#and i kept myself in check speaking directly to them & thats all that should have been expected from me. i was allowed to say mean things a

[aropride]

this post was a game changer for me. thank you ryan reynolds

[eremika-forever12]

Eremika Fanfic : Remember Me!?

Previous Chapter link- Chapter 3

Chapter: 4

Stirring a spoon in the bowl of stew....Mikasa glances at Eli from the corner of her eyes....from the kitchen.

Eli was being quite than his usual self....like he has that sadness and guilty expression on his face since he woke up from that bad dream of his...

It was night by now....Mikasa is making their dinner while Eli was just sitting in the dining space....staring at the book infront of him...

But Mikasa could clearly see through him....Eli was just lost in somewhere else but had no concentration in the book...

He was just 5 but he was a school going boy too....though he was in nurseries they did have some sort of studies and exams! Eli had a brilliant mind most probably it was because he was half Ackraman too....he is sharp and intelligent even the school authorities knew that....but due to the rumours of him being the child of the last holder of founding titan who almost crushed the whole world ....Eli is treated very differently! Mikasa knew that well but she doesnt care about the people around her....for her , Eli getting adequate knowledge from school matters the most.

Eli came out of his trance as soon as he heard Mikasa calling out his name....

Mikasa placing a bowl of soup infront him- Eli....You seem lost!

Eli stares at his mother shocked but then composes himself- Huh...What?

Mikasa raises her eye brows as she sat opposite him – Hmmm....you seem to be thinking about something else! Cause I dont see you studying for real!

Eli was confused about what to answer....it was true he wasnt actually studying....he was thinking about his dream and that stranger....but he cant let his mom know that!

Eli confidently as he argues back – Mommm....Can you stop overthinking ? Alright? I was....just feeling sleepy okay!

Eli tries to give a fake yawn and acts sleepy in his childish voice - aahhh....I am hungry! M..moomm...Lets get...done with the dinner!

Eli was about to take the empty small bowl and pour the soup into it when Mikasa holds his hand stopping him and says “ You....are Red! It means you are hiding something form me! What is it?”

Eli feels heat travelling through his round cheeks....he started to feel nervous & embarrass at same time.

He shrugs off her hand as he angrily says- Heyyyy Whats The Problem! Seriously? Why do you always suspect me of hiding something!

Mikasa rolls her eyes as she takes her seat- Always? Nope....you rarely hide something from me! Isnt it? Cause you are really bad at hiding anyways...so whatever it is you can tell me...I am your Mom after all!

Eli frowns at Mikasa and was just about to say something but she interrupts “ You can take your time....I am not forcing you Okay! “

Eli stares at his mom a bit stunned while Mikasa continues softly- You think I am just an annoying over protective stupid mother right? I am sorry about that....I just cant stop caring about you (pauses a bit as she stares directly into those green eyes) You are the only one I have now!

Eli could feel the sadness in his mother voice....he feels bad....as he realises he has somewhat made his mom upset! And he feels bad about it now...his mom is not annoying...yeah she kinda gets into his head at times but he loves her!

Eli with guilt ridden eyes and broken voice- Mom I didnt mean to hurt you by any way...

Mikasa looks at Eli a bit stunned as Eli says “ You know I Love You! Please dont say that you are annoying....”

Mikasa sighs seeing those eyes & the puppy face...

He resembles him so much....thinks Mikasa!

Mikasa smiles lightly- So you want to say something?

Eli lowers his eyes....he wasnt really sure about how his mother will react knowing he didnt go to school today rather ran off a bit far away without her ...he never really get the chance to roam around the city like other kids do. He is always stuck in his home, occasionally Mikasa just take him with her to market place...

Fearing his mother's reaction....Eli thinks maybe this isnt the right time....moreover if he actually tells about meeting with a stranger who kind of matches with the person he sees in his dream....his Mom gonna freak out a big time.

Seeing Eli being silent, Mikasa realised he was hesitating....but rather asking him again Mikasa calmly says “ Its Okay...You can tell me some other time! Let's have our dinner!”

Back of the mind, Mikasa was pretty much sure something was wrong....and she needs to find it out! If Eli doesnt tell her, she will find it out by herself!

***********

Walking across the corridor of school, Eli heads for his class...his head was lowered as his gaze was fixed to the ground.

He was completely in guilt mood for still hiding about bunking the school day before.

So today he swore to himself....he will never do that again...

Today he will concentrate only at his studies and wont care about what people tell him...or joke about him...

Eli enters the classroom as he gazes upwards and finds other kids staring at him awkwardly .... same weird looks at him....

His green eyes rolled in a dull way as he heads towards a seat...

He could hear whispers around but this time Eli decided to be unaffected!

Eli was about to take a seat in the 3rd bench when a boy ran to him and pushed him aside while occupying the seat at the same time...

Eli looked at him with a scowling face while that kid simply showed him tounge sticking out...

Eli decided to ignore him as he walked to the last bench and sat there alone with annoyance on his face....while that boy just smirked at him evilly...

Eli sighed, he just doesn't understand why these people are so problematic towards him...

He just shoves off the whole feeling of being hated at that moment before it could take over his mind....just when the teacher entered the class and everyone stood up to show respect including Eli....

*******

The Class got over as the bell rang...it was break time now...

Eli takes his back pack on his back as he starts walking out silently with a tiffin box in his hand. Just when he suddenly tripped off at door making him fall on the ground with thud as the tiffin box slipped of his hand and fell a bit far as it got opened with the sandwich falling out of it...

Eli was completely shocked by the incident as he just kept on laying flat on his chest staring at the falling sandwich on ground which his mother made for him....while the corridor echoed with laughter all around him...

Eli found someone with huge chubby legs standing infront of him as his green eyes travelled upwards to check who it was....

As soon as his eyes met with the huge chubby faced kid , Eli narrowed his eyes at him as the kid opened its big mouth “ Hellooooo....Titan Baby! Whats up ha? Didnt say Hi yet to me??”

Eli sighed heavily as he finally got off from the ground and stood on his feet....ignoring the huge kid infront of him Eli dusts of the dirt from his shirt as he passes by him with his head high....moves ahead to pick up the sandwich and tiffin box.

Watching Eli ignoring him like this surprises the kid, as he immediately kicks away the tiffin box bit far while picking up the sandwich himself.

Eli stares at him shocked as annoyance took over him immediately.

As he turns his hands into fists, Eli hears the kid telling him- Oi, What so hurry? We need to talk....

The huge kid shows the sandwich infront of Eli's face as he speaks sarcastically- Ooowwo Titan Baaby....Are You Hungry ? Want Some?

Eli glares at the kid furiously as he looks upwards at him, while his hands rolled into fists “ Put that sandwich back into my lunch box! “

The kid smirks evilly as he says “ Ah....Ordering me? You stupid little brat! You know what...this sandwich looks yummy and guess what! I want it for myself, you have any problem?”

Eli was completely fuming within himself as he tightens his fists trying to control his rage...while he says in his mind “ Calm down! I should just ignore him....and not react at all! Mom told me these jokers are not worth at all of any kind of reaction! Just calm down”

Eli softens his expression as he says with low but prominent voice “ Listen....kid! Stop these nonsense of yours....it only makes you look like a looser! Give my lunch box with that sandwich into it....I need to hurry okay! I dont have any free time to waste on you “

The kid evilly smiles as he immediately takes bite from sandwich and says while munching “ Yummm....This tastes good! So Titan Boy Your Mom Makes Really Good Stuffs...Ask Her To Make Some More For Me”

Eli was angry now but he needs to control it , without saying a word Eli walks toward his tiffin box and was about to pick it up when that kid stomped his foot over it leading a crack on the box....while Eli gasps in shock hearing the sound of crack...as he glared furiously at that huge kid.

The Kid in disgust “ You....Son Of Monster! ( eating rest of the sandwich) I dont think you need this box anymore as your food is finished and is in my stomach...all you need right now is run off your ass”

Eli green eyes shone brightly as he glared at the kid with rage....Eli's small hands were back to fist but he was trying hard to control his anger...

As the kid went on “ Honestly Why do you even come here? What fun do you get by being insulted everyday ha? Oh wait you actually deserve to get insulted! Thats your birth right “

Hearing this the other kids who were watching this drama for quite some time bursts out laughing....

Eli was damn done with this kid as he clenched his teeth and spoke with sharp dangerous voice “ Shut The Filthy Mouth Of Yours “

The huge kid stopped laughing as he stared at Eli shocked “ O wow! You have guts to talk too...do you even know....”

Eli screams loudly as he interrupts the boy “ SHUT UP DAMN IT “

The kid was shocked now to hear the intensity of Eli's voice....he kept on staring at Eli's rage filled eyes while rest looked at them completely horrified.

Eli while gritting his teeth “ Move your foot away from the box and hand over it to me.... & get lost from my sight! “

The kid was shocked for few moments and then suddenly he started laughing as he says “ Hahaha...What a fire! I mean seriously....no wonder my mom and dad keep on saying that you will be same just like your father when you grow up! A Titan....! “

Before the kid could say anything further....he felt a crushing punch on his chin which felt so hard on him that just made him fall on the ground.

Everyone around them was terrified as they watched Eli swiftly giving a punch on the chin of that chubby kid....

Eli couldn't hold himself back as he barked on the kid who was laying flat on the ground looked at him in shock as blood came out from his teeth “ KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT! DONT WANNA HEAR ANOTHER WORD FROM YOU! AND DONT YOU DARE CALL ME A TITAN...I DONT KNOW WHAT IS IT! BUT ALL I KNOW I DONT LIKE THIS WORD AT ALL....UNDERSTOOD”

Saying this Eli kicked hard at one leg of the kid who winced in pain immediately!

Eli picked up his broken Tiffin box and put it in his bag while he could feel all the kids eyes on him in fear....he could simply care less about it...he was about to leave when he felt a punch on his face which made him fall the ground....in return everyone hooted all around in excitement.

Eli looked upward in anger as he found the chubby kid with blood in his mouth staring at him angrily “ Son of a bitch! Dont you have manners while talking to your seniors! How dare you raise your hand on me....I am gonna make you suspend from this school and throw you and your mom out of this town “

Before he could do anything....Eli all of sudden made a move and punched hard straight on the face of the kid....who immediately pushed with such a force and fell hard against a pillar leading him to immediate unconsciousness!

Everyone gasped in horror at the sight....while Eli who still didn't realise the consequences of his act until someone freaked out frighten “ Guys....Why! Why is he not getting up?”

Eli gasped in shock as he came out of his anger and stared at the fallen chubby cheek at far....who was completely motionless at the moment....

Eli was terrified suddenly....while everyone started gawking at him as few kids ran to call the teacher..

Eli walked towards the kid as he said nervously to the people “ He just got hurt badly I guess...nothing much “

He wasnt having any good vibes from this environment around as he spoke infront of the chubby kid who was still not in his senses “ Hey...Wa...Wake Up! Look...this...isnt time to joke! Get....up dude! Others are misunderstanding me! Hey...”

Suddenly Eli heard a kid coming back with someone while saying “ I dont know Sir....I think he is just unconscious or maybe....the way that titan boy punched him....I dont know maybe....he is in more serious condition “

Eli looked around in horror as he heard some saying what if he is dead....

Eli was completely terrified! He needs to go to his mother. As everyone got indulged in whispering Eli took the chance and immediately ran away from that place in opposite direction through the corridor...

*********

It was raining heavily all around....thunders strike in the sky....

A boy with a back pack over his head sitting on the ground behind a huge garbage bin while trying to hide as much as possible from the people around....

A huge thunder strikes as flash of light fell on his face while making him shiver in fear....his green eyes shone in the light of thunder....

Eli was shivering due to cold as well as fear of darkness & people finding him...

Eli in his broken voice “ Mom Save Me”

Suddenly he felt nervous and guilty as he remembered what just happened back in the school....

He didnt intend to hurt anyone so much that will lead to death....period he didnt even want to kill him or something! Was it his fault completely? Did he do wrong by loosing his self control again!

Infact he was pretty sure that bully boy wasnt dead but unconscious but then why wasnt he moving?

Eli started to weep now as he trembled while it started to rain more....

Suddenly Eli found a huge amount of people with torchlight coming in this way....

He gasped loudly and got up from there...

He could hear the voices more close now “ That BASTARD Child! He must be hiding here somewhere! This time we are gonna kill him , cut into pieces and throw him in fire! He is nothing but just like his father....A Murderer! Who knows...what if he also posses titan power!? And then we will kill his mother that bloody Ackraman!"

Eli blinked his eyes in horror “ Mom? No....I wont let them do anything to my mom...I need to get out from here before they catch me”

Eli quickly got up and started to move upwards slowly as the place where he was hiding was bit sloppy....the place was pretty old and much far from his house....most probably no one really lives in this place...Now...

He was hurriedly walking upwards while glancing backwards time to time wondering if they already spot him or not, suddenly he tripped over a pebble and slipped as he winced in pain while falling...

Eli was terrified as he puts hand on his mouth so that no sound comes out...

But he was already late....as he turns around and find those gang of people were now speeding up their pace towards him as one of them falls the light on his face & shouted “ HEY....THATS HIM....”

Eli was scared as he began to shake again in fear, he quickly got up and started running upwards but he couldn't increase his pace as he was slipping up now and then due to heavy raining and his feet fingers were kind of hurting now....

They were quite close to him...Eli was in panic as he was gasping trying to catch breath while running...

Suddenly he got a pull on his arm....before he could react someone pulled him aside swiftly behind the wall of a house...

It was dark inside...

Eli was highly shocked at the sudden action as he couldnt understand what just happened...those people were close, he could hear them...

But he was still in shock that who just pulled him in...he turned his head around and just when the lightening stroke again revealing the face infront of him....

Eli eyes widen as he was about to say something but before that his mouth was forced to shut by a strong hand as Eli started to fidget under the hold in fear while the graspy deep voice wishpers ”SSSSH....CALM DOWN”

Just then both of them could see bunch of silhouettes near by....as the voice says “ Dont say a word....they are hear...”

Eli was completely in shock stage at the moment and was frozen at the spot while his wide green eyes were on the man infront of him...

They could hear those men saying “ Where did he go? “ “ I Saw him I swear...I guess he escaped from here” “ Lets hurry”

They were there for few more minutes...and then left from there hurriedly....

As both of them could hear their foot steps and voice fading away....Eli finally finds the hand away from his mouth as he says in deep manly voice “ Gone! You can breath now....”

Realising he was actually holding his breath for a while now, Eli finally breaths as he starts coughing slightly to get air...

Just then as the reality strikes....Eli widens his eyes and stares at the person infront of him, while he says “ Ah....So We met again? What a coincidence!”

Just then the thunder strikes again and lightening falls on that long hair person....Eli could see the face more clearly....he was none other than that stranger and the person possibly who was in his dreams...

The difference was there were no bandage on his head nor even that cane in his hand like the last time, though his half of the hair was falling on one of his eyes completely...

Eli finally finds his voice as he says in child like voice while trembling a bit “ You....Again?”

Just then the reply comes “ Oh...You can speak....back then I thought you were mute or something “

P.S So How Was This Chapter? Hope you guys enjoyed. Do comment , like & share.

[solar-bean]

This is the very extensive and detailed rant of a fed up black, female student of class 2020

-You are free to scroll past this if you want. I really just needed to get this off my chest. But if you have advice or are experiencing a similar situation, feel free to message me-

So first off, I haven't liked going to school since I was 9. And highschool has only deepened my loathing of it. But maybe I don't hate school in general. Maybe I just hate the schools I've gone to ( 4 in total ). This rant is about highschool specifically. Perhaps what I'm about to type is normal and I'm overreacting. But I'm tired of not talking about my problems because I'm worried that I'll sound like an ungrateful brat. Typing/ writing about my issues makes me feel better. And I really need to feel better.

So here are the main points in order of severity: Low income, Advisory, Graphic Arts and Discipline/Work Ethic

Low Income:

I've only ever gone to low income schools in my neighborhood. I hoped high school would be different but thanks to the crappy education of my old school and an even crappier selective enrollment test score, I couldn't get into the schools I wanted. Then again my single mother probably couldn't afford those other schools anyway.

My highschool shares a building with another highschool. And unfortunately they called dibs on the best features and have control of the heating and ac. We don't even have our own gym. We also have the least amount of space with the smallest class being mine of 144 seniors. So there's a lot of packed classrooms.

Speaking of having way too many students, recourses are slim as a result. Our best equipment, chromebooks, need to be reserved weeks in advance by the teacher and even then they still may not be able to get enough of them for their class. Said chromebooks can often be missing keys, not work at all or be stolen easily because of their small size.

A few other issues are terrible lunches ( I've been bringing lunch from home since sophmore year), very limited field trips, mice infestation, very few clubs ( if we have any idk ) and teachers have to pay for just about everything class related.

Advisory:

Advisories were created to prepare us for greek life in college. I honestly think it's to keep everyone in check but ok. Even so I have absolutely 0 interest in anything frat or sorority related ( no offense to those who do ) as well as many of my classmates but advisory is mandatory.

My first 2 years of advisory were hell. Most of my advisory sisters were either people I'd never talk to because we weren't in the same class, had nothing in common or they were straight up terrible people. I should mention that freshman year has the worst students because about 30% don't make to the next grade or just transfer. Most of my advisory sisters I had problems with were in that 30% ( a few had already repeated ).

Since I kept to myself there were very few incidents were I was put into a tense situation with them. The main conflicts involved our advisor, who I guarantee you was not the problem. She was essentially a poor, white, optimistic, young math teacher from out of town that was thrown to the slaughter. And my cowardly self watched not wanting to be next.

She ended up leaving by junior year so what was left of my advisory merged with another and got a new advisor. The only downside is that our new advisor is a firm believer in " sisterhood " and no cliques ( even if you converse easier with a certain group of people and advisory is already a forced clique in itself ). Maybe I'd be more up for advisory events , which we rarely have , if my advisory experience wasn't sullied so early on.

Graphic Arts:

The reason I chose my school was because it had an art class. In seventh grade I knew I wanted to have a career in art and that my talent was lacking but had potential. So you can imagine my horror when I learned that the art teacher had left once I'd gotten there.

I was sad but stayed positive and even highly recommended them to get another art teacher. Then by sophomore we got an art after school program ( 4:25 to 6 twice a week ). I managed to keep my grades the same and take the classes every week for the entire school year. I only missed about 4 days total. For once I actually enjoyed staying after school.

The class taught me so much and I didn't have to wait for the summer to take an art class downtown. Even better I got to interact with other young artists of my race ( there was usually only one other black kid at the summer classes ). Everything was finally looking up.

Then the art galleries happened. The school hosted one per semester. I brought my art to display but I couldn't stay cuz of a shitload of math homework. I got complimented the next day but still regretted not staying. So I vowed to attend the next one with even more pieces than before.

The night finally came and I was hyped. Me and two seniors were in charge of doing caricatures for free ( one senior gave me a dollar tho ). I had fun with that but noticed something weird...none of our art was displayed.

Apparently they cut it out for time along with the theatre clubs performance. And I would've been fine with that. If my family hadn't come.

The icing on the cake was when they turned off the lights in the hallway where we were drawing the caricatures so they could start the show for the performing art groups. I couldn't contact my family until the show was over and booooiii were they pissed. Especially my mom. I was more sad than anything. I had a feeling my school valued the performing art more and this just proved that. At least now we have an actual art class. And my art teacher is awesome and supportive as hell.

Discipline/ Work Ethic:

These are together cuz they've equally fucked me up. Don't get me wrong. I have a 4.2 gpa and 0 detentions.

The problem is my classmates.

I have been to soooo many class/school meetings about behavior and grade issues over the past 4 years. One of which a staff member said " now i know all of ain't bs-in' but why aren't those people helping the ones who are."

Like wow! Thanks. I hate it.

I'd be happy to help my fellow classmates. It's just that their version of help is cheating off my tests and copying my homework.

So yeah my bad. I've been sooo selfish.

I can count on my hand the amount of times I've been told that I'm doing a good job directly and not in front of a class as a way to embarrass them.

This year behavior was so bad that they made a competition to see which advisory would get the least demerits. Big mistake. My heart goes out to all the poor well behaved students who lost because of a few advisory mates. It only takes one. The record for most demerits in a day was 30 I think.

I forgot the competition was going on at some point cuz I've only gotten 2 demerits in 4 years. My advisory won second and we played the waiting game for our prize only to have a pizza party with 17 other advisories. The winning advisory was salty as hell. But hey we got free lunch at least.

I managed to get good grades simply by doing everything on time and having no social life. This was by choice really. I promised myself I'd do better in college but now I gotta study for ap.

It was actually ap literature that gave me a new perspective on my classmates work ethic. We were given a lengthy reading assignment but the due date was stretched by two class days and the weekend. Even though I'd been mentally drained lately ( by lately I mean since the 1st week of school ) and had other work to do, I completed it with slightly less annotations.

Upon the due date I discovered that I and one other classmate completed the reading. Even the valedictorian didn't do it!!! And this wasn't a one time thing either.

In fact my class is notorious for never doing work on time. I'm talking completing-a-project-in-the-class before-the-it's -due- for bad. And some people I understand. Some of them really need help and resources. But every one else. Excuses excuses. The extended due dates gave me extra free time but it made the work I completed on time feel pointless. Like I could've just not done it and not face any consequences.

I tried that and was stressed out all day to the point of doing the work anyway. School's got me whipped I guess.

So if I hate highschool so much why do I go on time everyday, miss at most 3 days a year, do my work, behave myself and study??? Simple. I'm trying to get out. Having a good gpa and test scores will get me more scholarships cuz God knows my mom can't afford art college ( I got into my first choice so yeah:). Really highschool has just been a means to an end.

I've had my good days and have made some friends but I really just wanna run to hills with my diploma in hand. And thats what's kept me going. But now we're quarantined.

And my school has decided to make work optional.....and I have all A's......

Needless to say I've barely done any work at all. If we never have to go back theres a good chance I won't. I'm so numb at this point that I don't care that we may not have a prom ( aka the only dance I was ever going to go to ).

I'm just done. Done and fed up.

But thank you to my mom, family, bestie, teachers and my classmates that actually want to have a future for keeping me going. If I don't completely give up it's thanks to you. Future me, I hope you get everything you want at art school:)

[baekkieberry]

𝕦𝕟𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕪 𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐧!𝐚𝐮 𝐛𝐚𝐞𝐤𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧 1

Genre: demon!AU, Fluff. (angst + smut in future chapters), Supernatural

Characters: Baekhyun, EXO (mostly beagle line + Kyungsoo)

Pairing: Baekhyun x Reader

Summary: Baekhyun had been a demon and living in hell his whole life, hanging with his friends and having way to much fun, until one day he gets kicked out for going too far. He's forced to live in earth until he redeems himself, until he met you, and maybe he doesn’t want to go back anymore. 

Warnings: none 

Word Count: 2411

A/N: hii im sorry this took so long :( I’ve been busy but already had more chapters done! I’ll update more often. Hope you like it! (and yes it’s still inspired by @youxidol ^^) 

I’ll make a masterlist soon! And more storiesxdrabblesxoneshots from other members and baek! stream city lights, you, thats okay and what a life! 

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masterlist:  intro   chap1

Chapter 1:

Baekhyun walked the whole way home feeling extremely bubbly and dangling his zootopia lunch box like a little kid. When he got home, Sabrina was outside already waiting for him “Hi sweetcheeks listen, somethings has been happening to me” she was looking at him while in the back, only for Baekhyun’s eyes you could see his best friend playing with her hair “Ican feel that someone is behind me and playing with my hair but I don’t see anyone” “Well Sabrina I couldn’t tell you cause NO ONE is behind you” he emphasized the no one so Chanyeol could lay her off “Oh well maybe is your beautiful face that’s always stuck in my head sweetcheeks” and just when things got weirder she leaned and kiss him in the cheek. She left to her apartment leaving a very traumatized Baekhyun and Chanyeol behind.

“Ok what the fuck” “Dude you barely talk to the girl you actually like and this old lady just kissed you. Maybe you should reconsider the whole sugar mommy thing” Baekhyun slapped his best friend and they both laughed. Once in Baekhyun’s apartment, Chanyeol finally asked his best friend how were things “You know Yeol I think she may be able to like me back, she laughed at everyone of my jokes and she loved the oreo mini cake that Soo made” “Yeah well Soo it’s not gonna like coming everyday and cook for you” 

Chanyeol was right, his now soon to be personal chef was not gonna like doing this everyday, so Baekhyun decided to give it a try, but with his powers. After Chanyeol left, Baekhyun spent all night trying to recreate Soo’s recipe and when he finally achieved it, he made 500 of them to have for the rest of the week, you did ate like 15 of them. 

In the morning Baekhyun was greeted with a Chanyeol, Sehun and Chen but all disguised as Sabrina “Oh my beautiful sweetcheeks come here so I can kiss you” Sehun started “Yes let’s make out and since you already seen my underwear it shouldn’t be a problem” Chen said laughing and making his disguise disappear. “Can’t believe you told them Yeol, I already thought I had enough with you” he said while going to his living room. “C’mon you didn’t expect me to keep it to myself, If you want I can tell your girlfriend too” “Don’t you dare”. 

They spent the morning talking and watching tv until it was time for Baekhyun to get ready. He couldn’t keep smiling and dancing to every song that he heard. He even danced to Sabrina’s loud personification of Dancing Queen. When he finally got ready he went to the park and he was surprised that you were actually looking for him. “OMG I thought you weren’t coming to meet me, you know me the crazy oreo lady” “I kinda like getting my food stealed” you laughed and looked at his outfit and how it seemed to be tight but well fitted at the same time. You didn’t noticed that you were checking him out a little too obvious “Well do you want to eat the mini cakes or do you want to eat me?” Baekhyun said with a smirk “Oh I’m sorry I didnt I mean not that I don’t but I just… Ok give me the cake and ignore this” You said while blushing and sitting in the grass. 

“Don’t worry, I know that if you had to choose, the cakes would totally beat my ass” You looked at him and laughed. “So tell me you mini cabaekkie, what do you like to do besides… baking” he actually laughed at the new nickname you gave him and you realized how much you liked his laugh “Cabaekkie I like that. Well if I may speak for cabaekkie he actually likes playing games and obviously doing Sabrina’s laundry, that is my favorite hobby of them all” “Well how could you not love it? Old lady underwear? Hell yeah” You two continued to joke about Sabrina and you actually learned a lot about him. 

He was obsessed with PUBG, loved his friends but specially his best friend Chanyeol. He seemed like fun so you wanted to meet him but Baekhyun said he didn’t want that to happen because Chanyeol would expose him “Oh come on I want to hear your little things from when you were little” “That ain’t happening, he knows too much. He’s actually very lucky that he’s still alive” 

This little meetups continued for another two weeks. You would meet him and he would give you his little cakes while you talked about everything that happened the last day or funny stories that you had. It was getting extremely comfortable. After a week Baekhyun finally asked for your number and it was possibly the best thing you guys had. You had this little game of trying to find ordinary people that looked like a celebrity. This originated from one time you saw a woman that looked like Elton John. 

Baekhyun went to sleep with a smile in his face and started listening to love songs more often, maybe even singing them in the shower. “Yeez hyung you are acting like a child today” Kyungsoo said one day “He was always been a child” Junmyeon said from the kitchen. “Look you guys she is one of the best things that has come in my life and I want to invite her to dinner today so i need some help” “Help with what? Literally you’re a demon like..” Kyungsoo hummed “No hyung with what can I say” “Just be yourself she seems to like it… weirdly” Junmyeon said. 

Baekhyun was extremely nervous when he picked his zootopia lunch box that day. You guys had been bonding a lot, calls and texts daily, going to the park at the same time everyday and he was ready to take it to the next level. “Hey so what if we went somewhere nice to eat? not just pastries like real dinner, I know some nice restaurants” he said while you ate “Are you asking me on a date?” “Thats exactly what I’m doing” he said while smirking at you, ‘always so cocky’ you thought “Why are you always so fearless?” You said jokingly at him “Is that a yes?” you wanted to play so you took your time and smiled “It would be my pleasure to go” and at that moment his eyes light up and if he wasn’t pretending to be human, he would have fireworks appear. “The  i’ll pick you up at seven” he said standing up “Wait hold up, today?” you said confused “Yeah today, now gorgeous write your address in my phone so that I can pick you up and just worry about… nothing” he said smiling at you like a happy puppy “Oh okay” and like that he left. And that’s when you noticed, it was the first time he had called you beautiful. 

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When you got home, you went directly to your roommate bedroom screaming “OMG IRENE YOU WON'T EVEN BELIEVEEEEEE WHAT JUST HAPPENED” Irene’s face popped out of her door that was barely open “he did it didn’t he?” “YES HE DID FINALLY OMG QJXHQJHXNWHD” and with that you throw yourself into her bed and started screaming “OMG WHEN IS IT?” Irene joined you with happiness “Today but he didn’t say an hour so I need to get ready now” and just as he seemed to have heard you, your phone beeped, he was picking you at 7. 

“Oh my god maybe he’s gonna murder you” Irene said behind your shoulder “Fuck off and help me” “Do you want help or do you want me to leave” “Can you do both?” you said laughing.

Your best friend and you spend the whole day trying to find an outfit that you liked and you went with a red dress that revealed enough skin but not too much, and by 8:15 you were all done. 

Baekhyun on the other hand was going crazy to leave. And when he arrived he was nervous to ring the bell (yes he was going to ring the bell). He had bought flowers and he was afraid they were going to die, so he decided to put a spell on them so they would never die, plus it was a nice gesture. He ring the bell on your shared home and another girl answered the door “Hey wow” she said when he looked at him “Ah yeah hi are you Irene?” She looked extra confused “Yes?” “I'm here for your beautiful roommate is she here?” Irene giggled “You’re Baekhyun, come in I’ll let her now you’re here” and he entered their home. It was a small house but had it’s charm “Hey cabaekkie” you said casually “Wow you look perfect” He said looking at you up and down with love eyes and you immediately blushed “Oh my god get a room already” Irene was clearly making things uncomfortable so you guys decided to leave. Once outside you saw that he had a grey audi “Seriously what do you do for a living?” he smirked and opened the door for you “One day I’ll tell you, right now let’s get some dinner I’m starving” you entered his car and then he joined, “Where are you taking me Baekkie?” he took your hand and said “You’ll love it”. And he kept your hand in his, listening to music and singing everything “you have a lovely voice” you said smiling “That’s certainly not the only thing lovely about me” he said “I have a lot of secret charms” you looked at the window and said “Can’t wait to know all of them”. 

The restaurant was very amazing. Candle lighted and had a beautiful lake at the back, it had simplicity but was fancy still “Wow baekkie seriously you can afford this?” “Omg stop and enjoy okay beautiful?” he said taking your hand and asking for a table “Do you want outside?” he asked “No I will be cold” he smiled and asked for a table near the windows. 

The rest of the night was as romantic and fun as it could be. He was himself with you. “So I gotta ask you something” he said while you eat dessert, you nodded so he continued “Besides cake and oreo’s, do you like something else?” he was desperate to know how you felt about him. Because even though he was certain you liked him, he needed to hear those words.

“Okay so we���ve been talking for a while and you haven’t learned anything about me? You even invited me to a date and you don’t know anything about me? Seriously Baekhyun, the nerve yeez” you said shaking you head sarcastically. He laughed, of course you would answer like that. You didn’t want to say it yet. You liked drama, and drama means telling him you like him at the end of the date with a kiss on the lips and leave him lovestruck. 

He watched you eat the cake with the biggest love eyes “What?” you asked “Yes beautiful?” he said taking a strand of you hair that was blocking his view. You locked eyes with him, he was certainly the most beautiful human being in the whole universe and he was looking at you like you were the only girl he will ever like “You know I like when you eat cake?” he said smiling “Why?” you blushed “Well you look so happy and I love to see you happy, plus your eyes shine a lot lately, wonder why?” he knew why they were shining. You looked down and whispered “If you already know why do you ask” he laughed. You continued talking about little stuff and sometimes you didn’t talk, but you were comfortable with the silence between you two. 

When you both finished dinner he decided to take you to the little lake at the back. It was beautiful, the moon was shining on it and there were little christmas lights near the edge so that it wasn’t so dark. He turned to look at you “Will you, princess y/n walk with me?” and he proceeded to kneel and extend his hand towards you, you laughed cause it was so exaggerated “Of course young prince” you bowed and took his hand. You laughed but never let go of each others hand. 

The moon was beautiful that night and Baekhyun never thanked more than now, that he was sent to earth, he met you. You two walked holding hands and then he stopped “Y/N you look beautiful and not just today, like you always look beautiful and it amazes me so much. I never thought that i would met someone like you. You are truly a unique piece of art” he started getting closer to you “I know you like me and you know I like you, I want to be part of your life for as long as you let me, and maybe I’m coming a little to strong so for now I will just kiss you, because you don’t know how long I’ve wanted to” his warm hands cupped your face and you felt shivers everywhere, suddenly everything outside wasn’t important anymore. All that mattered was in front of you. He leaned and finally, he kissed you. His lips were soft and warm and he tasted like the strawberries he ate from the cake. you continued the kiss and his hands moved to your hips and at the same time you wrapped our hands around his neck, never separating from each other. He was intoxicating and was a very good kisser. You didn’t want to pull away and Baekhyun wouldn’t even dare to do it. You were everything he has been imagining, you were his new drug and he wasn’t going to stop kissing you. 

When you separated he whined and you laughed “Okay you big baby, you basically kissed me without my consent” “Did I?” he said with a pervert face, you rolled your eyes and said “And yes I like you too” he smiled like a puppy and you smiled back “You remind me of a corgi” He didn’t let go of you hips but he laughed out loud “You remind me of my new girlfriend” 

[pinkykitten]

Mission Fail

Marvel

Yon-Rogg x starforce! female reader

Warning: violence, blood

Specifics: romance, fighting, one-shot, fluff, race neutral reader, 2 for the price of 1!!!!!!!!!

People: yon-rogg, carol danvers, minerva, some skrull people 

Words: 1,741

Requested: By anon Could you do a Yon-Rogg x reader imagine? Like where the reader goes on a mission with Yon but is then kidnapped, but breaks out and gets back to him. 

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@fortheloveoflamp Hello! May I please request a Yon-Rogg x reader, where they are very close (and they secretly like each other) but he’s the unemotional robot so the reader doesn’t know. One day she gets injured pretty badly, and he mends her up, being all “you need to be more careful,” type of stuff and ends up spilling the beans by like saying “I need you to stick around” or something along those lines. Not a confession but not a cover-up. And it’s just really cute but also a lil angsty? Thank you so much!!

Authors Note: so i was gonna post yesterday but there was a issue with my house and yada yada yada i couldnt so im sorry for that but im happy i got to post today. my requests r closed atm cuz i wanna do something special for avengers soon so be aware of that when that comes out. also i thought of why not add two requests to 1 fic so i did and this is what came out of that. this is my first yon-rogg fic so i do hope u like it! 

“Do you remember the mission y/n?” Yon-Rogg was persistent in asking you this question. You were more of the rebel of the group and took precautions lightly. 

You groaned as you turned around sassily at Yon-Rogg, “yes commander I heard you like the 40th time. I get what we’re supposed to do.”

“Then I should suspect you do it with excellency and remember to be on the lookout.”

You raised your brow and placed your hands on Yon-Rogg’s arms, “aww are you worried for me? Do I feel an emotion coming on?” Yon-Rogg gives you a stern look of warning and you give up with a sigh. You sit in your seat in the ship and wait till you arrive to the planet. 

Vers and Minerva tried to stealthily motion over to you. Minerva with a knowing look and Vers wearing a smirk on her face. 

“So y/n, you and Yon-Rogg. Whats that all about?” 

“Yeah you two seem so suspicious lately,” Minerva crossed her arms, awaiting an answer. You rolled your eyes, “wouldn’t you two like to know?”

Both of their mouths flew open and you laughed at their expression and idea that there was something between you and the commander. “You guys I’m joking! He’s my commander, my boss, I can’t do that to him. Also, there is nothing going on between us, so whatever fantasy you two have please erase it. Oh and did you guys forget that we’re not allowed to have emotions? Please do be careful with that, especially around him.”

They both looked down seeming sad that the love they thought you two had was a mistake. 

“I still can dream though!” Vers shouted as she ran away before you can disagree with her on that. 

Unknown to you all Yon-Rogg was present and listening to that whole conversation. Why did he feel distraught when you said that your relationship with him was strictly business? He could feel himself drawing further away from the strict rules he was to obey. No emotions. Trying to shake the thought and feeling away he looked at the screen of the monitor. It indicated that they were on the planet. “Alright we’re here! For the good of all Kree! ”

As the whole crew exits the ship everyone spreads out to cover more land and to take in any Skrulls. 

“Okay lets all spread out, you y/n you’ll join me.” Yon-Rogg ordered as he stepped closer to you and grasped your arm. You could hear the chuckle of the other members as they saw how protective Yon-Rogg was over you. 

You felt that same way about him but tried to keep your feelings at bay so as not to have emotions. “As much as I would love to fight with you Commander I think I’m better off by myself.”

Yon-Rogg’s face became of annoyance as he wanted you to stick with him. He was about to intervene and order you some more but you fled the scene and gave the rest of the crew a wave of goodbye.

As you rounded around a huge boulder to get a better view of the Skrulls you paused to check up on them some more. “Finally, now Yon-Rogg can see what I’m capable of.” All this time you wanted to prove to him that you had what it takes to be in the Starfroce.

You took out your gun as you saw the Skrulls more in your vision but as you were about to pull the trigger you heard a rustle of the leaves behind you and saw a Skrull. You stood up quick and you were about to shoot him when another one punched you behind the head and made you go limp. The last thing you heard was the rest of the crew crying out your name, especially Yon-Rogg.

You were taken to a mini base on the planet, just far away from where the ship that you were in parked. 

“We need to get them in a trap. I know for certain they will go after this girl and when they do we will be here,” one of the Skrulls said as he watched the monitor with an evil smirk. 

You were taken captive, your arms and legs were cuffed to a metal bed. You could feel the sting on the back of your head from the punch earlier. “Yep thats gonna need stitches,” you thought as you looked around your settings, trying to find a way out. 

“Oh she’s awake.”

Your brows furrowed and you tried to untie yourself from the cuff, “what do you want with me?” You barked as you snarled to the enemies faces. 

“We don’t want you, we want your leader. We want to make you Kree pay, and be no more!”

You smirked and chuckled, “you think you’ll get rid of us that easily. You’re badly mistaken. We’ll always keep coming and taking you down no matter what. Its what you deserve.”

The Skrull stood quiet, shaking his head, “you don’t know everything.”

“Let me go now!”

The Skrull ignored you and turned around sitting by the monitor. You had to think fast on an escape plan. Seeing that your gun was far away and you were tied you quickly threw that idea away. You saw a guard sitting very close by near you fast asleep. You looked around you and then up and saw the perfect item. You stretched your neck and with your teeth bought the stick down that was atop the shelf above your head. You kept the stick on your mouth but quickly paused when you heard more shuffling of the Skrulls feet. They seemed to not focus on you and walked right by. You continued with your plan. Using the stick you point the stick, with your mouth at the guard and put the stick so that the ring or the chain that the key was on went around the stick. With more than one try you successfully got the key on the stick. You brought it to your hand and used the key to unlock the cuffs. (i know i say stick so many times in this sentence just like bear🐻with me and again im sorry) 

“Yes,” you whispered in victory as you hopped off the bed. You tip toed out of the room but accidentally bumped into a guard. 

“Wha-what do you think you’re doing?”

“Ugh using the bathroom!” You scrambled to your feet and ran as fast as you could. You could hear the guard call to the other Skrulls and soon there were a whole flock of them after you. 

“I wanted to be by myself I said, I wanted to prove myself I said!” Next thing you knew they started shooting their guns at you, left to right. You dodged all the attacks and as you turned a corner your face met with a hard chest. 

“Y/n?” A familiar voice called to you. As you stood up you saw Yon-Rogg. Happy to see him you hug him and whisper his name. You quickly realize that you are not supposed to do that and unwrap yourself from him. Before you could apologize Yon-Rogg grabs your hand and guides you and him out of the battle. More shots are fired and Yon-Rogg stands in your way so if by any chance a blast would hit him instead of you. 

You two make it out and jump into the Starforce ship. 

You were out of breath, holding onto the ships walls for dear life. You could tell Yon-Rogg was angry. “I told you to be with me. Why didn’t you listen?”

You opened your mouth, about to say something when you could see that privacy was not really happening at this moment. Everyone was looking at you two. “I would like to speak with you commander, alone.”

Yon-Rogg nodded as he understood. 

You opened the door to a tiny room with a bed and sat on the bed. 

“Okay, explain,” Yon-Rogg gave the commandment as if he were talking sternly to a little kid. 

“You know I’m not a little child. I get why you are so angry but I had my reasons.”

“Which were?”

You bit your lip and thought about what if you told him the truth, what if he thought you were being naive or stupid? Yon-Rogg sat by you and looked directly into your eyes, “you know you can tell me anything.”

“I just wanted to prove myself to you. I wanted to show you what I was capable of and that I was meant to be on this team. But instead I’ve just made a fool out of myself.” You peered down, disappointed with yourself. 

Yon-Rogg lifted you face up, “Y/n you didn’t need to do any of that stuff. I already knew you were extraordinary. You are meant to be on this team, you’re meant to be here. I had full faith in you.” He gave you a cheerful smile and this led you to want more of him like this, vulnerable. You were seeing a different side of him. Yon-Rogg caught himself before he could go any further and got off the bed and stood up, serious. “Um, well I just, are you okay?”

You were about to nod when you felt the cold feeling of your blood dripping down your neck. You shuddered and touched it with your fingertips. As you brought it to your eyes they were coated with dark, deep red liquid. (yeah thats called blood ms.writer. jeesh!) Yon-Rogg was worried, afraid if you were seriously hurt. “I need to take care of that.”

Yon-Rogg took part of his armor off and collected the first aid kit. He took part of your armor off so you could be comfortable and laid you down to work behind your head. Once he was finished he bandaged you up and sat by the bed while you laid it in, getting better. 

“You need to be more careful.”

Shrugging you give a light chuckle and placed your hand on his arm, “I’ll try next time.”

“I’m serious y/n, we...I need you to stick around.” Yon-Rogg placed his hand on top of yours. Signifying he cares for you, truthfully. You beam with a smile and start to close your eyes, exhausted. Just enjoying the presence of him there beside you and knowing that he will always be there to protect you. 

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TJ’s Playlist Chapter 6

Story Summary: When Cyrus finds a playlist on TJ’s desktop full of old love songs, he realizes that TJ has never been a scary basketball guy but rather a huge sap. TJ just wished Cyrus could realize that all of those songs remind him of a certain boy who likes chocolate chocolate chip muffins without telling him directly.

With insecurities and fears almost set in stone, it’s hard for TJ to admit that he has a heart aching crush on Cyrus who is trying to avoid just that. Of course, it doesn’t seem like both of them are trying to get over each other when they’re always together.

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Warning: angst, they cuss now

Cyrus found himself still lying awake in his dark room. His blanket had been thrown to the side, and he was sweating. He made his way to his restroom, and when he was washing his hands, he looked up at his mirror. He looked exhausted. He had told TJ goodnight and his intentions were to fall asleep right away like he had for the last few years. It was a gift Andi and Buffy always told him that they envied.

Only he couldn’t.

He kept thinking about his conversation with Buffy and wondered if there was anything that they had done that made her ask that question. What had put the idea in her head?

The only thing that drove him crazier was that he couldn’t get the idea out of his head. When had put the polaroid of him and TJ in his journal, he doodled a heart on the side without thinking. He quickly turned it into a shaded in circle and shut his journal.

He didn’t want to like TJ. He couldn’t like TJ. He didn’t want to be feeling all those butterflies and how his cheeks managed to feel hotter around him even though it was already 90 degrees outside. TJ was the human version of the sun to him, and it was getting harder to look at him. Cyrus couldn’t help but notice the few freckles that dotted his nose. Green was becoming a prettier color to him, and he didn’t want to know if it was because that was the color of TJ’s eyes. Their height difference was becoming a lot more noticeable to him, too. Thinking about their height difference killed him. It was when he wondered if he’d have to stand on his tippy toes to kiss him.

He would do absolutely anything to stop thinking about TJ.

Only it was getting harder.

It was kind of starting to hurt, too. It was the same longing he felt in his chest when he saw Jonah. His obstacle from being with Jonah was Andi and the probable fact that Jonah didn’t like boys. His obstacle with being TJ was simply that he didn’t like boys- making it easier to lose their friendship. If Jonah had found out, he was probably going to say “oh sorry” and then proceed to still be friends with him because of the Good Hair Crew.

If TJ found out, Cyrus had already built 22 different scenarios of it going horribly wrong. Only one of them included a “Sorry, Cyrus. I don’t like guys. But let’s still be friends.” Only, they didn’t ever speak again after that. Cyrus felt like he was driving himself mad thinking of it.

Cyrus made his way back into his room and threw himself at his bed. He hadn’t checked the time in a while, so he unplugged his phone from the charger on his bedside table. He let out a sigh as he realized it was 2:02AM. He felt curse. He had never stayed up for no reason, not even when he liked Iris or Jonah. If anything, he wanted to go to sleep to avoid the fact that he didn’t like kissing Iris as cool as she was. He wanted to fall asleep so that he could dream of another world where Jonah liked him.

But now all he could do is stay away and live in the world where TJ Kippen didn’t like him.

Cyrus shut his eyes once more, his phone gripped in his hand. He tried to fall asleep, and he knew it wasn't working. He slightly picked his head up and slammed it back down repeatedly on his pillow, hoping it'd be enough to take him out. It didn't work.

He began thinking about TJ again as he gave up and lay there. He thought about how he was actually putting in a lot more effort into his math. It made him smile.

Then he remembered.

Cyrus: Hey TJ r u awake?

In less than a minute, there was a response on his phone.

TJ: Yes but u shouldnt be

Cyrus: i can't sleep

TJ: why not?

Because of you!

Cyrus: honestly im not sure. i just have a lot of things running through my mind

You.

TJ: Do you want to talk about it?

Cyrus: I don't think so. I don't even know y i texted u in the first place tbh. sorry

TJ: youre good. i dont fall asleep until like 4am

Cyrus: oh man thats too late kgfdjgfdg

TJ: lmao i didnt think youd ever fall asleep past 10

Cyrus: i never do. i have a strict need for at least 7 hrs of sleep or ill die

TJ: looks like ur gonna die

Cyrus: please release a white dove at my funeral. make it two so it won't be lonely. Im being honest rn. im chugging a gallon of coffee tomorrow i swear. how do u do it everyday

TJ: I don't have a choice most of the time lmao. i just deal with it and let it slowly try to kill me

Cyrus: so u havent died bc you're a vampire?

TJ: u can say that. Hey can I call you instead? Im lazy

Cyrus: ye

“No,” Cyrus groaned. Hearing his voice was going to make everything feel worse. His phone started buzzing and he quickly answered it. He had never been happier about having soundproof walls. He didn’t want his parents asking what he was doing up so late talking to TJ.

“Hey,” TJ mumbled. Cyrus thought his sleepy voice was going to knock him out cold right then and right there.

“Hey, vampire,” Cyrus teased, making TJ chuckled in response.

“You sound awfully happy.”

“I’d be happier if I was asleep but I guess a late night conversation with my good pal TJ won’t kill me.”

“I’m starting to wonder if you really made up with Buffy,” TJ hummed. His voice was groggy yet Cyrus ate up every single one of his words. This was definitely a bad decision. “Did you?”

“I did,” Cyrus sighed. He was starting to wonder if he should tell him the real reason he couldn’t sleep. No. Then I’d have to tell him the idea of us liking each other is keeping me awake. But…. I don’t like him so it wouldn’t matter would it?

“We’re all cool right? I was wondering if she wanted to get her girl team to practice with mine.”

Cyrus grinned, “That’s actually be great. You should talk to her about it. I swear she’s not angry.”

“Why was she acting up with you then?”

“Stupid reasons. She admitted it herself. She’s scared of… something.”

“Buffy? Scared?” TJ scoffed. “Of what? Her reflection?” TJ paused and then said, “Sorry, that was mean.” Cyrus ended up laughing.

“No, it’s fine. She’s more worried you can say.”

“Of what?”

Of us falling in love, getting married, adopting kids, and living next door to her.

“Of us getting closer I guess.”

“So, she’s jealous?” TJ asked. Cyrus stopped himself for a moment. He hadn’t thought about it that way. He did make it clear he’d never pick anyone over her and Andi, though. He wouldn’t.

“Well we cleared it up, so I don’t think so.”

“Did she,” TJ hummed for a moment, “say anything else?” Cyrus raised an eyebrow. Did TJ know something else?

“Why are you asking?”

“Um…. Just curious.”

“You sure?”

“Well,” TJ added hesitantly. “I don’t know. I guess Amber and Buffy talked.”

“Buffy and Amber? Like my Buffy?”

“No, Buffy Summers. Yes, your Buffy,” TJ chuckled. “I guess that Amber showed her that photo where we both fell asleep and um,” TJ’s voice got lower, “I think that’s why she started acting up. Acting up is the right phrase to use but it’s 2AM. Sorry.”

“Don’t worry about it,” Cyrus barely managed to say. His heart was beating fast and he was filling up with dread. Did TJ know exactly what Buffy was thinking?

“But did she say anything weird?” TJ asked again. Cyrus realized there were only 22 ways this could go wrong, and then chances of triggering one wasn’t that high. He was also half asleep and his “fuck it” senses were quite activated.

“By weird do you mean her asking me a million times about the idea of us dating?” Cyrus quickly spit out, hoping TJ might miss the word ‘dating’. There was a moment of complete silence for almost twenty seconds. Cyrus palms were feeling sweaty, so he put his phone on speaker and lay it on the pillow next to him.

“Yeah, that,” TJ finally said. “I think it was because of Amber, to be honest.”

“I mean everything makes sense, now,” Cyrus replied. “I was getting worried about some dumb stuff. I think that’s why I couldn’t sleep.” He felt a lot more relieved. So he and TJ hasn’t done something that made it seem like they had “more than friends” intentions. It was just a conversation between Buffy and Amber that sparked something in Buffy.

“So you do know why you can’t sleep,” TJ told him, discarding the dating topic.

“Well, kind of. I mean Buffy and I actually fought over this. We never fight.”

“Just because her and Amber conspired that we liked each other?” TJ scoffed. “They do know that will never happen right?” Those words seemed to chew right through Cyrus’ heart strings.

“Yeah… yeah,” Cyrus cleared his throat. “I mean we fixed it. She realized she was being dumb. She admitted it, too.”

“Did she apologize?”

“No. I don’t expect her to. It’s Buffy.”

“It’s Buffy isn’t a good excuse, Underdog. If I drain the blood out of a kindergartner, nobody is going to say, ‘Well, it’s just TJ.’ Are they?”

“One, they’re totally different. Two, one of them is completely unrealistic.” He wished TJ wasn’t so blunt sometimes. It made him come face to face with the feelings and thoughts he always shoved in the back of his head.

“Buffy apologizing every once in a while shouldn’t be unrealistic.”

“Well,” Cyrus sighed. “I don’t feel like she owes me an apology, okay?”

“If you’re comfortable with lying to yourself, sure.”

“I’m so comfortable with lying to myself, I’d convince myself that I love myself.”

“Self-deprecating humor, huh. Nice”

“Thanks. It’s a specialty. My brain is full of it.”

“That’s nice. My brain is full of useless facts.”

“Like what?”

“Like a cat named Stubbs was the mayor of Alaska from 1997 until his death.

“TJ, I know I don’t cuss, but literally. What the fuck,” Cyrus softly chuckled, causing TJ to erupt with laughter. Cyrus rarely heard TJ laugh like this, but it was music to his ears. He really did hate the way TJ made him feel like he was floating on the clouds. He was starting to get sleepy now.

“I can’t remember how to do long division, but I honestly can remember the dumbest things,” TJ said, starting to mumble again. “Hey, Underdog. Have you started reading The Giver yet?”

“No,” Cyrus yawned. “We don’t need to be up to chapter five until Friday.”

“Want me to read it to you until you fall asleep? You sound like you’re going to pass out any minute now.”

“But then I won’t remember where I was before I fell asleep,” Cyrus moaned.

“Don’t argue. I’m already getting my book,” TJ told him. Cyrus could hear TJ shuffling around the bedroom. “Alright. Chapter one…” TJ read to him for what felt twenty minutes before he couldn’t remember anything but the lightness of dream.

-

And now the purple dusk of twilight time

Steals across the meadows of my heart

TJ was in the middle of chapter two when he heard light snoring. He smiled and whispered, “Goodnight, Underdog.” He hung up the phone and set the book back inside of his backpack before shutting off the lights. He went back under his covers and checked his phone for the time. It was 3AM, and he could hear the distant yet familiar arguing from downstairs. He had blocked it out for almost an hour thanks to Cyrus and Lois Lowry. TJ put the sides of the pillows to cover his ears and closed his eyes.

He knew time had passed when his eyes blasted open at the sound of a door slamming shut. The front door downstairs. He then registered the soft crying. Amber’s crying. He sat straight up and saw that Amber was at the end of his bed, her back against the wall.

“Amber?” TJ rubbed his eyes. “What’s going on?”

“Dad left,” she whispered. TJ stopped moving. Was he hearing wrong?

High up in the sky the little stars climb

Always reminding me that we're apart

You wander down the lane and far away

Leaving me a song that will not die

“What?”

“Dad left. I heard them fighting in the bedroom like twenty minutes ago and he was packing his stuff,” she covered her face as she started to bawl. TJ lowered his hand and crawled over and put his arm around her. Amber shared a wall with their parents. TJ at least had the guest room in between which spared him a lot. Amber had always had it the worst.

“He’ll come back,” TJ whispered, his eyes starting to burn with tears. “He’ll come back.” Amber kept crying, her sobs eventually turning into wails. All TJ could do was sit there and hug her. He hadn’t even checked what time it was. He didn’t know if Amber had fallen asleep. It was getting hazy and everything felt a million times heavier. Amber’s sobs would die down and then increase suddenly, and he failed at trying not to cry. The only thing he heard was crying and the cars that would pass by in the streets. There was a ghostly silence emitting from the entire house. “He has to come back.”

Amber fell asleep after a long while, but TJ stayed wide awake. He gently laid her down before positioning himself next to his window. He was sitting with his back flat on his poster-covered wall, his eyes switching between watching Amber sleep and staring at the photos on his ceiling. He couldn’t really see them. It was still dark outside, and he didn’t know what he was waiting for. As soon as the sun beams started burst through the window and hit his bedsheets, he knew. He reached out a hand and let the light beam of sunshine hit his hand. There were striped shadows from the blinds wrapping around his skin. He let out a half-smile before closing his eyes. Everything will work out the way it’s meant to be he told himself. His GG always said that the rising sun meant a new era. He knew he wasn’t lying because the day he died, the sunrise turned the skies orange. It was his GG’s favorite color.

The music of the years gone by.

Sometimes I wonder, how I spend

The lonely nights

Dreaming of a song

The melody

Haunts my reverie

And I am once again with you

TJ laid down next to Amber and closed his eyes, almost immediately falling asleep. It didn’t feel like he had slept for more than a few minutes, but it was 6:30AM when he woke up to Amber turning off his alarm clock. He hadn’t even covered himself with the blankets, and he was cold. Amber stood up with her hands wrapped around herself as she shivered.

“Get ready, okay?” she told him, her teeth chattering. She looked horrible, and TJ knew he did, too. He simply nodded his head, and she made her way out of his room. He didn’t want to get up. He was exhausted and drained. It was a different type of tired where everything felt heavy and his throat felt dry. His eyes hurt every time he blinked. He had no idea how he was going to make it through the entire day. He still had work that afternoon, and he definitely could not skip right now.

He stood up anyways and got dressed. He went out into the hall and heard the sink running in the restroom. Amber was going to be a while. He went back into his room and got his hair gel from his bag and started doing his hair in there to get that over with. When he was done, he heard his phone vibrate. He reached over and smiled when he saw who it was from.

Cyrus: Good morning. I’m dead.

TJ: God I wish I were you right now

Cyrus: What time did u fall asleep??? I don’t even remember falling asleep.

TJ: u knocked out like at 3.

Cyrus: how much sleep did you get

TJ: idk like 2

Cyrus: 2 what? Hours

TJ: minutes

Cyrus: tj omg. Minutes?!!!!!

TJ: okay maybe like an hour or 2 I don’t really know.

TJ hesitated before sending the next text.

TJ: everything just sucks right now

Cyrus: hey I’m here if you need anything okay? We can talk about it over baby tators after tutoring if you’d like. My treat this time.

TJ: can’t. I have work.

Cyrus: I’ll walk you to work then. Sound good?

TJ: sounds perfect :^)

Cyrus: :o)

TJ heard the restroom door open, and he walked out to finish getting ready. Amber saw the smile on his face and raised an eyebrow, “Cyrus.” TJ shrugged, the smile not faltering. “Goofy boys,” Amber shook her head with a grin and walked back into her room.

When TJ finished getting ready, he walked down stairs to find Amber making them breakfast. He had heard their mom shuffling around in the master bedroom, so he knew she wasn’t downstairs.

“Eat up,” Amber told him as he sat down. “It’s almost seven, and I’m pretty sure we’re walking.” TJ didn’t say anything and gratefully ate the breakfast. They both ate in silence. TJ realized Amber didn’t have any makeup on and her hair was in a ponytail. He had seen himself in the mirror minutes ago, and he knew he didn’t exactly look like Prince Charming either.

They both turned to the kitchen doorway when their mom walked inside. She was still in her work uniform, and her hair was in a bun that was fall apart. Her eyes and nose were extremely red.

“I made breakfast,” Amber told her, not looking at her for longer than a second. TJ just saw her nod her head before walking to the coffee machine.

“You kids don’t have to go to school today,” she told them, her voice quiet yet rough. “I’ll call in.”

“I have to turn in an essay,” Amber quickly responded.

“Yeah,” TJ momentarily added, “I have tutoring after school.”

“Tutoring?” their mom turned to look at him. TJ sunk back a little in his seat. They had been told about his dyscalculia, but it was something they haven’t talked about in a while.

“Yeah,” TJ bit his lip. “I have it for math with a friend and Mrs. Pierson.” She simply nodded her head and went back to paying attention to the coffee machine. They were silent for the next few minutes as Amber and TJ kept eating, the clinking of dishes filling the air. Their mom watched them carefully as she drank her coffee. TJ checked his phone and told them, “I better get going.” He collected his and Amber’s dishes and placed them in the sink.

“I’ll wash them after I drop you kids off,” their mom putting her coffee on the counter. “Let me go get the keys.”

“We can walk if you want,” Amber told her delicately. She hadn’t taken them to school in ages. They called it an unnecessary waste of gas most of the time.

“No,” she shook her head. “I want to. At least today.” Neither TJ or Amber pressed the matter and just went to wait by the door. Amber’s eyes were already tearing up as they got to the door. TJ gave her a weak reassuring and smile which caused Amber to rub her eyes in an attempt of disguise. When the heard the keys rattling, Amber turned to their mom and said, “I have English second period. I might text you to pick me up.”

“I’ll be by my phone,” she said as they all walked out to the family car. TJ sat in the back seat and waited for the car to start moving. He felt ice cold even though fall had barely crept in, and it was making him want to sleep. He started considering skipping school. Mrs. Pierson would understand. Cyrus would, too. “Hey, um,” their mom gently said. “I just want you kids to know that I already talked to my boss. I’m getting shifts as I need them. I’m going to be responsible now, I swear. Nana and I talked. She’ll be on call if any of you two need anything, and I’m at work.” TJ knew Amber was crying again. It made him feel worse hearing her cry. Their mom started choking up, “Hey, I love you kids, okay? I’ve been a shitty mom lately, but we’ll get through this even if it’s just the three of us. I swear.”

He has to come back. He has to come back.

-

TJ was early to school; not a lot of kids had gotten dropped off. He walked into the cafeteria and got in line (it was only two kids in front of him). He was full already, but he eyed the chocolate chocolate chip muffins. He grabbed one and went back outside to sit at a picnic bench. He pulled out his phone and realized he already had a text from Cyrus.

Cyrus: hey I need to see you before class starts

TJ: im already at school sooo

Cyrus: im almost there. Where are u?

TJ: Benches by the cafeteria

TJ didn’t bother waiting for a response. He rested his head on his propped up arm and started closing his eyes. His eyelids felt so stiff, and he if tired had a taste, it was whatever parched feeling he had in his throat.

“Good morning!” Cyrus enthusiastically said, causing TJ to jump up startled.

“Hey!” TJ yelped. He quickly turned around to see if anyone had seen, but it was just kids minding their own business and Cyrus laughing. TJ smirked at Cyrus, “Proud that you scared the shit out of me?”

“Kind of, yes,” Cyrus grinned. He had two coffee shop drinks in his hands and one was half-way done. TJ assumed that’s where he got his energy. “Here,” Cyrus set the coffee in front of TJ. “I don’t know if you drink coffee, but I know you need it.”

“I’m usually an energy drink guy, but I tend to not splurge on them. Sleep is free energy,” TJ said and picked up the coffee. He studied the see-thru plastic carefully. He rarely got anything from the coffee shop. He didn’t know how to order it. Why couldn’t the sizes just be small, medium, and large?

“You’re not getting any sleep, and TJ, I mean this in the nicest way possible. You look exhausted. I’m so glad I chose today to get you this,” Cyrus gave TJ an apologetic look. TJ was half-asleep, so he just stared at Cyrus’ lips for a few seconds too long before remembering he was in a conversation.

“Uh, yeah,” TJ blinked furiously and set the coffee down, “thank you by the way. I owe you one.”

“No, you don’t,” Cyrus shook his head. TJ took a sip from the straw and immediately made a sour face.

“What is this, Underdog?” TJ smacked his lips a few times. It was super sweet at first, but he liked the aftertaste. He started drinking it again.

“I call it liquid cocaine. It’s 4 shots of expresso, and 4 pumps of white chocolate syrup over ice in a cold cup.”

“Sounds unhealthy.”

“You sleeping habits are unhealthy, TJ. You need to get more sleep.”

“Sounds fake.”

“TJ!” Cyrus whined.

“Fine, fine,” TJ rubbed his eyes. “I’ll take sleeping syrup or something.”

“Don’t abuse that stuff, though.”

“Do you want me to sleep or not?” TJ smiled, causing Cyrus to shrug.

“I guess,” Cyrus sighed. TJ felt nice for a change. Every time he realized Cyrus cared about him, it made everything feel better. Even if everything was a complete shit pile. “Hey we have time to talk if you want to tell me what’s wrong. Or we can wait until after school. If we don’t crash.” TJ looked around and bit his lip. If he didn’t make it to the end of the school day, it wasn’t going to be because of a caffeine crash. He was pretty good at hiding any emotional distress in person, but he didn’t know how long he’d be able to hold this in.

“I’ll just um…,” TJ bit his lip harder.

“We’ll talk after school,” Cyrus reached his hand across the table and squeezed TJ’s free hand. TJ felt himself turning red, but he didn’t reach out to cover his nose. He put the coffee down and set the abandoned muffin right in front of Cyrus.

“It’s for you.”

The nightingale

Tells his fairytale

Of paradise, where roses grew

Though I dream in vain

In my heart it will remain

My stardust melody

The memory of love's refrain.

Next Chapter

A/N: Thank you for reading! Here’s those who asked to be tagged :) If you want to be added or removed from this list, just let me know! Also if I forget you I swear it wasn’t on purpose. I skip over things in my head sometimes.

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[johnwickjuice]

My savior the Reaper. A John Wick X Reader story

Chapter 9

Warnings: Death, blood, and violence ahead.

I stood there in silence and quivered. It was all I could do and I was sick of it. ‘What made me so valuable anyway? Was it because I was born a woman? What if I had been born male? Would I still be in the same position I am now?’ Thoughts swirled through my head at alarming speeds and I could feel my breathing becoming quicker.

In all honesty I didn't want them to take the silk bag off my head. I didn't want to see what this being had in store for me. The two men released their grip on my shoulders, and I heard them take a couple of steps back.

The bag was yanked from the top of my head, ripping a few strands of hair along with it and revealed the room around me. I stared at the ground, the floor was marble and from what I could tell in my peripheral vision, we were surrounded by lots of stained glass windows with shelves upon shelves of books. No doubt a luxurious study. Trying not to draw attention to myself I kept my eyes low and he took a step towards me.

"Your father hated you, no?"

His thick Russian accent was challenging to understand but I understood enough to know he was trying to get a rise out of me. 

"Otherwise he would not have promised me your life. He cared for you not and that is why you are here." He scoffed.

His words were stinging me now and I wanted to punch him. I hadn't realized, but my fists were starting to ball.

"Little girl you are of importance to me due to the fact that nothing is more valuable than human life, especially in my line of work.”

I did not want to know what he meant by that. Fear overtook me and I looked up at him. He was standing tall at least six foot three. He had to have been in his mid fifties, his hair was graying and hairline was receding.

I was spacing out, trying to devise a way to somehow use my phone when a hard smack landed across my face.

"Are you going to say something to your new master or stand there and gawk, girl?"

I really don't want to talk, I don't want to speak to him much less be here any longer. All I could think of now besides getting help was John. Tears started to stream down my face once again.

Finally to appease him and not to get struck again I asked "What should I call you by...sir?"

A grin grew across his face as he answered.

"You may call me-"

Without warning, the sound of gunfire echoed and riddled the room, shattering the stained glass and murdering the men that stood behind me.  I dropped flat to the floor covering my head. My whole body convulsing in shakes now.

It seemed to have been over in an instant, glass still dropping from the windows as silence filled the room. I uncovered my head to army crawl out of the room as quick as possible but felt the tall man grab hold of my ankle and slide me over to him. His hand wrapped around my neck squeezing it tightly as he withdrew a gun from his back pocket and pointed it straight at my temple.

“You're not going anywhere!” He growled right into my ear. “Do you hear me!? She’s not going anywhere!” He screamed through the now wide open windows into the forest.

He turned me and rushed us out of the room strangling and dragging me more so then letting me walk into the next room using my body for cover. The room we entered in next was what looked like a ballroom. A glorious chandelier hung from above and a giant staircase that curved upwards to the second floor that had golden railings would be a sight to behold if not for the circumstances.

As we made our way towards the steps. The doors across the room flung open revealing a very pissed off John with a pistol in hand and aimed right at us. Happiness and terror both overwhelmed me as I was so glad he was alive, but he was covered head to toe with mysterious cuts, bruises blood stains.

They began to argue in russian and I observed silently as I didn't know which breath would be my last, or Johns.

The man switched from holding my throat to my jaw and pointed my face directly at John as he spoke english directly into my ear now. Still gasping and struggling he spoke.

"Tell her John. Tell her the truth and see how loyal a bitch really is."

I looked deeply into Johns dark eyes and blinked confusingly. 

"John? W-Whats he talking about?" I said lowly.

John stared at us, breathing heavily with his mouth slightly open and blinked a couple of time, softening his gaze.

“Tell her John, Tell her what her fathers last moments were like when you took his life from him!” He said louder so my heavy breathing wouldn't mask his voice.

The world seemed to fall silent as all I could hear was my own heartbeat now. ‘Its not true. Its impossible. There’s no way in hell John would do that to me. No way.’

“Liar!” I screamed as I struggled against his grasp.

“Tell her John!”

I was struggling my hardest to get away from his hold but he is so much stronger then me, my efforts seemed futile. But I don’t care, I don’t care if I get shot I just cant take this anymore.

John yelled, louder then ever in russian once again and it caught me off guard for a second but I used that split second to my advantage. I was able slip his thumb into my mouth and I bit down as hard as I could.

He flung me hard against the marble floor. Gun shots went off simultaneously and the mans body fell beside me, bleeding profusely from his forehead.

I stared for a moment as I attempted to catch my breath.  I scrambled away from him, his cold lifeless eyes staring back into mine, his blood following me. Once I felt I was safe against a wall I buried my hands into my face to keep from looking. No energy was left in me. I could feel the adrenaline crashing now.

“Its alright y/n, everything is going to be okay now.” John spoke softly as I heard him walk from towards where the man was, “You’re in shock but it will pass.”

I felt him drape his blazer around me. His body heat from it encased me as his scent filled my nostrils calmed more so. My heart was slowing and I could finally think of full forming sentences again.

“Is it true?” My voice was hoarse.

“Y/n, listen to me.” He placed his hand over my upper arm and gripped it alarmingly tight. 

He probably doesn’t want me to run away from his words but I wanted to cut him off right then and there, wanted to scream and shout obscenities right into his face while punching and kicking him as hard as I could but my exhaustion was weighing me down like an anchor, also, he had a sincere tone in his voice that kept my attention just slightly peaked.

He sat down next to me, grunting slightly, as if he were hiding something painful.

“Remember at dinner?”

Yeah right, the way he looked that night, and the drinks that I had, had occupied my mind so much that all I was fixated on was how to go about jumping his bones when we got back to the hotel room.

“Slightly.” My voice cracked.

“We talked about rules and codes a little bit, well, this was one of them.”

I pulled my hands from my face and hugged my legs to my chest. I didn’t understand still but I felt like passing out if I said another word. John had taken the mans own blazer and placed it over his own lifeless body.

“He had a marker on me, meaning, if I didn’t follow one singular order of his, we both wouldn’t be sitting here today. Your father hired me to protect you after the marker was placed on me but even if he had hired me beforehand, everything would have played out the same. The rules abiding markers can not be broken and if i had broken that rule, I would be dead and you would be, god knows where.”

“Right!? Just like how I would be safe at the fucking hotel right!? That rule!?”

Him bringing my father up gave me a sudden energy boost and I jumped to my feet and slipped surprisingly easily out of his grasp.

“John if your work here is done now you can get the fuck out, just go! Just leave me here and go murder more innocent families away from me, I can find my way outta here without you and your shitty car!” I yelled.

He winced but he arose to his feet as well. “Not if you die bleeding out here you wont.”

I shot him a confused look and blinked a couple of times realizing what he had said. I lifted my arms to check my torso. Everything seemed intact to me, But I could spot blood dripping, from somewhere.

He grabbed my arm again, clasping it tightly

“The bullet is in your arm y/n. Let me get you taken care of please! You are my top priority and it will remain as such.”

I felt myself becoming weak, and nauseous, not sure if it was out of the fact that he still cares for me me after everything thats happened or the loss of blood. His messy hair is nice to look at at least and seeing him all scrapped up from attempts to save my life was nice to think about. He must have gone through some shit before he wound up here.

‘Okay yeah, I am definitley losing too much blood.’

[madzblue]

Welcome to the most awaited blog post yet: my skincare routine. Now I know what you’re thinking…theres a lot of skincare posts out there, what makes this one any different? Well for ONCE this is a post to do with dry, sensitive skin (even though most of the products mentioned will work for combo/ oily skin types as well). No one ever speaks about how people with DRY skin get acne, as well as most of the ‘acne’ products being tailored for people with ‘oily’ skin. So I didn’t always start out with bad skin, I used to be the ‘baby soft cheeks’ and the ‘odd pimple once a fortnight’ type of girl, and then I began living the ‘uni lifestyle’ which involves drinking a lot, eating frozen/ junk food and just partying and having fun without looking out for what I was putting into my body. Not only did my diet contain a lot of sugar, I also started eating less frequently (eating once a day as oppose to 3 times) all this effected my body and my skin drastically. I was gaining weight because of what I was eating and drinking as well as getting spots more frequently due to my poor dieting choice.

I got very frustrated at the fact that I got spots and to try and make them go away I purchased the Clinique solutions acne starter kit. When purchasing the kit I got a face wash, toner and a moisturiser and the kit itself claimed to minimise the amount of spots you get and clear your skin out. This was the biggest mistake I made. I regret it till this day. There was nothing wrong with the kit as it has claimed to work on a lot of customers that have OILY skin. However, I on the other hand had DRY skin, so what this product was doing was taking out all the moisture from my face and my spots to ‘dry’ them out. As my skin was already dry it only got dryer using all those products and this caused me to breakout A LOT MORE. I had 3x as many pimples on my face at the end of using the kit than I did when began. At the end of it I was fed up and I was determined to find a cure for acne for people with dry, sensitive skin such as myself. I disposed of all the Clinique products and began testing a bunch of products suitable for dry, sensitive skin. I researched a lot into this and finally found a skincare routine that worked and was tailored to me. Today I want to share this routine with you and hopefully it can help you in achieving that healthy looking, radiant face.

(I will attach a couple photos of me BEFORE I started doing my current skincare routine, to get a better insight of how bad my skin was with regard to spots, marks, texture, dullness, etc.)

this is my skin without any makeup BEFORE

even if I wore makeup my spots would still show

as you can see the texture of my skin was extremely bad and no longer ‘soft and smooth’

  Daytime Skincare Routine:

With dry skin it is extremely important to remember to keep as much moisture in your face as possible. Therefore always look for products that are meant to ‘hydrate’ you. This is exactly what my aim is every morning: try and get my face to have as much moisture as it can. I begin my day by washing my face with a cream cleanser such as the Body Shop’s Vitamin E Gentle Facial Cleanser (when looking at dry skin always look for the cream based products as they will irritate your face less as well as leaving your skin feeling not as tight). This face wash has been a holy grail for me for the past 2 years. Its the only face wash gentle enough to use in the morning that will clean your face without irritating it or breaking you out. It is so gentle its suitable for all skin types however I feel like it works best as a morning cleanser.

£8 from bodyshop.co.uk

  I then shower and all and as soon as I get out I make sure my face is completely dry and use a Vitamin E hydrating toner on a cotton pad which I then sweep all across my face. Toners are very important as they balance out the PH of our skin as well as unclog our pores. Toning is the key step to having glowing, healthy looking skin. You also need to make sure you pick a toner that has NO ALCOHOL in it and is gentle on the face. I have used toners in the past that claim they suit “every skin type” but please STAY AWAY FROM THOSE. They kept breaking me out and the ONLY toner that actually worked in unclogging my pores and not leaving my skin feeling tingly was the body shop vitamin e toner. If you have dry skin this is the BEST toner to use. I have tried a couple others but they are too harsh for my skin and make my face go a little red and irritated after. However the body shop one gives me just the right amount of moisture as well as always leaving me with a healthy looking glow.

£8 from bodyshop.co.uk

  I then go ahead and use my serum which is by The Ordinary and it is the ‘Hyaluronic Acid 2% + B5’. Hyaluronic Acid may sound scary but it is a vital ingredient in retaining moisture. This acid holds upto 10x its weight in water and is a key in achieving that healthy looking glow in your skin. I use a few drops of this and apply it directly to my face before applying any creams. I then use the Vitamin E intense moisture cream on top after my serum has dried to lock everything in my skin and this allows my face to be super moisturised throughout the day. This is also the key to keeping your pimples at bay or preventing them from growing into 3D objects on your face. The more moisture you have on your face, the flatter your pimple will turn out. This hyaluronic acid makes sure I have 10x more moisture on my face and keeps my spots so tiny they are barely visible when they do pop up.

£6 from beautybay.co.uk

£13 from bodyshop.co.uk

  SPF- why have you forgotten it??

SPF is one of the MOST IMPORTANT and missed out steps in anyones skincare routine. I have been on a mission to try and find a sunscreen that works and won’t leave a white cast behind on my brown asian face. So many people that I speak to don’t use SPF at all but if you don’t: START NOW. SPF protects our skin from the environment when you go outside. If I were to wear a face full of skincare and not lock it all in with SPF, the skincare would not be as effective on you. It also means that the dust, dirt and pollution from outside is touching your face and skin directly as you haven’t created a barrier of SPF to protect yourself with. All this is gonna slowly start making your skin sag and get wrinkly, meaning you’ll be showing signs of ageing before anyone else. SPF is also the key to having that makeup free ‘glow’. And if you think you don’t need SPF if the sun isn’t out, don’t blame me when you face starts to age sooner then everyone else’s. No matter what the weather: if you are leaving the house, YOU NEED SPF. The one that I’m currently using is again from the Body Shop’s Vitamin E range (which is perfect dry skin, I do recommend to check out the range in-store or online), it is the Moisture Protect Emulsion with SPF 30. This ’emulsion’ has a very runny/ watery consistency therefore its perfect to layer on top of your serum and moisturiser. I just use one pump and apply it all over my face. I let it sink in for a couple mins before heading outside.

£15 from bodyshop.co.uk

Makeup Removal:

I cannot stress enough how important it is you remove your makeup at the end of the day and DO NOT SLEEP IN IT. When you do your makeup you initially create a base that covers your skin. This base won’t allow your skin to breathe as everything will be covered in a layer of pigment. Makeup should only be worn for a couple of hours and then thoroughly removed. Every time I have a face full of makeup I ALWAYS double cleanse. This means I will clean my face twice: once with a makeup remover, and one more time after that with a cleanser. To remove my makeup I like to use the Clinique ‘Take the Day off Balm’. This is the most amazing makeup remover I have ever used (I have also done a review about it on my blog if you look at my other posts). This is the only remover I wouldn’t mind spending £30 on as it lasts me 3 YEARS (yep thats just £10 year). It’s the most magical balm that you rub onto your dry caked face and it transforms into an oil as soon as it comes into contact with your skin. You then just rub this ‘balm’ all over your face and just wash it off with warm water and pat dry. Thats it. All your makeup gone in ONE GO. No eye makeup remover needed, no need to go in with another wipe. Its magic in a tub. Highly recommend everyone to try this at least once in their life.

  Night-time Skincare Routine:

At night times I like to keep my skincare a little extra, at the end of the day you’re washing everything off your face including the sweat and dirt. You need to make sure you’re giving your face a good deep cleanse and are scrubbing away at the places that need it most. I’ve realised hands alone can’t achieve this. I use the Vanity Planet Skin Spa on my face (this is a face brush that I use with a silicon head attachment as the brush attachment was too harsh for dry, sensitive skin). I use this face brush along with my Kiehl’s ultra facial cleanser (this is the perfect cleanser to use at night as it is very gentle yet effective and doesn’t leave the skin feeling ‘stripped’ of moisture) and make sure I’m working at each part of my face for at least 10 seconds with the brush. This brush has not only given me clear, tight skin but has also shrunk my pores and is 100% the reason why my spots are not as big as they used to be. It is an amazing brush and I got it at 70% off using a code (which I can give you if you message me) and I definitely think you need to try it out with the silicone brush head to actually see a difference in your skin. This has improved the overall texture of my rough skin and made it a lot smoother to touch and look at.

£16.50 from Kiehls.co.uk

  I then go ahead and tone again as it is very important to tone after you wash your face. I use the same toner as mentioned above and then go in with my serum. I am currently using the Ordinary’s ‘Lactic Acid 5% + HA’. This is a mild chemical exfoliant that will help my skin with improving its texture as well as fading away scars and marks. As this is an acid you always need to remember to wear SPF the following few days after using it. I take a few drops of this in a cotton pad like I do with my toner and sweep the pad across my face. I then use a night oil on top as an acid by itself could damage my skin (so I dilute it with using a facial oil on top). I love using Kiehl’s Midnight Recovery Concentrate. This is an extremely pricey oil (costing around £40) however I am in love with it and it is one of the main reasons my skin is so nice today. You only need four drops every night therefore the bottle should last you about a year, and honestly this oil is an investment; you’ll wake up the next day seeing a change in your face, it looks a lot plumper and brighter. This oil is like sleep in a jar for your face. It helps me look fresh and awake the next day knowing I haven’t gotten as much sleep.

£38 from Kiehls.co.uk

  Exfoliate to radiate

I never used to think much of exfoliation but thats where I was going wrong. There are two kinds of exfoliants one is the physical kind that are basically beads or larger pieces you find in scrubs and microdermabrasion scrubs. These physically try and lift away the dead skin cells sitting on your skin to give a more radiant glow. The skin cells on your face renew every 28 days which means after 28 days you have dead skin sitting on top of your face waiting to come off and expose your lovely new cells, but if you don’t rub away at the dead skin your face will never glow like the gods and will always look dull and boring. I was using a physical exfoliant before however it didn’t do much for me but give me red skin (my dry, sensitive skin needed something less harsh that would be more effective). Honestly speaking I didn’t see any difference in my skin while using a physical exfoliant HOWEVER a chemical exfoliant changed my life. A chemical exfoliant does exactly what a physical one does but with the help of an acid. This acid would ‘eat away’ at the dead skin sitting at the surface and bring forward the new healthy skin without you having to do any work. My favourite chemical exfoliant that honestly works from day 1 is The Ordinary’s ‘AHA 30% + BHA 2% Peeling Solution’. This is such a good affordable chemical exfoliant that you use weekly as a 10 min mask. I literally start my phone timer AS SOON AS this acid touches the skin on my face. As it is an acid you will experience some tingling but its honestly not that bad at all and isn’t painful. As soon my timer hits 9 minutes 30 seconds I go to wash my face with lukewarm water (don’t go over 10 mins as this is an acid and has to be used on your face with care, otherwise you can end up doing more damage to your skin). I use this exfoliant after washing my face in the morning but BEFORE toning. I let my face dry after I have showered and then use the peeling solution. After I have washed the peeling solution I continue with my regular daytime skincare routine and tone, apply serum, moisturise and then use SPF. After exfoliating you want to make sure you have as much moisture on your face as possible as your pores are open and your face is sensitive; the more moisture on the skin, the less likely you are to break out. With this exfoliant the effect is not immediate, however when you wake up the next morning you will notice your face being a lot more brighter and even toned than before. This product has honestly been the cherry on top, it makes your already good skin look even better when you didn’t think it could! 

£6.25 from beautybay.co.uk

The result?

After years of struggling with acne and dry skin and using the wrong products recommended by friends that had different skin types I have finally cracked the code to having clear skin. You need to tailor your routine to suit your skin as everyones skin needs are different. Check your face to see the places where your pores appear more and thats where you need to exfoliate more. Also check for spots on your face where your skin feels really tight (these are your drier spots) as well as checking where you get oily. I also recommend you use face masks (such as sheet masks and mud masks) once every 1-2 weeks. The Sephora sheet masks are amazing if you feel like your skin needs to be treated now and again. But this skincare routine alone will guarantee you clearer, better looking skin even without the face masks. Just remember to take care of your skin and listen to it, if you feel a new pimple about to come out put a lot of moisture in your face that night (use items that you know will hydrate your face), it’ll stop the pimple from growing bigger. As well as drinking a lot of water. Water builds the foundation to have good skin. I drink A LOT of it to keep mines looking the way it does, and I have finally come to the skin I’m in.

Below are a couple photos of what my skin looked like AFTER I followed this skincare routine:

This is my skin now: natural, unedited makeup free.

here I’m wearing powder products but am wearing NO FOUNDATION all the makeup is done on my natural skin.

You can see the texture of my skin has improved a lot more. Again I have NO FOUNDATION it is my natural skin with makeup on top.

Here I just put a little bit of colour on my face but again NO FOUNDATION, and my skin looks like its airbrushed..

Skincare 101- how to get the confidence to bare it all Welcome to the most awaited blog post yet: my skincare routine. Now I know what you're thinking...theres a lot of skincare posts out there, what makes this one any different?

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My Stardew Valley started flipping out cause i was playing it for 14 hours strait and it legit did some creepy pasta stuff so heres a creepy pasta

reality: somewhere around hour 10 Kent’s sprite only loaded half way (his eyes and up) or not at all. Willy was just a shadow- even when interacting with him. at one point he phased though Haley (and it was the only time his sprite was fully visible) side note: me and my sister declared willy a ghost because the fishing in my game was such lack luster. Gunther was probably the same since i never saw him at the museum but was still able to donate. lastly Alex glitched though a already glitched haley- she was on the beach even though her schedule wouldn’t have put her there. i wasn’t able to interact with her but a part of me wonders if i went to her house (where she was suppose to be) if i would see her shadow and would be able to interact with her there, but i was too far in a “yup. totaly writing a creepy pasta about this now” mood.

The Creepy pasta:

i really don’t know what to say now other than everyone was right- a game about a fun little town in a sleepy valley being secretly evil? yeah, its true. 

i was playing Stardew Valley one day with my sister- i had woken up in a sour mood and i wanted to cheer myself up. at one point she came by and hung out with me, watching me play on my farm and the normal day to day antics with the pelican town NPCs. we were laying on my bed since it was the only place comfortable enough to play on the laptop for hours on end.

i lost track of time. everything felt too real, like i was getting lost in the game. this is normal, but i knew there was something wrong when it took my sister kicking me in the head snap me out of it.

“oh my god i’m so sorry! i meant to nudge you!” she declared and it was fine, really, but when i glanced back at the screen Harvey was talking to me. i don’t even remember interacting with him- must have clicked him when i get hit in the head. it seemed normal enough; he was mentioning he was having trouble making ends meet so he’ll have to get patients from somewhere else. 

i went back to playing as we chatted about nothing when something struck me.

“hey...” i asked my sister as i paused the game. “Doesn’t harvey normally say he’ll find patients from the nearby towns?” she blinked a few times at me then silently checked the wiki.

there wasn’t an answer there, so we shrugged it off. wouldn’t be the first time NPCs change their dialog. Sebastian mentions that me and sam are his only friends after so many hearts.

speaking of which, i wanted to give him a present today. i had forgotten the quarts at the farm so i rounded back, heading past Sam’s house. i got lost in the game again- it was like the only thing i could hear was the game, the only thing i could feel was the cobble stone under my feet but that wasn’t right- i was in bed.

when i walked by Sam’s house Kent walked out. i smiled and talked to him only... His sprite wasn’t there in the dialog box. his text was also jumbled and didn’t make sense. the prompt to continue the conversation came up and when i clicked it the text was less garbled but Kent’s image was just his eyes. he said “I’ll watch out for you”. 

i snapped out of it at that. i looked over at my sister to ask her if that was normal (it wasn’t) but she seemed so transfixed on the screen it was my turn to snap her out of it. i smacked her on the head and she flinched but seemed alright.

“sorry, i meant to nudge you.” i joked, but she didn’t seem to hear me. “I thought Kent came back from war?” she questioned and i tilted my head. “Umm. yeah he does, in year two...” i turned back to the screen and Kent was gone.

“You were just talking to Sam- he said his dad died?” 

we both stared at each other before taking out our phones to chick the wiki. sure enough it says Kent returns in year two- alive.

we decide my games glitched and i keep playing while my sister makes a bug report. it took me far too long to realize dialog nor included in the game showing up out of no where- and for only ONE person for that matter- was anything BUT a bug. by the time i got to the farm and had gotten the quarts for Sebastian the report had been sent and my thoughts died in my throat. 

a few in game days later i realize Harvey has been acting weird; hes been following Haley around. i don’t pay much attention to the doctor (Sam, Sebastian, and Shane being my favorites i tended to look out for them, not so much HAley or Harvey) but i didn’t think they shared a pattern at all.

i brushed it off and decided to head down to the beach. Alex’s cut scene triggered so i say back and watched. it seemed normal until his sprite changed to the surprised looking one.

“Did you hear a scream just now?”

>no? what scream? >.... >yeah! it sounded like Haley!

my sister swore and looked up the wiki again. con confirm: not part of the cut scene. i thought for a moment and decided that no, i didn’t hear anything (but i really hadn’t). Alex seemed worried and went to investigate. the scene ended but Ale wasn’t on the beach anymore. i was really starting to freak out and debated turning off the game. before i could exit to the desktop i got lost in the game again- the fishing mini game is the devil but i mastered it none the less. i didn’t even remember casting my rod. 

it was getting late so i headed home. Harvey was standing on the bridge to the beach. i didn’t talk to him since it was mid night. i needed to get home.

when i woke up it all seemed normal. i decided to take the fish i got last night and sell them to willy. i wasnt sure how to get the fishing scene in the valley more lively like he’ll some times says so i figured if i sold the fish directly to him it would help. when i went down to the beach i saw haley but she wouldn’t talk to me. she stared out at the ocean, her dialog box just dots. her expression sad.

when i went to see willy he wasn’t there. at first i thought i was at the dock at the wrong time, but something cold pressed against my arm and i snapped up out of the game and looked at my sister- she was holding the Gatorade she had gotten earlier to my arm.

“you were ignoring me again. Sib i think somethings seriously wrong with your game”.

i agreed but i couldn’t stop playing. i explained this and she got worried, fiddling with her phone again.

i can’t stop playing. i have to keep playing. 

“hey” she got my attention. “theres this stardew turmblr account -joja apologist. they have a farmer whos a demon.”

“cool.” i kept playing. i should give Sam a present. “No listen they’re making posts about their stardew game acting weird.”

i tried to turn to face her but thats all i did- face her. my eyes were locked on the screen as Kent walked by. i went to talk to him again and the same thing happened- jumbled words and no sprite and then just his eyes and the declaration that he’ll watch out for me.

“They did Harvey started attacking people so they would HAVE to go to him for meds and stuff.” she sounded worried so i hummed in reply. 

then i remembered Alex’s broken cut scene.

“Haley!” i scrambled over to her house and found a cut scene waiting for me. in it Harvey was telling Emily something. my farmer walks up to them and Harvey greets me, but his portrait is distorted some- he has wide eyes and a grin that seems to reach his ears. he asks me to try and comfort Emily- she just lost her sister.

I felt sick at the thought; this was wrong. very very wrong.

<But i saw her the other day. <no... no not Haley.... <*give Emily a hug*

My sister stared dumbfounded at the screen. i asked her if that tumblr blog saw anything like this and she begins scrolling. as im watching her i’m faintly aware of a sound... like dripping or maybe clicking? i glance at the screen and scream, shooting up and off my bed as Harvey’s portrait changed to have hyper realistic eyes and teeth. the eyes were blood shot and seemed to follow me and my sister as we shifted on the bed to get away from the laptop.

“w-what the FUCK” she yelled. i clung to her protectively, thoroughly convinced his digital doctor was off his possibly very real rocker and could possibly do something to us.

the mouse moved on its own now. it selected to give Emily a hug and the farmer did just that. the cut scene went on, Harvey’s portrait no longer the disturbing version (well it was still disturbing with the wide eyes and chestier grin but at least now it was pixels again). he said he did all he could for Haley and that he was sorry. he then left my farmer and Emily alone.

“Turn it off.” my sister stated as we continued to stare at the screen. “Turn it off.” I nodded numbly and didn’t even both with the proper exit and just held the power button down. 

only it didn’t work.

i held it down for what felt like forever but the laptop was still alive- and it was midnight again.

“Oh fuck no...” She whispered and i scrambled to get my farmer home. when the day ended and the game saved and felt a lump form in my throat. what if Haley is forever dead in my save now? and what about willy? and...

“Wait wheres Alex?” i muttered as i went to town. i bumped into pam and in my frantic scrambling clicked her. to my horror she looked scared. “Did you hear? Alex nearly drowned at the beach! to think, wouldn’t a guy as athletic as him know how to swim?” she then went on her way. i paused for a moment directed my farmer to town again. Alex walked out of the clinic and when i talked to him he seemed fine. gave the normal dialog too.

“Why the hell are you still playing?” My sister shouted from behind me- i didn’t even notice I've scooted directly in front of the laptop, blocking her view. “I thought you were going to exit the game.”

thats right. yeah. turn it off. right.

then Harvey walked out. his sprite was normal but it felt like it was watching me. curious, i moved my farmer down towards Sam’s house. to my horror Harvey was following me.

“Holy shit. HOLY SHIT!” my sister grabbed me and shook me hard. “Holy Shit turn it off! turn it off!”

i stopped my farmer and opened the menu and screamed when i saw Harvy moving towards him even when the game was paused. i unpaused it in time for him to be stopped right next to my innocent little farmer. i kept moving towards Sam’s house.

“Holy shit...” my sister whispered. i told her to check the blog and she did.  “What are you going to do?” she asked, her eyes transfixed on her phone.

“Kent is watching out for me.” i reminded her as i entered Sam’s house.

as i expected, there was a cut scene. in it Sam was playing his guitar and Vincent was in the kitchen. Kent walked out and when he saw my farmer he ran over.

“Hes after you now, isn’t he?” he two eyes of the veteran with PTSD looked though the screen at us. i nodded. “Talk to Sam. you have enough hearts with him.” and he was gone, cut scene over.

i looked over and my sister and she nodded, confirming that the blog said something simular- they were instructed to talk to Gus though. i ran strait to Sam’s room and the door opened then closed behind it. Sam stopped playing his guitar and walked over to my farmer.

“Don’t worry, you’ll be safe.” he said. Sebastian stopped playing the key boards and walked over to my farmer as well. i didn’t even notice Sebastian in the cut scene.

“Thats because i wasn’t there.” his dialog box popped up. “Harvey thinks i’m at home.”

both me and my sister just stared at the screen. Sebastian... heard me? we didn’t have much time to think about it as the sound of a crash and something hitting something very hard was heard. My farmer moved on his own with Sam and Seb following him.

outside of Sam’s house was Harvey- the creepy hyper real version- and Kent. Harvey was crawling away and Kent looked like he had just been to war again. when Harvey's sprite was off screen Seb and Sam gave my farmer a hug before they turned to face the screen. Kent joined them, his portrait going back to normal.

“You can close the game now.” he said. “S-Save it first!” Sam interrupted. “If you don’t he’ll chase you again!”

my sister had taken the mouse from me and was directing the farmer back to the farm. we saved and closed the game.

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One Final Push

This is a role play between @triplets-of-terror​ and myself. It features her OCs Isabella (daughter of Ayato and Yuko) and Spencer (son of Ayato and Yuko) with my OC Kanaye (son of Kanato and Yuuki).

Status: Ongoing

Word Count: --

ღ  Warning: that this may contain content that may be unsuitable for some readers such as mature themes, strong language, adult situations, and sexual content

Quick note - This is set 2 years after the events of You Get It and An Unexpected Encounter  ღ

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Kanaye walked through the door he’d walked through thousands of times… only today something heavy weighted on his mind. Tonight, just like so many, he was going out with Isabella. Though it wasn’t a date! The two of them were simply close.

In fact over the last two years, they’ve gotten really close. The two had gone out many a night, seeing music concerts, movies, going to theme parks in the day- but they were not dating. Neither one of them has confessed any deeper feelings other than friendship.

That… was what weighted on Kanaye tonight. Recently he’d started… noticing things about Isabella. Little things at first- like her dressing a bit nicer when they go out. Wearing purposely lower cut tops, and pleasant scented perfume. Physically touching him more, and allowing him in turn to touch her more.

He really liked spending time with Isabella. In fact, Kanaye was certain he’d spent more time with her lately than Spencer. Even so… something just… wouldn’t allow him to ask her out. To make it official and just date her.

As he walked back towards Isabella’s room, Spencer’s door was open. What kind of friend would he be to ignore that invitation.

“Spencer? You home?”

Kanaye knocks on the open door and peeks inside.

“You’re alone right? I’d assume you’d have more sense than to leave your door open if you and Oliver were… together.”

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Standing up from his bent over position to reach his the bottom drawer of his dresser Spencer pulled his shirt down allowing his head to go through the hole and flattened it against his body before walking over to Kanay to great him warmly.

“I don’t know I’m pretty scandalous~ But for right now, I am alone yes. I’m meeting Oliver somewhere in an hour.”

He said with a smile before opening the door more for Kanaye to speak to him properly.

“Why what’s up? I though you and Isabella had a thing tonight, is she not ready?”

He asked curiously, for a while now Kanaye had been spending more time with Isabella. Not that the demon mined, he was happy to see the two of them happy with each other

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Kanaye laughed at his friends joke. Spencer was scandalous but it was very unlike him to do something like that when his parents could walk by. He was grateful for that, it was one thing to support Spencer’s life choices. He didn’t need to see them in action.

“I’m a bit early. There was… something I was hoping to talk to you about before we left.”

He walks into Spencer’s room and cringed slightly. So messy. Clothes all over and bed unmade.

“How do you live in this mess?”

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Leaping onto his bed Spencer bounced bait, landing in a pose as if he were modeling for something while he wriggled his eyebrows playfully.

“Very comfortably, but come Kanaye.”

Patting his bed he moved aside for Kanaye to sit. He was always very playful with his friend, it was known that Kanaye was very much straight and that Spencer never meant any of his jokes.

“Whats up? Though… I can kind of guess what its about.”

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Kanaye sighs a bit at his antics but it was nothing out of the ordinary. The two were very close, and it did not bother him. He walks over to the cleared off space and sits next to Spencer.

“As you know… Isabella and I have been seeing one another quite regularly.”

He blushes slightly and looks away. This was strange speaking about this to Isabella’s brother. His best friend or not.

“I… fear that my feelings are… becoming quite invested.”

It was nice to finally say it out loud. He’d felt this way for a while but, now that it was being said out loud, it felt more real.

“This… is a problem.”

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Nodding as he listened, Spencer’s face remained the same. He wasn’t surprised, Kanaye wasn’t one to fall in love easily or often. So it was… fairly obvious that what he felt for Isabella was more than friends.

“Yup, thats what I thought.”

He said standing up from his bed. Everything he thought had been confirmed. If this would be anything like it was two yers sago, they wold avoid telling each other unless someone intervened. And who would be better to intervene than Spencer?

“Why would it be a problem? It’s pretty obvious she feels the same way, what’s stopping you?”

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This was where the two of them differed. Spencer did not see a problem before either. It was simply in their up bringing.

“… Isabella is my cousin. Where I had some room with Izumi, Isabella is directly tied to me by blood.”

Kanaye knew there was not a lot he could say to make Spencer see things the way he did. It was frustrating to go at this alone.

“One of the main reasons for breaking it off with Izumi was because of this. What kind of person does that make me to now go out with a direct cousin? What does that say about my relationship with Izumi. I cannot simply just… stop caring about it. I saw what being an offspring of this kind of relationship did to Subaru.”

Kanaye sighs and runs his hands through his hair. This was… a mess. What was worse is he allowed it to be this way. Instead of cutting Isabella off, he selfishly kept seeing her.

“… how can I ask Isabella to take that kind of risk. Not to mention how people would see her. I want to take Shu’s place, and if her and I continue… she would be my queen. How can I be worthy if I am no better than our grandfather..?”

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Spencer’s face remained stoic the entire time his friend spoke. Not that he was angry… though a wave of slight frustration swept past him.

“You have no idea… how badly I wanna slap you.”

His tone was still light as it always was, but he meant his words. He understood Kanaye’s concerns and worries but… they were just unnecessary to Spencer.

“Look I understand why, but listen… our Dad’s Dad wasn’t a ‘good’ guy, at least from how my Dad described him. What happened with Subaru… that’s only because his Dad left and his Mom wasn’t… in the best place mentally.”

This wasn’t a subject he was very knowledgeable in. But from what he did know, if Kanaye followed his feelings then things wouldn’t turn out the way he was thinking.

“I don’t think… you guys are cousins. That sounds weird, but I know what family is, and that’s not what you guys have. Sure you guys care about each other, a lot, but I don’t see the point in worrying about blood when that doesn’t really affect you… you get what I mean?”

He said lightly, sitting back on his bed next to Kanaye. Hopefully he didn’t sound harsh, he was just happy that his friend was ready to start loving again.

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“Perhaps not to you.”

Kanaye lowered his head.

“I plan on taking the throne Spencer. These things matter. They all reflect on one as a leader. To love someone of my own blood… how does that further our grasp? There are still plenty of tribes and people who do not acknowledge the Shu as their king.”

He stands up getting a little upset. How could Spencer possibly understand a world hems never known.

“… not to mention a child. I have looked into this before. To inbreed… can create complications. Our child could… if we were to have one- it could be horribly disfigured or disabled.

Spencer… it is simply… impossible. I must break things off with her. Tonight must be our last…”

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“If…”

He began a little sadly. It was a shame Kanaye thought this was necessary, but as his friend he had to support him. He felt bad enough, that much was clear, it was a wonderful opportunity he was passing up.

“If you feel that way, then do as you must Kanaye. I can’t tell you what to do, I can only support you as your friend. But I can also give you advice, so I’ll tell you; Do what you want to do, not what you think you have to do. I’m not trying to make you feel bad, but I think that Isabella’s feelings should also play into your decision…”

He spoke softly. It was sad to hear this from his friend, but as much as he wanted to, Spencer can’t force him to do what he thinks is right. It’s Kanaye’s life, he has no control over it.

“But I do have one request… please don’t lead her on, I shouldn’t be telling you this but she… feels the same for you, and I would hate for her to go through yet another heartbreak. I just ask that you make it as painless as possible.”

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“… Your words have help me greatly. Thank you.”

Kanaye smiles down at him. He was truly lucky to have a friend in this world.

“I will… speak with her tonight. You are right about her feelings. So I shall… do my best to ease them.”

Just as he spoke, Isabella’s scent became stronger. She was finally out of her room. Kanaye walks over to Spencer’s door, thanking him once more for the advice before leaving the room.

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Stepping out into the hallway she spotted Kanaye and smiled warmly at him. Before walking over to him she checked herself one last time, it wasn’t often she wore shorts or perfumes or makeup, she was normally very self conscious but around Kanaye she felt more confident.

“I’m sorry I took so long, I was trying to find my clothes, you know my room’s a mess.”

She said with a smile checking the time on her phone. It wasn’t to late, they’d still be able to go out and do what they normally did on their outings.

“You ready to head out?”

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Absolutely breath taking. Over these past few months Isabella has blossomed into such a… picture of femininity. Kanaye could see it in her eyes the confidence she’d found in herself.

Isabella was often so shy about wearing things like this, though Kanaye loved when she did. Before he could stop himself, he took her hand in his, kissing it softly.

“You’re dressed so beautifully.”

Damn it! Why did he do that!? He was supposed to be distancing himself. What was wrong with him!

But… he spoke the truth. The aesthetic of flowers and warm suited Isabella so much better than those dark cloths. Not that she didn’t look nice before- just now, she glowed.

“Are you going to be comfortable in this all night? We are going to an art show, you’re going to distract the entire room.”

Damn it!

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A light blush dusted across the female’s face, he had been doing this for while now. She’s never gotten used to it, but her reactions were less frantic now.

“I don’t know about the whole room… maybe just you Kanaye~?”

She teased back. She was slowly getting more close to him, she felt more comfortable making these kinds of jokes. Besides, she was able to tell that he was joking too… right?

“But to answer your question, yes, I think I will be comfortable. I just hope that its not cold haha, but I’ll be fine.”

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She was so witty. It never ceased to amaze him how quickly she was able to counter him. Though, after tonight this bond would never be like this again.

“If you do grow cold, you may use my jacket.”

He informs her as they leave the house. Tonight there was a community art fair outside. The local humans did possess some talent- at least in Isabella’s eyes.

Kanaye was not very fond of art- though he could see beauty in it. They walked side by side, an odd aura around them. Normally they could talk none stop.

Tonight he had to distance himself. Things could not continue. Isabella would only be miserable as his. All of the expectations of a queen, the gossip of their blood relations, he could not put her through that.

As he thought this however, Spencer’s words echoed in his mind. Isabella’s feelings are important. He should not simply decide her fate on his own.

He also mentioned doing what he wanted- and not follow the will of others. What he wanted… what did he want exactly? Right now, all he wanted was to speak with Isabella.

To touch her softly, perhaps hold her hand. Take her as he did 2 years ago. Claim her. She was a vision of beauty that took him far too long to see. The rough outside was only for those only interested in the flesh.

Isabella was far more than her looks. He often wondered how Kai Mukami treated her. Isabella admitted to feeling on edge with him- mostly because of her lack of self confidence. The very idea was ridiculous. How could one allow such a woman to feel that way.

He would never let her feel this way. Praising her beauty- inside and out. Showing her off, the fact that she was his, to everyone.

Ah but these thoughts… were inappropriate now. This was to be their last night out. Best not to get too caught up in his thoughts.

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Tonight, Isabella was feeling something she hadn’t felt for a long time. Was it… self consciousness? She had almost forgotten what that felt like, though tonight Kanaye was being… distant.

Was it her attire? She thought wearing shorts were a bit risky but part of her wanted to impress Kanaye, though maybe that was a bit of a stretch.

Subconsciously she began lowering her shorts as far as she could in order to cover her legs as much as possible. They were a bit pale… did he not like that?

Was he interested in a more tannish color? She hadn’t been working out as much recently was it that she was gaining weight? Was her hair possibly out of place? Perhaps the flower crown was too childish?

She looked down, here eyes darting back and forth between her feet and the street in front of them in a panicked motion. Her hands shaking slightly, the world around her suddenly disappeared as she began to wonder what it is that she was doing wrong.

In the midst of her panicking, however, she failed to notice two human men stare at her in awe. Though their eyes filled with lust, it’s not hard for a vampire, even at this distance, to hear how they were vulgarly describing what they could do to her. Though fortunately for Isabella, none of that mattered right now.

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Kanaye could sense Isabella’s uneasiness. It was torturous seeing the woman one had feelings for, in such a state of unrest. He longed to put her at ease… but he couldn’t. Mustn’t.

As they walked into the fair area, there were plenty of noisy humans. All talking about the different pieces on display. None of it interest him. That was until two male voices caught his ear.

“Woa you see this chick? Damn that’s hot.”

“Hehe… wonder if that carpet matches you know?”

“Ha! I’m more wondering if there’s flowers for there too~”

Any self restraint Kanaye had quickly vanished. Immediately his arm snakes around Isabella’s waist and pulled her close. His eyes darted to the two males, locking on them.

How DARE a lowly human speak of Isabella that way. How dare they speak of HIS Isabella that way. There was something inside of him burning, and it was getting harder to control by the second.

Without realizing it, his grip around her tightened. A low growl escaped from his lips. His vision became like tunnels. All he could see were these two ignorant humans.

What was this? He’d never felt so angry in his entire life. So aggravated. So blood thirsty. Not even when he was without blood for months. He felt as if at any moment he’d loose himself and attack the humans.

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She jumped a bit from the sudden contact. For the first moment, she didn’t ask why he was holding her, she only basked in the feeling of his touch. She melted underneath him and enjoyed his warmth. Though she began t become concerned when his grip continued to tighten.

Her gaze followed Kanaye’s to two humans who were staring at them. Her once distracted senses began to foils on was they were saying… it disgusted her beyond belief. he heard his growl, his tensed body and tightened grip, she contemplated letting him go on them just to each them a lesson. But that would be irresponsible, instead she wanted to reassure him and calm him down.

“Don’t worry about them… they’re only humans…”

She said gently, reaching up to softly cup his face. Turning her body to face him she tried divert his attention, but unintentionally to also make them look like a couple. It seemed to work, they turned away. Their expressions were annoyed ad disgusted.

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Just as quickly as the anger built, it vanished the moment her voice reached his ears. When her hand touched his skin. Her face became came into view. She put his mind at ease, without doing anything special.

The humans long forgotten, Kanaye’s body moved on its own to face her fully. Moving is other hand to hold her body properly against him. His face cradled in her hands, softened in expression as he returns to his senses.

“… Forgive me. I don’t know what came over me…”

His voice was a lot softer than ever before. He lowers his head so that the two of them could be connected more. Touching their foreheads together Kanaye closes his eyes and takes in a few breaths.

“… I cannot hold this in anymore.”

Kanaye pulls away from Isabella and takes one of her hands in his. He was not staying around these humans. The emotions raging inside of him needed to come out now. Pulling her with him, they left the fair and headed to a more secluded location.  

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Ah, now she really wished they hadn’t come here. It was upsetting him, so much that he wanted to leave. Truth be told, she didn’t mind where they went tonight. She was just glad to begin his presence.

“I’m sorry, I just thought this would be a peaceful event…”

Walking along beside him she apologized, and held his hand back. His gentle touches and voice from before caused a light blush to cross her face once more. A small smile creeped onto her face slowly as she remembered the touch of his skin on hers. The feeling of his body against hers.

“Are you okay?”

She asked hesitantly. He wasn’t, but she would do anything to keep the situation from becoming award.

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Kanaye did not answer her until he was satisfied with their new location. He wanted no one to interrupt them. There were plenty of humans roaming the city, as it wasn’t too late in the evening. So they kept going until he was sure.

Finally making it all the way to the edge of town. This was better, no humans for miles. Satisfied he moves Isabella against a tree- pinning her there with his body.

“Isabella… I must speak with you about… something important.”

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She knew it was childish of her, to blush in this situation. But with Kanaye so close to her she couldn’t help the redness dusting across her face, the sudden weakness in her knees. Though she couldn’t reveal what she was thinking, he needed to speak to her. This was no time to think if such things.

“O-Of course, is something wrong? You’ve been… distant tonight…”

She said quietly, looking up at him. Her sapphire eyes soft with slight sadness and concern behind them. She couldn’t help but think… the worst in this situation. Perhaps she was getting to close to him and he was uncomfortable.

Maybe he was getting bored of her company and wanted to leave her. In any case, it didn’t seem good.

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How was someone this endearing? Everything about her set his heart a flame. Even more so than what he felt with Izumi.

“I have… for I am concerned of my feelings for you.”

Kanaye moves back just enough to properly look her in the eyes. He wanted her to understand him. To know just how difficult this was.

“We have grown quite close in these two years. I feel as though… I can truly be myself around you. That you are someone I may confide in. Similar to my friendship with Spencer.”

He offers her a smile.

“However… my emotions for you and he are quite different.”

With a sigh he completely steps away from her. Allowing her to distance herself from the tree.

“… Isabella I fear I am falling in love with you.”

Kanaye was never one to feed around the bush- though it did sometimes take him a while to get to the point.

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Her expression changed drastically in the span of a few moments. Her whole face lit up with hope and sheer joy, her sapphire blue eyes sparkled with happiness as she took in and comprehend his words.

How happily her heart fluttered with love, her face and ears were now a bright pink as thoughts of her leaping into his arms and planting kisses on him reached through her head. Her mouth opening in disbelief but then morphing into the brightest smile she had made in a long time.

Seh was so excited. She almost blurted out that she felt the same, though her expression had already given that way, before she re thought about his words.

“You… fear? You said you were concerned?”

Her expression shifted slightly, she was still happy no doubt, but was he not? Was he distant because he was disgusted by his feelings? They were cousins after all… perhaps he would rather not be around her anymore. He was interested in being King, he most likely saw that she was no where near fit to be Queen, perhaps he replied her for many other reasons that she couldn’t think of…

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Kanaye watched as the excitement came to her face. How cruel it was. Her eyes lite up and sparkled. All he wanted to do was take her back into his arms. However, he had to remain strong.

“… Please understand that this is not because of you lacking anything.”

He takes ahold of her hands. Lacing their fingers together.

“You… are an absolute vision of beauty. Isabella I would love nothing more than to… call you mine.”

Kanaye sighs looking down at their hands.

“To be mine though… I do not want that pressure for you. Do you understand? I will be king and if the people knew of our blood connection or how little the union would be for the benefit of the people…!”

He shakes his head and tightens his grip on her hands.

“Not that marriage is something to think about when we are not even dating…”

This was a lot harder than he thought it would be. There were so many thoughts in his head. He wanted to push her way but now that they were holding hands, he didn’t want to let go.

“How… do you feel? I spoke with Spencer briefly and he… stressed to me that… I not simply make this decision on my own. To not make that mistake again.”

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Listening carefully to his words she calmed bit. So it wasn’t her, it was just his worries and concerns… though she had no idea how to put them at ease. She was thankful for Spencer, though she still did not want to force him to do this is he felt so strongly about it.

“I… Well you can kind of tell that I feel the same about you Kanaye, I’d be willing to do anything if it meant your happiness…”

She said with a weak chuckle and small smile. She was… sad. She understood Kanaye’s hesitance, she knew how much being King meant to him. There were so many concerns that he had that came along with it, she couldn’t possibly expect him to just… set them aside for the sake of her feelings.

“But… I can’t ask you to possibly jeopardize your future just for me. This is important to you, and you’re right to be worried…”

Painfully and slowly, she pulled her hands away from his. She wanted to cry, her eyes stung with threatening tears. But she couldn’t let him see her distressed, it was clear he felt bad enough about the situation, she can’t make it worse for him.

“If me putting aside my feelings for you meant that your future as King would be ensured then… I’d be willing to do it…”

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As Isabella’s hands slowly pulled away from his, he felt his heart go with them. This was different from what happened with Izumi. He was torn up by their relation endings but… this pulled him apart.

She was such a selfless person. When he had to end things with Izumi, there were many other factors pulling them apart. With this… it was just him.

Kanaye was making this a problem. He was making a choice to leave her. It wasn’t because one of them was moving. It wasn’t distance. It was just him.

“… I don’t want to have a future without you in it.”

He grabbed her hand once more. The world made sense when she was around. Everything seemed right. How could he let the thoughts of others take that away from him.

“Isabella I’m not asking you to marry me. I don’t know where this could go but… before I am king. The time that I have that is mine alone…”

He must sound like a fool. It truly wasn’t as if they were to be married right away. Or was it guaranteed they would be at all.

“I want to spend it with you. Seeing you every night. Talking to you. Touching you. Kissing you.”

Kanaye moves the hand he held up to his lips, kissing it softly.

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She knew it would be better to pull away from him, to end things now… but she let him do as he wanted. She wanted more. Rather than feel his lips on her hands she wanted to feel them on her own. On her neck, on her bare skin… she needed to suppress her urges but how could she?

Her eyes lit up again, this time with sheer love and utter admiration for the man in front of her. Her mind was creaming a her to pull away, to not let him affect his future… yet she stayed selfishly.

“I… I want the same with you Kanaye…”

Her voice soft and endearing as she unconsciously stepped closer to him. How foolish she must look right, contradicting herself so quickly. But right now that didn’t matter, she pressed her body against his as she gently rested her forehead against his own.

“I just… don’t want you to regret anything…”

She said sorrowfully, her half lidded expression said that she was sincere about her emotions. She wanted Kanaye in her life, she needed him in her life. But she also wanted him to be happy.

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She was so beautiful. So kind hearted. How on earth did he ever find her. There was no way he could toss her aside like any other girl.

“I didn’t regret 2 years ago.”

He smiles a bit remembering their very… interesting first night together. His free hand finds its self on her back, just above the curve of her ass.

“… I can’t promise everything will be easy. Not that these fears inside of me will vanish so easily.”

Releasing her hand he cups her face. Such smooth skin. The blush on her face… he never wanted it to leave.

“But I can promise you my heart. Isabella… I love you. I want to be yours… and have you be mine.”

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The redness on her face increased, with every touch and every word her heart pounded harder and harder against her chest. What did she do do ever deserve a man as kind and as wonderful as Kanaye?

“I love you… I’d want nothing more than to be with you…”

She went silent for a moment, gazing into his eyes. His beautiful eyes. The thought alone that the man who stood before her would be hers to hold, love and kiss made her heart flutter uncontrollably.

Her urges were becoming too strong, slowly moving her head, she connected their lips in a gentle kiss. She couldn’t think straight right now, the only thing on her mind was Kanaye.

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Kanaye was a little surprised at her boldness. She was such a shy girl, was there actually something deeper to her? A certain confidence in this area he didn’t know?

From what he had told him, he was her first real kiss. A fact that he took great pride in. Kai Mukami may have kisses them first, but her lips were his. In fact now, more than just her lips.

Kanaye allows her the quick kiss. When she pulls from him, he uses the hand holding her back to pull her forward.

“You know… I’ve been thinking about this for a while.”

He smirks looking down at her. Without warning he moves in and kisses her quickly again.

“If I was the first to truly kiss your lips… has the rest of you remained un-kissed as well?”

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Her breath was uneasy, her knees began bucking as the situation advanced. She was so overwhelmed with happiness she couldn’t think straight.

“N-Naturally… though, part of me was kissed by you that night two years ago… I’ve forgotten the feeling, would you perhaps… be interested in reminding me?”

This confidence in her was never brought out until she met Kanaye. She felt empowered and strong when she was around him. She was more confident in herself and what she did as well as what she looked like. She loved being with him, she loved him. And now, she could be closer to him than ever before.

Her breath hitched at the memory of that night two years ago, quite strange to think of it as one of their very first interactions, though she didn’t regret it one bit. Licking his lips gently, she eagerly awaited his answer.

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Her breath was uneasy, her knees began bucking as the situation advanced. She was so overwhelmed with happiness she couldn’t think straight.

“N-Naturally… though, part of me was kissed by you that night two years ago… I’ve forgotten the feeling, would you perhaps… be interested in reminding me?”

This confidence in her was never brought out until she met Kanaye. She felt empowered and strong when she was around him. She was more confident in herself and what she did as well as what she looked like. She loved being with him, she loved him. And now, she could be closer to him than ever before.

Her breath hitched at the memory of that night two years ago, quite strange to think of it as one of their very first interactions, though she didn’t regret it one bit. Licking his lips gently, she eagerly awaited his answer.

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A soft laugh escapes his lips. So this was hiding under neither that shy smile. Every averted gaze, or tug of her shorts. All along she wanted this just as he did.

“My my… is this still the same girl who was just trying to lower her shorts before me? Not that I would want that…”

Kanaye kneels down on one knee to get a better look at her legs. Without warning he left one up stroking it softly. They were still close enough to the tree he had pinned her on that she wouldn’t fall.

“These are truly… beautiful.”

He kisses her leg softly while looking up at her.

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Her naturally cold skin felt on fire wherever he touched. His eyes pierced through her, she wanted to look down at him meeting his gaze. Though she wan’t site that bold yet.

“Nnn… h-hardly… but, as long as you like them…”

He was barely touching her, though she could feel the uncomfortable warmth forming in between her legs. How shamefully he must think of her, to get excited so easily by a man whom she had just barely began dating.

“I-I’m ah…. s-sorry…”

Her blush spread all across her face, red from embarrassment she looked away from him. She truly wished she had more self control, though it seemed almost non existent with Kanaye around.

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Kanaye kisses her leg a few times. She was adorable. It was natural for the body to react when aroused. Though to apologize and be embarrassed about it, that was definitely a turn on.

“Sorry…? Yes you should be.”

He releases her leg and stands up right. Quickly closing the distance between them, back her into the tree once more. She was quite shorter than he was, which made this all the more perfect.

Using one hand he brought one of her to his chest. The other supported his body as to not smoosh her. His heart was racing, and he wanted her to feel it.

“You’re driving me crazy, Isabella. Can you feel it? How my heart reacts to you.”

He smiles down at her. There was always a time and place for everything. Out here was no place to do the dirty things both of them wanted to. However, it was a place to be romantic.

Above the physical attraction, Kanaye wanted to sweep Isabella off her feet. To show her how she deserved to be treated- to be loved. To know love more than physical.

The two of them were close, but that was friendship- or at least an attempt at it. Kanaye spent the great half of his time with Izumi courting her. He wanted to give Isabella the same if not better now that he knew her. He wanted to do things right.

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Her face softened, her body now less tense as she felt and listened carefully to Kanaye’s ecstatic heartbeat. She was so happy that she could make him feel this way, that she had this kind of impact on him… perhaps, despite all the concerns and worries, they could work out in the end after all.

“It’s a nice feeling right…?”

She smiled warmly and laid her head on his chest to hear it clearer. Her own heart beat matched his, she was so overwhelmed with happiness. After Kai, she never thought she would find anyone else she felt so strongly for. Though Kanaye flipped her whole world upside down, he made her heart beat faster than Kai ever did. He did almost nothing and yet he set her heart aflame.

“I love you…”

Planting a soft kiss on his chin, she cupped his checks.

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Kanaye turned his face to kiss her hands as she touched him. This… was pure bliss. If things stayed this way there was no way he could ever let her go.

“I love you.”

It felt liberating to say that to her. With Izumi… things were different. He was always careful not to rush anything. To keep his mind clean. To keep their touches to a minimum.

With Isabella… he never wanted to let her go. Now that she was his, if even a moment passed and their skin was not touching- it was maddening. That thought alone scared him for the future even more. But… he would not think about it. He had made peace to live how he wanted until the time to become King was at hand.

“Isabella… I know that you do not wish to… have sex until you are older. In that case… I suggest we find something to do with our time. Or I fear that I could not control myself”

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Wrapping her arms around him in a tight embrace she thought for a bit. She honestly… was pretty comfortable with anything as long as it was Kanaye. Though, as far as penetration…

“Well… yeah, not until a little later. But I agree, not doing anything would be… frustrating.”

She admitted looking up at him. She knew Kanaye, she knew how his urges would sometimes get the better of him. How they must torture him.

Truth be told, she’s gotten like that multiple times as well. It’s not a pleasing feeling to say the least, but now that they had each other… it would never happen again.

“As long as it’s you… I’m fine with anything.”

She stated peppering soft gentle kisses along his neck and jaw.

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Kanaye let’s her kiss on him while he thinks for a moment. Having full out sex was not in the cards. Isabella wanted to wait till she was older, this was something they spoke of as friends.

Which was a shame. He couldn’t help think of how long he would have to wait to actually have sex with her. That… was going to be difficult.

Pushing that issue aside for now. She was here, and for now, sex wasn’t the answer. He catches one of her kisses with his lips.

Kissing her felt so right. Just like 2 years ago. Even though they were both in a bad place, there was something screaming inside of him it was right. Now he heard that same screaming, and it was perfect.

He moves away just enough to speak against her forehead as he kisses it softly.

“… let’s go back to your place. Spencer was leaving… and I’m sure Isaiah and your parents are out.”

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Closing her eyes she basked in the feeling of his lips on hers. If she could, she would stay like this forever.

“Yeah… they’re all gone…”

She said quietly, feeling the soft press of his lips on her forehead. She didn’t know what he wanted to do, but she trusted him. All she wanted right now was to be alone with him, in a completely private setting.

“Let’s go… I don’t wanna be here anymore…”

She feared she might’ve sounded eager, but she longed to be with Kanaye in a more private environment. To fully immerse herself in his presence.

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Kanaye smiles and kisses her once more before taking her hands in his.

“Me either.”

The two of them rush back into town and make their way to Isabella’s house. It took vampires all but a few minutes to get from the edge of town.

As they arrived, sure enough, there wasn’t a scent of any of Isabella’s family presence. They walk inside kind of awkwardly.

“May I… enter your room, my lady?”

He tries to break the awkwardness a bit. This would be his first time alone in her room.

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He was honestly so adorable. She wondered all the time how someone could be so unbelievable sexy one moment to incredibly cute the next moment. How could such a person exist?!

“Of course you may, my Kanaye~”

She said smiling at him. Planting a soft kiss on his cheek she took his hand and lead him upstairs. She was nervous no doubt, but she was jut happy to be alone with him properly.

Opening the door to her bedroom, she turned on the light and pulled him in. She breathed a small sigh of relief at her semi clean room. Releasing his hand she closed the door.

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Kanaye follows her inside and looks around. This was a little messier than the last time he snuck into her room. He always felt bad about that.

“You and Spencer are sibling. Though I am happy you are less messy than he is.”

He teases moving more into the room and taking a closer look at things. It looked different from the last time he was there. It had been a few years. It really fit her, especially all of the trophies.

“You certainly are excelling in your sports. You’re performances are always entertaining- tho I did not know you had so many.”

He says smiling at the wall of trophies in her room. That was something he enjoyed watching. Something about her all sweaty always interest him.

Kanaye looks back towards the bed and noticed a couple discarded undergarments. It would seem this side of her had not changed. Not that he was her boyfriend officially… should he comment on them? It would probably be ill mannered, but he’d be lying if he wasn’t curious.

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Smiling at Kanaye’s compliments she walked towards the wall of trophies, unfazed by the underwear on the ground. She had always been a messy person, so the miscellaneous articles of clothing on the floor went unnoticed by her.

“Ah… I’m not as good as my Mom was, she beats all of us I think.”

She said with a small light laugh. Turning around she walked towards him. She wasn’t quite sure what to do in this situation, but she didn’t want it to be awkward. She wasn’t sure… should she hold him? Kiss him? Invite him to sit on her bed?

Ah, it was worrisome. Considering what happened she thought he wanted to come back to continue, though perhaps that wasn’t the case? She had no idea what to do, though she decided to the one thing she thought would make sense in this situation. She sat on her bed and patted the space next to her.

“You can sit if you’d like…”

She said quietly with a warm endearing smile on her face.

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Kanaye nods a bit and sits next to her. This was… troubling. He had never dated someone before. Not normally anyway, Izumi was more a courtship. Isabella said it was fine as long as there was no penetration. So… did that mean they could continue?

“… Your room suites you. I like it’s very nice.”

Small talk was never his strong suit. Not to mention the undergarments were distracting.

“Did you… want to continue? I would very much like to kiss you.”

He moves a little closer to her. Sliding a hand over her leg, rubbing it slowly. His eyes locked on her lips

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Nodding eagerly she cupped his face in her hand and connected their lips in a soft slow kiss. She wondered… now that they were lone complete in her room, how far would they go tonight? She trusted Kanaye, she knew he would respect her boundaries but still, she gave him lot of room to work with.

Closing her eyes, she twisted her whole body to face him comfortably. She wondered… if since that night her technique had improved even though she hadn’t practiced. Perhaps it was too early to test it out though. Grabbing the hand on her leg she brought it up to just beneath her breasts.

“I’ll go as far as you’d like Kanye…”

She said softly, puling away from him ever so slightly.

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Kanaye looked down at the woman before him. She was… after so long, his. The waiting, fighting every urge to touch her, taste her, feel her… he did not need to wait any longer.

With her blessing Kanaye moves his hand the rest of the way to one of her breast. Grabbing it softly- but firmly. Of course her bra was preventing from feeling her actual flesh, but for a virgin like Isabella, he wanted to take his time.

Ahh… she fit so perfectly in his hand. Just big enough for him to know they were there- but not so big there were parts he couldn’t reach.

“Whatever I like…? Those are dangerous words…”

He whispers moving his lips onto hers once more. Two years ago she was very inexperienced- he hoped now would be the same. No one should kiss these lips but him. He would instruct her how to prefect her performance.

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Whimpering softly into his moth, she cupped his face in an attempt t keep up with him. She was still very unexperienced, she had no idea what to do with era tongue though perhaps that was a good thing. She still wanted to have at least some skill in this area, just to impress him a little.

Though she still wanted to do something. She pulled him towards her, laying herself on the bed she laid him atop her. She began using her tongue, she had no idea if she was doing it right but it felt much better then that night two years ago.

“And I mean them Kanaye… whatever~you~like…”

Placing a hand on top of his, she encouraged him to go even further with his actions.

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This woman. What on earth was happening? Was this really Isabella? The same girl whom was just earlier tugging on her shorts to hide. The same girl who always wore a soft blush on her face.

She truly was suppressing desires. Although, he was as well. With this type of encouragement, it was going to be hard to respect her desire of chastity.

“You certainly test my control…Such a naughty girl.”

Kanaye could control himself no longer. Capturing her lips in another kiss, moving his tongue back into her mouth. It was similar to before, Isabella was still very eager. She was so inexperienced, but that only fueled him more. It was rare for him to find a virgin.

Moving the hand that was currently on her breast, he slowly slide it down her abdomen. Gods how he wanted to touch her skin, but that would come soon. For now, he wanted to have her panting and gasping for his touch.

He repeated this motion. Sliding the hand up to her breast, grabbing and squeezing, then moving back down her stomach. All the while kissing her passionately. He wanted to get her confidence up in this before continuing further. Not to mention, hearing her whimper for more as the kissed was a lovely bonus.

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With every touch from him, every kiss and tongue movement she found herself losing more and more self control. Normally she would reserve and suppress her urges and desires but tonight, she feared they might taking over if Kanaye kept doing what he was doing.

“And I’ll continues to… until you have none left~”

She threatened lightly biting his bottom lip gently and tugging on it. Cupping his face, she ran her fingers through his hair slowly. His hands on her best and abdomen make her back arch slightly in pleaser and anticipation. Her breasts lifted off the bed a bit, colliding slightly with Kanaye’s chest.

She was so eager, Kanaye was going slow but if felt more as if he were teasing her. She really needed to feel him properly, she needed him desperately. She teased him more, it was the only thing she knew would affect him. Lifting her knee sightly, she tried her best to rub his crotch though she was so overwhelmed it wasn’t as confident as she wanted it to be.

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Kanaye smirked feeling her knee brush against him. He knew Isabella could be confident, but for a virgin to be like this… it was very arousing. Never before had he been so attracted to her.

“Bold words… let’s see how well you can back them up.”

With that Kanaye lifts himself up and looks for her cover. Draping it over his shoulders, he looks down at her. Red faced. Panting. His kiss fresh on her lips.

“May I take your shirt off?”

His voice was hushed. Even if no one was home, he wanted this moment to be intimate. They were to be officially dating. Even so, he would be lying if he wasn’t still reserved.

Part of him wanted to ravish her. Take her now and claim her completely. However, he respected her too much- which was saying something. She wanted to wait, and even if he did not, there were other ways of pleasure they could share.

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Nodding slowly she cups his face. Her movements were shaky, but that doesn’t mean she was any less consenting to what he was about to do. Kanaye was very respectful towards her, she trusted him not to go overboard. With the covers surrounding them, she felt secured underneath his body.

“You may…there’s no need to ask Kanaye, I trust you…”

Running her thumb over his bottom lip she closed her eyes and waited for him to take action. Her heart bested so fast, knowing what was to come. She had already expressed her boundaries with him, there’s was still so much they could do within her boundaries.

Then again, she was okay with anything as long as it was Kanaye. She loved him more than anything, she knew he felt the same. If it was him, then she knew it would perfect.

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Kanaye couldn’t help but lean down and kiss her closed eyes. She was absolutely precious, which was exactly why he forced himself to obey her wishes. Isabella was willing to give him everything, all he had to do was wait for it.

With a quick movement he pulls her top up and off of her body. Discarding the clothing onto the floor he stopped to take in the sight of her. Kanaye was no stranger to the naked form of a woman. However, seeing Isabella like this, felt like everything he once knew was wrong.

She was not the most well endowed, but at the same time it did not matter. Kanaye was not particularly a fan of large breast anyway. Isabella looked to be the perfect size, large enough to make an impression but small enough to fit in his hand.

Without commenting on them, Kanaye lowered himself to kiss on Isabella’s neck. His hand found it’s way back to her chest. Continuing what he had done before, teasing her with long caresses. Now being able to touch her skin more directly.

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His lips touched her neck, his hands caressing her body… she was quite sensitive, not to mention it was her first time doing anything like this. And of course, actually advancing things, she couldn’t help the string of weak small moans that flooded from her mouth.

She wrapped her arms around his neck, returning the affection with light scratches on his back and peppering kisses all along his neck and cheek. Inching her hands up his shirt she pulled on it, telling him that she wanted him to take it off.

Arching her back she spoke weakly, her face pure red as she turned her head slightly to look at him.

“K-Kanaye… p-please, no more teasing…”

She pouted slightly before another moan left her mouth.

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Kanaye captured her lips just as the moan escaped. He moved the hand that was teasing up to cup her face. Holding it in place while his tongue slid against hers.

Just as she was growing impatient, he was as well. After a few moment of deep kisses he pulled away, allowing her to breath. Quickly Kanaye lift his shit off and tosses it along side hers.

Staring down at her, Kanaye couldn’t help but smile. Isabella looked absolutely breath taking. He wanted to kiss every inch of her, ignoring her pleas for release. So why shouldn’t he?

“Teasing you am I~? My dear… you have no idea what all I am about to do with you.”

He says lowering his lips onto her exposed navel. Softly, he kisses the skin, feeling the excitement welling up inside of her. Moving upwards, he trails kisses all the way to her still covered chest.

Letting his hands roam up her sides, slowly tracing the curves of her body. His lips slide over her bra, and up to the exposed part of her breast. Kissing the mounds, and sucking slightly.

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Marveling at his bare chest and abdomen, her head became light and fuzzy. Her vision became blurry, his words almost went unnoticed her attention was focused on the imagine of his bare body.

Her blush intensified thinking about what he had on store for her tonight, she was growing with excitement as she as sure Kanaye could sense. Running her fingers through this hair as his mouth moved up her body. This time, not being able to suppress the sounds that escaped her mouth as his mouth touched her breasts directly, she moaned loudly.

“T-Then stop with the f-foreplay… please…!”

Not that she didn’t enjoy his lips on her bare skin, she just needed so much more of him. She couldn’t contain herself, her mind was wild as she waited impatiently for Kanaye to advance.

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A deep laugh escaped him. How impatient she was being. Never did he believe her to want him so much.

Continuing his laugh, he pulled away and looked down at her. The emotions he felt were unlike any he had ever known. This woman before him was truly special.

“What would you have me do to you then? I did not plan on rushing, but it would seem my lady does not wish to wait.”

If she wanted the foreplay to end, he would need instructions. Without penetration, Kanaye has intended on simply exploring her body. However, Isabella seemed to need something more.

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A small pout crossed her face as Kanaye laughed. Even is she wasn’t ready for penetration there was still so much they could do, so much he could do to her. Surely he must’ve known that, yet he still continued to tease her.

“I…. l-lic-…”

The words were caught in her throat, she couldn’t bring herself to say those words. Lewd words and instructions were racing through her head but non of them she dared to actually say to him.

“N-Never mind… do what you w-want…”

She tried to look upset, but she failed. The blush on her face exposed her, she truly just wanted Kanaye but she needed all of him.

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Kanaye laughed more at her response. Such an innocent thing. He knew all too well things he could do, to offer her the release she sought. However, this was his first time feeling her. With the other expecting them to be gone, he wanted to seize this moment to fully explore her.

“Haha… my naught princess. You wish for me to touch more, yet when I do it is not enough?”

He teases. One of his arms wraps around her, hoisting her up. The other hand finds the claps on her bra, releasing them so the article could be removed.

As the bra falls, he moves closer to her. Their bare chest now touching, he holds her tight to him. Lowering his head to touch hers.

“Please allow me to indulge in you for a while longer. This is my first time… seeing the body of a woman I love. The excitement… is over whelming.”

He whispers to her, taking one of her hands to touch his groin area. Sure enough, a hard presence pushed against the fabric. He was eager to feel her touch, just as she.

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Small needy whimpers escaped her as he removed her bra and pressed his bare skin against hers. She was exposed to him, the thought made her head spin with embarrassment and excitement. Though soon after, her needy whimpers were replaced by a small squeak of embarrassment as her hand was guided his crotch.

Her eyes squeezed shut as she allowed her hand to unconsciously rub his groin and slowly move up to his abdoemen. Her eyes closed tighter, she couldn’t possibly bear to look at him as her hands moved up to his abdomen before her fingertips slowly slid down the front of his pants.

“Do as you l-like Kanaye… tonight I’m all yours, enjoy it…”

Her eyes opened slightly but she looked down at their connected chests.

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He smiles slightly, good she seemed a bit more understanding now. Helping her remove the bra completely he nuzzles against her softly.

“Your skin is so soft. Allow me to taste it.”

Kanye pushes Isabella back down onto the bed. Quickly his lips kisses at her now fully exposed breast. First only kissing around them, letting the cold air caress them.

After her hair were all standing up, Kanaye moves on of his hands onto one of her breast. Squeezing the plush flesh firmly, but not enough to cause pain. He could feel her nipple press against him, proof of her arousal.

As his hand proceeded to grope one breast, he would use his mouth to please the other. Finally, his tongue would caress her bare skin. Although, this was… troublesome.

The control he was trying to maintain, disappeared the moment her taste hit his tongue. Unable to resist, Kanaye takes Isabella’s nipple into his mouth. He licks over the beaded flesh, teasing it more and more.

A deep moan bellowed from him as he tasted her. His hand that was touching her softly, now grabbed with greater force. Grabbing onto the nipple and pulling on it.

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Tiny whimpers from the feeling of his light soft kisses on her sensitive soft skin turned into loud moans and cries sheer pleasure as he became rougher and more forceful.

Her back arched sharply as she shut her eyes in enjoyment, basking in the feeling of his assault on her breasts. She never imagined… anything could be so pleasurable.

The fact that it was with Kanaye made it all the better. Tangling the fingers of one hand in his hair she pulled on it gently, while the other made rougher scratches on his back.

This feeling of pleasuring was overwhelming, she needed more, she wanted him to do so much more to her.

“A-Ah! K-Kanaye… more, m-more…!”

Tears of pleasure and embarrassment began forming in the corners of her sapphire eyes.

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Her cries of pleasure only fueled his desire. It would be easier if she rejected him. Forced his mouth away, and begged him to stop.

However, Isabella did the opposite. He felt her fingers tangle themselves in his hair. She pulled on it just enough to cause his mouth to jerk away. With this moment he looked up at her, smirking.

Absolutely breath taking. Isabella was so honest. So eager. There were plenty of times when a girl ‘loved’ him. They all begged for him, praised him, tried their best to appear as more than just another body.

With Isabella… it was different. Her pleasure stricken face was far more erotic than anything he’d ever seen. It made him want to make her feel more.

“Isabella… heh… you’re so sensitive.”

With that he took her nipple back into his mouth. Flicking his tongue, circling around the raised flesh. His hand worked hard on her other breast. Cupping and squeezing. Pinching her nipple, twisting, pulling.

He wanted her to cry out more. A wicked thought crossed him mind. Perhaps he could tease her enough that her release could come just from her breast. He had done it before with more experienced partners. At any rate, he was definitely not stopping until he’d seen her face in total bliss.

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This was her first time feeling anything so pleasurable. Anything so breathtaking and spectacular, she couldn’t help the almost screams of happiness and pleasure that left her as Kanaye continued.

She was failry certain that Kanaye was throughouly enjoying himself, more than she expected. His vigorous hand and mouth movements caught her off guard.

She squeezed his head to her chest, afraid that he would pull away just to torture her before she unwinded. She wanted to last longer, but he was right, she is sensitive. She couldn’t hold it in any more.

“Ah… K-Kanaye…! I..m..”

It was far different than an orgasm she caused to herself. It was exhilarating, it rocked her whole body and she screamed from her release.

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Kanaye stayed close as the pleasure sent her over. He could feel her body shake and release all the pent up pleasure. As she came down, he pulled away and smirked down at her.

“Heh… goodness… I had no idea you were that sensitive.”

He moves up to kiss her breathless lips. Sliding his tongue in to take advantage of her weaken state. He cupped her face and looked down at her.

“… Isabella… do you wish to stop…?”

He whispers against her lips. Moving his free hand to fondle her breast more. Honestly he could touch and kiss just her breast for hours.

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Shaking her head frantically, her chest rose and fell quickly. Coming down from her high she wrapped her arms around him, kissing him passionately. If this was how amazing it felt… she would gladly spend the rest of her time doing this with Kanaye.

“No… no I don’t wanna stop. I wanna keep going… but this time I wanna do it for you Kanaye.”

She said quietly against his lips. She wanted to pleasure him just as he did her. She wanted to learn, just for him. She never wanted him to he bored of her.

Sitting up she slowly lowered her fingertips into his pants. Kissing him again she began to unbutton his pants, trying to lower them off his hips.

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Kanaye returns her kiss, and allows her to undo his pants. It was beginning to feel quite cramped down there. This was rather interesting, what would she say seeing her first male organ. With that in mind, Kanaye pulls away just enough to remove her hands.

“Allow me.”

The blankets drop from his shoulders as he sits up enough to pull his pants down. Once they are removed, he looks down at her. This would be Isabella’s first time seeing a male naked, so he thought.

“Isabella… are you prepared? Will this be your first time seeing a male’s body?”

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She once again marveled as his bare body. Her eyes lit up with excitement as his pants lowered on his thighs and off his body.

“Ah… in p-person… yes, I… there are v-videos…”

She turned, burying her face into her pillow in embarrassment. Watching such videos wasn’t a bad thing, it was natural in any growing person. Though she still felt ashamed saying it aloud to Kanaye.

“I’m s-sorry… y-yes, I am prepared…”

She said quietly, looking back at him slowly. She wanted to please him, she was ready for anything. But seeing it in a screen and having it right before her eyes are very different things.

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Kanaye could not help but laugh softly. She was just too cute. Before continuing, he lowered himself down one more time to kiss her forehead.

“Very well… Please tell me if you wish to stop.”

He straighten up once more, moving his under garments so that he may pull his member out. Human kind made such an amazing invention in these ‘boxers’. Being able to expose himself, but also be able to hide if they were to be discovered- humans were such perverts. A shame that females did not have clothes as such.

With his member exposed, Kanaye pulled the covers back over his shoulders and sits back for her to have a moment. Currently he was not at full length, but that was changing quickly. He was confident in himself, according to Spencer, he was bigger than the average human male. Although that was never something he worried about.

“Well… I am curious. How does one in person compare to these… ‘videos’?”

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If it was possible for her face to become any redder, it did. Her instinct was to cover her face in embarrassment but she couldn’t look away. Her eyes glued to his member, she must look so stupid right now just staring at him. But at the same she felt that looking away was the worser option.

“It… d-doesn’t… it-s b-better…”

She was a complete loss for words. Seeing it on the tiny screen, she never once imagined how big they would actually be in real life. Or maybe that just Kanaye, in any case it was… slightly intimidating. But she still wanted to please him, it’s better she learns now so she knows in the future.

“I don’t, uhm… is this g-good…?”

She asked, her voice shaky as she lightly wrapped her hand around him. It felt so warm, it felt so big in her small hand. She watched videos, she knew what to but yet she was frozen slightly. She didn’t know how to preform the technique or how to properly move her hand or mouth… her mind went blank as she looked nervously upon at him.

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Ah… She is so adorable.

Kanaye couldn't help thinking as he watched Isabella stare at him. It was always interesting to see a virgins face for their first time. Some were scared - others over eager.

As Isabella moved to touch him, Kanaye watched her timid movements. Even with the assistance of ‘videos’ doing something in person was quite different. Perhaps one day he would have to watch one, to see how it really compared. Then perhaps he could be more help to Isabella.

“Heh… no need to be so nervous. It’s not going to bite you or anything.”

He teases laughing softly.

“You can continue like that… though it may take some time to finish. “

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Her breathes becomes more uneasy thinking about how it was done in the videos. They were always straight forward, not giving anytime for preparation, their movements were fast and confident. But then again, they were all actors… but still, was that the way it was to be done?

They would move their hands quickly and vigorously, using their mouths as well to pleasure. She did often wonder what the taste was like, but that was probably something she would work up to… or perhaps not.

“Ah, r-right… I’m sorry…”

Moving her eyes away from his, she looked at his member in her hand. Starting off slowly, she moved her hand up and down his shaft… but she realized soon after that the movements were was to perform. All she had to do was move her hand, with proper technique of course. She began moving it more quickly but she still felt as though it wasn’t enough.

Leaning forward, she took a quick breath before licking the tip quickly. Pulling back she darted her eyes up at Kanaye to see his reaction.

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Feeling her hands on him, was actually really pleasurable. More so than any woman in the past. It may be from lack of sex in a long time- but he believed it was because it was Isabella.

He could feel his heart start to race. She was actually touching him. Something that only happened in fantasy. So many fantasies. Kanaye has lost track of how many times he’d gotten lost in thoughts of her.

It felt better than he thought it would. Her skin was so smooth and soft. Granted her technique was far from perfect, but that would come with time.

Just as he was about to say something, Isabella surprised him. Suddenly she moved in and licked against him. It caught him completely off guard. He couldn’t even stop his face from reacting.

A soft gasp escaped his lips, and a blush covered his face. He quickly covered his mouth with one of his hands- embarrassed by the sudden noise.

“You…! You don’t have to… rush into that…”

He says clearing his throat.

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Her sapphire eyes lit up once more, this time with happiness. Kanaye could be so utterly adorable sometimes, She loved it, if she could make him blush she felt accomplished. Let alone make him let out noise, she was quite pleased with herself. And apparently, so was Kanaye.

“I can’t stop now… if you like it so much…”

She spoke quietly before leaning forward once more. She didn’t wrap her lips around it immediately, instead she peppered soft gentle kisses all along his shaft and tip. Perhaps if she teased him slightly it would feel better once she went all the way.

A few moments passed, she wanted to know what other sounds Kanaye would make. It excited her to think abut. She slowly wrapped her lips around the tip, sucking gently before looking up at Kanaye.  

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“My liking is no- aha…”

He was not prepared for her to jump right into something like this. Though it seemed she got the point now of building the pleasure.

“Isabella… really something like this is… appreciated but…”

Her sudden desire to please him really threw off the rhythm he was going for. Though, it wasn’t like he was complaining, just… this was a pleasant surprise.

Perhaps his energy would be better spent enjoying her. So he relaxed, and allowed himself to fulling feel her lips upon him. What she lacked in form certainly was made up for in enthusiasm.

Kanaye sighed in pleasure as she took his tip back into her mouth. Such warmth had been lost to him for quite some time. Once he’d come to terms with his feelings for Isabella, Kanaye has not taken another woman.

He happened to glance down when their eyes met. She looked… perfect. Not in the same way she had before. No… this was in a completely new light. A light he had given her in his mind but now in person- it was far more erotic than he could stand.

“Looking up at me like that… you seem to truly desire my undoing.”

He smirks a bit and reaches down, petting her head softly at first. The self restraint he tried to maintain was failing. Every part of him was screaming to force his member down her throat.

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A small whimper escaped her as he spoke gently to her. She had no idea what she was doing, she knew he was feeling good but she could do better. Just… she doesn’t know how to. Wrapping her tongue around his shaft feeling the pulsing veins underneath.

It was so surreal, never in her life did she think she would be this way with Kanaye. He seemed almost… God like? The thought that someone like him would ever settle for someone like her… was unfathomable.

She couldn’t speak, instead she grabbed onto his hips tightly. She sucked more harshly as tears began to form in the corners of her eyes. Another whimper left her as he patted her, she moved further down his shaft, deep throating him. Her gag reflex was now gone as she took all of him in her mouth.

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Kanaye closed his eyes to compose himself. Another pleasurable sigh escaped him, this one a bit more ragged. Her mouth was so warm and wet, and the more she took him in, the tighter it got.

“Isabella… take it slowly…”

He instructs, as his hands move to hold her head in a more supportive way. He did not want to damage her, though it was becoming more difficult. With that in mind, she pulls her head away from him.

“Going so fast will damage your throat.”

His voice was stern despite the noises he made just moments ago. Leaning down, slowly Kanaye kisses Isabella. Moving his tongue into her mouth, to regain her attention. This kiss was not long, but held great passion.

“You wish for me to teach you? Best you know what to do, before I completely claim that tight throat of yours.”

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Kissing back for a brief moment, she looked down ashamed. She really had no idea what she was doing or that consequences were even possible from giving a blow job too quickly.

“Y-Yes please…”

She said softly, still ashamed. It would be nice to learn, especially to help please him in the future. She wanted to be enough for him, but she felt like a child, being taught to do something simple like this.

“I’m s-sorry….”

She knew all first times had a downfall to them, but it was probably for the best that she knew more about this.

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“There is nothing to apologize for. I prefer you this way, a pure virgin. Heh, that way everything you learn will be for my sake.”

Kanaye moves close her once more and kisses her again. Cupping her chin, holding her in one place.

“This may take time for you to master, but I explore you to take it slow. The last thing anyone wants is for me to destroy your throat.”

With that being said, Kanaye wanted to do just that. Completely claim Isabella’s throat for his own- but, all in do time. There was no rush, he had no intention of loosing her now that they were together.

“There are three key elements to this you must remember. First, breathe only through your nose. This may be the hardest thing to master, but again with time you can. Second, keep plenty of saliva in your mouth. Lubrication is key for this particular activity. Third, keep your throat relaxed.”

As he finished those last words, Kanaye brought his fingers to Isabella’s throat. Lining the sides of her esophagus with his index and middle finger. Applying light pressure, he slides this downward slowly.

“Imagine swallowing, while at the same time, expanding your throat as you would when singing a low note. This will give extra force and space for your mouth to… properly receive me.”

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Listening carefully to his words Isabella did just that. She shivered slightly at his gentle touch, she gulps nervously. Her whole body is quivering slightly, from the cool air on her bare skin and the feeling of Kanaye being so close. His soft touch and stern tone made her breath uneasy.

Her sapphire round eyes looked up t him, mixed with both innocent curiosity and lustful desire. She wanted to listen tp his words to further plkeasure him, but a lot of her wanted to put him back in her mouth to please him further.

Taking a deep breath she followed his instructions. Closing her eyes she imagined swallowing while also focusing on her throat. She breathed softly trough her nose, relaxing herself developing a steady flow fo air.

“Am I… doing it right?”

Looking up at him she onto the hand on her throat, as if he would run away if she didn’t.

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Kanaye laughs softly at her enthusiasm. She was so eager. Such a sweet girl.

“Yes… your form is beautiful.”

He moves the hand on her throat back, and links it with her hand. Pulling her hand up to his lips, kissing it softly.

“Right now however… I’d really enjoy tasting more of you.”

He teases licking one of her fingers. In all honesty, he’d much rather taste her right now. Sure her mouth felt nice but, waiting this long to be able to touch her.

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Inhaling sharply, the female nods quickly. Her mind was hazy, she couldn’t quite process the meaning of his words immediately. She focused more on the feeling of his tongue on her finger.

“W-Whatever you’d l-like… just tell me what I n-need to do…”

She knew what he wanted, yet she had no idea how to properly give that to him. He would have to do most of the worst obviously, but she felt bad, would this be pleasurable to him?

“Ah…afterwards I could t-try again..?”

She offered shyly.

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“Of course… trust me. I will train your lips. For now however… allow my lips to explore you. They have waited so long after all.”

Kanaye’s voice grew softer as his sentence ended. With those words he moved over Isabella, causing her to fall back onto her bed. His gaze fell back down to her breast. They looked so perfect, truly he could not ask for anything better.

Moving his lips down to her neck, he sucked the soft flesh. Now that they were together, the urge to mark her filled him. No other man should glance at her without knowing who she belonged to.

As his mouth focused on her neck, Kanaye moved one of his hands to trace her body. Starting from her shoulder, down to her heart, over her breast. Stopping to tease her sensitive area. He loves that all he needed to do was play with her breast to bring her over the edge.

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Moans and gasps escaped her as she wrapped her arms around him. Running her fingers through his hair, her nails digging into his back slightly. Instinctively, she closed her legs briefly before reopening them to allow Kanaye to feel her.

“I-I’m sorry I… I’m s-sensit-tive…”

Her face flushed with red, her eyes welling up with tears of pleasure and joy. Her back arched, pressing her chest against his as she basked in the feeling of his touch.

“T-Teasing… s-stop… I c-can’t…!”

Her core arched slightly, she’s never felt anything like this, but if feels like she needs some kind of a release. A release that Kanaye is purposely not giving her.

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Kanaye peeks up from his assault on her neck. Goodness she really was sensitive. Then again, she had cum not too long ago. Perhaps he should be grateful to have one so sensitive.

With one last kiss Kanaye pulls himself from Isabella’s neck. Without a warning to her, he moves his mouth over to her other breast, which was looking every so lonely.

“Isabella, may I touch you more?”

As he asked, the hand that was groping her breast, slowly ran down her abdomen. He kissed the flesh of her breast, purposely avoiding her aroused nipple.

“I wish to fully experience your body. Learn every inch of it. Memorize your most tender areas.”

He spoke while continuing to kiss and taste her breast. After all, in situations like this, one must always stay on course. There was no telling when someone could come back. Kanaye wanted to… experience all he could for his first time with Isabella while he could.

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Her mind went wild with ideas and possibilities of what he could do to her. Of what she wanted to him to do to her, there really was no need to ask her. If it involved him, she was okay with anything.

“Ah~ …. o-of curse you can… you d-don’t need to a-ask”

The quickest way, she figured, for them to both be satisfied is if Kanaye acted without asking permission, but she loved the fact that he did. He truly did care about her feelings and wants, how she could ever find anyone as perfect as he was completely beyond her.

Praising his actions, she wrapped her arms around him. Tangling her fingers through his pink hair she softly kiss the top of his head sweetly. Holding him closer to her breasts, she moaned softly into his hair, her grip on him strong but still endearing.

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Kanaye reviled in this moment. Isabella was unlike any woman he’d known before. Not just her body, but her very soul. Everything about her brought him joy. This happiness was enough to push the thoughts of their possible undoing out of his mind.

“… I love you Isabella.”

The words just left his lips. Before he knew it, he was kissing her softly. Cupping her face, and moving his other hand down to caress her thigh. His hand moved up and down feeling her skin.

He breaks their kiss to look down at where he was touching. The skirt she had on was one of his favorites, he’d try his best to not rip it. Moving the fabric upward his other hand now joined the other and both massaged her thighs.

“Does this feel all right? You’re legs are very sexy. To be honest… I’ve been dying to touch them all night.”

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“I love you too…”

She managed to breath out in between kisses and moans. Every place he touched, her body felt like it was on fire. Her whole body burned with passion and desire for Kanaye.

Nodding shyly, she bit her finger in hopes to muffle the noises she was making. She was far too sensitive, she knew that. They were home alone, but she feared she might be too loud, or her moans were becoming annoying.

“Mmm… it f-feels nice…”

His compliments and praises made her bluish uncontrollably. She never once thought of her body in the way he did, she was so happy that he found her appealing.

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Kanaye couldn’t help but laugh slightly. Isabella was so adorable, that blushing face is definitely going to be the end of him.

“Embarrassed~?”

He asked moving both of his hands to one of her legs. Lifting it up, and kisses just above her knee. Then higher, and higher, getting closer to her womanhood.

“Isabella… is very much like to taste you some place special.”

He whispers against her skin.

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Her voice caught in her throat, she nodded instead. Not knowing what to expect really, but with his past experience, she figured that whatever he was about to do would be good.

“Mmmm…”

She managed to croak out as her mind became lighter and lighter, it was almost too much for her, yet she was barely being touched. Perhaps this is just the effect he has on her.

Looking down at him, she lightly tagged her fingers into his pink hair. Massaging his scalp gently she nodded once more, silently telling him that she was now ready.

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Once more a soft chuckle escaped him. Was she worried about the feeling? So far Isabella’s body has been most sensitive, and having climaxed once all ready, it was no surprise at its reaction now.

Her panties were darkened, even in the dime light room, he could tell that a certain part of them was considerable darker. That made him happy, to know that she truly was feeling this. If the sight couldn’t tell him, the scent could. Isabella was practically oozing pheromones, it was very difficult to restrain himself.

As he felt her hands caress his scalp, Kanaye knew it was finally time. With one finally kiss on her inner thigh, his lips move to her moistened panties. Planting a quick kiss before his tongue ran over the fabric.

After the first came another, than two more. The taste came through even with the piece of cloth separating their flesh from caressing. Some thing inside of him found the will to keep a slow pace. Keeping that same rhythm, not wanting to over whelm her.

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A sharp gaso escare her as she sat up quickly, she honestly… was not expecting this sensation. And to think, there was still so much more they could do together.

Her hands remained in his hair, gripping his pink looks tighter as her face contorted into pure bliss pleasure. Yet, he still wasn’t directly touching her. There skin was being separated by the thin fabric  of her panties.

“A-Ahhh… Kanaye… m-more….”

She was eager. Very eager. She had waited so long for this moment, she wanted to experience everything with him. She surprised herself with how impatient she was when it came to this. Normally, she wouldn’t be this fast moving, but she was growing more and more needy.

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Truly, there was nothing greater in this world, or any other, than these moments. Tasting a woman for the first time, and feeling her entire body writhe under you. For a moment, Kanaye lost himself in this feeling- as he often did.

Roughly grabbing her hip, Kanaye held Isabella in place. Denying her any control, he would decide how much please she was allowed. Moving his tongue slowly up the length of her. Getting a feel for every inch, seeing just where her sweet spots were. After doing this for a few moments he looks up at her.

Absolute bliss. Her face twisted in pleasure and agony. Kanaye truly could not hold back in true nature. With one hand still holding her hip, he would lift her lower body upward. Moving so that her legs now dangled above her face, and her toes touched the bed.

Without explaining anything, Kanaye used his other hand to steady and force open her folds. From this new angle, he was easily able to assault her once more. The room, which was filled with Isabella’s moans and whimpers, was joined in the loud sounds of sucking and slurping.

Kanaye was not ashamed to truly commit to this task. To be rewarded with Isabella’s immense cries was more than enough reason.

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This sensation was so much more than she had ever imagined. So much more than what her fingers could ever do, it was beyond belief. It had only been a few moments, yet her stomach turned and tightened as she was almost sent over the edge. The room filled with loud noises, their heads filled with nothing but the pleasure they got from one another, they were both quite occupied… too occupied.

The jangling sound of keys resonated within Isaiah’s acute ears as he impatiently watched his brothers search for the house key. Spencer had a slight smirk upon his face, as if he were doing it on purpose.

“The house is already open! It’s not locked you asshole.” Isaiah complained as he finally opened the door to the house. He was quite upset, Spencer had picked him up early from his and Leon’s date after his and Oliver’s ended.

“Oh yeah huh… welp my mistake~” The demon spoke cheerfully as he closed the front door expecting to see a very upset Isaiah. However, he was frozen in place, his eyes wide yet so filled with pure rage. Not exactly what he was expecting.

Spencer went silent, as to carefully approach Isaiah, yet he heard what he assumed Isaiah was hearing.

Upstairs.

From Isabella’s room

Though it was never planned for Kanaye to come back here after the date…

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Kanaye pulled away just to kiss and suck on Isabella’s thighs. He had to pull away, not just for air, but also to calm himself. He replaced his tongue with fingers, and rubbed her just as he had done before.

“… Isabella… cum for me…”

He murmured against her flesh. It was taking every ounce of control not to enter her. To completely claim her. In stead he bit at her, letting her blood flow down and drop onto her bed.

If he was unable to take her, then he would mark her. Claiming Isabella as his own, letting anyone who dare gaze at her thigh to know she was taken.

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All self control was lost, she screamed out in pain and pleasure. Her stomach loosened as her orgasms sent a shiver down her spine. Her back arched as his teeth sunk into her flesh, she looked daily at him. Her eyes glazed with pleasure and admiration for the man before her.

Though, even though she couldn’t possibly be happier, Isaiah was very much the opposite downstairs. He was tangled with Spencer, who was desperately trying to calm him. It had been a few moments and he was already growing tired. Of course he wold have a talk with he two of the,, though he didn’t have  the slightest intention of killing Kanaye as he knew Isaiah had.

He was growing tired after just a few moments and it didn’t help when Isaiah caught the scent of Isabella’s fresh blood. His eyes narrowed as his muscles tightened before he darted from Spencer’s arms briefly.

Yet almost immediately the demon leaped quickly to tackle his brother to the ground, in hopes of restraining him once more, but on the way own they had accidentally knocked over a vase with a loud crash.

Whoops

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Kanaye let Isabella ride out her second orgasm, slowly rubbing her the entire way. As her body stopped convulsing, he lowered her legs back to the bed. Immediately crawling over her and capturing her lips in a deep kiss. Holding her face securely and using his thumb to wipe the tears from her cheeks.

“Forgive me… that was a bit-”

Before Kanaye could finish his sentence the sound of something breaking outside of her room caught his attention. He sits up, alert now and looks to the door. Was someone home? They had no pets, damn, all he could smell clearly was Isabella.

“Stay here.”

He orders and jumps from the bed. In one swift motion he grabs his clothes and dresses himself. He’d done this many times before. Now dressed he opens Isabella’s door and leaves to search for the sound.

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“Shhhh! We’re gonna get caught-”

“What do you mean caught?! This is OUR house, he’s the intruder!”

Bickering back and forth downstairs, Isabella composed herself as quickly as she could upstairs before carefully dressing herself. The blood flowing from her leg didn’t concern as much as the situation happening at hand. Her senses were overwhelmed with just Kanaye, she couldn’t think straight.

And though he told her to stay put, she followed behind him. Keeping her distance though, as h opened the door.

“We could’ve gotten their attention better than-”

Isaiah wasn’t listening, he bolted as quickly as he could while Spencer was distracted with the vase, this time though, he evaded Spencer. He darted his way upstairs, his feet stomping on the steps as Kanaye’s scent became stronger and stronger.

Murmuring to himself, Spencer followed quickly behind, concerned for Kanaye yet he himself was no sure how to feel about this situation. However he didn’t have much time to think before he collided with Isaiah as he stood frozen, at the top of the stars, staring furiously at Kanaye.

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It was careless of him to allow Isabella to be pushed that far in her parents house. Surely whomever was home, heard the two of them. He was going to need to explain the situation, hopefully it was not her parents.

As Kanaye made it to the stair case he stopped seeing a familiar head of blue hair. Thank goodness, it was Isaiah. Now that he was out of the room, he could smell Spencer as well.

“Isaiah, my apologies. We heard a crash and thought there might be unwanted company.”

Kanaye offered with a smile as Isabella came up behind him.

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His fists clenched, loosened momentarily as he gazed upon Isabella whom was safe and whom seemed unharmed, but clenched tightly again as his eyes fell back upon Kanaye.

“There is unwanted company, you!”

His was voice dripping with anger and pure venom, he stepped closer to Kanaye, almost as if he were about to sprint at him had it not been for Spencer stepping quickly in front of his brother.

“Not unwanted, but definitely unexpected…”

Spencer spoke quietly. He was happy, that his sister and best friend finally confronted their feelings for each other… but wasn’t this a bit too early in the relationship?!

“I mean… aren’t you guys unexpected too..?”

Isabella murmured angrily under her breath. She walked out of he room, hugging Kanaye’s arm. Almost defiantly, in spite of Isaiah, and judging by his violent fidgeting it worked.

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There was at lot of aggression in the air. It was most certainly because of this new… development. Although, it didn’t see too terrible once Isabella held onto him.

“I… hope this isn’t, too awkward. This is not typically how one finds out.”

He offers the two brothers a smile. Kanaye understood that Isaiah was quite angry, and poor Spencer was simply trying to keep the peace.

“Perhaps we could talk about this? I assure you nothing, immoral has happened. This is a misunderstanding.”

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A slight twitch of Isaiah’s head suggested that he didn’t believe a word that came out of Kanaye’s mouth. Isaiah always got quite blinded when it came to Isabella’s safety.

“Typically!? Theres a need for the term typically?! This proves my proves my suspicions even further! Clearly Kanaye, something happened!”

Isabella’s jaw tightened, then opened as if she was going to retort something vile back at her brother before Spencer intervened.

“I would like to discuss this Kanaye, but I think downstairs would be better.” He spoke gently, as to keep the mood as calm as possible. Though the strain in his voice was clear, he was quite upset as well.

Turning his body slightly, the demon pushed his brother downstairs. Though Isaiah’s emerald green eyes never once left Kanaye, the anger never once leaving his orbs.

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Kanaye smiles weakly at the two young males. He lets out a sigh of relief at Spencer’s intervention.

“I suppose downstairs would be easier.”

He moves to face Isabella, leaning down to kiss her head. She smelt... exquisite. Although, if her brothers were to smell her, they would disagree.

“My dear, perhaps you should visit the... lady’s room.” He spoke softly. “Personally, I would love nothing more than to enjoy your current glow. However, your brothers may be furious.”

Isabella may not know that females emit a certain essence after they have climaxed. Not to mention climaxing twice, and with his mark.

“I’ll wait for you down stairs.”

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title: the devil’s in the details (1/1)

rating: t

a/n: for someone promoted ‘as the biggest bad to ever bad’, she was an even worse villain than captain hook and his many foiled plots - and thats saying something. so, here’s an attempt at fixing her curse deployment. bonus: it gives CS honeymoon time! (cs after the cut, with a dash of rb+bby gideon)

Fiona has always considered herself a visionary, a go-getter, a creative mastermind. When she developed The Dark Curse, she tested it with a multitude of woodland creatures and unfortunate peasants (though, given the wonders The Land Without Magic has managed to create, hot water from pipes, for example, she’s certain the peasants are more fortunate than not). 

What she may have slightly miscalculated, however, is the details. Not that she’d ever admit it, but if there was one thing Regina had gotten right, it was the incredibly mundane details of a town. And a good thing too - if she hadn’t checked the key profiles of the people she intended to curse, she might have never known Henry was born in this land, which means had she cast her curse blindly, Henry would have been untouched by it completely, which could have been disastrous. 

What to do with him, though, was the question. A sleeping curse seemed like an easy option, but then she’d need extra dust and a little more time to brew it. Killing anyone directly might have untold consequences, plus given the boy was tied to both Rumple (and herself) as well as The Saviour, who knew how that boy factored into it. Perhaps she could put him in a cage, like a pet? That might do. 

And what of Emma? Given that the girl was still high off her wedding, and was now currently enjoying what Fiona assumed was a passionate honeymoon at home; what would break her the fastest? 

After having planned and been so close to deploying The Dark Curse at the stroke of 6, she’s thankful she stayed her hand. A little more detail, but which one? 

“Rumple!” she called, sending a jolt of magic through the ether, summoning him to her. 

She felt the disturbance in the air just as he materialized, the jut of his eyebrow questioning. 

“And to what do I owe this summons?”

“There’s a slight problem. Teensie one, but one mummy dearest needs assistance with.”

“I gathered that, when The Saviors wedding went off without a hitch.”

She tsked, honeying her voice. “And you didn’t come to check on what went wrong?”

“I assumed it was a deliberate move on your part, a false sense of security, perhaps?”

She thrilled inside, his confidence in her welcome. 

“Yes, well, that and there is something I did not account for.”

When she said nothing further, he took a step closer, mouth quirked. 

“And what is that?”

“Why, your grandson, of course.”

“Henry?”

“Surely that’s the one, unless you have more?”

The flash of his eyes were brief, but he said cooly, “What about the boy?”

“Well, what do we do with him? We can’t send him to the Enchanted Forest, he was born here. Killing him might be a tad messy, and locking him with Emma might work against us. I’ve been thinking of caging him up somewhere.”

She didn’t miss it this time - the flash of fury passing through his face, before it smoothed out. 

“No cages. Give him a cursed memory, make him your son.”

“Well. That is a delicious irony, given that I would be mayor. Well done, Rumple. Now, get me something of Henry’s for me to bind this.”

“Why not use your blood, it runs through his veins as it does yours,” he said rather sarcastically, drawing her ire.

 “And risk cursing myself? Do I look like a damned fool?”

“Of course not, I will return shortly.”

“Swan, you’re bound to hurt a man’s feelings, with that frown after the way you just shattered around me,” Killian said, only half playful as he ran his fingers over the ribs of his wife. 

“Sorry,” she said, just a little breathless, her breasts arching ever so slightly as she leaned into his touch, “it’s just, I’m half mind-blown, half hoping we can do this forever.”

“Give me a few minutes, love, and I don’t see why we can’t.”

“Sure, except for that giant black ball thats floating in the clock tower, we can have sex for eternity, I’m sure.”

“Ah,” he said, fingers coming to a stop in the valley between her breasts, splaying his hand on her, “that is the crux of what’s bothering you, I take?”

“It feels like she’s waiting for something, and I’m just waiting for it to happen. Don’t get me wrong,” she said quickly, just as he opened his mouth to speak, “married couple sex is amazing, that was, you are amazing, okay, and for a few moments I almost forgot, but now I’m just... I don’t want to lose you, Killian. Not again.” 

“Oh Swan,” he murmured, gathering her in his arms and kissing her forehead, “when the clock hit 6, and I asked you where do you think her curse would take us, you said it didn’t matter because we’d win. What’s changed?”

“I just keep thinking, well, there’s no way she’d let us be together cursed. And I don’t want any realm where I’m not with you. I mean, I know we will win. I know it. But that doesn’t mean I have to like it.”

“Well truth be told, I have no wish to be separated for even a breath’s moment from my wife, but I know any such separation would be temporary.”

“I love when you call me wife.”

“And yet, I’ve yet to hear you call me husband.”

The twinkle in her eye returned as she regarded him, her deft fingers coming up to his chest as her nails lightly swirled in the downy hair there. 

“Well, husband,” she said, voice taking the consistency of molten chocolate, “no sense getting worked up about things out of our control, right?”

“I’d definitely say I’m getting worked up, Swan,” he said, eyes flicking down meaningfully, his title affecting him more than he’d bargained for.

“That’s a kind of worked up I can work with,” she said, a grin breaking through her sultry tone as she all but climbed on top of him. 

Oh yes, thought Killian, as he pulled her down for a deep kiss.

After it all, with Killian using the bean to return to Emma, freeing Henry, who while kept his memory, had been locked at home, working together to get Emma to believe, then simultaneously waking her from death with True Love’s Kiss; after it all, Killian sinks into his wife’s side as she plates him some more of Regina’s lasagna (which is infinitely better than Grannies, a secret he will take to his grave). 

He’s not sure why they’re seated in such an elongated manner, though he is thankful that the crocodile is on the other end, and he isn’t forced to see his face as he dines. Still, Belle is his friend, and he is still Gideon’s godfather (Belle had asked him before the boy had been kidnapped, while Rumple had asked Regina), so he supposes he should speak to her at some point. 

Unfortunately, when he does, the crocodile remains by her side, eyeing him with an expression that mirrors what Killian feels, as if he’s stepped in muck. 

“Will you two quit that,” Belle cuts into their staring match with an exasperated sigh, “you two did work as a team to break this curse. And in 24 hours too, a new record.”

“How do you mean?” Killian asks, wondering how in the hell the crocodile is being credited for betraying them all in the first place. 

Belle gives him the look, the same look she gives when The Lost Boys visit the library and mess with the arrangement of her books. “He made sure Henry kept his memories, and he killed his mother. to save us all.”

Somehow, Killian knows that whatever his reasons, they were self-serving, but he says nothing, instead humming, as if that’s acknowledgement enough.

“And you,” she continues, “got the bean--”

“Made me believe, and saved my life,” Emma interrupts, joining their conversation as she threads her arm through his. 

“And in return, you both saved Gideon,” Belle says, staring down at the squirming baby in her arms. 

“I prefer him this way,” Emma says dryly. 

To his utter shock, Rumple-bloody-stiltskin laughs. Actually laughs, a genuine if soft sounding thing. 

“As do I, Miss Swan, as do I,” the crocodile says. 

“Ah, it’s Mrs Jones now, Gold,” Emma says, making Killian fall in love with her all over again. Damned perfect woman.

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So I run an online business in my spare time, more a hobby than anything really. But it's a good bit of pocket money to get me by.This one is from a few years back, jogged my memory from a post on Facebook asking business owners who their worst customer has been. Here's mine.One of my suppliers has a bespoke driving light capacity, they'll swap in more powerful LED chips, reflectors, lenses, etc. The bespoke items are handmade and huge care is taken that they perform as required.Essentially you can say "I want my lights to shine 3 miles down the road and cover an arc of 70°" and they'll get it done.As such, the only people that buy these lights are relatively wealthy, as a single pair of spotlights can cost up to $3,400So this customer comes online, orders a standard lightbar ($1,400) and then a few hours later makes an order for a bespoke set of driving lights. Cool beans.As procedure, the system automatically fires off an email reiterating what is said on the product page that the bespoke lighting range are handmade and can take up to 90 business days, and it tells you when your estimated shipping date is (normally around 120-130 days from ordering, as weekends and public holidays aren't business days)So he replies to this email saying "That's fine, I want the best, happy to wait"So I thought nothing of it, until 91 calendar days after his order:Customer: Hello, regarding my lights from order [number], I have received the lightbar, but my spotlights have not arrived.Me: G'day [Customer], as you ordered your lightbar on [different order number] and we had the item in stock, we dispatched it as soon as we could. Regarding your lights from order [number], please refer to the email below indicating that the lights you have ordered are hand made and the estimated shipping time is still [number of] days away. Thankyou.Customer: [NUMBER OF] DAYS! WHAT THE FUCK? I WAS NEVER TOLD ABOUT THIS! I WANT MY MONEY BACK!Me: G'day [customer], please see attached to this message a copy of the email you were sent when you placed the order, and your acknowledgement of the timeframe. Further, as per our terms and conditions, we do not accept change of mind returns or refunds on custom products. Have a nice day.(Quick note, this is perfectly legal to refuse change of mind on goods in Australia)Customer: THIS IS BULLSHIT! I DON'T REMEMBER REPLYING TO THAT! I WANT MY MONEY BACK NOW! I NEVER AGREED TO THOSE TERMS!Me: G'day [Customer], as per our terms and conditions at [link] you can see that we do not accept refunds on change of mind orders, please see attached a copy of the checkout log from your purchase where you have checked the box agreeing to these terms. As this is a change of mind request, we will not be honouring it.Customer: Raises a PayPal complaint of items not delivered, items not as described/items faulty on both orders I HAVE NOW ISSUED A CHARGEBACK THROUGH PAYPAL! I'LL BE GETTING MY MONEY BACK!(all communication from herein was done on PayPal so they could see the communication)Me: G'day [Customer], with regards to your chargeback regarding [spotlight order], please see attached all correspondence showing that the estimated delivery date has not yet elapsed. Also, please refer to [link] from PayPal buyer protection excluding custom, bespoke, or handmade items are ineligible for refunds until such time as the date for delivery has passed.With regards to your [lightbar order], can you please clarify what is not as described about the item and/or what is faulty with the item? We are more than happy to replace the item if it is faulty or not performing as described.Customer: I PURCHASED THE LIGHTBAR TO GO WITH THE SPOTLIGHTS I ORDERED! ITS FUCKING USELESS WITHOUT THE SPOTLIGHTS! I WANTED A LIGHTING SYSTEM, NOT HALF A LIGHTING SYSTEM! I ORDERED THEM BOTH AT THE SANE TIME, THEY SHOULD BE DELIVERED AT THE SAME TIME!Me: G'day [Customer], with regards to your lightbar order placed at [Date and Time], we had this item in stock and dispatched it immediately. With regards to your spotlight order, placed at [date and time, which was 53 minutes later], we regard this as a seperate order and it will be provided to you in the timeframes quoted and agreed upon in previous correspondence.This continued to happen for nearly 2 weeks, 2-3 angry emails a day, wash, rinse, repeatIn the end I got an email from a PayPal customer service agent to advise me that he had escalated the claim to be reviewed by a person. They wanted to touch base and find out what was happening.So we went through all the notes, and even the customer service representative was amazed at the language he had used. Within 5 minutes she had closed the lightbar claim in my favour due to the items being delivered, and me asking something like 12 times what the fault with the item was. They agreed that it was an independent order and that if the customer had wanted them delivered together, they should have been ordered together on the same transaction.With regards to the spotlight order, after about 45 minutes of reading the correspondence, checking our website, policies, me taking PayPal offline on the store and into sandbox mode so the rep could do a dummy order, they found no fault with the system and agreed that this order definitely was not covered under their protections, but that even if it was, the amount of notice on the website clearly indicated a long lead time on the product.As such, this was closed as well.Another week goes by, boom! Tracking number from the factory, mark order as shipped, off it goes. Customer is informed and starts getting tracking notifications at each scan.Customer: WHY THE FUCK IS MY TRACKING SHOWING THAT MY PACKAGE WAS JUST SCANNED IN HONG KONG?Me: G'day [Customer], as detailed in our website, for bespoke orders, we have them shipped directly from the manufacturing facility in Hong Kong direct to the customer. This is to ensure that you receive your products in a timely fashion with no double handling.Customer: BUT YOURE SAYING YOUR BUSINESS AND WAREHOUSE IS IN AUSTRALIA NOT HONG KONG! THATS FALSE ADVERTISING! I'M REPORTING YOU TO THE ADVERTISING STANDARDS BOARD! I'LL ALDO BE TALKING TO MY LAWER!Me: G'day Customer, please see below the details of my lawyer for your lawyer to contact. Thankyou.Customer: I DINT WANT TO TALK TO YOUR LAWYER! YOU'RE IN DEEP SHOT NOW MATE! YOU'VE FUCKED ME AROUND FOR MONTHS!Me: G'day [Customer], as you have now indicated intent to take this matter along a path of legal recourse, I have been advised to discontinue conversations via email with yourself and all correspondence will now be handled through [law firm]. Please see details below for [law firm].Over the next 3 days I continued to get angry threatening emails, which I just forwarded to my solicitorLights did get delivered, 3 days short of the estimated timeframe, so our estimate was pretty bang on. Have not heard from him since.However, as another note to this, as the Manufacturer and supplier were kept well informed of all this (bespoke high end companies like to know when there's potential brand damage), they also included a letter in the package saying that if the customer was to not deal with any of their dealers, he was to speak with head office only, and that he was banned from purchasing from any of their dealers in the future.Nearly 2 years on now and neither me nor the Director of the company have heard from him, so that's good I suppose.He did post a lot on Facebook about his "harrowing" experience, however both myself and the director of the lighting company, both being heavily into the 4WD scene covered a fairly substantial percentage of groups that he posted on. So anytime he dropped a post on how terrible we were, we did have a very clear and concise reply we'd just copy and paste on his posts.Funnily enough, sales of the product spiked every time he put up a post trying to slander us. In fact, we sold more bespoke lights than we did normal lights for a period there, people were blown away by how adaptable they were and how much light they could get. We got some real funky requests in for custom lights, people that wanted to, as I said, see beyond 2 miles, mostly outback farmers and stuff.Plus, guess what? Not a single complaint on manufacting and shipping times from any other customers. Seems that this bloke just couldn't read.However, my wife has another theory on this guy, after spending nearly $5,000 on lights, his wife may have cracked the shits at him and demanded he cancel the order and get his money back. Now that may have been the case, and this may have financially impacted this bloke negatively. I'll be honest though, if he'd come into it saying "I can't afford these" or "I've just lost my job" or something along those lines, I would have refunded him and just kept the lights for myself instead. But nope, just angry angry tirades.TL;DR: Customer doesn't know how to count, proceeds to abuse me and submit a fraudulent chargeback to PayPal to get his money back. In the end his posts on social media end up driving us more traffic.