#and i think the show could do something rlly interesting w this relationship if it acknowledged it is flawed

[ariesprincesss]

Super Random Astro Observations Pt. IV

as always, i am not an astrologer just a silly girl that knows a ton about astrology🤓

View more observations in this series here:

Super Random Astro Observations

Super Random Astro Observations Pt. II

Super Random Astro Observations Pt. III

‧₊˚🌈 sun conjuct pluto synastry first meeting was so insane!!

‧₊˚🌈 upon reading into these aspects everything makes sense with my last situation… i also had mercury conjuct pluto with him and as pluto there was a huge obsession over him and intrigue the instant i met him & he def had secrets and a hard time opening up i could tell that he kept cards close to his chest.

‧₊˚🌈 as a gemini venus & mars and the only coworkers ive made instant friends with being geminis is so crazy to me😭 i swear, they love to chat with me & i love it with them !!

‧₊˚🌈 back to the gemini energy, i can ALWAYS feel when someone has gemini placements like omg. every gemini sun ive gotten close with makes a point of like talking about everything ever , asking questions they probably shouldn’t ask, & just being overactive in that way😭 i will say that i feel like gemini in sun sign is kind of weak just in the sense that other placements can reallyyyy mellow their sun out.

‧₊˚🌈 2nd house venus in lunar return chart i spent money with absolutely no care lol. it was also in a taurus degree & i spent it solely on beauty products & clothes LOL

‧₊˚🌈 as an 8th houser (mercury especially) i have like a super big thing with being inconspicuous & using indirect language in conversation with ppl im just getting to know whenever they ask me questions, because i just don’t feel like they should know things ab me😭

‧₊˚🌈 so im like 2/3 months away from my solar return and am seeing it show up in real time… 6h stellium in my natal 7th is making me focus on work relationships & i don’t usually make friends w coworkers and ive already made 2 friends , one coworker i just met yesterday and another that i met like two months ago lol

‧₊˚🌈 after experiencing 8h synastry it rlly felt like the year was almost separated from before i met him and then after because of how different life felt for me afterwards

‧₊˚🌈 I noticed SO many 9h northnode celebrities having very similar life structures. Affluent or well off religious parent(s), moving homes often when young or in adulthood, having teachers or being guided by someone, studied their future profession in school/college, and lastly a lesser commonality i noticed was adopting a different religion at some stage in their life. i think above all with this placement leaving your birth town/ your place of residence could be important in your life story. (Ex: Donna Summer moving to Europe to preform in the musical ‘Hair’ which jumpstarted her career!)

‧₊˚🌈 also random but i noticed that a lot of virgo rising celebrities with 9h northnode were the youngest of 3 siblings & i am too so i thought that was super interesting lol or being one of 3 siblings, being the 3rd child birthed could be significant

‧₊˚🌈 leo mars musicians and being effortlessly good at playing instruments/having the ability to create their own special way of doing something /putting their own spin on something in their music… ex: Jeff Beck, Paul McCartney

‧₊˚🌈 so i always reference a life changing event in these that altered everything about my existence but i never reference what my solar return showed for that year. i had a 12th house stellium (sun,jupiter,neptune,chiron) and mercury, northnode, and uranus in my first house. it literally reads like a hidden part of myself is finally let out and expands, and it was almost like “ fate” for me to change mentally and physically that year. i also had pluto 10h and this feels like it manifested in a public change, or a change in public image and i literally had customers at my job going “you look different everytime i see you” 🫢, my natal sun sign was on the ascendant too and that year i started to come more into myself or i guess i became more like myself if that makes sense!(astrology is scary & almost so overt at times , it’s funny)

‧₊˚🌈 a year when i was overly promiscuous i had 8h moon & vertex in my solar return…

‧₊˚🌈 the month i got covid last year in my lunar return i had neptune & saturn retrograding in 6th house ,neptune square my midheaven & i was out of work for weeks lol

‧₊˚🌈 this one is less of an observation more of a question for the culture😭 has anyone else seen how lunar returns, solar returns, transits ,etc. kind of like hint that something or someone important is coming towards you? i think that is SO interesting because the month i met my ex online ,i had 7h vertex, chiron, & northnode but i remember at the time not considering him until the day before my lunar return chart switched to the next month when he made a big impression on me & asked to take me out and in that lunar return chart i had 7h juno & then 7h vertex again!

‧₊˚🌈 3 months before i met my ex, my ascendant progressed into libra in my progressed chart🫢

‧₊˚🌈 some transits i had for meeting him in person were transit south node trine venus and transit venus sextile northnode! i 1000% consider him as one of my first big karmic partners. you guys can read more about this meetings transits here !

‧₊˚🌈 I’ve recently been introduced to solar arc progressions which is a form of predictive astrology and found out i’m supposed to have a fated meeting with someone february 10th🫢 solar arcs only work to predict something like this if you have confirmation from 3 different chart sources tho!!! For me My Solar Return, Lunar Return, and transits confirm this meeting.

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Thank you so much for reading! Comment what other Astrology content I should make bc i have no idea lol. I hope you guys enjoyed these observations ♡

[saintshadow]

𝔀𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓽𝓱, 𝓸𝓹𝓹𝓸𝓻𝓽𝓾𝓷𝓲𝓽𝔂, 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓰𝓻𝓸𝔀𝓽𝓱 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝔀𝓪𝔂

𝓹𝓲𝓵𝓮 𝓲

Growth:

You’re learning a lot of real shit rn, primarily about effort and the value of hard work. Maybe you are tired of being tired, you’re being supported in releasing this bad habit and a lot of growth will come from your newfound resilience. You never truly break, you simply transform even if it takes time- you make it happen. You’re learning to let go of the past, and going through exposure therapy for SUREEEE girl but I love that for you. This is going to show you how steady and strong you are, it gets easier! That’s what I love about these cards you’ve gone through so many lessons lately and now your lessons are likely going to feel less “destructive” and more “risky” in nature instead. If you are prone to outbursts or unhealthily intense behavior you are now being pushed to start controlling it. Releasing emotional baggage and accepting new things in life.

You’re learning to rely on your wisdom, I feel that your constant fear blocks your wisdom and leaves you feeling blocked & confused. I’m sorry this seems so uranian 😭😭😭 it’s the electricity feeling in my brain like omg just static starts happening in ur brain. Some of u could literally feel like you can’t seem to turn off your mind and you’re actually learning how to do this. How to basically zero your mind out in a state of peace and solitude and not spiraling negativity. Ong I get it ur becoming more mindful yesss, ur becoming less negative. Your inner wisdom is showing you that things can get better- you’re doing some serious inner child healing and disciplining. Learning to cope with the heavy intense emotions, accepting them, not lashing out at yourself or others, and grounding yourself.

An interesting idea might bring a new and more ideal start to something you are scared of losing? Or something that you’ve stuck to or held on to will be transforming for the better and becoming ideal. This could also be about transforming your outlook to show you that your desires are assured to be yours. Whatever your ideal is for this situation you’re so worried about and all the little bits of it you’re actually so chilling. Your anxiety is blocking you from seeing bountiful opportunity. Learn to rethink your perspective- try pushing yourself even harder this time around. Don’t be afraid of your perceived breaking point. Think of it like a muscle, you have to build it. Your tolerance gets better and better as you keep pushing. The anxiety WILL get better as long as you try.

Opportunities:

A relationship or connection w someone could feel fated, or confusing- like maybe you don’t know where to go or what to do. Perhaps you’re trying to find a balance in the connection. Some kind of truth about this connection could be revealed, very quickly might I add! You could be realizing that you want to stay, or that you want to keep building. You could realize you have the tools to thrive within it. Have strength through the negative emotions and keep moving forward in your life. Keep succeeding, keep pushing, keep going.

I asked if there was anything to know abt the relationship and it looks like for some your person may come in with a more solid offer. Something that feels more tangible and calming to you. I feel like this person realizes how they were making you feel, how fickle they were being or how unfair they were. They may be really proud of how well you’re handling it- I see they want to fix things rlly bad. They understand they made it hard and made it tiresome for you- and they’re recognizing you aren’t the only one w flaws.

Abundance:

You could be getting unexpected overtime at work!! The sun reversed is esp what’s giving, or you could be building the foundation for wealth by having less free time and spending more time working on a side hustle or creative project. Maybe even something you’ve always dreamed of or felt very passionate about. I heard “reigniting a spark”, so perhaps the sun reversed could even be an internal spark, one that may only be felt by you. Because it is to give you creative drive, you may see new things in your work space/environment- you have an edge on others for some. It could be an awareness/prev knowledge, or perhaps you possess a rare skill or quality. Something that sets you apart from others will bring you a lot of connection. Perhaps it’s a passion or the ideology you have or even the idea of you. People like the idea of you more than you’re aware.

𝓹𝓲𝓵𝓮 𝓲𝓲

Growth: You are learning to grow into a more whole perspective, you could be or could have been going through a really difficult and "stuck" feeling period- something that really made you feel as if you weren't able to let go of the past or move on. It seems like you could've also clung to negative perspectives or projections people put on u. Or perhaps you were clinging to past failures, past losses- past experiences that really really humbled you- maybe to an extent that you lost hope. You're growing to understand that your future holds options, and it's up to you to manifest them for yourself. You are learning and growing in the physical realm. Becoming more aware, more balanced, making steady and solid movement towards something bigger. Doing preparation work for a new cycle to begin. I sense that when this current cycle ends- even though it is hard for you and you will be much happier that it could feel very cathartic. Like you are looking back on everything your life ever was- recognizing all the places you went wrong and all the things you could've done better. I feel like you are seeing the bigger picture. It's bringing you so much peace, you could be purging a lot of negativity right now. You could be healing from a mother related wound. Creating and striving for balance in your life. I heard angel of death and angel of rebirth simultaneously.

You are literally removing your self imposed restrictions and limitations and leading your life into a new direction. "we have liftoff" You are going somewhere, you are doing something, you are morphing into something that other people may not see yet. It's happening though, it's supposed to be quiet, subtle, low-key. Your growth isn't for everyone else, it's for YOU. This isn't something you've done for approval. It's something you've done for peace. You fought tooth and nail for this, and you can't lose hope now. You're just now getting to the good part. It sometimes feels rough, sometimes it feels like there's so much resistance. It isn't personal, keep pushing- you will be happy. You ARE on the path to happiness, no matter how lost and confused you feel some days. One day you will wake up and realize how much better life has become. <3

Opportunities:

oh wow, so you guys are actually being warned about an opportunity. Something that seems too good to be true, you could be presented with a option between to things, choices, or paths. Someone could be trying to offer you something with the intention to control you? or it could be a work environment that is incredibly harsh and unfair. I see that whatever this opportunity is has a lot of difficulty and possibly some secrecy. You're being warned of this opportunity to transform it into something better? hmm.. maybe you're being given the opportunity to make something better? or make something fair? you're being given the opportunity to right a wrong or balance the proverbial scales.

It feels like opportunities could also for some be having a hard time finding you because you hide from them out of fear. maybe there is no secrecy, maybe it's just you not realizing that your passivity is getting in the way of your success. I feel like there's something you struggle to let go of from the path that influences this fear. You could have been cancelled or have gone through some kind of social exiling? something that made you feel distrusting or uncomfortable of others. You could be healing from past conflicts, fallouts, and relationships- or opportunities to heal and fight for a new beginning may start soon. Some of you could move on and find true love and happiness in an unexpected place. You could have the opportunity to say your side of things, or get closure, or get peace regarding a situation that unfairly occurred. There's a lot of pain, shame, guilt, and really difficult emotions that may resurface- breathe through them and trust yourself to move on. You'll be fine, I promise! Abundance: The end of difficulty and negativity in a relationship, perhaps things have felt crowded, bogged down, negative, or difficult lately. It looks to me like this connection is getting a renewal- if your person has been showing up a bit more lately and making you feel more appreciated again this would be a confirmation. I see this as a level up in the relationship because of how hard and how committed the connection is. This person could be envisioning you as a future wife or future partner. They may be taking a chance they were scared to take beforehand. That's so cute- they came out as the king of pentacles and you're coming out as the queen of pentacles with the wheel of fortune. They're not going to regret fighting through some of the apathy and depression and reigniting that spark together. If the relationship has felt dull, drab, or difficult- trust that it's being reshaped and renewed, upgraded if you will. If you can work through the difficult times with this person I do see marriage in the future. Or you could be getting married sooner than you expected? An idea or project that brings you money could be gaining more traction and working like a well oiled machine soon even. The message about the hard times ending just came back out again- like every single card. GIRL LISTEN TO ME, just chill out and breathe okay? it's going to be fine. If you've been obsessively reading pick a card's *STOP* take a breather, step back, remember what is physically in front of you. Detach from fear, detach from judgment, detach from negativity. People don't need to approve of your relationship, as long as you do it's okay. (AS LONG AS THEY AREN'T ABUSING YOU.) It seems like an old business or old idea is being revived. You could be coming back from the proverbial dead hahaha.

𝓹𝓲𝓵𝓮 𝓲𝓲𝓲

Growth:

A lot of super positive growth here, maybe being recognized by authority for your growth even. I heard something about getting a reward, or getting something nice. People really appreciate you a lot and you may be growing to an extent that you're actually able to start seeing this. You're growing past old fears, and learning how to take action after what you want. I see a brand new idea coming through to you that could even be born out of this struggle with fear. A new beginning or an adventure is coming for you- I see that you are growing into being someone who knows how to get a grip on their emotions as well. You're becoming a lot more calm and grounded. I feel like you're learning how to find peace and happiness in your own darkness. You could be discovering more about your sexual expression, creative expression, and boundaries. Your naivete could be dying off, I feel like you're having some pretty ugly revelations about life and people but these rvelations are also bringing you an odd sense of peace. I think it's because you are learning truth, and truth even when uncomfortable has a sense of "calmness" to it. Idk how to describe it. Learning to have better and healthier connection, trusting the people in your life more. Taking a chance and giving connections and relationships of all kind another chance.

You’re growing out of anxiety, and lack- into stability and a sense of control in life. Yayyy 🥳🎊

Opportunities:

Pile three, some of you could feel like people or yourself are blocking certain opportunities. Be extremely mindful of you who decide to share certain information with. There are some jealous people, I couldn’t even get cards to come out correctly. You could have a friend or people who are jealous of a connection or a perspective you have. Don’t engage, just nip it in the bud.

You may be getting the opportunity to really change your outlook regarding a source of suffering, grief, and pain.

GUYS I JUST CRACKED THE FUCKING CODE ON WHY THESE CARDS ARE COMING OUT SO GODDAMN WEIRD. It seems like this message is having such a hard time finding y’all man. The amount of problems & random lag my phone started having once I realized.. the paragraph explaining it was also erased before my own eyes? 😭 The opportunity is that you’re being shown a new perspective which will help you realize that you already have mad opportunities.

Ngl I feel like you’ve fumbled some insane opportunities before because of this internal issue. The only opportunity you’re being given is to release this so you can actually engage w your opportunities lol. A lot of y’all have big purposes, but you have to reach that potential first.

Abundance:

Lol I feel like you’re getting abundance in spite of your anxious tendencies or because you are working against those tendencies. I feel like you guys are going through a period of release or detachment with a very big manifestation that is starting to land so to speak. You’re just not seeing certain things, that’s all.

I feel like you’ve really been anxious about something and maybe your emotions HAVENT been in it but your actions HAVE BEEN! I feel like you have been working to solve some kind of conflict or heart ache. I see that a solution is coming or that things will be balanced or made right in some way. I feel like it’s really a thing of transforming something negative into something positive. It feels like you’re creating your own abundance and happiness here regardless of any circumstances scenarios or people. I feel like a lot of this is delusional though friend, I say this with utmost kindness and softness: your doubts will be proven wrong. I know it ISNT easy, I know you’ve been through countless struggles and felt like nothing could work. Just hold on a little longer, I heard “let the magic happen”. I hate that this pile is so much shorter than the others. It’s just that you guys already know what’s coming, but you just have to be patient friend. Keep doing the work, believe even if you are annoyed, tired, impatient, exhausted, etc- ignore your subconscious fears. You’re literally just going through a lesson that is the opposite of the lessons the last like 15 years taught you 😭🤣 I’m sorry my baby I know it’s a bit frustrating but I mean hey at least you’re making progress & at least it’s working. It’s just hard to see bc you’re so scared.

[pestorik]

can you please expand on deuce/riddle ??? im rlly curious abt them tgt in your AU,,,,

(if you have the time i would also love to read abt azurid & mallerid :D ! no pressure though! im mostly interested in deurid ^^)

the riddle ship trifecta...

i enjoy them bc i think riddle really needs a calm presence in his life that makes him feel like he can act in ways he never had the freedom to do before, without feeling judged or made fun of. whether that is acting childish and silly or just expressing emotion freely. he's obviously really sensitive to being teased so he needs someone who is ok with that and just finds joy in his joy.

i relate to this a lot bc i myself am a very sensitive person, and get emotional really easy but im also very cynical and dry, so i think ppl see that contrast and find it funny. which is fine, but i get hurt or annoyed really easily by teasing bc i think what i really want is for someone to see how easily i get emotional (like crying at almost every movie i watch) and rather than seeing it as smth weird and funny, they recognize my empathy as something good. i want someone to see the value and worth in my emotions, no matter how trivial they seem.

and i think riddle needs that too. deuce isnt super smart but i think he's really earnest and riddle would appreciate that about him. he shows a lot of self awareness in recognizing how his past actions hurt his mom, and realizing he needs to be proactive if he wants to be a better person. very few ppl are willing to admit when they are the problem. he's just a very soft guy, but like, passionately soft. he wants so bad to be good. and i think he would want so badly for riddle to be happy, it would become really important to him just like his mom's happiness.

malleus is super honest about his intentions, which i think riddle needs bc his lack of social skills leave him anxious. he probably would get too frustrated having to play games and guess feelings. malleus just has a super calming presence and riddle needs that so bad. i think they are both pretty awkward bc of their upbringing so maybe they could find comfort in each other, knowing there's no judgement.

azul is none of these things lol 😂 i do NOT think these 2 would be a perfect healthy couple but i enjoy their dynamic. riddle is sensitive ofc but hes also super smart which is why i like the thought of them together. the two top students, not really in a competitive way, more like they recognize each other's weaknesses but also highly respect each other. to the point that they wouldnt ever make a move against the other. i could see them having a more loving relationship but in my mind they are more like a power couple lmao. like two powerhouses joining forces. i do think seeing riddle trying to overcome his own trauma and be a nicer person could inspire azul to do smth similar, realizing that if he likes and respects riddle, there must be some value in kindness without reward.

none of these would be canon in the AT au unfortunately, at least not in my mind (you can do whatever you like with it tho, it also doesnt mean i wont still talk/draw about it). there would definitely still be interactions among them with plenty of room for interpretation. obviously the most between deuce and riddle bc they are both HL.

i could see an episode where riddle recruits deuce to help him repair one of the elephant guardians (since deuce is good at repairing stuff) and they become closer. bc deuce used to get up to a lot of trouble he also has a lot knowledge of some of the rougher parts of the kingdom (im referring to deuces former crew as the spoiled fruit gang) and probably accompanies riddle when he needs to go there. riddle might sometimes go to deuce for advice on his relationship w his mother, since deuce is close w his mom. it would be cute if deuces mom came to really adore riddle and gave him a lot of the experiences he didnt get w his own mother.

[pumpkinsy0]

Autistic cherry hcs pleek :3 + any other mental illness’ + neurodiversity you can see her have if you have any in mind. basically just a deep dive on her psyche but also autistic cherry #real

im ngl i barely rlly think about her so my thoughts may change but aye,,,lemme cook,,,

yknow i could actually see cherry havingg 3 major things, anxiety, imposter syndrome, and seasonal depression

BUT FIRST THE AUTISM!!!

when it comes to cherry, theres two ways u can see it, either she gets diagnosed as a kid or she doesnt, and since i feel like i would be going down the same rabbit whole as before talking about her not being diagnosed, ill just say she is!!!

she was diagnosed as a kid and her parents dont look too highly on anything that goes against the norm, anything that “makes them look bad” they want to have the perfect life and the perfect daughter, so they just tell her to “act normal”. cherry had basically been masking her wholleeee life, partially bc shes forced by society and her parents, part bc she wants to. any yknow what??? she does a damn good job of it!! when it comes to her stims, theyre things ppl write off, clicking a pen, her humming, and her chewing gum is just her trying to keep it together when shes overstimulated.

is her autism something shes open about??? nope, i dont think so, nobody outside her immediate family rlly knows about it and she would like it to stay that way cause she doesnt want to be knows as “the girl w that condition” she wants to be seen as herself, yknow??? i dont think thats something she grows up to rlly accept about herself either, the ppl around her never taught her how to accept it, so it would b very hard for her to do it on her own</33

when it comes to her special interest btw, i can totally see her like french history!! especially when it comes to the fashion (specifically rocco i would think) and the revolution, i cant explain it, she just gives off the vibe. maybe its bc i hc her as half french??? perchance????? POINT IS, shes super into it!!! she has some old letters from past family members from france around that time she looks at allllll the time, its like her prized possesion

when it comes to cherrys anxiety, its comes from a multitude of things, ive already mentioned the societal pressure shes under so i wont go into that, but what also runs along w her anxiety is her impostor syndrome!! cherry is a girl who genuinely wants to work for what shes got, she doesnt want it handed to her on a silver plater. but she never knows 100% if shes actually working hard for something and got it all by herself bc of her own skills or if she was just pushed to the top for being a pretty soc. and it was only worse when shes in hs, bc all shes known as is a result of her family being popular in town and or her being a cheerleader, noticed mainly bc of her looks, both r superficial reasons. she has no room to show who she truly is and thats suffocating to her, making her question if the relationships around her r genuine, she will lowkey quiz ppl close to her about herself to see if they really listen to her and the only two ppl who passed was marcia and bob

nowwww w the seasonal depression to b fair, she did get better. she got depression, got TECHNICALLY better, and now shes got seasonal depression. not much i can say for this part tbh and thats bc a lot of ppl think she isnt depressed. she keeps on pushing like eveythings ok just to get ppl off her back so they ask no questions, but when shes alone, she clings onto this sweater of bobs and his cologne and wishes he was there. she keeps pushing for his sake though, she knows he wouldnt wanna see her all down in the dumps, no many how many times hes upset her.

[lazubear]

what do you think of esmu and why? Do you think they work out in canon or is it more "another universe" type thing?

ARGHESH I LOVE THEM ‼️‼️ (yap warningn💔)

I first saw content of them in 2022 on twt and I've been hooked since 💔 I just find them super interesting because they're both such messes and when theyre together its amplified to a billion 😭 Among all the prisoners, its muu who gets into their head the most, who questions their role as warden and who they are outside which is basically Es' biggest personal qualm. But she's not even doing it out of malice to manipulate them or smthn girlie is just curious and slightly concerned too. Like if in t3 Es was to have some big relevation about their identity and who they are in it'd omce again probably be from either Muu or Kotoko. For the latter its not surprising since she's been acting as their alli and fang. But muu is literally just some girl like how r u doing this what

Also how to me their dynamic doesnt fit to a strict prisoner and guard situation from Muu's perspective but more so thay she treats Es like she would one of her classmates at school (which is still kinda shitty but she cares guys she does 🗣🗣) and thanks to that it allows more flexibility for stuff. She calls out their weaknesses that they try to avoid due to their role as Milgrams warden, and then Es to Muu's flaws in her behaviour that she doesn't see bc of her upbringing in believing she could do no wrong and her lowkey victim complex. #truelove

I havent even wayched the vds in forever but too how in crying B, Es was acc nice to her and not trying to beat her up AND called her beautiful like guys 🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️ AND the fact in undercover shes the last frame thats in their eye when they turn around AND *geys shot and dies*

Anyways for like if they'd work out in canon uh not rlly?? Like I ship them in a way where I wouldn't really imagine they'd ever pursue and actual relationship within the prison, just that there's like smthn going on between them and they occupy the thoughts in each others heads in the best and worst way possible. Maybe they'd hold hands or somethjng if the situation fitted or Muu would give them a french kiss as a thanks (similar she would do for Haruka too or like Mahiru) but that's thats kinda like the most outright romantic thing I could see them doing in my head.

It'd be more through the more subtle things like Muu checking up on Es, or them gettung the stuff she'd usually request without her needing to ask for it because they'd know her preferences, that'd show their bond growing as opposed to like flat out confessing romantic feelings 😭

Es is already reluctant to forming friendships w prisoners they obviously care about so an acc dating relationship is no go in Milgram🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️ in different aus tho like i could see something happening but also still less romantic and more like: "wow, we hang out alot and neither of us have had healthy experiences with friends in the past, or like any experiences at all, and i also think ur kinda cute but ur annoying and i hate u and u piss me off but being around u is nice ig👷‍♀️" cuz despite the fact that the way they act would chase a normal person away theyre both kinda a little fucked up so even after their beef they come back🥳🥳🥳

[stupendousfoxthing]

if there were to be video or something that came out of jk doing something clearly romantic w a girl, would u think we misinterpreted tkk all this time and were just reading into their interactions way too much? or would u maybe believe they were together at one point and ended it? maybe they’d be in an open relationship? or maybe it rlly was for show?

i didn’t follow ur blog at the time of when the shitstorm happened w the sasaeng taking a video of jk and a girl in his apartment (ik it’s an old topic but it’s one of the only things that gets in the way of tkk for me) but i’m interested to know ur take on whether that video was a romantic interaction or could’ve been just friendly? i believe it was 100% a real video and at first i was so heartbroken and confused abt tae and jk’s relationship. i grappled back and forth w the nature of the interaction in the sasaeng video for a while but the more i watched it the more i thought okay wait it’s like a 15 second video taken super out of context of just one location in his apartment where u can’t even rlly see if they’re alone or what happened prior. and it could be platonic (there were pics of him back hugging his female tattoo artist who was just a friend) especially if he’s not straight and the girl knows about that? i feel like there’s a lot more leeway w platonic physical affection between women and queer men than with straight men (even tho ik of friendships between both straight men and women that are also physically affectionate but still totally platonic). however, i sometimes feel like that sounds like me just rationalizing why it may not be romantic and being in denial. idk bc i don’t want to blindly believe in tkk but i can’t explain away tae and jk’s interactions as being totally platonic either so then i get super conflicted.

sorry ik this is rambling atp and it may be a topic u don’t want to address anymore but i’d love to hear ur interpretation of that whole scenario and how it affected ur beliefs and views on jk/tkk

It would be very hard to convince me now that there wasn't something between Taekook at some point, and it certainly wouldn't all be undone by a clearly romantic something between Jungkook and a girl. You definitely would not be able to convince me that what they did was "for show". Their relationship is authentic no matter what the nature of that relationship is. I've been a Taekooker for a long time now and I think I'm older than the average here. I not only have plenty of receipts for my belief in Taekook, I have context for all of those receipts because I was here when it happened. I was much more active on Twitter when the tattoo artist "scandal" happened, and I actually got tagged with a few of my TK friends by the first shady accounts trying to spread it. When I think back on that time, I just feel bad for everyone involved. Even the tattoo studio staff, who were harassed mercilessly and had their shop vandalized. That had much bigger impact than the recent video, but it's funny because when I saw the convo around that I was just thinking I've already seen him back hugging a woman. If that was enough to debunk Taekook I would have bailed in 2019. The intention of this rumor was exactly the same as well. It follows the same pattern as every other. Post something with no context and that's actually not proof of anything, but spin some wild stories about it. It's very easy with interactions between a man and a woman. Every person I see still posting it everywhere says the woman in the video is his pregnant gf. That's obviously not true. People freaked out because they were told more was coming. That didn't happen. I agree with a lot of your second paragraph. I don't put more weight on interactions just because they're between a man and a woman. I do think it's weird that a few seconds without any context would be enough to question just because it is a man and a woman. I've had plenty of interactions like that with male friends I had no romantic feelings about. Hell, when I was Jungkook's age if a stalker wanted to they could have gotten video of me hugging and kissing people I also had no romantic interest in and never dated. That informs my perspective on things. It's not just heteronormative, it's all a little puritanical to me. I actually wasn't blogging here until a few weeks ago so you're my first ask about this. I appreciate your message. After days of nothing, I got yours and then another (which I'm not going to post because it was obviously someone trying to start shit) a couple of hours later about the exact same topic, so I was a little sus about people trying to troll. But your questions were asked in good faith so I wanted to answer genuinely. Hope you're having a good weekend. ❤️

[kookiecrush]

do you ever consider that maybe we’re a little too caught up and stuck in the taekook bubble that we are over analyzing every tiny thing way too much and that taekooks interactions just aren’t actually as deep as we’re assuming? ofc they’re close but sometimes i double back and think i’m just too focused on their interactions so every tiny thing they do i am blowing out of proportion. especially when i watch content of the whole group, regular footage from award shows etc. i feel a bit ridiculous believing two of the members are actually in a relationship. ofc their relationship is not meant to be noticeable but rlly sometimes i think i am just having taekook tunnel vision. we see so little of their lives and interactions, i’m sure they have super deep and meaningful relationships w ppl that we don’t even remotely know about. sometimes i think we believe just bc tae and jk r the closest that we can know of, but there’s so much we don’t see

It took me a while to come around to the idea of taekook being real, anon, so when I finally did, I was pretty confident about it. It wasn't a random or split-second decision, and I certainly don't have a habit of thinking kpop ships are real. I've said this before, and I'll say it again. I dont believe in taekook because I want or need them to be real. I believe in them because that is the logical conclusion for me after everything we've seen from them. One or two 'suspicious' or 'interesting' moments might not be a big deal, but we're talking about consistent patterns of behaviour and multiple questionable moments year after year after year.

Do the things taekook do tend to get over-analysed? Yes. Does that automatically mean we're seeing something that isn't there? No. Of course we're biased, but that doesn't mean we're completely incapable of critical thinking. I never assume that everything they do is related to each other, nor do I view everything they do as proof that they're in a relationship.

People meet and fall in love with each other all the time in all different types of situations, anon. What's so ridiculous about it happening to taekook? Some people like to act like the chances of it happening are zero, and I don't understand why. I'm certain people have fallen in love in much stranger circumstances.

Yes, we see so little of their lives, but why are you assuming that what we don't see would show us that taekook are not together when it could just make it even more obvious? We probably see the bare minimum, and they're still suspicious enough to have people like us taking notice of them. BH have tried their hardest over the years to hide the true nature of taekook's relationship, yet so many people still clocked on to the way they would behave around each other and how their relationship seemed different to the rest of the members.

I would never blindly believe without questioning things, but nothing I have seen from taekook in 2023 has made me doubt their relationship. If anything, their antics last year has only solidified my belief 🤷‍♀️

[snow-and-saltea]

People I'd like to know better

Tagged by @paleasamoon (hi tex i love you tex sorry this took a year) (HEH. get it. cus you tagged me last year. heh.)

Last song: just putting on yt music as im reading manga and talking to muwi, and now its playing burn for you, from the bridgerton musical! (i don't know watch or follow it) (it's just a nice song) but i'd also like to recommend this song

Favourite colour: YELLOW!!!! 💛💛💛💛💛💛

Currently watching: my computer screen writing this up

Last movie / TV show: skip to loafer! i was screaming with muwi the entire time bc the story was so sweet and healing and everyone is so sympathetic and cute and we kept being like AAAAAAAAAA I LOVE WOMEN FRIENDSHIPS SO MUCHHHHHH

Spicy/savoury/sweet: sweet! if i could choose a combo, i like savoury-sweet. i like spice but only if i like the flavour! i'm not keen on the actual pain sensation of spice!!

Last thing I googled: hummmm i don't remember... i think a marinade recipe i made yesterday night? i made a korean base marinade for some lamb chops!! i cooked them today and invited my sister to eat with us, it was rlly yummy!

Relationship status: single! waves my aroace flag!!! i'm curious about how it feels to be in a relationship but it's not smth i try to actualize LOL i'm content w reading my shoujosei man-ga/hwa/huas <33

Current obsession: idk if i could call them obsessions yet but right now i'm really invested in sousou no frieren (anime only, havent caught up to the manga), skip to loafer (same there), and i'm looking for more wholesome healing stories. although now that i'm going through my reading lists for stories i've dropped, i'm laughing at them fjaksfjkasfj

(i promise this one has proper context bc i usually like pacifist mcs just bc i like politics and connection seeking to be based on a foundation of empathy and kindness. but this one was just so stupid and just a way to establish how good the mc was to the point that i couldn't get immersed in the story bc it was that nonsensical and i wanted to die)

i'm typically fine w mary sues / jane(?) FLs and i even tend to be biased for them just bc there's a lot of misogyny about the subject matter, so i normally don't bat an eye unless it's a writing choice i find unsuitable / doesn't fulfill the potential it could've achieved with an interesting plot.

(btw the context is that the first screenie which this rant also applies to was when some guy caught the baddies and the FL is like "No let's reward them for trying to kill us. they're just misunderstood!! i bet if we try really hard we can all get along!!")

but! i only really like it when it actually does something useful, like thematically or symbolically. like tohru's innate goodness for furuba inline with the sohma's family curse and mitsumi's unending positivity and earnestness that helps the people around her heal from emotional wounds. not that they're mary sues in any way, but since people understand mary sues as "female protagonists who can do no wrong and will be liked no matter what" (even thought their psychology and personality is just genuinely likeable), i think it makes my point clear. there's a way to write a character who is Good and Kind without cheapening them to a naivete that at best, makes the mc pitiable, or worst, is treated like the mc's totally unique worldview of "lets be nice to people and never hurt anyone ever :)" is the end all be all of the story and the solution to the plot. kindness and empathy is a coiled spring that projects you forward, a motivator. it's how you guide your hand and where it goes, not that the hand is never raised. i don't agree that cowardice towards change and the potential promise of conflict is any kind of wisdom >:T plus it kinda puts the shame to the idea of kindness as a legitimate basis for political strategy, and that leads to some set up for a lot of zero sum games i don't care for in this specific story. there is a good story where each character is trying to one up each other politically, psychologically, at all times, but this is not that story and so the tone feels very off kilter.

but yeah!! sometimes a character is just OP and the story is not even having fun with it (aka its not satire or irony), which makes me think they want to take it seriously. and my serious thoughts was that it sucked.

(i just realised this also applies to the first screenie LMFAO it just loops back huh!!)

not gonna comment about the others bc i think they speak for themselves <33 but also the first one of these three is fucked up in the sense that i dont even get where they're going w the story. its a revenge story and the FL uses the ML from childhood to achieve her revenge, but then suddenly when he's an adult she has Feelings for Him and now im like.... okay....? belief no longer suspended. beliefs are like those garter straps that snapped. my socks are like my beliefs. fallen to my feet. they are no longer suspended.

sorry that got off track </33 i enjoy looking into why i dont like things, im in this stage of life where i realise i actually have specific ass tastes!! i always have, but i just realised it very recently a few years back fjskfjskjf

People I'd like to know better (i also wanna include some mutuals who i haven't talked to but i like to see on my dash):

@snickerdoodlles

@fflewddurfflam7

@00uroboros

@perpetualstateofcrying

@pirate-with-internet-connection

💛🐢😤💪

[dracoandthehounds]

Fanfic Writer Ask Meme: K, Q, S, T

thank you for sending this in!!!! :)

K: Guilty fanfic pleasure--

hehe okay this was kinda a hard one bc i don't rlly have a lot of tropes that i feel like "guilty" about liking or anything, but I do think I have one!!!

Sometimes in some media that's super sad... i really like searching out the most like self-indulgent fix-it incredible/magic fics that undo all the bad lmaoo. Like the sort of stuff that would not make it a good story hypothetically bc it just magically fixes every problem just so I can like imagine a little world where everything had a happy ever after lmao. I guess it's sort of a guilty pleasure too bc it's not even something I want in a story lmao I want those characters to suffer lol for The Plot but sometimes I like to just read one story where just this once, everyone lives. lmao.

Q: Do you like getting prompts from your readers?

YES! I love it so much. I wish i had more time to respond to some of the ones I have sitting in my ask box or half written lmao. But I love it bc it can be so helpful for me thinking abut the characters in a different way. Like, really, go crazy with it. Send me ten different ones. (100% guarantee i will not get to all of them lmao but it would be fun to pick one out where I get an idea with it that just rolls lmao)

S: How do you feel about fanart inspired by your writing?

Ummmm like crying??? lmaooooo. it's absollutely incredible and i have no words for it at all. It's like..... unbelievable. One of my favorite things is the idea of like what it means to communicate (bear w me lmao). but like the idea that communication is like (idea in your head) > (how you speak it aloud) > (how the other person hears what you say) > (idea in their head) and how like each time the idea has to go through one of the ">" -- it changes. So like when someone draws fanart of something I've written, I get to see how the idea that began in my head ended up in theirs and is now being portrayed again. It's just like............ so unreal lmao. so. so so sos so sos sosooooo cool.

T: Any fanfic tropes you can't stand?

Oooh okay interesting... okay I feel like i can answer this better in the context of like general fiction tropes I can't stand. I cannotttt vibe with relationships being portrayed as like the... this character needs a love interest so let me put this cardboard cutout of a love interest into the show/movie/book whatever and slam them together until it works. Like... what I enjoy about romance is the concept of two characters with fully fleshed out personalities/identities slowly over time melding together until them being together feels inevitable.

I feel like that's why I enjoy fanfic of non-canon relationships bc it is more of a way to bring together two characters who *weren't* made just so they could be in a relationship together. Like they are very much their own people before the romance, so it feels more natural and more exciting. I want to feel like their relationship will last because they've developed and grown into each other if that makes sense.

so like even in canon media, I feel like a good example of this is angel/buffy vs. spike/buffy (.... no hate to angel/buffy shippers pls omg....) but this is why I'm so much more of a fan of spike/buffy bc those characters were NOT written to be together. Their relationship came about bc James Marsters did such a good job portraying Spike as this lovesick puppy (Joss Whedon did not ask him to do that lol and planned on killing him off after a seven epsiode arc), that everyone demanded the character stick around. And then the chemistry between him and Buffy just like leapt off the screen and it just made sense through their journeys that they would inevitably collide together. (unlike buffy/angel where angel was written to be her love interest and like she was into him after three episodes bc he was hot and mysterious lmao).

So that extends to fanfic sometimes I feel like bc sometimes I don't see a reason behind a pairing in the story and it can take me out of it. Like I want to understand why these characters would end up together... I want to see what they see in each other and I just can't do it when it feels like two dolls that are just being slammed together for the sake of making sure they don't end up w/o a partner. I'd rather have them single than that tbh.

[dungeonbf]

it’s like we’re in the same containment cell. or the same enclosure at the zoo lol. or even better we’re in different enclosures across from each other and we stare at the glass at each other and sometimes bring over rocks to show and stuff. it’s a mighty bit enriching!!!!

OK i’ve thought on this actually! i think by the time amelia puts everything together (which wldn’t be unreasonably long but not unrealistically fast either) she’s already grown somewhat attached to jesse & enjoys having him as a roommate (they’re not romantically involved YET) (yet…) so she weighs her options. she could kick him out & look for another roommate who might not be as bearable as him OR she can just. pretend the bad stuff isn’t real. she opts for the second option, lol. she does not approve of him selling meth & has strict boundaries on the fact that he can’t bring any home & that he has to wash if he comes home smelling like the crap. it’s more personal for her bc she’s worried abt a potential relapse so she’s sort of harsh abt it but. other than that she doesn’t bring it up bc she’d rather not see jesse in that sort of light.. ignorance is bliss, blasé blasé. her relationship w jesse & w drugs is something i think abt often ngl.

on a less serious note, auth right wld block anyone who leaves hate comments under his art bc it actually hurts his feelings ok arguing over which ppl deserve to live in his community that’s different but his ART? nah he’s crying in the bathroom on that. bc I feel like when he draws he lets his inner child, that sad little lonely pathetic boy, take over so it rlly hurts. he might say a slur b4 blocking actually… anywho i wld support his art bc i like all art ^_^ I think each piece of art has beauty in it and idm if the proportions are wacky bc a lot of styles r like that tbh when u look at them for more than 5 seconds. plus I think it’s cute he wld draw us kissing that’s just rlly funny cute

— @boykujou

@boykujou OMG YES… bringing over little rocks and flowers and such (authright headcanons) to your enclosure (ask box)

i’m very curious btw what’s your fave thing to do with either jesse or authright (or both)? i like jesse, i think he’s a sweet bf and has good intentions. i encourage his wrongs. anyways, i’m super curious about how his drug dealing affects your relationship, especially considering your s/i’s stance on it. i also think considering the highs and lows of the relationship is one of the more interesting parts of self-shipping, like maybe it’s just me but i like thinking about conflict and strife and how to get over issues!! sorry this is like wordvomit but you get what i mean… we’re on the same wavelength.

also curious.. how IS jesse in a relationship? cuz obvi you know him better than i do, please feel free to share any headcanons :3

AND NO THATS SO REAL, he definitely gets super emotional about it. i think it’s a good thing though (getting emotional about art) cuz it shows that he’s passionate about it! it’s something important to him! i feel like at first he views it as a weak soyboy cuck activity but he genuinely grows to enjoy drawing, even if his art isn’t conventionally good. headcanon that he draws up propaganda posters and tacks them up all around the extremists’ house.

[m1ckeyb3rry]

hii i have returned with my ramblings on SITH like i do every chapter lol :))

omg the mention of friedrich being “scary looking” reminded me of that time u said that only the mc genuinely finds him handsome & i still have not recovered from that /pos

I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABT THAT TIME FRIEDRICH BEAT HER UP DURING TRAINING, THE MEMORIESSS

i love how much falco looks up to the mc & how this chapter kinda showed her being a mentor to him, it was so sweet <3 falco being out of breath from JOGGING is so real, like he’s just like me fr we’re both terrible at running

I CALLED IT THAT FRIEDRICH WOULD INHERIT THE JAW, ALL THE SIGNS WERE POINTING TOWARDS HIM LMFAO

the irony of colt being the first of the trio to inherit his titan & also being the first who will die. idk if u plan on diverging from the canon plot & having him live or just sticking with canon plot, but the “i’ll be the first” line rlly hits hard either way, & it’ll hit especially hard if he still dies.

now that i think abt it, the trio rlly is just the found family trope & im gobbling that shit up bro, i love them with all my heart 🫶 i feel like they’re not only soulmates, but also the “our fates are intertwined in every universe” trope as well. so even if one of them dies & the other two have to live on w/o them or two of them die & the last has to preserve their memory, all 3 of them will meet again in another lifetime. they just can’t be separated (they come in a set LMFAO). that’s my take on their relationship at least.

i hope u like my theories & takes lol. when im super invested in smth, i always like talking abt it & going in-depth bc that’s just what i like to do. even if i get some shit wrong (when theorizing or analyzing), that’s ok, bc im just having fun & enjoying smth im interested in :))

hope ur doing well & taking care of urself!! remember to hydrate & get lots of rest. and dont overwork urself (even tho that’s prolly easier said than done). <3

— 🪐

HIII I love your ramblings I always smile when I get the notifications!!

LMAOOO I would like to slightly revise that and add that friedrich isn’t really considered ugly by anyone either he just always looks 0.5 inches away from snapping so people are too busy being scared of him to think he’s handsome. Ofc the mc knows him so well that she sees past that and can appreciate him for what he is <3

HAHAHA IT WAS SO LONG AGO THEY WERE SUCH LITTLE BABIES BACK THEN!! So much has happened since then 🙁

I wanted to somewhat show Y/N being a good person again since we’ve seen so many chapters of her struggling and overcoming her faults and traumas. She’s definitely not a perfect person but she can be very kind at times and she is canonically super good with kids so I thought showing her and falco bonding and her doing something for someone other than herself would balance out the heaviness of everything post-athyae. falco is so sweet I actually love him sooo much but I was lowkey dying writing him in this chapter because he’s just so hopeless 😭 I would like to add that in the running scene Y/N is the one jogging…my man falco is SPRINTING to keep up with her 😩 up to interpretation whether it’s because “slow” for Y/N is fast for like anyone else or because falco is just really not athletically blessed.

I feel like friedrich being the jaw titan is the most obvious choice. He’s way too slippery (does that even make sense?? Idk how else to describe it) to be the armored titan and way too independent to be the colossal, he could be the cart but tbh Y/N just exemplifies the cart to me I couldn’t see anyone else inheriting it, colt being the next beast has been a thing since like the first chapters of the fic, and he just…is not a girl so I can’t imagine him as the female titan.

I won’t spoil the trio’s fates, but writing that scene knowing their futures was definitely painful. I’m trying to write and update more often so you don’t have to wait years to find out what happens to them because there is SO much planned for the future of this story. I’ve been struggling because the past two mini arcs (which were titled return to liberio and warrior’s welcome if you were wondering) have been the hardest to write so far. They’re a lot more introspective and focused on Y/N’s mental development, conflict, and recovery, so it was a lot of just “people visiting houses” with inner monologues as opposed to plot and external conflict. The next mini arc is very different though so I’m excited to get to that!! One more chapter of warrior’s welcome and then I’m finally free 😭

I ADOREEEE FOUND FAMILY!! That’s why endure and SitH are my favs, I feel like they both have their own versions of the found family tropes that make me feel so 😫 but the trio and the endure crew are definitely super different. like the endure found family is just a bunch of siblings (case in point Y/N and Jean) but the trio defies categorization. They’re in love but they’re best friends but they’re somehow more than that?? Idk their dynamic isn’t something I’ve written before but it’s definitely one of the most interesting I think!! (I’d say it’s my favorite but my favorites are endure jean and y/n, endure eren and y/n, and promise y/n and tullia, with an honorary mention to endure y/n and tullia)

I LOVE YOUR THEORIES SO MUCH!! I won’t confirm or deny if they’re right because I don’t want to spoil but I love reading them and responding to them so much. It makes me sosososo happy that you’re so invested in this random story I decided to write on a whim one day and that you’re having as much fun with it as I am. Your asks motivate me sm because with a story like SitH it can sometimes feel like I’m only writing for myself (which is good because it gives me creative freedom but sometimes demotivating as there’s no engagement)

Thank you so much and remember to take care of yourself as well!!

[pumpkinsy0]

Hcs for uhh uhh papercut and uhh ummm uhh umm... papercut.... uhhh going uhhhhhbh PONGBOY COMING HOMEFROM NYC WITH CURLG AND uhhh wait hold on lemme cook... lemme... hold on.... PONY REALIZING HOW MUCH HE'S GROWN FROM WHEN HE LIVED IN TULSA like uhhh hmm uhhh HE DRAWS AND PAINTS EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE HE SEES AND INSTEAD OF KEEPING THEM TO HIMSELF HE ACTUALLY GIVES THEM TO THE PEOPLE HE CARES ABOUT (SPECIFICALLY DARRY.) AND REALIZING HOW HE'S HEALED THAT RELATIONSHIP WITH HIS BIG BROTHER AND HIS HOMETOWN IN A WAY or smth like that I guess uhhh also curly beefing w/ everyone cause he is so silly ‼️

NYC MENTIONED WOOOO🗽🗽🗽🗽

•now dont get it twisted, curly ISSSS ponys muse and he draws him the most out of anyone else, but in nyc pony also takes to just drawing strangers!! in a cafe, subway, park, wherever!! he always has a paper and pen so its pretty easy to do, and sometimes he just gives it to em to keep!!!

•if anyone gives pony shit while hes trynna draw em, he would totally get into a fight over it, curlys always told pony he cant b nice to every one and give em a chance but pony nevverrr pays attention to him so atp instead of stopping him curlys just took to looking over for ponys safety and happiness

•SO when they visit tulsa, pony doesnt rlly have that drive to draw others for some reason, but he still WANTS to draw and so he just does it for the whole gang!! everyone always gets a drawing from him and its usually of them just during their everyday life!!

•but if the gang allll came together and rlly compared who pony drew the most, darrys winning (if ur wondering, sodas second, then two, srry steve</33) and pony couldnt tell u y, darry just inspired him that way

•curly loves being dramatic and says that darrys replacing him btw, and the gang didnt even KNOW how many times ponys drawn curly till curly said it, and pony had to hit him to get him to shut the hell up

•ANYWHO if u looked even deepperrrr into em, u would see that w everyone elses picture, theres a while background and stuff, yknow makes it seem more full, but w darrys pics the only thing in em WAS darry, no background no nothing

•and thats bc,,,,hold my hand here everyone,,,,he was starting to see darry just for himself, woaahhhhh :00000!!!! but honestly, pony couldnt tell u Y he was only drawing darry, he just assumed he was too lazy or something bc he soent most of his time just trying to get darry right

•howeverrrr ponys realized that hes more open to talking to darry, like having full blown convos w him about his interest n stuff how he feels, and dare pony says it, darrys actually pretty funny,,,like wow,,,they talked about his art first and that just opened the flood gates for other things, like darrys interest!! one of them being gardening (remember that for later,,,)

•the gang have also definitely noticed and they will purposely leave them alone so they could catch up, for the time pony spent in nyc and for his childhood, sometimes the gang doesnt even HAVE to do that, darry and pony would just dip and u can find them in the backyard or in the lot away from everyone else!!

•id like to think that curly would poke his head in like “fuck yall out here for” only to get lulled back inside VERY quickly so he doesnt fuck up the mood, BUTTTT BUT BUT BUT, there comes a time where darry actually jokes w curly and ponys thinking “wait a god damn minute hes never done that before,,,” and THATTSSSS when pony starts realizing hes getting closer w darry

•u might b wondering, y is THAT the moment pony realizes that?? and for that i tell u, to pony, darry joking w curly shows that darrys rlly trying to b apart of ponys life!!! even the parts hes not particularly understanding of w the ppl hes not rlly close to and thats all pony has truly ever wanted from the guy as he grew up

•pony gets soooo sad when they get closer and closer to the day they have to go back to ny, so every chance he gets to hang w darry, pony takes and DONT THINK DARRY DOESNT NOTICE IT!!! HE DOES!!! and he thinks its cute, never telling pony that bc he knows pony would b embarrassed but he knows!!

•now remember when i said pony loses that spark to wanna draw other ppl/places when he gets to tulsa,,,bc its ALSOOOO around this time where he genuinely tries drawing the places around him so its etched in his mind, most importantly tho, he draws the lot!!!

•ponys only drawn the lot like ONCE and that was before johnny died, now the lot looks different, completely different!!! theres more grass, noticeably theres a few fucked up looking flowers, nobodyyyy knows how the flowers got there, but PONY does,,,bc darry grew them!!

•one of the more deeper talks they had together, was that after pony left, darry couldnt stop thinking about the lot, it was a place where the gang went to hang out but after everything happened, nobody rlly went there anymore so w his new interest in gardening he took that as his first place to start, as a way of correcting his wrongs and changing the look of it in hopes that in the future the place would b a place to admire!!! and to lowkey mourn johnny

•that got pony out of his artistic rut SO fast, and when pony left, darry went to his room and he found a drawing of him in the lot, the first drawing pony made of him w a background!!! yahoooooo

[borom1r]

Ooh 1-20 and 91 for the fic writing asks if there is Brain?

1) do you know how you want the story to end when you start, or are you just stumbling through the figurative wilderness hoping to find a road?

um. i generally have like, a vague idea or a theme but not a specific roadmap. like for my most recent fic i published, i knew i wanted to explore sensation + emotion thru the eyes of my Shadar-Kai cleric, Naendil, but beyond that it was rlly up to the characters

2) talk about a notable time a narrative or character has looked you dead in the eyes and said “fuck your plan, here’s what we’re actually doing.”

all of the time forever??? skdjfhkjsdfh. nah but seriously, the amount of times ive started writing Éomer in a fic without the intention of including a sex scene only to wind up writing him fucking nasty has been seriously funny

3) on a scale of 1-10 how much do you enjoy incorporating romance into the average story?

HM. 9? i guess? idk man

4) what is the plot bunny you’ve been carrying for the longest? optional bonus question: do you ever wonder why you haven’t written it yet and experience deep existential dread?

good question.. idk like there are definitely some aus id theoretically be interested in writing but i haven't just bc they get judged lol. that's why i have a burner ao3 tho, maybe ill write sth indulgent there someday < it's less specific plot bunnies tho and more just "this is an au im interested in for X pairing"

5) have you ever made a playlist about something you were writing as an elaborate means to procrastinate when you could have been actually writing and if yes drop a link, son

not a specific playlist but i do generally listen to specific artists/vibe playlists while I write, and will title my fics after one of those songs

6) do you have any kind of consistent writing schedule or just hoping for the best?

oh my gods no. no i dont schedule this shit. it happens when it happens

7) tell us about the plot of the first fanfic you ever wrote

LMAO. ohhhhhh my godddddddds i think it was a Lost Boys fanfic... or maybe a Warriors (1979) fic. just stupid shippy crap, nothin good lol. whatever it was, it's up on ffnet somewhere— gold star to anyone who tracks down my old fics ig lmfao

8) what’s your relationship with constructive criticism and feedback like? do you seek it out? how well do you take it?

i dont seek it out. i dont really care bc im not writing for a grade anymore. IF im writing essays for a course or sth i do really enjoy getting feedback + hearing what ppl think, and ofc i enjoy engaging in dialogue w/ my friends on theory posts, but on my actual fics???? nah.

im not publishing any of this shit for anyone else but me :3 + while obvs i love getting *comments,* criticism is nooooooootttttt needed on fics

9) in an ideal world where you’re already super successful and published, would you want to see a tv or movie adaptation of your work? why or why not?

LMFAO. none of my shit would be marketable enough for a show or film :] but on the off chance i put sth original out + it developed a cult audience, make sth like Nekromantik <33333

10) at what point in the process do you come up with titles, and how easy or hard is that for you?

titles at the end, + its usually pretty easy for me

11) what’s something neat you’ve learned while doing research for something you were writing? also, how much do you worry about doing research in general?

HRM. idk man. im a lil intoxicated rn.. theres probably another answer i could give BUT all the heraldic charges for the LotR ren fest fics are legitimate, attested charges so thats fun :]

12) do you ever have trouble focusing on writing? how do you get around that? 

i need bg noise so music usually helps me focus. if im really not feelin it ill walk away tho

13) talk about a writing experience that has pleasantly surprised you.

HRM. again idk. probs the warm reception all my trans SDV fics got <333 ilyall

14) what’s your worst writing habit? 

i dont write outlines. or drafts. one and done baby!

15) where do you share your writing?

ao3 or occasionally on @2x4swrites

16) where is your favorite place to write?

in my bedroom? ig?? idk man

17) what is your favorite line you’ve ever written?

HUH. thats a good question actually. um the fic im most proud of overall is this but the LINE im most proud of???? maybe "What is devotion if not the act of devouring?"

18) what is your most and least favorite part of writing?

most? developing a story + seeing prose come together

least? conclusions -_-

19) what are some books or authors that influenced your style the most?

oh my god. i mean Tolkien probably lmfao

idfk man i just write. iwritelike says my prose sounds like Charles Dickens sjdhfksdjfhksd

20) what is your favorite trope to write?

HRM. i enjoy writing romance for a bitch with questionable conception of romantic attraction ig shfskfhksjf

91) how has your writing style changed over the years?

HM. i really dont know. ik ive improved technically in leaps and fucking bounds (compare any of my old star wars fics to a lotr or bg3 fic lmfao) but i really dont have a grasp on my 'style' + the ways its changed

[neonsbian]

watched ep 10 of 10yt, all i have to say is that post abt fictional women not getting an abortion

[diif-enthusiast]

Jock!Atsumu x nerd!reader

summary: relationship between a jock atsumu x a nerdy reader. fluffy until the cut. kinda a pt 2 to this 

c/w: smut under the cut, afab!reader, use of ‘princess’, cosplay, some degradation (not rlly), praise kink, self indulgent LOL, not proofread bc I'm lazy, let me know if I missed anything!

a/n: I hc that atsumu loves kissing you, like its his favorite thing to do and I am so in love with him ! ALSO, Happy Valentines Day :’)

w/c: 1.1 k 

Just imagine jockey-himbo Atsumu who never thought he would be dating someone like you, but absolutely loving it. You were his shy tutor or something and after one wet dream with you in it he was smitten. You were more hesitant to form a relationship with him because of his notorious reputation. He swayed you anyways to date him, who could say no to this man? Not you!

Your relationship started off slow because it was hidden from almost everybody. You guys thought you were being sneaky but your best friend knew and like most of his team knew. You two were practically attached at the hip, or more so you were always behind him in social situations. He thought you were the cutest thing ever and tried to constantly nudge you out of your comfort zone, while you constantly urged him to stay home and just cuddle on the couch. Your friends didn’t know how you made it work but it just did. You two loved each other and it made your friends gag.

It was easy for you to get into his hobbies, with them just being volleyball, video games, and eating. You went to all his matches and would love to watch him ramble about whatever he was thinking. It was harder for him to get into your hobbies though, like watching shows, or reading. This ADHD ass mfer will never pay attention. Constantly asking you what is going on in the show even when they’re in the middle of explaining. Likes to lay his head in your lap when you're reading, just watching you or dozing off.

This man is jealous of everything though. Like if you have plants or stuffed animals, it is on sight once you are not in the room. When you are around he will just pout and smother you in kisses. If people are flirting with you he will make a point of touching you more or saying shit like, “Oh yeah my GIRLFRIEND and I are very HAPPY.” or whispering dirty things in your ear in public to get you all flustered.

He is the worst with your fictional crushes though! If you ever admit you have a crush on a character in a show he will be a pouty mess because you have him, why do you need any other men? He will start trying to distract you from the show by getting handsy or kissing you all over. “‘Sumu!” you protest trying to listen to what is happening.

“Pay attention babe,” he said as his hands slid under your shirt, “Wouldn’t want to miss anything.”

You bite your lip at the new sensation of his hands fondling your tits. “At least let me pause it, please?”

“What? Ya don’t like watching that guy while you get fondled by your boyfriend?” He teased into your ear.

“The only reason I like him is because he reminds me of you,” you admit bashfully, hiding your face behind your hands.

He stopped and removed his hands from your shirt. You pout at the loss of his touch as he stood up. Leaving to your shared bedroom. He is so strange, you think to yourself as you continue watching. You heard noise coming from the bedroom but ignored it expecting another one of his strange antics.  

Ten minutes later you heard the door open and your interest was piqued. “Baby~,” he said as he walked back to the living room.

You paused the show to give him your full attention. When you finally saw him, he was dressed in full cosplay as the character he was just jealous of. You giggled at him, so confident in his costume. “You look so handsome.”

“Of course I do,” he mused, “And I bet I would look even better between ya legs.”

Your face went red as he practically jumped on top of you, kissing you like a starved man. His hands explored your body, groping and teasing. His fingers found their way into your pants, prodding at you over your underwear. You squirm underneath him, but his large frame keeps you pinned down. “Ya like this babe? Being touched by your favorite character?”

You nodded your head, grinding yourself on his fingers. He finally moved your panties off your legs, entering you with one finger, while he thumbed at your clit. He leaned to kiss you again, swallowing all of your moans. His fingers plunge in and out of you with no mercy, he didn’t care that you were a shaking mess underneath him and he continued to ignore how hard he was. When he finally let you breathe he almost came at the sight. You were too busy to notice his face as you palmed at his dick. He twitched underneath your touch and he realized how uncomfortable these cosplay pants were with a boner. He moaned at your touch, grinding himself further, desperate for any friction. “You’re so naughty ‘Sumu,” you tease in his ear.

His fingers left your hole and he finally released his cock from his pants. “You’re the naughty one princess, all dripping wet because ya favorite characters gonna fuck ya so good.”

He rubs himself on your pussy, getting lubed up for you, muttering sweet nothings under his breath. “So pretty baby, I love this pussy,” he said lovingly before entering you with no warning.

You gasp at the sudden stimulation, his pace fast and deep, every thrust hitting a good spot that makes tears prick at your eyes. You cry out his name, and give him the confidence to go faster, with the sound of his balls hitting your ass as he bottoms out. “Fuck,” he moaned, “Bet ya -ah- he couldn’t fuck ya this good huh? Who does this pussy belong to?” “You! ‘Sumu fuck,” you squirmed underneath him as the pleasure was beginning to be too much.

“Cum on my cock princess, make a mess of this costume so I won’t even have to use it again,” his voice slightly strained as he was getting his own orgasm.

His thrust became more sporadic as his orgasm was coming closer, and you were clenching around him reaching your own. He loved looking at your expressions as he was fucking you, no one else could fuck you like he did. “Wanna cum with me baby? ‘M close,” he hissed as you clenched around him again.

One last thrust against your g-stop and you came undone. “Cum-cumming!,” you moaned and felt him cumming at the same time, he kept thrusting as you both rode out your orgasms.

“I love you ‘Sumu,” you whisper before giving him a soft kiss.

“Love me more than that guy?” he said before pointing to the TV where the show was still paused.

“Of course!”

He grinned before nuzzling himself into your neck, “Good, now I can throw this costume away.”

“No, I want you to wear it again!” you protest as your fingers raked through his hair.

He grumbled against you but you knew he would keep it.

[angelpinkpasta]

sigh I was just gonna reply ‘they’re kinda complex’.. but wrote all this instead. here’s an analysis on their relationship bc its been on my mind for too long n its getting ridiculous LMAO. I had the time🤧:

Olly and Paisley knew each other since they were literal babies. Paisley struggled making friends growing up as she was very shy, and this worsened when her mother, who she loved and connected with so dearly, passed away. The only person there for a long time other than her dad and sibling was Olly - her close childhood best friend, making communicating with him not so hard for her. their memories mean a lot to the both of them esp her. For Paisley, this rlly was her closest and most important friend. Loosing him would be like loosing her only accepting friend - a major person from her past. (There is liann too ig but I’m not sure if they’re knew each other as kids?). Just to mention, Paisley is someone who stays close to the past (the annex, her mom, her childhood treehouse, it all means so much to keep that part of herself with her. Olly is a huge part of that.).

It seemed that she was in awe of what he did to help her with the annex. Might've even developed a crush - she loves her childhood best friend for how impactful he has been in her life. So when he started to act a lil off, she was confused, maybe a little blind to what he was making her do. Even when he started talking too much about his excitement for Ley-la, she still tries to be there for him. Doing what he likes most will keep him around (putting on that show whether she's comfortable or not) and she just genuinely cares for him. She couldve easily talk to him (she seemed comfortable w him before the leyla thing happened), but after the both that and annex situation she might've been in denial about his actions. He was being so thoughtful, surely he didn’t mean wrong now. She already lost her mom, she cannot lose her only close friend too. Idk what I'm trying to explain lol. just. just hear me for a sec guys. she’s afraid of losing him. ((SPOILER// even literally hiding when he’s around… maybe she’s afraid of making him mad, which eventually means losing him?? he kinda toxic uh))

Olly, as the lil shi he is /j, is still also complex. He grew up with a working class family (friends lore) so i assume his parents were not around him so much in his childhood. Him and Pais were neighbours so he would spend his time with her and her family. He found her mom a very inspiring person, kindhearted and loving seemingly unlike what his own parents had time to give him (so he empathized for what paisley was going through after losing her mom). What gave him attention were the costumes he enjoyed making, maybe boosting his family money a bit. So he sees himself as someone who could make dreams come true if he just gets to work on it. Boom.

Like Pais, his childhood friend does mean a lot to him (maybe not as much as her, but he still brings up their childhood here n there). When it comes to his possible feelings for her... it could be one thing or another.

Possibility One: ok uh. he doesn't have a crush on her. He thinks he does. He is fruity. He just has internalized homophobia and is projecting that onto paisley who he thinks he likes. Might explain a bit of his blindness towards her, thinking he is doing what a guy would do for his girl to love him, but messes it up. ("Oh I'm doing something she would love so it's working out right???"). Might explain his fear that Zac would take her away from him. help.

Possibility two: he does love her. This might act be more accurate just based on him caring bout her while also blushing and getting all shy around her that one ep. Also his reaction to her preform. Or his jealousy of Zac. Anyway. He initially really wanted to do this for her, but it was also a huge interest of his own for a long time too. he thought if both of them get what they want, esp her, they would both be happy. And together forever. He kept that in mind somewhere but fame rlly got to him, he ended up caring bout that more.

I mean. Olly gets confusing. There were times it just seemed he was blind... and some even manipulative??? When you rewatch the scene at the lunch table, where he gives her those eyes, and when she says she can't dance, he then talks about his costumes. Then knowing how kind Pais is, she immediately encourages him (probably feeling bad knowing what he's been through in his childhood, wanting him to finally have his moment.) and it distracts her from even giving that talk. He either didn't mean for this... or knew her feelings right there and just wanted to get his way, to make her go for his perspective. There was also that scene before he yelled at Zac (bro should chill😭) and claimed 'we’re in this together' despite the fact she said she 'can't do this alone’. She is in a struggling state, and he seems either unaware, or very aware and trying to get her on his side. anywayz

I dont wanna spoil much so I’ll leave it here. uh. all I’ll say is that i dont think their relationship is set in stone, i think there’s a chance they can improve it, but based on that ending there’s also that side that just seems bad for the both of them if they dont work it out. In this essay i will

im just rambling.

I wonder how many still ship Olly & Paisley after S2

It's clear that Olly cares more about his fame than Paisley's wellbeing.