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[poipoi1912]

An Update

GUYSSSS

I’m alive and overworked (but loving it! The new job is kicking my butt in a great way lol, I feel super energized and confident and creative, but also my free time is more limited, unfortunately) and I have sooooo much to reblog and so many lovely messages to respond to, buuuuuuut also I’ve been writing a lot! And you know that, when I write, I can’t tumble (it distracts me lol) and also, when I tumble it means I’m procrastinating and I haven’t written shit, so my absence is actually a good thing :D

Speaking of:

Barisi Update

I’m currently 9K deep in another of my multi-episode tags, one dealing with the events of Intent (and the Sonny/Amanda situation) as well as the entire, seasons-spanning Barisi relationship (shoutout to those death threats! Never forget!), and also I’m giving Barba a new ending, because I can!

(you’ll recall that I said I was writing about Intent, but real life got too hectic, so instead of discarding that entire story I decided to combine it with my “Barba is leaving” episode tag so y’all can get ALLLLL the angst :D)

So you can expect that story someday soon. I was aiming for this Wednesday (remember when I used to post episode tags on Wednesdays before the new episodes? No?), and I’m going to get a lot of writing done over the weekend, so I just might make it (lol no i won’t), but next week is going to be crazy busy work-wise, and I don’t know if I’ll have the presence of mind to write or edit on weeknights.

Still.

The story is coming. I am writing literally on the bus, at work during lunch, I even wrote down a cute idea while I was walking home a couple of days ago. I feel inspired, and good, and excited about Barisi, and, just as I predicted, I find myself feeling free now that Barba is not on the show, because canon no longer binds me. I’m writing what I wish we could all see, and I’m back to that S17 mindset of “seeing” my stories play out inside my own head. Even though I’m currently writing a double fix-it fic, somehow I feel unencumbered by the actual episodes. I think it’s because we will never see Barba again, so I feel that by writing him I am able to see him, still, and to hear his voice, and that makes me happy and even more eager to write. Does that make sense?

Anyway. I will post this story soon. Hopefully it will give you all some closure, and it’ll be more satisfying than the actual show (lol of course it will be, the show is garbage).

That’s all from me.

I’m sorry I don’t have more time to be here, I’m sorry I’m missing out on fun stuff while I’m gone, I’m sorry I always keep you waiting, and, as always, I love you all!

❤️❤️❤️

P.S. Kylie Bunbury is ten times the detective and the baseball player Sonny Carisi will ever be.