#and i used to not let my irls follow my ss blog bc i thought they would think i was cringe.

[permafrown]

YIKES i am so scared to start selfshipping. I want to kiss spy tf2 so bad How do i Begin how do i stop thinking im cringe as fuck. Ik cringe culture is dead but hes so pretty i canno

BUDDY it's just something you just kinda. Go For. I started self-shipping when I was 16 (so 4 years ago) after like. Shyly asking one of my mutuals in an anonymous ask if they had even considered making one LOL. And they did so I ended up following suit like the day after. There's comfort in knowing other people- especially if you're somewhat close to em- do it too.

Start silly if that's your style. Like you could just be like

And that's valid enough.

Literally there's no wrong way to to about it, as long as it's fun for you at the end of the day. 👍 AND ONTOP OF EVERYTHING DUDE SPY TF2 IS SUCH AN AWESOME PICK. No matter what I'm nodding my head and supporting you 1,000%

[dvrlingrenjun]

uh hello! this post is just for some of my friends and followers on this app. if you’re not interested, i’ll add a read more cut ٩(^ᴗ^)۶

i’ll start off with this message, i’m not really into sappy things lmao. so uh i hope you enjoy this one-time thing ig? i just made this post to hope you guys know i... appreciate? you guys? yeah anyways, let’s start this thing lol 

to my followers! thank you so much for sticking with me and following me in the first place. to give me a platform to show my love for writing, i’m so grateful for that. i’m so sorry for not posting much and i hope to get out of my *funk* so i can post more for you guys!

to my (distant-ish?) mutuals! honestly, i don’t know who my mutual friends are anymore.（∂△∂；）but hello! i hope you guys are doing fine and healthy! i hope to get closer to you guys soon! although, i’m really bad at answering people ;-; i think most of my moots are from jcc? if so! thank you guys for making me feel included and making me feel comfortable with you guys! thank you for laughing at my jokes and for saying it’s alright when i felt i made the convo awkward with my dark humor jokes hhhh. stay safe okay? or i’ll come over to your blog and send slapping memes or smth lmao and this goes for anyone (ಠ ∩ಠ). 

my sisters, (philo, jo, ness!) i honestly don’t think i interact with you guys much? but thank you ness and jo for allowing me to be your “sibling” when i said i was the only child ^-^ thank you jo for the wonderful hyuck fic recommendations and i hope to become closer to you (including ness too!) thank you ness for letting me and philo meet your irl friends to play among us bc hhh i would be so scared to share my irl friends to you guys lolol. tbh, before we interacted with each other, i thought you were so cool! and intimidating but we don’t mention that lol. (you’re still cool tho lol) and philo! i have a fun time bullying you •̀ω•́ but i don’t think that matters anyways because you call me cute or smth lmao. to me, you’re like that weird older sister but i can tell you care for us :] (please i want to choke how cheesy this is for me)

my mothers! (aka emmy, jia and brie!) to emmy: ah thank you so much for being so supportive of me, everyone does support me but for some reason you stick out so much to me lol so thank you for that! i’m really sorry for not texting you as much :/ hopefully, i get to text you more soon! to jia! my bad*ss mother (∩_∩) idk why i just get those vibes from you. thank you for dealing with me and fangirling over odd girl out. idk why but whenever i text you, you make me so calm? again, i am sorry again for not texting you much. i hope these apologies don't seem repetitive hhh. and to brie! i believe the first person i reached out to? first of all, i’m not even sure i consider you as a “mother” but i feel like you fit this catergory lol. thank you so much, letting me rant to you from my personal problems to jihoon with blue hair. i really hope you know i’m here for you too! even though, you know i’m really bad at comforting people but there for you take your mind off things!

to my partner in crime, you know who you are lol. hello my fellow renjun lover. you somehow quickly became one of my closest friends and somehow made me feel comfortable ranting to you and spamming you about doyoung? how do you do it? lmao jkjk. but you don’t really know how many times you distracted me from wallowing myself into a small sad ball, it happens too often lol. istg if one day you don’t come over to my school, it’s on sight ಠ_ಠ lmao jkjk again unless,,,,

uh so yeah that’s about it, i’m sorry if i didn’t make a special mention for you :[ i was going to add more people but i’m writing this last minute (of course, it’s me we’re talking about lol) but here is a quick list of people: jenna, joyce, krystal, gwen, kay, redacted, vera, rowan, gia, june, eun, kara, kathy, leyna, mara, milly, osho (my other mother lol) and more. not really going to @ anyone because i am mortified of what’s everyone’s response are going to be but yeah. happy thanks giving?

p.s: i might delete this later but you can totally reblog this or smth. yeah bye? lol

[jewel-s-blog]

about me + bias list

 hi there, I’m jewel :)

she/her/hers ��� 20 ・ kpop (writing) blog

Yes, Jewel is my real name although my parents admit I was supposed to be named elizabeth but changed their minds last minute after I was born how cute and I’m currently in university. I study political science and japanese for those wondering (because yes, I am japanese and it’s helpful when you live in hawaii to have that degree yk?). If any of this stuff is even mildly interesting and you have any curiosities, pls feel free to ask me!

I try to write some things when I can, so feel free to take a look at my masterlist. I also read A LOT of fics on this site, so also peep my recs if you feel like it. Warning: its mostly fluff and angst and almost always includes smut but there’s some really good stuff worth reading still! 

Feel free to talk to me :) i don’t have any kpop friends irl :( all my friends are locals smh 

I try my hardest to be active as much as possible but it’s taken me over a year to finally get used to tumblr lol marklee and i both struggle with complex technology i guess Of course, there are times when I get busy with college and will probably seem to drop off the face of the planet exam season kills but now that I’ve been in quarantine for a month, I figured now is the best time to start building an active tumblr routine. 

That’s all for now! Keep reading below for my bias list :)

xoxo, jewel <3

Bias List 

Before I begin, I will warn that this is basically a giant NCT shxtpost. With LOTS of hyperlinks for educational purposes and absolute crackhead-ery. I’ll eventually make a separate list for other groups I stan, but this blog is mainly NCT and this is already so long so I’ll leave it as this. Enjoy!

Biases are bolded in the beginning of each unit, so you can skip everything after if you don’t wanna see my ramblings following it.

A/N: After biasing nearly every member in NCT/WayV I’ve settled for now on my biases for each unit. This will most likely rotate fairly regularly as I literally fall in love with a different member every day cited here. solo stan? I don’t know her.

ULT

Jaehyun  *ahem excuse me i mean* 

Johnny Suh, it’s official. Don’t know how to explain, but I love everything about him. In the end, it’s always him. damn i sound like y/n thoughts but istg it’s true From SM Rookies to NCT Life to MV behinds, he’s the one. But I’ve also come to realize that I find myself most relatable to him as a person and I think that’s why no one else can trump him wow narcissist much jewel It’s kind of just my gut feeling. It also helps that hes the fluffiest tall, muscular tight booty hottie on the planet. See this black on black dance practice for further scientific explanation even in this jaehyun trying to wreck me so badddddd

Not gonna lie, I HAD IT BAD FOR MARK LEE still do and yet Johnny overcame that. If mark lee were my first love, johnny is my soulmate.

UPDATE! 

Lee Jeno has officially been added to the ult list. *See the entirety of my april activity on my sns accounts if you would like to see how this happened haha :)

NCT U  

im in love with him bc he literally reminds me of my boyfriend -- i like chill guys ok

Taeil is my little teddy bear who looks great in red hair and has a voice form heaven. Evidence? Here you go. He didn’t stand out to me much in the beginning because I was either deaf or blind but after Chain, the game was OVER. +moon taeil in shorts?? serve them thighs honey. Love you bebe tomato <3

BUT Doyoung is the #1 bias wrecker here because have you seen his cover of beautiful on masked singer?? have you?? if not, let me educate you. Also his collab with Sejeong?? Literally the cutest MV ever, perfect for Christmas, listened to it every year since it’s release.

Listen to Coming Home - NCT U for further scientific evidence that NCT has top vocals in the kpop industry.

NCT 127

THE Jung Jaehyun. For reasons that need no explanation. but ill give it anyway smh

After watching the performance of herin and jaehyun singing a whole new world I knew that was it for me. (I still watch it once a month for my jaehyun-related health and to honor SM’s biggest loss, seo herin and ji hansol but thats for another conversation) back to jaehyun His vocals are unique in NCT and bring a nice color to their songs, the man looks good in literally anything, and I’ll probably say this about every member, but I love his dance style--body rolls for days sis. Definitely my ideal type, which my boyfriend is 100% aware of; no secrets in my relationship ofc which explains the wreckage. Pretty sure 81% of the fandom gets wrecked by him daily, so I think I’ll stop here. 

NCT Dream 

Renjun.  why? i just think he’s neat but no really, it was this performance (ok actually this got me ALL SORTS OF WRECKED) and this fancam that had me falling in love with him but were gonna ignore the fact that I get bias wrecked DAILY by all the other members  GOd-tier vocals, personality for daysssssss, variety KING HUANG RENJUN. Safe to claim that I go into renjun feels about 3x a week. Check my twitter for proof. +dnyl renjun was a blessing and I sometimes cant believe that it actually happened. How do I explain?? He’s literally the best boy, but when he gets all worked up....let’s stop there before I have to go to confession again.

But for fun, lets list why I have biased every dream member at some point shall we? (in no particular order) Dream might just be my ult group, songs always bop, members at star quality 

mark- yes i am including mark bc he was the reason i even started stanning dream dreamies leader since mmc days, mentor, A1 rap skills, ad libs go crazy, unparalleled dancing style, hardest worker, cutest watermelon advocate ever, all around amazing person can you tell he used to be my ult? + he’s a good christian boy and my catholic *ss has to confess my sins for being a simp for him 24/7

chenle- vocal GOD, most steady live vocals in kpop, laugh to die for

jeno- i cannot resist his eye smile i wanna cuddle and onstage charisma-2:54 “let’s goooooo” and i alskfdfjlkdldkfa. 

jaemin- “other than my members, i don’t have any friends” and yet he’s literally the most caring and wonderful little puff in existence fight me pls dont im a pacifist 

heachan- idk why but donghyukie feels like he could be my best friend and also cant stop staring at him in their dance practices his body proportions are unreal and his vocal ad libs?? don’t even get me STARTED on heachans vocals

jisung- he is my son, but also my son’s vocals?? MWAH that voice got me second guessing if he’s really my son 

WayV 

Ten Chittaphon Leechaiyapornkul another member where it kinda just....happened? In the end I was like “damn, when did you sneaky bugger get in my heart?” He’s got a similar vibe as Johnny AND DO NOT COME FOR MY THROAT FOR SAYING THAT THATS MY OPINION Like Johnny, I see myself in Ten. There are so many reasons why I love Ten, so I’ll make it simple and provide them to you. 

Reason 1 - Performance/dance  he just hit different, he’s THAT good. Reason 2 - vocals the amount his vocals has improved?? UNMATCHED. Reason 3 - INTELLECTUAL (still trying to find the clip of him talking about different kinds of love) Reason 4 - multi-lingual KING ok so this vid is him struggling in mandarin, but imagine, you speak thai and english and learn korean to debut and all of a sudden your agency says “ok learn chinese now.” MANDARIN IS ONE OF THE HARDEST LANGUAGES TO LEARN. Reason 5 - bad b*tch he just radiates bad bitxh energy in everything he does, and I appreciate a bad bitxh

BUT I love wayv’s chaotic energy and chemistry so much that I literally love them all dreamies watch out 

+special shoutout to xiaojuns vocals in Love Talk

+kun being a dimpled zaddy (jaehyun&kun type CONFIRMED)

+lucas holding binoculars like THAT @ 1:10

+yangx2 doing THIS (prepare to be blown away)

+hendery being a the best teacher 

+winwin BEING WINWIN THE DANCE GOD 

+winwin AGAIN and with Ten here i don’t even think i have to say that i tweeted about this everyday for a month and im still not over it. This specific dance really allowed winwin to shine even though ten is my bias. It really allowed others to see the fruit of his classical training even in modern dance which he never trained in. Not gonna be repetitive and SCREAM  say that he’s underrated, because we all know that already. Just show winwin some love, ok? thank you.

And so finally, we’ve reached the end. Phew, this took me almost 5 hours to put together because I definitely got carried away. For those who made it all the way to the end, thank you, I love you. It’s so messy and I don’t have the mental capacity to do anymore editing but I hope you got something from this massive post <3 Feel free to let me know what you think! xoxo, jewel