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naramdil · 2 years ago
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you know that tiktok trend where it's like "before and after kids" and the before is them happy and the after is the clip of that toxic guy from euphoria walking away?
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peachymilkandcream · 1 year ago
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Hello. Can you please do a part 2 of the sick Evelyn story 😊 I was thinking maybe Levi calls a doctor and during the check up the doctor notices bruises on her body. He gets suspicious and starts questioning her. Levi makes some silly excuse but he won't buy it (obviously. He is a doctor) Then Levi has to tell him to mind his own business and threatens him. The doctor understands that it would be stupid to go speak up against Levi and apologizes. But he still feels bad for Evelyn.
Levi x Evelyn -> In Sickness Part 2
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(A/N: Ooh, so the only thing I changed in this is the doctor is a woman to keep with Levi's no men around my wife rule. But other than that....I might have made Doc a tad secretly rebellious....*wink wink*)
WARNINGS: implied noncon/dubcon, domestic violence mentioned, manipulation, mind breaking, misogyny, yandere themes/behaviours, violence, blackmail, Levi's a silly little guy, etc.
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Despite Evelyn trying to convince Levi that she was completely fine he insisted on asking for a professional opinion regardless. Evelyn was too much of a people pleaser, worried about being an inconvenience to anyone. He didn't give a damn about someone's time, the two of them only had one doctor, it had to be a woman with a small enough practice so that she would turn the other way with a few good threats. Plus he paid her well enough, his wife's health was worth a pretty price.
Now he stood against the doorframe with his arms crossed, even though she was a woman Levi had to ensure nothing happened. In his eyes Evelyn was such perfection and beauty that everyone wanted her to themselves, that was why he had to keep her hidden away and keep his eye on her. Although deep down he knew he had turned her into such a slut for his cock she wouldn't think of anything else, but a naive meddler might try something regardless.
"Captain?" The doctor inquired, inspecting the bruises.
"Is there a problem?"
"Sort of, can I ask how Mrs. Ackerman came to get these bruises? They're pretty bad-"
"You cannot ask."
She straightens, giving him a fierce look. "And why not?"
"Because that is mine and my wife's business. I don't pay you for your meddling."
Evelyn stared nervously between the two, she knew first hand Levi's wrath when pressed about her various injuries. Many people had come and gone that had questioned Levi's right to discipline her.
"May I talk to you in private then, Captain?"
He nods, taking her into the adjoining hallway, his stern expression still on his face. "Speak."
"What is going on here Levi? I've never seen her so pale, and those injuries. I don't question you about the consent revolving your relationship because I don't know what part of it is actually permitted and what is threatened- but-"
"Can you shut up about that for once in your damn life? That's all your harp me on when it doesn't fucking matter."
She sneers. "I have many opinions on that, but I won't get into them all now. And I really don't want to ask if you've been hitting her because I'm sure I already know the answer." His silence confirms her suspicions, making her angrier. "You mark my words Levi-"
"No, you mark my words woman- if you so much as breathe so much as one word of this to anyone, it won't be about money it will be your life."
"Are you threatening me-?"
"That's a promise."
"If you think I'll get scared by your words-"
"You should be. I'll give you unimaginable hell, so much that you'll wish for the death that will never come. I do whatever the hell I want with my wife, and I won't hear some paper pushing old bat who forgot her use meddling in with her opinions. I pay you for your medical advice, and if you can't provide that then we'll have another conversation."
She opens her mouth to say something else, but quickly shuts it. He has a point, with his influence and reputation he could put much more than just her life in jeopardy. Maybe she couldn't directly help Evelyn, what the girl needed now was time. Time to escape and get somewhere far away from him. And when she escaped she would have at least one friend on the outside who would help her.
"Alright Levi, I'm sorry. I won't question you again. Please just let me finish putting salve on her wounds? I don't want them to get infected."
Levi takes a minute, as if reading her before nodding.
The two return to Evelyn's bedside, the doctor finishing putting salves on her wounds. "Alright my dear, you're all set for now. Just rest, and take good care of yourself." She slips a small handkerchief of pills into her hands under the covers, a little something she keeps with her for all her house visits, for dealing with wives of abusive husbands like him. "Make sure to take your medicine, and I'll come check on you again soon and I can give you more."
Evelyn seemed confused, but then understood the meaning behind her intent, the pills like hot coals in her hand. "Thank you."
She pats her hand, giving Levi a sideways glance before leaving. See if you get your way now Levi, all your precious plans will come crashing down on you.
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sapphic-sex-ed · 3 years ago
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I'm 20 and bi. Maybe not. I've been identifying as bi since I was 16 but been questioning if I'm a lesbian plenty of times since then. I can't tell if i really like men or not. I've felt attraction (if it even was i guess) to ONE guy before and actually ended up being in a relationship with him. It didn't work out due to multiple reasons and i have realized that it wasn't true attraction because i just wanted to know what it was like to be in a relationship. it was my first one, and it felt awkward being with him most of the time and felt that we are much better as friends. I have never liked any other men before. That being said, I have never been in a relationship with a girl, but I really want to. The idea of being with another woman both romantically and sexually makes me very happy. I know I am definitely attracted to women. But the thing is, being with a man doesn't DISGUST me, just isn't very interesting. but if I DID imagine myself with a man, he would have to be feminine and I would have an insane expectation for him. Even then, I still don't wanna be with ANY man for the rest of my life. I want to be with a woman if I ever want to settle down with someone. But im not 100% sure because I'm afraid my mind will change one day. I could just identify with sapphic and queer, and I already do and its great but I just wish I could know if I was really a lesbian or bisexual. Maybe.. I think part of me deep down kind of thinks I should be with men I guess?? Like its this feeling that I can't just like women when I really do love them. when I think "maybe I'm a lesbian", i get reminded that I "have to be attracted to men somewhat, even if it's a little bit". It sucks and im very confused. My attraction toward ppl is very complicated so im sorry if this was hard to understand
You don't have to be Disgusted by men to not be attracted to them. The normal state of non-attraction is just "no, thanks". Dating a man means nothing for your identity. You could date a thousand men and still be a lesbian.
Also, people who are attracted to men don't generally have to tell themselves they like men. They already know and don't need convincing.
If settling down with a man isn't something you want but you want to settle down with a woman, that's a pretty lesbian thought. We can't tell you What You Are, but you sure seem lesbian. Try it out a while and see how you like the label. It really doesn't matter if or when you change your mind. Labels are an outfit we wear, and no one is going to yell at you for wearing a different color.
*Mod Star*
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n1kolaiz · 4 years ago
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"Man fears death and yet, at the same time, man is drawn to death. Death is endlessly consumed by men in cities and in literature. It is a singular event in one's life that none may reverse. That is what I desire."
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Character Analysis: Dazai Osamu
Age: 22 || Ability: No Longer Human
I've done a lot of research concerning Dazai's character because of how complex he'd initially appeared to me. It is still a question as to what his personality type is; some say he's an ENTP while others argue that he's an INTJ, and his enneagram would most likely be 7w8 (The Realist), but that isn't the thing I'm going to focus on.
According to general databases and fan analyses, his temperament is dominantly melancholic. A person's temperament is basically how they react to and live in this world. For those of you not interested in such details, don't worry, I'll get to my point.
The melancholic behaviour is characterised by individualism, self-reliance, and reservation. People of the melancholic temperament are described as having been overcome with sorrow and depressive thoughts, which is beyond the feeling of "just being sad."
Nonetheless, they are generally calm beings, with a tendency to hide how they truly feel by keeping their composure, even in events that demand severe reaction otherwise. Other aspects of melancholic temperaments is that they are absorbed in the cruelty and tragedy of this world, and tend to get lost in their thoughts.
Sound familiar?
Dazai is seen to be as the comic relief of the adaptation, and he'd never fail to bring about a sense of lightheartedness to relieve the serious moments; we all know that for sure. Remember the time both him and Kunikida found Nobuko Sasaki in that godforsaken hospital, and how Kunikida asked him about his opinion on the current state of affairs?
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But, despite having developed a calm and serene personality, Dazai's dark side was more apparent during the Dark Era. There was a type of intimidating and arrogant flair evident in his behaviour, or even on his face. It was the type of demeanour that came off cold and terrifying to the rather unlucky people he dealt with. In a moment's notice, they could literally die by his hands. And I believe most of them usually did. It was during this time, he was more brutal and vicious. He lacked remorse. Plus, Dazai's suicidal ideations were more dense during this Era, and his suicidal tendencies did not do anything to alleviate the depth of how dark his character was posed to be.
Side note: Unfortunately, people misunderstand this 'depressed' part of Dazai; they minimise his character so much to the point that people use only a single word to describe him: suicidal. He is, in fact, so much more than that. I'll elaborate more on that in a while.
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"Hey, Odasaku, do you know why I joined the Mafia? I joined the Mafia because of an expectation I had. I thought if I was close to death and violence—close to people giving in to their urges and desires, then I would be able to see the inner nature of humankind up close. I thought if I did that… I would be able to find something—a reason to live."
Dazai's approach to life is that of an aimless soul, weary of the world's oppressions and exhausted from the concept of living itself. Nevertheless, what he said above about having an expectation made me realise something: he had a goal, which he wasn't that enthusiastic about achieving—seeking for a reason to carry on with life. So he joined the Mafia.
And there, he met Oda Sakunosuke.
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Despite how resilient Dazai carried himself to be (especially during the Dark Era), this specific excerpt stands in direct opposition of how he effortlessly embodied all things daunting:
"With every step I take, I feel as though the earth has opened up into a bottomless pit as I fall endlessly. As Dazai pointed to his forehead and approached the muzzle, the look on his face – like that of a child about to burst into tears – had already been branded upon my eyes."
- quoted by Oda Sakunosuke, excerpt from Dazai Osamu and the Dark Era Light Novel.
When I read this, it sent my mind into a spiral of despair and confusion. It was so vague, yet it made so much sense. Dazai was desperate to escape from this life, but part of him seemed to live in conflict with his desire for death. I won't elaborate more on this, because this specific excerpt has personal meaning to me, as I'd expect it to have for others as well; so I wouldn't want to ruin anyone else's perception on it.
Back to my point: Odasaku was one of the only characters who managed to interpret the complexity of Dazai's mindset and was able to compartmentalise the specific details of his persona that made Dazai the way he was. Oda knew that Dazai wasn't just suicidal.
"For most things in life, it's harder to succeed than fail. Wouldn't you agree? That's why I should attempt suicide rather than commit it! Committing suicide is difficult, but it should be relatively easier to fail at attempting suicide!"
Others boasted about how he was just a suicidal maniac, and that was only because of how good Dazai was at concealing his own feelings whilst flamboyantly priding himself in new, risky techniques, which he sometimes elaborated on. But Oda, on the other hand, saw through his jokes, and empathised with his friend, never wanting to ever barge into his vulnerability without Dazai's permission, but still trying to be there for him.
"Listen. You told me if you put yourself in a world of violence and bloodshed, you might be ale to find a reson to live. You won't find it. You should know that. Whether you're on the side that takes lives or the side that saves them, nothing beyond your own expectations will happen. Nothing in this world can fill the hole that is your loneliness. You will wander the darkness for eternity."
Notice how Odasaku recognised Dazai's despair, before Dazai even dared to acknowledge his very own emotions? That was why, at Oda's death, he took the initiative to uncover Dazai's bandaged eye to show him that there was no use in concealing his feelings anymore.
Odasaku's last words to Dazai was to "be on the side that saves people," for he was aware that even though Dazai didn't believe there was a clear distinction between good and evil, he thought that perhaps Dazai would find meaning in his life, even if it was just a little bit of purpose.
In Dead Apple, we briefly relive this moment, but I'll write more on that some other time.
And when Dazai joined the ADA, he loses that dark side to him. No, wait, let me rephrase that: he loses a part of that dark side to him. He eliminated the raw sense of bitterness against the world from his face, and instead, he is seen to be a little more passive, and a little more adaptive. No doubt, he still does explicitly state his desire to die, but his wishes are very specific, if you know what I mean.
And a few years later, his journey with Atsushi began.
Atsushi and Dazai's relationship is just one of a kind. I think it isn't a matter of whether Atsushi needed Dazai, or whether Dazai needed Atsushi. It's the fact that they both needed each other. It's the way they both worked hand in hand, and how they sustained each other in ways they were lacking.
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The two were polar opposites, but they had a tender kind of warmth embedded in their protectiveness for each other. Atsushi was just as lost as Dazai, but somehow, they worked together just fine. It was like their duality was meant to be. It was the type of symbiotic relationship, where their care for each other was implied, but very deep.
Does this also sound familiar... perhaps, in relation to Dazai's friendship with Odasaku?
Side note: Oda and Atsushi have the same enneagrams, which is Type 2, 'The Helper.'
There is a sort of balance that is brought about by two opposites. Odasaku taught Dazai many things, and I believe Oda learned a lot about a man's life from the way Dazai lived out his life with the innate desire to die. Atsushi sought for the right to live, while Dazai searched for a reason to live; in addition, Dazai validated Atsushi's feelings, and Atsushi was able to acknowlegde the amount of pain Dazai was going through.
Despite how Dazai's perspectives and beliefs stood in contrast with those of Oda's and Atsushi's, a type of inseparable bond connected the man who no longer felt like he was human, to the people who was the most human.
No Longer Human in the Japanese romaji is 'Ningen Shikkaku.' Ningen means "human," and Shikkaku means "disqualified." The late author, Dazai Osamu, wrote the book No Longer Human. He had gone through the rough throes of trauma and wrote this book as a semi-autobiography, whose plot was centred around a man who faked happiness, for he was tainted by the truth that everyone around him was fake themselves. He turned his life into a joke in order to protect himself from the delusions of this world.
This brings us back to the melancholic temperament, where a person was too deeply immersed in the sad truths of reality and the world itself.
And that's what Dazai's character and ability is based on: being disqualified as a human being, because he wasn't well-versed with what being human was actually like. The fabrications of being human sprung up all around him, but he wasn't willing to be fooled by how ingenuine the world truly was.
“I am convinced that human life is filled with many pure, happy, serene examples of insincerity, truly splendid of their kind—of people deceiving one another without (strangely enough) any wounds being inflicted, of people who seem unaware even that they are deceiving one another.”
- excerpt from Dazai Osamu's No Longer Human.
People who don't feel human emotions or don't react to circumstances the way humans do have a variety of ways of explaining how they feel inhuman. They are highly intelligent, which separates them from the average class of humankind, since they've analysed and untangled the truths of life in order to attain understanding, which they value above all else. But, this understanding of the world and its painful truths results in a deep kind of sorrow, which only a few people can seem to empathise with in order to help them out with that burden.
“Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart. The really great men must, I think, have great sadness on earth.”
-excerpt from Fyodor Dostoevsky's Crime and Punishment.
Don't you think that this deep sorrow that lies in the heart of the intelligent, makes them the most human of all? They're too human, to the point where they don't feel human. Perhaps, it is a type of defence mechanism, where the mind numbs the heart from feeling normal human emotion, because logically breaking down such concepts is easier than feeling them. But it comes at a price. The heart is willing to recklessly comprehend and fathom any sort of emotion, including pain in its true form, but the mind bears more pain in understanding such concepts because it seeks to decipher every single agonising detail of how complex human emotions are. The mind thinks, the heart feels. There is a clear distinguishing factor between the two. Whether feeling hurts more than thinking, or thinking hurts more than feeling, or whether both these processes work hand-in-hand to make up the reality of life itself, is up for an individual to decide.
Only a few people can seem to empathise with intelligent people who are deeply sad at heart, in order to help them out. As for Dazai, it was Atsushi and Oda. They never took away the pain, but they made him grow from it; it worked vice versa, too.
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Of course, there are less tedious and more appealing aspects to the concept of Dazai's intelligence. Dazai was seen as a threat to his enemies because of how manipulation and his keen skill of deduction made up how sharp his mind was. Besides, no one could commit '138 murders, 312 cases of extortion, and 625 cases of fraud, along with various and sundry other crimes,' without having a certain level of intelligence, right?
Dazai had the moral alignment of 'chaotic neutral.' He was more focused on using his intellect to achieve the desired end results of a predicament, and he wasn't afraid to use the wrong means. A famous example was when he deflated the airbags of Ango Sakaguchi's car in order to gain the assured protection of Kyouka Izumi.
Justice is a weapon. It can be used to cause harm, but it cannot protect or save others.
Another example was when he blew up Chuuya Nakahara's car.
Just kidding. That was just a simple pastime (;・∀ ・)
His moral alignment points to what Oda said about him: the part where he mentioned that Dazai didn't really see any difference between good and evil. As long as his ends were achieved, especially if it were in the benefit of his fellow colleagues, he wasn't afraid to exploit, threaten, or endanger others' wellbeing. Because, at the end of the day, the end result triumphed the morally bad methods utilised to achieve it, correct? He always had a reason for his motives and actions, even if those actions were evil and inexcusable.
(eg. action: the psychological abuse he bestowed upon Akutagawa Ryunosuke.
motive: to enable him to hone his own ability favourably and to curb his arrogance)
But the consequences of one's actions will always catch up with a person, no matter what heights they've achieved.
Okay, we're reaching the end of my rambling very soon, I promise.
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“If I had to go, I’d like to go out just as beautifully.”
“I’d prefer you don’t go.”
This part of the post is highly inspired by iwachuwu!!
An important factor of Dazai's development is highlighted BSD Wan's episode 10:
I'd like to appreciate that this scene focuses on how much Dazai actually means to Atsushi. When Atsushi responds with "I'd prefer you don't go," he said it lightheartedly for he thought Dazai was joking. But he wasn't. And once Atsushi absorbed the fact that Dazai meant what he said, he was overwhelmed with anguish at the thought of ever losing Dazai. Dazai, on the other hand, had a sense of longing on his expression. There was that look of pure desperation on his face. He was so desperate, yet he knew he couldn't act on his desperation due to a promise he'd made to someone dear to him. But keep in mind, Dazai is unpredictable, so we can never be sure of what's going on in that headspace of his.
Nevertheless, this time, Atsushi recognised Dazai's suffering, as no one usually cared to do, and Dazai didn't put in any effort to hide how he truly felt, as he habitually did. And this mutual emotional connection happened countless times during all the times Oda spent with Dazai as well.
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To summarise,
Dazai's character had been carefully wired and patterned out in a way only a few would put in the effort to understand. Dazai was more than just suicidal; he was a being wandering from place to place with no specific aim. He was too smart for his own good. Dazai understood too well of how the world worked and deemed it void of any sort of hope.
Side note: Yes, the truth does come at a price, but it all comes down to how a person understands the truth. As for Dazai (both character and the author he was based off upon), well, it was quite tragic. But that's the way it is for some people, I suppose. But everyone has a different path to travel on, remember that.
His transition from working with the Port Mafia to the Armed Detective Agency was proof of how well-executed his character development was. It was two different personas morphed into what he is today: a womaniser with questionable morals a person who is still standing even after the rough refining process endowed upon him by the realities of this life.
However, he had people along the way come and teach him a thing or two, which perhaps made his life a little more interesting. Perhaps these people were passing clouds that hid the void out of sight for just a moment, and Dazai was always seen to be grasping on to these moments, and letting them go whenever it was time to let go.
His outlook on life makes his intellect look all the more intriguing. It shows that not only does his intelligence contribute to his own wit and shrewdness, but also the practical sense of realism that explains how tired he is of the concept of living because of the truths there are to bear.
However he's enduring the pain right now is by far the most bravest thing a person could commit themselves to doing. It takes courage, and it takes strength, but only a few would ever take the time to recognise such efforts.
Dazai has one of the most beautiful character developments, but I do hope that the development doesn't reach its end anytime soon.
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fanart credits: @S7dOZPN3jWBB6cW on twitter
“Now I have neither happiness nor unhappiness.
Everything passes.
That is the one and only thing that I have thought resembled a truth in the society of human beings where I have dwelled up to now as in a burning hell.
Everything passes.”
excerpt from Dazai Osamu's No Longer Human.
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hillnerd · 3 years ago
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Hey Hilly :) Sokka x Zuko for the ship game. And Happy new year! 💛
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ULTIMATE SHIP MEME! Send in two (or more) names and I’ll fill all this out about the ship!
General:
Rate the Ship -   Awful | Ew | No pics pls | I’m not comfortable | Alright | I like it! | Got Pics? | Let’s do it! | Why is this not getting more attention?! | The OTP to rule all other OTPs
How long will they last? -FOREVER
How quickly did/will they fall in love? -It took time- I think Sokka is the first to recognize it as he has the most self awareness. Zuko is doing something soft or hawt and Sokka is like 'oh....... Wait I don't have those feelings for Zu--- Oh spirits I DO!what? damn!' and Zuko is all 'I have never, a day in my life, known what's going on in my own head for more than about 5% of the time because I repressed that part of my brain-- but I know I like men which father and his ilk said was shameful so I have never, a day in my life, listened to those feelings because I repressed that part of my brain... And Sokka is beautiful and makes me want to be soft in ways I didn't know I COULD. I probably have a head cold... ' So it takes a long time for the two to actually communicate anything- because Sokka is convinced Zuko doesn't like him that way and any of his 'patented moves' to test the waters are not working, and Zuko is convinced no one likes him that way unless they say something or kiss him- so yeah- pining 250k after years of knowing one another Zuko accidentally explodes saying he loves Sokka and Sokka is like 'well then let's do this! I didn't know but I had a spreadsheet of data I was considering!' A Zuko is melting into the floor because feelings.
How was their first kiss? passion, burning, sokka might still have a tiny scar from Zuko's thumbs on his hips.
Wedding:
Who proposed? Sokka- and Zuko did not know it for like 2 weeks
Who is the best man/men? Toph Aang Katara Suki and Mai
Who is the braid’s maid(s)? -
Who did the most planning? Sokka- he IS the plan guy- Zuko more complies with the traditions he is expected to so he doesn't disappoint anyone
Who stressed the most? Zuko
How fancy was the ceremony? - Back of a pickup truck | 2 | 3 | 4 | Normal Church Wedding | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Kate and William wish they were this big. I'm convinced Sokka would try to keep is small but Zuko is like 'but the priests and council are saying' so it ends up being fancy but without a lot of people bc Sokka and public speaking is not the kind of stress he wants on a wedding day- and I'm pretty sure the fire nation wouldn't be like 'gay wedding? let's make this super public' since they didn't even like DANCING - so yeah.
Who was specifically not invited to the wedding? ozai and azula (depending on her mental health at the time)
Sex:
Who is on top? I think they switch it up more when they're younger, but Sokka tops like 75% of the time when they're older
Who is the one to instigate things? Sokka is much more likely to instigate earlier in their relationship as Zuko is so uptight- but as he relaxes and realizes 'no, sokka wants you to do this' he's like- 'oh! okay- well then I'm happy to initiate kissing/more' and it becomes very even
How healthy is their sex life? - Barely touch themselves let alone each other | 2 | 3 | 4 | Once a couple weeks, nothing overboard | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They are humping each other on the couch right now
How kinky are they? - Straight missionary with the lights off | 2 | 3 | 4 | Might try some butt stuff and toys | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Don’t go into the sex dungeon without a horse’s head
How long do they normally last? like 10-12 minutes or so on average- but other times it's languorous and long, or marathon sessions- they switch it up depending on time and mood
Do they make sure each person gets an equal amount of orgasms? Try to! Though I think Sokka is very much the sort to be like 'no it's about you tonight' and after Zuko realizes that Sokka does that a lot he's like 'No tonight is about YOU' - and eventually they're like 'ya know what? it's about both of us like 93% of the time.'
How rough are they in bed? - Softer than a butterfly on the back of a bunny | 2 | 3 | 4 | The bed’s shaking and squeaking every time | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Their dirty talk is so vulgar it’d make Dwayne Johnson blush. Also, the wall’s so weak it could collapse the next time they do it. I see Sokka as having a variety of dirty talks he brings out, and that dueling/combat could be a bit of a turn on- so yeah- I can see it being a bit rough at times :)
How much cuddling/snuggling do they do? - No touching after sex | 2 | 3 | 4 | A little spooning at night, or on the couch, but not in public | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They snuggle and kiss more often than a teen couple on their fifth date to a pillow factory. Sokka is a cuddler- Zuko won't do so in public very often.
Children:
How many children will they have naturally? 0 or perhaps Mai or Suki helps them out- so 1
How many children will they adopt? 1-2
Who gets stuck with the most diapers? they try to keep it even- but Zuko is better at not being dramatic about it so he will take the worst ones
Who is the stricter parent? Zuko
Who stops the kid(s) from doing dangerous stunts after school? Sokka as he's pretty good at precaution vs Zuko is not the best at knowing when something is too extreme as he's like 'i was doing that when I was 5' 'and whose Idea was that?' '...... my father's....' 'and your father--' 'is not an example of proper human interactions or standards.... I know >:( ..... 8('
Who remembers to pack the lunch(es)? Sokka- first off he's the one who remembers most things- and second it's FOOD
Who is the more loved parent? equal
Who is more likely to attend the PTA meetings? Sokka- sometimes with a beard- but Zuko would show up too and be like 'why are you wearing a beard'- 'I'm on the board' 'that doesn't explain the beard---' *random person comes up* 'Ah! Mr Fire!' 'That's right. Wang Fire!' Sokka crows in a deep voice and Zuko's jaw hits the floor as horror washes over him as Sokka proceeds to do PTA stuff in a beard and silly voice under the name Wang Fire for an hour.
Who cried the most at graduation? Sokka, with Zuko being like 'why are you crying?' 'she's all grown up and <blah blah blah describes the end of an era etc> *Zuko tears up* 'oh wait, Zuko are YOU crying?' 'WHAT?! NO! I'VE NEVER CRIED A DAY IN MY LIFE *YOU* ARE CRYING- SHUT UP.'
Who is more likely to bail the child(ren) out of trouble with the law? Sokka loves this stuff- but Zuko usually just firelords it and lets Sokka think it was all thanks to his brilliant gift of the gab
Cooking:
Who does the most cooking? Sokka
Who is the most picky in their food choice? Zuko
Who does the grocery shopping? -Sokka
How often do they bake desserts? -not that often- they more buy it than make it themselves
Are they more of a meat lover or a salad eater? -hahahah MEAT
Who is more likely to surprise the other(s) with an anniversary dinner? -Zuko getting Sokka his face foods of the water tribe- even though he hates them personally
Who is more likely to suggest going out? Sokka- he loves trying new food
Who is more likely to burn the house down accidently while cooking? Zuko in frustration
Chores:
Who cleans the room? Zuko- did you see how sparse his rooms were? vs Sokka is the sloppy sort who has plans everywhere
Who is really against chores? -neither likes them- sokka hates them more
Who cleans up after the pets? Zuko
Who is more likely to sweep everything under the rug? Sokka
Who stresses the most when guests are coming over? Zuko
Who found a dollar between the couch cushions while cleaning? Sokka- he was VERRRY pleased with himself
Misc:
Who takes the longer showers/baths? Sokka loves long relaxing baths - they also help with the chronic pain in his leg
Who takes the dog out for a walk? -dragon, and Zuko
How often do they decorate the room/house for the holidays? -Sokka doesn't do it until he DOES and then he goes HARDCORE- so either there is nothing for like 2 years, or he makes a working moving model to celebrate a festival and goes full extra. Zuko goes along with whatever makes Sokka and Izumi happy
What are their goals for the relationship? -
Who is most likely to sleep till noon? Sokka
Who plays the most pranks? Sokka
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tenglows · 5 years ago
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sweet aftertaste
summary: it’s late at night and student!ten and his friends are left with nowhere to go; ending up at the bar where lounge singer!reader is performing.
inspired by halsey’s song and video “finally // beautiful stranger”
if you want to see an edit based on this, click here!
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“so what are we supposed to do now”
yangyang sighed and sat down on the sidewalk
being downtown at half past two am with nothing to do was definitely not in the boys’ plans.
but it was now, considering they had been kicked out of the house party for breaking an (apparently) very ancient porcelain vase
“it was totally sicheng’s fault though”
but no one really cared about who was at fault, there was no time for that.
what bothered them more was that no one wanted to go back to the dorms yet
but it wasn’t like they could just go and crash another party
they just know the people at their college
and well
the big party was that one, the one they surely didn’t dare to put a foot on again
ten kept looking around the deserted street no one was really familiar with while the others bickered in the back
he found it nice, even if it felt a little bit lonesome considering the hour and all the small houses showing no sign of corporality
there were no many shops in the block, and if they were, they were closed and dim
until ten caught sight of a small pub
a classic, old-fashioned with a wood design and a few hanging lights that were the only source of brightness in the view
he signaled his discovery to his friends and they all looked at each other for confirmation before excitedly nodding
they didn’t encounter themselves with a rousing ambience when they entered the bar. just a typical bored bartender and some grown men devouring peanuts and beer at the counter
ten’s eyes focused on a small stage, a guitar placed on the wood floor. some holes making it look like it was gonna collapse anytime soon
some of the others got themselves some beers and when they were in the middle of asking ten if he wanted something,
someone’s unknown steps made that floor crack. the slow screeches made ten’s gaze feel trapped in curiosity
it was you
a student who struggled to pay rent and had to resort to singing late at a local bar to generate any sort of income
it wasn’t always this late, though
but that day you also had to cover your coworker’s shift at your other job
and yeah, you could have just told the pub’s owner that you would just play the following night
but it wasn’t just about the money. the truth is that you loved singing. of course it wasn’t a lie that you would prefer to make more out of it,
but sometimes a heartfelt praise from a costumer was all you needed to get the energy to raise that guitar all over again
you were surprised at the sight of more people than you would have thought taking the hour and location of the place into account, but it also made a sigh of relief leave your mouth
after all, performing for an empty audience always left a bittersweet aftertaste in your stomach
you smiled at the expectating boys that looked around your same age
and one of them smiled back. you weren’t one to get nervous when performing, since you were more than very used to it
but somehow the way his face glowed when he smiled made you relax your fingers and grip, that you thought were already relaxed
you introduced yourself and started strumming the guitar
ten, meanwhile
had never seen a purer face
and each melody that left your mouth had him more lost, more captivated
he listened attentively at the lyrics you had mentioned you wrote yourself
you sang about your grandmother and the stories she'd tell you about living in germany. how her own grandfather would tell her that the freckles on her face resembled stars
you had such a way of talking about her that made ten's chest throb. in that moment, he believed that he knew her. how she seemingly always smelled like coconut and how she baked the most delicious cakes ever made. he imagined her living in germany and picking the same flowers every evening, her hair dancing with the wind even though in reality, he didn't even know which color it was.
the ballad ended with a final strum and at that point ten was convinced that the guitar was created solely with the purpose of being touched by your fingers.
of course he and the boys exploded in claps and cheering, the men he had noticed when they first entered joining them too
ten could swear he even saw johnny shedding a couple of tears
and it was understandable. you had something and ten wondered if you had the power to brush the strings of all their hearts at the same time you did so with the guitar.
ten eyed his friends and he pointed at you as he sat up from his chair
them smiling knowingly and telling him they would wait for him outside
"hey um" he started, his hands in his pockets as he went through posible ways of starting a conversation "my name is ten, and i really liked your performance"
he mentally shouted at himself for not being able to hold eye contact with you. he was not a shy person, he was actually very outgoing and had no trouble in meeting new people
it was funny, then. how for some reason you made him nervous and he oddly made you feel at ease
"thank you so much. i actually wrote that song not so long ago, my grandmother helped me"
and that's when it all started.
you talked to him a little bit more about your grandma and he told you he had a similar relationship with his aunt, sharing stories about each lovely woman
you found out he was a dance major and didn't hesitate to tell him that was admiring
he also guessed you were a music major, and commented that you were doing a great job if it was that easy to sense there was more than just natural talent in there. you apparented like you knew a lot about what inspires you
that made you feel content
and you also asked yourself how a stranger had successfully seen through you that much
but something about ten just felt right
and you weren't sure if it was your overflowing emotions, or the late hours of the night or the lack of sleep you had gotten lately
but before ten you had never seen a mouth that you would kill to kiss
after a bit more of chat, you and the beautiful stranger decided to exchange numbers since the bar was closing and ten had to go back to his friends
you had to come home to your roommates as well.
(the next day at work, your co-worker who you had covered was tripping over her words to apologize all over again. she knew that the change resulted in you performing at a later hour, and was scared that that might have been prejudicial for you.
you just hugged her with the biggest grin on your face. and thanked her. she had never seen you smile so wide)
for both of ten and you, it was good news that you kept in touch since then
you learned so much about ten in a short period of time.
he also sang (he had promised he would show you sometime. and once, as you were falling dozing off on the phone with him, he started singing a lullaby when he was convinced you were asleep. you totally weren't. and his voice was velvet through the line)
he loved to draw and he did it marvellously. he had showed you some of his artworks and you always begged for him to explain the meaning behind it. but in the majority of the cases, he himself didn't even know it
you also learned that he used way to many smiley faces when texting, that he drank iced tea as his life depended on it, and he always dreamt of the ocean.
you soon came to know that ten was the sort of person you learn new things about each day, and you never got tired of it
it was scary
you didn't have much experience feeling this things
this love things
you had had some crushes, of course. still, they were all innocent crushes who either faded into thin air or turned into short-lived flings
on top of that, you never were a scaredy-cat type of person
at least that was what you thought before ten,,
because now you had received a certain text from ten that made you drop in the trash the carrot you were peeling
"i want to see u tomorrow :("
"i have my two shifts ://" (you were never really one to use emoticons, but i guess that's one thing you inhabited from ten)
"i can go watch you perform, if you like"
"i would really like it"
so now it was friday and you found yourself almost at midnight, at the bar you knew perfectly, but now you felt as if it was a completely different and new space you had never breathed in before.
you were tapping your foot in the stage so much the floor was actually breaking down even more. you decided to stop, you couldn't afford being nervous over ten's pretty face
you tried to distract yourself fixing some last things on your guitar, when you heard someone getting up on stage with you
"woah, it feels nice seeing everything through here"
"i know right? i never get tired of audiences. i like knowing that for a few minutes everyone is aware and probably thinking about the same thing"
ten looked at you with shiny eyes. you were truly the only source of brightness in the view
you obviously had to include the grandma song when performing (ten sang along and some giggles escaped your lips).
and then proceeded to present a new song you had just finished retouching the night before
ten raised his eyebrow and he looked even more concentrated than before, probably thinking about how you hadn't mentioned any new song you were working on
the song was about him
about the wish of ten letting himself fall in your arms
and although the lyrics could be a little more straightforward, you knew ten would get it anyways
he always did.
you had finished and now the following jazz singer was filling the room with a tranquil euphony
ten asked you to dance, it was a slow song and your hands found their way to his shoulders, his hands steadily on your waist.
"the song was beautiful" and there was something in the way that he said it with a shy but cheeky tone that indicated that you were right, you knew he had realized. and you were more than glad than he did.
"you know, you can join me singing anytime. you said you liked how it felt"
"i wouldn't mind taking up that offer"
in that moment you knew
you knew that it was finally safe for you to fall.
you had sung about wanting ten to feel secure enough to let himself drown in your embrace, but what you didn't know
is that he had already fell
he had made himself at home in your arms and was waiting for you to open the door too. and now you had
so it went on
after day that, ten went to every single one of your performances
and you also went to see him whenever he had a dancing show
you praised him so much every time he looked like he had red dye all over his face
he had sung with you at the bar multiple times already,
all his friends coming to see the growth of the young romance
"you should be thanking me for breaking that stupid vase!!!!!" yeah - you really liked sicheng.
you never experienced that bittersweet aftertaste of an empty audience ever again
because now ten was always the audience,
and you were his
and that's all you needed.
he's right here now,
and you think he'll stay.
(also, ten soon became your grandma's favorite person to bake cakes for.)
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goodvibesatpeace · 5 years ago
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Fear
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While expectations are the great disturber of relationships, fear is the great disturber of life, and therefore permeates all things, including relationships.
Fear is the opposite of love, and you will find it in the form of defensive behavior. I speak not from books, but from my own experience. I grew up with less than what most people in my town had, so I spent a great many years trying to make up for this "illusion" of inadequacy. I tried to hide this part of me that others had convinced me was less than perfect and go around convincing everyone else I was okay. The fact is, I was perfectly fine just the way I was. The problem was, I got sucked into a social falsehood. Anyone who isn't a beauty queen, is overweight, or poor, knows exactly what I am talking about.
There are many of these types of fears. Men are afraid because society has taught them that they cannot show vulnerabilities. Ịf a woman is anything less than thin and gorgeous she trembles in her shoes at the ax of judgment that she is sure will fall over her head at any moment, and of these fears, of course, is the ultimate fear, which is rejection. This fear pervades over most of humanity and is the crème de la crème of fears.
But what is the fear of rejection? There are two intricate parts to rejection: the rejecter and the rejectee. The rejecter simply has made the statement "I do not want you." This can be a crushing reality for the rejectee who had glowing aspirations to be loved by the aforementioned person. But if the rejectee was utterly whole unto themselves, there would be no rejection, just an acceptance of a statement that the other person wishes to spend their energies elsewhere. And the rejectee could even be the right person, but at the wrong time. What is called for here is several things: one is acceptance of the rejecter. To not take this personally because we didn't fill some criteria that they were looking for. Or another perspective is that there is something about us that is less than savory, and the gift that was given here is that it was brought to our attention. For example, someone may say, "you are the right person, but your temper does not resonate with me right now." You can become defensive (fear) or look at what they are saying and see if it is true. Now mind you, not all accusations are accurate! In fact, people can make up stories as to why they don't want to be with you, so use your own better judgment here. But you know in your heart what is really true or not true for you.
Now here I must mention a most subtle fear that enters into most relationships. One that is rarely understood, and that is the fear of not being needed. To be needed creates a dependency. If you are frail, and clinging then you need me. If you grow strong, you may walk away and find something or someone else. This is a very common and yet complex presence in a relationship. This is why people create co-dependency. They allow dependency because it reinforces the other person's need for them. This is dangerous ground to tread. But it is frighteningly common. In fact, when a partner observes the other one taking on friends, hobbies, and what not, the mate will become clingy, accusing, and worried. They are afraid of being replaced which is ultimately afraid of not being loved.
To combat this is a sheer act of inner love. To let that person have those things, and not be threatened or frightened by it. Our gut reaction is to take away those things that take them away from us, but this is not love. Relationships are like a cup. You can either fill it with fear, or fill it with love or a mix of the two. If you fill it with fear, the love inside will spill forth out of the cup. But love can always return, and take its place.
Another universal fear is the fear of being alone. We were never meant to be alone so this is one of the most natural fears there are. We desire the company of others, and this is natural but can get distorted fast. We are happy when we are surrounded by beings that we love. Now, while to fear being alone is natural, we cannot cling to a relationship that is not serving our higher purpose because of this. This would be no different than a person sticking with a mate who is abusing them just for the sake of having companionship, bad as it may be. We cannot find the right one, if we are clinging, out of fear, to the wrong one.
What do you fear? Rejection? Solitude? Not being needed? Lack of control?
These are very hard questions, I know. As I sit and write this article, I ask these of myself, and a few spring to mind. But through awareness brings change. I don't know about you, but I want the highest and best for myself. I am willing to look deep within, feel some major discomfort, and find that awareness.
We walk the same path, you and I. You can be afraid, but hopefully a little less with me.
Stay Safe And Take Care
Much Love To All... Go In Peace My Beautiful Friends ❤❤❤
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bugheadfamily · 6 years ago
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Day 7 - Fanfic Author Appreciation Week
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(thank you @betty-cooper for this gorgeous gif!)
*waves* Hi everyone! @bugggghead here. Both @theheavycrown and I have been trying our hardest to spotlight every single author in this fandom but did you know there are more than we originally anticipated?!?! Did you know we have so many authors in the Bughead fandom alone that 70 just wasn’t enough?! Because we have too much love to give, we’ve chosen to do some author spotlights on the @bugheadfamily blog as well and spread AS MUCH love as we possibly can!!!
Today is the final day of Author Appreciation Week! So we will be highlighting fifteen authors today and two of their works that we recommend you check out right here!
@quirksandcaffeine (ao3)
It Happened One Night  (E - 7/?)
Summary: "'How about a toast instead?' he said, raising his glass.
'Sounds like perfection,' she said, leaning her elbow onto her crossed knee and placing her chin into her hand, holding up her glass with the other.
'To tonight,' he said as he clicked her glass with his own.
They each took a sip, looking each other in the eye as they swallowed. Her eyes flicked down to his lips as he leaned into her ear. Her heart started beating harder at the smell of his aftershave.
'Go wait for me in my office,' he whispered as he kissed her on a cheek."
Gods and Monsters (E - 1/1)
Summary: "In a land of gods and monsters, I was an angel." Betty, her cheerleading uniform, and her dark side visit Jughead at FP's trailer.
@nimmieamee (ao3)
Three Wishes (E - 18/18)
Summary: Betty Cooper wants to return to a time when her mother was more consistent, Jughead was more hers, and a looming civil war wasn't breaking up her friendship with Veronica. Veronica wants to keep her friendship with Betty and for the town of Riverdale to recognize everything the Lodges have to offer. And Alice isn't being upfront about what she wants.
But at least one of them will see all her wishes come true.
Are We Dark Enough Yet? (T - 1/1)
Summary: Scenes from the town with pep! (That is, Perpetually Enraging Plots).
@cheryllclayton​ (ao3)
I Could Be Your Hero (T - 1/1)
Summary: After a tragic end to her relationship results in bullying and hate, Betty Cooper struggles to hold on in a world where she feels invisible...where she feels nothing except for the siren call of Sweetwater River....And after a nasty encounter, Betty makes a decision that will change her life forever...Will this once vibrant soul be lost to the icy abyss of her sorrow before an unexpected hero can convince her to live...
Til' There Was You (M - 5/?)
Summary: Betty Cooper's life has been anything but easy and at 25 she was still struggling to find herself.
Jughead Jones wasn't the type to go looking for love, but what happens when it finds you? Or more correctly, when it hits you like a ton of bricks when you least expect it....
@shirlygallagher​ (ao3)
What’s Past is Prologue - series (M - 9 works)
Summary: A chronicle of firsts...A tale of discovery...A story of love...~~~
In Between The Sweet Hereafter (M - 1/1)
Summary: What could have happened in that kitchen? Takes place during and after episode 13.~~~
@fictitiousoshine​ (ao3)
Mercy (M - 13/?)
Summary: Innocent and Naive Betty Cooper wants to run away from heinous man who has her captive for years. She seeks Toni’s help for arranging cash but Toni has different plans for her that include Serpent Prince Jughead Jones.
@kazookidissosoabuggie​ (ao3)
A Night To Remember (NR - 1/1)
Summary: Jughead and Betty went through a bad rough patch, something they almost couldn't fix. When they did eventually reconcile, Jughead feels terrible for what he had done to her. After he pulls a romantic stunt, the night they spend with each other turns magical instantly.
Anything's Possible with Us, Cooper. (M - 1/1)
Summary: Jughead punches somebody after they body shame her and Betty finds odd but extremely sexy.
@hbiccjsblog (ao3)
Citas Amor (T - 11/11)
Summary:   Betty Cooper works for Scarlet magazine along with best friends Veronica Lodge and Kevin Keller. Veronica wants to work in fashion but has been stuck on the desk for a couple of years now. Kevin runs the social media plat forms. Betty Cooper well she's a journalist after all. It runs in her blood. After having a very heated conversation with her mum about setting her up with a boyfriend. Before there family holiday to Spain. Her Best friend Veronica Lodge suggests a fake boyfriend. Her publisher over hears the conversation and wants her to write an article about fake relationships.
Touring Flame (M - 9/?)
Summary: Betty Cooper has just been deployed to Afghanistan for her first tour of her career. She is the medical solider for the tour. Joining the army way a spur of the moment decision. If she didn't get through well at least she can say she tried. Jughead Jones was on his 4 tour in Afghanistan. He was the Head of his group. A fairly experienced soldier. He has a heart of steel. He's seen and experienced a lot. He was expecting this tour to be the same as his other tours. Expect this was different. A certain blonde pony tail, green eyes type of different.
@judgejuggie (ao3)
from pink perfection to seduce scarlett (T - 17/?)
Summary:  Betty is living in her sister Polly's shadow, darkness clouding her vision, afraid to show her true colors to anyone. With a little push from a new student named Veronica Lodge, Betty joins the vixens and gains the confidence she has always wanted. Her bright smile and confidence get noticed by Southside Serpent Jughead Jones in a diner at Pop's, and Betty for the first time in her life feels something other than the darkness that's been following her around.
Of course, there will be some obstacles along the way, one by the name of Cheryl Blossom, and the other may be a gang. But Betty wants change, and she's finally ready to go for it.
love and the law (M - 5/?)
Summary:  What if there was more to Betty’s vendetta against Chuck Clayton, more to her darkness? What secret is Betty working to keep buried? Can Jughead help her through? And, what else will come their way? Join this emotional, heart-breaking journey to heal and learn that love really can conquer all.
@jordansconnor (ao3)
some aces up your sleeve (M - 5/9)
Summary:   In Las Vegas, the only things hotter than the summer days are the card tables on the Strip. High roller Jughead Jones lives for the heat, spending his days in board rooms and his nights at high stakes poker games, until the night a mystery girl takes the seat across from him. From that moment on, his luck starts to change in ways he may not be able to handle.
Keeping Up with the Joneses (E - 1/1)
Summary: Jughead Jones is the undisputed king of Riverdale. His grandfather is the mayor, his father owns half the town and controls Riverdale’s shady side as leader of the Serpents, and Jughead is Riverdale High’s student body president and editor of the school paper. His relationship with Betty Cooper, Southside student and new Serpent recruit, could bring it all crashing down.
@soyforramen (ao3)
Cry to Me (G - 1/1)
Summary: Quick one-shot. When Betty and Jughead find themselves stood up by a certain red-head, a little dancing goes a long way.
Persuasion comes to Riverdale - series (T - 2 works)
Summary: Years after he left without a word, an engagement throws Jughead Jones back into Betty Cooper’s life. The only question is, will she let him back in? Or, Persuasion comes to Riverdale.
@srainebuggie (ao3)
Stronger Than Me (M - 11/11)
Summary: Betty Cooper wasn’t like most girls. She was strong and independent, leather was her skin and hitting the punching bag her saving grace. Betty didn’t commit to people, she had fun. When she moves to Riverdale, she shows up at the White Wyrm looking for a job.
Jughead Jones wasn’t like most men in the Southside. He sported his Serpents jacket rarely, lived in a penthouse apartment, and was the owner of their towns infamous club, the White Wyrm. Jughead didn’t give his heart to anyone, he had fun. When a new woman moves to Riverdale, she shows up at his bar looking for a job
As Betty and Jughead spend more time together on the job, will they break their own rules and admit it’s more than just fun?
Future Bughead - series (NR - 5 works)
Summary: Jughead and Betty broke up years ago and reunite at the grand opening of Veronica's clothing store in New York, the dress she is wearing reveals a small tattoo on her ribs, when Jughead notices, he asks about it. At first her face goes red and she tries to ignore her embarrassment, but he pulls up his dress shirt and reveals his own small tattoo on his side 
@sweetbettycooper (ao3)
The INXS Life (M - 8/?)
Summary: Two gangs alike in tyranny both holding two souls that are destined to be forever entwinned.
Was their love tragic or the circumstances around them or was it the events that would occur in the coming months that would make their love the most tragic of all.
Jughead feared on this afternoon in summer, of the consequences that were hanging in the stars.
She was gorgeous. Like the angel of death had come to Riverdale. Jughead new he had to have her.
Or Serpent Jughead meets Ghoulie Betty, forbidden love, Gang wars, Love, Passion.
@witty-tv (ao3)
Exhale (M - 7/?)
Summary: Anxious stoner babes Cheryl Blossom and Betty Cooper have been best friends and roommates since freshman year of college. Cheryl and Toni Topaz are seriously dating, drawing Betty and Toni’s best friend Jughead Jones together. Betty is instantly attracted to Jughead and Jughead is immediately intrigued by Betty. The two become friends, and as they grow closer, Jughead slowly but surely starts to fall for Betty - and eventually Betty shows Jughead the ways weed can help his insomnia.
@dreamer757 (ao3)
The Typewriter (G - 1/1)
Summary: Jughead goes to Betty's house after he opens her gift in 2x09.
The Sad Breakfast Club (T - 11/11)
Summary: A Breakfast Club AU where Archie, Betty, Jughead, Veronica and Kevin aren't friends, but end up spending a whole Saturday together at school.
@merrybughead (ao3)
Announcement  (G - 1/1)
Summary: “I - I know it’s personal, but are you guys thinking about it?" Jughead shrugged him off. “Wait, you look weird.” Archie narrowed his eyes to study Jughead’s appearance, “Are you smiling?” “I don’t smile.” "Why are you so happy?” “Betty and I are just...Happy,” She smuggly stated. Cocking a brow to the side, he said, “Oh, I get it.” “Honestly I don’t think you do,” Jughead laughed which sent his ginger friend into laughter as well.
How were they supposed to tell their friends if they had already been guessing and hinting towards it?
Leather and Cotton - an unlikely combination (G - 1/1)
Summary: In an alternate universe where Jughead was raised as serpent king and has been attending Southside schools. Barnes & Noble, Betty's secret safe place from all the rumors and stress that school brings...until she realizes there's a certain leather clad wearing serpent that is most definitely sitting across from her. She knew men like him. They weren’t after girls like her. She's been compromised. Where the unlikely combination of leather and cotton elicits a spark between two polar opposite people.
PLEASE FEEL FREE TO JOIN IN THE FUN WITH US!
Recognize YOUR personal favorite fandom authors because the more love we can spread around, the better.
Our fandom is a vast and wonderful place and everyone deserves a little recognition!
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add-v-bae · 8 years ago
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Text Roulette (1)
Rating: T
Pair: Chanyeol x Reader x Baekhyun (poly relationship) Word count: 1,037
Part two | Part three | Part four | Part five | Part six | Part seven | Part eight | Part nine | Epilogue 
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You furrowed your brow as you continued to stare at the message that was on your phone, sent from an unknown number.
‘Hello, random stranger! You’re a lucky winner of being a random number that received a message from us! Do you accept your prize?’
You bit your lip and sighed. What did that even mean? Was this one of those texts that were supposed to rip you off?You continued to stare at it for a little longer before shrugging, deciding to leave it alone and go start dinner.
After you were done, you came back and saw you had another message from the number.
‘I guess not? Come on, we’re not that bad.’
You paused. That sounded like an actual person. You decided to actually respond this time, see if you can get answers.
“Who are you?”
You sat back on your bed as you awaited a response, hoping it was actual people and not some stupid text bot disguised as it.
‘I would be Baekhyun, and I’m here with my friend Chanyeol. So you decided you wanted to talk to us?’
You pursed your lips. Chanyeol and Baekhyun. So you have two people talking to you? You still weren't completely convinced though.
“Send me a picture of the two of you”
After you sent it, you realized it might have seemed like a weird request, but it apparently didn't faze them, because you soon received a picture from them. 
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You nodded slowly, and after checking on google to make sure it wasn't from there, you studied the picture some more. So, what you’re being told is that two beautiful boys were texting you, as a random number? 
Your phone pinged as another text came in, assumingly from the two boys.
‘Now that you’ve seen us, can we see you? Get a name maybe?’
After thinking about it for a moment, you decided, why not. They sent you a picture of them, you might as well do the same. You took a quick selfie and sent to them, as well as your first name.
It took a bit for them to respond, assuming it was still Baekhyun texting you. It wasn’t until five minutes later when you got a text from another unknown number.
`Hello it’s Chanyeol, Baekhyun’s been looking at his phone for a bit now, he wasn’t expecting the only person to answer us to be a girl`
You couldn’t help but laugh at the thought. Someone as good looking as those two couldn’t possibly be awkward with girls, could they?
“It’s not a big deal, is it?We can pretend I’m just a genderless enigma if you want.”
The answer was almost immediate.
`Oh no, it's fine. We were just surprised.`
You were about to send a quick “okay” message when a message from Baekhyun came up.
‘Hey, are you going to keep talking to us? You seem pretty cool.’
That caught you off guard a little. You weren’t necessarily sure how you seemed cool since all you’ve done is question them and send your picture and name. However, you weren’t going to turn down the compliment, especially since they seemed pretty interesting themselves.
You glanced at the clock and noticed it was almost midnight, something you didn’t want to see since you had to be up at 6.
“I’m down for it. I have to go to bed though, work in the morning. Night, you both”
You waited until you got a text back, wishing you a good night before going to sleep.
The next day, you’d forgotten about the night before, going on about your day. It wasn’t until you were getting out of work at 2 that it came back, in the form of a text from Baekhyun, a selfie with the text ‘Just woke up, good morning Y/N’
Good morning? “You just woke up? What time did you go to bed?”
You got home before you managed to get a response from him, your phone buzzing from where you dumped it on the counter when you walked in. ‘Around 6, maybe 630′
“6 in the morning?? Don’t you have work or school or something?”
The answer was almost immediate. ‘I work from home. Kind of. Speaking of which I should start doing that. Ttyl’
You took your phone and flopped down on the couch, ready to destress from work. Play with your phone answer texts, maybe take a nap. That last one sounded particularly appealing, maybe you should do that. You grabbed the blanket off the back of the couch and snuggled up, about to let sleep take you for an hour or two when your phone buzzed yet again.
You groaned and checked it, planning on leaving the person on read when you saw it was a text from Chanyeol. You opened it and it was a picture of him. Unsurprising, it seems they both really like to take selfies, especially when they first wake up. However, this one didn’t come with a message, just a picture of him with his hair messy and sleep still in his eyes.
“Well hello to you too. You work from home too?”
You tried to get comfortable again while you waited for him to respond, which ended up being a lot sooner than you hoped for. `Kind of? What made you think that?`
You thought before just sending “Baekhyun.” It was simple and to the point.
That seemed to clear it up pretty well since he sent back `Oooh. Yeah we work together. We perform in restaurants and stuff, I play guitar and he sings. He’s on his way right now to work on it.`
You thought before responding. Huh, so you’ve been chatting with two handsome, musically inclined men. Teenage girls would be losing it if they were you right now.
“Well if you’re gonna be busy I’ll let you go. I wanna hear you guys perform sometime though.”
`Why of course. One of us will send it to you sometime. See ya!`
You stared at the text for a while before sighing. You couldn’t explain it, but you had a strong feeling in your gut that these two were going to be an interesting part of your life.
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araeph · 8 years ago
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Just found your blog through your P&P post and I really enjoyed it! I wanted to ask you about another P&P issue that has been bothering me lately: some people interpret Lizzy's opinion change towards Darcy happening due to her seeing Pemberley and liking it, i.e. she marries him because she realised what she would be missing if she didn't accept him. I feel it is quite a cynical interpretation and also incongruous with her character. What do you think? Would love to read your thoughts on it :)
“My dearest sister, now be serious.I want to talk very seriously. Let me know every thing that I am to know,without delay. Will you tell me how long you have loved him?”
“It has been coming on so gradually, that Ihardly know when it began. But I believe I must date it from my first seeinghis beautiful grounds at Pemberley.”
Anotherentreaty that she would be serious, however, produced the desired effect; and she soon satisfiedJane by her solemn assurances of attachment. When convinced on that article,Miss Bennet had nothing further to wish.
—Pride andPrejudice, Chapter 59
 It is a truth universally acknowledged, thatthose who read a book about the perils of superficial judgment of character,all too often find themselves behaving in a similar manner. There is more thanone such person who gamely alleges that Elizabeth Bennet married Darcy becauseof his grand estate. Like Jane, I would entreat those critics to be serious,for a true reading of the text would put the mercenary motive to rest, even ifthere is a kernel of truth in Elizabeth’s facetious reply to her sister.
Elizabeth’s feelings for Darcy did indeed firstdevelop upon her visit to Pemberley, and all of them have to do with Pemberleyas a representation of Darcy’s character, rather than a representation of his wealth.
It was a large, handsome stone building,standing well on rising ground, and backed by a ridge of high woody hills; andin front, a stream of some natural importance was swelled into greater, butwithout any artificial appearance. Its banks were neither formal nor falselyadorned. Elizabeth was delighted. She had never seen a place for which naturehad done more, or where natural beauty had been so little counteracted by anawkward taste. They were all of them warm in their admiration; and at thatmoment she felt that to be mistress of Pemberley might be something!
Elizabeth has witnessed firsthand Darcy liking to have his ownway, even when his inclinations run roughshod over good manners and thefeelings of his friend Bingley. It is telling that he is able to cedecontrol to nature where it is merited. Darcy is not the tyrant Elizabeth oncethought him to be on his own grounds, where he has the most liberty to be one.
Elizabeth also has cause for concern about Darcy’s fixation on social standing. In fact, this prevents her from going furtheralong the path of regret at refusing him, when she thinks he will come betweenher and the tradesman branch of her family:
“And of this place,” thought she, “I might havebeen mistress! With these rooms I might now have been familiarly acquainted!Instead of viewing them as a stranger, I might have rejoiced in them as my own,and welcomed to them as visitors my uncle and aunt. But no,”—recollectingherself—“that could never be; my uncle and aunt would have been lost to me; Ishould not have been allowed to invite them.”
Imagine her surprise when Darcynot only greets her aunt and uncle genially, but socializes with them andinvites them all to dinner. It is a sharp contrast to the man who thoughthimself above his company when they first met:
That he was surprised by theconnection was evident; he sustained it,however, with fortitude, and so far from going away, turned back with them, andentered into conversation with Mr. Gardiner. Elizabeth could not but bepleased, could not but triumph. It was consoling that he should know she hadsome relations for whom there was no need to blush. She listened mostattentively to all that passed between them, and gloried in every expression,every sentence of her uncle, which marked his intelligence, his taste, or hisgood manners.
The conversation soon turned upon fishing; and sheheard Mr. Darcy invite him, with thegreatest civility, to fish there as often as he chose while he continued inthe neighbourhood, offering at the same time to supply him with fishing tackle,and pointing out those parts of the stream where there was usually most sport.Mrs. Gardiner, who was walking arm-in-arm with Elizabeth, gave her a look expressive of wonder. Elizabeth said nothing, butit gratified her exceedingly; the compliment must be all for herself. Herastonishment, however, was extreme, and continually was she repeating, “Why is he so altered? From what can itproceed? It cannot be for me—it cannot be for my sakethat his manners are thus softened. My reproofs at Hunsford could not work sucha change as this. It is impossible that he should still love me.”
 Lastly, even though Elizabeth hascome to realize that Wickham gave her a false report  of Darcy denying him a livelihood, thesuspicion is still in the air that Darcy might not treat those beneath him well.After all, this was his reply to Elizabeth’s rejection of him:
“Could you expect me to rejoice in the inferiority of yourconnections?—to congratulate myself on the hope of relations, whose conditionin life is so decidedly beneath my own?”
Yet far from being an overbearingmaster, Darcy is uncommonly civil to his servants. Mrs. Reynolds, the housekeeper, goes above andbeyond the call of duty to mention his virtues to Mrs. Gardiner:
“I say no more than the truth, and everybodywill say that knows him,” replied the other. Elizabeth thought this was goingpretty far; and she listened with increasing astonishment as the housekeeperadded, “I have never known a cross word from him in my life, and I have knownhim ever since he was four years old.”
This was praise, of all others mostextraordinary, most opposite to her ideas. That he was not a good-tempered manhad been her firmest opinion.
“If I were to go through the world, I could notmeet with a better. But I have always observed, that they who are good-naturedwhen children, are good-natured when they grow up; and he was always thesweetest-tempered, most generous-hearted boy in the world.”
Elizabethlistened, wondered, doubted, and was impatient for more.
“He is the best landlord, and the best master,”said she, “that ever lived; not like the wild young men nowadays, who think ofnothing but themselves. There is not one of his tenants or servants but willgive him a good name. Some people callhim proud; but I am sure I never saw anything of it. To my fancy, it isonly because he does not rattle away like other young men.”
 The sentences in bold are directcontrasts to Darcy’s insulting and unexpected proposal at Hunsford, where shesaw the very worst of his pride and temper:
Elizabeth’s astonishment was beyond expression. She stared, coloured, doubted, and wassilent. This he considered sufficient encouragement; and the avowal of allthat he felt, and had long felt for her, immediately followed. He spoke well;but there were feelings besides those of the heart to be detailed; and he was not more eloquent on the subjectof tenderness than of pride. His sense of her inferiority—of its being adegradation—of the family obstacles which had always opposed to inclination,were dwelt on with a warmth which seemed due to the consequence he waswounding, but was very unlikely to recommend his suit.
Elizabeth then learns that Darcy not only has altered his manner, but that in hisown house and in familiar company, his cold exterior dissolves away. He is alsoan attentive brother:
On reaching the spacious lobby above they wereshown into a very pretty sitting-room, lately fitted up with greater eleganceand lightness than the apartments below; and were informed that it was but justdone to give pleasure to Miss Darcy, who had taken a liking to the room whenlast at Pemberley.
“He is certainly a good brother,” saidElizabeth, as she walked towards one of the windows.
Mrs. Reynolds anticipated Miss Darcy’s delight,when she should enter the room. “And this is always the way with him,” sheadded. “Whatever can give his sister any pleasure is sure to be done in a moment.There is nothing he would not do for her.”
 To someone with a closerelationship to her sister Jane, this means a lot.
 And finally, the willingnessDarcy demonstrates to change his ways and make amends clinches Elizabeth’sgrowing regard for him.
“But above all, above respect and esteem, there was a motive withinher of goodwill which could not be overlooked. It was gratitude; gratitude, notmerely for having once loved her, but for loving her still well enough toforgive all the petulance and acrimony of her manner in rejecting him, and allthe unjust accusations accompanying her rejection. He who, she had beenpersuaded, would avoid her as his greatest enemy, seemed, on this accidentalmeeting, most eager to preserve the acquaintance, and without any indelicatedisplay of regard, or any peculiarity of manner, where their two selves onlywere concerned, was soliciting the good opinion of her friends, and bent onmaking her known to his sister. Such a change in a man of so much prideexciting not only astonishment but gratitude—for to love, ardent love, it mustbe attributed; and as such its impression on her was of a sort to beencouraged, as by no means unpleasing, though it could not be exactly defined.”
Pemberley is not merely anestate in Pride and Prejudice; it isa personification of Darcy himself. By visiting Pemberley and the nearby townof Lambton and speaking with their residents, Elizabeth and her family begin tounderstand Darcy in a way that was impossible before. No one is measuring thedrapes and counting the cost of Darcy’s chimney pieces; they are taking themeasure of the man through the environment he is responsible for and the people who happily live there.
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Hello I love you blog :)! I have a few questions I ask myself about peaky blinders and wondered what was your opinion on these. When Grace shot the IRA man (episode 5 season 1), do you think Tommy understood why she did it? Do you think she told him about her father after? When do you think Tommy trusted Grace again? I know he didn't stop loving her, but at what point do you think he decided that he could trust her again?
And your second ask:
… more questions ;) Do you think grace thought Campbell would keep his word? Do you think Grace did not realise that she was in love with Tommy until the “you’ve seen me” scene or was it simply the moment she realise her love for him was irreversible? why do you think she married someone else although she had ackwnoledged he was her true love? And last one : do you think there is any chance she is still alive ? I really want to believe she is, I miss her and I miss them :( …
Hello anon! Thank you, you’re the sweetest. So many questions!!! I’ll try to be succinct (not my strong point lol).
When Grace shoots Maguire in 1.05 I think Tommy understands in a greater overall sense why she did it - she expresses trauma through violence just like he does - but he doesn’t understand explicitly. I’d like to think she told him sometime before 1.06, but I don’t think she did. It would be easily researchable (Tommy has those ‘friends’ in Dublin and likely elsewhere in Ireland) and the information could have given away enough about her background that the reasons for her presence in Small Heath would emerge and she really doesn’t want him finding out.
I think it’s pretty clear that Tommy decides to trust what he found with Grace again during an offscreen moment with Polly, probably at The Garrison. In the letter that closes the series he says ‘Polly tells me you fell in love for real,’ and finally declares his love for her. It’s trust from a slight distance, but fully trusting nonetheless. The letter itself begins what looks like a couple of years worth of writing between them. Now, I have to be clear here even though I hate what SK did: I don’t think Tommy ever completely trusted Grace again. Not truly. Love and business as the two parts of Tommy that were reconciled in S1 Grace diverged in S2 with Grace becoming love, and May business (it’s one of the reasons I had such high hopes for S3, Tommy chose love over business and I thought the opportunity to investigate that aspect of the character would be seized with both hands, anyway…). Series 3 shows us Tommy trusting Grace with his heart, not an insignificant thing by any means and she remains the only person that Tommy has voluntarily given unconditional love, but not everything. In fact the series goes to some lengths to demonstrate how distant Tommy keeps Grace from his business life: she’s unaware of any of the Russian stuff going on on their wedding day (until she sleeps with him and suddenly his tongue loosens *eyeroll*); she doesn’t know how familiar he is with the powerful men of the Birmingham council etc. I’m annoyed because it’s a level of cluelessness that feels wrong for Grace’s S1 character. In fact, I’d argue Grace hasn’t been written truly to her character since that gunshot on the platform - everything since has pretty much been straight objectified love interest just to show another side to Tommy and then fling him into the abyss of self-loathing and despair. She was a cipher for the protagonist not a character in her own right and imo the show suffered for doing that.
Yes, I think Grace thought Campbell would keep his word. She trusted him as a long-time friend of the family and someone who has traditionally been on her ‘side’ (in life in Ireland, work in Birmingham). She should have realised he was going to try and sabotage Black Star Day though after he decided to hunt Tommy down once the guns were found and her loyalty was called into question. I get a bit frustrated about this plot hole because someone, there were loads of people present, must have told Tommy about Harry letting on at the end of Campbell’s revolver that they’d left together; so if this isn’t too elliptical she must have known that Campbell knew she’d taken Tommy with her that night and would have been accordingly wary.
I don’t think Grace was in love with Tommy, or Tommy with Grace, before the ‘you’ve seen me’ scene. They’re both reserved people and while their curiousity about each other is clearly waxing they’re more interested and attracted than smitten. Both are trying to hide the part of themselves that the Garrison Murders reveal so when it is exposed each initially thinks they’ve blown it but what happens instead in that raw emotional state is they’re there for each other in a way that nobody else has been. Soul mates. *blogger heads into the corner to curl into a ball and have a tiny cry*
Why did Grace marry Clive when she was still in love with Tommy? Why did Tommy spend several years fucking Lizzie, sundry other women and May when he was still in love with Grace? They broke up. He let her go. She moved to New York and when the dust settled she was there alone, she’d shot her superior in a bad move for her career, and she was a woman in the 1920s without the vast reserve of cash of somebody like May - she has no choice but to move on in life and emotionally. Finding someone sweet and kind to marry is an obvious option. I’m kind of making excuses for it all because I think it’s a bit ooc but that’s the narrative logic. As a slight aside it’s worth noting the similarities between Clive and May: the emotional role they play in Grace and Tommy’s lives and their kindness to them; their comparative wealth; their reverse initials ;). Tommy and Grace still mirror emotionally through S2.
And yes, lastly, no. I just can’t do it to myself. I spent the entire third series in an ever-increasing state of near panic on behalf of myself and other people who desperately wanted Grace’s reappearance. I lost sleep over it and drank way more whiskey than is a good idea. To be honest the Grace I loved and the relationship she promised was done away with at the end of S1 and while I find their chemistry addictive and wish that PB realised that it would have been smarter, more unusual, more compelling to make their love a source of strength and challenge in itself, rather than a weakness (such a gangster trope), that wishing isn’t going to convince SK or change anything. We also know that May is coming back and I think the parallels that have now been drawn between her and Tommy (dead true loves) will mean that it’s a definite ‘thing’ in S4 and they can hang around Chatsworth being pragmatic and fucking. So far though there has only been one episode that didn’t feature Grace at all, either in the flesh (sorry) or by implication - 2.03 I’m looking at you. She has always represented Tommy’s better nature and I think will continue to have an intermittent influence on him either through the institute in her name or her son (unless the paternity thing comes up and boy oh boy if it does I’ll need medication). If you want some optimism I recommend @susufromheaven‘s blog…
Thanks anon - xx
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mspbandj · 8 years ago
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Genuinely just wondering, is there any proof or confirmation anywhere that Sherlock Holmes is queer/gay/bisexual etc? Because everyone seems very angry that he didn't get to "come out" in TFP, but I can't help wondering if that's just because they've locked themselves in an echo chamber of Johnlock and convinced themselves that he can't possibly not like men. Absolutely correct me if I'm wrong, I'm so curious about this.
Okay, Im not an expert of the subject, so unfortunately I cant pull up as many references as there are, but here goes:There is a LOT in the original source material to suggest that Holmes was queer, however, it was never fully confirmed, nor denied. As far as I am aware, a lot of the terminology used in the original text heavily suggests that Sherlock at least, if not Watson as well, were homosexual. (Personally, I always envisioned Holmes as Asexual, with panromantic attraction, based off the original text, and further adaptions.) Furthermore, when taking into account the time period of the original text, I have seen it written that the behaviours of Holmes and Watson were at very least questionable (two bachelors living together in an apartment, being very close, speaking very affectionately with each other etc.) A few examples of text can be seen here (once again, Im not an expert, or hugely invested in Sherlock, modern or original, so I really dont have much reference material.) As for the modern BBC adaption of Sherlock Holmes.I think the main issue is not whether or not Sherlock IS gay/queer, I think its more that he COULD have been. The way that the showrunners marketed this production, the way that Cumberbatch and Freeman portrayed the characters, the subtext, the main text, the character and relationship building, all heavily implied that their relationship was going down the homosexual/homoromantic path. If you have the time and the energy to have a look at this in minute detail, Id recommend checking out the The JohnLock Conspiracy blog and youtube channel. They are people who genuinely know there stuff about modern media, and they also go into detail about the original text. I dont think the JohnLock shippers have locked themselves in a echochamber (also, just a side note, I fucking hate that term,) I think they were put there by the showrunners. What you are witnessing is the direct result of years and years of queerbaiting and buildup. People are mad because they were given mountains and mountains of evidence, both from the show itself, and from the cast and crew in interviews and through social media, that JohnLock was going to be end game. Thats one thing I DO know, is that there was a LOT of evidence (once again, check out TJLC for a lot more detail about this.) Specifically, LGBT people are mad because once again, they and their identities as LGBT folk have been used by writers and showrunners to gain a profit, with absolutely nothing in return. They (and I do include myself in this, as an LGBT person more than a fan (im not a fan)) are mad because they invested so much of their time, energy, and money into this show because everything pointed to the endgame of actual representation in a major media production, only to have it ripped out of their hands in the very last minute. Furthermore, as far as I am aware, the whole show quality took a massive dive. It feels like they just said “alright, we got the Gays™ invested enough now, and I really cfb finishing this thing so who really cares?” and just threw all of our love and devotion in the fucking trash. Back to the main point tho. If you ask me, which you are doing, I’d say its not because Sherlock and Holmes arent gay. Its that, after years and years of seeing blatant sebtext, hints, building, and downright evidence, and after years of hoping and pining and wanting and wishing that we would get accurate representation in one of the worlds biggest media productions of our time, its all been ripped out from under us with the added “fuck you” of straight up poor quality. The LGBT community are not here to line the pockets of the media with our identities. We are real, valid people, who deserve accurate representation and equality. We DO NOT deserve to be treated like this. Its that simple. I hope this cleared some stuff up for you! Feel free to ask me further questions! (Although its 3am, so ill be going to bed now… but Ill get back to you asap!) 
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