#and i'm sooooo here for him writing a fiction one day

[wompwompwrote]

Conflicted

Sooooo this is my first time writing fan fiction so I'm sorry if it's awful!!!!

Warnings: None <3

WC: 616 (Teeny Tiny.)

I'll probs write a part two!

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Megumi does not like you. 

You’re absolutely aggravating. The way you speak, your mannerisms, even the way you breathe– just gets under his skin. Honestly, he doesn’t understand how you’re so beloved to everyone! You're apparently everyone’s best friend, yet how can they not see how irritating you are?

What’s even more troublesome, is that you’re constantly on his mind. Only because he hates you, not any other reason of course! When he reveals this to Yuuji, the response he gets is far from the one he expected. 

———— 

“Honestly dude, it sounds like you have a crush.” Yuuji shrugs, not giving much thought to Megumi’s predicament.

This leaves Megumi reeling. A crush? On her? Absolutely not. 

“No. There’s no way dumbass. You guys just don’t notice how fucking irritating she is because she’s got you all wrapped around her stupid little finger.”

Yuuji looks up from his phone, staring Megumi down. 

“Listen dude, literally no one here has ever had an issue with her. This really does sound like a you problem. All of the things you listed that are “wrong” about her just sounds like you’re looking for reasons to hate her.” Yuuji sighs, hoping that he can knock some sense into Megumi’s thick skull. 

“I agree with Yuuji!”

Megumi’s head whips around, only to spot Nobara standing in the doorway, hands full with plastic bags containing chinese take out.

“How much did you hear?” He cringes, awaiting her answer. 

“Just about everything! You’ve got some serious issues, Megs. Y/N’s the lovelist, prettiest, and coolest gal ever.” Nobara lets out a huff as she sets the bags down. Yuuji greedily snatches one of the bags, dodging Nobara’s trying to swat him away. 

“Oh! I have a perfect idea! Why don’t we invite Y/N over to eat with us?” Nobara squeals, and Megumi believes the universe may actually be against him. 

“If you invite her, I’ll leave.”

“Oh, shush Megumi!” She throws her hands up, annoyed with her friend’s behavior. 

Cheeks flaring red, Megumi slinks out of Yuuji's room. He was on a mission to forget his conversation with Yuuji even happened. Unfortunately, as he sulks off to his own room, he runs into his most hated foe– Y/N. 

“Oh hi, ‘Gumi! I haven’t seen you around recently! How are you?” Y/N asks while a bright smile on her face, eyes shining, teeth gleaming. Looking at her made Megumi’s throat constrict, for reasons of annoyance, certainly. 

“I’m well.” He chokes out. He swiftly moves around her, attempting to go to his own room. However, before he could go any farther, a hand clamped down on his wrist prevented him from doing so. 

“So– I have a question. Could we train together some time? I-it’s just that I think you’d be a great sparring partner and we haven’t actually sparred together before so I just think it would be…productive? Also, I’ve sparred with literally everyone here before except you and I don’t want you to think I’m avoiding you and oh my gosh I’m so sorry I’m rambling!” To save herself from embarrassment, Y/N hides her face and burning cheeks in her hands. 

Her rant leaves Megumi speechless. He didn’t know what to say, but he supposed he should say yes, but only because it would be productive to spar with her. 

“Fine.”

Y/N claps and smiles widely. “Yay! How does 10 AM tomorrow sound? Perfect? Perfect! It’s a date!” After establishing what time they’d be meeting, Y/N bounces away to Nobara’s room. 

“Um- Nobara isn’t in her room, she’s in Yuuji’s.”

“Oh, Thanks! See ya tomorrow, ‘Gumi!”  

 Megumi is left feeling conflicted, and weirdly nervous for the day ahead.

[olath124]

WIP Wednesday whenever

@chevvy-ryder tagged me with this! Thank you berry much, it's been a while!

Tagging my sweet fellas! @ouroboros-hideout @barghest-ripperdoc @blackrevell @dustymagpie @sofia-in-nc

@kdval @streetkid-named-desire

What am I working on.... Nothing? Ok, I'm kidding. I kinda am doing a few pose packs... Too bad that when I have to get into the retargetting I loose every wish to live and kinda ughhh... So they'll probably stay in my unfinished mod's folder forevaaaaahhhhh!

But there are a few previews:

Much vintage, such drama.

Elroy is puking a little.

And the other weird and silly idea that I love sooooo much is the Corgi love package.

Yes. I found a rigged Corgi. Yes I'm giving Vlad the pet he deserves. And this is gonna be a male/female package only so maybe there's gonna be the a slight chance I'm gonna finish it some day. LOL don't fall for that.

On the Vio/NPV side... still tinkering with her. But I've finally managed to lock in the color and the hairstyles I wanted, thanks to Revé!

And also thanks to Rève (yes the accent is gonna change everytime) I've kinda learned to make garments! So the lady finally has the thorn bracelet she deserves!

And Roy will have his I love my daughter ring soon. Soon. (Now I'm puking a little.)

Fiction wise...

We are at CHAPTER 23 of Violad stuff...

Of course I barely published 1 chapter (I WRITE FAST AND TAKE MY SWEET SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET TIME WITH EDITING, OK?). Maybe the second one will come up this week. Maybe. I'm kidding it will. Or not.

But here is where we are at right now:

“How do you feel?” She whispers while her hand slowly caresses his hair. He closes his eyes, as his arms tighten around her waist: “I'm fine.” Violet nods against his skin:  “Will you tell me about Gazelle one day?” Her voice is low and comforting.  Her words are stabs. “She's nothing.” His voice hardens. “She doesn't matter.” “Yet I'm probably not like her, in the slightest, right?” There's silence in his head. And the sudden silence he'd find comforting in another moment now leaves him helpless.  “Right.”  Violet detangles from his embrace and stands up. The voices should help him manage this. Spin the whole situation in the right direction. But there's still, only, silence. Only Violet's steps, as she reaches the door. Stops, almost turning to him for a moment.  Then simply leaves. 

Such two emos... (Yet love them so much ç_ç)

[autumnapricot]

https://www.tumblr.com/autumnapricot/772592985792757760/you-know-one-of-the-many-things-that-i-like-from?source=share

THISSSSS!!!!

Omg anon, can we be friends? Istg it is sooooo difficult to find Lestappen fics where Carlos is NOT portrayed in a negative light (or at least it used to be that way until like 6 months back; I can't read Lestappen fics anymore bc I had a few too many villian Carlos jumpscares even tho that was the ship that got me into F1 RPF). And I totally get that it is FICTION and why he would fit a lot of times as the bad guy. The problem is sometimes it becomes too apparent in the writing that the hate towards irl Carlos is spilling over onto fictional Carlos. I get writers are humans and biases will always be there, but for me it started to become a trend and I just couldn't keep going with the ship - which is a shame bc it's the biggest ship of F1 by a mile and I loved being part of it for a long time! Like my guy gets enough hate every race weekend, I don't need it in my RPF too lol.

So anywayyy, as anon said, thank you for not making him a bad guy here. I'm so glad I can peacefully read this story without a constant feeling of dread lmao. It's the only Lestappen fic left that I read and enjoy wholeheartedly (there's another WIP too but Carlos IS the villian there too - I'm just very deep into the story to not see it through now, but I admittedly don't enjoy it as much as I did when the fic started getting posted).

This got too long and it's kinda pointless too haha. Feel free to not post it :)

don‘t ever worry about long asks, i love them!🥰

also wow, okay, i admit i have not been reading much these past months simply because i‘ve been so caught up in writing myself, and the few fics i have read i either didn‘t take notice or didn‘t have that—but i also do know lestappen fics where carlos is the villain. i think also the incidents of carlos/charles as teammates in 2024 have probably ramped up the whole thing and may well be the reason why carlos is featured as the bad guy in lestappen stories a lot more. there‘s definitely stories where it becomes apparent when the writer doesn‘t like the person they‘re writing and perhaps even included them just to shit on that character through writing. in those cases i myself too just click out of the story if i‘m not vibing with it. i get that that is frustrating tho!

no worries about wotw verse and the rest of yswtt—i have no plans whatsoever to have carlos as the bad guy of any sorts! 😊

actually i just had a little convo with @saviour-of-lord few days ago about how carlos has this bit of protective big brother friendship with max in yswtt that i adore because it took max some time to trust carlos, but that makes it all the more special that they‘re friends and trusting each other! unfortunately there have only been little moments where that shines forth (for example during charles‘ rut chapter, carlos would have absolutely fought charles if it came down to protecting max, even if carlos was friends with charles for longer) but yeah, carlos is definitely not a bad guy at all here <3

[allylikethecat]

hellooooo ally!! i have officially read it’s christmas (so this is gonna be a nightmare) twice lucky me!!! what a treat!!! i have so many thoughts and feelings about the fic you don’t understand how much i love the trope/concept of fic!matty not being liked or accepted by people outside the band because of his “quirks” (serious and personal mental health/ addiction issues) because it’s just so unfair. perfect angst and also very realistic???? being written off as Bad News because he experiences hardships that are more scary and extreme than most people?? so wonderfully devastating and very real.

you aren’t allowed to apologise for the fic not being finished. you’ve done it to every other ask but i’m putting my foot down. no apology please!!! releasing it in parts just builds suspense anyways i love it.

now for the clumsy partner prompts!!! thankyou sooooo much for reblogging the list i feel very blessed. i’d like to request gatty 15, 16, 17 and 18 (they are all pretty similar so you could maybe combine some in one blurb? but obviously im not telling you how to write do whatever calls to you i just feel bad for requesting so many at once😅)

as always have a lovely rest of your day and i’m really looking forward to whatever you post next!!! love ya😇🩷

Hello! Thank you so, so, so much for reading the first bit of the Christmas fic not only once but TWICE! I hope it's lived up to the hype even if it's not finished yet. Poor Fictional!Matty just wants his future in laws to like him, because he's not the same person he was when he was in his early twenties, he's worked on himself and deserves to be given a chance! Also I will not apologize for the fic not being finished by Christmas as requested even though I am sorry that I didn't finish it - it will hopefully be finished by the end of January at the latest!

Also!! thank you so much for not only suggesting the clumsy partner prompts to me, but also sending in this prompt request! I wanted to challenge myself a little bit, so I actually (I think!) managed to weave all four of them into one fill! Let me know what you think! If this wasn't what you were looking for, let me know and I will rewrite them! (If anyone else wants to send in any prompts, the list can be found HERE)

Thank you so much for reading and sending in this ask and for always just being so lovely and wonderful and supportive! I'm so sorry that it's taken me a minute to get to some of your other prompt requests as well! I hope you enjoy this one though and I look forward to hearing your thoughts! Thank you again!!

❤️Ally

15. “I’m sorry I’m so much trouble, really.”

“Shhh, stop it. You're no trouble at all, zero.”

16. Their partner sometimes feeling that their clumsy tendencies ruin everything and them, actually finding it endearing. They are sure to let their partner know they love it.

17.  “Oh, I don’t want to mess it up.”

“You won’t mess it up, go on and give it a try.”

18. Makes it clear to their partner and anyone on the outside that just because they’re worried, doesn’t mean that their partner needs them or depends on them. It’s simply their partner allowing them to do the things that make them comfortable because they’re always worrying.

Matty knew he wasn’t the most coordinated person on the face of the Earth. He was always tripping over his feet, his head in the clouds as he bumped into things and other people, stumbling over curbs and spilling cups of coffee. George always had bandages in his backpack, and an extra Matty-sized shirt for when an inevitable incident occurred. His knees were permanently bruised and his palms forever scrapped. Despite George’s endless patience, and “I’ll kiss it betters” Matty wanted to die each time they were late for a meeting because Matty ate it in the parking lot. 

He had been horrible at sports as a child, his limbs never seeming to want to move the way he directed them, despite not being very large he felt like he had never properly grown into his body and developed the spacial awareness and grace that George seemed to carry. He had tried yoga but just grew frustrated at the disconnect he felt from his physical form and had quickly given up, citing some bullshit about not subscribing to George’s crunchy granola agenda. They both knew he was spouting nonsense. 

Thanks to Matty, they were going to be twenty minutes late to their first fully staged rehearsal for the new tour. Matty was so careful focusing on his footfalls, holding his Starbucks cup away from his body so it wouldn’t splash onto his white tee shirt. He wasn’t even wearing his airpods, he was making sure he was aware of his surroundings George until he tripped on a crack in the sidewalk. He managed to not only spill his coffee down his entire front, but bang his elbow on the cement so that it was now bleeding sluggishly. Matty sat on his ass in a puddle of coffee trying to comprehend what just happened while George looked on in mild horror.

“Are you alright?” George asked softly, voice thick with concern as he helped pull Matty to his feet, careful of his bleeding elbow, scarlet splatter bright against the white coffee stained fabric of his shirt. 

“I’m fine,” Matty said, his lower lip wobbling in frustration. He wanted to pull away from George’s grasp but wasn’t sure his shaking knees would support him on his own. His elbow stung and he wanted to cry in frustration. If he couldn’t walk down the street, how was he ever supposed to handle thirty nine North American tour dates? 

Today was supposed to be a good day, Matty thought hysterically, an important day, and as per usual not only were they late, it was his fault.

“Hey,” said George, tugging Matty into his arms, pressing a kiss to the top of his head. “It’s okay, you’re okay. Let’s go get you patched up, I think I have an extra shirt in my bag.”

Because of course he had an extra shirt, because he knew that Matty couldn’t be expected to walk normally like an adult without spilling something. Matty should have woken up earlier and drank his coffee at home, sitting safely at the kitchen table. George led him through the doors of  the venue they were renting for rehearsal space, flashing their credentials to the security guard and following the signs in the hallway to lead him straight to the bathroom. 

“I’m sorry,” said Matty, his voice wet, fuck he really was about to start crying, as George helped him sit up on the lip of the sink so that he could clean his elbow with a damp brown paper towel. “I’m sorry I’m so much trouble, really.”

“Shhh, stop it.” said George, pulling away so that he could look Matty in the eyes. “You're no trouble at all, zero.” 

“But I’m always tripping over myself and ruining things,” Matty said with a sniffle. 

George threw the paper towel away and pulled a box of bandages and a small tube of antibiotic ointment out of his backpack. He dabbed the ointment gently against Matty’s scraped skin with a careful kindness that made Matty’s heart hurt. He didn’t deserve George. 

“It’s kind of cute,” George said quietly, after a moment, Matty swallowing a hiss of pain as the scrap stung. “Like obviously, I don’t like it when you get hurt, it makes me quite nervous actually, but you’re cute, like a baby deer discovering they have legs for the first time.” 

“A baby deer?” Matty asked, raising his eyebrow amongst the pain, his eyes still wet even as he tried to force a smile. 

“The cutest baby deer,” said George with a small grin, smoothing the bandage over Matty’s elbow before leaning down to press a kiss to the plaster. 

Matty just snorted in response, and hopped off the counter, pretending he didn’t notice the way George was hovering at his side, ready to reach out and grab him in case something went wrong. 

“Thanks,” he said, taking the offered black tee shirt from George and pulling off the now stained white one he was wearing. He pretended not to notice the way George was blatantly checking out his chest and stomach as if he didn’t see him naked on a daily basis. 

“It’s nice of you to join us,” said Ross smirking, “Even if you’re never beating the diva allegations, Healy.”  Matty sighed dramatically when they finally joined the group in front of the stage, his eyes going wide as he took in his vision come to life.

“I had a little mishap in the parking lot,” he admitted sheepishly, holding out his now bandaged elbow for Ross and Adam to see. 

“You’ve got to be more careful mate,” said Adam, ruffling Matty’s hair as they sat down on the sofa that had been brought into the space, and went over the stage show with Tobias. 

“I want to cut the song on the roof,” Matty said quietly after a moment, when the time came in the first run through for him to put on a harness and climb up onto the roof portion of their set. The music stopped as Matty chewed on his lower lip nervously. 

George blinked, that was a segment that Matty had been dead set on, and excited to perform, having chattered about the visual implications of doing so and how it furthered the story for weeks. 

“What?” George asked his expression of concern and confusion mirrored on Ross and Adam’s faces as well.

“Oh, I don’t want to mess it up.” Matty said softly with a shrug, “I’m so clumsy I’ll probably fall off the roof and traumatize our fan base or something.” 

“You won’t mess it up,” George assured him even if Ross and Adam looked skeptical.  “Go on and give it a try.”

Matty opened his mouth as if to argue but George just shook his head. “No, go on, try it out, there is a whole team of people that are going to make sure you’re okay, and you’ll have the harness so even if you do slip, you won’t fall far.” 

Matty swallowed hard but nodded, having needed the extra push from George, to disappear into the makeshift backstage. 

“You sure this is a good idea?” Ross asked quietly, stepping away from his microphone to make sure Matty didn’t hear him. “I was worried about it when he was all excited about it, but now if he’s even having second thoughts...” 

George shrugged, fiddling with one of the drum sticks. “I’m worried, obviously,” George said, “but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t support him, he wanted to do the song on the roof, so we should at least try the song on the roof, there are foot holes, and handles up there, plus he has a harness on to make sure even if he does fall he won’t fall far.” 

“You’re a better man than me,” said Adam, “I’d have Carly wrapped in bubble wrap if she was as accident prone as Matty.”

George shrugged, smiling when he looked up and saw Matty waving from the roof, before flashing a thumbs up. 

“We’re partners,” George reminded him, “and that means working together as a team.” 

[bratbarzal]

have you ever heard that tik tok audio thats like. “Naw…… this cant be 😟😟😟😟” because i just finished your luke series and thats literally me.

YOU ACTUALLY GOT ME SO GOOD LIKE ANGST HURT NO COMFORT NO HAPPY ENDING WAS THE LAST THING I WAS EXPECTING. i closed out of the third part to see the (3/3) chapter marker on the masterlist and was like Ok so i have to be hallucinating this 😊😊😊 i fear i was Not. you shouldve seen the look on my face when i read the last line and was hit with the authors note and not the fun happy time where they smile and kiss and make up like i was expecting. i was gagged…. ur an evil mastermind i cant help but applaud

i was reading through lukes stupid stupid convo with cole (lmfaooo sidenote i love the way u wrote cole in this hes actually so funny. luke straight up slandering her dragging her name through the mud and all and cole being like Ok well idgaf tho ❤️ … i know my goat.) and i actually had to close the app. luke was on some real “oh my goodness valentine” levels of airballing i had to look away 😭😭😭😭

ok anyway i just wanted to say that i enjoyed your series So so so much i cant even begin to describe it!!!!!!!!!!!! readers characterization was sooooo good i absolutely love when authors give the reader so much depth the way u did it made the last chap that much more heart wrenching 💔💔💔💔 her struggles and insecurities were sooooo realistic like after 51k words thats not just a fictional character to me thats my Girl….. and her relationship development with luke Omfg😭😭 i need a shirt that says “I SURVIVED THIS FANFIC SITUATIONSHIP” they both drive me up ghe wall (affectionately). their banter was sooooo fun to read through and they were just both so silly and cute!! in my heart they came to their senses.

i sat through the whole series in one sitting anf enjoyed every single moment of it. your world building was incredible and you have such a way with describing emotions i felt it all in my soul lowkey….. u have such a talent and have really blessed the reader fic tag. fics with no use of y/n and amazing writing is genuinely crack to me i cant even being to thank you enough. this series was a gift!!!!! a gift i tell you. youre an incredible writer thank u for sharing ur work ❤️

I LOVE THIS KIND OF ASK SO MUCH THANK YOU FOR SENDING THIS TO ME LMAO

I saw this this morning and it put me in a good mood all day had to wait until I finished work to give this the attention it deserves lol

the way I was originally going to release it as just 1/1 and it got too long when I posted the first part I was like... how much should I warn people here but I feel like you have to go through the journey of the whole fic without knowing where it's going that was the whole fun of it lmao

in my original draft of the Luke/Cole convo I had Cole being like ok bet and then I was like no that's stupid as much as we didn't see his side he technically spent his whole summer pining after a girl he isn't just gonna drop that bc Luke told him to hahaha - I thought making it so he was like that sounds like a you problem I'm gonna carry on doing what I do was too funny not to do it 😭 he gives me such unbothered vibes while Luke is there pure spiralling

thank you so much!!! that really is our girl!!! I love adding characterisation and figuring out how to toe the line between having people have real emotions and reactions and still trying to make people understand where they're coming from and be on their side!! it was the same with Luke like how do I make him fuck up so bad that she can't carry on but still make you feel for him in the end I spend way too much time in my head about it all tbh

thank you so so much for sending this really it means the world to me that you read it and felt the urge to even message this it really makes me feel massively valued and it's great to know you enjoyed it and that you loved the little things about it!!!

[technicallysideacc]

Hi there looooveeee!!

I can’t believe I’m finally having time to write this, but here I am, back for our “fic talk show”!😂💖🌸

Sooooo the fic I’m reading (still reading…) at the moment is called of mates and men and, as I said in the last ask, it’s a veeeeery long fic!

The thing about this fic, that I don’t always like or find satisfying (not this case, in this case I’m LOOOOVING it) , is that it’s a sooooooft fic. I think there’s like 0% of anger, just fluff, love and emotions. I like how all the characters have their own specific and well described personality, how every one of the boys is so so so deep and so mature. I think this is (since now) my favourite Niall’s characterisation. Every relationship in this fic is well built and based on communication. They talk about their feelings, about their fears, about what they do want and what they don’t. The friendships are on another level! I swear I can feel the love while reading it! Sometimes I’m reading a conversation between Louis and Zayn and think: ooohh look at that. I’d like to have a friend like him. And then I read a lovely chapter about H/L talking, you know, about the future and how they love each other but they also have fears or insecurities and they just…listen to each other, understand what the other is saying and…talk. And that…that’s not how it always is, you know, in real life as in fics (especially when you like the drama!) but…it feels so right, in this fic. I found myself yearning for a love like theirs. I found myself in the words Harry used to tell Nick (his cheating ex) that they’re over because…because their relationship was just…toxic and sometimes you can love someone in the wrong way, but you can see it only when you love someone in the right way? Does it make any sense? I’m rambling.

All of this just to say that I’m loving this fic, every chapter is a new day of understanding and knowing the characters and seeing them grow and find their way is just beautiful. I feel like it’s all so well written and so well built that for (maybe) the first time, there’s no need for drama in a more then 600k words fic! It doesn’t need it to make you want to read more and more and mooore!

Sooooo all the kudos in the world to the author for doing such a great job!!

Sorry, I hope at least half of what I said made sense😂

How’s your re-read of the rose of Whitechapel going??? At what point of the story are you??

Hope you’re having a lovely week, sending you a biiig big hug! Love you💖🌸🌈🌻

Good morniiiing, love!🥰🌺✨💕 Here I am (finally!), ready to answer your lovely message!

I'm so glad to hear you've been enjoying Of Mates and Men! I've heard plenty of good things about that fic, and everything you were describing sounds super enjoyable! I always love to see depictions of healthy relationships in fics - it sounds really good how they listen to each other and there's a lot of communication in their relationship. It must be a joy to read, and so nice to see them evolve, individually and together as a couple!😊💕And not to forget the friendships, because you were saying that the relationships of friendship between the boys are also so healthy, so deep and amazing! Also - the level of maturity must be really nice to read! Very often we have lots of childish attitudes and reactions in books and fiction, so it's a breath of fresh air to see the contrary, right?

Have you been able to read more in these past few days? If so, I hope it's continued to be as nice as you were describing!😍🩷

And about The Rose of Whitechapel - yessssss, I've finally been able to finish my reread! And I must say it's been as amazing as I remembered!💗 It's such a compelling story, so engaging and the way everything evolves (the plot, the characters and the relationships!) is incredibly well-narrated and it moves forward in the best possible way. It's definitely a fic that pushes all my right buttons and makes me feel a lot. And the epilogue! Won't go into details so as not to spoil anyone reading this, but it's such a fantastic ending to the story - definitely the icing of the cake!!🥰🌺

Now I need to choose what to read next - but for now I'm doing a break to read a Christmas novel that my sister insisted we read at the same time hahaha we'll see how that goes!

Sending you all my positive thoughts for your day, and hope you're having a lovely Sunday! Big loveeeeee🥰🌺✨💕🌹🌈🩷

[zannolin]

ZANNAAAA

10 17 29 for fic asks :)

BLUUUUUU <3

10. Is there a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

yeah i'm pretty sure i've mentioned before but some old fics of mine like the dear wormwood ones got sooooo much more attention than i was expecting. also my fic paper faces had a shocking amount of readers (i mean, maybe not because fnaf is a bigger fandom than i usually write for these days, but it was shocking and different To Me). also in general my beyonders fics have gotten more love than i was expecting which has been nice!!

17. What’s something you’ve learned about while doing research for a fic?

like every fanfic and often fictionalized in general depiction of a coma is wildly inaccurate, apparently. muscle degradation! yippee!

29. Share a bit from a fic you’ll never post OR from a scene that was cut from an already posted fic.

idk if i'll ever finish this so have some ncis fic

He finds her in Gibbs’ basement, which isn’t surprising. It’s the second place he checks—the first, of course, being her apartment, which he only checks because he’s trying to pretend there’s anywhere else she’d be, and also trying to pretend he doesn’t know her well enough to know that. The surprising part, actually, is that Gibbs isn’t down there with her. Gibbs, Tony discovers as he pokes his head through the perpetually unlocked front door, is sitting on the couch with a beer at his knee and a half-carved block of wood in his hands. He nods wordlessly at the basement door as Tony pulls up short, squinting at him in confusion. "Got something to say, Dinozzo?" is all Gibbs says. "Just surprised to see you up here, is all," Tony replies. "You really think I’m the person she wants to talk to right now?" "I dunno," says Tony, only somewhat truthfully. "She is in your basement."

ask game!!

[chmerkovskiyvalentin]

Q&A With Valentin Chmerkovskiy

BOOK: I'LL NEVER CHANGE MY NAME AUTHOR: VALENTIN CHMERKOVSKIY

1. In your opinion, what were some advantages you had being an immigrant and what were some disadvantages you faced in America?

I guess being an immigrant at a young age gave me an opportunity to be challenged in ways most kids my age didn’t get challenged. Learning another language different from the one I have been speaking since birth, trying to fit in while not being able to afford certain things that had social status, from clothing to vacations, whatever gave you the license to be cool I didn’t possess when I was young.

But what I realized is work-ethic and talent are the coolest things you can have at any age, and immediately the things I didn’t have became my most valuable assets teaching me some of my most valuable lessons.

2. What inspired the title of your book, “I’ll Never Change My Name” and did you always have pride in your name or was it something you had to grow to love?

I always had immense pride in my name, because my name was given to me in memory of my grandfather who passed away a few years before I was born. He was an extraordinary man whose name I wear and it’s always held me accountable, as did my last name.

Both were subject to a lot of conversation throughout my life some good and some a little more hurtful, but never did I feel less than for having a foreign name in a place I called home. It always empowered me. Being different and having challenges because of it always inspired me to be greater!

3. Have you been back to Ukraine in your adulthood? Do you feel that the American views of Ukraine as a whole are misinformed? If so, why?

I have. It’s a beautiful country with some really beautiful people. I can’t speak on American views of Ukraine because I think it’s impossible to make that assumption based on what we see on TV. I would just suggest anyone that hasn’t been, to go and visit. Having said that, to me America is home. America is where I truly grew up. And America is the country I’m most grateful for. Along with France, God knows I love croissants and Rousseau.  

4. You talk a lot about your family and culture, what elements of your family changed when you arrived in the States and what elements stayed the same?

My family has always been my foundation. It's what drives me, holds me accountable, keeps me moving and pushing. When we first arrived there was tremendous uncertainty for all of us. All of the family members had their own individual challenges they faced but it was family that was the constant. We didn't know where the next dollar was coming from but we all knew that when we got home we had each other.

My parents were truly magicians, especially my mom who with very little was always able to provide the family with a warm cooked meal and had us all congregate around the dinner table daily. I do feel that was the piece of our culture we brought to the States and haven't abandoned it still. Gathering daily as a family to check in and push one another built a very strong bond and with folks like mine, I was able to be surrounded by love and support even if outside our home there was very little of it. In terms of what changed... well everything changed.

We become what we surround ourselves with. As we moved neighborhoods and as our circumstances changed, so did our lives and our outlook on it. But no matter what, we always kept our language (speaking only Russian at the dinner table) and our family traditions.

5. How easy or difficult was it for you to find your voice as a writer? And do you feel the “authentic you” was able to come out?

I've had this voice for a long time. I always loved storytelling I just had never been able to put it all down on paper before, not in this capacity at least. The most important thing for me throughout this entire process was to do justice to the reader for spending their money and most importantly time reading my book. I wanted to make sure that it wasn't just me venting or gossiping, but that I was being respectful and accurate, and also entertaining and inspiring all at the same time.

Now, I don't think anyone should seek to inspire others but rather seek to be themselves the best way they can be and hopefully, by sharing their story others can relate and be inspired. I feel like with this book I got to be myself and share what I find important with the world. Hopefully, someone out there drew a little happiness from the read. That’s all I can ever ask for from my work.

6. What was your writing process like for this book?

I looked back at my life at a glance and just started listing moments that shaped my perspective and my experiences. I tried to then draw parallels between my past and my present, and just make some sense of it all. As the process went on, I was able to discover so many connections, so many fun moments, so many moments that made me say, "Aha that all makes sense now." Without reflection, it's hard to be mindful, and as I try to live a mindful life, I reflect a lot on the moments that brought me here. I wrote about it. This is who I am, and here's why.

7. You have such a unique life story, during your writing process did you ever stop and pinch yourself, realizing where you are now?

That "unique life" is exactly why I wanted to write this book. I wanted to share how dynamic life can be, for it's the thing that will make you look back one day and want to pinch yourself too. I’m so grateful for all the hands I was dealt in my life, the losing ones and the winning ones. I'm just grateful I got to play them all.

8. What have you learned most about yourself through working on “Dancing With The Stars”?

Patience haha. I learned how much I love to perform, how much I love to help people. To some degree, I always knew that, but 'Dancing With The Stars' showed me how rewarding it can be when you're doing what you love and sharing it with millions of people.

9. Who was someone that you danced with on the show that completely surprised you because of their dancing talents?

Rumer Willis, cause she was not a dancer. She was not someone that had danced before at all. To see her transform into a dancer was really amazing. It was actually the first time I ever won DWTS was with Rumer. It was one of the most rewarding seasons not because we won, but because I got to help this young woman find her inner strength and beauty. I was able to be a small part of her journey and contribute to her growth, all while watching her family and the world celebrate her. That was very special for me.

10. Can you talk a little bit about the dance studio you opened in Buckhead (an uptown district in Atlanta) and what you hope students get from your studio?

Like with every Dance With Me location around the country, I want it to be a place for people to feel welcome, in what can be one of the most terrifying environments for people... a Dance Studio. That is most important to me, that people are proud to be part of our little community of positivity, inclusion, self-improvement, and fun. Dance is just a vehicle for the bigger picture, living a fulfilling life. That’s all we are. Dance With Me is a place where I want people to find a little help, a little motivation, and a little joy on their path to living a complete and fulfilling life.

11. What’s the best book you have read in 2019 thus far?

The Subtle Art of Not Giving A F*ck. Don't let the title fool you, it’s a book about how to care even more... about the things that truly matter. "The Subtle Art of Caring Responsibly" just didn't have the same ring to it.

12. What’s your best advice for getting over writer’s block?

Just like getting over procrastination and anxiety... JUST DO IT. So insensitive and so simple I know, but sometimes we complicate things into non-existence. Relax. Breathe. And GO. Action is the best remedy for all the blocks in our life.

Force yourself to just take the first step, write the first paragraph and you will see that just one word turns into two and then ten and then you got yourself a story. I like to see the bigger picture in everything I do. What’s the message? What’s the point? What’s the bigger message? How is this different? I mean sure it’s all important but... breathe, relax, and START!

It’s ok if its garbage at first, genius sometimes can come out of garbage, and sometimes not, sometimes it just stays garbage. But, in this short time, we have on earth creating something is better than creating nothing, so create don't worry about the end in the beginning. One step at a time. One word at a time. One breath at a time. Not in that order, of course, make sure you breathe throughout. :)

13. What’s the best advice you have ever received on happiness?

I didn't. It's a constant search. Happiness is earned with action and adventure and movement and ups and downs in life! Happiness is in constant motion, you gotta chase it, find it, and foster it. If you're unhappy, just remember that happiness is just around the corner. But, don't take anyone's word for it, go and see it for yourself. And if you don't find it still, then go to your nearest Dance With Me. I promise you will find happiness there. Nothing like the human touch shared on the dance floor.

14. Do you plan on writing more books in the future?

I do when I have the spark. When I get this dying desire that I can’t breathe without writing it. I couldn't breathe with all of these stories in my head, I had to put them in a book. I had to share. I don't have that now. I'm actually in a state of reclusion to some degree, where the combination of spending the last 7 years on television along with 7 national tours and then writing this book, I feel like I need to step back.

I need to be a human again and live, and in living find inspiration for the thoughts that will turn into words I want to share with the world. I think the next book I write will be fiction.

[sserpente]

Hi Stef! i know you don't discuss Tom's private life on your blog but i have to ask, have you seen the new pap pics of Tom and Zawe? They basically confirm that the two are a couple and i just don't know how to feel. Like, I'm sooooo happy for him but at the same time, i've literally been crying my eyes out????? like, actually crying. i feel so stupid and bad for feeling this way! 😭

Oh, love, don’t feel bad about how you feel! First off, yes, I have seen the pictures, they’ve been really hard to avoid and you’re right, and as I don’t want to comment on Tom’s private life, I will keep talking about his relationship to a minimum and focus on your ask instead, alright? ♥ I really want to respond to you because I feel like you need to hear this and I’ve experienced something very similar in my teens so hear me out, you are absolutely normal for feeling this way.

First of all, your emotions are totally valid. I know a lot of people will say “lol, stop whining, you never had a chance with him to begin with, are you like 13 or something”. I think most of those fans are pigeonholing and judging without even trying to understand what it is like to be infatuated with a celebrity because they’ve never experienced it themselves, and that’s regardless of your age—you could be as old as me. It doesn’t always mean you’re crazy, naïve or ignorant. Some people like sports, others don’t. Some have very strong feelings about celebrities and about fictional characters and others don’t.

So here are my twenty pence. I believe that it is not truly about Tom being taken at all. Think about it. Sure, if you are of legal age, you might have had the glimmer of hope that you could meet him and sweep him off his feet. The chance is so little it’s barely there. But it’s not entirely impossible. That doesn’t make you delusional at all. As long as you realise that Tom Hiddleston is a man who does not know you (whether you met him or not) and you’re not 100% convinced that you will end up together one day, get married and live happily ever after, you’re not crazy. It’s alright! After all, there are millions of other fans who had this particular glimmer of hope. Hey, I would never say no to dating this gorgeous man either! You're not crazy for thinking that!

I believe you like the idea of Tom so much you consider him boyfriend material for yourself. He comes across as a kind, considerate gentleman, a feminist who loves animals and who has a passion for film, theatre and literature. People don’t say for no reason that he is the type of man women write in romance novels. Now that he’s taken, you feel this idea of him being your love interest is taken from you, along with that teeny tiny glimmer of hope. And that is what makes you sad—because I am going to assume that the rational part of you knows it was unlikely for you to end up with him to begin with! You might be a little sad because you can’t be with him, that’s okay. But I also believe you’re sad because you loved the idea of being with someone like him. If Tom embodied your “perfect man”, then of course you will have stirred your romantic interest and ideas of what it would be like in a relationship towards him, especially because he was single (and you are too, I assume). Your feelings are absolutely valid. You created a parasocial relationship with him--which is a relationship that is one-sided and where only one party puts in love, effort and energy into the so-called relationship, the other doesn’t. This very same phenomenon happens with fictional characters. As long as you realise you’re not actually in a relationship with him (or are 100% convinced that you’re going to be), it’s a normal psychological occurrence, not a mental illness or an OCD.

“Crushing” on celebrities can teach you so much about yourself and your feelings. First of all, you can learn what traits you appreciate in a potential partner (while keeping in mind that we don’t know celebrities in person anyway), second of all, you get to know your feelings better. It’s totally okay to be sexually attracted to him too and explore that (so as long as you don’t sexualise him or are being inappropriate online and/or when you meet him).

What you are experiencing now is lovesickness. Not a heartbreak but lovesickness. You feel hopelessness because of a failed romance, an unreciprocated love: Psychologically speaking, the part of your brain that is responsible for emotions does not have the ability to distinguish between real and unreal. Why do you think we cry over Loki so much? We know he's not real and yet, our brain produces these emotions and sends signals to our body that you can't just ignore or switch off. And the very same goes for a celebrity. That's just how our brain works. Never apologise for what you feel! Even anger and nasty thoughts are okay, so as long as you don't try to either physically or verbally harm them online or in person. I tell you what's actually really bad is to ignore how you're feeling and believing what some fans say on here--that you're just a young and crazy and delusional fangirl with no attachment to reality. Don't put yourself down. Don't think "well, he wouldn't have dated someone like me anyway". Not to get your hopes back up--but you have to know your self-worth. Tom is only human too but he obviously can't date all of us, that doesn't mean you're any less amazing than any of the women that Tom is dating!

It’s okay to be sad. It’s okay to cry. I’ve been there. You should have seen me cry my eyes out over my first-ever celebrity crush. It’s okay. There is nothing wrong with you, you are not being a bad person for feeling this way—because think about it, you even said it—you are also incredibly happy for him, right? I am too! Imagining him getting married, having children, even if it doesn’t involve you?

It’s okay to be envious. I’m sure he understands that there’s lots of women out there who would only love to be in Zawe’s place. Heck, it’s even okay to think that you couldn’t ever imagine being friends with her because she gets to kiss the very man you are infatuated with so much at the moment. The only thing that is not okay is to hate on her or be abusive in any way.

I hope that helps a little, love! Remember that your personal Tom Hiddleston is out there somewhere and until then—you’ve got Loki and all those other characters of Tom’s. Those aren’t taken if you don’t want them to be because they’re fictional and they’ll always be there. It’s okay. And I’m always here if you want to talk. ♥

[migleefulmoments]

They all claim to be Darren's biggest supporters, but we all know he'd be horrified if he saw the thing they said about his wife. They probably stick to Tumblr because it's the one place he doesn't post. He's blocked people on Twitter, and he's called people out in IG comments. You know who's actually one of his biggest supporters? Mia, someone who's been there from the beginning and has watched him grow in his career. I'm sure she doesn't cry over it or anything, but I do genuinely feel for her

I feel for her too. Many people in Darren’s life have posted gushing comments on social media, posts that make it Clear that they love and respect her. I know that she is aware of their crap-It shows up all over his social media but it also shows up on their friends’ social media pages. Friends who have only a few thousand followers post a picture of Mia and get vicous cc hate - it’s really obvious when there are only a few comments. They attacked Mia on Chuck’s IG after he posted his new baby and Mia commented. Mia shut down her own social media presence and put her IG to private-I’m sure it was because of the hate she got from Darren’s fans. It’s sick.

What baffles me is why anyone believes Abby when she claims Mia is evil. Abby has no first-person stories or even a second-person story that is legit. She only has her anger, jealousy and a few generic, baseless story from a friend-of-a-friend’s-butler’s-uncle met her ...... or a cousin’s maid’s nephew saw her ...... 

The people who actually KNOW Mia all gush about how great she is. Abby even got an Ask today that talked about this phenom

She “acts all sweet and nice to you until she finds out she can’t get anything from you”? So how would that work with fans? She is nice and sweet until she can’t get anything from someone who she is going to share a deep and meaningful 3 minutes with?  

Let’s go to the next comment: she believes she is god’s gift to creation and because her parent are successful she assume’s she’s big shit...I mean Mia has never publicly talked about her parents or her own success sooooo Abby sounds like she is SUPA JEALOUS of Mia and projecting just a wee little bit here or a crap ton actually. In fact, Mia has hardly said anything publicly. Abby claiming  “she thinks she is god’s gift” is pure projection.  Abby writes entire fictionalized back stories to every photo she sees and she actually does believe that FetusMiarren is Mia so it isn’t hard to see how she comes up with these outrageous ideas but they aren’t real. 

Protip: If you are going to follow someone’s bullshit- at least make sure their bullshit is rooted in some truth. 

There is more:

“There are many” stories of Mia’s bad behavior and yet she never has any details.Her stories are always second or third-hand and very generalized. They are also all from a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away. In other word, they are all nonsense, fabricated by anons or people hiding behind usernames who wanted their 15 min of cc fame. 

“Yelling at a wait staff” may have happened- I doubt it, but it may have- we all have bad days and some really waitstaff suck.  A one-off story-even about bad behavior-told by someone who “remember hearing about” doesn’t mean anything. Mia isn’t yelling at waitstaff frequently so I don’t care about one vague story that Abby remembers hearing. 

She traumatized the cousin of a fan..OMG NO she IS EVIL. Again, no details, just another friend-of-a-friend’s-cousin’s-uncle story. 

This post part of the original ask above. 

Again, we have another anon telling a story (The original post FROM 5 YEARS AGO is below).  Here we have an anon claiming that in a bar with a band playing music she could hear Mia making catty comments about various patrons “Every time I passed their table” How many damn times did you pass their table in one evening? I am not sure how this makes her evil when Abby and her minions make catty to downright slanderous comments about strangers every day and Mia and Darren DO see them when they show up on his Instagram. 

This story is 5 years old. I have no doubt it is a complete lie but it doesn’t even matter because after 5 years the statute of limitations for pressing charges for “catty comments about strangers who do not hear said comments”  run out.  

Abby and her group of mean girls need to spend some time digging deep and reflecting on their own behavior and their own feelings and how jealousy and misogyny have affected their feelings toward Mia. 

Until they have some first-person stories to share, the “Mia is -evil, stuck up, mean, rude, and/or spoiled” needs to stop.