#and i think i did a good job

[autobahnmp3]

idk how i managed to make myself shower bc i am DRAINED today

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

do you even remember the lives that you threw away like trash

continuation of this

[panthermouthh]

“Accursed creator! Why did you form a monster so hideous that even you turned from me in disgust?”

[egophiliac]

(looks at upcoming card releases)

I'm in danger :)

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

[noornight]

Long distance besties. This definitely happened after the third movie (source: trust me bro)

Based on this

[ouliarts]

Did some portrait studies/sketches with the companions from Fallout 4, some of these were drawn a while ago when I was still in school

[atomicpowered]

Wow! I can't believe I forgor to post this here but this is a redraw I made forever ago because I wanted a nice desktop wallpaper. It's based off my Absolute Favorite manga (4koma) broho illustration. I took the liberty of not only redrawing it completely but adding about twenty characters, HA.

[lesbianmarrow]

man i do just love spike's character trajectory across btvs season 5. i love how he breaks the rules of the buffyverse with regards to morality and souls and whatnot. the whole thing with angel being capable of good because he has a soul now never quite worked for me. gaining his soul back was something that was done to him, not something he had to work to do. and yes he feels terribly guilty for his past misdeeds but the viewer is encouraged to exonerate him for that because he didn't have a soul back then so it wasn't reallllly his fault.

but spike muddles everything beautifully because no, he doesn't have a soul, and yet his love for buffy gradually metamorphoses him into someone who is capable of great acts of selflessness and compassion. it begins as selfishness, wanting to protect buffy because she is the object of his desire, and then evolves into genuine respect and care for buffy and a desire to do right by her. and buffy notices this and starts treating him differently. she treats him as someone who is capable of doing good. and her belief in his ability to do good makes it possible for him to become, if not a good person, then at least a person who does good things.

and this transformation occurs without spike acquiring a soul! because maybe good and evil are more complicated than this intangible metaphysical thing that you either have or don't have. maybe everybody has a choice in how they behave and maybe if you treat someone like they're incapable of doing good then they'll always prove you right but if you treat them like they have the capacity to make better choices than they have in the past then they might start to do just that.

[afreakingmilkshake]

good day to draw meta knight gijinka

[ketunhanska]

Lily "Rook" Ingellvar, of the Mourn Watch (he/him)

[crazycometspecular]

AND this movie broke me

[bad12amcomic]

Drapery

cw unreality, scopophobia, injury, mind control

Summary: In his very first fight, Hotguy very bravely and with no problems whatsoever dispatches the terrible villains Gal and Guy! Except wait, maybe that’s not right—Hotguy edits the narrative as he goes, removing Guy and silencing Gal as needed to make himself look like more of a hero as he tells his story. Gal and Guy aren’t amused, but not to worry, they’re defeated! There’s no need to thank him!

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[nerves-nebula]

i love to see people who are like "you can talk about csa but not around minors that's gross!" like idk how to tell you this but. who do you think is getting csa'd. i'll give you a hint: the first letter in csa does not stand for "adult"

[hawberries]

I have added: yet more ships to the MXTX bookmark catalogue :)

[inkskinned]

"don't make it political!" .... what proportion of death and suffering must occur before politics are involved. if this isn't political, what is even the point of any politics, ever. of democracy. the words are "by the people for the people." if i am going to be left alone by my elected representatives to "figure it out" - to undergo damage, hardship, fear. what the fuck did i elect them for. what was their job. the entire point is that they handle this shit. this is why we were supposed to be electing leaders.

poverty is political. misogyny is political. gun control is political. climate change is political. how much aid a community gets is political. what the fuck are you talking about. it's been political this whole fucking time.