#and i don’t have any friends irl except my sister…sad but true :))

[intravenous-agnostic]

trying to imagine someone irl finding my tumblr…. 😵‍💫

[yumeka36]

I’ve now seen Frozen 2 six times in theaters, the same amount of times I saw the original Frozen in theaters. I’ve seen it with several different friends, including my boyfriend, and saw it twice with my mom...and they all liked it a lot! As a matter of fact, my mom (who’s 74) never goes to movie theaters since she’s claustrophobic but she made an exception for Frozen because she loved it so much - she’s even willing to go a third time if I want!

What I find quite interesting is that the separation aspect of the ending seems to be the major dividing point among fans, but when I hear thoughts about the movie from people who like Frozen but aren’t fans, like many of my friends both IRL and online, as well as some movie critics I follow, the separation isn’t even mentioned. Even if they had issues with other parts of the movie, that was not one of them. The thing that many fans hated about the movie, especially before it came out, doesn’t seem to be an issue for general viewers. Of course I can only speak from personal experience and obviously this doesn’t apply to everyone, but the fact that Frozen 2 is on its way to surpassing the original in terms of box office sales at least proves this point in some respects - that the general public (no doubt many Frozen fans among them too) feels that the movie’s good points outweigh its flaws, and at the end of the day, that’s what matters since we know a “perfect” movie doesn’t exist, ESPECIALLY one that has the immense pressure of living up to the expectations set by the highest grossing animated film of all time (to be fair, the original Frozen had it easier because no one had any expectations for it because it was a brand new property - the fandom didn’t exist to set any standards or create desires for certain ships and headcanons to be fulfilled). It’s literally impossible to please everyone with a sequel to a movie that has such a variety of fans, from the many and vastly different hardcore shippers to the millions of little kids who just like seeing Anna and Elsa. But again, based on the success of the movie thus far, I think they pleased the majority.

Compared to Toy Story 4, Ralph Breaks the Internet, and HTTYD3, where the separation was treated as a true separation, with tears being shed, hugging goodbye, saying bittersweet parting words, Frozen 2 had none of that...actually it implied quite the opposite, with Elsa telling Anna that they’ll “continue to do this together” and Anna saying that their “lands and people are now connected by love.” This is why it’s not really a separation in the same manner as, say, Toy Story, where there’s no way Woody could see Buzz and the others again except by some crazy coincidence. We know that Elsa can visit Arendelle whenever she wants, and does do that as evidenced by the final scene of the movie where she gets Anna’s letter about charades night. It’s just unfortunate that due to the time constraints of the epilogue we don’t get to see this “working together to unite the lands” and learning how they handle their new roles. But the point I’m trying to make is that Jen Lee and team had their vision for the ending of the movie early on but they also knew that Anna and Elsa together is Frozen’s main appeal and selling point (I’m sure they were reminded about this from corporate heads at Disney too). So the question becomes, how to end the movie with the vision they want of Anna and Elsa finding their new roles in life, but not actually separating them? With six years of fostering this idyllic family image of Frozen, they spent 3-4 of those years creating an epic story that ultimately resulted in a change to this image, so how do you properly handle something that disrupts the status quo...but not too much? And the end of Frozen 2 is the solution to that: ending it on a happy reunion rather than a sad separation, showing the sisters in their new roles but leaving us with the message that they still see each other regularly. So everyone, young and old, who loves Anna and Elsa being together can still imagine them as such, but Jen Lee and team still got to end the movie with the destinies they envisioned for the girls (and as I’ve said before, although it’s different from what I imagined, I don’t think their vision is wrong as they’ve provided enough backing for it in podcasts, interviews, and other sources for me to believe they did what they truly felt was good and right for their characters - their interpretation is just as valid as mine or anyone else who truly loves the Frozen-verse). This ending really does tie into the “Some Things Never Change” theme - where they live and their roles in life have changed, but their love and family bonding time hasn’t. Back in August when I went to D23 Expo, I noted that Jen said something along these lines - that in Frozen 2, “nothing will ever be the same...well, some things will” which then lead to the voice cast ending the panel with a live performance of “Some Things Never Change.” Now I know what she meant by that.

I’m fairly certain we’ll see more official Frozen stories in the future, whether through post-ending story books, comics, animated shorts, and, hopefully Frozen 3. Disney is just slow - it might take a few more months to even get an announcement or to even start seeing spoiler merchandise in stores. But considering what a hit Frozen 2 is, I know this isn’t the last we’ve seen of our beloved sisters. I can’t wait to see what unfolds in the next chapter of their story.

[starchild--27]

85 questions

I was tagged by @kafkascupcake .  This will be fun, so thanks ^^

rules: answer 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

last

1. drink – water with lemon flavour

2. phone call - my hair dresser (if i ignore the fact that i accidently called my dad a few momnets ago when i wanted to look up my last phone call - ofc this had to happen xD)

3. text message - i told some kid from my spanish class tht we didn’t have spanish class last week

4. song you listened to – Californiacation by Red Hot Chili Peppers

5. time you cried - three days ago i think, but i waas at the verge of crying yesterday evening  

6. dated someone twice? – nope. i never dated anyone 

7. kissed someone and regretted it – nope

8. been cheated on – no

9. lost someone special – i’m so grateful to say that i never lost anyone in my life and i am so afraid of the day this will happen to me

10. been depressed - kind of. i have my depressed moments but everyone has at some point

11. gotten drunk and thrown up – never, i’m not drinking much 

fave colours

12. navy blue

13. black

14. metallic shades of basically every colour

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends – i’m always careful with the word friend when it comes to my real life, but let���s say i got to know some people better that have been around for a longer time but i never really interacted with. on the internet things are a little different, so i can say i’ve interacted with a lot of people here and i can’t help but treat them as friends 

16. fallen out of love – not in the last year

17. laughed until you cried - multiple times xD

18. found out someone was talking about you – i really don’t know and i hate that i can’t say this wouldn’t bother me because i really want to know what people think of me - just to be able to understand why they treat me how they do. 

19. met someone who changed you - oh, i really don’t know. i think i didn’t change that much in the last 365 days

20. found out who your friends are – it was a little more than a year ago, but yes i did.

21. kissed someone on your Facebook friends list – i don’t even have facebook

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl – since i don’t have facebook i’ll do this for instagram and there it is probably a minority since i follow countless art pages, celebrities, fanpages, animal pages, political pages, people i don’t know in real life, …

23. do you have any pets - yes - a black cat with the name Black Pearl, which we gave him before i even knew about the song by EXO ^^ his name referred to the ship from Pirates of the Carribbean first xD

24. do you want to change your name – i did in the past, because my name is very rare where i live. but i started to like it after some time. the great thing is that it’s meaning differs since no one really knows it’s true origin. 

25. what did you do for your last birthday - i invited my two best friends but one happened to be sick at that day (ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ) so we were only two but it was great anyway. since i was born the day after walpurgis night we went to the bonfire and spent some time there

26. what time did you wake up today – 7 am but i slept in again and got at 11:20 

27. what were you doing at midnight last night – reading or sleeping, i don’t know for sure

28. what is something you can’t wait for – vacation with my family and the summer holidays in general (school was … much in the last weeks.)

30. what are you listening to right now – the sound of me slamming my fingers on my laptop’s keyboard while writing this lol

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom – i did, in fact to more than one

32. something that gets on your nerves – that i have to go to school for one more year (i hate this place wholeheartedly) but i don’t know what to do with my life after graduating 

33. most visited website - tumblr and youtube

34. hair color – my natural hair colour is brown but i dye it ginger red and i love it

35. long or short hair – pretty long actually, but i have curls so it’s pretty hard to notice how long 

36. do you have a crush on someone -  if we ignore my celebrity crushes then … i don’t know…probably no. i’m not sure about this one boy though but…yeah, i don’t really know him that well and i probably only like the idea i have of how he could be. (this is btw so typical for me xD)

37. what do you like about yourself – don’t get me wrong, i know it sounds tragical and sad, but i don’t have something i like 100% about myself. i am used to it though because i’ve been this way since forever, having high standards for me (and for others probably too, which is very unfair from me) but the closest to 100% is my talent for music.     

38. want any piercings? – only at my ears

39. blood type – A positive

40. nicknames – the most common nickname for my name is Selmi but hardly anyone except for my mom and my sister calls me like that anymore. other than that i have the feeling my friends and i don’t have nicknames but more like pet names for each other. like, i was called “Flauschebausch” (in english “Fluffpuff”) not that long ago (it referred to my hair). i would also count “squirrel”, “the stars” and all that stuff as nicknames but we don’t really call each other often like that in person xD     

41. relationship status - single 

42. zodiac - Taurus (but most of the stuff people say about tauruses are not 100% true for me)

43. pronouns - she/her

44. fave tv shows – lately i finished Game Of Thrones and i liked it so damn much, especially the ending (i really don’t get why it was so hated, but i’ll not explain further - i don’t want to write an essay here xD). i also enjoy watching Gilmore Girls from time to time, but hardly anyone in my generation knows it. and since i read it at @kafkascupcake ‘s post for this tag i just remembered how much i liked Memories of the Alhambra too (gosh, how i waited for every episode to air … i still remember this impatient feeling so well)

45. tattoos – i’m not allowed to have any yet but i’m thinking about getting smaller ones later since i think tattoos are pretty. buuuuut i’m also afraid because i can’t really imagine the pain

46. right or left handed - right

47. ever had surgery – yeah. unspectecular story tho.

48. piercings - only earrings but one of my friends and i plan on getting helix piercings soon (originally this was planned to be done before last christmas but we never found time)

49. sport – no no no no no. i hate it. i always did. i did some horse riding in my childhood but that’s it. i’m just not able to coordinate my body so a fail at basically every kind of sport. and i am easily frustrated when i fail at something so i never really tried to ace sports.  

50. vacation – my last vacation was when i visited Berlin with my two best friends and m next vacation will be in Denmark with my family

51. trainers – Converse Chucks, always and forever

more general

52. eating – i used to be a very picky eater but it gets better with every year. lately i really like spicy food. but i also have a terrible sweet tooth. i am surprised how i am still like super slim …

53. drinking – a trait i inherited from my dad: i love milk. but i also like juices, tea, coffee (with milk ofc xD) and plain water too

54. i’m about to watch – Avengers Endgame. like today. in 2 hrs.

55. waiting for – my train ride to the next bigger city for seeing endgame. and for me getting an idea what i want to do with my life

56. want – to travel and to make music. my two passions

57. get married – i don’t think it’s necessary for a happy relationship but it depends on the person. to be honest, i like the thought of getting married but i totally understand if someone doesn’t like it.

58. career – the biggest question mark in my life rn

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - hugs. i can’t even explain why. but hugs.

60. lips or eyes - i thinj i look at the eyes first. but i am damned if a person has beautiful lips too

61. shorter or taller – taller

62. older or younger - not important

63. nice arms or stomach – yeah ofc stomachs are great. but let’s be real here: i’m a swooning bitch for nice arms.

64. hookup or relationship – relationship. i am a hopeless romantic

65. troublemaker or hesitant - i am an overthinker, which makes me the epitome of hesitant.

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger – never kissed anyone lol

67. drank hard liquor – only mixed with juice

68. lost glasses - yeah. wasn’t cool.bc without glasses i am literally blind

69. turned someone down - kind of.

70. sex on first date - no

71. broken someone’s heart – i hope not.

72. had your heart broken – yip. my first heavy crush was not that happy. but i am over it since the guy was and still is a jerk and i don’t even know why i fell for him anymore

73. been arrested - no

74. cried when someone died - yes

75. fallen for a friend – never

do you believe in

76. yourself – depends on the situation.

77. miracles - there are moments in which i do

78. love at first sight - yes

79. santa claus -  no

80. kiss on a first date – yeah.. i think itmight happen xD

81. angels - who knows? it would be great though.

other

82. best friend’s name - deer of the sun @swiftfeatherscorner and cat of the moon @fille-de-janvier xD i don’t know if they’d like to have their real names published here but here you ahve their tumblrs

83. eye color - i looked it up someday and it’s called glasz - a strange mix between green, blue and grey with some golden dots and marks. depends on the lightning which colour is stronger.

84. fave movie – impossible to tell.

85. fave actor – also impossible to tell. there are so many good actors in this world

i’m not even sure if 20 people will read this so i’ll just tag everyone who has time to answer 85 questions xD

[dreamtimesovereign]

So I did a thing.

I decided to type out a Servant sheet and dialogue for myself since I’ve had ideas buzzing around in my head for a while. And I basically spent all morning and half of my afternoon coming up with it. Because length and also because not everyone cares I will post it under a read more. I mainly did this for myself honestly, but if any of you guys like it too then that would make me happy. And if this inspires you to write something like it up for yourself please @ me in it so I can see.

Well here it is. And once again, thank you for putting up with my bullshit.

Class: Saber

Master: ???

True name: The Dreamer

Gender: Genderfluid, appears as female

Height/Weight: Fuck you, that’s my height and weight

Alignment: Chaotic Good

Alternate Classes: Caster, Ruler

 Strength: D

Endurance: D

Agility: B

Magic: Ex

Luck: A

Noble Phantasm: Ex

 Class Skills

Magic Resistance: B

Magic Resistance grants protection against magical effects. Differing from the Resistance effect that merely rejects Magical Energy, this ability cancels the spells altogether. Cancel spells with a chant below three verses. Even if targeted by High-Thaumaturgy and Greater Rituals, it is difficult for them to be affected.

 Riding: B

Riding is a Class Skill of Rider and Saber class Servants, denoting the ability to ride mounts and vehicles. Rider-class Servants will typically possess a high rank. It is said that dragon type mounts are an exception, requiring a different ability other than Riding. Most vehicles and animals can be handled with above average skill, even vehicles that did not exist in the time period one was alive in, for they are no exception. However, cannot ride the likes of Phantasmal Species such as Monstrous Beasts.

 Personal Skills

Bardic Inspiration: A

A skill that denotes how the words and actions of the bard have a sort of inspirational effect on those around them. Those around the Dreamer feel inspired to do great things, and will stop and nothing to achieve greatness. Strangely, it appears the luck also tends to side with those under the effects to Bardic Inspiration.

 Song of Rest: B

A song played in order to soothe wounds and heal those around the bard. It replicates the effects of a good night’s rest within the span of a single song, and can be played multiple times in a row to ensure that the companions of the Dreamer are well rested and able to give their best efforts.

 Countercharm: A

Another song that completely negates the effects of magical charms or curses. It cannot dispel magical based attacks, unless they too are grounded by charms and wards or something similar. It can however negate all forms of mental interference, remove any magical traps, and unlock any magical seal. Those who hear the song cannot be influenced by magic other than the spells of the bard who played the song.

 Noble Phantasms

Power Word – Legacy: Grandmaster of the College of Lore

Rank: Ex

Type: Anti-Party

The words of the bard carry power. They not only grant meaning, but they alter reality itself. This Noble Phantasm makes good use of that power. The Dreamer delivers an inspiring speech entirely in the magic words of the bard, proclaiming how her allies are destined for greatness and how they have the power to overcome any adversity. The passion of which the speech is delivered with the magical words of the bard can propel even the most mundane of people into becoming heroes of legend, letting them ascend to the Throne of Heroes itself!

Class: Saber

True Name: The Dreamer

Max HP: 12,000

Max Attack: 9,000

Attribute: Star

Traits: Weak to Enuma Elish, Sovereign, Riding, Dream, Female, Male, Memelord

Card Line-up: QAAAB

Active Skills:

Bardic Inspiration: A

Increases party Attack and Defense for three turns.

 Song of Rest: B

Increases party’s HP received from healing for three turns. Heals party’s HP. Grants HP regeneration to party for three turns.

 Countercharm: A

Removes party debuffs. Applies debuff immunity to party for three turns.

 Passive Skills:

 Magic Resistance: B

Increases own resistance to debuffs by 17.5%.

 Riding: B

Increases own Quick card performance by 8%.

 Noble Phantasm:

Power Word – Legacy: Grandmaster of the College of Lore

 Rank: Ex

 Classification: Anti-Party Noble Phantasm (Arts)

 Effect: Greatly restore Party HP. Charge party NP gauge 5% for 5 turns. Increase Party NP Gauge.

 Overcharge Effect: Increases the amount of NP Gauge gained.

  Biography

 Default:

 A strange girl calling herself a Saber despite having no sword and instead brandishing a cane. What’s more, she ignores her own Class, preferring her Class to be referred to as Bard. As she says, “It’s just simply more accurate.”

The Dreamer is actually just some random nerd from America who loved playing games and the world of fantasy. One of her favorite games was Dungeons and Dragons, and she considered the Bard class as her favorite. As a Servant now she appears as a reflection of her ideal self.

The Dreamer is now in their ideal form, as an actual bard, and with the power to help those who she truly cares about.

 Bond 1:

Height: Fuck you, that’s my height.

 Source: Real Life/Dungeons and Dragons

 Origin: I come from the Land of Memes and Dreams.

 Gender: Genderfluid

 Bond 2:

The Dreamer takes great pleasure in spending time with others. She’s the type of person who can see the good in anybody. This has led to some problematic situations involving some of the Alter Servants who don’t wish to put up with her existence or bullshit. The Dreamer still maintains though that they’re still working to help humanity, and that she will still support them.

 Bond 3:

The Dreamer simply wishes to witness an epic tale with a happy ending which she can immortalize and tell to future generations. She makes no secret of this, and does whatever she can to support her Master and fellow Servants and they try to reach this “Golden Ending.” Despite her frailty, The Dreamer will give it her all in order to see any quest through if it means making others happy.

 Bond 4:

Bardic Inspiration: A

The power of the Bard is to speak things into reality with words and song. While many would seek to use this ability to gain power over others, in general a bard uses it to benefit themselves and their allies. This doesn’t mean all bards are good people though, as several are not. Regardless of alignment however, the words of a bard carry weight that reality itself must bear.

 Song of Rest: B

The song actually physically replicates the effects of a good night’s rest. Cells will repair and rejuvenate, and fatigue will disappear entirely. The Dreamer goes on record saying that she wishes she had this skill in life “Because it would be amazing when I had deadlines.”

Countercharm: A

Countercharm reminds the Dreamer of a game she used to play with her friends in life. She has describes this as a “Blue” skill and occasionally refers to using it on something as “Force of Willing” it. Other terms she’s slipped up and used instead of the actual skills name include Cryptic Command, Counterspell, Void Shatter, Pact of Negation, Arcane Denial, Counterflux, Flusterstorm, and Counterbalance.

 Bond 5:

Power Word – Legacy: Grandmaster of the College of Lore

The Dreamer’s wishes and the power of the bard together in one Noble Phantasm. It is a crystallization of hope itself. The speech that the Dreamer gives is enough to inspire anyone to become a legendary hero. It’s the perfect reflection of the Dreamer’s wish to bring out the best in everyone.

So that their stories may have a happy ending, the Dreamer will give everything.

 Dialogue

 Summoned: Wazzap? I’m new here so please take good care of me. In return I’ll take good care of everyone.

 Level Up: Feels good man.

 Ascension 1: Thank you very much. Now I’ll be able to help you all more.

 Ascension 2: Oh again? You really must like me. It’s ok, I like you too.

 Ascension 3: I promise that everything you’ve done for me will be repaid. It’s only natural for me to care about my friends right?

 Ascension 4: Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I swear that your story will be forever immortalized. Guess I’ll be seeing you on the Throne of Heroes soon too!

  Battle

 Battle Start 1: Alright, let’s go.

 Battle Start 2: Fight me irl.

 Skill 1: Do it! Just do it!

 Skill 2: NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!!!

 Attack Card 1: Drop the bass.

 Attack Card 2: I’m a motherfucking meme machine.

 Attack Card 3: DO YOU UNDERSTAND?

 NP Card 1: Don’t let your dreams be dreams.

 NP Card 2: Your drill is the drill that will pierce the heavens!

 Attack 1: -loud dubstep noises-

 Attack 2: Eat it!

 Attack 3: Yea- no.

 Extra Attack: Omae wa mo shindeiru.

 Noble Phantasm: Even if you cannot believe in yourself, then just believe in me. Because I believe in you! Believe in the me who believes in you!!!!

YOUR STORY WILL NEVER DIE!!!!!!!!

 NP Damage: That really –bass drop- ing hurt!

 Normal Damage: Frig!

 Defeated 1: Please…  Don’t let it end here…

 Defeated 2: Don’t let my story… Be forgotten…

 Battle Finish 1: Like a boss!

 Battle Finish 2: Yet another chapter in our never-ending story.

 My Room

 Dialogue 1: Yo friend! We should play some games together sometime. I can DM!

 Dialogue 2: So what do you enjoy? Please give me the details. It can help add to your character after all.

 Dialogue 3: We should all hang out more! Like, we’ve all saved the world so many times! We should all just plan a festival or something and take a day off. Everyone in Chaldea can join in too! The more the merrier!

 Dialogue 4 (if you have Tomoe): That Inferno Archer really loves her games. It’s great to have someone else to talk about them and play them with! Hopefully I can get her into tabletop games too…

 Dialogue 5 (if you have Jack): Jack is my younger sister and I am officially adopting the -bass drop- out of her now. I will protect her, cherish her, and love her like she was my blood sister. I refuse to let her story have such a sad ending, and I will give her the -bass drop- ing happy ending that she flipping needs!

 Something you like: Only the finer things in life. Gaming, Lovecraft, dank memes, and music.

 Something you hate: Unreasonable people, and toxic ones too. They’re nothing but an obstacle as far as I’m concerned.

 About the Holy Grail: All I want is for everyone to be happy. Achieving the “Golden Ending” for everyone is my dream.

 Event: Come on! There’s not much time! We need to enjoy this to the fullest while it lasts!

 Birthday: Happy birthday yo! I’ve written a song for you, would you like to hear it?

 Bond Dialogue

 Bond 1: And so the story of our friendship begins. Who knows what twists and turns may lay ahead? To find out, tune in for the next episode!

 Bond 2: Looks like I lucked out with the Master I got!

 Bond 3: Our story is quickly becoming one of my favorites. Keep up the good work!

 Bond 4: You’re an amazing person! Just, you’re so amazing! And more people should just tell you how amazing you are!

 Bond 5: I’m so happy that my favorite story is one that I’ve lived in, and am still living in right now. I’m going to enjoy these precious moments, and then recount them for all time! Thank you! For everything!

[syubnrg]

Tagged by @w00nkiee thanks!!!

1. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

Yeah, i’d like to think so but i’m really bad at communicating what's on my mind or how i feel so there’s sometimes tension but *shrug*

 2. Who did you last say “i love you” to?

Prob @hongbombs which was like a few days ago lol. i don’t really tell people that i love them on a day to day

3. Do you regret anything?

I try not too, but that’s too idealistic.

4. Are you insecure?

WHOOO boi u bet

5. What’s your relationship status?

Nonexistent

6. How do you want to die?

I don’t, and will not die. My meme powers will keep me strong

7. What did you last eat?

Cereal, shout out to tony the tiger one time

8. Played any sports?

No but i’m really good at soccer, volleyball and badminton

9. Do you bite your nails?

No, i used to when i was younger.

10. When was your last physical fight?

Never been in one

11. Do you like someone?

Irl no, but obviously yoongi lmao

12. Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

Yep all the time in highschool, now a days not so much

13. Do you hate anyone at the moment?

*opens up notes on my phone* lets see, yes.

14. Do you miss someone?

Yeah my friends

15. Have any pets?

SADLY NO, I CRY EVERY TIME I REALISE I DON’T.

16. How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

Stressed

17. Ever made out in the bathroom?

No

18. Are you scared of spiders?

Not really except when run towards you

19. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

You bet!

20. Where was the last place you snogged someone?

Never kissed anyone *shrug*

21. What are your plans for this weekend?

Try to finish my art projects and play sims because it’s been a hot minute.

22. Do you want to have kids? How many?

Part of me doesn’t but the other part of me does…it also depends on my situation and who i’m with at the time……. Maybe one day, i’d like either 2 or 3 kids

23. Do you have piercings? How many?

I just have my lobes pierced, i want to get more tho.

24. What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

Math and art. I was also pretty good at chemistry.

25. Do you miss anyone from your past?

*thinks about this one guy* HA NOPE! *dabs aggressively*  

26. What are you craving right now?

Fritos

27. Have you ever broken someone’s, heart?

Idk

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

No

29. Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

No

30. What’s irritating you right now?

Nothing

31. Does somebody love you?

Idk

32. What is your favorite color?

Pink

33. Do you have trust issues?

I’m a walking contradiction and lemme tell you why, i’m a cynic but also believe in giving people a chance…. So i have trust issues, but *in a high pitch voice* i’ll trust you a lil until you give me a reason not to

34. who /what was your last dream about?

Whew look my last dream was freaking wild!!!!!!! It had to do with bts but i only remember bits of it. I don’t know whether to tell it here or make a linked post cause it's pretty long… 

if for whatever reason you want to read the dream: xxx

35. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Probably my sister lol i try not to cry in front of anyone because that’s embarrassing

36. Do you give out second chances too easily?

I guess this is similar to my answer for number 33 i believe people make mistakes and should be able to redeem themselves

37. Is it easier to forgive or forget?

There’s this quote i really love, and strongly believe, i don’t remember where I heard it but “The stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naive forgive and forget; the wise forgive but do not forget.” -Thomas Szasz.

38. Is this year the best year of your life?

I don’t any year since childhood is the best year of my life

39. How old were you when you had your first kiss?

Lol is this just revealing how sad i actually am? Haven’t kissed anyone goddamn

40. Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

No

41. Favorite food?

Hamburgers

42. Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Yes strongly

43. What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

Watched aquarium videos… i’ve fallen down a rabbit hole of people owning fish tanks… i’ve been really into people talking about keeping tanks i know lol this sounds so lame….

44. Is cheating ever okay?

No

45. Are you mean?

I don’t think so but *shrug*

46. How many people have you fist fought?

Zero

47. Do you believe in true love?

I used to but not anymore.

48. Favorite weather?

I stan the cold weather, but also cold in texas is like 50-40 degrees (Fahrenheit) so whatever that is everywhere else is my fave

49. Do you like the snow?

It’s only snowed like hard once in houston and i got to go home early because of it so fuck yeah i like the snow.

50. Do you wanna get married?

It depends on the person… cause honestly idk about all that….

51. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

I used to be like “oh no i don’t like that i’m not your baby” but honestly….. *smacks my lips* i stan

52. What makes you happy?

Honestly anything cute, animals, being alone, rainy days, bts, when my friends text me about fun facts

53. Would you change your name?

I used to want to in high school but now i honestly don’t care

54. Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

What?

55. Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you? What do you do?

If i liked him too, then i’d tell him… if i didn’t idk cause that seems like a stressful situation.

56. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

Yeah, i used too we don’t talk much anymore though since he moved out of state.

57. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

Prob some guy in my art class

58. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

One of my close friends

59. Do you believe in soulmates?

This prob contradicts if i believe in true love but i believe there's someone for everyone out there and if that falls under soulmates then yes

60. Is there anyone you would die for?

Yeah family, friends and obviously and as lame as this sounds but i’m so whipped, bts.

i tag @fleur-de-jinki @orayanno @1daehyun @hongbombs @kikiwantsfood @taelynn

[revivedxfighter]

☢ What fads/trends are you so over?

 I don’t know if this would be considered a trend, but I’ve been over it years ago. I admit: I used to be a weeb. It was a mad craze in sites I used to be active in. Started when I was about 14 when I first saw Hellsing. It ended when I was 19. It’s a phase that came and went. Unfortunately, some fads can live longer when there’s enough people obsessed over it.

So you know this thing called weebs? It’s short for weeaboo. I try to be nice to everyone, but the few cases like extreme weebs are an exception. This is because they obsess over nothing but anime. Like they…obsess over it. They talk in broken Japanese and think watching anime will be enough to teach them the language. They have the delusion that Japan is an anime paradise where it’s widely accepted. 

The reality is more harsh. Anime and manga are part of the otaku sub-culture. It’s not really mainstream and otakus/weebs are not really respected. In fact, being called that in Japan is a bad thing. Many weebs are teens, but I seen some in their 20′s and 30′s. That’s scary when you see fully grown adults think Japan is like the pearly gates. It’s like anime and manga only matters so there’s no priorities like work, family, etc.

I seen horror stories about how weebs freak out about things like yaoi, but get offended over real homosexual couples. For some odd reason, these people think that in anime is “kawaii” but heaven forbid that two people who love each other despite their gender be together. They would shriek and speak in tongues (broken Japanese) in public and not practice common hygiene.  Oh, and I just love how some think admitting you’re “a real otaku” to your family is like coming out to family. Because you know, declaring your sexual orientation or gender is nowhere as bad as admitting that fictional works from Japan are your obsession. 

Not all weebs are like this. Some actually take care of themselves and have responsibilities, etc.But that’s where some can get you. I met one guy who seem fine when I was in the Hellsing fandom. 

HE WAS NOT! 

He was not okay. He was not sound of mind. He would put me down, play stupid games with my feelings, and manipulating me to support him so he could wouldn’t have to work.  It caused friction to my family who are the people who care about me and love me for who I am. He never cared about me. I couldn’t be what he wanted and I shouldn’t have even tried. I know my friends here and irl would never hurt me for personal gain. He did and it wasn’t long until one of his friends pushed me and made me feel like trash. They were trashy guys who made me feel like I’m only good enough to be with guys like that. It’s not true, I deserve better. Maybe not all otakus are like that, but from my experiences and the stories I hear, I find it hard to believe.

He was far from that and I’m thankful I got away from him before it was too late. It was when I was planning to go to a con called Acen. Thank heavens I didn’t go. Even if I could afford to go, my dad wouldn’t have let me go on my own back then. I don’t know if I would even be here today after finding out what he has done. He’s not only creepy, but dangerous. I nearly fell into that trap. I don’t know if I would even be alive today. If he followed through his threats, then that would be the case. I’m glad I moved to another state and changed my phone number. I don’t know if it was true, but a few years ago, he came to my state and was looking for me. He was probably lying because I can’t imagine anyone driving hundreds of miles to do that. It was likely a scare tactic, but that just made him a major dick. 

This all started because I didn’t go to Acen and I got sick of being treated lke crap for not cosplaying, not doing lewd rps via text, and I hated that I got in the habit of saying nyah. He said that a lot and thought I would be great as a neko. My response to these requests: No. I wouldn’t watch and like the same anime as him. I didn’t like how he wanted it to be reali life. This man was sick. Very sick.

 What’s sad is I’m scared over a weeb who may still be looking and could hurt my family. I blocked him in Facebook years ago and I never looked back. I escaped, unlike  the girls before me. As far as I know, they’re alive but dealt with threats he sent relentlessly.I was never given extreme threats like rape and killing, but the girls after me did, and possibly a couple before me too. All I got was threats of being abandoned and that I am not good enough for him or for any other guy. He threatened to make my friends back then hate me.He made my family hurt over me and he said they’ll eventually leave me behind. I would be left alone.

 I don’t think he  knows my blogs here. I made them far after I ditched his sorry ass.  My hope he is not tracking my dad on Facebook to find their location. I could never tell him about why I freak out when he would post pics of me and my siblings. My hope if he has everything set as friends only and never accept a request from strangers, because one of these strangers could be the weeb.

It was especially creepy when I was told that being a lolita is for me. I was 18 back then, because of my height and my round face, I can be mistaken as a teen. I’m 25 now and can be mistaken for a 16 year old. That was the most common age people guessed me to be.  When I found out about how lolita started and among other things, I ran away like the Devil was after me. I had even a greater dislike over weebs. I should have ran away from people like him. I’m afraid I can’t say his name because I don’t know if I’ll be found or someone may try to get involved. These people will get hurt or worse. It’s not worth it. I left him and I don’t want anyone like my family, friends, and followers confront him. A few people like my sister know who he is. I don’t want her to confront him. She may get herself hurt and our location would be exposed.

Please keep in mind that people can like anime and manga without being creepy about it. You can love Japan’s culture and respect it, unlike what many weebs do. I like anime. It occasionally shows because I would put a couple keychains like the Sailor Moon one I have on my purse. I’m still a Sailor Moon fan, and I like a few other animes too, but I’m very casual about it.  I know there’s other things that are more important like school, work, my friends, and family. Many otakus don’t believe that. The obsession over Japan s an ongoing trend (at least I think it’s like a trend). I  don’t like it because not only it makes people have unhealthy obsessions, but it can make a few very dangerous. 

[todokori-kun]

I APOLOGIZE, QUEEN LUNA. PLEASE ALLOW ME TO BEG FOR YOUR FORGIVENESS-

(tbh the reason I don’t play them is because I don’t really play any kind of game XD I’ve played a few free things on the internet but other than that, not much)

OMG thanks for the link! I might try it out soon :D (And wow, Rumpel. Just, wow.)

WAIT, IS THAT LADY A DATEABLE CHARACTER

Urie/Saiko is so freaking adorable :3 and it’s the worst thing ever that it does have some canon evidence but Ishida keeps teasing us like: *gives some nice, cute Urie/Saiko material*

Fandom: AWWW is it gonna be canon? Are they actually gonna be happy for a while???

Ishida: *gives Mutsurie scene with Urie clearly pining over Mutsuki while Mutsuki’s just talking about Kaneki*

Fandom: …of course.

TYSM <333 I’ll get it to you as soon as I can :D

HxH is definitely a lot of fun! I’d like to recommend Hisoka’s character song (‘Kyousou requiem’) to you because W O W

I got to the part where Father’s ‘creating’ humans. That was freaky. Tbh though my favorite parts of this volume might have been Pride’s defeat and Kimblee’s farewell…that was perfect. I actually sorta like Kimblee now. Of course, I’d never want to meet him irl and he’s still a terrible person, but at least he never betrays his own beliefs.

(I know that Roy will get his eyesight back next volume so that’s good, but Greed’s…gonna die, isn’t he? Uuugh)

I have come to conquer you puny humans with the power of feels. Fear me.

Wait, does that mean you relate to Al or that you think I’m like Al? Sorry, got a bit confused there ^^;;

I’m Hohenheim minus his awesome moments. The bad social skills, the awkwardness, the way he honestly TRIES to be a nice, normal person even if it hardly ever works out…the more I see of him the more I feel like I’ve never related this much to a fictional character (except maybe Kaneki).

You really do remind me of Riza and Winry. The strength, the resolve, the wit and caring=100% Queen Luna.

Ed is frankly a little creeped out that the Colonel even thought that HE, Edward Elric, barely a teenager, could or would steal his girlfriend.

(I headcanon that Ed and Queen Luna are actually BFFs and team up to prank Roy.

Roy always feels so betrayed because whenever he’s doing something totally, not at all stupid, his girlfriend always sides with Fullmetal. “Luna, what did I do. Did I forget to do the dishes again. Was it the extremely cheesy and badly written explicit romance book I bought you on Valentines day. That was a joke, please forgive me”

Also he is extremely salty when he realizes you chose Water Alchemy as your specialty. He had enough of the constant rain jokes from Edward and Riza’s comments about him being useless on rainy days, and now this. The world is too cruel.

(But no matter how grumpy and passive-aggressive he gets when you beat him, of course he’s the proudest when you make good use of your skills. Like when you destroy an enemy in combat- especially if the enemy was underestimating you “That’s MY girlfriend, and she is amazing”))

Yeah, Air Alchemy could actually be one of the most dangerous types if you knew how to use it…Medicinal Alchemy/Alkahestry is still my thing though ^^

(‘peaceful’ do you know how I look when I play the piano and nobody’s around. Dude. That’s when I go rage mode and start playing the loudest, wildest songs ever like He’s a Pirate from Pirates of the Caribbean LOL)

That’s still adorable though omg ;-; the sad thing though is that it would be easy for him to not realize that I have anxiety and assume that I just didn’t like him, because like I said, I’d probably be ok with Mei and Yoki would be easy enough for me to talk to as well (people like Yoki either make me laugh or frustrate me and in the end I’d probably end up snapping at him). Then Queen Luna would come along and I’d suddenly become super talkative.

And when he walked into the room I’d either automatically shut up or give Queen Luna a look like “please take me out of here I don’t want to embarrass myself”.

(Would Queen Luna help me, though?)

Mei’s view of Ed is the ultimate Expectation vs. Reality.

Yep, I really want to know OC’s real name ;-; (I think I’d probably slip up and keep calling him Ciel for a while tho lol). And yeah, I’m looking forward to seeing what happens the next chapter…all this chapter really gave me was hints of insecurity from OC?

IT’S THE STAR SPANGLED MAN WITH A PLAN

Looking forward to your reaction :) (probably a lot of tears)

OMG that sounds so cool! Like, natural, 'ginger’ red or bright red? Either way I bet you’re gonna look amazing, Queen Luna <3

(P.S: You know I mentioned a piano recital? It’s not happening. There was an incident with the teachers at the place where I was learning piano so I don’t go there anymore.

Basically, my mom was already sort of frustrated, because they also teach violin there and my litle sister used to learn violin- the teacher told us we’d have to come way earlier for lessons because she was busy with other lessons too, so we did, but she was like literally never on time? We came early but my little sister had to have piano lessons first because the violin teacher didn’t show up until later. So there was that.

And then there was the thing where they just didn’t let us decide the lesson times at all? Like, always “we’re too busy at that time, that’s too early, too many children at that time…” and they were kinda rude about it too (also once I went there at a later time and there actually weren’t that many kids? Wth)

Then they sent my mom a message. You know how usually you have to study with music theory books too when you learn how to use an instrument? My little sister’s only five (turning six this August) and she was often tired out from soccer lessons by the time she went to piano, so my mom asked the teachers if she could just not do music theory when she was too tired. they agreed.

But the message was basically 'she keeps saying she doesn’t want to do music theory and when we let her rest she keeps wandering around and bothering other people/interrupting other people’s lessons’. Like, ok, if she’d been doing stuff like that since the beginning we could understand that, but I had piano lessons at around the same time as her and she literally just sat and read books when her lessons are over and she’s not doing music theory? Also, until that message all the teachers just kept telling us what a wonderful, intelligent student she was and there was literally no mention of her bothering anyone so it was like??? what is this???

And when my mom called the teacher and asked her about the message she was like “I don’t see how that’s rude, please stop being so pushy/bossy, also I was always on time for the violin lessons what are you talking about?” Just. Wow.

When we went to pick up our music books after mom said we weren’t going to take lessons there anymore, one of the teachers came out and kept gushing about how 'Evans and her sister were SUCH amazing students, we’ll be so sad to see them go’ and she hugged me? tbh it felt really awkward and I was screaming internally through the whole thing because WOW I hate being touched by people I’m not close with lol)

*ahem* before anything: If I ever hear you say another word about your art being bad, I swear I’ll throw myself out of the window. Because it’s actually adorable?? I cry?? Touka’s hair truly looks fluffy and I LOVE the way you drew her lips. So, please, have faith in yourself, your art is absolutely gorgeous! 

Well, Otome games aren’t for everyone, tbh. I have a friend who gets easily embarrassed and she honestly can’t play them because… well, gets embarrassed at them. You should’ve seen her face when I first showed her the games, especially when the flirting began XD

I have finished the whole game. (No, you can’t date her T_T) All the endings, good and bad. 10 of them. My heart is in pieces. I wanna cry.  OKAY SMOL BRIEFING ON THE REMAINING CHARACTERS!

This is Fritz! He’s MC’s personal knight and a professional cinnamon roll. His route honestly made me so emotional (;﹏;) Not as emotional as the last one, though. He’s my 3rd favourite of the 5! His bad end was the worst of them all, though. I actually started crying. It was 1am when I did it. I wonder what my mom would’ve said if she’d seen me, at 1am, crying over a fictional character.

And last but (definitely) not least, my fave <3

Waltz- he has the Neverland curse, which means he remains as a boy until it’s broken.

This is after he breaks it. Damn. Other than the fact that his story is a trope I really love, he’s also a generally nice person, with a personality better than most of the dateable character. Also, his route is considered to be the ‘True’ route, the one you’re supposed to play last, because it has most spoilers.  I cry.

Okok, enough with ‘Luna reviews Otome Games’

And then you realise they meant it in the ‘conceal yourself’ way, not HIdeyoshi.Fuck.

Well, the Urie/Saiko was cute? BUT THAT’S IT?? Where’s the dramatic reveal? The confession =3= ((Luna is forgetting that this isn’t a romance manga))

Ishida is giving us mixed signals. 

Yeah, Kimblee’s farewell does make you wanna respect him. At least he didn’t try to be someone else. Pride was cute, tho. He was a demon who’d kill without a second thought, but he was a cute demon.

Yep, Roy does see again. …. Aha. I cry. But at least he dies heroically? 

I’m gonna get a stronger flask. That way you’ll never be able to escape muhahahahahhahaha

You’re like Al! Absolutely adorable!

Yet, badass at the same time!

Well, at least you’re not as insane as Kaneki? You definitely have more mental stability than him.

Honestly, if I was at the age where it’s socially acceptable to date Mustang, then I’m definitely not at the age when it’s socially acceptable to date Ed, and vice-versa. It’s ridiculous how he feels threatened by a kid XD On the other hand, there is a Xingese prince, now emperor ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Honestly, we’d prank him so much XD I’m pretty sure it’d mostly involve water. And rainy days.  Maybe his umbrella would conveniently disappear during those days. Or his hair would accidentally turn pink. Whoops.  Who knows, maybe I partly chose Water Alchemy to spite him XD

I think Medicinal Alchemy would be very, very appreciated in Amestris, especially considering there is none of it there. You’d be able to make mad money hahah But you’d also help a lot of people, so that’s admirable as well ^^

… Let’s pretend you were inspired to play a song that was peaceful for once and you’re feeling the peace. So you surprise him some other night by playing something he definitely didn’t expect

That’s why I’m there to help you! To show him that you just need a bit of time to warm up to people and maybe whisper a few hints to how to get you to warm up into his ear! So he realises you’re only a bit intimidated, and tries to lessen that effect.  I’d also ask Mei to help you. Probably offering something related to Al in return XD

Yeah, he’s definitely insecure. I mean, he didn’t say a single thing back and he calls himself a spare. That’s depressing. I just want him to be happy. After all the suffering he went through, he deserves it.

Is... is it cap?

I’m scared. But then again, I’m always scared when you recommend me something.

I think it’s supposed to be flame red? But since I have naturally darker hair, it’s possible that it’ll be more ginger-ish, because the dye won’t be so visible. Who knows, we’ll see ^^

Whaa?? That all seems really, really uncomfortable, especially the hugging. I mean, why. They really seem two-faced. But, maybe it’s for the best. At least now you don’t have to worry about freezing up during the recital? Will you continue playing the piano, though? It’d be a shame if you let the skills go to waste. You can always practice with anime music/songs you like if Bach and Mozart get boring :P

[deaky-disco-queen]

For the writers' ask! ink, pen and paper, journal, novella, pulitzer, genre, narrator, backstory, time-lapse, characterization, carnegie, faulkner, o’connor, dickinson, playlist, record, nobel, notepad, parchment, dedication, trope, input, critic, mifflin, houghton!!!!!!!! (i love ya)

Holy- okay here we go: 

(love ya too)

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Ink: What do you do to “Set the mood” when writing? 

I usually don’t set the mood, only when I write very specific things like horror (which I don’t do often) but to get me in the writing mood, I usually just make sure I have a drink nearby and set youtube on auto-run.

Pen and paper: Do you prefer writing by hand or on a device? Why? 

Device definitely. I mostly write on my laptop, sometimes on my phone simply because it’s not as messy as my written notes and I do not have to transkript everything which saves me time and work. 

journal: Do you ever write just so you can enjoy something to read? 

Most of the things I write are purely self-indulgent because I want to read something but haven’t found anything like it before so yes, absolutely. 

novella: Do you prefer to write short stories, one shots or entire novels?

I like one-shots the most probably because it’s very contained and easier to keep track on what you’re doing and where you are going with it. I would like to rite longer pieces, though, too. 

pulitzer: Tell about/Link a piece where you felt your writing was the best

From the ones I published it was probably either Bubbles or And We Can Have Forever which I like the most speaking of my writing. There is a very old thing in my drafts where I thought my writing peaked but I haven’t compared it with those pieces yet so maybe that changed. 

genre: what genre do you prefer to write in? 

My true passion are fantasy and science fiction but I haven’t written a lot for it honestly because it’s very intimidating and I just didn’t find the time for it yet. 

narrator: What pov do you like writing in best? 

Third person, limited. It’s just more fun to me than anything else. I tried first person a couple of times but it just… didn’t really work with me. 

backstory: How did you come to love writing? 

The first things I ever remember writing were little stories I made up about my sisters’ and my plushies which was really fun and I enjoyed creative writing practices in school and that’s probably why. I used to make up lots of stories as a kid and it the next logical step was just writing them down. 

time-lapse: How long have you been writing (as a hobby or for work)? 

For about thirteen years, give or take a few. There were some phases I wasn’t writing a lot and read more but at least since age twelve I would say I actively started to see it as a hobby but I started around seven/eight years old. 

characterization: describe your favorite character(s) you’ve written. 

My favorite character to write is honestly Clint Barton from Marvel, I have no idea why but the combination of high-skills with absolute disaster is so much fun to me. 

carnegie: What authors and/or books/stories have inspired you to write or influenced your work?

I’d say Matt Haig inspired me a lot, especially The Humans by him. Other than that, as cliché as it is: Lord Of The Rings because I love fantasy as well as Trudi Canavan and Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett. They just combine a lot of things I love in different ways. 

faulkner What tropes do you Love writing? Which ones are your guilty pleasure? 

I adore the found family trope. There is nothing better than a bunch of people figuring out how to work with each other and realizing they happen to like each other for whatever reason. My absolute favorite is when it’s between a kid/baby and someone you wouldn’t trust to take care of a child. Roadtrips are a perfect trope and you cannot convince me otherwise. Friends to lovers/enemies to lovers is always a strong contender along with mutual pining. I love it. 

My absolute guilty pleasure are Daemon AUs, Mermaid AUs and everything to do with Dark Fantasy.

oconnor: What tropes/genres do you dislike writing?

I don’t like writing Highschool AUs. Maybe it’s because I don’t know how american highschools work or simply because I never had a really interesting time at my “Highschool” It’s just not super fun to me. Of course there are exceptions but I am probably the last one to write them for the fun of it. 

I also dislike writing illness plots like  The Fault In Our Stars or any book in this direction. 

dickinson: hat insecurities do you have in your own writing? What do you think you should improve on? 

English is probably my number one insecurity. I’d like to think I have a pretty good grasp on the language but still, I don’t think it is as good as it could be. 

I think I rely too heavily on dialogue to move my stories along and should work on filling the space in between and probably work out scenes a little better. I do think I spent too much time describing characters sometimes. 

playlist: What kind of music/songs help you write? Do you have a writing playlist?

I do not listen to a lot of music when writing, I prefer listening to podcasts or Let’s Plays most of the time. I do have a playlist for the BDSM Club AU though that I made up on a whim.

record: Have you written things based off songs? Do you like to?

I haven’t so far, honestly but maybe one day. I made up stories for random song lyrics, though. 

nobel: Have you published anything you’ve written? Online or irl?

Well, I have published several things on ao3 but I also published a couple of poems I’ve written for a creative writing class during school.

notepad: Can you write anywhere or do have to be in a specific place and mood to write? 

I can generally write anywhere. I’ve written on trains, in cars, while my friends watch movies I am only half-interested in. It doesn’t really matter where I am, honestly. I do have to be in a halfway decent mood though. I don’t have the nerve to write when angry. It works when I’m sad. 

parchment: How often do you or your personal life influence your writing? 

A lot. Either it is something I really enjoy (see the Buzzfeed Unsolved AU) or just little things like I give a character a pretty ring I’ve seen, a blanket I really like or an outfit I enjoy. But that’s mostly the expanse of it. I do tend to come up with new AUs whenever I go to the cinema/read something/play a game or anything. So in that way, it influences my writing a lot. 

dedication: If you were to publish a book or multiple, ho would you dedicate the book(s) to? 

My sister. 

trope: What’s a pet peeve you have about writing? 

I can’t really think of any. Maybe unnecessary/forced love triangles? But I guess that’s more of a trope. 

input: What’s something you hate that people say to you about writing/your writing? 

Honestly, not many say anything about it so I don’t really have anything I hate. 

critic: What’s the best piece of advice you’ve ever received about writing? 

That was probably my friend telling me to write whatever I want and not care about what others want from my writing. 

mifflin: What do you feel is your strong suit in writing? 

Probably dialogue? I like to think I’m pretty good at writing fluffy smut, too. 

houghton: What’s something you love that people compliment your pieces on? 

Realism, I guess. I like it when people tell me it feels like something that somebody could actually say or do in that situation. 

[datingadviceonreddit]

This is long, you have been warned. Let me tell you a long winded story/rant. Not too long ago I was a kissless virgin going to any length to change that as soon as possible. Came across my now ex on tinder while I was screenshotting every girl within ~60 miles of me who had posted her snapchat name. Out of what must have been at least 150 girls, 2 didn't ghost, block me after seeing my face, or outright ignore me and one of the two was a mild catfish. So I actually happen to really connect with my now ex and things are going well. We learn about each other and she decides not to pursue me for several reasons including lingering feeling for her ex and a fear of ruining my innocence. So I move on while remaining friends with her. Luckily for me, the very next girl I pursued turned out to be super into me and I got lucky because I genuinely fell for her (not just because she's hot). So we dated for a bit before I learned she had been less than truthful in our relationship. All the while I had been raving about how awesome this girl was to my new friend who seemed genuinely happy for me. Well when the relationship ended I was heartbroken and it took me something like 4 months to finally get over it. During that time, my friend grew fonder for me between failed stints with guys and was vocal about her dislike for my first ex. I kept putting her off because I was afraid I wouldn't be attracted to her if we met irl. I was probably too honest in explaining this to her, but she persisted anyways. Finally I caved and went on a date with her. It went well. I enjoyed spending the time with her too. As we became more intimate though, I learned about the things in her life that were less than ideal. One of her stints had her change her mind about sex partway through and she didn't do anything to let him know or to stop it. (She considers this rape.) Her family wasn't particularly well off and after spoiling her older sister, they had to choose between having retirement money and sending my then gf to college. She refused and just got a crappy job she hated. I also found out that she self harmed in a relatively mild fashion compared to others I have seen. So after a while, I realized that she wasn't a happy person and any attempt to help her become happier was met with a defeatist attitude and anger towards me. She told me her previous bf actually stopped trying in her relationship because he said she wanted to not be happy. I learned how true that was. She was extremely jealous of my 1 ex who I talked to very occasionally, she was always critical of what I said or did and if it didn't match her unrealistic expectation I was being an asshole, and any attempt at criticizing her even if it was just showing her that my feelings were hurt by what she did she would threaten to hurt herself whenever we had to part. To go into detail about some instances, she once told me immediately after sex that I had a smaller dick than other guys she had been with (I'm average btw). I didn't appreciate that comment at all so I refused to talk to her for the next several minutes. She said she meant that it wasn't a problem that I was smaller, but in truth she had made me feel like an inadequate lover when in reality I did more for her sexually in terms of things you can help than any guy previously had, and a simple sorry wasn't going to fix it. So she threatens to leave and go home and punish herself for saying it. Now because I cared about her so much, I pretended to not be bothered by her insensitive comment. The other issues that came up was her double standard for me and herself. She would say constantly that she wasn't used to someone going to all the effort for her like I was, but she would also expect me to go further and further. We only had sex the way she liked it, I would sacrifice hours of sleep (during college) to try calming her down after she got it in her head that I just wanted her to be the girl I dated before her, and she ended up sending nude photos of herself to a guy she admitted having incredibly strong feelings for even though she didn't trust me occasionally talking to my ex. Basically I was in a trap where I had two options. I had to either struggle immensely to keep her on the edge of happiness or I could just stop trying like I found out all her other exes did. I was afraid to break her heart by outright dumping her because I didn't know if she might hurt herself or worse. There was one night that I was at her house and she suddenly clung to me and started crying profusely and never explained why so I knew she could flip emotionally on a dime. So I just stopped trying. She got mad one night and I just let her go. No trying to fix it. No nothing. She got it in her head that I was devastated to lose her when the truth was that I finally felt relieved and relaxed for the first time since our relationship really took off. As was precedented, I still kept in touch with her because we had been good friends. She however acted as if I was still desperately trying to win her back and would tell me I needed to back off. Now she hates me and likens me to the guy who "raped" her because I told her that I'm still interested in her every way except dating. Moral of the story, don't date someone who isn't happy. & if you're not happy, please prioritize getting help and fixing that before dating because you might accidentally fuck with someone's head undeservedly.tl;dr People who make victimhood a major part of who they are and/or are unhappy and comfortable that way will manipulate you into making you think you treated them much worse than you did and/or will blame you for their unhappiness. via /r/dating_advice