#and i was wearing makeup in 2020 too like why was i doing that

[cosmicrhetoric]

ive been on that hybrid schedule since like 2023 but i worked in person 5 days a week through 2019-the whole early pandemic and i can't remember how i used to manage going to the office on the first day of my period like i cant imagine. every month. im complaining about my day NOW and im in sweatpants how did i manage to do this for years

[nctyena]

Fans' Favorite Moments of YenaxMembers #6

YenaxMark

NCT 127 Whisper Challenge

"Mark stop being cute. It's distracting me."

Mark was shocked at first and wanted to protest. But knowing if he shyed away members would tease him more, he accepted it.

"Stop staring at me then."

"I'm not staring at you but you laugh too loud. Don't brag."

He laughed and mumbled "cute" before checking the comments.

Weekly Idol ep.462 NCT 127

While everyone was trying to find the song titles on the ground chaos started. Yena stared at Mark but before she could attack him he realised her.

"Please leave me alone. Others have more!"

He screamed while running. She didn't stop and caught him eventually.

"Don't fight back."

"Help!"

After she took the things(?) from him, he lied down and laughed through his tiredness. Right before she answered , she thanked Mark.

"Thanks to Mark, I'm gonna get a point. Thank you Mark oppa."

Brunch Time At Dorms [Vlive] 💚

"Fans say that we look good together."

"Huh?"

"It's from the comments."

"We are not even wearing any makeup right now."

"I look beautiful though. Don't I?"

"What about me?"

"Meh."

"Why do you hate me?"

"We do look good."

My First And Last 1st Win The Show 170214

As soon as it was annaunced that the Dream won the award, Yena started to cry. Just like some of the members. She couldn't even sing her lines and Mark helped her with it. He didn't leave her side even for a second and made sure that she was having fun and was fine. It's not just fans' favorite but also a remarkable memory for the two.

YenaxXiaojun

NCT 2020 Resonance Vlive

Make A Wish unit was explaining the song and giving little spoilers for the fans.

"Should we show a pose at the same time?"

They all posed relatabley or not at the same time but Xiaojun and Yena decided doing something different. With just one look she jumped on his back and he catched her.

Instagram Lives

They both has mentioned several times that they are closer in person but couldn't have a chance to show it fully on camera.

Yena once said that they meet up time to time just to talk about the members. She straight up said that they gossip about them.

SMTown Concert 2023

There were times that showed the members helping others while getting down the platforms. Like to Aespa or other female idols. But the most viral moment was when Yena offered help to Xiaojun out of nowhere and he accepted it right away. That day princessxiaojun and charmingyena was on trends.

[waistdoll]

I am new to jirai kei, but I just wanted to know some tips and other things I should be educated on in the subculture 🩷 I just don't want to come off as ignorant because Im new 🫶 so do you have any tips or things I should know? ⁠♡

TW: harmful behavior, s*x work, mentions of self-h*rm, i will try to talk about the differences, the stereotypes and the reason behind them, having the "jirai kei" as a main subject.

୨ৎ if you want to know more about the girly kei style you can ask me too!! like brand recommendations, tips on buying from japan, japanese clothes size, makeup, etc.

but please, keep in mind that:

• jirai kei 地雷系 (lifestyle) and dark girly kei (style that some of the jirai girls use) are two separated things and you can be jirai without using the style and you can use girly kei without identifying as jirai.

tl;dr: the western / social media vision of jirai is totally wrong. jirai kei in Japan isn't a style at all; jirai kei is a lifestyle that is seen as "unhealthy".

the term jirai kei came from “地雷系”. translates to “landmine-type”, not the literal meaning as “landmine”, is a japanese slang for "trigger" "red flag" “地雷を踏んだ”, meaning “i stepped on a landmine”. in reference to a person, a “landmine” is someone that’s so easily triggered over minor things that they keep exploding on others with abusive behavior, so you need to be as careful as if you were walking around a minefield.

this meaning has been around for about a decade, primarily used in dating advice articles about how to recognise “red flags” in a partner.

"but OP, it isn't a style?"

in those dating stereotypes, even the most arbitrary traits were considered red flags and wearing dark alternative fashion is already enough to have someone considered a potential landmine, the style in question is called dark girly kei. (style used by many jirai kei girls)

around 2020, jirai kei didn’t have any associations with any particular fashions or interests, but when a popular japanese makeup vlogger started a “psycho girlfriend” dress-up challenge and called the final look a landmine-type cosplay. she contributed to the stereotype that the landmine-types were often fans of dark girly fashion, every influencer was getting in on the trend, and cosplaying as a landmine-type psycho girlfriend, generally also tagging with “yandere”, then a lot of influencers did the challenge and lots of girlykei brands started to use the "jirai kei" terminology to sell more.

"why would someone call themselves jirai knowing that it means "psycho woman" in other words?? wouldn't it be romanticizing?"

popularly, there's a lot of people who call themselves jirai kei knowing about the difference of jirai & girlykei because of their mental conditions, i, myself use jirai kei to feel a little better about my mental state and to connect to other people who struggle the same as me, even if they stopped calling themselves jirai they wouldn't stop their unhealthy behavior, they're not mentally ill because of jirai, they're jirai because of their mental illness. the spaces for real mentally fucked people in the internet are so few, these people that are called "psycho bitches" exist and they shouldn't feel bad about being like this, they are the people who most struggle with all of it and it's their business if they want to call themselves it. telling people to not use the jirai kei term will not stop them to engage on harmful behavior, at the end those people are still mentally ill and have more problems than the terminology they use. might be thinking the "jirai antis" are some sort of saviors or something like that, if you really want to help those people don't blame it in the community and style they've found themselves.

all jirais don't have the same behavior even if all of them have a fucked mental state, some of them might be posting self-harm for validation, some are obsessed with their s/o, some doing sex work for attention, some of us has violent thoughts and bpd, some of us are just neurodivergent, or have depression, etc, is a form of venting/expression, and venting ≠ encouraging someone.

some info:

• the term hadn't changed its meaning, please don't act like it's some sort of "feminist movement" or even empowering.

• part the association of girly kei with harmful behavior is related to "toyoko kaiwai" (トー横キッズ) who's around Kabukicho, many of the members have been wearing various dark j-fashion styles before the "psycho girlfriend dress-up challenge" became a trend. they're credited as the reason for why those styles are associated with the landmine stereotype to begin with. they're been connected to under*ge pr*stitution, dr*g ab*se, public self-h*rm, murd*r and theft.

they are around age 9-24, (firstly known as toyoko kids, but like, there's a lot of adults in this) they're often privileged children who were convinced to get away from home by bad influences. and many members have died or been hospitalized as a result. for more info search the Japanese spelling on any japanese news site, or their signature hashtags on social media:

#/toho横界隈

#/トー横界隈

#トー横

recently, their former leader “Howl”, died by suicide while waiting in custody for a trial, (<- click for more info) -> (also here) for convincing minors to run away from home in order to “work” for him and dress in a way he finds attractive.

all these minors he "convinced" are victims, you can use the style without agreeing with this behavior and be jirai without agreeing with this, they're all manipulated children and it isn't their fault.

[moodymermaid3690]

Commissions - Emergency Commissions Open (Slots 0/5)

❗️Emergency Commissions Open: Please Read for Full Details❗️

For the grand majority of the past year, I've been contemplating opening emergency commissions, as I've been trapped in an ever-worsening living situation. However, asking for help has never been my strongest suit; additionally, several factors made me hesitant. For the sake of brevity, I'll list them below:

- I can only accept payments through CashApp, as I don't and can't have my own bank account. My mother is very controlling, and whenever I've had bank accounts in the past, she would constantly check my balance and take money from me. Whenever she's aware that I have money, she finds a way to take it from me. CashApp has been the only thing I've found that doesn't require a bank account and that I can keep hidden from my mother.

- I can also only accept USD currency (at this time), as I'm fairly sure CashApp doesn't convert currencies automatically and I'd hate to inadvertently "scam" anyone. Also, I'm aware that some countries (my fiancée's included) don't even have CashApp.

- I hate taking from others during times like this, even if I am doing something in exchange. I understand how financially-devastating this year has been for many, and accepting money makes me feel dirty when I know everyone is struggling.

- The last time I opened commissions, I was scammed (thankfully, I didn't lose any money, but they tried their hardest), which has left me paranoid. Therefore, I request a non-refundable payment (half of the full price) be made prior to doing any work. Sadly, that's an understandable turn-off for most because it sounds sketchy without context.

- I've been worried about overwhelming myself by taking on too many projects, considering I struggle greatly with my mental and physical health.

Yet, with all of those things considered, I've decided I have no choice but to open commissions. I desperately need to be removed from my current living situation (my mother's abusive and manipulative behavior, two murders in our apartment complex in the past two years, several other crimes within the complex and general area, and being stuck in a single half-room for twenty-plus hours on a near daily basis). For full transparency, the majority of funds will be going toward:

- Attending rehab/detox to combat a Xanax addiction I've been battling on-and-off since 2020 (I've been on them since 2018, but the addiction didn't start spiraling until the pandemic).

- Affording a small accommodation for myself along with Opie and Madeline, the two of our three dogs who are closest to and would rather remain with me, along with the utilities and food.

- Paying for public transportation, as (despite having a license) I don't own a vehicle and my mental health makes it nearly impossible for me to drive as of now. I do plan to take further driving lessons and improve the mental challenges I have surrounding driving in therapy.

-  Paying off the fees to complete my passport application and other necessary traveling documentation. I also need to pay to get a copy of my birth certificate because the original has been misplaced.

- Buying a luggage set and tags to travel (I don't even own a suitcase or decent backpack). I'd also need to buy a few outfits for the trip because I don't have my own clothing; I share clothes with my mother and typically have to get her permission to wear whichever outfit I choose during the rare times I leave the apartment. My mother and I even share shoes and underwear. The only clothes I have that are mine are bras (my bust size is far larger than my mother's) and a few pajama sets. Whenever I ask her for my own clothes or makeup, her response is always: "maybe if you left the house, I'd get you those things" or "why? It's not like you ever go anywhere."

- Purchasing a plane ticket and saving enough money to visit my fiancée and begin work on obtaining visas that will permit me to move from America to New Zealand over time.

- Eventually being able to afford moving out-of-country to live with my fiancée and our daughter. I'll need proof that I can financially sustain myself in order to move to New Zealand (at least, that's how I understood the information I was given).

Please, don't feel obligated to order a commission if you, too, are struggling financially. There is absolutely zero pressure. Always put yourselves and your families first.

With that being said, here are a few things to keep in mind before commissioning me:

- Half of the full price of your commission must be paid prior to me beginning the piece. This initial payment is non-refundable!

- All payments must be in USD and paid through CashApp (until or unless circumstances change).

- As I have several minor followers, I will not be drawing any NSFW material.

- I will absolutely *not* draw: sexualized nudity, fetish material, pro-shipping of any kind, sexualized underage characters, furry art that has sexual connotations, etc. If you make a request that I feel uncomfortable with, I reserve the right to deny you service. No means no, and I will neither be bullied, harassed, nor bribed into going against my morality.

- I will draw: artistic nudity meant to make a statement (example: protesting sexual violence, protesting hate crimes toward transgendered and/or non-binary individuals, supporting positivity of bodies affected by surgeries, pregnancy or loss of pregnancy, medical conditions, disabilities, etc.), furry art without sexual connotations, and older designs of underage characters without them being sexualized.

I'm most likely going to be drawing people, their original/fan-character(s), their favorite character(s), and their favorite couple(s) in the style of the show of their choice or in my own style depending on the client's request.

To prevent myself from becoming overwhelmed, I will only have five commission slots open at a time. Currently, my slot count is: 0/5

My prices are as follows:

- Sketch: $10.00 (+$2.00 per extra character) - Lineart: $15.00 (+$2.00 per extra character) - Flat Colors: $20.00 (+$2.00 per extra character) - Full Shading: $45.00 (+$5.00 per extra character)

CashApp: $ebbusiness94

[wrenreid]

Just Acting

Chapter Twenty-One

Jess ended up spending the night, and you wake up with your head laying on her chest. You sit up and laugh. "Were you comfy, baby girl?" she jokes.

You roll your eyes and head to the kitchen to put on a pot of coffee. Jess plops down on the couch and you follow suit after hearing the coffee start brewing.

"So New Year's Eve party, huh?"

"Yeah. You should come," you smile.

"I would love to, but I have plans."

"Ugh. You're too busy for me," you say, fake pouting.

"Says you. Anyway, you plan on kissing anyone tonight?"

"My pillow. Maybe Aisha,” you grin.

"Is Matthew going to be there?"

"I don't think so. Why?"

She sighs, giving you a wiggle of her eyebrows. "Because you clearly feel something for him."

You contemplate arguing and denying, but instead you say  "How is it that you just know things?"

"I learned how to read minds in college," she winks. "I can tell, Y/n. I've been able to tell from the start."

"Your best friend instincts are so annoying sometimes."

"You love me."

"Bite me."

"Gladly," Jess winks again.

"I'm going to tell him. Eventually."

"Good, or I'll have to beat your ass."

"Want to help me pick an outfit?" You ask.

"Yes," she hops up, leading you to your room. She sits on the bed and watches as you hold up a few outfit choices.

Jess's phone rings and she talks for a moment then hangs up. "Dammit Logan," she sighs. "I've got to go cover a shift. I'll see you later." She kisses your cheek playfully and leaves your apartment.

You're pretty bummed she can't come to the party tonight, but you're happy she'll be with the girl she loves. The party should just be the cast and spouses and a few other friends of AJ's since it's her party. From what Aisha told you, Matthew will still be in Vegas until next week. Which you suppose might be for the best because you can get drunk instead of worrying about him.

The script for the next episode was sent to you yesterday, and you're excited to read it. It'll be great to get back to work and jump into the Criminal Minds world again.

_____

You look into the mirror,  you look pretty good if you do say so yourself. Jess did a good job helping you pick out what to wear.

A black mid-thigh length dress that hugs your curves, black opaque tights, and black boots is what you're wearing. For makeup, you have gold on your eyelids for the holiday and the rest is pretty natural. You curled your hair earlier today, so you just fluff it out now. Before leaving your apartment, you throw on a grey trench coat type jacket.

You drive to AJ's house and are greeted by her and her husband. You smile, happy to see them after a while. Their kids are at AJ's sister's house. Aisha is making drinks in the kitchen.

"Margaritas?"

"You know it," Aisha winks. "It's good to see you, kiddo."

You roll your eyes with a smile. "Make me something strong."

"Yes ma'am,” she grins excitedly.

Paget comes in dancing with a bottle of champagne. She kisses AJ's cheek before coming over to you two.

"You're getting drunk, and you cannot protest," she says, kissing your cheek as well.

"Wouldn't want to defy you,” you say with a smile.

Kirsten comes in later, and you're excited to see her again. More people from set and other friends of AJ's pile inside.

Nathan puts some music on and Aisha grabs your hand, making you dance with her. The moves are messy, but it's hilariously fun.

"You're already drunk and it's 10pm," you laugh.

"Don't judge me, it's New Year's Eve."

The party gets started, and you sip your second margarita while talking with Paget and Kirsten. All of you wear these glasses or head bands that Kirsten brought. They read "2021" (wrote this in 2020 and i don’t see a point in changing the year tbh) and are gold and glittery. Daniel is timing how fast Adam can chug a beer. You shake your head at them acting like college frat boys.

You all watch as the news stations play music and flashbacks of the year on tv. The countdown will start in thirty-seven minutes.

Adam grabs your hand and the two of you drunk-dance. You throw your head back laughing at him. It's amazing to be here with all of your friends. Well, almost all of them. He spins you around, and you see someone come into the front door.

"Matthew! You made it!" AJ's voice says. You've had two margaritas and two shots of tequila at this point so you hardly hear them from your place in the dining room.

You stop dancing with Adam and he smiles at you. "Go talk to him."

"You're drunk, you don't know what you're talking about," you chuckle nervously.

"Oh shush."

You roll your eyes and make you get closer to the door.

"Y/n, I wasn't sure if you'd be here."

"I'm not a total lame-ass when it comes to fun, Gubler." Your say, pulling your riding-up dress down.

He laughs. "You look really good."

"Thank you. I suppose you look alright."

"Suppose?" His eyebrows stitch together.

You smile, shooting him a wink. Tipsy Y/n is a lot more confident. Which scares you because what if you say something weird. You go back to the kitchen and pour a glass of champagne. The countdown is approaching.

You finish your glass in about ten minutes, going to a group of friends that Matthew isn't mingling with.

"I get the sense that you're avoiding me," a voice says after you leave the bathroom to fix your makeup.

"What if I am?" you turn around to face him.

"That's very rude given I helped you with mr reporter," he laughs softly.

"Thank you, by the way."

"No problem. So why are you avoiding me?"

"There could be multiple reasons, pick one." You bite your lip softly.

"I'm hurt," he puts his hand over his heart, tossing his head back lightly. "I thought we were friends or something. Isn't that what we talked about on the phone that day?”

Ouch.  "Yeah. It is..."

"Is there something wrong?"

"Nope. All good here," you say and walk away. Eight minutes and thirty seconds until January first.

A few minutes pass as you and Paget pour everyone another round of champagne. You take a sip of your own glass then feel someone tugging on your arm.

"Can you please tell me what's going on?"

You look Matthew in the eyes. "I lied. I lied when I said we were friends. We were never really friends."

"Ouch."

"No, dammit. What i'm trying to say is, I like you. God, I sound like a middle schooler. I have feelings for you. I haven't figured them out completely, but they're there." He chuckles. "Well, don't laugh at me."

"No, it's just I thought you hated me.”

"Most of the time I do."

Matthew laughs, moving hair out of his face. "I feel the same way. The liking part, not the hating... well, both sometimes."

You smile, blushing. "Well..."

"Four more seconds."

You look at the tv. You can read, why is he telling you the countdown? Before you can ask, he pulls you in by the waist and kisses you as the others cheer for the new year.

"This is so cliche, ew,” you pull away from this kiss.

"Shut up, you like it."

You roll your eyes and pull his neck down to press your lips to his again. The rhythm is soft and slow. When you pull away again, you see your friends looking at you guys with eyes wide. AJ sips her champagne with a smirk on her face, making eye contact with you.

You blush at everyone's eyes on you two. You grab your champagne glass and take a drink.

Matthew takes it from you.

"Hey!"

"You're drunk, Y/n."

"That explains why I kissed you,” you tease.

"Hey," he says, furrowing his eyebrows.

"I'm kidding."

Matthew rolls his eyes and pours your drink out.

Around twelve-forty, Matthew grabs your hand. "You need to get home."

"You're lame."

"You're an ass, but let's go,” he says softly.

"I'm a cute ass," you say with a smile.

"Yeah, yeah." He leads you to your car and drives you back to your apartment.

He helps you get into your place and sit on the couch. "Do you want some water?"

You nod sleepily. "Yes please."

He brings you a cup and sits beside you. "After you finish that, you need to get to bed. Do you need anything before I go?"

"Don't leave."

"You want me to stay?"

"Yeah. Just for company and stuff,” you say, trying to play it cool.

He smiles. "Okay. I'll stay. Go get ready for bed."

You oblige, handing him the empty cup and heading to your room. After changing into a pair of blue flannel pj bottoms and a black tank top, you head back to the living room to find Matthew laying on the couch with his eyes open.

"You don't have to sleep on the couch,” you say, rubbing your eyes as you stand over him.

"I didn't want to overstep," Matthew says.

"I don't really feel like sleeping alone. It's like this weird sad feeling that I get when I'm drunk... sorry that was over sharing."

He smiles. "No, it's okay." He stands up and follows you to your room. You lay down and so does Matthew. He opens his arms so you can lay on him, and you rest your head on his chest.

twenty-two

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[h7p3r4ct1v3-h0rn3t2]

✏️ (favorite creative endeavors?), 🎮 (hobbies?), 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦 (relationship with their family?), 🎵 (favorite genre of music?), and 🪦 (thoughts on death?) for johnny mcfly

YAAAY ! YAAAAAAY !!!!

So first of all. I've talked about my Johnny Mcfly Dyspraxia Headcanon on here. so I would think he's not really into more Traditional modes of creation like drawing or music because he just . doesnt really have the coordination for that kind of thing. However! Although it's difficult to see because he's. translucent. for ghost reasons. he does seem to Have a lot of makeup on (or at the very least. eyeliner) when he gets summoned , which leads me to believe that either A. the eye makeup is supposed to Be Something in the same way the apparent neck scarring is . or B. Johnny Mcfly likes wearing makeup enough that he died wearing eyeliner. And since im not a smart fella and cannot figure out what the Something in possibility A is . i would like to believe that makeup is a form of creative expression that he enjoys. (although. to be fair. i dont see him being conventionally 'Good' at that either considering . But . [shrugs])

Hobbies. As someone with very few hobbies, I had to look up a list of hobbies that people can have and figure out which ones seemed in character. I have come to the conclusion that Johnny Mcfly is probably not mentally healthy enough to have many consistent hobbies, unforchies. Kind of strikes me as a bit of a rotpilled rotcel. not, like, literal corpse rotting, although i guess that too. However if i had to come up with something he does when he is Not rotting. idk i found thrifting on one of the lists and maybe that. I can see him having a good time at a thrift store

Relationship with family . So this is one we actually have some basis for. It is established that Johnny's parents told everybody that he died in a car accident rather than what is heavily implied to have actually happened. cough cough he killed himself. and i doubt they would do that for no reason. It is worth noting! That in many forms of christianity, suicide is considered a sin. It is also worth noting that according to the 2020 census, 63% of MA was christian and I would assume that number was at least a little bit larger Right After 9/11. Yeah I'm bringing up 9/11 in another johnnypost sue me . anyway I don't actually really remember why i went on this rant because my computer crashed twice during this paragraph. um. I think his relationship with his parents Probably Wasn't Great. I might even go as far as to say that his poor relationship with his parents was a contributing factor to the Whole Killing Himself Thing probably.

Genre of Music... this one's #easy. Johnny Mcfly is sort of . pseudo emo to me. Not fully committed to the Subculture but i'm sure if you went going through his, like, mp3 player or something. you'd probably find like. sunny day real estate. Furthermore I also think he'd be into mcr if they had existed for more than like a year when he died.

Thoughts On Death. So this is where i get to say that I think, hot take, he was lying when he said he was in heaven. He says it with a level of uncertainty that makes me think he was being Hashtag Dishonest! And I think his Current thoughts on death probably depend on what Probably Hell But Possibly Some Other Afterlife Like Purgatory Or Https://www.hollywoodeasttv.com Or Something is like. Before killing himself, though, i would think he considered death either Something desirable due to the circumstances of the world Or something undesirable but deserved due to the circumstances of the self. Or maybe both in one of those weird fluctuating self-image cycles you get into when you're a mentally ill adolescent without an entirely stable sense of self. Probably the latter.

In conclusion thank you for asking me about johnny mcfly . smiles grinnishly.

[livingfictional]

Heyy!! Could I get an rdr2 matchup please? <3

(First I wanna list some characters that I do NOT wanna be matched with: Micah, reverend swanson, Strauss)

22, she/her, bisexual w/ a male lean, I don't really like anything girly like makeup, dresses, heels, etc. I usually just wear jeans or sweats with a band shirt or hoodie with either converse or vans. I really like to read, write, draw, I love long car rides, photography, I LOVE CATS!! They're literally me if I were an animal😭 I literally live for music, it's the main part of my everyday life Imao, I'm into heavy Metal, groove metal, punk rock, etc, but l also like jump style, dance/electronic, alt-pop, my music taste is kinda all over the place omg🤣 I also love gaming, fav games are rdr1 and 2, cod mw2 and ghosts, uncharted 4, Assassin’s Creed black flag and unity.

I’m not very good at talking to people, I’m just way too awkward. I have social anxiety but it isn’t as bad as it used to be. I’m pretty sensitive but hide my emotions well. I went through a bad depression a couple years ago (2020-2023) I’m just recently getting out of it, god it feels so much better now! Although I have gotten a lot better, I’m still not very appreciative of myself. Not very confident and don’t have much self love but I know damn well not to let anyone disrespect me or make me apologize for things I haven’t done. I can take up for myself, I know my worth in this world.

I don’t really care what my lover looks like, as long as they are loyal, respectful, and care for me how I care for them that’s all I need in a relationship. But I do have trust issues so I constantly need to be reassured😅 that’s only one of my red flags, I’m not very good in relationships, always too paranoid. Which is probably why I’ve only ever been in one serious relationship… :/

Hiiii, as per usual, im sorry you had to wait for so long!

I match you up with... Javier!

You guys would be perfect for each other.

Plays his favorite songs to you.

Honestly, if you're not up for socializing, his perfect date idea would be going for a long ride, letting you sit in the front with his arms around you.

He's very open and communicates with you. You don't really have to be self conscious or paranoid around him, but Javier knows you can't help it sometimes.

He'll do his best to reassure you and ease your worries.

Just tell him if something is wrong, he will try to make it right.

Type of guy to worship the ground you walk on. You really can't do or say anything wrong in his eyes. You say the grass is purple? Yup, you're right, love. You didn't land your shot? The target moved, you'll get it next time <3

[joylinda-hawks]

October 18, 2020. Beijing. ZZH mini-concert. The first and only fantastic solo concert of ZZH. A concert during which no one could take away the great happiness. ZZH. Even malicious journalists. What mattered to ZZH was that he could finally perform before he was presented to the public. Because people who cared about ZZH came to this concert. And that's why there was such a fantastic atmosphere there. During this concert, ZZH wore two outfits. Red, which he looked amazing in, and black, which he also looked great in. Black and red - a combination of two intense colors. It is clear that ZZH has an increasingly better sense of fashion. The story I associate with this black ensemble is that ZZH decided he was too hot in this coat and his fans suggested he take it off. However, ZZH persevered with this styling until the end. Additionally, many original photos were taken during this concert. Photos taken from a distance and those taken close up. Among many photos, I chose the one with a close-up of his face. I love these photos because you can admire his face. Here, ZZH is wearing makeup, which is just an unnecessary addition to his flawless skin. But it shows off his big eyes, thick eyebrows and delicately lined lips with lipstick. We cannot forget about his ears, which have a quite original shape and fantastically styled, longer hair fastened with silver clips. ZZH wears a turtleneck underneath his coat, with a pearl necklace on it. This creates a magical look that suits a magical moment. The moment when we see concentration on ZZH's face, as if he was listening to his heart's advice on what to do at a given moment. Standing on stage, ZZH looks ahead, knowing he is doing what he loves. He stands where he wanted to be. Dressed in simple, elegant clothes that suit his personality. Because ZZH never liked exaggeration, he always preferred simple, classic solutions, even on stage. Because this is real ZZH.

[dutchwinter]

hiiiiii take this as all the asks you didn’t answer yet

omg thank you dearest

🍫 Cheese or chocolate? - chocolate i hate cheese and im such a chocolate girlie... why is this the question??

✨ Do you have any nicknames? - people call me ollie <3 i dont think i have any others rn

✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction? - i have to for franthonyfixchange and i have before on ao3 <3

😏 Are you on discord? - yess im literally talking in image world server as we speak. if mutuals want my discord u can ask

🎧 Headphones or earbuds? - headhpones i. cant stand earbuds. fucks with me.

🌼 What’s the last thing you said out loud? - oh my god to my cat who was eating paper just right now.

🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl? - morning person <3 makes me feel like a human to wake up at 4am. i hate going to bed lateeee it makes me soo sleepy

🦋 Describe yourself in three words. - dumb fag. i can do it in two

👖 Jeans or sweatpants? - i guess jeans but like. i like the slight bagginess of sweatpants its just i dont like how they make me feel so pants in different materials out of that style is good.

🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order? - :P i do not go to starbucks. i do not drink coffee.

🧡 A color you can’t stand? - none of them sorry i love all colors

🌙 How long have you been on tumblr? - since october 20 2020 baby. though i had an acc in 2017 and never used it a lot of us had that first acc we never used then came back a few years later..

🌴 Desert island item? - uhhhhhhhhhhh. im too tired for this man. my brain is so broken rn.

🐸 Describe your aesthetic. - whatever i want it to be at that moment idc.

💙 Relationship status? - ive never dated anyone so <3

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit. - i dont have one... i dont have cool clothes i just have t shirts and little pants idk lol

🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to? - no whats music.

💄 Do you wear makeup? - no... <3

[cakejerry]

Sigh unrelated to the current discourse but I've actually been way more into the concept of top jimin recently.... As in..... Since pretty much 2020? At LEAST mots concert, that when I started noticing. Souju definitely. And I'm talking specifically jikook, both of those instances had such strong inclinations towards domtop daddy jimin and brat jungkook who needs to be put in his place. BUT more interesting that that is examining my perception, and why aesthetics has to play such a big part in that. Like, why do I only see jimin as a top when he has black hair put up to expose his forehead and is wearing a suit etc dressed typically masculine and performing on stage... Well, filter jmn was domtop too but in a femme way. But what makes it femme? The blonde hair? The makeup? Anyways. He's had black hair for a while now and he's also grown older and more... Depressed? Mature? Something. And I've realized that more and more I've been seeing him as a MAN, which ig is synonymous with dominance in my biased mind, sure whatever. But the boxes everyone has always tried putting him into feeling more and more suffocating to me, I rlly can't take it anymore

[deepdiveswithdoireann]

Bin Bags, Bed Sheets and Balenciaga

In recent years athleisure wear has become a fast growing trend amongst the rich and the poor. I remember as a child my mother telling me wearing a tracksuit or leggings outside of the house looked lazy, tacky and unkept. The recent trend has changed my own mind about this, but I do recognise I have bais’ and so do a vast majority of people. 2020 saw the rise of the “chav check” trend on Tik-Tok, where people would dress in orange make, tracksuits with messy hair and impersonate British “chavs”. Basically people were just mocking working class British teenage girls. I grew up surrounded by girls like this, who fake tanned, had thick eyebrows and wore their Adidas leggings and Nike Air Max with pride. I looked up to these girls, I was pretty intimidated by them too and honestly for a while I tried to be them. But to see how the global media has mocked them and their style is so disheartening. It seems as though working class women cannot dress in any type of way without being called trashy, cheap and common. Whereas Kim Kardashian can be caked in makeup, wearing legging and puffer jackets and be called a trend setter. 

For my last entry of this series I am going to look at Balenciaga and how they incorporate many aspects of the “chav” style and sell it as luxury, innovative and trendy clothes. Their recent Fall Winter 2024 show was held on a street in  L.A and most of the models wore tracksuits and leggings. There were some interesting aspects of exaggerated tailoring, but for the purpose of this review I won't be discussing this. The show began with a shirtless model wearing shorts and oversized trainers, which set the tone for the first portion of the show. 

As I mentioned most of the models adorned tracksuits and legging style outfits. There was a recreation of the Juicy Couture velour tracksuit, which if I remember correctly was another fashion statement that was considered gaudy and distasteful. The models pranced down the street in these varying outfits, from oversized ill fitting tracksuits to the tight body suits that resemble something I have seen on Shein.

Balenciaga is very much a fashion house that is based on hype trends and creating conversations around their pieces. They were after all the brand that chose to completely cover Kim Kardashian for the Met Ball in 2021, which stirred a lot of conversation. Now this is great if you are someone who can afford to keep up with these trends, and have the designer logo on your new leggings or catsuit. But most of us cannot and when we look for cheaper alternatives we are judged by those who can afford it. I myself remember seeing a woman in Schipol airport, wearing a form fitting lycra catsuit, and I internally judged her for this. I thought to myself, “why do people think this looks good” , then I opened instagram and saw Miss Kardashian herself wearing pretty much the same outfit, but it was designer so therefore better. I write this now acknowledging the bais I projected on this girl at Gate G4, and to her I am truly sorry for this.

But I also write from a critical point of view of these fashion houses, who create trends that are only accessible when you can afford them. 

  Even one of the more interesting pieces of the collection was a dress that resembled a bin back, in black and a bed sheet, in white. It was fabricated in a way that made it look like the model had no option but to wrap herself in a bin bag or her bed sheet in an effort to stop herself from being nude. As I said this is probably the most interesting piece of the entire show, but when you consider the show is set on the streets of L.A, it's a little bit less digestible. L.A currently has an ongoing homelessness crisis with an estimate of over 75 thousand people experiencing homelessness in 2023 alone. This idea of presenting a piece of clothing that looks like the model had nothing else to wear, on the streets of a city full of homeless people is tone dead.

They had celebrity models featured in the show such as Cardi B. She wore, admittedly, a fabulous faux fur jacket. But her makeup was done in the stereotypical Chola style. Chola is an aesthetic that is often associated with the Mexican population of California, specifically the middle and working class women. Cardi B has received criticism throughout her career for her past as a stripper and has been called cheap throughout. Perhaps Balenciaga were trying to have her reclaim her power as an Afro-Latina artist, but to me it reads as performative and costumey. 

For most of this series I have looked at how fashion houses have incorporated styles from the middle and working class population and sold them as innovative ideas. Balenciaga, do this a lot. They play into this aesthetic too, by producing a boring tracksuit bottom, slapping a label on it and selling it for upwards of 500 euro. I mean lest we forget this is the brand that created the duct taped shoes and sold them for over 800 euro. So they are surely aware of their influences from mainstream or working class clothes trends. They play into modern consumer culture by creating pieces that already feed into pre-existing popular trends, but make them desirable to those who want to stay on top of popular trends. I don’t think Balenciaga is the problem here, I think that there is an overarching theme of luxury brands creating collections that derive obvious inspiration from the working class. These brands don't call it for what it is, instead they hide it by calling it a “reinvention of….” or “inspired by the seedy underbelly”. It's tiring, it’s boring and honestly it’s just unfair.

 Popular brands take inspiration from working class women yet the majority of the media ridicule these same women for their appearance, their clothing choices and lifestyle. We need to see a change, in either how we as consumers consume or how we as a society react to working class aesthetics. I admitted in this review my own bias and I think this is something that I hope more and more people will start to recognise in themselves. I also hope that this trend of celebrities and rich people trying to seem relatable dies down, but that seems unattainable. My personal mission for you is to consume more critically, really look at what designers are presenting as “new” and dont fall for the fancy words and tricks.

[sultanaislammow]

Scholars and Alluring Smiles, Internet idols for the elderly

"Height is not the distance, age is HE Tuber not the problem." "The little sister sent her lover to Damendong, but it was raining and windy! The little brother is leaving or staying!" In the video, wearing a black suit, The man who walks slowly with a cup of tea is called "Xiu Cai". He likes to sing love songs to fans. He will pick peppers in the vegetable field and tell him: "It's not my fault that I love you, it's because you are too beautiful!" "

In the Douyin profile, Xiucai claims to be 39 years old. The content is relatively unified, basically lip-syncing, including "Love You Like You Love Me", "You Are Mine", "Waiting for You for So Long", "When Will I Stop Worrying", "Big Eyes" and " Fiery Love" and other old songs. It is worth noting that when he sings, he will have a shy expression. Covering his mouth, licking his lips, and raising his eyebrows are the three must-haves in the video. The overall atmosphere creates a provocative and ambiguous atmosphere, which has attracted the attention of many people. The hearts of aunties/grandmothers-in-law.

In 2020, Xiucai began to publish videos on Douyin. So far, he has accumulated 9.629 million fans, mainly attracting middle-aged and elderly women. His live broadcast room audience portraits show that female viewers account for 87.12%, with people over 50 accounting for the highest proportion. Reaching 38.33% , users aged 41-50 also account for a large proportion, reaching 20%.

Under the @xiucai account, fans will talk about the details of their lives every day, such as: the elderly at home have undergone surgery, there is a happy event at home and a banquet will be held, the grandchildren are sick, I am sick, my teeth have fallen out, and I have been sleeping every day recently. Got less and less. Corresponding to has attracted many men over the age of 45 and has attracted 17.11 million fans. This rural girl from Heze, Shandong Province, is 33 years old. She started updating videos on Douyin on April 12, 2019.

In terms of shooting techniques, is similar to @ Xiucai. She also likes to do "raise her eyebrows" when lip-syncing and singing, but the amplitude and frequency are not so frequent. In terms of personality position, these two talents belong to the "entertainment + talent" route, and their daily updates include covers and singing along with some popular songs.

The difference is thathas a signature sweet smile and laughs heartily in almost every video. In the early days, she would shoot scenes of singing in the fields. Recently, she began to try to use retro makeup with karaoke subtitles, adopting a nostalgic record style. In the video tags, likes to use especially "microfat" appears very frequently, which can also reflect the aesthetics of many middle-aged and elderly men.

There are a large number of celebrities on the Douyin platform. Why do they get the love, praise and followers of so many middle-aged and elderly people? For many young people, the videos of the two celebrities mentioned above may lack new ideas, but for their core audience, it is completely the opposite. What the latter pursues is not the host's talent, drinking competition, and PK shouting, but companionship, Trust and respect.

Cass believes that the biggest advantage of these two experts is their down-to-earthness. Only experts/businesses/brands who can do this can truly capture the hearts of middle-aged and elderly users. To be fair, the clothes, beauty filters, expressions, video copywriting and shooting of the two bloggers

The scene can be quickly understood by middle-aged and elderly fans, and there is no sense of distance in the way of expression.

At the same time, their facial features and appearance are upright and comely among ordinary people, which can make fans who like this kind of appearance feel close to and admire them. In addition, during the live broadcast, the master also followed the personality in the video. He was gentle, polite, and took the initiative to perform his talents. It was difficult not to make middle-aged and elderly fans feel at home and be "served" clearly.

When some young people are keen on chasing "males", "beauties" and "good-looking celebrities" and are addicted to the coconut tree live broadcast room, their parents may be watching the short videos and live broadcasts of The different choices of the two generations are based on their own emotions and entertainment needs. They are beyond reproach and should be treated equally and respected.

[punk-scum-of-the-earth]

why are we bullying children again? y'know the thing everyone was so saddened by a yar ago? hello? what?

I can't be the only one who's noticed how all the people who were bullying young teenagers (teenage girls ESPECIALLY) for being 'too childish' a couple years ago are now bullying them for being too adultish? like two-three years ago when tweens were wearing super colourful clothes, big creative makeup, exploring music genres and enjoying stuff like dsmp (and before anyone trys to completely discredit me for anything i say because i mentioned the dsmp, dream is a groomer. i dont dispute that, i agree with that i think he's fucking dusgusting and i hate him. but i would bet a LARGE portion of dsmp fans in 2020-2021 didn't really like dream that much either, he was definetely not the most popular member.) people were violently bullying them for being cringe and now those same teens are doing really fancy, minimalist makeup and wearing clothes more commonly seen on 17-21 year olds we're bullying them for being too grown or too fast?

This entire thing is directed at tiktok really but this bit especially, wasn't everyone going on about how girls are forced to grow up too soon and there's all these women who are traumatised because their childhoods were stripped from them not too long ago? And now they're doing the exact same thing to the new generation, like how have our critical thinking skills been so depleted that we can't recognise the blatant hypocrisy in ourselves. I know trends have always been a thing but now hating a specific group of people widely and aggressively for anywhere from 2 months to a year for seemingly no reason seems to be a reoccurring one. hello. please can we stop this.

And all the people saying "when I was your age in was using claires makeup and watching youtubers" as if

a) there wasn't loads of media designed and marketed towards tweens a decade ago that now do not exist

b) when these teens were doing EXACTLY that; experimenting with pharmacy makeup and watching what we're essentially just mcyts. they were relentlessly bullying them!

also is it such a wonder that skincare and makeup are the things teens and tweens are obsessed with when every piece of content shown to them portrayed a spot or acne to be the end all be all of beauty in young women. please let teens exist, shit's confusing enough for them as it is.

Just before any terfs get here, this is not for you, this is not your thinly veiled misogyny disguised as feminism go away.

[ericalikespainting]

“But you like doing them, right?,” my mom asked, just days before a big convention.

“What?! No! I hate doing shows!” I don’t know how or when I even gave the impression that I enjoyed schlepping my stuff to another city to set it up, and then try to speak to strangers over loud, ambient noise. There is next to nothing fun about it for shy, quiet me.

“Then why do you do them?”

“Because I wouldn’t sell any art otherwise.”

At my age, I’ve come to realize that a lot of the issues I have with going out and socializing are due to a lack of control in my environment. For example, I don’t get hangry at home. I can go to the kitchen and eat anything because I stocked the shelves myself. I get hangry when I’m out with a group of people because they tend to collectively decide when and what the group eats. I can only control so much of this type of situation, so I started carrying a snack when I go out with a group for an undetermined amount of time. Thus, I’ve done the best I can to mediate that lack of control in my environment.

The same goes for different tastes in temperature, sound, etc. Some people are extroverts and love chatting (even with strangers), while some people are introverts and would much rather not, and some people can do both!

What I’m getting at is this: people are different. I know, right! When all these different people with different preferences show up together in a big building, they’re usually at the mercy of the person “in charge” for whatever reason. Let’s cite that study from 2015 about gender inequality and office AC. Anecdotally, I’ve been held hostage to extremely loud music from a neighboring booth at conventions in the past, and well, that’s just rude.

So what is the gentle convention-goer to do? The best we can! Here are a few ideas to help you get through a stressful day of sensory bombardment. I’m sharing it here because I wish I had something like this years ago when I started going to conventions as an attendee, but it’s so much more important now as a vendor.

- Get as much done in advance as possible. Get it out of the way so you don’t have to struggle the closer you get to the date of the event. If I have too much to do, I get aggravated and snippy, and it makes working more difficult than it needs to be.

- Keep aforementioned snacks (and water, when possible. I know some buildings keep TSA-style rules about liquids). If you are to be hanging out in a booth all day without a helper, you might not be able to leave to grab a bite, depending on available concessions. This is even more important if you have food issues of any kind, or if you’re a strict vegan, etc.

- Wear earplugs when possible. I started wearing earplugs at concerts. I’ve also recently discovered that I’m more sensitive to sound than some people, and I even wear my earplugs between sets because audience chatter can be pretty loud and I find it annoying. I bought Loops, and they happen to be pretty dang cute. I had Vibes, they broke in the case and I don’t recommend them.

- My bestie got me an essential oil inhaler for portable aromatherapy. I’m debating using Wyndmere’s emotional rescue blend, or straight lavender oil in mine. I also used to dab a little bit on my mask when I worked through 2020.

- If you have a helper, find a quiet place you can pop into every once in a while, when needed. Even a bathroom would be OK, as long as there aren’t a ton of people and it isn’t stinky.

- In the same vein, schedule as much as you can in advance as possible. If you can get someone to help you have breaks, take advantage. If you’re able to go to a quiet place outside, do it. Get some air. At my next show, I know exactly when the show floor closes, and I plan to get out and to my hotel room as quickly as possible. I’m going to eat, put on pajamas, listen to some quiet music, and read a book. I’m looking forward to this quiet time more than anything else I’ll be doing.

- Dress comfortably. I love costumes and makeup, I always have. I was going to cosplay at the next convention, but then I realized I’d have to get up way earlier to get ready. I love sleeping so much. So. Much. Also, I’d be stuck at my booth all day with no way to change if I needed. Comfort = Less irritable = Better customer interactions.

- Have something to do. I like painting at conventions so people can see that my work isn’t photoshopped, and I always have to do something with my hands. Most artists sketch all day. If you don’t have a portable handcraft, bring a fidget spinner. I use a fidget when speaking to people. I noticed I’d fidget when talking to people for most of my life anyway, with a toy I’m just focusing that energy into a less destructive way.

- Speaking of destruction, I can’t be the only person who chews the inside of my lip when anxious, can I? Chew some gum.

- Have sour candy on hand.

- Have a treat at the end of the day. You did a good job! My treat is quiet time. 😂 Be good to yourself, treat yourself to what your body and mind need.

[daphnedauphinoise]

Next style guide 🥺

For you,my muse:

Carolyn Bessette

She was a publicist at Calvin Klein when she met the king of prep, my personal hearthrob, JFK Junior. I love this deatched vibe that you get from her and well JFK Junior got that too from her. I  loved her because she gotJFK Jr but I love her even more because she has never not looked good. 

Carolyn’s style in three words would be simple, androgynous and straightforward. She doesn’t venture into anything too colourful or too risque but that is what works with her look and why she looks good all the time. Her style is a result of having a solid capsule wardrobe with items she van rotate throughout the year. But her capsule wardrobe is slightly different from the modern 2020 capsule wardrobe. What I love about Carolyn is the lack of blazers. Instead she uses long coats, long sleeved knits or she just goes sleeveless. Constantly wearing a blazer (imo) isn’t as stylish as people think it is, it is very easy to use a blazer as a scapegoat when you know your outfit is heading south. Sure, there isn’t alot of variety  in her style but that 'simpleness' is what looks good on her and her commitent to that, is why she looked good all the time. 

 The basics of her style is a button down, trousers and loafers. In most of her pap photographs she is wearing a variation of this. During warmer months, she switches to a silk skirt. She wasn’t a accessoriezer either or a makeup girlie. Infact in most of her pictures she is only sporting red lipstick and her hair either out and in a bun.

Regardless she has the coolness about her and she complimented JFK Jr well... a lot of people did not think so but I say she did. 

How to dress like Carolyn Bessette in..

Autumn/Winter?

Long silhouettes work beautifully during winter. Long A-line coats made with good quality wool are some of the best types of coats. Thicker knits layered on top of each other paired with structured trousers. I like to advise my friends to keep their knits and cardigan loongg. Long shilotues are very pleasing to the eye, it makes you look more uniform and it makes you look taller with a silmming effect.  If you are petite and/or you have a large bust, avoid crowding your neck with knitwear. High necks tend to make women with bigger bust look congested and stuffy. ( It also gives us the most unforgiving uniboob too) Try more v-line neckline or scoop neckline with knits, also I tend to avoid thick knits as the volume of the fabric makes me look clunky and not oversized chic. 

In a style where everything is so consistent, colour is how you are going to look different. You would think people would wear darker, rich colours in the colder months but they don’t. There is no need to be mono-chromatic all the time and again being dressed in mono-chromatic head to toe, isn’t the hallmark of good style. Carolyn used a lot of red to stop her outfits from looking repetitive. I think red is avery underrated colour. You only ever see it in lingere or silk-satin dresses because people only associate sensuality with red and compelty ignore that red also means power. Red in coats has the power to draw you in becuase you look different but the sleekness of your style isn’t screaming clown from the travelling circus but powerful lady coming through. 

Carolyn (i say as we were besties) loved wearing loafers. I think she wore them a lot because loafers show skin which helps break up an outfit. Because she wears a lot of long silhouettes and matching dark trousers and dark footwear, it is good to wear something that breaks up your body so you don’t look like a long line with no feet. Ballet flats are coming back and they do the same thing as well. Boots are another staple. I love pairing boots and long dress together. For the Carolyn Bessette look I would ditch the bratz esque knee high boots for something that is more loose with a moderate heel height.

Spring? Summer?

Personally, I am resortwear kind of girl. Heavily perfumes, heavily adorned and in soft fluttering fabrics is how you will find me. But Carolyn, nope. She still maintains those structures in her clothing choice during the summer months. Boxy oversized shorts, structured linen shorts (I highly reccomend everyont to have one pair in cream or beige, its such an essential), sandals, chinos, ribbed cami and silk-satin dresses that end just under your knee. 

Hamptons chic is her summer style. Linen, cotton and merino wool for the chiller knits. This is the time to wear the lighter colours of your favourite colours. If you want (and Carolyn did this) you can wear the same ensemble of an outfit but with lighter fabrics.

What I have noticed that is different in her spring/summer style and her autumn/winter is that there is a certain laissez-faire in her dressing style. Top buttons are undone, her hair is messier and she is relaxed. Her hair was always unkept but I think that really worked for her. 

Brands to get inspo for  Carolyn’s style: Iris & Ink, Khaite, Joseph and The Row.

There is a girl on tikok who is a great person to follow if you like Carolyn’s style ( i will tag her when i find her) .

Overall her style is very model-off duty-esque. There isn't really anything that stands out about her style from the next model but her style is undeniably hers. Apart from her marriage to JFK Jr her cool style is what she is remembered for. Everyone who met her in NYC would say that her style and grace were what caught their eyes. She had a way of holding her neck eye and she has this look that nothing could truly surprise her. It was her who truly established the minimalist look when fashion was heading straight to colour, glitter and prints. I miss her and I think about her all the time and I hope as she looks down from heaven that she is the blueprint and 20 years later people still want to emulate her signature look.

Daphne xoxo

[nctsjiho]

Au Naturel

warnings: none

era: mid 2020

❀ The “domestic look” was something fans were a very big fan of, now Mark sees it too

Mark wasn’t really sure where exactly the call of his name came from. Everything in front of his eyes was quite blurred. It felt like a fever dream, and his skin started to feel more and more clammy with every passing second. It was only when his ears worked out another mention of his name that the boy shook awake and realised that he was having a literal fever dream after all.

“Mark? Dude, wake up.” If it wasn’t the familiar voice, it was definitely the way the person addressed him that let Mark know JiHo was standing next to his bed. “I made you some food so get up now.” Before Mark could really say anything, he heard JiHo’s footsteps retreat out of his room. Deciding it wasn’t worth it to get JiHo annoyed by staying in bed - and in all honesty Mark realised he was actually hungry - he got out of bed and stumbled his way into the kitchen.

“I didn’t come up 5 flights of stairs to cook you food for you to sleep in, so you better eat it.” At this point, JiHo sounded like a mom nagging at her son. Placing the last dish on the table, the girl rested two hands on her hips and looked Mark straight in the eyes. “Who decides to do maintenance on the elevator at this time of day?”

Mark didn’t mean to stare, but he finally realised something as he watched the younger girl in front of him. All those times he’d read fans' posts about how they liked the “domestic look” on the members really made sense now. Seeing JiHo in mismatched sweatpants and hoodie, whatever parts of her short hair that could fit put up into a bun, glasses perched up on her nose. This wasn’t as familiar to him as it was to her roommates, so to see her like that, the boy had to admit it was charming in a sense.

JiHo had definitely noticed Mark’s blank stare and it was very amusing to her, visible by the way her lips curled into a smile. “Hey sick boy! I cooked you food once, no need to fall in love.” The way Mark fell into a fit of stutters only amused the younger one more. “I’m just kidding, dude. Let’s just eat.”

The two finally sat down and began to eat the meal JiHo prepared for Mark. The group had a bit of time off and most of the members took that time to have a bit of fun. Others decided to take the time to catch up on some much needed rest. In Mark’s case, hours and days and even weeks of being overworked crashed on him in an instant and had him pretty much bed ridden for two days as his temperature ran high, his muscles continuously ached and all he could really do was eat and sleep. When JiHo heard about it she decided she wanted to do something nice and cook a meal just for him.

“You just look pretty.” Was all Mark said, but it left JiHo choking on the soup she was trying to swallow. Mark didn’t even flinch as he continued to look at the younger girl. “W-Why-What are you talking about?”

Though Mark tried to stay cool, his cheeks did turn a light shade of pink, but luckily he could blame it on him feeling under the weather. “I just like when you wear glasses and don’t wear makeup. Natural looks good on you.” He stated, before returning to his food.

JiHo squinted her eyes at the boy who avoided making any further eye contact or conversation before shaking her head in disbelief. Leaning over the table she placed a hand on Mark’s forehead. It felt indeed a bit hotter than normal, but nothing concerning. “You must be really sick.” She whispered in response to his previous comment, her tone sounding not too impressed. Mark just laughed at her, but didn’t feel the need to say anything further.

“Next time you get sick I’ll tell Haechan to come over. If flirting is what you do when you feel ill I’m sure Haechan would appreciate it.”