#and idk where this came from bcuz he used to stay Very Far bcuz he prefers staring

[supurrb]

usually dandelion likes to give me a lot of space, but other times he likes to be right next to my face while i sleep. there is no in between.

[youngtragedynutcase-blog]

TRAG

y do i hate this so much? I knew it from the start. A man like him? Hmm i know im not perfect i made a loooot of mistakes just like him and everyone else. And when he fks it up, we argue but eventually i forgive. It goes on and on and on and i never stopped forgiving him. I never held any grudges against him. Like y should i since i saw him as my future dude. Hes done really very sweet things for me that i can CLEARLY rmb. We argued a lot also that i do rmb too. But none of that mattered to me bcuz my love for him empowered(?idk correct word) everything. I was so naive and dumb. There he is talking about fairness but is he really fair? He wants me to treat him like how i treat ny friends or even better, can but does he do thar with me? NO. so wheres the fairness? Hes done a lot of wrong to make me the person i am today and even after that i still forgive. Yet when i fk up a bit thatd when he runs away telling people he cannot take it and shit. Then ehat about me??? When i haf to handle all the shits he threw at me. How he was when his exes left him. He was destroyed. I tried my fking best to fix him. To take initiative and to love and care for him. Has he ever noticed that??? Is thos alw about me fking up and what about the good shit i did? I begged him stay. Din have enough sleep bcuz i was happy and nervous to travel down to his house which cost me fking 30bucks to entering into his house singing in the toilet sooo happily. Anf when he came out he just kissed me like ntg was wrong??? How can he act so fine? Does he not care at all? For his bday i booked a hotel for us both, i ordered his wallet bcuz hes very picky about it and almost got the shoes he admired which cost more than 100+. I even intend to lie to my mum justso i could br with him yet this guy is so fkinf ungrateful? So unappreciative. He tells me his exes all never really cared much about him or were willing to go thru anuthing for him. BUT LOOK AT WHAT I HAD TO GO THRU YET HE STILL DUMPEF ME FOR WHAT? “Breaking the promise” or “not being appreciative” or “being unfair” wth I get scoldings just so i can meet u, i try my best to save cause i know i want a future with u, i lie to my parents every now n then, i sneak out of my house even tho i know i willget caught just to be by ur side, whrn u no money its not like i dont buy u things at all. Im not selfish with my money. When ure sad, angry or wtv im alw there. Even afyer we break up, u know ill come running back to u not cause i will feel lonelt or shit but bcuz I KNEW U WERE THE ONE. THE ONE I WANTED TO SPEND MY ENTIRE LIFE WITH. i believe ive done so much more things than any of ur lover has and i was still willing to if u actually lowered ur ego. But nope. U pushed me too far. Too far.

22Aug2017 15:18)