#and i got into homesick and it’s currently my hyperfixation

[imprisoned-marrionetta]

The comfort character meme except it’s with two of my favorite webtoon blondes and i drew this in like 30-45 minutes on my finger because i don’t have my drawing tablet right now.

(They wanna kill aiden because he pissed Samael off and Tonny was too into his post-season finale rage to give a shit /j)

[mysteriawrites]

Commission info: $5 Matchup for Love and Deepspace (started playing 2 months ago and it is my latest hyperfixation). I adore all 4 of the guys sm 🫠

- personality: distant, introverted but not shy, generally respectful of others but not necessarily kind, somewhat apathetic (but a majority of the time mood baseline is content/relaxed), calm under pressure, extremely independent, confident and self-secure (sometimes arrogant! i try to keep my god complex in check lol), can take criticism well, straightforward (blunt, sometimes tactless/insensitive both on purpose and on accident), pretty sassy/snarky, tends to laugh off the severity of a situation, not very ambitious, mildly competitive, a moderate risk-taker (gets a thrill from risky situations, but tries to avoid lethal ones).

broad sense of humor (often more on the playful/absurd side), playful w/ friends, very teasing, mischievous, realist that leans optimistic, nosy and loves gossip/drama, a natural troublemaker/rulebreaker but also often unintentionally gets into trouble (wrong place/time), comfortable with confrontation, a bit combative with authority and those who irritate me but is generally easygoing, quick-witted, logical, unsentimental, surprisingly low impulse control.

- personality/alignment types: INTJ ; 7w8 ; chaotic neutral.

- love languages: physical touch and gifts. touch reserved for close friends/partners only, but i can get pretty cuddly with them and will just drape myself over my partner if they let me. willing to make the first move/initiate affection in general.

- preferred dates: cafés, hiking then picnic or camping, staying in and cooking/baking together then watching shows or playing games, artsy dates (including body painting), ice skating, late night drives with music playing.

- hobbies: video games (tactics, RPGs, visual novels), anime, drawing (paper and digital), painting (mostly watercolor), baking, cosplay, writing, reading (fantasy, suspense/thriller, psychological), caring for houseplants, home/decor DIY projects, hiking, jogging, thrill-seeking activities (adrenaline junkie).

- likes: cats, frogs, snakes, sweets, most fruits, cheese, lattes (a favorite of mine is chai), scented candles, piercings, tattoos, puns and lame dad jokes, cool weather, forests, traveling, new experiences, learning languages (currently knows/studied: english, french, korean, latin), medieval history, the occasional lazy day, bantering with others, encouraging my friends' bad/risky decisions (i will even do it with them), lovingly teasing/bullying friends, when people cook for me.

- dislikes: dogs, horses, bitter foods, grapefruit, potatoes, alcohol, strong scents, hot weather, spiders (other bugs are ok), long car rides, feeling restricted, conformity and blind obedience, having to be responsible for others or lead them, being vulnerable, when others are condescending towards me (makes my pride flare up), people-pleasing behavior, when others step in to help without me asking.

- misc.: quite clumsy, accident prone ; terrible sense of direction ; easily motion sick (very sad bc i love park rides but i can only handle 1-2 at a time) ; enjoys skin/hair care, loves changing up hair often ; used to do gymnastics ; able to play alto saxophone ; a weird mix between a night owl and a morning person (but afternoons are rough) ; i had a near drowning experience once as a kid but i'm still plenty comfortable with water (though being on boats makes me a little uneasy LOL. i love tubing/water skiing tho) ; my hands and feet are always ice cold so i like subjecting my friends to them (sticking my hands under their shirt, holding their hands, or tucking my feet beneath their legs if we're sitting on a couch together) ; majors in international studies and french in uni w/ minors in psychology and medieval history ; currently working as a medical scribe ; studied abroad in korea for 5 months, LOVED it and honestly never got homesick ; prone to bad luck but tries to find the humor in most situations.

- appearance/style: 155 cm / 5’1” ; hourglass to pear shaped ; very pale (burns easily) ; baby-faced, button nose, single dimple on right cheek when smiling ; big green eyes, long eyelashes ; hair is naturally wavy and light ash brown almost always styled with bangs, i just cut most of my hair off and got an undercut a couple weeks ago ; 5 piercings in one ear, 4 + an industrial in the other, and a navel piercing ; clothing style is more on the masculine side (rarely wears dresses/skirts, but i do love short shorts), color scheme is black/gray/muted green ; loves fishnets, flannels, graphic tees, leather jackets, combat boots ; socks are either black or very colorful/patterned ; enjoys sweatpants and hoodies when lounging at home.

Hihi thx so much for the commission. I will also send you a pdf version of you matchup so in case anything happens to this blog you'll still have it, and it won't be money down the drain. :)

RAFAYEL!!!

Between the two of you there’s enough sassy to write the world’s longest rivals to lovers fic Jesus Christ.

Like genuinely picture this: y'all start out as two of the youngest and most popular up and coming artists on the scene.

Naturally that makes y'all rivals. Like the banter just will be flying between you out the wazoo. Sure you gotta try your best to be friendly for the cameras, but everyone can feel the sexual tension. It’s so thick you couldn’t cut it with a bloody chainsaw.

“Look who just washed up.” “Says the one who looks like the cat dragged them in” (author-san can't write clever banter to save her life please send help)

It would all come to a head during like an art gala or something like that. Neither of you wanted to go, but it was being held by a very influential art collector and you couldn’t afford to pass it up.

You get there and see each other and immediately start fighting like cats and dogs. After a while though, you two kinda stick with each other cause there’s literally no one else interesting to talk to at this party in y’all opinion.

You both bond over the fact that your managers forced you guys to be there, making fun of all the snooty rich people, and talking about the different ways you guys see art. You realize maybe the other isn’t so bad after all.

You enter the bright ballroom in a black dress suit, fluffed hair, and light makeup. Between the atmosphere and your stuffy clothes, you feel suffocated. To make matters worse you spit him at a table across from you. You lock eyes and share a silent look for a moment, but only for moment.

“Of course you’re here,” Rafayel scoffs.

“Why wouldn’t I be? Someone’s gotta remedy this atmosphere and it sure as hell isn’t gonna be you,” you reply sharing a glare with him.

You both turn your noses up at each other and walk away to go mingle. Soon you realize that everyone else at this damn party only wants to talk about money and flaunt about how rich they are. You take a seat at a table to take a break with some snacks and wine.

No way you can go through this sober.

As you begin to bite into one of the ridiculously small cupcakes someone plops their butt in the chair opposite you. Of course it’s your purple haired nemesis, who you’ve been trying to ignore all evening. You give him a look that seems to ask “what the hell do you want?”, but he flat out ignores the social cue in favor of making, albeit forced, conversation with you.

“If we were all trapped on a deserted island, who here do you think would get eaten first?” Rafayel asks.

“Huh?” You reply puzzled.

“If we were on a deserted island-”

“No I heard you, I’m just wonder what the actual fuck you’re talking about. Also why are you even here? Shouldn’t you be mingling and annoying someone else with your weird ass questions? Maybe even trying to get someone to go home with you; why are you suddenly giving me special treatment as if you don’t hate my guts?”

“Hey no fair! I asked my question first so it’s only polite that you answer”.

You roll your eyes before scanning them over the crowd. Your gaze falls upon a short round man in a bright yellow tux who seems to be sucking up to his superior. You gesture with your finger over your shoulder pointed at him, finally answering Rafayel’s questions with a nonchalant response.

“Mr. Lemon man over there. He looks like he would keep us fed for a little while and seems eager to please”.

“Smart choice. I would say people would be fighting over those yappy little purse dogs first, and then their owners,” He replies.

“And to answer your previous question, everyone here is such a pain to talk to. You can tell everyone here is lying through their teeth just to impress others and keep up appearances. At least you’re somewhat decent company and I can trust you to speak your mind.”

You flash him a sincere look before replying, “For once we agree on something,”.

“Alright my turn to ask a question,” You start but are quickly cut off.

“Bup bup bup. You already asked your question, now it’s my turn again,” Rafayel refutes.

“What that didn’t count!” You retort.

“Did too! A question is a question.”

You let out a reluctant huff, “Fine. I guess we’ve got all night to ask each other questions anyway”.

“That’s the spirit.”

You two continued this game of questions for the rest of the night and got to know each other better. Once you actually got to know him Rafayel didn't seem so bad. That night a rivalry turned into a bit of a friendship.

You started spending your art events together to make them more tolerable. Soon you guys started hanging out together outside of work.

Movie nights, restaurants, going to the park, walking on the beach. You may have still been friends, but your outings started to feel more and more romantic than platonic.

One day Rafayel invited you to see an ocean sunset with him for artistic inspiration. You guys had ice cream, played on the ocean, and walked along the beach barefoot to reach the peak of a sandy dune that he insisted was perfect for watching the sunset.

You guys sat and cuddled as you watched the sunlight aurora. He looked at you, you looked at him, and next thing you both know you guys are making out to the sunset.

“Rafayel what are we exactly?” “Well I would hope we’re dating now after having had the best kiss of my life”

And that was history.

You guys have a very teasing relationship. Always making fun of each other and being playful, but at the end of the day you guys still snuggle together.

I see Rafayel as a words of affirmations guy since he’s known for being flirty, but i can also see him getting flustered if you turn it against him.

I also see him as a quality time kind of dude because he can get very clingy petty and jealous if he doesn’t see or hang out with you for long periods of time.

He likes to use his tall af height to carry and throw you around like a ragdoll sometimes when he’s feeling silly or wants the upper hand in a petty argument.

You guys do get into more serious arguments sometimes cause you’re both very headstrong and prideful but you learn to set aside your differences for love and agree to disagree or learn to compromise.

You also help each other with your fears. You help him with his fear of cats and he helps you feel less nervous around boats and the ocean.

He kisses you on your piercing holes and over his favorite tattoos of yours while also showing you his own (this man has tattoos and piercings fight me i will die on the hill)

He loves when you play with his fluffy hair and will do skin routines with you. He buys you guys the really good expensive shit. When you’re famous you gotta look good.

Since his evol is fire related his hands and body temperature are pretty warm so he doesn’t mind your cold hands and will try to warm them up for you sometimes

He also loves how you’re interested in his history, culture, and language so he will teach you about them every chance he gets. (Idk how far in the story you are so im not gonna spoil where he’s from but trust me youll love it)

Overall your relationship is basically like having a best friend but you get to make out and do lovey dovey stuff together

[vreenak]

I was tagged by @midweekblues to talk about my reading plans for 2021. thank you! :)))

2020 was the year that I rediscovered reading, for three reasons: I didn’t bring my tv when I moved, I really needed the escapism during the summer & ditching the car for public transport = more time for reading. I definitely plan on keeping it up in 2021. I missed it. 

Books I have started and want to finish in 2021:

Transparent Things by V. Nabokov. He’s my favorite author but I haven't read all of his books yet -  saving them for rainy days (figuratively). Started it shortly after I moved because I was homesick and reading his books always feels like coming home to me. My username comes from this one btw!

A book that I started in 2020 and finished last week was Angie Thomas’ On the Come up. She’s a fantastic writer!

New Books:

I’m currently reading Soledad Brother: The Prison Letters of George Jackson. GJ was a black Marxist and activist who did several jail stints in the ‘60s & ‘70s. The book is a collection of letters he sent to his friends and supporters.

I’m going to read Yaa Gyasi’s Homecoming and Jason Reynolds’ The Boy in the Black Suit next. They were on a rec list I found on tumblr and I’m not sure what they’re about - but I love picking out books at random. And I got myself a copy of Anselm Oelze’s Wallace because I’m going to co-host an event with the author this spring and I'm bracing myself for that.

Tagging: @sommertagshimmelblau @locke-writes @glorioustidalwavedefendor @series-of-hyperfixations and everyone who wants to join in!

[metalbatandzenko]

All of them. All the questions.

oof

1. Do You Sleep With Your Closet Doors Open Or Closed?

I have sliding doors on my closet so it’s one open one closed.

2. Do You Have Freckles?

Nope!

3. Can You Whistle?

Nope (:

4. Last Song You Listened To.

I...don’t remember lmao, I think it was 6 Inch by Beyonce

5. What Is Your Favorite Color?

I don’t know if I have one tbh.

6. Relationship Status.

Currently juggling seven reply guys bc rona has everyone acting out of line, but single.

7. What Is The Temperature Right Now?

46º

8. Did You Wake Up Cranky?

Yes sdkjfhdlkf

9. How Many Followers?

215.

10. Zodiac Sign.

Aries/Aries/Cancer.

11. What Is Your Eye Color?

Brown.

12. Take A Vitamin Daily?

No.

13. Do You Sing In The Shower?

Yes, usually it’s Mitski or songs from musicals because you know. Former theater kid.

14. What Books Are You Reading?

The Chronology of Water by Lidia Yuknavitch.

15. Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 64, Give Me Line 14.

“As in earlier days” from the poem The Walk by Thomas Hardy

16. Favorite Anime?

OPM is the only anime I watch. Being Japanese American and fem aligned means having. Not great associations with anime tbh.

17. Last Person You Cried In Front Of?

I honestly can’t remember the last time I cried in front of someone

WAIT YES I DO

It was November 23rd and my little cousin and I watched Over the Garden Wall. Both of us cried at the end.

18. Do You Collect Anything?

I have a knife collection and an old rock collection from when I was younger. I also unintentionally have a major makeup collection. My lipstick collection is borderline embarrassing. In my defense it started in 7th grade.

19. What Did You Have For Lunch?

I uh. I didn’t have lunch skfjhdsljfh

20. Do You Dance In The Car?

I do!

21. Favorite Animal?

Dude I fucking love crows.

22. Do You Watch The Olympics?

Some of them! My mom was really athletic growing up (as in one of those kids that plays a sport every season in high school), so she watches a lot of them. We tend to watch figure skating (which I know little about but have strong opinions on), gymnastics, synchronized swimming, track, and judo.

23. What Time Do You Usually Go To Bed?

Usually I’m in bed by 11 but I don’t go to sleep until 2am. Recently I’ve been getting to sleep at 7am.

24. Are You Wearing Makeup Right Now?

It is currently three in the morning so no akslkjsahd

25. Do You Prefer To Swim In A Pool Or The Ocean?

Ocean. I grew up in Northern California near the coast, and now I’m in a landlocked state. And you can kind of feel it, you know? The air doesn’t smell like salt and redwoods, the mountains aren’t there to hold up the sky so you just feel it pressing down on your chest. I miss the ocean.

26. Favorite Tumblr Blog?

I don’t know if I have a favorite. erikkillmongerdontpullout is funny and insightful, and I love dostoevskydocs’ poetry compilations.

27. Bottled Water Or Tap Water?

I grew up somewhere with access to really good tap water, so I’ll go with that.

28. What Makes You Happy?

Writing, spending time with friends, the feeling of dappled sunlight through the tree canopy.

29. Post A Gif Of What You’re Currently Feeling Right Now.

30. Do You Study Better With Or Without Music?

With :)

31. Dogs Or Cats?

Dogs but I love cats too!

32. If You Were A Crayon What Color Would You Be?

Moss green!

33. PlayStation Or Xbox.

Xbox.

34. Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean?

Ocean. I don’t trust lakes.

35. Do You Believe In Magic?

I believe in the supernatural, I don’t know if magic’s the right word. It’s more like a belief that there’s something more to the world than what we’re able to perceive. 

36. What Color Shirt Are You Wearing?

Charcoal grey.

37. Can You Curl Your Tongue?

Yes! I can also make my tongue into a clover.

38. Do You Save Money Or Spend It?

A bit of both. I can be pretty frugal when I’m by myself but I inherited the need to pay for everything for my friends from my mom, so if my friends are around, I will try to muscle my way into paying for everything. This is usually unsuccessful bc my friends are in the same boat.

39. Is There Anything Pink Within 10 Feet Of You?

Yes. I’ve got a pink water bottle on my bedstand.

40. Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now?

I mean. OPM lkjshdflkjdh I’ve been hyperfixating on it, but I also am pretty obsessed with OTGW (I have been for years).

41. Have You Ever Caught A Butterfly?

No but I’ve had a few land on me.

42. Are You Easily Influenced By Other People?

Depends on the person. Overall, I’d say no, but my friends have significant sway over me.

43. Do You Have Strange Dreams?

Yes.

44. Do You Like Going On Airplanes?

I actually do. But only for short flights. Anything longer than 4 hours makes my body really hurt.

45. Name One Movie That Made You Cry.

Moana.

46. Peanuts Or Sunflower Seeds?

Sunflower seeds!

47. If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be?

Orville Peck or Carseat Headrest.

48. Are You A Picky Eater?

Nope!

49. Are You A Heavy Sleeper?

Yeah.

50. Do You Fear Thunder/Lightning?

No, I actually love them. I sleep best when it’s thundering.

51. Do You Like To Read/Write?

Yes to both. I’m a Creative Writing major so dkljfhljkdf

52. Do You Like Your Music Loud?

Yeah! Though not as loud as some people, my ears are sensitive.

53. Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents?

Wrap presents. I’m not a big fan of the smell of pumpkin, and wrapping presents is a tradition for my mom, brother and I. We’d put on some music, drink some hot chocolate, and wrap as many as possible. Then my brother and I would smuggle some wrapping paper to our rooms and wrap our mom’s gift.

54. Put Your Music On Shuffle, What Is The First Song That Came Up?

Somebody that I Used to Know-Gotye (listen the song still slaps)

55. What Season Are You In Right Now? (Weather)

Winter/Spring transition. It hailed for 15 minutes straight yesterday.

56. What Are You Craving Right Now?

A popeyes 5 piece spicy chicken meal with fries and ranch. Can you tell I’ve thought about this?

57. Post A Screenshot Of Your Tumblr Feed.

I don’t wanna.

58. What Is Your Gender?

Nonbinary, but vaguely girl adjacent. 

59. Coffee Or Tea?

I think coffee. I drink more tea, but I also drink exclusively green tea and chai (like the traditional chai made with milk not the chai teabags) and I really am not a black/white/earl grey tea person.

60. Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About?

OOF Yeah I do

I’ve got a thousand word readers response to “The Other Boat” by E. M. Foster, a one thousand word journal about WWI, a reflective journal check in and a powerpoint I have to make for Sense and Sensibility for Brit Lit and I also am tutoring a few of my classmates

In my biological anthropology class I’ve got a Unit Exam and a few lectures to watch

For my internship/Teachers Assistant position I’ve got 17 10 page rough drafts to read and give in depth comments on as well as a portfolio I have to assemble for next year’s TA bc I’m transferring, phone meetings with the 17 students who wrote those rough drafts, and I’ve gotta compile some resources for my professor

I need to finish my memoir for my independent study and I have to present. my nonfiction memoir. to my classmates. on Zoom. I’m one of two people doing a nonfiction memoir for their independent study the rest are doing fiction, poetry or a literary analysis paper so like. My classmates are gonna be talking about their fiction piece and then I’m gonna be giving a 15 minute reading and Q&A about a piece that focuses on my trauma and being hate crimed so that’s fun.

I also gotta get some stuff done for my school’s lit magazine.

61. What Is Your Sexuality?

A known bisexual™

62. Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning?

I try to but I forget.

63. Favorite Pokémon?

Togepi, Blissey and Togekiss.

64. Favorite Social Media?

I hate to say it but it’s tumblr.

65. What’s Your Opinion On Instagram Stories?

If it’s longer than six stories, I’m not watching it. Unless I know they’re gonna be fun or we’re really close then I will.

66. Do You Get Homesick?

A bit. I’m still really homesick for my hometown tbh because that’s where all my family except for my parents are. I’m really close with my extended family, so being isolated from them feels like there’s an emptiness at my side.

67. Are You A Virgin?

No.

68. What Shampoo And Conditioner Are You Using Right Now?

Redken Frizz Dismiss. I got those big fucking bottles you can get at Ulta where it’s like a gallon of shampoo so I haven’t had to buy any in over a year.

69. If You Were Far From Home And Needed To Sleep For The Night, Would You Choose To Rent A Crappy Motel Room For $60 Or Sleep In Your Car For Free?

I’ve slept in my car before and I will do so again most likely. Also $60 is too much to spend for a motel room.

70. Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life?

Yes. Though I’m much closer to my mom than my dad.

71. Whats The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters?

Idk shit about movies tbh.

72. Do You Miss Your Ex?

One of them yes, the others no. But the one I miss I also acknowledge is someone who had their place in my life at the time and helped me through some rough shit, but no longer has a place in my life. I appreciate the hell out of him though, and we’re on good terms.

73. What Is Your Favorite Quote Right Now?

I’ve got two!

“I don’t know how to stay tender with this much blood in my mouth” –Ophelia, Hamlet

and

"Suffering feels religious if you do it right." –Chelsea Hodson

74.  What Eye Color Do You Find Sexiest?

Brown. Especially the almost black-brown eyes.

75. Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set?

Yes to both.

76. What Was The Last Thing You Ate?

Chocolate covered pretzels ljhflfsd

77. What Games Do You Have On Your Phone?

Toon Blast and 2048.

78. Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not?

Holy shit I hate this question. Yes, of course I would. I don’t know why mentioning that the person is homeless is relevant. Homeless people are not somehow less worthy of CPR?? What the fuck.

79. Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight?

...yes

80. Stalked Someone On A Social Network?

I’ve briefly skimmed over someone’s page after meeting them but I don’t lurk.

81. Do You Like Meeting New People?

Depends on my mood.

82. Do You Wear Rings? If You Do, Take A Picture Of Them.

I hate my hands so this was pushing it.

83. Do You Sleep With Your Bedroom Door Open Or Closed?

Closed.

84. What Are Three Things You Did Today?

Corrected papers, walked my dog, did some writing.

85. What Do You Wear To Bed?

T-shirt and shorts.

86. List All Of Your Different Beauty Products You Have Right Now.

Dude I can’t do that I have too many, I’ve been buying makeup for 7 years and I used to work next to a sephora

My makeup routine pre-rona was:

Sephora brand moisturizer

Milk Hydrogrip primer

Fenty Pro Filtr Hydrating Foundation

Maybelline Age Rewind Concealer

Anastasia Brow Definer

Glossier Cloud Paint

Fenty Sunstalkr Bronzer

Fenty Liquid Flyliner

Fenty Flypencil

Fenty Full Frontal Mascara

Fenty Glossbomb

It’s...an expensive routine.

87. Are You A Day Or Night Person?

Night to early morning.

88. List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc.

I answered this one and I don’t want to reanswer it tbh ldkjfhds

89. Tell Me About A Dream That You Had And When It Happened.

I genuinely can’t remember any of my dreams right now. I remember a snippet of one where I was in a cave and I looked at the wall and I could see water running down it, reflecting in the torchlight but that’s literally it.

90. Favorite Soda Drink?

I’m a big pomegranate person, so Italian soda’s my go to.

91. What Sounds Are Your Favorite?

The sizzle of meat hitting a hot wok, rain, hail, thunder, the crunch of dry leaves. I also love the sound of Simone de Rochefort’s laugh. It’s so good.

92. Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More?

Jeans.

93. How Do You Look Right Now?

Shitty.

94. Name Something That Relaxes You.

Skyrim ldskjfhd

95. What Tattoo Do You Want?

I really want to get my family’s mon on my ribcage and my mom’s Japanese name somewhere. I don’t know how my pain tolerance is but if I can handle it, I’d want to get at least a partial sleeve.

96. Favorite YouTuber?

Polygon and Watcher.