#and i feel like. she isnt wrong . because i get very monotone with it

[indigo6f00ff]

my gf said me trying to do a deep voice sounds like moistcritikal im actually going to kms

[imtrashraccoon]

(Feel like i have asked this before already.....but fuck it we ball 😎)

(This makes more sense if you watch a small clip of the nameless lolita from artiswitch by the way, because its a bit inspired by her!)

A question for UT, UF and US sans and papyri!

What is their reaction to their S/O being a lolita? More so what is their reaction to their S/O being very clear about what they like and dont like (example: "i like pink", "i dont like the sun", "i like cats", "i hate people") its also how they got confessed to, their now S/O straight up saying "i like you" to their face, monotone voice, unreadable expression.

Their voice is very monotone, and their expression is mostly unreadable. They dont like being around people, so they mostly stay by their skele S/O (or their brother if said S/O isnt around) and if they want to get away they stare blankly at them until they get the hint. They also stare just...because. you know how cats sometimes like to watch their favourite person do stuff? They do that, just follow them around and quietly watch them.

They have also once hit someone with their parasol because they were just so done with said person

Luckily it was only once (for all the skelies know)

Well, hello again Anon! (Whichever one you are as I don't have any reccuring Anons yet, that I know of. Unless you want to be the first!) I must apologize for taking a month to answer your ask, but I encountered some writer's block and couldn't seem to write anything for this.

Anyways, I can't say I've ever written about this sort of thing so you're good! I tried to find Artiswitch and I think I did. She's super cute and I can see why you like her. (I'll probably end up watching the whole series now because of how interesting it looks!)

I'm gonna answer this with my versions of the brothers, okay?

Undertale: Classic (Sans) & Vanilla (Papyrus)

Classic

He actually likes how frank you are since it leaves no question about your intentions. He has a hard time trusting people, especially humans, and to have someone so open about their likes and dislikes is refreshing. He's not nearly as open about his feelings but he admires that about you.

He's already crazy good at reading people's emotions and intentions but you are a bit trickier than most. When he first meets you, he is admittedly a little worried but warms up with time. He is quick to pick up when you're uncomfortable or want to get out of a situation, even when he barely knows you. It helps that he's got plenty of experience deciphering Frisk's blank expressions. The staring is a bit awkward though. Does he have something on his face? He soons learns that you just like to watch him but you might need to outright tell him that to reassure his worries.

When you told him that you liked him, he thought you were making some sort of joke. He's tried to make you laugh many, many times but was usually unsuccessful. This isn't really funny though? You might have to try again and be a bit firmer before he realizes that you meant it.

He was concerned when you hit someone with your parasol and moved to see if you needed back up. He wasn't about to get involved if you didn't want help, especially because monsters aren't super well liked by humans, but he's also a good guy. Thankfully, the annoying human decided to leave when they noticed him so he didn't have to do anything else. However, he now knows that there's more to you than what your quiet and well dressed appearance might suggest. He's not too sure what to think about that though.

Vanilla

He's a bit concerned about your straightforward demeanor. You're also so quiet compared to him and at first he may accidentally end up speaking over you. He really doesn't mean to though and feels bad as soon as he realizes. He's a bit slower on the uptake than his brother but that doesn't mean he's completely oblivious. He just gets hyper focused sometimes but he's pretty good at clocking if something is wrong. He may not know immediately what, but he doesn't like it when people are uncomfortable, so he tries to cheer them up if he can.

He's very smart and once he hangs around you for a little while, he starts to figure out what you're thinking without you having to say anything. He's definitely not an expert when it comes to reading human facial expressions or body language, but he learns your subtle tells much faster than you expected. He's also not as creeped out by your staring as some people might be. He understands that not everyone is as talkative as he tends to be and that's alright! He'll talk for the both of you if you want.

He didn't think you were serious at first when you said that you liked him. Of course you liked him, he's the Great Papyrus! Wait, you meant that you liked liked him... Well he certainly wasn't expecting someone as cool as you to be interested in him but he's incredibly flattered.

He was also concerned when you hit someone with your parasol, but not in the way you might expect. That's not the best weapon for defending yourself, don't you know? Still, he was concerned and checked to make sure both you and the weirdo were alright. After he realized why you resorted to hitting them, he made sure they left the area and checked on you afterwards. Your form was actually pretty good though! Maybe you'd like meeting his friend Undyne...?

Underfell: Crimson (Sans) & Scar (Papyrus)

Crimson

He appreciates how clear you are about what you like and dislike. He's not one to dance around things and hates it when others string him along. Your quiet demeanor is a bit scary but in a hot kind of way. He has a hard time figuring out what's going on in your head since you don't emote a whole lot. Still, if you do something to catch his attention, he might be interested in getting to know you better.

He's not used to hanging around someone who doesn't get upset easily so for a while he's basically walking on eggshells around you. Your quietness is rather adorable though and he quickly finds himself growing soft. His ability to figure out what you want is correct maybe sixty percent of the time since while he's not awful at reading body language, his talents mostly apply to monsters. The staring is a bit weird at first, but when he realizes that it's because you enjoy looking at him? Well, he's gonna put a bit more effort into his looks from now on...

Wait, you like him?! You're kidding, right? He's shocked to say the least. He was certainly thinking about you but he hadn't worked himself up to actually ask you out yet. You are aware that he's not exactly a gentleman right? You're pretty cute though so he's willing to see where this goes.

Unfortunately, he didn't notice you at first. You're a lot different from the people he usually hangs around with and is interested in. That is, until you absolutely beam some pathetic loser over the head with your parasol. That was unexpected and he couldn't help but chuckle a little. He was content to sit back and watch but when the loser started getting more aggressive, he decided to step in. At least he only had to give them a look before they ran off.

Scar

He can't stand nonsense so he also likes that you make your likes and dislikes very clear. He's not a very quiet person so he'll inevitably talk over you. If you're upset by this, he'll apologize and try to make an effort not to in the future. He doesn't trust very easily though so it might be a while before he feels comfortable around you.

He's also not used to hanging around people that don't flip out at the drop of a hat. He doesn't know what to do with himself? He really admires your sense of style though. He puts effort into his appearance but not nearly to the extent that you do, not that he would wear the majority of what you do as he generally prefers leather over lace. While he's not great at deciphering your expressions, he certainly tries his best and that should count for something.

Of course you like him! He's the Great and Terrible Papyrus. Everyone admires his strength and skill, so why shouldn't you? He may talk big game but he's desperately trying to hide how flustered your confession made him. You'll have to be very clear about your intentions if you actually want to date him, but when you are official, he'll treat you like an absolute queen.

He picked you out of the crowd immediately because you were dressed completely different from everyone else. He was in the middle of trying to figure out if you'd made your outfit yourself or bought it from somewhere, when you were accosted by a creepy human. If he had eyebrows, they'd have flown off his skull when you smacked them with your parasol. He didn't approach you right away but he did move closer to make sure the creep wouldn't try it again. Maybe later he'll acknowledge how impressive that attack was.

Underswap: Dell (Sans) & Saffron (Papyrus)

Dell

While he likes that you're clear with your likes and dislikes, he's a little concerned about you. Still, maybe you just need a friend? He has a lot more energy than you do so he may overwhelm you at first, but he's always considerate of your comfort. He can't really help it, especially since he thinks you're so cool.

He's great at drawing the best out of people and you're no exception. He'll figure out the best way to make you laugh and time spent with him is possibly some of the best fun you've had in ages. Sure, he thinks you're a bit strange but you're not that different from a lot of people he knows. Maybe among humans you stand out but among monsters you fit in rather well in his opinion. Your quietness and habit of staring are just endearing features in his eyes.

Why wouldn't you like him? He's the Magnificent Sans and he's friends with everyone! Well, he tries to be but not everyone can keep up with his exuberance. Still, he's very touched by your confession, even more so, when he realizes that you don't necessarily just like him as a friend.

He was on his way to compliment your sense of style when you smacked a random person with your parasol. He was concerned at first until he realized the human had been harrassing you. He stepped in to back you up and together you sent them packing. Man, he thinks you're so cool after that display! He's shocked you don't have any martial training and immediately offers to teach you what he knows in case this happens again.

Saffron

There are very few people, especially humans, that he can trust. He appreciates that you cleared up any of his doubts from the get go since not everyone is as straightforward as you. He has a bad tendency to hide his true intentions from everyone, including his brother, but he's at least aware that it makes him a hypocrite. Maybe you'll help him open up a bit more.

He's naturally observant and can usually guess what someone's thinking just by looking at them. You're harder than most but he soon adapts to your mannerisms once he gets to know you. He's good friends with Chara and your quietness is similar enough that he soon learns your subtle hints that you're uncomfortable and want to leave a situation. He is a bit unnerved by your staring though. He's very much aware that he isn't a looker and it's hard for him to believe that you just like looking at him rather than being rude.

Oh you're funny. There's no way you actually like him... You'll probably have to insist that you like him a couple times before he believes you. He has admittedly been crushing on you for a while, so once he gets over his insecurities, you'll likely have a very sweet relationship.

He'd been observing you for a while before witnessing you whack some poor fool with your parasol. He nearly had to pick up his jaw from the floor as he hadn't been expecting someone as quiet as you to be as feisty. This is definitely when he first developed a crush but it took him a while before he actually tried to act on it. You've definitely caught his interest and later on, he'll go check on you to make sure you're alright. It's definitely not just an excuse to go talk to you...

[megamind2010]

Has anyone heard about nell bishop 2, 5, 6, 16, 19, 20

no idk who that is

2. What's something about your OC that people wouldn't expect just from looking at them? ummm sheeeeee is kind of super sentimentallll <3 and believes in the existence of true looooveeeee <33 hehe ^_^ there is indeed a very beautiful soft gooey centre right down deep in his heart much to his own chagrin and much to the surprise of people around him

5. How far is your OC willing to go to get what they want? mm… they can be pretty singleminded when it gets down to it. they arent afraid of putting themselves in danger for something important to them, and at the end of the day even (their own) death is in their mind.. sort of a regrettable necessity? in terms of breaking laws/hurting others, nell doesnt put any inherent value in laws just by virtue of them being laws & also they ARE a vigilante which have always been in a legal grey area. hurting innocents is a no-no but idkkkkk in a dire situation pushed to her limit nell could get into some overly cruel tactics in taking down villains (thinkingface)

6. How easily could your OC be convinced to do something that goes against their moral compass? unsurprisingly nell is quite stubborn and resistant to manipulation under most circumstances… she hates being told what to do& hates other people thinking they know better than her. so if the manipulation came in the form of someone trying to convince her of a course of action she would dig her heels in on principle. but if it was like, putting him in a situation where the only way out is to do something morally reprehensible… hmm. nell would rather let himself come to harm if that was the tradeoff but if it was like, her family or ted (…..or casey) in danger thenngnhhnngfnhgnnhnhnnn YOURE PUTTING LADYBUG IN A HYDRAULIC PRESS YOU MONSTER!!!!!!!!!!!!! Would really really really take some severe pressure but maybe you could force her into doing something she hated. maybe. idk

16. What is your OC's pain tolerance like? pretty good + aided by the fact that nell does not externalise almost any emotion or reaction.. not superhuman levels or anything but she's gotten a bit used to the kinds of things that happen when youre a non-powered vigilante hero

19. How does your OC behave when enraged? i think ive talked before about how nell doesnt tend to show their anger much until it hits a breaking point… big fan of "not getting angry" and then throwing her shoe at casey's head. when ENRAGED? might raise her voice above a monotone (big warning sign), frowns even more than usual, gets REALLYYY NASTY with what she says. if the situation suits then she will tend to simply Leave rather than just rage at someone… again its pretty difficult to actually get a rise out of her unless your name is casey

20. Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest? youre a sicko for asking this one btw. in most cases no. and nell would like to believe and like to have others believe that he isnt a jealous person. because thats a stupid and insecure way to feel tbh. if i was jealous i simply wouldnt be. . …………………… except for in some edge cases where nell might feel her "relationship" might be "threatened" or some stupid bullshit like that. in which case she. um. very maturely ignores it and then takes it out on the cause of the annoying emotion i.e. poor innocent casey who wasnt even doing anything wrong

[ragsweas]

This is very specific, but in 'Ever Seaward Echoes More' by Kari_Kurofai, dont remember which chapter, but Pharm asks Korn if it was him in th ending of the book, 'Light Hits the Gloom'. And Korn says yes. And the ending is, descriptive. About Korn ending his life. And Pharm asks Korn that did he try again or something alone those lines. And Korn says that things continued to happen, with Pharm's birth and he kept pushing his ending-it-all-life moment and then he couldn't because he cared for his nephew.

And I just. I always related more to Korn and I loved In as a character, in the show and moreso in this fic. And right now, it feels like I am him. I have never tried to end it all, not actively, but the Thought remains. But i cannot. Because I have a niece and my siblings who care for me. Because I kept pushing difficult thoughts of ending-it-all and I can't do it anymore because now my niece is growing up and if I go away she will notice.

It feels wrong even admitting it because Korn had a traumatic childhood and more traumatic moments in life and mine isnt like that. But he is fifty when he gets the love of his life at 50 and he starts to live again and he loves. He loves so much. And that continues to remain my favorite story because its going through so much trauma and living life and its difficult but he does. He lives.

And at one point he says, directly or indirectly I cannot remember but he says that he will always be sick and it's nobodys fault but he is better. He will have bad days and he will have those panic attacks and breakdowns and absolutely difficult times but he will live. And even before In comes back in his life, he is living. With a few memories and some family but he is living.

I told one of my friends yesterday that its surprising I hadn't had a spiral yet late in the day but there was still time. And that is how I live. Spiral to spiral. But yesterday i spent some time with friends and I was so scared of being obnoxious but I was living and today a friend called and we talked and she just wanted to talk. And that's a very difficult thing to comprehend, that someone just wants to talk to me for no reason. Even if I have people.

Point is, this story has saved me and given me hope ever since I first read it some two, three years ago and a recent re-reading just cemented the idea. I will live, I know, and maybe I will never have that kind of love because nobody will love me like In loved Korn, but Korn still lived. He tried to end it and it didn't succeed and he lived in his beach house after he wrote his heart out. He loved a monotonous life and he was definitely not fine but he lived. And I may just live.

[miraculous-sunflower]

don’t steal adrien’s phone - a fanfiction by miraculous_carnation

hi yall! this amazing piece of art isnt unfortunately done by me- it’s by the ultra charming miraculous_carnation on ao3, so be sure to check her out! i’ve gotten her permission to post this here, so dont worry! enjoy the show!

Lila Rossi posed for the camera, putting on a flirty face, Adrien sitting next to her. They were at the Palace of Versailles, the place for their photoshoot. Lila hugged Adrien in a way that made him uncomfortable, running her hands across his back. The photographer, noticing Adrien’s discomfort, asked them to take a 5 minutes break.

Lila walked to where Adrien was sitting. “So, Adrien! The photos are going to look awesome, right? I mean, we look so in love!”

Adrien’s eyes opened wide when he heard her voice. “Um, Lila? I know I’ve said this a lot, but can you please stop touching me? It makes me uncomfortable, and I already have a girlfriend,” Adrien tried to explain.

Lila narrowed her eyes at his last statement. Ugh, that Maritrash. What did Adrien see in her?

“Oh of course, Adrien! I’d never want to do something that would make you feel uncomfortable,” she whispered, leaning towards his mouth. Adrien grew stiff. Luckily, the photographer called for them just in time. Lila rolled her eyes, but then put on a fake smile.

“Oh well, anyways, we better go back, Adrien! We have to finish the shoot!”

Adrien hated photoshoots with Lila. They were the worst. Luckily, it was only for another 30 minutes, because after that, he had an interview with Nadja Chamack on Face to Face.

Lila hid behind a bush, watching Adrien get up and head toward the photoshoot. Perfect. She ran over to the table and picked up his phone.

“Well, Adrien, let’s see who you really love,” she smirked.

“Welcome back to, Face to Face! This is your host, Nadja Chamack, live in Paris!” Nadja Chamack enthusiastically said while the audience clapped. “Today, we have a very important guest. He’s a model, born here in Paris, ladies and gentlemen, give it up for the son of world famous designer Gabriel Agreste, Adrien Agreste!”

2 seconds later, Adrien walked onto the stage, wearing a suit, created specially by his father, strutting in the way his father taught him when he was little. ‘Flash a flirty smile to the audience, then greet Nadja Chamack professionally’, his father’s words repeated in his mind. His father cared about his appearance and reputation, after all…

“Hello there, Nadja! How are you doing today?” Adrien politely asked. He wished he could be somewhere else,particularly running around as CHat Noir, maybe playing a game of tag with Ladybug…

“Oh, well I’m doing wonderful!” Nadja responded, snapping Adrien out of his daze. “Anyways, I’ve got a bunch of questions for you! First one, are you dating Lila Rossi, a fellow model from your father’s company? Are the rumors true?”

Adrien sighed. There were so many rumors about that going around, many of them created by Lila. She already convinced the class that they were dating, when he actually was dating Marinette.

“Sorry, Nadja, but that is incorrect. I am not dating Lila Rossi, but I am dating Marinette Dupain-Cheng, of who you may know.”

Nadja smiled at the name of her friend’s daughter. “Yes, I know Marinette, I commissioned her to create a dress for Manon for my sister’s wedding, and it came out beautiful! Everyone in the audience, go check out Marinette’s website!”

Lila Rossi was watching the Face to Face interview, fuming. She didn’t know he had an interview! How dare Adrien say that! She’d ruin his relationship with Marinette! She tapped into his phone, already knowing his password, courtesy of his father. Gabriel Agreste gave her access to all of his son’s social media accounts for safety reasons. She logged onto his Instagram account and made a new post, adding the photo of Lila kissing him on the cheek.

“So grateful for my girlfriend @lilarossi! Love you!”

She smirked. No way he was getting out of this one.

Nadja Chamack was confused. Apparently, a new post from Adrien on Instagram was posted just now, but how was it possible? Adrien was talking to her the whole time!

She coughed. “Adrien, it seems that there has been a new post on your Instagram,” Adrien looked shocked, “can we have the post on the screen?”

Adrien’s eyes grew wide as he saw the post. “Nadja, I didn’t post that! I couldn’t-”

“I know you didn’t, Adrien. You’ve been talking to me the whole time right now!”, Adrien let out a sigh of relief, “Is it possible your social media team did it?”

Adrien shook his head. “No, they don’t put out posts like that. They only put out posts that promote the brand!”

“So if it wasn’t your social media team, who was it?” Nadja said in confusion. There were several murmurs in the audience as well.

Adrien narrowed his eyes. “Well, I have a hunch. What is the post about?”

Nadja caught on with his thinking. “Oh, so you believe Lila Rossi posted this? How would she have gotten your phone?”

Adrien thought about what happened before the interview. “Well, you see, before coming here, I had a photoshoot with Lila. She probably took my phone then.”

Gabriel Agreste was watching from the safety of his home. Lila Rossi had not thought about this beforehand! She was going to ruin his plan and his brand! How dare she!

Nathalie walked in. “Sir, would you like me to delete the post and disable Adrien’s social media accounts?”

“Yes, Nathalie. Have Adrien’s social media team clean up the mess.” Gabriel sighed. The only good thing that came out of this was that he figured out his son was dating Marinette Dupain-Cheng. It was a good choice, as Marinette was exceptional.

Lila’s eyes grew wide at the revelation. She posted about herself on Adrien’s account when he was in an interview! It made her the prime suspect! Hopefully Mr. Agreste’s social media team could take the blame.

She dialed Mr. Agreste’s number. “Hello, is Mr. Agreste there?”

She was greeted with the monotone voice of Nathalie. “Excuse me, Miss Rossi, but Mr. Agreste has decided to terminate your contract on behalf of Gabriel. You will never model in his brand again. Goodbye.”

Lila gasped. How dare that dumb assistant! She was Lila Rossi! How dare Gabriel Agreste do that to her! She would ruin him!

“On top of recent events, Lila Rossi has lied about many things. She even got Marinette expelled once!” Adrien explained to Nadja, excited that he found a way to expose Lila.

Marinette was watching all of this from the comfort from her room, her mouth wide open. Well, she wasn’t super surprised, Lila would do something like this, but Adrien called her his girlfriend! Sure, they were dating, but she didn’t think he would announce it publicly!

Girl, are you watching Face to Face? Can you believe Lila lied?

Hold up, you’re dating Adrien? Why didn’t you tell me?

Girl, I can’t believe you didn’t tell me. I thought we were BFFs!

Marinette snorted at the latter. BFFs? Yeah, right. Alya literally announced to the class two weeks ago that their friendship was over and that her new best friend would be Lila. Go figure!

“Wow. As you can see, ladies and gentlemen, startling revelations about the newest Gabriel model has come through! Hold on, we have a new post from the official Gabriel Twitter account! Can we please have this on the screen?” Nadja exclaimed.

Adrien read the post, not surprised. Of course his father would try to save face. It wasn’t new. He was just happy he wouldn’t have to model with Lila anymore.

The audience and Nadja gasped when they read the post. “Wow! It looks like the Gabriel brand has officially terminated Lila Rossi’s contract!” Nadja had to act surprised because this was predictable from the fashion designer. Typical Gabriel.

“Well, folks! There was a lot of drama today, but that concludes today’s interview! I hope you come again for another episode of, Face to Face!” Nadja concluded.

Bonus Scene:

“Well, Adrien, you made a good choice with Marinette. She could take over the designing area of the company while you take over the business side. When will you marry her?”

“FATHER!”

“Well, kid, he’s not wrong. Pigtails makes pretty good bread. And oh how good it tastes with camembert! Oh my sweet gooiness!”

“Shut up, Plagg.”

[therewasatale]

not fine

Based on this art: https://julientel.tumblr.com/post/180250715701/gavin-isnt-fine-at-all-he-doesnt-even-realize

@julientel

On Ao3. 

The snow was slowly covering Detroit. The snowflakes drifted into every alleyway, and smothered the world in a thick white blanket. Even in the gloom of the evening, the white mass reflected the flashing red and blue of the police car. There was also a street light nearby illuminating the crime scene with a dim glow. The snow melted around the woman's body, and as the process of coagulation began, her bright red blood began to turn into a dark crimson, mimicking the color of her coat.

Lieutenant Hank Anderson sighed a sigh filled with pure exhaustion, his throat was scraping from shouting, and he could hardly wait to freshen it up with something strong and bitter. He did his best to keep his back towards the alley, keeping his eyes on the two criminals. Both of them were caught, thanks to the fact that they were out of their minds from Red-Ice.

Unfortunately for the innocent girl, they had just enough mind between them not to drown in their own vomit in a gutter.

She was in the wrong place at the wrong time. She tried to protect herself, but when the knife came into play, her fate was sealed. She was maybe in her late twenties, but they were unable to find out her exact age, or name yet.

Hank turned his gaze away from the two stalwart murderers and turned his attention towards his partner. Reed sit on few feet away a couple of steps leading into one of the buildings. Even from this far away, he could see as that the young detectives held a lighter in his shaking hands, trying to ineffectually lite it, cursing under his breath. Finally, a small quivering flame blossomed.

Anderson shook his head slowly. He knew, that they couldn't have saved her life. Both of them were aware that they had done everything. They followed up on the report that someone heard a scream in the alley. And by the time the police car arrived to the alley, it was already too late-

He didn't have to glance towards the girl's lifeless body. It was more than enough to close his eyes to see again what had happened in the last 20 minutes.

He stopped the car and Reed was already out on sidewalk with his weapon drawn. But the blade was already inside her stomach. There was nothing they could have done. And yet, Reed tried. That's why his hands were dripping with slowly drying blood-

An officer called his name, yanking Hank's back to the present. He hesitated for a moment and turned towards his colleague, answering the questions he had been asked.

Detective Reed's cigarette burnt to ash remarkably fast. He took turns from grinding the falling ash into the snow with his booth, and staring at the shimmering light of the street lamp. But what he saw in it, was the scene from before, playing inside his head over and over again.

He tried to help the woman, but the wound was too serious for the she needed immediate and professional medical care. Hank called for ambulance and reinforcements while he turned his attention to the attackers. He almost lost control of his emotions due to a sudden flare of rage. Despite having a gun in his hand, the two perpetrators still lounged at him. A lapse of concentration from his rage was enough for him to receive a blow to his head, and Hank fired a warning shot. The attackers stopped, mostly out of instinct, maybe their brains got yanked backed to the ground for a moment.

The reinforcements arrived soon enough, and they were both handcuffed and shut into the patrol car. Then a sudden hunger for nicotine rushed him.

It's not fair.

His inner voice bubbled up like sulfur in black acid.

These two should be dead.

His legs started to tremble as the adrenaline left him. He hadn't even noticed that Hank put his coat on his back before he left to brief the new arrivals.

His folded fingers started to twitch into fists, his feet were still thumping from the aftermath of the adrenaline rush. He had to lean forward and bury his face in his hands to try to compose himself. But her face, he could still see it. At first he didn’t even notice that Hank was talking to him.

"Hey, Gavin, the ambulance is here, let them check-"

Reed's voice came from the back of his throat, crackling.

"Fuck off, old man. I'm fine." He felt as if his whole body was falling apart.

"Don't make me drag you there, cause I can totally do that" Hank waited for a few seconds, then sighed and started walk towards him. "Kid, they have to look at you."

"I already said I am fine." He lied.

"Yeah, sure. That's why you are smoking your second cigarette within five minutes." Hank shook his head and gestured towards the paramedics. "Then at least come with me, I'll take you somewhere where you can pull yourself together. After that…you can write down your report at the station," then almost just to himself, he added quietly "there's nothing we can do here after all."

Reed was about to reject the offer, but when their gaze met he just threw the half smoked cigarette to the ground and grinded it into the pavement.

"All right."

It wasn't even three minutes before they were on the road. None of them spoke, and although the phone vibrated in Reed's pocket, he didn't bother to pick it up. He could still see the eyes of the victim in his mind, two brown eyes, the life fading behind them. Nobody could have saved her, and yet, his anger still didn't subside. He looked out toward the half-sleeping city of Detroit, the glittering lights, the huge projectors. His eyes began to water, but he dared not close them.

The car stopped and Gavin glanced around puzzled.

"This is your house, Anderson."

"Very perceptive, detective." Hank stopped the engine and got out. Gavin unrolled the window, and leaned out.

"You said you'd take me to the station."

"No, I said I'll take you somewhere where you can pull yourself together.  Come on, get out, I'll take you to the station, but we have to wash the blood off first." Hank was already in the process of opening the door.

Sumo's deep warm barking welcomed them from the inside. Hank was grateful that the dog's warm body brushed, and leaned against him.

"Good dog. Well, let me in" He patted the dog's side and walked into the house beside him. He glanced back over his shoulder. "Take off your shoes and hang that soaked jacket on the hanger. The second door to the left is the bathroom. I'll whip up some food."

The big St. Bernard carefully sniffed around the newcomer, then went back to his owner. Reed took off the jacket that Hank gave him, only now he realized that he was wearing it all the way here. He was emotionally exhausted to even acknowledge this fact, but the anger still simmered within him. He felt a moment of gratitude, and a tiny ease of tension, which let him feel his fingers and toes again.

It was only a moment though, until he had to wash of the blood. His stomach churned, and his throat became dry and rough like a desert. He shook his head, trying to stop his eyes from stinging. He dipped a tower into a little bit of water, and washed his face, stepping out from the bathroom, only after he managed to get his heartbeat and breathing under control.

Hank gestured for him from the kitchen and put two plates and two glasses on the table.

"Have a seat" There was a quite ding from the microwave and soon the dinner was on the table. "Pizza, its pre-made, but hey, at least it's got some meat on it."

"Thanks." Reed took a slice and started to eat with a monotone motion.

"Enjoy your meal."

Sumo also got a cool slice, then settled down with the two men.

"Quite a big dog."

"Yes, he has grown a lot." Hank smiled a half-smile.

"Now I understand why all of your clothes have dog hair on them."

"Use your mouth to eat instead." There was no real anger in his voice, so Reed allowed himself a half smile too.

They continued to eat quietly until the phone rang. Hank wiped his hands and picked up the cellphone. He was silent for a moment and slowly walked towards his bedroom. Gavin tried to concentrate on the eating, and the small noises like the slowly breathing dog under the table. It didn't take five minutes for Anderson to return and sit back, but when he did, he didn’t touch his food.

Silence descended into the room, Reed were resting his hands on his lap and glanced at Anderson with a questioning eye.

"The girl's name was Susan Nass."

"What does it matter?" Reed's fingernails dug into his own hands. He regretted the words as soon as they came out. Hank however did not argue with him, nor did he raise his voice as he responded.

"It matters. It always matters. Because as long as one person remembers their name, a small part of that person is still alive."

For the next half hour they barely spoke. They ate the rest of the dinner and chased it down with whiskey and beer. It was around midnight when Reed reached down beside himself and pet the dog's head standing up from the kitchen table.

"Thanks for the dinner."

Hank nodded slightly, "At least somebody ate it before it got spoiled. But I can't drive you home, the whiskey, you know." He raised his glass, still half full.

"I wouldn't have asked for it. I'll find my way home." Reed put on his coat. He could feel the warmth of alcohol buzzing in his head along with the weight of things that happened that day. Still he managed to force the words out.

"Thanks for everything, old man." He walked to the door then stopped turning back. " Try not to get piss drunk, at least not today."

The door closed behind him with a clack.

Hank lowered his glass and sighed slightly at Sumo.

"I hope the kid will be okay." With a sleepy smile, he reached down and scratched the dog's ear. "Come on, Sumo." Leaving the kitchen and the whiskey bottle behind him, he went to his room, to finally have a resting sleep.

[goffilolo]

Demise!Izuku as a Youtuber?

Yep! You heard me right. Demise server is a strange little land, full of strange little ideas, unfortunitely this one idea in particular wasn’t so little. So without further ado here’s all the shit we came up with in the server in regards to izuku as a youtuber within demise!au:

If Izuku was a YouTuber can you imagine the fucking chaos dumpster fire his channel would be

He's be like an edgy twink Jenna marbles(edited)

Doing Me time every damn day

bandit is jennas dogs

tenya is julien

He'd have weird ass videos like dipping bandits feet in red pet dye then putting a sign on him that says "you pet and you'll meet the last person who dared to"(edited)

And he's also make videos about him breaking into UA and interrupting classes and stuff

"hey gamers, today we're breaking into UA to see my boyfriend and read all of my friend's secret files"

And a video just of him filing Aizawa in weird places and at the end putting him on an inflatable mattress and watching him float away 

He wakes up in Canada

They don't know how or why

He just attaches a go-pro to trash bandit and let's him run wild. He probably has a seriesJust letting him loose in weird places

DONT LET TRASH BANDIT EAT AIZAWA'S SLEEPING BAG AT 3AM | VERY SCARY"hey guys so today ill be doing the 'How many bottles of quil can i steal before i get caught by Tsukabitch' challange. feel free to make a video of your own!" 

He probably dyes Bandit according to holidays and puts him as the profile picture. The kicker is, he only does it for holidays that his country doesn't celebrate

Like 4th of july

And Canada day

"Hewo soulless fuckers it is me your overlord, King of the soulless fuckers. Today I'll be going up to people in the streets and telling them that I killed God and Satan. But y'all know me, that's not enough. So I'll be asking them which one I killed first and if they get it wrong I take a shot of quil. The quil I'll be taking is the plain ol kind so don't worry your little marshmallow heads about it." 

He only makes text posts in OwO speak this just makes me realise demise!izuku would make a great youtuber

He would twitch stream all the time doing the weirdest shit for hours on end

"what is up gamews! today i wiww be weviewing the new game cawwed life! i have been pwaying it fow about 16 yeaws now and i have to say it's pwetty bad my guys!"

I feel like he'd be absurdly popular and whenever someone mentions him and they look up the channel they are like "wth have I stumbled upon?!"

I'm just imagining what his front page would look like

The seasonal trash bandit profile picture, the banner would be a flaming hellscape with people he dislikes burning and trash bandit looming on low opacity in the background 

(He made it so that only people who view it on TV get the full experience.)

He probably has his own segment on buzzfeed unsolved

Not talking

Its about him

The intro video would just be him staring into the camera while mixing together a horrible concoction of quil then downing it without breaking eye contact(edited)

His about section is written in 3 different types of code and it's all in owo if you manage to crack it

i love demise|!izuku as a youtube cryptid

Clown Speak and OwO speak mixed together

I feel like in the beginning Izuku was this obscure YouTuber that you only find out about if someone in the know tells you about it until a bigger YouTuber found him out on a deep dive video and just couldn't stop watching yes

i imagine once he gets big people from react channel would invite him to react to videos of people reacting to his videos 

What if in one of his videos he started acting like his old self just to freak everyone out. He didn't say anything about it instead he talked about hero analysis with a bright smile and trail off into muttering a few times only to blush when he realized it. He have his hair in a ponytail with only bangs framing his face and some messy pieces falling out. Also her be wearing something plain but like old Izuku, maybe hero merch or something. The comment section was just people flipping out and shit

He never acknowledges the video after he made it

No matter how many comments he gets he acts like it doesn't exist

omg you know wha tthat would actually allign with the demise and canon swap places for a da

yand you know what that gives me a lot of feels

the millions of subscribers get to see the old izuku

Maybe after a milestone he would post a video he made in middle school of him analyzing a quirk in video format to make sure it wouldn't get destroyed

And he put a couple videos of younger him after it

But it starts being supporting Izuku

And his present and past self and stuff

PEOPLE MAKE FAN ART first Its all full of trash and memes

What if that picture of canon Izuku meeting demise Izuku was a fan art someone made of his old self meeting the new him 

Kids from his class kinda Piecing together they really screwed up?Some even sending in apologies, perhaps

For mental health day I could see him posting a serious video about what he went through and his time in the mental hospital 

And on national stop bullying day he would talk about his decade of abuse including the details of how the school and teachers fucked up and everything aboutbakugou

izuku using youtrube for shitposting and advocating

And for mothers day he features both Rei and Inko?

Endeavor exposure video

What if Rei helped edit or something?To help pass the time for her

Give her something to do

People love the mysterious editor

I feel like villains watch his content like maybe Dabi

rei and fuyumi sometimes make appearances

Dabi just shows up in the videos

Quickly become faves

I feel like Dabi would become a fan and start crying after seeing his mom happy in one of Izuku's videos

"...and this is rei, my hospital mom and this if fuyumi, her daughter so like my sister she helps me keep my shit together and sometimes gives me quil.." 

dabi crying from seeing his mom happy in some lunatic's youtube videos

“...and this is shin, dont let the looks deceive you this man went to jail"

Shin comes in and covers the cameras a lot

FATHERS DAY IS A PICTURE OF TRASH BANDIT WITH HIS DADS VOICE SCRAMBLED OVER IT

“and this is the local florida woman and her alligator

WHAT IF BNHA VERSE HAD QUIRKLESS AWARENESS WEEKizuku would go ape shit during that week

"who needs a quirk when my dad gave me a gun!"

He would give axe sharpening tips

"Remember kids! Society won't help you, so you gotta help yourself!"

he would make 'how to cook videos' except it would only be quil combos

What if one day he just put quil in the ovenand pulled out a muffin

Remeber, don't try this at home kids." makes A horrifying quil combo "rememer never ever do this even if you have a quirk that allows it." downs the horror concoction

"so today were gonna do my boyriend does my makeup challange and since both me and tenya are dumb and know nothing i borrowed my mums makeup..." 

It’s a given he’s gonna do makeup tutorials. The real question is would they be good or absolutely horrendous?

good or horrendous? Both

Amazing makeup at horrendous things? Hmmm interesting

“Hey guys today I’m turning myself into a real like eldrich abomination with the help of eyeliner and glitter!”

izuku has a whole playlist of videos dedicated to tenya and UA

theyre all jsut shitposty compilations of some footage when tenya isnt looking

Even tho it looks like he couldn't give a fuck he is very selective with which footage makes it online. He's very careful at how much is revealed and makes sure no students or secret identities would be in danger with his content

izuku isnt stupid...hes jsut having a good time

Sneaking into UA highschool by hiding in pro hero eraserhead's sleeping bag | NOT CLICKBAIT

Izuku would totally play carefree and childish games while just being Izuku

Like his animal crossing series

Fucking legendary on his channel in terms of gaming

izuku's sims lets play

it's like a 10 generation long telenovela lowkey based off the todoroki family

He has no straight sims, he recreated UA and class 1a in sims

the wedding of sim izuku and sim tenya is like the biggest party in the sim neighbourhood

He creates endeavor just to lock him in a room with 50 ovens

Omg his draw my life has got to be super depressing

He'd be super blunt and monotone during his whole draw my life going through all of the abuse and bullying that he went through because of his quirklessness and also his suicide attempt and all that jazz(edited) 

izuku would paint on a potato

Izuku would make a get ready with me where he does something totally batshit crazy then ends it with "Ah. Yet another day in my life."

Izuku meets Marie Kondo

“Only keep what brings you joy”

“Well this gun from my father sure brings me joy”

Knifemaking videos but with axes

Izuku decided to do a wardrobe tour and like 4 things were bloodstained which he never addressed. The most popular comment was what happened, which of course he never answered.

Izuku does these new year (like all of the questions from last year) or milestone Q+A’s/AMA's which are basically people just asking a bunch of the things he wouldn't answer or address before. A lot of his viewers write down and timestamp when he does something and doesn't address it. If you don't you'll never hear an answer.

He has his boonk gang phrase which is probably like Bandit gang or some shit like that, which he shouts while breaking into places. UA dorm rooms, UA facility office, UA, Hero Agency’s, Endeavour's bedroom (Don't ask), etc. 

He has a variety of videos where he does things from different communities. For example he has a few hair tutorial and following hair tutorial videos. Same for makeup.I feel like Izuku would also have some dresses and slutty Halloween costumes that be put on in a video all while looking like someone who just had finals and was studying for 4 days straight beforehand.

At like 4AM a thought hit Izuku to have Trash Bandit meet Kouta for the first time and learn what his sheep talks about and what he has to say. Needless to say he took his camera, went to UA, stormed the dorms, went up to the shy kid sheep in hand, looked him dead in the eye, and asked “What is my sheep saying.” bandit speaks and Kouta goes from confused and slightly scared to disgusted and horrified. What did Bandit say? Who the fuck knows…

Izuku loves analysis and while he doesn't do it for heroes anymore when he misses it too much sometimes he does it with tv shows or other things.

Idk what yet but Izuku is weirdly good at something and only showed it on camera once. (He's casually known to be a good artist) Whatever he's good at he did it once for a video and it's in one of the most popular compilation videos of him. 15 minutes of Izuku being a cinnamon roll.

Izuku has a shit ton of videos featuring the UA kids. He has some playlists dedicated to certain ones even if all you see is the back of their head.

Any proceeds Izuku manages to get (he is popular but he gets demonetized a lot) goes to different charities for the quirkless.

He made only 1 serious cooking video on his birthday, but instead of using a knife he used an axe.

He has a video called “My sharp things (tour)” where he just shows off all of his knives and axes and shit along with a massive pair of scissors he got Momo to make.

Izuku makes videos of himself destroying endeavor merch while staring at the camera.

[hcrris]

can ….. i come in ????? have been watching unbreakable kimmy schmidt for 3 hours pretending time isnt passing , life isnt real and in fact.. i am dreaming (-: lajdfksl hey <3 im jay im 21 and i love those instagram profiles of hamsters in little clothes ( when they got little purses? ???? dont talk to me im cryin. ) below u will find info about jane harris aka literally the vine of the little kid scribbling hard like his life depended on it. shes a mess ?? but a semi enjoyable mess. a mess with good intentions. if u want to establish some connections, LIKE THIS and i will come annoy u <3 alternatively u can ease my social anxiety and msg me here or through my discord sencha tea#4035 (و ˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و♡

( lily collins, cis female, she/her. ) — jane harris has been a medina complex resident for three years, now. they’re twenty-three years old, and they tend to avoid making eye contact. sometimes when i walk by B06, i hear cherry-coloured funk by cocteau twins playing. lately, i’d say they’re pretty effervescent, but sometimes that’s overwhelmed by the fact that they’re neurotic. i mean, they usually pay their rent on time, though, and that’s most important fact here.

repeatedly fixing the apartment number on the door when it swings down to a nine, a split moment of shadow after the radiance of laughter, carl sagan’s pale blue dot, a life of frequent minor accidents, constant hunger for balance overshadowed by emotional turbulence.

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TW ALCOHOLISM EMOTIONAL ABUSE DEPRESSION & ANXIETY !!!!! ok moving on

her parents met in art school in paris.. her mom is french and studied art history while her dad was an exchange student from california with a skewed artist mentality. it was that saccharine, toxic sort of love. her mom always felt like she needed to be the guardian angel in the relationship who would always hold him up when he was feeling down and he was feeling down….. a lot. because she was putting all that energy to save her relationship, she was drowning too but never enough to walk away. there was a lot of love there but it was twisted and uncomfortable at times

when they found out jane was on the way, it felt like they needed to suddenly grow up. her mom was ready to make changes, adapt to the new lifestyle. her dad, on the other hand, urged they rethink if this is what they want but he didn’t push for abortion.. he understood it was jane’s mothers choice to make and reassured that he would be there for the both of them no. matter. what. 

but ??? the reality was he felt trapped by the idea of a child and he struggled to acknowledge and accept how quickly his life was flipping upside down and how he lost all control of it. he wanted to travel around europe ???? soak in nature, daydream and make art . but jane’s mom wanted to settle. instead of embarking on adventures after graduating, they decided to move to california. 

things just seemed to fall apart like domino from then on. janes mom was lead astray.. thinking that what california would bring them was stability but instead, it was all chaos. they rushed to get married .. turned out janes father wasnt on good terms with his parents. he was irresponsible financially, put both his parents in huge debt, was blinded by his ego to ever realise his mistakes. lied constantly .. convincing janes mom that there’s light going forward. that once he finds a sponsor for his art .... once he sells his first piece ... once they see in him what he always saw in himself , he was going to make it right. and he reassured he would make it right for jane.

janes mom was so pathetically in love that she pushed through .. living in a sort of imagined world, believing that things were better than they actually were. and her dad was good at persuading that narrative. he would come home with a pocketful of cash and the bills paid. oftentimes, it was all an act. his art wasn’t selling and a lot of what he bragged about was borrowed or stolen. behind the curtain, he was absent and unmotivated. he would come home in the evening claiming that the whisky breath was celebratory but in reality, he was complaining to the barman two blocks away about how his life feels monotone .. like a french black and white movie.  

the day of jane’s birth was a whole mess. her father decided to drive her mother to the hospital, knowing he had one too many. they were caught for speeding and while janes dad spent the night at a nearby station for driving under influence, her mom was at the back of a cop car, crying for one too many reasons .. jane decided to hang on for a little while longer and was born at 3am the following night. cradled in her mothers arms and her dads voice humming on the line

jane would only ever hear the romanticised version of this story from her mother. this ??? fucked up sense of security that no matter what, love conquers all. that love means supporting each other, loving each other extra when everything else falls apart. but truth is.. her mother was forced to give up her own dreams, lost all connections to her past, worked days and nights at a nursing home to support her family and pitch in to her husbands alcoholism while she’s at it. making excuses that jane was too young to contradict. all while the only source of happiness for her father was the haziness of his evenings, when he felt like floating and he could barely hold onto to his paintbrush. he was a stranger living in their basement .. more than he was ever a father 

growing up, jane watched her mother mask her depression. carry empty bottles out from the basement, trying to hide it from jane .. it brought her shame. she was doing the same thing to jane that he was doing to her for all these years .. consistently expressing a certain attitude, this unwavering satisfaction for the life they are living and so ... it hardens. you start to believe it. except unlike her mother, jane was observant.. she had other lives around her to compare to her own, voices of reason that pierced through the skewed perception her mother drilled into her skull. when jane grew into her skin, she felt so ... disgusted and angry. she tried to pull her mother out of her fantasy but nothing worked. 

through her high school years, she felt helpless .. her home life was a nightmare and she made every possible attempt to stay out of it for as long as possible. she took on jobs and extracurriculars .. stayed at her friends’ house until she couldn’t. and she would think.. think so hard, she would start crying. pushing her own problems away .. in her head, she would imagine herself in a different skin, a different place. it was the only way she could calm her breathing. only to have to battle the same thoughts the following morning

after graduating high school, jane went to community college for product management got a job offering after her placement at a big company and moved out shortly after ( and MOVED IN to medina... can i get a yee yee ) .. she got insurance for the first time in her life and eats too many of free pizza slices at work to save up on groceries every week <3

she doesn’t visit her parents bc she no longer feels like her mother is on her team. she’s lived a maddening and terribly draining life and living alone has brought her deserving peace.. although she’d rather keep contact with her mother to a minimum, its obvious that jane is her mothers anchor. if she feels as though her daughter is not fighting for her, she breaks down.. as much as jane wants to run away from her past, it always seems to catch up 

if ur still reading literally who are u lafjdkl. ill be done schoon ..... oof 

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if they are friends ... jane. will. talk. ur. ear. off. but probably not for the right reasons lol .. she has never been assessed by a professional, isn’t taking any treatment but she definitely needs it :( shes a chronic overthinker.. the voice in her head keeps chattering away most of the time which gets a little nauseating. she hates silence and feels like she needs to fill it with words. she often says the wrong things .. to the wrong people ... at the WRONG time and she is very aware of it. its the culprit for her self doubt and struggle to open up emotionally to the people shes close to. shes very critical towards herself, she micro analyses everything from the way she acts, the way she looks and what she says. shes also not a fan of confrontation !!!!!!!BUT!!!!!!!!!!!

 she is a FIREBALL when she stands up for others. i dont know how she hasnt gotten into a physical fight yet. she would literally rip ur side mirror off ur car if u didnt wait for an old lady to cross the street. is intense in every possible way. if shes angry, shes angry and impulsive and out of control, when she is in love, she feels it in her bones and simultaneously wants to rip her hair out, when she’s passionate about something, she is persistent until she isn’t and when she loses motivation, everything feels bleak .. theres never any emotional balance, even though she fights so hard for it every day 

likes sci fi movies .. literally when they are Floating in space ???? SIGN! JANE! THE! FUCK! UP! letterboxd is probably her favorite app. sometimes she will post a review, read it over and over, find something wrong with what she said and then delete it. shes very neurotic. she either has good days where she can comfortably be herself or bad days, when it feels like everyone is judging her every move when in reality. ... it is always .. all in her head. 

and she is mostly in her head. she creates fantasies of her life, relationships platonic and romantic and as a result, nothing ever seems to measure up. she feels secure in her fantasies but oftentimes when it hits her that they are just that, fantasies, she ... feels really alone. 

will trip over her own feet . has like 5 bruises from washing the dishes </3

she works as a part of a product design team in a big company.. probably has the knowledge to move up the tier but does not have the courage to stand up for herself . she doesnt believe in herself and is kind of a pessimist .......  

got high one night and decided she wants to start an uber ....... only for women. but doesnt think its a good ide a (its a good idea. id like to think in 10 years time ... bitch made it) 

really weird. likes eating broad beans and frozen strawberries .. will literally eat a lemon. 

she will have different interests every week but never seems to be any good at anything ???????????? makes her sad. 

claims tidying up with marie kondo changed her life LAKJDSKLDJ

*draws curtains* anybody else tired? 

[femmarvelnerd]

Ace Comic Con Seattle

So it has taken me an extra day to take some time to figure out what to say about my experience at Ace Comic Con. It was my first Con, so maybe I didn’t know what to expect, but I left just feeling weird about the whole thing.

So first, the celebrities had jam-packed schedules. I was to get Tom Hiddleston’s autograph and a photo op on Sunday, so when things got delayed, I took a look at his schedule. He had about 20 minutes to get through 50+ people, with back to back 20 minutes for new people. This didn’t even give time for him to walk from one area to the other, and I don’t believe a lunch time or a break was ever scheduled in. Which is insane. What--you are supposed to be happy, engaged, and alert nonstop to thousands of people for three days straight?

So I come with a huge amount of understanding and empathy when I say my experience “meeting” him was meh. 

In the morning for the autograph, the girl in front of me must have asked for a hug or something, and he said he couldn’t do that, and she walked away. The guy/staff next to him says, “I see what you mean! Boundaries, man.” And Tom responds, “Yeah, they are super important.”

Obviously, hearing this, I did not feel like I could be like, “Hey, thank you for getting me into Marvel,” or “Hey, the Hollow Crown dvds I am asking you to autograph was the last birthday gift from my dad before he died,” because honestly--boundaries. I did not think he would give a fuck. Would likely be nice about it, but not give a fuck. I would have been saying those things for my own sake, not for his. His work’s positive affect on my life does not effect his.

That said, he seem surprised that I had the Hollow Crown and said he was very proud of his work in it. But then we confusedly bumbled through where and what for him to sign, and since I had just taken an anti anxiety pill before stepping into his area, my brain had nothing to give me. Which, I really wish I had thought of this beforehand, because asking him to perform the emotional labor of making a decision was just another mental stress I didn’t need to ask of him.

So instead of anything about myself, I asked if he was enjoying his time in the PNW. He paused and then in a rather unconvincing, almost monotone voice said, “I am having a great time.” Which, once again, I do not blame him for totally not feeling it. I wished him a good stay in Seattle and moved on.

Later, he was about an hour late to the photo op. I was sad to be missing most of Hayley Atwell’s panel, but once again, this wasn’t his fault--the scheduling was insane. But when the line moved through, it was crazy fast. I may have had 1.5 seconds. It was so fast my hair is literally moving in front of my face from me getting into position. And I didn’t attempt a pose/to speak to him--I just went straight for what they expected of me, because I felt everyone was overwhelmed at this point. So once again, I didn’t even make eye contact with him, but I briefly put my hand on his waist. Woo. I thanked him for his time and boogied out of there. And don’t be surprised that I do not show you my photo--between the hair, the crazy eyes, and my head was literally crooked, I am not sharing that with anyone. But I also wasnt going to ask for a reshoot. $200 to put my arm around Tom Hiddleston for a second is what I apparently paid for. A reshoot would have just added to the stress and the chaos, and this whole thing just emphasized to me: I am not important. Nothing about me is more important than anyone else here, and asking for more just felt wrong.

That said, he is clearly a great actor, because there were no smiles during the autograph signings but he was able to plaster it on for photos, and was even able to seem like a person after a full day of this stuff, when he went out for his panel.

Overall, I am not wanting to go back to a comic con. Especially not to pay extra for maybe a total of 5-7  seconds of nearby time with a celebrity. I did not walk away feeling like I “met” him. I feel like I can say I was near him and got an autograph. Also briefly touched him. Which brings me to my next thought.

It felt like we were very much so commodifying a human being. Rampant capitalism made it so it was like we were dehumanizing these celebrities to the status of robots, and taking every last inch of them that we could. And it felt dirty. 

Add on the panels q&a’s where everyone thought it was okay to take that time to make the celebrity say hi to a friend (one or two people, ok, but 10 people per panel? C’mon. This isnt about you or your friend. You are given a special opportunity. Ask them a question that will appeal to them and the audience). Many people also did this weird thing during q&a where they said, “I love you,” and would stare at them waiting until it was almost awkward and they would respond, “love you too....”. Reminder: You do not love them. You love their work. You love their public persona. You love what they choose to do with their time and what they allow you to see. But as much as you internet stalk them, you do not KNOW them. And even if you feel the need to say, “I love you,” quickly move on to your question, because making them have to say it back is just weird and continues to dehumanize them. They are already so limited in how they can behave at these things and it just pushed another boundary.

Most people have heard how rude those girls were during the Stan, Mackie, Holland panel so I wont get into it too much. It was shockingly rude, it was not okay, and there should have been a person there who was able to take the mic away and move it along. Or, there should have been a person these people would tell their questions to beforehand to get approved. Though, I will say they were likely attempting to play off the bantering that had been occurring on stage, it fell extremely flat. Reminder: If you are not a part of the inner circle, you should not try to banter like you are--especially if that bantering involves cutting remarks. This isn’t just about celebrities but also a good life lesson.

After all that general negativity, I want to say some nice things.

The celebrities all pulled off not having a meltdown, which is more than I could have done. So kudos to them.

Kevin Smith was the highlight. He was a great moderator for the panels, and was hilarious during his own panel.

Hayley Atwell is extremely intelligent and poised and I want to be more like her.

Matthew Lillard was there during a D&D panel, and though at first he was being a bit of a sour sport about people bringing up his old acting roles, he eventually embraced it, making it a fun time for everyone there.

And finally: Droids. Everything is better with droids. R2-D2s galore, a BB-8, R5-D4(my fav.) and several others. I went there with Marvel in mind, but walked away with Star Wars droids in my heart.

And if you stayed with me to the end of this review, I am impressed. I do not want people to stay away from Cons, but I hope my experience will at least shed some light, and help people remember proper behavior, and maybe help them make some financial decisions about what is most important to them.

[irregulardiaryposts]

00:53 21/06/2021

Hello again <3

so i think im gonna write about my mental health today because i dont feel like i have anyone who understands fully apart from myself maybe so i need to Organise my Thoughts. as a kid i had a pretty normal childhood, a mum a dad and a brother - pretty nuclear right. but as a child i felt like my family maybe wasnt quite right, that this wasnt supposed to be what family is? perhaps. - i was scared of my mum a lot because she wasnt very understanding of me - and i was a great kid, never getting into trouble, very good at school, no issues whatsover. the thing that really shows how i thought of my relationship with my mum was when i was like maybe 8 or so having a parents night and at it my teacher had nothing bad to say apart from i was kinda bossy in group settings (im sure i dont need to explain how misogynistic that actually is- i was not bossy i was a natural leader) and when i got home my mum told me off for that and i felt like she was kinda cold to me and not taking all the good things about me into consideration when telling me off for that.

i feel like thats a really defining moment in my life when i realised i cant expect adults to Understand me, realised how people treat young girls, also started my defiant behaviour maybe or was kinda one of the key moments that made me dislike certain authorities in my life, that if people wont understand me regardless of how i explain myself then i wont bother trying to be understood by people who wont matter to me. anyway yes i was scared of my mum-like petrified sometimes- but my dad wasnt great either, he also had his shortcomings. i feel like he never really cared about me like he was kinda apathetic towards raising me like a parent - i feel he would be better suited as an uncle to someone rather than a dad - the funny childish guy that makes kids laugh -not the uncaring dad that cant be bothered to really learn about his kids. and i feel im sitting here complaining about my parents when the fact is that a lot of adults should never be parents, society has conditioned people into thinking the only way to be fulfilled in life is to live vicariously through your kids when life gets to such a boring and monotonous place where you feel the need to create a new life to spice things up lmao. i feel a lot of parents regret having kids but they cannot express that regret because it was their choice and they should deal with that, also saying you regret it would be pretty horrible to the kid.

so while yes i am complaing about my parents i dont think they were Bad in any way just not that great yaknow. also i just notice all these things growing up and i feel its been pretty impactful to understanding myself and my parents. also just some anecdotes from my childhood - i used to watch my dad play video games like the uncharted games i think theyre called, and whenever i got scared i used to hide behind the couch until the scary part was over (usually a lot of guns and high energy fight scenes thats too much adrenaline for a 7 yo) and sometimes when i would take out my dad/brothers game i would get them to fo the hard parts and do other stuff myself - i dont remember many games i played apart from one of the spidermen games where u could just web around the city and not progress apart from sometimes you would come across some strippers and i accidently got into a fight with them (also hot women with umbrellas they use to fight- maybe i went near them on purpose) i would yell to my dad and get him to do it for me. also on new years eve whenever my mum was working and we werent going to any family parties we would make a bunch of food and put it out in the kitchen - wed make like homemade onion rings, chips, have crisps and dips, and a bunch of junk basically and watch like austin powers or some shit and genuinely miss those times they were so simple. but a lot of thats tainted now from what happened. also my brothers always been annoying as shit but when we were kids we couldnt be in the same room without arguing which like whatever thats how kids are esp brothers and sisters for some reason.

i think thats majority of the background needed for the rest. wait this is a little addition but i meant to mention this here so ill put it in- basically sometimes on holidays i would geniunely think my parents hate each other/ were getting a divorce like once when we were in florida in 2012 my dad convinced my mum (as well as me and my brother convinced her since we liked them) we convinced her to go on a water slide thing that u had to walk up the stairs for, it was outdoors, and it was kinda tall and then we got in one of the big donut things and it swooshed from side to side a lot and was generally pretty scary i suppose for someone who doesnt like rides esp since you had to hold on to the handles there were no buckles or anything, and so when we got off the ride my mum was big mad at my dad and like wouldnt talk to him and stuff like that which was pretty uncomfortable to have to be the 8 year old mediator of that but there was also another occasion i think (maybe also at florida) where they were made at each other and i asked my mum if they were getting divorced and all she said was 'ask ur dad' like???? no sort of consolation to this child who thinks their parents hate each other nooo just petty 'ask him' and theres also been other times when they fight/ are mad and they dont feel the need to hide it from us so i felt quite anxious around my parents sometimes.

so ahnyway . yes. when i had just turned 13 my parents split up and it fucked me up in a multitude of ways. also i cant beleive i stopped being a proper kid at 13, like as soon as i turned a teenager life hit me like a fucking truck. so the context as to why they split is still kinda lost to me ngl but they didnt tell me much anyway since i was young but my mum basically said my dad didnt love her anymore and he wanted to separate. its kinda funny because leading up to this my dad had been sleeping in the living room for like a few weeks and there was on and off fighting i could hear and i basically thought they were fighting over me and that i was in trouble and it kinda used to keep me up coz i could hear loud voices when they thought i was asleep- which is probably the cause of why i get veryyyy mad and angry when i hear my mum at like 1 am downstairs when shes drinking and im trying to sleep, probably something ive internalised (is that the word?) and made me respond so strongly to those type of noises.

anywayyyyy yes i thought i was in trouble when they were actually just getting a divorce so ... yeah you can really tell i was young and didnt understand adult issues or really couldnt figure this out myself from all the arguing and him sleeping downstairs lmao. anyway my dad moved out and it was just me my mum and my brother now and at this point my brother wouldve been about to turn 18, so although still kinda shit, not really as affected my it as a 13 yo, just to keep in mind. so i was devastated obviously and my whole world was kinda shattered but i had to hold it together a bit, also i was sometimes my mothers own therapist having to say things like 'everything happens for a reason' 'itll get better' in response to her deteriorating mental health and her questions that would be really hard for me to answer like 'why did he leave' etc (bish im a child be there for me not wallow in ur own pity, u have ur whole life to sort this out youre an adult, im a 13 you and only months away from wanting to kms hun think of ur CHILD please) anyway this left me feeling like a burden if i were to share my mental state because when my mum shared her stuff she was burdening me (AGAIN i was 13 she is an adult) so that made me bottle a lot of things up also the fact that i had no one to share it with because she works as a nurse and now shes a single mother and so she works almost all hours of most days and i dont see her much, my brother was either working at this time or just didnt give enough of a shit about me to make sure i ate.

i went from being catered to for every meal because i didnt know how to cook to suddenly no one being there for me so i had to learn how to do it myself. needless to say that lead to a bunch of unhealthy eating habbits like eating the same things every day - frozen pizza, cheese toasties, i cant think of anything else probs because i didnt make anything else just ate chocolates or didnt eat breakfast coz i woke up at 2pm. just general unhealthyness both in substance and like how healthy that was for my head yk. also this is during the summer btw so it gave me the option to be incredibly depressed - im not saying that as an edgy teen thing to say im being 100% genuine i was very depressed like textbook style - not eating or overeating, not showering/ taking care of myself, extreme lack of energy and hated doing social things coz i had to put on a farce that i was okay meanwhile i couldnt wait to get into my bed and sleep the next day and a half away.

i very vividly remember at the start of the summer holiday my friend asked me if i wanted to go out and do something and i rememeber just crying at that because i had no reason to say no but i just didnt want to and felt like i couldnt do anything and so i lied and said i wasnt feeling well and then put my phone down and curled up in my bed and cried coz i was frustrated and upset and i couldnt really understand what was wrong with me and why i was Like This.

god i didnt take into account how tired i was and how late it is when i started this huh, this isnt even half of it, but i have obligations in the mornign, the last until uni or whatever so ill put this in my drafts and finsih it somethime. alrigtht it is 02:08 btw z_z. also ive just now decided im gonna re organise my tumblr so if this ends up being an actual blog thing i can navigate it easier by adding tags and such. anywau goodnight.

20:21 30/06/2021

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MY LAPTOP SHUT DOWE IN THE MIDDLE OF THSAT SO ITS ALL GONE BASICALLY I WAS DEPRESSED BURTNOUT GIFTERD KID AND IT SUCKED YADDa YADDSZ ANYTWAY

so

23:01- well. yes earlier i wrote a little about the ages 13-16 and how they sucked but whatever it got deleted the more pertinent stuff happened in the last year or so anyway.

um yeah so i started the last year of highschool as a 16 year old with a fucked up brain and never having learned any study techniques or work ethic in the slightest. i took 3 uni-level courses only one i actually wanted to do, most people take 2 at most or even 1/0 but do other classes. honestly it fucking sucked this year for school but i scraped all passes so thank god for that. so i started the year quite optimistic, or as much as i could be and in all fairness the content of this year wasnt actually that bad considering i was doing 3 hard classes but corona really truly fucked everything up and by November i had mentally dropped out of my classes but of course i still had to go to them. i feel like im an oddly independent teen because ive never had a solid parental presence in a while, like i had to do a lot for myself and maybe i should thank myself for getting me through it all because i really did pull through.

my thoughts keep drifting from what im writing coz i wanna talk about different things and im just thinking maybe i shouldve just posted the last one then added a reblog when i could be bothered to write and not force myself because if theres ever a reoccurring theme in my life is that if i force myself to do anything i will hate it with my entire being, so maybe i should just do a short synopsis and write about something else afterwards.

so i took 3 hard classes, slowly lost all motivation because in jan it switches to online classes and i could Not deal with those it was horrible, and i became more of a "troublesome student" in one of my classes *cough* maths *cough* and almost got "kicked out" of taking the class just because the teacher was a control freak but like wanted to control all of our actions and behaviour, also i think i may have adhd and another kid in my class i think he does too and surprise surprise the teacher "dislikes" him too but its only a farce because he doesnt actually dislike him its only so that i cant call him out for singling me out when other students behave "badly" too. but anyways maybe ill come back to this in a while when i can be arsed explaining my complicated relationship with my parents.

the only reason i wanted to write this today was so that i could tag the post with like june 2021 or something and not june/july, but i might make another post later, Anyway happy end of pride month i supose, hope u figure it out me!

[beelieveinfandom]

Sethany

Some stuff from the chat about a noncat that is godmod canon the new main character of the AU. Someone write this fic please.

matt-Today at 2:16 AM hey y'all okay so thought: u know how black cats always look like the void with eyes when u take a photo of them right? here's my idea, void with eyes that vaguely resembles a cat and is taken in by an old lady with failing eyesight

LumiKat117-Today at 2:17 AM Sooo it would look like a cat

((Also cats are the best ever))

matt-Today at 2:18 AM old lady: hey look at my cat i love him anyone with actual functioning eyes: ................... uh

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:18 AM What does this blob of void feel like?

LumiKat117-Today at 2:18 AM Pffft yeah Soft silky fur Like how Nightmare wool feels like real wool just uber soft and silky

matt-Today at 2:19 AM oh yeah of course the void is soft and silky smooth

LumiKat117-Today at 2:20 AM What would its name be?

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:20 AM Mittens

matt-Today at 2:20 AM whiskers

LumiKat117-Today at 2:20 AM Ebony

matt-Today at 2:20 AM oh no i change my mind mittens is better ndksksksksk

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:20 AM Something really stereotypical

LumiKat117-Today at 2:20 AM Lol

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:21 AM This old lady isn't the most creative person on the planet but damn does she love her "cat"

matt-Today at 2:21 AM or maybe something like an actual human name like timothy or geronimo

LumiKat117-Today at 2:21 AM I like Ebony

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:21 AM Sethany

LumiKat117-Today at 2:22 AM Sith

matt-Today at 2:22 AM SETHANY

LumiKat117-Today at 2:22 AM Sith like from Star Wars

matt-Today at 2:22 AM no that's the name of her other cat who is like. a default grey tabby

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:22 AM Are you implying that Miskebonany might be evil??

LumiKat117-Today at 2:23 AM Pffft

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:23 AM How dare you imply that Miskerbonany might be anything other then a perfect darling

LumiKat117-Today at 2:23 AM No

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:23 AM So what does Sith think of their "sibling"?

LumiKat117-Today at 2:23 AM I think that it would be like the most affectionate 'cat' ever

matt-Today at 2:24 AM i'm not sure if it's funnier if sith ADORES little sethany or can't stand it

LumiKat117-Today at 2:25 AM How about both? Like one moment they would be cuddling and then the next they would be hissing at each other

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:25 AM Well, Sith would be hissing. The other one doesn't make noises

they just

ooze

LumiKat117-Today at 2:26 AM Lol

matt-Today at 2:26 AM they don't knock stuff of tables they.... absorb

LumiKat117-Today at 2:26 AM Lmao

matt-Today at 2:27 AM "sethany darling have you seen my glasses" [a shlurping noise is heard offscreen]

LumiKat117-Today at 2:27 AM My two cats kinda get along but the smaller one won't let the bigger one get close or she swats him

matt-Today at 2:28 AM m̸̀͡ę̢̀o̗͇̕w͜͏̝

LumiKat117-Today at 2:28 AM Lol

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:29 AM Oh god and they don't meow, they literally say "meow" like a human would total monotone.

matt-Today at 2:29 AM YES like text-to-speech

LumiKat117-Today at 2:29 AM YES And it sounds like Siri

matt-Today at 2:30 AM hey sethany do i have any appointments today? m e o w

LumiKat117-Today at 2:31 AM What if Sethany and the old lady actually talk but to anyone else they just hear the monotone meows?

matt-Today at 2:31 AM hmmmmmmmmmm i'm conflicted because it's Quality when it's one speaking normally and the other in monotone meows

LumiKat117-Today at 2:32 AM Like they just think the old lady is crazy and she just thinks her cat is special and purrfect

matt-Today at 2:32 AM you say that like sethany ISNT special and perfect haha nice

LumiKat117-Today at 2:32 AM I had to

matt-Today at 2:33 AM of course

LumiKat117-Today at 2:33 AM And it is purrfect and special Oh What if it LOVES CAT PUNS

matt-Today at 2:34 AM oh fuck yes when someone tells a really bad one they hear m e o w m e o w m e o w and sethany comes patting around the corner

LumiKat117-Today at 2:35 AM And it just curls up in their lap until they tell it all the puns they know

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:35 AM Which sounds cute until you realize it's really more of a hostage situation. You cannot get up if Sethany is on your lap

you just can't

matt-Today at 2:36 AM they are Here and therefore you are Also Here

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:37 AM

LumiKat117-Today at 2:37 AM It's like you've become a purrmanent fixture of the furrniture Lol yes Gremlin

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:38 AM Ots supposed to be sethany

Sethany cannot be photographed

matt-Today at 2:40 AM i mean they CAN be photographed but..... it's not really sethany

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:40 AM

LumiKat117-Today at 2:40 AM YES

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:42 AM Yes thats it

matt-Today at 2:42 AM YEAH sethany the void cat folks i think we just won the transcendence au

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:43 AM

matt-Today at 2:43 AM it's not gonna get better than this

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:43 AM That's really cute somehow?

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:43 AM Sethany in the dreamscape

matt-Today at 2:44 AM perfect amazing wonderful

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:44 AM

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:44 AM oh that's good

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:45 AM Void with eyes Sethany is best notcat

matt-Today at 2:47 AM

"m e o w" -sethany

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:53 AM Cuddling Sith

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:53 AM gasp

Zilleniose-Today at 2:53 AM okay guys I'm reworking tau, alcor is no longer the main character

matt-Today at 2:53 AM o h m y

Zilleniose-Today at 2:54 AM all hail sethany

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:54 AM A L L H A I L

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:54 AM Sethany is the one

H A I L S E T H A N Y

matt-Today at 2:54 AM rip alcor 201?-2017 you won't be missed because we have sethany now

Zilleniose-Today at 2:54 AM

A L L H A I L

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:55 AM ALL HAIL

LumiKat117-Today at 2:55 AM Daww

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:55 AM 2014-2017 ftr

LumiKat117-Today at 2:55 AM Pffft What if Sethany and Alcor were friends?

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:56 AM Okay so now we need to figure out exactally where Sethany fits into the AU That would work

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:56 AM Sethany is alcors notpet

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:56 AM although Alcor tends not to like cats, how would he feel about a "cat"?

Zilleniose-Today at 2:56 AM please... can sethany float too, like. this little old lady sees an amorphous floating cat, drifting sideways and saying "M E O W" and sees nothing wrong with this

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:56 AM Even he doesnt know what it really is But it comes to him for food every now and then

LumiKat117-Today at 2:56 AM It could be like the personification of the void in his hat

matt-Today at 2:56 AM sethany ABSOLUTELY floats

LumiKat117-Today at 2:57 AM Catification*

Zilleniose-Today at 2:57 AM just kinda. like a lava lamp.

very slowly. blooping

matt-Today at 2:57 AM they kinda drip a little too i guess the old lady thought they were wet when she found them?

"sethany where HAVE you been it's a gorgeous day outside"

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:58 AM (i love sethany and everything it is and is not)

Zilleniose-Today at 2:58 AM no mouth to be seen. how it eats and talks is a mystery

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:58 AM One not even alcor knows.

matt-Today at 2:58 AM noises just kind of....... emanate

LumiKat117-Today at 2:58 AM Would it be an it or would it want to have a gender like Xie?

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:58 AM Food is just kinda... Absorbed

Enveloped

BeelieveInBees-Today at 2:59 AM I think I'm going to keep using they/them for Sethany

matt-Today at 2:59 AM phagocytosis

Zilleniose-Today at 2:59 AM I think if you asked sethany's preferred pronouns, they'd reply "M E O W"

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 2:59 AM And it because whatever it identofies as is incomprehensible to people Think of the paperwork

LumiKat117-Today at 3:00 AM Hey Bee, you should make a fic for Sethany

matt-Today at 3:00 AM the old lady taking sethany in to be microchipped tho

BeelieveInBees-Today at 3:00 AM But I already have so many fics anyway I'm not great at stuff without much plot

LumiKat117-Today at 3:00 AM Oml that would be funny

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 3:00 AM 'lady we cant do that'

Zilleniose-Today at 3:00 AM this is perfect bc I too, am an amorphous blob of only semi-existence that sleeps most of the day and likes mice

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 3:00 AM 'lady it doesnt have a body'

LumiKat117-Today at 3:01 AM Like the vet is just so awkward but the lady is just so sweet and they can't really say no

matt-Today at 3:01 AM 'lady please i'm telling you this is not a cat'

Zilleniose-Today at 3:01 AM "yes sethany is very unique" "that's. that's not."

LumiKat117-Today at 3:01 AM But she's so insistant So they give up trying to convince her and try to chip Sethany anyway

BeelieveInBees-Today at 3:02 AM Floating

matt-Today at 3:02 AM ooooooo i love it

LumiKat117-Today at 3:02 AM And the chip... works?

BeelieveInBees-Today at 3:02 AM The chip constantly states that Sethany is in about 15 different places at once

LumiKat117-Today at 3:02 AM They have no idea how

matt-Today at 3:03 AM the vet: ???????????? the lady: see, that wasn't so hard was it dear

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 3:03 AM It breaks the vets sanity each time sethany gets brought in

LumiKat117-Today at 3:03 AM Pffft I can just imagine that an intern sees Sethany and is like, totally chill with it Oh, what if the Old Lady is a R!Lazy Susan?

BeelieveInBees-Today at 3:04 AM Oh that's how we could tie them in. One of the Pines goes into animal medicine And be that intern And be like "hey grunks, you gotta check out this cat"

LumiKat117-Today at 3:05 AM Pffft No wait What if the old lady IS Lazy Susan?

BeelieveInBees-Today at 3:05 AM That would be great actually Sethany just shows up to the diner one day Just wanting to absorb some pie tins.

LumiKat117-Today at 3:06 AM @GODMOD Someone should post this to the Tumblr

BeelieveInBees-Today at 3:06 AM And Suzan just scoops them up and starts talking And Sethany falls in love

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 3:06 AM Yeeeees

BeelieveInBees-Today at 3:07 AM I can screencap it

LumiKat117-Today at 3:07 AM Welcome to the AU Sethany Now someone needs to write a fic where Sethany meets Alcor when the Pines Clan come to the Diner Maybe the Trips are like, 18?

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 3:09 AM The trips love them

LumiKat117-Today at 3:10 AM I can see the trips cat sitting

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 3:10 AM Hmmm, maybe before the trips are born but after henry? Think, sethany triplet sitting

matt-Today at 3:10 AM no that's a bit of a risk they might.... absorb the children they'd come out okay but

LumiKat117-Today at 3:11 AM Nah, I think Sethany can control the absorbing

matt-Today at 3:13 AM oh yeah they can definitely control it

BeelieveInBees-Today at 3:13 AM Sethany can definitely control the absorbing or Suzan would be in big trouble

matt-Today at 3:13 AM whether or not they want to no one tells cats what to do, void notcats included unfortunately nsjsjsjs this is a joke btw sethany wouldn't eat a child

BeelieveInBees-Today at 3:14 AM not unless they were a really annoying child

matt-Today at 3:14 AM problematic customer? no more

LumiKat117-Today at 3:16 AM lol BeelieveInBees-Today at 3:19 AM That just makes me think of Sethany as actually working at the restaurant

tinylittlegremlin-Today at 3:20 AM Yes  

[bwicblog]

VD: 😮 see, when my viewers told me there was a new chat o=

VD: 😮 i was hoping it was a live one! o= VD: 😮 or at least there'd be a little spark of life! but this is just so awfully dead o=

VD: 😮 dead BORING o=

VD: 😮 ... o= VD: 😮 i claim this chat in the name of CHANNEL 87! 😮 => u <=

VD: 😮 oh, what the FUCK o= VD: 😮 it's ruining my quirk! o=

SA: you can't claim it.

ID: ahahah wooowww.

VD: 😮 well, gosh, i guess not if it's got people in it! o:

VD: o: pretend you didn't see that! we're having some TECHNICAL QUIRK DIFFICULTIES right now 😮

VD: o= ugh!!! 😮

II: Haha, oh my

II: Well, I'm not quite _here_ since I'm technically at a lecture, but this speaker is dreadfully boring

II: You would think someone who specialized in colonization and diplomacy law would be a fascinating sort of person!

DD: omgggggggggggggg i would be okay with vd claiming this chatroom!!! DD: it would make it about fifty times cooler than before!!! i mean not that its not cool now just that shes definitely cooler and it would be an improvement

II: But they're hideously dull.

ID: nah ii, that sounds hella boring.

DD: i am seconding id!

SA: just quit using the colon with the o.

II: I was hoping they would have interesting stories about aliens, or exploration!

SA: you will look far less suprised.

II: All they have done is drone about minor policy details, which are relevant I suppose but nothing I could not simply read about myself.

DD: well if they are boring details i suspect they figured you wouldnt be especially inclined to read about them yourself so they should say them to you instead so you cant escape!

DD: unless you escape by ignoring them and chatting online instead i suppose but there is no helping some circumstances

II: I always read my briefings.

II: No matter how dull.

II: But going to a lecture is different, I expect some sort of personal flair.

DD: im sure you do but does everyone

DD: its a lecture isnt it i dont suppose youre the only one in there

VD: gosh, sa, that's about what i'm ready to do. VD: it's a shame! that quirk is my THING. VD: but oh well! VD: gotta adapt to the medium!

ID: some trolls just love the sound of their own voice. doesn't mean they're interesting.

SA: 😮

DD: nooooooooo vd 😢

II: Haha, hardly. I am mostly surrounded by teals and a few bluebloods.

SA: i suppose there is no beating it.

DD: rip the quirk

II: But none of them look particularly thrilled either, except those who I suspect are trying to curry favor.

II: And they look rather glassy.

ID: big fish little pond huh ii?

VD: ii, this may be a pretty wild suggestion, so hold onto your pants, but. VD: have you thought about escaping out the window?

SA: some trolls simply sound monotonous but they say very important things.

SA: like me

SA: full stop.

ID: hahaha yeah ii, just dive out the fucking window.

II: Sadly there are no windows in this conference room.

II: Otherwise it would have occurred to me.

VD: and don't cry, dd! the quirk SURVIVES. online, that is! on my stream. VD: winky face!

SA: that is. not at all subtle.

DD: well then take a vent DD: or a ceiling panel!

SA: are you streaming this chat?

ID: fake your death ii. it's the only way.

VD: aww. crawl out under the tables to freedom!

II: I...strongly doubt I would fit through one of those.

II: Or manage to go under the tables, haha.

II: ...though faking my death _is_ sounding appealing.

II: Or at least faking being unconscious.

ID: faking your death is fool-proof.

DD: and ahaha omg DD: im sorry! DD: i was trying not to make it weird but yes oh dear i love your stream very much and i would just like to say that im very pleased that STARship helps make it possible!!

VD: what? no! chats are boring! VD: technically, i might be streaming just a LITTLE. VD: but don't worry, this is not exactly the sort of hard-hitting content that gets my viewers going!

SA: I.

VD: unless ii fakes their death!

ID: you either succeed or they find out you're faking and cull you for realsies.

SA: well, I'm done here for an hour or so.

II: Well if I do, I shall be sure to film it for you.

II: I am nothing if not considerate.

VD: awww. you're a real doll!

II: Haha

DD: ... also maybe if youre ever interested in upgrading well be releasing a new system for synthetic neural synapse that helps streamline wetware-hardware connection and im sure you dont ever have lag but if you do i mean

II: Oh, are you a tech expert, DD?

II: How charming!

DD: i!!! DD: kind of!!

DD: you could say that!

DD: STARship is my company!!

DD: co-company??

VD: ... as is dd! VD: STARSHIP is the big hit that makes it all possible, it is true. VD: why, without them, where would we be? filming with cameras, like a bunch of cocoon-wetting pupas? =:B VD: nah!

VD: oh!

ID: oh god is this just a chat of highblood nerds now.

II: Yes, we have invaded

II: Terribly sorry

DD: well its not when youre here!

DD: 😄

VD: yes, exactly! VD: you are saving us all, id, you valiant hero, you.

DD: wait that sounded like i dont want you here and that is the opposite of what i intended

DD: yes what vd said

ID: uh-huh. totes got my feels injured by that declaration dd, but i guess you patched them.

II: Hahaha

DD: though really its not as though ive gone on at particular length about my work at anybody as of yet i mean i would like to think i am more considerate than that to both those unfamiliar with my jargon and also to my patent legislacerators

II: You don't deal with lowbloods much, do you, DD?

II: Many of the ones I know are not exactly fragile

ID: no ii, i'm suuuppperrrr fragile.

II: Hah!

ID: got a broke ass arm to prove it. =:'(

II: And I'm the governor of Provenance.

DD: i mean not really aside from the lovely members of station 11 that are helping me test my latest prototypes but also i didnt say that because he is a lowblood i said it because i was afraid i hurt his feelings

DD: though there are many physiological and psychic differences between highbloods and lowbloods it is a common misconception that they extend to the psychological! DD: for the most part anyways i mean there are some differences but

VD: i would love to take you up on your sweet offer, dd - mx dd - but i am just not sure i need it! VD: my visual hookup is state of the line. top of the rack! VD: and besides, i think i would miss all of my modifications. =:B can't get THOSE storebought!

DD: what i am saying is that i think that would have been a jerk thing to say to anybody!

DD: if i had meant it the wrong way i mean

ID: what i'm getting from this is that dd is a jerk.

DD: and oh of course i mean i know it is state of the line i am afraid i just got overexcited and-

DD: no i am not!!

II: Ah, I think I would call them...inexperienced?

DD: at least i am not trying to be 😦

II: In some social aspects.

ID: accidentally a jerk.

II: I don't think you are, DD.

DD: what did i do that was jerkish?

VD: hahaha. oh, gosh.

II: It's just plain you haven't dealt with lower castes much.

VD: y'all talk really fast, don't you?

ID: yeah we're hella touchy about you highbloods bringing up our differences. =:'(

DD: i have been told i talk very quickly and at great length my apologies if it is excessive

II: Hahaha

ID: and also apparently being used as guinea pigs for you.

II: Well, that is standard protocol I'm afraid.

VD: no, no, it is positively charming! VD: i just have got to stretch out all of my conversational muscles to keep up!

DD: and really?? DD: that has not been entirely my experience but also workplace sensitivity said that its good not to say all lowbloods are touchy or not touchy about everything in general because that is a bit of a stereotype regardless of which way you go!

DD: and oh dear now i am flustered

DD: thank you though!!!!

DD: that is very flattering

DD: and what do you mean guinea pigs?

DD: i do not eat lowbloods

VD: i.

ID: ....man.

II: ...do you eat guinea pigs, then?

ID: i mean, good on not fucking eating us.

ID: guinea pigs as in making us test your shit.

DD: i mean i have recently had pork yes!!

II: That...oh dear

II: That's not a guinea pig

DD: oh

DD: um!

II: That's just a regular oinkbeast.

ID: ahahah woowwww.

II: Guinea pigs are small and adorable and not really good for meat.

VD: oh, ii, don't drag the poor thing! VD: who hasn't looked at a little rodent and gone: well, shoot! that'd be delicious on a platter!

II: ...myself?

II: I say that mostly because they aren't really big enough to be a proper meal.

DD: i have to admit i am not certain what is common fare for eating when it comes to the landdwelling castes

ID: i mean where you find one guinea pig you'll find more.

DD: i have spent most of my time here thus far lamenting the profound lack of fish!!

ID: they travel together.

DD: i tried to get some sushi but i think the crab was fake

II: Gracious, DD, you almost make me want to take you for dinner somewhere, though surely that'd interfere with your work.

VD: oh, i don't know about that! VD: i got in a hive once that had a guinea pig just about the size of a house! VD: mean little critter, too. it nearly took a chunk out of my poor leg.

ID: 'got in a hive' sounds ominous af.

VD: i think everyone'd be better off if dd had gone and eaten that one. 😮 u o=

VD: oh, fiddlesticks.

DD: no thats fine i can work at any time but its not any time that i have the opportunity to make a new friend! DD: as long as you dont feed my guinea pig i suppose x))

II: Haha, I would never. Have you heard of Civitrecce, DD?

DD: oh no whats wrong???

DD: and no ii i am afraid i have not but i am also afraid i have not heard of most places that are not located underwater or in orbit!

VD: haha, it is only ominous if you want it ominous, id. VD: which is to say, i'd explain, but i'd hate to break the sense of suspense you're building here!

DD: except troll chicago but that was in a musical

DD: i am very in suspense!!

ID: i mean i'm just imagining you break in to hives for funsies.

II: Fair enough! It's my home city, though I am rarely there. It boasts many fine restaurants, including those tailored to the elite, so they have fine seafood.

VD: getting warmer, id! =0 u 0=

II: It also has a spaceport and land travel hub, so it has plenty of trains heading there.

VD: yessss, success!

DD: omg!! DD: in that case i would absolutely love to visit DD: you dont suppose they have any shops that sell nice moisturizer do they because i am coming to realize that this hotel does not come equipped with a salt bath and my gills are drying out and its becoming quite painful and DD: oh dear but thats me just being a complainer now!

DD: what did you do vd??

II: Oh, of course they do.

ID: hahah woow what did you expect being in the desert though dd?

II: ...I'm sorry, break into hives?

VD: 0= i got my quirk working again! =0 VD: 0= look at this, it is just like in the vids. =0

ID: text it vd breaks in to hives to murder for funsies.

DD: omggggggg i love it!

DD: and she doesnt MURDER anyone!!

DD: and i dont know ive never been to a desert!

VD: 0= what nooooo. 0= VD: 0= anyone can murder people! that's not impressive at all! =0

DD: expected it to be like the tropics!!

VD: 0= no one's going to watch that! =0

ID: so what do you do then.

DD: only the coolest stunts ever!!

II: Do you cause property damage and enter without the owners' consent.

VD: 0= hahaha, what is this, an ama? =0 VD: 0= because man, i love those. =0

ID: the fuck is an ama.

VD: 0= property damage is for wrigglers, ii! =0 VD: 0= the KEY to making it fun for the whole clade is breaking in without breaking anything, taking some stuff, and leaving before anyone can even grab their trident! =0

VD: 0= an ask me anything! 0=

VD: 0= where people.. well, gosh, ask you anything. =0

II: I see.

ID: ...so you stream breaking in and stealing from folks.

ID: highbloods.

II: _I_ do not condone this.

ID: 🙄

VD: 0= oh, don't worry, ii, i think you're pretty swell! 0=

DD: oh come on ii its not as though it really hurts anyone and besides if they didnt want their things stolen they should have installed better security systems!

SA: you sound like the sort of person that steals the remote control batteries and watches the hive dissolve into chaos.

VD: 0= and it's - yes, exactly! =0

DD: or worse ones i suppose since part of the fun is the challenge of a good security system

II: It is still illegal.

VD: 0= to both of those! =0

SA: "it's not like it really hurts anyone" "if they didn't want their things stolen they should have installed better security systems"

ID: highbloods pris.

SA: there is so many things. wrong. with that sentence.

VD: 0= i'm helping people improve themselves through a little TLC. 0= VD: 0= and by helping them put off doing their lethal bar paperwork! =0 VD: 0= it's a hard job, but gosh, someone's gotta do it. =0

II: The kind of logic used by all sorts of criminal rubbish.

SA: help me, Hadean.

VD: 0= it's not really a crime, if you think about it! =0 VD: 0= why, you could probably even say it's a public service! =0

II: It is _not_.

VD: 0= hahaha. i'm joking. =0 u 0= it's totally illegal. =0

ID: get 'em ii.

II: Yes it is and I find it particularly appalling that someone of your blood would do such a thing.

II: Shame on you for disgracing your caste.

ID: yeah vd you're setting a bad example for us lowbloods.

ID: ii if you ever catch me stealing it's because vd made it look cool.

II: Ha

II: _Clearly_ .

VD: 0= am i a disgrace, ii? =0 VD: 0= because 1m viewers per session says that an awful lot of people think i'm a shining example! 0=

II: This troll isn't a suitable role model for a blind grub.

ID: also quick fact is it stealing if you're looting a corpse.

VD: 0= i am not quite sure of what, though, now that i think about it. =0 VD: 0= gosh, i should do a poll. =0

II: Your viewers are likely average bored citizens - no, not technically.

VD: 0= ewww. don't touch corpses! =0

ID: great!

SA: no it's just grave defilement.

VD: 0= that's how you get hornrot, id! =0

II: I mean, to be fair, I'd consider it wasteful to not. Unless they have quadrants who would like the body or belongings back.

II: Then it would be disrespectful, but not illegal.

ID: if they're recently dead it's fineeee.

VD: 0= oh, yes. =0 VD: 0= breaking into hives is wrong, but touching dead bodies is perfectly fine. 0=

SA: i'm sorry, did you go looting corpses today?

VD: 0= ii, i think your morals are a little questionable! =0

VD: 0= i think you're setting a bad example here! =0

II: Morality isn't the problem here. It's the law.

ID: not today. but some times a troll has to find some quick cash!

ID: yeah vd.

ID: i'm immoral but i'm legal.

II: Morals don't enter it. Luckily, I really do not care what you think, since you are a criminal.

II: Moreover, a _stupid_ criminal who talks about their crimes in an Imperial server.

VD: 0= well, isn't that just a knife straight to my heart? 😢 =0

SA: please it's not as if the police will come hunt them down for blasting it in a defunct server.

SA: they are a high blood.

SA: who... actually cares.

ID: ^^^^

II: I don't care for their blood. I care for their blatant immaturity and defilement of the legal system.

II: They ought to be disciplined.

SA: as long as they're looking from a caste below them the police will turn a blind eye.

VD: 0= haha, yeah, i would not put it exactly like that, but. =0 VD: 0= close enough! =0

II: _I_ am not below them.

ID: so a firm slap on the wrist.

ID: aka what any highblood ever gets.

ID: unless they fucked with a higherblood.

II: I am two castes higher, and this is wrong.

SA: then call the police and we'll wait.

VD: =0 oh, don't worry, ii! =0 VD: =0 i said i'd never steal from your hive, because we were being downright frondly. =0 VD: =0 but let's be honest here! =0 VD: =0 i wouldn't steal from your hive because you're an awful stick in the mud, and i don't think anyone'll be quite impressed by your collection of troll twilight books! 0=

SA: 😮

VD: =0 u =

II: It's hardly that simple, as I'm sure you know, but I will certainly be filing this - haha, what. Oh that's amusing, considering I have no interest in that series and in fact recently derided it.

ID: also is attempted but not fully carried out murder a crime? just asking random questions i've always wondered with someone who knows law at hand.

SA: Hadean i am aggressively elbowing you in spirit.

II: Mm, technically, but it also depends on a lot of other legal codes.

VD: =0 it's only ever a crime if you get caught, id! =0 VD: =0 or if you stream it live, every night, at 6:00PM IST! =0

ID: i'm not murdering anyone pris, i'm just curious.

SA: "asking for a friend"

II: It varies by area and specific caste restriction, though I'm in favor of investigating as many attempted murders as possible.

ID: no, asking because i have a lot of free time on my hands to ask these questions!

SA: i hate you :l

II: Ignoring the small crimes usually leads to getting complacent toward the bigger ones.

ID: =:P

SA: 💚

ID: so chop the hand off the thief to send the murderers a warning kind of thing?

II: Pfft, how barbaric. Hardly.

ID: so like, then. what's the worst crimes a troll could commit?

II: Difficult question depending by what standards you're asking.

II: Castewise, the murder of a tyrian, though even that's a thorny issue given that the Condesce generally appreciates _fewer_ challengers, though there are exceptions for non-heir or heiress fuchsias.

VD: =0 oh, i know this one. 0= VD: =0 early culling a heiress! 0=

II: Please ignore VD, who is not a legal expert, and an idiot.

ID: shots fired.

VD: =0 so don't spear any princesses, id. 0= VD: =0 that's an awful big glitch to make. 0=

ID: i have yet to run in to any princesses but i'll keep it in mind.

II: But if we're talking more generally, destruction or alteration of Imperial property is a big one. That causes us a lot of issues every sweep. On a wider scale, sabotage of the fleet itself.

SA: oh i have.

SA: but they were already dead when I got there.

VD: =0 well, i say give ii all the attention they're so desperately craving. 0= VD: =0 after all, it'd be mean to steal their limelight! 0= VD: =0 even if they are droning like the speaker they were just complaining about. 0=

VD: =0 wow! 0= VD: =0 really? 0=

ID: oh i get elbowed over asking about murder, but you can talk about a dead princess?

II: I suppose it's easy to interpret my giving of facts as attention craving from the person who clearly rotates their life around that very thing.

SA: well, I wasn't involved in it.

ID: i wasn't involved in murder either but iiii still got elbowed.

SA: (also I was not serious)

SA: why would i casually asy.

SA: I found a dead heiress.

VD: =0 what? booooo. 0= VD: =0 i was excited to hear about a heiress! 0=

II: Even if you were, it's hardly my business. Fuchsia disputes are above my station.

ID: uh because you do cool shit?

II: Unless the culling was done by a lower caste.

SA: oh do you really think so?

VD: =0 there's a girl who streams and CLAIMS she's tyrian. 0= VD: =0 but i am pretty sure it's just make-up! 0=

ID: i mean dangerous but cool shit.

SA: claiming ones relation to a tyrian heiress is. unwise.

SA: 😊

II: There are violets who play at being tyrian, heaven knows why. Such a thing is not only dangerous but incredibly silly.

ID: no one here is destroying property or sabotaging the fleet ii.

ID: so what about crimes that you actually see?

SA: Oh, well, there goes my weekend plans.

SA: thank you, Hadean.

II: Haha

ID: =:P np, np.

VD: 0= gosh, id, way to be a regular buzzkill. 0= n =0

ID: that's me. head buzzkill.

II: Sometimes I deal with ones involving Imperial property, but often it's far more ordinary work. But I'm afraid we're breaking for snacks, so I'm going for a bit.

ID: well bye.

ID: snacks can be entertaining at least.

SA: ... breaking for snacls...

ID: highbloods need their snack breaks pris.

SA: oh. yes.

SA: silly. me.

ID: otherwise they get cranky! =:P

SA: 🍱

ID: careful you'll summon back the sushi-fish.

SA: DD?

ID: yeah.

AA: sushi what now. >:?

SA: 🌮

SA: there.

ID: dd wants sushi. despite being in the desert.

AA: that's a taco.

AA: >:[

ID: fuck now i want a taco.

SA: I know it's a taco, I'm correcting my sushi mistake

AA: go get a taco!!

AA: and o, o, ic.

SA: he's going to say something like

ID: tacos cost money. =:P

SA; i can't afford a taco

SA: yes.

ID: i'm sorry i'm poor pris!

SA: i could wire you money.

ID: nah i'll just whine at sips.

ID: (ps my hair is so fucking soft.)

SA: 🙄

SA: send selfie.

ID has sent sofuckingsoftman.png!

DD: omg are we sending selfies? ^_^ DD: im sorry i had to go for a little bit there was a tad bit of an explosion and i had to put out a fire DD: or well tell the bot to put out a fire!!

ID: gotta remember your fire safety dd.

SA: beautiful.

ID: also sure it can be selfie night.

DD: and oh dear your hair looks very lovely!

SA: how hard is it to ... not cause explosions.

DD: thought the horns are interesting ive never seen a floating one before is it mechanical?

ID: hahah no that's my horn.

DD: and surprisingly difficult in some circumstances! DD: i mean part of the testing process was to see if it would explode so

ID: allll keratin.

DD: test success!! DD: it just exploded more than i thought it would!

DD: and oh dear then how is it floating?

DD: and omg wait wait i want to send a selfie too then

DD: um! DD: oh no my hair is a mess um

ID: magic. and psi.

DD: one minute i need to find a comb!!

ID: mostly the psi.

SA: silly hadean.

SA: magic isn't real.

SA: clearly it's a collective hallucination.

ID: fuck you magic is real. =:P

SA: fuck you 😠

DD: fancy! that sounds like it takes up a lot of energy though i suppose horns are fairly small and if it is already attuned to you on account of it being your own growth... DD: anyways!! comb!

DD: brb ❤

SA: there they g.

SA: ...go

ID: that was a teasing fuck you. =:P

SA: i would never say fuck you and mean it 😇

IJ: Nobo>y better be breaking the law in here.

AA: dnw, prni's emojis arne as genuine as yrn floating horn. >:}

ID: oh my god my horn is realsies.

VD: =0 oh my god, what is this? 0= VD: =0 legislacerator central? 0=

SA: what are you going to do, copper.

II: Oh, are we doing selfies -

II: I'm working on that, Halvea

ID: it's selfies night in here.

ID: dd is off primping for it.

VD: =0 oh! 0=

IJ: It is something, alright. Selfies? Is that it? Hmm.

VD: =0 brb, i'm going to get my mirror! 0=

II: haha, I'm afraid I only have an old one. I rarely do selfies.

SA: it's very easy.

SA: you take your phone.

ID: oh my god highbloods.

SA: hold it above your head.

SA: and hit 'take photo'

ID: allll gotta primp!

SA: and send it to the chat.

II: http://cloudbattrolls.tumblr.com/post/152449745713/i-stole-her-glasses-and-fed-them-to-a-chihuahua

AA: you can't just hold it above yrn head, prni.

II: Camera was poor quality, unfortunately

AA: therne's an A RN T to selfies.

SA: an art.

SA: why the teal bangs.

-IJ has sent PhotoDay.png to the chat! It is mostly Halvea being unwinding in her office. Her tie needs actual tying.-

ID has sent lookselfiesarenotart.png!

ID: man, i just did what pris said and. viola.

II: Oh my, you have such interesting tattoos, ID

ID: a genuine selfie.

II: They almost remind me of paint

AA: they'rne clownpaint. isn't that neat?

SA: ...

AA: i think it's neat.

AA: >:}

ID: ohhhh my god they're tattoos.

SA: 😂

SA: look at you, IJ.

ID: i did not have a guy spend twenty hours jabbing a needle in to my face to be told it's paint is2g.

II: Haha, why would they be paint? Even if they were, that's not half-paint, it wouldn't be at all suitable.

SA: wait.

SA: you actually had that tattooed onto your body.

SA: I assumed it was just. birthmarks.

ID: yes.

AA: ikrn?

SA: i.

IJ: Teal is a perfectly fine color. IJ: An> you aren't allowe> to wear excessive amount of face paint while on the job. It can get in your eyes an> can cause temporary blin>ness.

SA: ...

SA: I don't know you. at all.

DD: whats wrong with primping maybe i want to feel pretty! DD: :D DD: anyways here you go!! DD has sent selfienight.png! [Dazzle is in some sort of mechanics lab in the background with hastily combed hair and making a peace sign to the selfie cam while beaming. He's already found time to add a bunch of stickers and filters to the photo.]

II: That is not an excessive amount of facepaint, Halvea!

II: It's a perfectly reasonable amount.

IJ: I know, In>ri>, I am stating for the peanut gallery why you >on't.

VD: =0 congratulations, dd, you are positively adorable! 0= VD: =0 i like the bows! 0= VD: =0 very nifty! 0=

SA: you would almost be cute if you weren't insufferable and a worse space cadet than myself.

ID: there is no paint so let's drop the paint tak. =:I

II: Oh, how precious!!!

ID: wow pris, suave.

II: You look so cute, DD

SA: i use my best lines on you, of course

SA: i have my priorities straight.

DD: omggg thank you!!!!! ❤ ❤ ❤

DD: i found a new app that has a lot of cute filters and stickers so ive been using it a lot!

ID: i like that your horns don't match.

DD: oh um! DD: haha they actually used to so im glad you think it looks nice now! DD: they used to make the loveliest heart shape together but unfortunately there was an incident!

II: Oh whoops, I missed SA's question

DD: and now i have no horns basically

DD: 😢

VD: =0 i know? asymmetry is such an eye-catcher! 0= VD: =0 you can make an entire logo out of that. 0=

DD: omg ❤

II: I like teal! I am surrounded by tealbloods thanks to my job, after all

DD: that is a hell of a way to cheer a troll up you guys thank you

II: So I dye my hair with it

ID: ahahah wow is that why you have no hair too?

SA: I... see.

IJ: Horns are often something that can become a hazar> when working in many fiel>s, it is a smart thing to >o.

ID: or is that a style choice.

DD: um! no that was also

DD: an accident

DD: the same accident actually

DD: or well a different occasion but overall the same series of events

ID: my horns are never a hazard and i love them.

II: Your horns look very sharp and useful!

ID: but uh. sorry about the accident i guess.

SA: that is the biggest lie i have ever heard.

DD: but i think ive had it cut nicely now dont you?

SA: short hair is practical anyways. You should embrace it.

DD: oh dear

VD: =0 well, dd's already seen my selfie! 0= VD: =0 but here, since everyone else's putting up pictures: 0= VD attaches TROLLSTARWARS.jpeg! [ It's her making a victory sign at the camera with tiny robotic camera-drones surrounding her. ]

DD: thank you! DD: and really it is not that big of a deal now aside from the um DD: lack of hair and horns and having to leave my home and all of that DD: which is to say its been a lot of trouble but really im sure it will sort itself out!!

ID: i mean it looks nice for short hair. I just always assume seadwellers have long hair because. i don't know.

VD: =0 short hair is practical! 0= VD: =0 no industrial accidents that way, haha! 0=

ID: what are those things.

DD: omgggg ❤ ❤ that is very cute vd! or maybe just epic!!!

ID: i want to take a bat to them.

VD: =0 you wouldn't be the first, id. 0= VD: =0 winkyface! 0=

SA: 😉

DD: and you wouldnt be wrong id its very common to have long hair after all it is ideal to emulate our lovely sovereign in all ways we can ❤

DD: i used to have long hair that is to say just not anymore!

VD: =0 yes, sa's got my number down. haha! 0= VD: =0 anyway, they're video drones! 0=

ID: hurrah, all stereotypes have some truth to them after all.

DD: omg ❤

ID: ....are you so in love with yourself you need constant video of all angles or...

DD: well you have to have the best angles for the best stream!!

DD: besides all of merlons angles are good angles

DD: because she only shows the best angles!!

ID: ...are you a fangirl.

DD: well i mean i am definitely a fan but i am not a girl!

ID: ...fanboy. sorry.

DD: its okay im sure its a common assumption to make about my caste given the public face of the empire is a lady ❤

ID: also you have a face that could go either way.

VD: =0 sorry, sorry, unexpected guest! =0 VD: =0 but our hold is done and i am BACK. =0 VD: =0 and i'm not in love with myself, id. that'd be silly! =0

DD: oh really do i?? DD: i dont suppose i pay enough attention to that sort of thing but girls do tend to be really cute so i will take that as a compliment!

VD: =0 but i have to make sure to please all of my delightful fans! 0=

ID: uh-huh.

ID: dd. vd or one of those rainbowdrinkers in all the movies right now. which are you a bigger fan of?

DD: um!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DD: um!

DD: um um um um

SA: pick one the other dies.

DD: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ID: nah one of them doesn't actually exist pris.

ID: too easy a choice then.

DD: well then i would have to pick vd of course because the rainbowdrinkers are already dead!!

SA: i know that, I just want to up the stakes.

SA: but aren't they still living at heart 😢

DD: oh dear

ID: no one dies, you just have to make the choice dd.

SA: how else will they love bellae.

DD: this is a really difficult decision!!

DD: especially because i only really just found out about lestat and oh dear

ID: lestat's mate looks the superior one in that movie anyways.

DD: you are being really tough here and i do not think i can make that decision!

VD: =0 oh, gosh, id. 0= VD: =0 obviously i would pick dd. that's not a choice at all! 0=

ID: it's a tough world out there dd. =:P

DD: OH NO now i feel bad!!

DD: im so sorry vd of course i would pick you i was just temporarily enamored by my recent introduction to lestat

ID: w2g vd now he feels bad.

VD: =0 rainbowdrinkers are gross! 0= VD: =0 i don't know about you, but my lusus taught me that you shouldn't touch corpses. 0= VD: =0 never mind kiss 'em! 0=

ID: ...how about culling them.

SA: VD is right. prions.

VD: =0 yes, exactly! 0=

ID: ii is culling a rainbowdrinker illegal.

VD: =0 they're already dead, silly. 0= VD: =0 how are you gonna cull them? 0=

SA: i don't believe so as many of them go off the grid when they die.

SA: they are considered legally dead.

ID: i mean. burn them to ash?

SA: and many places superstitously view rainbow drinkers as culturally unacceptable despite the Imperial stance they are not real.

DD: i dont think you can get prions from kissing someone and oh dear i dont think rainbowdrinkers are really supposed to be like corpses! DD: they are walking and talking people after all and i do not think a corpse could have hair as nice as lestat or eyes as piercing as edwards

SA: so.

SA: No it would be encouraged to murder them.

DD: this is a very troubling conversation oh my goodness

ID: welcome to this chatroom almost every night dd.

DD: !!!

AA: aww, n, it's not T H A T bad. AA: yesternnight we werne talking about sushi.

AA: and all the ways to make it.

AA: fish like sushi, rnight?? >:}

SA: 🎊

DD: i love sushi!

DD: i have been craving some for nights!

AA: lmfao, good.

ID: it wasn't that incredible when i had it.

SA: no. not this again.

SA: damn you Sipara.

AA: 💚

SA: 🖕

ID: no damning sips for one whole night, she earned the privilege by letting me use conditioner.

SA: she can be damned for twenty minutes.

DD: well maybe you did not have very good sushi id DD: i tried the sushi out here and it was probably fake or at the very least very unfresh and really its much better when you have it properly made with fresh caught fish DD: also i just very much enjoy fish in general on account of eating it a lot of the time!

DD: and oh dear

SA: excuse me.

SA: I have excellent taste.

AA: wtf, don't i earn the prnivilege by spending an hourn brnushing yrn headfluff??

ID: that too.

AA: >:{

ID: i told you it tangles like a bitch.

ID: i t o l d you.

SA: i brought him the sushi he ate. and i am very particular about food.

DD: then maybe it is simply not to ids tastes to eat fish that wouldnt surprise me given it is probably not a part of his typical palate

ID: that's probbbsss it.

ID: i'm used to eating burgers.

ID: and squirrels.

SA: oh i've wanted to --

DD: oh ive never had a burger but ive seen them on tv a lot!

SA: ...how.

SA: I would die

ID: there's only so many things to eat in the middle of the desert pris. D:<=

SA: so fry a scorpion?

AA: you told me, but i told you it'd be, like, way bettern if you let me brnaid it. >:P AA: but w/e, w/e, it's way less tangled now, gj.

SA: leave the mammals alone...

AA: dd, go eat a burngern.

DD: !!

ID: nope. raw ass squirrel meat pris.

AA: actually, n. fuck the burngern. AA: just go stab a hoofbeast, and, like, eat it rnaw.

ID: just bite the fur off and went to t o w n.

SA: what

AA: that's the RN E A L landdwellern expernience.

AA: ain't got nothing like it.

DD: maybe i should i have been holding out in the hopes of maybe being able to get something i am used to delivered here and it has mostly resulted in me living off of lattes which is not a very good diet especially when i am attempting to be productive

SA: 🐴

DD: and they always look very good on tv though kind of weird i guess!

ID: burgers are the fucking best.

DD: theyre so..... cooked!!!

ID: ...and donuts.

DD: and in such a weird way!!

ID: yeah welcome to the land.

SA: please go to a restaurant, DD.

SA: there is an. entire world.

ID: if you don't cook the fuck out of them they might carry disease.

SA: the donuts or the burgers.

ID: both.

SA:

SA: ...

SA: I don't. know what i expected.

ID: =:P

DD: well im sure fish carry diseases too but i eat those raw all the time DD: maybe it is a matter of constitution??? DD: regardless i will definitely go eat a burger once i am done with this module do you think they would make me one without cooking the meat

ID: probably not.

DD: oh dear 😦

ID: the meat will not be. fresh.

AA: n, absolutely.

SA: actually yes.

AA: just thrnow yrn weight arnound.

DD: um!!

SA: Improperly prepared sushi can bear a number of worms and viruses.

AA: be like "I want this so frnesh it's strn8 off the hoofbeast" and they'll T O T E S go w/ it.

AA: .................

SA: particularly if it isn't chilled properly.

AA: ..................................................

ID: now you tell me. =:I

AA: why arne you feeding hads wornmy fish, prni.

DD: that sounds very concerning i have had the un-fresh fish here and i am not sure i want to have the un-fresh thing i havent had yet!

SA: I wouldn't do that to Hadean.

SA: I ate sushi at the same place before I brought it to him.

AA: would you have known it's full of wornms, tho.

ID: pris has the money for the fancy stuff sips.

ID: like. pris how much did you pay for your current outfit.

SA: I couldn't tell you.

ID: guesstimate.

AA: and it ain't that unfrnesh, dd, jeez. AA: trnust meee.

SA: however, I made roughly $3500 today.

SA: catching that indigo.

SA: so.

ID: see?

AA: hads li - >:1

SA: also yes because I would have gotten the worms too.

DD: what if maybe they can cook it like a little bit but not all the way do they do that

ID: man i should have let you wire me some cash. =:/

SA: that is caled a rare burger.

SA: you missed your chance, Hadean.

DD: oh!!!!!!!! DD: so those are a thing!!!

SA: besides what was it you said about taking advantage of people.

SA: and I should watch out.

SA: :p

AA: n, too late, yrn in the brnoke-ass rnust squad, hads. AA: no take-backs!!

ID: =:P you're learning. what have i created.

SA: 💚

ID: he still owes me a shopping trip one day though!

ID: no takebacks on that!

SA: you will be very fashionable. and also very practical.

SA: i promise.

DD: that is very good to know and i will try that because i suppose coming here should also be about trying new things!!

DD: and oh my goodness you should show us what you buy when you go shopping!!!

ID: yeah dd, dive in to the experience.

DD: changing room pix for your fav outfits! ^_^

ID: i live in a tent.

AA: lmfao.

ID: there is no rooms.

DD: ... changing tent pix?

DD: why do you live in a tent?? are you an adventurer?

AA: oh my goooooood, he meant in the storne, hadean.

SA: we aren't shopping in the tent.

AA: ^^^^^

ID: oh.

AA: also, prni, you gotta make surne he doesn't buy anything lame.

ID: sorry i don't go clothes shopping you guys.

SA: i will.

ID: i have three shirts and two pairs of pants and this shirt isn't even mine. give me a break.

AA: and y, totes an adventurnern, dd.

SA: dd, hadean is actually a fashion icon.

SA: you see, they're trying an experimental style.

SA: it's called minimalism.

SA: have you heard of it?

DD: wow that is not very much clothing even i have a lot more than that and i barely packed anything before i left aside from my lab equipment!! DD: we should go shopping together id you really need more clothing than that

SA: it's all the rage now.

DD: and yes i have but i thought that meant you have a lot of the same outfit and you style it differently

SA: oh my god.

ID: ...i have a lot of the same outfit.

ID: and style it exactly the same.

AA: omfg.

ID: and by a lot i mean. 2.

DD: thats how they make it look so nice!! DD: your outfits arent going to look nice if they are worn out because you only have two of them!

AA: evernyone else is being a dumb chucklefuck, dd, so, like.

AA: so let me say, on theirn account:

AA: y, pls go shopping w/ them. >:}

SA: i know how to shop.

DD: omg yay!!!

ID: i wonder what happened to my hooker uniform tho.

ID: wait what.

DD: wh

DD: your what

AA: he's an adventurnern, dd.

AA: duuuuh.

SA: hooker = / = adventurer

DD: that is not what i meant by adventurer!!!!

SA: --

AA: what sornt of adventurnern does not have a hookern outfit?

SA: !!oh!!

ID: i'm not actually a hooker.

SA: my god

AA: how else arne you gonna get in the brnothel to crnawl thrnough the vents to kill the duke?

DD: ............... i guess i did not think that was a thing outside of video games!!

ID: sometimes you need to dress the part tho.

AA: go thrnough the frnont doorn?

AA: puhlease.

DD: that makes sense!

AA: ofc it does.

ID: yes it does.

SA: sipara

SA: oh.

SA: you are all.

SA: awful.

SA: Peopple.

SA: I thought i was bad.

DD: you havent seemed like a bad person to me at all sa! 😦

DD: and neither does anybody else here really i mean i am pretty excited to try a burger and i wouldnt have done that without you guys!

AA: >:}

DD: omg maybe we can have some together when we go shopping?

ID: get cheese on it, cheese makes it better.

ID: well sips we are going to port port to drop lal off, right?

ID: sips can totes go on the shopping adventure too, right dd?

AA: y, y.

AA: wait, what.

ID: =:)

DD: oh there is nowhere good to shop here i dont think the town is so small!!!

DD: we should to go to the coastal city i got to see some of it on the way in and it is much larger

DD: and it is not that far away by train

ID: there we go!

AA: i wouldn't want to intrnude on yrn fancy, like, boy bonding time. >;0

ID: sips can totes use some fashion tips dd.

DD: omg!!

DD: i love giving fashion tips!

DD: the secret is BOWS

ID: perfect!

ID: sips could use some bows!

AA: fuck off, i've - oh my god.

AA: bows, like. AA: in yrn headfluff?

DD: i mean unless you are making fun of her fashion sense in general which strikes me as a little bit mean i am sure that you dress just fine!!

DD: and yes!! DD: and also i have one on my back!

DD: like at the top of my shorts its very fun to twirl with and it is nice and gauzy in the wind its almost like swimming again!

ID: sips, you twirl right?

AA: i

AA: have nevern twirnled so much in my goddamn life as i would, uh, with a bow.

AA: >:?

DD: i mean if twirling is not your thing i am sure we can find you something else its not like the style i like for myself is what everyone else likes to wear

ID: we'll find a style all your own sips!

DD: yes exactly!! 😄 ❤

AA: hahaha. >:}

AA: well, y, as long as we find one forn hads too. AA: did you know he's got fluff down to his glutes??

SA: oh, yes.

DD: yes i saw earlier when we were doing selfies and i think you said that you are the one that brushed it and i wanted to say that you did a very good job and it looked very beautiful!

ID: sips has a funner figure to shop for i think. we should focus on her.

SA: please, style it too.

DD: and yes we can find a style for everyone you and me and id and sa!!

ID: she's famous y'know.

SA: we could loop braids and put a bun in the back.

SA: very chic.

DD: and oh dear is she i am sorry i did not realize

SA: woodland chic, even.

ID: she needs famous fashion flair.

DD: omg!!! that sounds very fun maybe we could get some bright colors

DD: and something more flowy for id though i guess not so much that it is elven even though i admit that is the thought i had between the hair and the braids and such

ID: ...flowy.

SA: oh so.

DD: do you not like flowy we dont have to do flowy i just thought it would look nice with your hair maybe

SA: legolas.

SA: it's your favorite, Hadean.

ID: pris. D:<=

SA: alright, alright.

ID: i need stuff that won't get caught up on stuff.

DD: omg haha we can totally do something like that!!

ID: i do a lot of climbing and fighting and stuff. adventurer and all.

DD: oh that makes sense you are an adventurer after all!

DD: i suppose we will just have to see when it is time to pick out items what you like best and what matches with it !! ^_^

SA: Oh, look.

SA: I just had an extended case come up for this perigee.

SA: I'll be stuck in Provenance, I suppose.

SA: I'm very sorry.

ID: D:<= what a fucking shame.

AA: whaaaaaat.

AA: >:'{

DD: oh!! 😦 DD: that is very unfortunate but maybe we can do another time! DD: i hope it is not too much work for you i recall you mentioning you finished another case recently and really that seems like a lot of effort so i definitely wish you the best of luck in your endeavors!!

SA: ...yes.

SA: it was. exhausting.

AA: it's okay, dd, we can all totes go shopping next time in prnovidence.

AA: why, i hearn they've got the best burngerns on the entirne continent.

AA: full of, like, hoofbeast meat, and blood, and shit.

SA: ...

SA: you know what, I changed my mind.

SA: I won't take that case.

AA: >;0!

AA: dd, show me pics of yrn bow, btw.

DD: i do not think i want to eat anything that is full of feces!

AA: ..........

AA: ..........................

DD: and omg! DD: yes one moment!

AA: >:??

DD: and oh dear i am sorry i think i misunderstood the terminology that you used

ID: no actual shit in the burgers. don't worry.

DD: it is late and i am a little bit tired i am afraid!

ID: unless you go to the reaaallly cheap places.

DD sent thefluffiestbow.png

DD: but yes oh my goodness that all sounds very fun and we should totally visit sa!

SA: i believe that's beyond cheap, Hadean.

SA: no. No please don't.

DD: oh

DD: um!!! DD: sorry

SA: Providence is full of. Crime.

SA: and trafficking. yes.

DD: oh dear

SA: It would be very unsafe for Sipara or Hadean to visit.

DD: oh dear!!

ID: we're strong rusties, we'll manage.

SA: 🤦

DD: are you sure you are doing alright then sa i mean that sounds like a lot of trouble!

AA: aww, prni, therne's no need to get all concerned abt us. AA: we'rne strnong independent rnusties and we'll manage. besides, we'rne wornrnied abt Y O U.

AA: that city sounds RN O U G H.

SA: i am quite alright, thank you.

AA: also. okay. ngl. AA: that's a qt fucking bow.

ID: clearly we should go visit to give you some support!

ID: but if you're soooo concerned.

ID: we can go to the port city dd mentioned.

SA: Yes.

SA: yes let's do that.

DD: omg haha tyvm aa i am very happy you think so!

DD: and oh dear maybe it would be good to go to the city! DD: sa sounds like they maybe dont want to be in their city all that very much and it would be a good chance for them to get out!

SA: no, I rather like my city, thank you.

ID: i haven't seen the ocean in like. 3 sweeps.

SA: I have a view of it from my loft.

DD: i am very confused about who wants to go to what city now!

SA: it becomes less. awestriking. when you see it every day.

ID: we're going to the port city that is actually a port. and not riddled with crime.

AA: .. idk, but you ppl sornt it out. AA: i gotta get a trnuck tmrnw, and. idk. wherne the fuck you get those.

AA: so i'm gonna go figurne that out. >:?

SA: a ... dealership?

ID: do i have to sit in the middle.

DD: i suppose id did just decide where we were going so that is that!

SA: --

SA: oh that will be. good.

AA: y, lal alrneady called windowseat, soz.

ID: gdi.

ID: i hope it's roomy. =:I

AA: i do not have sa's mad buxxx, so, like, lmfao. AA: y. let's hope. >:}

AA: crnoss yrn frnonds!!

ID: my horns are gonna scrape the top of it probably. =:'(

SA: I'd offer you all a ride but I only ride a motorcycle.

DD: oh dear that sounds uncomfortable!

DD: maybe we could go to a salon and have your horns polished if they get scraped id!

SA: I think he meant he would scrape the felt off the roof.

DD: hornicures sounds nice it has been a while since i have had one after all it is a little bit embarrassing to go into a salon with broken horns

DD: and oh well they are nice regardless!

ID: what's a hornicure.

DD: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DD: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DD: its when you go to a salon with your friends and you have them sand your horns and polish them and glaze them!!

DD: and sometimes you can put on really cute designs or accessories like rings and

SA: You know.

ID: hahahah sand my horns.

DD: its really very very fun!!

SA: as we do, Hadean.

ID: i had them polished like a week ago. for the first time.

DD: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DD: we are definitely getting you a hornicure!!!!!!!!!

DD: you will love it!!!!!

SA: in all seriousness, I need to go lie down again. I am rather dizzy.

ID: =:I does it hurt.

SA: i will see you all later.

DD: oh dear that sounds very alarming maybe it is because you were working so much

DD: i wish you a restful sleep please be well!

ID: ...yeah... rough night. =:I bye pris.

DD: and no they do not hurt at all! DD: it sometimes pinches your cuticles a little bit if the people doing it are not very experienced but we will go somewhere good to make sure nobody hurts you! DD: i want your first hornicure to be really really nice!

ID: uh how often do they deal with floating horns.

DD: ....

ID: perhaps i am not cut out for hornicures.

DD: probably not very often!!

DD: well they could still do your other two horns!!

DD: and i am sure doing a floating horn would be even easier since it is not that big and has no cuticles!

ID: i mean my floating horn is like. bigger than sips' horns combined.

DD: well it is not bigger than both of your other horns combined and i am sure they get plenty of customers with very large horns so it should not be a concern dont worry! ^_^

ID: i mean... i guess.

DD: really you do not need to be afraid i promise they are very relaxing and soothing and make you feel really super nice!!

ID: i mean really i'm just a lil wary of your willingness to wanna do this stuff with some rusties.

ID: we're a little. out of your lane.

DD: .... oh

DD: um!

DD: what do you mean??

ID: i mean. why do you wanna hang with us.

DD: because you guys have all been very nice and introduced me to burgers and you seem like a lot of fun!

DD: and i havent gone shopping or gotten a hornicure with some friends in ages and it seems like it would be a really nice time!

DD: and also you need more than two outfits!!!

ID: i guess that's a better reason than most have.

DD: oh dear

DD: i am sorry if i have reminded you of bad past experiences i promise i am just looking to make some new friends and you guys have seemed very friendly so far

ID: it's fine, a rust just has to be a lil wary.

ID: i mean. we're the same shade as the trolls you probably have testing your stuff. whatever that is.

DD: i understand!!! DD: at least i think i do??? DD: um! DD: i do not want to say the wrong thing!

DD: and actually there are mostly yellowbloods in the facility though there are some brown and maroonbloods around and some olives and there is even one cerulean psychic roaming around!!! DD: or maybe two DD: um i admittedly cannot really tell if there is one or just two that look very similar it has been very confusing

ID: pfff you must mean gliese.

ID: and... not-gliese.

DD: oh does that mean there are two??

DD: that is a relief to know i was beginning to think that i was going to talk about them at one point and get it wrong

ID: yeah there's two, dw.

ID: but yeah. facility stuff can make some of us rusties a little wary.

DD: well if it makes you feel any better i am not working for them they have just volunteered to allow me to offer to their participants who would like to try out some of my new prototypes that are in the troll trials stage!

DD: they are all very safe and such the only issues are with connection speed

DD: and integration capacity!

ID: if you say so. i have no idea what that stuff means.

DD: it mostly means that when things go wrong it just makes people feel like things are going really slow or not all the way until they disconnect!

DD: but i cant really go into more detail than that

DD: because it is technically still in beta!

ID: ...that does not really clear up the confusion but okay.

DD: but yes i am not fleet i am a member of a private organization and i do not think i am actually old enough to work for the empire

ID: man now they're drafting young seadwellers.

ID: does no wriggler get a break these days.

ID: what happened to leaving a troll be until they hit ascension.

DD: wait what

DD: are you being sarcastic or did you misread what i wrote?

DD: i am having a hard time telling over the internet!

ID: that's my charm dd, i'm sarcastic and truthful at the same time.

DD: !!!!

ID: mostly truthful-y rn tho.

DD: that sounds like a very confusing sort of charm!

ID: you get used to it.

DD: but yes i suppose then i should clarify that i said that i am not conscripted at all!

DD: and am likely too young to be so

ID: but you're... working for a company that works for the fleet?

DD: in fact my best friend and i have started our own company and it has grown to quite a large size!! DD: the fleet has actually purchased a contract with us recently

ID: looks like some hazy ass lines right there.

DD: oh no we are working with the fleet and it is our honor to due so but it is our own startup and it is contract-based product supply!

DD: i do not work with the fleet directly even the pr things are mostly my good friends strong suit i am mostly research and development

ID: if you say so. seems like a confusing mess to me.

DD: well!!

ID: but i'm not a. researcher.

DD: there is working for somebody as in you are hired buy them

DD: and then there is them coming into your restaurant to buy a meal

DD: in the latter situation you are not working for them they are simply making a purchase!

DD: that is what we are like!!

ID: oh. okay.

ID: i guess you must be good, if they're buying from you and not like. an adult.

DD: i try to be humble most times but it is true that we are very very good!! DD: though i muse credit my good friend with a lot of it because admittedly the product does not make the company and there are plenty of fabulous inventors around that have gotten nowhere so it is their talent at management that has gotten us this far

ID: sounds like a complicated balance of you making good stuff and then being able to sell it well.

DD: yes exactly!!!

II: Management does tend to factor more into successfully selling products than pure talent, I'm afraid.

DD: it has probably been obvious as of late but i am not the best people person so i am very grateful to my friend for putting up with some of my silliness in the past and handling the business side of things

II: Not that I am doubting DD, but unfortunately surface appearances are usually what trolls consider when buying.

DD: i do not think i would have even thought to sell any of my work without them!

II: Oh, don't be so hard on yourself, DD.

II: You are perfectly pleasant

II: Merely a bit unpolished

DD: oh well i am very glad that you think so haha i am glad that i have not misstepped too much yet

II: DD, trust me.

DD: and that is one way of putting it!! DD: but hopefully i will be able to polish myself more soon and maybe the first step is going to get our horns polished id >:D

II: I have moved in highblood circles since I was a very young troll, and have observed _far_ greater errors than any you've made.

ID: maybe you two should go on a. hornicure trip.

DD: but we are already going on one together!! DD: you do not need to have them that often but maybe some time later ii and i can besides we are already going to a restaurant in civitrecce ^_^

II: We can certainly go for a hornicure trip afterward, if it wouldn't be too much time out of your schedule!

ID: i mean me and sips are traveling rn, we won't be back in port port for a while.

DD: well yes and i would love to but it would be pointless since id and i are already getting our horns done but maybe we can do a movie or our claws instead or something??

DD: and that is okay id i am not free at this exact moment anyways and admittedly i do not actually know when people want to hang out

DD: i was hoping it is kind of soon so that i could have my first burger with you guys but i suspect that i may have to break and go eat before then!!

ID: yeah def go eat.

ID: try some chicken tho.

ID: and rice.

ID: chicken and rice are good together.

DD: okay! I have had rice with fish so hopefully rice with chicken is just as good!

DD: speaking of which i should probably go do that right now to be honest my stomach is positively hurting now that i pay attention to it and i have had nothing but trollbucks all night!

DD: ...day!

DD: hopefully there are places open this late!

ID: you'll find something i'm sure. g'day.

DD: good day!!!! ❤ i am very excited to go shopping with you!

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my  entire life story

Hi, I wanna tell u all about me and my life story. i was born and everything was fine for a few mins. Shortly after I was born I had a stroke. I had to be taken to the Miami children hospital and was put into a coma because i was having so many seizure When I woke up I was taken cared of by the doctors. After 3 weeks of lots of testing they discovered i had a stroke and  had epilepsy. I was able to go home afterwards with lots of seizure medison after my 2 disabilities  were  found. When I turned 5 years old I started to struggle on my first year of school. The stroke affected all my learning abilities. It affected my math, reading, reading comprehension, , learning memory, writing and spelling. I was slow learner  then everyone else in school. I get extended time on tests and help with homework due to my learning disability. For my math disability it makes me struggle with adding,subtraction,multiplication dividing and remembering numbers. For my reading disability i struggle with reading, decoding, remembering, getting lost when reading, read words wrong, re read what I'm reading, skipping words ,pronouncing and sounding out words. Four my writing i struggle with spelling,takes me a very long time to write, forget ending of the words, spell the words a different way and make punctuation errors. It doesn't mean i cant write. It's just harder then most people. My tests and work are sometimes modified because its to hard for me. People sometimes think i cant talk but i can. It's just i don't know what to say. The doctors who studied my mind said that My stroke makes me rock my body and bounce my head  and body subconsciously, I do it without knowing I'm doing it. I'm often told by people I shouldn't do that and get told to stop rocking my body or bouncing my head and body  because its considered weird and can make people uncomfortable because they often don't understand , dont do it themselves, dont have anybody in there family that does it, cant relate and its considered not normal , weird and different.  

but  the question we should all be asking is what is normal though? there is no  such thing as normal.  ill get stares by people for doing these  behaviors. when ever somebody pointed  it  out i felt  judged  and scared and felt like they thought i was weird. Did u know people made rocking chairs? if u see someone who rocks there body or bounces there head and body  and u notice  they arent aware there doing it please dont bring it up. if i rock my body or bounce my head and body  dont make me feel embarrassed. im doing subconsciously. Not every person that rocks there body  or bounces there head or body is a  weird  person. dont always assume when somewon rocks there body or bounces there body or head  are weird. i will rock my body subconsciously when im listening to music,  when im  thinking about something,  happy,sad,scared, or angry.  i might  do it randomly  subconsciously without any of these reasons above.  there are 3 reasons why a person rocks there body or bounces there body and or bounces there head. number 1: its because they were just born that way. number 2: they could be brain damage and u wouldnt even know it. if you ever meet or met somewon whos had a stroke or some type of brain injury  theres a 50 chance there gonna rock there body and/or  bounce there  head and body. number 3: its a obsessive compulsive behavior for that person. When I was 5 years old I started to do behaviors and show symptoms of another disability. My parents didn't really think much of it. They always thought it was just my stroke. Then one day my mom was reading about autism and Started to realize I was showing the same symptoms and behaviors. My mom went to the doctors and said to them what symptoms and behaviors I was showing and the doctors started to agree with her. So the neurologist doctors were studying my mind and were looking at my damage to my mind. theirs no test for autism but there are people who went to schools to study the mind and watch it by looking at it, recording it , observing it, watching what a persons doing and reading books about the mind. And it turned out I had another disability. Which was called Autism. At the time I didn't even know I would have autism because my parents never mentioned it to me and kept it hidden from me. They never felt the need to label me because it was very mild and didn't change who I was.

My 6th grade year came when i was 12 years old and it was bad. That was the year I found out I had autism. When I was in my math class I was obsessed over blood poisoning. Then my teacher asked me why I was obsessed over blood poisoning. Then I said i don't know why i just am. After i said that the teacher randomly says you have Autism. I said wait i have autism? And she said yep you do have autism. I thought to myself no i cant be. I thought i was misdiagnosed. And i told her prove it I don't believe u. Then she pulled out a paper and it said  i was  a student diagnosed with high functioning autism. When i saw that paper i was surprised and after a few mins i started to cry. i thought why me? and thought to myself i already had a stroke and learning issues. why do i have autism as well? I knew i would have to deal with this the rest of my life i thought to myself will i never have friends or get married because of my autism disability? Mom walked in the room a few mins after i found out and she saw me crying and started to wonder why i was crying and asked me whats wrong. my teacher realized telling me was a huge mistake.   my teacher told my mom we need to talk and pulled my mom aside for a moment. That's when my teacher told her. she said she was so sorry  to my mom and   said  she accidentally told me i have autism.   after that she told me come on  will talk about it more in the car. and i told her is what she saying true? is that paper true?  she told me come on again and i started to question in my head why isnt she telling me. i was still crying at the  time  while leaving the school and walking to the  car. After that we went into the car to get ready  to go to the doctors appointment and before we drove there she  told me i have a very mild form of autism. Then i asked my mom what caused it and she said nothing caused it and i was just born that way and she told me autism isn't something that can happen to u.     Brain injuries can cause autism like symptoms and or autism like behaviors but not autism. Autism is the same as having Down syndrome. I was born with autism and at the same time had a stroke a few mins after my birth. My autism makes me have sensory sensitivity issues with sound and can cause sounds to hurt me and sometimes becomes overload. my autism makes me have deficits in my social skills meaning there always impaired.   My social deficits impairments are making friendships, maintaining friendships, getting into a romantic relationship, continuing a  romantic relationship, starting,continuing ,ending conversations,  Reading facial expressions, body language, social cues, reading tone of voice , joining in group interactions and reading what people are thinking. My autistic behaviors are rewinding,obsessions, literal thinking, sameness with food, flat affect, monotone voice, asking the same question over and over, repeating myself and no filter. i might say something completly random and people would be surprised, think its idiotic  or  find it funny. you cant go around and force friendships they just have to happen. thats like forcing somewon to love u when they dont love u back. i dont want people to be my friend just because they feel bad for me.  I  want to be like everyone else.   i want people to understand me. its time to talk about how i feel. when ever im alone or out  in public i sometimes think to myself will i ever find love someday and have friends?   they say u cant find love you just need to let it come to you.   when im out in public i always see people with there friends talking and having a good time.  when i was in school i always   saw   people hugging  and kissing there loved ones in the hallways   and still see people  do  out in public places. i would  see people in the hallways, at lunch and walking down stairs  talking to there friends. i thought to myself why is it so easy for people to make conversations, relationships and friendships that fast?  i also thought to myself why am i not experiencing this as well? lets talk about my school experiences. when i was at my old  school i always had people who hated me  and  thought i was an idiot and i didnt know why.   i now know why they hated me. it was because of my autism, learning disability and the way i behaved. because i say random things, am quiet, dont talk the way most people do,behave differently  and have learning disabilities people think im not smart and think im an idiot because of the way i interact, behave  and  take longer to learn things.

i wanna explain emotions for a minute.

i always struggle with talking about  my feelings because  im worried how people will react. at a young age ur taught and told  not to show and express ur emotions. in public  and when ur around people  or someone u think u need to be happy all the time because showing emotion isnt acceptable. the only acceptable emotion ur allowed to show is to be happy. when ever u show ur sad ,scared or angry  about something people will tell u to stop acting like a kid and say  ur being rediculous.  im here to tell u its ok to show and express your emotions. were not robots. showing emotions is natural. its what makes us HUMAN. what is monotone voice? its when u speak without emotion. flat affect is when u show no emotions. what is a obsession? its when you think about something all the time or alot and talk about it alot.  it also  means u might need to compulsively do something  in order to get rid of the thought. literal thinking is when u believe anything and anybody tells you. it means you have struggle understanding metaphors, know when someones  joking  and figure of speech. i might speak literal at times. i may not always respond in the normal way. lets talk about rewinding for a moment. when i say rewinding i might go back to a certain part of a video or song and you might question it.   when i say no filter i mean i might say things that are racist, things you shouldnt say , inappropriate things and being honest, without realizing and aware what im saying is that and i might not understand why its not ok to say those things. being honest isnt always a bad thing but it can hurt someones  feelings and come across as being rude. because my autism makes me not think clearly i really need to think about it.

because i might say racist or inappropriate things people will get the wrong idea and it might make them feel bad about themselves and come across as im a bad person. if i ever  say something racist i usually would feel bad. only a racist person wouldn't feel bad.  

when i mean i struggle with reading tone of voice i mean i cant always tell when somewons being sarcastic, serious, speaking in a way that there bored, angry,happy,sad and all the other types of tone of voice.   i cant always tell when someone looks happy,sad, angry,scared,surprised bored,annoyed  and any other facial expressions. i wanna talk about repeating for a moment. when i say  i repeat myself  i might say the same thing again or over and over again without even knowing and aware im doing it.

 I never went around and told anyone about my autism and was told mine isn't the type where u can tell by looking at me. The rewinding was the only thing that became noticeable and people would question it but never knew i had it until they were told. if u were to look at me you wouldn't have guessed or noticed.  

When i mean i struggle with making conversations i mean i struggle with small talk and talking to people. There's the hi how are u? Then u say good or fine and sometimes ask back how are u? Then that person says good. But it never goes anywhere. I learn social skills. Does that mean i have great social skills? Nope. They will Always be impaired. in order to get an autism diagnosis it NEEDS to be disabling in some way and needs to always impair  and limit  the person.  what high functioning really means is how well a person can pass and  look normal. I was an autistic child and teenager and ill become an autistic adult and eventually an autistic old man. People think autism goes away when you get older which is not true.  Alot of the time people don't try to get to know me. i usually get ignored alot. i  sometimes dont try to get to know people because there judgemental and im afraid they just see me as some dumb  and weird person. I get uncomfortable when around you and other people because of my autism. I may be socially awkward  or appear annoying because of my deficits impairments. People don't often stop to think why that persons uncomfortable or socially awkward.    i sometimes dont respond to people because i dont know what to say , how to respond ,may not understand what there saying and need time to think. because i might not respond people might get confused,might  think i did not  hear them or think im ignoring them when im not. i didnt like being in special ed sometimes because there were people who came to help students with special needs when  some people see  a person in special ed they sometimes  automatically think that there dumb and to stupid.   not every person who helps a special needs person  are like that  and think that way but alot people are like that sadly. i  worry what  people think of me.

most people dont ever give me a chance.

whenever i was in a normal class i liked it because they wouldnt think of anything at all. i felt  normal  when ever i went in the regular classes. When i was in 10th grade i wrote a speech about my autism. i never thought people would like it. after i read it the whole class clapped. when they clapped i felt really happy and felt proud. I want friends but don't know always how to make them. people think i dont want friends and thats not true. there are 2 others reasons i struggle with making friends and there a small part on why its hard for me to make friends. first reason people judge me because my hand is bent and my fingers look weird  and different a bit. second reason i have trouble making friends is because i have learning issues. when a person sees u arent smart they think  your an idiot. people  nowadays only want to be friends, date and marry people who are considered not dumb and different. i know im not dumb im actually very smart. i have a very good vocabulary then most people and thats a stereotype where people think autistic people are smart and speak smart then most people.

Let's talk about cerebral palsy. Cerebral palsy is when you have trouble walking, eating,swallowing , have mussles issues and have speech issues. I mumble and talk to quietly without realizing it and might stutter. I trip and fall easily.   lets talk about my childhood. I grew up not having the childhood most people had where you talked to people, hanged out with friends, eating lunch with friends, going to sleep overs and parties with friends. I wish i got to have those experience but sadly i wont be able to because I'm older now. As you grow up ur expected a lot more and people expect you to behave a certain way , talk a certain way and  do certain things. people dont like it when you dont act like them, talk a certain way and behave like them. if you dont behave and talk the way people think u should act and say you will most likely not be accepted and they wouldnt ever want to be your friend, date you, marry you and get to know you because to them ur considered weird,dumb and not the social and society norm. in there eyes different is considered bad and shameful.  it makes people who want u to behave a certain way and talk a certain way angry because ur not meeting there expectations and want u to not be yourself. if you arent extroverted and if you dont talk people will make comments about it and tell you why dont u talk? well to answer your question i cant always talk because there are social rules you always have to follow and if u dont follow them people will get mad at u.  i cant always talk because i  dont always have a filter. if i were to talk about something that wasn't inappropriate and it was a normal conversation they probably wouldnt like it because to them its not the right way to talk. im sometimes quiet because i have nothing to say. you know the phrase people tell u to to just be yourself? yeah that phrase is a lie. What if you couldn't always do those things because of ur issues?  or what if u liked yourself for who you were and what you are? Why do people have to act a certain way and  talk a certain way just to be accepted? It sometimes makes me sad because i cant be myself. Nobody can honestly be themselves due to society. but sadly you have to behave  and talk  certain way. people try to stop and change people who are different. I enjoy some of my autism actually and wouldn't want to be cured. i like that i can rewind something and never get tired of watching it. We need to learn to stop caring what people think of us and learn to stop judging each other, weather people are good or bad. Nobodies perfect. Everybody makes mistakes. We need to just learn and grow. I hope that when i get friends and a girlfriend ill be accepted and if i ever do get married i hope I'm accepted by my wife to. people with learning disabilities get made fun of because they have a hard time  with reading, writing ,math and spelling. people try to act cool and popular in elementary school, middle school and high school.

but what they often dont realize is when they graduate high school they will no longer be considered cool and popular and will be like everyone else. I don't feel bad for myself.

There are some good things about myself. I'm non judgemental,accepting, nice ,smart and funny. I try my best to be a good person but i sometimes don't know how.

Sometimes i try my best to hide my right hand by Putting on my brace that makes it straight and people would just think i broke my arm.

I'll hide My right hand by using a long sleeve shirt and covering my right hand with the long sleeve just to make people not notice and look normal as possible. if somewon doesn't like that your a introvert then you dont need them in ur life. if u are extrovert accept it but dont change someone  else personality. if u are a introvert accept  your personality. if u are both extrovert and introvert personality accept it.

if someone doesn't like that you are being yourself , doesn't like  your  personality or is not liking that you arent talking and behaving  the way u should then forget them.

accept your personality. accept yourself for who you are and be yourself whether people like it or not. if u meet some won that is disabled or not try to get to know them.

If u see some won who's had a stroke help them and be there friend if u want to. If there's a person who's autistic you should accept them.  

if you love somebody who is  disabled, different or both you should accept them. if you have a friend that are any of these you should accept them.   if u have a friend or love somebody that doesn't have any issues and  there  just normal you should still accept them. I am so much more then my disability labels. Remember to be accepting of people who are different, black, white, Indian, Chinese gay,straight,bisexual,transgender,, asexual, lesbian, have anxiety disorder issues, have eating disorder,   disabled  Or not disabled and are just as normal as you.

I don't enjoy having these disabilities. But will always have to deal with them.

I hope my life gets better.