#and i thought that was just exhaustion and maybe allergies? i dont really get seasonal allergies...

[britneyshakespeare]

i'm so involved that the little bitch gave me Hand, Foot, and Mouth Disease

T-shirt that says 🔥INVOLVED AUNT🔥

[pbandjesse]

Today was not a good day. I just felt crummy all day. It wasnt fun for me. Im trying to be positive. But yeah. Today was hard.

I think it was mostly my allergies. I had a fun time with James when it got home last night. We were really giggly. And getting to sleep was hard because of that. 

I slept in because I didnt have to go to work. But I was. Exhausted. Like. Miserable exhausted. I couldnt breathe. I was not happy. James laid with me for a little while. But then he got up and made me breakfast but it was still hard to like. Crack a smile. I It wasnt like all bad. The breakfast was nice. I got to try the new veggie bacon I got yesterday. Which was a little to greasy for my taste. But maybe James will try to cook it in a different way. 

James made us a cheese cake with a ritz cracker crust. Which was awesome. But while he was baking that I decided that I had to lay down. I felt horrible. I went and laid in the studio and slept for almost 2 hours. Which then made me feel really guilty but I was so tired. I got up and went to find James. He was acting all happy to see me in the day time and that made me smile. I love him very much. Even when Im miserable. 

We had his very good cheese cake. And laid on the couch. I tried my best to be more positive but I just wasnt. And then he had to leave for work and all I wanted to do was go back to sleep but I was like. No. Cannot. 

I had seen an ad for a BBC show called Ghosts and it was only 6 episodes so I thought I would put that on and have something to just keep on while I worked on a bracelet. 

And that did help! I started to feel a little better. A little more positive. I worked on the bracelet for a little while. But I also still felt tired. So I laid in the studio and enjoyed the show and played on my phone. 

And it was a good show! I hope it gets a second season because it was fun. About a woman who inherits a house, that has ghosts, but they are all just goofy and it was just fun. Made me smile at least. 

After I finished that I decided to walk over to the shopping center. Get some vitamins. Some snacks for lunches. The security guard wouldnt let someone in without a mask and that was good. Made me feel a little safer. 

And the masks I ordered for me and James finally came! So we have some plain black ones now. And the flannel dress I bought finally came and its so darling. It makes up for the not as great dress I got over the weekend that I dont even really want to wear. So I am pleased. Im going to wear it tomorrow. 

I had a dinner of nachos. And one of the donuts I got at the store. And I have been trying hard to just feel okay. I am watching silly videos and drinking water. But now I think I am going to go take a shower and try to feel better. 

I hope you all have a good night and that tomorrow you just feel happy and safe. Sleep well everyone!

[frankensteindotpdf]

69-💯 ask meme GO

oh god here we go. under the cut

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

ambivert tbh...i usually spend a lot of time being alone or being with people and after too long i crave the opposite.

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

nope. almost once but my mom said it was too expensive

71. What makes you nervous?

every single thing ever. legit just...everything. Being in a car. Talking to people. Not hearing from people. Eating. Not eating. Watching my nephews. Letting their parents watch them instead. Wearing clothes that make me look good. Wearing clothes that make me feel comfortable. Ghosts. The concept of just stopping existing instead. Like...name a thing that exists or doesnt and im nervous about it.

72. Are you scared of the dark?

yeah, sometimes. depends on my mood. Outside? All the time if im alone. Inside? a lot of he time if im alone lmao ok so usually yeah but not if im with someone else

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

depends on the mistake and the person? but most of the time i do, yeah

74. Are you ticklish?

yes extremely so but if anyone tries it ill fuckin kill you

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

not that i know of. i try to stay out of drama. It’s exhausting.

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

just like...babysitting. Or I guess cadets (like military club for kids in Canada) counts but im terrible at it. I cant give orders

77. Have you ever drank underage?

hehe yeah

78. Have you ever done drugs?

not yet ;) nah real talk i wanna try edibles or smth but i also am worried about psychosis so im gonna wait till my brains a lil more developed (even tho weed is legal now yee yee)

79. Who was your first real crush?

oh god probably this kid in my class in SK...i had a crush on him for like 10 years it was nuts (unless you count fictional characters because lbr probably madeline or hermione)

80. How many piercings do you have?

just the classic earlobes, but im seriously considering getting a helix

81. Can you roll your Rs?

yep and my brother cant so i mock him all the time hehe

82. How fast can you type?

average for a person who has to look at the keys i suppose

83. How fast can you run?

not very fast at all. ive always hated running. im more of an endurance type of guy. ill walk for hours but i can only run for like...30 seconds

84. What color is your hair?

Supposed to be teal, faded to a minty green. (naturally brown)

85. What color is your eyes?

Hazel, leaning more towards green (though my mom would beg to differ) but my three year old nephew says they’re green and he’s v confident in his knowledge of colours so duh mom clearly they are green

86. What are you allergic to?

GOD i have seasonal allergies and on top of that im allergic to cats, apples, cherries, some scents and detergents, peanuts and tree nuts, maybe carrots?? and maybe this one brand of toothpaste??? i need to get tested again (THIRD time) i hate it. I still eat everything im not supposed to eat tho (aside from the raw fruits..those ones make my mouth hella itchy)

87. Do you keep a journal?

always wanted to, never had the commitment necessary

88. What do your parents do?

Mom’s a nurse, dad’s a business clerk at a hospital

89. Do you like your age?

yes. Im having a Great Time. I wanted to diiiieeee in high school but university is such a good time (im like a week away from my bday so like...not yet but in a week ill be having a Good Time cuz ill be able to buy alcohollll)

90. What makes you angry?

People judging other people, especially when you dont know em and also stubborn people??? like GOD nothing makes me more angry than a person who just refuses to do or try smth for no reason i dont know why other than that i dont really get angry too often (mostly just frustrated lmao)

91. Do you like your own name?

I DONT KNOW im having such a problem with it i just dont know its pretty femme and spelled weird and i cant decide if i like having a femme name or not cuz i dont like being percieved as feminine most of the time but i dont hate hate hate my name???? for now ill just say i dont like the spelling and idk if i like the name

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

Nope. Im not carrying kids so i dont need to unless i end up with a partner that wants to (and the like....science and money to do so). I also like the idea of adopting, so if i do have kids they’ll already come with names lmao

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

gender....is not important*

*obvs except when dysphoria is involved but like...it dont matter to me a kid’s a kid (also who says they wont be nb) (yes most sjw answer ik but i seriously could not give less fucks)

94. What are you strengths?

im pretty nice and good at art (in different forms)

95. What are your weaknesses?

im bad at admitting my strengths lmao and im a big ole hypocrite and i could keep making this list forever

96. How did you get your name?

My parents wanted to name me after my grandmas but their first names were a lil odd so they went with middle names, but then they didnt want alliteration so they changed a c to a k and then they also didnt like the way one name was pronounced so they tweaked it and now i have a name that seems obvious but is apparently both very difficult and very difficult to spell and say, considering no one ever gets it first try (Karaline, pronounced “Kara-line”)

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

Not that im aware of

98. Do you have any scars?

yeah, just little ones from scratching mosquito bites too much or random childhood injuries nothing too interesting Except for one/two on my arm from a staple sticking out of a chair it hurt so bad lmao and now ive got a scar that (tw) looks like self harm and i was so mad cuz like...i never did and now im stuck with this mark that looks like i did and PEOPLE HAVE COMMENTED ON IT i want to die everytime

99. Color of your bedspread?

grey and black cuz im EMO but also i have one that looks like a galaxy and i love

100. Color of your room?

purple and white

in conclusion f u lola but also this was kinda fun so maybe..not