#and if I do it’s usually just me screaming into the void-
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Oh my god finally some appreciation for Beetlejuice’s femininity! He’s so unbelievably attractive as a woman and he’s the cutest thing when he’s Bettyjuice 🥺 I love that he can be Lydia’s brother/uncle figure while also being gal pals with her
GOD! YES YES YES YES YES!!!!! 👏👏👏👏👏
Beej’s whole thing is being gross but like, he somehow finds a way to just be so extremely gorgeous in how utterly himself he is??? He’s so handsome as a man and she’s so beautiful as a woman and they could literally rock any kinda look with any combination of pronouns.
It makes me so happy seeing this ghoul trying so hard to be around Lyds in so many roles that she doesn’t really have around her much otherwise because I think she really needs someone who cares about her and actively stands up for her as a friend and a guardian. (Even if Beej can be a bit oblivious and act without thinking and stuff but he’s trying his best, he’s just a lil dumbass <:o) /pos)
And I think she also really needs someone who just emits this unrestrained energy of confidence in so many ways while still being a sensitive person? Beej, even if he tries to be gross and disliked, is such an oddly good person to just exist around cus he’s genuinely something to strive for??? He just has so much good to teach people about self-image by just being himself and I just- AUGH!!!!! I LOVE THE BASTARD SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!
#ask#chaoticstanley#beetlejuice#cartoon#toonjuice#lydia#toon lydia#I AM SCREAMING AND CLIMBING ON THE WALLS AND CEILING#I LOVE TALKING ABOUT TOONJUICE SO MUCH I AM GONNA EXPLODE!!!!!!!!!#I don’t get to talk about the show enough in general#and if I do it’s usually just me screaming into the void-#It makes me so insanely happy to see all this love for the babie and the show in general#my heart is so full!!!!!!!!#It’s making me what to finally continue working on juicing up my bugroom more#I still need to paint a sandworm landscape on the inside of my chest/coffeetable lid#I also need to find a way to hand up the barrel lid I painted a sandworm over so I can finally take pics to post of it!!!!!!!!!!#it’s been finished painting for almost 2 years already!!!!!!!!!!#augh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#so much to do so much to do OTL#I AM SO MAD I STARTED RAMBLING BEFORE I GOT ALL THE TAGS DOWN OMG#bettyjuice#beatrice#beautyjuice#cousin BJ#Mr Beetleman#genderfluid#fem#feminine#OH I JUST REMEMBERED GOD I WANT LYDS TO PAINT BEEJ’S NAILS AND DO HIS MAKEUP SO BAD NO MATTER WHAT GENDER HE GOES BY#also I literally just woke up and saw this and had to answer immediately
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i feel like i’ve written some version of divorce era kyle describing how frightening looking at a stan he thinks HATES him is like A Million Times, but i feel like i can never articulate the quiet mounting Horror quite right, but this is the one i like the best thus far, i think? xx
#nina writes sometimes#listen its leading somewhere funny and interesting and zesty i promise but i wanted to do prose girl stuff for a second#i love bein in my talking about my obscure fanfic writing weird snippets of things just for me and yelling into the void era#this is hot girl shit#but yeah there is something so shiny and irresistible to me about writing about character transformation thru other eyes#specifically watching a brutal character become gentle or a gentle character become brutal#usually due to the eventual presence or sudden absence...#of love or affection#yes i am in a philosophical mood idk what is wrong with me but idk its interesting to me i like intense emotions a lot#weaponization and deweaponization#belonging to someone and them not belonging to u back#i didn't know how to word it but in essence#in his heart that is Still His Stan#but he is Nobody's Kyle#i want to start screaming anyways yeah i always fuck it up it never sounds right but i think i finally like it idk#please enjoy or don't my writing exercise#also lastly i love how horrifiying this is and awful scary sad detached ravenstan is to jersey but that he cant be upset#because he MADE that happen and its HIS fault#so he just has to live knowing he killed the person he loved#by not being able to articulate that love to them and fail them#because you were too afraid to be weak or vulnerable#and by proxy you feel your weakest and most vulnerable#OKAY I AM DONE YAY ANYWAYS!
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Feeling homicidal at work today ♡
#there's been major issues with wordpress for Weeks now and my beloved colleague told IT about it and added me#to the 'task' explicitly writing 'please talk to [my name] if you have any further questions or want to discuss things as i am on vacation'#today i come back to this task reading a lovely comment by that dude who's responsible for solving the problem going#'i think it's best if we make an appointment to discuss this when you're back :)' bitch ill kill you#my boy doesn't even Use wordpress it's not even his fucking problem. he just was nice enough to summarize my complaints#so i added a comment too because i honestly can't work like this and want this to be Fixed asap#and if he wants to talk to [beloved colleague] first it's gonna take another 2 fucking weeks until anyone even considers the problem again#and i have no patience for this left at this point. so of course that bitch calls me when i was marked as 'absent' on teams#(did he fucking do that on purpose?? so he wouldn't actually have to talk to me? also. just Text me you fucking bitch)#and when i come back to it HE was absent so i couldn't call him back and also i won't wait for him to come back online so i can talk to him#because my work hours are Over for this week and he could very well just send me a message or add another comment if he has anything to say#but alas he didn't#i honestly am usually quite patient and understanding when it comes to fixing issues but this has been going on forever#and i wouldn't even say anything if it hadn't been for that stupid ass comment on how he wants to talk to [colleague] first. bitch!#(i just mentioned what the main issue was in my own comment btw. i didn't say anything about hurrying or any of the million#passive aggressive things i WANTED to say. very proud of myself for that ♡#had i been with that dude in person i would have killed him on sight)#god things are gonna be so insufferable when my beloved colleague is gone forever ㅠㅠ#he's the only good thing about this fucking company and I'm sure everything's gonna go down in flames#once he's gone#void screams#work stuff
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Not Lucifer's 2022 birthday event catching me in the feels all over again.
#screaming into my personal void#obey me spoilers#obey me lucifer#I love the story for this event its just so.. yes#I don't usually like all the options we're given but I legit replayed this to do all the dialouge options#and I gotta say the hornee and the non nornee options are both very nice this time around#this is the non hornee option btw
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… y’know. I know it’s simply the nature of the Internet, but there’s something both oddly lovely and dreadful about how things can just… cease to be. Just stop being there. Vanish into dust, save perhaps hollowed ruins should anyone think to archive it, faint echoes of what once was.
Only ghosts remain.
#oh my gosh shut up krou#Does this make sense? It doesn’t make sense why am I asking#At this point this is simply screaming into the void to be honest. I’m not really expecting comprehension.#I absolutely have not spent two hours trying and failing to track something down besides web archive files wdym#I am not specifying what but just. What do you do when it died sixteen years ago. What CAN you do. Nothing.#Honestly this has all been very frustrating. Sifting and digging and all that remains is dust and faint inscriptions.#If you know what this is about you know what this is about.#But given I’ve made maybe ONE very passing reference in tags AT MOST odds are good you won’t.#… ok fine this is about anime. Specifically a subbing team that went defunct back in ‘07 that I’ve grown fond of#only to find out it’s all dust in the wind. No means of contact. The website’s been down since July ‘07. The usernames generic by now.#It’s all just… gone.#The only traces it ever existed are dull phantoms resting in the web archive.#The open plaza of the forum remains but behind the doorframes lies only rubble. Faded scripts and broken tools remain but little else.#What led me down this exact rabbit hole was a little notetaking project I’ve been working on#and I noticed one episode was subbed by a different team than usual. I got curious what the usual team’s translation looked like.#Turns out it doesn’t look like anything because it no longer exists as far as I can tell.#Not unless someone miraculously still has it after 16-17 years.#…… it feels good to get that off my chest honestly. Even if it is weirdly specific.
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gonna maybe be away for a lil bit (I say maybe because it really depends on my brain’s temperment)
currently fighting some darkness atm that won’t fucking stop (I’m okay, though, I swear, but its been all fucking day and I need to sleep and I can’t because thoughts)
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#i might stop in to like and reblog random things here and there#but ill probably stick to dash rather than digging through blogs like i usually do#anyway#autism adhd and c-ptsd is such a fucking shit hand like cash me tf out ON FUCKING-#like already have emotion regulation problems that gets worsened by it#(it being ptsd)#adhd already brings an endless monologue so ptsd goes ‘oh hey..gimme da aux for a bit’ and plays THE MOST VILE SHIT#ON REPEAT#also the impulsivity omfg#im already terrible and use it to distract whenever i can#but its like im also telling myself i need to because i need to get away from this#but instead of buying things i feel like i want to do something ‘worse’ and i…like actually don’t wanna#anyway idk im really sorry for all the negative posting lately#ibut also this is my home so :(#i started a side blog to actually scream in a void but its kind of odd still tbh and that’s a tangent anyways#im still holding myself to shipping things tho! so I will be reaching out to y’all when i get material wooo#(hopefully next week or the following~)#im hoping that this is just pmdd flaring my ptsd#because then its temporary#BUT OMG WHY WONT MY MEDICINE WORK I HATE YOU PMDD 😭#oh…yeah…sorry#beeeeep
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hey does anyone want to come over and knock me out cartoon style with a frying pan or perhaps an anvil so I can get some sleep
#i have a long term sleep repair plan#but i can't start it until late april at the earliest bc of schedule stuff#i just can not for the life of me fall asleep earlier than usual but it's so easy to stay up later#so the my temporary solution is to sleep in on weekends. except apparently i can't do that either#sooo in the meantime I'm just. suffering#i keep waking up the same time as usual (normal and expected just annoying bc I'm trying to sleep more)#and yeah the exhaustion is catching up to me via sleepy tired etc. but it's also been really taking a toll this week physically#many ahces and pains no matter how I sit or lay or stand and I've gotten sick twice in the past few weeks and am hardly ever sick#anyway. brb gonna scream into the void about it#personal
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Since I'm especially on a tear about this: I also wish people who claim to enjoy fictional women would ask themselves if they still take an interest in female characters when those characters are not specifically designed to be universally-liked?
#I'm not talking about 'women who are not good people'#I'm not even talking about 'women who are a mess/extremely flawed' necessarily#I'm talking about women who were not meant to be hashtag relatable and just exist in the story as they are#whose function is not just to be as palatable as possible.#like...are you normal about women when you don't directly relate to them basically. are you normal about them when the point isn't to#cater to you#hold on I'm going to go find a post real quick. it talks about misogynoir and fandom racism which are NOT the same as general#misogyny. but I think about that post a lot and it exemplifies a lot of what I'm trying to say when I talk about how people discuss#characters and discuss fiction in general#mel screams about fictional ladies again#and I know that this is The Women Blog and that's the reason a bunch of you are here. so I don't really know what me talking about this is#really going to accomplish after a certain point because if the people watching me scream into the void didn't on some level already#care or know this they probably wouldn't be following me or looking through my blog?#but I do also need to Uncork My Thoughts™ sometimes and unfortunately that usually means flinging them at tumblr lmao
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gehhh I can feel my brain starting to turn pretty fucky wucky and I would really prefer to not have that happen again cause it was really bad last timeee
#forrest speaks#vent#i literally feel up to my eyeballs in stress there's so much shit going on right now and i just really don't like this#got real bad family stuff happening and just general depression shit hitting really hard and pressure from parents to like choose a career#and pressure from uni cause I've not done work for a while and have been in a state about it and ive been too terrified to try and sort#out my probable autism shit cause it stresses me out thinking about it#i just feel like curling up into my bed and never leaving it yknow? its overwhelming and makes me want to cease#feel the need to say that i wont and dont do stupid shit to myself when i get like this because i dont want people worrying n shit#i just usually keep by myself and stay in bed and just mentally beat myself up i guess#god being awake just feels so exhausting right now but im still to awake to sleep#im sorry for dumping this here but i just wanna scream how im really feelin deep down into the void n stuff and this is the best i can do#gonna try drawing a bunch of real self indulgent shit so i can get that happy feeling of making something at the very least#god knows ill need it
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Hey @ the neighbors do you really have to do your grilling on a day where I need my bedroom windows open to stay cool
#phoenix screams into the void#could you not have waited until thursday when our ac is scheduled to be fixed#(i know the world doesn't revolve around me and they're doing nothing wrong i'm just venting)#(turns out a week-long heatwave with little to no alone time makes me bitchier than usual)
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Alright maybe my coworkers don't Actually hate me after all~
#me since Friday: omg you made it weird they all resent you now#my colleagues today: have you prepared for your appointment? [giving me 100 tips on how to get through it]#'actually you should start as an editor right away it would be unfair to make you do a traineeship'#wait you support that? i thought you hated me because I'd be useless for you because i couldn't help you as I do now anymore??#(i didn't say the 'i thought you hate me' part lol. i just said 'oh but wouldn't it be to your disadvantage?' and no. apparently not#whoops#also when i had the conversation with the boss he was leaning very much towards the traineeship#but also said 'well but [name] said a traineeship wouldn't be necessary for you because you already are so familiar with everything#and we also offer the additional trainings to our editors so hmmm'#like what? she actually told you that? (even my other two coworkers were like 'oh she told HIM directly??' like. i'm soft)#so yeah let's see where this gets me. if i actually get an Actual job there it will be much more stressful because I'll have fixed#working hours. but it would also be nice to stop being primarily a student. that's like. the main thing.#also when i was on the train with coworker 1 (I'll give them numbers now lol) he told me coworker 2 said she liked working with me#and coworker 3 was excited to hear i was coming to the office when he told her. like ???#ok enough of this#i just feel a bit better now that i know I didn't actually break their trust or whatever and they don't hate me lol#(also coworker 3 seemed really excited when we were talking about the trainings (like. special courses. usually during the weekend) I'd have#to do because she wants to do them too and 'we can do that together then!!! that would be great!!'#void screams#work stuff
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I'm just saying NO ONE understood the assignment with the Barbie meme
"this ken is--" NO. THIS IS JUST KEN. The POINT is that KEN is JUST. KEN. If it sufficiently fits the character, then they're Barbie. IF NOT. IF. NOT. Then your man is JUST KEN.
Does anyone get me here.
#the void screams#sorry to everyone who follows me but also: why else do you follow me#like i get it you want to do the funny with your little men but: sorry. they are just ken.#unless they are barbie you cannot give them a life description. please. this feels fundamental to the meme#i am probably just overthinking this as usual actually. is this my normal insanity. sorry.#but like. i feel like it's pretty straightforward. they are a barbie who does things. or they are ken. please.
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I’m going to flip shit oh my god, a family just came by my work and ordered EIGHT FUCKING CUPS OF COOKIE DOUGH ICECREAM, WHEN THAT GODDAMN FLAVOR JUST GOT REPLACED SO ITS FROZEB FUCKING SOLID. This woman watches me struggle through eight goddamn cups and doesn’t even ASK about tipping. My hands hurt like a mf oh my god.
I don’t care what tf you order but if you see me literally having to use my entire body weight to get a partial scoop of your icecream thrn please for the love of god either tip or choose something else. Like bro I’m red as hell and literally sweating, maybe just take a step back and ask “huh, does this person usually have to do this?” Because the answer is probably no! I do not get paid enough to fuck up my hands so y’all can have fucking COOKIE DOUGH ice cream. Like Jesus Christ you come to this expensive ass icecream place and get the most basic motherfucking flavor???? We have SIXTEEN goddamn flavors and you all choose the one I can barely scoop???? I’m going to throw a kicking screaming pissing myself fit the if I EVER see these motherfuckers again holy fuck. you can spend FIFTY FUCKING DOLLARS ON ICECREAM BUT NOT A $1 TIP??????? I actually hope they all get fucking food poising or some shit because the cookie dough part wasn’t made right. Like fuck directly off, you can see me taking FIFTEEN FUCKING MINUTES to get through something that should take like 5 minutes tops.
#massive work rant#I’m being very dramatic but also I really do hate when people pull that shit#I will do a ten star pirouette off the fucking handle#crow rambles#screaming into the void#like the fuckers were all doing the damn thing where they barely talk to you and just pay attention to their phones#which I also hate but it’s one of those things I’m not gonna throw a fit over#like yeah I’d also look at my phone if I was in line#but if I’m actively asking for your order and you can’t be asses#to even look up at me I am absolutely going to imagine vaulting over the counter to smack the phone out of your hand#like holy fuck it takes two fucking seconds#pls ignore this I’m just very tired and very stressed#usually I really love my job and the ppl I get to work with but today has just been a goddamn nightmare#also I do like cookie dough ice cream but not enough to pay like 5 bucks for a cup of it
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I wish I knew how to knit gloves or smth. I just got a shitload of this really nice soft rainbow yarn for cheap when I was out thrifting the other week but now I don't really know what to do with it
#so far ive mostly been cutting it up into short segments and turning it into little hair tufts#what i usually do is just bunch a lot of short segments together like im gonna tie them into a hat pompom#and then beat the crap out of them with a wire cat brush until all the yarn texture is gone#acrylic yarn works best for it from what ive found! it gets real soft and wispy. kinda reminds me of troll doll hair#ive also tried the same method with cotton yarn but it mostly just got all stringy and fragile :(#either way its kind of a fun stimmy thing! but i really need to be more careful with the wire brush lol#i have a bunch of bandaids on my offhand bc i kept accidentally scratching myself on it yesterday 😅#ace screams into the void
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sorry for sending you an ask about this but i saw your tags on the warrior cats post about neutering and i just wanted to let you know that they actually do take away the cats balls, they leave the sack but the balls are what gets removed. eventually the sack shrinks and like goes away because of the lack of nuts inside. so i guess bluestar did know what she was talking about in the end
this is. literally what i said. also, i've had neutered male cats with balls (or a sack as you put it, i am using informal words here) that you can see. which is. where i'm getting my information from. btw.
so. Bluestar still had to have looked at a lot of kittypet ass very closely to figure this out.
plus, gonna reiterate, we should also consider that this series just isn't very well written. in all seriousness, as a writer myself, Warriors is a badly written series that should have ended over a dozen books ago, with authors who make shit up & don't bother to communicate with each other about their new headcanons & characterizations. not shitting on it (i love Warriors) but we should remember that there's like a million orange female cats & calico/tortie male cats, Graystripe's parents are siblings, & nothing actually killed Firestar on his last life, he just dropped dead randomly for the drama.
it's fun to speculate, but also Bluestar was just saying that shit about the cutter cuz of Rusty needing a final push to leave his twolegs. it was entirely for plot reasons & the authors never actually did research to make anything in this series accurate.
#sorry. i know the reading comprehension on this site is just. Like That. but this explanation is what i said#like. literally.#they leave the outside bit & you can still see it when a cat is neutered. it's just the inside bit that's removed#that's. what i said. just with informal wording. but i did like. clarify what i meant in those very tags#& i'm not gonna go take a pic of my cat's ass to prove it. i don't think he'd mind cuz he's got a brain the size of a peanut but still.#not doing that#just gonna chalk this one up to some ''how dare you say we piss on the poor'' shit or whatever#also idk if this is the same anon but there is a person who is sending me asks explaining things#which is cool but also like. not necessary. i rant in the tags about shit. it's just me screaming into the void ya know?#if i say something there's like a 90% chance i already know the answer to the question im asking or whatever#cuz i'll usually type ''wtf does that even mean'' & then look it up. if i don't know something#or figure it out myself via logic. like the top sheet one. i know what a top sheet is. i've just never heard someone call it that#i figured it out basically right away. i was just saying ''wtf is a top sheet'' because i'm complaining pointlessly. ya know?#sometimes i'm just complaining pointlessly. i don't expect anyone to actually read it & respond. i'm writing in my little diary#that's all
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ohhh
#figured out what's been off about the past few days#i think I'm just sad and maybe a bit afraid for the future#really stuck on the knowledge that they're killing us. they're killing us out in the open and it feels like a lot of people don't notice#and some who do notice don't seem to care. some think it's right#usually I'm pretty good in a crisis. calm logical action oriented etc. but this is so painfully slow and continuous and fucking constant#it's tangling me up#struggling to find the words but. i don't want to die on this hill. i don't want to see my friends (my found family?) to die on this hill#this shouldn't even be a hill that needs defending#gonna stop here and just go scream into the void ig#personal
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