#and i was just like ‘oh uh ahaha btw im gonna be driving right in the storm now lol’

[hecksupremechips]

Sometimes you just gotta drive home when it’s very dark and storming horribly while attempting to eat chicken nuggets and blare metal music

[6ad6ro]

im watching the projared explanation vid rn n i'm gonna keep adding to this as i watch. think of this as like real-time commentary? even tho it’s not real-time at all like i’m just pausing the video to make lil comments. here’s vid btw. but geez it'd be weird if all he did was cheat (like it's icky i’m def against cheating... but how would that matter to you if it doesn't involve u personally?).

TLDR (this was written after the fact): i’m rly leaning towards believing him about not doing the underage stuff. and i wished i had listened to my initial gut on that. i could care less about exchanging nudes with fans if they were 18+. i also could care less about any relationship drama. anyways i watched all of it and wrote a LOT. it’s kinda interesting (not rly) to see my opinion change over the course of the writing? i was really tearing into jared at first ahaha. but i’m putting it under a readmore. it’s not written well at all so read if you dare...

just started watching. first of all i will say it feels very scripted (is he lying/acting/performing? or is it just well thought out??) idk and LOL at him purposely looking unshaven and like a mess... like THAT was at least on purpose and makes me immediately not rly trust him? but idk i can't actually judge him based on this rly... then again what a sappy fucking thumbnail.

aw geez IT'S LIKE HE'S DOIN A REG COMEDY VIDEO like stop acting dude? i know he's... well he’s weird and seems like a very “scripted” person if that makes sense? but... it's just a rly weird move to try and make a "here's the real story/apology" video this way. not how i’d do it at all (and i’ve been there to a much lesser degree so)...

oh and i know he's SUPER mad at the two (at the time) underage ppl? and justifiably so if they lied. but idk his claim that the only reason for them to remove their accusation posts was "bc they held no water and they knew the timing was right to safely do the most damage"? uh dude you're one of the more well known youtubers like IMAGINE all the ppl that were harassing these guys? well at least they were both lgbtq etc and the gaming community has a traditionally open mind about that (sarcasm).

btw i kinda hate the term "the tea" too? soo much. but just bc it's another appropriated term white kids overuse... but even still i probably wouldn't have opened up a vid like this... well i'll just say it... was he straight up pointing the finger at gay ppl etc for harassing him n bein shallow n only enjoying the drama etc? like idKKK it just felt like he was calling out sassy gay ppl ONLY like why did he even say that??

yeah bc straight white gamer dudes NEVER gossip about drama. they NEVER act shallow. dude ur fanbase is like... some of the most shallow, gossipy ppl out there. i can't TELL you how many AWFUL videos i watched of your fans n other youtbers talking about you. and how... INSANE? it was? that they only rly called you out for "cheating on your cute wife" bc the accusations of underage shit n manipulation yeah nbd! but god forbid you cheat on your "attractive cosplay wife".

srry i'm rly tearing him apart here... i'm not meaning to. almost every gaming personality has shit fans. even i? me. a nobody. have to double check new followers to see if they're nazis etc? it's so common... anyways i'm not actually damning him in any way yet even if i'm bringing up so many lil issues i have w this vid lol srry?

btw i used to follow his tumblr. there was WEIRD shit going on, esp right before it shut down. like the "i got hacked" thing seems really convinient? IDK srry it's just my gut but he reminds me of sociopaths etc i used to be friends with. how he explains things and talks... like they all sound a lil like dennis from always sunny? idk my gut is tellin me he's full of shit i'm sorry. gonna keep watching. wait he really WAS hacked? i mean i guess i believed he was hacked at first bc the guy posting awful shit and claiming to be a pro-hacker was... well he was too crazy to be made up. a real fucking maniac loser.

as time is going on, unless all of this stuff is fabricated? he seems ro have found a crazy amount of proof that he didn't do the underage stuff. like... maybe the weird vibes he gave off is this stuff drove him insane? like... i’ve been friends with/dated quite a few fucked up, gaslighting assholes? trying to figure out what the fuck is going on can drive you a little nuts. he's kinda winning me over here a lil... again if the underage/manipulation stuff is untrue? i could care less about the other stuff. and i LOVE ross? but srry... who cares about that other stuff...

to explain what changed my mind: most ppl that he reminds me of are sociopaths etc. or rather, people that really fucked my life up. so i have a lotta baggage regarding them? and they're bigger in my mind than the other types. i won't lie the way he explains things and argues points REALLY bugs me? but i know ppl like that who are good people. or at least not psychopaths. immature, basic idiots at the worst (not that im callin HIM an idiot). anyways that alone doesn't make him guilty. watchin more now.

i was about to bring up that its actually really... cool? that he's focusing on the underage shit rather than the cheating/drama? bc thats all that needs to be explained rly? but LOL he just got to the "game grumps" part n in losing it. am i rly about to drown in this drama? fuck dude lol noooooo....

okay finished it. fuck man idk i feel stupid. right at the start i even was like "noooo he couldn't have!" but the underage stuff is like... like that shit makes my brain boil n stop working n go into “ill kill him” mode. and jared was so silent and so i figured he was doing damage control (ignoring it until it went away) rather than research to show people this was all fake/getting legal advice?

i kinda think he didn't do any of the real icky shit. i still get a vibe he might be a weirdo. and i don't think heidi necessarily made ALL of that stuff up? and i could care less that he was getting sexually involved w his fans like even I have been flirted with due to running a game gif blog (god knows why). and like FUCK it's so normalized for ppl in bands to sleep w fans? so why on EARTH would people think youtube gamerz are “too good for that”? anyways...

my point is, i think i mighta been wrong about him n the underage stuff. idk what to believe about the other stuff? the only thing i know for sure is that ross o'donovan is a very sweet n nice guy. and i'm so glad the drama between him and jared was imagined. it was prob just shitty to have fans ask him about it over and over...

okay lol if you just read all of this please go do something more fun and interesting now lol! i'm gonna put this all under a readmore and put a tldr on it! and... go to bed bc fuck its 2am OOPS!

[queenangst]

it took all my braining just to come up with that much so. take it. take the human keith and run i fully enable this. and also let's talk how Keith wouldn't put walls up to keep people from getting close and befriending him

edit: this got really, really, really long. um. 

look at u two enablers, what the heck:

keith who grew up with both parents around 

parents who have actual names. fuck. do i know them, though? still. no.

keith who had a “normal” childhood - he’s got friends and he goes to public school and his family loves him. and maybe he has a sibling!

bye bye, abandonment issues

i like to think he’d still be a bit of a loner. withdrawn, but the friendships he does make are strong and lasting, and, like canon keith, he is deeply loyal to them

he still wants to go to space, and his parents encourage him. and he makes it to the garrison 

i think here is where things begin to play out a bit differently. there are so many ways this could go, but i like to think keith and shiro do end up being friends 

i don’t think they’d be super close (pre-canon/kerberos). 

more on that: i think the reason pre-canon shiro was drawn to being friends with keith was because he must have seen a lot of himself in him. the drive, the recklessness, the way he reacts to things and to authority.

with a different upbringing, that changes, and i feel like maybe keith would have a little more of the same star-struck attitude the other paladins do re: shiro 

but! they’re still quite good friends pre-kerberos 

this changes what happens, though, when shiro goes missing

keith has some friends from the garrison [instead of his implied canon loneliness], one of whom is katie, who he recognizes as pidge when she infiltrates the garrison

so keith keeps his anger and his fear and his grief and stays at the garrison, and he and pidge share a quiet burden as they work to figure out together the truth

this, of course, changes how lance is still a cargo pilot, sorry, my dude

however, it does mean that keith and lance come into contact. and they warm up to each other and lance lets go of the jealous/attention-fed rivalry and they muck around and bicker but it’s all in good fun

ALSO keith and hunk are good for each other and they ground each other—hunk helps when keith gets into his rants and moods about shiro, and keith helps hunk when he freaks out or panics

also. what a squad, am i right. what a squad. they have therapeutic study sessions and colorful flashcards 

and this also affects pidge in that during her garrison time she too does not shut people out, that’s right, everyone is opening up to each other and communicate a lot it’s very good

boom boom it’s shiro, motherfuckers

“guys it’s fine i’ve been hiding this hoverbike for a year”

“keith are u trying to be cool and e d g y wow i can’t believe we’re friends”

uh. literally no one knows how to fight on the squad. i feel like keith learned fighting bc he was angry and he lashed out a lot and he was picked on as a kid and. that doesn’t happen in this au, so, now the squad is all dweebs

but they manage to bang their way through the room and get shiro on the bike and then they floor it

“keith do u know how to drive, what the fucK!” 

“trust me”

“i really dooOOOOOOOOONT”

instead of heading out to the shack, no one knows where the fuck that is, what the fuck, they just run away from garrison officials

and then they find some caves and they’re like, oh, we can stay here for a bit and think about our next move because wow what we just did was really dumb 

lo and behold! it’s blue ! whats up homegirl 

well, off to space! 

suck it, you’re homesick! and you’re homesick! and yoU’RE HOMESICK everyone is hOMESICK and keith misses his family so much it hurts

but u know what? they all talk about it 

wow!! communication !

btw keith’s dad teaches him how to use a knife. kind of. so keith actually can kinda fight, but he doesn’t have a lot of experience. and he doesn’t have A Knife (TM) that he carries around 24/7. ok maybe he has a butterfly knife bc he thinks theyre cool 

so he can wield a knife, but he might also accidentally lightly stab himself, too, so, who knows 

training sucks everything sucks and instead of study sessions they start having training sessions outside of their usual ones. colorful flashcards become sparring. pillow fights become training. they also have miss-earth sessions where they just hang out and talk about the things they miss from earth, like their families, but also bacon

actually keith being human? solves so many problems

the team might not be good at fighting. but they’re able to form voltron almost effortlessly, and their training is hard but they work together really well 

what happens to the blade of marmora, annie? 

uh. that’s a real good question. really good question. 

it actually ends up with shiro as their connection to bom because of ulaz

consider this tho. the trials of marmora are for shiro - as leader of voltron - to prove that he is worthy and that voltron is worth allying with

shiro !!! in the bom suit !!! 

i mean this in both the angst way and the wOW can u imagine that boi in the fucking bom suit

also when shiro pushes keith about being leader... keith pushes back. he tells shiro his fears. what he thinks. he tells shiro he doesn’t want to be leader 

he’s willing to step up to the plate, but he... still doesn’t want to. they talk about it. a lot. shiro teaches him about leadership, and keith grows bc of it. 

shiro goes missing again, go figure

keith, as promised, takes up the mantle. but the transition is smoother, easier. there’s more trust. the team listens to each other, works together to make sure they’re still okay.

i think keith tries to shut people out... but he can’t. number one, because he really just can’t bottle it up, and number two, because the others barge into his room and hold a sleepover and they talk about their feelings, so he also really can’t, but hey, some slight character conflict

things go sO much better

oh i forgot to write about this scene earlier so im gonna write about it now. keith goes after the quintessence and he burns himself and it damages his hand instead of healing it 

alternatively, he stays with the others and that druid scene that’s meant to be foreshadowing for keith’s galra heritage is just. nonexistent, lol

but i like to think he burned his hand bc how fun is that 

think about keith recovering 

think about it

think. about i t that’s some good hurt/comfort right there yes sir it is

anyway shiro comes back and everyone returns to their roles, i guess?

sorry that’s kind of boring 

here’s something less boring

allura is the one who leaves

EDIT: ok from here on it gets a little allura-centric but that’s a) because i don’t really talk about what happens to the team and b) the role switch is so interesting

they make it so that coran can be in charge of the castle, because fuck, they’re smart! they can do it! they press some buttons and allura does some commanding at the castle and they get coran in the system

also now two people can open wormholes and shit that’s like, convenient, dude

allura thinks about remaining with the team on the castle. like she could go back to her role

but instead kolivan offers training

at first she refuses. she’s since made peace with the fact that bom is galra, but she’s still wary

but then she decides she should. not only does this allow her to train and for her to feel like she’s doing more, but it also gives her room to see how non-empire-related galra act and the way they form relationships and their way of working 

she does return to the team—it’s switched between her training here and there with the bom, doing fieldwork and honing her fighting and shapeshifting skills and learning more about diplomacy and being a leader and being on a different team, and then she’ll go back to the castle and this changes how she works with team voltron!

also. i know we were just talking about shiro in a bom suit but.... allura. girl would rock it. think about th a t

also, if this means allura, too, goes through the trials of marmora, ahaha, sign me the fuck up

this is way behind but “u fight like a galra” doesnt happen

keith’s whole thing with zarkon? might not have happened

anyway

also that whole animosity etc between keith and allura? they butt heads because of differences in opinion but human keith removes the whole galra-altean conflict

ok now consider this 

they go to the parallel universe and not only do they meet sven, they also meet [kogane] akira who uhhhhhhh is half galra keith, and everyone’s like, wtf ?

sorry i keep jumping around the timeline. fuck the timeline, am i right

back to season 4

keith is with team voltron when the whole naxzela thing goes down

whoop whoop

allura is the one out there haHa

wait im sorry dont die i love u

so allura is a self-sacrificial character as well. either she

is like keith and rams toward the shield thing, hoe dont do it

or she and coran team up, shoot the shield with the castle, and allura gets in and faces off haggar in a parallel to their first fight

she almost loses against haggar...

until she’s saved by prince lotor who crashes his ship into the side and walks in like “hi mom take this” and like, shoots her in the face

ok he doesn’t say “hi mom” bc he doesn’t know but u know. “hey witch bitch” or “fuck u” or “u ruined my team and my family and im here to fuck u the fUCK UP”

instead of coming to save voltron and keith and shit

he comes because he’s tracking down haggar because he’s pissed about what she did to narti 

wow i love lotor

anyway haggar gets taken down and she flees (and now both haggar and zarkon are weakened) and allura and lotor stare at each other and allura’s like “i dont like u and i dont trust u but i guess we both have a common enemy maybe we can work something out”

and then she threatens him again

and that’s how we line up with canon!