#and i was like i was aware of the nail hiting but the lip biting and the skin picking. i had never noticed them before | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

sludgeguzzler · 3 months ago

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I'm really proud of how far I've come with my mental health honestly. I used to think I'd slowly shrivel into myself getting worse and worse and worse until there wasn't any "me" left, but this year really showed me how distant that reality is to me. People are kind, and how much they love me is stronger than how much I hate myself, somehow. I have reasons to stay here now, outside of me and inside of me. I have goals, I have hobbies, I have likes and dislikes, I don't feel that much like an empty vessel anymore, and it's all thanks to the people around me and my own drive to find those things in my life. Life sucks and I'll probably pick up smoking at some point, but it's not all bad and I'm not the worst guy there is out there. Tomorrow's a new day, a new chance, yadda yadda

#talk #im still constantly battling with my self esteem and my anxiety but im enjoying being alive lately its nice #so done with this stuff though 3+ months of not biting my nails and then i literally chew them all off in like a week #didnt even notice it either my therapist was the one to point it out to me #''hey did you know you bite your lips and nails a lot? theyre really bruised. do you pock your skin?''#and i was like i was aware of the nail hiting but the lip biting and the skin picking. i had never noticed them before #dude my lips are straight up bloody like they hurt even when im not doing anything with them. goddamn #the skin picking is so so argh too im literally doing it right now as i type this #anywyas! today fucking sucked wow. im going to sleep

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