty questions, she only had 3 correct. Even if she had simply written the same answer for all forty questions, she would have obtained a higher score.

Edison was upset. Since graduating from an overseas university a year back, he had been trying to find a job unsuccessfully. When a private educational institute offered him a part-time teaching job, he decided to take it as it was better than nothing. While he knew that students in the private school school were not as motivated as those in public universities, he did not expect it to be so bad.

Kelly, for example, was always late for classes, sometimes not even bothering to turn up at all. But who could blame her? Her father is very rich, owning several factories in China and Vietnam. She is dressed in luxury brands from head to toe and her various boyfriends are driving her to school in flashy, sports cars. She even has her own condominium unit in the city. With such riches, she does not need a job, not to mention a Bachelor’s degree. Most probably, the certificate is only to show to her family and friends that she is no dumb blonde.

But even if Kelly was not rich, she would have an easy life. She is pretty and get along well with many of her classmates. Every guy wants to date her and will be willing to do anything just to get her to smile at them. Edison suspected that some of the homework submitted by Kelly was done by her male classmates. Afterall, if they are willing to help her carry her bags, buy food for her and even hold the door for her, why would they not do her homework for her. But they cannot do that for a test. Perhaps that explain Kelly’s low score.

He sighed. He did not feel like it but he knew that as a matter of policy, he needed to speak to Kelly about her test. He looked at his watch. It was time for his class. He got up reluctantly and walked to his classroom.

Two hours later, his class came to an end.

“Kelly, I need to speak to you. The rest of you, you are dismissed.”

The students left the classroom quickly, as if released from jail. It was a brief noisy affair and the classroom was soon quiet again. Kelly sat at her desk, looking at her mobile in a bored manner. She knew she had done badly for the test and was expecting Edison to speak to her. She was just hoping to get it over as soon as she can. Her latest boyfriend is bringing her out to a new restaurant and she wants to join him as soon as she can.

“Kelly, do you know why I need to speak to you?” Edison asked.

“You want my number?” laughed Kelly.

“Be serious. You failed your test again. As you have failed all the 3 tests on this module, you are unlikely to pass the module, even if you do very well for the exams.”

“Okay.” Kelly replied unconcerned. She was fiddling with her mobile. Her boyfriend just texted her that he is already at the car park waiting for her. “Can I go now? My boyfriend is waiting for me.”

“Sure. But you know that I will be informing your father that you have failed 3 tests and that you are likely to fail the module. You have already failed this module twice and if you fail it again, you will need to be removed from the program.”

“Wait. What do you mean that I will be removed from the program? Am I going to be kicked out from school?” Kelly was shocked as it finally dawned on her how serious this was. Her father did not care about her grades, only that she gets a certificate at the end of the day. If she gets kicked out of school, he will be so angry that he might stop giving her money. Worse, he may force her out of her condominium and live with the family again. She will lose all her independence and her social life will come to a standstill.

“I cannot be kicked out of school. I need to get my degree. Don’t tell my dad. I will work hard and pass the module. Please,” pleaded Kelly.

“I will need to inform your father as you failed your test. As I said, by failing this test, it is unlikely that you will pass the module.” Edison smirked. It felt good to have some power over his student.

“Isn’t there anything you can do? You can pass me right? You just need to key in a passing grade. I am not asking for an ‘A’ grade. Please.” Kelly was relying on her charm, as this had helped her so many times in the past. “I can do anything for you, if you give me a pass. What do you need?”

“Do you think I can be bribed? I know you are rich but I am not so poor to give you a better grade for money. Sorry.” Edison was feeling much better than what he felt this morning. This is what power felt like.

“If it is not money, then how about something else.” Kelly smiled seductively at Edison. Her teacher was not really her type. She preferred stocky, muscular guys as she liked being dominated in bed. Edison was good looking but as he was about 6 years older than her, she felt that he was too old for her. Still, she did not feel repulsed by him and if it means staying in school and continuing with her lifestyle, she did not mind having sex with him.

She got up from her desk and walked over to Edison who was seating in his chair at his desk. She leaned over him with her breast pouring over his face. She stroked his hair and with her fingers, stroked the nape of his neck.

“Being a teacher must be so stressful. I can feel the tightness in your muscles. How about I give you a massage?” she purred. She pressed Edison’s shoulders lightly and gently caressed his face.

“That is not getting you a pass.” Edison was confused. He thought he was in a position of power but somehow the balance of power seems to have shifted and he was not quite sure how. He only knew that he was staring at Kelly’s cleavage and as she was so near to him, he could smell a soft feminine fragrance from her body.

Kelly moved her fingers towards Edison’s chest. She unbuttoned the front of his shirt and moved her fingers along his chest. She was pleasantly surprised that underneath the shirt, there was a very muscular body. “Somebody has been working out and hiding this nice body in an ugly business shirt,” smiled Kelly. Maybe Edison is her type afterall.

She reached for his nipples and squeezed it with her fingers. Edison gave an uncontrollable moan. He was not expecting that.

“Hmm. Seems like that is not the only thing that is hard.” Kelly straddled Edison and sat on his legs. She unbuckled his belt with some difficulty and unzipped his trousers. Edison’s cock was making a huge tent in his underwear.

“How about you give me a pass if I give you a hand job?” Kelly asked. “You really looked like you need a release quickly.”

“No. I will not be bribed.” Edison mumbled. But he was not feeling quite sure of himself now. Lust has taken over and reason has left him.

“You drive a hard bargain. Maybe you will consider if I show you what you are missing.” Kelly pulled off her blouse and showed off her breasts in a sexy pink lingerie. “This is Victoria’s Secret. Do you like it? Now do you want to see the matching panties?”

With that, Kelly got up and dropped her skirt. Right in front of Edison was his student dressed only in matching pink bra and panties. Kelly had a nice body. Her breasts were not big but sufficiently ample for breast fucking. She had nice pink nipples and her skin was flawless. She posed in front of Edison with her arms at her hips. She smiled at Edison again and walked slowly towards him.

She leaned down and was so close to Edison that he could feel her warm breath on his face. “So, what do you say? Give me a pass and I give you a hand job?”

Edison did not reply. Kelly drew a line from Edison’s scrotum to the tip of his penis through his underwear with her fingers. Edison moaned in pleasure. “Deal?” asked Kelly again.

Again, Edison kept quiet. He was trying to regain his senses but in front of a young, pretty girl in lingerie, it was difficult to clear his mind. Already, part of his mind was thinking of ways to change the marks of the test.

Kelly pulled down Edison’s underwear, revealing a large and thick erect cock. “Gosh, this is much larger than any of my boyfriend’s. I have not seen one so large and thick. Alright. How about this? Give me a pass and I will give you a blowjob. I am only doing this because you got a nice cock. Just think about it. You are going to get nice soft mouth on your cock.”

Kelly pushed Edison further down in his chair and gave him a deep, wet kiss. Her tongue roamed his mouth until it met his tongue. By now, Edison has completely given in to his lust. He kissed Kelly back and fought her with his tongue. Kelly pulled herself away. “Wait. So will you give me a pass for my test?”

“Yes. Just come and kiss me.” Edison replied weakly. Kelly smiled and returned to kissing Edison. With one hand, she started stroking Edison’s hard cock. Edison was lost in pleasure. Kelly saw her mobile lighting up. Fuck. Her boyfriend must be getting impatient. She will need to do this quickly. She moved downed to Edison’s cock, first sucking on one testicle before attending to the other. She circled the shaft with her fingers, adding pressure before she started licking the tip of the cock. It was a large cock and she had some difficulty trying to engulf it whole. She got used to the girth and length after a while, and started sucking on it. The cock reached the end of her mouth and it almost gagged her. Yet, she was enjoying it as she enjoyed the sense of being dominated by a large cock.

“Oh god. You are so fucking good. I am going to cum.” Edison moaned.

Kelly could feel Edison’s cock pulsating and tried to remove her mouth from his cock. But Edison was holding her head down and she had no choice but to swallow as much as the cum as she could. Edison shot a large load. He looked down and saw Kelly with her mouth leaking with his cum. It was just so erotic for him. Kelly wiped her mouth and dressed herself quickly.

“Remember to change my grade. And, maybe you can come by my house next time. I need you to teach me some more so that I can pass this module.” Kelly winked, looking at Edison with his now flaccid cock dripping cum on the classroom floor.

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light-of-being · 5 years ago

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a very fkin long and incomplete exposition of my flaws as a human being

I've not really spoken about the probably most consequential event in my recent life (the ending of a long term relationship), and that's because I haven't really thought about it very much. At least, not in a clear-headed space not entirely filled with rage, fear, or initially, longing. So, I've mostly just been waiting for the intensity of those responses to wear out before I can go back and make sense of things in a sorta 'safe' way.

(These days it's mostly anger and/or hurt. Sometimes twinges of hatred, but those fizzle quickly. I know that attitude isn't 'true'. I tried to hate him, I really did. Things would be so much simpler that way — an obvious villain of pure evil, a mistake worthy of contempt. Put him behind me as someone I regret meeting and consider everything only as a flashing warning sign of what to avoid next time. But real life never is that easy, is it.)

Regardless, reading about miscellaneous psychological ~stuff, I realised that I know for sure now that there are sides of me that only come out in a close relationship, as they postulate. It's unfortunate that my exposure to this was only in such a toxic environment, and I'm not sure if or when closeness has any chance of happening again.

I suspect, based on what I have/haven't felt with him vs others, that I can (at least at this stage of my development) only really feel 'seen' by an antisocial/narcissist/schizoid (or something in that general direction), just hope to god it's a mature one next time. I might want to interrogate and possibly change that fact, I'm not sure it's at all a healthily arrived preference. But...

there is a degree of normalcy and social belonging in others that becomes a wall

I can relate superficially, cognitively and even 'deeply personally' (tho is all y'all's deeply personal shit necessarily relational?), have a good time and even feel 'connection' but there are parts that seem simply insurmountable.

The lack of relating to many things is the unifying factor between me and the specified groups: the shared experience of not having shared experiences

But yet, a more acute awareness of superficiality, and the drives and mechanics of human interactions, attitudes, identity and constructs, not taken for granted as default but built from the ground up (Most often out of either necessity or a desire to manipulate them, but still).

Actually, most straightforwardly, the shared experience of experiencing oneself as an outsider to society — whether people personally, accepted norms or expected attitudes towards self and other.*

Anyway, that was a whole semi-tangent I went off on (useful and relevant to the initial thought but not the point I was planning on).

Important point was...ah yes, insights!

...into how I behave under genuine relational circumstances. Due to aforementioned toxicity, I'm not sure how generalisable they are to relationships overall, but they should generalise to feeling-states.

(a) Fear. Defensiveness.

Switches off my brain. Obvious? No. I have been actively strategic while having a gun pointed at me. I thought I had that down. Turns out, I cannot dissociate myself out of an argument most of the time.

Turns out, just the fact or even prospect of arguing activates panic and brain goes out the window. Which is really fucking stupid as an occurrence because how many of these could be prevented with a bit of mindfulness and thoughtful responding. But getting emotions to chill out for long enough to do that is tough.

(b) I am a stubborn dumbass. Kid me argued until they were attacked so harshly that they absolutely could not continue. The alternative presented was to just keep silent, one I did not then and do not now accept. Discussion where both parties partake in good faith have generally been fruitful, only neither of these situations were that. Both involved one person trying to dominate at all costs. To which I suppose keeping silent for the moment and then running tf away is an appropriate response. Idk. I'm not sure if this is a 'normal situation' to which I respond unhealthily, or an 'abnormal situation' in which you just do your best to survive. Arguments are normal. Idk if other people have a less aggressive approach that is less outright terrifying, in which I can modulate, but it does seem like people want to prove you wrong and get angry, which I perceive as aggression.

Which brings me to boundaries. Can I shut things down when I'm overwhelmed. In the present case, the answer was no. They both didn't stop and the fact that I asked for this was interpreted as admission of defeat.Oftentimes, getting out of the situation was more of an ordeal than dealing with it. [We stayed at a hotel the one time and he did things that made me very uncomfortable (in like a “things that I shudder at thinking about even now” kind of way; not sexual btw which this has made it sound). I thought I was as clear as I could’ve been by saying, “I’m going to legit have a breakdown if you keep doing that” but apparently it came across as a joke (gotta improve on communication as well). He stopped and apologised when he realised I was crying, but later blamed me for not being more assertive and laughed at my ‘exaggerated’ response and “meltdown”. At this point I wanted to leave and go home, but he withheld [my copy of] the key. He insisted and manipulated and coerced for discussion, said I could have the key if I “really wanted it, but do I actually want that”, until it was just easier to give in. The helplessness and feeling trapped of that evening haunts me to this day, and I want to be very sure to never be in any situation where that is even a possibility again no matter what.]

I need to get better at knowing what is and isn't okay and being strong enough to enforce that.

(a) Attachment is a bitch. Utterly unfamiliar sensation, one I don't know my way around at all. The rarity of relation makes it seem so fucking precious, so fucking necessary to protect even to my detriment and his. Dare I tip the boat or will it sink. Should I be the dancing monkey to keep it from sinking. Should he.

(b) The feeling of giving a damn what someone thinks of me is also foreign and difficult. It also seems hella intensified by virtue of not existing elsewhere. Disapproval feels devastating. Criticism becomes attack. Everything feels like a continuous effort to establish worth. I'd imagined acceptance could be taken for granted, but I questioned it the whole way (obviously doesn't help when he demands changes).

(c) I have trouble distinguishing between personal issues and insecurities and legitimate reason to be upset. I think this is typical. But with trial and error, one can probably pick up on what you carry with you across differing people and circumstances. I don't have that data. I have nothing to compare against. I also suspect some parts of this is him treating legitimate reasons as being my distorted perceptions, which I'm pretty sure did happen for a few things that I believe are 'objectively' shitty.

I trust. Too. Fucking. Much. I take shit at face value. This is very often dumb and...bad in literally every sense, but I don’t yet know how to identify preemptively when that's the case. I also fail to be adequately 'suspicious' I guess to be alert to minor inconsistencies later on. Lies are especially devastating. I built my reality around you using that fundamental premise. Now you tell me it was false all along. Where does that leave me? I go back to substitute and nothing makes sense. I don't know if the initial statement was a lie or the claim that it's false was. I don't know if everything I remember is just distorted somehow. I don't know what to do. (aside: gaslighting? I’m inclined to say “effectively, yes”. The best explanation I have is that for many things he rewrote the narrative in his own mind and does not remember the things that blatantly contradict it. For other things, I cannot see that being possible and am forced to think it’s just pure lies). All of this could have been prevented if I accounted for people being dishonest.

(a) I lose sympathy. Genuinely did not ever expect this to happen. Enough hurt, enough deception and I stop trying to understand why. I assume malice. I expect malice in future interactions and misread situations as a result. In the beginning I made fucktons of effort to be understanding of things far from my typical range (hello, admissions of past violence and present homicidal ideation. Hello, talking someone out of real intention of ruining a person's life over a minor slight). Honestly, I think I overreached. Some of these things were not things I should have tolerated, accepted even. When I started walking on eggshells to not have him ruin my life, too, that was probably when I should've gotten out. He claimed that the people he cares about are exceptions. That's probably true, otherwise I would currently be in a ton of shit. But at some point I did stop believing it.

(b) I don't really think that most of the things that happened were malicious. Some, he admits, were. But mostly he wasn't out with the intention to hurt me, but he also didn't make the effort...not to. Even with me repeatedly complaining about things, he was defensive or dismissive, considering me talking about an issue to be me creating issues in his life. This is super shitty, his damage is caused by a stubborn ego fixation and sheer passivity, thoughtlessness (he has agreed to all of this in our final conversation), but it isn't exactly intentionally malicious. If he genuinely didn't believe there was a problem, that is an issue, and the fact that he utterly failed until the end to even consider the possibility of a valid complaint, is a very real flaw. He is bad insofar as "he is lazy and incompetent at being good". Which I can understand but nevertheless protect myself from. Ideally, sooner. At the point where I start feeling like someone is being shitty more often than not, something needs to happen. A discussion, a reconsideration, a run-as-fast-as-you-can... Something.

Idk. This isn't everything. But yeah.

* These 3 PDs are often used in illustrating the idea of pathologising difference: few of the criteria are about subjective distress and many about extrinsic value judgements of what a person should be like (lol, my clinical psych final had an essay question on this). I don't necessarily agree but it does speak to a shared thread of...something. That said, this characterisation is tbh still too broad for my liking. Importantly, it is definitively applicable to autistic people but I do not in general relate to that in the same way. Some specific manifestations of it, yes, but I have seen far too many excessively... 'human' autistic people to include the whole category. There are probably folks in the PD categories who are also like that but I think much less common.

#personal #emotions #reflections #relationships #personality disorder #possible tw abuse idk #if you're actually interested in reading probably best to do so tomorrow #not sure why I'm posting now in the first place #will reblog when I update #also needs links those are important

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lsesu · 7 years ago

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Choosing modules at LSE

When you study at LSE, you have the opportunity to learn not only about your chosen field of interest, but also about other subject taught at LSE. Choosing your modules therefore can be quite a lengthy process, as there are so many to choose from! But it’s totally worth it.

Every course at LSE is very different. Some require you to take more compulsory modules than others – you can find a full layout of the structure of your course in the programme regulations here.

However, all courses allow you to take at least one approved outside option from any other department at LSE if you wish at some point in your LSE life.

Here is an overview of the different kinds of modules at LSE, and the best ways you can go about choosing the right ones for you. I know it’s a bit of a long post, but stick with me – it’ll be worth it, I promise!

Keep an eye on your course’s structure

The make-up of each course is different at LSE; some courses have more compulsory modules than others, and like you to stay very much within their department, whilst others have more space for outside options beyond your primary department.

The structure of your course changes each year too, so you may find again that you have more or less of a chance to explore options outside your department as you move from year to year.

Make sure you read through the course outlines of any compulsory modules you have, as this will help you choose the best outside options that compliment elements of your course.

Here is a link to ALL COURSE REGULATIONS AND STRUCTURES for the 17/18 academic session.

What are outside options?

Outside options are basically any modules that are taught outside your department, and mean you are able to study a subject that is different to that of your degree.

So you can literally study any subject you like – from French to Psychology, Economics to Maths!

Taking a different subject that compliments your degree can help add context and background to your learning. For example, as a first year Philosophy student, I took Sociology as my outside option, and found it helped me really put my degree into context and see how it could apply in real-life situations.

What are timetable clashes and how can I avoid them?

The approval of your module choices is subject to whether they have any timetable clashes, which is where two or more of your lectures/classes overlap; you physically wouldn’t be able to attend both at the same time.

Now, to my knowledge, there isn’t a device which allows you to be in two places at once (don’t worry, I’m working on it though folks), so unfortunately it usually means you will have to choose a different module.

So when you are reading up on which modules you’d like to take, make sure you have a few back-ups that you can swap in just in case you do have any clashes.

Is the course available this year?

Some courses, for reasons unbeknown to any LSE student, are suspended for a year or two. So make sure your course is available for your current session (e.g. 17/18) before falling in love with it…

However, if you’re already head over heels, don’t worry - courses usually become re-available after a year or two, or they get scrapped altogether - so you’ll have closure either way.

Is the course available for your degree?

Always double check that the course is available for your type of degree; you can’t take a Bsc course if you’re doing a masters and vice versa.

Is the course capped?

Be aware that some courses at LSE are capped – which means the number of participants it can take is limited. Generally, getting accepted onto a capped course requires you to submit a supporting statement on why you’d like to take that course.

The best advice for sculpting the perfect supporting statement is to do your research. Explain your interests and goals for the course, show your enthusiasm, click send and wait with all of your body parts crossed.

First Year Options

First year courses are different to second and third; you can’t take second or third year options in first year, and vice versa. First year courses are generally an introduction, so don’t be afraid to study something that you’ve never tried, or even heard of before. The full list of first year outside options can be found here.

Second & Third Year Options

When choosing your second year options, bear in mind the choices you are leaving yourself for third year too. If you can have a rough idea of what you are interested in, or even if you have any ideas for your dissertation, it’s wise to choose modules that can help give you background and context to either of the former.

The full list of second & third year outside options can be found here.

ALSO: Some courses are mutually exclusive and may not be combined – the full list of courses that cannot be taken together can be found here.

Half Units vs. Full Units

Every course at LSE is either a half unit or a full unit. Full (1.0) unit courses are taught throughout the whole year, during both the Michaelmas and Lent terms.

Half unit courses are either taught in the Michaelmas term or the Lent term – you will need to choose two half (0.5) units – one to study during Michaelmas term, and one to study during Lent term. (If timetables allow, I believe you are technically able to do two half units in one term, but you would be creating an AWFUL lot of work for yourself!).

Make the most of Auditing

There is no need to worry if you go to your first lecture and don’t like it - this happens to lots of people. If the module is not compulsory for your course, you can change it.

LSE has this brilliant system called auditing, where you can audit modules to see if you like them – you can effectively ‘try before you buy’. You can sit in any classes you like – the timetable for all modules can be found here – in fact, you could sit in every single class available if you really, really, really wanted…

Most universities only give you a 24-hour window to make any course changes, but LSE gives you two weeks. That means you get to go to two lectures and two classes, which I think is fantastic – it really gives you an idea of whether you’d like to study a module. The 2017/18 deadline for course choices is 5pm on the 9th October.

Look at the assessment criteria

All courses combine formative and summative assessments throughout the year.

Formative coursework is non-assessed, and is designed to prepare you for the summative (assessed) work you will complete later on in the year. Formative coursework might include essays, problem sets, presentations or mock examinations. The main purpose of formative coursework is to provide feedback, and to get you accostumed to the style requirements of summative coursework.

Summative coursework counts towards your final degree mark, and comes in all shapes and sizes, including

An exam

An essay

A presentation

Or a combination of 2 or 3 of the above.

If you want to be really tactical, you can choose modules that suit your strengths, e.g. you might perform better in exams rather than essays, and choose to take a module that is assessed 100% by exam.

Identify Your Objectives:

This follows on nicely to identifying your objectives; what do you want to get out of your degree. Different people all have different priorities and strengths, but this is the great thing about LSE; you can really tailor your degree to your own interests and goals.

Whilst any kind of module combination at LSE will help to broaden your horizons and provide you with an inter-disciplinary perspective (thanks LSE100), you can also be strategic in your choices to provide you with the kind of degree that you feel will benefit you the most.

These strategies can include:

Courses that are assessed mostly by exams.

Courses that are assessed mostly by essays.

Courses your friends are taking so you can split the readings.

Courses being taught by teachers you already know/like/respect.

Courses which nobody has failed in years!

Courses which compliment your primary degree modules to provide more reading sources/background info in essays.

Courses that are completely different to your degree – to provide you with a bit of variation.

Courses about basic finance or economics (usually more attractive to employers)

Courses that have no 9am starts!

These variables are completely personal to you; have a real think about what you’d truly like to learn about over the next year, and go from there. I

If you can keep a few main objectives in mind, this will make choosing your courses easier, and you may feel like they work together better if they are all working towards one goal.

Be Open Minded

Keep an open mind towards the different subjects at LSE. University is all about challenging yourself and exploring out of your comfort zone, so don’t be afraid to take a subject that you’ve never studied before; there will be lots of people in the same boat.

Lastly, click here for an online demonstration of how to choose your modules on LSE For You.

Good luck and happy auditing!

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dawnlikeswater · 5 years ago

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Project better future: 2020 Edition

Day 1 Long story short, 2020′s been thoroughly kicking my ass.

Depression & Anxiety on main? CHECK Broke AF? CHECK 2 weeks til deadlines? CHECK Graduation hanging in the balance of work being submitted or not? CHECK No income? CHECK Forced in to living at the family house again, because you can’t afford to live alone anymore, due to a global pandemic? CHECK

Sooo.... yeah, i’ve pretty much fallen off the wagon this year, I used to work so much harder, and be so much more motivated to make my future better for myself, but this year, it’s just fallen apart, and i’ve really just let it happen, and to be completely honest, i’ve had enough of myself beign like this.

This blog, and writing out my plans, and feelings isn’t somethign i had ever intended to stop doing, it just kinda happened on it’s own, but it did always help me a lot, and so i’m back again, and im ready ot get working, and moving and trying again to make myself a better future.

Current situation: I’m in my final year at university, in my final 9 days, I have to write a whoel dissertation, and then make a presentation for it, which i’ll need to film myself presenting as well, I also have 2 pieces of make-up work because i failed some things earlier in the year, and just yeah, it is all due on the 14th.

I’ve been procrastinating it all like a mad, because school stuff makes my anxiety flare real bad, but I truly cannot afford to do this anymore. If i don’t get these pieces of work in, I will fail my whole degree, I have have have to get them in, even if it’s low quality work and I only get D’s, those D’s would literally be enough to get me a degree.

D’s will literally get me a degree right now.

My rough plan at present is to just get as much of my introduction section written tonight as I can, and email it to my advisors at the university for feedback, and whilst I wait for them to get back to me, I will begin trying to do the data section of the dissertation the day after, and then send that on to them as well, in hopes they get some feedback to me fast enough that I can make use of it.

I will then Look at the make-up work, and do what I can of that over the weekend.

The only way here that I can succeed, is is i actually do a good chunk every day, there’s no excuses, i need to do some every day if i’m going to have D worthy work in by 5pm on the 14th of August.

If I can get the work in, and I did enough to get D’s, i’ll be able to graduate.

But what about getting work, or life after the 14th?

2020 being what it is, there’s next to no jobs available, especially within the field of marine vertebrate zoology, which is what my degree is on, I did one day (whilst procrastinating) begin thinking about how to earn money, or begin working, and my options are pretty limited, especially by the fact that I haven’t already finished my degree, i was supposed to be done in may, but I got extensions because of how sick I was (not corona, just depression/anxiety).

And so the solutions I came to were that, even if i did pass my degree somehow, that I need extra training to show in place of experience, and so I began looking in to the things I could get extra training in affordably, at home, online, where it’s safe, and that would also lead to a well paying job. One of the biggest contenders was Statistics and data analysis, I have experience with these things thanks to my degree,a nd they are highly sought after still eve with the pandemic, also they pay reallyyyyyy well, £21-22k GBP at entry level.

It was during that time that I realised how much i’ve come to just hate academia, and scholarly things, and that it is because university has absolutely destroyed every last bit of happiness I had about sciences in the last year, and that I need some time away from it all.but also something that would perhaps be a little more in my own control, as the statistics stuff would still be highly dependant on me actually getting hired, even after getting additional training, and then I somehow found me way to TEFL (Teaching English as a foreign language)

I spent like 3 days going really far down an internet rabbit hole, learning everything I could about TEFL courses, what it’s like to actually work teaching English as a foreign language, finding out what opportunities exist out there, teachign in a classroom environment, teachign abroad, in a business, teachign online, and which TEFL courses would actually have come form reputable sources, and would be fully accredited, and was lucky enough that the course I wanted to take was on sale 60% off, and yes, it was a fully UK gov accredited lvl3 course, it’s regulated by Ofqual.

So I paid for the course, started it, and finished the first module within the week I had begun it (I was procrastinating my uni stuff, big surprise).

So following the 14th of August 220, when my university work is all done, submitted in whatever state it is yeeted into turn it in, in, what im planning on doing next is a day or 2 of rest, and then I’ll be pushing to finish the tefl course ASAP, so that I can get myself registered with online teaching companies asap, and hopefully begin earning some money, because I am so far into the overdraft of my bank account it’s not even funny, and I can survive maybe til the end of September at best if i’m exceptionally frugal.

Chances are that over the next year I will probably take the training for statistics and data analysis as well, but i do need time away from sciences, and i need some time to just be a bit more free, be able to travel if i want to travel, save some money up finally, and stop living the life of a broke ass student, and be able to take work with me where ever I am, i guess i just want to live a slightly more stable life, where i’m able to do the things I actually want to do.

I’m not sure when i’ll next post, but I think it’ll be tomorrow, saying where im up to with my dissertation work, we’ll see.

Congratulations if you read all that.

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songketalliance · 5 years ago

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Down the Rabbit Hole

“The most challenging but invaluable skill I developed in managing my anxieties (that causes irritability, depression and aggressive speech and/or behaviours in me) was how I manage my anxieties in relation to my interactions with people I love.”

by Haley B

Some days living with mental health issues can feel absolutely impossible. And I say this so that whoever reads this understands that the feeling of just how impossible it is, it can completely debilitate you, hold you down to the floor, trouble-breathing-kind-of-impossible.

Having said that however, with a lot of help, living with mental health issues can be doable.

I had no inkling of having issues with my mental health until one of my lecturers at University described me to be on this "downward spiral" because of failing two modules and suggested I speak to the Uni counselor.

I spoke to the nice lady and felt better. I was training to be a clinician myself, and trusted her to do her job as a qualified individual.

So, I poured myself out like water out of a glass, wanting her to strain the debris of sadness out of me so I could walk out of the session, as clear as water out of a tap.

Little did I know mental health isn't as straightforward as a simple water filtration system.

Mental health was a rabbit hole.

I am Alice who followed the white rabbit and tumbled down the hole of my past traumas, all the pain I've experienced, the hurtful words of yore bled red, alive and glowing in the dark crevices of my mind.

It was not merely a case of failing subjects that had put me in that spot. It was how I perceived that event and what it meant to me was how I learned that the way I processed the event was different.

I anchored my self worth and entire existence to succeeding in getting that degree. "Student" was my identity then before I could become "worker" (and "provider" for my family). How could I get to progress to any of that if I failed there? If I lost that, I would lose my reason to live.

What sense was there to exist.

I remember my heart breaking over and over living in between reality conflicting with my "truth".

I remember attending class after class, feeling numb and watching days pass by. Life kept moving but I wasn't.

It wasn't until we sat in our counselling module and the lecturer taught us about metacognition. It was about developing awareness of how one thinks. "Thinking about thinking".

I didn't know it then, but developing meta cognitive skills allowed me to patch myself up enough before I finally saw a psychiatrist. She said I had depression while I was overseas-but somehow managed to overcome it.

I was able to see the way I was processing an event, and saw it like a sequence backwards:

I am upset. Why am I upset? Because I failed so and so. Why does that matter so much? Because I'm failing mom. How can we fix that? Do better at the resit.

My current therapist tells me this skill is what helps me challenge my negative thoughts.

How I challenge my negative thoughts isn't by two opposing versions of me having a duel on a battlefield in my mind-although that's pretty cool.

I just steal myself during the chaos.

When those ugly voices begin multiplying in my mind, and I cannot stop crying, and it's hard to breathe.

I steal a moment and tell myself to take a deep breath.

I tell myself, "Allah inda zalim (my Lord is not evil)" and I exhale.

That has been my everlasting truth. After that I would work my way back to each dark and negative sentence and answer them.

"You're a fraud"

-"I graduated"

"You're a sinner"

-"But I love my Lord"

"You're a bad friend"

-"My friends love me"

The most challenging but invaluable skill I developed in managing my anxieties (that causes irritability, depression and aggressive speech and/or behaviours in me) was how I manage my anxieties in relation to my interactions with people I love.

I have said the most awful things to my partner during bouts of anxiety. Some have hurt him so much, it amazes me until this day how we could ever get over those nasty fights.

But through those unfortunate moments, I was even more motivated to be diligent in examining my thoughts and feelings. Through those experiences I was able to take a step back during disagreements. Was I reacting this way because it's an appropriate response or is there a learned (possibly toxic) expectation that lay beyond it and I was trying to exert dominance?

Having mental health issues isn't easy. One of the biggest ironies, was having an episode on mental health day 10/10/19 and needing to call Talian Harapan.

There is no quick fix. And it is something I will need to address in some way or another my whole life. But it's a part of who I am, and it isn't ideal but it is doable.

by Haley B

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Classroom Game Design: Paul Andersen at TEDxBozeman

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Classroom Game Design: Paul Andersen at TEDxBozeman

Good day, my name is Mr. Anderson and my lecture room is a online game I cannot think of a better solution to a narrative higher than Alice falling down the rabbit gap and he or she comes upon a bottle and the bottle says with ease "Drink me" and so i’m a teacher, so I wanna attempt to recreate that so what I did is I left my pc in my type and i had angry birds on it after which I had a card next to it and it quite simply stated the phrase "play" and then I walked away but I wish to see what happened so I left the webcam on so I acquired a bit of video that youngsters come into type so… Would you like to see that? (viewers: Yeah!) Yeah… As when you’ve got an choice Ha… Yeah… I really like how they take turns And i really like Jackson’s eyes in case you watch him yes! Success! So that seem in his eyes, that seem of finding out are attempting whatever new and failing and take a look at it again is some thing we influenced to peer within the eyes of our kids we don’t try this, quite a lot of the time it can be glazed over seem and so i would like to try to apply a few of these dynamics into my study room so I grew up in 1980s taking part in video video games, and these video games taught me lessons that I think we would follow to varsities in these days the very first thing I discovered, is the video video games are fun and institution must be fun as well unfortunately, most children wouldn’t say their school day is enjoyable nonetheless there are elements of university that every one scholars love they love seeing their pals, and they love finding out regrettably they spend lots of the day, just passively sitting down in front Sitting, paying attention to a trainer lecture so I consider university should be enjoyable 2d factor I realized, is that failure is ok If it takes you 8 instances to clear the 1/3 elevator stage in donkey kong, that is adequate failure is without difficulty a part of a finding out procedure however, in schools, we are inclined to stigmatized failure you do not take a quiz again and again and over agian except you in the end cross it in fact, failure members proper now, failure in faculties is totally stigmatized.So I suppose we ought to ship a message that failure is okay! The 0.33 factor I realized is the value of leveling This could be applied in faculties in two methods When a trainer decides to move in a designated p.C. That’s adequate for one of the vital pupils of their class but one of the crucial students are robotically to be bored one of the vital students are swiftly gonna be careworn so I consider students should be competent to move on their possess p.C. Through mastery method where they master a level and they can transfer on to the following one additionally they will have to be able to degree up becoming extra strong as they be taught new fabric within the category I additionally suppose that, we provide the mistaken lecture at the starting of the yr as I stated the lecture on the opening of the year, i would say, You all have an A, from this point ahead, you will fall precipitously , unless eventually you land your final grade no game will ever be designed this fashion so one of the first-class factor to be a satisfactory instructor is you will have a summer wreck summer time ruin is first-rate since you get a break from institution, but you can also reinvent your class make it anything that’s by no means been before in case you try to do that in the course of the 12 months, should you try to make an intensive changes, youngsters will just with ease be careworn but should you alternate it in the course of the summer time, you are making significant, swiping alterations on your type the youngsters will not ever recognize what hit them So, this was once my dream.I desired to reinvent my class as a online game however i didn’t wish kids just sit down in front and watch the video game like Oregon trail where the world in usual Sandiego I wish to take them in most compelling elements of gaming, then utilized in the classroom this took quite a few work, and so I had created a class, it can be known as "Biohazard 5" it can be obtained narrator, acquired the narrative, all of the children come together there I’ve created about 150 podcast that take them through the lecture and so after they get that point, they get form of realized i have all of the precise activities at school that children can applied the fabric that we’re studying in the true world i have a bunch of inquiry labs, this one right right here, is a picture of synphetheis lab you can find my pupils very riveted they may be learning image synthesis utilizing little chop we reduce from a leaf I’ve developed thousands of questions that i’ve a mastery the place the procedure scholars can take quizzes over and over and over again except they in the end get it i’ve a leveling system so that they start with zero expertise factor on the commencing of the year I borrowed this from Lee Sheldon within the university of Indiana so essentially they coming on day 1 I invented the button stage as the primordial soup purpose I train Biology in order that they gain their expertise factor, and they can transfer their approach up like dumble octpus, and mountain gorilla, and maybe grand master on the finish I also have a chief board, in order that they play with the avatar and they can see how they are doing in the class how they’re doing to towards all people else this is probably the most preferred resource within the classification children are continually logged in and see how they are stacked up I also obtained a piloting set that of a iPad so children acquired an internet connected gadgets always sooner or later, the summer was once over and i stood in entrance of the class Like this, it seems that and that i mentioned howdy, my title is Mr.Anderson and my type is a online game, so what i want you to do is snatch an iPad i would like you to logging into Biohazard 5 i would like you to look at a video, i would like you to do some reading i would like you to take a quiz, and head off the category now if i have completed this with my pupils’ parents that could be the most frustrating day of my lifestyles however the kids grew up with the science and the science at present with no trouble works in order that they had been headed off on their possess So my type, is a finding out school room when you come in, you’ll find the youngsters are studying, looking at movies, applying, doing certain hobbies, looking to remedy challenges, working collectively or working alone so it’s quite want on the trainer come we have been simply talking within the half of method by way of the class he mentioned " good you created is like a store classification" motive he was a shop instructor as soon as he mentioned the retailer trainer, you train them some capabilities and the kids can practice that so it’s like that I would really like to keep telling you ways satisfactory it’s how the scan ranking look to be going up and the way the kids finding out easy methods to be trained independently however i’m a science teacher and that is no longer what get us excited in science, what will get us excited is discovering anything new so I wanna speak about 3 approaches that I failed quantity 1 a conventional lecture room is like a tuition bus the place all of the pupils had been all logged in they just get on and the trainer is just like the bus driver and it drives from factor A to factor B that you would be able to make sure that all of the students get there so what i have executed is like I get each and every of them a company new automobile, keys, and i said "pressure" so a few of them stalled out and a few of them raced ahead and a few of them drove right right into a wall so I must get them extra scaffolding subsequent year subsequent thing I discovered is the significance of reading youngsters struggled with reading when you are making your classification independant and that i must’ve visible this coming because that is the most important indicator of success and i feel the reason I did not see it coming is that I not ever stopped talking, given that that’s what good lecturers will we read the publication, and then we come out with rather excellent examples then we gift it in a rather dynamic method and the children can simply sit there and then they are able to study it why would they want to learn the ebook? We read it for them so once I compelled them to read the book plenty of them struggled and we must work with that the final thing I realized, is that we’re not Vulcans In essentially the most contemporary famous person trek movie young Spock sits in a bit module and he surrounded by computer screens and the computer maintains throwing questions at him, and philosophy, and relativity and that’s his tuition day, simply sits in a module like that so quite a few men and women believe they can trade education by means of by some means use videos or automating the training procedure that sucks, who would want to be at a university like that? Children are coming to college to be social so I add factors of social learning at the type to make it more compelling this can be a TED speak, the entire just right TED talks always finish with a call to motion so what are you able to do? I believe faculties have to transfer from a passive instructor-headquartered learning atmosphere to an lively pupil headquartered atmosphere that’s what I did I was once off to the facet now, there’s a mentor in the type so how will we do that? If you’re a student, you get suggestions to your lecturers, the whole thing I do in my classification all I acquired is a outcomes of feedback I received from my scholars what you do in case you are a mum or dad? Your write an e-mail if you want your schools to change the one emails I get from parents are complaining about their pupils grades I by no means get "My scholars had an A in your class, however i have a problem with the philosophy for your class" that does not happen, so message you’re sending to teachers is that the grade is the only thing that’s major however maybe you are now not a guardian, and maybe you are now not a pupil but you’re human so what’s the lesson? What’s in the bottle? What’s in there it can be your ardour, it is the one thing you wanna do can you figure out what my ardour is? I like my family and i like educating and if that you can drink that bottle, also remembering to fail, be trained and repeat the procedure over once more, then I believe you’ll have a lifestyles valued at residing

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batterymonster2021 · 6 years ago

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Classroom Game Design: Paul Andersen at TEDxBozeman

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jasonmccormicksetdesign-blog · 6 years ago

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Working Freelance

I have not blogged for some time now due to the last few weeks being solely focused to meeting my deadline for the first project of the year. Furthermore, due to this there was not much to blog about as the work I was doing was for this project alone, despite me wanting to work some more on my website.

However despite all this, there was in fact one guest speaker we had who talked more about being self employed and working freelance. Whilst the talk was enjoyable and beneficial in some regards, I cannot help but think that all the talks we are in fact being lucky enough to have are centered more on individuals wanting to start their own companies and not so much to individuals who simply want to work in the art department without creating a business. I think that I fit into this category of people who simply want to work in the art department freelance, and I do not really want to create a company to do this.

Despite this, the guest speaker we had was Adrian Ashton. He works freelance, and helps other people who want to follow the same path, or start their business. The following notes I made during the talk. He has a website of his own, and as well as this he mentioned many design related sites which I have in my notes and aim to look into further.

Adrian Ashton – Self Employment and Getting Noticed

www.adrianashton.com

· With the university enterprise scheme

· Experience – try everything out and see what fits and works for you

· Useful to think about this now – see whether you would want to be self-employed – think about it while you have time in university and not in the world of work.

· Know what you’re about before doing it

· Not as easy to get a job straight after graduating

· Instead of companies employing over the Christmas period companies are firing

· People with a degree think that they will earn more – be realistic about expectations

· Self-employment – pick your own hours – no 9 to 5, no working for someone else

· Creativity is lessened when working for someone else

· Design for the client and not yourself

· Better work/life balance

· Less of a steady income however – less certainty of getting a job/work/brief

· No pension contributions if self employed

· No holiday or sick pay

Checklist for Self-Employment

· Be consistent – stick to your guns

· Be able to see things through

· Talk to strangers – networking

· Influence people

· Cope with pressure

· Be able to take risks

· Be ok with your own company

· Do not be a procrastinator

Be aware of the above and find ways around it – get on and do it – no one is pushing you but yourself

Making a “career” out of it

· Specialise your company, designing something in particular and only that

· Collaborate – connect with contacts and network more

· Be flexible – long and short term contracts etc

Business plans = design manifestos for this module

The below are what a business plan should do

· Focus on what you want to offer

· Helps gain/regain control of your enterprise

· Make sure it’s working as you had hoped it would/how it needs to

· Is it ok that it is not the same?

· How can you change it

· Business plans help keep you in control of your company/business

· Business plans are useful if you are aiming to apply for a grant/money from someone in the future – they will ask what your business plan is in order to make sure you are worthy of the money

· www.businessmodelgeneration.com

· The model assumes that you are only interested in one thing – only design one thing e.g. websites

· It is an American designed system – their system of business is different to the UKs

· Lean Canvas business model

· Has interesting thoughts to consider in this model – such as unfair advantage (what makes you stand out)

How much to charge customers

· “Market-rate” what other companies charge – if everyone charges it then we become concerned if someone does not charge it

· “Accountants rate” calculate how much to charge based on other finances involved in your company

· Value to customer – worth more than the market rate e.g. petrol prices are rising but people still pay it as the freedom of having a car and driving wherever they want instead of relying on public transport is worth more – more value

· “Pay what you feel”

· What’s the cost of delivering it to them?

· What’s the cost of “staying open”?

· What does your time need to be worth?

Networking

· A clear headline about yourself

· Something for people to remember you by – need something to allow people to call you back – make people want to call you back

· Represent your brand

· Connecting other people – make contacts

· If something is not relevant for you then keep it in mind for someone else in the future – they will look for opportunities to repay you

· “Escape lines” – be polite and move it along – break the conversation without leaving the person with someone else

Benefits of networking

· Shared costs – collaborating and sharing workspaces etc

· Finding work and larger projects

· Maintain profile in, and awareness of, different marketplaces – people can be talking about you, good way to realise this and act on it

· Good way to keep up to date with what’s going on in your industry

Funding the Start Up

· Bootstrapping – own savings

· Bank – loans and initial sums of money

· Grants

· Investors – equity – equity is when people take a legal ownership of your business

· Crowdfunding – not the best as most fail, is more about getting assurance from people that your idea is good – validation

· Advance sale – buy the stock after receiving money from the client

· Credit from suppliers

· Family and friends

· Debts such as overdrafts

· Retained profits

Common Challenges

· Have to keep up with bookkeeping – you are legally in charge of your finances even if you hire an accountant – ensure that finances are always taken care of

· Have to get into habit of using it

· Poor reporting/information systems

· Lack of skills in bookkeeping – if you understand the point then you can use it – because sometimes we do not understand something we focus on other things

· Not prioritising task/acknowledging its importance

· Inappropriate system (including outsourcing)

· Finance applications often fail because sums don’t add up and can’t tell the “whole story”

· Seen as “too risky” – unproven ideas, reporting and management not “up to scratch”, no assets/not strong enough trading history and too many “loose threads”

Grants and problems

· Lead time

· Restrictions on use

· Cash-flow implications

Last bits and summary

· Keep your pitch snappy

· Average attention span of investor is 10 slides

· Tell a story

· Dezeen Network – creative independent

· NESTA Network

· Other software packages and apps to help you

· Accountants and bookkeepers

· Not everyone is the customer

· Not everyone cares

· Money isn’t always the answer – focus on the simple things – get creative

· Social media

· Get creative with your networking – eating cake story

· If you don’t ask you will never receive

· Register as self-employed – HMRC

· Start thinking about it – when you have earned enough money through a job of your own and are well settled

#year3 #app

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audir8leaseprice543-blog · 7 years ago

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Will Bentley Rental Fee Structure Ever Die?

There are numerous fantastic main reasons why you ought to never ever lend your basic vehicle to strangers, and plenty of extra for not doing this having a Jensen Interceptor. Besides the security threats, West Bromwich's finest development has not been within the vanguard of dependability and very low ownership expenditures. And nevertheless in the last year I have finished this a lot of, repeatedly.

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This story didn't close there. The substitute fan was a higher overall performance version that stored tripping the fuse. I only realised this a couple of days afterwards After i was driving the car right down to London for another wedding day. The next overheating also highlighted a failed seal on the radiator cap. The car ran high-quality around the motorway - in thirty diploma heat - but demanded a relentless 'halt, reset, begin' method the moment in London targeted visitors.

When I met the customer in Richmond I uncovered that he was actually choosing up the Jensen en route to his marriage and he was dressed in his early morning suite. So there was no time to resolve the trouble and only simply enough time and energy to exhibit him the way to briefly fix it. Thankfully he was not driving considerably, failed to know much about cars and did not spot the pool of coolant that appeared when he introduced it back the next day!

These niggles have demonstrated the necessity of creating a very good romance with a superb area expert garage. Race Activity is expert in massive American engines and it has discovered lots with regard to the Interceptor in the previous few months. If the car fails I need A fast turnaround and they usually oblige.

So the car continues to be responsible. Has it been appeared just after? Normally, yes. The same old guidelines apply - 99% of people are cautious, Pretty much reverential, towards the car. one% are fewer very careful but unquestionably not abusive. The vehicle has picked up one particular parking chip around the main fringe of the doorway but usually it is exactly as it was before.

The crucial element to keeping it this fashion is to make clear to buyers how valuable the vehicle should be to me and the cost to them of harming it. They indicator a kind that highlights all defects and fork out a higher deposit on assortment.

For just a car that receives a great deal standard use, I have saved it nearly as regular. If the motor was rebuilt I decided to keep it normal. The one variations I have produced are to make use of regular rubber rather than the Significantly costlier substantial efficiency tyres, And that i will be upgrading the opposite cooling lover by means of Martin Robey. Race Sport also dialled back again the kick down, which buyers Do not detect but which preserves the motor. Operating exercise is restricted to checking and maintain each of the concentrations and comprehensive cleansing inside of, outside the house and underneath right after each individual use. The Jensen stays inside a Carcoon among hires, that has an extremely audio investment decision.

The car's hire do the job also generates an revenue that I reinvest in the car. Around the Winter season it's going to obtain some minimal beauty advancements on the bodywork - there are a few chips below and there from former years - And that i can get the wheels refurbished.

After a chaotic yr for me and a tough 12 months for your car I'm pretty impressed with how the vehicle has held up. I now not be concerned whatsoever when it is actually out - both about breakdowns or injury. The benefits are which the car is having frequent use, which may only be excellent for it, and I'm acquiring a tiny revenue which i can reinvest in enhancements to the vehicle.

The achievements on the Jensen and Alfa now ensures that Fantastic Escape has six autos available to use. Three of another automobiles are literally owned by traditional fans who, like me, just Really don't get sufficient use out of these. Their automobiles are cherished However they're satisfied to rent them out simply because common auto employ buyers manage to seem soon after them. And In addition they get an cash flow to reinvest inside their automobiles. These 3 autos are hired out below a specialist arrangement I have produced for classic motor vehicle house owners beneath which we split the costs and cash flow relatively. It truly is adaptable to accommodate personal requirements and permits house owners to settle on once they hire they cars and trucks out, to whom and for what uses.

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katsjoyful · 7 years ago

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There's a little, three-word Scripture, that can save most from an Eternal-Hell! "Remember Lot's wife!" -Jesus Luke 17:32 Do we realize that all of the MANY warnings about end-time dangers and deceptions ALL pivot upon NOT LOOKING BACK! Are we possessors or just proclaimers? Are we His "Witnesses" or just observers? The Israelites of the Old Testament are Written for "our example and our admonition, of whom the ends of the ages has come!" 1 Corinthians 10:11 They were GOD's chosen people where He chose to place His Name, AND MOST were destroyed exactly as was Lot's wife! Shall we dethrone what we know up to the present time has equipped us and brought us through? Soldiers are trained for the day of adversity. "If you run with the footman, and they wearied you, then how can you contend with horses? If you take to flight when the land is in peace where you, for the most part feel secure, then what will you do when you're faced with treading the haunt of a tangled maze of jungle lions or in the swelling floods of the Jordan?" Jeremiah 12:5 "I AM THE LORD YOUR GOD, WHO TEACHES YOU WHAT IS GOOD FOR YOU." Isaiah 48:17 For our GOOD, our Lord has allowed many adverse circumstances into the depths of our lives; that He might strengthen us in the inner core person of our beings. The situations are meant to build us up, and not to tear us down!! "The Watchman said, "The Morning Dawn comes, and also the darkening night; IF you will inquire, earnestly inquire, return now and come unto Me!" Isaiah 21:12 Perilous Times-- are defined by The Bible as difficult and dangerous times, which believers encounter prior to The Lord's Coming. Perilous Times are the condition and the result of moral sickness. It's what SIN brings us into. It is both the explanation and the account for the unutterable disappointments in life! Jesus Christ was a Man acquainted with grief and sorrows. He Himself lived the Life of The Via Del Rosa. SIN is the whole explanation of why He came and suffered to Free us. SIN is the only explanation for ALL of the grief and the sorrow of life!! SIN is what has made the very foundations of our thinking --irrational and unpredictable and often uncontrollable. EVERY erroneous contemporary teaching, slights the issue of sin in the BELIEVER!!!!!! Modern demonic "gospels" condemn the confessions of our sins, in various degrees. NEVERTHELESS The Word of God Says that is as WE CONFESS OUR SINS--- that we are loosed from their powers, that we are THEN forgiven and Cleansed from all unrighteousness!!!! Bitter-waters of tumultuous emotions come from self-justifications of UNBELIEF of what's WRITTEN in God's Word! Exodus 15:25 Says that when THE CROSS is placed within those mental hard areas- "THE WATERS ARE MADE SWEET!!!!!" This week I was crying out to The Lord and listing my seemingly "impossible" circumstances unto Him. There, He corrected me! The first correction was in the reminder that these negative thoughts are NOT our own. They are what The Word calls "Fiery darts!" The Bible Says to "RESIST" them and to harness them into a captivity of FAITH, that agrees with The Word of God! Only moments later, I began to cry again. This time, The Lord strongly Spoke: "Let no unwholesome word proceed from your mouth,..." Ephesians 4:29 Though these were thoughts of the heart, and not spoken outwardly, they are the SAME as spoken & proceeding words, if we AGREE with them in our hearts! Truly a great majority of the "Deliverance" that we all need, is in the simple obedience to AGREE WITH GOD'S WORD! GOD'S FOUNDATION STANDS SURE... When our foundations begin to quake, it's because we have strayed from Him! Our current life-battles are PREPARATIONS for what's coming, both in the coming days AND also, TO REIGN WITH OUR ALMIGHTY KING! Truly NOW, we each have an eternal position, rank, and spiritual responsibilities! When we become overcome now, it's an indication that somewhere our personal training and beliefs, have slighted His Protective Word! Somewhere we have believed the contemporary tempos rather than The Word of God! Somewhere we have not been firm enough with ourselves. If we cannot run with the infantry, how can we run with the full pack? Do we realize and recognize that we deal with a deadly enemy? God is His LOVE desires that we be at FULL-THROTTLE! He is a loving, but firm, Heavenly Father, teaching us what is GOOD for us! The Day of Battle is coming! It is God, The Holy Spirit Whom is The Key to Greatness! He is Whom takes the Things of Christ, and reveals them to us! He is the SAME as Jesus Christ Himself amongst us!!!!!! He is Jesus Christ The Holy One in our midst!!!! He is here to Heal, to Lead, to Quicken us in His Strength, Power and Might! He reveals HEAVEN TO US, AND SEEKS TO ANESTHETIZE US AND TO ELEVATE US ABOVE EVERY AGITATION AND ABOVE EVERY WOE! Who's Report will you believe? The Holy Spirit makes the way of Heaven open to us, even as He makes The Word of God open to you! As we seek to be sensitive to Him, He will lead us in specific preparations and He shall strengthen us in the innermost person! IF we will follow Him in the seemingly small matters, "He shall make us rulers over MUCH!" It is what we consider to be "slight" sins of the HEART, that separates that FLOWING, STRENGTH OF FELLOWSHIPPING WITH HIM!! "If thou faint in the day of adversity, thy strength is small." Proverbs 24:10 As we resolve to yield to God Ruling within us , ALL that quenches The Spirit "WHOM IS OUR STRENGTH), will die out and HIS TIMES OF REFRESHING MAY COME FROM HIS PRESENCE!!!! Shall we dethrone what we know up to the present time has equipped us and brought us through? Shall we allow our hearts to fail us in The Day of Adversity? NO!" "I know all things work together for good within me. ALL things are silently destroying all that CAN be destroyed; that He might have preeminence in the body. IF GOD BE FOR US, WHO CAN BE AGAINST US? God has been purifying us, strengthening us, equipping us, and has brought us through all things so far! He has done so with Divine Audacity by The Power of His Almightiness!!!!!!! Shall we dethrone what we know up to the present time has equipped us and brought us through? Shall we allow our hearts to fail us in The Day of Adversity? NO! That which GOD has already strengthened and perfected--- -Weakness made Strong!- -Corruption changed to purity!- Knowing that in the tribulation and in the fire, God has purified us, What shall we say to these things? THESE LIGHT AFFLICTIONS ARE WORKING FOR US A FAR MORE EXCEEDING AND ETERNAL WEIGHT OF GLORY!" -Smith Wigglesworth "The watchman says, “The morning comes, but also comes the night [of Babylonian oppression]. If you would ask of me then, ask, inquire, and wholly seek Me and come back again.” Isaiah 21:12 http://www.sermonindex.net/modules/newbb/viewtopic.php?topic_id=826&forum=34

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eoghanmcgrane-blog · 8 years ago

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Critical Reflection of SI Project and the module as a whole.

The SI Project and the module as a whole have taught me several things about photography primarily, but they have also taught me things about myself as a person.

I began the module as a complete novice when it came to photography. The module has given me an opportunity to learn the skill and has shown me that there is far more involved than snapping an image. To relate photography to a passion of mine, hurling, one must learn how to perform the basics before you can play. In hurling you learn how to catch and hit the ball and in photography you must learn about exposure, focal length, depth of field, timing and visualisation before you can even begin to take good images.I believe I have a far better understanding of these skills now and in particular when it came to the SI Project however I have so much left to work on. The weather did me some favours on this project and I truly believe that this is my best work to date. Through lectures and feedback on my work I learned that one must look at the subject of the image from every angle twice or even three times. What i thought was the ‘money shot’ at the time was more often than not discarded. I took more photographs for the SI Project then the rest of my projects combined, re shooting at different times in the day, when the weather changed and even if i had a new idea in terms of a new angle. This was a massive factor which I feel contributed massively to the improvement in my work and learning. Essentially I have learned through doing which is effective in almost everything one undertakes. “Practice makes perfect” to use the cliché.

With regards to challenges I faced specific to the SI Project, time was by far the biggest obstacle. My life is hectic year round balancing two part time jobs, two sports teams, a full time college course, J1 visa application and a non existent social life. Obviously I had several other assignments to complete for other modules as well as exams to prepare for. I knew that finding time to shoot would be the biggest challenge. I tried my utmost to overcome this by allocating several days to shoot and I would conduct several different shoots throughout those days. I feel this worked well for me as it allowed my to work efficiently while getting all other assignments completed. The different times of day also had a major impact on the aesthetic of the images I was getting. I even shot at midnight after my shift as I knew from my research that the casino was illuminated with different colours at night time. I found shooting at night particularly tricky and was forced to play around with my camera settings to improve the image quality. Access also became difficult at this time as the entrance was locked meaning I had to shoot from Griffith Avenue. However this provided me with a large range of shots to chose from and play around with in lightroom. Ultimately this made it easier to find the right final image.

In a general sense this module has shown me that one must commit fully to any given task in order to do well. Some of my previous work suffered through a combination of incompetence and insufficient time dedicated to projects. This can be applied to college and life in general. Everything you undertake will suffer if it is not given 100%. I have always been a high achiever when it comes to sport or academics which has sometimes led to my reliance on talent as opposed to hard work. This module presented me with something I truly struggled with and forced me to put in hours of work in order to achieve. This struggle has been evident from my marks to date, however I am truly proud of my final project which matches what I had visualised.

On my development throughout the module I feel as though I started ok but failed to bring my work to the next level. This showed in the profile project. I took my criticism on board and looked to do better in the book covers. I increased my efforts and tried to amend my shortcomings on the previous task however my quality of image seemed to be what let me down. This indicated to me that for my final project I would need to match my effort with research of how to take better images and what to look for. For every shoot I conducted I was very aware of the layout and where the best shots would come from with regards to every location. However I still took images from angles that may not have been ideal in order to have every inch covered. Personally this led to a far higher quality of image. Looking forward I believe that there is no obstacle in life that cannot be overcome with the right amount of guidance, support and pure hard work.

In relation to my goals I have always maintained a simple mantra to look after my health and be happy. I have always been the type of person to live in the moment which I feel is lost on a lot of people. However I realise that this outlook may not help me reach my full potential. In my whole life I have never failed an exam/module/test. However I have often gotten a B when an A was within my grasp. My goal is to achieve a first class honours degree in journalism by this time next year. This will mean applying myself to work hard and fulfil my potential. This module has shown me that a ‘just enough’ approach to learning will be punished. I see this module as a major learning curve and perhaps the point where I become more focused on my short term and long term goals. I believe I can achieve a first class honours degree and that it is a realistic goal.

In relation to my longer term goals I cannot say for certain that I know what I want to pursue. Obviously I am interested in working in the media but what section specifically is still open. Radio and TV have become more and more appealing to me as I advance through my studies. I cannot see myself pursuing photography in a professional sense however I may develop it as a hobby. In terms of my career even small things like knowing how to improve profile pictures through lightroom or just subject positioning (STAY AWAY FROM WALLS!) to give the best representation of yourself is important. Those are the small margins that may mean getting/not getting a job. The media is a very competitive and fast paced industry. The ability to learn new skills is invaluable and I believe the module has shown me this.

As regards my overall learning experience I would feel that I have seen myself truly struggle to grasp a new subject in a short semester. However I have never been one to complain nor feel sorry for myself. I feel as though I took what feedback was given to me and tried my best to apply it to the next task at hand. I have a reinforced that one should reflect on the past, always move forward and learn from success and failure. To quote Conor McGregor, “you win or you learn”. Ultimately this culminated in a series of images for a SI Project that portrays the beauty of my local area.

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