#and i think this coupled with his rather glib attitude nominally puts moze off
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Moze is initially apprehensive about your and Jiaoqiu's relationship. Not because you're not good for him. You are. You make him smile, you make him laugh, you bring him fresh groceries when he has a hard time leaving the house, you make sure he doesn't just rot in bed all day (although you happily join him for this too). But as Moze comes to acknowledge his past, as he understands more about what it means to have people to care about and who truly care about you, he realizes how hard it is to live without people who mean so much. And if something happens to one of you, will the other survive?
It leaves Moze feeling confused. Is this jealousy? That losing one of you might mean losing you both, without care for what happens to the rest of them.
On some level, you all live dangerous lives, even if Jiaoqiu doesn't work for anyone but Feixiao anymore and diviners are fairly well guarded when they are near the battlefield. Moze knows it won't happen yet, that you are not yet so tied together, but he worries for Jiaoqiu and his fragile heart.
Moze remains his reticent self when Jiaoqiu talks about you, or when you talk about Jiaoqiu. You are undeniably good for him, and Moze can, with fond begrudging, admit Jiaoqiu is good for you too. And slowly, Moze's apprehension transforms into a more worn, tired worry touched with curiosity.
For so many years, stronger feelings have felt burned out of him. With no one to respond to his cries, they had died before they could lay half-formed in his chest. And although it is a gentle thing, the love between you and Jiaoqiu is strong enough to make Moze unsure. All he can do is keep you alive when he can. For Jiaoqiu's sake. He's not willing to let a thing like love keep you all from sharing the life you have been given.
#hg.post#jiaoqiu#jiaoqiu x reader#moze#hsr#i think moze's feelings around romantic love are complicated at best#it's like he doesn't understand it#but “love” or “devotion” was one of the things used as an excuse to harm him in the past#so he immediately sees the danger in it#one of the side quests has you meeting an elderly foxian man who lost his wife#and a heliobus is both trying to understand and alleviate this man's guilt#if you're with him long enough#I think it's safe to say Jiaoqiu would become a shell of himself if he lost his mate#he's getting better at it#but he has a heart capable of incredible empathy and love#and it's what makes him fragile#loss touches him very deeply#and i think this coupled with his rather glib attitude nominally puts moze off#they care about one another#but moze (who had to suppress many of his emotions and tears) also is perplexed#from the margins#midnight posting
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