#and i'm the driver-- not my adhd riddled brain | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

bookalicent · 1 month

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ik it's been said but being medicated is just such a wild feeling. like i have adhd and just got recently put on adderall and being able to sense the difference of my thoughts is such a weird feeling. like ik when it hits and i can tell when it's wearing off. but also it just really reminds me of the fact i do have a mental disorder that actually affects me and isn't just "laziness and forgetfulness"

#like i can even feel it in my physical sense of self #like i don't feel paralyzed if that makes sense?#i feel like i finally have full autonomy over my body #and i'm the driver-- not my adhd riddled brain #but like i said it kicks me in the shin and reminds me that i do have a neurodivergent disability that quite literally #makes my brain form differently and affects the neurotransmitters too #and the fact it's chronic is really Really the cherry on top :)#anyways remember when tiktok was making everyone think they had adhd #all bc of the fact they couldn't do shit and 'time blindness'#but the actual test is literally about concentration and memory #like mmmmmmmmmmmmmm im not against self diagnosis but you have got to stop saying you x disorder when you didn't even look at dsm 5 criteri #and then when they associated having adhd with being a burnt out gifted kid #like no you weren't a gifted kid. you weren't in the program. you were able to succeed bc your needs were (presumably) met.#and now ur a hormonal teenager experiencing the woes of puberty along with a crippling phone addiction that decreased your attention span #.....get it together #adhd ramblings #ashla.txt

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