#and i guess it's not just 'more' but like... x5 times more lmao

[eru-vande]

I already know that when Spotify wrapped 2025 comes up, I'll have POWER and HOME SWEET HOME as my number 1 and 2 tracks with "you were in the top 0.0000000000000001% of listeners globally" they will HAVE to personally send this stats to Jiyong himself with something along the lines of "look she's demented"

[m1ckeyb3rry]

HI MIRAAA ALSO OMG DW ABT IT I HOPE YOUR MIGRAINES ARE GONE THOUGH???? FEEL BETTERRR I’m pretty sure you mentioned having migraines like a few weeks ago too or something manifesting that they leave you alone for good soon!!! But chronically online time WAHOO!!

Big sigh but I DID SEE THAT OMG your manifestation skills are actually out of this world wtf down to the name kaito and the ct hello WHAT

FRRRR like what are you doing to my boy chigiri…actually you know what’s funny to think about imagine all the merch illustrations are like a model/actor au where they’re going to photoshoots dressing up and taking pics to make into merch they hand chigiri his fit in his dressing room and he’s like wtf is this REAL I imagine chigiri turning on his heels like “why did I even ask”

that’s so funny because the reason I don’t like Tyler is also because I associate with a Tyler I knew but he was definitely not uhhhh eye candy…more like he was one of THOSE league players and giving off “um akshually” vibes but I’m crying well manifesting for your friend LMAO the mere concept of an American au just has me sending the redneck concept is even wilder LMAOOO also LMAOAAO PLEASE I JUST COULDNT THINK OF A BETTER WORD HAHAHAH the whole whiteboard planning would so be them though

REALLLL LMAOOO I almost think it’s kinda like the reo zantetsu dynamic in team z actually wait it’s lowk the exact same vibes except i would still give reader some brains yk but FRRR like that’s exactly what im saying why would comment that like it’s something the author is going to go edit and cater to like hello what reading wild comments is lowkey entertaining like just seeing the insane things people say like you really took the time to comment that out huh um but anyways

LMAOO Tullia the goat fr and oaeu forever remains a masterpiece Oliver getting his redemption arc at the very end will be so fun to read

The sae agenda makes me rip my hair out like damn ok but REAL I love reading your banter in general because it also just really fits the type of banter I’d use irl too (the fwtkac banter is one of my all time favs when reader is like “good maybe your ego will shrink it’s almost the same size as your hair” SOOO FUNNY LMFAOOOO) but also real I feel like we circle to this concept a lot because you get a lot of sequel requests like it’s fine where it ended because there’s not much more of a story to write about besides typical couple activities

I’m crying how does one even come up with that idea like genuinely curious but hey if you see it you see it but go off LMAOAOA I SAW TOO!!! Karasu reverse bfb is so funny I see chigiris sister and Karasu ever now and then on tiktok and some of the meme edits are hilarious

YAY yeah I wasn’t sure if you were gonna throw in Karasu (actually ngl maybe don’t or else I’ll swerve when I read) but I would love a visualization for what Pegasus he’d have…ONE PART very classic Mira activity ok yeah I think 15k might be more accurate then…but OOOOOOH NAGI AIKU AU!!! Wait I’m actually so excited to read that because we theorize and talk about just universe ideas so much too reading it in story form would be really interesting

Sigh x5 KAISER I know you’ll cook with the prompt though!!

LMAOAOAO FR wait if that ever happens I’ll make an email address like that I’m crying it’s too funny and YES we’re staying safe LMAO

LAKSAO the way we’ve both seen that floating around has me laughing I’m glad you know what I mean though (synced up fr) I mean tbf it’s a very niche combo so I guess there’d probably be only one of that in existence though but yeah I scrolled by and was like wait what but you’re actually cooking with that switch up YUKI KARASU BEEF CONTINUES LMAOOOO but anyways oooh true I’m ngl I think my only exposure to love triangles is like…kdramas….maybe tiktok to the rescue LOL lmk if you ever want a brainstorm session though we could try ransacking our brains…

LMAO with your track record watch your nagi monologue/pov just be full on canon nagi pov waittt the score one goal thing defend the rest is actually so good it works perfectly with the set up of the u20 esp with Aiku and the rest of the iron wall of defenders they have but STREAK BROKEN YAY!! CONGRATS!! But preparing myself to read from what you’ve given me I’m very excited

FRRRR that’s also what I’m saying like I see the scenes at first and I’m like LMAO this is so exaggerated it’s funny and it’s like..clearly just done as a joke but people take it as hard canon fact and run and I’m like I’m pretty certain this is also just humor/borderline satire….but whatever…..

TRUE yeah I can imagine there’s a much larger concentration of quality works for AoT which is also why the bllk tags generally have less traction too but yeah never willingly read sae stuff LOL

REAL I was also gonna say like nagi is popular enough but all of his edits are usually just his scenes from the episode with some music slapped over it hello this lowk makes me want to stalk that Kaiser editors account to see if they did anyone else

LMAOO yeah sorry yuki ok I know we talk about his beef in the miraverse in a funny way but it actually just brings me back to the rough and tumble concept and also generally (esp after the ln) the concept of him always having some obstacle in the way of his goals or like that concept of hard work not paying off yk? This was such a bad articulation of it LMAO but I feel like it’s such an interesting dynamic with him of being talented and also hardworking yet he’s always one step away and the frustration that comes with it anyways I hope you get what I’m putting down I don’t even know how to fully describe how it makes me feel I just think it’s interesting and kinda suits him?? I’m gonna stop here because the more I try to explain the worse it gets

Wait I almost forgot imagine Shidou LN next some of his profile info does make me wonder wtf happened in his childhood though like most likely some traumatic event because what

CRYING LMAOO idk if that’s good or bad lowk…that friend experience was insane though talk about plot development

LMAO THATS ACTUAKLY SO SCARY THOUGH I recently sent a friend something and I got the notice that they viewed it and I was like oh…..like idk and my friend didn’t care obv but seeing the mechanic in the flesh was uh…hm…

SO TRUE it’s just pinned to the PxG dorm fridge or planning board

Also yeah I’m realizing that too a lot of the screenshots and posts of the panels I see are from the fan translations and they’re wildly different from the official ones

THAT WAS SO FUNNY LMFOAOAAOAOAOAOAO KARASU ADDITIONAL TIME IM GLAD THEYRE GIVING HIM MORE MOMENTS Bachira having that dream is so funny though like thank you for dreaming that goofy ass Karasu with a beard FR this is the type of additional time content I want I do NOT care about reo tweaking out over nagi cmon

Also omg GENSHIN wait if you actually pick it up will gladly discuss I used to play pretty often but ran out of storage (sigh my devices….) so I haven’t touched it in a bit but I’m still pretty up to date with the current story and characters!!

Ok and THEME CHANGE!!!!! The red and white plus Nagi’s aura >>>>>>>>

- Karasu anon

unfortunately my migraines are as chronic as my online habits DKFHDJ i will probably never escape them…they run on my mother’s side of the family but like only the girls get them?? which is so 😒 but it’s okay i’m mostly good at managing them!! the last bout was kinda just worse than usually but hopefully they calm down for the next round…anyways another late reply because i’ve been grinding on this one shot trying to get it over and done with and i FINALLY did!! going to respond to you + go to dinner and then come back proofread and post 🤩

NO BECAUSE WHEN I SAW THOSE I AUDIBLY GASPED like at this point the multi fandom manifestations are insanely specific now it’s like every mangaka ever just decided to use me as their inspo or smth /j like i don’t think kaito is that common of a name either?? which makes it doubly wild i think i must be a prophet or something

PLEASEEE imagine chigiri just keeps getting typecasted as the gay best friend or whatever in movies so he has to beg for roles that let him show his range (aka he wants to be batman) and then he FINALLY gets to be the flash but then the costume looks ugly with his hair so he either has to dye it or pick a diff role 😭

HELP i also have an opp named tyler and i know for a fact he plays forza which is like on the same level as league to me KDJDJD so we can commiserate on the tyler hating but i’ve known the other tyler for longer so he’s still my default tyler image (??) LMAOOO THE CONCEPT OF AN AMERICAN AU IS SO FUNNY TO ME TOO ngl most modern au fics lowkey end up being lowkey american aus because people don’t really take the time to look at what life in college or high school or whatever in the characters’ country of origin (like japan) would actually be like and just draw on irl experiences?? I’M GUILTY OF IT TOO IN LESS SERIOUS STORIES FKDHDBS like in otoya’s bfb they have the super long american summer break which they don’t really get in japan…in karasu’s bfb though i did make sure to get the dates and stuff more accurate ☝🏻 anyways wait this actually reminds me that peregrine has an entire america ARC FJFJDJ i’m such a patriot as you can tell

REO AND ZANTETSU DYNAMIC MY BELOVED that would actually be so funny actually wait not to swerve (mira swerving AWAY from nagi…historical moment right here) but ykw would also be fun is if you have something like reader and reo’s relationship in peregrine and have the two of them switch lives FKFJDJ like first of all just imagining peregrine reader’s snobby ass in reo’s body is a trip but also dare i say they would actually benefit from it even more than freaky friday karasu and reader did…like reader sees the pressure reo’s under and how he’s actually a sweet genuine guy who’s not stuck up and fake + reo seeing that reader’s parents genuinely suck and why she’s genuinely averse to being friends with him…

LOWKEY I DO ENJOY THE WILD COMMENTS SOMETIMES they also occasionally annoy me but it really depends on the nature of the comment 🤔 most of the time it’s one of those things where i’m like “wtf” in the moment but then talking about them afterwards i always end up laughing

TULLIA MY GOAT 🥹 she’s based on my best friend in real life so she’s always going to be special to me HAHA but also speaking of aiku i am feeling SO fond of him rn omg like that one shot i just finished has made me an aiku stan i think…still not really fully romantically but he is so cute in a “he’s my best friend” way

THE SAE AGENDA IS SOOO STRONG LMAOAOA but yeah i love writing banter so much!! the fwtkac banter especially in the first part before they’re together/have the fight about yukimiya is so peak like they’re just so sassy and silly with one another…and yeah i get a lot of sequel requests and i’m always like 😔 because I DON’T KNOWWWW WHAT TO WRITE and literally the one time i was like “i can write a sequel if you guys want 🙂‍↕️” with the kiyora fic nobody asked for one 😭 it’s okay though actually the only reason i would ever write a seabird sequel would be so that i could write the days leading up to their wedding SOLELY so sae can mention to reader “yeah rin’s gone to america to meet this girl who stayed with us when he was 19” and reader’s like “oh it’s so sweet that they stayed in touch and planned that!!” because she thinks rin is like sae and actually bagged cherry tree reader before she left japan but then sae’s like “LMAO They Didn’t 🤣” and reader’s just like “hello??” and sae’s like “yeah idk man he’s kind of a freak” and reader’s like “oh word” and they just move on

LMAOO to be fair people must think that about most of my ideas so hey if that’s what they think is fun then more power to them!! and YEAH the karasu + chigiri’s sister memes are always hilarious i bet chigiri would fr crash out if he had to have karasu as a brother in law though 😭😭😭

KDJDJS NO LITERALLY i was like “no i can’t put karasu in here i’ll crumble” ngl reo originally had a bigger role and rin was also super important in the story but then i began to swerve to RIN which is crazy but anyways so then reo’s role was lessened and rin was cut completely and replaced with a blend of ego, anri, and probably bachira

YESS NAGI AIKU AU wait you mentioned it again in a diff paragraph but i’m going to talk about it here for continuity’s sake and whatnot anyways um so remember how i was like “i’m going to keep this short so it doesn’t end up being 30k words and i can expand on it later” well…i did my best to keep it short and cut some of the things i was planning on including. and ykw?? IT’S STILL ALMOST 22K WORDS 😭😭😭😭😭😭 i had sooo much fun writing it!! i’m really excited for you and the five other people interested in it to read FSJJS trying to do nagi’s pov was def really tough but eh i came up with smth 🤔 now is ANYBODY in character?? probably not. did i have to absolutely glaze shidou and aiku at various points in the story?? 100%. BUT it was really cool to write from a canon character’s pov and in such a canon-adjacent au so i’m still proud of what i ended up coming up with (if that makes sense) anyways like i said i’m going out for a dinner so it’ll probably be a couple of hours before i post it but once i do i can’t wait to hear your thoughts on it :3

love triangles are sooo common in ya novels and also in manhwas and they’re annoying every time because you really have to do them well so it’s def a challenge 😭 but i will figure it out trust and yes worst comes to worse there’s always tik tok audios to inspire me…no but literally karasu and kunigami is super niche i feel like indie having them as a duo 😭 not to mention yukimiya and hiori people are going to think i just have an obsession with rare pairs (which tbf i do like them more than normal pairs but that’s a separate thing)

yeah i’ve always thought additional times and like adjacent things to that in other animes are meant to poke fun at characters by overly exaggerating them?? not give additional characterization to them if that makes sense LMAOAOA oh well the humor will remain as such for us two at least 😭🙏🏻

yup just because of aot being sm older and more popular there is SO much stuff for it KFJDDJN i always say there are a lot of crazy fans but the fans that lock in truly LOCK IN because some of those fanarts and edits deserve to be in museums i’ve literally never been in a fandom that does fan work the way the aot fandom does

people don’t put their SOULS into editing nagi i think part of it is that he has the largest quantity of hype animated scenes (followed by rin) so it’s really easy to throw a bunch of clips together whereas less popular characters require more effort to edit…and then rin is just so many people’s favs that there’s always someone around to put out smth astounding for him

no yeah i get you exactly like the way he does everything and tries his hardest but he always ends up one step short?? it’s kind of like reverse karasu if you think abt it where karasu kinda thinks he’s mid but he’s usually able to pull through in the end whereas yuki believes and tries so much but he can’t quite get it 🤔 NOT THE ONE SIDED BEEF BECOMING TWO SIDED okay wait actually speaking of rough and tumble yukimiya he definitely wouldn’t get along with karasu i think he would find him kinda pretentious or smth idk i see him being a) comfortable?? ish?? with shidou in the sense that shidou probably reminds him of the people he grew up alongside so he’s very familiar which in turn is kind of a source of comfort and b) getting along with like kiyora who’s also very blunt and honest (another potential bastard munchen team up??)

the only reason i think it won’t be shidou is because i think his backstory is going to be something that they will make a main event in the manga?? so they’ll wait to release his ln until after that happens…i could see a sae + shidou + aiku ln release in the future once we know more about sae and shidou from the manga

no literally it was the most insane friendship ever KDFJSJN i’m just glad it’s over now 😭 and yeah even if you have it turned off you still get the notifications from other people when they view videos you sent them which is truly…interesting…

yeah it’s def a product of how popular leaks and stuff are nowadays the fan translations become popular when the officials are completely different sometimes even to the point that the lines mean smth completely different??

THIS WAS PROBABLY MY FAV ADDITIONAL TIME YET LMAOAOA professor karasu is actually my number one gilf now #speakingmytruth he’s still fine SORRY NOT SORRY!! also otoya in a suit was kinda serving cunt um anyways AND THE RANDOM LIFE LESSON KARASU GAVE REO?? that was somehow so fwtkac part three karasu / oaeu aiku of him 😭 bachira truly a blessing for his crazy dreams this is the content we as a fandom needed

YUP i saw an image of alhaitham and i was like wait who is this fine man…which are we even surprised 😭 like he’s supposedly tall smart nonchalant and has fluffy light hair he’s actually exactly my type 😩 i have it downloaded on my phone but i haven’t started playing yet because i’ve been grinding on writing i’ll probably start soon though!! i will def discuss with you hehe i’m glad you’re into it too so you’ll still be around if i enter a bit of a genshin era

YUP new theme!! hehe i think the red and white is so pretty too!! ironically it’s also the exact opposite of the black and sea green from earlier if you think about it…anyways this is the closest to festive i’ll get with the red and white being kinda christmassy ig?? also nagi’s death aura YUP it’s my fav i think it’s just sooo cool looking and fits him super well plus it looks amazing as part of the theme especially with the art i used in my pinned (at least in my opinion HAHA)

[kookoosbunnynose]

Ch.1 || Ch.2

Pairing: Neighbor!Jungkook/FWB!Jungkook x Artist!Reader

Genre: Slowburn, Smut, Angst, Humor

Word Count: 11.4k

Warnings: Cursing | Slutty Jimin, we love him | mentions of emotional abuse | large jungcock | dom!jungkook | dom/sub themes |a singular use of a sir kink | dirty talk, lots | oral (f recieving) | he so gentle uwu, and then he’s very not gentle lmao

Summary: You’re an art student in need of a partner for your new collaboration piece, who is there to help you but your new neighbor, Jeon Jungkook. You two paint together but leave with much more than a colorful canvas.

A/N: Hello! I know! Dumb bitch finally updated the fic lmao. but i’m really excited about this part and even more excited for the rest of the fic. If you haven’t read chapter 1 yet go read it! 

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Thankfully, even though you didn’t get to bed by the time you wanted last night, after the whole ‘y/n is a dumbass and got locked out’ debacle, you woke up with enough time to take it slow this morning. Mornings like these were your favorite, no rush. Just you sitting at your vanity getting ready for your day, jamming along to whatever song comes on your shuffle, using various items as a makeshift microphone.

You’re in the heat of Colors by Halsey when there’s a knock at your door, you abruptly cut off your poorly tuned melody, feeling caught. You quickly finish the eyebrow you’re working on as you don’t want the person at the door to see you with the one and a half you’re currently sporting. Good enough.

You rush to your front door, careful not to let your fluffy socks make you slip on the linoleum. When you open the door only to be greeted by your fluffy haired neighbor. He looks good in the morning too? Well that’s just fucking peachy. You’re making this difficult Jeon.

“Good morning.” You smile trying to hide how distraught you are.

“Good morning, sorry to bug you” he smiles sheepishly. “I was just hoping I could steal an egg from you? We’re out.” He asks hopeful.

“Oh, yeah of course. Just a second.” You turn on your heels to grab an egg from the kitchen. When your face is hidden by the fridge door you take a second to take a deep breath before making your way back to him. “Just one?” You ask when you hand it to him.

“Yeah one’s good, thank you y/n.” He gives you a small bow and opens his door. “See you later.”

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“Hello gorgeous.” Yoongi says as your trio approaches the counter.

“Morning handsome.” Jimin smirks and steps in front of you.

“I was talking to y/n.”

“Her?” He looks over his shoulder at you. “While I’m here? That doesn’t sound right.” He scrunches his nose as if he’s doing mental math.

“I’ll just get your usual started.” He says leaning to the side so he can see your face.

“Thank you.” You laugh at them swipe your card and take the blueberry muffin he slides your way. You step to the side and wait for your boys to order their drinks.

“Remind me why we still come here.” Joon asks the two of you as you make your way to the pick-up end of the counter.

“Because we’ve been doing it since we started uni. We’re old and stuck in our ways, Joonie. There’s no backing out now.” You reply woefully.

“What are we? Boomers? We can go to a different coffee shop.” Namjoon furrows his brows.

“Order for Sweets!” A now familiar boxy smiled boy behind the counter says.

“Oh no we can’t. Not anymore.” Jimin says his attention caught by Tae.

“Look who wants to fuck the neighbors now!” You whisper yell at them before stepping toward the counter.

“Ha! You admit it!- Wait, neighbor?” You hear Jimin behind you.

“Hi Tae! Thank you.”

“Hello y/n!” He smiles and leans in to make his voice hushed. “If you don’t mind me asking, are you and Yoongi a thing? He covers like half your bill and calls you pet names everyday.” He lists off the, admittedly odd, circumstances of your relationship. 

“Oh, no we’re not. We just flirt back and forth. I think if he had any real intention behind it he would’ve asked me out by now, in my experience he’s pretty straight forward.” You chuckle.

“Ah okay. Would you want him to ask you out?”

“I did in the beginning but it’s been well over a year. As far as he goes, I’m sated with just the flirting.” 

“Ah, I see.” He turns away to grab the next two cups. “Orders for Jimin and Namjoon!” He calls over.

“Why do you ask?”

He pauses for a second. “I was just curious, he’s kinda like that with a couple girls but you seem to be his favorite.”

“Well it’s been a while, seniority I guess.” You shrug and your counterparts join you at the counter. “Oh how rude of me, these are my roommates. This is Taehyung.”

“Ah, nice to meet you, I’ll probably be seeing you guys a lot. I’m across the hall pretty often.” You all chuckle. “I wish I could talk longer but I don’t want to hold up the line, see you!” He smiles. 

The three of you give various forms of a goodbye as you leave to find your usual table. 

“Okay, is no one gonna say it?” Jimin says once you’re seated and safely out of ear shot.

“Say what?” Namjoon asks scrunching his face at his hot coffee.

“What do you mean ‘say what?’” Jimin says blinking slowly at your brother. “What is in those boys’ cheerios?” 

“Fiber?”

“No! You fucking tree!” 

“Y/n really? Now he’s calling me that, too?” You shrug.

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You take a breath in as you walk into the art studio, the smell of paint and pencil lead tickling your nose. You take your usual seat at a large table and check your phone for your list of assignments. The professor sends you a large list of all the assignments at the beginning of the semester. Giving students the freedom to choose what order they do them in, the only stipulation is that you must have half turned in by midterms and the other half by the end of the semester. A much more doable lesson plan than a lot of your past professors. Being forced to be creative is draining and doesn’t get you far.

You scan down the list of possibilities until you find one that catches your eye. Monochromatic self portrait (any color)? No. Pretend you have synesthesia and illustrate your favorite song? Eh, not today. Collaboration piece? Ugh, I can’t even if I wanted to. I need to find someone to work with. Create 5 random custom colors and paint a landscape using only those colors (5”x5”)? Sounds like I could get that done before I leave. Perfect.

You pop in your earbuds and get to work. Deciding acrylic would be best for a quick painting, you grab a pallet and a sizable glob of each of the primary colors along with black and white. A little red here, a little yellow there, and some white for this one. You continue putting in different combinations until you have five colors you’re happy with not worrying if they’ll make sense for scenery. Fuck it. Who says trees can’t be purple? 

As you dip your brush into your small selection of paints and watch the way the colors glide onto the canvas, it makes a sense of ease wash over you. Breathing life into a piece no matter how simple creates a new little reality in it’s own right. Expands our universe one brush stroke at a time. In the least cringy art kid way possible, of course.

You continue your work, mouthing along to your music as you go. Rust tinted grass and a peachy sky coming together in a way that definitely isn’t realism but ends up having a sunset feel due to the warm hues you chose. Just a few touch ups here and there and you’re done.

You pack up your things and head home with your new little creation to dry completely overnight. It’s already mostly dry but the textured parts still have a way to go. 

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  “I really need to go grocery shopping. Thank you again, y/n.” Bunny teeth shining as he leaves your apartment with a mug of tea in place of the hot water he showed up with.

Today is day… eight? Of a new routine has developed over the course of the week. Everyday without fail, whether it be morning or evening, an egg or a cup of milk. Jungkook comes over and asks for a small food item, thanks you, and returns home. No big deal, but it’s apparent that those idiots really need to restock their fridge. It’s like having a stray cat that comes around every night after you feed it once. A really big stray cat… with pretty hair, and a cute lip mole, that always smells like fresh laundry and citrus… anyway-

Time to officially start the day and pretend that little mental tangent didn’t just happen. Go team!

You finish doing some light makeup and throw on some ripped mom jeans and a black hoodie. Enough effort to look like you care, but still comfy. You throw your bag over your shoulder, slip your boots on and head out the door.

Finding parking on campus at this time of day is a nightmare and usually takes longer than just walking since you live just off school grounds. So you make your short walk and stop by the cafe by yourself. You usually go alone only once a week; there’s only one day where you’re the only one of your roomies to have a morning class. 

You order, give Tae his morning hello and make your way to class. 

Classes pass with relative ease. You listen and take notes; taking notes more so meaning doodling along the margins of your notebook than anything else. Really putting those scholarships to good use. 

Art history, meeting with the theater department about painting props, studio, home. 

You enter your apartment and are met with Jimin and Namjoon sitting on the couch about to start the obligatory bi-monthy screening of Your Name. 

“Hey! Were you gonna start the movie without me?” You kick off your shoes and take a running leap onto your spot on the couch.

“No! We were waiting for you, we’re not monsters.” Namjoon retorts in defense.

“That’s exactly what someone who wasn’t waiting for me would say.” You narrow your eyes at your little brother at the other end of the couch.

“Would you two stop bickering for two seconds. It’s starting.” Jimin puts a hand over both your mouths from his spot between you.

“Sheesh, grumpy pants.” You grumble when he lowers his arms.

The movie is filled with the same sobs and ‘awe’s that it always is, always ending in tears for at least one of you. Breathtaking animation coupled with a heart wrenching story, no matter how many times you watch it, it never fails to amaze. As much as you would’ve loved more closure at the end of the movie, the ambiguous ending couldn’t be more poetic. 

“Joonie, what would you do if we switched bodies?” You turn to your brother as the credits roll.

“Probably get a discounted coffee.” He deadpans.

“Oh, you’re no fun!”

“More money in my bank account sounds very fun.” 

Your retort cut off by a knock at the door from your neighbor for his daily snack, so you settle for throwing the pillow sitting in your lap in his direction as you stand. Which he tries to swat away only to end up with a faceful of cushion. Ha, get got bitch.

“Do you need an egg?” You say as you open the door.

“Uh- No I’m good? Thank you for asking.” Tae chuckles, you freeze your eyes widening.

“Oh my god, I thought you were Jungkook.” You let out a stiff laugh and shuffle your feet in embarrassment. “Anyway, what brings you all this way?” You joke, attempting to alleviate a bit of the blush on your cheeks.

“I just wanted to see if you’d wanna chill with us tonight? We had a lot of fun last time. Nothing special, but I wanted to see if you were up for it.” He smiles. “You guys are more than welcome to join too if you’d like!” He shouts over your shoulder at the boys sitting on the couch when he notices them sitting there.

“Nah we’re good Jimin and I have a test in the morning, and if I don’t force him to study with me he’ll fail.” Namjoon says from the couch

“I would not!” Jimin turns to him offended.

“Okay, I’ll study alone then.”

“No, please help me.” He deflates.

“See.” Joon smirks. “Thank you for the offer though!” He calls over to Tae.

“No problem, next time?”

“Next time.” He echoes.

“I’ll hold you to it.” He points a slender finger in your brother’s direction. “What about you, y/n? Are you down?” He directs his attention back to you.

“Right now?”

“If that works for you, Kook will be back from work shortly, it’ll just be Hobi and I for a little bit.” 

“Yeah, sounds good to me.” You smile. “Just let me go grab a couple things real quick and then I’m good to go!”

You scurry to your bedroom and take a look at yourself in the mirror, evaluating the damage the day has done to your makeup. Not bad. You give the apples of your cheeks a quick squeeze to bring back a little color, scramble to find your tinted lip balm, and fluff up your hair a little. There we go. Cute. Now to find something to bring with me so this little panicked face check isn’t a complete lie. Phone charger is good.

With your phone charger in hand and a revived complexion you head back out. 

“Thanks for waiting.” Tae gives you a nod and you smile while you give your boys a wave as you walk out the door.

You walk into the boys apartment and are immediately greeted by a wagging Bread who you kneel to give a plethora of loves, giggling when he hops up and tries to kiss your face.

“Hey y/n!”

“Hey Hobi!” You say as you follow Tae over to the couch with Bread right on your heels. 

“Glad you decided to join us. Kook will be here soon, he left work not long ago.” 

“I gave her the run down before we came over.” Tae smiles.

“How have classes and shit been?” You ask them

“Not ideal. I pulled a muscle in my leg.” Hobi rubs his calf. “With a big performance coming up on friday, but the show must go on, you know.” He shrugs.

“Oh shit dude, will you be okay?”

“He does this at least once a semester.” Tae says waving it off, used to his friend pushing through his injuries. 

“Yeah, it sucks for a bit but I’ll have some wiggle room to rest after this test.” He reassures.

“Okay good, just don’t die.” You chuckle.

“I’ll try not to.” He laughs.

“I’ve been doing a few surveys for my psych classes, would you mind if I get some data from you?” Tae looks to you, taking full advantage of the small lull in conversation.

“Tae no.” Hobi’s face falls and he rubs his temples.

“Do you find Chuck E. Cheese fuckable?” He asks, a genuine question mark in his eyes.

You blink. “What the hell kind of psych classes are you taking?”

“Just answer the question, y/n.”

You look at Hobi for some sort of answer, though you’re not even sure what your question is. “You’re gonna have to just answer him, he’s been on about it all day.” 

“Fucking of course not. Why on earth would I want to fuck a rat? And even if I did, why would I want to fuck a robotic rat roughly the size of an entire kindergarden class?” 

“First of all, he’s a mouse.” Tae corrects. “Second of all, THANK YOU!” He throws his arms up and flops against the back of the couch. “One kid in my class started this somehow and the room was surprising split. About forty percent of the people in that room said ‘Charles Entertainment Cheese’ was sexy! It got pretty heated, people were yelling that the opposing side that we ‘just couldn't handle his raw sexual power.’” He says exasperated with overdone air quotes. “So I’ve been asking everyone all day because I just can’t stop thinking about it.”

“I suppose I can see how that would plague your mind.” You laugh.

“Anyway!” Hobi interjects, clearly tired of the subject. “How are your things going, y/n?” 

You chuckle at his wide eyes. “They’ve been good. I’ve been spending more time in the studio with midterms coming up. But I need to find someone to work with me on a collab piece. I wanna have it in by midterms so I don’t have to worry about it during finals.” you sigh at the thought. 

“Awh, I would help with that but I already did that assignment and I’m not sure if they’d let me do it again with someone else?” Tae says with a small frown.

“I’d offer but the only thing I am versed in is drawing stick figures and arguably anatomically incorrect dicks.” Hobi chuckles.

“Thanks you guys.” You smile. “It’s alright though, I might just ask Jimin to get drunk and throw some paint at a canvas with me.”

“Hey! This reminds me, a couple days ago when you got coffee you promised you’d show me some of your work when we hung out next.” Tae looks at you sternly, arms tight across his chest. “The time has come Miss y/n.” 

“Ah, I suppose I did.” You say as you grab your phone to show him your album of a bunch of your work. “Okay, but I’m no Van Gogh. Go easy on me.” You warn before you hand over your device to him; you always get a little nervous when you show people your art for the first time.

“Hey hey! None of that nonsense! If the way you talk about art is any consolation, then I’m sure the passion alone is enough to make it beautiful.” Tae gives you a stern look followed by a reassuring smile.

“Do you want me to cry? Because this is how you make me cry.” You chuckle and relent your collection of work over to him for them to inspect. 

They open the first photo and you’re met with a mixture of a ‘holy shit’ from Hobi and a ‘wow’ from Tae, their reactions make you smile and your face heat up. 

“These are amazing y/n!” Hobi says as Tae swipes through.

“Thank you guys so much, really.” You say blushing and all but clutching your chest.

You watch their faces intently as they go through, Tae stopping every so often to zoom in and inspect a certain brushstroke that catches his eye. They get toward the end of the photoset when you hear a key in the front door. You’re the only one to turn your head to see Jungkook walk into the apartment. He sets his keys down on the table next to the entrance and his feet stutter a little when he sees you on the couch with his friends. 

“Hey Kook! Y/n was just showing us some of her art, dude she’s so talented!” Hobi calls over his shoulder.

“It’s really good, you should come take a look.” Tae adds, and you laugh nervously.

“That’s so awesome, I will.” He says looking at you with a smile. “I just need to talk to Tae, for a quick second.” He says turning his gaze toward him and tilting his head toward the hall. 

“Oh, is it about that thing?” Tae grits his teeth and sucks in sharp breath.

“Yes, exactly, the thing.” He confirms vaguely, looking relieved.

“Is everything okay?” You furrow your brows and look at each of them.

“He just has a rash, no worries.” Tae tells you in a hushed tone as he stands up. All you can do is blink in response. Jungkook lets out an exaggerated laugh as they disappear into the dark hallway and out of sight.

Once they are safely in the other room Jungkook flicks Tae in the forehead. 

“Ow!” Tae gasps.

“What the fuck was that for?!” Jungkook whisper yells at his idiot of a best friend.

“I was covering for you!”

“You could’ve said literally anything else! I don’t even have a rash!”

“She doesn’t know that!”

“Exactly, you fuck!” Jungkook whispers flicking him again. “Why is she here?! You didn’t warn me!”

“This is what I get for trying to help you?” Tae says rubbing his forehead with a pout.

“Hey! I was handling it just fine on my own!”

“Oh yeah, your plan to slowly raid the entire contents of her fridge was going so great!”

“I just thought!... I thought we would eventually talk or... something?” Jungkook says realizing maybe it wasn’t the best plan in the world. “That’s how my parents used to get to know our neighbors, they’d borrow each others sugar and shit.”

“It’d be easier to talk to her if you just hung out with her and I invited her over for you. You’re welcome! And your parents weren’t trying to fuck your neighbors, were they! Different goal calls for different strategy.” 

“Dude gross, I hope not.” Jungkook scrunches his nose. “And I don’t… just wanna fuck her.”

“Aww, does Googie have a bigger crush than we thought he did.” Tae teases pinching his cheek.

“Fuck you. But thanks I guess… just warn me next time, will you?” Jungkook relents.

“You got it.” Tae says patting him on the shoulder. “I’m only kinda sorry though!” He whispers as he slips out the door. Jungkook follows him to join all of you in the living room.

“Sorry about that.” Jungkook smiles at you as he and Tae take their places next to you on the couch. 

“No worries.” You assure.

“Kook you should take a look at her work, I think you’d like it.” Hobi says passing your phone over to him and your face heats up a little. “I was just telling y/n how you were really artsy in high school.” 

“Oh, it was nothing.” Jungkook waves him off as he starts to look through the photos and stopping a little longer on ones that catch his eye. 

“It wasn’t nothing.” Tae interjects. “Actually y/n, you mentioned needing a partner for that collab piece? Since I can’t assist, I’m sure Jungkook could help you out.” Tae gestures to the two of you.

“Oh no, I couldn’t ask him to do that for me.” You shake your head, looking at both their faces.

Jungkook tilts his head to the side for a second. “I wouldn’t mind at all, it would be fun. I might be a little rusty though.” He says with worried eyes.

“Really? you wouldn’t mind?” You light up. “That would help me out a ton. I’ve been stressing over that piece for weeks.”

“I’d be happy to.” He smiles bright. “I’m off on Saturday, we could work on it then. If that works for you, of course.” 

“You’ve got yourself a deal.” You reach out to shake his hand, effectively sealing the deal. “Thank you so much.” you say and squeeze his hand a little.

“So Kook, I’m collecting data for my psych class-” Tae takes this opportunity to stain your moment of gratitude.

“I already told you, I’m not fuckin’ rats!” Jungkook cuts him off.

“He’s not a rat!”

“Which side are you on?!”

---

“Did I call it? Or did I call it?” Jin looks at you with his stupid smug ass face.

“Listen! It’s nothing!” You throw that damp rag you’re wiping down a table with in his direction.

“It’s not nothing! I can smell your pent up sexual frustration for him from here. You guys are gonna be alone for several hours making art together? What is he, Swayze?”

“Men and women can be platonic friends! You’re not thinking very progressively here, old man.”

“Of course, men and women can be platonic friends.” He says gesturing at the air between you. “But you and what’s his fuck, Junglebook, you said? You two, cannot.” 

“Your lack of faith in me is astounding.” 

“I wouldn’t call it a lack of faith in you, more of an educated assumption… And a lack of faith in both of you.” He smirks. Asshole.

“Fuck you.” You deadpan.

“You know you love me y/nie.” He blows you a kiss.

“You’re lucky I do.”

---

You: I can bring the supplies over whenever you’re ready, just lemme know! Thank you for letting me come over there, it would be hard for creative juices flowing with Joon hovering over us all night. Trying to figure out a deep psychological reason for me painting a flower yellow lmao

You: Oh! And wear clothes you don’t mind getting paint on, stains are inevitable :)

And send. 

Okay listen to me you dumb bitch. You can do this. We got this. For fuck sake why are you so nervous? Pull yourself together! Just enough to prove Jin and Jimin wrong. Do it just to rub it in their faces! Fuck. What are you 12? We can hang out alone with him. This is stupid. I’m stupid. It’s fine. Everything is fine! Shut up.

Tight Buns McCute-Dog: You can come over now, I’m just gonna change real quick, the door is unlocked! (: 

After receiving that reply, instead of him just cancelling, you were relieved he was still willing to help you. However it didn’t help the whole sweating from your ass cheeks with nerves, thing. So overall about the same. Great. 

Doing an abstract painting in these mental conditions will result in accidentally painting several phallic shapes. A Freudian Slip of the wrist if you will. 

After a couple deep breaths, effectively shoving half your feelings deep into the crevices of your mind, and changing his contact name, just for good measure. You grab all the supplies you’ll need and walk across the hall. 

You struggle to open your door while balancing your small box of acrylics, easel and canvas in your arms. Deciding to abandon your easel in the hall for a second while you knock on your neighbor’s door a couple times before you turn the knob. 

Bread is already eager and yipping at you for attention while you attempt to bring everything in and set it up to the side of the living room adjacent to the kitchen. 

---

Jungkook opens your texts and mouths a small ‘oh shit’ not wanting to keep you waiting, but quickly regretting his decision to work out right before he saw you. He wanted to look a little extra muscley but didn’t consider that he’d be a sweaty mess after doing so. 

He settles for telling you he’s changing and hopes you take a few minutes to gather your things so he can blow dry his hair a little. 

Your presence in his apartment is made known when he hears his dog barking and scuttling around. He gives his hair a quick tousel, throws on one of his many black hoodies and a little spritz of cologne. 

Jungkook emerges from his bedroom to find you fumbling with your easel. Cute. 

“Do you need help?” he asks through a giggle.

“Nope! Got everything a hundred percent under control over here.” Your sentence punctuated by your canvas falling to the floor. “Shit.”

“Allow me.” he says handing you the canvas.

“Thank you.” you breath and run a hand through your hair. 

“So what’s the plan? I hope you’re not expecting any Sistine Chapel level work from me.” he chuckles.

“A bunch of naked babies and a priest with the ears of an ass? I appreciate that you don’t bring that to the table.” you raise your brows. 

“Point taken.” 

“The plan is no plan. I mean I wanted to go for something abstract because it’s fun and doesn’t require a lot of brain power. Just put the brush where you think it should go.” you mime a couple brush strokes in the air.

“Sounds easy enough, paint from the heart.” he confirms, patting his chest for emphasis. 

“Oh, I did think one of us could be in charge of warm colors and tints, and the other could do cool colors and shades, and see where that takes us.” you look up expectantly, hoping he likes your almost-plan.

“Sounds interesting.” He looks at the empty canvas, eyes scanning for possibilities. “Which do you want?” 

“I’m partial to cool colors, myself.” 

“Then today, I’m partial to warm.” he smirks. “So are we just feeling what we feel in the moment or is there an emotion we’re trying to convey?” He turns to you, eyes expectant. 

You pause for a second, unsure if you should abandon the theme you were pondering for this piece before you knew Jungkook would be your partner in creation. “Is it too cliche if the theme was ‘love’?” You ask him hesitantly. Immediately regretting not just saying ‘nah man, just throw paint at that bitch.’ 

But much to your surprise. 

“Not at all, it’s a ‘cliche’ for a reason.” He states nonchalantly. “Love is powerful. Whether it’s the painful bit or the part that makes you feel untouchable.” 

A certain fondness hits his eyes that tells you he’s speaking from experience but you don’t pry.

“I’m glad you like the idea.” you smile, relief filling you after he doesn’t exhibit any signs of being uncomfortable. 

He claps his large palms together. “Shall we get started, Miss y/n?” His gaze once directed at the blank canvas, now fully on you. 

“Choose your weapon, Mr. Jungkook.” You feign a serious tone, giving him a small handful of various brushes. Keeping a few of your favorites for yourself. 

You push your box paints toward him indicating he can grab what he likes. Normally you’re a bit protective over your art supplies, seeing as not only are they stupid expensive, but you care for your tools a lot. You wouldn’t let your klutzy brother within a ten foot radius of your things when you were growing up and even now your blood boils if he’s anywhere near your expertly sorted colored pencils. But Jungkook is always gentle and seeing the way he meticulously places small globs of white, reds, and yellows onto his palette, you know you’ve made a good choice in trusting him. 

He steps slightly back letting you put the first ceremonial brush stroke of charcoal black diagonally across the upper most half of your canvas. He joins shortly after deciding to start with white in contrast with your black, laying down some bases for shapes and choosing to run his brush through to disturb the various lines you’ve made, dragging the two tones into a fading grey. 

As your mind wanders towards the way his slender tattooed fingers wrap delicately around the paint brush you quickly come to the conclusion that it’s time to play some background music. Absentmindedly sticking the handle of the brush between your teeth to grab your phone and open your music library.

“What kind of music do you like?” You turn to him, the thin strip of wood in your mouth giving you a slight lisp. 

“I’m not picky, play whatever you want.” he says warmly but his brow still furrowed with concentration while he finishes up his base layer. 

As his answer didn’t do much in the way of helping your quest, you opted for the safety of one of those throwback playlists spotify procures for their listeners, the 90’s one to be exact. Everybody loves some good nostalgia, and it may aid in the sincerity of your painting. Past emotions and whatnot. 

The first song that comes on after you hit shuffle is Heart-Shaped Box by Nirvana and you hum in content. Jungkook on the other hand is pleasantly taken aback by your song choice. 

“Oh shit yeah! I love Nirvana!” He smiles brightly, taking his crinkling eyes off his work for the first time since you started. 

“Everybody loves Nirvana.” you tease him and roll your eyes at the possibility of him being one of those frat boys that ‘misses Kurt Cobain so much’ but can only name Smells Like Teen Spirit and maybe Aneurysm if you’re lucky. 

Jungkook, sensing your tone, smirks and runs his tongue along the inside of his cheek. “You think so, huh?” he bemuses, rolling up his sleeve to uncover this inked skin. Across his forearm is a quote reading ‘rather be dead than cool,’ a lyric from their song Stay Away. He watches you with a quirked brow.

“I stand corrected.” you hold your hands up in defense. Trying not to let the way his inked skin hugs his veins increases your heart rate become too apparent on your features. “You do indeed love Nirvana.” your emphasis on the word being placed differently this time.

“Never doubt me again y/n.” He eyes you suspiciously. “I’ll get more tattoos just to spite you.” He narrows his eyes to add validity to his semi-empty threat.

“I will never doubt you again, scouts honor.” you say playfully saluting him. 

“Now start the song over. Your lack of faith in me, made me miss half the song.” he points a finger at your phone.

“I can’t, I don’t have premium.” you let out a heavy sigh.

“What?! That’s dumb. You suffer through those god awful ads?” He screws his face up in disgust. 

“Eh, I don’t mind too much.” You shrug. “I don’t wanna spend the extra money every month.” 

“Okay, I guess that’s fair.” He squints at you as you pick up your brush again. “Why don’t you just use my account? I’ll text you my login.” He says fishing for his phone in his pocket. 

“That’s completely unnecessary.” You laugh, and wave for him to stop. “You’re already helping me out so much with this.” you gesture to the now less blank canvas in front of you.

“I really don’t mind. What’s the worst that could happen? We expand our music libraries? Oh no!” he pretends to gasp and you roll your eyes. “And besides, I’ll sleep better at night knowing I saved a soul from those creepy ass vitamin water commercials.” He chuckles.

“You really don’t have to.” Your eyes softening at his seemingly endless stream of kindness. 

“Already sent you the login, too late.” he says, sucking in a breath as if to say ‘what a shame.’

“Thank you, Jungkook.” you say as you gently grab his forearm and run your thumb over it.

“You’re welcome.” He smiles. “Back to work now!” he declares, sticking his paint brush, that at some point in your conversation tucked it’s way behind his ear, into his small mountain of yellow. 

You work like this together for a while. Humming along to your music, that is now playing off Jungkook’s phone after he insisted he didn’t wanna hear ‘Colonel Suck-My-Ass’ sing about his chicken deals one more time. The two of you working together seamlessly; the way you blend your colors and make textures complimenting each other nicely. Switching sides of the canvas every so often so it remains balanced. 

After about an hour of being immersed in your work Jungkook turns to you. “Noodle break?” He asks you frowning at his empty tummy.

Your brush stutters on the canvas at his words, your stomach not realizing it’s been hours since you’ve eaten until he mentions food. “That sounds wonderful, actually.” 

“One or two packets?” he asks making his way into the kitchen.

“Just one is good.” you smile, setting your brush into your cup of water. You follow him into the kitchen. “Where do you store your liquid?” you ask standing between the pantry and the fridge, looking lost.

“Fridge.” he answers giving his approval to let you grab the two of you some drinks.

“I see you guys finally went grocery shopping.” you chuckle at the butter and cartons of eggs in his fridge.

“What?- oh right, yeah. Finally dragged Hobi out earlier today.” His smile not quite meeting his eyes while he opens up three packets of ramen, and waits for the water to boil. 

“Can I steal a soda?” 

“Yeah, just not the sprite. Hobi can and will throw a fit.” his tone far more serious than the situation calls for.

“Well damn, okay.” you say and grab a coke for both of you. 

“Thank you.” He smiles and your fingertips brush perhaps a little too long when you hand him his drink. 

He pulls the tab, puts the cold metal to his lips and you watch the way his throat bobs up and down with every swig. When you feel yourself staring your ears heat up, and turn your gaze to the water starting to roll in the pot. 

As Jungkook is finishing up cooking the ramen, the song changes to Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls, you let out a small gasp and start to sing along. He smiles at your apparent love for the song and starts to harmonize with you to encourage you to keep going. Which, much to his dismay, did the exact opposite.

“Jeon Jungkook!” you scold. “I didn’t know you had such a beautiful voice!” 

“It’s alright, I guess.” He breathes out and rubs the back of his neck a little embarrassed. “You’re not too bad yourself.” He looks at you with those big doe eyes. And you swear you’ll only look at them for a couple more seconds, as not to fall under their spell. A half hearted oath at best. 

But you start to sing again, you tell yourself it’s to make the most of the song while it’s on but really, you just want to hear honeyed voice hit your ears again. And it does, eyes closed tightly and mouth wide to control his sound. You can’t hold a tune to save your life but the way he carries your sounds with his, it doesn’t matter. Your song is beautiful.

After your musical interruption, you take your bowls to the table and slurp away at your noodles. All the while Bread is at your heels begging ever so sweetly, which Jungkook scolds but ultimately ends up throwing him a noodle when his bowl is just about gone. 

You take your bowl to the sink but when you start rinsing Jungkook comes over to push you out of the way so he can take care of it himself. You stand your ground for a minute but lose the silent argument due to his advantage of stature. You mutter a small ‘fuck you’ before you return to the canvas, and he smiles contently to himself.

Jungkook joins you back at your station, stepping back for a moment to assess where the two of you left off and what he’d like to add. He lets his eyes run over the varying sized lines and the way they come together but also fight one another in some spots. Some colors as bright as the sun and others look like the depths of the ocean. All coming together in a way that only really makes sense to the two of you. 

You finished what was left of your drink and picked up your brush, dipping straight into your black paint for the second time since you started like you were on a mission. You drew a fluid line near the center curving over a few existing splotches, near the end of your brush stroke it became jagged and split off into several directions. A pessimist would call it a shatter, an optimist would call it several opportune paths, and a realist would probably just call it a painting. But Jungkook did none of those things.

“Y/n, have you ever been in love?” He asked as if he had only asked what time it was. He started swirling some colors together while he waited for an answer.

You blinked, trying not to show how much that question shocked you. “I suppose…” you breathed, actually struggling to come up with a real answer. “I mean, last time I was in a serious relationship was in highschool.” You trailed off. “I don’t know if I can say I’ve been in love but I’ve loved someone before… I feel like being in love sticks with you in a different way. More of a life experience than a life lesson.” You scrunched up your face a little, hoping he’d be satisfied with your answer even though you yourself weren’t.

He nodded, taking in your words. “I think being in love can be just as much a life lesson as ‘lesser relationships,’ if not more so.” He adds putting air quotes as not to come across the wrong way. “But hopefully you end up with more positive lessons than not.”  

“Yeah, you’re right. Like learning how you love and need to be loved. What you deserve and what you won’t put up with. Learn to let yourself be loved-” You stop your word vomit after that last comment, feeling a bit vulnerable. “Those kinds of things?” you let out a little laugh.

“Exactly.”

“Is it fair to assume that you have?” You question, hesitating slightly.

“That I have what?” 

“Been in love, dummy.” You laugh, strategically placing a light green around the canvas.

He pauses slightly. “Yeah, I have.” The same fondness that found his eyes earlier that day sets in again. Not in a painful or bitter way, you noted. But in the way you’d regard your favorite childhood memory.

“I didn’t rub salt in a wound, did I?” you tensed slightly incase you read him wrong.

“No no, you’re fine!” He reassures. “It was a long time ago. Don’t get me wrong, it hurt like a bitch in the moment, but as they say, time heals all wounds.” he shrugs.

“Can I ask what happened?” You prompted, feeling a little braver this time.

“Well you know, same old story with high school sweethearts.” He paused to fix a spot he didn’t like. “She was a year older than me. She left for university. We tried long distance and after a few months we decided it was too hard. Nothing particularly spectacular.” He tells the story, for what you can tell is at least the thousandth time. “What about you and Mr. Not-Quite-In-Love?”

“Nothing, super special either. Unfortunately, the lessons I learned from him were less than positive. After the initial honeymoon phase, he didn’t treat me the best. Looking back I learned to know the level of respect I deserve, but in the moment his lack of just made me desperate to ‘earn’ it. It was a vicious cycle for about a year but things ended and I grew up. And like you said, ‘time heals all wounds.’” Jungkook looked at you with furrowed brows, not sure if he wants to hug you or the seventeen year old girl you used to be who would see herself as anything less than what she was. But he settled for the former.

He wrapped his arms around you, taking you by surprise. But you accept his embrace and smile against his shoulder. “I’m okay now Jungkook.” You giggle. “It was a long time ago and I learned from it.”

He pulls away. “I know, I’m just sorry it took that dickbag for you to know your worth.” he gives you a sheepish smile, and a fire in his eyes dulls when he looks at you.  

“Thank you, you’re very sweet.” you pat his arm before you both turn back to your respective parts of the canvas. 

“Hey, just cause I’m not a complete asshole, doesn’t mean I’m sweet.”

“I’m holding firm at you’re sweet, and you can’t change my mind.” You both laugh and return your full attention back to your work.

Your rhythm returns to where it was before you ate. Both of you humming along to whatever song is playing at the moment, using your paint brushes as microphones if a particularly good song came on. Exchanging a few words here and there. Each admiring the small things the other chooses to add to the work of art. You noticed Jungkook has a habit of biting his lips when he’s concentrating. Cute. 

Now here you finally are after another hour of blending, layering, and tweaking. Both of you put down your brushes down and stepped back slightly to admire what you’ve created. Letting out a sigh at your hard work, taking in the finalized piece. The way the colors run together or bump into one another. The juxtaposition of fluid lines being interrupted by jagged edges. The way the soberness of the colors you put down calm and soothe the firey and vibrant ones he laid down for you.

Ordinarily, when you finish a painting, you never quite feel done. There’s always one more thing you could fix, one more stroke you could add. But not this time. It’s finished. Breathtaking in a simple way. You’ve never felt such a sense of completeness when you set your brush down, and you can’t help but feel you have Jungkook to thank for it. The way his colors and brush work complemented yours was… for lack of a better term, a work of art. 

---

Jungkook puts down his brush, watching you lay down your final touches. Truth be told he’d been watching you out of the corner of his eye the entire time. Checking in on you every so often when you’d put down your tool and furrow your brows in concentration. Smiling when you’d absentmindedly mumble to yourself about what you’re doing. He was in awe of how much of yourself you put down on the canvas, not entirely sure what wordless stories you were telling meant. Though that didn’t stop him from taking the puzzle pieces you laid down and arranging them into a y/n shaped jigsaw in his mind. Perhaps your fondness of calming colors was to tame the wild fire he could see within you. 

And just as quickly as you’d started, you were done, setting your brush down and smiling at what you saw in front of you. 

“Thank you so much, Jungkook.” You breathe still taking in the painting. “It’s beautiful.” 

“Yeah, it is.” He says just above a whisper, never taking his eyes off your beaming profile. 

“Hm?” You turn to him. He looks into your eyes, once filled with fire are now a calm ocean. His gaze shifts to your lips after they form a confused pout at his silence, his body leading his brain when he leans toward you.

It’s now or never.

He leans in further looking into your eyes for any sign of apprehension before he cups your jaw in his paint stained hand. Finally taking the leap all at once when you lean into his touch. 

His lips are even softer than you imagined when they meld against yours. He pulls away slightly to look at you a question mark across his features. You put your hands flush against his hard chest and answer his question by reconnecting your lips with his with fervor and you feel him smile against you. He deepens the kiss, putting his free hand on your hip to pull you closer to his warm body. 

He swipes his tongue along your bottom lip, testing the waters further. You mirror his action, noting that his lips taste faintly of strawberries. You slide your hands into his soft hair and curl your fingers into fists against his scalp making him groan into your mouth. 

His hand that held its feather like touch against your face leaves it’s place to join his other around your waist. His hands squeezing harshly at your hips, his fingers digging into the strip of skin your shirt rode up to expose, making you shiver against him despite your rising temperature. 

He pulls away to place sloppy kisses along your jaw, nudging your jaw with his nose gently to gain access to your neck. You suck in a breath when you pull him closer causing his teeth to graze your pulse point as his swollen lips leave rosey marks in their wake. He sucks harshly at the soft spot below your ear causing your nerves to flare and a moan to escape your lips. He groans in satisfaction at the way his actions affect you, running his hot tongue over your skin to soothe the marks he made. 

His hands move higher on your abdomen slipping just under the hem of your shirt, making you tense slightly under his calloused palms, he feels your shift and rubs his thumbs below your ribcage to relax your tensed muscles. His gentle fingers vastly opposing his flushed cheeks when he brings his face up to yours again, his hair already messy and his eyes dazed as he looks at your lips like they’re the first glass of water he’s seen in days. He crashes his lips back into yours hungrily causing you to squeak at his desperation. You disconnect your lips leaving almost no distance between you.

“Bedroom?” you ask lowley against his lips, your vocal chords betraying you making the word come out far more shaky and less sexy than you wanted. His shoulders flex under your hands at his request.

Jungkook slides his hands down your ass to squeeze the flesh in his hands when his finger tips graze the back of your thighs. 

“Up.” he says firmly, offering you free transport to his bed. You hop up, his strong arms hold you and you wrap your legs tightly around his narrow waist. He starts the small walk to his bedroom, and you try to ignore the way his stomach pressed against your clothed clit is providing the smallest amount of friction with each of his steps, instead deciding to direct your attention to him instead. You give a gentle open mouthed kiss to the small mole on the side of his neck, you make a small path sucking where his jaw meets his neck, and he hums deeply making his chest rumble against yours in response.

When you reach his room, the smell of his fabric softener fills your lungs as he presses your back against his now closed door. His hands trail from your ass, trusting you to hold yourself up around him, up your sides, he slides your arms from around his neck and to the wall until your hands are effectively pinned above your head. The air between you is heavy for a moment as his dark eyes take in how you look like this, your eyes starry as your chest rises and falls in anticipation of his next move. 

He kisses you again, slower this time. You whimper into his mouth when his hips grind his hard dick into your clit. His thighs flexing under yours as he grinds up again harder, swallowing as many of your beautiful sounds as you’ll give him. 

He stops his hips and tucks his arms under you again to set you on his bed. 

You reach your shirt to pull it over your head but he stops you.

“Let me.” He says half a statement, half a question. 

You smile and say nothing but grant him permission by raising your arms above your head. He hooks his fingers into the hem of your shirt grazing your skin making goosebumps blossom on your flesh as he pulls it up and over your head. He reaches for the clasp of your bra slowly and gently like you might break, as if he wasn’t just shoving you against his door with his cock. 

“Fuck.” He breathes out harshly when your hardened nipples are finally released to the cool air of his room.

He quickly strips off his hoodie revealing that he’s been painting without a shirt underneath the whole night. Your breath hitches as all the times you’d touched his arm or chest the hours prior, not knowing there was only a thin barrier between your fingers and his skin. You run your eyes over his bare chest and hard stomach, you knew he worked out but hot damn, those baggy clothes he wears does no justice to what’s under them. However he doesn’t give you much time to marvel before he reconnects his lips with yours leaning into you until your back is on his duvet, you spread your legs to make room for him to settle in between. 

His hot skin drags softly against your nipples as he descends down your frame to pepper kisses along the valley of your breasts. He licks his fingers to roll one of your nipples between his wet digits while he attaches his mouth the other, swirling his tongue in intoxicating circles. You sigh at the small relief his mouth is bringing you and tangle your fingers in his hair, tugging roughly when his teeth bite down onto your sensitive bud. You feel the bed bow slightly below you as his hips stutter at your action. He quickly tends to the small sting with his tongue. Giving a gentle kiss to your nipple as he pulls away. 

He sits up and hooks his fingers into your pants, but stops before tugging them down. “Is this okay?” He asks sincerely. 

“Very.” You say, your heart clenching at his concern and help him slide your pants to your ankles, eager to have his soft skin on yours again. 

He brings his lips to your neck again and you wrap your legs around his waist rocking your hips up to rub your neglected clit against his rigid cock that he has yet to spring free. The wet spot on your panties rubbing off onto his sweats. You moan into his ear at the small relief you’re able to bring yourself, arching your back further in attempt to get more friction and he chuckles against your skin.

“Patience, sweetheart.” He smirks down at you and your feeble attempt to feel his cock. 

“Don’t wanna be patient. Want you to fuck me.” You say trying your best not to whine, as you reach for the waistband of his pants. 

He runs his tongue along his lip and leans down until his lips brush the shell of your ear. “Oh, don’t worry beautiful, I will.” He moves your hands and rolls his hips into yours once to punctuate his sentence. “But I wanna taste you first.” He says and quickly sits back on his knees to slip your underwear down your legs, tossing them behind him not worrying about where they land. 

He settles his shoulders under the back of your thighs and makes a path of open mouth kisses from your knee to your inner thigh, stopping right before your sex and inhaling deeply as he sucks a bruise into your skin, your face heats up and your hips shake in excitement. 

“You smell fucking delicious, sweetheart.” he looks up at you with soft doe eyes that completely contradict his filthy words. He lingers just a whisper away from where you want him and you roll your hips to meet his lips. He smirks again at your frustration moving his lips to your other knee to make a wet path up your other leg with his mouth, seeing how long he can push you. Stopping midthigh to speak again into your skin. 

“I wanna take my time with you sweets. Greedy little girls don’t get to cum on my tongue.” His eyes darken when they look up at you, his words sending electricity through your nerves and arousal dripping onto his sheets.

You opt for silently nodding as the only thing you could muster at the moment is a whine that you want to keep at bay. 

“Are you gonna take what I give you, sweetheart?” He says rubbing circles into your hip.

“Yes, Sir.” You breathe trying your best not to roll your hips into his touch and get scolded again. 

“Good girl.” He smiles at your compliance and finally gives you what you want.

He licks a long flat stripe up your slit, collecting your arousal on his tongue and swirling it around your throbbing clit. Your thighs tighten around his head and he groans against you. 

“Taste even sweeter than I imagined.” He all but moans into your folds. He swears he could get off just like this, with his tongue buried in your cunt and his hips rocking his cock into his mattress. 

You reach down and tangle your fingers in his hair, trying to pull him impossibly closer to you. He obliges you and wraps his lips around your clit sucking harshly, crude slurping noises filling the room but both of you are too lost in the sensation to care. Your hips start rocking against his mouth again, this time your body fully taking a mind of its own, your climax being the only thing you can think about. 

“That’s my good girl, use my tongue to get off.” You moan louder at his words and speed up your movements, balling his hair into fists. As he looks up at you with lidded eyes, he gets lost, lost in your taste, lost in the way your sweaty chest heaves with your heavy breaths, lost in the way his name falls from your lips with your eyes screwed shut.

“I’m s-so fucking close!” your voice comes out in a strained moan cracking at the end of your sentence. 

“Cum for me beautiful, wanna taste your cum.” He says wrapping his lips around your clit again to pull your orgasm from you. He may have called you greedy, but he couldn’t get enough of the way your thighs shook around him. 

“Holy shit! Jungkook!” your orgasm hits you like a wave starting in your stomach and sending fire through your veins. Your hips stutter and Jungkook licks you languidly through your high. All the while your mouth mutters his name in an incoherent mantra. 

He wipes his mouth on the back of his hand and climbs over you leaning on his forearms, and captures your lips in his. You taste yourself on them and smile against his mouth.

“You look so beautiful when you cum.” He says placing soft kisses along your jaw. And you’re glad he can’t see the way your cheeks flare at his comment. “Think you can still take my cock?” he says squeezing himself at the base through his pants. 

“God yes.” You say perhaps a little too enthusiastically and he chuckles at you. 

“You really are a greedy one, aren’t you sweetheart?” He says teasingly. “Let me get you ready first.” He says rubbing his thumb in small circles on your clit, your sensitivity makes you jump a little.

He looks down to watch the way your velvet walls swallow his fingers, but he stops his movement, realizing his hands are still covered in paint. 

“Shit.” He mutters almost silently. “I’ll be right back.” He says with a smile pecking your lips before he slips out his door. Closing it behind him just in case, as not to let Hobi unknowingly come home early only to find you spread eagle on his roommates bed. 

What the hell is he doing? Your eyebrows furrow, worried he’s gonna get some sort of convoluted sex toy. Which while you wouldn’t normally object, that’s a tad presumptuous on his part. 

Your mental ramble cut short and worries put to rest when he reenters the room with clean hands. He strips his sweats from his hips and climbs back over you.

“Sorry, I didn’t want you to get some sort of paint-chemical related rash on your… lady bits.” He says hesitantly breathing out a laugh against your cheek.

“While that’s incredibly considerate of you. That sentence didn’t do much for my ‘lady bits’.” you know what his venom filled tongue is capable of, so his childish use of words makes you giggle. 

He rolls his eyes at you and cups your face, pulling you in for another deep kiss. His hand snakes down between your legs and when his thumb connects with your clit you squeak and break the kiss.

“Your hands are freezing.” you say with more of a pout than you’re willing to admit. You presume he didn’t wanna make you wait too long so he washed his hands in cold water. 

“Why don’t you warm them up for me?” he quirks a brow and smirks. Bringing his hand up to your mouth and sticking his middle and ring finger between your lips. You happily wrap your lips around his digits; licking, sucking, and humming in content around them.

Jungkook’s cock twitches in his boxers as he watches your cheeks hollow slightly around his slender fingers, resisting from pushing them deeper in your mouth and seeing how pretty you look when you gag for him. 

He removes his hand from your mouth, marveling at the string of saliva that follows it. He reaches down to tease your entrance letting your spit and arousal get you ready for his stretch. He slips his fingers into your dripping core and has to hold back from moaning at how well you hug him. 

“Your pussy is so tight, sweetheart.” He breathes. “Your sweet cunt is gonna squeeze me real well won’t it?” He says catching your bottom lip between his teeth. You can’t help but clench around his fingers. “That’s my good girl.” He says, his eyes darkening and he curls into your sweet spot, you moan at how quickly he seems to be learning your body. Like he could figure out exactly what makes you tick if you stayed in his bed for just a while longer.

He removes his fingers making you whimper. He slips his boxers down a little and uses your arousal and his precum to wet his dick. Your mouth waters and you clench around nothing at how beautiful he looks slowly pumping himself with furrowed brows, until now he’s done a good job of not showing how badly his body demands to be touched just as much as yours does. 

He lines himself with your entrance and teases your clit with the tip of his cock, fighting the urge to slam himself into you to the hilt. 

“Do you want me to grab a condom?” he says mere millimeters away from slipping into you. 

“I’m on the pill.” you reassure and gasp at how close he is to giving you everything you wanted since he crashed his lips into yours at the easel. Or possibly before that.

That’s all he needed to hear before he pushed his cock past your entrance and into your wet pussy, the stretch he’s giving you making you thank him silently for insisting on warming you up first. 

“Fuck.” You both moan at how well you squeeze around him. He goes slow, inching in to give you time to adjust. You wrap your legs around his waist to encourage him deeper. He continues his slow pace breathing hot and thick against your neck. 

He sits up to watch how he disappears inside you. “Look how well you take my cock, sweetheart.” He says picking up some speed in his thrusts. You moan at how well he hits every spot in you that’s been left untouched tonight, his dirty words only further building the pressure in your pelvis. 

His thrusts become harder and you reach up you brace yourself on his biceps, his muscles flexing while he supports his weight above you. He angles his hips up slightly hitting your sweet spot perfectly, and you nearly yelp at the sensation, digging your nails into his arms making him hiss.

“Right there? Is that how your little pussy likes it?” He feigns a subtle innocence in his voice. Like he can’t see with his own eyes how well he’s fucking you.

“Yes, fuck! Please don’t stop.” you beg, mostly to get him to do just that, but also because of the sweaty fog his delicious cock has worked into your mind isn’t exactly allowing you to form the most intelligent of sentences.

He sits back on his knees and pushes one of your legs to your chest, his dick hitting deeper than you thought possible making your eyes roll back and your jaw slack. Your moans become uncontrollable and the words you’re attempting to say just come out in broken sounds.

“Such a good slut for me, look at you falling apart on my cock.” his voice almost a growl. “You gonna cum soon, sweetheart?” He says with a voice like silk to mask how close he is himself.

You can’t do more than nod fractically at his words in fear your voice will betray you. He rubs your clit with his thumb to earn your second climax from you.

And you do, your walls tighten around his cock but his pace doesn’t falter. Your legs shake and your eyes roll back. You cover your mouth to muffle a scream. Your orgasm ripping through you so hard you feel like you might burst. 

Jungkook hisses at how hard you’re squeezing him and fucks you through your high. He reaches to his headboard to fuck into you harder, being selfish for the first time tonight, using you to chase his own high.

“Where do you want it?” He says in a stifled whine.

“Cum inside Jungkook. I want you to fill me up.” You say pressing your nails into his chest. The overstimulation you feel in your core is worth every thrust when he finally lets go and fills you with his cum. His cock twitching as he slowly rides out his climax. 

He collapses on top of you, breathing heavily into your neck. Then rolls over to the other side of the bed, to allow both of you some cool air on your skin. 

“I hope I didn’t go too hard at the end there, are you okay?” He looks over at you with worried eyes.

“No. No it’s okay, I liked it.” you smile, your lungs and heart rate working hard to steady themselves.

After he’s caught his breath a little he reaches into his bedside table to get a small rag to wipe up some of his cum leaking out of you, and you suddenly feel very vulnerable at his thoughtful gesture. 

The post sex clarity hitting your mind, not quite in the way you hoped. As you lay there the height of what you two just did sending your mind go into overdrive.

Oh fuck. You run through the events of the night starting to panic a little. He’s my friend, how did this even happen? I wasn’t gonna do this. I wasn’t gonna let this get more complicated than my attraction to him already was. Shit, I’m an idiot. I mean he did kiss me, but… I can’t let this happen again. I don’t want this to end badly and have to move just because I think with my idiot vagina. It makes things too complicated. Okay, I have to end whatever that was now before things get even more complicated. He won’t mind right? He’s a college dude, he’s probably fine with just hittin’ it and quittin’ it. Yeah, everything is good. Friends can fuck once and then be good, it happens all the time. 

You sit up from his bed and run your hands through your hair a couple times in an attempt to tame it and start to pick up your clothes. 

“Are you okay?” He says, watching you as you attempt to find your underwear.

“Yeah, I’m good, just have an early class in the morning and I should probably get going.” you force a smile. 

“Oh, uh okay.” He says not quite convinced. Though you weren’t lying about that, you really did have a class in about seven hours.

“Hey um,” you hesitate, sliding your pants on just choosing to abandon your underwear. “This was just a one time thing, right?” you ask him, hating the way you said that. 

He senses your tone and feels a little twinge in his chest, but he ignores it, putting on a smile instead. “Yeah, definitely. Why do you ask?” 

“Okay, good.” Another twinge. “I just don’t want things to be too complicated, with us being neighbors and all…” You trail off, trying not to cringe at yourself. 

“Yeah, that makes sense.” He pauses, realizing for the first time that this could have negative consequences. “No worries, it’s forgotten. Just friends.” He reassures pulling his pants on.

“Just friends.” You smile and extend your hand to him. You shake on it. 

You pull your shirt over your head. 

“See you later, neighbor.” You say attempting to bring back the way things were just an hour ago. And you slip out his door.

He doesn’t walk you home like he normally does, and honestly you’re thankful. You just want to be back in your apartment where you can pretend that didn’t just happen. Even if that was one of the best fucks you've ever had, you're certainly not going to think about it. What is there to think about? Nothing happened.

You slip out his door, and into yours, met with Jimin munching in your kitchen, presumably after a party and your feet halt in their tracks. 

“Damn babe, you look positively wrecked.” He says with a knowing smirk.

“Jimin, I am so not in the mood for whatever you’re about to say.” you say exasperated.

“Oh, so I should save the ‘I told you so’? Would you rather get it in the morning?” He asks innocently, though he’s anything but.

“Preferably never.” You quip and slip into your bedroom.

Yeah, never is good, we’re just gonna pretend none of that happened.

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✖️✖️✖️✖️✖️ 4x20 Small Potatoes

The one where... Eddie Van Blundht impersonates Mulder and Scully almost kisses him.

Best: I love this episode. Vince Gilligan written banter is my favorite. And all the implications of the scene and the almost kiss - this was one of the first overt acknowledgements of msr on the show and I Ate It Up.

Worst: I also understand why many people dislike this episode. Although they do explicitly acknowledge that what Eddie does is rape (Scully states this a couple times, Skinner calls him a rapist) the pairing of this subject matter with the humorous tone of the episode is problematic because it diminishes the seriousness of his crimes. This is one of those cases where my emotional attachment and reaction to the episode overrides my intellectual objections. But I get why others might have the opposite reaction.

✔️ Flashlights

❌ Woods

❌ Slideshow

✔️ Autopsy

❌ Evidence Disappears

❌ Scully Misses It

❌ Mulder Ditch

❌ Sunflower Seeds

❌ Voiceover

❌ Catch Phrase

❌ Scully is a Medical Doctor

❌ Mulder is Spooky

❌ Scuuullllaaaaayy! Muullllderrrr!

❌ Fox/Dana

✔️ Inappropriate Touching (that I am here for)

✔️ Casual Scully

✔️ Casual Mulder

✔️ Trench Coats

✔️ Bad Tie Watch

✔️ Glasses Watch: Scully

✔️ Taking! It! Personally!: Mulder (as he should in this case)

50 States: West Virginia x5 & D.C. x34 (34/50)

Investigate: Together & Apart

Solve Rate: 61%

✔️ Bechdel Test

MSR: 🐝🐝🐝🐝

Goriness: 👽

Creepiness: 👽👽

Humor: 👽👽👽👽👽

Rewatch Thoughts:

Cancer Arc Check-in: No overt reference. But. It’s definitely the subtext to the whole scene in Scully’s apartment. Scully’s cancer is why I buy Scully buying Eddie as “Mulder”, even though he’s acting so differently. She gives him some side eye when he first shows up, but my headcanon is that she thinks the cancer’s why he’s doing the whole we never talk routine. Also “Mulder’s” question about going back to do it all differently is very interesting for Scully in terms of her cancer. She’s in a very different place now than when Mulder asked her this question in The Field Where I Died at the beginning of the season. She turns it back around on him, not just to deflect, but because she genuinely wants to know, she’s concerned that he wishes he’d done things differently.

Scully’s deadpan: Did he have a lightsaber?

Scully: Guesses Mulder’s crazy theory. Mulder: Marriage proposal. (He’s kidding. Or is he? He likes to joke to make light of his true feelings)

Getting mistaken for a couple. Umbrella sharing! Touching her back. All the good stuff! He’s crouched down so low to get under that umbrella lol. He keeps touching her back. Uuuggghhhh.

I love their exchange about being another person for a day. Scully: Hopefully myself (in the context of the cancer arc this completely makes sense to me). When Mulder makes her play, Scully: All right then, Eleanor Roosevelt. Mulder: Ugh. It can’t be a dead person. Scully: Why the hell not? Vince Gilligan man. The way he writes their banter! I’m obsessed.

Mulder yelling that he’s all right from upstairs in Eddie’s house when Scully hasn’t even noticed anything’s wrong lol

How do Baboo and Sugarpatootie not question “Mulder”? She both saw and spoke to him as her husband - she knows it wasn’t the FBI who came into the house!

This autopsy scene lmao. Mulder!

DD’s acting as Eddie as “Mulder” is great. Especially in that first scene in the hospital where you’re not supposed to know yet that he’s not really Mulder - he’s acting really weird. But also Mulder’s weird sometimes. But when the real Mulder walks in it’s so obvious. Also also how did he get such a similar tie?

The guy in the locker room looked so familiar - apparently because he had small roles in 5 episodes - one episode from each of the first 5 seasons. Interestingly 3 of the 5 are VG episodes.

Some more quibbles: 1. Scully has SEEN the ABH shapeshift into Mulder. How does she not believe this is a possibility? 2. Mulder calls her down to the hospital but does not warn her that Eddie is masquerading as him. Idiot! 3. Mulder never just lets cases go. Why does Scully not find this suspicious?! 4. How - HOW - do they not have a secret I’m really Scully, are you really Mulder? code by this point? (Don’t even get me started on Dreamland)

Ok, let’s examine this we never really talk line. I mean we ALL know Mulder and Scully have communication issues. But they talk all the time. What else do they do during all those car rides and stakeouts? When Scully agrees they never really talk I think she means about deeply personal, emotional things - things they’ve instinctively stayed away from as dangerous territory. And maybe their lives growing up is dangerous territory for Mulder. But he opened up to her about his whole life in the Pilot! I just can’t buy that they don’t get into deep discussions all the time.

GA’s acting is phenomenal in this scene, especially as “Mulder” leans in to kiss her. The look on her face when he starts to shift in closer, she knows where this is heading now. She doesn’t move towards him. Her eyes flick up at him and then down at his lips. I get the vibe that she’s not going to stop him, she wants to kiss him, but she’s also hesitant - are we really doing this? Should we be doing this? Is this because of the cancer? What does this mean? It all flickers across her face even as she opens her mouth to kiss him -

A month later and they haven’t talked about this?!!! Ugh, that’s so them. SO them. Also fuck you show, they would have talked about this - this is only THEM because you don’t want to show us the good stuff.

Mulder: Yeah, but I’m no Eddie Van Blundht either, am I? Mulder, that’s a good thing! Ok, but clearly he’s not talking about the rapist part, he’s talking about the part that would take the initiative to bring wine over to Scully’s apartment and hang out talking with no casefile as the cover, and try to kiss her. He KNOWS now that Scully would be receptive to it. But he’s still too scared to do it. And that’s what makes him a loser. And she doesn’t deny it.

For the record: this shapeshifting explanation makes no sense. Striated muscle tissue would not allow someone to change the shape of their skull, grow a foot taller... Scully does mention something about his hair follicles, which “explains” that piece, but still.

In conclusion, problematic fav.

Episode-Related Fanfic Recs:

False Hope in Sheep’s Clothing by OnlyTheInevitable/ @gaycrouton . I love this interpretation of what Scully was thinking during that scene, and then how upset they both are at each other afterward. Top notch angst.

Times Fox Mulder Cried by @frangipanidownunder . Specifically Chapter 4. Mulder doesn’t just ignore what happened, he decides to give it a try himself. It’s as awkward as you’d expect, but sweet.

Safe Word by Minuete. Mulder finally comes up with the most obvious solution.

Eddie Van Who? by @agent-starbuck . “Mulder, I– I thought he was you.” Her voice is small, broken. Unsure. Post-ep they finally talk about it and it leads straight to smutty car sex thank you very much.

Twice Upon A Time by ChaneenW. Season 9 Mulder travels back in time and tries to figure out why he’s reliving this case and whether to change anything. Really lovely fic.

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001. space force || 002. malloraird || 003. dr adrian mallory

Fandom Ask

Thank you, bb.💖

Space Force

001 | Send me a fandom and I will tell you my:

Favorite character: Adrian Mallory

Least Favorite character: Kick Grabaston

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): Malloraid x5

Character I find most attractive: tie between Mallory and Naird

Character I would marry: Naird?

Character I would be best friends with: Legitimately, probably either Dr. Chan or F. Tony.

a random thought: They really went off with the songs they picked for the soundtrack...

An unpopular opinion: Jerome is way underdeveloped?

My Canon OTP: I guess Chan/Angela

My Non-canon OTP: Malloraird

Most Badass Character: Oh um...none of them.

Most Epic Villain: Lol I guess that’d be Kick?? IDK

Pairing I am not a fan of: Tony/Chan, sorry. I don’t hate it, I just don’t vibe with it.

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): Jerome. 

Favourite Friendship: Erin and Angela!!

Character I most identify with: Mark Naird

Character I wish I could be: Adrian Mallory lol idk

Malloraird

002 | Send me a ship and I will tell you:

When I started shipping them: Fell for it when Mark and Adrian started to bicker first, was like “oh hell yeah.”

My thoughts: They’re fun, okay? I have no other thoughts.

What makes me happy about them: They are cute!

What makes me sad about them: Probably unlikely to be canon.

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: There’s so little fic that IDK

Things I look for in fanfic: For Mark to be the dom...lmao sorry

My wishlist: More scenes like the one when they're tie shopping, that’s all I want. 

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Mark/Maggie and Adrian/Jerome (not really but it pisses me off least)

My happily ever after for them: They sort of bicker till the end of time.

Dr. Adrian Mallory

003 | Give me a character & I will tell you:

How I feel about this character: Very very positive.

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character: Gen. Mark Naird.

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character: If we ever got Maggie & Adrian interactions, it’d be it.

My unpopular opinion about this character: Man’s actually a disaster he just hides it well.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: Confirmation of his feelings for Naird.

Favorite friendship for this character: Chan & Adrian.

My crossover ship: NONE

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answering a handful of asks under the cut !!

answers & replies here are generally:

brush settings

misc. responses

(MANY OF THESE I’M ANSWERING...VERY LATE.... IM SO SORRY FOR THE DELAY I JUST WANTED TO WAIT A BIT SO I COULD COMPILE EVERYTHING ALL TOGETHER.....)

Anonymous said: Hello friend may I ask about your brush settings? Because I am in love with your colouring and line work!

Anonymous said: Your art is so cute! What brushes do you use?

Answer: i main SAI2 now, but here are the same settings when i was using them in the original SAI!! 

(i just copied my own settings in SAI2 now so they should work the same... also sometimes i use the marker tool for doodling nowadays)

Anonymous said: do you post speedpaints anywhere? i'd love to see your painting process! your art style is phenomenal hngh 

Anonymous said: Do you have a youtube channel? Just wondering, since I can't seem to find it. I'd like to watch some speedpaints or something .u.

Anonymous said: could do you a tutorial on how you color hair??? its so pretty and baffles me all the time

Anonymous said: Would you ever do a tutorial showing how you draw? I've see you post on how you color but not lineart (ps your style is super duper cute!!)

Anonymous said: Ayy ;3c hello stocky, your art is amazing ;; how is your process for color your drawings? Plz need to know! God bless you♥

Anonymous said: How do you color soooo well? Can I get some tips? ( ;n; )

Answer: i’ve sometimes done lil art streams for friends before! i could use the same capture software to make speedpaints sometime.... i’ve been considering it for a while actually! 

my process can be a lil sloppy when i try to break it down into steps for tutorials so i think the best way to show + explain is through art streams (& video process)... 

i was thinking of starting art streams on twitch in the near future too... it’s just when i’ll finally be able to get setup finally that i’d be able to set a streaming schedule

Anonymous said: I never played Megaman but I used to watch my older brother play it, and I finally started playing it because of your art too lmao (i love it)

Answer: MEGAMAN GOOD!!! im so glad you’re enjoying the series now too!!

Anonymous said: Socky, will you restock the sanic charms (the knuckles and tails link one) or make other characters?? i love them !

Answer: THANK YOU i’m glad u like em!! each time they sell out i do plan to restock them so no worries!! 👍 I AM AIMING TO MAKE MORE CHARMS OF OTHER SONIC CHARACTERS TOO they’ll come eventually when i’m able to make the designs & get them ordered!!

Anonymous said: ((whispers, this may have been asked before and I wasn't sure where to ask it, but what does "i tried my best x5" mean? is it a reference to something? ;;))

Answer: OH NO WORRIES I’LL CLEAR IT UP!! it’s in reference to a youtube user’s rp comments as “kagamine len”. i’ve seen it MANY years ago & at that time it became sorta an inside joke between me & my friends. 

later i referenced/used it as a response a few times on my len askblog to keep it going.

it’s a small lil thing i guess but i’ve sorta adopted the saying now haha

Anonymous said: socks r gr8 doncha think

Anonymous said: ookay im going to sleep now sorry

Answer: no come back you are valid !!

Anonymous said: your aRT gives me heARTATTACKKKS

Answer: BREATHE, ANON

Anonymous said: I JUST FOUND YOUR BLOG AND I LOVE YOUR ART STYLE! <3

Anonymous said: Wanted to say I absolutely love your art and how you draw the Kagamines. Please keep it up!

Anonymous said: HELLO I JUST. WANNA SAY I ADORE YOUR ART AND BLOGS !! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK AND I ALSO WISH YOU ALL THE BEST !!

Anonymous said: your art makes me cry out of joy. I am actually crying because your style makes me so happy!!!! keep up the good work!! <3

Anonymous said: your artstyle. CUTE

@transjackatlas​ said: you art style is absolutely adorable 💙💚💕

@emmi-san​ said: I only wanted to say that I love your art style and the cute representations of the vocaloid songs ✨💕

@tyranart​ said: Your arts wonderful and I hope your day is full of nothing but enjoyment

@thekillermarti​ said: how do you draw so cute?!

@neykoart​ said: YOUR ARTSTYLE IS SO CUTE OH MY GOD YOUR TETO DRAWING WARMS MY HEART SO MUCH

@dumiz-hyper-saiyan​ said:  Hiya! I wanted to ask, how is your art so great!? You are so so talented (I know it’s not really a question but I love your drawings so much! I hope we can be friends cause you seem to be a amazing person!) hehe!♥️

@seraphofivorylight​ said:  (￣▽￣) i just found ur blog today and i want to say i really love how soft ur art is !! its super pleasing to look and i definitely wish i could have some of these as prints to slap onto my wall of posters ✨ keep doing ur good work !! i hope ur doing well !!

Answer: THANK YOU SO MUCHHCH!!!!! i’m glad y’all are enjoying my art u folks are the MVPs & it’s super motivating to get your nice feedback _(┐「ε:)_ 💕 💕 //sends you all my lov e

@moderndayoutsider​ said: Just thought I'd shoot a message and say that I absolutely ADORE your art and you're one of my inspirations <3 God bless! Keep on doing what you're doing! :D

Anonymous said: ahh i wana say that ive been a fan of you for years and youve inspired my own art sm T_T... bout time i told you how much i love ur stuff 💖💖💖

Anonymous said: Woah, I'm a bit new to your blog and I just want to say how cute your art is. I'm literally so glad this was on my recommended. If I hadn't clicked on your blog then I don't know where I would be. To be honest, I would send you this on my real account but I'm actually really afraid to talk to you, and plus I'm really shy heheh. But keep up the good work! You're an inspiration to us all.

Anonymous said: Hi socky!!! I just wanna drop by and say that I love ur art so so so much !! The coloring and shape of it is so appealing and sometimes I spend hours at a time on your social media just marveling your art. It's really pretty!! Keep up the good work ✨✨✨

Answer: sdfgFDGDdsf knowing that u folks are inspired by my works makes it all worth it, i hope u know (;__;💕 💕 thank you so much for sticking around & enjoying!!! it really means A LOT pleas y’all have a lovely week!!

Anonymous said: Do you take commissions?

Anonymous said: Commission?

Answer: I SORTA HAVE COMMISSIONS OPEN tho i take them by a commission form which puts you on a waitlist. i’m more active on my twitter and tweet updates, & handle most contact about them there...

here’s a link to the tweet about my current commission info + the link to the form is inside --> [comm info]

Anonymous said: Where are you from? Your art is so clean and stylish!! 💖✨

@mysticmangaanimepainter​ said: What year u start drawing???😮 

Answer: started drawing wayyy back when i was able to first hold a crayon haha. tho i sorta started paying attention to what i was doing around middle school? started drawing digitally between middle & high school iirc... im from the US also !!

AAAND AGAIN A LOT OF THESE WERE ASKED/SENT VERY LONG AGO.....  & IM SORRY FOR JUST NOW ANSWERING THEM... o+<

but to all who’s sent me nice messages & words of encouragement, thank you so much 😭💕💕💕 i rly appreciate em all & even tho i’m not very responsive here on tumblr i rly like to look at and read the messages from time to time;;;💖

[skiasurveys]

434

Have you ever trespassed?

-nah lmaoooo

x2 Would you care if your friends were into alcohol or drugs?

-I don’t care. I drink and sometimes smoke weed. But I only would care if they were in a serious issue.

x3 What if it was your parents that were drinking|drugging excessively?

-I’d be worried only cus my mom doesn’t drink

x4 Do you tell your parents where you are going?

-I don’t live at home so not all the time, unless I’m leaving town or i’m just updating

x5 What is the first site you check when you get online, generally?

-Twitter or IG

x6 How much time have you spent online today?

-Prob all together 6 hours idk

x7 How can someone else make you feel bad?

-Triggering me, like talking about my body

x8 What makes you feel good?

-Reassurance

x9 Can you give a good back massage?

-I try my best

x1o Do you enjoy getting massages?

-Yessss

x11 Did you ever mix up the words "message" & "massage"?

-Typos maybe

x12 Are there any other words you get mixed up?

-Nah

x13 Are you good at creative writing assignments?

-Kinda, I’m somewhat creative but I am more creative with drawing

x14 Or would you rather just do an informative essay?

-Fuvk noooo i suck at essays compared to creative writing

x15 What does "freedom" mean to you?

-Being able to do what you want, not tied down to a job or person or thing. can share my thoughts and feelings etc

x16 If you could design a government to rule society, what traits would it have?

-Uhhhh, essentially what Canada has tbh

x17 Do you agree with the notion that all people were created equal?

-We are in a way but unfortunately, due to society or physical attributes or mental we are not and that’s unfortunately what’s happening rn with blm. i see everyone as equal but again due to the world we live in people are still treated less than

x18 Do you think women should hold open doors for men, too?

-Sure it’s kind

x19 Would you want a sensitive man? Why or why not?

-Sure I guess i just like men who are aware of their emotions

x2o Are you more attracted to the badasses, or the goody-goody types?

-Both maybe a mix. I rather a goody goody type

x21 What class has given you the most trouble this year?

-Not in school.

x22 Do you raise your hand or participate in class?

-Sometimes but i’m shy

x23 What is something BIG you want to do with your life?

-Make an impact

x24 Would you ever spend the night in a treehouse?

-Sounds fun if i was with friends and had snacks etc

x25 What do you think of people who own wild animals?

-I think it’s dumb, animals that are wild shouldn’t be pets unless for different reasons like they’re hurt or can’t be in the wild

x26 Make up a 'quote' based on your morals and beliefs?

-Nah

x27 If a book was written about your life, what would be in the summary?

-Her life sucks

x28 Are you good at explaining things, in general?

-I over explain

x29 If your friend had a drug-problem would you abandon them?

-No unless they weren’t trying to get help and i could see its affecting me. like i would never just abanond them but if they didn’t try to get help then i would have to leave

x3o Has a friendship ever ended over similar reasons?

-yeah

x31 If your house burned down, where would you have to go?

-Moms

x32 Do you like visiting the mall? Why or why not?

-Don’t mind it

x33 Do you like window shopping? Why or why not?

-Yes it’s fun and sometimes it’s nice to not go in the store

x34 Have you ever purposely hurt an animal?

-Never

x35 What do you think of girls who cheat? Guys?

-Pathetic

x36 Would you ever see a therapist?

-Yes and i recently saw one

x37 What do you think of people that do?

-I’m proud of them.

x38 Where would you go out to dinner for a big celebration?

-I like earls or tony roma’s or sometimes just like chinese food lol

x39 Who would you invite to your next B-day?

-My friends ?? i don’t usually do parties tbh

x4o Do you mind lending money to your friends?

-I rather not but if i know they will pay me back then w/e

x41 Does anyone mooch off of you? Is this annoying?

-Yeah I have one friend who does this, he annoys me so I don’t hang out with him as much

x42 What, to you, is the best part of traveling?

-It’s fun and can be lifechanging.

x43 Do you like to try new things? Why or why not?

-I try to but i don’t like change or new stuff lmao

x44 If you lost your job|home &etc, who would likely help you?

-My mom idk

x45 Does it bother you if someone talks bad about you?

-yeah and sometimes i wonder what i did to make them hate me so much

[purplesurveys]

554

x1 Have you ever trespassed? No. The empty private lots here in the Philippines have very vocal threats for trespassers, so it’s just been kind of ingrained in my head that trespassing is a very very very bad thing that can lead to ugly consequences. x2 Would you care if your friends were into alcohol or drugs? Back when I hated the idea of drinking, I did judge them but this was only because my only knowledge it was from what I saw from my family. I don’t care if they drink now. I imagine still having an issue with friends who ended up using drugs, though. x3 What if it was your parents that were drinking|drugging excessively? I’d probably go see a therapist at that point. I don’t need Round 2 of Robyn’s Family Trauma. x4 Do you tell your parents where you are going? I have to. They find out everything; it’s pointless to lie. The biggest lie I can ever give them is telling them a different mall from where I actually am, but that’s only because I live in a super small metro and malls are several kilometers away from each other. x5 What is the first site you check when you get online, generally? Twitter or Facebook.

x6 How much time have you spent online today? Less than an hour. I just woke up awhile ago. x7 How can someone else make you feel bad? Insensitive jokes that are meant to be lighthearted and funny. x8 What makes you feel good? Reassurance. x9 Can you give a good back massage? Nope. x1o Do you enjoy getting massages? I’ve never had one. I don’t think I’d enjoy it, given how ticklish I am. x11 Did you ever mix up the words "message" & "massage"? I don’t. x12 Are there any other words you get mixed up? I don’t think so, no. I get names mixed up more often. x13 Are you good at creative writing assignments? Depends on what I have to write about, but generally, I’m not good with anything dubbed ‘creative.’ x14 Or would you rather just do an informative essay? YES please. x15 What does "freedom" mean to you? Not having to feel guilty about doing or being anything you want to do or be. Of course, blatantly criminal stuff like murdering don’t apply here, but you get what I mean. x16 If you could design a government to rule society, what traits would it have? Uncorrupt, obviously. I’ve never experienced being under a government where the officials are actually honest about their money and the money they use for work. x17 Do you agree with the notion that all people were created equal? Way way way way way back in the beginning? Yes. But people like slapping labels and superiority onto themselves and thinking that other societies needed to be ‘saved’ and that’s how inequality started. x18 Do you think women should hold open doors for men, too? I think PEOPLE should open doors for PEOPLE, damn. I never saw it as a gender thing. x19 Would you want a sensitive man? Why or why not? I don’t want a man. x2o Are you more attracted to the badasses, or the goody-goody types? Goody-goody. Badasses get in trouble and I don’t really like getting in trouble lmao x21 What class has given you the most trouble this year? Basic macroeconomics, and fucking fact-checking. This semester, it’s my newspaper layout class. x22 Do you raise your hand or participate in class? Very seldom. I’m not a big reciter, and I shine brighter when I do essays, take exams, or present a Powerpoint. I wish some teachers and profs understood that. x23 What is something BIG you want to do with your life? Travel. x24 Would you ever spend the night in a treehouse? If it wasn’t going to be itchy the whole night, yes. x25 What do you think of people who own wild animals? Uh, I hope they make sure what they’re doing is legal, I guess. x26 Make up a 'quote' based on your morals and beliefs? Meh. x27 If a book was written about your life, what would be in the summary? It’d be a book about a girl who tried to end her life at 12, ended up sticking around and having a semi-good, semi-bad time for the rest of her life. No regrets, but she’s still not completely satisfied. x28 Are you good at explaining things, in general? I hope I am. I don’t actually know. x29 If your friend had a drug-problem would you abandon them? If they pushed people away and if they were starting to affect me mentally, yes. x3o Has a friendship ever ended over similar reasons? Nope. x31 If your house burned down, where would you have to go? We could go back to my grandma’s house in the next village. I lived there until I was 10 and visit often, so it still feels like home to me. x32 Do you like visiting the mall? Why or why not? I love malls...partly because it’s the only kind of public space our government is committed to supporting, which is kind of sad. It’s also already been ingrained in the Filipino psyche, honestly – you bond with your loved ones, eat out, go to the arcades, go shopping, and study at the mall. x33 Do you like window shopping? Why or why not? Yesssssss, but for furniture more than clothes. It’s fun. x34 Have you ever purposely hurt an animal? No. x35 What do you think of girls who cheat? Guys? Infuriating. x36 Would you ever see a therapist? I think it’s the most responsible thing for me to do at the moment. I just don’t want to spend all that money for it. x37 What do you think of people that do? It’s good that they’re taking care of themselves. x38 Where would you go out to dinner for a big celebration? The buffet in Circles is always a go-to for me. x39 Who would you invite to your next B-day? Gabie. I don’t like big groups on my birthday, and I find myself enjoying the most when I’m with her. x4o Do you mind lending money to your friends? Yes, if they haven’t paid me back yet. x41 Does anyone mooch off of you? Is this annoying? No. I’d catch it if they were trying to so I’ll be finding ways for them to not do so lol. x42 What, to you, is the best part of traveling? New experiences and sensations. New things to remember. x43 Do you like to try new things? Why or why not? Yes. Again, new experiences. It’s always awesome to have a new story to tell. x44 If you lost your job|home &etc, who would likely help you? I honestly have no idea. x45 Does it bother you if someone talks bad about you? It depends on what they say or who it came from, but generally yes.

[eldritchsurveys]

552.

x1 How are you feeling today? >> I feel the way I usually feel, which is neutral. x2 Were you feeling like that yesterday at any point? >> Yeah, it’s my default setting. x3 What kind of food could you go for right now? >> I’m not hungry. x4 Would you consider yourself a movie buff? >> I wouldn’t consider myself a movie buff because I feel like that comes with connotations that don’t apply to me. I enjoy watching movies and I love finding new ones that resonate with me. I also enjoy watching film analyses on YouTube, and I think the artistry of film is endlessly interesting. I have favourite directors and favourite kinds of movies (not genres, just... movies that tell stories in a certain kind of way, which can happen in any genre), and I really like hearing about how other people interpret films and integrate films into their being. But “movie buff” doesn’t seem right. x5 What is one common name that you like? >> Daniel.

x6 What is one unique or odd name that you like? >> I don’t know. I hesitate to describe less-common[-in-America] names I like in that way because they’re usually only less common in America because they’re of foreign origin, not because they’re particularly “odd”.

x7 When|why did you last have a stomach ache? >> I don’t remember. x8 How many times have you had the flu? >> Zero. x9 Do you think imagination is valuable? >> I think it’s very valuable. x1o What is valuable to you, in general? >> Besides imagination? I guess... my life? x11 Who or what are you most impatient with? >> I tend to become impatient with people who insist that their subjective experience is the only one that matters. x12 When was the last time you mowed a lawn? >> I may have never mowed a lawn. x13 Have you seen all of the Star Wars films? >> So far. x14 How about all of the Harry Potter ones, so far? >> I’ve seen all of them, yes. x15 Do you plan on seeing New Moon when it comes out in theaters? >> I did not see it. x16 Was your horoscope accurate the last time you checked it? >> I don’t check horoscopes. x17 Do you put much stock into those kinds of things? >> I am very interested in astrology, but I don’t consider your average daily horoscope to be of any value to me. x18 Name a location that’s absolutely beautiful to you? >> Easton Mountain, in upstate New York. x19 What part of the newspaper do you typically enjoy reading? >> I don’t read the newspaper. x2o Do you ever click any links on your homepage? >> I don’t use a homepage. x21 Have you ever made a website, even a simple one? >> Yes. x22 Which was better: your childhood or your teen years? >> Neither was “better”. They affected me in different ways. x23 What was your reaction to your first time falling in love? >> --- x24 What does it take for someone to win your heart? >> --- x25 Are you expecting anything? >> I’m expecting Spooky to randomly run into my room and jump on the bed and try to monopolise my attention, as usual. x26 What is one thing you would rather be doing? >> I can’t think of anything. x27 Do you ever blame your moods on PMS? >> No. x28 When was the last time you changed your mind about something? >> I don’t remember. x29 Who was the last to ask you for something, and what was it? >> I don’t remember. x3o Do you know anyone with a lisp? >> No. x31 How much weight can you lift at once? >> I have no idea. x32 Do you gossip about others? >> No. Because I don’t really have any gossip to spread, lmao. x33 Are you often bored? >> No. I randomly become restless sometimes, but I don’t consider that boredom. x34 Is down-time a bother to you? >> It can be, but it usually isn’t. x35 Do you ask guys out, or wait for them to ask you out? >> --- x36 Do you like the last person who showed interest in you? >> --- x37 Have you ever disliked someone because of a physical feature? >> Not solely because of that. But if I already dislike someone for one reason, then it’s easy to be bitchy about other things about them, whether I actually care about those things or not. x38 Have you ever been disliked for one of yours? >> I’ve had physical features made fun of, but I don’t know if that was the sole reason I was being made fun of, or just an easy thing to point out. x39 Describe the last person you stared at? >> I don’t remember who I last stared at.

x4o What are your usual chores? >> Vacuuming, picking up after myself. x42 Do you feel like you fit your gender? Why|Why not? >> I fit having no gender. x43 Do you like dating one person at a time, or multiple people? >> --- x44 At the end of the day, how do you usually feel? >> Some level of tired, I guess. x45 Do you know many others who share your sense of humor? >> I guess so, yeah. x46 If you could have one thing, what would it be? >> --- x47 Do you take criticism well? >> Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t. It’s hard to measure, since I rarely find myself being criticised to my face. x48 Do you give it well? >> I don’t know if I give it well or not. I assume that sometimes I can be harsher than intended, and sometimes I just don’t bother giving criticism when I probably should. x49 What rule do you break most often? >> I don’t know? x5o Have your experiences made you more or less sympathetic to others? >> I don’t know. In some ways, I am more tolerant of other people’s “stuff” because I am aware of how much shit people can go through and how it can affect them. But I also have limits for how much of other people’s “stuff” that I, personally, will put up with, and I can be unsympathetic about those particular things.

[parkersenses]

All of the want to know me asks!

bro,,, i literally said in the tagsfdjkdsjk,, it’s alright let’s do this

1: My name?

Ellie

2: Do I have any nicknames?

technically Ellie is my nickname 

3: Zodiac sign?

sagittarius 

4: Video game I play to chill, not to win?

spyro: year of the dragon

5: Book/series I reread?

carry on by rainbow rowell

6: Aliens or ghosts?

both??

7: Writer I trust enough to read whatever they write?

rainbow rowell and victoria aveyard

8: Favourite radio station?

depends on my mood

9: Favourite flavour of anything?

strawberry maybe??

10: The word that I use all the time to describe something great?

“wild”

11: Favourite song?

doN’T EVEN ASK

12: The question you ask new friends to get to know them better?

me?? making new friends?? never heard of it

13: Favourite word?

“fucking”

14: The last person who hurt me, did I forgive them?

ehh that’s a complicated question

15: Last song I listened to?

meant to be by bebe rexha/florida georgia line

16: TV show I always recommend?

lost

17: Pirates or ninjas?

ninjas 

18: Movie I watch when I’m feeling down?

i don’t really have one??

19: Song that I always start my shuffle with/wake-up song/always-on-a-loop song?

don’t have one eitherdjsj

20: Favourite video games?

SPYRO: YEAR OF THE DRAGON

21: What am I most afraid of?

s o c i a l i n t e r a c t i o n  

22: A good quality of mine?

i’m honest

23: A bad quality of mine?

i don’t sugarcoat things (which could also be good but)

24: Cats or dogs?

dogs

25: Actor/actress you trust enough to watch whatever they’re in?

tom holland

26: Favourite season?

winter

27: Am I in a relationship?

nope

28: Something I miss?

not having to worry about my grades

29: My best friend?

i’ve got a few

30: Eye color?

blue

31: Hair color?

brown to dirty blonde-ish ombre

32: Someone I love?

Niall Horan

33: Someone I trust?

Niall Horan

34: Someone I always think about?

Niall Horan

35: Am I excited about anything?

TO SEE BLACK PANTHER ON TUESDAY LETS GO

36: My current obsession?

B L A C K P A N T H E R 

37: Favourite TV shows as a child?

House of Anubis was my shit 

38: Do I have someone of the opposite sex that I can tell everything to?

Nope

39: Am I superstitious?

Depends for what

40: What do I think about most?

the fact that i don’t want to go to school

41: Do I have any strange phobias?

veins

42: Do I prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it?

behind it

43: Favourite hobbies?

writing and reading 

44: Last book I read?

The Woman in Cabin 10 by Ruth Ware

45: Last film I watched?

it’s been awhile i don’t remember 

46: Do I play any instruments?

nope 

47: Favourite animal?

dogs??

48: Top 5 blogs on Tumblr that I follow?

@thumper-darling x5

49: Superpower I wish I could have?

to fly

50: How do I destress?

blast music or read a book

51: Do I like confrontation?

hmm it depends on the situation but usually no

52: When do I feel most at peace?

when listening to music while reading

53: What makes me smile?

one direction and marvel

54: Do I sleep with the lights on or off?

off

55: Play any sports?

lmao no

56: What is my song of the week?

it was just released but boss by nct u

57: Favourite drink?

caffeine free diet coke

58: When did I last send a handwritten letter to somebody?

a few years ago,, to santa,,,

59: Afraid of heights?

kind of

60: Pet peeve?

i’ve got so many don’t even

61: What was the last concert I went to see?

Niall Horan

62: Am I vegetarian/vegan/pescatarian?

N O 

63: What occupation did I want to do when I was younger?

air traffic controller 

64: Have I ever had a friend turn enemy?

yes

65: What fictional universe would I like to be a part of?

MCU

66: Something I worry about?

my grades

67: Scared of the dark?

kind of

68: Who are my best friends?

i’ve got a few 

69: What do I admire most about others?

i don’tsdjs

70: Can I sing?

i like to sing but i don’t really have a good voice

71: Something I wish I could do?

s i n g

72: If I won the lottery, what would I do?

donate a lot to charity and help my family, and treat myself a little bit

73: Have I ever skipped school?

yes

74: Favourite place on the planet?

my bedroom 

75: Where do I want to live?

New York or Boston

76: Do I have any pets?

nope

77: What is my current desktop picture?

it’s a painting of blue smears

78: Early bird or night owl?

night owl

79: Sunsets or sunrise?

sunsets

80: Can I drive?

nope

81: Story behind my last kiss?

never had one

82: Earphones or headphones?

earphones 

83: Have I ever had braces?

yep

84: Story behind one of my scars?

when i was little i kept picking at my mosquito bites

85: Favourite genre of music?

don’t have one

86: Who is my hero?

don’t have one

87: Favourite comic book character?

Peter Parker or Deadpool

88: What makes me really angry?

anything political 

89: Kindle or real book?

real book

90: Favourite sporty activity?

don’t have one

91: What is one thing that isn’t tight in schools that should be?

girls’ dress code and encouragement to express your opinions 

92: What was my favourite subject at school?

english

93: Siblings?

two of ‘em

94: What was the last thing I bought?

coffee and a croissant 

95: How tall am I?

5′ 4″

96: Can I cook?

some things 

97: Can I bake?

if it comes from a box then yes

98: 3 things I love?

writing

reading

one direction

99: 3 things I hate?

gun violence 

racists

homophobes

100: Do I have more girl friends or boy friends?

girl

101: Who do I get on with better, girls or boys?

girls

102: Where was I born?

in a hospital ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) 

103: Sexual orientation?

queer

104: Where do I currently live?

on the east coast

105: Last person I texted?

my friend

106: Last time I cried?

when rewatching the finale of lost

107: Guilty pleasure?

oof i can’t think of one

108: Favourite Youtuber?

i don’t really watch youtube anymore

109: A photo of myself.

nope

110: Do I like selfies?

nope

111: Favourite game app?

subway surfers

112: My relationship with my parents?

it’s good i guess

113: Favourite accents?

british and irish and australian and scottish

114: A place I have not been but wish to visit?

new york and london

115: Favourite number?

2

116: Can I juggle?

nope

117: Am I religious?

yes

118: Do I like space?

y e s 

119: Do I like the deep ocean?

no

120: Am I much of a daredevil?

no

121: Am I allergic to anything?

i have seasonal allergies and i’m low-key ehh with corn

122: Can I curl my tongue?

yes

123: Can I wiggle my ears?

no

124: Do I like clowns?

n o 

125: The Beatles or Elvis?

neither

126: My current project?

,,,,,,,

127: Am I a bad loser?

totally 

128: Do I admit when I wrong?

i’m never wrong

IM JUST KIDDING YES USUALLY 

129: Forest or beach?

beach

130: Favourite piece of advice?

hmm idk

131: Am I a good liar?

yes

132: Hogwarts house / Divergent faction / Hunger Games district?

slytherin, erudite i think, and i don’t know about my district 

133: Do I talk to myself?

no

134: Am I very social?

no

135: Do I like gossip?

kind of,,

136: Do I keep a journal/diary?

yeah but not in a traditional way

137: Have I ever hopelessly failed a test?

yes

138: Do I believe in second chances?

depends

139: If I found a wallet full of cash on the ground, what would I do?

see if there was id inside

140: Do I believe people are capable of change?

maybe

141: Have I ever been underweight?

yeah

142: Am I ticklish?

yes

143: Have I ever been in a submarine?

no

144: Have I ever been on a plane?

yes

145: In a film about my life, who would I cast as myself, friends and family?

THIS IS SUCH A HARD QUESTION I DONT KNOWDJKDS

146: Have I ever been overweight?

no

147: Do I have any piercings?

yes my ears

148: Which fictional character do I wish was real?

Peter Parker,,

149: Do I have any tattoos?

nope

150: What is the best decision I have made in life so far?

to kick a boy out of my life tbh

151: Do I believe in Karma?

no

152: Do I wear glasses or contacts?

glasses

153: What was my first car?

never had my own car

154: Do I want children?

maybe

155: Who is the most intelligent person I know?

myself?? IMDJSKAK

156: My most embarrassing memory?

don’t even make me think of one

157: What makes me nostalgic?

the smell of sweat pea hand sanitizer from bath and body works

158: Have I ever pulled an all-nighter?

yes

159: Which do I value more in others, brains or beauty?

brains i think

160: What colour mostly dominates my wardrobe?

black

161: Have I ever had a paranormal experience?

i don’t think so

162: What do I hate most about myself?

my lazy eye and my double chin

163: What do I love most about myself?

i can read a book quickly 

164: Do I like adventure?

ehhh

165: Do I believe in fate?

ehhh

166: Favourite animal?

dog (didn’t we already go over this??)

167: Have I ever been on radio?

no

168: Have I ever been on TV?

yes

169: How old am I?

16

170: One of my favourite quotes?

“go confidently in the direction of your dreams”

171: Do I hold grudges?

yes

172: Do I trust easily?

no

173: Have I learnt from my mistakes?

yes

174: Best gift I’ve ever received?

one direction tickets and autographs 

175: Do I dream?

yes

176: Have I ever had a night terror?

yes

177: Do I remember my dreams, and what is one that comes to mind?

yeah there’s a few that stick out

178: An experience that has made me stronger?

the whole of 2017

179: If I were immortal, what would I do?

that’s,,,,

180: Do I like shopping?

yes

181: If I could get away with a crime, what would I choose to do?

rob a bank

182: What does “family” mean to me?

,,,,,

183: What is my spirit animal?

whatever is really lazy

184: How do I want to be remembered?

,,,,,,,

185: If I could master one skill, what would I choose?

writing

186: What is my greatest failure?

a great question 

187: What is my greatest achievement?

a g r e a t q u e s t i o n 

188: Love or money?

love

189: Love or career?

hmmm depends

190: If I could time travel, where and when would I want to go?

stay in my area and go back to the 90s maybe??

191: What makes me the happiest?

reading

192: What is “home” to me?

my bedroomksddsm

193: What motivates me?

competition 

194: If I could choose my last words, what would they be?

“play one direction at my funeral”

195: Would I ever want to encounter aliens?

hm i don’t think so 

196: A movie that scared me as a child?

didn’t have one

197: Something I hated as a child that I like now?

moussaka

198: Zombies or vampires?

vampires

199: Live in the city or suburbs?

city

200: Dragons or wizards?

wizards

201: A nightmare that has stayed with me?

oof

202: How do I define love?

never experienced it so i wouldn’t really know 

203: Do I judge a book by its cover?

yes

204: Have I ever had my heart broken?

no

205: Do I like my handwriting?

no

206: Sweet or savory?

both

207: Worst job I’ve had?

never had a job

208: Do I collect anything?

snow globes and pop figures 

209: Item of clothing or jewellery you’ll never see me without?

bracelet and ring

210: What is on my bucket list?

go to london

211: How do I handle anger?

sometimes i start crying or i go on tumblr and blast music

212: Was I named after anyone?

my grandfather 

213: Do I use sarcasm a lot?

so much oh my god

214: What TV character am I most like?

Charlie from Lost

215: What is the weirdest talent I have?

don’t have one

216: Favourite fictional character?

Peter Parker,,, you’re the one🎶🎶

[northliner]

Megaman X Vocal Songs

Making a comprehensive guide to your X and Zero feels. These songs are Japan only, so I guess not a lot of fans are aware of this extra level of pain and torment. The songs are all really good though, imo

Also most videos will have subtitled lyrics in English and Japanese, many thanks to Erickvso and Hunterdynamo for their hard work (and AMVs for extra gut punches)

Maverick Hunter X OP: Don’t Wanna Be: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGGexTEwnp4 this seems like Showtaro’s kind of song, but it’s not him for once hahhahaha

X3 OP: One More Time: https://youtu.be/1iQ0IK6QEfU not sure why this song is so romantic haha, Megaman X and Dragon Ball Z both have this fascinating song theme choice. Really cute, as it applies to X looking up to Zero, in a way X3 ED: I’m Believer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2LEBYBOCO0c boy does the age of this game show, very disco-y... moody disco... also Erickvso likes to add dub voice clips... prepare yourself

X4 OP: Makenai Ai ga Kitto aru (This Love is Unbeatable): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oulKuwBlvzc here, have some Zero/Iris feels!!! Also the 2:00 mark is pure magic LMAO. I feel like this applies to X AND Iris being uncertain what to do... X4 ED: One More Chance: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0g0RRO_-FtQ O SHOOT I forgot this existed. Lyrics and translation here, http://yukie-chrisyukiefan.blogspot.com/2005/08/ lots of scrolling and bad format... ......NOOOO IRIS, THIS ISN’T HAPPENING

X5 OP: Monkey: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RpHvVX75qcw yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas I love Showtaro Morikubo, he isn’t even a good singer tho...... but he wrote his own lyrics, and he’s a major Megaman fanboy....you can pretend X or Dynamo is “singing” these I guess X5 unused ED: Mizu no Naka: https://youtu.be/yXHWgko9uRs This song was  cancelled from the ending... my guess is it was too gay and depressing. Just fucking imagine hearing this immediately after beating X5!!! Still Showtaro, gotta wonder just what he thinks the relationship of X and Zero is hahahha

X6 OP1: Moonlight: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_gzDJ7SqaM stiilllll Showtaro. we start out with this, and then partway thru the opening, we switch to The Answer for emotional impact!! X6 OP2: The Answer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42c3l0Y-YlY Showtaro really fucking loves rap. PS he’s just fucking yelling off tune in this song. I LOVE IT. but... 1:12... that is NOT ok, man, not after X5... X6 ED: I.D.E.A: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KaK8__qTVi0 written by Showtaro- I like to think this song is about Alia and Gate...

X7 OP: Code Crush: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EYVw3_NCawI this song is really moody... I think it fits the emo-ness of the game. I also like how the other half of songs for Megaman X that aren’t love longs are about fitting in and breaking out of the mold X7 ED: Lazy Mind: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UAjOY3K4JtI Showtaro!! Will you STOP! uhhhI can only find Spanish translations... maybe I will take a (bad) crack at this later...

X8 OP: Wild Fang: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nqnd_zYpnRU ok.... I KNOW I found an english sub years ago... you gotta read it on this page http://www.animelyrics.com/game/rockmanx8/wildfang.htm ps the scrubby guitar intro goes PERFECTLY with the opening sequence as far as I know, there’s no X8 end theme... boooo

Command Mission OP: Jounetsu Setsuna (Moment of Passion):  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=muZIN2MKFzo  this........................ I give up. I give the fuck up. translation here http://www.starwing.co.uk/downloads/rmxcm-js.html Command Mission ED: Parts: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q7bR9sV02Yc dafuq... is in engrish... http://megaman.wikia.com/wiki/Parts_(song) .......this song really skeeves me out... also I’m putting Command Mission chronologically last, even though I’m not sure where it is or if it’s even canon, sheesh, cuz... X8′s end makes me sad and fearful. Part 9 Never- wait, wrong fandom