#and i'm so happy that his self esteem issues have gotten better

[blackhairedjjun]

huening kai's weverse post

[maoam]

What do you think of itafushi and satosugu?

Ah I think I was asked about this before but back then my opinion was very non-opinion. Because I hadn't gotten that deep into the series yet. I also answered an ask about satosugu earlier.

I will say that they complement each other very well. They understand each other better than other characters, like I don't believe that something like Gojo not realising how bad Geto's state was until it was too late would happen with Yuuji and Megumi because they seem to figure each other out pretty well (though we can possibly blame Gojo being high on his new powers and too self centered due to it). Gege also did draw parallels between Geto-Gojo and Yuuji-Megumi duos. But that's not something I'm gonna focus on here.

(Manga spoilers up to chapter 266 ahead!)

Yuuji and Megumi's relationship is deeply intervowen into the text of the manga itself. The fact Megumi chose to save Yuuji despite the fact it put more people at risk is what sort of started everything. And the actions of the two impact each others development.

Todo was asking Megumi about his type, and when he is not hearing an answer he adds that it's fine if he prefers men. Why is this needed here? Gege is not making a joke, like a homophobic joke some average dudebro author would make because a male character is taking his time to answer, where said male character then gets offended and the audience laughs. Todo is very chill, it's a non-issue for him. Megumi is also not shown to be offended or even phased at the implication. Well there is no joke, so why did this need to be added? To imply. To hint. To put the idea in the reader's head. And then Megumi answers and uses 'person' instead of a girl/woman. Also the fact many male characters seem to point out Megumi's cuteness/attractiveness makes it even more obvious that Gege seems to like the idea of Megumi being 'available' to both men and women. Obviously women think he's cute as well but that's sort of given.

Megumi's type is someone who has an 'unshakeable character' according to a translator I asked about it. I once read another person say it's 'unwavering humanity'. This translator said this goes with Yuuji's name, but I have also seen a translator who thinks this is a bit forced interpretation, and that unshakeable character is more accurate. Apparently the word is more about character than kindness.

However when asked about his type, Megumi thought of Tsumiki.

Before that, when Yuuji "died" Megumi was imagining Tsumiki on a field surrounded by countless sunflowers. Sunflowers apparently symbolise passionate love, and the more sunflowers, the more intense the love is. So there is that implication that Megumi's feelings for Tsumiki might be not completely familiar... Megumi is someone with abandonment issues, because his mom died and his dad left. So he has low self esteem and doesn't value his life. But he had Tsumiki. And he developed that intense need to protect her and care for her. In Jujutsu Sousen which is the prototype for jjk, Yuuji also mistook Tsumiki for Megumi's girlfriend, and Megumi's reply was that "well, she is someone important to me". Megumi did everything for her happiness' sake, which is why he lost all hope and will when she died.

Yet, I do see that Megumi has a soft spot for Yuuji.

Megumi tries to come up with ways for Yuuji to live, while Yuuji tries to come up with ways to die. I noticed Megumi is a bit tsundere because he's not that smooth about comforting another person, so he comes off a bit mad like here, calling Yuuji selfish for caring about him, haha.

Back to Tsumiki.

It feels like in the absence of Tsumiki, Megumi started to look for Yuuji as someone to idealize, as someone who to learn from. That mission where he took the criminal's badge to give to his mom, that action is something he wouldn't have done without Yuuji's influence. And in this moment above he's thinking about both of their genuine, sweet smiles, placing them next to each other in his mind. Yuuji has in a short time become someone important to him.

And as I said it seems like Megumi has a bit of a soft spot for Yuuji.

Which is why Yuuji has this effect on Megumi. I never see Megumi mellow down like this as a response to other people. It's like Yuuji gets through his defenses.

Here's the tsundere again. Megumi shows his care with certain level of aggression because like I said, he's not the smoothest person around.

Even when he's about to die, he thinks about Yuuji. I do think it makes sense that someone like Yuuji has become so important to him in such a short time. Because he's Megumi's type of person.

And I also noticed that whenever Megumi smiles in the manga, it's either due to him making progress as a sorcerer or it's because of something related to Yuuji.

It's the framing here how Gege does the little smile that I find interesting.

Of course there's also this moment where we see a very genuine Megumi smiling. This moment is very important because it was even used in the recent MV with Yuuji, Megumi and Sukuna. I think Megumi's connection to both is very important to the conclusion of the story.

Notice how I talked mostly about Megumi? Because the differences in his behaviour are easier to notice, compared to Yuuji's "I get along with everyone" personality. Obviously, Yuuji does like Megumi a lot, as we see in the previous images he easily gives him compliments like calling him reliable and smart (or even cute when teasing him with Hana lol) and he is also very protective of Megumi.

What's funny is that the last moment immediately reminded me of Naruto and Sasuke's dynamic in the land of waves. It's identical (please don't kill me narusasus who dislike itafushi and itafushis who dislike narusasu). I also think he really does admire Megumi and immediately notices him first out of all the other people (like with Ozawa and Nobara). And just like Yuuji influences Megumi, Megumi influences Yuuji, and makes him think outside of his own mindset "what if someone you saved killed someone else in the future?". They both also acknowledge each others differences and respect them.

I don't think his answer to Todo (I mean he seemed unsure in his answer too) or his comment about Jennifer Lawrence are necessarily dealbreakers considering this is Gege lol. Gege seems to make Yuuji indecisive, like how he couldn't answer the question whether he prefers dogs or cats because he's unsure, or how he says "I guess" when referring to his type of girl. He says 'tall girl' but when actually tall girls that fit his supposed type show up like Ozawa and Yuki, he doesn't show that kind of interest in them. I'm not saying he can't like girls by the way, I'm just saying Gege hasn't shown Yuuji show genuine interest in women unlike for example Horikoshi has with Deku. With Yuji it's a one-note joke, with Deku we actually see him show attraction.

But the reason why I point these things out is because Gege is very particular about Megumi's character, to the point his editor commented on it, so I don't think he would draw things for no reason. If Yuuji is the only person that makes the usually stoic Megumi smile and if he manages to mellow down Megumi's worried/distressed side then that is something important, since Gege feels the need to repeat these situations. Author intent is always important. However I know some people probably aren't fans of this but Gege is clearly very fixated on the connection between Megumi and Sukuna as well. Possibly even more so. They have a lot of connections that would need their own post. I talked a bit about Megumi and Sukuna here but it's not even close to being everything you could write about Gege's writing concerning them. Also, Yuuji and Sukuna can't stand each other and are currently pretty much fighting over Megumi (lol). I don't think Megumi will stay passive though, as we see in this recent chapter, he is fighting back. But it's something to think about.

(Different translations, under is myamura's (Go_Jover) translation.)

And in this recent chapter, Megumi is once again placing Yuuji and Tsumiki next to each other, imagining a calm, relaxed life with them. I already imagined that one of the character image songs Gege chose for Megumi , Weezer's 'Island in the Sun' was just about having fun with Yuuji and I was right!

Yuuji dares to finally admit he needs Megumi too. And Megumi's comment 'Someone like you'... Megumi really does place Yuuji high, and I think people are starting to see it. Yuuji makes him happier and more relaxed. And the fact he lost all will to live, yet regained it because Yuuji would be lonely without him, speaks volumes as well. And to Yuuji Megumi is also a special person. I don't know if there will be a happy ending for them, but they definitely changed each others lives.

[el-moscorrofio-y-el-mercachifle]

Which characters do you like the most and the least?

Hiii!!

Oh I love all the most important characters, although for different reasons! (I'm assuming this is about S1 lol)

I love Betty so much because I see myself in her a lot, which is something that I've always struggled to do with media representation with female characters. Growing up with such harsh insecurities, a family always trying to cheer us up about it, being so clumsy and a bit awkward, the self esteem issues, and even by the same first experience with a relationship that turned out to be fake! (Not fully the same, but something along those lines). When I first watched ysblf I felt very much like Betty pre change. Now I look back on it and still remember how it all felt! I see so much of me in Betty as a girl growing in the 2000s with lots of self esteem issues and my family as my backbone (although Betty is a much better, much smarter, and much a more patient person than me, by far lmao.) Leaving that aside, she's a genuinely good person. I love her real sorority, her genuine desire to help the Ecomoda employees, her love for her family and for Nicolás. I also love that fire in her. She's stubborn but determined. She's not perfect and allowed herself to be consumed by rage and her emotions because she's no angel. She never was. She slept with an engaged man knowing he was engaged, and she did it because she loved him. She accepted a bribe, and had it not being for her dad talking her out of it, she would have gotten the money because her family goes above anything else. She's fully human but so compassionate and funny and with so much love to give!

I love Armando Mendoza because he's so far from perfect and goes absolutely against the Prince Charming trope, but grows throughout the series and you can see how his actions torture him. He's so worried about not being enough that he ends up proving that he wasn't. He's driven by ego and fear and insecurity, and yells and threatens because he's so insecure in his respectability and leadership and deep down knows he's messing up (which is also a pain in the ego because he wants everything to be perfect to prove himself). He seems so big and threatening but he's actually incredibly mentally fragile. He has very little discipline and is so quick to get his defenses up... but he also has a weak spot for those under his charge. He knows he has power and doesn't want to abuse it. He's pretty much like an addict, always messing up and hurting the people he loves but can't stop it. He wants to be good but doesn't know how. He treats his gf like shit because he doesn't want her at all but he doesn't have the guts to face the consequences of leaving her. He doesn't want to hurt her but can't find another way to deal with her. They bring the worst out of each other.

I love Mario Calderón becuase he's a horrible person lmao. He's so calm and happy and charming that you's think you found actual prince charming, just to end up with a wicked witch lmao. His happiness and friendliness isn't sincere. He's too observant, and can quickly find people's weaknesses and doesn't care about exploiting them. He'll lurk in the corner and then insert ideas into Armando's mind. His biggest flaw is that he thinks he's much smarter than he actually is, but also is always suspicious of people around him. He's always making schemes but never thinks things through on the long run. He's totally okay with using and discarding people because he thinks they'd do the same if they could. He's totally okay with fanning the flames of paranoia in Armando's mind. He fears nothing but public humiliation, mainly because he likely lives off public perception. He's also hilarous and. Always makes me laugh!

I love Marcela because she's both so wrong and so right, and I can't fully blame her for either. She's sickly attahced to this man that she desperately wants but doesn't love, because she can't stand him or have anything in common with him, but NEEDS him because at this point it's a matter of principle, of pride, of ego, and most important, of family. He's her everything: her childhood companion, her boss, her fellow executive, her fellow owner of the company her mom and dad created, her basically adopted brother. They grew up together. It's a lifetime of attachment. Her own basically adoptive parents keep telling her all the time they're perfect for each other! But she's also so deeply resentful of him because he treats her like shit. She, just like him, is practically always on the defensive, but like an addict she cannot stop looking for him even though it hurts her so much. So she hurts him too. That's their game, the only thing they know with each other. It's a constant battle, one that keeps you on edge. At the same time, she's so full of ego that she hates every woman that Armando lays eyes on because she can't hold HIM accountable so she hates them instead. She hates Betty because Betty has everything she wants from Armando without even havi g to fight. She got it from day 1. She despises Betty because she represents all that should be between Armando and her. And it's a pain in the ego to know that Betty being so ugly and poor still wins this round over her. She thinks she should have all that because she's supposedly socially perfect and has worked for it, even though her "work" actually comes from a place of ego and hurt and pain.

Those are my favorite characters! Honestly, I could write ESSAYS about each of them, this js only the tip of the iceberg lmao

Regarding the ones I don't like, I honestly like mot of them. Different degrees, ofc. I like Mariana much more than I like Sofia, for example, and I dislike Patty much more than I dislike AM lmao.

The only character that J can totally say I fully dislike is Jenny. I dislike her so much that I skip her scenes in the rewatches jajaja whiny tones are absolutely jarring for my ears lmao but sometimes a good story can balance it out, but Jenny doesn't really have it. She's just bad because and we know nothing else lmao

Sorry this is a big rambli g with no editing lmao thanks for the question!

[jonathananubian]

AITA for not wanting my future Sister-in-law at my Wedding?

Never done this before, but here we go. This is going to be very long, spanning Years, so I hope that's alright.

Tl;dr at the bottom!

You can call me Shana (34f), and my fiance Jay, (35m). Jay has 2 siblings. An older sister, we'll call her Eve (37f), and a younger brother we'll call Ced (33m.) Ced has a fiance as well, we'll call her Nicky (27f).

For some context I am Autistic. Just enough to be "weird" and have issues that need some accomodation, but not enough that people can "see" it right away during cnversations. I am constantly told I don't ""act"" Autistic, which is a whole other problem in itself.

I have been friends with Ced and Jay since we were in Highschool. First with Ced because he was more outgoing, then later with Jay because we shared more interests. I used to go over to their house frequently to play Halo and other games. Ocassionally their older sister would be there, but at the time she was a much lauded University Student and had no time for her brothers, let alone some random nerdy tomboy.

During one Halloween Jay asked if I wanted to go to an Amusement Park with him. Because he knew I loved Halloween, Dressing up, and Amusement Parks. I did Not know this was supposed to be a date. I was very dense back then and had Very low self esteem. I didn't think Anyone was interested in me like that. And Jay was far too shy to correct me.

Fast forward. We're out of school and I had lost contact with them for a bit due to life getting in the way. I had a couple of boyfriends but it never went anywhere. I bumped into Jay one day and he asked me if I wanted to hang out like old times. So I go over to his apartment and we play games, have some snacks, and it's a Blast.

But here's the thing- Jay's sister is Also there. She was renting out the second bedroom of the apartment while working nearby to pay for her University courses. She didn't say much to me at the time and back then even tried to help me with a difficult situation with My school. It wasn't much, just going over an essay to try and figure out why the Teacher wouldn't accept it, but it was nice.

Jay asked me to hang out a couple more times before finally confessing that he'd liked me since highschool but wanted to have a car, stable job, and place to live before he asked me out properly. He wanted me to be his girlfriend. Of course I said Yes, considering the title of this post. lol

Fast forward. Jay and I are living together. Have for a while now. His sister had moved out and everything seemed fine. That's when I find out she's telling everyone I am a Gold Digger and a loose woman behind my back. Trying to break me and Jay up.

Jay is a Welder. He's not made of money and neither are their parents. I do live on Disability, but that's because of a car crash that wrecked my spine when I was 16. I live in pain every day of my life and even if I Could work- no one wanted to hire the Autistic girl. This community is pretty insular and judgemental. I've had jobs before but they never ended well. Jay and I are happy with our arrangement. I stay at home to clean, cook, and make hand crafts to sell while he goes to work. He's never complained about it and even if he Had- that is between myself and him.

Things go quiet for a while. His sister has moved over 7 hours away and Never contacts her brothers. We only see her maybe twice a year because she's a Teacher and it's hard to get from where she's living back to here. For the most part things are fine. I'm polite and try not to get into many conversations with her.

My biggest issue with her in that time is how she would talk over my fiance. He used to have a bad stutter but it's gotten much better over the years. Maybe because I don't talk over him and actually want to hear what he has to say. She criticises everything he does, berates him, and humiliates him in front of their family. She never lets him formulate a response and hammers at his confidence until my brilliant fiance is so checked out he just starts reading on his phone and not engaging in any conversation.

But it's only twice a year, so I suck it up and am polite. Like how an Adult should act.

Fast forward to about 2 years ago. Ced meets Nicky and we're introduced. We have very similar tastes, very similar attitudes, and we click Immediately. It's like having another sister suddenly and it's Awesome!

Future Mother-in-Law suggests us three girls get to know each other better and go to the big city on a Girls Day. I'm not really okay with it, but since Nicky will be there to commiserate with I think "it'll be fine."

It was not fine.

Eve is commanding, doesn't listen, ignores our every plea to slow down or let us stop for a rest, refuses to follow the map, and criticises Everything we suggest doing. In the end we only get to do a fifth of what we wanted. And since Eve and her mother bullied us into using Eve's car we would be Stranded if we didn't keep up.

It all comes to a head when we sit down at a restaurant to eat and Eve learns that Nicky is 10 years younger than her. Suddenly everything Nicky has said, no matter how logical or reasonable, is Completely disregarded. I can see Nicky getting more and more upset as the day wears on so I suggest going to a shop where we can grab some Teddy Bears. We're both Collectors. Of course this makes Eve roll her eyes at us, because clearly such childish delights are beneath her.

This woman teaches children 6-8 years old.

Fast forward further and Ced asks Nicky to marry him! We're excited because we'll actually be sisters in the near future.

All hell breaks lose.

Suddenly Eve texts our fiances, her younger brothers, this huge long thing about how I am an evil manipulative person who made Nicky hate her. Because Nicky is too young to have her own agency, even though she's been working and living on her own since she was 16. How her brothers Never message her, she never messaged them even once in all the years I've known them, and how her life is falling apart.

The inflammatory things she said about me and Nicky were so bad that when I showed my un-involved friend, without context, she asked if Eve was Jay's toxic Ex Girlfriend.

Nicky and I knew that Eve wouldn't listen to us so we went to speak to our future in-laws to resolve the issue calmly. But Eve had gotten there first, crying on the phone to her mother and blaming everything on me. During that talk neither Nicky or I could get a word in edgewise and I went from being described as a Mastermind to Autistic enough to be considered a child more times than I can count. Jay's father even shouted over me to shut me up.

Jay's dad is 6'5" and broad shouldered. He is a massive man. While I am 5'4" and, while broad shouldered, am still a fairly small woman. Having a man like that yell down at me is Terrifying.

Ever since then Jay's mom has been trying to force his sister into Every part of our wedding. She tried to get her to be my Maid-of-Honor but Nicky had already been chosen. Then she tried to make her a Groomsman, what the fuck- No, and then as the planner for our engagement party. She didn't even show up and it ended up being a party for mother-in-law's friends instead.

Eve even told myself and Nicky that she blocked us on Facebook for her own "Mental Health," because apparently seeing two happy women who would be Brides before her is just too much.

At this pont I have cut all contact with Eve, not that I had any to begin with, and refuse to go over to Jay's parents house.

Tl;dr- Future older sister-in-law is a raging Narcissist with an over-controlling self-righteous attitude and hates me because she can't manipulate her younger brother into doing whatever she wants anymore. And is also jealous that myself and another girl are getting married before her, while all she has is her two cats.

She is still invited to the wedding, but I really don't want her there.

So! Am I an sshole for not wanting her to be at my wedding where she'll make it All about her and potentially cause a scene? Let me know.

Quick Addition: Something I forgot to add. Jay and I have been together for 10 years now. He helped me through 2 Years of Therapy and Medication for Depression, Anxiety, and Childhood Trauma relating to being abused and exploited from the ages of 4 to 12 years old. He is my rock and my safe harbor. I love him dearly, the giant dork.

2nd Addition: Nicky said I could mention this! MIL took photos of Nicky's wedding dress while we were at the bridal shop. Her wedding is six months after mine. And then sent those photos to a friend of hers and Eve. Without permission. MIL offered to keep the dress at her house but that trust was already broken once. So Nicky's wedding dress is now safely at my place.

[tunaababee]

gonna get really sappy and DEEPLY tmi/personal about twenty one pilots on main so im gonna put it under a cut. i am cringe but i am free and clancy tour coming up is giving me Feelings

i've been a top fan since 2016. i initially had some resistance to them bc it was when Stressed Out was at its peak and like, yall know how oversaturation goes. even if its good, its fucking annoying by proxy. all the 12/13 year olds at my high school were into it. i was turning 17. and it was a really fucking rough year.

i've been deep into homestuck since i was about 14/15, but by age 16 i had branched out into text-based rp and met a guy from italy who i kind of had a situationship with i guess?? at the time?? idk if that's what the kids call it. (whenever i describe how many relationships ive had, i count this one as a 0.5) anyways. it eventually got to a point where he was emotionally abusing me for a period of about four months. it was brief, but intense, especially since im a fucking lovesick lonely teen at this point who doesnt know any better. he lovebombs me, talks to me and acts like i am his girlfriend, gets jealous and shitty if i talk about other people, but then the moment he goes and does the same shit i get told i'm the reason he was depressed, im the reason for his problems, etc. until he calmed down and placated me and won me over again. over and over, regularly, for four months. it was a lot for my little developing brain to handle.

i know people have had it longer, have had it worse, but it really left a lasting impact. i was left with a litany of abandonment issues, and self-esteem and image that was already bad was buried dead in the fucking ground. i wanted to die every single fucking day for those four months. he even told me, as i began to question my sexuality properly, that i couldnt be bi 'because i liked him'.

but he LOVED twenty one pilots. would quote their shit regularly. wore the merch. all that stuff.

by 2016 i'd managed to see clearly enough and have enough support from friends that i felt comfortable cutting him and his circle off permanently. and it was fucking hard. i didn't have a lot of irl friends at the time and it felt like my only support network. after i finally left, i was desperate to feel some semblance of control, take something back, my own personal little 'fuck you' i could carry in my heart.

with all the hype around them, i gave top a try. slowly eased my way in. i knew i was hooked when i heard Holding On To You for the first time. it made me feel like i could take back that control and find a light at the end of the tunnel.

i consumed everything they had put out after that. i saw them live at emotional roadshow sydney 2017, i was turning 18. i made so many new friends. i felt such hope in my heart. i sobbed so fucking hard when they played HOTY. they weren't the only reason i made it through, itd be naive to contribute everything to them when i've done a lot of work and so have the people around me, but they were like a lifeline to hold on to when things were hard.

i went and saw them again in 2018 for the bandito tour. i made my own outfit and was surrounded by people who had done the same. i made more friends, had more adventures. i was dropping out of high school the year that Trench released due to having the worst mental health i'd had probably since my abuse and felt so lost but it helped me feel a little more stable and grounded. like that light was still there.

a lot has happened since. i'll be 25 when i go see them in November, once again at Qudos Bank Arena in sydney. i'm in a happy relationship with someone i love who respects me. i'm doing things that make me happy. i'm happy. i've felt and experienced and lived and loved and lost and done so so so much since i was a scared 16 year old hearing them for the first time. i've gotten piercings and tattoos, something i never thought i'd do, and put their work permanently on my body. i'm so proud every time i see my tattoo on my arm. i genuinely love and accept myself exactly as i am, which is something i NEVER thought i'd do.

having Clancy come out nine years to the day from blurryface, an album that has been so deeply important to me in a lot of ways, gets me real misty. this entire tour gets me so misty. i didn't think i'd live past 18 at BEST. but i'm here and i'm fucking happy.

genuinely cannot emphasise how much this album and this tour means to me. i plan on getting a Clancy tattoo once the album comes out and i've had some time to sit with it. it feels very full circle, i guess. hearing Next Semester has just had me thinking about this constantly and all weepy all the time haha. but a good weepy.

i cannot fucking wait to scream in a stadium full of people again in a way that heals my heart.

[theninthdoor]

ateez current love life update?

Seonghwa || temperance, two of pentacles rx: Seonghwa's has either been seeing (going on dates and such) or been talking to someone. It feels like this connection has been going on for a while now in a non-romantic manner, which could mean that they have been friends or acquaintances for a while, or they had a little fling in the past that didn't make it to an actual relationship.

Hongjoong || the hierophant rx, three of cups rx: I think Hongjoong is trying something new these days. He's attempting a new approach at relationships; trying to see things from a different perspective so he can experience new things. I feel him both excited and anxious about stepping out of his comfort zone, and I'm not too sure if this is going to last too long. But, still, it should be an interesting and learning experience for him.

Yunho || nine of swords rx, ten of cups: Dating, for sure. Whatever issues he had been going through with his partner have finally been solved, and they're back on a good place. With the Hierophant rx at the bottom of the deck, however, I doubt this high will last for too long. I just think that, even though they are happy together and seriously like each other, some part of the relaionship has already been damaged beyond repair - which will keep bothering them as they attempt to move forward.

Yeosang || nine of pentacles rx, eight of pentacles rx: I think he's single and not looking for love. I just see him focusing on himself and working on bettering his self-esteem, so he can date more confidently + attract healthier, more loving relationships. If you were to ask him, I feel like he'd say he's in his "self-discovery era".

San || nine of wands rx, the tower rx: There's some kind of complicated situationship going on here. Whatever it is, is not reading as an "official" relationship nor do I feel like that's where they are headed. At some point that might've been the intention, but then they quickly realized that it just wouldn't work out, and so now they know better than to push it. Still, his interest for this person hasn't changed much, and they're still around.

Mingi || nine of swords, page of wands rx: Single, most likely. I think whoever he was talking to or seeing recently was a really bad match for him, as I just see them arguing and getting their feelings hurt any time they interacted. King of Swords rx at the bottom of the deck = he's still pissed about this whole thing, and isn't even considering looking for a relationship or love anywhere else at the moment.

Wooyoung || nine of swords rx, the hierophant: He might've recently broken up with his partner and gotten back together, or things have just been cooling off between them and the relationship at this point feels more like a friendship/FWB type of thing than a full-on romantic one. I think they have been through some highs and lows, and at this moment they are going on a high again (hence the 'getting back together' message, I suppose).

Jongho || knight of pentacles, nine of cups rx: I'd say Jongho's technically single, but it still feels like there is a special someone around him, and whatever they have had going on isn't totally new. I guess neither of them would consider this a 'relationship' anyway, and with the 9oC rx here, that might actually be something that is bothering him because there's just a general lack of clarity and intention. I just don't see this being the right timing for them, if their connection ever makes it to the next stage, at all.

(Disclaimer: All is alleged and for entertainment purposes only. Based on current energies.)

[bitchinbarzal]

Happy early birthday. Woods with 17. "You're jealous aren't you?" "I'm not jealous." please

Miles already had issues with the fact he couldn’t speak to you in your first language.

He hated the fact that he would hear you talking to Nico and Jonas and have no idea what was going on.

But they were his boys, he didn’t worry.

So when Timo got traded into Jersey he had issues, self esteem issues.

You’d have conversations right infront of his face with Timo that he couldn’t understand.

He was jealous.

The night the devils put on family skate, you were there with him and he was so happy, content. Until he wasn’t.

You were not the best on the ice and slid around a little bit but it was fine because Miles was there to catch you.

You were getting better on skates and had ventured out a little further afield from him. You were smiling while yelling “Woods look!”

He watched you before your right foot slid and you were headed for the floor, until someone caught you. Miles stood and watched Timo’s arms wrap around you, pulling you into his body.

“Woah, I’ve got you”

You laughed and thanked him, Your hands rested against his chest.

Miles watched the scene as if you were basically fucking his teammate in the middle of the ice.

You turned to laugh about the situation with Miles only to find him skating away in a tantrum.

“Miles! Babe, what-“ you exclaim, taking baby steps towards the edge of the ice.

Once you’d gotten off, with the help of Mikey and Nate, you stormed down to where Miles sat stripping off his skates.

“What the fuck dude!”

Miles only sighed “Babe not now-“

“Yes, now! You asshole you left me!”

“No, you were with Timo” he scoffed and then it all made sense to you.

You smirked “You’re jealous, aren’t you?”

Miles gaped “I am not jealous, I don’t get jealous”

“That’s what a jealous person says” you quipped, crouching down infront of him “I love you, woods, not him or anyone for that matter… you’re mine for like ever baby you can’t get rid of me”

He smiles softly, leaning down and kissing you “I’m sorry”

“Listen the jealousy is hot”

[risualto]

3. What is their love language?

14. What is something they argue about constantly? Is it a deep-seated issue or something small?

For Inky + boyfriends!

Inky and the boyfriends are making me so happy in Dawntrail lmao thank you for the opportunity to gush about them.

3. What is their love language? Honestly I'm not super great at this because I don't put a lot of stock in the traditional "love languages." Anyway...best I can tell, Urianger gives love via acts of service and likes to receive love via quality time. Thancred gives love via (dramatic) acts of service and also giving gifts. He likes to receive love via words of affirmation and physical touch. Inky gives love via quality time (primarily) and also physical touch. But in terms of receiving love...honestly, she understands all of the five love languages. All of those are ways of showing that someone thinks about her, and she can easily parse out when someone is doing something out of love, so she's happy receiving any kind of love that her loved ones want to give her. Especially her boyfriends. That said, I do think that acts of service has grown particularly special because it's how Urianger and Thancred show love to her.

14. What is something they argue about constantly? Is it a deep-seated issue or something small? These three bicker about a lot of meaningless things, all the time. Thancred and Inky take special pleasure in making utter nonsense arguments to refute Urianger's theories when he's working too hard--or just when they want to mess with them. He knows they're being ridiculous, but a part of them likes having the opportunity to share his deeper thoughts in a way that doesn't feel like a lecture or an interrogation. Also, both Thancred and Urianger tease Inky for being short, and she will react like an angry squirrel every single time. So of course that spurs them on.

Most of the bigger, more serious arguments these three have had have been one-off incidents or things that were limited in timescope, such as Inky vehemently disagreeing with Thancred about his treatment of Ryne in the First. However, one of the ongoing arguments they do have is mostly Inky & Urianger vs. Thancred about his self-esteem. Things have gotten better post-Endwalker, but it's a very anxious reality living with the knowledge that their boyfriend is a little too eager to sacrifice himself for them. There are also times when Thancred and Urianger have both wished that Inky would take things a bit more seriously, but that was mostly in the very early days of their relationship.

[reviviscencegruiform]

This just happened to me so I thought I'd ask you,

If you were dating a girl and she was having some self-esteem issues and she asked you if she could book an appointment with a professional photographer to get some boudoir shots done... Would you let her or would you say no and accuse her of wanting to send the pictures to someone besides you?

First off, hi, hello, howdy. It's funny to me you'd assume I'm capable of forming a committed romantic relationship being who and what I am, but it's also very flattering so thank you very much. That's a nice little ego boost.

To that point,

I really did have to sit and think about this one. Getting over the hump of disbelief that a seemingly normalish woman would consider letting me court her to this point was the tallest hill to climb here, but I managed it and even though it took me all day, I have your answer.

Let's start with being very honest. I would automatically be very defensive because don't I make you feel pretty? Don't I tell you 24/7 that that I am absolutely flabbergasted as to why you are with me constantly? Where have I failed? Where have I fallen short? Why don't you believe me? Why are you with me if you think I'm just fucking with you about this? Do I, of all people, come across as the kind of man who would just pander to you about the sheer unrelenting horror that is my attraction to you and the vulnerability it makes me feel?

And then I realize that it isn't about me.

I don't make you feel unattractive. You make you feel unattractive and I can recognize it because I do the samething to myself and it would break my heart to the very foundation of my being that you knew what that felt like.

Life makes you feel unattractive because you don't look like what's in the billboards or on the magazines. I'm a victim of that too. You don't look like what's on TV so you don't feel attractive because nobody can stand up to the propaganda we are subjected to every day and it has not that I have failed you it is that we as people, as just empathetic human beings, have failed one another and put corporations and greed over our own wellbeing for so long we see it as a personal failure rather than a societal ill when our loved ones find fault in the faultless parts of themselves. And we have failed to raise our children to be better than that. Instead we've raised them cruel and judgemental to those that don't fit the mold even when they themselves don't fit it.

And then I would feel very guilty.

I would have gotten angry and I would have gotten defensive and I might have even said something to you that was completely uncalled for it so I apologize for that here, imaginary girlfriend. I'm still learning and unlearning.

So I would absolutely say you should go get your photoshoot, but be very careful about what you pick out to wear. I wouldn't be saying that as a possessive thing, I would be saying that because whatever you put on, I'm going to put on.

We're going to double book.

So you are getting your photos done and so am I. We're gonna have an entire roll of film to each of us and some as a couple. So many pictures this photographer is going to make bank on our dumb little asses and once you have picked out the pictures that make you feel the most beautiful, we are going to take those same pictures of me, in the same pose and the same outfit, and we're gonna post them online for everybody to see.

You will be so fucking hot in comparison to me that you will become a sensation online. Your ex's will mourn the loss of you. Your bullies will feel pants shitting regret because now they can't have you for themselves.

You will look like the goddess you deserve to look like and feel like the goddess you deserve to feel like and I will look like a cockroach in a bubblegum wrapper, but I would have made you laugh and I will have never have been happier because you are happy and smiling and that is all I have wanted since we met.

We will hang that picture above our bed and we will remember that we are beautiful every night and every morning.

And also probably that I can't pull off spandex, but that's ok.

[perexcri]

Leah!!! Oh Lordy idofnwkfjajdjwfjejfjdjc Flirty And Happy/comfy w himself Will fic!! It’s like u can see Exactly inside my brain and know what kind of fic I’m craving. I’m so Very excited to see where you take this bc the first chapter was !!!!!🥰🥰🥰

“Mike’s always been one for boldness, for sculpting light out of darkness and shadows out of glows–obviously he’d like working with charcoals” screams. I Adore that Mike’s gotten into charcoal (also cackled that he was clearly trying to get art class w will poor bb)—it’s a hard medium to work w (I’m Bad at it) but I think ur right, I feel like Mike wouldn’t be bad at it.

“It takes Will a good two seconds to convince himself not to press his lips into Mike’s neck, just to dispel the word friend out of the air. Like, yes, they’re friends, but also…it’d be cool to be friends but also something else, right?

“Yeah,” Will finally says, already being dragged down into a cascading tornado of thoughts that begins with swingsets and ends with What are we, Mike?”

S c r e a m i n g rolling on the floor wiggling like a slug. E s pecially that last line of that bit. I’m going to Eat My Phone.

Earnest flirting Best flirting !!! Will is the most valid and correct person ever actually😌

Love me some Platonic Madwise and u write them so well—despite the fact that the show Hasn’t let them interact much at all— and just diandrkfjw.

Also!!! Willel!!! Siblings!! They’re so !!!

“The Party has its own intergroup dynamics and mini units that like to meet on their own for their own hangout time: the four boys have a weekly D&D session separate from the one they do with the girls; Lucas and Will sometimes meet to go on runs or work out; El and Max are practically inseparable; Lucas, Dustin, and Mike have set up shop in one of the unused utility closets to tinker with old A/V equipment the school had all but abandoned.” I’m literally So feral over this. the Party Being Friends!!!!!!! Kicking my feet rn

Painting for Mike :D !!!! I’m So rieicjshfjw invested in seeing how this is going to turn out !! Ur ability to set up plot that leaves me invested is like So talent and I just!!

ur writing is lovely wonderful and u are v wonderful and I hope you are having a fantastic weekend💕💕

VEEEE!! i'm glad i can provide what you're looking for 😌 i genuinely meant this to be a flirty fic, but i think i like where it ended up going instead better :D as funny as it is to write about these two being losers, it's been nice to write about Will being happy with who he is for once (especially since my other wip is just taking a scalpel to all of Mike's self-esteem issues but we don't have to talk about that right now)

!!! i'm glad i could have an artist agree with me on the charcoals thing!! i haven't used them since the art class i took my junior year of high school, but i remember them being my favorite thing to work with. Mike just seems like the kind of person who'd like black-and-white mediums. but more importantly: he just wanted to spend time with Will 😩

*punches wall* Will is going to be happy, dammit

and i'm glad you like that he's being earnest!! honestly this fic started off with a post i saw around new year's (which i haven't bothered to look for again but i know i reblogged it lol) talking about flirty Will. i tried to approach it like i did with cheer up, baby where i was taking a trope that often gets applied to Mike and was trying to imagine what it would look like if Will did it. in this case, i figured he'd be a lot more earnest with his flirting rather than teasing or brash. he just seems like the kind of person that would look at you with shiny anime eyes and say the most heartfelt thing you've ever heard

AHHHH i'm also so glad you're enjoying all the little group dynamics T_T i love Max/Will/El as a trio even though those three barely interact as a group in the show lol. i'd sell my soul for a whole season of st that's just the three of them hanging out tbh

heheheh yesss a painting for Mike!! i'm gonna make everybody's theory that the painting was gonna be one of them meeting on the swing set a reality even if it kills me. i'm still recovering from the whiplash of watching vol2 and Mike unrolling the canvas - i literally watched it the first time and went "but isn't it supposed to be them on the swings?? did they not get the memo?"

Vee i know i only finished posting aftry like a week ago but i got so used to marathon-posting it and seeing your thoughts on each chapter every day that i've missed see your name pop up in my ask box ajkfsdalkj. so it was lovely to wake up and see a new message from you!! you are lovely to talk with as always, and i am wishing you a wonderful weekend too!! or, i guess it's technically monday, so i am wishing you a lovely week!! :] 💜💜💜

[angelicasdigitaldiary]

2024

Hi, whoever is reading this, I'm back after a huge, I don't even know what to call it, other than major depressive episode? coupled with severe anxiety, and physical issues that manifested due to stress. The end of 2023 and beginning of 2024 has been really rough for me. Many days feeling lifeless. Feeling like I don't want to be here anymore, in pain, heartbroken, and as though my life doesn’t matter.

It's April now, and although my physical and mental health has gotten better, I still struggle most days to believe in myself, or believing I'm worthy of my dreams because they're so -out there. Well, compared to my peers and family members. Or, even having any motivation at all, which is how I feel most of the time. Existing alone these days/months/year has felt exhausting. But here I am, and here we are.

Today, I've reflected, I am still not in a place where I want to be. And I feel like I can no longer go back to my old dreams/goals my younger self had once envisioned. Because they were made at a different time of my life. When my life felt, looked, and even I, was different.

I feel as though after everything, those goals no longer align with who and where I am today. So I made new goals for myself. Which I'll post/share here with you all for accountability, so here we go!

My new 2024 goals:

Be more active, and pick up a physical activity that I can stick to, that will help me tone up and get in shape. (going up the stairs and running even 3 mins is hard for me atm).

With that, I'd love, love, love to get back into dancing. I miss dancing dearly. In my earlier years, when my best friend was my dancing partner, and I had gotten past the shy phase, I would be able to be the first on the dance floor, center-stage, and I remember everything becoming a blur. It was just me, my body, the music, the feeling, and my friend of course. In those moments, nothing mattered. Just me, and I felt happy. Of course, being young, I did experience getting creeped on/inappropriately touched, so I have some fear getting back into it/getting out there in a way I'll feel safe? But maybe a start is to go out with friends I trust.

Pass my Leed v4 exam (due to mental/physical health, school and work it felt impossible). But, now that I'm on leave, and have gotten better, I want to get back to it!

Be more active on social media. Specifically, post more on here and Youtube. (I was posting on YouTube regularly a little more over a year ago, but stopped and deleted everything due to the depression/anxiety/low self-esteem and s. ideation.) Once I get my channel running again, I'll post/link my videos onto here.

Sing more on tik-tok. (Posted a few singing videos last summer and seemed to have gotten a good response on there, but have taken most down due to low self-esteem again) ready to give it a shot again despite still not feeling super confident. I don't want to think too much about what I post and just post for funsies!

Big goal of mine for this month and the next is securing a remote part-time job. (That I can hopefully sustain during college).

Last one, a bit shy to share this one, but move out. I'm 23 currently. Turning 24 in August. And before I turn 25, I'd like to be able to move out into my own space and finally experience living / growing on my own in my 20s. Currently, the situation here at home with family has gotten a little toxic, draining and suffocating. And in conclusion, I feel like moving out will help my life feel less stagnant, and more in my own hands and my own terms. It will be scary, as an only child raised by a single-mother, it will be difficult for us to part ways for a bit. But, I want to show myself and my mom I can do it. And I want her and me to be proud if I'm able to. make it on my own.

That's all for now :) Already feeling much better typing out those goals. Maybe, my last personal one, is to get sleep! These past months, sleep have been a huge issue for me, where too often, I'll go two days without sleeping, and often, crashing during the middle of the day. I know it's stress that's probably causing this. So, hope I can find a way to fix this soon.

Hope anyone who has read all the way here, is having a good day or will have a good day! Thank you truly for reading. And for being here.

Love,

Angelica

[cassraven]

I can definitely relate to this, what Wil is saying. A 100%. I related to dark animals of beauty, and other things. Crows, mice, rats, bats, ravens, and other creatures I loved. It felt right, to defend those misfit animals others gave them a bad rep for. Stand up for the little creatures like little guys or people. It's all relatable as Wheaton has put it into his words and perspective.

In the 1990s I had to as a child deal with despite having a loving and supportive family, and a great Father, it was the opposite concerning my Mother. She looked like a great, hard-working loving Mom to everyone else outside my home but she was the worst mother ever, emotionally/mentally/toxic negative/manipulative abusive towards me and my siblings of different ages. That kind of abuse daily , sucked. No matter how much I worked hard, did my best despite the learning disabilities I legit had and was school tested having. No matter if I got a grade above an F or D, or close to an A. Or student awards in school improving in or succeeding in Arts, English, Writing, Reading, Science, etc. Or even making a volcano diorama working project that made both first places in the school and district science fairs...never was it enough for my Mom. She could never be truly happy, supportive, or just proud of me like everyone else was. Always, "I'm proud of you...But you could improve and could have done so much better to have gotten a better award/grade/done normal things/papers/essays/projects like the normal and other students/kids your age."

Even surviving junior high, and high school, graduating both, having my art praised and making it into school art shows, a senior graduation top art award, and later getting into college and art degrees following that...still wasn't truly enough to be respected by her unlike everyone else who was happy and proud of me. I wasn't choosing dreams, careers, jobs, or college majors to be like everyone else, "basic" or normal" like settling down, marriage, kids young of a girl Mexican stereotype expecting me to get knocked up by a boy at a young teenage age or 18, marry, not go to college, raise grandkids for her to love and care for. Or do college to just be a basic librarian or basic school teacher teaching art. Not want to make art my full career, or want to travel, or de-goth myself as she said once. She hated me becoming goth, punk, alternative as a baby goth bat in my tweens, the type of art I create because it's not how she expected or wanted her little girl the middle daughter child to turn out becoming: Not a doll little girl barbie type, who just keeps silent, normal. Instead, I'm a happy black all goth spooky punk wearing lady, with sass, speaking my mind, with my voice, art, and in fandoms of geek, horror, sci-fi, tattooed, pierced, and feminist. And with a partner, a man who supports all I am and the choice that we don't want kids. We have pet children.

She's the main reason why I am still an adult despite my success of being a working commission artist, a functional disabled goth/punk woman who still has issues with my self-esteem, and depression. She still denies everything, anything rotten she did, total denial, still victim-blaming everyone else and myself. She's why I am now seeing my first-ever therapist despite it being positive to me and having the full support of everyone else in my family and friend support circles. (I refuse to tell my Mother about me seeing a therapist because of her personal beliefs negative about therapy, and refusing to see a therapist for herself and her mental/medical/health and anger issues. She even in my childhood refused to let me see a therapist that did wonders with kids with disabilities and self-esteem when I was in grade school K-6 elementary school. Why? Because "Not my child, none of my kids will speak about family matters, to strangers who'll involve school and CPS when it's not their business. Only crazy people or mentally messed up kids see therapists. We don't, we're Mexicans, not White People. We don't see therapists or psychologists!" Was always her argument. I never really, sadly got to seek therapy until now for myself. I never truly had a normal or loving Mother, I just had a loving fully supportive Father out of parents. And honestly, I prefer, love, and see my Father as a better parent than my Mother. My friends and other kids and teens in my life were lucky because they had truly good and normal loving mothers...I didn't. I was fostered, and adopted into a home with a fake loving highly jealous critical control freak woman who was my Mother and I still have mixed feelings of love and hate today.

[0nlythrowharrybeaux]

Angst 3, 10, 19, 22, 28 & 34 Famous H starts getting distant, cold and mean and everyone around them notices... while y/n is being attacked by the media and fans and he doesn't give af, she feels like everything is her fault and that kind of life ain't for her. Ps: Please make me cryyy, I need it, tysm

Hello friend! I'm not taking requests ATM so I'm not sure which prompt list you were looking at! But I hope it's this one I've just found through my old blurbs! But I truly hope you are feeling better soon! Sending you all the love and comfort <3 I hope this one shot hits the spot!

WC: 3.5k

Y/N just knew that there was more going with Harry than just stress from being busy, as he would tell her lately. Yes, he had a rather eventful year with tour and films and promos, but he was being absolutely frigid with her. Y/N had been with pretty awful partners in her past and they had wrecked her self-esteem and sense of worth. Harry had been someone who had started to make her feel worthy and strong and worth the effort and it was easy to fall in love with him and trust him, so seeing the way he was acting towards her now made her self-doubt and loathing far worse than before. The most painful part of it all was that even if the problem was on his end of things, which she knew it was, she felt completely culpable for it all. 

It made sense though. She was always the common denominator when it came the issues. She could never seem to get it right and after seeing things slowly start to go to shit with Harry no one couldn’t convince Y/N that the one who was at fault was her. She was damaged goods, she was broken, she was unworthy of someone so full of light. Maybe she deserved the way he was icing her out and the way that everyone seemed to be turning away from her. She felt her stomach twisting with hurt and a lump forming in her throat as she looked through the comment section on her Instagram.

Harry looks so miserable with Y/N! I hope he dumps her.

H looks so happy and free when she isn’t at his shows! Like he’s having way more fun and interacting with the fans.

I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again… Y/N is Harry’s ugliest girlfriend LOL Sorry not sorry!

You’re such a try-hard! You literally copy everything H does for attention. Get a fucking life.

Obviously Y/N & Harry are a PR stunt! He would never get with someone that ugly LMAO

She looks like a stuck up bitch. So much for TPWK

Nobody likes you Y/N! Maybe you should just kill yourself…

Her eyes were welling up as she read the cruel words. People could be so horrible for no apparent reason. She hadn’t been OK for a while now, her mental health was suffering as people just tore her apart. The fans and the media. She wasn’t sure at what point she became the focus of people’s attention in that capacity but she wanted it all to stop. It had gotten to the point where even Jeff had pulled her aside to see if she was OK and she had mustered up the coolest smile she could and confirmed that she was fine. He didn’t seem to buy it, but he also didn’t seem to push it either and after that he didn’t ask again. She heard some foot steps approaching the hotel room and she wiped at her eyes quickly and locked her phone before switching on the TV. Soon enough the door was opening and in stepped Harry, all sweaty from his work out as he removed his ear phones.

“How was it?” She asked genuinely.

“Fine. Kinda dingy, lots of the equipment was missing.” He mumbled as he turned away from her to strip off his shirt while toeing off his sneakers.

“Oh, bummer.”

“Yeah.” He responded, “Are you gonna come to the stadium with me today?” He asked and she bit her lip for a second. The words from the comments lighting up in her head and she felt unsure.

“Do you want me to come?” She asked another question in response to his question and he sighed audibly.

“That’s not…” he paused, “Just do what you want.” He said, clearly frustrated at her response and she felt a lump in her throat.

“Sorry for upsetting you. I just don’t want to get in the way or be handful or something.” She elaborated and he turned towards her and sighed.

“Then why did you come?” He asked her and that question was like a kick to her stomach. The hurt radiated from the depths of her chest to her fingertips.

“I-”

“You’re the one who asked if you were able to come on tour with me and for what? You don’t even come to the shows! You just sit here all day watching TV on your own!” He defended his statement and she frowned, “It costs money, you know?” He said and that made her heart lurch even more, “Every date you’re here for we pay for extra food for you and I get a bigger room and shit. You don’t have to come to tours if you’re just gonna make it a miserable time for yourself and everyone else.” He said and she felt a tear slip down her cheek as he said that and she glanced down at her hands folder in her lap. That’s all she was… wasted money? Wow. It’s not that she didn’t want to be there, she definitely wanted to but the horrible things people would post about her were breaking her down from the inside out and as much as she wanted to be there to support him physically she felt it was unfair to her, she had done absolutely nothing to deserve the treatment she received. Harry saw as a few more tears slipped down her cheeks silently and sighed before approaching her.

“Hey.” He said softly as he grabbed her hand, “Look at me.” He beckoned and she glanced up at him, “Sorry, that came out wrong.” He said and she sniffled and shook her head.

“S’fine.” She offered a half smile and that seemed to appease him enough. However, it wasn’t fine, not in the slightest.

“I do want you to come tonight, by the way.” He said to her.

“OK, I’ll start getting ready.” She promised and he smiled before hurrying off to the shower. 

Everyone in the band seemed to be happy she had come along and greeted her with so much warmth and kindness. Harry had just disappeared from her, as she expected. And honestly, she was doing what she would’ve done at the hotel while they sound checked - just sat there for several hours watching TV in a general area wearing a big, fat frown. Harry was in his dressing room getting fitted, he didn’t bother inviting her over or anything. She was there for a while and then got this strange feeling that someone was watching her and when she turned around she saw one of the venue’s staff member’s sneaking a video of her and then turned quickly to pretend to be busy stocking up a fridge. She really wanted to let it go, but she could already see the headlines of how she was unsupportive and didn’t want to be there anyway. She bit her lip nervously before standing.

“Ummm, excuse me?” She said to the young woman who then turned, looking at her with this feigned innocent expression.

“Yes?”

“I don’t… mean to be…” she fumbled on her words, “I ummm, I saw you taking a video of me and I would really appreciate it if you could delete it. Backstage is supposed to be camera free apart from the tour photographer and videographer. You crossed a line and on top of that, I didn’t consent to be filmed by you.” She said nervously and the girl looked offended with her.

“I wasn’t filming you.” She said with a straight face and Y/N nibbled on her lip nervously.

“OK, sorry.” She nodded and shrugged, “Maybe I just saw wrong. But it looked like you were filming and if it were someone else who saw this you could get in a lot of trouble. So just be a little more mindful so that you don’t get in any kind of problems.” She warned with a polite smile. The girl was obviously lying and she didn’t plan on telling Jeff or anything, maybe Harry after the show, but she didn’t want to get the girl’s phone confiscated or anything.

“Sure.” She said curtly before offering a fake smile and walking off. Y/N sighed and headed back to the couch. 

She sat there for a couple hours until it was time for dinner and everyone was heading back to eat. She chatted with the girls and Mitch while Harry floated around. When it came time for Sarah to eat she grabbed the baby and played with him to allow her and Mitch the chance to settle down for a bit. She seemed very engrossed in that and trying to avoid Harry, it gave Sarah an odd feeling and she sat beside Y/N.

“It’s really nice to have you back.” Sarah said with a smile.

“Thanks, it’s nice to be here.” Y/N said and Sarah saw that her smile hardly even reached her eyes.

“Have you been doing OK?” She asked and Y/N nodded.

“Yeah, traveling really gets to me though.” She explained. It was odd for Sarah that Y/N was being so vague with her. They had a pretty good relationship, she just seemed so unlike herself and it was worrisome.

“You can tell me to bugger off if I’m being too nosy, but how are you and H doing?” She asked and Y/N focused her attention on the baby.

“S’alright… I mean he’s busy and tired from the touring and the traveling, and well you know how he sleeps for ages…” she said with a smile and Sarah giggled and nodded.

“It just… seems like you lot aren’t really seeing eye to eye.” She elaborated.

“Oh, definitely not today.” She huffed, “We had a bit of a tiff before heading out.” She explained and then proceeded to share with Sarah what had happened.

“Proper prick, he was.” Sarah scoffed and Y/N sighed, “I mean, yeah, but I have been a bit of a downer and just… yeah.” She accepted.

“Ummm, no. If anything that warrants him treating you far nicer than that.” Sarah expressed and she sighed, trying not to cry as Sarah validated everything she had felt deep inside, “Honestly, how’ve you been doing? I know that this can’t always be easy.” She expressed and Y/N sighed shakily.

“Honestly… it’s been rough.” She confessed, “I don’t know why, but all of a sudden the fans and the media just turned on me from one day to the next. They’re just being so cruel and making up rumors and telling me to die and I know that I should ignore it, but it just gets so loud sometimes.” She whispered painfully, tearing her attention from the baby to Sarah who was looking at her with soft eyes.

“Yeah, I can imagine.”

“People can be really cruel and it’s just been getting to me, I need to grow some thick skin or something…but lately I just… I can’t stop crying.” She disclosed sadly, “I don’t want to come around to the shows and bring gloom and doom, you know.” She sniffled.

“Oh, Y/N.” Sarah cooed and Y/N cleared her throat and blinked away the tears threatening to spill from her eyes, “Have you shared that with H?”

“Nah… we had that conversation at the start of things. He seems to get a bit frustrated when I willingly wade into it all so if you don’t mind, let's just keep that between us.” She said softly and Sarah nodded, but it made her feel uneasy to hear that. “Earlier today, when you guys were sound checking one of the venue staff was recording me back here… I asked her to delete it and she swore she wasn’t recording me, but I mean…”

“Yeah, we’re kind of trained to know these things.” Sarah said.

“Right. And I didn’t want to get her un trouble, so I apologized in case I had imagined it, but let her know to be cautious of bringing out her phone backstage because she could get I trouble. And now, I don’t doubt there’ll be some rumors about me being rude to fans or something in a few days…” she huffed in irritation.

“God…you should really tell Harry.”

“I don’t want to make waves and to get her in trouble. It’ll make things worse.” 

“Yeah, I get it.” Sarah said, “But if you ever feel unsafe or threatened like that again please say something. It’s not allowed for a reason. OK?” Y/N nodded.

As always, Harry had done a marvelous job at his show and Y/N couldn’t have been more proud of him. Despite how hurt she felt by him from earlier in the day she couldn’t help but smile and kiss his sweaty forehead as he scooched into the car waiting to zip them away from the venue right after he ran offstage. 

“You did so good, baby!”

“Don’t regret coming out, do you?” He chuckled and she shook her head and he grinned. They were pretty silent on the ride back after that little exchange and she pulled out her phone to kill a little time. 

But the first thing that greeted her were shared posts from some of her friends. She felt her stomach drop, she knew what this would be about. She looked at the screen shots of the story recounting how rude she had been to the staff member back stage. There was a picture of her looking miserable on her own on the couch with a caption of how everyone was hanging out in another room and no one wanted to interact with her. Then there was a bit about her threatening to get the girl fired for allegedly filming her and other completely made up things that made Y/N want to scream. She felt her eyes start to well up as the vehicle came to a stop in front of the hotel, there were already fans lined up at the entrance and Y/N took a deep breath, she didn’t want to cry in front of them. Harry slipped out first, resulting in a cheer erupting from the fans and screams of his name. He extended his hand to help her out and she grabbed it to plant her feet on the ground and he let go and hurried off, thinking she was right on his heels, but he was a few steps ahead of her. However, as soon as she was within the fans’ line of sight she heard a few boos. That started to encourage some heckles of names and other insults. And then she felt something hard hit her arm and she looked down to see a cracker of sorts and she frowned. 

“Ignore them.” He said to her, barely audible over the commotion.

“You’re a bitch!” Someone shouted and she felt her eyes start to well up.

“Harry deserves better!” Someone else heckled and she started to hurry towards him. She felt a few more things bouncing off of her and then suddenly she gasped as a far heavier object was making impact with the side of her head and the she just felt soaked. She glanced down to see a Starbucks drink all over her top and she felt it also dripping down the side of her face.

“Harry!” She shrieked and he turned back and gasped from the shock. She immediately started to cry upon the absolute humiliation of this. She expected him to at least say something, but he didn’t address it at all.

“Fuck, come on.” He mumbled to her and reached for her hand and pulled her inside swiftly. She only cried as they rode up to their hotel room and he squeezed her hand in reassurance. She felt worthless and stupid and she was completely speechless that he didn’t say anything to the fans out there about their abusive behavior. She was so disappointed in him and it seemed to complete break her as they stood there in silence. She moved her hand out of his as soon as the elevator opened and she rushed down the hall to their room.

“Y/N!” She didn’t respond as she keyed her way into the room, not bothering to hold the door open for him, causing him to rush in before it closed on him, “Hey, baby.” He said as she grabbed her toiletry bag from her suitcase and she didn’t respond, “Y/N!” He practically shouted at her only to be met with silence as hot tears continued to stream down her cheeks and then she hurried into the bathroom and slammed the door loudly. Harry hurried over to the door, about to knock on it when he heard the shower come on and then he heard the shower door shut after a few moments and then he just heard her start to sob. It made his insides twist up horribly as he heard her cries. 

He knew she’d been having a rough time, but so had he. He didn’t feel like he needed to defend his relationship or justify it to people who really had no idea what he was truly like. He felt that if he talked about what had been happening he would just be fueling the fire and that was the last thing he wanted to do. And so he waited, but once her shower hit the 30 minute mark he was dozing off. Harry woke up to Y/N pulling on a crewneck over her wet hair. He squinted in the light of the room and groaned groggily before stretching a bit. 

“Baby.” He mumbled and when she didn’t answer he sat up and he felt his insides sink uncomfortably when he saw that she was fully dressed and packed up, “Baby, where are you going?” He shot up and she sniffled and shook her head.

“I can’t do this anymore, Harry.” She whispered painfully.

“Tour?” He asked and she whimpered through her tears and shook her head.

“Us. I can’t do it anymore.” 

“Baby, don’t say that! It’s just some stupid fans!”

“It’s not though! They all fucking hate me and it seems like you do too! You didn’t even defend me after they fucking hurt me!” She accused, “You just sit there and let it happen! I can’t believe you did this to me!” She cried and he pouted.

“What do you want me to say? What could I have even done to fix that after it had been done already?!” He questioned defensively.

“Your lack of involvement led up to this moment, Harry. You’ve been icing me out for months and I don’t buy the stressed and tired excuse anymore! We’re all stressed and we’re all tired! Especially me! For months now I have been cyber-bullied and threatened and harassed and told to kill myself! I am falling apart and you don’t even seem to give a shit and it fucking hurts! It hurts when the person you love couldn’t even be arsed with defending you!”

“It just makes it worse if I say something, Y/N!”

“Maybe, but it reassures me that you care about me and my feelings! You know what I’ve been through and you know that I like to feel reassured! This, whatever the fuck we are, I never wanted this.” She hiccuped through her tears, “It’s over.” She wept and Harry frowned.

“Y/N-”

“I can’t anymore, H. I can’t.” She gasped through her tears, “I hate how I feel when I’m with you. I hate it so much!” She admitted and that just about tore him apart. He felt absolutely gutted as the words replayed over and over in his mind.

“You’re ending this over some stupid fans?” He asked incredulously and completely overcome with hurt.

“Yes, so please get out of my way, I want to go.” She persisted and his face morphed from one of disappointment and disbelief to one of anger.

“You’re fucking someone else, aren’t you?” He questioned.

“No, what the fuck?”

“Oh please, why else would you just dump me this way? You’re incredible, didn’t take you long to move on from me, huh?” He asked and she scoffed.

“Harry, no! This isn’t about any other man! It’s about you and the fans and their attitude towards me.”

“Sure fucking thing, Y/N… sure fucking thing.” He countered and she shook her head through her tears. 

“You are absolutely unbelievable and I can’t believe I ever fell for you.” She cried as she pushed past him to the hotel room door. He rushed after her as she wheeled her suitcase down the corridor and to the elevator and pressing the down arrow.

“Y/N, you can’t seriously be ending our relationship over this fucking prank! Please.” He begged, grabbing her hand and she frowned.

“Please let me go, Harry.” She whispered shakily.

“Baby, no.” he whimpered and she sighed.

“Let me the fuck out of your hold or I will scream.” She warned and he sniffled as he reluctantly let her go.

“You’re coming back, right?”

“No, save yourself some fucking money without me here anyway.” She threw back what he had said to her earlier.

“Baby, I’m sorry. I wasn’t-”

“Stay the fuck away from me, Harry. I mean it.” She warned as the doors slid open.

“Y/N, baby, please-” he whimpered and she sighed sadly.

“Goodbye, Harry.”

Read Part 2 here!

[rynwritesstuff]

Period Comfort - Eddie Munson Headcanons

Eddie Munson x Reader who gets periods

Warnings: Blood, cramps, irritability, slightly NSFW, implied fingering

You get your period right before coming to Eddie's trailer, and he wants to make you feel better.

(A/N: If you guys want a full 'period fingering' scene, I'd be happy to write it. I am nothing if not a people-pleaser :))

When you arrive, you aren't smiling. That's the first red flag.

You're always happy to see him, and you are, it's just that . . . Today you feel like shit.

Cramps, bloating, self-esteem issues, the whole nine yards.

"Sweetheart," Eddie says, greeting you when he opens the door. "How are youuuu?"

You make a noise, a tired, grumbly, unexcited noise before flopping down on his couch, which reeks of weed and always gives you a headache. A headache, you decide, is the last thing you need right now, and you turn onto your side as you curl into a ball.

Eddie's concerned immediately, and he follows you before sitting down on the floor in front of you.

"Talk to me," he says. "Who pissed you off?"

You shake your head as he rubs your back.

"No one pissed me off, baby, I got my period this morning."

"Oh," Eddie says. Yikes. He wasn't expecting that. You grumble again.

"You're such a boy," you tease, covering your face with your hand.

Eddie laughs.

"What does that mean!?"

"Means that you don't know how to handle shit like this."

"I know how to handle it!" Eddie argues. "What do you need?"

"Nothing right now," you tell him. "I took painkillers, I've got a tampon in . . . There's not much -- son of a bitch -- that can be done, now."

"Are you in pain?" Eddie asks, concerned as he continues to rub your back. You nod. "Shit, sweetheart, I'm sorry."

You shrug, cringing at the cramps that have suddenly gotten much, much worse.

"Not your fault, don't be sorry."

Eddie sighs.

"I'm gonna use the bathroom, okay? I'll be back."

You get up and walk to the trailer's bathroom. You should've changed your tampon before you left, but you were in such a hurry . . .

"Fuck!" you hiss "God fucking dammit!"

Eddie hurries down the hall.

"What!? What's wrong!?"

"I f-forgot to . . ." There are tears in your eyes as you look through your bag. "I forgot to put more tampons in my bag . . . "

"It's okay, I'll uh . . . I'll get you some."

"No, it's fine, I have a few pads, just . . . Goddammit . . ."

Eddie hates seeing you upset, and even more than that, he hates seeing you in pain. He wants to help you so badly, wants to pull you into his arms and kiss you and love on you.

"You're sure you don't want me to run and get you some?" he asks.

"I'm sure, baby, I've got plenty at home, I just forgot to put more in my bag."

"Okay. 'Cause it's no big deal--"

"It's fine!"

Eddie takes the hint and shuts his mouth.

You come out of the bathroom a few minutes later, an apologetic look on your face.

"I'm--"

"I know," Eddie says, offering you a smile. "C'mere. Can I cuddle you?"

You nod eagerly, and you follow him to his bedroom. He lies down and pulls you close, his heavy hands resting on your abdomen. It provides you with some relief.

"Y'know . . . " you say softly, nudging your nose against Eddie's after about ten minutes of cuddling, "I read that orgasms help with cramps."

"Really?" Eddie asks, eyebrows raised.

"Mmhmm."

You were joking. Wholeheartedly joking. The article was real, but you certainly didn't mean for your boyfriend to--

Eddie slips his hand down the front of your pants. Your eyes widen.

"What are you--!?"

"Giving you an orgasm!"

You look back at him.

"Eddie, you don't actually have to--"

"No, no, I wanna make you feel better!"

And before you can even say anything else, his ringed fingers are circling your clit, and you moan, head tipping back against his shoulder.

[lost-between-letters]

Talk

Pairing: Crowley X Reader (he/him)

Requested by: anon

Warnings: body image issues, Crowley using insults as love language

Word Count: 1,190

Summary: insecurities, Crowley's friendly insults because he is Like That and a confession

"Objectively speaking, am I really that ugly?" The words were tumbling out of his mouth before he could stop them. The thought had been gnawing at his brain for the better part of the day and apparently wanted to get out and in the open now. Took him by surprise too, that fucker.

Crowley's head shot up from the contract he was working on, brows furrowed. "Pardon?"

Yeah, no he wasn't gonna repeat that. Y/N pulled his shoulders up and raised the lore book back up to his face. "Uh nothin'."

A beat of silence followed that made Y/N hopeful that he was off the hook. The words on the paper were actually making sense after a breath or two and he buried himself in the source material to escape the embarrassment of his words.

Since Crowley was more or less allied with the Winchesters - and Y/N by proximity -, this had strangely enough become a part of their normal schedule. At first, the demon had showed up sporadically, whenever they were about to be really really fucked and helped them. Allegedly to have something to hold over their heads.

Only that he never took them up on it. Sure, they ganked a few demons here and there in Crowley's interest but that was it. Still, it had become a regular occurrence to see Y/N and the king of hell working in peace together. Dean wasn't too happy about it but he wasn't covering everything with devil's traps anymore so he had to be secretly okay with it.

And Y/N had made the mistake of striking up conversations here and there. And because he was talking to supernatural beings on a daily basis, it didn't faze him the least to notice that they were getting along. Oh, how naive.

Of course, Y/N's life was never that easy. Soon, more than friendly feelings had followed. Naturally, it had to be the king of hell and not, y'know, someone that he would have a pinch of a chance with.

The book disappearing right beneath his hands shook Y/N out of his thoughts.

Confused, he looked up and was faced with a pissed off Crowley.

He was leaning against the table, not two feet away from Y/N, arms crossed and eyes burning holes (fortunately not literal ones) into his skull. "Are we gonna ignore that Winchester level low amount of self esteem or is there a possibility that I can punch some sense into you?"

"...What?" Y/N leaned back in his chair, taken aback by the intensity in Crowley's voice. And his glare. That glare was terrifying.

The demon huffed. "Let's take this from a different angle, mouse. Who exactly told you, you were ugly?"

"Uhm," yeah, well that was not the reaction he had expected so excuse him for being confused, "no one?"

"So now you're lying as well?" Crowley honest to God tutted, "I can't believe that I'm wasting my time with this."

And there it was. Y/N pushed himself up a little straighter and glared. "Just ignore that I said anything okay? It's dumb anyway."

"The only thing that's 'dumb' here-" if Crowley wasn't freaking him out right now, Y/N would be laughing at the air quotations, "- is that you're being aggravatingly stupid! You are not and will never be ugly, Y/N. Quite the opposite in my humble opinion."

Now, Y/N was truly speechless.

Which did not go unnoticed by Crowley. "Oh come on!"

He threw his arms in the air in annoyance. Only then, Y/N felt how close Crowley had actually gotten. He was standing right in front of him; if Y/N so decided, he could pull the demon down into his lap.

A thought he banned from his mind immediately.

Meanwhile, Crowley was talking again.

"You didn't think that I would spend time with you out of the kindness of my heart, would you?" He said condescendingly and took the last step between Y/N's legs, "no, mouse. One, you're ridiculously hot - just like every of you godforsaken hunters apparently - and two, I enjoy your company. Would in the biblical sense too if you'd just get your head out of your ass."

Y/N just barely swallowed another undignified 'what' and stared instead. Maybe not the wisest choice in the face of this confession but he couldn't help it.

This was a lot to work through, okay?

Only when Crowley made to move away - maybe not quite hurt in his slumped shoulders but something close to it - Y/N unfroze. Employing his handy hunter reflexes, he snatched Crowley's arm before he could snap away (or walk to the door of the bunker and snap away from outside of wardings).

"What." Now, it was Crowley's turn to utter the question.

"Just to be clear-" now that he was standing, the size difference had turned to his advantage and he could look straight at Crowley; clutching his arm tightly, "-you won't punch me in the face if I kiss you now?"

"I will punch you in the face if you don't," he retaliated and yanked Y/N closer unexpectedly.

Which made the kiss more of a headbutting than anything else. At least initially.

Crowley's lips were surprisingly soft on his (and conjured an image of the demon lecturing Dean on toxic masculinity - and if that wasn't a sign for Y/N's brain being dangerously close to melting than he didn't know what else would be) though the hand at the back of his head was possessive enough to make up for it.

And then, Crowley licked his lips and Y/N wasn't thinking at all anymore.

~*~

"Now that we established that -" Crowley was lying half on top of him and still maintained an air of superiority. Like a cat, Y/N thought idly. "-am I getting an explanation for that little breakdown of yours?"

Y/N looked at his fingers that were fumbling with the hem of his shirt. "Does it matter?"

"Hardly. But I still want to know." Crowley managed to sound both annoyed and concerned.

Yeah, Y/N really could have chosen someone easier. But the words and the exact way in which they were spoken made him ridiculously giddy and wanting to share all his secrets. So yeah. No changing those feelings.

He sighed and tipped his head on Crowley's shoulder. "Just the wonderful mix of standing next to underwear model one and underwear model two on a daily basis and on top of that being plagued by the being you're hunting with dreams that are telling you all kinds of nasty things while - by definition of the lore - being unable to lie."

"The creature responsible is dead I assume?" The steel in his voice made Y/N remember that he was talking to a demon.

So he nodded quickly and brushed his lips over the exposed skin under Crowley's shirt.

It had the desired effect. Crowley merely scoffed and relaxed back into the cushions. "They got off easy then."

"Do we have to keep talking?" Y/N complained and tugged on Crowley's collar.

Crowley grinned devilishly. "Not if I can help it."

Y/N had absolutely no objections to that.

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Let's be realistic, fanservice? Really meh?

Do people really think that jkk is based on fanservice? How much will they try to deny it? It's obvious that they do so, but the actions and emotions that they portray towards each other when they are doing 'it' doesn't really make me comfortable to call it as 'fanservice'. These terms are so weird tbh lol.

Back then Jimin used to be extremely attracted and sort of touchy towards JK. ( JK was going through puberty during that period) Jimin used to constantly say that jungkook was [HE STILL IS] attractive and that he loves JK. They both were teens, Jimin probably didn't knew what feelings he had towards JK or he probably knew that he was in love we don't know. Try watching their past logs + how both of them used to behave around each other when the whole group attended an event or just old BangtanTv videos.

(not sure if the first pic is real )

Jungkook used to push Jimin away (distance himself?) from jm. (not in bad a way tho). Jungkook was flustered and shy , he didn't know how to react. He was young, love was in the air. Kookie acted all tough and cool and dismissive with jimin. He was 16 for god sakes, teens are insecure during that phase it isn't like he didn't like jimin, he actually liked jm's presence and appreciated the attention he gotten from Jm . Try watching a few behind the scenes vids. He would say stuff like "jimin is really nice to me, he seems to really like me" and many more! From what I saw through their growth was that during 2015/2016 Jungkook some sort was attracted towards JM. (sexually attracted?) Soon then Jungkook was being sort of clingy? Jimin kept distance with JK because that boi was definitely ( I'm pretty sure both of them knew what they were dealing with it was pure LOVE) You could clearly see that Jungkook became possessive towards Jimin. " Jeonlous " . - yup thats the word that many use. [ I do not fully agree with the link that i attached, it's an example ]

" Jeonlous " - well I sort of disagree with this term as well, many do. Jealous shouldn't be a word to describe Jk's attitude when Jimin is distracted by someone or you know "relationship stuffs". I'm not going to talk much about this topic because my I don't wanna meddle in here. Well YES he does get possesive at times, he loves Jimin a LOT. One thing is wrong tho, the way jkk-ers portray Jungkook action as resentful. NO THAT'S PURE WRONG. Jungkook isn't treated unfairly, JK & JM spends a lot of time with each other.

[ Ask me!, I would love to hear your opinion regarding this issue]

Not related but Jungkook's reaction here had me laughing lmao the audacity of that army tho lol.

Enough of me ranting lol. But now let's talk about Jungkook actions during 2016-2021. I loved the way Jungkook made up with Jimin in almost every aspect. Jungkook really loves Jimin and it really is visible. His expressions, behaviour, and actions really depicts his love towards JM. If you did pay close attention towards the "ranking the member visuals " thingy you would know that JM would be ranked as the last . I felt a little bad for Jimin here, he was clearly uncomfortable. He was probably expecting a better rank by Jk, after all he gave JK a lot of attention. I suppose JM felt hurt and stopped giving TOO much of attention towards JK. He still is insecure about his visual. { well first of all they shouldn't even had proceeded with this ranking thingy, it's a serious issue.. NOT ONLY FOR JM BUT JUST IMAGINE if it was another member. This will do no good for their self- esteem.}

Read the article below, Jungkook ranked Jimin as no.1!

I even received an ask a few days ago by my lovely anon, anon mentioned about how Jungkook tends to act soft and not competitive with JM during run bts, whatever shows lol. ... It's true, Jungkook really softens when he's around Jimin. Examples: Jungkook doesn't even care about the competition when he around Jm (depends also lol).

I couldn't resist adding this pic in here, Jungkook's gaze here melts my heart. *sobbing* Jungkook went into comfort mode here. There are many JKK moments in run bts but it's impossible to add all of em in here. { tumblr 10 pics limit smh }

CONCERTS

trust me, click on that link!

There are plenty of crazy jkk moments during concerts. I don't even think that I would have to elaborate about how EXTRA they are. Take a look at the pictures that I have attached above, fanservice really meh ?

A FEW JIKOOK LINKS YOU WOULD LOVE TO GO BACK TO ~

jungkook being jimin's personal pillow - a cute and soft jikook thread

jikook being domestic boyfriends and going on dates ; a soft thread

Jikook date list

when jikook were extra flirty picking the paper for each other while hugging

#JIKOOK: flirty + awkward

Taehyung: jiminssi, what makes you happy these days? Jungkook: of course it’s me, isn’t it?

jikook facetime

jikook facetime 2.0

jikook facetime 3.0 + trans

That's all. xoxo. stay safe . <3 sincerely, kesh. I try to write my blogs with simple english as I am aware that there are many readers around the world and their language or mother tongue might not be English. I hope that I made reading easier and more fun. lots of luv bye ~